Eraser
in
his mind First love, old love, new love
First love called me and said that my son and his daughter were minors in a hotel.
I hurried to the scene.
He raised his eyebrows. “Are you married?”
I rolled my eyes. “None of your business.”
“I heard your son say you’re a single mother.” His smile stayed the same. “I don’t mind.”
I
The little nephew smirked and winked.
I took a deep breath-you’re going to die, aren’t you!
Beautiful weekend, three poles on the day.
A strange phone call woke me up.
“Hello, do you know Li Tzu-ning from Class 2 and 3?”
A cold male voice came from the other end of the phone.
Li Zining is my nephew.
This guy makes me wipe his ass every time he gets into trouble.
“Yes, I’m his mother. What can I do for you?”
The other end was silent for a few seconds, as if breathing had stopped.
It was a long time before he said again, “You … …” My son and I.. When my daughter checked in, I happened to catch her.
“If it’s convenient for you, please come to the Forest Hotel now.”
Get a room!
Damn it, Li Zining, you are going to die.
I immediately got up, cleaned up, made up at one go, stepped on small high heels, and did not forget to wear sunglasses to cover my face.
As soon as I entered the lobby, I saw a familiar figure.
His posture was tall and straight, the cuffs of his black shirt were half-broken, revealing a large area of cold white skin, and a pair of strong and slender legs were wrapped under his straight black trousers. Standing
next to two dejected primary school chickens.
He turned his face slowly, and there was a trademark lachrymal mole at the end of his narrow eye.
Shit! Lu Lin Shen! What’s
he doing here? When did
he come back?
No, he has such a big daughter? Just as
I was about to slip away, Lu Linshen strode forward. The
warm and cool voice pierced my eardrum: “Are you Li Zining’s classmate’s mother?”
I held my sunglasses hurriedly and raised my voice: “Who is Li Zining?”? You have mistaken me for someone else. I’m sorry for my
nephew. I had to run away when I met my
ex.
Lulin grabbed my wrist quickly with deep eyes and took out his cell phone with the other hand to make a phone call.
I realized something and scrambled to turn off the mute.
He stared at me with a half-smile.
Shit. Confess without a fight.
Four people are sitting in the box of the Forest Hotel.
I have to say that my nephew’s abacus is very good, and he can go upstairs after eating and drinking enough.
I glanced at Li Tzu-ning and decided to teach him a lesson: “Li Tzu-ning, what’s the matter with you, bringing someone to a place like this for a date?”
Li Zining looked up at me, but his hand was still holding the deer tightly.
“Little..” The word “aunt” has not been spoken yet.
“Call Mom!” I interrupted with a shout.
Li Zining was a clever boy and compromised on the spot.
「…… Mom, I just asked Miao-miao over for lunch, and I ran into Uncle Lu.
Yes, that’s it, who knows by me … Dad misunderstood. Lu Miaomiao also raised his head to explain.
I glanced at Lulin again through my sunglasses.
He kept staring at me thoughtfully.
I’m so wrapped up, he won’t recognize me, will he?
When I was nervous about whether I was recognized or not, Lu Linshen got up and changed his seat.
Sitting next to me. The
magnetic voice tickled my ears like a feather.
“Mother Li, why don’t you take off your sunglasses when you’re indoors?” Afraid of being recognized by you,
of course.
“I have a disease, and my eyes cannot see the bright light.” I lied with my eyes open.
“Oh.” Lu Linshen looked away, tapped his fingers on the table, and casually asked, “What’s the name of Li’s mother?”
“I..” I want to make one up.
“Her surname is Wen, and I have heard of her.” Li Zining suddenly answered for me.
「……」
You are so talkative.
Lu Linshen chuckled and poured me a cup of tea. “What a coincidence! I have a friend whose surname is Wen.”
I took a sip of tea. “Really? That’s a coincidence.”
Li Zining and Lu Miaomiao looked at us doubtfully.
“Wen Hsi, take off your sunglasses.”
Lu Linshen was caught off guard and scared me to pour tea on his pants.
Lu Linshen recognized me.
He raised his eyebrows and said, “Wen Hsi, are you married?”
I rolled my eyes. “None of your business.”
“Listen to your son. You’re a single mother.” His smile stays the same. “I don’t mind.”
I
Li Zining, your skin is itching again, isn’t it! Seeing that the wind direction was not right, the
two children ran out hand in hand. There are only two of us left in the
box.
Lu Linshen picked up the paper towel on the table and slowly wiped my wet trousers. That’s
the hand, shaking like Parkinson’s.
“If not, I’ll help you.”
Lu Lin looked at me deeply, and his eyes were like a deep pool.
He did not refuse, handed me the tissue, I was about to reach out to take, the top of my head sounded a sentence.
“Does your husband know that we are like this?”
“Huh?” I’m a little confused. Where did
I get a husband?
Wait, I think I smell tea. “Hey, it’s only exciting that he doesn’t know,”
I thought.
Lu Linshen’s face suddenly changed, and his eyes were cold bit by bit, strangling my thin wrist in midair.
“Go upstairs.”
I almost lost my temper. It’s a hotel
upstairs. Help.
He took out his room card, opened the door and threw me into the room.
“How come someone who attacked me back then is afraid now?” As soon as he closed the door, he opened his mouth jokingly as he unbuttoned it.
「……」
I huddled silently in the corner of the sofa, my toes tensed.
Lu Linshen’s shirt was half faded, revealing a large area of cold white skin on his chest, and his whole body was covered with a thin layer of red.
He took my right hand and looked at it quietly for a few seconds, the smile on his lips frozen on his face. Ring marks on the ring finger
.. Are you really married?
I want to swear to God that I am not married.
But all he blurted out was, “That’s right, divorced and married.”
Seeing my choking voice, Lu Linshen’s pupils trembled and his wrist unconsciously exerted its strength, which made my tears almost fall down.
I took a painful greeting: “Lu Lin Shen, are you sick?”
Hearing this, Lu Linshen’s eyes returned to the clear and bright. He stepped back a few steps and pulled away from me.
“Sorry, I hurt you.”
「……」
I was embarrassed and didn’t know how to answer the phone when it rang at the right time.
“Auntie, grandma wants me to ask you if you’ll come home for dinner tonight.”
Li Zining’s Drake voice rang through the room, and I rolled my eyes. What’s the matter with this
kid?
“Where will I eat if I don’t go home?” The other end of the
phone didn’t answer the question.
“Oh, you have something to do tonight, so I’ll ask grandma to help you turn down the blind date.”
「！」
As soon as I hung up the phone, there was a cold wind behind me, and something was wrong.
“Blind date?” Lu Linshen folded his arms and bent over me, staring faintly at me, who felt extremely guilty at the moment. “Aren’t you getting married again? Are you playing like this?”
「……」
I cleared my throat and bravely said, “Ahem, what do you know? My husband never cares about me.”
He glanced questioningly at the ring mark on my ring finger. “This is the ring you gave me the year you left. The size is too small and it’s very stuck..”
I muttered. Never mind, you must have forgotten. As expected,
Lu Linshen was stunned, as if he had thought for a long time and died, and finally smiled apologetically. Once again,
I felt sour in my heart. I picked up my cell phone and walked around him. “I said,” Anyway, you always have a bad memory. ”
He’ll forget he ever gave me a ring.
He also forgot to tell me that he would go abroad tomorrow. The
ring was given by Lu Linshen when he broke up with me. When I was
5 years old, Lu Linshen and I ran crazily in the kindergarten. When we were tired, we sat down to play with mud, pinched a puppy and a pig, and fought with each other. I cried so much when
my little pig had two legs knocked off.
“Can you give in to me, straight man?”
He squatted down to wipe my tears and gave me more than a dozen pigs in one night. The teacher was dumbfounded. When I was
11 years old, we were supposed to be deskmates. On the way home from school, a boy handed me a love letter, which was confiscated by him before I could open it.
“Wen Hsi, if you dare to have puppy love, I’ll tell your mother.”
The next day there was a new love letter in my desk drawer.
It’s not signed, but I know who it is. At the age of
18, he was admitted to Peking University, and I was admitted to Nanjing University, thousands of miles apart, and the bullet train ticket was a week’s living expenses.
It was a very cold winter with a foot of snow.
At that time, “You Who Came from the Star” was popular all over the Internet. The girls imitated Chon Song-yi’s appearance one after another, sliding in the snow, while the boy protected her from behind. After falling down together, they hugged her and confessed loudly.
Surrounded by noisy voices, I looked at the opposite you Nong and I Nong lovers, suddenly very much like the deer forest.
I hesitated to dial the phone. Is it snowing
in the north? Is it raining heavily? What
are you doing? Have you met anything happy? After a
long time of rambling, I bit my lip and tears welled up in my eyes.
In fact, what I want to say most is “I miss you.”.
But how dare he hear it? Just as
his nose was getting sore, he suddenly heard a voice behind him: “Wen Xi, turn around.”
He came out of the ice and embraced me with the wind and snow. The weather is ten degrees
below zero, but it makes my heart tremble.
I thought we would finally come to the end of the fairy tale, so when I learned that he was going abroad and had no return date, I cried without dignity.
“You’re just telling me about the 8 o’clock flight tomorrow morning!”
Lulin’s dark gray hoodie was covered with my snot and tears. He smiled bitterly and said huskily, “I forgot.”
“Forget?”
For a moment, I suspected he was lying to me.
「…… Can you forget such an important thing? Lu Linshen, I am in your heart in the end. What is it? Am I so insignificant compared to your studies and your future? He was silent for a long time
that night, and finally he just nodded.
“You’re right.” I was so
angry that I grabbed him by the collar and said, “What do you mean, Lu Linshen? Do you want to quarrel?”
“No,” he said, shaking his head as if he had made up his mind. “I want to break up.” I
stayed where I was for a long time.
Last second, while scolding him, I was secretly doing psychological construction for myself. If you can stick to it in
a different place, you can do the same in a foreign country.
But Lu Linshen, in a voice so deep and so familiar, repeated clearly, “I want to break up.” My
whole body exploded, and I began to say, “OK, break up, right?”? You’d better not come back. If you come back, you’ll find that I’ve already married someone else! With his
back to me, he began to shrug his shoulders, and when he turned around, his eyes were red.
He took a square box from his coat pocket and thrust it into my hand.
“I’ve bought it for a long time and I haven’t had a chance to give it to you, so I thought it was a gift for you in advance.”
I don’t remember what I scolded at the end. I
don’t remember how I got out of the haze after he left.
I blacklisted all his contact information.
I never thought that one day he would come back.
When I got home, Li Zining waited for me on the sofa.
Seeing my dejected appearance, he said with concern, “Auntie, we seem to have rolled over this time. Do you know each other?”
“Mmm.” I don’t want to talk about my relationship with the kid.
Li Tzu-ning leaned over, with a hint of bitterness in his eyes: “I don’t think things are that simple.”. First, last night Miao-miao mentioned that she wanted me to have dinner with her family. I was still thinking about it, but I was caught on a date today.
“Second, I didn’t even have to give you my phone number when I got caught. He just called you.”
“Third, when he claimed to be Miao-miao’s father, he gave Miao-miao a set of La Mer as compensation.”
“Oh.” I didn’t even bother to lift my eyelids. “Get to the point.”
“The point is, he’s coming for you.” Li Zining concluded quite proudly.
「……」
The child’s brain circuit is quite convoluted.
I was angry: “Come at me?”? Impossible. All right.
Why isn’t it possible? When you came, his eyes changed. We’re all men, and I understand best.
「……」
I really bolt Q. Does a kid who
doesn’t have all his hair know a hammer?
“To tell you the truth, Auntie, I think Uncle Lu is handsome and has a lot of money. I guess the people chasing him can go from here to France. If you don’t think about it,”
I glared at him and interrupted impatiently, “Get out!”! Mention him again, you only have 30 cents gift money this year!
Threats are effective.
He shut up and went back to his room to do his homework.
I looked at the message sent by the leader ten minutes ago and was lost in thought.
“Xiaowen, tonight at six o’clock our department will have a temporary group building dinner, and we won’t leave without seeing each other.”
Brainless company, team building on weekends.
Not to criticize you for not having a strong sense of community.
“Roger.” Corporate slaves don’t dare to rebel.
I looked at the address of the hotel on the WeChat and thought deeply. Did you poke the nest of the forest hotel
today!
As soon as I entered the box, I heard the sound of laughter and frolic.
“Xiaowen, you are late.” The leader kept a straight face as if he were unhappy.
「……」
I looked down at my watch. I’m two minutes late, okay?
Obviously, Zhou Pipi didn’t intend to let me go. He held his glass around my side.
“Little Wen, you see you’re no longer young. There are so many young and strong young men in our company. Do you have a crush on them?”
Some middle-aged men like to fart after a few more drinks.
The design department is bald except for fat people. Feel your conscience. Who can I see?
I smiled politely and did not speak.
Xiaowen, don’t be embarrassed. What do you like? I haven’t seen you say a few warm words to our male compatriots for so long.
「……」
It’s really annoying. I can
‘t attack the leader directly, so I have to be a deaf-mute. There was a knock at
the door, and then someone pushed the door and entered.
“Wen Hsi, come here.” Lulin leaned deeply in the doorway, his eyes swept over the crowd, and finally fixed on me. The eyes
around became ambiguous, and the female colleagues looked at Lu Linshen’s eyes so sweet that they could wiredraw.
I moved to his side doubtfully, and as soon as I stood still, a force behind me clasped my waist tightly.
“It’s eight o’clock. You promised to accompany me tonight.”
I
People: “!”
The leader stepped forward drunkenly and said, “Xiao Wen, this is you.”
Lulin shielded me behind him and nodded politely, “Can I take my girlfriend with me?”
Then, without waiting for an answer, he hugged me and strode out of the box.
A little polite, but not much. I didn’t come to my senses
until I was pushed into the copilot by Lulin.
“How did you know I was here?”
“You posted it in your circle of friends.” Didn’t
I blacklist you long ago? How did you see it? My eyes widened in disbelief. Does
he have clairvoyant vision? “I bribed your nephew,” said
Lu Lin with a deep lip.
I
Li Zining, you are finished.
Li Zining sent me Xiulu Linshen’s Apple 14 pro.
I rewarded him with his favorite big mouth and locked him in a small dark room.
A few days later, the boy said he would invite me to eat hot pot in order to make amends.
I went.
I was about to order when I was stopped by Li Zining.
“Auntie, wait a minute. We’re not all here yet.”
What people?
Li Zining winked at me.
“Are you itching again?” I glared at him. “I told you not to recruit Lu Linshen.”
Li Zining curled his lips and did not quite agree.
You have such a bad temper. It’s not bad if a man likes you. He’s handsome and rich. Auntie, just be happy. After all, there aren’t many blind people in the world.
I was so angry that I pulled up his hair and said, “Li Tzu-ning, sooner or later I’ll beat you all over the place!”
The scene was out of control at one point.
“Auntie.”
Lu Miaomiao ran towards me with two cups of milk tea, followed by a big complaint about the bill.
Lu Linshen sat down opposite me and pushed the hot cup of milk tea to me.
“Drink this.”
Four seasons macchiato, hot, three points sugar.
It’s what I used to order.
I glanced at him and thanked him in a low voice. The moment I looked down, I caught a glimpse of the deep lips of the deer forest and seemed to smile.
I don’t know what’s funny. What’s the use of
remembering these details? He doesn’t remember what
I care about most. It
‘s funny, too.
After the show, the young couple suggested that they wanted to go to the movies, so they had to pull me together.
When I sat down, I found that they were sitting in the seventh row of the best viewing area, while Lu Linshen and I were abandoned in the last row.
See is a love film, the hero and the heroine long-distance running for ten years, because of various reasons failed to achieve positive results, be aesthetics.
The plot is cliche, but I cried a lot.
Lu Linshen gave me all the tissues, and finally he had no choice but to take off his coat and wipe my tears.
He reached out to touch my head, but I dodged.
“Don’t touch me, Lulin Shen. Let me cry in peace.”
The hand trembled in midair and never fell down.
“Wen Hsi, I –” As soon as he spoke, the lights of the entire movie theater suddenly came on.
It turns out that the movie has a curtain call.
I pretended not to hear and was ready to leave the table, but a hand strangled my wrist.
“Wen Hsi, let’s talk.” There was a thick layer of
snow, and Lulin and I followed suit. Footprints
side by side, from the street to the end of the street.
He held out his hand to me and said, “Your shoes are not good for walking. I will help you.” Knee-high leather boots with
five centimeters high heels are not easy to walk.
But I bit my lip and did not hand it over.
“No need.” After all,
I overestimated my own strength. When I almost had a close contact with the motherland, I held my waist firmly with one hand.
His good-looking eyebrows and eyes were close in front of him, and he was suddenly separated from the world.
Almost. I
almost indulged in the dream he had woven for me.
“Thank you.” After standing firm, I took a step back and pulled away.
His eyes flashed a little lonely. I
had no time to think about it. I just wanted to keep an alienated attitude. “Didn’t you say you wanted to talk to me?”? It’s time to begin.
He took a deep breath, as if he had made up his mind: “I’m sorry, Xixi.”
I’m sorry? Those who
fail to live up to their sincerity will swallow ten thousand needles.
To me, it’s just worth saying sorry? What
is there to be sorry for? There are many people in this world who are clearing the way for their future. You are not the first or the last.
I was full of sarcasm.
He looked down at me, his fists clenched tightly, his phalanges white. Without saying
a word, he looked like the night we broke up.
Look at that.
He is stingy with a word of excuse.
“Sorry.” He apologized again.
I raised my hair and sneered, “Since I left so quickly in the past, what am I doing back now?”
The wind blows from my ear, and the touching love words get into my auricle.
“I’d like to see you again.” He stepped forward and looked at me with a little more greed and nostalgia.
It was freezing cold, and my answer was even more poignant.
“The deer forest is deep, and no one will be waiting for you.”
Lulin’s dark eyes were covered with a layer of white fog.
His voice was hoarse: “Wen Hsi, will I never have another chance?”
I responded with utter indifference: “No.”
Opportunity. A chance to
do it again?
Regardless of all returns, hold out a sincere heart for you to pick.
Until the heart was trampled under foot and covered with dust. I’m
not stupid. I’ve been bitten by a dog once. Do I have to be bitten a second time.
You don’t know, I’ve been suffering for three years. When we
broke up, I was so depressed that I thought about you every day.
But I’m also very tolerant, and I’ve never bothered you.
“Lu Lin-shen, can people be so selfish? You come and go as you please. Are you playing with me?”
I put all my grievances and resentments into my mouth. More than
a thousand days and nights of great pain. Someone
has to feel it.
Now the tables are turned, and it’s his turn.
“I’m done. If there’s nothing else, I’ll go first.” Without looking at him, I stopped a taxi in a hurry and drove away. The emotions that have been
blocked for many years are completely released at this moment. All the arrogance and domineering in
my mind have ceased.
A voice said to me.
Wen Xi, you win.
You trampled on his pride, too.
There’s back and forth. You’re even.
But why.
I’m not happy at all. It was a week later that I
saw Lu Linshen again. The knock at the
door disturbed people’s sleep.
“Li Tzu-ning, if you forget to bring your keys again when you run in the morning, I will beat you to death.” These five big characters are stuck in my throat. Deep in the
deer forest? What are you doing here?
He was wearing thin clothes, his black overcoat was still on his hand, the broken hair on his forehead was wet with fine snow, and his lips were slightly white.
“Bring you breakfast.” He raised his hand and waved the steaming Pan-Fried Baozi Stuffed with Pork in his hand.
「……」
I only have three seconds of absence.
Last night, I had insomnia and brushed a certain tone, so I sent a circle of friends to punch in.
But I remember that Li Zining has already been shielded. Does he still have eyes?
Turn on the mobile phone, and a small red dot pops up on the WeChat interface.
Aunt, is Pan-Fried Baozi Stuffed with Pork delicious? [Eating melons] “
..”
I was at a loss for words.
Lu Miaomiao must have been corrupted by Li Zining! The
air was filled with the sweetness of food, the dishes were piled up, and almost every flavor was bought.
“That’s a lot. Why do you feed the pigs?” I pulled out an empty chair and said helplessly, “Let’s eat together. Don’t waste it.”
Lu Linshen seemed to have no idea that I would send out an invitation, and it seemed funny to withdraw the step of preparing to leave before stepping out.
He poured me a small dish of vinegar and said in a gentle voice, “You can eat it. I have no appetite.”
“How many sets of La Mer?”
“What?” He asked doubtfully.
I glanced at him faintly. “Buy Deer Miao-miao.” “Ten sets,”
he responded.
I curled my lips and said noncommittally, “My information is quite valuable.”
Seeing that I was not in a bad mood, he raised a slight radian at the corners of his lips and conveniently opened the sugar bag and sprinkled it into my seasoning bowl.
“Just let go of the sugar.” I reminded him, “You put it there yourself.”
The air stagnated for a moment.
“Did you let it go?”
His hand was still trembling slightly in midair. “I haven’t been sleeping well lately, and I don’t have a good memory, either,” he
laughed.
All the care is stuck in the throat.
My chopsticks poked at the steamed stuffed bun, splashing a few drops of soup. “Pay attention to rest.”
He wiped it clean with a tissue and gave a low “hum.”.
Eyes stayed on me for a long time, and I was a little uncomfortable.
Aunt, why did you get up so early today? Don’t you close the door?
Li Zining’s Drake voice is particularly harsh in the quiet morning.
It’s over!
Sure enough, the next second, he first looked at me, then looked at Lu Linshen, and wanted to slip away.
I grabbed him.
“Li Tzu-ning, come over for dinner. After dinner, I’ll send you to class.”
“No, no, no. I’ll go by myself.” Li Tzu-ning gave Lu Linshen an obsequious smile. “Auntie, you stay with your uncle.”
「……」 A few days
ago, he was called Uncle Lu, but today he changed his name to Second Uncle.
“Do you know what people like you were called during the war?” I grinned. “Traitor!” Someone
opposite let out a chuckle.
“I’ll take you there. Miao-miao also has a cram school today. It’s on her way.”
Delivered to the door as a driver? I didn’t refuse to pass the
road driving skills. In the
warm carriage, the stereo is playing the old song-the old lover.
“Auntie.” From the back row, Lu Miao-miao leaned close to my ear and whispered, “My uncle has been back for so long, and today is the first time he’s seen me off.”
I was surprised. “I remember he got his driver’s license the year he graduated from high school.”
Deer Miao-miao gave a “poof” laugh.
“I mean,” she lowered her voice. “He wants to stay with you a little longer.”
「……」
Confirmed. The magic of ten sets of La Mer is very great.
Lu Linshen glanced at her in the rearview mirror and said, “Lu Miao-miao, you don’t have to call me after class. Go home by yourself.”
Then he turned his eyes to me in the passenger seat. “How about a barbecue tonight?” Before
I could say yes, the two children in the back seat were not happy.
Shit! Dog food!
Humph! Eccentric!
「……」
My toes are picking out a Barbie fantasy mansion.
But I didn’t think there was something wrong on the way. After
a sharp turn, I clung to my seat belt, still in shock, and quickly turned back to comfort the two children, then looked at him in surprise.
Lu Linshen apologized in a low voice, cold sweat on his forehead, shaking his wrists, and the veins of his hands on the steering wheel burst.
It’s like trying to crush the steering wheel.
“Are you okay?” I finally couldn’t help worrying, “If I’m too tired, will I?”
He was silent for a few seconds. He laughed at himself and said in a relaxed tone, “It’s all right. It’s just that I haven’t opened it for a long time. My hands are rusty.”
The school is near the sea and there is a beach nearby.
The waves rolled up the salty air and kissed the fine sand, and the atmosphere was very pleasant.
I stretched and said, “After I became a corporate slave, every second of my vacation was a luxury.”
Lu Linshen took off his coat and put it on the rough gravel. “Sit down and relax.”
“The atmosphere here is really good.” I didn’t stand on ceremony with him either. I sat down and said, “Do you come here often?”
He nodded gently, and his gentle and calm eyes turned away from my face and faced the sea.
Empty and godless.
I raised my hand and waved. “Oh, don’t think about it. Didn’t you have nothing to do just now? You drove very steadily in the second half of the road.”
His hands, hanging loosely at his side, clenched their fists, their fingertips white.
“When the tide falls here, there will be a lot of shells.”
Shell?
I looked around, and a layer of spray clattered down, revealing a small bulge in the sand.
“Wow, really.” I stood up and patted the fine sand on my legs. “Then you go to the barbecue area first, and I’ll go and pick up some!”
“Good.” An ethereal response crept into my ears. For
no reason, there is a trace of bitterness in my heart.
I shook my head, and sure enough, the seaside was easy to emo, and even straight men like him began to be sad about spring and autumn.
The wave was not big and the shell was not buried deep. I washed away the remaining sand in the sea. It was a pearl shell in the shape of a puppy. It’s a good match
for a dog man.
Out of the corner of his eye, he caught a glimpse of Lu Linshen still sitting in place with his wrist pinched.
Hmm? You haven’t left yet? I pretended to move over and casually handed him the shell. “What’s that? It’s a thank-you gift for bringing me to play.”
He looked over with a smile in his eyes and reached out to catch it. “Are you trying to amuse me, Wen Hsi?”
“Yes.” I curled my lips. “With your sad face, I won’t be able to eat for a while.”. Besides, we’re old friends who have known each other for so many years.
He patted me on the head, wrapped the shell in his pocket, stood up and walked to the barbecue block.
I followed him. “Can I eat garlic?”
He frowned. It’s better not to.
“Why!” I raised the white flag in protest.
He pointed to the busy area and said, “The bosses there are all handsome men.”
Lu Linshen stood in the block area and roasted pig’s feet for me.
From time to time, a beautiful woman with a slim figure stared at him fervently.
“Sir, can I ask you for the contact information of my friend?”
“Sorry.” Lu Linshen pointed to me and refused with a smile. “My cell phone is in my girlfriend’s place.”
The beauty looked at me and walked away with a hurt face.
I raised my eyebrows and said, “Did you get my permission to block the knife?”
He handed me the roasted pig’s feet and pointed to the clothes in my arms.
“Truly it is in your hand. If you don’t believe, touch it yourself.”
「……」 Just
touch it.
Seeing that I really took out my cell phone, Lu Linshen seemed to suddenly remember something and reached out to stop me.
But it was too late, and the next second, my face unlocked the screen directly. The
dense memos came into view. According to the
time, it was 4:14 last night.
“Hsi-hsi likes to dip Pan-Fried Baozi Stuffed with Pork in vinegar, so it’s best to sprinkle some sugar on it.”
“I love salmon, sweet shrimp, steak, hot pot, and macchiato.”
“Hate butter, ginger, kiwi allergy, pollen allergy.”
“Menstrual period is about the 15th of every month, five days.”
“Birthday 0228, Anniversary 0828.”
「……」
I was speechless for a moment. “Why do you remember this?”
He froze in the same place and opened his lips. “I’m afraid I’ll forget.”
Maybe the atmosphere of the seaside is too charming. Lu Linshen, who
used to be a teetotaler, is tipsy for the first time tonight.
“You’re not going to drink and drive, are you?” I watched in horror as he pulled out his car keys. “Let’s just say I’m afraid to die.”
The evening breeze blew across his slightly haggard cheeks, and he pulled the corners of his mouth.
“I’m afraid, too. I just want to call a designated driver.”
“It’s the evening rush hour now, and this side is too far away, so the designated driver doesn’t want to come.” I glanced at the navigation. “There’s a subway entrance nearby. It’s only one kilometer away.”
Whether it’s my house or his house.
All on the way, and direct. “The
wind is strong, so you wait for me at the subway entrance. It’s warm there.”
Hmm? Aren’t you coming?
“I’ll be back soon.” He turned and left.
This is fast.
It’s nearly forty minutes. Did you fall into the pit
when you went to the toilet? Did you leave something in the block?
Or was he robbed and abducted on the way?
I sat on the stone bench at Exit 1 and watched the subway that had been running for nearly five times. The call
to Lu Linshen was only busy. When the
clock ticked to half past nine, I finally couldn’t sit still.
“Hello, have you seen a man in a black coat who is about 1.9 meters tall?”
I asked the security guard on the block, and they said they could help me adjust the surveillance.
“Girl, is this the man?” The security guard pointed to the screen and asked me, “He’s heading south. There’s a busy convenience store over there. Would you like to look for it?”
But there was no sign of him in the convenience store.
More and more uneasiness came to my mind.
I began to realize that my hatred for him had disappeared long ago.
I sat in a roadside flower bed, editing a text message: “Lulin Shen, where have you been?”? If you ignore me again, I’ll call the police! The
words were typed and deleted, and the tears hit the keyboard, wiped them dry and typed again. The moment I
looked up, my eyes suddenly focused on the man.
He stood there with a bag in his hand and a cup of milk tea, looking a little dull.
“Lulin is deep!” I rushed over, raised my hand and punched him. “Where the hell have you been, you bastard?”
He didn’t seem to expect that I would come to him, and a smile suddenly appeared on his confused face.
“Wen Xi, what’s the matter with you?”
I interrupted him with red eyes. “Why don’t you answer the phone?”! Do you know how long you’ve been gone?
He gave me the milk tea: “My cell phone is out of power. You like to drink it. I just saw you glancing at the milk tea shop several times.”
「…… Are you crazy about the road? The direction of the subway entrance is north. Why are you circling in the same place?
He opened his mouth and finally lowered his eyes and nodded vaguely. Mm, road nerd. There are two shadows in
the moonlight.
“The deer forest is deep.” When I saw the hand warmers and motherwort brown sugar in the bag, my nose turned sour. “What’s the date today?” I asked.
He was stunned for a moment, then lowered his head. “I don’t know. It’s almost the middle of the moon. Keep warm.”
“You..” I suddenly don’t know how to define our relationship again.
His various performances are tender but strange. Does
he want me to be tempted again?
Can But he seems to be keeping something, like a person stopped in place, want to go forward but want to take back the footsteps.
“Let’s go. I’ll take you home.” He took my hand.
“Can a road nerd take me home?” I don’t know whether to laugh or cry. The hand he was
holding tightened.
He looked at me and said earnestly, “Wen Xi, do you mind?”
“Mind what?” Still thinking, I looked at him blankly when I heard this? That’s nothing. Many people have a poor sense of direction.
Lu Lin pursed his lips and gave a gentle hum. The theme of the carriage of Line
1 is tea, commemorating the passing of the most brilliant moment. Without saying a word,
he repeatedly rubbed the flower shape with his finger pulp, and his jaw line was very tight.
“Wen Hsi, I regret it.”
「…… Regret leaving? My fingers tightened in my pocket, and I felt an inexplicable sense of anxiety. “Or do I regret coming back?”.
“Both.”
I was stunned for a moment. Here we go
again, this drifting feeling. With a surge of irritability in
my heart, I took a deep breath and shook off his hand. After the car door opened, I walked out without looking back.
This is nothing. What is
this! Are you
kidding me! When
I was angry, I accidentally stepped on the steps under my feet, stumbled and almost fell down, but was quickly held by a hand around the waist. There was a helpless voice
overhead.
“Wen Hsi, don’t you look at the road?” “How many times have I told you before,” said
Lu Linshen, dragging me steadily. “Don’t you remember?”
All of a sudden, the past flashed before my eyes.
Wen Xi, don’t you look at the road when you walk? Do you have eyes to vent your anger? Lu Lin,
18, covered the back of his head, clenched his teeth and scolded me fiercely.
A lead ball sped away from his feet, and red blood fell straight from his head to the ground.
I was so frightened that a crowd of people came up around me.
“Take your boyfriend to the hospital, classmate.”
“Why are you in a daze? Call an ambulance!”
「……」
I have not yet recovered from the fear, trembling hands to help Lu Linshen.
“Go, can you go? I’ll call 120 now..”
Tears fell on the dial pad and fingers slipped on the screen. Why are you
crying? Small things. He covered the back of his head, pressed my cell phone with his other hand, and stood up.
“If you can’t do anything else, your life will be tough.” Don’t joke about it at
this time, okay? I’m really scared. I whimpered. The
phone was covered in his blood.
Scarlet, harsh. Outside the
emergency room, my heart seemed to be pulled into the ice water by an invisible hand, floating and sinking.
He blocked it for me.
If something happens..
What should I do? When he
pushed it out, his cold hand held mine, with a pale smile on his lips.
“You see, I said I had a hard life. I’ve only been chasing you for a few days. Can I be willing to let myself be in trouble?”
I wiped away my tears, and the tears on the back of my hand were mottled and confused.
“Lulin is deep. Don’t be arrogant.” His
head was sewn with three layers, and he was hospitalized for more than a month with concussion.
I went to accompany him every day and opened a small kitchen in the dormitory to bring him food.
“You can even do that?” When he ate my sweet and sour short ribs, he smiled triumphantly and said, “My wife is really capable.”
「……」
Who admitted that she was your wife? The light in the shade of the
trees was sprinkled on the shoulders of the 24-year-old deer Lin Shen. As I stood at the gate of the
neighborhood, I suddenly turned to look at him and said, “Don’t throw away the shells I gave you.”
He was a little stupefied. “What do you mean?”
This straight man!
I was so angry that my teeth itched. “If I lose you, I will die!”
I finally got up the courage to recognize myself. Lose me
again, and you’re dead.
Lu Linshen finally reacted, and a smile of surprise appeared on his face, but suddenly became bitter after the corners of his mouth were raised.
I stared at him seriously.
For a long time, he nodded solemnly and said, “Good.”
This season is the most romantic time to go to Changbai Mountain. Let’s go skiing together!
At the end of the holiday, we began to prepare for the first trip after the reconciliation.
Lu Linshen carefully looked through the strategy, made plans, booked tickets and hotels.
With anticipation, the days fly by. Snow has fallen
on Changbai Mountain, and across the Songjiang River, it is white all over the mountains and plains.
“You will live long and grow old together.” There is a couple making a wish nearby.
I tilted my head and ate the melon with a giggle, and was hit by a snowball in the back.
“Wen Hsi, come here.”
Lulin stood under a tree not far away and waved to me.
I skidded past, but I didn’t control the strength under my feet. I missed him and was about to roll straight down the hill. There is more familiar touch
on the body.
He held me in his arms and rolled back and forth in the snow to slow down to a stop. As the
snow began to fall, I collapsed on the ground and laughed. Like a fat man struggling out of the snow nest, I reached out and pulled him: “It’s so funny!”! Come on, let’s go to the top of the mountain again! Unexpectedly
, I met his blank and empty eyes.
My heart missed a beat.
This kind of look is too distant. The way
he looks at me is always spoiled.
It’s impossible to be so cold and cold-like looking at a stranger.
「…… Lu Linshen, what’s the matter with you? I reached out to pull him, but he dodged.
His face was in a panic, like that of a suddenly frightened child. His hands searched everywhere in the pockets of his down jacket, and he kept saying, “Where are my shells?”? Where are my shells?
The left pocket was turned out by him, and it was empty.
The right pocket was also turned out, and it was still empty.
He sat helplessly in the snow and looked at me for help.
“Shells, the shells Wen Hsi gave me. I lost them.” People come and go in the corridor of the
hospital, and the pace of life and death never stops for a moment.
The specialist looked at the case diagnosis report page by page.
“You have a medical history of nearly four years, and according to your current symptoms, you have entered the middle and late stages of Alzheimer’s disease.”
“Middle and late stage?” My whole body is shaking.
The doctor locked his eyes on us. The patient’s memory will decline severely. He will have a strong sense of confusion, will lose most of his knowledge of past events, will have difficulty remembering his past, and will even forget the names of his spouse and other relatives.
Lu Linshen sat there in a daze, with a blank expression on his face: “I, I remember that I intervened very well in the United States. How could..”
The doctor sighed: “Although Johns Hopkins Hospital is a leader in the medical field, and the effect of early treatment is indeed very obvious, this does not mean that there is a 100% guarantee that there will be no deterioration in a short time.”
“Moreover, in addition to genetic factors, your brain has also been hit hard, which is also an important reason for the accelerated deterioration.”
「……」 A blow to the
brain.. He got sick
because of me. Because of me.
Tears fell to the ground like broken beads. I clung to the doctor’s hand and said, “Is there any way to cure it, even if it’s a very small possibility?”
The doctor shook his head and sighed, “We did our best. You have to be prepared. Even if you take medicine for a lifetime to delay the course of the disease, it will have little effect.”
Lu Linshen’s eyes dimmed.
Like a candle burning to the end, finally extinguished.
“Wen Hsi, let’s go.”
He stood up and walked out, his steps a little shaky, and I stumbled to catch up with his faltering steps. Let’s go to another hospital. If it doesn’t work at home, I’ll go abroad with you!
His footsteps stopped: … Will you accompany me?
His shoulders collapsed on both sides, and his voice seemed to squeeze out of his throat, hoarse and suffocating.
“Wen Hsi, you’re only 23 years old. Do you want to hang on to me all your life?” Tears welled up
in my eyes, and I hugged him sobbing: “I do, I will accompany you!”
“I don’t want to!”
He almost roared out, and with all his pain, despair and regret, he collapsed and sat on his knees helplessly.
If I had known this, I should not have appeared in front of you again! People like me.. People like me.. Why can’t I give up?
He covered his face and cried bitterly. The tall man shrank into a small ball. Tears dripped down his thin and pointed chin and gathered in pools on the ground. Deep in the
deer forest.. Lu Lin Shen.. I called his name palely and held him tightly in my arms for a long time.
In the past, people come and go, and the joys and sorrows of life and death have long been common here.
Lulin’s deep crying gradually stopped, and his cold side face leaned against my shoulder and said in a voice so small that it was almost inaudible: “I would rather you hate me than be dragged down by me.”
This disease.
The luckiest patient has only lived for less than 20 years.
He is 24 years old.
I bit my lip and couldn’t make a sound. The last snow of
winter came as promised.
I sat with him in front of the French window, and all I could hear in the silent room was the creaking of the rocking chair.
“Wen Hsi, let’s record a VCR together. When I get sick again, you can show it to me.”
“Good.” I turned my back, set up my tripod, and secretly wiped away my tears.
What’s the matter? A little crying bag. He came around to me and wiped away the fresh tears bit by bit.
“Just prepare for the worst. Don’t be afraid,” he said. When the
camera focused on him, he straightened his back and looked like a good boy in high spirits.
“Then we’re ready to start.”
He nodded slightly, opened the memo, and the “cheat sheet” could be seen with a slight glance.
He was a little embarrassed. “Is that cheating?”
“Doesn’t count.”
Seeing that I didn’t care, he smirked at me like a spoiled big boy.
I looked at the list of questions he had written in advance, and for a moment I was dumbfounded.
But he cleared his throat: “First question, how did you and Wen Hsi get to know each other?”
“Neighbors.” After I protested that the answer was too short and invalid, I changed my story. “She lives in a big courtyard, and she likes to cry. When she cries, her whole little face is wrinkled together, so ugly that I can remember it at a glance.”
「……」 Why do you
say I have a black history?
Mmm. The second question is, what have you experienced with Wen Hsi? Just pick the one that impresses you the most.
In fact, I am looking forward to the answer to this question.
He frowned and thought for a moment, several times trying to look down at the memo, and finally just looked at me quietly.
It seems that they are trying very hard to splice the broken memories together.
“She was very stupid. I remember a boy wrote her a love letter, and she was almost moved to puppy love.”
“She didn’t like to study, and the night the results of the college entrance examination came out, she held me in her arms and howled, saying that she would never see me again in the future. It was silly. I thought I would have to see her every week.”
I interrupted, “Huh?”? But why did you only come here once in your freshman year?
He corrected me, “Twice.”. For the first time, I was a little nervous and rehearsed for a long time. Another time, I went back and was hospitalized.
His smile, like the warm winter sun, shines into my bleak and barren heart.
“Question number three,” I asked casually, holding out my hand to hide the camera. “Will I leave without saying goodbye this time?”
This problem is not within the scope of his plan.
A long silence.
No response.
Now I thought the answer would never come. “What if I say yes?”
He asked.
I raised the ring on my ring finger, and the dazzling light from the sun shone into his bottomless eyes.
“Give you one more chance to answer again.”
“Xixi,” he said softly, hanging his head, “I’m afraid I won’t be able to spoil you.” As soon as
I breathed, my fingers trembled slightly, and I took his face in my hands and kissed him deeply on my lips.
“Remember this feeling.” I rubbed his face. “Memory is gone. Your senses will help you remember.”
You.. You really.. Have you decided? His voice was still uneasy.
“Mmm.” I looked into his eyes with great determination. “I want to race against time with the people I love.” When
sorting out Lu Linshen’s things, he accidentally found the treatment diary in the drawer of his study.
Unlock code. It’s my birthday.
It’s easy to try it out.
On the first page, I was diagnosed with AD on September 21
,
XX.
Coincidentally, today is World Alzheimer’s Day.
The doctor said that I was so young that I should be able to live for nearly twenty years. When I got
home, I looked at the ring at the bottom of the drawer and began to stare blankly.
I was fostered in my uncle’s home. It doesn’t matter whether you
die or not.
But I’m dead. Where
is Wenxi? On September 30
,
XX 19, they all hid in Wenxi recently.
She called and asked me what I was doing.
There is a doctor doing memory reconstruction for me.
I hung up on her, wondering if she would cry. How to coax her
later.
Worry. When I got out of the subway on October 4
,
2019, I got lost for the first time. The familiar route in
my mind.
Like a tangled yarn, disorganized.
Wen Xi has been looking for me for a long time. I can’t remember what she said on the
walk.
I’m starting to realize.
I’m really sick.
I’m afraid that one day I won’t even remember Wen Xi. The cognitive test was conducted today, November 7
,
XX 19.
I started to have a slight cognitive regression.
The doctor advised me to go abroad for better treatment. If you
go abroad.
I can’t meet Wenxi every day. On December 31
,
XX, I packed up my case and luggage, and I was exhausted. I haven’t opened the diary
recently.
I made the stupidest mistake.
I didn’t tell Wen Xi that I was going abroad.
In fact, this is good. I was prepared to die there
anyway. Arrived in Baltimore on January 1
,
XX 20.
I’m a very shameful deserter.
Though far away.
But I still want to say. Happy
New Year, Xixi. Wenxi blacklisted me on January 11
,
XX.
Uh.
Very thorough. On February 28
,
XX, I asked our friends.
I took Wenxi out to play crazily. She is smiling happily in the
picture.
Should be able to forget me soon.
Wen Xi. Happy
21st birthday. May 8
,
XX 20, if possible, I hope.
Wen Xi forgot my speed. Than I
can forget her.
Faster. The medicine is so bitter on June 17
,
XX. The fourth anniversary of August 28
,
XX. Happy
anniversary, Xixi. On February 28
, xx21, Wen Xi was 22 years old. Happy
birthday. Rehab on March 15
,
XX 21 is very tiring.
I miss Wen Xi.
I secretly kissed you in the picture.
And I had a beautiful dream. The fifth anniversary of August 28
, xx21. Happy
anniversary. On September 25
, XX21, I dreamed of fragmentary fragments.
Wen Xi looks good when he smiles.
But I can’t remember why she laughed. On December 2
, xx21, intermittent forgetting.
To put everything about Wenxi. Write
it all down. Happy 23rd birthday, February 28
, XX22.
Wenxi children. May 21
,
XX 22. It’s not as if things were that bad.
John said I was in control.
He said I had faith. People with a strong sense of
faith will overcome time.
My faith.
It’s Wenxi. Wenxi, August 28
,
XX 22.
Sixth anniversary. Happy
anniversary.
Wait for me. Wenxi on October 31
,
XX 22.
I came back to see you. I saw Wen Xi
on November 11
, XX22.
In fact, the tail is so happy that it almost sticks up.
I still pretend to have a paralyzed face.
She said she was married.
Little liar. After
being exposed, he blushed like a monkey’s ass. November 12
,
XX 22, damn it. The ring
I gave to Wen Xi.
I don’t remember.
She got angry.
It’s like I’ve been pissing her off. Bribed her nephew on November 15
, XX22. I was so
happy that I couldn’t sleep all night. I got her on November 20
, XX22.
It’s like a lifetime ago. On November 23
, XX22, she said, “I will never have another chance.”.
Actually, I want to tell her.
But when the words are on the tip of my tongue, I can’t say anything.
Let her resent me.
Wait until all the anger is vented.
I can wait. Breakfast was delivered to her on December 5
, XX
22.
Didn’t get kicked out of the house.
Oh, hey, hey.
But my illness seems to be getting worse. The
driver’s hand is shaking all the time.
I have to hold on to the steering wheel.
Wen Xi smiled.
It’s just a joke that I’m not good at driving. Round
it up. Smile at me, right?
She saw the memo.
I’m stupid.
First time with wine.
That’s an excuse not to drive.
Wen Xi will not be suspicious.
It’s just, I didn’t think. I
can’t believe I got lost.
Old age. It’s useless
. Skiing in Changbai Mountain on December 21
, XX22.
I want to take the shell that Wenxi gave me personally.
Confess.
…… On December 31
,
XX 22, I thought my illness was completely under control. Unfortunately, it is
still one in ten thousand of the rapid deterioration.
I regret leaving.
Missed three more years that we could have been together.
I regret coming back even more.
I regret bringing this pain to her.
If we do it again.
I will choose.
Died in Maryland. Instead of being seen
by her.
My most awkward appearance.
22 It was three months later that I came to the seaside
again. In the chilly
spring, the sea breeze curled up my long hair and touched his fingertips.
“Why did you bring me here?” He stood on the edge of the beach with a puzzled face.
“There will be a lot of shells here when the tide falls.” I winked at him. When you were
skiing, didn’t you lose the shell that Wen Hsi gave you? Let’s find another one that’s more or less the same.
He frowned slightly and took a long time to digest my words, but frowned more tightly.
“What shell?”
“Who is Wen Hsi?”
「……」
His pure eyes were full of curiosity and puzzlement. I didn’t speak any more. I just squatted down and looked at the fine sand in my hands. Passing
through the cracks.
Until this familiar face appeared in front of me.
“I don’t remember who you are, but watching you cry,” he said, pointing to his heart. “It’s hard here.” I
blew on the puppy shell I had just found and handed it to him.
“Are you happy to see you off?”
He took it and looked at it carefully. Without thinking, he said, “If I lose it, I will die.”
I suddenly grabbed his hand. Do you remember anything?
He gave me a strange look and silently pulled his hand out. “You’re a strange man.” My
nose was sour and I stood on tiptoe to kiss him. His back stiffened and he took a few steps back.
“Don’t, don’t do such a strange thing.” He said.
“Did you forget to watch the VCR today?” I asked.
“What are you saying?” He took one look at the horizon and urged me, “Take me back, the sun is going down.”
「……」
The sunset glow is surrounding the setting sun and gradually falling.
The last glimmer of light from the sky is completely out of my world.
I wiped the tears that gathered on my chin. He smiled
silently.
“Good.” The sweet-scented osmanthus blossoms on
the Qingqiu Mountain.
Wen Xi still wears the ring on his ring finger.
She sat on her knees on the cold slate.
On one side, Li Zining and Lu Miaomiao still looked like primary school chickens when they first met.
“The Mid-Autumn Festival is coming. It’s time to come and see me in my dreams.”
Wen Xi placed a small bunch of white tea flowers in front of him.
The wind rolled up her hair, tender and tender, just like yesterday.
The morning light fell on half of her body, half cold and half warm.
In the mountains, the fog cleared.
She clearly knows. More than fog
dispersed. The person
she loves most has not only forgotten her.
And died when she loved him the most.
Postscript:
Currently, about 10 million people in China suffer from Alzheimer’s disease.
That is to say, every three seconds, the world will have an additional dementia patient.
They will suddenly forget their relatives, friends and lovers in a moment. When the
mind is clear, it will be remembered.
Over and over again.
They are not far away from us.
But fortunately, there are still such a group of people.
Even though they lost their most precious memories.
Can be accompanied by a lover.
They are determined to cross the stream of time. Declare war
with time.
Because we believe.
Love conquers all.
The lost past is like a shell left on the beach.
Although no one picked them up and gave them to their loved ones.
But beautiful things.
Forever.
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