Yumeiren
My name is Ling Dang. I have lived on a boat in Yuhang since I can remember. My mother is a famous prostitute in the south of the Yangtze River. When she was young, she took out all her money to redeem herself for a love poem. She rushed to Chang’an excitedly to find a lover and wanted to die with white hair. Unexpectedly, the other party’s face was full of consternation: “Love poems add to the fun. How can you take them seriously?”? Qiu Niang, I thought you understood.
It’s a pity that my mother doesn’t understand. She has been a flower queen for so many years. It’s not that she hasn’t seen men who are eager for her, but most of them are not in her eyes. She is the only gentleman who is really affectionate and poetic. Unexpectedly, when she gets out of bed, she is also an ordinary man in her bones.
Niang went back to Yuhang and gave birth to me in a boat. Since then, she has become the laughing stock of the whole Yuhang.
Because my mother, I have always been the most do not believe in love, the heart that this thing is just a means of men cheating women.
Also because Ah Niang lived in seclusion, she was often missed by the prodigal son. I began to practice swordsmanship when I was six years old. I practiced a small dagger very well. After I was ten years old, no one dared to bully our mother and daughter. Finally
, in the year of my marriage, Ah Niang had run out of money and had nothing to give me. She took off the jade leaves she had been carrying for more than ten years and hung them around my neck. She stroked my forehead and her eyes were full of pity: “Bell, after today, you will be a big girl.” Don’t stop believing in love because of Ah Niang. Loving someone is always the best thing in the world. It’s just a pity that the person I love is not as brave as I am.
That night, Ah Niang died in her sleep and committed suicide by taking poison.
Over the years, I can often perceive her pain, but has been deliberately avoided, I deceive myself and others to feel that as long as we no longer mention the things of that year, no matter how big the wound will be healed by time, but I was wrong, torturing my mother, not the pain of being abandoned, but the happy memories in my mind.
For so many years, she could not accept that Gu Lianchen, the son of a grand master who was willing to give up the scientific examination for her and break off relations with his family, had changed as soon as he turned his face? After
Ah Niang left, I began to sleep with a dagger in my arms every night. At first, I thought it was because of loneliness. Later, I gradually realized that I wanted to kill people in my heart.
The man who ruined my mother’s life is now prominent and has become a Taifu. He shouldn’t live so comfortably.
Now the emperor is old, after the prince died of illness, the emperor’s eldest grandson and the eight kings stood up to each other, and Gu Lianchen stood in the faction of Zhou Wen, the emperor’s eldest grandson.
And I found the eight king Zhou Ding, Mao Sui self-recommendation, explained the purpose of the visit. It doesn’t matter if you
live or die. You can do anything. The only requirement is that my mother’s life should be buried with the whole family.
The eight kings were satisfied with my appearance and were willing to arrange for me to lurk around the old emperor and cooperate with him. For this reason, he promised me that the day he ascended the throne would be the day he killed Gu Jiamanmen. I am very satisfied with
this promise. On the ninth day of the
tenth month, the emperor, who was nearly seventy years old, visited the south of the Yangtze River with his eldest grandson and minions. This was a great opportunity.
The emperor sailed on the river and summoned Yuhang singers to perform local songs and dances. Under the arrangement of the Eight Kings, I got on the imperial boat among the singers. All the singers were afraid to show their faces in front of the emperor. After all, the emperor was already seventy years old. If he was taken in at this time, his life would be basically over.
But I am not afraid, a Niang is gone, I have nothing to lose, as long as I can achieve my goal, even if it is not a pity to destroy myself.
The emperor was old, but he still liked beauty. After his appearance, he really took a fancy to me. Unexpectedly, when the emperor wanted to call me to stay, the emperor’s eldest grandson suddenly stood up and grabbed the white, imploring the emperor to give me to him.
I have to say, this move is really stupid.
The emperor was displeased, but his face did not break out. He calmly promised the emperor’s eldest grandson. At night, the imperial ship docked, and I was sent to the emperor’s eldest grandson’s palace dressed in red.
Chou Wen-jen, as his name suggests, is not handsome, but his face is gentle, and he has a sense of lightness that does not belong in the palace. Holding a book in his hand, he did not look at me: “I have a custom of burying concubines in the court. Grandpa Huang is not old forever, but you are still young. Go away later and never come back.”
Zhou Wen was too kind to be like the eldest grandson of the emperor who was ready to seize the throne. I was a little shocked for a moment. When
he saw that I refused to go, he finally raised his head again and said, “Didn’t you hear what the king said?”
I was not willing to be sent away like this. I looked straight at him and said, “The emperor has given the maidservant to Your Highness. The maidservant has nowhere to go. Please take him in.”
Chou Wen thought for a moment and said calmly, “You have to decide whether to stay or live. The king won’t save you a second time.” As soon as
he finished speaking, I started to fight, and my clothes fell to the ground. He looked at me like this, but he was not polite to me. That night, we rolled on the same bed. Late at night, Chou Wen tilted his head to look at me, and his tone was somewhat interesting: “The king hasn’t had time to ask your name yet.”
Bells.
Bells? He chewed these two words carefully and smiled: “When Ben Wang was a child, he had a cat called Ling Dang.” After
a sleepless night and returning to Chang’an, I became Xiao Jieyu in Zhangsun’s mansion. Chixiao is the sword that Liu Bang got by chance in the 34th year of Qin Shihuang. Zhou Wen gave me the word Xiao, which seems to be a metaphor for something.
Originally planned to serve the emperor in the harem, but now the turn came to the emperor’s mansion, and the eight kings were overjoyed.
He hoped that I could help him to report and pass on the news, but I was a little impatient, I had come to Gu Lianchen’s side, it seems to kill him, no longer need the help of the eight kings.
The Eight Kings were so angry that they wrote three letters scolding me for burning the bridge. I burned the letter quietly. Yes, I am not a good person. Why should I be kind for no reason? After
returning to Zhangsun Mansion, I rarely participated in the battle in the backyard. I didn’t even recognize all the concubines in the mansion, except that I decided to pay my respects to Zhangsun Zhengfei.
At that time, I was looking for the opportunity to assassinate Gu Lianchen, so that I often looked out of the window in a trance.
Zhou Wen did not know when to discover my abnormality and asked me if I regretted coming to Chang’an.
I shook my head, only to say that I remembered my mother’s boat, forgot to anchor when I left, and did not know where it was floating now.
Zhou Wen patted the chair and bell beside him and came to Ben Wang.
Suddenly, I regretted telling him that my name was Ling Dang, which was my mother’s name for me. I was called back and forth by a stranger every day, and there was a place in my heart that itched inexplicably.
Zhou Wen stared at me with suspicion and suspicion in his eyes. After a long time, he finally opened his mouth. Bell, the king has not asked you, that night, the king let you go, why do you want to stay?
I followed my mother to read a lot of love books, know what he wants to hear, simply open his mouth to come, Ah Niang is gone, I am alone, life is difficult, follow you. At least you won’t be hungry, right?
Sure enough, the suspicion in Zhou Wen’s eyes disappeared a little, but a little more soft.
Really?
Or what? I looked up at him with a disguised innocence in my eyes.
He looked at me with a smile and said, “I don’t know why, Ben Wang always feels that you are far away from me. It seems that if you look back, you will disappear.”
I took his hand affectionately and said, “I am already your Highness’s man. How could I disappear?” Looking at each other
, Zhou Wen breathed a sigh of relief and gently traced my eyebrows and eyes: That day at Grandpa Huang’s place, it was Gu Taifu who begged the king to come forward to save you and let you go, but the king broke his promise. Today he remonstrated with the king with his death and asked the king to kill you. After this day, beware of your family.
“Why did Gu Taifu target his concubines?” I went on with my performance.
Chou Wen touched my head like a dog and explained, “Gu Taifu is old and his mind is not clear. Don’t ask so many questions. Just remember what Ben Wang said.”
I have to remember more than that? Now that I have been told, I will engrave these words in my heart. In the future, these words will be turned into swords and returned to Gu’s family one by one.
That night, the emperor’s eldest grandson did not stay overnight, finished speaking and left. During this period of time, the court was in turmoil, and he did not often come to the backyard to see me. That’s good. I don’t know when I was afraid that he would come to see me and call me bell. The distance between two people is not close or far, but it makes me feel comfortable.
In November, the emperor was seriously ill, and the eight kings rebelled in a different place.
The eight kings sent me a message asking me to attack the emperor’s eldest grandson. As long as the emperor’s eldest grandson dies, the eight kings will naturally be made the new emperor. At that time, what good end will the family members who follow the emperor’s eldest grandson come to?
I touched the dagger in my sleeve and thought I should think of a way to ask the emperor’s eldest grandson to come and see me.
I stood in the cold wind for two hours, and the next day I had a high fever. The emperor’s eldest grandson came with the doctor, but the doctor brought a bad news.
The Imperial Physician said, “I’m pregnant. The dagger in my sleeve almost fell out.”.
That night, the emperor’s eldest grandson stayed in Lingxiao Pavilion and slept with me all night. In his sleep, he called me the bell, and my hand holding the sword hesitated.
Kill? Or not? In the past,
if I was just a stranger with the emperor’s eldest grandson, I would not hesitate to kill him, but now, the situation seems to be different.
This sword, after all, is not cut down.
The emperor’s eldest grandson had only two princesses. After the news of my pregnancy came out, the people in the harem kept doing little things. I used to hide in Lingxiao Pavilion and didn’t have much contact with the women of the emperor’s eldest grandson. Now, either this one came to visit or that one came to give gifts. I also found out the details of the concubines.
Originally, earlier Zhangsun Zhengfei and Dong side imperial concubine were pregnant, but inexplicably miscarriage, discerning people understand that Zhou Wen will not let them two pregnant, the two ancestors are stuffed in the stable interests of the relationship.
The emperor Zhangsun Zhengfei’s father is the prime minister, the side of the imperial concubine’s brother is the general guarding the frontier, if really let their children become a climate, the mother’s power is too heavy, the situation is not easy to control.
In the past, I thought that the women of the emperor’s eldest grandson had some friendship for him, but now the pregnancy has made me see clearly that everyone has their own immortals behind them, and no one is foolish enough to really care about the emperor’s eldest grandson, but the interests behind him.
Zhangsun Zhengfei and I had a long talk, hoping that she would raise the fetus in my abdomen. It can be seen that the imperial concubine is not bad, but bears the honor and disgrace of the family, and there is no way to make other choices. When
she lobbied me, she looked a little embarrassed, and maybe she knew that she was reluctant to do so. I promised the imperial concubine that once the baby was born, it would be sent to her and written in her name. There was a look of relief on Zhengfei’s face.
When Zhou Wen learned that I had agreed to Zhengfei on my own initiative, he was angry with me for the first time. He felt that if I did so, the child would become a target, which would be harmful to our mother and son.
I was scolded by him a little confused, in fact, I promised the imperial concubine is a reason, in my heart has long believed that this child simply can not be born.
Who would allow the eldest son of a future king to come from the belly of a geisha? Don’t you want to make a fool of yourself?
Sure enough, within a few days, Gu Lianchen started on me. While Zhou Wen was out, he sent someone to take me to the military camp to pour me safflower soup. He looked at me with a piece of ice in his eyes. You look like your mother. Unfortunately, I couldn’t pour a bowl of safflower soup when she was pregnant.
Just as I was about to break free of the rope and end Gu Lianchen’s life with a dagger, I heard the voice of Zhou Wen returning home. Thinking of the joy in his eyes when he heard that I was pregnant, I immediately changed my mind.
Just one second before Zhou Wen entered the door, I drank the safflower soup prepared by Gu Lianchen and poured it into Zhou Wen’s sight.
Zhou Wen saw this scene, immediately changed face, Gu Lianchen is a face of calm, take out a great Confucian posture, to die to remonstrate, the emperor’s eldest grandson favored the singer, is not a good reputation, if also let the singer give birth to the eldest son, in the world, how many people curse the emperor’s eldest grandson indulged in women?
Even if the emperor’s eldest grandson is not afraid of the world, the family behind the eldest grandson’s imperial concubine and the family behind the side imperial concubine watch a singer give birth to a prince first, will they give birth to two hearts?
Zhou Wen’s eyes were so red that he looked straight into Gu Lianchen’s eyes and said only eight words, “Gu Taifu, she is your daughter.”.
Gu Lianchen is still calm, before the rise and fall of the country, I have no daughter.
Zhou Wenlian said three good words and picked me up when I fell to the ground. Late at night, he looked at me sleeping, and his tone was serious and firm.
“It’s not that the king doesn’t understand what they say about power and righteousness, it’s just that he doesn’t want to understand. If in this world, the father sets up the son, the son kills the father, and the closest flesh and blood kill each other, even if they get the country, what’s the meaning of life?”. He paused, and the last sentence was very serious. “Ling Dang, Gu Taifu doesn’t talk about friendship. In the future, the king will protect you.” After
Zhou Wen left, I don’t know how long my whole face began to be stained with tears. The pain of
losing the child, the pain of losing Ah Niang, the pain of being poured safflower soup by my own father, all appeared later, so that I could not stop trembling wrapped in the huge quilt. In the
cold night, the only thing that can warm me is Zhou Wen’s words. He said he would protect me in the future, and I believed him.
The next day, Zhou Wen dismissed Gu Taifu and turned to General Shen, who had always been at odds with Gu Taifu. General Shen advocated martial arts and strongly advised Zhou Wen to go on a personal expedition to encircle and suppress the forces of the Eight Kings. On the one hand, it can establish prestige among the people; on the other hand, it can take away the military power under the eyes of the old emperor. Once he wins the eight kings, he can proclaim himself emperor by virtue of his merits.
Zhou Wen was weak and had never fought in a war. General Shen’s move was a risky one. Unexpectedly, Zhou Wen agreed.
Before leaving, Zhou Wen wanted to take me with him. The courtyard was full of makeup, but I only took myself with me. I was very confused and went to ask Zhou Wen. Chou Wen rubbed my heart with a gentle smile and said, “Ling Dang, you are different from them. They are the flowers of the courtyard, but you are an unsheathed sword. If I can’t go back to Chang’an this time, I hope you will accompany me on the last journey.”
This expedition Gu Taifu did not accompany, I pretended to be unintentional, asked Gu Taifu’s recent situation, Zhou Wen eyes a chill.
Finally, Chou Wen breathed a sigh of relief and said slowly, “My teacher is a great Confucian scholar of our time, and he is very strong in character. After he was deposed, he wrote a war proclamation and scolded me for being close to a mean person and a virtuous minister. The night the war proclamation was sent, he committed suicide.”
Gu Lianchen unexpectedly died? When I
heard the news, I was stunned for a moment and didn’t know what to say, but Chou Wen began to sigh softly: “Gu Taifu was my father’s teacher. After my father died, he became my teacher again. Although Gu Taifu was fierce and had a different idea from me, he was not guilty of death..” If my father knew, he would never forgive me.
I heard a faint sob from Zhou Wen, and somehow I felt a little more self-reproach in my heart. After the death of
Gu Taifu, Gu Taifu’s students also changed the camp, no longer try to assist the emperor’s eldest grandson, Zhou Wen’s helpers are decreasing. He was no longer as gentle as he used to be, and every day I saw him, he was frowning. After
some snooping, I learned that General Shen had made a mistake in judgment, and now the army to suppress the rebellion was in danger.
Three days later, the eight kings and Zhou Wen fought a decisive battle in Xiaoque Ling. At the end of the battle, the general trend of the world would be settled. Two days
before the battle, General Shen secretly broke into my tent and arranged for me to leave. At this moment, I knew that he had secretly taken refuge with the Eight Kings. General
Shen was ordered by the Eight Kings to keep me alive. I promised to run for my life before the war, but I couldn’t help seeing Zhou Wen for the last time before I left.
In the middle of the night, Zhou Wen curled up alone on a thick blanket, like a sleeping kitten. I stroked his hair gently. He gradually woke up, but did not turn around.
Turning his back to me, Chou Wen said slowly, “Actually, a long time ago, Gu Taifu told me about your mother. I know you didn’t come for me. Now that Gu Taifu is dead, you don’t have to stay with me, do you?”
I was shocked for a moment, but I steadied myself: “Since you know everything, why did you follow my heart and force Gu Taifu to die?” “Why?
” Chou Wen quipped, as if mocking himself.
He finally turned to look at me, but his eyes were red. “Bell, don’t you know what the king is for?”
Seeing me in a daze, he smiled sarcastically at the corners of his mouth: “Yes, it’s hard to imagine that a man like Ben Wang, who is in the midst of the storm of seizing the throne, would like a girl like a silly boy. When he sees her hurt, Ben Wang will lose control of his emotions and deal with the person who hurt her regardless of everything, even if this person is the only one that Ben Wang can rely on.” When I
saw Chou Wen’s appearance, I began to feel uncontrollably distressed, but he avoided me: “If you have a chance, go back to the south of the Yangtze River. The king himself will finish the rest of the way.” With
that, he got up and didn’t look at me again.
Zhou Wen made his decision, and I also made my decision. The Eight Kings were so scheming that they would never ask General Shen to take me away at the risk of exposure because of their desire for a woman. The reason why
he dared to do so, one is because General Shen has been in charge of the army, Zhou Wen in addition to General Shen no one available, and two is because he wants to use me to humiliate Zhou Wen.
The Eight Kings not only wanted Zhou Wen to die, but also wanted Zhou Wen to understand how stupid and ridiculous it was for him to stay away from Gu Taifu because of a woman.
It can be imagined that when the eight kings ascended the throne in the future, he would even find a historian to exaggerate the matter, so that Zhou Wen would be nailed to the pillar of shame forever, and I, who caused Zhou Wen’s humiliation, would naturally not come to any good end.
So the moment I chose to go to the Eight Kings, I understood my decision. In the valley of
the Lesser Pheasant Ridge, Chou Wen was besieged in confusion. The Eight Kings took me and humiliated Chou Wen in front of everyone. He laughed wildly: “Chou Wen, you didn’t think that the woman you liked was just a prostitute. As soon as she left you yesterday, she climbed into the king’s bed.” Then
he looked at me and smiled. “Ling Dang, are you satisfied with what the king has done for you?” With a smile in
my eyes, I said, “I am naturally satisfied with Wang Yeh.” But the next second, the dagger in his hand had already pierced the body of the eight kings.
I unhurriedly wiped the blood from the corners of his mouth and said, “Wang Ye, are you satisfied with the slave family?”
The Eight Kings could not say another word. He opened his eyes angrily, and blood spurted out of his mouth and nose. I wiped away the splashes of blood on my face and showed a last clean smile to Zhou Wen not far away.
I still remember that not long ago, Ah Niang told me that loving someone was the most beautiful thing in the world. At that time, I didn’t understand, but at this moment before I died, I seemed to understand. I
love Zhou Wen, and I am willing to die for him. This is the boldest decision of my life. Love made me a warrior. After the
eight kings fell down, swords, spears, swords, and halberds came to me in an instant. I had no time to see Zhou Wen’s expression, so I was cut down and fell softly in a pool of blood. In the
long darkness, I had a dream in which a man clasped my hand and called me bell.
I thought I died perfectly, but seven days later, I woke up in Zhou Wen’s bedroom. Zhou Wen did not know how much effort he had spent to find someone to cure me. When I woke up, the doctors around me all breathed a sigh of relief.
When Chou Wen saw that I had woken up, his eyes finally turned a little red. He held his breath from side to side, and after a long silence, he took my hand, like a little boy complaining about a grievance: “All these days when you were in a coma, I never dared to shed tears. It seemed that if I cried, I would admit defeat and tacitly allow you to leave me.”
His tears fell down in big drops and fell on my neck. I was a little surprised to see his imperial robe. The rebellion of the eight kings is very powerful. Even if the eight kings die, Zhou Wen will certainly recover the country, but it shouldn’t be so fast.
Unless. The rebellion of the Eight Kings was not as terrible as the rendering, and the power of Zhou Wen was not as weak as the rendering. I had a terrible thought in my
mind, and my hair stood up at the thought.
“Where is Gu Taifu? Why didn’t he come out?” I looked at him weakly, but my tone was more firm than ever. Chou Wen’s eyes flashed a trace of shock. After a moment, he stopped looking at me and gently advised me, “Gu Taifu died long ago. Have you forgotten the bell?”
I smiled and stared at Chou Wen’s evasive eyes, but I didn’t want to expose him. “Maybe I slept too long and was confused. I forgot.”
Chou Wen wanted to say something to ease my mood, but unexpectedly, I started another topic with a smile: “It’s funny to say that when the Eight Kings asked me to assassinate Your Majesty, the day after I received the letter, I found out the happy pulse. Your Majesty, it’s really a real dragon and the Son of Heaven, with the protection of gods and men. If it weren’t for that happy pulse, maybe I would have done it that day.”
Chou Wen looked at me gently, with no trace of emotion in her eyes. “Ling Dang, why are you talking about this now?”
I touched my lower abdomen and smiled. “Nothing. I just wonder if I really had a baby.”
My words finally made Zhou Wen’s expression change color. He comforted me to have a good rest. There was a slight trill in his tone.
I turned my back and ignored him. Hearing the footsteps of Zhou Wen leaving, I drew a wry smile at the corners of my mouth.
Perhaps, this is the true heart of it, just look at his eyes, I understand that he lied to me, calm down, I and Zhou Wen’s contacts were reorganized, all the past is vividly portrayed. The first time I saw him on the
boat, it was really Gu Taifu who asked Zhou Wen to come forward to save me. He somehow took into account that I was his daughter and did not want me to participate in the affairs of the court. But Zhou Wen did not expect that I would go out in order to revenge, and shamelessly recommend myself to the pillow mat.
At that time, Zhou Wen must have thought that I was reckless and paranoid, so he told me that he would not save me again in the future. Later, Chunxiao once, I became Zhou Wen’s Xiao Jieyu, and also became a good sword in his hand. In the mansion of
the emperor’s eldest grandson, Zhou Wen knew through my letters with the Eight Kings that the Eight Kings had rebelled and wanted me to kill him. He was not sure if I would attack him, so he lied that I was pregnant and looked after me all day and all night, trying to play the emotional card to stabilize me. Then, he asked Gu Taifu to feed me safflower, and the two of them cooperated to sing a big play.
Eight kings know me and Gu family origin, convinced that I will not underreport the truth for Gu family, see my letter, eight kings believe that Zhou Wen has been bewitched eyes, for me deposed Gu Taifu. Now he is weak and can only trust General Shen.
As a result, the eight kings colluded with General Shen, thinking that he would win, but in fact, Zhou Wen with a solitary army into the small bird ridge that day, must have been ambushed around Gu Taifu to find reinforcements.
Even if I didn’t kill the eight kings, Zhou Wen would win the battle. Now that I think about it, it’s ridiculous. If I hadn’t sacrificed my life to kill the eight kings, how would Zhou Wen have treated me after he won?
Take prisoner? Sent to Jiaofangsi as a prostitute? Or decapitation? In any case, he would never call me bell again.
Memories of the scenes in front of me, at this time, I only feel cold to the bone.
Originally thought, Gu Taifu is the most vicious person in the world, but never thought, Zhou Wen has long been better than blue.
Under Zhou Wen’s stratagem, I should have died long ago. Now I have got such a situation, which is entirely earned by myself. It can be said that I have changed my way of life with my wholehearted love.
This is obviously a fortunate thing, I should be happy, but the smile to the corners of the mouth, but full of bitterness. Tears fell on the pillow one after another, and I curled up and trembled all over. Growing up, I have never been so eager to escape from this insidious and treacherous place as I am now.
Three days later, I left without saying goodbye. Zhou Wen blocked me at the gate of the palace. He frowned and asked me why I was leaving.
I raised my eyebrows and smiled, reminding him, “Your Majesty has forgotten that my concubine once climbed into the bed of the Eight Kings. Does such a dirty woman deserve to be in Your Majesty’s harem?”
Chou Wen has a pained look in her eyes: “No one will mention this again. Let’s forget about it together, shall we?”.
“It’s a broken sword. What’s the use of your majesty keeping her?” I don’t want to act with him any more. Every word is full of thorns, but Zhou Wen is unaware of it and continues to maintain his affectionate appearance.
“It’s too lonely in the palace, Ling Dang. Will you stay with me?” Seeing that I didn’t say a word,
he simply went on: “I think the Xiwu Palace is very good. It’s very close to the Imperial Study. I can go to see you when I finish writing the memorial at night.” If you really don’t like it there, the Qingluan Palace, which is the nearest to the palace gate, is also good. I know you don’t like to be restrained. When I’m busy, I’ll let you sneak out to play, but don’t forget to come back.
I put aside his hand, anxious to shatter his illusions with cruel words. “Why should Your Majesty make such a gesture?”? There is intrigue in the palace, there is hypocrisy, these are not your Majesty’s most familiar friends? How can Your Majesty be lonely with them? The light in
Zhou Wen’s eyes cooled a little bit, and he suddenly came forward and hugged me tightly, not allowing me to resist at all. I had never felt such strength in him, and there was a moment of panic in my heart.
He pressed me to his chest and said, “Bell, the night I left the barracks, I said those words of weakness because I wanted you to stay.”. I clearly know that if you stay, the eight kings will be suspicious, but I still did so. You think I only treat you as a pawn, but do you know that if you choose to stay that night, I intend to let bygones be bygones?
He didn’t want to talk about what happened after I entered the camp of the Eight Kings that night. He just held me tightly, with a painful look in his eyes.
Ling Dang, you hate Gu Taifu, and you also hate me. But do you know that people like us don’t have much sincerity to share with their children. If we fall, not one or two people will die, but countless families and countless lives behind us. You stand in my point of view, ask yourself, you are close to me with evil intentions, shouldn’t I play the trick? The eight kings use you to calculate me, shouldn’t I treat him in his own way? Tell me, Ling Dang, what did I do wrong?
A Niang said, love a person, is not to see his pain, but now Zhou Wen in front of me to show such a look, my heart did not have the slightest waves.
In this way, I understand that Zhou Wen is right, he just should not save me, should not let me fall in love with a person wholeheartedly, only to suddenly find that the person I love is my own imagination. I should die in the valley of Xiaoqueling. When I die, I have the best hope in my heart. I hope that the person I love can win the country and become an emperor of indomitable spirit in the future. I hope he will always remember that even if the whole world has abandoned him, there is a silly girl who is willing to give everything for him. Under the pressure of Zhou Wen,
I had a great sense of powerlessness.
In fact, Zhou Wen has done a good job, perhaps he is the son of heaven who can really control the country, but I fell in love with the young man who put all his eggs in one basket for me and was helpless in the cold night.
I forced myself to become calm and self-controlled, trying to explain the reason clearly: “I have come out of that scene. Your Majesty does not have to use the reason of love to trap me. If you force me to stay with Your Majesty, in my opinion, it is no different from going to the teaching department or the prison camp.”
When Zhou Wen heard me say this, he was stunned for a moment. He restrained all his emotions and finally laughed at himself. “You’re right. I’m deceiving myself and others. But I’ve tried my best to become an emperor. After all, I still have some power. If I want to imprison you and ask you to finish the play, what can you do with me?”? Whether you regard the palace as a teaching department or a prison camp, I just want to go back to the palace every day and see my sweetheart.
I have never found that Zhou Wen has such a rogue side. After
Zhou Wen imprisoned me in the Xiwu Palace, he often came to see me. He tried to pretend that there was no rift between us. Even the tone of his voice with me was the same as when he was in the imperial mansion.
This kind of Zhou Wen, a little ridiculous and a little pitiful, I hope he can sober up a little, from the previous play out, let go of himself, also let go of me.
So I asked him, “If Ling Dang had not attacked the Eight Kings, but had been captured by Your Majesty after the defeat, would I still be alive now?”
Chou Wen frowned his beautiful eyebrows, and after a long time he uttered four words: “I don’t know..”
As expected, I smiled. “Your Majesty is a terrible man. You have no weakness, and you will not allow yourself to have weakness. Once the bell does something perverse, you will kill me.”. In fact, you don’t love me. When you were the eldest grandson of the emperor, you pretended to love me because you wanted to use me, didn’t you? Now that everything is over and the bell is no longer useful, why should Your Majesty maintain this illusion?
Chou Wen was stunned for a moment, then burst out laughing. “Who says you’re no longer useful?” He reached out his hand and stroked the broken hair near my ear. “The year my father died, I was only eight years old, but I had to compete with four uncles for the crown prince position. All the people standing behind me did not care about my feelings. They only asked me to become a monster without weaknesses and win the game of power. Now, I have done it.”
He took one look at the dragon robe on his body and smiled jokingly at the corners of his mouth: Perhaps, in your eyes, I am a terrible person, but, bell, even the devil in hell has the right to look up to the world. Now that I have everything, I want to love the person I like like a normal person. Maybe the way was not right at the beginning. Perhaps the process will make you angry, I will slowly learn, slowly improve. If one day I find my lost self, I hope that the person who accompanies me will be you. When I
heard Zhou Wen’s words, I was very shocked. Just as I was about to speak, he lowered his head subconsciously and blocked my mouth. At the end of
the kiss, Chou Wen showed a gentle look: “Don’t say those hurtful words again. It hurts my heart and lungs. If you don’t rub it, I can only be sad alone.”
I pushed Zhou Wen away, wondering how he had changed from a gentle gentleman to a rogue. For a time, helplessness and grievance are intertwined.
“If Your Majesty forces me like this, aren’t you afraid I’ll die here?” “You won’t commit suicide for me, because in your heart I’m not worth it,
” Chou Wen said with a cool smile.
With that, Zhou Wen widened his clothes and lay down on the big bed of Xiwu Palace. Perhaps he knew that I was tired of him in my heart, so he didn’t provoke me this night. In the dead of
night, Zhou Wen began to talk about his childhood, about the little cat named Bell. I heard him talk in a gentle tone, and my heart was very upset. Zhou Wen was far more wily than I imagined.
Previously imprisoned by him, I thought that the most is to sleep by him, sleep tired will naturally forget me, but now it seems that Zhou Wen he wants, is my sincere submission.
With the emperor’s mind, to manipulate children’s love, I did not expect, this person, should be so shameless.
I can’t stand his warm water boiled frog, and I’m even more afraid that this kind of subtle gentleness will make me misunderstand the former eldest grandson of the emperor and come back to me.
In order to keep my heart, I became a hedgehog, but I would not let go of any chance to hurt Zhou Wen and let him show his true shape.
However, Zhou Wen’s adaptability is too good, several times down, in response to my cold words, he has his own countermeasures, can take the words, can ease the slow, really hurt people difficult to guard against, he can not change his face, pretend not to hear what I said. I have no place to vent my
anger. I feel really uncomfortable. The only thing I can do is to reduce the dialogue with him. Unfortunately, Zhou Wen is not afraid that I will not speak. When I fell silent, he looked at me with a smile. “Is this gesture of the bell a hint that I want to do something with me without talking?”
…… I’ve had enough of
this. I think I have to find a way to escape. After
Zhou Wen ascended the throne, he began to clean up the remnants of the Eight Kings. General Shen took refuge with the Eight Kings in the first battle of Xiaoqueling, and instantly became the first target of Zhou Wen. Concubine
Shen Yao is the younger sister of General Shen. After hearing that Zhou Wen intended to raid the house of Shen Fu, she secretly came to Xiwu Palace to find me and gave me a secret letter from Zhou Wen.
Seeing the secret letter, I was once again shocked by Zhou Wen and Gu Taifu.
It turned out that at the beginning, General Shen took refuge in the eight kings, not entirely mutiny, Zhou Wen expected that after Gu Taifu fell out of favor around him, the eight kings would lobby people around him to take refuge in their own camp, so he gave General Shen a decree in advance, asking him to improvise.
Now, General Shen accompanied him to finish a play, but Zhou Wen turned around and refused to admit it. He even wanted General Shen to be the chicken used to worship the monkey. After
confirming that it was Chou Wen’s handwritten letter, I fell silent: “You know, I’m not a nosy person. Even if the Shen family is killed, what does it have to do with me?”
Shen Yao smiled. “I didn’t come to you to ask you to do anything for the Shen family. I just want to ask you one question. Do you want to escape from here?”
Shen Yao grew up in the general mansion, there is a female hero temperament, out of such a thing, she did not want to use this letter to expose Zhou Wen’s mask, she came to me, is to hope that I do her a favor, take away Zhou Wen’s life.
Every year on the fifth day of the seventh month, the royal family would go hunting in the Western Hills. Shen Yao asked me to lead Zhou Wen to a dead corner in the forest, where the dead men of the Shen family would be ambushed. They would act according to circumstances and kill Zhou Wen.
Shen Yao told me that for her, it was a business of burning both jade and stone. She could not save the Shen family, but she did not want to let Zhou Wen go.
When Zhou Wen died, the scene will be a mess, then I took advantage of the chaos to escape, no one will care about my disappearance.
It sounded like there were a lot of hidden dangers, so I asked her, “If you give me up, won’t I be buried with the Shen family?”
Shen Yao thought for a moment: “If you don’t believe me, I can’t help it. I’ve already shown you all my cards. If you want to run away, that’s the only possibility. It just depends on whether you’re willing to gamble.”
Shen Yao said to me, I thought for a long time, I really do not want to waste a minute in this unfortunate palace, perhaps missed this time, waiting for the next chance to escape, at least three years and five years.
So, even though it was dangerous, I promised her.
Shen Yao put a picture of mountains and forests into my hand and asked me to remember the position of the red circle. I looked at it five times over and over again to make sure I remembered it. Finally, I burned the picture.
I thought that Zhou Wen was tender to me these days, and hunting would inevitably bring me around, but what I didn’t expect was that after the list of people who participated in hunting came out, my name was not on it.
Shen Yao looked at me with a little more disgust in his eyes: “I didn’t expect you to be useless.”
I
Things come to this, there is no way, Shen Yao asked me to show good to Zhou Wen, begging him to take me to the Western Hills, goodbye. Once upon a time, in order to kill Gu Taifu, I did a lot to please Zhou Wen.
At that time, I was blinded by hatred, completely left my self-esteem behind, and when I did those things, I was not sober. Now after such a time, I kill Gu Taifu’s heart, has been weak.
On the surface, Gu Taifu spent thousands of yuan to abandon the scientific examination for my mother, and later abandoned her and played with her feelings, which led to my mother’s death.
Now, know a lot of inside story, I just understand, when Gu Jia secretly make friends with the prince, was targeted by the opposite family, originally the opposite family is to set up a trap in the examination to frame Gu Taifu fraud, Gu Taifu learned, through my mother, to make a reputation for not doing proper work, wise to escape the trap. After the fall of the
family, Gu Taifu like a changed person, into the court, do Taifu, all the way to the present, to put it bluntly, he never loved my mother, my mother fell in love, is only her imagination of Gu Taifu.
Just like, I was deceived by Zhou Wen before, and I was even willing to die for him.
This matter, I do not blame Zhou Wen, also no longer hate Gu Taifu, I only blame me and my mother are the most affectionate woman, in our world, never feel that feelings of this kind of thing, will also be used as a conspiracy to calculate. When the junior high school recruit, we are too naive. Once
a person is stupid, he can’t blame others. A fall into the pit, a gain in your wit. I admit what I have done wrong. After a
death, the former strong hatred turned into dissatisfaction with their own, with such a state of mind, and then to please Zhou Wen, has become an unbearable thing.
I forced myself to change into a beautiful palace dress and walk into Zhou Wen’s Xuanzheng Palace to comfort myself that all this was for the sake of living freely in the future.
But Chou Wen wasn’t going to simply let me go. He raised my chin playfully and smiled. “Does the bell want to go hunting with me in the Western Hills?”? If I remember correctly, the last time I was at the Xiwu Palace, you said that being close to me was as disgusting as being licked by a fly.
「……」 Chou Wen was indeed vindictive, and I smiled awkwardly. “It’s too stuffy in the palace. I want to go out for a walk.”
“Oh,” he seemed to feel the same way and nodded. “How about I take you out tomorrow? The Western Hills are too far away and bumpy. I don’t think it’s as good as..
“I want to go to the Western Hills.” I interrupted him, realizing that the tone was too strong. I softened my tone, almost acting like a spoiled child. “I heard that the flowers in the Western Hills are blooming, and the red peonies all over the mountains and plains are the most beautiful scenery in Chang’an. I want to see it with my own eyes.”
“Is it?” He did not answer, but gave a narrow smile. “You beg me, and I’ll think about whether I will agree or not.”
“I beg Your Majesty.” I lowered my eyebrows and tried to be gentle, but Chou Wen was not satisfied. He was good at persuading people. “Asking for help is not like this.”. When you were in Hangzhou, I asked you to stay with me.
Thinking of the way I took off my clothes when I introduced myself to the pillow mat, I felt ashamed and annoyed. I didn’t want to listen to him talk about the details. Like a strong man dying, I unbuttoned my clothes again and kissed Zhou Wen’s mouth.
Chou Wen, on the other hand, was as offended as his daughter-in-law. He pushed me away and “tutted” twice: “I just want you to say a soft word. It’s all right for you to speak lightly of me directly. The sky is blue and the sun is white. I still have official business to do.” Just a moment. I’ll come to you when it gets dark.
Hearing what he said, the chamberlains and eunuchs could not help laughing. Zhou Wen pretended to turn his back to get the book, as if to hide his smile. I was so ashamed and annoyed that I killed him several times with my eye knife.
When Chou Wen saw that I hadn’t left, he said, Eh? Why don’t you go? If you really can’t wait, I’ll have to.. I
saw that he was about to retreat from the Chamberlain, so I stopped him in time: “I’m going back to the Xiwu Palace to wait for Your Majesty.”
Say, I also fled to leave here, before leaving, I heard Zhou Wen low laughter, can not help gnashing teeth, thought, you do it, anyway, you this fellow, is also going to die. After
dinner, I took a walk outside Xiwu Palace, thinking about how to face Zhou Wen at night, while planning to escape in a few days.
At this time, the sun was setting in the western hills, and the whole palace was enveloped in a sad atmosphere. With the eunuch on the corner gate making a long sound, “Put up the latch, put down the money and food, and the lights — be careful,” the whole palace was locked up, and it became a dead city.
I don’t know why, when I saw this scene, what Zhou Wen said to me suddenly flashed into my mind. He said that when he was eight years old, he had a little cat named Ling Dang. At that time, his father had just passed away. He listened to the stories told by eunuchs. He was worried that the palace was haunted, so he always slept with the cat at night.
Later, suddenly one day, Zhou Wen had a rash on his body and could not afford to get sick. After some investigation, his mother and concubine found that someone had smeared the chronic toxin on the cat’s hair and wanted to take the opportunity to murder the emperor’s eldest grandson.
From then on, the mother told Zhou Wen, can no longer rely on, can no longer have weaknesses, the little cat called bell, the final outcome is in Zhou Wen’s cry, was sent out of this terrible city.
Zhou Wen said to me a word, I do not want to care, but I do not know why, the more I want to avoid him, these words he said just come to my mind.
I was bored and drank one cup after another. At some point Chou Wen came up behind me and looked at me quietly, smiling at the corners of his mouth. “I’ve been waiting for a long time. I’m late.”
I said to him perfunctorily, “Your Majesty is busy. It doesn’t matter if I wait for you.”
Chou Wen stared at me with a smile on his lips. “Actually, I wanted you to wait.” I looked at him in amazement, and he smiled again. “Only in this way will you miss me. Otherwise, there will be only my unrequited love between us.” Seeing that I hadn’t said a word about what he had said, he finally laughed jokingly and said, “Isn’t it pitiful that I need to tie up a woman with such a careful mind?”
I didn’t know how true or how false his words were, but I didn’t want to go into them any more. Anyway, when I went to the Western Hills, Zhou Wen was a dead man. I looked at him in a good temper and didn’t want to talk to him any more. “My concubine is a little cold. Your Majesty, let’s go in.”
I went to Xiwu Palace by myself, and suddenly my feet were empty, and I was picked up by Zhou Wen. Chou Wen’s face did not change. “I’m afraid of the cold, too. Hold on tight.” The palace people in the
bedroom saw this scene and went out with red faces. I had already done a good job of psychological construction and was not afraid of this kind of thing that had happened countless times, but Zhou Wen seemed to have a trace of unusual nervousness.
He carefully stroked the scar I had left on Little Pheasant Ridge, and there was a little pity in his eyes: “Bell, does it still hurt?” He asked me.
I don’t like to see his affectionate appearance. This kind of specious gentleness reminds me of the good plays and love words that Zhou Wen played in the mansion of the emperor’s eldest grandson.
Those moments that once made my heart beat finally turned into a sharp knife that poked my heart. Now I have given up on him, and he can no longer shake anything.
So I ignored his deep affection and went straight to untie his belt, hoping that this shit would end soon. Unexpectedly, Zhou Wen took my hand and stuck it to his heart.
Moments later, he kissed the ferocious scar on my neck, again and again, as tenderly as if he wanted to heal it with a kiss.
However, how can it be cured? Once a scar is left, it can never be erased.
That night, Chou Wen didn’t want to offend me. In the end, he just hugged me quietly and whispered to me, “If Ling Dang wants to go to Xishan, I’ll take you there. We’re no longer in the same relationship as before. This kind of thing can’t be used as a bargaining chip.”
I think Zhou Wen must have read a lot of books about love between men and women in his life. He knows too much about how to control a person’s mood and stir up her heart. If he were someone else, he might soon fall again, but now this is no longer effective for me.
So I gave him a taste of his own medicine and chuckled at him, “Can’t you go back to the past?”? But in his heart, Ling Dang always misses his former eldest grandson.
Chou Wen obviously didn’t expect me to say that. He stared at my face, as if he didn’t want to miss any expression on my face: “Bell, you’re drunk..”
I imitated his affectionate look, tracing his beautiful eyebrows and eyes with my fingers, and said in a very serious tone: “Your Highness, Ling Dang has been missing you very much.”
Chou Wen seemed to confirm that this was my drunken words. His eyes turned red little by little, and he promised word by word in an extremely gentle tone: “If Ling Dang wants him to come back, I will let him come back. From now on, I will only be your eldest grandson.” I didn’t believe a word of what
Zhou Wen said, but I still made a very gentle and heartache look and kissed away Zhou Wen’s tears.
I think I spent a lot of money on this escape.
With this unspoken night, Zhou Wen seemed to be in a good mood. On the trip to the Western Hills, he rode with me, rubbing my palm back and forth with his finger pulp along the way. Perhaps because I knew that Zhou Wen was going to die, I did not resist his kindness.
At this moment, one of us plans to make the other submit sincerely so that she can stay in the court forever, while the other wants to take advantage of the other’s death and escape in the chaos. This scene is particularly ironic in my eyes when they
look like a pair of young lovers who are in love with each other.
All the way, finally arrived at the Western Hills, Shen Yao and I looked at each other, according to the original plan to take Zhou Wen to the dead corner of the forest. Unaware of his impending death
, Chou Wen asked me with a smile, “Bell, do you like bunnies?”? I’ll give you one?
At this moment, he took the initiative to separate from me, of course, I wanted to, so I nodded obediently, indicating that I would wait for him in situ.
Zhou Wen took a deep look at me. Without saying anything, he rode away. I thought this was probably the last time we met in our lives. After Zhou Wen left, I sat quietly in the forest waiting for his death.
Soon, the neigh of a horse’s hoof sounded in the mountain forest, and with a shrill “rescue” sound, the entire Xishan Palace was in a mess.
I got up and patted the dirt under my buttocks, intending to leave at night. But unexpectedly, when I took the path to escape, I bumped into the scene of Zhou Wen being surrounded by the dead.
He stood in the forest in a pine and cypress robe, his eyes as cold as snow, and I sighed low, resenting myself for being so unlucky.
Just as I was getting ready to hide in the grass to watch the battle, someone suddenly shouted from the dead soldiers: “Someone is coming!” As soon as the
words fell, a sleeve arrow shot at me.
I met the sleeve arrow with a short knife, but what I didn’t expect was that Zhou Wen was faster than me and blocked me with his body. After
Zhou Wen was injured, he snorted and blocked me behind him to protect me from escaping.
I have never seen Zhou Wen, who has always been thin, have such a bloody killing side. He raised his sword and killed many dead soldiers. The arrow wound in his chest cracked open and shed a lot of blood. At this moment of
extreme discomfiture, Chou Wen did not forget to raise his head and smile at me: “Don’t worry about me. You can go.”
I could have left, but I don’t want to owe him. If I really left like this, maybe I can’t put him down in my life.
So, I ruthlessly under the heart, stay down, the night gradually deep, in the pursuit of the dead, we lost in the mountains. Zhou Wen found a cave to avoid people’s eyes and ears and asked me to rest there. I took off the sleeve arrow from his chest and heard him hum softly again.
“You knew I wanted to run away, didn’t you?” I stared at Zhou Wen and asked him word by word.
With Zhou Wen’s intelligence and wisdom, even if I could not see the abnormal behavior of pestering him to go to the Western Hills before, now that it happened, he should have thought of this layer, but he did not want to pursue it, which made me wonder.
Zhou Wen ignored my words and quietly tidied up the wound.
I pointed to his wound. “I owe your majesty this arrow.” At
this point, Chou Wen finally looked up at me and said, “What you owe me has been returned to me in Xiaoqueling. Now I am returning your favor.” As I
looked at Chou Wen’s discomfited face, I couldn’t tell what it was like. “Why would Your Majesty do this?”
Chou Wen stroked the scar on my neck and said, “I never thought that in my life I could still feel what it’s like to love someone. If I have, how can I let go?”. He sighed. “I just want to gamble.” He did not finish
the second half of the sentence, but I understood that he had won the bet, and now that I had stayed with him, I had given up running away.
Late at night, reinforcements did not come, Zhou Wen saw me cold, put clothes on me, at this moment, the feelings in my heart are very complex, for a time even I am very hard to understand.
When Chou Wen saw that I was in a trance, he put his hand around me and said, “Ling Dang, you have me in your heart. I can feel it.”
At this moment, I can feel that my feelings for Zhou Wen are shaking little by little. At first, I was sure that he was just acting for me, but now, I am not sure.
This feeling is extremely bad.
Zhou Wen had a high fever that night. I took care of him overnight and lost the last chance to escape. The next morning, the cave was full of guards who came to pick him up. After
returning to the Xishan Palace, Zhou Wen issued two orders, one to kill Shen Yao, who was making trouble behind his back, and the other to make me Concubine Chen. Before
Shen Yao went on the road, I went to see her off. Shen Yao looked at me with sympathy and pity: “Empress Chen, I don’t understand you.”. If I were you, I would kill Zhou Wen in the cave and leave this Forbidden City.
Shen Yao doesn’t understand me, and I don’t understand Shen Yao either. “Master Yao, if I were you, since I was so cruel to kill him, I would have smeared the most fierce poison on the sleeve arrow. If I had smeared the poison, Zhou Wen would not have survived last night.” When
Shen Yao heard me say this, he laughed sadly: “Unfortunately, you are not me, and I am not you.”
That night, Shen Yao was given a white silk and died in the palace of the Western Hills. After Shen Yao died, her words repeatedly lingered in my mind, as if reminding me that I had missed something important. After
Shen Yao’s death, Lingzhi, her personal maid, assassinated Zhou Wen in the palace and was caught by Zhou Wen’s bodyguards. I admire her for having such courage as a little maid of honor.
But what Lingzhi said in my ear made me tremble with fear. Why did
the empress think my master had died? The empress can’t imagine that after my master’s accident, the master went to ask the emperor for mercy. What conditions did he put forward? Zhou Wen, the dog emperor, never treats people as human beings and loves each other. In the end, as long as the master is a tool for him to please his new lover! Now, you don’t have to be complacent. When you fall out of favor, you will do the same.
Ganoderma lucidum’s words, a few words, but I have probably been able to guess the whole picture of the matter, after the accident of General Shen, Shen Yao went to ask Zhou Wen for mercy, because General Shen mutinied with Zhou Wen’s instructions at the beginning, this matter was not clear on the table, for this reason, Zhou Wen promised Shen Yao, secretly left the life of General Shen’s family, on the surface, but wanted Shen Yao to assassinate.
Once the assassination, Shen Yao will die, after the crime of the Shen family, generation after generation can no longer set off a storm.
Thinking of this, I finally understood why Shen Yao had a sad smile when she heard me ask her why she didn’t smear poison before she died. Unfortunately, I am not her, and she is not me. If we can exchange positions, at this moment, Zhou Wen will die. The night before I
left the Xishan Palace, Zhou Wen took me to the mountains to enjoy the moon. Seeing him immersed in love, I thought that before I came to the Xishan, I fell into Shen Yao’s calculation and went to ask Zhou Wen.
At that time, he also smiled sweetly and enjoyed it very much.
Now think about it, Zhou Wen must have discussed with Shen Yao, deceiving me and him to have a night to tell the love of Wu Palace. At this moment, I suddenly feel that Zhou Wen is a very poor person, his life, what he wants, always rely on one means after another, such a person, probably can never understand, love, is not the means.
True love is to be touched by sincerity, even if it is black and blue, even if the true feelings can not be exchanged for the same love, it will be indomitable and happy.
Zhou Wen will never be able to do this.
However, the funny thing is that in reality, people like Zhou Wen are often the winners in love. I am sincere, but I can’t get his heart back. But Zhou Wen’s skillful means have deceived me into the game one after another.
I think I lost to Zhou Wen after all. Now that I know I’m no match for him, I can’t stay with him any longer. While
enjoying the moon, Zhou Wen looked at me affectionately. I suddenly hooked Zhou Wen’s neck and kissed his thin lips. Seeing this, the guards on one side retreated to the distance with red faces.
Chou Wen looked at me with a half-smile and said, “It’s been a long time since I’ve had a beautiful woman throw herself into my arms. I’m flattered.”
I reached into his lapel and stroked his wounded chest inch by inch. “Your Majesty deserves this. What’s a kiss worth after racking your brains like this?” There was a flash of consternation on
Zhou Wen’s face. I had smeared the poison in my hand on his wound. In an instant, the colic to the bone swallowed up Zhou Wen.
“What Shen Yao wanted to do but didn’t do, Ling Dang did for her today.” I looked at him in a calm tone.
Chou Wen may have been dizzy with pain, but subconsciously he forgot to call for help. He just looked at me and asked me, “Why?”
I smiled and said, “Perhaps, because the bell is a selfish and indifferent person, I love a person with all my heart, so I want him to love me with all his heart. If I can’t, I don’t want this love.”
Chou Wen’s face was full of pain. “Isn’t it enough for me to do this to you?”
I looked at him jokingly, “Your Majesty has taken me with love and trapped me in Forbidden City all my life. What kind of love is that?”? The bell is leaving, and we’ll see each other forever!
I lifted myself up and left. Zhou Wen grabbed my ankle. I had never seen him so humble and painful in my life. His tears were mixed with the blood from the corners of his mouth, and his voice was hoarse: “No one has ever taught me how to love someone..” If you go, my last bit of softness will be gone.
I broke off his fingers one by one, but he clawed them so hard that I laughed angrily. “What does it matter to me what kind of person Your Majesty will become?”? Let go!
Zhou Wen’s tears gradually could not stop, wronged like a child, I could not see him like this, in a hurry, he took out a dagger and stuck it in his palm.
Zhou Wen probably fainted from the pain, and his fingers finally loosened one by one. I took advantage of the darkness to sneak into the forest. Only one day and one night, I left the Forbidden City that upset me forever.
