This lovesickness is endless
, there is deep sorrow and deep hatred for
Jiang Jing. Later, she went to the inn to find Ah Chu. She saw that Ah Chu and the man behaved intimately. She could see that Ah Chu was somewhat dependent on the man. She was relieved to see that Ah Chu was doing well. She did not say that she married Zhao Ye, nor did she say anything about herself. She thought that’s it, that’s good.
She learned that Ah Chu was anxious to leave, and although she was reluctant to give up, she never left her again. She does not belong to the capital, nor does she belong to the palace. She should stay away from these. She told Ah Chu that if a letter came, it could be sent directly to Guogongfu. She was afraid that Zhao Ye would find that Ah Chu was still alive, which was a disaster for Ah Chu. When
Rong Zhaoyi gave birth, she was a princess. The emperor conferred the title of Princess Jiahe, and Rong Zhaoyi also conferred the title of Concubine Rong. Jiang Jing returned to the palace for a period of time when Rong Fei gave birth. She is some envy of Rong Fei, she likes children very much, but she chose the road in this life, doomed not to have children. She didn’t regret it, but she was envious. When
Jiang Jing learned that Ah Chu was still alive, she no longer resented Zhao Ye. She knew that she didn’t like him all these years. She didn’t care about the trifles in the palace at all. She didn’t have any children. The minister’s memorial to impeach her was flying everywhere. She never paid attention to it. She threw the mess to him. She didn’t know how Zhao Ye handled it. She didn’t have any trouble once.
In fact, she knew that she should not treat Zhao Ye like this, he was good to her, at least to protect her. Whether in the face of Ah Chu or in the face of He Lang, she is always the beneficiary. But whenever she thought of Ah Chu’s death at his hands, she felt resentful. Why should he feel better? All
this disappeared after she learned that Ah Chu was still alive. Jiang Jing was even a little confused, not knowing what she should do next.
She thought that she would die of old age in the palace and live a lonely life. It’s just that whenever she thinks of Ah Chu, it’s her only comfort. When the
imperial concubine gave birth, Zhao Ye approved the last fold in his bedroom, and he planned to rush over after the approval. The result hears the palace person to report, the imperial concubine puerperal is weak, causes the metrorrhagia, now too the hospital is treating. When
he rushed over, the Imperial Physician reported that he was unable to save the day. Her maid came out to see Zhao Ye. “Your Majesty,” she cried, “I beg to see you.”
The palace people were probably going to say how the emperor’s dragon body could enter the filthy place of the delivery room, but Zhao Ye stopped it with an eye knife. After Zhao Ye went in, all the other palace people withdrew.
“Your Majesty..” Because of the massive hemorrhage, Shufei’s whole face was as white as paper, and she was so weak that she spoke like a gossamer.
I am here. What do you want to say, Shu-fei?
“Your Majesty..” She called out to the emperor in a low voice and smiled at the corners of her mouth. “I’m very happy to have a child with the emperor.” Your Majesty, you must be kind to our child in the future. He is still so small and so fragile. Said two lines of tears flow out.
“I will.” Zhao Ye saw that she seemed to be totally worried about the child, and he gave her peace of mind.
“I know that the emperor has a woman in his heart,” she said, thinking that she was going to die anyway, and she decided to be bold this time. She raised her hand and stroked Zhao Ye’s brows. “I don’t know what happened between the emperor and her, but I saw the emperor walking with her on the Lantern Festival that year.”
“Your Majesty, at that time you were full of smiles, unlike later, when you always frowned slightly and were unhappy.” Her hand was a little weak, so Zhao Ye took her hand and said in a low voice, “I’m sorry..”
She shook her head very softly. “Your Majesty, you have treated me very well, and you have given me everything you should..” It’s just, it’s just, Your Majesty, my name is yuan Ching-ching, and that’s my name.
He always called her Shufei Shufei and never kissed her. His heart was as deep as the sea, and that was the swamp she could not get into. In the middle of the night, she also heard him talking in his sleep, whispering in his dreams, Ah Chu.
She had seen that Ah Chu, and she was really lovely. She slowly closed her eyes, with an endless sigh, he remembered her name? She really loved him, and she didn’t want him to know her name.
Her name is Qing Qing.
yuan Qingqing. After the
death of the imperial concubine Shu, the child of the imperial concubine Shu should be raised by the empress because of the insufficient position of Jieyu. Zhao Ye some uncertain Jiang Jing’s mind, learned that Jiang Jing is willing, then let Jiang Jing raise. When you
have a child, the days go by quickly. Something happened
in the middle of it. One thing is that Zhao Ye claimed that when he ascended the throne, he was exempted from the draft. Outside and inside the palace, it was said that the emperor’s body was not as good as before because of the recurrence of old injuries. Those who wanted to send their daughters to the palace heard the news, naturally some other calculations, although the emperor is in the prime of life, but what if?
Jiang Jing knew that the news was released by the emperor. Another thing is that the emperor accused the Pei family. It was a banquet in the palace that year, with singers dancing, veiled and graceful.
Just the moment the dancer turned her head, both Zhao Ye and Jiang Jing froze.
Those eyebrows and eyes look like Ah Chu. With cold and alienated, she did not look at Zhao Ye, only dancing her own dance, eyes cold, as if not concerned about everything around this.
Zhao Ye went straight to the woman and forgot to put down the wine glass in his hand. Jiang Jing’s heart beats like thunder, she is really afraid that it is Ah Chu, if that is Ah Chu, Jiang Jing dare not think about it.
Gu Murong looked at Zhao Ye’s gaffe, she was very confused, she had never seen the emperor so. He walked up to her step by step, his eyes focused and full of disbelief and love. The love, with hope, was burning up little by little, and was about to swallow up the dancer.
He lifted her veil. It was a strange face. The disappointment is as great as the
hope.
And who figured out what he was thinking? And who knows that he loves Ah Chu? Zhao Ye threw the wine cup on the ground and left with the king’s anger.
And then asked the Pei family.
Jiang Jing did not know the whole story, she guessed that perhaps the emperor had long wanted to move the Pei family, perhaps because the singer was arranged by the Pei family?
It had been four years since the death of Shu Fei. Gu Murong came to look for her in a hurry. In the past, they did not see each other, but later, because they had children and were about the same age, they often moved around and said some homely words.
Jiang Jing sees Gu Murong some anxious appearance, then asks her how.
Zhao Ye only has this pair of children, quite indulgent. He did not lay down many rules for them to observe, and there were few people in the palace, so it was a peaceful place to get along with them. Golden Harvest is a noisy, Zhao Ye has been living in his own bedroom since he was exempted from the draft, and seldom comes to the harem. Jiahe was fond of playing, so he often went to find his father.
She did not know how to know Zhao Ye that chamber of secrets, that day unexpectedly opened the chamber of secrets, playing inside. When Gu Murong came to look for her, he saw that the secret room was full of portraits of women, lying or standing, riding horses and playing with swords, but they were all for the back or profile, and the paintings were not real. When
she was in a daze, Jiahe did not know where to get a dagger. The scabbard outside the dagger was made of leather and inlaid with precious stones, which was very delicate. Jiahe took it directly to the charcoal that warmed his hands, and the scabbard soon burned up. When
Gu Murong hurriedly took it out, the skin of the scabbard had been scalded into a big hole, and the whole edge had been burned black. She saw that the secret room seemed to be filled with objects related to Lin Chu, and she already understood that Jiahe had made a big mistake.
Thinking about it, she wanted the queen to say a few words for her. She had ordered it to be remade to size, but she was still afraid.
Jiang Jing had seen Ah Chu with this dagger, and she knew it. She thought that Zhao Ye would not care about anything with a child, not to mention that he and Rong Fei had children, and there was always a relationship between husband and wife. If he hadn’t let go of Ah Chu, how could he have had a child with someone else?
She only saw Rong Fei’s wry smile.
Gu Murong thought of that day, she saw the emperor always heart knot, she began to wonder, he and Lin Chu in the end what kind of past, let him so hard to let go? He had two long, deep scars on his
left shoulder, and when she asked him where he got them, he was silent.
On that day, the moon was bright and the stars were rare. He stood in the courtyard. The moonlight stretched his shadow and made him more desolate. He bowed his head and said in a low voice, “Today is the anniversary of her death.”. It has been eleven years since she left me.
“I can only remember her in this way. If she were still alive, she would be the mother of my child.”
Gu Murong noticed that the emperor called himself me at this time. He looked at the moon and a tear came out of the corner of his eye. Only that drop, as if it weighed a thousand pounds, fell into her heart.
She began to understand that he and she were inseparable, and there was no space or gap for others.
“How did she die?”
“I am tired.” Then he left. When she got up the next morning, she asked the servant girl to put away the oil she had used to wipe her hair. The servant girl seemed puzzled. “Didn’t the empress say that she had to prepare carefully for her bed?”? Why should I put it away?
“The emperor won’t come again,” she added after a pause. “Anyway, it won’t be needed any more.”
She thought that it was probably the most painful thing for a man or a woman to perform the ceremony of the Duke of Zhou with a person she did not love. She understood the emperor’s mood, she also understood that the emperor should not touch her again, she did not want to like the emperor any more.
His heart was too full to hold her.
She thought she was lucky enough to be pregnant. With Jiahe, her life is more relaxed, there is no palace gate as deep as the sea, there is no competition for favor, there is no struggle, she will live with Jiahe.
Zhao Ye did not make a sound for a long time after he learned that the scabbard of the dagger had been destroyed. Gu Murong had no idea and was very nervous. After a long time, I heard him say lightly, “It’s all right.”. Only Don’t ever let Jiahe go in and out of my bedroom again. The stone in
Gu Murong’s heart fell to the ground. Zhao Ye held the dagger and felt a little sad. It was the only gift that Ah Chu gave him. Other girls gave him purses or sachets, but she was so different that she gave him a dagger the first time.
Now that the scabbard of the dagger had been destroyed, he just felt sad. Of course, he would not haggle with Jiahe, she is only a four-year-old child, but his heart eventually gave birth to some sad, is, in the dark, his only connection with Ah Chu, will also be cut off here?
His head began to ache, and he thought of what Ah Chu had said when he went. How can
he be reconciled?
Why did the dark guard get the information wrong? Why did he get stuck and not go to the appointment in those days? If he had said he was the prince at the beginning, would everything be different. Has
he ever been reconciled.
Just, what can you do if you are unwilling? What can you do if you are unwilling? Chu left early, leaving him alone in the world to do so many things he had to do!
He was born a prince, but he can’t be free for a moment!
Lin Chu rode all the way south, stop-and-go, and spent several years. Although she often comforted herself, she felt that perhaps her mother was not dead, and she should go to look for her. She just went everywhere and helped many people when she saw injustice on the road. She gradually felt that this was the case. She no longer embarrassed herself. She wants to live well, no matter whether her mother is dead or not, she should cherish her life and live for her mother and her father.
Revenge. The queen is dead. As for Zhao Ye, it is obviously impossible for her to seek revenge now, so she can only forget it.
She couldn’t forgive, she couldn’t kill, so she had to let it go. But she thought she had put it down, but she did not know that, after all, she had planted a knot in her heart, which was so tight and dense that she thought she had put it down, but in fact she had closed the door of her heart and no one could enter.
She went to the house her mother had bought, which was the place her mother had decorated with her own hands. It was a small town, which was quite close to the former West Vietnam. It was a small town of frontier fortress, but now it was not a frontier fortress. Her mother told her that it was her hometown.
She came to live here for a period of time, probably not adapted to the climate here, and began to have nosebleeds frequently. At first she did not care, but after a long time, the flow was more and more, and she was often distressed about it. She went to see the doctor, but the doctor was helpless. At last the doctor said, “There is a miraculous doctor outside the city who specializes in treating difficult and complicated diseases, but he is a little eccentric and doesn’t avoid taking precautions against men and women. If you don’t mind, you can go to him and have a try.” On the way there,
Lin Chu thought that sometimes the doctor might have to treat him, but it was also true that he had been transformed. Ten thousand steps back, if he is really a wretched villain, his own martial arts in the body, but also afraid of a small doctor? If he really dares to speak rudely and behave badly, she will let him know how powerful she is. She imagined that the doctor must have a rat’s head and a wretched face. So when she first met Ji Yan, she thought she was in the wrong place.
She did not expect that Ji Yan would be so young. Look not a few years older than her, even have the name of a miracle doctor. He was thin, his eyebrows were deep, his clothes were fluttering, he was independent, and he looked like a banished immortal. Lin Chu was a little confused. Where did the rumor come from?
“Is the girl here to see a doctor?”
“Well, my nose has been bleeding a lot lately.”
The man didn’t talk to her too much. He asked her to look up at her nose and asked her, “How long has this been going on?”
“About a month.”
The man wrote down the prescription with a few strokes and said, “It’s not a big problem.”. You can take this medicine a few times, but I don’t have any of the medicinal herbs here for the time being. Tomorrow you go with me to the mountains to collect them, and you can stay here tonight.
What? Lin Chu couldn’t believe his ears? Not here. Not in any other pharmacy? The man seemed to see her doubts and said, “Don’t worry. If I say no, there must be no other place.”. You’ll just stay and wash up that pile of dishes, or you won’t be cured.
Lin Chu looked at the pile of dishes piled up, and she was a little speechless. But she thought that he was a little strange, and there was nothing suspicious about him.
Lin Chu washed the pile of dishes, and Ji Yan cooked dinner. Have to say, Ji Yan really cook a good dish, Lin Chu has not tasted such delicious ingredients for a long time.
Ji Yan, who looked like a banished fairy, was a strange man who made people feel disillusioned as soon as he opened his mouth. Lin Chu did not sleep to death at night, so when she heard the noise, she had already held the dagger in her hand, and her eyes flashed cold.
It turned out that Ji Yan had been kidnapped. Lin Chu had no choice but to follow closely, the original is a mountain bandits. Lin Chu had to jump onto the roof to observe what the bandits were going to do.
It turned out to be the dystocia of the Lady of the Stronghold. When the leader of the bandits heard that Ji Yan was a miraculous doctor, he asked him to come and save her. Lin Chu stayed on the roof until it was almost dawn, and the lady of the village gave birth to a big fat boy, and both mother and son were safe. Unexpectedly, the ringleader suddenly changed his face and ordered people to tie up Ji Yan and kill him the next day. The reason is very simple, because Ji Yan looked at his wife’s body. Today is his son’s birthday, he does not kill, but Ji Yan will not live tomorrow. Lin Chu is a little angry, she wants to find a way to save Ji Yan out, Ji Yan is a good doctor, this bandit leader is really unreasonable!
Ji Yan was locked up in the woodshed. She managed to deceive people and prepare to quietly take Ji Yan away, but when Ji Yan saw her, his eyes lit up and he shouted, “Girl, are you here?”
Even Lin Chu was locked up in the woodshed together. Lin Chu was so angry that she had never seen such a stupid person. She came to save him with good intentions. He didn’t know how to fight at all. Who would have thought that he would shamelessly say, “With a beautiful woman like this to accompany me to the afterlife, I won’t regret my death.”
“If you want to die, stay away from me. My life is very precious.” Lin Chu has no good airway.
“Why, regret it?” Lin Chu looked at Ji Yan laughing out of the eight big teeth, really want to go down and knock him unconscious.
She still discussed the countermeasures with Ji Yan, let Ji Yan attract the attention of the gatekeeper, she took advantage of his distraction to knock him down, here is very close to the stable, Ji Yan said he had powder, they grabbed the horse can rush all the way out.
She thought Ji Yan had a good way to attract the attention of the bandits, but she heard the fellow say, “Little brother, I have something good here. How about it? Do you want it?”? Absolutely good stuff, he said, taking out a packet of medicine. No medicine? Then I have another good thing, “he said, fumbling for a long time and taking out another bag of medicine.” How about it? It’s an absolute treasure. Make sure you have the help of God when you look for flowers and willows. “
Lin Chu really has three black threads on his head.”. She felt in her heart that this man was really cynical and had a tight skin.
Lin Chu knocked the boy unconscious to the ground. The two of them quickly found the stable, Ji Yan said he could not ride a horse, Lin Chu let him hold her waist. The bandits have already found out that it will take some time for them to break out. Ji Yan opened the medicine and told Lin Chu, “You ride a horse with one hand. I’ll give you this. If you scatter the powder, they won’t be able to chase us.”
Lin Chu is a neat, Wen Yan a medicine bottle in his hand, while riding a horse while very quickly out of the wind. The two of them finally escaped from the bandits’ den on horseback.
Little girl, you are so young and your hands are so black that you have sprinkled all the powder. But I like this style, and I like those who have a good heart and a dark hand.
Lin Chu was busy on his way and did not want to talk to him. He was really cheeky, nagging all the way: “Girl, where did you learn to be so good at martial arts?”? What’s your name? Where does your family live? Let’s make friends.
Lin Chu could not bear it any more and finally stopped in the mountain path. She glanced coldly at Ji Yan and looked at him like a dog. Why did he talk so much? This pair of skins is simply blind with him, it is really a waste of natural resources, it is really disillusioned!
“I forgot to tell you that the powder you just sprinkled can make people’s skin rash and itchy. I think you accidentally got some of it on your body when you sprinkled it.” Chi-yen has an innocent look on her face, and Lin Chu says that no wonder she feels a little itchy all the time. “Antidote,” she says.
This.. I have it, but I’m still at the foot of the mountain. This medicine works quickly. You can wash it with water. There’s a lake just ahead of us.
Lin Chu clenched his fist and wanted to hit someone. She still restrained herself, after all, she wanted to save people, she chose, do not blame him, do not blame him. Without a word, Lin Chu took off his clothes, shoes and socks, and plunged into the water. Originally, it was nothing, but she had a whole set of clothes from top to bottom, which was just a middle dress. At this time, Ji Yan pretended to shout beside her: “Girl, it’s not suitable. Girl, it’s not suitable for you.”
Shut up! If you call again, I will knock you unconscious and leave you here.
Ji Yan shut up. He looked at Lin Chu not like the general woman coy, is a straightforward and neat, a moment of fun, decided to tease her. He is a doctor, still be good at department of gynaecology, always some brains are not clear, he cured a disease for the person, be scolded by the family even conversely. This little girl is very skillful in martial arts. If she can be accepted to join him in Jianghu, she will never be afraid of trouble again! After
Lin Chuyou went ashore, he was all right. She was a little worried that the bandits would come after her, so she stopped talking nonsense and put on her clothes and still ran down the hill with Ji Yan. When they arrived at Jiyan’s house, a woman was waiting anxiously for Jiyan with a child in her arms. It turned out that the child had a high fever and vomited all the medicine he drank. The woman was worried that the child would have an accident.
Ji Yan did not talk nonsense at the moment, and took the child into the room for immediate inspection. When Lin Chu saw his earnest appearance, she thought that his mouth was a little bad, and that he had both medical ethics and medical skills, and that she had done a good thing to save him. After
seeing the child, Ji Yan looked at Lin Chu again with a cheeky smile and said, “Girl, I’m sure I’ll take good care of your illness.”. Only But girl, you see, this mountain bandit already knows where I live. My medical skill is very high, girl, you are so kind, you can’t bear to see me being hacked to death by mountain bandits, can you? If I die, someone else will have a headache, a brain fever, a difficult and complicated disease..
“What are you trying to say?” Lin Chu saw him around and around, is not to say the point, impatient, she actually guessed the point, this Ji Yan is not to protect him all the time?
“Hey, hey, hey,” Ji Yan laughed. “Look at the girl. Just now you jumped into the lake. I also looked at the girl’s body. I am an honest man. I will be responsible for the girl. I am twenty-four years old and I am not married yet. Ji Yan shut his mouth when Lin Chu took out a dagger and put it on his neck.
“Nonsense! This girl’s dagger doesn’t have eyes.” Can
you take me in for a while? I’m afraid the bandits will make trouble for me.
Lin Chu was speechless again. I treat
your illness, and I don’t charge for it. How about you take me in for a while, so we don’t owe each other?
“Mount up.”
Lin Chu himself did not understand why he promised Ji Yan. She was not afraid of the bandits, and the bandits could not find her. She thought that Ji Yan was a doctor after all, and that he always cured the sick and saved the people. It was easy for her to take him in for a while. Anyway, there were a lot of empty rooms in the house, so she could just give him one to live in. Her mother once said to her, the doctor benevolence, in this world, the doctor is a great, what’s more, he does not shy away from men and women, she also knows that he saved the village lady mother and son, he is innocent, he should not be treated like this. After
Lin Chu took Ji Yan back to his residence, Ji Yan stayed here. In fact, he is an all-rounder. He not only has excellent medical skills, but also cooks well, paints well and writes well. But whenever he asked Lin Chu something, Lin Chu did not want to say a word more.
Ji Yan was sentimentally attached to the days when he was with Lin Chu. Although he had excellent medical skills, his parents went there early. It was after that that he learned from his teacher and studied medicine in the mountains. It’s just that he looks like a strange man to the world.
He has treated many people, the old, the sick, the disabled, women, children and children. Some people left with a thousand thanks, while others were too ill to be carried to him. Although he tried his best, he could not be rescued. He was pointed at the nose and scolded as a liar. At first he was disappointed, but over time he didn’t care. He understood that the master had told him that the so-called doctor should be broad-minded, otherwise he would suffer. As
he grew older, he never thought of marrying and having children. He could not be afraid of rumors, but he thought it would be better not to drag down other girls.
He met Lin Chu, see her bold and neat, he will try his best to lobby every day, let Lin Chu open a hospital with him, in fact, he is not afraid of people making trouble, he just feels too lonely. He wants a friend.
Lin Chu didn’t think about this at first. Being lobbied by Ji Yan, he was also somewhat moved. She had been looking for her mother everywhere, hoping to find a trace of her mother’s shadow, but this was clearly the hope she had planted for herself. What if, what if she really can’t be found again? What should she do? She should always do something meaningful in life.
Lin Chu finally agreed to Ji Yan’s kind invitation. She thought that although she did not know medicine, she could learn some fur to help, and who knew what would happen in the future?
But after all, she is not the same as before. The door of her heart was tightly closed. She did not dare to put too many feelings into this, she knew that Ji Yan took her as a friend, as a family member, although she was good to Ji Yan, but she knew that there was a wound in her heart that was always dull pain, reminding her to protect herself and never get hurt again.
Lin Chu and Ji Yan went to Beijing to buy a batch of medicinal materials, some of which happened to be needed by several sick families in a small town. Ji Yandao finally came to the capital to buy some good materials for Ah Chu to make clothes. Lin Chu thought she went to see her mother, she wanted to say to Ji Yan, but Ji Yan was not in the inn, she thought she would come back soon. When
she saw Jiang Jing, the joy of reunion made her forget everything. She was very happy to see that Jiang Jing was still the same as before, but a little thinner. The next morning, when she saw Ji Yan standing outside the courtyard with an angry face, she was all confused. She did not know how Ji Yan found here, but she looked at his appearance, inexplicably began to panic.
She hurried after him, trying to explain. Unexpectedly, Ji Yan, who has always had a cheeky smile, was particularly serious at the moment: “Lin Chu, you are very good!”! I’ve known you for five years, but I never thought I wouldn’t even be a friend here!
She wants to say that’s not the case. But she opened her mouth and felt that he was right. She had been reminding herself not to fall into love, as if she was preparing for separation at any time.
But now she suddenly understood, Zhao Ye is Zhao Ye, Ji Yan is Ji Yan. She shouldn’t put all her feelings into prison because she was cheated once.
Ji Yan scolded angrily as he walked, “Lin Chu, you supercilious wolf, you really wasted Lao Tzu’s painstaking efforts. Even a piece of elm pimple should be enlightened for so long.”. As he walked, he secretly waited for Lin Chu to catch up, and this time he must make Lin Chu aware of him! Yes! Heavy! Want! Sex!
He walked for a while and found that Ah Chu had not followed him. He was a little upset. Did he lose him? He clearly hinted all the way, throwing a cloth here and a small medicine bottle there, and then he could only tear up his clothes.
Ji Yan wanted to go back to find Ah Chu, but as soon as he gritted his teeth, he insisted on treating Lin Chu, who had no conscience! He returned to the inn in anger and found Lin Chu waiting for him in his room, pitifully.
He was a little softhearted, but there was no mercy in his mouth: “Why do you come to me?”? From now on, the bridge will be the bridge, and the road will be the road. They are not related to each other.
Lin Chu was not very good at quarreling with people, nor was she very good at comforting people. She could only say pitifully, “Ji Yan, I didn’t mean it. I..”
Not on purpose? Lin Chu, every time I ask you about the past, you always avoid the important and dwell on the trivial. I don’t insist on this. Everyone has his own past and secrets. I just thought I’d be nice to you. At least we’re friends. But what about you? What do you take me for? If you want to leave, you won’t leave me a letter. Do you know how I felt when I didn’t see you come back until it was dark last night? Do you know how long it took me to find you? What do you take me for? What is our friendship in the past few years? I, Chi-yen, am just an afterthought to you, aren’t I? The more Ji Yan said, the more angry he became, and he kicked over a chair beside him.
When Lin Chu saw him like this, he did not know how to open his mouth. In fact, later she had thought about telling Ji Yan everything, because she got along with him day and night, she was always a little dependent on him. She knew everything about him, but he only knew her name, only her name.
But how does she open her mouth? She used to be a princess, and what kind of blood feud did she bear? Or did she trust Zhao Ye wholeheartedly and finally be cheated thoroughly?
Ji Yan sees Lin Chu does not speak for a long time, in the heart is more angry, even if she admits a mistake to coax him a few words to also go? Is she so stubborn? The more he thought about it, the more angry he became. He blackened his face and told Lin Chu to go out.
Lin Chu saw that he looked serious, not like a joke, and went out sobbing. When Ji Yan saw that she had no vision and was really going out, he felt that Lin Chu was a piece of rotten wood: “I let you go and you just left?”? Are you so obedient? When
Lin Chu heard him say this, he knew that he had forgiven her, but his face was still smelly. Her heart began to be filled with a burst of grievance, so that she could not help crying. What is she crying for? She is crying for herself who was deceived when she was young.
After all, the experience changed her. She thought she could survive with her tenacity. In fact, she did survive, but she was changed.
She was afraid to enter a new relationship. She didn’t even dare to invest in the most basic friendship. She used to trust her friends so much. The more
Lin Chu thought about it, the more sad he felt, and tears fell down. Ji Yan saw her crying and reflected on whether he had said too much. He had been with Ah Chu for five years and had never seen her cry.
“Okay, okay, I’m not angry anymore. Don’t cry.” Ji Yan comforted her with a soft tone. “You sit here and I’ll wipe your face with a veil.”
When Ah Chu saw that he was still treating her as before, she hugged Ji Yan and burst into tears like Jiang Jing. She didn’t know why, but she just wanted to cry.
She missed her young and high-spirited self, her interesting and amusing mother, but she would never see her mother again, and she herself had changed. You’re the one who
did the wrong thing, but you’re still crying so sadly. You were born in the year of the pig, and you’re used to making a counter-charge. Don’t blame me if your eyes are swollen from crying. Lin Chu cried for half an hour before slowly stopped, Ji Yan saw her mood calmed down a lot, looking at her as usual to tease her.
Lin Chu smiled through tears. What did it matter, she thought, whether she told him about her past? They would be together, they would always be together. Now was what mattered.
Norihiko, you are my friend, really, always. I didn’t expect to be delayed for a long time when I went out yesterday. I was so excited to meet an old friend that I forgot to tell you.
An old friend? Which old friend?
“a former close friend.”
“What close friend?”
“Just a close friend..”
“You’re obviously acting shamelessly..” The sunshine
outside the window came in, and the whole room was covered with gold. It was a sunny day outside the house.
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When Zhao Yu was eleven years old, Zhao Ye made him crown prince. Zhao Yu’s temperament is calm, although Jiang Jing raised, but more like Shu Fei, he consciously, study hard. Zhao Ye looked at him and felt in a trance as if he had seen himself when he was young.
At that time, he used to work so hard, but he would only be forced by his mother to work harder and be better. He always felt that he could never meet his mother’s demands, and his father’s expectations of him were very high. Although he was outstanding enough among the princes, he was still treading on thin ice every day, fearing that he would make a mistake and become the laughing stock of others.
Fortunately, he survived one by one. Until he met Ah Chu, she is a crisp dare to think dare to do, some impulsive and reckless, he also asked her, is not afraid of mistakes? “If I’m wrong, I’m wrong,” she said naturally. “I’ve learned my lesson. I’ll know what to do next time.”? Thinking too much will tie your hands and feet.
It was the freedom and freedom he had never experienced, the existence he had been trying to suppress and ignore.
He sometimes let Zhao Yu not have to work so hard, can play properly. Zhao Yu, who was young, had a lot to think about. He asked Zhao Ye, “Father, you deal with political affairs every day. If you have a headache and can’t solve it, what should you do?”
He answered him patiently, “There are also ministers. You can listen to their advice, but don’t listen to one side and believe one side. Take multiple views.”. There are many talented people in the Central Plains, and there are imperial examinations, so you have to focus on this area and select real capable people and wise men.
“Father, do you have any problems that you couldn’t solve even if you were the emperor?” When
Zhao Ye heard this, he was silent. “Of course,” he said
slowly. You must remember that even if you are born a king, you will have to. Sometimes you have to do it, but sometimes you have to remember not to force it. When
Zhao Yu was eighteen years old, the Imperial Physician diagnosed that Zhao Ye was thinking too much, depressed in his heart, and had a tendency to run out of oil. Zhao Ye himself is very calm, Jiang Jing looked at Zhao Ye, feel that he is also a poor man.
She knows the knot in his heart. He always thought that he had killed Ah Chu himself, even if it was not his intention. He could not throw everything away, accept all the responsibilities that belonged to him, and shoulder the burden of the emperor, but he blamed himself every day and could not let go.
She didn’t know what had happened between him and Ah Chu. She had thought that Zhao Ye had put it down when Zhao Ye favored Rong Fei and Shu Fei. Later, she knew that Zhao Ye had never forgotten for a moment.
Chu’s birthday. He remembers it every year.
Jiang Jing looked at him day after day to indulge in the past, she can not tell Zhao Ye Ah Chu is not dead, they can only comfort Zhao Ye put down Ah Chu.
Zhao Ye was silent for a long time, and finally spoke in a low voice: “Jiang Jing, I can’t remember what she looks like.”. I remember every part of her features clearly, but I can’t remember what she looks like. She won’t forgive me. I know she won’t forgive me.
Jiang Jing never talked to him about Ah Chu again. It was a wound in his heart that had never healed, a dungeon from which he could not escape all his life.
Zhao Ye knew that his time was running out, so he began to promulgate the last reform in his life. He knows that people accept that change is always gradual. He abolished women’s precepts and virtues, encouraged people to let women study, changed customs, and gradually began to marginalize the boundaries between men and women.
At first, it is very difficult to implement. There were also ministers in the court who strongly opposed it, just as he had announced that he would no longer draft. He asked Jiahe to take the maid out of the palace, and let the daughter of the minister and the princess go out to play in women’s clothes, without having to wear a hat or just stay in the carriage. At the same time, public security patrols should be strengthened to avoid worries. After a
long time, those women who are as bright and lively as flowers finally do not have to abide by etiquette and other people’s eyes, and go out easily. The capital is crowded with people, and those fresh women no longer have to restrain themselves.
Zhao Ye in the last time of life, invited Jiang Jing, they go to the northwest together, to see He Lang. Along the way
, they became really familiar with each other like old friends for many years. Jiang Jing has no chance to leave the capital, she went to the northwest, but also really appreciate the desolation and grandeur of the desert. He Lang’s monument stands very well, presumably Zhao Ye has been sent to take care of it. In
the prairie is always unable to avoid the horse race, they only looked at a group of people in the distance horse race, the leader of the woman dressed in white, horse kung fu is very handsome, won a lot of applause. They are far away, can only see probably, Zhao Ye heart way, from him here, to Zhao Yu’s child ascended the throne, presumably this middle of the praise and enlightenment, the folkway of the Central Plains can also become so enlightened. On their way
back, they passed a small courtyard. The door of the courtyard was open. In the courtyard, there should be paintings that had just been painted, hanging to dry ink. There was nothing strange about it, but the person in the painting looked like Ah Chu. In the
painting, a woman is riding a horse. She is dressed in white, her hands are holding the reins tightly, and her hair is blown high and scattered in the wind. But the woman’s face casually a few strokes, not real, but outlined the woman’s cold temperament, it seems that there is no nostalgia for this earthly world, with the horse to the heart of the place to run.
Zhao Ye wanted to buy the painting. He painted a lot, but he couldn’t paint this cold and dusty look. He stood at the gate of the small courtyard for a long time, but no one was there. Instead, a girl about eight or nine years old came out and asked him what he was doing. The girl had a heroic look on her face and replied politely, “It was painted by my father, but my father went to watch my mother race horses.” When
Zhao Ye heard this, he lowered his head and said with a smile, “That’s unfortunate. Then forget it.”. Your father paints very well. I’ll take my leave. Then he left.
Back in the carriage, Zhao Ye seemed to be in a better mood and mentioned Ah Chu to Jiang Jing: You must have seen Ah Chu’s horsemanship. I taught her horsemanship myself. She was young at that time, and when I taught her, she thought she was not doing well, but in fact I was playing tricks on her. I deliberately lied to her about where she was not doing well, so that I could have an excuse to make an appointment to meet next time.
It was the first time Jiang Jing heard Zhao Ye take the initiative to mention Ah Chu, she listened quietly, did not make a sound to interrupt him. She thought, maybe he wasn’t talking to her, he just needed the same person to talk to, to talk about Ah Chu. She looked at Zhao Ye’s relaxed expression, mentioned that Ah Chu’s face was full of pride and satisfaction, her heart began to give birth to a faint worry, Zhao Ye is now so calm, is it true that time is running out? But she didn’t look at him like he was going to die.
He continued, “She is the cleverest one, crisp and flexible.”. She fought with the King of Xiyue on the battlefield and fell behind. When she fell off the cliff, she dragged the King of Xiyue down with her. I was a little far away from her, and when I saw her fall, I jumped too, but she saved me. He paused, and the expression on his face became gentle. He recalled that later, Ah Chu was very moved by this and asked him if he was afraid. How could he be afraid? The only thing he was afraid of at that time was that she was washed away by the current or fell off the cliff and died.
Just, just..
After all, life and death are boundless, and we will never meet again. The man
he was willing to protect with his life died at his hands.
Zhao Ye thought of this, suddenly vomited a mouthful of blood, then fainted. Jiang Jing ordered people to rush all the way back to the palace. Zhao Ye woke up and slept all the way. She saw with her own eyes that Zhao Ye’s body was declining rapidly and even his hair had lost its luster.
Some people grow old from outside to inside, while others begin to decline from inside to outside.
Zhao Ye lies on his bed, he knows that he is dying, he recalls his life, in addition to Ah Chu, he has nothing to worry about and remember. Except that he didn’t protect Ah Chu, he tried his best to protect everyone around him.
He recalled that he always felt that he had no relaxed moments, except for the moments when he stayed with Ah Chu, she had such magic. He did not build a mausoleum extravagantly before his death. He only said that he would save the silver to avoid a year’s tax. In fact, he did not want to be buried in the mausoleum at all.
He wanted to go to the bamboo forest, which was next to Ah Chu. But he thought that she might not want to see him at all, and that Zhao Yu would be impeached by many memorials, so he let it go.
It’s his life. He deserves it.
At night he struggled to get up and put the dagger under his pillow. One day he couldn’t get up. He could reach out and touch it. There seemed to be everything between
him and Ah Chu. They knew each other when they were young, they were childhood sweethearts, they knew each other, and they were of the same mind. They also went through life and death together, and slept together in the same bed.
But there’s nothing between them. Not even a decent kiss. The jade hairpin he gave her was thrown to the ground and smashed by her. The dagger was the only one between them, but even the scabbard was burned black.
He lay and watched the sun rise slowly, and Zhao Yu rushed over in the morning. He looked at Zhao Yu and began to explain the funeral: “After I die, the affairs of the state will be handed over to you.”. We cannot change customs overnight, but we must continue to do so for a long time. In the future, women can be allowed to enter the court as officials, not many, but they must have genuine talent and learning, and have a structure and breadth of mind. When
the late emperors were alive, the political situation in the court was turbulent, and there were quite a few cliques for personal gain. The late emperors wiped them out one by one. When I ascended the throne, it was clear and bright. It didn’t matter if the draft was abolished. It’s just that there are many connections between the former court and the harem, and you have to be careful about everything in the future.
He began to explain other things one by one. “Jiahe is fond of playing. She is used to being free and unrestrained. If you want to find a son-in-law in the future, you must be in love with her. Only in this way can you last long.”
Empress and Concubine Yung, you must remember to visit them more often, and don’t let them feel lonely and lonely in their old age. There are fewer people in the palace now, but in the future there will be more. As he spoke, he suddenly coughed again. After a pause, he went on to explain, “As for your mother, her mother’s family is the Jiang family.”. After she is a hundred years old, no matter what method you use, don’t bury her with me. You can listen to her when the time comes.
Let her come and go freely, she is the person that he Lang likes, he marries her to protect her only, but the afterlife underground, he wants to let her restore the body of freedom.
He thought about it and felt that he had nothing to say. He took out the dagger from his pillow and held it. He thought he should see Ah Chu soon.
He was a little timid, he thought, and Ah Chu didn’t want to see him.
In the last few days of Zhao Ye’s lingering illness, Jiang Jing often wanted to tell Zhao Ye that Ah Chu was not dead, and her reason would keep reminding her that he had a murderous heart that day. She did not know how Ah Chu survived, nor did she know what had happened between them, but she could not risk it.
Finally she thought of that day Zhao Ye talked about Ah Chu’s expression, so tender and gentle, she thought she still told him when he was dying, but his heart knot. When she rushed over, Zhao Ye had closed his eyes and lay there peacefully, but he was still holding the dagger tightly in his hand. Although it was worn out, the blade was still shining with cold light and should be carefully wiped and played with.
Zhao Ye didn’t know why he was in a flower field. He wondered if he was dead. How could he look at the world so clearly, but he couldn’t move.
He seemed to be attached to the flower and was carried all the way to the room. He saw a woman in a yellow shirt combing her hair with her back to him. He was trapped and could not see the woman’s face.
The woman bowed her head and began to hum again. It was not clear, but he felt very familiar with it. For a moment, he could not remember where he had heard it.
He was again carried to the bridle. This time he saw her face, and it was Ah Chu whom he missed day and night!
She was a little whiter than before, and her face was full of smiles, not as cold and alienated as before. She seemed to have just got up and was dressing up.
Zhao Ye looked at her greedily.
Suddenly a man appeared. He looked at her with a smile and began to thrush for her.
It was a scene that Zhao Ye had imagined countless times.
Zhao Ye felt that he began to fall and quickly hit the ground uncontrollably.
It turned out that he was just a dewdrop on the flower.
He fell down quickly and spread out on the ground, ending the hurried but satisfied glance.
Everything goes back to the dust.
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