The prince was forced to marry my
youth: Fireworks are easy to be cold. It
is known that the prince likes the jade brocade girl of the Oriental family,
but he was forced to marry me, the southern barbarian princess. On the night of the
wedding, the prince lifted the veil with a cold face and said, “Yun Zhaozhao, since you have married Dazhou, you should learn the rules of Dazhou. Don’t bring your barbarians to Dazhou.”
As if I wanted to get married, I was a little angry, but I bowed my head and aimed at his tiger’s mouth.
The prince looked at me in disbelief, and I rolled onto the bed as fast as I could, and shrank into the corner. Not to be outdone, I stared back: “If you don’t like it, bite me!” I can
see that he doesn’t want to bite me. He wants to beat me.
Perhaps the royal family of Dazhou was really better educated, and the prince’s fists loosened and tightened, tightened and loosened, and finally he just shouted, “Heng Niang!”! Is this the rule you teach?
Prince, calm down! The prince calmed his anger! Heng Niang knelt on the ground and kept begging for mercy, almost breaking her head.
I couldn’t bear to stand in front of her. “Heng Niang is mine. You can’t bully her.”
Li Huaishan sneered, “Even you are mine. I can do whatever I want, not to mention this little slave.”
How could anyone be so overbearing? I was so angry that my teeth itched. “I’m the Crown Princess, and you can’t bully me!” Then
I realized that this was Dazhou, not Nanzhao. The girls in Nanzhao were free to marry, and they could not go on and divorce, but Dazhou only divorced his wife. By
the way, Dazhou’s men can also have three wives and four concubines.
Li Huaishan’s eyebrows jumped and he said ferociously, “Do you think I can?”! Somebody! Drag Heng Niang down and punish her with a stick for thirty years!
If you really let him go down with thirty sticks, Heng Niang’s ass must blossom!
Seeing that several eunuchs were coming to drag Heng Niang, I clung to her. “How dare you!”! Li Huaishan, if you dare to beat Heng Niang, when the Oriental girl marries in, I will bully her every day!
Li Huaishan smiled and pulled me up with his collar. I struggled to hold Heng Niang, but he was tall and had long hands and feet. I couldn’t even touch the corner of Heng Niang’s clothes. I watched her being dragged down.
‘Ah! Prince, forgive me. Um. Prince, spare my life. The prince calmed down his anger.. Outside the
gate, the muffled sound of the board touching the meat mixed with Heng Niang’s shrill plea for mercy. I was so frightened that I shrank my neck. I clearly realized that Li Huaishan was not my father. He said that beating people would really beat them.
The eunuchs and palace maids were kneeling on the ground. No one would plead for me, and no one would help me. I
don’t even know when I started to cry. I tugged at the corner of Li Huaishan’s coat. “Li Huaishan …” Whoo. I know I’m wrong. Will you let Heng Niang go? Please..
Li Huaishan just looked coldly out of the hall, his eyes dark and serene. “Yun Zhaozhao, remember, Dazhou is not your southern convocation. Since you are married, you must abide by the rules of Dazhou, three obediences and four virtues, and help your husband and teach your children.” Outside
the hall, Heng Niang’s voice became weaker and weaker.
I don’t know what the three obediences and four virtues are, but I know that if I don’t listen to Li Huaishan, Heng Niang will be killed. It doesn’t matter how
he bullies me, but I can’t let him bully Heng Niang. Heng Niang accompanied me to marry from Nanzhao, and she had nothing.
Mmm! I remember that from now on I will abide by the rules of the Great Chou, three obediences and four virtues, and help my husband and teach my children.
Li Huaishan looked down at me, wiped the tears from my face with his thumb, then bent down to pick me up and walked to the bedside.
I was afraid, but I didn’t dare to back down.
Mother said that in Dazhou, I can’t take my husband too seriously. As long as he doesn’t exist, everything will be better.
I silently read that Li Huaishan did not exist, watched the candle slowly extinguish, and finally stayed up until the next day. The prince
of Dazhou had to go to court before dawn every day, and I, the crown princess, had to get up early together to pay homage to the emperor and the empress, and I couldn’t even look at Heng Niang.
Sister said that being a bride was shy and sweet, but when I saw Li Huaishan, I only felt afraid. Like Li Huaishan, the emperor
of Dazhou always has a cold face and is very serious, but the empress is very gentle. She is the best person I have ever seen here.
She pulled me cold and warm, but Li Huaishan looked unhappy.
“The Crown Princess is not yet familiar with the etiquette of the Great Zhou Dynasty, so I will take her back to the Zichen Palace to study, and later I will come to pay my respects to my mother.”
Before going out, a beautiful girl stood outside the gate, very slender and soft, staring at Li Huaishan for a long time, Li Huaishan looked at her, eyes are also unable to extricate themselves for a long time.
I think she is probably an oriental girl.
Mother said that in Dazhou, a man’s other wives were his sisters and could not communicate with each other, but they must be very good on the surface.
So when she saluted, I also returned a gift, but was pulled away by Li Huaishan with a black face.
Marrying to Dazhou is really a very boring thing. I can’t go out of Zichen Palace at will, I can’t play with palace maids, and I can’t dig out birds’eggs and fish.
Li Huaishan either asked me to copy books or pulled me to sleep, and he never gave me a good look.
The only good thing is that Heng Niang is slowly getting better and can walk on the ground.
In June, the weather is getting hotter and hotter, I began to eat, every day, but everyone in Zichen Palace is very happy, only Heng Niang looked at my eyes full of worries.
Because Li Huaishan is going to marry the side imperial concubine, that is, the girl of the Oriental family.
He never let the maid play with me, but if the Oriental girl entered the door, the maid could always accompany me. I
think so, but my heart is always a little stuffy.
Soon, the Zichen Hall was decorated with lanterns and colored streamers, and the Oriental girl, dressed in rosy red, entered the door from the side hall.
I am the Crown Princess. Even if I can’t do anything, I still have to accompany her. I almost can’t even drink water.
Hungry for a day, waiting for the food on the table, see that the table is full of greasy, only feel the stomach churning, but also do not want to eat anything.
But when the Oriental girl came in, she was going to toast me. I drank a mouthful of nausea, and my stomach became more and more nauseous and throbbing. I vomited all over the Oriental girl on the spot.
I was stunned at that time, trying to explain something, and Li Huaishan slapped me in the face. When have
I ever been beaten like this, thinking that I had been busy with his marriage for a whole day and ended up like this, my eyes were red and I rushed back to my room crying.
Heng Niang is still recovering, I am the only one in the empty room, no matter how loud I cry, no one will come to comfort me, they will only point at me, and then cover their mouths and laugh.
It’s like I’m a princess from Nanzhao, and I’m not the same kind as them.
The more I thought about it, the more I felt wronged. I cried all night in my room. I didn’t even accompany the Oriental girl to see the queen the next day.
At daybreak, Heng Niang limped in, held me in her arms and comforted me carefully, singing the songs of Nanzhao to me.
“Heng Niang, I want to go home..”
I never thought of home like that. After
Li Huaishan married his concubine, he never came to Zichen Palace again, and I was not allowed to go to the Oriental Girl. I was so cruel that I learned to plant flowers and grass with Heng Niang.
But I do not have that ability, good flowers and plants in my hands after a circle, it will be.
Later, Heng Niang also thought I was in the way, so she only let me sit by and watch. Just
when I almost thought I was going to be crazy, Li Huaishan asked the little eunuch Zhang Meng to send me a snow-white puppy.
It is only the size of my palm, black eyes, always half open mouth, showing a small pink tongue, hair is very long, very smooth.
I gave it a name, called the little Glutinous Rice Balls.
Small Glutinous Rice Balls is particularly obedient, put there not to let it move to sleep obediently, from now on I fell in love with combing hair and pigtails for it.
But it has a point, determined not to urinate and defecate in the room.
I am more and more tired recently, always oversleep, small Glutinous Rice Balls can not wake me up, will go out to go to the toilet.
This morning I woke up and found that the little Glutinous Rice Balls had disappeared, thinking that it had gone to the toilet without much thought, but near noon, the little Glutinous Rice Balls did not come back.
I was so worried that I grabbed the eunuchs and the palace maids and asked everyone they met. They looked at the hall where the Oriental girls lived and hesitated for a long time, but they could not tell where they were going.
I felt a little bad in my heart and hurried to the Hall of Heart, but was stopped at the door by the maid of honor.
“Crown Princess, the prince is having a siesta with his concubine. Please come back later.”
Who cares if they sleep? All I know is that my little Glutinous Rice Balls is missing. It’s so small that anyone who doesn’t pay attention will step on it.
“can you tell me that my little Glutinous Rice Balls is missing? I can’t find it anywhere, except I haven’t seen it here. I’ll leave after looking around.”
“What the Crown Princess said is funny. Could the Crown Princess have stolen your dog?”
Seeing that she didn’t make sense, I simply pushed her away. In
the main room, the Oriental girl took care of Li Huaishan’s clothes carefully, while at their feet, the palace maid was carefully wiping the remaining blood on the ground.
“You came just in time. Your dog frightened Yujin and I threw it to death.”
Li Huaishan said this when the clouds are light, and even some sense of blame, I can not believe looking at the pool of blood, can not believe that my little Glutinous Rice Balls is so small, how can it frighten the Oriental Jade Brocade.
I came all the way from Nanzhao to get married. I had nothing but this little dog, which accompanied me through all the lonely times. Now, it was killed by Li Huaishan just because of a shock.
“When you raise a dog, take the trouble to teach him more. Don’t let him be as rude as his master.” There seemed to be a hand in
my heart, pulling the flesh on my heart one by one. The pain made me burst into tears, but I couldn’t cry out as before.
I clenched my hand and finally failed to control myself and slapped the prince in the face.
4
Originally I could not protect anything, could not protect Heng Niang, could not protect the small Glutinous Rice Balls, also could not protect myself. For
the first time in my life, I began to resent my father for marrying me to Dazhou and Li Huaishan. After
that slap, I was put under house arrest in the Zichen Palace. I couldn’t walk in the courtyard or talk to Heng Niang. Every day I opened my eyes to an empty room. I felt like I was going crazy. Fortunately
, the little maid who delivered the meal saw my growing belly and called the doctor.
Because of pregnancy, I was temporarily lifted the ban, but looking at the blue sky in the yard, I did not imagine the joy.
Mother always said that her daughter was like her father, so I was afraid that the child in my belly was like me or like him, like I was not smart enough and always suffered losses, like he was too cold-blooded and ruthless. Not long after the news of
pregnancy spread, Li Huaishan came once. He came in a hurry in the middle of the night. He didn’t say a word. He just kissed my forehead, knelt on the ground and put his ears on my belly to listen to the voice of the child.
The child was very filial to me and gave his father a kick in the face on the spot. I suppressed a smile and suddenly felt that it might be good to have a child.
The next day, Li Huaishan asked Zhang Meng to send a puppy over, as white as a small Glutinous Rice Balls, but did not like to stick out his tongue.
It reminds me of a little Glutinous Rice Balls, or rather, my incompetence.
“I don’t want a dog anymore.”
I asked Zhang Meng to return the dog and sat in the yard in a daze.
Probably because of the pregnancy, the eunuchs who used to ignore me became enthusiastic. This was not allowed to eat, that was not allowed to use, this side was not allowed to go, that side was not allowed to go, and I still felt grounded. From time to time, swan geese flew by the
horizon. Heng Niang said that it was a wild goose flying to the south. I thought it would probably pass by Nanzhao, so I wanted it to bring me a letter.
Married these days, wrote a lot of letters home, but did not see a reply, I worried about my father and mother, also do not want to care about them to marry me to Li Huaishan.
But the swan goose flies so high that I can’t catch it. I
heard the palace ladies say that the king of Qin was good at shooting and hunting, so I wanted him to help me catch a wild goose.
He promised very readily, and the next day he asked someone to send the swan goose in. I happily wrote a letter home, but Li Huaishan rushed in and tore my letter home to pieces, even with the swan goose.
“Li Huaishan!” I was so angry that my liver ached, but I would never cry in front of him again.
Li Huaishan took a deep breath, clasped me by the shoulder, and gnashed his teeth. “Yun Zhaozhao,” he said, “do you know what it means for a woman to accept a man’s swan goose in Dazhou?”
I don’t know, all I know is that my connection with home is gone..
“How big a cuckold do you have to put on this palace before you are willing?”
Green hat?
“Then how big a cuckold did you put on me when you married the concubine?”
I pushed Li Huaishan out, closed the door, shrank under the bed, and wept silently on the floor.
This is probably the only place where I can cry freely in the big week. I
couldn’t find the king of Qin to hunt swan geese for me, so I found an old man who raised homing pigeons in the palace and wanted to learn from him to raise pigeons and let them deliver letters. The identity of
Crown Princess is not easy to use in the East Palace, but it is easy to use here in Wang Gonggong, who raises homing pigeons. He respectfully teaches me how to train pigeons.
I was feeding the pigeons when the King of Qin came over.
He is very good-looking, unlike Li Huaishan’s good-looking man, he is more like a beautiful sister, but what he does is particularly unauthentic.
Thinking that he knew about the swan goose but didn’t tell me, I especially didn’t want to talk to him and turned away.
Who would have thought he would stand in front of me, smiling and saying, “Little sister-in-law, don’t you want the swan geese today?” How
dare you mention it!
I was so angry that I wanted to bite him. “You know very well that men can’t send swan geese to women. Why didn’t you tell me?”
Who would have thought he would raise his eyebrows and say, “If you want it, I’ll give it to you, but you didn’t ask if you could take it.”
It’s so bullying!
I can’t argue with him. It’s better to run away. Who knows he won’t let me go.
“Why don’t you tell me what you want the swan goose to do? Maybe I can help.”
In fact, I did not want to talk to him, but he was the first to take the initiative to tell me to help, struggling for a long time, I still told him about the letter home. The King
of Qin said that it was a trivial matter and asked me to write it first. He would send it to me when we met here tomorrow.
I rushed back to Zichen Hall in high spirits. I was so frightened that Heng Niang’s face turned white. She grabbed me and insisted that I walk back slowly.
I have a lot to say to my father and mother, for example, how Li Huaishan bullied me, for example, the palace eunuchs here do not like people, for example.
But as I wrote, the paper was all wet and the words were dizzy.
I wiped my face and pasted the ink all over my face. After thinking about it, I threw away the dozens of pages of “evidence of Li Huaishan’s guilt” and wrote a new one.
My father and mother are all right.
I am all right in Dazhou. The prince is very handsome. The imperial concubine is very beautiful. The king of Qin is very nice. He will send me letters. And the old eunuch in the pigeon house knows a lot. He also teaches me how to raise pigeons.
By the way, I’m pregnant and going to be a mother. I revised
the letter many times, but in the end there were only a few words.
Also do not know when the sky is dark down, Heng Niang said hurt eyes do not let me write again, forced me to go to bed after dinner. As
I ate, she carefully wiped my face, laughing that I was still a child and was going to be a mother.
I looked down at the watermelon belly, in fact, I felt very confused about the fact that I was going to be a mother.
“Heng Niang, where did he come from?”
Heng Niang blushed. “Of course it came out where it went in.”
I think this is too terrible, instantly do not want to have children, but Heng Niang said, this is no regret medicine, not do not want to be able to do not want.
I also wanted to write my fear of giving birth to a child in the letter, but Heng Niang forbade me to touch the pen again and forced me to wash and sleep.
I pretended to be asleep and wanted to wait for Heng Niang to go out and get up secretly, but Heng Niang did not close the door, but said something to people at the door, and finally came back.
“How is the Crown Princess?”
Li Huaishan?
I quickly closed my eyes and pretended to sleep.
Li Huaishan sat on the side of the bed, gently lifted my hair, a hand down my forehead, holding the cheek, gently kissed my forehead, I suddenly felt the hair all over my body stood up.
“Recently I’ve been obsessed with raising pigeons, and I always go to the pigeon house. I’m six months old, but I can’t remember I’m pregnant. I can’t rest assured when I walk.” With a light laugh,
Li Huaishan reached out his hand and touched my stomach, then put his head on it again, so that I didn’t even dare to breathe.
It’s a good thing it wasn’t long, or I almost suffocated.
“I’ll leave first. Take good care of her.”
When Li Huaishan left, I patted myself on the head and thought it must be a dream. Will Li Huaishan come to see me? Still laughing?
No way, no way.
The next day, I got up early, but found that all the letters I wrote last night were missing. I hurried to find Heng Niang, but she didn’t see them, so I had to write a new one.
When I got to the pigeon house, the king of Qin was late. I waited for a long time before he came over black and blue. I couldn’t believe that anyone in the palace dared to beat the king of Qin.
But he said it was the prince who beat him, and I thought it was reasonable. I don’t think it’s strange that
Li Huaishan killed and set fire. After giving
the letter to the king of Qin, I went back to Zichen Palace, because the king’s father-in-law thought I fed the pigeons too fat to fly. In
the Zichen Hall, everyone looked a little melancholy. One of the ladies of the court dilly-dally for a long time before whispering to me, “Empress, the one in the Shen Xin Hall is here.”
Later, I learned that the Oriental girl was also pregnant. I
don’t know why, but the first thing I thought of was the strange behavior of the prince that night.
He would probably kiss her forehead and listen to her belly. If you think
like this, you will feel a little dull in your heart.
Recently, I can always meet the King of Qin in the pigeon house. He is very clever. Even if I don’t say anything, he can guess what I am thinking.
He told me that I must have a son, so that I could beat the Oriental girl.
I also think it’s good to give birth to a son, but not to oppress anyone, and I don’t want my daughter to live her whole life like me. A month
before parturition, I received a reply from my mother. There was a thick stack of
letters telling me how to be a good mother. I
held the letter in my arms, bubbling with beauty, and turned around happily. The king of
Qin smiled helplessly behind me and turned to meet the Oriental girl.
The Oriental girl is not in good health. She hasn’t been out of the house since she was pregnant. Now she doesn’t look very good. She’s always sick.
“My concubine, see the Crown Princess.”
Seeing her salute me, I was so flattered that I quickly helped her up.
The Oriental girl said that the grapes Imperial Garden were ripe and she wanted to invite me to see them together, so I went. The
King of Qin saw that the Oriental girl’s face was stiff, but he also wanted to eat grapes, so he went with us.
The Oriental girl told me that I shouldn’t always be with the King of Qin. It’s not reasonable.
Because I’m married, I can’t be alone with other men.
But I seem to have only one friend, the King of Qin, in the Dazhou Palace.
Imperial Garden grapes are planted near the carp pond, watered with fish dung water, big and round, black like the eyes of a small Glutinous Rice Balls.
I suddenly don’t want to eat grapes, but the Oriental girl wants to eat.
Seeing that she was sick, I had to pick it by myself, so I gave her the string in my hand.
Who knew that the Oriental girl took my hand and suddenly pushed herself hard and fell heavily into the pond. Holding the grapes at a loss,
I quickly shouted for help, but I did not know who tripped and fell in.
It turns out that even if the sun comes out, the water can be so cold.
I could swim, but at this time my feet were cramped
and flustered. Some people jumped into the water one after another. I saw the King of Qin swimming towards me at a high speed and dragged me to the surface of the water with his collar.
On the other side, the prince swam ashore with the Oriental girl in his arms.
The Oriental girl’s face was as pale as paper, and the bottom of her skirt was covered with blood: “My child …” My child..
She touched her stomach with one hand, and her eyes were dull and tearful, as if she had died once. It was clear that
she pulled me into the water, but I couldn’t imagine how it felt without my own child.
I was afraid to cover my stomach, feeling like the whole person immersed in the winter ice water, from inside to outside feel cold.
“Yun Zhao Zhao!” Li Huaishan’s eyes turned red. He stared at me and said, “What did you do?”
I was afraid to shrink behind the king of Qin, the blood all over my body ran to the soles of my feet, and my body was cold.
“Your Royal Highness, I don’t know what the truth is yet. I hope you can calm down. First ask the Imperial Physician to examine the imperial concubine.” For the first time,
I felt that the King of Qin was so tall. He stood in front of me and formed a new world. I could hide in it without fear.
“This is a family matter for the palace. Although the eldest sister-in-law is like a mother, the Crown Princess comes from the southern barbarians and doesn’t understand this, so I ask the King of Qin to pay more attention to discretion.”
They confronted each other for a while, and Li Huaishan carried her back to the bedroom because he was concerned about the Oriental girl’s body. After
he left, I squatted in front of the King of Qin and cried loudly.
“Ah Cho.” The King of Qin covered me with his coat and touched my head, just like I touched my little Glutinous Rice Balls.
“You must have a son so that he can protect you all your life.”
No matter how much I resisted, I still had to go back to Zichen Hall. Heng Niang waited anxiously at the gate of the hall. When she saw the dress, she was stunned.
“Empress, remember, you’re the Crown Princess, and you can’t associate with the King of Qin.”
I am the Crown Princess, so what I like and what is good to me will be far away, right?
I held Heng Niang in my arms for a long time and refused to let go, fearing that one day even she would be lost.
Dropped water once, I poured nothing, that is, the mother’s reply was all wet, the words were dizzy, but the Oriental girl lost her child, listen to the doctor said, she may not be able to bear again in this life.
I think this is her punishment for setting me up, but I think this punishment is too heavy.
Heng Niang forbade me to go out again, of course, the door of Zichen Hall has been locked up, I can not go out.
We hung my mother’s reply in the yard, and she taught me how to make small clothes.
I can’t believe that a child is only so big, and that little dress is not much bigger than my palm. It’s amazing to
think that such a little one will grow as tall as me in the future.
That night, the baby was always noisy in my stomach. I felt so uncomfortable that I couldn’t sleep. I wanted to eat the plum of Nanzhao.
I want to eat for a long time, in front of the king of Qin also said to me, want to see him, I am afraid I can not eat.
The thought of eating was so painful that I had to get up and walk in the yard.
Suddenly, a cloth bag hit me on the head, I looked in the direction of that hit, the king of Qin lying on the wall, index finger between the lips. I still want to cry when no one is bullying me
at the moment.
I picked up the cloth bag on the ground, which was a small plum with wrinkled foreskin. At that moment, my tears fell on it.
My husband accompanies other women every day. He never scolds me or scolds me. He never asks me what I want to eat. He never gives me a cake.
But this man, who is only a friend, will stand in front of me when he is in danger, will remember what I want to eat, no matter how far and how difficult it is to get it in front of me.
I suddenly feel a little sad, if I did not marry Li Huaishan, and married the king of Qin, then we can be like father and mother, all regard each other as an irreplaceable existence.
I always thought I didn’t understand marriage, but now I suddenly understand that my marriage probably failed.
“You go back..”
Heng Niang said that if a woman in Dazhou had an idea about someone other than her husband, she would be immersed in a pig cage. The King
of Qin was startled by the tears on my face. “Don’t cry. What else do you want to eat? I’ll bring it to you next time.”
I shook my head and went back to my room with plums in my pocket. I didn’t want to eat any more. The
quiet life did not last for a few days, and Li Huaishan came again.
He always showed up at night, and this time he kicked the door open, reeking of alcohol.
I think he must have come to avenge the Oriental girl, obviously not my fault, but he will not reason with me, can only hide under the bed as quickly as possible.
Now the belly is getting bigger and bigger, and it is not easy to shrink in.
“Zhao Zhao..” The first time
I heard him call me that, I felt very strange, watching the footsteps approaching, shrinking more and more.
He lifted the quilt and found that I was not there. He was so angry that he lifted all the quilts on the ground.
“Yun Zhao Zhao!”
“Your Royal Highness!” Heng Niang heard the sound and came in a hurry. Where are
the people? Where is the Crown Princess?
Heng Niang was also frightened to tremble, the first time knelt down, lying under the bed to see me.
“Empress, how did you get there? Come out quickly.”
Heng Niang stretched out her hand to me at the same time, Li Huaishan knelt on one knee and poked his head down, without any expression on his face, which was very frightening.
“Come out.”
He held out his hand, but I didn’t dare to grab it. With this hand,
he led the Oriental girl into the door. With this hand, he slapped me hard and touched my face and stomach.
“Come out, or I’ll send Heng Niang to get the board.”
I climbed out carefully and just wanted to grab Heng Niang’s hand, but Li Huaishan grabbed it.
“Are you so afraid of me?”
I was so frightened that I wanted to shrink back, but he dragged me out by force.
‘Ah! Li Huaishan, let me go!
I tried to protect my stomach for fear that he would hit someone and hurt the child.
Li Huaishan suddenly quieted down, fell to his knees, looked up to the sky and laughed, but his eyes were red, as if something was about to fall.
“Yun Zhaozhao, for you, I..” As he
spoke, he suddenly stopped, and as soon as he closed his eyes, tears fell down. For the first time,
I knew that Li Huaishan would cry, too.
Heng Niang did not know when to retreat quietly, I looked at him at a loss, for the sake of his father, he handed him a handkerchief.
Li Huaishan didn’t ask for a handkerchief. He pulled me over and held me in his arms, crying my heart out. A few days after
this incident, the empress summoned me, saying that I was giving birth for the first time, and that I was careless and afraid of making mistakes, so she asked me to go to the Yukun Palace to wait for delivery.
The empress is very nice. I want to go, too, but Li Huaishan won’t let me.
He said I didn’t know the rules and would only make trouble for the empress.
As the due date was getting closer and closer, the atmosphere in the Zichen Palace became more and more tense. Li Huaishan’s steady mother-in-law stayed in the Zichen Palace on standby at any time. Even the imperial physician specially invited one to live here, and the palace eunuchs were not allowed to go in and out at will.
Heng Niang said that Li Huaishan attached great importance to this child, I think so, he just lost one, the remaining one is naturally very precious. The king
of Qin could no longer send things secretly, so he gave the unborn child a gift from outside the palace, a beautiful tiger-headed hat, as if he had decided that I would give birth to a son.
Finally, one morning, I began to feel a pain in my stomach.
Heng Niang went to look for the steady mother-in-law and was told that one of the two steady mothers-in-law had a bad stomach and squatted in the toilet and couldn’t get up, while the other was caught stealing by Liu Guiren.
She was so anxious that she went to see the doctor, but the doctor was called to consult the queen.
She was so anxious that she wanted to find Li Huaishan, but Li Huaishan was accompanying the Oriental girl to relax and did not see her.
I never thought that giving birth to a child would be so painful. I couldn’t sleep or stand up. My brain was full of pain. I just wanted to find my mother.
Called to find the little maid of the imperial doctor did not come back for a long time, Heng Niang face white almost with me, finally a teeth, let Mei Xiang to find the king of Qin. The king of
Qin came quickly and could not ride a horse in the palace, but he still rode a horse and directly caught Li Taiyi, who was good at regulating the intestines and stomach. At that time,
I was so painful that I didn’t even have the strength to cry. Li Taiyi could only kneel down and tell the King of Qin that he really didn’t understand women’s childbirth. The king of
Qin said nothing with red eyes, but put the knife on his neck.
“If anything happens to the Crown Princess, the king will ask you to accompany her with your whole family.”
For a moment, I wished that the knife was on my neck, so that it would not hurt anywhere.
But at this time, the baby in my stomach kicked me.
I can die, but he can’t.
I pulled the sleeve of the king of Qin, followed the instinctive force of pain, and soon felt something slipping out, and soon came the clear cry of the child.
“Empress, it’s a little prince!”
Heng Niang cried excitedly, holding the baby in front of my eyes, I only felt a blur in front of my eyes, what can not be seen clearly.
With the birth of the baby, it seems that something has been pouring out, I feel more and more cold, and my head is getting heavier and heavier.
“Zhao Zhao..” Outside
the sunny window, my mother waved to me. Behind her was another palace, where I lived in Nanzhao.
I want Home?
“Ah Cho!” The
king of Qin shouted behind me, and I suddenly looked back and heard the sound of the child crying.
I can’t go. I’m going to stay and protect him.
Slowly, my vision became blurred again, my ears were crying children, and in front of the bed, the King of Qin scolded angrily.
Vaguely, I saw him punch hard, knocking down a bright yellow figure to the ground, and all the palace eunuchs on the side pressed up.
It’s very noisy. I can’t hear clearly. I lay in bed for a long time
because of the dystocia, and when I woke up, the palace had undergone tremendous changes.
For example, because the king of Qin beat the prince, he was stripped of his designation, locked up, and could not come out for a whole year.
For example, Liu Guiren was beaten to death because of his fornication with the bodyguard.
For example, Qiu Taiyi, who was proficient in obstetrics and gynecology, had been dismissed from his post and died on his way home because he had given strong medicine to Oriental girls. For
another example, Li Huaishan has changed a lot.
He would come to see me and the baby secretly at night. After giving birth to the baby, my sleep became lighter and I could hear the noise almost every night.
He didn’t talk to me, so he sat in front of the bed and watched it all night, which made me feel so nervous that I slept even worse and yawned during the day.
Or maybe it’s the loss of blood. I’m always groggy and cold.
Little Chengcheng is learning to climb during this period of time, and I can’t live in peace anywhere, so I have to keep an eye on him.
“Didi..”
I can’t believe my eyes are wide open, my little Chengcheng can talk!
“Ah, Heng Niang, Cheng Cheng can call someone!”
Just why Didi? Didi. Daddy? “The little prince is really clever,”
said Heng Niang with a look of relief.
See why the first thing he says is not “mother.” “I poked him in his fleshy little face.” No, you have to call him mother, mother, do you know? ”
But he won’t call me mother. He’ll just wrap my fingers in “Abba Abba.”.
I feel my heart is melted by him. He is so small and soft, but he is all I have. On the day when
Xiao Chengcheng was one year old, I stood beside Li Huaishan and stepped out of Zichen Hall for the first time. Everything
around is still the same, but the king of Qin has some stubble and looks much older.
“Crown Princess.” He solemnly saluted me, and I was so frightened that I took a step back.
“Are you out of your mind?” The King of
Qin smiled and gave a red envelope to the little Chengcheng in my arms, which looked heavy.
Li Huaishan had a black face from beginning to end and said nothing.
As the parents of the child, we sat in the main seat, beside him was the Oriental girl who still looked sick, and beside me was his new favorite concubine.
The Oriental girl kept staring at the child in my arms, her face was sickly pale, and I was a little creepy, but I also felt that such an occasion was too cruel for her.
Little Chengcheng seemed to feel such a strange look, deflated his mouth, burst into tears, and stretched out his hand to Li Huaishan.
Li Huaishan paused, but also just a light drift, continue the old and new.
He didn’t seem to have held the baby yet, but the baby seemed to stick to him and always wanted him to hold him. When I
came back, I opened the red envelope. It was a pair of small gold bracelets with a note inside. I
have a secret. I’ll tell you one day when I figure it out.
This piece of paper makes me so restless that I always want to know what the secret of the King of Qin is.
The next day, Li Huaishan and I went to visit the queen with Xiao Chengcheng in our arms. She seemed to love Xiao Chengcheng very much. She held him in her arms for a long time and never let him go. She always joked that I would leave Xiao Chengcheng for her to raise.
Inexplicably, I think this sentence is terrible, as if as long as I promise, I will never see Xiao Chengcheng again. As soon as
I was nervous, I felt dizzy again. When I
came back, I told Heng Niang about the incident. Heng Niang was silent for a long time and told me in a low voice, “Actually, the empress is not the mother of the crown prince. I heard that the imperial concubine Hui had a difficult birth and died after giving birth to the crown prince.”
“But so what? The empress treats her as if she were her own.” Stealthily
, Heng Niang glanced outside and whispered, “How can you only look at appearances?”
“Crown Princess, there are a lot of things you don’t understand now, but when you grow up, you’ll understand.”
I have become a mother, but in the eyes of Heng Niang, I am still a child.
There are too many things I can’t understand, so I want to write to my mother, but now I can’t meet the King of Qin, and no one can help me with the message.
After thinking for a long time, I went to find Li Huaishan.
He was a little surprised, but he still lowered his head and tidied up the things in his hands, never looking at me more.
“What is it?”
My heart is a little lost, obviously husband and wife, but feel more strange than strangers.
“I want you to take a letter for me.”
Li Huaishan was silent for a moment and answered.
I was so happy that I borrowed his pen and ink and began to write letters. I told my mother that I had given birth to a little prince named Li Chengqi. I like to call him Xiao Chengcheng.
We had a rare afternoon of peaceful coexistence. Before I left, I carefully handed the letter to him and told him to deliver it. Without saying a word,
Li Huaishan just put the letter on the table. I was afraid that he would forget about it. When I
came out of Changxin Hall, I met an oriental girl who came to deliver tea. She was a little surprised to
see me coming out of it and saluted with an indifferent look. She never said a word
about setting me up. I
didn’t want to be friends with her anymore, so I turned to leave, but she stopped me and said, “The Crown Princess has come to see the Crown Prince. Is she here to intercede for Yun Dao Han?”
Elder brother?
“What happened to him?”
“He tried to assassinate the prince, but he’s still locked up in the Dazhou dungeon.” I
felt like I was struck by lightning, and I couldn’t believe that such a big thing had happened, but I didn’t know it at all.
“It’s impossible. My father always..”
“Crown Princess.” The Oriental girl interrupted me, “The king died last year.”
Father, it’s gone.
Suddenly my mind went blank, as if I had lost all consciousness.
“King Li publicly repented of his marriage and refused to marry. Long ago the king of Qin led his troops into the city. Nanzhao is no longer a state, but Nanzhao Prefecture.”
“King Li died for his country, and the queen went with him.” The words of the
Oriental girl kept echoing in my ears, and I felt as if I had fallen into an ice cave, and I had no consciousness except cold. In
an instant, my home was gone and my country was gone.
My brother was arrested for the assassination of my husband, and my best friend was the one who destroyed my country.
Heng Niang is right. I really don’t know anything.
This time, I couldn’t even cry, and my eyes were black and I fainted on the ground. When
I woke up, I was lying in my own bed, and I was lying with my eyes open until late at night. In the
darkness, someone pushed open the door and went straight to the cradle.
I felt the dagger under my pillow, got out of bed, and put it on his neck from behind.
He said, “You know.”
I hated his indifferent attitude and pressed the dagger more tightly: “Let my brother go.”
“What he committed was the great crime of assassinating the crown prince. How could I let him go with a word?”
“If you don’t let him go, I’ll kill you.” With a wry smile,
Li Huaishan said, “Zhao Zhao, if you kill me, you will die. Cheng Cheng will have no parents and will be humiliated. Do you have the heart?”.
“The dead are gone, and more must be thought of for the living.”
I sat in front of the cradle all night, and little Chengcheng kept reaching out to ask for a hug, but I couldn’t hold him in my arms as usual.
This child has to get used to the feeling of not having a mother.
Married to the big week for almost two years, I have been very obedient, never thought about what it would be like to escape from the palace. Wearing Heng Niang’s clothes,
I bought a pot of wine by the roadside, asked all the way, and found the residence of the King of Qin.
He was very surprised to see me, as if I had won the lottery, and his face was not half guilty: “What are you doing here?”
“I just want to know what you have to tell me.”
The king of Qin was silent for a long time and told me that he had not thought clearly, but I told him that I already knew.
He bit his lip, and his eyes turned red. “Ah Zhao, if you want me to die, I have to die. There are some things I can’t do as I want.”
Li Huaishan’s words are right. We should always think more about the living.
So, I want the king of Qin to help me save my brother.
Dazhou’s winter came very early, and the cold wind was mixed with snow.
I am no longer the princess of Nanzhao, because of sneaking out of the palace, I was demoted from the Crown Princess to Liangdi, but the Oriental Jade Brocade jumped up and became the Concubine.
According to the rules of Dazhou, I am a concubine now, and I am not qualified to raise a child, so the queen asked me to give Xiao Chengcheng to Dongfang Yujin for upbringing.
Little Chengcheng, who had just learned to walk, always followed me and fell down from time to time.
I always feel that the child is very stupid, and so far he can’t call his mother.
I was a little eager to teach him to call his mother, but I always scared the child to cry. It was snowing heavily that day when
Xiao Chengcheng was taken away. He was held in Mammy’s arms, crying and kicking constantly, and stretched out his hand to me. I cried to hold him, but Li Huaishan held him tightly.
“You will come back. You listen to me. Cheng Cheng will come back.” How can
a person’s life be so desperate? I have no parents, no country, and now I have no children.
I cried and fainted, and when I woke up again, the Zichen Hall was empty.
I sat in the dark with the tiger-head hat of Xiao Chengcheng in my arms. It took me a long time to check that someone was calling me in a low voice.
Leng Leng looked up and saw that it was a little maid of honor. She handed me an unsigned envelope with several wild geese flying south on it.
My brother is safe. After
Xiao Chengcheng was sent away, I always wanted to go to Dongfang Yujin to pay my respects and see him by the way, but no matter how I went, I couldn’t see the child.
Heng Niang asked me to ask Li Huaishan, but I didn’t know that Li Huaishan wouldn’t help me at all. When
winter turned to spring, I was so thin that I had only a handful of bones left. Once
Li Huaishan came and sat in silence for a long time. He picked me up slowly and said he could have another one.
But I don’t want to. The puppy sent
again is not a small Glutinous Rice Balls, and the child born again is not a small undertaking.
He probably doesn’t understand that there is no substitute for these emotions.
But by the end of spring, I was pregnant.
The doctor said that my last child had a serious blood gas injury and lost the foundation. This child was extremely difficult and dangerous, and it was very difficult to conceive and give birth.
Li Huaishan immediately wanted to abort the child, but even if he had an abortion, there was also a risk of metrorrhagia.
Looking at his stunned expression, I suddenly felt a little comfortable.
From then on, I was surrounded by many ladies of the court, who were always careful to surround me for fear that something would happen to my stomach.
But I still insist on paying my respects to Dongfang Yujin every day. I want to see Xiao Chengcheng, even one side.
But she never lets me get what I want.
“The little prince can walk, and now he’s very naughty. Be careful not to bump into this in your stomach.” As
he spoke, the child’s cry came from far to near.
It’s Xiao Chengcheng!
I was so excited that I went straight to the sound of crying.
“Yun Liangdi.” The oriental jade brocade stood in front of me. “Cheng’er is now a child of this palace.”
“Good..” Liang..
He can, called Niang. The
baby’s crying was getting louder and louder, and I didn’t care about anything else at all. I wanted to go around her to see the baby.
“He is my child. Whether I treat him well or not, whether I beat him or scold him, he will always be my child. He has nothing to do with you, Yun Liangdi.”
I looked at her firm and angry eyes and suddenly thought of the time she framed me.
I want Take a gamble.
I pushed away Mammy, who was in the way, and insisted on rushing in. Dongfang Yujin stopped me in front of me, so I pushed her. She reached out and pulled me, and I fell down along her hand.
I felt a pain in my stomach and a warm liquid coming out.
All of a sudden, Shen Xin Hall exploded. Far away, I saw Xiao Chengcheng stumbling towards me.
“Good..” Good family..
This time, I lost the bet.
……
I sat in front of the dressing table, spread out my long hair and pulled myself up in a bun when I was not married, but I could not see my face in the mirror at all, but reflected the chaos behind me. Inside
the Zichen Hall, the palace eunuch knelt on the ground. Li Huaishan stood in front of the bed with a white face, trembling all over. Lying on the bed was another me. I am
as thin as a lath, and my face is like gold paper.
“Zhao Zhao..” Li Huaishan called my name again and again, crying loudly: “Why can’t you wait any longer? Why can’t you wait any longer?”
I walked through him and saw the tiger-head hat in the corner.
My little Chengcheng, I really don’t have a mother.
Outside the gate, the king of Qin sat on the ground leaning against the pillar, his eyes dull.
“The prince is usually cold and heartless to Yun Liangdi. How can he cry like this now?” The attendant asked the king of Qin.
I was also very curious, so I squatted beside and listened. The king
of Qin said, “It was he who asked for marriage with Nanzhao.”
“His Royal Highness is in a strong position. Why should he make peace with such a small country as Nanzhao? It’s not good for him. Is it difficult..”
“Four years ago, when the prince and I went south, we were assassinated. He fled to Nanzhao to avoid being assassinated. Perhaps he saw him at that time.”
“Zhao Zhao..”
When I looked up, my mother waved to me not far away. Nanzhao was close at hand.
Prince Fanwai:
Four years ago, Nanzhao Gewei Festival..
It is said that when the sons and daughters of Nanzhao grow up, they have to choose their relatives by folk songs at the Song Festival. As long as the songs are right, regardless of the gap between the rich and the poor, and their status, they can work together for a lifetime. Under the
dark bridge, I killed the assassin sent by the queen with a sword, put on a cloak to cover the knife wound on my waist and back, and bought a mask at random by the roadside. King Mu died of illness
two years ago, and she was probably on my head. The crowd on the
pier was bustling, and the young girls wore the unique pleated skirts of Nanzhao, and their wheat-colored thighs were exposed. I’m
a little embarrassed. I have to go through these girls to get to the hospital opposite.
But the queen’s minions were everywhere, and in the crowd not far away, a pair of snake-like eyes seemed to have stared at me.
At that moment, a girl who was playing with her mask with her head down bumped into my chest.
I was so frightened by the pain that she immediately opened her eyes and apologized.
I didn’t want to talk to her, but I accidentally saw the silver bell hanging on her waist, which was clearly a gift from my father to Princess Nanzhao. I was
stunned for a moment. I didn’t want to get entangled with her. I turned around and was about to leave. She saw the blood dripping from behind me and opened her mouth to shout. I quickly covered her mouth and said, “If you dare to shout, I will kill you.” Then
I pulled her deeper into the crowd.
She kept struggling, which made others look askance.
Afraid of being discovered by the assassin, I turned my head around her waist and pushed the dagger up under the cloak.
“Lady, let’s go over there and have a rest.” Some of the
girl’s big black grape eyes were full of fear, and she nodded hurriedly.
I took her around the crowd, came to a hospital, forced open the door, rummaged, lost a bottle of powder in the past.
“Give me the medicine.”
Then he took off his coat and exposed the bloody incision on his back.
But she covered her eyes with fear.
I pulled her hand down, only to see her blush and anger in her eyes.
“If you put your clothes on, your mother will say that if a girl doesn’t get married and sees a man naked, she won’t be able to get married.” I was so amused by
her words that I wanted to laugh. “How can I put the medicine on?”
With these words, I flashed my silver knife.
She was very sensible, immediately closed her mouth, I lay down, half a day did not wait for the powder to fall on the wound, open my eyes, the girl closed her eyes, the medicine poured to the ground.
I sighed angrily and opened her eyelids with my fingers.
“If you only want to get married at such a young age, what will you be able to do in the future?”
But she was so angry that she lowered her head and aimed at my palm.
The little girl had good teeth and a strange pain. I reached out and pinched her cheek, forcing her to let go.
Looking at the little girl’s stubborn face, I lowered my head and pulled down the silver bell from her waist that my father had given to Princess Nanzhao as a token.
“Take the medicine well. I swear, when you grow up, I will marry you.”
……
Two years later, the king of Yingzhou wanted to marry Nanzhao.
The father emperor feared that the power of the marriage between the two was too great, so he spoke several times to test me and the king of Qin. The king of
Qin wanted to get a chance to marry, but when I thought of the girl with black grape eyes, I preemptively pleaded with my father to marry Princess Nanzhao, which broke the dream of the king of Yingzhou.
At that time, in order to join hands with the queen, I could only pretend to be in love with her favorite niece. I swear to the queen that I have no feelings for Princess Nanzhao.
In order to play this scene realistically, I dare not show a little love, lest the queen find the clue.
I have been preparing-when I am strong enough, when nothing can threaten me, then my little girl, can live happily with me every day, do not need to be troubled by anything, I will personally give her the best of everything.
But I underestimated the ambition of my father, and the marriage team just went out of Nanzhao, and the king of Qin, who was responsible for receiving the marriage, used an excuse to stay, and led people to cooperate inside and outside, and captured Nanzhao. On the
wedding night, Nanzhao Kingdom was broken, and Princess Nanzhao was in danger. For the first time in my life,
I disobeyed my father and insisted on keeping the Crown Princess. The girl under the
veil is still ignorant, she does not know that her country is broken, does not know that her parents are not alive, does not know that her brother’s life and death line, and does not know that she has come to a complex world.
The more I like her, the more I want to hurt her. I can’t let her be the handle of others.
So Zhaozhao, wait for me.
When one day I stand on the peak of power and break away from all the shackles, I will tell the world that I, Li Huaishan, only love Yun Zhaozhao all my life.
Author’s pen name: Mobai
Record No.: YX01VmYJ9oaMgq9rR
Published on 2022-05-30 20:09. Forbidden to Reprint
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