Give you Yongan
to wait for you to finish class, wait for you to grow up
and sleep in the hotel until midnight, and be swept into the Bureau by your ex-boyfriend. “Be serious, Su Yu’an,”
he said.
“What can I do if I’m not serious?”
“Then I’ll just –”
he said, making a big direct grab.
“Arrest you.”
In order to celebrate Zhou He’s successful graduation from high school, my uncle spent a huge sum of money to sponsor our seven-day tour of Yunnan Province.
Eight thousand yuan, he told us not to enter the house until we spent it all, and we must stay outside until our pockets were empty. Zhou He and
I don’t like to spend much money, so we put together a little bit in front of the calculator. Eight thousand yuan for seven days, a budget of more than one thousand a day, is enough for everything.
So Zhou He booked the ticket directly, and we flew to Lichuan City on the same day. I was dumbfounded when I
got out of the airport. We flew here on a rampage. We didn’t do any strategy at all. Now we don’t even have a place to live. What’s
even worse is that the booking APP shows that all the hotels nearby are full.
As a last resort, Zhou He can only choose a hotel far away from the city to book a room. The price is not cheap and the location is very remote. It took
us almost two hours to finally reach our destination. I regretted it as
soon as I got off the bus. There is no village
in front of it, no shops behind it, no big buildings around it, only one hotel is lit up.
This scene reminded me of a ghost story in the middle of the night, and my body trembled subconsciously.
“Su Yu-an, are you a coward?” Zhou He asked in arrears. I rolled my eyes at Zhou He
next to me and strode to the door of the hotel.
“I, Su Yu-an, don’t have the word’coward ‘in my dictionary!” When we
checked in, the front desk took our ID cards and looked at them again and again, and then reluctantly returned them.
Ignoring the front desk’s meaningful eyes, I couldn’t wait to walk to the room with my bag after I got the room card, and Zhou He ran after me with his suitcase.
I swiped my card into the room and turned on the light. I collapsed on the sofa and pointed to the room inside. “Tonight you sleep in a small suite. Remember to book a hotel for the next few days. This place is too remote. I won’t come tomorrow.”
Zhou He nodded, left my suitcase in the living room, and carried his luggage to the suite. After slumping
on the sofa for a while, I got up and took a hot shower and went back to my room to turn off the lights and sleep.
In the middle of the night, the police broke into the house.
My sleep is heavy, even in a strange environment, it still does not affect the quality of sleep, until the lights come on, this leisurely wake up.
Looked at a few people standing in the doorway, I hesitated for a long time, stumbling to ask:
“Private … …” Breaking into people’s homes? The man who
rushed to the front corrected: “Wrong, it’s the police.”
Perhaps I didn’t sleep well and was a little confused, so I subconsciously retorted: “Comrade policeman, I am a good young man who is positive and upward. I have been a poor peasant for three generations. I have just graduated from university. I am determined to build a beautiful home. I am patriotic and dedicated, honest and friendly. What can I do?”.
At this time, Zhou He was brought out of the suite by them.
2
“What’s going on?”
Looking at Zhou He not far away, I was confused. The policeman
standing next to my bed kindly explained, “We received a report from the public, so we came to arrest the suspect.”
I woke up at once and sat up in bed.
Fortunately, I was wearing a nightdress, so I wasn’t too embarrassed in this situation.
“Comrade policeman, I was wronged. We just came here to travel. It took us less than five hours to land, so we didn’t have time to do anything.”
The policemen looked at Zhou He, who was handcuffed, and then at me, who was wearing a nightdress, apparently not quite believing.
This Burgundy nightdress is the same style as my love beans, and it is also my favorite. I take it with me almost every time I travel.
At that moment, a policeman came out of Chou Ho’s suite and said, “Report to the captain. The house has been checked. There are no suspicious items, no smell, and everything is normal.” Only then did the policeman, who was
leaning against the door, raise his head and stroll up to me.
Looking at that familiar and strange face, I took a breath and felt sour in my heart.
Song Huai, my ex-boyfriend whom I haven’t seen for two years.
I knew he would be a policeman after graduation, but I didn’t expect to meet him here, or in such an embarrassing situation.
“What is your relationship?” He spoke suddenly.
I said bluntly, “Pure kinship.”
He didn’t quite believe it, and his face darkened visibly.
“How to prove it?”
How to prove my relationship with Zhou He?
I stopped at once.
Zhou He just graduated from high school, the mobile phone is newly bought, the mobile phone number is newly run, and even the WeChat is newly registered. We didn’t say a word after we became
friends. The only thing that existed in the dialog box was the transfer record of four thousand yuan, which I transferred to him. We agreed to take half of the eight thousand yuan
my uncle gave us.
Boy, you can’t wash it even if you jump into the Yellow River.
Seeing that I did not speak, Song Huai’s face became darker.
After a while, he was motioned by his teammates to say, “ID card.”
“What?” I looked at him in puzzlement. The policeman standing
nearby quickly explained, “Captain Song means to show us your ID cards. We need to register.” After
getting Chou Ho’s ID card, Sung Huai’s face changed again and again, and finally he gnashed his teeth: “Su Yu-an, you are really capable!” “It’s been two years since we broke up,”
I retorted. “Why do you care about me?”
Sung Huai raised his eyebrows and said, “With the clothes I’m wearing, I’m still in charge of you.”
Take care of your ex-girlfriend looking for a boyfriend? You live in the Pacific? The Pacific police are probably not as lenient as you!
I taunted all my skills, got out of bed in my slippers, and walked up to Song Huai.
“Or do you want to get back together with me?”
“Be serious, Su Yu-an!”
Song Huai stepped back a few steps, stood upright, and even his lips were tightly pursed.
“What can I do if I’m not serious?”
I took two steps forward and looked at him with bright eyes.
“Then I’ll just –”
Sung Huai said, and with a big catch, our positions were reversed.
“Arrest you.”
Unable to prove my relationship with Zhou He, we were taken to the police station together and detained separately.
Zhou He has been looking at me with bitter eyes all the way, which makes me feel nervous and a little embarrassed.
There is a saying that Zhou He’s cousin can get along well.
I opened my mouth and talked nonsense, but he really didn’t refute it. After drinking hot water for half a night
at the police station, I finally saw Song Huai again before dawn. Dressed in a police uniform,
he pushed the door in, looked around sharply, and then sat down neatly in the chair opposite me.
The straight body looked pleasing to the eye, especially the long legs, and the table in the interrogation room could not fit at all, so it had to stretch out a little.
Just when I was addicted to male sex and couldn’t extricate myself, Sung Huai said sarcastically, “Zhou He?”? Your boyfriend?
“Yeah, my boyfriend, isn’t he handsome?”
I held my head high and looked proud.
Sung Huai raised his eyebrows with a half-smile. “Then why did I hear your mother say that Chou Ho called you elder sister, called her second aunt, and called your grandmother grandma?”
I
Awkward.
I made a big mistake.
Looking at his haughty appearance, I preemptively said, “Why do you have my mother’s phone number?”? Are you investigating my information? Comrade policeman, do you know that this is against the rules?
“No, no, no.” Sung Huai laughs, “I’m just greeting Auntie as a junior. What’s more, I got Auntie’s phone number three years ago, but I didn’t investigate your identity information.” I was silent when I heard
his words.
Three years ago, Song Huai and I loved each other vigorously.
He took my hand to meet my parents, and I took him to my house and introduced him to my parents.
I thought we would grow old together, but the world is impermanent. A year later, we will return to the bridge, return to the road, and return to each other.
Although, I still like him.
Although, I saw that he was still crazy. After
gathering my thoughts, I looked up and smiled. “Now that Officer Soong knows he’s my cousin, can we go?”
He looked down at his watch and said, “Wait a little longer.” I didn’t want to face him for
a moment. I said sarcastically, “Is it possible that this police station has to choose an auspicious time to release people?”
Sung Huai looked up at me intently and earnestly. “I’ll get off work in 15 minutes. I’ll take you out and help you book a new hotel. The place where you stayed last night is not safe.”
Like a punch on the cotton, I turned my head and didn’t want to speak, but out of the corner of my eye I was peeking at him.
Although my reason told me that I should refuse, my emotions were not controlled by me at all. I wanted to stay with him for a while, even if only for a while. At
five o’clock, the sky was bright, and Song Huai got off work on time.
I followed him out of the police station, and Zhou He pulled our suitcases behind him, looking a little dispirited.
Walking to the parking lot outside, Song Huai took the suitcase from Zhou He, put the two suitcases in the trunk, and he stood back in front of me.
“Su Yu-an, can I talk to you?”
“There’s nothing to talk about between us.”
I shook my head and refused, casting an armor for myself with indifference, but I was afraid that I would lose my armor because of his words.
Song Huai was silent for a long time, but when he looked up again, his tone was cold: “Whatever you want.”
He drove me and Zhou He to a hotel in silence, first went to the lobby to check us in, and then carried the suitcase to the door of the room.
“Give me the receipt code and I’ll transfer the room charge to you.”
Watching him turn to go, I quickly reached out to stop him.
Song Huai did not turn his head and went straight on.
“No, I’ll treat you.” Rubbing my
hair irritably, I turned and walked into the room, trying to keep my legs from chasing him.
Zhou He followed me quietly, put his luggage back silently, and then went to the opposite side and sat down.
“Do you still like Sung Huai?”
Although it was a question, his tone was full of affirmation. There
was nothing to hide. I nodded and looked up sincerely. “Yes, I still like Song Huai.”
“Then why didn’t you just talk to him?” Holding the pillow on the
bed in my arms, I looked down at the ground for a long time before slowly saying, “There’s nothing to talk about. He has his ideal, and I have my future. No one can wait for anyone in the same place. I can’t always be the one who is wronged.”
Zhou He nodded and did not ask again.
He went to the kitchen to boil hot water, put the cup on the head of the bed, and then closed the door silently. Song Huai and
I met in high school and fell in love in college. Friends around us praised us as a pair made in heaven. Even our parents were very satisfied.
We talked about everything, and he gave me everything I asked. In order to see me,
he once took a train from Beijing to R City overnight and rushed back to school the next day.
He once stood in line for two hours in the pouring rain just to buy the cake I like.
He used to write Shanglin Fu for me all night without sleep. It took
him half a month to carve a peach wood hairpin for me.
But two years ago, everything changed.
He stopped replying to my messages, hung up on me, and then disappeared for a month.
God knows how I got through that time, but when we met again, he just said “sorry” to me in silence and coldness, and then there was no news for two months.
Cold violence really kills people.
Even though I like him so much, I don’t have the courage to continue to be with him.
So I broke up with him, deleted his WeChat, blacklisted his phone, and blocked all the news about him.
I thought I would be relieved, but when I saw him again, the palpitations, the overwhelming sadness wrapped me tightly, as if there were thousands of words but could not say a word.
Reach out to touch the cheek, tears do not know when to overflow the eye socket, only feel that the heart seems to be tightly grasped, but can not break free. When I
woke up, it was already afternoon. After the hottest time of the day, the afterglow of the sun was particularly gentle at the head of the bed, and the sunset glow was so red that people were enchanted.
I changed my clothes, put on a beautiful makeup, painted my favorite flaming red lips, and then knocked on Zhou He’s door.
“Will you go out to play later?”
He looks down at his phone, replies to a few messages and nods: “OK, give me a minute.”
Waiting for Zhou He to change his clothes, we first went downstairs to the lobby for dinner, and then followed the navigation to the busiest street in Lichuan City.
July is the peak season for tourism, and there are many tourists coming and going on the streets. They wear distinctive national costumes, and the two sides are full of small vendors selling ornaments.
We walked from the street to the end of the street, and from the end of the street to the street, Zhou He’s hands were already full of shopping bags, which were souvenirs we picked for our elders.
Just as he squatted down to choose a milk fan, a strange smell came from behind me. I felt dizzy and lost consciousness before I could leave a word. When he became conscious
again, his eyes were dark, his mouth was stuck to something, and his hands were tied together.
Feeling the bumps under me and the roar outside, I guessed that I should be in a moving car. There should be a van or an SUV
under me, because I took advantage of the bumpy air and swept my legs around. The position was very spacious and I didn’t feel anyone around me.
The driver and the people in the car were chatting. From time to time, there were two responses. There should be several men in the car. It was estimated that there were at least three men. I didn’t dare to act rashly.
Taking advantage of the cover of the back seat, I tried to move my wrist quietly. Fortunately, the rope at the wrist did not tighten. They just tied me up in an ordinary way.
God bless, when I was in love with Song Huai, he taught me how to break free in this situation, and I still remember a little, and I can remember most of the movements he taught. There were so many people in the
car that I could only continue to pretend to be unconscious. My mind had been in a simulation exercise, and my hands were moving quietly, but the range was not large, and I did not break free of the rope.
In their intermittent conversation, I vaguely pieced together the whole story.
I don’t know how long it took, but the car finally stopped.
When they got out of the car, the door was probably not closed, and there was a breeze on my cheek, and the air still smelled of old iron.
After a while, I was carried out of the car.
A strange man, a strange chest, a strange arm, I was nervous to death, but I still tried to relax my body and give him all my weight.
I don’t know if he’s a repeat offender, and I don’t know if he can detect something wrong, so I can only bet that he doesn’t know anything.
Fortunately, I won the bet, and he carried me for a while, then put me on the cold ground, and kindly brushed away the broken hair on my temples.
Strangely thick fingers ran down my temples to my neck, as if ants had crawled over them, and my heart in my chest was beating very strongly, and my breathing was a little confused. Just
when I could hardly hold on, there was a sudden sound of voices outside, and the man got up and walked outside.
Listening to the receding footsteps, my hanging heart returned to its original position, my body softened a little, and the more intense rust smell around me penetrated into my nose at the moment.
The eyes were still dark, the surroundings were so quiet that there was no sound, and the distant voices could not be heard because of the distance. Instead of acting rashly,
I waited quietly for a while, then pretended to wake up leisurely, and my body moved on the ground, making a very small noise. There
was still silence all around. Only then did
I put into action the action I had anticipated countless times in my mind, and after four failures, I finally untied the rope at my wrist.
At the same time, a “squeak” sounded from not far away.
I was so frightened that my whole body was stiff. I kept a posture and did not dare to move. After a long time, I made a tentative noise with my body again.
There was still silence. Only then did
I take off my blindfold and see my surroundings clearly.
It was supposed to be an abandoned factory building, with traces of iron sheets in the house and the smell of rust was obvious, but now it was empty, with only a small window illuminating the square inch of the wall. The
distant sky was already lit up with fish belly white, and I realized that I had been in a coma for half a night. Zhou He and
I went out at about six o’clock in the afternoon and walked around the street for about two hours. According to four o’clock now, I have been missing for at least eight hours.
Zhou He should call the police now, right? Without a cell phone in my
pocket, I don’t know how to start when I want to save myself.
I don’t know where I am or what’s going on out there. It was really empty
all around, and there was nothing to use. After looking around fruitlessly, I put the blindfold on my eyes again and lay back in the original position. At the same time, I tied a slipknot on the rope at my wrist.
This is what Song Huai taught me.
Without the ability to save myself, I can only ensure my own safety and try my best to keep myself alive.
In a daze, the iron gate of the factory building was pushed open, messy footsteps sounded, and someone came to me.
The blindfold was taken off not too gently, and I saw the light again.
At this time, the sky was bright.
10
“How long have you been awake?”
Some goofy voices sounded overhead, and my body was straightened up. I changed from lying down to sitting down, leaning my back against the wall.
Looking up at the person in front of me, he was dressed in ethnic clothes with special personality. His appearance could not be seen against the light, but it gave me a sense of oppression. I have only felt
this sense of oppression on Song Huai.
Seeing that I hadn’t replied for a long time, he suddenly patted his head and said, “Look at my memory. I forgot that your mouth was still sealed.” After that
, he tore the tape off my mouth and half squatted down.
Under that pair of slightly aggressive eyes, my eyes subconsciously floated to one side, the corners of my mouth were tightly pursed, and the hair on my body stood up.
“Girl, are you stupid?”
He smiled and patted me on the face, and his eyes were full of interest.
Maybe I hadn’t drunk water for a long time. As soon as I opened my mouth, I felt a sharp pain in my throat and coughed it out subconsciously. When I straightened up, he had opened a bottle of water and put it to my mouth.
I don’t know where he made the water or what he added to it, but I can only close my mouth tightly, even though my throat is smoking with thirst.
What’s the matter? Afraid I’ll drug you? As
he spoke, he laughed to himself. He glanced at me and said, “You look like you’re at the mercy of others. Do you still need me to drug you?”
He has a point, but I wouldn’t bet on it.
So deadlocked for a long time, he seemed to accept his fate, he took a sip first, and then put the bottle to my mouth. Are
you relieved now? It’s really not drugged.
Seeing that I was still unmoved, he seemed to have no patience and directly pinched my mouth and poured water into it, in exchange for another massive cough. Because of the moisture in
my throat, I felt less uncomfortable. I looked at the man in front of me and struggled a few times. Finally I asked, “Where is this place?”
He laughed maliciously. “Here, guess.”
I pursed my lips and shook my head with tears in my eyes.
He sat down on the floor and looked straight at me. “This is the West Side.” Located south of the Tropic of Cancer
, Xicheng is connected with Laos in the southeast and Myanmar in the northwest.
Although I don’t know how far it is from Lichuan City, I am familiar with the name of Xishuangbanna.
Looking at the shock in my eyes, he laughed even more.
“I just answered your question, and in return, you need to answer mine.”
Without waiting for me to comment, he asked himself, “What is your relationship with Sung Huai?”
“It doesn’t matter.”
He chuckled, and one question after another came hurling at me: “Then why did he let you out?”? Why do you want to go to the hotel to get a room for you? Aren’t you his girlfriend? Instead of replying,
I looked up and asked, “What’s your name?”? How far is it from here to Lichuan? Why did you bring me here?
“Yo, you’re learning fast.” The smile on
his face deepened, and he replied one by one, “My name is Ikeno.”. It is 620 kilometers from here to Lichuan. Of course you were arrested because of Sung Huai.
Song Huai.
It’s because of Song Huai.
His heart was full of pain, and tears flowed out of his eyes and fell on the ground in front of him, stirring up a few wisps of dust.
“Your turn.” Ikeno pouted at me.
I said honestly, “They let me out because they got the wrong guy.”. Getting me a room is their way of saying sorry. I’m really not Sung Huai’s girlfriend.
“Then why are you crying?”
Ikeno raised his eyebrows with mischievous interest in his eyes.
I took a deep breath and looked up. “Because I’m his ex-girlfriend.”
Seemingly did not expect to be this answer, Ikeno was stunned for a moment, and then laughed again.
“Interesting, really interesting.”
He took out my cell phone from his pocket, tinkered with it twice, swept it over my face, and unlocked it.
At this moment, I really hate face recognition. After fiddling
with the phone for a while, Ikeno finally pointed the phone’s address book at me and asked, “Which one of these is Song Huai’s phone number?”
“No.” I did not hesitate to say, “I deleted the WeChat and blacklisted his phone number. I don’t have his contact information.”
“Well!” Ikeno thought for a moment, then looked me straight in the eye and said, “I guess you must remember his number. Can you tell me?”
I shook my head and pursed my lips tightly.
He frowned and began to bow his head and light his cell phone.
In less than ten minutes, he read a series of numbers in his mouth.
It’s Song Huai’s phone number.
And then I was taken away blindfolded.
Although I don’t know exactly what Chi Ye said to Song Huai, I should be able to guess the general content with the few words I heard in the car before.
Song Huai did receive a report yesterday, but what he wanted to sweep was not my room, but the other two rooms in the same building. He and his teammates worked together and should have caught all the people.
Unfortunately, by mistake, the hotel’s house number loosened, 309 became 306, and Zhou He and I became poor people who were innocently involved. The people in the
real room 306 had already jumped out of the window to escape.
Ikeno should be their steward. After taking off the blindfold
this time, I was stunned for a moment when I looked at the slightly luxurious decoration in front of me.
“Where is this?”
Ikeno sat on the sofa with his legs crossed. “My home,” he said.
“Come here.” He waved to me. Looking at the
surroundings, I obediently walked over and sat in the corner of the sofa. Why are you
sitting so far away? Can I still eat you?
He got up, dragged me to the middle of the sofa, and then lowered his head to untie the rope from my wrist. When I
looked up, I saw a pair of half-smiling eyes: “You’re really Sung Huai’s ex-girlfriend, and you can even untie the rope secretly. If they’re not careful, it’s really easy for them to let you get away.”
I pursed my lips and did not speak.
His heart beat faster and his palms broke out in a cold sweat.
Fortunately, Ikeno didn’t pursue the matter. After sitting there and drinking a can of beer, he took me up to the second floor and pointed to one of the rooms. “You’re staying here for the next two days,” he said. “You can go when Sung Huai lets my brothers out.” As I
watched him walk downstairs, I couldn’t help but ask, “What if he doesn’t let him go?”
Ikeno looked back and smiled. “Then you can stay here and stay with him all the time. He really likes your milk and wildness.”
Walking into the room, I saw the distant scene through the window. The primeval forest in Xicheng really lived up to its reputation. Now I have a chance to run, but I can’t find the direction. I guess I can only get lost in the forest.
I stayed here for two days, during which Ikeno served me with good food and drink, and did not mention anything about Song Huai. On the morning of
the third day, the man who opened my door was Song Huai.
He looked very haggard, the stubble on his cheeks had not been taken care of, and there were two big black eyes hanging on his eyes.
“Ann.”
His voice was full of fear and joy for the rest of his life.
“They didn’t do anything to you?”
I shook my head, got up and followed him out. There are several police cars
outside, and Zhou He is sitting inside. Inside the
police station, I sat in my familiar seat again and began to make a statement.
I heard that Chi Ye called Song Huai to threaten me and let him release the brothers who were caught that night, but Song Huai did not agree.
After two days and three nights of tracking, they finally identified my location and rescued me, but when they arrived, the building was empty and only I slept soundly in the guest room on the second floor.
After such a trip, Zhou He and I had no idea of traveling at all. We hurried back to R City. We didn’t say anything about what happened in Yun Province. It was like a dream.
Although Ikeno didn’t do anything to me that day, and I didn’t suffer any harm, I still began to lose sleep, fear, and even become like a frightened bird.
I gave up the negotiated offer and chose to continue my postgraduate studies in the school. The atmosphere of school learning can give me a sense of security, and the smiles on the students’ faces seem to drive away all the haze.
One year later, on an ordinary weekend.
My mother asked me to go to a restaurant for dinner, and I met Song Huai again at the dinner table.
He did not wear a police uniform today, a black shirt, a pair of black suit pants, the whole person looks gentle and abstinent, and wear a police uniform when the cold and hard completely different.
My mother pulled him into the table warmly, put him next to me, gave me a meaningful look, and then got up to greet the others.
He greeted me a little awkwardly, and then looked at me for a long time.
I thought that when I saw him again, I would complain, hate and question, but the fact is that my heart is as calm as water now, as if all the love and hatred had disappeared in the two days in the West City. When
my mother came back, she looked at his restrained appearance and laughed to herself, “Little Soong, I haven’t seen you for years. Why don’t you like to talk?”? Don’t you usually like to chat with An-an?
He smiled and explained, “Maybe I haven’t seen you for so long that I don’t have anything to talk about.”
Why haven’t you seen me for so long? Didn’t you meet in Cloud Province last year.. In the middle of
my mother’s speech, she suddenly covered her mouth and hurriedly found an excuse to sit far away from me.
Last year? Seen
in Cloud Province? Zhou He and
I clearly kept our mouths shut about what happened last year. How could my mother know that I had seen Song Huai in Yun Province?
I looked at Song Huai with probing eyes, but he just shook his head, with my general confusion in his eyes, and then gave me a sweet and sour short rib.
I secretly suppressed my doubts and called Zhou He when I got back.
Last year? I didn’t say that!
“Well, sister Ann, I was drinking with my father a few days ago and I heard something. Do you think I should tell you?”
“Speak.” There was a long silence on the other end of the
phone, and he said, “Actually, my father paid for our trip to Yunnan Province last year, but my second aunt decided on the place. She appointed us to go to Lichuan City for a week.”
My fingernails sank deep into my palms, but I felt no pain, and I tried to stay calm even though my heart was already full of waves.
“Okay, I know. Don’t say anything about it.”
Chou Ho felt guilty again. “Don’t worry, Sister An-an. We had a good time in Cloud Province for seven days, and nothing else happened.” Didn
‘t everything happen?
Although I had doubts in my mind, I didn’t dare to go to my mother for confirmation. I was afraid to hear the answer I didn’t want to hear. I was afraid to break the peace that had been whitewashed in the past year.
Three months later, Song Huai appeared in my life again.
He said, “Ann, I have been transferred to another post, and I will work in R City as an ordinary policeman.”
He started sending me a bunch of flowers every week.
He began to send messages to me by changing the number.
He began to do everything for me.
It seemed that the estrangement of the previous two years did not exist, and it seemed that I was still Jiaojiao in his hands.
But I knew there was no going back, and when he gave up the mission I chose to be loyal to him, there was no going back to our relationship.
I respect his choice, but I won’t forgive him in my heart.
Like a frog boiled in warm water, I seem to have slowly accepted his existence and become accustomed to his existence. I’m
used to the flowers I get every week. I am
used to receiving text messages every day.
Until one day, I didn’t receive any more text messages or flowers on the weekend.
I felt empty in my heart, and the feeling was exactly the same as three years ago, which made me feel frightened and helpless, as if I had been abandoned by the whole world.
A few nights later, the phone rang suddenly. The phone rang
one after another, and a strange voice rang out: “Hello, is this Su Yu-an?”
“Yes.”
“I’m Sung Huai’s teammate. He’s been shot and is in the hospital for emergency treatment. The emergency contact on his cell phone is you. Do you have time to come to the city hospital?”
Then he said something, but I couldn’t hear it clearly. There were only four words in my mind: “He’s been shot.”.
I don’t know how to get to the city hospital, but by the time I realized it, I was sitting outside the operating room, where there were his parents and teammates. The boy
standing in the corner looked very familiar, as if he was the one who had checked me in the hotel.
He paced back and forth in the corner and finally walked up to me as if he had made up his mind: “Sister An-an, Captain Song was shot in retaliation. This is the second time this year that he has been shot.”
Second time?
“What do you mean?” I asked.
“On another occasion, three months ago, Captain Soong was injured for three months before he was transferred back to the police station in R City.”
He struggled for a while and took out a crumpled piece of paper from his bosom. After a moment’s hesitation, he handed it to me: “I found this in the trash can in my dormitory three years ago. Maybe it can answer some of your questions.”
I took the paper and opened it trembling.
“Ann, Zhan Xinjia
” When you get this letter, I may not be alive.
When I embarked on this path, I was prepared for the worst, and what I saw, heard, and felt over the past few years has strengthened my faith and determination. Where
the blade points, the mission will be achieved.
But the only thing I’m worried about is you. You love to cry
so much, you love to make trouble so much, and you are so charming. Without me to protect you, I am really afraid that you will be wronged.
But you are growing up so fast that you can live a good life even if I am not around you.
Then perhaps I can withdraw from your life for a while.
In the face of life and death, love is not important. Your safety is the most important thing.
If I live to the end, if you are still single at that time, I will pursue you again and make up for my debt to you.
If you already have a loved one by your side, then I will silently wish you happiness.
I am loyal to my country, and I am loyal to you.
That’s what I’ve worked for all my life.
You are the girl I want to grow old with.
“I love you most, Sung Huai.”
As I read his letter word by word, tears spilled unconsciously into my eyes, and drops fell on the letter paper, blotting the ink stains.
Sister Ann, Captain Song really likes you. You are his weakness and the softest part of his heart. But the task he was doing was very dangerous, and he couldn’t reveal anything to the outside world. He had to cut you out of his life so that he could keep you safe.
I nodded, clutched the paper tightly, and shrank into a ball, as if it would make me feel more secure. When a
soldier goes on a mission, he always writes a suicide note. If he comes back safely, the note will be destroyed. If he dies in the line of duty, the note will be sent to his relatives.
I did not expect that he would leave me a suicide note, nor did I understand that Song Huai was clearly not a soldier, why would he leave something similar to a suicide note?
And this suicide note was written exactly three years ago, when he was cold and violent to me and disappeared. What was he doing at that time? What mission are you on?
I do not know how long, the emergency room lights suddenly went out, Song Huai was pushed out from inside.
God bless, the white cloth did not cover his face.
Song Huai woke up the next day, when there was chicken soup cooked by his mother overnight on the table and fruit baskets sent by many colleagues.
And I’m sitting on the sofa in the corner.
Because of identity problems and security reasons, he has a single room of his own in a hospital where beds are scarce. Thanks to him, I won’t be too sad when I accompany the bed.
“What are you doing here?”
He was a little surprised to see me, and after looking around, his eyes were fixed on me.
It had been a long time since I had been looked at with such an aggressive gaze, and I became nervous subconsciously. After taking a few deep breaths, I looked up and said, “Your teammate called me yesterday, saying that you were injured and in the hospital for emergency treatment.” After a pause
, I took the letter out of my bag and asked, “Do you have anything to say about this?”
That’s why I spent the night with him. I want to hear a personal explanation, just to remember the lost love. The moment he
saw the letter paper, he was at a loss and tried to sit up, but he fell back on the bed because of his powerlessness.
You.. I’ve seen it all.
I nodded, then looked up and forced back the tears that flowed into my eyes. I didn’t want to cry in front of him.
He looked at me nervously and pursed his mouth. “I can explain. I can explain everything.”
“Last year in front of the police station, you said you wanted to talk to me. Is that what you were talking about?”
He nodded helplessly, like a child who had done something wrong.
“OK, I’ll wait for your explanation after you leave the hospital.” Then
I got up and left the ward.
Twenty
days later, I made an appointment with Song Huai’s teammates to meet in a coffee shop. “Sister Ann,”
he said, sitting stiffly opposite me.
I smiled and nodded and pushed the menu over.
“Don’t be nervous. I just want to ask you something.”
He nodded and sat in a good posture.
“You went to Sung Huai University, right?”
“Yes.”
“Did he go on a mission when he was in college?”
“Yes.”
“He was a policeman. Why did he write a suicide note?”
“This..”
He seemed a little confused, and after a long time he said, “Because he used to be an anti-drug policeman. In his junior year, at the request of the school, he went to northern Myanmar to work as an inside man. I don’t know what happened in that action, but he became more and more silent, and then he didn’t mention you in the dormitory again.”
I see. All
his anomalies at that time were justified in an instant.
“Why was he transferred back to R City?”
“Because he was shot some time ago, he was no longer able to carry out his duties. After three months in the hospital, Captain Song made a report of his transfer, and the place was designated as R City.”
“One last question.” I took a deep breath and said, “I was kidnapped in Yun Province. Why did you find me two days later?”
“Or in other words, what did he do after Ikeno told him to release him?”
He was silent for a long time.
The air was unspeakably quiet.
After a long time, he said slowly, “He has been frantically adjusting the city’s surveillance, deducing countless possible routes out of the city, always looking for your traces, and never stopping for a moment.”
After a pause, he continued, “The day he went to the forest villa to pick you up was his 56th sleepless hour. He has been looking for you since he received the report. He was almost crazy until you were found safely.”
“And the last time Captain Song was shot, it was also because he took the initiative to pursue the suspect, and that group of people were the ones who had kidnapped you. He and Ikeno sniped at each other by the river, and he was shot and wounded.”
After that, he stood up and said, “Sister An-an, I’ll go first. I hope Captain Song will never know that he really likes you. You can try to give him a chance. After all, you used to be so good.”
Try to give him a chance?
I just let it go, but I haven’t really let it go yet.
Three months later, in the same place, the person opposite me was replaced by Song Huai. Dressed in a police uniform,
he was as straight as a small poplar, which attracted the attention of most little girls.
But I am no longer the little girl who can’t walk when she sees him. I have grown up a lot after so many things and living alone for so long.
He sat there with deep feeling in his eyes.
“Ann, how have you been recently?”
I lowered my head and took a sip of coffee. The unsweetened coffee brought me back to my senses. When I looked up again, my eyes were clear.
“Let’s get straight to the point. You may begin.”
Sung Huai nodded his head and said sincerely, At that time, the school assigned me the task of graduating, and asked several of our classmates to disguise themselves as migrant workers who had dropped out of junior high school to go to northern Burma in order to get their smuggling routes. Twelve of
our classmates went to northern Burma together, and in the end only three of us made it back. I was one of them.
“This is also the first time I have lost contact, because I can’t tell my relatives at home about the tasks sent down from above, so I’m sorry.”
After a pause, he continued, “I was thinking that I would coax you and try to get your forgiveness when I finished the task, but the day before we were to meet, I received another task.”. As
a last resort, I can only keep silent.
“But I didn’t expect that the task would last for three months. When I came back, you had already blocked all my news. Even if I went to school to find you, you would avoid seeing me.”
“Anything else?” I continued to ask.
He nodded and went on to say, “And last year in Yunnan Province, my aunt actually said hello to me in advance, and I also asked your friends, but I didn’t expect that you were going with your cousin, so I didn’t pick you up at the airport at the very beginning.”.
“Originally, I just wanted to take you to spend a few days in Cloud Province to experience the local conditions and customs there, but I didn’t expect that you would be kidnapped, and I regretted and felt guilty.”
I lowered my head and took another sip of coffee, letting the bitterness spread between my lips and teeth. After a long time, I looked up and asked, “Then how did you find me?”
He changed his expression several times and lowered his eyes. “Ikeno told me the location.”
Heard the unexpected answer, but I did not imagine the shock, the man’s appearance in my mind gradually blurred, only remember when he came against the light of the national costume.
“Is it still possible for us?”
Song Huai opened his mouth with some expectation and some humility, and the caution on his face was something I had never seen before.
I nodded and shook my head.
“I have no plans to fall in love for the time being.”
Sung Huai’s eyes lit up. “It doesn’t matter. I can wait.” After
this conversation, I was unhappy all day.
Song Zhenyi couldn’t stand it and dragged me to her house for a party. The living room was equipped with colorful lights, and all the curtains around it were lowered. There were only a few girls drinking and singing in the room. As soon as there are more
people, it naturally becomes lively, as if all the troubles have dissipated.
Sung Chen-yi sat down next to me with a bottle of wine. She poured out half a glass and handed it to me. She asked, “I heard that Sung Huai is going to pursue you again. You look so unhappy. Don’t you like him anymore?”
I bowed my head in silence and began to think.
A few years ago, I liked Song Huai, which has become my life.
In the next few years, it became my habit not to think of Song Huai. If
love is so easy to quit, how can there be so many crazy men and women in the world?
I was just afraid, I liked him without hesitation, I was really hurt, I was afraid of repeating the same mistakes again, and I was afraid of losing the strength to heal.
“You still like it!” She patted me on the shoulder and said, “If you like it, you can do it. Otherwise, ten or twenty years from now, if you look back at the present, you will certainly regret it.” What I admire most about
Song Zhenyi is her free and easy nature.
When she was a freshman, when she faced her ex-boyfriend Shura, she was so calm that she could do well in front of them. I witnessed her success in love.
On my side, I can’t even handle a Song Huai.
Come, drink! Let’s not go home without getting drunk today.
Song Zhenyi has been pouring wine into my glass, the taste of wine is not very strong, the degree is not small, I also drank a few cups, the whole person is already slightly drunk. In the confusion of
consciousness, a figure appeared in front of my eyes, which was the person I thought about day and night.
I put down my glass, lowered my head and muttered to myself, “I’m drunk, and I can’t believe I saw Song Huai here.”
“You’re not drunk. He’s really here.”
Song Zhenyi gave me a heavy pinch on my face, and the tingling made me wake up and look at the people in front of me with wide eyes. “I want to take you somewhere,”
he said gently.
Perhaps it was the wine that emboldened me, and under the instigation of Song Zhenyi and my little sisters, I finally agreed to his request. His
face was full of surprise, and he couldn’t wait to pull me out of the door, twisting around the buildings, walking through the paths, and finally stopping at a vacant lot, which was covered with flowers. Under the
stars, in the moonlight, and among the flowers, he looked at me piously and asked with some trembling, “Ann, I really like you and want to spend the rest of my life with you. Can you give me a chance to pursue you again?”
Perhaps the wine is in full swing, perhaps the moonlight is sultry, looking at the nervous and firm people in front of us, the heart like stagnant water is like a dead wood in spring, beating up again.
“Good.” After
a long time, I nestled in Sung Huai’s arms and pointed to the scar on his chest and asked, “How could you be so lucky that the shot that killed you went awry?”
He rubbed my head and smiled fondly.
“He did it on purpose.”
I met a little girl in the old factory building. She was smart, tough and good at judging the situation.
The first time we met was actually in the car. At that time, I carried her out of the car in person. Although she was awake, she was pretending to be dizzy all the time. If I hadn’t been experienced, I would have been cheated by her.
Later, I stroked her broken hair, and sure enough, I felt her breathing quicken.
Even with a blindfold over her head and tape over her mouth, I still think she’s a beautiful little girl, like a kitten with sharp claws.
I wanted to use her as a hostage in exchange for some of my brothers.
But when I saw her watery eyes, I hesitated.
I took her to my forest and tried to keep her for myself.
I also asked Song Huai to choose between her life and his mission.
Sure enough, his loyalty is always to the country.
Even if the hostage is her favorite girl.
But she is not happy in my forest, and she can’t sleep all day and night, like a frightened bird.
Even the most restful hours of sleep were due to the fact that I secretly lit double tranquilizer incense in my room.
I know she’s still scared of me. How can flowers growing up in the
greenhouse endure the sufferings of the world?
Our brief encounter is like a magnificent and gorgeous dream, but the dream of Nanke is just like this.
I let go, as long as she can be happy.
She is a flower that opens to the sun, and I just want her to bloom forever.
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X Addiction,
waiting for you to finish class, waiting for you to grow up
, not waiting for
you.
