Last night, the west wind withered the green
trees and complained: “Fireworks are easy to be cold.
I am the queen, but the emperor doesn’t love me.”.
He has failed me a lot, and I have blood on my hands.
I want to live well, let him be on tenterhooks every day, and the two of us will die. On the third day of the
second month, when I went to burn incense in the main hall, I met an old friend. The word
“old friend” is not entirely true, because there is only a vague resemblance between the eyebrows and eyes, but it is not the person himself. When
Li Fude brought her to me, she was still trembling. She knelt down in front of me and stammered,
“Lady of the people..” Lo. Luo Li paid a visit to the empress.
I giggled and ignored her. I turned to the people on both sides and asked, “Look at this. Do you look like it?” The palace people
on either side were silent and did not dare to speak, but it was Li Te-fu who was bold enough to come forward and reply in a low voice: “Eighty percent.”
I lifted the curtain in front of me, walked up to her and held out my index finger to pick up her chin.
She raised her head meekly with my strength, tears in her eyelashes, blinking in fright, like a bird in the water, shivering on my hand, tears streaming down her face.
I asked her softly, “The Mahavira is a royal temple. How did you get in?”
She sobbed and shook her head, saying, “Empress, spare my life.”
I raised my eyebrows disdainfully, and told my left and right: “The Main Hall is the land of the royal Buddha. How can there be such a filthy thing in the hall? Pull down the stick and kill it.”
Liang Zhao looking for such a similar substitute is estimated to be quite a lot of effort, I was so light to kill the stick, so in the evening I have not had dinner, he galloped all the way to the Hall of Precious Prosperity.
Outside, the wind was strong and the night was cold, so there was a chill between the sleeves of his robe. The long lamps on both sides of the gate of the hall were extinguished by the cold wind as he galloped. A palace lady went over and lit them gently.
I was always afraid of the cold, so I lit a brazier and heated the floor. In the warmth of the incense, I raised my eyelids slightly and asked him, “Your Majesty has come all the way from the palace in a hurry. I wonder if he has had dinner.”
He looked at me with a galloping look of anger and questioning, and asked me, “She’s just an ordinary person.” “An old friend like Chunhua,”
I interrupted. “I won’t let her live just because of that face.”
I looked up at him with a half-smile. “It’s hard for you, Liang Zhao. You want to hide her in the main hall. If I hadn’t thought of burning incense and praying for her, how long would you keep her here?”
This is the side hall of the main hall. Directly behind it is the mural of Maitreya Bodhisattva. The curtains on both sides dance without wind. I stood up. The hall was covered with a thick carpet. It was silent when I stepped on it.
I walked to Liang Zhao’s side and gazed at the solemn and solemn face of Maitreya Bodhisattva, who was not sad or happy. I chuckled and said, “You can imagine raising a woman here.” Enraged by me,
Liang Zhao suddenly lowered his head and looked down at me. His tone gradually became a little sad: “I just let her talk with me.”
“You don’t know how much they look like each other.”
I’ve developed a heart of stone over the years, and I almost couldn’t help laughing when I heard it. “Poor Chunhua died early,”
I said with a smile, “otherwise I don’t know how I would feel if I saw Your Majesty’s affectionate and infatuated appearance.” The look on
Liang Zhao’s face converged minute by minute, and we were all used to tit for tat, not showing any weakness in front of each other.
So he narrowed his eyes, quickly adjusted his mood, and sneered:
“You are so ruthless, with so many bones and blood on your hands. I wonder if God will bless a poisonous woman like you if you pray every day.” After a pause,
he added, “Shou’er is so weak and sick. It’s probably because a mother like you has accumulated too much virtue for him.”
I raised my hand and slapped him. He was on guard and pinched my wrist. I
was already used to it, but my heart still felt the pain of a pinprick. Holding back the tears in my eyes, I stared at him and said, “Shou’er is also your child.”
He curled his lips with a smile, shook off my hand, and left. It was only when I got
outside that I heard the sound of him leaving, and I remembered that I had not saluted him when he came in or left. If
this is put in the court, those pedantic ministers will write that this is inconsistent with the law and etiquette. You don’t have to salute him. This is the amnesty he gave me in the third year of yuanbao.
“If you don’t kneel when you see him, you won’t be respectful when you see him off. If you don’t accept him, you won’t be able to come. Husband and wife are of the same mind, and etiquette and law are not bound by rules.”
This was his personal decree to show my favor. I was the only royal nobleman who saw him not kneeling.
And that was ten years ago.
I went back to the palace the next day. The palace was always well informed. I probably heard the news that I had killed a woman with a stick in the main hall.
Coinciding with the beginning of spring, the Ministry of Internal Affairs was not sure about my attitude. Huang Duo, the general manager of the Ministry of Internal Affairs, hesitated for a long time and came to me with the list of beautiful girls of the ministers in the court to ask me to show them.
I do not know whether to laugh or cry to look at the roster of those beautiful girls, each like a spring in the branches of Imperial Garden competing for beauty of the flower buds, just in time. With lowered eyes and bowed waist,
Huang Duo stood aside and explained, “This is the list of the girls of the Spring Show. I brought it to you first to have a look at it.”
I closed the book, rubbed my forehead, and felt a little tired. “Isn’t this kind of thing always decided by your Ministry of Internal Affairs?”? You can do as you see fit.
Huang Duo hesitated for a moment, but I sneered: “The palace has been empty for a long time. It’s time to recruit some new people to come in and have a good time.”
Huang Duo was stupefied for a moment, then repeatedly said yes, took the booklet and retreated. As
I watched his back as he left, Chia-ho beside me rubbed his shoulders and asked me in some confusion, “Does the empress no longer look at the atlases of those beautiful girls?”
I understood what Jiahe meant. She wanted me to get rid of some beautiful girls from the list in advance, including Huang Duolai, but she just wanted to sell well in front of me.
But they don’t know. I don’t care.
I killed the woman in the main hall with a stick, not because of jealousy, but because she looked like Chunhua.
To my age, Liang Zhao is a harem beauty three thousand or five thousand, for me is just dust on the clothes, what does it matter? He can have as many
women as he wants, and I just want to hold the power in my hand.
When I married Liang Zhao, I never thought I would have such an attitude ten years later.
I was married to Liang Zhao by the first empress, until the big wedding became him to raise my hijab, I have only seen him twice.
The first one was a tea party held by the late empress. Besides me, there were also daughters of the right age from various families who were waiting for marriage. When
I entered the palace, my father had told me to be cautious and not to be too outstanding. At that time, the intention of the first queen was obvious. Liang Zhao in the
East Palace was old enough to marry a wife. The first emperor’s idea at that time was that a man could not get married, so the first empress wanted to marry a wife for Liang Zhao as soon as possible.
It is reasonable to say that Liang Zhaogui is the prince of the East Palace, and the number of daughters who want to marry him should be too many to count, but this is also an embarrassing place. Although
the first empress was the mother of a country, she had no consorts to support her and no emperor to protect her. Liang Zhao was set up in the East Palace, but the ministers in the court all understood that the prince of the East Palace was not holy.
The first emperor’s favorite was Liang Ying, the sixth prince at that time, and it was not impossible for the East Palace to change ownership. The
first empress in the tea party about the daughters of the family is obviously the guidance of the family, each in the middle of the rules do not pick out, and even said that the disease does not go. The expression of the
first queen also from the beginning of the interest gradually become some, and finally is just a casual chat with us.
Later, at the end of the tea party, I mistakenly left a jade hairpin at the banquet. The jade hairpin is a relatively private thing, especially in a daughter’s home like ours.
If the omission to the outside cause misunderstanding, in order not to implicate the mother clan, also only to die Mingzhi.
I went back the way I had come. When I reached the lower edge of the water pavilion, I heard the late queen talking softly to a man: “Zhao’er, do you like those legitimate daughters just now?” I
realized that this was a private conversation between the mother and son of the heavenly family, and when I was about to avoid it, I heard a very light sigh: “Mother, don’t worry about this for your son.” After
a pause, he added, with a strong hint of self-mockery in his voice:
“My son is like this, and they are all afraid to avoid him. I don’t know what the future holds for me, so why bother to drag a woman down with me?”.
“You are the son of this palace, the eldest son of Dakang, the ruler of the East Palace, and the ruler of Dakang in the future. Any woman in the world who marries you is a superior.”
I quietly stepped back silently, and after a long distance from the pavilion in the water, I pretended to have just come over and went there again. In the middle of my walk, I happened to meet Liang Zhao on the way.
I lowered my eyes and bowed my head to the side of the road and saluted him. “My daughter greets Prince Ann.”
He had been galloping all the way with his hands on his back, but when he heard this, he was a little stupefied. His footsteps stopped beside me, and his tone was somewhat surprised: “Have you seen me?”
I didn’t dare to look up at him, so I stared at the hem of his clothes. On the crimson robe was the silver thread of the moon white and the auspicious cloud embroidery pattern.
It was probably because my mother and concubine were not formal and had beads hanging from her waist that I cautiously replied, “If you come back to the prince, you are coming from the direction of the empress.”
He was silent for a moment and then smiled. “Whose daughter are you?”? Isn’t the tea party over already?
I had no choice but to tell the truth: “My father is Guang Lu Xun Gu Jue.”
The rest of my speech was a bit humiliating, so I said, “I lost my hairpin, so I had to come the same way.”
I lowered my head, and after a while I heard his laughter, low and very happy: “So that hairpin is yours.”
He smiled again. “Don’t look for it. You left your hairpin on the table and someone near me picked it up. I know this has something to do with the reputation of your daughter’s family. I’ve already had it destroyed. You can rest assured.”
I breathed a sigh of relief, but he changed the subject and went on to say, “If I destroy Miss Ku’s jade hairpin, I will pay you back.”
I raised my head in haste and surprise, facing his gentle eyes. In the early years,
Liang Zhao was cautious and gentle in dealing with people and things. At that time, he paid attention to self-cultivation, so his temper was warm everywhere.
I looked at him and lowered my head. Then someone came to look for him. He nodded to me apologetically and left in a hurry.
This is the first time I met him.
Later, in the fifth year of Emperor Kangbao, five months after the tea party, my father came back from the court and called me to the ancestral temple.
Then he closed the door and made me kneel before the memorial tablets of my ancestors. With a solemn face, he asked me,
“Xibi, let me ask you, a few months ago, the empress summoned you to a banquet in the palace. What did you say or do?” The expression on
his face made me feel uneasy. I thought about it for a while before I replied, “My daughter is not filial. She has never said or done anything.”
I looked up at my father, whose face was covered with ashes in the dark ancestral hall. He looked sadly at the ancestral tablets and said to me word by word, “It’s Your Majesty. I’ve shown you the East Palace.”
A long time later, about a year or two after I married Liang Zhao, our relationship was harmonious, not as life-and-death as in later years, nor as incompatible as it is now. I once asked him by accident during a conversation in
the boudoir, “Why me?” There was a long pause, then
he smiled bitterly and said, “I’m holding you back.”
When Liang Zhao chose me, it was an accident in itself. Otherwise, five months later, the first emperor suddenly married me without warning.
The reason is just because of the Winter Solstice royal family banquet, the first emperor inadvertently asked about the marriage of the first queen Liang Zhao, the first queen back to a sentence still in the family to be married in the selection of women.
The late emperors were somewhat dissatisfied, to the effect that they were accusing the late emperors of doing things slowly. They changed the subject and somehow asked Liang Zhao directly, saying, “What about yourself?”? Do you have anything you like?
Liang Zhao arched his hands and was about to say that he did not want to consider the question of love between men and women at the moment when the late emperor said,
“Like your mother and concubine, she is indecisive. She can’t make up her mind about her big wedding. How can she govern the government in the future?”
So Liang Zhao swallowed the words in his throat. He didn’t know many women, and it happened that he had a little impression of me five months ago, so he blurted out:
“My son is worried about my father, and my daughter, the daughter of Guanglu Xun Gu Jue, is pleased to see it.”
After that, there was a marriage. The second time
we met, it was after Qin Tianjian chose the auspicious time to get married. Liang Zhao came to visit my father. Gu’s family was not satisfied with the marriage.
Because once married, the Gu family, whether willing or not, has been assigned to the East Palace party.
Success is eternal, skyrocketing, but if the defeat, take care of the Manchu family, collapse is just in the palm of the hand, not to mention my father has always been good at himself, pay attention to the disposition of wise self-preservation.
So I guess my father should not be very enthusiastic about Liang Zhao’s visit.
Because when I saw him in the house, his face was pale. It was freezing cold, the sky was gray, and a heavy snow was about to stop. There were large snowflakes in the cold wind.
He came to me in the wind in a black cloak. There are not too many beautiful and harmonious moments between
me and him, so when I close my eyes many years later, I can still clearly restore every picture of that year.
His black hair, his long narrow eyes, his pale lips, his long bony hand holding the handle of the umbrella in his left hand, and the white unmelted snow that fell on the black fluff of his cloak.
He pulled his lips and smiled at me, then took a dark box from the boy behind him and handed it to me. His eyebrows and eyes were gently stretched, but they were deeply frowned.
He said, “I promised to give you a jade hairpin.”
That was the second time we met, and then we met again. It was the eighth day of the seventh month of the next year, the night we got married.
From the time we met before we got married to the time we got married, I heard Liang Zhao say three times, “I dragged you down.”.
Liang Zhao is not favored, but the position is the target of public criticism, so after I married Liang Zhao, there was indeed a period of time very difficult, step by step, all day long on tenterhooks. Every time
he left the palace to report to the court, I was afraid that he would not be able to return safely because of the anger of the late emperor or something in the court.
At that time, we looked like the nobles of heaven, but in fact, we had nothing. Even our lives were precarious, but to put it in a vulgar way, we were really happy at that time.
Because he treats me with his heart, and I treat him with my heart.
Later, when the late emperor was ill, the six princes had very close contacts with the ministers of the Ministry of War. In those days when the undercurrent was turbulent in the court, I even carried a dagger with me. I was prepared to commit suicide in case something happened. I must not drag him down.
At that time, Liang Zhao loved me dearly and arranged many ways for me.
One of them is that in case the late emperor died of illness, the six princes raised troops, he began to arrange the secret department to escort me to leave for the people, even the money he has prepared, enough for me to live a lifetime without worrying about food and clothing.
I held his front and asked him, “What will you do if the six princes succeed in raising their troops?”
He gazed up at the sky and said, word for word, “The winner is the winner and the loser is the loser. How can I live in vain?” With a smile in my eyes,
I raised my lips and said to him, “You are meticulous and you live in vain. Our husband and wife are of the same mind. How can I live alone?”? If you can’t do something great, I will come to you.
He was quite moved. He lowered his head and raised his hand to touch the top of my hair. I saw a flash of water in his eyes. He laughed and said, “Silly girl.”
So the first thing he did when he ascended the throne was to issue an imperial edict that whenever and wherever I saw him, I did not have to bow and kneel. He said, “Husband and wife are of the same mind, and there are no restrictions on etiquette and law.”
Looking back on Liang Zhao and I have been in love and killing each other for most of our lives, we are very strange that no one has ever spoken about love first, nor has anyone spoken about love. I didn’t know if Liang Zhao loved me
before. At that time, I was too sure and didn’t ask him. Later, we all hated each other deeply, so there was no need to ask again.
Many years later, five years after Liang Zhao ascended the throne, when he was angry and wanted to put me into the cold palace, Gong E Jiahe beside me knelt down beside his leg and begged with tears in her eyes,
“Your Majesty, Your Majesty, please think twice, for the sake of the empress accompanying you all the way.” I beg you to make an exception. “
He kicked Jiahe far away, pointed at my nose and looked at me with disgust in his eyes. He said angrily,” If it weren’t for the affection of my former husband and wife, do you think you would still be alive? ”
I sat down on the ground and looked up at him with tears in my eyes and kept silent until he left in a rage and tears did not fall from my eyes.
At that time, in fact, there were still extravagant hopes, not yet desperate to die, so later will do such a stupid thing.
Humble and humble to the dust, sometimes in retrospect, think of that time so silly myself, all seem like a lifetime ago.
But that year, to really thank the first emperor that illness, that serious illness did not let the first emperor drive the crane to the west, but because of that illness, exposed the six princes to form a clique for personal gain. Those
in power, no matter how much they love their son, are equally intolerable if they touch the bottom line of their rights.
So the first emperor called the six princes to scold them severely at that time, and the door of the Imperial Study was closed, which did not block the voice of the first emperor scolding the six princes when he was angry.
It is said that when the six princes came out of the Imperial Study and went down the steps, the last step was empty and they fell in front of the Imperial Study.
Anyway, Liang Zhao’s chance is coming. After
that, the first emperor, whether intentionally or unintentionally, slowly tilted part of the power of the Ministry of War into my father’s hands. At a family dinner Lunar New Year’s Eve
that year, he even gave Liang Zhao a rare pat on the shoulder and said, “You are a good and filial child, and my father can’t help thinking about you.”
The first emperor’s plan for Liang Zhao was true, but his preference for the six princes was also true. The birth mother of the six princes was Shu Fei, whom he held in the palm of his hand and loved for half his life.
The first emperor was indecisive, and although the six princes formed a clique for personal gain during his illness, after a long time, he aroused the idea of abolishing and establishing a new one. Fortunately, however, there was nothing wrong with the
first empress, Liang Zhao was also gentle and courteous, and the abolition of the new crown prince was a matter of shaking the foundation of the country, and most of the ministers in the court did not support it.
So hesitating, the first emperor to the last dying moment, during that time the court’s important officials frequently in and out of the first emperor’s bedroom.
I still remember that the day before the death of the late emperor, Liang Zhao was declared to the palace by the eunuch beside the late emperor. During the time when he entered the palace, the lights of the East Palace were not extinguished all night.
I personally carried the lantern outside the gate of the East Palace, ready to drink the poison prepared in my arms if it was not the prince who came to the East Palace from the palace at dawn. Fortunately, it was Liang Zhao who returned at
dawn.
The next day, the first emperor died, and Liang Zhao succeeded to the throne. There was no bloody mutiny in his imagination. The testamentary edict that succeeded to the throne mentioned Liang Zhao with only a few figures. Most of the contents of the following testamentary edict were about the six princes and their birth mothers. When the
six princes were granted the title of King Su, they could raise private soldiers and retainers, and were granted the title of Di Jue. Their birth mother moved out of the harem and opened another palace for the elderly. One of them was that Liang Zhaoyong could not strip his younger brother of his title and hurt his younger brother’s life. All aspects of
the first emperor were carefully arranged for the six princes and the imperial concubines.
Liang Zhao was good at hiding in the early years. In the years when I married him, the first time I saw his emotions hidden in the bottom of my heart was when I kept vigil for the late emperor that night, and everyone dispersed in the middle of the night.
He had lost a lot of weight during that time. His face was pale, and his dark eyes looked straight at the coffin of the late emperor. I half knelt beside him, raised my hand to his shoulder, and said in a mournful voice, “Your Majesty, take care of yourself!”
“Your Majesty?”
Liang Zhao suddenly burst out laughing. He slanted his head and looked at me. The cruel light in his eyes flashed away, and his tone was full of self-mockery. He suddenly laughed, repeated it twice, and then said, “Your Majesty, it’s just a joke!”
His expression was tinged with despair. “Why?”? Xibi, who is also his son, why does he always worry about Laoliu? What about me What is wrong with
me? To ascend the throne? Oh, if it hadn’t been for those founding fathers and ministers of the former Dynasty who tried their best to persuade him not to shake the foundation of the country, it would never have been my turn to sit in that position today. There seemed to be a fire in
his sight, and the wind was howling through the hall. I raised my hand to his lips and said with tears in my eyes, “Your Majesty, please be careful what you say.”
Liang Zhao was actually very kind to me in the early days of his accession to the throne. Now, his favor for me began in the early years of yuan Shi. yuan Shi means a new beginning for everything. That was the year when my father and brother brought down the six princes Liang Rui for him.
The first emperor did not think that he wanted to escort Liang Rui to be safe and prosperous for life, so he gave the decree, but it was precisely the decree that destroyed Liang Rui.
The first emperor gave Liang Rui military power to protect himself, gave him fertile fief to make him rich, but a person with money and military power, how can he be willing to be a king of Su.
Besides, Liang Zhao could not make him willing to be a rich King Su. I remember the first year’s banquet, which was the first year’s family banquet when Liang Zhao ascended the throne.
At that time, all the important officials in the court were invited to a banquet. Liang Zhao waited for Liang Rui for half an hour with all the important officials in the court.
In the middle of winter, the dishes on the table changed again and again, but Liang Rui came again when Liang Zhao announced the opening of the banquet. Not only did
he have a bodyguard who had not removed his sword, but he was also drunk and dissolute. When he arrived at the banquet, he did not kneel down. He walked into the banquet by himself and said with a smile,
“I forgot the time. I’ve already had a round of dinner at your house. Don’t blame me, brother.”
Manchu minister Nuonuo dared not speak. I turned my head to look at Liang Zhao’s face. He looked as usual. He even smiled and said, “It’s all right, my brother.” At the end of the
banquet, I comforted him softly, but he laughed and asked me, “Xibi, have you ever heard the story of Zheng Boke and Duan Yu Yan?”? I like this story very much.
I was stupefied, did not make a sound, want to get rid of it, must first let it, Liang Zhao did this very well, but I never thought that he would use this move on me later.
Liang Rui is really stupid, Liang Zhao’s indulgence to him did not make him aware of the approaching danger, but more and more presumptuous, forming a clique for personal gain, bullying the people, plotting rebellion, and making imperial robes privately. On the one hand,
Liang Zhao gave in to him in the court. On the other hand, he asked my father to collect the evidence of Liang Rui’s crime in private and unite with the ministers who were dissatisfied with Liang Rui. On the other hand, he transferred the military power to my brother. In the winter of the third
year, Liang Rui rebelled against the siege of the palace and was captured by my brother in Meridian Gate.
He made a promise to the first emperor, neither cutting his position nor hurting his life, and everyone in the court was praising the benevolence of the new emperor. Only a few people knew about
this. He tied Liang Rui’s limbs to his fief and sent people to serve him three meals a day. He just ate pig food and drank sewage. He had no way to commit suicide. Because of the humiliation and unwillingness suffered by Liang Rui,
he finally returned it after years. After
Liang Rui was overthrown, the biggest “cancer” in the court became our family.
I don’t know from what Liang Zhao began to consider and calculate me. Every step he took was accurate.
Everything has a sign. When Liang Rui was imprisoned in his own fief, Liang Zhao began to alienate me. He did things properly and would not let others guess what he was thinking.
At first I just thought he was busy, but after being repeatedly turned away from the door with a smiling face by Grandfather Li, who was in front of the emperor, I finally couldn’t help breaking into his Imperial Study and asking him, “What’s wrong with Your Majesty?” There was a flash of displeasure on
his face, but it soon subsided. He just rubbed his forehead and said to me, “It’s all right. It’s just that I’ve been busy with government affairs recently.”
He raised his eyes and smiled. “Thanks for your hard work recently.”
I trust Liang Zhao, I was too young at that time, always feel that we have experienced so much together, this heart can be the world, the sun and the moon leisurely, so although I act cautiously.
But I didn’t really treat him as an emperor.
I thought he was my husband.
I forgot to ask him if he also thought so, I was not in the eyes of Liang Zhao at that time to accompany him through the hardships of his wife, after Liang Rui died, Gu Jia is the biggest threat to his status of consorts.
It’s a pity that it took me a long time to wake up to this truth.
My mother’s family is not a person who cherishes power and hegemony, when Liang Rui was captured by my brother in Meridian Gate, my father handed over all the military power in his hands.
I remember that when my father handed over the military power, Liang Zhao stepped down from the throne room and personally helped my father up. He patted him on the shoulder and said sincerely,
“This is a time to employ people. I have no one to trust in the court, only Gu Qing. Please ask Gu Qing to guard the stability of the Great Kang River for me again.”
My father knelt on the ground and said, “I will live up to the emperor’s trust.”
I was moved at that time, and then Chunhua appeared in less than half a month.
Chunhua, Chunhua, this name tosses and turns between the lips and teeth, is my humiliation and unwillingness.
All the palace people in Dakang thought I hated Chunhua. Five or six years later, I couldn’t even see a woman who was half similar to her. In fact, no one knew that I was only grateful to Chunhua.
I am grateful that her appearance has punctured my self-deception and awakened me from the illusion of mutual respect.
Chunhua appeared during the cold war between Liang Zhao and me. At that time, I forgot what kind of trivial matter it was. He came to apologize to me for half a month, but I ignored it.
Later, Liang Zhao got angry and ordered me to reflect in the palace on the charge of disrespect. When
I close my eyes, I can still hear the laughter of Chunhua, just like the happiest lark in spring. I was grounded in the palace by Liang Zhao.
I can only restore the first romantic encounter between Gong E and the king of a country from the mouth of others.
It is said that Liang Zhao came out from the Imperial Study to relax in the side hall, and when he reached the Chunhe Hall, he saw a small palace lady in green clothes climbing on a tree to pick peaches.
He stood by and watched with interest until she slipped from the tree and was caught by him. “What’s your name?” He asked her as he held her in his arms amid a riot of
fallen petals. Little Gong’e, who had a beautiful
face, blushed with shyness and stammered back in a low voice, “Spring..” Chunhua.
The spring scenery gathered in China, and later she became a spring concubine, and the Chunhe Hall became her bedroom hall, with peach blossoms planted for her by Liang Zhao within a radius of ten miles.
Since Liang Zhao ascended the throne, he has never been so brazenly blessed a person.
Chunhua is the first.
This kind of holy favor is accompanied by Liang Zhao through thick and thin, I can not be compared with it. Only a few months
later, the good news of Chunhua’s pregnancy came from the palace.
My father was cautious and never did anything beyond his supremacy. The only thing he did wrong was for me.
In fact, after Liang Zhao ascended the throne, he had a draft. In the first two years, because of Liang Rui’s affairs, he had no time to be separated from the harem, so the draft of the harem was done by me.
He has always been thin on women, so although the harem is full, but the number of times he went is still very few, this is the first time in two years, the harem spread good news.
I am the mother of a country, and I have always maintained a good deportment. I have been married to Liang Zhao for all these years. The child of Chunhua Huai is Liang Zhao’s first child. When I
knew the news, I didn’t sleep all night. The next day, Liang Zhao sent a lot of treasures to my palace. He was comforting me.
However, the child was not born in the end, and my father received a lot of grace. My elder brother went to the palace at the family banquet, and at the last parting, he repelled the crowd.
He whispered in my ear, “The one in the palace, my father and I will take care of you.”
I looked up in surprise. “What do you want with your father?”
I must have looked very pale. “Are you crazy? That’s the unborn heir.”
My elder brother looked down at me with pity in his eyes and said, “You are now the mother of a country. If something happens to my father and me in the future, you must have security in the palace alone. So the first prince of Dakang can only be born by you. Do you understand?”
I think at that time, my father should have been able to foresee the decadent trend of the family.
That night, I didn’t sleep well all night.
I did not expect that after a long time, at that time, I would send bowls of red flowers to pregnant palaces everywhere without changing my face, break open the mouths of the imperial concubines and pour the red flowers into them. The day
after Chunhua’s miscarriage, Liang Zhao came to my palace for lunch. The two of them finished their lunch in unusual silence, but I never spoke.
Finally, when Gong E quietly came over to clear the dishes on the table, Liang Zhao asked in a low voice, “Is that you?”
I was half silent, so he looked up from his seat into my eyes with a serious look, as if he were very sad, and he asked me, “Is that you?”
I managed to pull my lips and smile. Then I replied, “What are you talking about? Why can’t I understand?”
He brushed the table full of dishes to the ground, Gong E gave a low exclamation, and the broken pieces of the dishes splashed on my body. He stood up
, looked down at me, and said, “You’ve let me down.” Long after
he had left, I was still sitting there alone, and the light of the sunset outside the window slanted inch by inch. When
the lanterns were lit, Chia-ho dared to come in. When he saw me, he let out an exclamation of surprise and asked, “Empress, why are you crying?”
I looked up in despair. No one knows
Liang Zhao’s favor to Chunhua. After Chunhua miscarried, he ordered me to be grounded for a longer period of time. I don’t know what happened to my father and brother in the
court, but Liang Zhao’s attitude made Chunhua’s abortion clear at a glance. I heard someone say that I was immoral.
I accompanied Liang Zhao for half a lifetime, and finally ended up with a bad end.
Later, when my father had an old attack, my elder brother sent a message to me in the palace, telling me that I must go back to the house.
At that time, my palace ban was not full, so I had to ask Liang Zhao. He was in the Chunhe Hall. I knelt at the door of the Chunhe Hall and waited for him for a long time before he came out.
At that time, we had not seen each other for nearly five months. When he came out of the Chunhe Hall, he was in excellent spirits. Chunhua followed him and sent him out.
I knelt on one side and raised my face with tears in my eyes, but I could only beg him.
He looked down at me for a moment, and I could see a trace of intolerance in his eyes. But finally, after a pause, he asked me, “It’s forbidden to make private deals in the palace. How did you know Gu Qing was seriously ill?”
My father took great pains for his accession to the throne, and in order to bring down Liang Rui, he suffered countless injuries, big and small.
Poor him this life is loyal, to the only daughter who is seriously ill wants to see him, Liang Zhao is concerned about how I know the news.
I knelt on the ground and stared at him for a long time with tears in my eyes. Then I stood up from the ground and walked away in silence. It wasn’t long
before Chunhua was pregnant with her second child, and everyone thought she was lucky. When the news came out of the palace, a note came in from outside the palace. It was my elder brother, and there were only two words: “Stay or not?”.
I put the note on the candle and watched the flames lick it clean little by little, but I didn’t reply. I think my brother must understand what I mean.
I know he and my father are thinking about me, but Gu’s family really can’t afford to experience a little doubt and suspicion.
But this child of Chunhua, still did not keep. When
Liang Zhao angrily kicked open the door of my palace, I looked stunned, especially when he pointed at my nose and began to scold me as a snake and scorpion woman. He did not listen to
my hasty defense. At that time, I hesitated to think that my father and brother did not listen to me and insisted on doing it.
Chunhua’s second shock to the government and the public, not only because she was Liang Zhao’s favorite concubine, this matter rose to harm the emperor’s heir.
Unlike the previous child, Liang Zhao collected all the evidence this time, and all the evidence pointed to my brother. There were
witnesses, material evidence and motives, and even the previous abortion was brought up again. Liang Zhao’s love for Chunhua was well known. My brother was unable to defend himself. My father was still in prison when he was ill.
But no one dared to intercede for my father and brother. The courtiers said that this was a consort who reached out to the harem to control the government. His intentions were sinister, and his heart could be punished.
But it happened that my father was in a critical condition. That rainy night, I had to go around the palace people along the secret road to the Imperial Study to plead with him. In the
deserted Imperial Study, he stood behind Chunhua, holding her hand and teaching her to write. I could hear Chunhua’s timid and bright laughter. She asked Liang Zhao, “Your Majesty, what character did you teach me to write?”
Liang Zhao’s voice is low, with a smile: “It’s the word’power. ‘It’s the supreme power that everyone wants.”
Chunhua’s voice was filled with naive doubts: “I heard that Gu Jian is dying of illness. Are you going to take back the military power?” After a pause
, she asked doubtfully, “But why bother?”? When Gu Jian took the initiative to hand over military power, why didn’t you?
Liang Zhao laughed and said, “It was handed over by my courtiers. If I take it back directly, I won’t take it back, and I won’t let other people who have rendered meritorious service blame me for suspecting my courtiers who have rendered meritorious service.”
Chunhua stuck out her tongue delicately and said, “I don’t know anything anyway.”
Liang Zhao lowered his head and put his chin on the top of her hair. With a relaxed smile on his lips, he said with a smile, “I just like that you don’t know anything.”
But, Your Majesty, do you think you can bring down the Gu family this time? When I was pregnant with my first child, I had already avoided the murder of the Gu family. But you said that for your sake, I deliberately lost that child and planted it on the Gu family. This time, I deliberately set up a trap to deceive people. What if I was found to have not miscarried at all? In fact,
I can imagine Chunhua leaning on Liang Zhao’s arms and smiling, especially Liang Zhao’s voice, which is gentle and smiling. “It doesn’t matter,” he said. “I’m here.” I have heard
these words many times. Before he ascended the throne, when I was afraid of him all day long, he held me in his arms and said again and again, “It doesn’t matter. Don’t be afraid of Zebi. I am here.” It was raining heavily
outside, and the rain was running down the broken line on the top of my hair. I touched my face, and it was all rain. Then I went back the same way quietly.
My father died a day later.
Chunhua, I still don’t know what Liang Zhao likes about her. This woman is ignorant, flashy and stupid. The day after my father passed away, she came to provoke me. I think her face is stupid to the extreme.
She looked at me with a cocky smile and said, “I’m sorry, Empress.”
I looked at her stomach and swallowed a mouthful of blood. I said with a sneer, “I want to take good care of your stomach.”
She winced back, as if she didn’t know why I knew. Then, as if she didn’t want to be reconciled, she replied,
“Instead of worrying about me, the empress, why don’t you worry about why you’ve been married to Your Majesty for decades and still can’t have a child?” So much for
spinning. If
things go on like this, it is probably the loss of power, I was imprisoned by Liang Zhao in the name of immorality, this is probably the most happy ending in Liang Zhao’s heart.
It’s just a pity that man is not as good as God. Five days later, an urgent military report came from the border. It’s an emergency outside the pass. It’s full of military commanders. Only my elder brother can use it. That’s how
my brother came out of prison, and when he came out, he had to wear armor and carry a sword to the battlefield. On the
last day I went to see him off. He had suffered a lot in prison. I helped him tie the knot of his cloak and said, “Military power is your own.”
My brother looked at me with pity. “Siby, the authorities are obsessed. I didn’t do this to Chunhua.” After a pause,
he mentioned to me lightly, “Your Majesty is cool by nature and good at hiding. He is not a person who can be entrusted. I don’t know if I can come back alive. You are in the palace, and everything depends on yourself.” The
wind was blowing. I wrapped my cloak tightly in the cold wind and felt cold. But I smiled and said lightly, “I know.”
Later, it was my elder brother who led hundreds of thousands of soldiers to return triumphantly. On the day when they returned to Beijing successfully, someone fell into the water and died.
It is said that she was the favored imperial concubine Chun. She died in the Spring Peach Pond in the Hall of Spring Harmony. She was drowned, with one corpse and two lives.
Liang Zhao kicked open the gate of my palace and pulled me out. All the people in the hall held their breath. He said ferociously, “Gu Xibi, is that you?”
I broke away from his grip on my wrist and stood up straight, straightening my back.
Then he slowly adjusted his dress and looked at him with a slight smile.
“Your Majesty, don’t spray people with blood. Everything is based on evidence. Your Majesty didn’t rush in so rashly.”
“Those who know are those who think that Your Majesty has lost his beloved and has lost his sense of propriety. Those who don’t know are those who think that Your Majesty is afraid of the general who has just won the battle and returned to the court, and deliberately finds fault to chill the hearts of all the soldiers!”
He stepped back with a pale face and looked at me in disbelief, as if he didn’t know who I was.
I smiled at him.
Postscript
My prayer in the Mahavira Hall did not save Shou’er’s life. He did not wait until the spring of this year.
This child is weak. My body is not suitable for pregnancy because I was fed medicine by Liang Zhao in my early years. This child is what I want.
Ever since Chunhua’s death, Liang Zhao and I have been at odds with each other, but whenever a concubine in the palace is pregnant, she will miscarry for no reason. Later, Liang Zhao asked me with a tired look on his face, “Gu Xibi, what are you going to do?” Laughing,
I looked up at him from under his hands and said, “When I have my first child.”
Then I had Shou’er. How can children who are
forced to stay be in good health? Probably from the day he was born, I was ready for him to leave at any time, so there was not much sadness.
Because every day since he was born, I’ve been prepared to lose him. When
Liang Zhao heard the news and arrived, I was sitting in the corner of the porch with Shou’er’s little body in my arms, basking in the sun. He was walking in a hurry. I looked up and smiled at him. “Keep your voice down,” I hissed.
As he stood frozen in place, I turned my head to look at him and laughed: “Liang Zhao, I remember that most of the women in the folk were chaste and strong. Many wives who were betrayed by their husbands ended up choosing to burn both jade and stone.” After a pause,
I burst out laughing. “When Shou’er died, I lost all hope. I felt that my life was really not interesting. I wanted to burn this place down, dust to dust, dust to dust, and let each other go.”
He looked at me awkwardly and said in a half-dumb voice, “Don’t do anything stupid.”
I looked up at him strangely. “Sometimes I think back to the past, but it’s strange. I can’t remember what we used to be like. Then I think and think and change my mind.”
He was waiting for me to say something. I shook my head gently, but finally I didn’t say anything.
Because as we all know, it doesn’t matter whether you say it or not. When I married him,
this man wanted me to use contraception to avoid the autocracy of consorts in the future, and also wanted to kill the child of his pregnant favorite concubine to frame and bring down Gu Jia.
He has no heart, so why should I worry about nothing.
I said softly,
“When you were the crown prince of the East Palace, we were on tenterhooks. Once you said you didn’t want to be a crown prince or an emperor. You just wanted to be an ordinary person. At that time I felt sorry for you.”
“But Liang Zhao, you are naturally cool and thin, and no one is more suitable for this position than you.” Smiling,
I raised my head and said, “Look at you now. You have the whole world under your feet, but you have few children and no one loves you. You’ve done everything you can. You’re just a loner with nothing but your country.” After a pause,
I smiled and said, “You have failed me a lot, and my hands are stained with blood. I want to live well, and let you worry about me every day until the day you die.”
He looked at me and closed his eyes gently. I turned my head and pretended not to see the tear in the corner of his eye.
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Published on 2022-05-31 at 19:20. Forbidden to Reprint
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