Palace Wall Cuofang
Hua Complaint: Fireworks are easy to be cold, for whom to bow down
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Green shade, green willows, flowers in full bloom, streams facing the brilliant morning glow like a floating rainbow.
Two teenagers were sitting by the stream, wiping their swords. In the stream, two young girls were laughing and playing barefoot. They turned around and poured water on the teenagers. The teenagers pretended to be angry and got up to play with them.
I looked at the scene in front of me and wanted to get close to them, but when I got close, everything came to naught and disappeared with the wind.
“Empress, Empress!”
I faintly heard someone calling me and opened my eyes to see my maid standing in front of my bed.
It turned out that everything just now was just a dream. The person I want to see is long gone.
“Empress, Your Majesty’s talent show is about to begin. It’s time for you to get up and dress up earlier.”
I wiped the tears from the corners of my eyes and rolled over, somewhat confused. “These things have to be taken care of by Concubine Cheng. I don’t have to show up.”
Empress, have you forgotten? Concubine Cheng has handed over the right to take charge of the six palaces, and now it’s up to you to decide what happens in the harem.
I suddenly got up and stared at my little maid for a while. I really forgot that Cheng Guifei was now the shopkeeper.
I thought for a moment and then asked the maid, “Did Your Majesty specifically let me pass?”
This.. Your Majesty did not say that.
The little maid said, and I immediately went back to bed. “In that case, it’s all right if Your Majesty chooses a concubine and he likes it. I don’t have to go.”
“But you’re the queen, and if you don’t go..”
“Stand down!” I waved my hand, not wanting to hear her analyze the rules and etiquette for me.
Whether I go or not, Zhou Jinyu will not listen to my opinion. His canonization and dismissal will always follow his own mind.
But I didn’t expect that Zhou Jin only conferred the title of a concubine this time.
And on the second day, all the concubines came to my palace to pay their respects. When they saw the girl, they were all surprised.
Because she looks so much like me.
The little girl looked at her age. She was still young and looked like a child. I heard yesterday that she was the youngest daughter of the Yan family. Her name was Yan Luo, and she was given the title of Yan Jieyu.
Originally, the Yan family was reluctant to let the little daughter enter the palace, but by mistake, because of some special reasons, they had to send her to the talent show. The Yan family thought that Yan had not yet reached the age of death, and that her appearance was not beautiful, and that Zhou Jin should look down on her. Unexpectedly
, yesterday, Zhou Jinxuan saw Yan Luo hidden in the corner at a glance, and only canonized her.
I know that Zhou Jin did this to humiliate me.
Yan Luo stood in the center of the hall and saluted me. Perhaps she had felt the strange eyes of the concubines around her, or perhaps she knew why she was chosen the moment she saw me.
She lowered her head and her shoulders trembled slightly. I couldn’t bear to watch her. If it wasn’t for me, how could she come to this palace and become a bird in this cage? Zhou Jinyu wants to get back at me, but he always implicates innocent people.
I raised my hand slightly and asked her to sit next to Hu Zhaoyi. The little girl was so nervous that after sitting down, her hands were still shaking gently and unconsciously. When
Hu Zhaoyi saw her, he took her hand and comforted her by saying, “You don’t have to be afraid. The empress is a very good person.”. Now that you have entered the palace, you are everyone’s little sister.
The child is young, after all is easy to coax some, listened to Hu Zhaoyi’s words, then relaxed down. She smiled, her eyes were curved, showing her little tiger teeth, and she was very cute.
The concubines looked at Yan Luo and smiled unconsciously, like an old mother looking at her child.
I said a few words briefly and then told everyone to disperse. All the concubines had reached the door of the palace, but Cheng Guifei was still sitting there, her eyes stupefied, not knowing what she was thinking.
I called out to her, and she came to her senses and saluted me. “My concubine has also retired.”
I looked at her figure far away, puzzled in my heart, Cheng Guifei is not like her recently.
Cheng Guifei, the youngest daughter of the Cheng family, has been spoiled and arrogant since childhood. She entered the palace before me, and the little girl became the imperial concubine of the harem with her love for the young man.
Because she liked Zhou Jin, in short, from the beginning, she did not like me very much. She was always at odds with me, and she was very much loved by Zhou Jin, so Zhou Jin always protected her.
Sometimes I feel that she is like a child, who is proud of the candy given by Zhou Jin, and actually has no bad intentions. She seems to be very happy as long as she proves that, compared with anyone else, she is the one who Zhou Jinyi cares about most. The people in the
palace didn’t like her. They thought she was arrogant and domineering. She liked to have power in her hands, so I simply left the harem to her.
But since she came back from Hanshan Temple two months ago, she has changed her temper. She was often absent-minded and did not like to go out, and the harem was thrown directly to me. When he saw me, he was not as arrogant and rude as before.
I guess it may have something to do with her assassination in the Hanshan Temple. Every spring,
I would take the empress to the Hanshan Temple to fast for three days and pray for all the people in the world. In the spring of
this year, Zhou Jinxuan issued a decree, saying that I was ill, and this time Cheng Guifei went with him. There is no doubt that he is hitting me in the face.
In those days, Cheng Guifei’s tail was going up to the sky. She wandered around the palace all day, showing off the importance Zhou Jinyu attached to her.
But on the day when they were preparing to return to the palace from Hanshan Temple, they suddenly met an assassin, and Cheng Guifei fell into the cold pool on the mountain.
When she returned to the palace, I knew that she had lost her baby, who was just three months old, and that she would never be pregnant again in the cold pool.
Overnight, Cheng Guifei was like a peacock with its feathers pulled out, and she no longer had any vitality. The women in
this palace are all miserable people.
Zhou’s only child is Princess Yongping, now four years old, whose mother died last winter.
According to the rules, the princess should be kept in my lap, and that’s what Zhou Jin meant. But I never agreed.
Yes, I don’t want to have a child with Zhou Jinxuan, even if other women don’t want to.
Taking advantage of this opportunity, I took Yongping to the palace of Cheng Guifei. Cheng Guifei and Yongping are very happy, a few years ago, although Cheng Guifei spoiled, but Yongping has been very loving, Yongping also like her.
In a word, I believe that Cheng Guifei will be more suitable to be a good mother than me.
Cheng Guifei held Yongping for a long time and did not let go. She seemed to be crying. She calmed down, took Yongping’s hand and stood in front of me. “Thank you, empress,” she said solemnly.
I smiled and wiped the tears from her eyes. “Jinyun, with Yongping to accompany you in the future, you won’t be too bored in this palace.”
After listening to my words, Cheng Guifei’s eyes were shocked, and then her eyes were slightly filled with tears.
“What’s the matter?” I asked her.
“Nothing. I just feel that in this palace, you are the only one who can remember my maiden name.”
I smiled bitterly, not knowing what else to say. We are empresses, imperial concubines, Zhaoyi and Jieyu. We are imprisoned by titles. In the eyes of others, no matter who we are, we are no longer ourselves. Sometimes
I even feel that I am alive only when I am called by name. But the person who can kindly call me Xiaoshu in this world is no longer in the harem.
After Yongping came to Cheng Guifei’s side, she changed again. She talked more, loved to laugh, was more gentle and less domineering.
Cheng Guifei always brought Yongping to my palace and asked Yongping to recite the ancient Chinese she had learned that day.
Hu Zhaoyi’s cooking skills are very good. She often cooks in person, cooks a big table of delicious food, and then brings Yan Luo to my palace for dinner. Several of us gathered together, and the boring life of the harem became vivid.
Yongping’s little girl is clever, and she is also very good at pleasing everyone, especially with Yan Luo. The two of them built a swing in my palace. They pushed me and I pushed you. They were two children who had not grown up. At noon
that day, Cheng Guifei and her family were having dinner in my palace.
“I heard that Your Majesty wanted Yan Luo to go to bed, but you refused on the grounds that she was ill?” Cheng Guifei put down her chopsticks and asked me.
I nodded. “I can’t bear to see her so young.”
“But how long can you protect her?”
“Protect one moment and count it as one moment!”
I know that Zhou Jin does not care who is sleeping, he wants Yan Luo to sleep, but also hope that I can be jealous, I can go to him to cry, make trouble with him.
But he miscalculated.
I don’t have any expectations for him.
Cheng Guifei sighed fiercely and cursed: “Ungrateful and unlucky dog man!” Hu Zhaoyi and
I were stunned and realized that the person she scolded was Zhou Jinyu.
“What’s the matter?” Cheng Guifei turned her head to meet our eyes. “Am I wrong?” Hu Zhaoyi and
I smiled helplessly, nodded and said, “You’re right.”
Later, several of us burst out laughing, and no one would have thought that the three empresses of our harem would laugh so happily because they had reached such a consensus.
I don’t know what happened to Cheng Guifei, but I think her attitude towards Zhou Jinyu is somewhat complicated.
She still seems to love him, but she doesn’t seem to love him as much as she used to.
“Yen Niangniang is a big child. How can she compete with Yung-ping for the lotus cake?”
“An older child is still a child. Besides, Yung-ping, you have to eat less sweets. Your face is already getting rounder!”.
Yan Luo and Yongping both like to eat the hibiscus cake made by Hu Zhaoyi, and they have a dispute over who the last piece of hibiscus cake falls into.
“All right, half for each.” Hu Chao-yi touched Yung-ping’s head and said, “Lady Hu, I’ll make you some more.”
“Good!” The two men looked up, smiled, and spoke in unison. Although Zhou Jinxuan and
I are not of the same mind as emperors and empresses, we still respect each other. To be precise, I dare not disobey him. The affairs of the former
Dynasty were heavy, and for a long time, Zhou Jin did not come to the harem very often. When Zhou Jin didn’t come to the harem, Hu Zhaoyi was in a particularly good mood. She cooked delicious food in different ways every day, and fed me and Cheng Guifei several pounds. It was
autumn, and it was the first time that Zhou Jinyu came to my palace this year. When I saw him, I was in a trance for a moment. If we didn’t see each other for a long time, maybe I would really forget him.
Forget his good, also forget his bad, as if there has never been such a person in my life.
Or that face as cold as thin ice, frowning slightly, angry and sometimes smiling, that is, angry and affectionate. Up to now, I still feel that Zhou Jin was born with a good appearance.
Zhou Jinxuan read the memorial to the throne on the desk, while I grinded the ink for him.
“The green clothes hold the inkstone to urge the inscriptions, and the red sleeves add fragrance to accompany the reading.”. Anyone who sees this scene will feel that we are extremely beautiful.
After a while, Chou Chin-chien suddenly said, “I haven’t seen you for a long time. You look quite plump. It seems that the empress has been in a good mood recently. Maybe it’s because I haven’t seen you for a long time?” In
my heart, since he knew it in his heart, why did he ask me?
However, I’d better not provoke him, otherwise I have no good fruit to eat. “Your Majesty is joking, and I’m afraid.”
Chou Chin-chien suddenly put down the pen in his hand and frowned at me. “I want to quarrel with the queen now, but I can’t,” he said? When did the queen become inconsistent?
I continued to bow my head and grind ink, wondering if he was too stable for the emperor in recent years, no one scolded him, and he felt a little uncomfortable?
In fact, Zhou Jin and I used to quarrel, but since I married him, we have never quarreled.
After all, he is now the emperor, holding the world’s power of life and death. Without changing my expression,
I said, “Your Majesty is joking again.” Before
I had finished speaking, Zhou Jinyu suddenly got up and threw his pen on the table, splashing ink all over the memorial he was going to read.
Your Majesty! Your Majesty! Can you only call me Your Majesty now? He came over and grabbed me by the shoulder, clasped his fingers into my shoulder blade, and it hurt a little. It seems that
I should kneel down in front of Zhou Jin now, saying that I am guilty. But I suddenly didn’t want to do that. I continued to grind the ink without looking up. “Then isn’t Your Majesty now only called my concubine queen?”
Zhou Jin took two steps back. The night outside was quiet, and I could hear his sigh clearly.
I never looked up at him. He was silent for a moment and walked out of the hall alone. He is obviously a martial arts practitioner, but his back looks so thin at the moment. In the dim light of night, like a candle flickering, as if the wind was about to blow down. When he
reached the door, he said softly, “Tomorrow is the anniversary of the death of the late empress, so I won’t go to the ancestral hall. It’s up to you!”
I stopped grinding ink hand, nose began to become sour, Zhou Jin in the mouth of the first queen, for a while I can not tell, he said is aunt or smoke.
Zhou Jin left, the door creaked with the evening breeze, I sat at the door of the hall, looking at the moonlight in the sky, thinking back to many years ago.
In the evening, the afterglow of the sun remained in the sky. When I
walked to the south wall of the imperial city, I saw Zhou Jinxuan and Jingxian lying on the wall, covering their eyes with leaves. The sunset hit them, and the summer wind blew over them.
“Come down, both of you!”
Zhou Jin heard my voice, opened the leaves, looked at me half open and half closed, a pair of fox eyes slightly raised, with some laziness.
“The Crown Princess asked us to copy the Buddhist scriptures, but you sneaked away!” I was so angry that I pointed at the two teenagers on the wall and scolded.
Jing Xian also got up and looked at my appearance and giggled. He grinned, saying that he was not very gentle and elegant. Jing Xian has always been the most obedient and disciplined, and must have been pulled out by Zhou Jinxuan, the troublemaker.
Sure enough, Jing Xian to come down, was pulled by the side of Zhou Jin.
Chou Chin-chien raised her eyebrows and said, “Come up. If you can, I’ll go down.”
He bullied me because I didn’t know martial arts, and his proud expression was very annoying.
I stamped my foot and decided to start with Jing Hsien. “Brother Hsien, look at him bullying me!”
Jingxian tilted his head. Instead of helping me, he said, “Xiaoshu, you are really cute when you are angry.”
You.. You I was so angry that I didn’t know what to say.
Just then, I was picked up by a man at the waist and led to the wall. The person who
came was my sister Ah Yan. Holding four cans of plum juice,
Ah Yan handed them to us and said, “You two are bullying Xiao Shu again while I’m making plum juice, aren’t you?”
Ching-hsien shook his head like a rattle. He pointed to Chou Chin-chien. “It wasn’t me, it was him.”
“We just came up to enjoy the cool. How dare we bully her?” Zhou Jin finished and raised his hand to drink plum juice.
I sat next to him, pushed him off the wall with my hand when he was not ready, and threw him on the ground.
I burst out laughing. “You’re the one who bullied me!”
Chou Chin-chien lay down on the ground and pointed at me bitterly. “You girl are very domineering. I’ll see who dares to marry you in the future!”
“Take care of it!” I made a face at him.
Ching-hsien and Ah Yen laughed helplessly as they followed. Ah Yen said, “You two are really incompatible. Why do you quarrel when you meet?” “You’re the elder brother,”
said Jingxian. “Give way to Xiaoshu.”
Chou Chin-chien stood up with her arms akimbo and looked up at Ching-hsien. “Then I’m still your younger brother,” she said! Why don’t you help me copy all the sutras?
I took off my shoes and threw them on Chou Chin-yi’s head. “Shame on you!” I scolded.
Finally, Jing Xian and Zhou Jinxuan were dragged back to the Wuji Hall by me, and the rest of the Buddhist scriptures were copied.
It was probably the happiest time of my short life.
Zhou Jinyu is the grandson of the emperor and the son of the crown prince. His mother was originally a little maid of the prince’s mansion. She was favored by the prince and was pregnant. Unfortunately, she was not lucky enough to give birth to Zhou Jin. She died of illness within a few years.
Jing Xian and Xue Yan are the grandchildren of General Jing and General Xue, and I am the daughter of the Xia family, the prime minister. The Jing family, the Xue family, and the Xia family, who had made contributions when the emperor seized the throne, are now the ministers of the court and the three most powerful families in the court.
The emperor had only one son, the crown prince, and fortunately the crown prince did not have to go to great lengths to seize the throne. However, these three little grandsons were prepared early and wanted to make friends with our three children and prepare for the future. Brother Xian and
I, as well as Sister Ah Yan, don’t like the three little grandsons. They are thoughtful and have no tolerance. We don’t like to deal with them. On the contrary, Zhou Jinyu, the grandson of the fourth emperor, is magnanimous and interesting, and often hangs out with us.
In fact, I know that Zhou Jinxuan’s life in the East Palace is not easy, because his mother’s status is low, and no status, Zhou Jinxuan suffered a lot of grievances in the East Palace.
That year, the virtuous elder brother sent Zhou Jin a very clever parrot, but the parrot was poisoned by the second emperor’s grandson Zhou Jinhui.
Zhou Jin never haggled with them about these trifles. I once praised him for his tolerance, and Zhou Jin just smiled at me. He said he was forced to do nothing.
I remember clearly that the only time Zhou Jinhui lost his temper was because Zhou Jinhui threw his mother’s memorial tablet out of the ancestral temple.
That day, when I followed my father to the East Palace, Grandfather Wang came panting and said that Zhou Jinhui and Zhou Jinhui were fighting. When we
arrived, we saw Zhou Jinhui riding on Zhou Jinhui’s body, his eyes were cruel, like a wolf running out of the mountains, he punched one by one, without mercy.
The father later said that if we had arrived a quarter later that day, the prince would have had only three sons. I had a palpitation in my
heart, and I didn’t expect Zhou Jinxuan to have such a side.
Zhou Jinxuan did not admit that he had done something wrong, and was finally punished by the crown prince to kneel in the ancestral temple.
I wanted to plead with the prince, but my father stopped me. During the dinner, I was really worried, so I sneaked away to the ancestral temple again.
Zhou Jin’s back was soaked with blood and looked terrible, but he still straightened his back. I ran to him and saw that his forehead was covered with cold sweat.
If we don’t treat it, the wound will be infected.
I do not know why, although usually always quarrel with Zhou Jin, but to see him like this is particularly distressed, tears can not stop flowing out.
Chou Chin-chien’s lips turned white. He raised his hand to wipe away my tears. Instead, he comforted me by saying, “It’s all right. Don’t be afraid.”
“Wait for me.” After
I said this, I ran away in a hurry. I went to look for Ah Yan.
Everyone knows that the emperor has two regrets in his life, one is the late mother of the prince, Empress Cheng of Xuande, and the other is her sister, Princess Heng Lichang, who married far away from Mongolia.
A Yan’s temperament is very similar to that of Princess Heng Lichang, and the emperor has no daughter, so he dotes on a Yan very much. There were even rumors in the court that the four grandsons of the emperor, who could marry Ah Yan, might inherit the throne in the future.
I only feel that this is absurd, when the emperor has already been buried, the prince wants to pass the throne to whom, the emperor can control it?
A Yan ran to the East Palace Ancestral Hall and knelt down with Zhou Jin. His Royal Highness was at a loss what to do with a Yan, and he could not really ask a Yan to kneel here all the time. Only then did he pardon Zhou Jin.
We carried Zhou Jin back to the room, Jing Xian did not know where to get the news, also hurried to come, he heard the doctor said Zhou Jin had nothing to do, this was relieved. The three of
us stood at the door of Zhou Jin’s room, and Jing Xian still had anger on his face.
I patted him on the shoulder. “Well, don’t worry, why did you come with the sword?”
“I’m afraid Ah Yan won’t be able to save Jin, so I think I’ll snatch Jin out of the East Palace even if I do!”
A Yan looked at Jing Xian’s earnest appearance and couldn’t help laughing. “Aren’t you usually the most disciplined and the most concerned about the overall situation?”? So presumptuous today!
Ching-hsien curled his lips and said, “My brother is the big picture!”
At that time, young people were sincere and brave.
But it’s a pity that Zhou Jin didn’t hear these words. Not long after the injury on
Zhou Jin’s knee was healed, he came to my house specially and gave me a string of hand beads. The hand beads look very ordinary, and the beads should only be polished from ordinary rocks.
“This is not valuable. I’ll give it to you for fun, but you mustn’t lose it.”
I really don’t know whether Chou Chin-chien wants me to cherish this bead or not. “Why did you give me this?”
“I know it was you who went to find Ah Yan that day. I heard that Ah Yan was training at the martial arts training ground at that time. You broke into the martial arts training ground and almost got hurt.” I don’t know why I felt guilty
at that time, as if I was afraid that Zhou Jin would find out how anxious I was at that time. Chou Chin-chien stared at me for a moment, then suddenly smiled. “I know you’ve been good to me,” he said. In fact, it was only after a long time that
I learned that the string of hand beads was his mother’s relic and the most precious thing in his life. Unfortunately, I haven’t worn this string of beads since I married him, and it’s already dusty in my jewelry box, just like our relationship is covered with a layer of dust that can’t be wiped off.
Zhou Jinhui poisoned Zhou Jinyi’s parrot to death, which we didn’t know at first, but later Zhou Jinyi’s father-in-law accidentally spilled the beans, we knew.
Yan was so angry that she threatened to break one of Zhou Jinhui’s legs. Jing Xian and I stopped her.
But who knows, Zhou Jinhui’s leg was finally broken. During the royal spring hunting
that year, Zhou Jinhui was in high spirits, riding on horseback to chase the prey. A Yan stood beside the tree and shot an arrow at the horse’s buttocks under Zhou Jinhui. The horse was frightened, and then he was thrown to the ground. When Jing Xian and
I, as well as Zhou Jinhui, arrived, Zhou Jinhui was lying on the ground and howling. He stood up with difficulty and pointed to Ah Yan. “You did it on purpose!” He said.
Yan spread out her hands and said carelessly, “I just wanted to shoot that little hare, but I didn’t want to hurt your Highness by mistake. I’m sorry.”
A Yan’s tone at that time was extremely arrogant, and it really didn’t look like an apology.
“Hsueh Yen!” Chou Chin-hui is furious. “Don’t rely on your grandfather’s favor to bully people!”.
A Yan snorted coldly, “Yo!”! Do you also know that it is wrong to throw your weight around? All the people
present recognized the implication of Ah Yan’s words.
I looked up at Zhou Jinyu, who stared at Ah Yan for a moment, then lowered his eyes slightly, as if there were endless emotions in his eyes.
Like it or not, it is appreciation, but appreciation seems to be mixed with a lot of things I do not understand.
But I saw that there was light in Zhou Jin’s eyes.
And a Yan elder sister looks at Zhou Jin’s eyes, is also so.
Perhaps, this is like it, perhaps, I think too much.
Chou Chin-hui wanted to say something more, but Ah Yan got ahead of him and said, “I tell you, Chou Chin-hui, don’t think you can do whatever you want just because you are the grandson of the emperor. What the emperor lacks most is his grandson.”. If you want to die, someone else will take your place. You go back and tell your brothers that if you bully Chou Chin-chien again and let me know, I’ll beat you every time I see you!
A Yan was really cool at that time, and Jing Xian and I unconsciously gave her a thumbs-up.
But I know that this is not the fundamental solution to the problem. So I went to find the Crown Princess, my aunt, for the sake of Zhou Jin.
The outside world said that the Crown Prince and the Crown Princess have a deep love for each other, which is a rare good marriage. But I always feel that the prince does not love his aunt.
Perhaps this is also the reason why my aunt has never had children.
I want to ask my aunt to raise Zhou Jin in her lap, so that no one will bully him in the future.
I remember that day when I was lying on my aunt’s lap, she put her broken hair in my ear and asked me, “Xiao Shu, do you know what it means for me to raise Jin?”
I shook my head. It
means that in the future, if Jin is involved in seizing the throne, our Hsia family will be on his side. At that time, if the Hsia family wants to be alone, it will be absolutely impossible.
Seize the throne. A word that I am all too familiar with now comes out of my aunt’s mouth, but it becomes so strange. Will
Zhou Jinyu seize the throne?
I.. I just want Chou Chin-chien to stop being bullied. I haven’t thought about it that much.
My aunt touched my face and said, “Silly girl, do you like Jin?”
I stood up suddenly, shook my head and said, “I didn’t.”
My aunt held me back in her arms and said, “It’s all right if I don’t have it. Most of the royal people are fickle.”
I don’t know how my aunt thought about it, but she finally agreed to my request. After
Zhou Jin left, I leaned against the door of the temple, thinking about it and almost fell asleep. As soon as I got up, I saw a figure staggering into my palace. A
closer look showed that Zhou Jin’s face was flushed and his whole body reeked of alcohol.
I bowed slightly and said, “Your Majesty, you’re drunk. I’ll ask Grandfather Wang to send you back..” Before
I had finished speaking, Zhou Jinyu covered his thin lips. He was almost like a robber, sweeping without scruple and logic.
I was pushed down on the bed by him and at his mercy. From beginning to end, without saying a word.
After a while, Chou Chin-chien stopped moving. His eyes were bloodshot, and he called me in a hoarse voice, “Xiao Shu.” I
used to think that no matter how I faced Zhou Jin, I would not be sad any more. But his voice made my heart ache. How long has it been since he called me that?
I swallowed my emotion and looked into his eyes coldly. “I’m here.”
Chou Chin-chien punched the bed and said angrily, Xia Shu! Are you a puppet? Is it a puppet who can’t cry or laugh?
I still looked at Zhou Jin with cold eyes and did not answer him. He turned his head and buried it in the bed, very weak. “Xiao Shu, are you getting back at me?”? What do you want from me?
I tried to hold back my tears and asked Chou Chin-chien, “Your Majesty, what exactly do you want me to do?”
Zhou Jin did not make a sound for a long time, perhaps even he himself did not know what we should do.
He always wants to go back to the past with me, but how can he go back? Is it that as long as I let go and forgive him, his heart will feel better? However, he should not forget, he should be guilty for a lifetime. With tears in my
eyes, I approached Zhou Jin, held his face, and pecked him lightly on his lips. I felt Zhou Jin trembling all over, with joy on his face.
I asked him, “Your Majesty, do you love me?”? Do you love me as much as you love Ah Yan? Do you think I’ll end up like Sister Ah Yan?
When Zhou Jinxuan heard this, he pushed me away. The joy on his face disappeared and was replaced by endless sadness.
I’m not a puppet, and I don’t know if he’s satisfied with my stabbing him?
“Empress, you are not the only woman in my harem.” This was the last thing Zhou Jin said when he left my palace that night.
I didn’t know what Zhou Jin meant that night. After
Zhou Jin left, I also collapsed on the ground, and I had no strength at all. I also hurt the enemy by eight hundred and lost one thousand. Why don’t I feel pain when I stab him?
The next day, I went to the Wuji Hall to copy Buddhist sutras. It had been so long, but when I looked at the memorial tablets of my aunt and Ah Yan, I felt that I was out of breath. I came out of the Hall of the Promise
before noon. When I came out, Cheng Guifei and Hu Zhaoyi hurried over.
“Xiao Shu.” When Cheng Guifei called me like this, I was in a trance. What
happened? Why are you so impatient? I asked them. “Your Majesty stayed in the Yanluo Hall yesterday,” said
Hu Zhaoyi. On the way
to Yanluo Palace, Cheng Guifei told me that Zhou Jinyu went out of my palace yesterday and went to Yanluo Palace. Listen to Yan Luo palace maid said, Yan Luo yesterday do not want to sleep, finally is Zhou Jinxuan used strong.
Now Yan Luo locked himself in the house and ignored anyone who called the door. Cheng Guifei was afraid that Zhou Jinxuan would blame the Yan family if she knew that Yan Luo had such a temper, so she could only ask me to persuade Yan Luo.
In the palace of Yan Luo, my hands began to tremble, but I didn’t have the courage to knock on the door of Yan Luo.
I shouldn’t have made Zhou Jin angry last night, or he wouldn’t have treated Yan Luo like this. I can’t even imagine how a little girl who has not yet died can face such a scene.
I exhaled a breath, more and more understand that Zhou Jinyi is not the original him. When I
entered the room, I saw Yan Luo sitting in front of the dressing table and looking in the mirror. The bed was still a mess, and a large pool of blood was still on it.
“Luoluo?” I called her softly.
Yan Luo turned around, her eyes were red and swollen, and when she saw me, tears flowed down again. I went over and held her in my arms. “Don’t be afraid, my sister is coming.” Sister
Shu, I know there will be such a day, I just have some. Afraid. Sister Shu, I’m afraid.
Zhou Jin said I would not cry, I thought I would not cry, but I looked at Yan Luo, tears are unable to stop flowing out. Zhou Jinyu, how can he? How could he treat me like this, treat Yan Luo like this?
I want to comfort Yan Luo, but what can I say? At this point, what can I say?
I just soothed Yanluo over and over again and told her not to be afraid.
Because of this matter, Cheng Guifei was angry for many days. Yongping spent the whole day in Yanluo Palace with her. Hu Zhaoyi also cooked a lot of delicious food. Half a month later, Yanluo finally recovered.
And I will never dare to disobey Zhou Jin again.
In winter, Cheng Guifei likes to come to my palace to bask in the sun. The two of us often put two rocking chairs by the window and lie down all day.
“I heard from my brother that Jingxian will come back from Jingzhou for the Chinese New Year this year.” Cheng Guifei said.
My brother Jingxian, I haven’t seen him for ten years.
“Xiao Shu.” Cheng Guifei turned to look at me. “Chou Chin-chien is going crazy. I don’t know what she’s going to do.”. When Ching-hsien comes back this time, you mustn’t get involved with him again.
“I know.”
Concubine Cheng laughed at herself and said, I thought it was unfortunate that you didn’t marry the man you loved. But I did marry the man I loved, and I didn’t expect it to be unfortunate.
Beloved..
Cheng Guifei later said what, I have been unable to hear, I do not know when, I actually fell asleep.
The Jing family and the Xue family are martial arts families, focusing on whether Ah Yan and Jing Xian are highly skilled in martial arts. My father was the prime minister, and he paid attention to my literary talent.
But it happened that my handwriting was particularly bad. My father could not bear it any more and decided to lock me up at home to practice calligraphy and not let me play with Ah Yan’s sister again.
It was a very good day, cicadas chirped around my ears, but I was very depressed to practice calligraphy.
I was writing when suddenly a small paper ball was thrown from a distance and landed in front of my desk. I looked up and saw Zhou Jin sitting on a tree in my yard with a smiling face, full of youthful vitality.
I glared at him and ignored him.
Chou Chin-chien came down from the tree and leaned against my desk. “Are you practicing calligraphy?”
“If you have nothing to do, go and find Ching-hsien, and don’t bother me.”
“Ching-hsien has gone to the martial arts training ground. I came to see you because of something.”
“What business can you have?”
“I’ll teach you how to practice calligraphy, and you teach me how to make Ah Yan like me, okay?”
Zhou Jin’s words, let me no longer have the heart to practice calligraphy, I looked up at his eyes, his eyes full of expectations, as if shining a little star.
Zhou Jinyu’s identity today is very different from the past, raised under the knee of the Crown Princess, is naturally the prince’s own son. In those years, the emperor’s health was getting worse and worse, and I couldn’t help but think of the popular saying of the previous Dynasty, “If you marry the daughter of the Xue family, you can inherit the throne.”
“Do you really like Sister Ah Yan?” I still don’t know whether I asked that sentence for Ah Yan or for myself.
Chou Chin-chien flicked me on the forehead and said reproachfully, “What are you talking about?”? Of course I really like your sister Ah Yan. Over the past few years, Ah Yan has been helping me out. She’s such a good person, who wouldn’t like her?
Zhou Jin’s tone at that time was so natural and firm.
Looking at Zhou Jin’s assurance, it seems that I should be happy, but I can’t be happy.
I finally understood why I was so nervous that night when my aunt asked me if I liked Zhou Jin, because I lied.
“Will you help me or not?” Zhou Jinyu asked again.
“I’ll help you!”
At that time, no matter what Zhou Jin asked me to do, maybe I would not refuse.
I’m just.. a little sad.
Can think of the other side is a smoke sister, I am not so sad. Before he left
that day, Chou Chin-chien suddenly turned his head. His face was full of solemnity. He looked at me and said, “Little Shu, I know it was the Crown Princess you went to beg that changed my situation.”
“Xiaoshu, you have to wait for me.”
That year, Zhou Jin left such a sentence, but I didn’t understand what he wanted me to wait for.
Zhou Jinxuan took Ah Yan to the theater to listen to the opera, went to the restaurant to drink, they went to set off fireworks together, and went to the martial arts field to practice martial arts together. These, all the people in the capital see in the eyes.
During that time, Jing Xian often came to me, he also took me to many places, Zhou Jin failed to fulfill his promise to accompany me to practice calligraphy, but Jing Xian accompanied me every day.
Kyung-hyun’s thoughts on me, I know. And I don’t want to let him down. It doesn’t matter to me
whether I can spend a lifetime with the person I love. I am not the kind of person who can’t live without love. I just hope that everyone can be safe. On the wedding day of
Ah Yan and Zhou Jin, the emperor dragged his seriously ill body and went to the East Palace in person, giving them the greatest dignity.
Father said that the emperor had failed to let Princess Heng Lichang marry his beloved, and now Ah Yan has this home, he is gratified. Not long after the marriage of
Ah Yan and Zhou Jin, the emperor died and the crown prince succeeded to the throne. Later, a few months later, my aunt died of illness. Zhou Jin and
I knelt in front of my aunt’s mourning hall for three days. Before my aunt left, she told me a lot. He just warned me again and again that no matter what kind of thoughts I had for Zhou Jinyu, I should not marry into the royal family.
I promised my aunt. I swore to her again and again. If you break this oath, you will not end well.
Aunt loved her husband all her life, but when she died, her husband did not shed a drop of tears. At that time,
my aunt knew that the prince married her just to consolidate the regime, but she still happily married him.
Aunt said, in fact, the prince’s favorite person in his life is Zhou Jinyu’s mother. Zhou Jinyu’s mother did not die of illness, but was killed.
His Royal Highness felt that his love had killed her, so he was so strict with Zhou Jin that he pretended not to like his son. But the aunt knew that when he saw Zhou Jinyu being bullied, he, as a father, was more distressed than anyone else.
So, when I went to beg my aunt, in order to make the prince happy, even with the whole Xia family as a bet, she agreed to my request.
Nevertheless, the aunt still did not get half of the prince’s favor, the prince is really fickle.
The Imperial Physician said that my aunt had been worried for a long time and finally became ill, which finally brought her down. How unhappy my aunt is in her life.
I could no longer face my aunt lying cold in the coffin in the mourning hall. I got up and ran out. Seeing this, Zhou Jinxuan chased me out.
I leaned against the wall outside the hall and sobbed silently. Zhou Jinxuan approached me slowly. He reached out his hand to wipe away my tears.
I raised my hand to grab his outstretched wrist and said, “Chou Chin-chien, if you dare to lose Ah Yan, I will never forgive you for the rest of my life.”
I can’t let Ah Yan follow in my aunt’s footsteps, and I can’t let her end up like my aunt.
Zhou Jin did not answer me, but he stubbornly reached out to wipe away my tears. He said, “Your aunt is gone, and you still have me..”
I looked up at him, and he paused and said, “And me..” Elder brother After
the prince ascended the throne, the struggle for the throne became more and more intense. Originally, everyone thought that both the Xia family and the Jing family would stand on the side of Zhou Jin. However, the father did not stand in line, and Jing Jia, I do not know why, Grandpa Jing Jia supported the three princes.
Only the Xue family, because of Ah Yan, stood beside Zhou Jin. Jing Xian tried to change Jing’s grandfather’s decision, but failed.
During that time, Jing Xian was caught in the middle and was very embarrassed. Zhou Jin comforted Jing Xian, saying that no matter what happened, they were brothers for life. Jing Xian and
I grew older, and after consultation with the elders of the two families, we made a marriage contract. But at that time Jingzhou border turmoil, so Jing Xian was ordered to go to war, this is seven years, and our engagement was postponed. In the
past seven years, too many things happened. The emperor died, Zhou Jinyu succeeded to the throne, the Jing family was weakened, and the Xue family dominated the whole court.
My father didn’t often talk to me about things in the court. I only knew that in the year when Jingxian was preparing to return to the court, Zhou Jinxuan suddenly punished the Xue family for the crime of rebellion, and ordered Jingxian to be a border prince, who could not enter the capital without a summons.
Everything happened so suddenly that no one knew whether the Xue family was innocent or not. I was just glad that Zhou Jin had not punished Ah Yan, who was still his queen. Only then did
I understand why Grandpa Jing would support the three princes, because he had already seen that the three little grandsons of that year, the most intolerant person was actually Zhou Jinyu. At that time,
I had planned to go to Jingzhou and marry Jingxian. I thought it would be good to stay away from the capital and live a stable life there.
But Zhou Jinyu was crazy. He ordered me to break off my engagement with Jing Xian and asked me to enter the palace as a concubine. His father said that Zhou Jinxuan was retaliating against the Xia family for not helping him. At that time,
I thought of what Zhou Jin said and asked me to wait for him.
I do not know how to face Zhou Jin, I still do not understand, why he became like this? Or is it that he was originally such a person, but we were not wise enough to know him at the beginning and misjudged him?
I didn’t see Ah Yan at my canonization ceremony. That night, Zhou Jinyu didn’t even give me a chance to ask Ah Yan. When
he came to my palace, he only said, “You are now my concubine, so you’d better forget Jingxian.”
And then he left.
I can’t see through Zhou Jin, and he has never understood me. When I
entered the palace, I found that the gate of Ah Yan’s palace was locked, and all the maids and father-in-law in the palace kept silent about Ah Yan, as if Ah Yan had never appeared in the palace.
I took advantage of the moonlight that night and sneaked into Ah Yan’s palace. The whole hall was quiet, as if it had fallen into a dead silence. When the person lying on the
bed heard the noise, she turned her head. “Is that Xiao Shu?”
At that moment, I can’t believe what I saw, just half a year, I just haven’t seen Ah Yan for half a year, why did she become like this?
A Yan’s face was pale, her hair had a few more strands of hair, and the daughter of Xue’s parents, who used to be high-spirited and dressed in fresh clothes and angry horses, was now lingering in bed without any vitality. Crying,
I ran over and grabbed Ah Yan’s hand, asking again and again, “How could this happen?”
A Yan pulled out a smile. She touched my face and said, “I’m sorry, Xiao Shu. I couldn’t attend your canonization ceremony.”
I shook my head wildly. “Don’t say that. I’ll take you out now. I’ll take you to the doctor.”
When Ah Yan stopped me, she said, “It’s no use. The whole Xue family is gone. It doesn’t matter whether I live or not.”. Xiaoshu, don’t hate Chou Chin-chien because of me. Now that you’re in the palace, whether it’s for the Hsia family or for Ching-hsien, you have to live well.
“Xiaoshu, you have to live well.” At that time,
I could not listen to Ah Yan’s words. I only knew that my Ah Yan’s sister would die, and the sister who grew up with me and protected me most would die.
But before I could do anything, there was a lot of noise outside, and then several guards broke into the hall and carried me out. And the person waiting for me at the gate outside the palace was Zhou Jinxuan.
I had cried until my voice was hoarse. The moment I saw Zhou Jin, I seemed to have caught the last straw. I knelt down in front of him, pulled his clothes and begged him. I begged him to save Ah Yan.
But Chou Chin-kun’s cold face was full of anger. He bowed his head and said to me, “It’s because she doesn’t see the Imperial Physician or take medicine. How can I save her?”? If she wants to die, I will help her!
Zhou Jin’s words seemed to push me into the ice cave, the blood flowing all over my body was frozen, and the whole heart was painful. Brother
Jin, you can’t! A’yan grew up with us. She’s your wife. You can’t, you can’t.. My voice was hoarse, and I begged him again and again, “You promised me, you promised me that you wouldn’t lose Ah Yan!”
I had never felt that Chou Chin-chien was so strange in front of me. My words seemed to hurt him even more. The way he looked down at me made me shudder. He said lightly, “Take the imperial concubine back to the palace. If she comes here again, the whole Xihua Palace will die.”
That night, Zhou Jinyu extinguished my last hope for him.
A Yan died in the morning of the second day, and she seemed to be waiting to see me for the last time. And that day was also the anniversary of my aunt’s death. Sometimes
I really feel that as fate would have it, Ah Yan ended up like my aunt, and I finally married Zhou Jinxuan. When the news of
Ah Yan’s death reached the border, Jing Xian worked day and night without stopping, and finally arrived in Kyoto before Ah Yan was buried.
However, he was stopped outside the city gate by Chou Chin-chien. Chou Chin-chien’s oral instructions were only one sentence: “Lord Jing has not been summoned to the capital. Is it difficult for him to have the intention to rebel?”
That day, Jing Xian did not see me, nor did he see Ah Yan for the last time.
My father once told me that in terms of political achievements and means, Zhou Jinyu was actually a good emperor. He understood the principles of checks and balances in the former Dynasty. Even if the means were despicable, they were not important to the imperial power.
Therefore, whether the Xue family had rebelled or not was not important at all. What was important was that they did not know how to restrain their sharpness and threatened the imperial power.
And in Zhou Jin’s heart, Ah Yan is not important, I am not important, his high and inviolable imperial power is the most important. After the death of
Ah Yan, Zhou Jinxuan conferred on me the title of empress. I asked my father to resign from the position of prime minister and seek an idle official title in the court.
I always want to save the Xia family and the Jing family, and I always want to save my brother Jing Xian.
Jing Xian came back the day before the Lantern Festival, and I finally met him at the palace banquet of the Lantern Festival.
Jing Xian skin darkened, no longer see the original elegant appearance, eyes are more firm. How I want to ask him how he has been these years, but I can’t, I even look at him like a thief to avoid Zhou Jin’s eyes.
Obviously, we are only separated by a few tables, but it seems that we are separated by thousands of rivers and mountains.
I turned to look at Zhou Jin, I never thought that the three of us would meet in this situation, once playmates, brothers, but now already separated from Germany. The time when we frolicked together outside the palace wall that year seemed like yesterday, but it had been ten years. In the past
ten years, things have changed.
After the Lantern Festival, Jing Xian will return to Jingzhou. The day before he returned to Jingzhou, I met him in the back garden.
The winter wind is cold, and I finally see my warm sun in the biting winter. We stood where we were, staring at each other, tears running down our cheeks, washing away all the deep-seated thoughts of these years.
“Xiao Shu.” Kyung-hyun called me.
I want to call my Jingxian brother, I want to hug him, but I can’t.
“General King.” I saluted him. “Haven’t seen you for years. How are you?”
Jing Xianxu knew my difficulties from my pretense of being unfamiliar. He grabbed my hand regardless and said, “Xiao Shu, would you like to go with me?”? I will get you out of here if you want to.
I took two steps back, and I said, I just want him and my father to be well, and I don’t want anything else in this life.
My only concern in this world is his brother and my father.
But I would never have thought that all this was set up by Zhou Jin. He suddenly called Jingxian back to Beijing, and then Jingxian and I met by chance in the back garden, all arranged by Zhou Jinxuan.
That morning, when I was having breakfast in the palace, Grandfather Wang, who was beside Zhou Jin, suddenly came to my palace and said that Zhou Jin had given me a lot of things. Grand
father Wang introduced the same thing, and finally talked about a folding fan.
“Empress, Your Majesty says that this folding fan is very precious. This fan is..” Grandfather Wang pauses at this point, somewhat embarrassed. “It’s made of human skin.” When I
was eating, the chopsticks in my hands suddenly fell off, and an ominous feeling came to my mind.
People.. Skin? I asked with difficulty. “Yes,” replied Grand
father Wang. It’s General King. As soon as Grand
father Wang’s voice fell, I suddenly felt the pain in my stomach. As soon as I turned my head, I couldn’t stop vomiting. It was very painful, heart-rending pain. And just then, Zhou Jinxuan entered the door of my hall. He repelled the crowd. There were only two of us left in the empty hall.
Time seemed to go back to the night I saw Ah Yan. I staggered over and grabbed Chou’s arm. I asked him, “What Grandfather Wang said is false, isn’t it?”? How could you kill Kyung-hyun? You won’t.
Chou Chin-chien’s eyes were extremely cold. He looked down at me and said, “So you can cry, too.”
“Chou Chin-chien, you can do whatever you want me to do. I can forget Ah Yan’s death, I can forgive you, and I can live with you as an empress. You tell me you didn’t kill Ching-hsien, right?”
You are my queen. How can I allow you to have another man in your heart for so many years? Queen, you killed him. If you hadn’t approached him in the back garden that day, I might have let him go. And he wants to take you away? It is not a pity for him to die!
I can let go of the hand holding Zhou Jin, I almost forgot, he is not the former Zhou Jin, he is now a madman, he is crazy!
My eyes were dark, and many pictures of the past suddenly appeared in my mind.
Jingxian said, “Even if I rob him, I will snatch him out of the East Palace.”
He also said, “Jinyi is the big picture.” When he
accompanied me to practice calligraphy, he said, “Xiao Shu, I thought you were the one Jin liked. I was scared to death. So he likes Ah Yan.”
“I really don’t know what to do if I like you too, Xiao Shu.” Jing Xian touched the back of his head and giggled.
East Palace stables, Zhou Jinhui looked at me and Jing Xian with a resentful face, if not for his leg injury, he might start fighting with us.
“Jingxian, I didn’t expect you to be so mean as to secretly drug my horse. Is that how the Jingjia taught you?” Zhou Jinhui said. The teachings of the
Jing family don’t dare to bother Your Highness. Your leg injury is only the injury of bullying Jin, and the horse’s laxative is the life of the parrot. I just want to tell your Highness that everyone has something precious, and I hope you can take care of it in the future.
My head hurt, and with a howl, I banished all these memories.
Seeing this, he no longer looked down at me. He lowered his body and grabbed my arm. He was like coaxing a child. “Xiao Shu, don’t be afraid.”. Xiaoshu, have you forgotten Jingxian?
Then he seemed to cry, “Will you forget him and concentrate on being my queen?” At that time,
I couldn’t hear what Chou had said. My soul seemed to have been separated from my body. I didn’t know what I was doing at that time. I just collapsed on the ground and grabbed his sleeve with my fingers. I asked again and again, “How could you kill Jing Xian?”? How could you kill Jingxian..
I don’t know what happened next. I seem to have vomited a mouthful of blood. I seem to have fainted. When
I woke up again, the imperial concubines were standing by my bed. Each of them had swollen eyes and had just cried.
When Yongping and Yanluo saw me awake, they rushed over and cried for me. When Cheng Guifei saw that I was awake, she finally breathed a sigh of relief. She said, “Xiao Shu, you really scared us to death.”
I wanted to talk to them. I wanted to tell them not to worry about me, but I couldn’t say a word. I didn’t even have the strength to open my eyes. I
don’t know when I fell asleep again.
I dreamed of my aunt, who said, “If a man wants to be an emperor, he must be hard-hearted and cold-blooded.”. Little Shu, don’t marry into the royal family.
I dreamed of Ah Yan again. She was wearing a white dress in the dark, and her whole body was shining yellow. She held out her hand and said to me, “Xiao Shu, I’m coming to pick you up.” I regret a lot of things in my
life. Over the years, I have wondered more than once why we have come to this situation.
But now, these are not important, I want to find my smoke sister and Jingxian brother, I want to tell smoke sister I miss her, I want to tell Jingxian brother, I am willing to go with him.
Summer is coming, and this year’s plum juice must be very sweet. Unfortunately, I can’t drink it anymore. In
a twinkling of an eye, the empress has been away for twelve years.
Under the protection of Cheng Guifei and me, Yongping married a small imperial censor of the former Dynasty. Although he had no power, he was also his favorite person.
I think if sister Shu knew, she would be happy.
And I, who once needed to grow up under the protection of sister Shu’s wings, can now take charge of the harem on my own.
Everyone says that I am a child who can’t grow up. In fact, I just want to be like sister Shu, not to be swallowed up by the harem, and always keep the appearance of a child.
But when sister Shu lay in front of the hospital bed and left me forever, all my insistence became meaningless. Children who can’t
grow up can’t protect themselves, nor can they protect the people close to them.
I still remember that the first time I saw sister Shu, although there was fear of the unknown in my heart, in fact, it was more resentment against sister Shu.
Because the moment I saw her, I understood why hundreds of beautiful girls, the emperor would choose me.
No matter how resentful I was at that time, I still did not show my emotions. I pretended to be innocent and simple, and deceived all the concubines present.
I resent the queen, but I also understand that I do not have the support of my father’s family. If I want to live well in this palace, I must depend on the queen.
So, half true and half false, I often went to the queen’s palace to accompany her.
I don’t want to sleep. I know the person who can decide whether I sleep or not is the empress besides Zhou Jinyu.
So I ran to the Xihua Palace early and cried in front of the empress, “Empress, I’m afraid. I’m still so young. I really don’t know how the emperor chose me.”
I have to admit that the empress is a wonderful person. She touched my head and said, “If Luoluo doesn’t want to go to bed, then she won’t go to bed.”
I sometimes have an illusion that the empress is not only my sister, but also my mother. At that time
I thought I had cheated all the imperial concubines in the palace, but that day when I was having breakfast in the queen’s palace, she suddenly said, “Luoluo, I don’t know why you were sent to the palace by your family before you got married, and I don’t know what kind of environment you lived in before you formed your present temperament.”
Sister just wants to tell you that you don’t have to be so cautious. Hu Chao-yi is right. Now that you’re in the palace, you’re everyone’s little sister. If you are always used to treating people with half a heart, then I can’t control you. I just want you to be more relaxed, at least when you are around me. It was really a bad feeling to
be exposed like this. I guess I must have looked very ugly at that time.
I spoke softly, my voice trembling slightly: “Empress..” I “Luoluo,”
she said, “you don’t like tofu, but because I like it, you eat a lot of it every time, and you never refuse Hu Chao-yi’s bean soup.”
I know I’m sorry for you. If you hate me, I have nothing to say. But I don’t want you to live with a mask and a lie all the time. The women in the harem have a hard life. Don’t be wronged yourself. When
the empress said these words, I suddenly felt that I was very mean. Each of them treated me sincerely, but I thought I was calculating them step by step.
In fact, I entered the palace for my sister at the beginning. When I was born, my mother almost died of dystocia. My father found someone to calculate that my fate was too hard. My father would conquer my mother, and my husband would conquer my son in the future.
So from childhood to adulthood, my father and mother loved my sister, but they didn’t like me at all. No one cares about my mood, and no one really cares about me. I have to try my best to please them in front of them, so that they can barely look at me and I can live in that family. My sister didn’t want to go to the
talent show, so my father thought of me. I remember when my father told me about it, he said that the palace was a woman’s cage, how could I let my sister go there? They are both daughters, but he has the heart to let me come here.
The empress is the only person in the world who really cares about me. Let her make me understand that I can not only live in the harem, but also live happily without burden.
She spoiled me into a child and became the brightest beam of light in my cold and dark life.
The empress is the best person I have ever met. She is a sincere person. She treats everyone to the end. She treats the palace person to be tolerant, the empress and concubine have something to ask her, she is also can help to help.
The warmest thing is that she always remembers our maiden names. She said that even if she became someone else’s concubine, she could not forget her true self.
Because of her existence, Zhou Jinyu’s harem is not quite the same as what I have seen in books. Everyone in the harem seems to like the empress very much.
I was young and ignorant at that time, and now that I think about it, why should I resent the empress? How to say, the person I should hate most should also be Zhou Jinyu.
I even thought that as long as the empress was there, maybe I would not have to sleep in the palace all my life. But Zhou Jin is a madman, that night, he is like a devil, my whole person is torn apart.
He said with red eyes that there was no woman he could not get.
During that time, in order to appease the frightened me, the empress brought me to Xihua Palace and accompanied me every day. The two of
us slept together. She hugged me tightly and told me many interesting stories about her childhood. In her stories, there was a handsome woman named Xue Yan and a gentle son named Jing Xian.
But I always feel that her story seems to be missing a corner.
In a few days, it will be the anniversary of the death of the empress, because there is no memorial tablet of the empress in the Wuji Hall, so these years, Cheng Guifei and I always copy Buddhist sutras some time in advance, and then pray for her in the Wuji Hall on the anniversary of the death of the empress.
I don’t know whether there are gods and Buddhas in this world, nor do I know whether our prayers can bring the empress a beautiful afterlife, but every year in the Wuji Hall, we place all our thoughts on the empress. No one knew where the empress was buried
except Zhou Jinyu.
Zhou Jin seemed to be trying to erase the traces of the empress’s life in the palace, but how could he erase all the people in the palace who had been warmed by the empress?
That day, when we came out of the Hall of the Promise, it was already evening. The rays of the sun shone on Cheng Guifei. Today, she was wearing a light green green shirt. When she smiled at me, she was even more gentle and quiet.
Cheng Guifei touched my head intimately and said, “Luoluo, you’ve worked hard all these years.”
Compared with those who loved Zhou Jin deeply and were hurt by him, what is my suffering? It was only a few years ago that
I learned that the assassin that Cheng Guifei encountered in the Hanshan Temple was actually sent by Zhou Jinyi.
He was afraid of the Cheng family and did not want to let Cheng Guifei give birth to his children, so he deliberately took Cheng Guifei to pray and then killed their common child.
Cheng Guifei knew the truth, so when I entered the palace, her attitude towards Zhou Jinyu was quite different from before. Even if
we empresses and concubines are harmonious again, what can we do? We still can’t escape Zhou Jinyu’s calculation.
Since the queen left, Cheng Guifei did not often go out, she seemed to lose interest in everything. She said, “Luoluo, I don’t love Chou anymore, and I don’t hate him anymore. He doesn’t deserve it.”. I always believe that if he does something wrong, God will make him pay for it.
I am different from Cheng Guifei. I never believe in God. I only believe in myself.
I dealt with the harem in the former court, in order to keep the Cheng family and the Xia family, and also to make Zhou Jinxuan pay the price. Cheng Guifei knew what I wanted to do, and she knew what I had planned for so many years.
Cheng Guifei has done nothing these years, but my two daughters and one son were brought up by her.
This is also good, those bloody, conspiracy and calculation, I do not want to let my sister Jin Yun touch.
I said a few words to Cheng Guifei, and the king’s father-in-law beside Zhou Jinyi called me and said that Zhou Jinyi was waiting for me in the study.
The empress has gone, and Zhou Jinxuan dotes on me to the extreme. But I know that these favors do not belong to me.
I was just a stand-in, and Zhou Jin seemed to want to make up for all the debts to the empress on me. When
I arrived at the upper study, Chou Chin-chien cheerfully took my hand and led me to the desk. “Concubine, come quickly. I’ve got a new piece of calligraphy today. It’s just right for you to paint.”
I smiled, then sat down in front of him and played the self-deceiving drama with him.
Zhou Jin lowered his head, very seriously, sketching the beauty in the painting one stroke at a time, but he never looked up at me from beginning to end.
Because the person he painted is not me at all.
Zhou Jinxuan would call me to the study every month, draw a portrait for me every month, and then lock these portraits in the cabinet of his bedroom, as if he was afraid of forgetting the appearance of the person in his memory. After burning
a stick of incense, Chou Chin-chien unfolded the portrait in front of my eyes. “Imperial Concubine, do you look good?” With a smile on his
face, like a child waiting for an adult to praise him, he is so gentle. But why? Why did sister Shu not enjoy any of his tenderness before her death? Before
I could speak, a wisp of hair in Zhou Jin’s ear fell in front of my eyes, and I found that Zhou Jin had aged too much over the years.
But since sister Shu left, the man who grew old overnight in the palace was not just Zhou Jinxuan?
I still remember the day when sister Shu left.
I didn’t know what had happened between her and Zhou Jin at that time, nor did I know that Jing Xian had died. All I know is, all of a sudden, sister Shu is sick.
The Imperial Physician said that Sister Shu had been worrying too much for a long time, and that she might have been stimulated that day, so she was depressed in her heart and in her chest, and finally caused a short period of aphasia.
The doctor also said that as long as sister Shu rested at ease, she would be fine after a period of time.
Sister Shu was ill for a long time. She spent most of her time in a muddle. Later, she didn’t even have the strength to see people.
We never thought that sister Shu would die, even Zhou Jin may not have thought of it, but just in summer, sister Shu left the world forever in a sunny morning, leaving us.
That day, when I arrived at Xihua Palace, the empresses and concubines knelt outside with tears on their faces. When I
entered the hall, I saw Cheng Guifei and Hu Zhaoyi kneeling in front of the bed, holding sister Shu’s hand and crying.
And Zhou Jin stood aside, expressionless, I do not know what he was thinking at that time, but felt as if he had lost his soul, as if he had experienced life and death.
I went to the bedside, sister Shu could not speak, as if she had exhausted all her strength, reached out to Cheng Guifei and Hu Zhaoyi to wipe away the tears on their faces.
I stood in place, surrounded by great fear, I know that sister Shu does not want us to cry, I also know that I can not cry, if I cry, sister Shu will be more worried about us.
But I can not control, my heart is like someone else inserted thousands of daggers, the pain I can not breathe.
Sister Shu’s meaning to me is that she is also a mother and friend. She taught me what is true. She let me know that I can also be loved like a child.
But when she was dying, I couldn’t do anything. Before
I could move forward, I saw Chou Chin-yu rushing over like crazy. He pushed Cheng Guifei and Hu Zhaoyi away, grabbed Sister Shu by the shoulder, and said, “Xia Shu!”! You must not die! You can’t die! Since
I met Zhou Jinyu, he has always been a superior, brave and meaningless look. But he seemed to be very afraid at that time, and the command words he said seemed to be begging sister Shu. When
Sister Shu saw Chou Jin, her eyes flashed. She reached out her hand and grabbed Chou Jin’s skirt. Her lips opened slightly: “Jin..” Jin Yi. Elder brother
Sister Shu said extremely laborious, I now want to think, perhaps that is the return of light.
Chou Chin-chien took Sister Shu’s hand and said, “I’m here, I’m here, Little Shu, tell me.”
It was the first and only time since I entered the palace that I heard Zhou Jinyu call himself me instead of me. At that moment, it seemed that he was no longer the emperor, but the elder brother of Sister Shu.
But his gentleness came too late.
Put.. Over the summer.. Jing.. Sister Shu did not finish this sentence, she closed her eyes forever.
Her last words were to implore Zhou Jinyu to let the Xia family and the Jing family go.
“Xiao Shu!”
With the cry of Zhou Jin, the people around him knelt down in an instant, but before everyone could react, Hu Zhaoyi suddenly picked up the fruit knife on the table and stabbed Zhou Jin in the back.
“I’ll kill you!” Hu Zhaoyi pulled out a fruit knife and stabbed her again, but she was pulled by the guards around her. Before
we knew what had happened, we heard Hu Zhaoyi crying, “Why are you doing this to us?”! Why! In those days, Ah Yan knelt in the rain and begged you for a whole day and a whole night to spare the Hsueh family, but you never even looked at her. Even so, Ah Yan was the wife you were marrying!
Hu Zhaoyi seemed to be crying until she had no strength. The bodyguard dragged her. She almost said crazily, “Now, you’ve killed Xiao Shu again. Ah Yan and Xiao Shu are the light of the whole harem!”! Zhou Jinyu, you have extinguished the light of all of us! Go to hell! You’re the one who deserves to die!
I have never seen Xue Yan, but I know she must be a gentle and kind person like sister Shu. Hu Zhaoyi entered the palace early, and I heard that she and Empress Xue Yan were also sisters.
Zhou Jinyu turned around, his eyes were red, and his piercing eyes made people shudder.
“Kill it!” Zhou Jin’s voice was soft, as if she was ordering a most common thing. Cheng Guifei and
I knelt down and begged him almost at the same time, but Zhou Jinxuan pushed Cheng Guifei away and looked down at me.
He pinched my chin and stared at me with his eyes burning. Then, with tears in his eyes and his eyes misty, he asked me, “Are you begging me?”
I always feel that Zhou Jin’s words at that time were not asking me, but asking sister Shu.
Later, Cheng Guifei also really verified my idea, Shu sister once begged him to let go of Xue Yan and Jing Xian, but he was mercilessly rejected.
“Your Majesty, I beg you.” I said. The corners
of Chou Chin-chien’s mouth turned up slightly. He stroked the broken hair on my temples and then said, “Then I’ll be in the cold. I won’t be able to get out of this life.” Sister
Shu has been away for twelve years, and Hu Zhaoyi has been away from us for twelve years.
I have thought about it countless times, whether Zhou Jinxuan likes sister Shu or not. If he liked her, why did he have the heart to do so many things to hurt her? If he didn’t like her, why did he have nightmares day and night, crying and calling her sister’s name.
I remember very clearly that in the first few years after Sister Shu left, Chou Chin-chien often fell asleep and began to sob in a low voice. He curled his body together and kept saying, “Little Shu, little Shu.” Anyone who
looked at him would feel that he was deeply in love and that he was very pitiful.
Three days ago in the morning, I woke up and didn’t see Zhou Jin. I thought he was going to the morning. But not long after, Wang Gonggong came to my palace and asked why Zhou Jin had not got up yet. The ministers had been waiting in the front hall for a long time.
All of a sudden, no one knew where Zhou Jin had gone, and the whole harem was in a mess, and he could not be found anywhere.
Since the death of sister Shu, Xihua Palace has been locked by Zhou Jin. Zhou Jin issued a decree that no one is allowed to enter or leave Xihua Palace. Those who disobey the decree will be punished by the nine clans.
We searched the whole palace, but we didn’t even see the shadow of Zhou Jin. When Wang Gonggong and I passed by Xihua Palace, we saw that the gate of Xihua Palace was locked tightly, and Zhou Jin could not disappear out of thin air, so the only place we had not found in the palace was Xihua Palace.
I asked Grandfather Wang to open the gate, but Grandfather Wang was afraid that Zhou Jin would blame me and refused to open it. But in the end, seeing that I insisted, he had to bite the bullet and open the gate of Xihua Palace. It’s been
twelve years. I haven’t set foot in the Xihua Palace for twelve years. The layout of the
palace is still the same as it used to be. Yongping’s and my favorite swing is still there. There are two rocking chairs at the entrance of the main hall. It seems that I can still see Cheng Guifei and Sister Shu lying there, rocking the rocking chairs and saying, “Yongping and Luoluo have grown taller again.”
As if everything had not changed, the two red plum trees that sister Shu had maintained before her death were also just right, and it seemed that someone had taken care of them carefully. After sister
Shu died, Zhou Jinxuan ordered people to pull out all the red plum in the palace, leaving only the two trees in Xihua Palace.
Broken willows withered lotus, plum as before, but the old friend is gone.
When I entered the temple, the air was filled with dust, which made me cough twice.
“Who?”
I followed the sound and saw Zhou Jin sitting in a corner beside the bed. His face was covered with stubble, his eyes were bloodshot, and a trace of white hair in his ear just rested on the wrinkles at the end of his eyes.
I slowly approached and crouched down beside him. “Your Majesty, it’s me.”
He looked at me with dim eyes and then put his hand over my face. She called out, “Xiao Shu, you’re back.”
I stared at Zhou Jin for a long time and did not speak. Over the years, although I know that Chou has always regarded me as a stand-in for Sister Shu, Chou has never called me “Little Shu.”.
He regarded me as a sister, but he knew deeply that I was not her. Zhou Jin is intoxicated and sober, and never gets tired of it in the world she made up for herself.
Now, he has completely mistaken me. I know. It was the medicine I gave him that helped. For
twelve years, I added a poison from the Western Regions to his incense every day. This poison is not very poisonous, and it will not be easily detected by people. But if it accumulates over time, the poison will gradually appear. It will erode the vitality of the body, make people hallucinate, unable to distinguish between reality and dreams, and finally, the internal organs will fail and die.
“Xiao Shu.” “If you come back, don’t you blame me?” Chou Chin-chien called out.
I stared at Zhou Jin coldly, and I wanted to kill him directly. This question, he should go underground to ask sister Shu, not ask me!
“Xiao Shu!” Chou Chin-chien cried and hugged me like a child. “I didn’t want to kill Ah Yan, and I didn’t want to kill Ching-hsien.”. But I don’t know why, I don’t know why I did what I did.
I listened to him quietly, listening to his meaningless excuses.
From childhood to adulthood, I had to deliberately snatch everything I wanted. Only you, Xiaoshu, only you would unconditionally give me what I wanted. But why, why is Jingxian only one in your heart! You’ve been cold to me all these years, but you’re so happy when you see Jingxian. I’m going crazy. I’m so jealous!
Xiaoshu, do you blame me? Blame me for not liking you at first? Xiaoshu, in fact, the person I like has always been you, and you are the only one! From childhood to adulthood, the things I like are either taken away by my brothers or destroyed by them. I dare not, I dare not say I like you!
Zhou Jinyu burst into tears behind me, an emperor who had been calculating for half a lifetime and thought he was playing everyone in his hands, was so humble and helpless at the moment.
And I also finally understand, Shu sister mouth once said, she can not see through Zhou Jin, Zhou Jin has never understood what she means.
Perhaps, in this world, the only person who knows that Sister Shu has been deeply in love with Zhou Jin all her life is me. In those days when
I was in Xihua Palace, Sister Shu always talked about Empress Xue Yan and General Jing Xian. Every time she mentioned Jing Xian, Sister Shu would laugh happily.
I still remember that night when I was talking to Sister Shu at night, I leaned on her shoulder and asked her, “Sister, do you like this man named Jing Xian?” Sister
Shu was surprised for a moment. She turned to look at me and replied, “Why do you ask that?”
“Because you always talk about him.”
Sister Shu listened to my words. She smiled at the corners of her mouth, touched my head and said, “You are still young. How can you know what you like and what you don’t like?”
Yes, I was young at that time, and I didn’t know anything about love. I thought that what was often mentioned was what I liked in my heart, but for sister Shu, what was never mentioned was the most painful and unforgettable.
That day, I went to my sister’s cabinet to look for something, but I didn’t find it, but I saw a purse, which was embroidered with a Mandarin duck, very vivid, and beside the Mandarin duck was engraved with a word Yu.
I understood a lot at once.
I looked back at Sister Xiang Shu and said, “This purse is..” Sister
Shu walked over to me and looked at the purse in her hand for a long time. Finally she put it back in the cabinet. Her voice was shallow. “When I was young, I wanted to give it to my beloved, but unfortunately I couldn’t give it out in the end.”
Shu sister and Zhou Jin two people, awkward life, obviously love each other, but have misunderstood each other’s mind.
However, I will never let Zhou Jin know that sister Shu loves him, and he doesn’t deserve to know. After
Zhou Jin came out of Xihua Palace, he rested for a few days, but his mental state was not good. He was sober less and less, and finally he was in bed, and the prince assisted the government.
I still remember that night, there was lightning and thunder outside, and the whole bedroom hall was covered by darkness, leaving only the candle at the head of Zhou Jin’s bed.
Now the situation of Zhou Jin has gone, the assistant is my son, the palace attendant is also my people, and he, even the strength to get out of bed are not.
I heard that when he gave Jing Xian to death, he used a bottle of crane top red. Now, I also want to return this bottle of poison to him.
Since the last time I was in Xihua Palace, Zhou Jinxuan said those words to me, I often think of the days in Yan’s home.
Sister Shu always felt guilty about me. She felt that my entering the palace would delay my life. But in fact, compared with the days in the Yan family, I would like to go to the palace to meet sister Shu, sister Jin Yun, and Hu Zhaoyi and many people.
To a certain extent, I understand Zhou Jinyu. I understand his worries about gains and losses, his extremes, and the situation that he can’t get anything without fighting for it.
I heard that when he was in the Prince’s Mansion, he was punished to kneel outside his grandson’s bedroom for a day and a night with a bowl of medicine because he accidentally knocked over his grandson’s wind-cold medicine. He and
I are children who are not cared about, and we are both abandoned. And we also met sister Shu at the same time, but Zhou Jin personally destroyed our common light. When
I was thinking about these past events, Zhou Jin woke up and saw me standing in front of his bed, staring at him without saying a word. I couldn’t see my face at that time, but I thought it must be terrible.
Chou Chin-chien, perhaps already aware of my unkindness, asked me, “What are you going to do?”
I smiled contemptuously. “Doesn’t Your Majesty want to see Sister Shu very much?”? Then I will send you down to see her.
Chou Chin-chien wasn’t surprised at what I said. “I knew you’d have the idea of killing me one day,” he said.
Your Majesty was wrong. I didn’t have the idea of killing you. For more than ten years, I want to kill you all the time! You should go to hell and kneel before Sister Shu to plead guilty! When
I finished, I stuffed the poison in my hand into his mouth. Zhou Jin did not struggle and was at my mercy. Before
he had swallowed my bottle of poison, a mouthful of blood came out of his mouth.
Chou Chin-chien seemed to smile. He stretched out his hand and scratched it in the air. “You’re here, Xiao Shu,” he murmured.
Then he closed his eyes.
Chou Chin-kun left a testamentary edict in the secret compartment of the upper study. The late emperor decreed, “When I die a natural death, I will pass the throne to the crown prince.”. I am worthy of the world all my life. I am only grateful for the virtue of Queen Chunxian. I am very concerned about her. My last wish is to be buried with Empress Chunxian at Yongding Mausoleum.
He wanted to be buried with Empress Xue Yan, but his testamentary edict did not mention Sister Shu, and he seemed to want to erase Sister Shu from the torrent of history.
And I finally learned from Grandfather Wang that Sister Shu and Jing Xian were buried together in the Jing Family Cemetery by Zhou Jin. Sister
Jin Yun said that perhaps Zhou Jin was afraid that Queen Xue Yan would be alone in the afterlife, and perhaps he felt that the most sorry person in his life was Queen Xue Yan, and he wanted to atone for her sins for a long time.
I think, Zhou Jin finally must be very satisfied with himself, he thought he helped sister Shu, but in fact, he never helped her.
Summer has passed, and we have ushered in our thirteenth year. It
was a fine day, with a golden sun embedded in the blue sky, and a white cloud floating in the clear sky like a solitary sail on the blue sea. The door of the
cold palace was opened bit by bit with the sound of squeaking, and the burden on my sister Jinyun and me seemed to be lifted bit by bit.
Hu Zhaoyi, dressed in cloth, squatted in the courtyard and played with a red plum plant that she did not know where she got.
She turned to look at us with tears in her eyes. “I knew you would come.”
If sister Shu is still alive, she will come to pick up Hu Zhaoyi, and we will come to pick her up.
Hu Zhaoyi looked at us and suddenly smiled. Sister Chin-yun and I laughed. “Come on, let’s go home.” The
sunshine was just right that day, and we finally started a new life. There will be another group of new people in
the palace, and then it will be another story.
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The Empress Subjugated the
Country, Youth Complaint: Fireworks Are Easy to Be Cold, For Whom to Bow Down
, Fat Da Feifei, etc.
