22. Iranian Eve
♪ I’m on my way ♪
Love rises with the wind: with your twilight and four seasons
I was not separated from the horse until he knew, and I was a stranger.
I was diagnosed with rectal cancer the other day and called him afraid. But he said he had to go to the library, which was more important.
Later he kneeled in front of me and begged me not to leave, and I told him I had more important people.
One.
When I got the rectal cancer diagnosis, I was shaking.
I called Joo Ruizawa a few times, and I finally hit the right number.
The phone was ringing several times, and when I finally got through, it was like I caught a straw.” Joe…
But before I had time to say anything, he had already interrupted me by saying, “I’m in the library, I can’t talk. I’m sorry.
I’ve been breathing for a moment, and I’m like, “I’m in front of the hospital, can you…?
But there’s a woman in the microphone, “What’s wrong with Ruizawa? I’m sorry.
Joazawa didn’t answer her, but flew fast and said to me, “It’s very important to have a little examination tomorrow. We’ll talk later. I’m sorry.
At that point, a thunderbolt fell over my head, and I couldn’t catch the diagnostic report in my hand, and it was floating under the stairs of the hospital, and it was soon wet by the rain.
I had to go pick it up, but the passers-by picked it up and handed it to me.
He must have seen the diagnosis and looked at my eyes with compassion.
Yeah, cancer, isn’t that the death sentence?
Two.
I grew up in a compound with Joazawa, with both parents in the system and two upstairs.
It can be said that we’re still in our mother’s womb, and both mothers are talking to us, and he’s three days older than me.
When his parents worked overtime, he ate at my house, and my parents were busy, so I went to his house.
We joined hands in primary school, in the same lower secondary school and in different fields of study at the same university, with a difference of more than 10 scores.
The whole world knows that he and I are a couple, and even the parents of both sides have spoken to us more than once about how we can get married.
I thought we were going to be really good.
Until the sights appear.
The first time we heard that name was when we agreed to go to the new hot pot opposite the school.
I’m out of class earlier and I’m taking my place first.
And then he showed up and there was another girl.
The girl, who was young, was a Jade, Wen Qing, and then met me and laughed at me, “Hello, I’m Joo Ruizawa’s classmate, I see. I’m sorry.
“Well, do you eat spicy, do we eat spicy? I’m sorry.
She laughed again, “I’ve been on fire lately.” I’m sorry.
We ordered a pot, I sat alone, Joazawa and Chu.
When the pot came up, the heat blew straight to the point because of the air conditioning.
So Joazawa wrinkled his frown and looked down on his head, and said to me, “Sweet, come over and take a different place.” I’m sorry.
I don’t know why. I’m sorry.
He explained, “She’s got a little nasal inflammation. I’m sorry.
I nod my head, stand up, “Oh, yeah. I’m sorry.
I’m sorry to laugh at me and sit in my place.
I sat down, hot and hot and greeted my face.
I didn’t think much, after all I’d always felt like I was thick.
We had a lot of strings together and I ate as excited as usual.
But the one next to him was different from the one I had taken, and he looked after him often.
“Be careful, it’s hot. I’m sorry.
“It tastes good and doesn’t burn. I’m sorry.
“Sweet, you go get some of this, put the soup on this side. I’m sorry.
He commanded me to serve Chu.
I think he’s a guest.
But I didn’t know it was just the beginning…
3
We didn’t go back to school together that day because Joazawa had to go out and buy some snore-washing salt.
Back in the dorm, my roommate asked me, “How are you and Joaquin? I’m sorry.
I was wondering, “What do you mean? I’ve just had a pot with him. I’m sorry.
“Oh, I heard his classmates say he’s been so close to Chu, I thought you guys were doing something.” I’m sorry.
I naturally said, “He and Chu have recently been preparing a modeling competition. I’m sorry.
The roommate nods, and if he thinks something, “Well, your boyfriend, see for yourself. I’m sorry.
I laughed at her and pushed her “not even a boyfriend.” I’m sorry.
The roommate laughs, “I know! Not boyfriend, fiancé, right? I’m sorry.
I can’t stop my blushing, my heart beats faster.
Although Joo Ruizawa and I didn’t break the line of window paper, we both mentioned more than once that we were married after college, and we agreed to that.
I didn’t think much about the roommates until two days later, when I went to the stadium to refuel Joo Yizawa, I saw it.
She waved at me, and she handed me two phones. I’m sorry.
I was just about to say I was going, and I saw two cell phones in my hand.
Black, white, white, white, with a girl’s comic, black, with a boy’s comic.
It’s obviously a pair.
This is Joo Ruizawa’s phone?
I pushed the two phone sides in my head. The screen was on and the screen was the same.
It was a photo of a group of people in which We saw Joo Ruizawa and Chu Jian, who stood with several boys and girls in their classes, each of them acting like one of them.
And that’s when the two came together.
José took a mineral water in his hand, and then, naturally, he gave it to him, and then gave him another bottle, which he did, and grunted his head and poured it into his throat.
He drank half a bottle and gave him his towel.
He’s sweating like he’s looking at me.
I held their cell phones in my hand and this moment suddenly felt a bit dry.
I said, “Joe Ruizawa, did you change your phone? I’m sorry.
He nodded his head and he made a noise.
He was laughing at him and said, “You were so handsome, especially that three points! I’m sorry.
José picks her up, “I have to. Look at me. I’m sorry.
“Go for it! “Our Saul! I’m sorry.
He smiled, “Don’t worry, Mortius! I’m sorry.
I’ve heard something about Saul and Meteis, and I’m like, “What did you just say?” I’m sorry.
I heard that they had a good look at each other and a good smile. I’m sorry.
Then Joazawa threw the towel and turned around.
They have secrets.
For the first time, I stood there and clearly felt I had been marginalized.
The second half of the basketball game was better, but I was a little distracted.
For the first time, instead of chasing the familiar figure on the field, I turned on my phone and searched for Saul and Mattis.
So Saul was the god of lightning and power in the northern mythology.
And Martius, the goddess of wisdom in ancient Greek mythology.
By the side of her body, she was zealously refuelling, and on her legs, two of the same cell phone shells stabbed me in the eye.
I’m just reminiscent that today’s Joo Ruizawa’s game is something I’ve only found out about.
Once upon a time, Joarez sent me the first message and ordered me to be the first to refuel.
In the past, his cell phone shell had been bought on my orders, as he sometimes had a limited capacity and had several broken screens.
In the past, he used to call me every afternoon for dinner and tell me something. But now, our chat record is still on the day we eat the hot pot…
4
I’m starting to get a little restless.
Although it has always been felt that we have been together for many years and that there should be no treachery or separation between us, this unease still panics me.
So I contacted him very often.
“Joe Ruizawa, we’re going to eat the kettle after school today? I’m sorry.
“No, the smoke is too big, and the nasal inflammation is worse when Chu has returned that day. I’m sorry.
“Well, let’s just eat and go on foot and watch the movie. I’m sorry.
“I saw it with Chu-hyu yesterday. Why don’t you ask your roommate to come with you? I’m sorry.
“Shall we go to the library tomorrow? I’m sorry.
“No, I’ve been preparing for a modeling competition recently and we’ve all been meeting lately. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
I look at these conversations and my heart cools.
I have to admit that something has indeed gradually gone away from me, and even if I do so, it will not help.
But we’ve been with each other for 20 years, and I never thought about what he would look like without me.
So I waited downstairs in his dorm after a week without seeing Joe Ruizawa.
I saw him from afar, with his cell phone, talking to someone, with a little smile on his lips.
He smiled nicely, and I thought, maybe that’s the kind of smile that makes me fall in love with him in the middle of the year?
I called him “Joe Rusty.” I’m sorry.
Joazawa’s foot was in place, and I saw him, and I came, “Why here? I’m sorry.
I looked up at him, “Do you have a minute? Let’s talk. I’m sorry.
He wrinkled, “What’s up? I’m sorry.
I’m just going to say, “Have you been avoiding me lately?” I’m sorry.
He shakes his head “No such thing.” I’m sorry.
I looked at all the faces on his face and I still had his smile on his head.
So I almost took it out of my mouth and said, “You and Chu are you interested in her?” I’m sorry.
The look on his face was fixed for a few seconds, and then he hit me on the head, “Swee-swee-swee, what’s wrong with you? I’m sorry.
He’s a little heavy. I’ve got a pain in my head. You’re always together, you go to school, you eat together, and your phone case is a couple.”
He couldn’t wait to stop me from saying, “We’re in a competition, it’s important. You don’t know how much a girl paid for this game? I’m sorry.
I can hear you saying, “Do you love her so much? I’m sorry.
He lost all his patience. I’m sorry.
My eyes were red, “What’s wrong with you?” You think I’m being unreasonable? What’s our relationship? How can you…?
“What’s our relationship?” I’m sorry.
When I heard that, my heart broke somewhere.
Yeah, he never said he liked me, and we’re not friends!
Even a fiancé’s status can be interpreted as a verbal joke between adults!
So he’s never been serious?
It’s as if I’m cold and there’s nothing to say.
What are you doing? I’m sorry.
I turn my head, I look at him in red, and I almost say, “Can I keep you away from Chu?” “You don’t see each other any other time except in class.”
His eyebrow was so tight that I never saw it before:
“Huh Myeong-mong, she’s been very good at studying from the small county of the province of Gao Cai to our university. She’s trying so hard, but what you see is disgusting. I was wrong about you! I’m sorry.
My heart was empty, and the wind was pouring in.
I looked at him, and I was almost laughed at, “So, you mean, I’m a bad mind, tarnishing the smart goddess in your heart? I’m sorry.
He seems to be really pissed off.
I’m like, “What else? You’re gonna kill me for her?”
When he heard that, he became boredom in his eyes and turned around, and his head did not go back.
5
I haven’t been in touch with Joe Ruizawa for a month.
I learned not to go to his circle and block all his news.
So even their team modeling competition won Beijing first prize, and I heard it from my roommate.
He was on summer break, and the day before the final exam he appeared downstairs in my dorm.
“Did you buy your ticket?” He asked.
We used to go to high school, and we went home together every time, and that was the understanding that has been going on for years.
But I thought we’d never go back together again.
“Not yet. “I look at him, who I’ve known for 20 years, and now it’s like I’m getting strange.” I’m sorry.
“Hmm. “I’m going to buy tickets. I’m sorry.
“I thought you were going somewhere else.” I’m sorry.
He frowned, “Where am I going on vacation? You’re a fool. I’m sorry.
I nod my head. I’m sorry.
At that moment, I felt like my bond with him was back.
I told myself that he had only been alienated from me because of the game, and that he would still be the same.
Let’s finish the test and go home together.
I’m happy.
Because I don’t hear the name “sweet” from him anymore, and we seem to be back together again.
Until a week later, my mom asked me to borrow some pepper at the Joauzze’s house because my house was running out and forgot to buy it.
And then I went up there to find out that Joazawa wasn’t there.
His mother couldn’t help explaining, “This kid… his classmate called him off on the phone, and it’s not even school yet! I’m sorry.
I was like, “What’s he doing? What’s your name?”
His mother thought, “Chu yan or something, I didn’t hear you. I’m sorry.
I squeezed the pepper in my hand and tried to hold it, so I barely lost it.
It was not until now that I realized that there had been some cracks, and once it had been torn, it would never return to its past.
Two days later, I ordered a flight back to Beijing at the end of the month.
Just after the payment was made, he received a telephone call from Joazawa.
“Joe…”
I’m not finished yet. It’s his angry voice. “How can you be so disgusting? I’m sorry.
I breathed, and I didn’t know whether it was wrong or painful. I’m sorry.
“I didn’t think you’d sue my mom, say I was with Chuji, and let her call me home. I’m sorry.
“I didn’t say anything. Don’t lie! I’m sorry.
He’s obviously in a hurry, “I went back to Beijing half a month early to prepare a national competition with her. I had no idea you could move out of my mother! Oh, you really opened my eyes! I’m sorry.
I’m shivering at my grief and injustice, but I can’t help but yell, “It wasn’t me! I’m sorry.
He’s laughing, “Anyway, you’re on your own! I’m sorry.
He just hung up.
Six.
I’ve deleted all contact details of Joaquin.
When we pressed the “Delete” key, I erased a blurry eye.
Instead of talking about love, just saying that one person has seen you since the day you were born, and has been together for years, and suddenly has been taken out of life, it’s like stripping a bone cramp.
I spent almost half the rest of the holidays in a mess.
He stayed at his house every day, ate and slept, but lost seven or eight pounds and lost his hair.
So many days later, I put on makeup at home to make my parents feel better.
On the day I got back to school, Joo Ruizawa’s parents came to give me a ride, said they were ready to pick me up at the airport.
I didn’t tell them. We haven’t talked for six months.
So when I came out of the airport, and I saw that familiar figure, I was still in the dark.
But soon, I saw what was next to him.
They waved at me and gave me candy and chestnuts. I’m sorry.
I was sensitively able to capture the change in her name of Joaquinzer.
I didn’t want them to pick me up, but Joe Ruizawa had pulled my suitcase.
I didn’t let go. He took it a little hard.
I looked at him and whispered, “No need. I’m sorry.
He didn’t answer, but turned around and said, “Come on. I’m sorry.
He changed his name.
I walk behind them, feel like they’re a world, and I’m outside.
And when the ears were lost, they were reminded of the words of the best friend of Joo Ruizawa.
“Joe Ruizawa, you’re a fucking baby, aren’t you? Every time I feel like I’m the extra.”
Then Joazawa smiled and said, “It’s pretty clear! I’m sorry.
But now I’m the extra one.
We took a cab back to school, and Joauzze took the co-pilot seat, and I sat behind Chuji.
But on the way, I told him about the competition later, and I didn’t say a word.
I finally got to school, and Joauzze brought my suitcase up to the girls’ dormitory.
When he was downstairs, he suddenly said, “What happened that day was my urge. I’m sorry.
Is this an apology?
I did not answer that some of the wounds had formed and could no longer recover.
I picked up the suitcase from him and politely said, “Thank you. Then I went straight inside.
He called me in the back and said, “Sweet.” I’m sorry.
I didn’t look back.
On the same day, I received an application from his best friend, and I left after a while, and I didn’t give a shit.
I started spending more time on the library.
The loss of hair doesn’t seem to have improved much, and I find that I’ve had a bit of blood on top of my head in recent times.
At first I thought it was Aunty because it was just a few days ago.
But it’s over and it’s still not working.
I looked in the mirror, I looked in the mirror, and I started to panic.
I entered my case on my phone and found it very similar to rectum cancer.
I don’t know how I feel about going to the hospital alone.
It’s like stomping on a wire, shaking the wire, and there’s an abyss underneath.
Until a few days later, I went to the hospital to get the medical report.
For a moment, my heart was as if it were a desert, and I could hear the whirlwind, the cold.
The doctor said to my family.
My parents are far south, and I don’t even know how to tell them this bad news.
The whiteheads send the blackheads, they only have one daughter. How can they bear it?
I stood in front of the hospital for a long time until I realized I was shaking so hard, my legs were soft, I couldn’t move.
Staff members warned me not to stand at the door and be vulnerable to danger, but I couldn’t walk.
He saw me in bad shape and asked me if I had family.
I finally picked up the phone and set it up.
I’ve deleted that phone, but I’ve been back on my back…
7
The phone was ringing several times and finally connected. Joe…
But before I had time to speak, I was interrupted by Joo Ruizawa, and I was in the library, and I couldn’t talk. I’m sorry.
The feeling of drowning suffocates me, and I struggled, “I’m in front of the hospital, can you…?
But the sound in the listener says, “What’s going on? I’m sorry.
Joazawa didn’t answer her, but flew fast and said to me, “It’s very important to have a little examination tomorrow. We’ll talk later. I’m sorry.
And when the bells were ringing in my ears, I felt like I was sinking into the sea.
There was a wind passing by, and all that was before him was blurry.
The diagnosis in hand fell from the palm to the ground.
The rain fell and I saw someone pick up the report and hand it over to me.
He called me twice, so I woke up.
I saw the mercy in his eyes.
Yeah, I’m such a poor man, and I’ve been separated from other students for years because I’ve been with him so few friends.
Now that he’s gone away from me, I realize that he’s lost the world at once.
I wrinkled the diagnosis, the rain fell on my face, and the cold touch finally made me feel a little bit.
I travel back to school like a ghost.
The roommate’s not here. I started packing.
In the wallet and the photo of Joe Ruizawa, tore it off.
He gave me a fluffy giraffe, a hair card, a handline, one piece of it and hit it in the bag.
It stopped raining outside and I took the bag to the boys’ dorm and asked Auntie to give it to him.
When the roommates came back, I just finished.
They saw me, they stopped talking, and they ended up with my top-street sister asking:
“Was Jo Ruizawa with Chu? I’ve just heard that Joe Ruizawa went back to the infirmary. I’m sorry.
I nod my head, “Well, I guess. It’s over between me and him anyway. I’m sorry.
I thought it would be hard to say it, but now I find myself in a strangely calm situation.
Maybe it’s just a game of mirror moon.
I saw it.
At night, after I had made an appointment to the hospital, I got a call from Joauzze.
He’s like, “What do you mean you give me back what I gave you?” I’m sorry.
I looked out the window and I thought, “How come the world is so beautiful?
If I survive, I’ll have to look at the rising moon.
So I answered calmly, “Joe Ruizawa, let’s be strangers from now on.” I’m sorry.
He’s been quiet for a few seconds. How can we be strangers after all these years? I’m sorry.
I smiled, “It’s fine. Whatever. I’ll never call you again. I’m sorry.
He seems a little hot, “Don’t talk about this nonsense!” If you want to get out, your parents won’t let you! I’m sorry.
I’m soft. “Whatever. Hang up. I’m sorry.
He seems to have been frightened by my tone, “I am in trouble this afternoon. Are you in trouble? Now I’m going down to your dorm…”
I interrupted him by saying, “Joe Ruizawa, I’m talking about a stranger who doesn’t know each other anymore.” I’m sorry.
8
I just hung up on the phone and hacked his phone.
When I do everything, my heart calms.
I think I’ve had so much fantasies about him so many times in the past, but that phone call at the hospital just smashed it all.
It’s not as painful as I thought.
I went to the barber shop and cut my hair short, and I saw a lot of silk, and I thought if I had chemo, would I have lost my hair?
I packed up and went to the hospital.
A man lined up to pay a fee and I lay still in the inspection room waiting for it.
It was at that moment that someone came in haste, Jo Ruizawa.
I rarely see him like this, with his hair blown by the wind, and even his jacket seems to have been worn, so I squeezed his phone.
He’s already coming over despite the doctor. “Tell me it’s not true. I’m sorry.
I looked at him in peace, and then I looked away.
And he came over and grabbed my arm. I’m sorry.
He turned to the doctor and said, “Doctor, she’s not sick, right? She’s only 20. How can she get cancer? I’m sorry.
“We don’t miss the hospital. I’m sorry.
Joazawa seems to have been staggered.
He looked at me, and a little bit of it.
There was silence in the inspection room.
The doctor told him, “Let’s get out of here. We gotta check your girlfriend first. I’m sorry.
I laughed at the doctor, “I have nothing to do with him. I’m sorry.
The doctor looked at Joazawa, a lost soul, and seemed to wonder about our relationship.
But it doesn’t matter. The only thing I’m wondering is, how did Joarez know I had cancer? I didn’t say anything.
Well, it doesn’t really matter anymore.
I kept my eyes closed and waited for an examination, and the doctor was on his way, and suddenly he was called out, as if something had happened.
Joazawa came by again.
He looked at me, and his eyes were red. I’m sorry.
“I don’t know I’m sorry, I don’t know. I’m sorry.
“I didn’t listen to you very carefully. I should’ve known. You must have been scared.”
I looked at him, “Don’t disturb the doctor. I’m sorry.
And he said to himself, “Today, your roommate saw what you had to say to me about your downing inspection report, Sponge, I’m scared.”
Twenty years he’s known me for the first time.
I didn’t hear it.
“You’re done. Can we go out now? I smiled at him politely, “Sorry, it’s loud, it bothers me. I’m sorry.
His face was flat and flat.
And when I thought he was going to leave like he used to, he came down on his knees and kneeled at my bed.
“Sweet, I never wanted to leave you. He has a little blood on his eyes.
“I certainly have been alienating you for six months, but I’ve always wanted to win the National Championship so that I could get a project during college and have more prospects for my future. I’m sorry.
“I didn’t like it, but I had feelings for her because we were in the same competition group, so we usually get along more. I’m sorry.
“Don’t get me wrong, don’t ignore me, okay? I’m sorry.
“Our parents are still waiting for us to get married after graduation. So… please, take care of it. I’m sorry.
9
For the first time he was so low-handed and he begged me.
I’m only sarcasm.
I may be moved even if I heard them six months ago. But it’s bullshit to me now!
It was only at this moment that I realized that I still had a grudge and a grudge!
These grievances are as if the tides were raging, provoking a mad and unsolved wave under calm waters.
Get out! * I yelled at him * Who the hell do you think you are? You’re crying to me. You think the world will be waiting for you after you’ve betrayed me? I’m sorry.
As if I was going to shout out all this anger for so long:
“Where were you when I was waiting for you to explain? What were you thinking when you left me for her? Now I’m dying. You’re here for charity? I’m sorry.
“Put your disgusting face away, I’ll die alone in the street and I won’t need a man like you to collect my body! I’m sorry.
He’s got a face on his face and I seem to be scared of it.
Yeah, when did I ever do that to him?
Just as I was waiting for him to come back to my mouth, he looked at me and said, “It’s okay if you yell at me to make you feel better. I’ve been here all the time, so you can come at me if you cooperate with the doctor. I’m sorry.
When I heard that, I threw the bag at him.
He did not hide, and his side was scratched by a bag of metal, leaving two distinct red marks.
He just looked at me with the same sad eyes: “I was afraid of losing you, and now I realize I’m really scared and I’m afraid I’ll never see you again.” I’m sorry.
I’ve got goose bumps on my body, and my heart’s beast is raging, and I’m angry at the injustice of fate.
Why should I be betrayed? Why should I be so young?
So I almost said, “Are you scared?” If you want me to forgive you, you’ll die! Go to hell! Maybe I forgive you for being dead, too! I’m sorry.
He tried to smile at me, “Well, I promise. I’m sorry.
I smiled, and after that, my heart was empty.
I’m gonna die, I’m gonna die, I’m gonna die, I’m gonna die.
I’m going to die no matter what happens to Joaquin.
Desperate will hold me tight, hard to breathe.
The ward was quiet, and for a long time I turned around and saw him still kneeling at my bed, tired and said:
“Joe Ruizawa, whether I survive or not, I have no love or hatred for you, let alone for marriage. I’m sorry.
I haven’t called him that in a long time.
His throat rolls, “Sweet, please. I’m sorry.
I said, “You get out of my world. I might live longer. I’m sorry.
The light in his eyes seems to have gone out in a moment, but soon he pulls out a more ugly smile than crying: “Well, I’m out, but Sponge, you take care of it, the body is the most important thing to think about. I’m sorry.
I didn’t give a shit.
The doctor didn’t know what he was taking, and he came in with a serious look. I’m sorry.
Joazawa heard that look as if I had been sentenced to death.
He wanted to follow, but the doctor stopped him.
I went to the doctor’s office alone.
“Hew Sponge”? “A clean and beautiful voice came, and I looked up and I saw a familiar face.
I’m conscious.
He noded his head, looked at me for a moment, and he smiled.” I told you it was you! I’m sorry.
I couldn’t help but laugh at the old brother-in-law, “I don’t think my name is a bad street either. I’m sorry.
“No, your name really sucks.” I’m sorry.
I was wondering about him.
He took two inspection reports and put them in front of me.
I saw only one of the reports that I had received before, and the other was “Sweety-Sweety,” but the results were very different.
My head was buzzing, and I looked up at him and said, “This is different twice. I’m sorry.
He must have looked me in the eye. “Because your name sucks, Sponge. I’m sorry.
I can’t open my lips by myself, and I’ve had my guess, but the joy after the tragedy makes me feel like I’m standing in the clouds.
I can’t say anything when I’m shaking like that day.
He tweaked his bow, and he kept my sight straight, and told me one word of the answer: “Your report is wrong, it’s thin, you have no rectum cancer. I’m sorry.
10
One simple word, as if a tsunami had struck me.
Too big a reversal to be able to celebrate the rest of my life.
I can even instinctively analyze, “But when I take the report, I used the health card to print the printer.” I’m sorry.
He doesn’t know where a health insurance card came from: “You took the wrong patient, my patient, and I found her wrong after I read her report and found her today knowing you had the wrong health insurance card. I’m sorry.
I said, “So, am I really not sick? I’m sorry.
“You have a problem… you have a hemorrhoid.” I’m sorry.
I’m “…”
Next, I cried in his office.
And when I cried for the rest of my life, I cried until I shuddered, and fell down on the ground with no face, and he helped me.
Many days of fear, a hell of hell, and in just a week, I have experienced a great rise in my life and a renewed hope for the light.
My tears and my nose were full of tears and I couldn’t help but breathe.
He handed me a tissue and shot me in the back, “Well, it’s the hospital’s fault, so when I get off work, I’ll buy you dinner. I’m sorry.
I looked at him with red and red eyes, and my head was empty, and I asked him if hemorrhoids wouldn’t die. I’m sorry.
He’s smiling and shaking his head. But if it’s serious, it might require an operation. I’m sorry.
I feel like I’m in shock. I’m sorry.
He’s a serious “Well, take it off.” I’m sorry.
I forget today’s joy and sadness, and I’m squeezing: “I’m actually bleeding the other day, not for the last two days, not before, probably not serious, or otherwise…”
He looked at me seriously and didn’t talk.
It’s no big deal I’m saying he’s a doctor.
People have turned their backs and their hands have fallen on their jeans.
Just as I was dawdling about to unbutton, there was a smile in my back.
I turned my head and found my shoulders shaking.
He’s 7 years older than me, 27 years old, and he smiles a little bit bad, but he’s got a little more ice and ice in it.
I think he’s playing with me.
He smiled and didn’t hide, and my fist fell on him.
When I’ve had enough, he touches my head like he caressed me: “These days, our little sheep have suffered. I’m sorry.
Little sheep, it was my nickname.
This name reminds me of my previous memories, and when I was a child, I fought with Joo Ruizawa because we were the same age and no one left behind.
So every time I had an affair with Joazawa, I went to see Luo Yi.
They’ve grown a lot of us, but every time they go out for barbecue, they call me.
I wanted to try the spicy, and then he got so hot and he said, “Little sheep, big brother, teach you spicy.” I’m sorry.
As a result, when I went to junior high, his family moved away and he was never seen again.
But I didn’t think we’d meet in a few years.
I’ve cried and laughed today, and all the moods in my chest have finally been completely released, and I’m feeling so relieved, except for my eyes.
But I’m still a little shaky. “But why did I lose my hair? I’m sorry.
He looked at me like, “It’s not normal for a kid to lose his hair when he’s too worried and sleep bad?” I’m sorry.
I see.
I smiled a little bit at my lips, “So I won’t be anymore.” I’m sorry.
I am completely relieved of the past.
He noded and handed me my health card. “All right, give me the card in your bag. I’ll return the patient. I’m sorry.
When I got my card, I found out it wasn’t even my picture.
I can’t even find this!
I look at that girl my age and I feel a little sad. I’m sorry.
“I don’t know, but I’ll try. I’m sorry.
I nodded my head, picked up the pen on his desk, wrote a sentence and handed it to Luo Lu, “Give it to the girl.” I’m sorry.
He looked at me, looked at me, and his eyes were kind of dark. I’m sorry.
He took the note, and there was a word on it.
“Come on, I’m in the same situation as you. I’m out of here today. I’m sorry.
Eleven.
Out of the hospital, I had a very different mood.
I figured out how I should go from now on at 6:00 p.m. to eat with Luo Luo.
I breathe every breath of air with my heart, and I look at the grass trees in the hospital lawn with a new look.
It’s a wonderful world. I have another chance to embrace it.
Just as I walked to the hospital door, it was only in the light of my eyes that Joazawa was following me.
And he realized I found him, and he didn’t hide, and he came and he said, “How come you’re out, no matter what the doctor says, we have to treat, we can’t give up. I pushed the competition, and I turned back.”
I hear here, look at him, and I’ve had a long laugh in my eyes: “Go on, I’m going back to school. Thank you for letting me find my way! I’m sorry.
After I said that, in his mistaken eyes, I ran on the roadway.
At first, I was tired of running for a long time because I was not moving, but gradually my body became light, happy and flying.
I’ve put my energy back into learning and living, and I’ve reported on the board, from sketching to color to digital drawings.
I went skiing with my roommates, on weekends, and with my landcaps, and also signed up as a volunteer for the city’s Marathon campaign.
Every day I am busy and full.
I don’t lose my hair, I don’t need to wear makeup to cover the pale, even the haemorrhoids that were caused by long sitting and constipation.
A lot of times I see Joe Ruizawa.
He’s always down ten metres behind me, trying to get close but not too close.
Until that day, I stood on the bridge and watched the old man who was fishing down there, and I felt like I was hugged from behind.
Joazawa is shaking, his voice is squeaky, please don’t lose it… Let’s go to therapy. It’s been a long time since I talked to Chuji, and I’ve deleted her.
I was wondering if I could turn my head and see his eyes full of red blood.
It was only two months before I found out that he was so thin, so pale and so much worse than he had been up all night preparing for the competition.
I realized at this moment that it didn’t hurt when he stripped someone from his heart.
His last complaint to him has since disappeared.
I’ve been thinking a lot over the last few months, and I thought you were supposed to be with me, so I took it for granted and thought that everything else was important, and you wouldn’t leave me, no matter what I choose. But I was wrong. I realized it was too late. I’m sorry.
I looked at him and said, “I’m not sick, I got the wrong report. I’m fine and healthy now, so don’t come around. I’m sorry.
He looked at me wondering, “Don’t lie to me. I’m sorry.
I mean my face, “Don’t you think I’m getting healthier now?” I’m sorry.
He stood there for several seconds and laughed, and there was water in his eyes.
He hugged me. Sumi, it’s good that you’re all right.
I interrupted him with “no more.” I’m sorry.
He’s frozen.
I pushed him away, saying, “I did like you before, but now I have no feelings. I really don’t have no hatred. Let’s just say goodbye. I’m sorry.
The light in his eyes just fell apart, like a thousand pieces of luminous, and couldn’t put it together anymore. I’m sorry.
I nod my head. I’m sorry.
It took him half a day to swallow. I’m sorry.
He tried to laugh at me, but he was full of shit or he failed.
I waved at him, and I felt calm.
It is not an attempt to avoid it; it is not a indifference to sight; it is a man who, in front of you, is as if he were an ordinary passenger in life, without any deliberate alienation or heat.
Because he’s just the most ordinary man in your world.
12 Poster
Six months later, I applied for a three-month exchange at the Diplomatic Academy.
Before I left, I heard from my roommate that Joazawa and Chushu had been completely torn apart, and that because of the absence of Joauzze’s previous contest, I had been able to unite directly with several boys in other schools and had excluded Joazawa.
Now they’ve won the prize, but Joazawa has worked hard to get married.
It is clear that José cannot accept this result, and now he has submitted evidence of his involvement and is awaiting judgement.
When I heard that, I saw him far from the field.
Long time no see, he’s thinner than he was before, and a boy who used to be in the sun now gives a sense of depression.
It seems to have sensed my eyes, and he turned around and focused on the empty eye.
His lip petal moved and seemed to be calling my name.
I just nod at him politely.
And his eyes were dazzled, as if he were a barren desert.
I turned around and left with nothing to worry about.
And that’s when I finally understood how I felt about Joo Yizawa.
I’m sure she’s the most purposeful girl.
But what happened to them was none of my business.
‘Cause I found Luo Yu to be interested in me, and I, too, was getting harder and harder to find him.
He’ll give me medicine when I catch a cold, he’ll be the first to congratulate me when I get the prize, and he’ll send me a local postcard while I’m on a business trip.
I am determined to be the most important in the face of choice.
I was brought into his circle, and even though I was surrounded by his classmates, I would not feel excluded.
I am no longer the one who has been given up, and I finally feel what happiness it was, when it was firmly chosen.
As at this point, I went to the Diplomatic Academy, where he was working late last night and insisted that I should be sent across half of Beijing City, saying that it was an important day for his little girl.
I’m in his car, I’m wearing a seatbelt, I’m looking at a man’s face, and I can’t help but test him. I’m sorry.
He’s slightly sided, his eyebrow gets a little bit rough, and he’s like, “Yeah, take me. I’m sorry.
I looked in the back mirror in the car, and I laughed, “Well, okay, wait for me sometime. I’m sorry.
The air pressure in the car went a little low.
I pretended I didn’t know, and I said, “He’s a good man. He’s a little older.
He squeezed his finger on the wheel a little bit.
And I said, “He comes to me all the time, and I feel like I’m losing it. I’m sorry.
Rudd parked on the side of the road.
And he turned around, and he looked at me, and he said, “You promise me one thing, I’ll tell you what happened to my patient.” I’m sorry.
I’ll nod my head for a second. I’m sorry.
“She was in the early stages of rectal cancer and did not continue to spread after the surgery, and after chemotherapy, her body has now largely recovered. I’m sorry.
I can’t help but feel the tears of my eyes when I’m looking up and thinking about my big up and down. I’m sorry.
“So little sheep, promise to be my girlfriend.” I’m sorry.
“I’m better for you than the guy you’re talking about. He adds:
I sucked my nose and I laughed. I’m sorry.
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Author: Second Land
Document number: YXX1z836QYxfJ3b8dXH2mAB
Love rises with the wind: with your twilight and four seasons
Nine. Wait.
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I don’t know.
Keep your eyes on the road.
