23. Palace Lock Gaze

I was fifteen years old when the

palace lock gazed

into the palace. I was fifteen years old when I

entered the palace. Although

Ah Niang had a smile on her face, she couldn’t stop worrying in her words. “Everything is fate, and the road ahead is up to you.”. Be careful what you say and do!

It is said in the book that the palace is a place for eating people, and I am afraid.

I was lucky enough to seal a talented person and get a side courtyard. My temper is stuffy, often a person nest in the yard, over time, the palace seems to have no such person as me. I’ve always kept my nose clean, and I don’t want to. There is no need to worry about food and clothing in the palace, and it is not too hard to live like this all one’s life. When I entered the

palace in March, I only saw the emperor on the day of conferring the title, and I was never summoned. I have heard the maid in the palace say in private that I am stupid and deserve to die of old age in the palace and never come to the fore. I’m not mad. I didn’t think about it.

Occasionally, I think of the days before I entered the palace. One of my father’s friends was an uncle named Fang, and our two families were very close. Fang Shibo’s second son, Brother yuan, and I have known each other since childhood, and we are also childhood sweethearts. After the news spread that

I was about to enter the palace, Fang Shibo came to the mansion to congratulate me, and Ah yuan also came with me. But when he saw me, he was far away, not as close as he used to be. I didn’t understand, but he only said, “From now on, you will be the empress of the palace.” He never talked to me again.

My heart is empty.

Life has been plain and light, only one day, when I passed by the Imperial Garden, I saw several palace people chasing a dog, to beat it to death with a stick, I could not bear it, so I asked for the little dog to keep by my side.

Once upon a time, outside the palace, the cook in the house kept a big yellow dog, lying lazily in the sun at the door of the woodshed every day. He wags his tail when he sees people, and his relatives are tight.

My little flower dog bean son is also a relative, every day around me, this dull day unexpectedly also a little more angry. A few days after I got

the beans, I was enjoying the cool under the shade of a tree. Suddenly into a group of palace people, led by I know, is the emperor’s father-in-law Fu.

I stood up hurriedly, but Father Fu saluted me and let the palace people carry in a big box. “These are the rewards of the emperor,” he said. “I’ll wait for them tonight.”

It wasn’t until after my father-in-law had left that I stood there in a daze. The palace people in my courtyard knelt on the ground. Their faces were filled with smiles, and they said, “Congratulations to the talented people, congratulations to the talented people!”

The bean licked my skirt at my feet, and I carried it back to the house, and my mind was blank.

At that time, several nuns came to the courtyard to dress me up. I looked at myself in the bronze mirror, with a golden fur coat and a pretty face. I had mixed feelings for a moment, but I couldn’t recall what I looked like before I entered the palace.

I don’t know when my father-in-law’s shrill voice came from outside: “The emperor has arrived!” I couldn’t help my heart beating wildly, my palms sweating, and I had an impulse to hide. When

the emperor came in, I saluted, but even my voice trembled. “My concubine, see the emperor.” His voice boomed

overhead. “Are you afraid of me?” I dare not answer, for fear of offending the holy face by saying a wrong word. When he asked me to get up, there was a hint of a smile in his voice. “So you’re such a timid girl.”

The emperor is only twenty-seven or twenty-eight. He is tall, more than a head taller than me. He is handsome and not angry. I thought to myself at that time, this is my husband, my dependence in this life.

I was so afraid of pain that my eyes would turn red when I bumped into him. That night I clenched my teeth and didn’t dare to cry. Finally, I couldn’t help but shed tears on his shoulder. He gently wiped the tears from my eyes and said, “I’m not afraid.”

Yin Shi, the emperor got up early in the morning, and I served him carefully. Shortly after

he left, a palace man came in with a bowl of soup medicine, saying that it was given by the emperor. I nodded and drank it down under the gaze of the palace people. I was so tired that I fell asleep.

Not everyone is eligible to be pregnant with a dragon seed.

I got some rewards, a dazzling array of pearls and silks, all of which I had never had before. The palace people praised me for my good fortune and the favor of the emperor. I was amused that the maidservants, who had privately called me stupid, had become loyal to the Lord.

Since that night, the emperor has never stepped into my courtyard again. The flattery around him gradually disappeared. As before, I amuse the dog and serve the flowers, and I am happy to be free.

Some palace people euphemistically persuaded me that the women in the palace were living on the emperor’s favor, so why not fight for it, maybe there is another world. I just shook my head and smiled. I

don’t want to be involved in right and wrong. I just want to live in peace for the rest of my life. In

a trance, it is winter. My situation is a little sad. I have no power, no power, and no favor, so I have to be deducted from the monthly silver and expenditure, so I have to have enough food and clothing. I used to think that I would not worry about food and clothing in the palace, but now I think I am too naive. I sent all the palace people away, leaving only two clever ones. I’m ashamed to say that following a master like me is also a drag on them.

The weather is getting cold, I let her go to the Ministry of Internal Affairs to get coal, or warm for the winter. That wench went for a long time, only some broken charcoal, not to mention heating, can burn up is a problem. As a last resort, I had to lead her to go again.

This time the father-in-law of the Ministry of Internal Affairs gave me some new charcoal. It was snowing heavily, and my fingers were stiff with cold. I thought I would be all right when I got back to the house and made a fire. A group of people came up to me on the

palace road, and I recognized them as the concubines. She went to the palace with me and won the favor.

I bent down to salute, her also knelt down, but did not want to slip on the ground at the foot, the coal in the hands also scattered out, dirty the skirt of the concubine.

She was so frightened that she kowtowed and begged for mercy. I bent lower and made amends to her and asked her to forgive me. “

Then you two will kneel down. When the snow stops, when will it rise?”

Her crying to make amends to me, I do not blame her, I should suffer, suffer is. She and

I picked up the charcoal into the basket, carefully swept away the snow on the charcoal, and covered it with a dress. When the charcoal was wet, it was impossible to make a fire to keep warm.

The snow did not stop until night, and I was already frozen stiff and hungry. I don’t know how long I have been kneeling, but my consciousness is a little blurred. Suddenly, a voice sounded above my head, “Why are you kneeling here?”

I looked up, and it was the emperor.

Then he lowered his head and said, “I have made a mistake.”

“Get up.”

I just felt confused in my mind and said in a daze, “The snow hasn’t stopped..”

A pair of big hands helped me up, my legs were stiff and unable to move, and I fell down and knocked over the charcoal. Her hurriedly picked up for me, I shook my head, unexpectedly fell to the ground. It was Shen Shi on the second day when I

woke up. I heard her say that I fainted that day and had a high fever overnight. It was the imperial physician of Emperor Xuan. The emperor did not leave until the first watch, and later ordered people to send heaters and a lot of coal, and even punished the father-in-law of the Ministry of Internal Affairs.

Jade also said, “The emperor was supposed to go to the palace last night, but he didn’t make it.”

My heart jumped, a strange combination of circumstances, I actually ruined her good deed, although not what I wanted, but in the end I offended the concubine. I had

a cold, and I was still in a daze. I had to go to bed early to rest. When I was about to go to sleep

, I heard the palace people announce the arrival of the emperor in a trance. I struggled to get up. As soon as I looked up, I saw the tall figure coming in, with ice and snow on his shoulders that had not yet melted.

“I seem to have come at a bad time.” With a smile, he stopped me from saluting and helped me lean on the head of the bed. Before

I could speak, he put his hand on my forehead. Don’t burn it. After walking in the

wind and snow, his hands were still warm, and the warmth seemed to be alive, connected to his forehead, and jumped straight into my heart. My heart was pounding and I felt my cheeks burn again.

“Thanks to the emperor, my health is much better.” I didn’t dare to look at him, and the fingers under the brocade were twisted together uneasily. Sleepiness had long vanished, and I felt at a loss.

“Last night you were so confused that you took me by the hand and cried for my father and mother.”

I raised my head sharply, afraid that he would punish me with a great crime of disrespect. However, his expression was gentle and there was no anger at all.

He also said that I cried for a long time last night and asked me if I was wronged. I was really wronged in my heart, but I dared not say it, so I shook my head. He asked no more questions.

The emperor stayed for about a wick of incense. Before he left, he said he would come to see me next time. I sat on the couch for a long time.

Her and Cui took good care of me, and the emperor sent the doctor to feel my pulse every day, and soon I recovered. But my body is weak, kneeling in the snow for a long time, in the end the root of the disease, can not stand the cold, otherwise the knee will be painful.

Have to mention a mouth, since the cold, the palace of food and clothing should be improved a lot, even better than when I first entered the palace. The clothing department also cut some beautiful clothes for me.

Two days later, the emperor sent me to the Imperial Garden to appreciate the plum. Although my heart is perturbed, I am not as afraid of him as before.

The plum blossoms are just right, emitting a cold fragrance. I stopped under a plum tree and looked up at the flowers on the branch, which were fragrant and stained with snow, which was very lovely. When

the emperor saw that I was overjoyed, he stretched out his hand to break the flower branch. I stopped him at once, but he was puzzled. I said to him, “I like this plum blossom. When I see it standing proudly in the wind and snow, I feel very happy just by looking at it.”

He did not speak, but he laughed heartily.

There were snowflakes falling down, and he untied his cloak and put it on for me. His clothes were so large that they covered me, and the hood covered my eyes and blurred my vision.

I fiddled my hat up, revealing a pair of eyes, a kiss suddenly fell on my lips, and his deep eyebrows and eyes became clear in my sight. The

soft touch made me shudder, and the next second a pair of big hands held me tightly in their arms for a long time before they loosened. He had turned away from the crowd, and I was still so embarrassed that I buried my head in his chest and refused to come out. The emperor stayed in my palace

that night.

On the second day, I was promoted to Zhaoyi.

The emperor gave me a lot of rewards, and I personally picked some palace people, who were all respectful.

For the first time, there was a guest in my courtyard, who was a concubine with me in the Xianfu Palace. The head of Xianfu Palace was originally Kang Fei, but later Kang Fei committed a crime and hanged herself in the cold palace. Since then, the main seat of Xianfu Palace has been empty. This happened before I entered the palace. I had never seen Concubine Kang. I heard that she was an arrogant person. It was really sad that such a person would choose this way to end her life. Since I

entered the palace, I had very little contact with other concubines, and I had never had any contact with An Pin. When I met her before, I saluted, but she didn’t even look at me. Today it was a mouthful of a younger sister, which made me afraid.

An Pin seemed to come to my courtyard just to chat and take care of me. She vaguely mentioned that the emperor had given her a pair of South China Sea pearl earrings, which were round and full, and very precious. I was a little confused, so she smiled and said something else and then left.

The next day, I took Dou’er to the green pond to feed the fish. Far away, I saw Xi Pin and An Pin. I was afraid of causing trouble, so I picked up Dou’er to avoid them, but An Pin stopped me. I can’t afford to be

provoked, but I can’t even hide.

I had to go over and salute them. I thought the concubine would make things difficult for me, but she only glanced at me coldly and did not speak. Her pearl earrings twinkled in the sunshine, and they were so beautiful. An Pin chatted with me for a few words and then left with Xi Pin.

I felt uneasy. After they left, I took the palace people back to Xianfu Palace.

At the end of the day, Xi Pin and her party stepped into my courtyard. Before I could salute, I saw her pointing at me and telling the palace people, “Take it down for me!”

Immediately, two nuns came up and caught me. With a gesture, three maidservants came into my bedroom. Her and Cui came forward to protect me and were pushed to kneel on the ground.

“Empress, why is this?” I felt more and more uneasy and panicked.

“You’ll see.” She smiled coldly with a twinkle in her eyes. The maid who

had come into my bedroom came out with a pair of pearl earrings in her hands. Hearing the news, An Pin came and saw the thing in the maid’s hand. She stared in surprise. “Isn’t this the South China Sea pearl that the emperor gave to Xi Pin’s sister?”? What’s the matter Then he looked at me with a look of disgust on his face. “I only mentioned it to Sister Zhaoyi when we were chatting, but you stole it!”

No! I didn’t steal it! I was in a hurry to defend myself, and my heart was full of panic.

“I ran into you at the Green Water Pond at the Japanese Palace today, and the pendant disappeared in a twinkling of an eye. Now that I’ve found it in your room, what else can you say?” Xi Pin was aggressive, and the fierce light in her eyes made me tremble all over.

I looked at the malicious smile on the faces of Xi Pin and An Pin, and finally realized that today’s play had been arranged by them for a long time, waiting for me to fall into the trap. Even if I didn’t steal it, I don’t know.

But how can I admit what I haven’t done?

“I didn’t steal it.” I held my head high and looked directly into Xi Pin’s eyes for the first time.

“Pow!” My head was fanned to the side, and my mouth was fishy and sweet.

“It seems that it’s time for me to teach you the rules.” With a wave of her hand, Mammy, who was holding me, kicked me in the knee, and I fell to my knees.

“Woof!”! Woof! Woof! Dou’er jumped out of nowhere and bit a Mammy’s trouser leg and tore it. She kicked it and Dou’er flew far away. Immediately, a little father-in-law hit Dou’er with a stick. Dou’er’s screams echoed in my mind. I burst into tears. I broke away from Mammy’s hand and threw it on Dou’er. The stick fell on my back. The pain made my liver and gallbladder crack.

Father-in-law did not stop the meaning, her son and Cui son rushed to stop him, was also knocked down to the ground, they will protect me, the stick hit them, issued a muffled sound. After

watching enough of the play, she waved her father-in-law to stop and crouched down in front of me, holding my chin up with one hand and slapping me on the cheek with the other.

“Tut..” She frowned again, as if she had touched something dirty, shook my face in disgust, wiped her hands with silk, and threw it on my face. “That’s all right,” said

An Pin with a sneer. “Sister Zhaoyi made a big mistake, but for the sake of not knowing the rules when she first entered the palace, Sister Xi Pin spared her. Don’t publicize it, so as not to ruin Zhaoyi’s reputation.” Then he looked at me and said, “I’m sure Sister Zhaoyi has realized her mistake. Let’s reflect on it. Don’t waste your sister’s painstaking efforts.” She raised her eyebrows and her eyes were full of threats.

The line of people swaggered away, and the palace people on the side, who were already petrified, came forward to help me up, affecting the wounds on my body, and the bones seemed to fall apart. The

wound was on my back, and I couldn’t see it. I heard from the maid who served me that there was a small bruise on my back, and it was a little swollen.

Her and Cui son’s injury is much heavier than me, is a large blue and purple scars, fortunately did not hurt the bones and muscles, beans also only a little minor injury, but was frightened, I held it in my arms for a long time before falling asleep.

An Pin threatened me not to publicize this matter, so even the Imperial Physician could not summon him, so he had to send someone to the Imperial Medical Department to ask for some ointment.

I used to naively think that as long as I behave myself, I can get a quiet place. I never thought that this harem would be so dangerous. Because I speak lightly, I will be trampled on and slandered. I, on the other hand, can’t even redress my own grievances. Even if the emperor was alarmed, he would not go to find the ridiculous truth for my little Zhaoyi. I don’t know. At that time, my fate would be even worse. Naturally, they will not take the initiative to make this matter bigger, otherwise they may cause unnecessary trouble for themselves, but they have a good abacus. For the first time in my

life, I had a taste of hate. I hate Ann and Xi, and I hate myself. I miss home. I miss my parents.

When I think of her, my heart is cramping. I am so useless, her, Cui, beans, are hurt because of me, but I can’t protect them.

Xi Pin today is to let me understand, as long as she wants, my life is even simpler than trampling an ant to death. There are not many ghosts in this imperial city, and I am the only one.

No, I don’t want to die. I want to live. I want to live. I don’t have to be bullied, I don’t have to swallow my pride, and I can protect everything I care about. To

live, I will climb up, to get the holy favor. The deep eyebrows and eyes appeared in front of

my eyes. Breathing, I shook my head, dispelling the unrealistic delusions in my mind.

The Son of Heaven is merciless. There are some things that I dare not and cannot dream of. Then I just want to live well, fight with those women and fight for my future.

Near the end of the year, there are many kinds of affairs in the court, and I haven’t seen the emperor for a long time. This is good, give me time to rest, if the emperor saw the bruise on the back, I do not know how to explain.

I heard that the emperor had been working very hard recently, and the lights of the Imperial Study had been lit for several nights until dawn. I personally made the sweet soup and sent it to Fu, and then I left after I handed it to Fu in Imperial Study.

Hai Shi, the emperor came. When I was about to turn off the light and go to bed, the door was suddenly pushed open. I was startled. As soon as I looked back, I saw him coming with the wind and snow.

“Why is the emperor here?” I beat a drum in my heart, and I was very nervous. He had a narrow smile in his

eyes. “You said you missed me, and I came.”

I blushed at his blunt words, and his smile deepened.

“Red bean soup is very sweet. I like it very much.”

Ask you where to come here, red beans give lovesickness.

That bowl of red bean soup was deliberately made by me to test the emperor. If the emperor just does not understand the affection of the Red Bean, then I want to go further, it is not easy, but if the emperor comes, it shows that he still has some friendship for me.

I originally thought that if he wanted to come, he would pick a day to come after he was free, but unexpectedly, he came overnight. So, my road ahead is not too bumpy. I just never thought that one day I would play tricks. It was so ironic that he actually laughed out loud.

The emperor asked me why I laughed, and I said I was happy.

As soon as I looked up, I noticed the blackness of his eyes. I think he was very tired after working hard for days.

The devil sent me to say, “Your Majesty has been working hard for days on end. It would be better for me to massage your shoulders for you, so as to relieve your fatigue.” As soon as the words came out of my mouth, I realized that I had made a slip of the tongue, which was somewhat incompatible with etiquette.

He nodded, took off his robe and sat on the bed for me to press his shoulder. I put my fingers on his broad shoulders, trembling slightly unconsciously, and took a deep breath to stabilize my mind.

After a while, he suddenly laughed. “I didn’t know you had such good hands.”

Hearing this, I couldn’t help laughing and told him that in the past, when Ah Niang had a backache at home, I would rub it for her. Over time, I would find out some ways. When I think of Ah Niang, I can’t help feeling sour in my nose.

He seemed to notice my mood change and asked me if I was homesick. I shook my head and said that this was my home when I entered the palace.

After a long time, I found that he did not know when to fall asleep, it seems really tired, sitting can fall asleep. I was helpless and funny, so I carefully helped him lie flat and took off his boots and clothes. Not knowing what was bothering him in the dream, he frowned, and I reached out my hand and carefully smoothed his eyebrows.

After blowing out the candle, I crept down on his side, and suddenly a pair of big hands pulled me over and circled me into his warm chest. I was so scared that I didn’t dare to move, and my heart was beating.

His hoarse voice sounded, enough to confuse the mind. “Let me hold you.”

I slowly relaxed and leaned against his chest, feeling a long-lost peace of mind.

Lunar New Year’s Eve that day, I got up very early. Up and down in the palace, couplets had already been hung and the word “Fu” had been pasted. The palace people stood in a row, saying auspicious words. I was also very happy. I took out the red envelopes that had been sealed earlier and distributed them to them one by one. A few days

ago, I pulled some red cloth and made a little red coat for Douer. Today, I just put it on. It was so happy that it kept wagging its tail.

The dinner, held in Hall of Preserving Harmony, was very lively, and although there were still rules everywhere, they were not as formal as usual, and it was not harmful for a good concubine to whisper some funny words.

At the time of the banquet, the palace people served a round of dishes, which were full of beautiful things, mostly delicacies I had never seen before, and the taste was really wonderful. After the

dinner, fireworks were set off in the palace. Brilliant, gorgeous and incomparable. The emperors and empresses stood in front of them hand in hand, and the concubines stood behind them, enjoying the beautiful scenery together.

I stood behind the crowd, looking up at the fireworks, can not help but think of the father and mother outside the palace, in the past every year Lunar New Year’s Eve, our family finished eating New Year’s Eve dinner, father and mother would take me to the street to guess the riddles written on lanterns, put lanterns, very happy. The fireworks at that time, in my heart, were far more beautiful than those in the palace. Now that I have entered the palace, there are only two old people in the house. I don’t know if they have a lively time the Spring Festival this year? So thinking, I will no longer be happy before, only full of loneliness.

Back to the palace, my heart is even more lonely. On the pretext that he was tired, he held back the palace people and did not let them disturb him. He hid in the room and cried with the beans in his arms. The bean felt my mood and stuck out his tongue to lick my cheek to comfort me. My tears fell more fiercely, and I tried not to make too loud a sound for fear of being heard.

I don’t know when I went to sleep, but when I woke up, it was already bright. The eyes are a little swollen, but it’s not obvious. I take a deep breath, the new year is coming, and I should be a new self. The Lantern Festival on the fifteenth day of

the first lunar month, there was another big banquet in the palace. I haven’t had a good appetite these days, and I can’t eat much. But the soft, glutinous and sweet Glutinous Rice Balls for Lantern Festival is quite delicious. On the

twentieth day of the first lunar month, I was promoted to be a concubine with the appropriate title. The fourth day of

February, the Beginning of Spring. I found some Lily of the valley seeds and buried them in the yard, thinking how elegant it would be when the flowers bloomed and the yard was full of fragrance.

Every day I came to see if the seeds germinated, and for more than ten days in a row, there was no movement at all. I squatted on the edge of the flower bed and sighed.

It happened that the emperor came up and saw my sad face and asked me what had happened. I led him to the flower bed and told him that the Lily of the valley I had planted had not sprouted for nearly half a month. But

he knocked on my forehead and told me that the Lily of the valley bloomed in May, and that if it was planted now, it would not survive. And this flower is afraid of heat, which is cultivated by a special person in the palace.

I didn’t know there were such fastidious things about planting flowers, but it was my sin to plant them on the spur of the moment. I’ve been very depressed all day.

The next day, the emperor sent me a lot of Chinese rose seeds, saying that this season is the best time to sow Chinese roses, and it is easy to feed them. I heard the palace people say that planting flowers is very fastidious, and I was afraid of making mistakes again, so I asked Grandfather Li, who grows flowers, to help me sow. At the end of

February, the seeds of Chinese rose germinated, and the green seedlings broke through the soil, tender and very pleasant.

I often asked Grandfather Li for advice and experience, and raised the bud in a good way. The emperor often came to see me and praised me for raising me well. By the end of March, there were little buds on the bud, and I was very happy.

In April, Xi Pin was pregnant for more than a month.

By the end of the month, my Chinese rose finally opened, a large red, very beautiful. I moved a few plants into a flowerpot and sent them to the emperor. On the ninth day of the

fifth month, when I was sixteen years old, my father-in-law Fu sent me a lot of rewards. On the

sixteenth day of the fifth month, I have been in the palace for one year. I stood in front of a large Chinese rose, sighing that time flies. As soon as I turned around, he stood not far away and his eyes were full of tenderness.

“Why is the emperor free to come?”

“I have come to see you.” When he said this, I didn’t know what to say and just stared at him.

He sighed and gently stroked my hair. “You have changed a lot since you entered the palace early last year.”

I raised my eyebrows and said noncommittally, “Your Majesty has changed a lot, too.”

Glancing at his expression, he added, “In the past, when concubines looked at the emperor, they felt so majestic that they didn’t dare to approach him. They were afraid that one of them would accidentally annoy the emperor.”. But now, when I look at it again, I see that I have become much closer to him.

He smiled and gently scraped the bridge of my nose with his finger. “It does seem to have changed a lot.”

I asked him nonchalantly, “So the emperor wants his concubines to be the same as before?” But

he put away the smile on his face and gently stroked my cheek with the palm of his hand, with a serious expression. “You used to be so afraid of me, and I hope you can laugh and play with me like this.”. I am your husband, and I will protect you in this palace.

I didn’t expect that he would say such a thing. My eyes warmed, and I buried them in his arms. “Your Majesty,” I said with a smile, “don’t mind if your concubines don’t know the rules.” He did not speak and hugged me tighter. In the middle of the night

, when I was in love, he leaned over my neck and whispered, “Do you know what I like most about you?”

I shook my head, and he said, “I like you most for your innocence and kindness.”

“When I saw you save Dou’er in the Imperial Garden, I thought I must protect you.”

At that time, I served him to the court and waited for the bowl of soup as usual. A moment later, the palace official brought in a bowl of white fungus and lotus seed soup and respectfully saluted me, saying, “Congratulations to the empress.” Holding the bowl of lotus seed soup,

I sat for a moment and finally laughed.

The emperor said last night that he happened to see me when I saved beans in Imperial Garden. Few people in the palace would care about the life of a dog. He cherished my kindness and had a night of grace later. So, I would like to thank the beans, if not happened to save it that day, now I do not know what kind of situation. Fate is really wonderful. On the

twentieth day of the fifth month, the Lily of the valley in the palace blossomed. The emperor ordered people to send several pots. I was very happy. Because the Lily of the valley was afraid of the heat, I moved them to the house and watered them from time to time.

An Pin has been here again. I don’t want to have anything to do with her anymore, but I can’t throw her out and treat her politely. She looked regretful and said that she shouldn’t have been wrong about me at the beginning.

I didn’t want to be entangled with her. I just said that everything was just a misunderstanding and told her not to take it to heart.

She gossiped for a long time before she left. I have always been meek and humble, and she is not the only one in the world who knows how to play. Now that I have been promoted to a concubine, I am still a head shorter than her, and it is not appropriate to tear my face.

The emperor has not gone to her place for a long time, I am lucky to have the favor of the emperor, she probably panicked, and then came to me to test. My intention is to stand firm in this palace and live well, not to play tricks with them. I am too lazy to pursue what happened in the past, and I will not be provoked in the future. But if someone wants to mess with me, I won’t be as easy as I used to be.

The weather is getting hotter and hotter, I ordered people to get some well water to soak fruit to eat, but also a bit of relief from the heat. Sometimes when the emperor comes over and meets me to eat fruit, he can also get a few to taste.

I was greedy for cold, and it was not enough to eat ice fruit, so I found a gourd, filled it with cold well water, and held it in my arms all day long, even when I slept at night. Come and go, it turned out to be a minor illness. So I was scolded by the emperor and ordered me not to sleep with water hyacinth at night.

I seldom went out of Xianfu Palace on weekdays. That day, on a whim, I took Douer to the pavilion on Lianqing Lake to enjoy the cool. Before I ate two mouthfuls of fruit, I met Xi Pin again. I really didn’t want to face her, so I got up and wanted to go, but before I could take a step, I saw her walking straight towards the pavilion, and I was angry and amused.

Now the concubine is pregnant with a dragon seed, and the mother is more arrogant because of her son. I couldn’t avoid it, so I had to bow down. When Dou saw her, she whined twice and hid behind me.

“My concubine is in high spirits. This pavilion is very comfortable. Oh, this fruit looks very lovely.” She picked up the fruit on the plate, played with it twice, threw it on the table, and wiped her hands with a veil.

I straightened up and just wanted to get away quickly. “Since the empress likes this pavilion, the concubines won’t disturb the empress’s pleasure.”. My concubine asked to leave. He made a gesture to go, but she stopped him.

“Did I tell you to get up?” Her tone suddenly changed, and she did not hide her displeasure. I had to bend down again and ask her for forgiveness.

Her fingernails, which were dyed red, knocked on the table and said humiliating words to me, “Even if you are promoted to a concubine, you are just a poor man in front of this palace.”. Remember who you are, and never dream of being on an equal footing with this palace!

I kept my head down and did not speak. She stood up again, walked towards me step by step, stood still in front of me, and stepped on the bean. The bean was frightened, bit her skirt and pulled off a piece of broken step. I quickly picked up the beans and comforted them for fear that they would hurt the concubines. The concubine

suddenly gave a cry of surprise, and her body went limp. Fortunately, with the help of someone from the palace, she did not fall down. With a look of shock on her face, she stroked her stomach and looked at me trembling. “Why is my sister like this?” She asked. When I heard

her say this, I suddenly felt something was wrong. I turned around and saw the emperor coming over with a heavy face. “What happened?” As soon as the concu

bine saw the emperor, tears welled up in her eyes. “I beg the emperor to make decisions for the concubines!”

One of the ladies of the court knelt down and saluted the emperor. “The concubine Yi didn’t know the rules and offended the concubine Xi. The concubine Xi only said a few words about her, and she let the dog hurt people. Fortunately, the concubine reacted quickly, and only a piece of her clothes was bitten off.”. The concubine was already weak, and she was really frightened just now. Ask the emperor to make decisions for the empress! When

the emperor saw the rags on the ground, his face sank again. I was afraid that the emperor would blame Dou’er, so I quickly explained, “No, it was clear that the concubine had hurt Dou’er first, and Dou’er was frightened. That’s why..”

“Enough!” The emperor interrupted me in a harsh voice, and for the first time he was angry with me. “Is it because I have been too indulgent with you that you are so presumptuous?”

I stood there in amazement, looking at his deep face, like a lump in his throat, unable to say a word. He refused to listen to me even for an explanation, and he was angry and aggrieved. The hand in the sleeve clenched tightly, trying not to cry.

“Go back and think about it for ten days, during which you can’t go out of the Xianfu Palace.” He turned his head away from me.

“Yes.” I made a salute and turned away with the beans in my arms. I saw the contemptuous eyes of the concubine and clenched my fists.

I felt so ridiculous that I thought he had some affection for me and believed the lie that he would protect me. Now he really has something to do, but he won’t even give me justice. Today I really understand that the emperor is the most affectionate, but also the most fickle. As a matter of fact, it doesn’t matter

to me. It’s not a punishment. I like to stay in the yard on weekdays, and I seldom go out of the gate of Xianfu Palace.

In recent days, I have figured out that if the emperor really wants to punish me, he will not let me feel so good. But the heart is still resentful grievance, and nowhere to vent, simply shut himself in the room, ignoring others.

Last month, I picked some green plums to make wine, buried several jars in the open space beside the flower bed, counted the days, and now I can drink. He excitedly sent someone to dig out two jars.

When the wine jar was opened, a rich fragrance of wine came out, which was very attractive. I immediately hold the jar to drink wine, her afraid I drink too much hurt, advised me to pour half a cup to taste fresh. I was depressed in my heart, but I was not willing to listen. I sent them all away and sat on a stone bench to drink wine.

Originally, I wanted to drink to drown my sorrows, but the more I drank, the more worried I was. I was in a daze and not very sober. Think of me muddleheaded into the palace, powerless, want to live a peaceful life can not, but also bullied, cheated by men, so miserable, can not help but sigh.

“What are you sighing for?” The familiar voice sounded, with some helplessness. I burst into

tears. I didn’t want him to see me. I wiped my hand a few times and refused to turn around and look at him.

I heard his footsteps coming closer and closer, especially in the silence of the night. He walked up to me and held my face up. “Why are you crying?” He frowned again and leaned down close to me. “And he drank so much wine!” I thought he was so annoying that it was not enough for me to think about it, and now he came to scold me. He broke away from his hand and moved back twice to distance himself from him.

“Why is the emperor here? Has he come to see how the concubines are doing?”

He looked at me, frowning. “Are you still blaming me?”

I snorted, “The emperor is the honor of 95, concubines dare not blame the emperor.”. But now the concubine is still thinking about her mistakes behind closed doors. The emperor had better go back as soon as possible. If the concubine accidentally let the dog hurt the emperor, it would be a great sin.

He sighed, my body suddenly in the air, unexpectedly he was sitting on the lap, I was startled, reached out to push him, he hugged me tightly, I could not push away, anxious and angry, the grievance in my heart was even worse, I could not help crying.

He panicked, patted me on the back, wiped my tears, and kept comforting me, “Don’t cry, I won’t punish you, don’t cry..”

I cried a lot, and the sulk in my chest cleared up a lot. Under his comfort, I sobbed and choked slowly to stop my tears.

He wiped away the tears from my face and said softly, “I know you are wronged, but I am pregnant now. If you refuse to say that you have collided with the fetus, how can I protect you?”? With so many people around, opening your mouth means you’ve made a mistake. If I treat you with favoritism, your future will be really not peaceful.

I knew that he had to, but also moved by his care for me, my heart rose a touch of guilt, he thought of me everywhere, and specially came to comfort me, I just choked him like that. He opened his mouth, did not know what to say, and rubbed twice in his arms.

He laughed out loud and raised my face to meet his eyes. “Is it because I’ve been with Douer for a long time that I’ve learned from the dog to please me?” I knew he was teasing me, so I raised my arms around his neck and put my forehead against his rubbing. “My concubine will be more careful in the future, so as not to let the emperor worry.”. But in the future, the emperor should not be cruel to his concubines, because they will be sad.

His deep eyes shone, and he kissed my lips and murmured, “Well, I won’t scold you.” I woke up at noon

the next day, but I didn’t even know that he had got up to go to court. My head was a little dazed, but I remembered what happened last night very clearly.

Last night, I sat on his lap and cried. Today, I’m really ashamed to think about it. Tut, drinking makes things worse, drinking makes things worse. I had a hangover

last night, and I can’t lift my spirits all day today. The emperor forbade me to drink more in the future. It’s also my fault that my drinking capacity is too shallow, and I can get drunk by drinking fruit wine. But the emperor is not entirely innocent, if it were not for him, I would not have drowned my sorrows in wine and drank so much.

The emperor was very aggrieved about this, saying that I was black and white upside down, but he was not annoyed. He only looked at me with a smile, and his eyes were full of tenderness. I think he has feelings for me.

Come to think of it, the more sure I am of my guess, if not so, he would not be so indulgent of my insolence. Before I knew it, I was used to being petulant and teasing him, which I would never have dared to imagine in the past. It is rare for an ordinary couple to be able to do so, let alone in this imperial family.

I couldn’t help laughing. “The emperor is so kind to his concubines. Aren’t you afraid of spoiling them?”

“I only wish that you will always be so simple and kind, and willing to be spoiled.”

My smile is more and more, but my heart can not help but sad up, from the day I decided to fight for favor, it is no longer simple. I failed him, and there was a trace of guilt in my heart. At the end of

June, Xi Pin had a miscarriage.

I heard that the concubine met Zhao Meiren when they were enjoying the flowers in Imperial Garden that day. They had an argument somehow. Zhao Meiren pushed the concubine. The stomach of the concubine hit the stone, and the child was gone.

The emperor was so angry that he demoted Zhao Meiren to a commoner and put her in the cold. When the woman was dragged away by the palace officials, she burst into tears. “It’s clear that she bullied me first. It was her!”.

I can probably guess the cause and effect, and I don’t feel sorry for the concubine. As the saying goes, karma. She has brought it on herself today. He just pitied the child and went before he could see the world. Zhao Shi,

who was relegated to the cold palace, soon hung a foot of white silk and killed himself.

I was sad for a long time, not knowing whether it was for the unborn child or for the unknown Zhao family. This harem is really terrible.

Heard that the concubine cried and made a scene, and because of the miscarriage hurt the root, depression into illness, the body is not as good as before. The emperor was grateful for the pain of losing her son, and went to Palace of Eternal Harmony to accompany her after several days. The imperial concubines in the

palace took this matter as a talk after dinner, which was lively for a while, but after a few days it gradually faded away, after all, this kind of thing is not new.

The days were very leisurely, and I found some books to pass the time, full of love affairs of gifted scholars and beautiful women. There is a place to write lovers get married, red makeup ten miles spread all over the sky, my heart can not help but slightly envy, this life, is no chance to wear a wedding dress.

July 7, Qiqiao Festival.

I picked a few Chinese roses to dry and embroidered a sachet for the emperor. He did not send a message, also the future.

On July 15, news came from home that my mother had passed away.

The emperor graciously allowed me to leave the palace for mourning. He simply tidied up and rushed out of the palace before the next key. I can’t remember how I got home, but I remember that my mind was blank, kneeling in front of Ah Niang’s spirit, tears falling like broken beads.

Niang contracted an illness at the beginning of the year and has been lying in bed, never getting better. Every day by a mouthful of soup medicine hanging life, now in the end is not able to hold up. My father said that my mother was afraid of my worries and refused to let me know about her illness. I just received a letter from her a few days ago, saying that everything was fine at home and that I should take care of myself. Unexpectedly, now it is the eternal separation of heaven and man, tears can not stop falling. After staying at

home for seven days, he hurried back to the palace. Now that I was in the palace, I couldn’t observe filial piety for Ah Niang, so I kowtowed three times in front of her spirit tablet, which was all my heart. After I

returned to the palace, I had a serious illness. It took me more than half a month to recover, and I lost a lot. The emperor was worried about my body and often accompanied me to relax. Sometimes when I woke up crying in the middle of the night, he would hold me and put me back to sleep. Gradually, I got much better. Although I often thought of Ah Niang, I didn’t cry every day as I did at the beginning. I was still sad. In

the Mid-Autumn Festival in August, I ate two mouthfuls of moon cakes, thinking of the day of family reunion, but my father was alone, and my heart was sour and hard to resist, and I cried again. After

autumn, my appetite is not good, and I become very sleepy. The emperor worried about my body, announced the imperial doctor, but is the diagnosis of happy pulse.

I stared at my stomach, and a strange feeling came over me. I stared at the doctor lying on the ground and asked him if it was true, even his voice was trembling. I burst into tears as he reassured me.

The emperor hugged me carefully, and I felt his body tremble slightly. As soon as I looked up, I saw his eyes full of joy. I cried and laughed, “Your Majesty, we have a child!”

Three days later, I was conferred the title of imperial concubine and promoted to the throne of Xianfu Palace. When I

moved, I couldn’t bear to part with the Chinese roses in the courtyard, so the emperor granted me permission to keep the original courtyard, and I used it as a separate courtyard to take care of the flowers.

Since the conferment of the title, there have been many more guests in my palace. The threshold of the palace, which used to be deserted, has now been broken, and gifts have been sent to fill the room. I was tired of social intercourse, and my face was stiff with laughter. Later, in the name of raising the fetus, I closed the door and thanked the guests. I got a moment of quiet.

An Pin came a few more times, with an ingratiating smile all over her face. At the beginning, she and Xi Pin jointly framed and humiliated me, but now I am the concubine and they are the concubines, which is really ironic.

My morning sickness reaction is not very serious, only occasionally retching, but my appetite is much better, all day long being served by good food and drink, and my face has become mellow. Also do not know how, temper more delicate, occasionally want to eat sweet sesame Glutinous Rice Balls for Lantern Festival, the emperor does not allow me to eat more, afraid of belly swelling, my heart suddenly feel wronged and sad, burst into tears, the emperor had no choice but to follow me.

One day, however, I met Xi Pin. She seemed to be a different person and lost her old look. When she saw me from a distance, she avoided me, which reminded me of myself in the past. Her asked me why I let her go so easily when I was in a high position now that I used to bully me. I told her that now that the concubine had been punished, why should I add insult to injury. Moreover, now that I am pregnant, I also hope to accumulate some blessings for my child, so that my child will be healthy and live a long life.

The weather is getting colder and colder, and my belly is getting bigger and bigger, feeling the little life growing up day by day. Occasionally, when there was fetal movement, I excitedly took the emperor’s hand and stroked my stomach, so that he could feel the subtle movement. Often at this time, I feel that happiness is boundless. On the first snowy day

this winter, it was extremely cold. I have an old illness, and my knees are painful. Because she was pregnant, she dared not take medicine and applied hot water all night before falling asleep. The

body was much heavier, and it was not very convenient for me to move, so I only occasionally walked in my palace. In his spare time, he arranged the children’s clothes and excitedly chose the cloth pattern, but worried about the style. The child in the abdomen did not know whether it was a boy or a girl, so he simply made two of each pattern. As

winter turns to spring, new green buds appear on the branches of Chinese roses.

On April 18, the first Chinese rose was in full bloom, and I gave birth to a daughter, named Ruian, which means auspicious and peaceful.

The little man had not yet opened his eyes, and he lay in my arms and slept soundly. I kissed her forehead gently, and my heart was full of peace and contentment. I looked at her lovely little face and secretly swore that even if I risked my life, I would protect my daughter for a lifetime.

Ryan was a lively child who often looked around with round eyes before he could speak.

I loved to tease her. I shook a small rattle in front of her eyes. She smiled and reached out to grab it. I dodged her hand. Her mouth suddenly shriveled. Tears were about to fall. I quickly gave her the rattle. Then she laughed again.

The emperor said that I was a child to take care of children, even his own daughter to bully, beans are more sensible than me.

Dou’er is very interesting. When I was pregnant, she would follow me for a moment. When strangers approached, she would be very alert and even make a low roar, which frightened the concubines who came to visit her several times. Later, when Ryan was born, Douer lay in front of Ryan’s cradle all day long.

Ryan grew up day by day, slowly began to babble and toddle, and in the blink of an eye, it was another year.

On June 20, Xiu Nu entered the palace. There are many fresh faces in the

palace, such as the budding flowers, which are young and beautiful. Occasionally, when I met them in Imperial Garden, they bowed to me and were submissive, which reminded me of myself when I first entered the palace. There are also bold people who look up at me secretly, and I laugh it off. Everyone in

this harem wants to stand out, and there is nothing wrong with playing tricks, but not everyone can come to a good end. Li Xuanshi, a newcomer

in Shunfei Palace, seduced the emperor by singing when the emperor went to Shunfei to see the four princes, but Shunfei found out before he saw the emperor. I heard that I had been kneeling all night, but somehow I lost my voice and could not speak any more.

I have no intention to pay attention to the disputes in the harem. With Ryan, my heart is tied to her, guarding the small world of Xianfu Palace, and all the disturbances outside have nothing to do with me.

Year after year, Ryan grew up to be five years old, a lively and active age. He plays with Douer every day and is very naughty. Sometimes when I get into trouble, my little hand pulls my sleeve, my big eyes blink, and my mother and concubine hold me in their arms and act like a spoiled child. I can’t bear to blame her. Her father also spoils her, lets her fool around, and is reluctant to say a harsh word. The Chinese roses in

my courtyard were blooming, and Ryan picked the most beautiful one, pinned it to my ear, and told me secretly, “There are more women in the palace than there are flowers here, but Ryan feels that his mother and concubine are the most beautiful.” Once

I accidentally fell down and scratched a piece of skin on my palm. When Ryan saw it, he was so anxious that tears came to his eyes. He held my hand and put it to his mouth to blow. As he blew, he said, “Mother doesn’t hurt. Ryan blows.” Every time Ryan bumps into something, I coax her like this. Now when I get hurt, she coaxes me in turn, which makes my eyes so hot that I almost cry. I don’t think this harem is scary

since I had Ryan.

Ryan. Ryan. My best Ryan.

One day when I had a nap, Ryan cried and said it was cold in my sleep. I woke up with a cold sweat. Just as she was

about to get up, she pushed the door and told me with a panicked face that Ryan was missing.

Before the nurse took Ryan back to the room to sleep, Ryan suddenly wanted to eat hibiscus cake, the nurse went to get her, back and forth less than half an hour, and then pushed the door open, Ryan is missing.

Now someone has been sent out to look for it, and the emperor has been informed. Feeling uneasy, I quickly got up and dressed to find Ryan. As soon as they reached the gate of the palace, a group of guards came back with Ryan.

I felt as if someone had poured a basin of cold water from head to foot, and my body could not stop trembling. Ryan’s drowning.

During the night, Ryan had a high fever, and I stayed all night.

On the second day, the fever subsided, and in the evening it began to burn again, and so on and so forth, but it never got better.

Three days later, on September 28, my Ryan was gone.

The Imperial Physician said that Ryan was too young to stand the torment.

The emperor held me in his arms and comforted me softly. I couldn’t seem to hear what he was saying. Holding Ryan’s small body in my arms, I said in a daze, “Ryan said she was cold. I covered her with a thick quilt, but her hands were still cold. It was so cold in the green pond. Ryan must be very scared..”

My tears fell down again. I raised my hand to wipe them, but I couldn’t wipe them off. The more I wiped, the more I couldn’t help crying.

Ryan slept quietly, let me cry my heart out, did not raise his hand to wipe my tears, did not call my mother, did not open his eyes. My Ryan is really gone.

Ruian was buried in the imperial mausoleum and awarded the posthumous title of Princess of Fuyang. Sleeping restlessly

at night, having nightmares, waking up crying. In a trance, I saw Ryan waving to me and ran away in the blink of an eye. I hurried to catch up with him without even putting on my shoes and socks. I don’t know how long I ran, but when I saw that I was going to catch up with Ryan, I stretched out my hand, but it was nothing. I stared at my hand, and when I came to my senses, I found that I had come to the green pond. There was a small piece of light on the edge of the pond

not far away, and a figure turned its back to me, not knowing what it was doing. I subconsciously lifted my feet and walked towards the light. When they got closer, they found a maid burning paper money. She murmured, “Princess, go all the way. Don’t come to me. The maidservant didn’t mean to let me die. If you have a complaint, go to find the concubine. Don’t look for me, don’t look for me..” With a buzz in my

head, I reached out and grabbed the maid’s shoulder. “What did you say?” With a sudden cry of surprise,

the maid turned and saw that it was me. She plopped down on her knees and kept kowtowing. “Please spare me, please spare me!”

“What did you say about the concubines?” I stared at her and couldn’t stop trembling.

The maid burst into tears and stammered, “Concubine Xi..” She..

“Say!”

She was so frightened that she trembled and kowtowed a few more times. “That day the maidservant happened to pass by the Green Pond and saw with her own eyes that the Concubine Xi had pushed the Princess of Fuyang into the water.” The maidservant didn’t do it on purpose. The maidservant is afraid. The empress will spare her life. The empress will spare her life.

“Are you telling the truth?”

“What the maidservant said is true. I dare not deceive the empress!”

My heart is like falling into an ice cellar, and the bone-chilling cold erodes me, but it turns out to be a concubine! She used to bully me everywhere, but now I am in a high position, and I have never touched her, but she has harmed my flesh and blood! I just want to spend the rest of my life in peace. I have never done anything bad. Why does God treat me here? Ryan is so young, what did she do wrong! What a heavenly way! God is blind!

Did Ryan bring me here to let me know the truth? Ryan, she’s not reconciled, is she? Ryan wants his mother to avenge her, doesn’t he? Ryan. My Ryan..

“Don’t say a word about what happened today.”

“The maidservant obeys.”

I do not know how to walk back to the Xianfu Palace, the yard is in a mess, her found me missing, was about to send someone to find me. Seeing me come back, he breathed a sigh of relief. Then, with a frightened look on his face, he stepped forward and supported me. “Empress!”

I opened my mouth, and a sweet smell came out of my throat, and a mouthful of blood spurted out. The eyes suddenly a black, no consciousness.

I had a cold and an illness.

The emperor came to see me and asked me why I ran out in the middle of the night. I only said that I dreamed of Ryan. He hugged me and comforted me softly for a long time. I leaned in his arms, and my heart was cold.

“Is the emperor willing to protect his ministers and concubines for the rest of his life?”

“I will always protect you from any grievance.”

That’s good.

Ryan’s life, I want to get it back from Xi Pin myself.

One day, the concubines gathered Palace of Earthly Tranquility to greet the empress. After a few words of

gossip, the empress turned to look at me. “Concubine Yi caught a cold a few days ago. Is she better now?”? Are you still sick?

I smiled and said, “Please remember, I’m much better.” After taking a sip of tea, he seems to have no intention of saying, “I heard that the golden chrysanthemums on the Imperial Garden are blooming, and they’re very beautiful!”

The queen nodded. “The brocade flowers and embroidered grass are indeed beautiful.”. If Yifei likes it, she can go and enjoy the flowers to relieve her boredom.

I chuckled and shook my head. “What’s the point of enjoying the flowers alone?” Remembering something, he added, “Why don’t you pick a day for all the sisters to get together and enjoy the flowers and have a chat? That would be a special flavor!” With a smile on her face,

the empress asked the concubines below, “I think this palace is good, but what do you think of the younger sisters?”

“But it’s up to the empress to decide.” On the eighth day of the

tenth month, the empress invited the imperial concubines to enjoy chrysanthemums in the imperial garden.

A group of people walked along the palace road, talking and laughing, very lively.

I used an excuse to stop Xi Pin and deliberately fell behind the team.

“What is the meaning of this, Empress Yi Fei?” Xi Pin frowned and stared at me warily, with a little reluctance in her eyes. With

a smile at the corners of my mouth, I fiddled with the white jade bracelet on my wrist. “It’s not a big deal. It’s just a feeling of the impermanence of time.”. Once upon a time, the palace was just a small talent, but thanks to the holy favor, step by step to today. But you’ve been a concubine for so many years, and you really haven’t made any progress.

“Don’t be complacent!” Concubine Xi was really annoyed by me. She stared and gnashed her teeth, saying, “You’re only in power once now. When I take back the holy favor in the future, you’ll regret what you did today!”

“That depends on whether you have the chance.”

I reached out and grabbed one of her hands. She broke away subconsciously. I suddenly screamed and fell to the ground. My palm was scratched with a blood stain by the gravel. The concubines who were

walking in front of us turned around when they heard the noise and saw me fall to the ground. They were taken aback and gathered around for a moment.

“What happened?” The empress frowned and motioned to the maid to help me up. When

she saw the crowd gathering around her, she waved her hands. “It’s none of my concubine’s business. She fell down herself!”

Her eagerness to get out of the relationship is more likely to arouse suspicion. Sure enough, as soon as the words came out, several people looked at her inquiringly.

I looked at her in disbelief. “I don’t blame you for your mistake, but why did you say that?” Holding me,

she looked at the concubine angrily and spoke passionately, “Why does the concubine embarrass my concubine so much?”! In the past, you relied on your high position to bully my empress everywhere. The empress was kind and did not care about anything. But now you are rude to the empress, the empress just said a few words to you, you pushed her to the ground, what is the intention! Concubine Yi is kind, but she can’t be bullied! Her tears welled up as she

spoke, and she stepped forward and knelt down in front of the empress. “Please ask the empress to make decisions for her!” There are a lot of people

here who have been angry with the concubines. As soon as her words came out, all of them echoed, adding insult to injury.

Xi Pin’s face changed and she panicked. “No..” No..

The queen’s face darkened and she said coldly, That’s enough! The concubines were perverse and domineering, and their subordinates offended their superiors. They closed their doors and thought about it for half a month. They copied a hundred volumes of the Female Precepts, and they were not allowed to use their hands on others!

No! Empress, please listen to the concubine’s explanation! The concubines were wronged. Wrongful.. Xi Pin knelt on the ground to explain, but was taken away by the two Mammy beside the queen, and the voice gradually disappeared.

I was wounded in the palm of my hand, so I retired first, and the others dispersed. After such a thing, no one wants to enjoy the flowers again. On the way

back to the palace, I changed my expression and sneered.

Xi Pin, how does it feel to be wronged? Grievance? Don’t worry, this is just the beginning.

The simplest method is often the most effective and hits the target. Give him a taste of his own medicine. I can’t swallow it. Tut, I really can’t wait. With a little effort,

Cui walked alone on the palace road, carrying a big bamboo basket full of melons and fruits. I don’t know what I caught, but I stumbled, and a lot of melons and fruits in the basket were scattered and broken.

“Tut!” Cui’er frowned and crouched down to pick up the fruit, complaining a little. “Hum, all the good jobs have been done by her, but I have to do this thankless work..” A pair of exquisite palace boots appeared in

front of her eyes. Cui’er raised her head, lowered her head and knelt on the ground to salute. Her voice trembled a little. “Empress Xi..” With a

very gentle smile, she lifted her up and looked at the melons and fruits on the ground, pretending to be surprised. “Ah, Miss Cui’er is a big palace maid beside Empress Yifei. How can she do such a rough job?”

Cui’er’s face turned a little pale and she said with a wry smile, “The maidservant is stupid. She’s not as clever as Sister Yu’er. She can only do some small things to share the worries of Empress Yi Fei.”

Xi Pin, however, frowned. “That’s not true!”! Miss Tsui’er is very clever. How can she be so stupid? Then he laughed again, “I shouldn’t have said that. I wish I could have a girl like Cui around me who is so capable..” There was a flash of joy on

Cui’s face, and then she looked at him again and said tentatively, “What does the empress mean?”

Xi Pin’s smile deepened, and she took Cui Er’s hand with a look of regret. “Empress Yi Fei can’t see the goodness of Cui Er, but she wronged you in vain. This palace has always cherished talented people. If you can do something for this palace..”

Cui’er’s face changed greatly. She knelt down and bent very low. “The maidservant is frightened!” “If you don’t want to, I won’t force you,” said the concubine carelessly,

stretching out her hand to trim the hairpin in her hair. It’s just that Miss Cui doesn’t want to do chores all her life and never come to the fore.

Cui’er held her hands tightly as if she had made up her mind. She raised her head and looked at the concubine with bright eyes. “But it’s up to the empress!” With a hook on her

lips, she bent over and whispered to Cui, like a little dust, disappearing in the wind in an instant, without any trace.

I sat on a pear wood chair with a pot of Chinese rose in front of me and a pair of scissors in my right hand to prune the branches and leaves of the flowers. Cui stood beside me, with a basket of melons and fruits at her feet, some of which were stained with dust and spoiled.

I took a sip of green tea, which was full of fragrance.

“Click!” With a very light sound, the obliquely inserted branches were cut off by the roots and fell to the ground, startling up a few specks of dust.

What Xi Pin wanted Cui Er to do was not a big deal, but to watch me for her. I just raise flowers and amuse dogs every day, only once I had an argument with Shun Fei and quarreled a few words.

Xi Pin was generous and gave Cui Er a lot of rewards. In order to show her loyalty, Cui Er added fuel to the dispute between me and Shun Fei. By the way, she revealed that I lost my temper after I returned to the palace. On the fifth day of the

eleventh month, on the birthday of the empress, a grand banquet was held in the palace.

According to the rank, Shun Fei sat on my left side, and Xi Pin sat on my right side, which was very coincidental, and naturally there was a battle of words. Halfway through the

banquet, I raised my hand and put my teacup on the table in front of the concubine and asked her to pour tea for me. Her face was full of disapproval, but with so many pairs of eyes looking at her, she naturally dared not refuse. She obediently poured tea for me and offered it to me again. I smiled, bowed my head and took a sip, exclaiming, “Good tea.” Out of the corner of

her eye, she caught a glimpse of Cui’s figure slightly approaching Shun Fei, smiling more and more deeply.

Shun Fei is enjoying the graceful posture of the dancing girl, and the Gong E behind her is also staring at the gorgeous performance. It was not until Shun Fei coughed lightly that Gong E came to her senses and quickly served her tea. Shun Fei moistened her throat and sank into the performance again.

Xi Pin’s eyes were full of complacency, and she stared at Shun Fei closely. Moments later, a little anxiety appeared on her face and a thin sweat broke out on her forehead.

“Ah!” I suddenly covered my heart, threw myself on the table with pain on my face, and knocked over the cup. Xi Pin’s eyes lit up, and then her face was full of amazement. “How could..?” All the people in the

hall looked at me, and her and Cui were hurriedly holding me. The emperor, frowning, came quickly from the upper seat and held me in his arms. “How are you, Ching Yu?” Sweating profusely,

I grabbed his sleeve. It’s so hard!

The emperor roared loudly for the imperial physician. Chen Taiyi, who was guarding the palace, hurried over to feel my pulse. His face gradually deepened, and he suddenly knelt on the ground. “Your Majesty, Empress Yifei, this is..” Poisoned! Suddenly there was a sound of breathing in the

hall.

“Treat me!” The Imperial Physician

Chen wiped away his sweat and added, “Fortunately, the poison was not so deep. The Empress first took a pill to stop the poison.”. When we find out what the poison is, the old minister will dispense the medicine for the empress. With a wave of his

big hand, several imperial doctors came forward to check all the food and drinks one by one, but only found poison in the residual tea in my cup.

“Who is so bold as to murder my concubine?” The emperor’s angry voice rang out, and the hall shook three times.

“Your Majesty, the maidservant has something important to report!” Cui suddenly knelt down and bowed to the emperor.

“Speak!”

Cui’er was still lying on the ground. “Just now, after the concubine Xi poured tea for the concubine Yi, the concubine Yi was poisoned. The maidservant dared to ask the emperor to search the concubine Xi!”

“Bitch!” Xi Pin suddenly stood up and pointed at Cui Er. “I have no quarrel with you. Why do you slander me?”

Cui’er is neither humble nor arrogant. “Just now many people have seen Empress Xi pouring tea for Empress Yi. This is no small matter. The maidservant is also for the sake of Empress Xi’s innocence. If Empress Xi is really innocent, the maidservant is willing to be punished.” Then he kowtowed again.

The concubine wanted to say something else. As soon as the emperor waved his hand, two nuns came forward and grabbed the concubine. They searched her body and found a bag of powder in her waist seal. Concu

bine Xi’s face changed and she knelt down. “Your Majesty, I have been wronged!”! This is not a concubine’s.

An imperial physician took the powder and examined it carefully. It was indeed the same as the poison I had been poisoned.

“With all the human and physical evidence, what else can you say?” The emperor’s face was so heavy that his anger would drown the concubines. The concubine turned

pale and shook her head. “No, not a concubine.” Someone framed the concubine, and the concubine was wronged. The emperor! Your Majesty, do you believe in concubines? The pain in

my chest was unbearable, and tears came to my eyes. Pointing at the words of the concubine, I wept blood, “You..” Why did you hurt me.. So far!

The end is unable to bear, a black eyes, fainted in the past. When I

woke up, the emperor sat beside me and reached out his hand to caress my cheek. His eyes were full of pity. “It’s my fault. I didn’t protect you and made you suffer.”

I shook my head and smiled at him. “It’s not the emperor’s fault. The emperor has done enough for his concubines.”

He kissed me lightly on the forehead. “Don’t worry, I will give you an explanation.”

I nodded gently, closed my eyes again, and fell asleep.

On the second day, the emperor decreed that Xi’s concubines should be abolished, demoted to the ranks of the common people, and relegated to the cold palace. When Concu

bine Shun came to see me, she chuckled. “Concubine Yi is very skillful, and she can be so cruel to herself.”. This palace is really.. Be ashamed of yourself.

I smiled. “I’m flattered, and my sister would like to thank her for all her help.” Concu

bine Xi once had a quarrel with Concubine Shun, which I know. I just did a little trick and asked Shun Fei to perform, and she couldn’t wait to take the bait. Little did I know that every step she took was carefully designed by me for her.

Tut, it’s really stupid. The

gloomy palace exudes a cold smell, cold and empty. The sound of footsteps in the empty hall is particularly clear, one by one, not anxious not slow, listen in the ear, like stepping on the heart.

Pushing open the old wooden door, a figure sat dejectedly in the corner, with rotten leftovers in front of him.

“I haven’t seen you for a day, concubine..” Oh, no, Chang is quite haggard. I took off the hood of my cloak and looked at the man in the corner with a light smile.

When she heard my voice, she jerked her head up and jumped at me, screaming, “Bitch!”! You have made me suffer!

Her and Cui stepped forward to protect me and pushed Zhang to the ground. Her face was gray, her hair was disheveled, and she was lying on the ground in a discomfited state, with no trace of her former high-spirited appearance.

I crouched down and clasped her chin, and she stared at me with hatred in her eyes. I didn’t shy away and looked at her. “That’s what you taught me.”. How do you feel now that I have returned all the tricks you used on me?

Bitch! You will die a terrible death! She glared at me viciously and gnashed her teeth.

“If I don’t die well, won’t you go down to the 18 layers of hell?” I laughed back angrily and tightened my hand around her chin. “I didn’t want to argue with you about the past, but what did Ryan do wrong?”

Her frowning brows opened when she heard Ryan, and she smiled happily, “Ha, so you know..” There was a little madness in her eyes. “My child is gone. Why should your child be alive?”? I also blame her for having a bad life and sending it to me. Do you know? After she fell into the water, she was still crying for her mother!

“Enough!” I slapped her to the ground, and my chest cramped. I covered my heart, closed my eyes and took a few deep breaths to suppress the tears that were about to come to my eyes.

I calmed down and looked down at Zhang on the ground. Half of her face was swollen, but she still held her head high and smirked.

I took a look at her and Cui and put on the hood again. Her came forward to catch Zhang, Cui son from the sleeve out of a bag of powder, gradually approaching. What

are you doing? You..

The moon was half hidden in the clouds, the clouds were dark, and there were no stars at all.

“Plop!” With a very abrupt sound, there were ripples on the surface of the pond.

I stopped on the shore and watched Zhang’s body sink slowly into the water. I just gave her some medicine so that she could not move or make a sound, but she was conscious. She could feel her body sinking to the bottom of the water, feel the passage of life, feel suffocation.. But she couldn’t move or even call for help. My Ryan has gone so pitifully, then I will let her taste the bottomless despair. Remember this feeling

well, if there is an afterlife. No, you don’t deserve an afterlife.

Chang’s death did not cause much of a stir, and when it was mentioned, everyone just said, “Oh, she committed suicide.”

“Ryan!” I woke up in the middle of the night again with tears on my face.

“Ching Yu,” the emperor was awakened by my noise. He sat up and hugged me. “Have you had a nightmare again?”

I covered my face and cried out, “I miss Ryan..”

He hugged me and lay down, patting my back very gently and comforting me. I gradually calmed down in his arms, but there was a burst of sadness in my heart. There are a lot of doubts about

Zhang’s poisoning. If I investigate it carefully, I can’t get rid of it. But in order to revenge, I do not hesitate to use a bitter plan, relying on his love for me to drag Zhang into the water, in the end, even he also used. I

don’t regret it. I just feel guilty. He did not know that the young talent he had taken good care of had learned to fight against each other again and again, and had changed beyond recognition.

This palace will really eat people, eat the naive and kind-hearted young talent, leaving behind the ruthless Yifei. In this palace, everywhere is involuntary.

“Your Majesty.”

“Hmm?”

“Nothing. Go to sleep.”

“Mmm.” After

the emperor left, she came in with a bowl. I reached out to pick it up. She stepped back, her face full of intolerance. “Empress, you..” Have you made up your mind?

I smiled, took the bowl and gulped it down. Her sighed and retreated gently.

I’ve already lost a child once, and I can’t bear it again. I can’t even have a little possibility. People’s hearts are dangerous and I can’t protect them. It is spring again

in a twinkling of an eye. Du Meiren, who entered the palace last year, exchanged love letters with a man outside the palace. She was knocked down by Concubine Shun and given a stick to kill her. Heard that the man was Du Meiren’s childhood sweetheart. I have seen

that Du Meiren, a gentle person, a pair of autumn eyes always seem to linger with a trace of melancholy, but it turned out to be a trick of fate, beating Mandarin ducks.

Shun Fei came to my palace to drink tea twice. She was very scheming. I didn’t want to get involved with her too much, so as not to cause trouble. But I made a move on Xi Pin, which made her a little afraid of me.

When Shun Fei followed the emperor into Xianfu Palace, I was not surprised, nor afraid, but relieved.

Shun imperial concubine in the palace of the big maid out of the palace to buy, accidentally met her in the medicine shop to fill the medicine, which will see my secret. A movement, spread to the emperor’s ears. The

emperor threw the bag of dregs that should have been buried in the earth in front of me. His eyes were fixed on me, and his face was gloomy. “What do you want to say to me?”

I knelt down and bowed. “I have nothing to say.” The

cup was broken and he left in a huff.

“Concubine Yi is muddle-headed and has made such a big mistake. What can she do in the future?” Shun imperial concubine chuckled, in a good mood, with a number of maidservants, leisurely away.

The emperor did not punish me, nor did he come to see me again. Everyone in the palace said that Yifei was going to fall down. It was chilly

in spring, and it rained a few times in April. I was weak and ill. With

a creak, someone pushed the door and entered, and the sound of footsteps approached. With the warm palm of wood sandalwood on my forehead, a moment and then back, deep eyes fixed on my face, I can imagine, that handsome eyebrow, is how locked.

I frowned uneasily and mumbled, “Ryan..” Come back. Your Majesty, Your Majesty..

I heard a faint sigh.

For a long time, he tucked me in the corner of the quilt and walked away gently. The wooden door was opened and closed, blocking the sandalwood. When

I opened my eyes, it was clear and bright. Shaking slightly, he raised his hand to wipe a clear tear from the corner of his eye.

While the sun was shining, I moved a chair and sat under the tree to embroider a veil. A pair of bright yellow dragon boots

suddenly appeared in front of my eyes. I was startled and made a gesture to bow down. He stopped my movements and looked at me with a pair of eyes without speaking.

I smiled. “The emperor hasn’t been here for a long time.”

“I think you should give me an explanation.” I

raised my head and looked straight into his eyes. “Ryan’s gone,” I said sadly. “My heart has been broken for hundreds of times. I can’t stand it again.”

“Are you so cruel that you will never have children again?” His face was tinged with pain.

I hung my head and shook my head. “I can’t protect you, so..” I don’t want it. Why don’t

you ever tell me? I will protect you and the child.

I shook my head, covered my face and cried bitterly. How do you protect? You can’t protect it, you never can.

He did not know that my heart was sad, so he held me in his arms, and his voice was so soft that it was like dripping water. “I’m sorry that you have been wronged.”. I won’t force you, I’ll wait for you to open your heart, wait for you to get better..

I cried so much in his arms that I knew I would never be well again.

Spring, summer, autumn and winter, turn three reincarnation, this year, I 26.

Queen a year ago after the disease body is not good, worse and worse, now rarely out of Palace of Earthly Tranquility, occasional event, just willing to show a face.

Now in this palace, I and Shun Fei are the most favored, each formed a faction, in recent years, fighting openly and secretly, a lot of quarrels.

Hui Fei invited me to tea, line to the corner of the palace wall, a touch of royal blue figure rushed over, hit me a stagger, her eyes and hands quickly hold me to stand firm.

“Who dares to run afoul of Concubine Yi?” Cui stepped forward and protected me behind her. The little people on the

ground covered their heads and hurriedly knelt down and bowed to me. “Fu Zhao was wrong. I beg Empress Yi Fei to forgive me.”

It’s the fourth prince. He is also nine years old this year, but when he was six years old, he had an illness. He had a high fever overnight, burned his brain, and became an idiot.

A maid came hurriedly. Seeing this, she knelt down and kowtowed, begging me to forgive her.

I reached out to help him up, he was born white and tender, a clever look, a pair of black eyes looked at me without blinking. I picked up his hands and saw that he was not hurt, but his robe was a little dirty.

“Be careful, four princes. Don’t hurt yourself.” “Get up and take care of the four princes,” I said, turning to the maidservant on the ground.

Lifting his feet to go, he saw the four princes staring straight at the food box she was carrying and murmuring, “It smells so good..” Under my signal,

she took out the osmanthus cake inside and presented it to the four princes.

“This is a new sweet-scented osmanthus cake. The four princes like it and take it to taste.”

He stretched out his little white hand and carefully picked up a piece of osmanthus cake. “Fu Zhao only wants one. Thank you, Empress Yi Fei.” His smile was innocent and lovely, and his eyes seemed to hide stars. I was stunned when I thought of Ryan. If Ryan were still here, he would be as old as him.

At night, I heard that Shun Fei lost her temper and punished the maidservants around the four princes. I think it’s for the day. The four princes were the only children of the imperial concubine Shun. Although they were an idiot, they were also the treasures she held on the tip of her heart, fearing that there would be something good or bad. Come to think of it, I gave him the sweet-scented osmanthus cake today is also somewhat inappropriate, Shun Fei and I are not in harmony, I do not have to fall into reality. Anyway

, there is no intersection with the four princes in the future. During

the Mid-Autumn Festival, the palace invited the opera troupe to set up a stage to sing, singing about the past and present life, sighing about the love between the two worlds.

Then the emperor asked me, “If there is an afterlife, what will you do?”

“If there is an afterlife, I would only marry an ordinary woman, with a house full of children and grandchildren.”

He did not speak for a long time, but finally sighed and held me in his arms.

Dou’er is almost twelve years old now. He is an old dog. The hair on his face has turned gray. He doesn’t like to move very much. He lies in the yard and basks in the sun all day long. I was worried that it would be boring, so I often took it to the Lotus Lake to see the fish. It was very happy. Every time it lay down by the lake for a long time, and occasionally ran two laps. The weather was fine that

day and the sun was very big. I took Douer to Lianhu Lake to relieve the heat. It lay on the edge of the lake, pulling its paws into the water and rippling in circles. A few butterflies circled around its head twice. It became interested and ran after the butterflies to the flowers not far away. I asked people to watch it and go to the lakeside pavilion to eat melons and fruits and enjoy the cool breeze.

The bean was probably tired, and soon it came to the pavilion again. When I got closer, I saw something in its mouth. Dou walked up to me, spat out the contents of his mouth gently at my feet, and wagged his tail as if claiming credit.

It’s a jade pendant. It’s ordinary, but it’s exquisite. The red rope on the jade pendant is dim in color and quite old, but the pendant is still bright in color and intact, so the owner must cherish it very much. Now left here, the owner must be very anxious. The word “Jin” was engraved on the

pendant. I don’t know if it was the name of the owner. I

was about to tell her to look for the owner when a cry of surprise interrupted me.

“Yifei!”

I turned around and saw that it was Shun Fei.

She lost her usual deportment and almost ran up to me. Pointing to the pendant in my hand, she said anxiously, “This pendant is mine. Can Concubine Yi give it back to me?”

I looked at her, but it didn’t look like a fake, so I handed it to her. She took it and held it tightly in the palm of her hand and breathed a sigh of relief. Then he thanked me and left in a hurry with a group of maidservants.

I don’t know what kind of treasure the pendant is, so Shun Fei values it so much. I don’t know what the word “Jin” means.

The four princes came to my palace again.

I looked at the timid little head behind the pillar, sighed helplessly, and called to him, “Four princes, come here.”

He jogged over from behind the pillar, and as he got closer, he slowed down and came over. He stood still in front of me and called out cleverly, “Concubine Yi!”

I pulled him to sit down and handed him the peeled apple. “Have you finished your homework?”

He nodded and laughed, feeling rather pleased with himself. “It’s all finished. Fu Zhao has learned a new poem today, and the master praised him for his cleverness!”

Afraid I wouldn’t believe it, he recited it very fluently. I laughed and praised him. “The four princes are really good at reciting.”

His dark eyes sparkled and he smiled shyly. Suddenly remembering something, he took out a small object from his sleeve and handed it to me. “Fu Zhao made up two crickets today, one for his mother and one for his wife.”

The cricket made of straw is a small one, and it is very cute. My heart warmed, and I carefully put it away. “Thank you, four princes. I like it very much.”

His smile was even brighter than sunshine.

Since the last encounter, the four princes have come to Xianfu Palace to look for me from time to time. At first I would send someone to take him back, but then I let him go. Every time he came secretly without telling Shun Fei, he ate some snacks, played with Douer for a while and then returned to the palace obediently.

Dou’er likes him very much. Every time he sees him, he sticks to him and wags his tail, which adds a lot of vitality to my Xianfu Palace. Slowly, I began to expect him to come. When

I first asked him why he had come here, he said that the sweet osmanthus cakes in my palace were delicious. Later, he told me secretly, “Concubine Yi is a good person. Fu Zhao likes Concubine Yi, but Concubine Yi doesn’t want Fu Zhao to come, so Fu Zhao comes secretly. Concubine Yi doesn’t know, so she doesn’t get angry.”

He said, “Only the mother and the concubine treated Fu Zhao the best. Others said Fu Zhao was stupid and didn’t play with him.”. But Fu Zhao is not stupid at all. Fu Zhao can recite many, many poems.

My heart is sour, and mixed with a trace of unspeakable comfort. God took away some of his things and gave him a heart that was not stained with dust. And such a pure heart is more precious than anything else.

“Well, Fu Zhao is not stupid. Fu Zhao is smarter than anyone else.”

He raised a bright smile, pure and beautiful.

The emperor has been very busy recently. Three months ago, the Huns raised troops to attack the border, causing a lot of riots, thanks to Zhenyuan general led the troops against, forced the Huns to retreat, finally had to surrender, bow down.

The Huns and our perennial war, after this battle, in a short period of time are unable to reoffend. Zhenyuan general made a great contribution, the emperor was overjoyed, an imperial edict ordered Zhenyuan general to move troops back to the court, to be rewarded.

To say this Zhenyuan general, is a strange man. I heard that he joined the army at the age of seventeen and grew up step by step from a small soldier to an imposing general. After guarding the frontier for more than ten years, he never returned to the court. Now back to the imperial city, but it is fresh.

The four princes have been diligent in recent days, and they are not afraid that the imperial concubine Shun will know. When I asked why, he said that Shun Fei did not know what she was busy with and had no time to take care of him.

At the end of autumn, the harem has a lot of affairs, and now the imperial concubine Shun is busy taking care of the six palaces on behalf of the empress. There was a light snow on the day

General Zhenyuan returned to the court, and the emperor held a banquet for him. The empresses and concubines did not have to attend the big banquet in the

evening, so I went to Huifei Palace to play a few games of chess. When he returned to the palace, he suddenly became interested and insisted on taking the path to enjoy the snowy scenery.

Walking to the rockery, I faintly heard a conversation. Don’t listen to me. I wanted to turn around and leave, but a sudden high voice made me stop.

“Do you have to be so cruel?” Is the voice of the imperial concubine, desolate and incomparable, as if with great pain. In the shade of

the woods, Shun Fei stood opposite a man. They all turned to me and could not see the man’s face clearly, but he was tall and burly, wearing the official clothes of a military general.

“Fourteen years and you still won’t forgive me?” Shun Fei’s voice trembled a little, and one hand gently pulled the man’s sleeve.

The man stepped back and shook off her hand. I dare not resent the empress.

Shun Fei was stunned for a moment and suddenly chuckled, “You still blame me.” I was wrong, I failed you. I am blinded by splendor and wealth, and blinded by my heart. The

man clasped his hands tightly and then loosened them. Without a trace of emotion, he said, “The past is the past. The empress might as well forget it.” Concu

bine Shun froze in the same place. She burst into tears and said in a daze, “Forget?”? Have you forgotten? How can you forget? Suddenly she came to her senses and realized that she had lost her temper. She hurriedly wiped away the tears from her eyes and burst into a smile. “Well, I’ll listen to you.” So, brother Jin, you go back. Don’t hide from me anymore, okay? You’ve been hiding from me for 14 years..

Brother Jin? I remember, when the Zhenyuan general is surnamed Zhao Jin, the jade pendant.

The two men were still opposed to each other.

Shun Fei seemed to be unable to help, raised his hand to Zhao Jin’s face, did not wait for him to react, the hand stopped in midair, and trembled back, a pair of hands tightly twisted together, and then slowly loosened. Still looking at him, his eyes were deep. “You’ve lost a lot of weight. How is the border town?”? I I miss you very much..

Without the heart to listen to the tender heart, I turned away.

Snow is still falling, there are small snowflakes falling in my warm palm, instantly into a little cold water, I shake hands, and spread out, there is no trace.

“Jade, go and ask Concubine Chuang to come and enjoy the view.” Rumors have been circulating in the palace

recently. I don’t know where the wind is blowing. It is said that the imperial concubine Shun and Zhao Jin, the general of Zhenyuan, are childhood sweethearts. However, as fate would have it, one enters the palace as a concubine and the other goes far away. Now the old friend meets again, the old love rises again, then at the foot of the son of heaven. Give and receive in private. The people in the

palace are good at telling stories, and everyone has a clever mouth to tell the story of their old love. They have a nose and eyes, and they can’t tell what is true and what is false.

Shun imperial concubine caught a few mouth broken punishment, but it is not effective, but also by the name of anger from embarrassment, was forced to hide in the palace to avoid the limelight.

Someone added fuel to the flames, rumors like the wind, eventually blown to the emperor’s ears.

When he came to my palace, his whole body was covered with a layer of gloom.

I made him a cup of tea and sat opposite him. “Is the emperor worried about the rumors in the palace recently?”

He took a sip of tea and gave a soft “hmm,” frowning.

“I have a humble opinion. I wonder if the emperor would like to hear it?”

He looked up at me. “Just say so.”

I smiled and said, “We don’t know whether this rumor is true or not.”. If this is allowed to develop, I’m afraid we’ll lose face for the royal family and ruin the reputation of Concubine Shun and General Zhenyuan. If we dispose of it at will, I’m afraid we won’t be able to convince the public, and I’m afraid the monarch and his subjects will be separated.

The emperor looked at me noncommittally and motioned me to continue.

I added, It is a great pity that General Zhenyuan, who has been guarding the frontier for more than ten years, has not yet got married. It would be better to take advantage of General Zhenyuan’s return to Beijing this time to choose a good match for him and talk about the Sacred Heart.

The emperor looked thoughtful. Without waiting for him to think about it, I added, “Your Majesty, why don’t you ask Concubine Shun to help you choose? Since she is an old acquaintance of General Zhenyuan, I think the woman she chose is more to the general’s liking.”. In this way, it can not only block the mouth, but also show the magnanimity of the emperor. Ten thousand steps back, if the empress and the general are really confused, they can also cut off their thoughts and give a warning. What does the emperor think?

His brows finally opened. He took my hand and said with a smile, “I don’t know when Qingyu was so good at stratagem.”

“Does the emperor think it’s good or bad?” The smile on his

face faded and he shook his head. “I don’t know.”. It’s just, “he looked at me, as if he were looking through me at another person, his face full of reverie.” I miss you who used to hide in my arms.. ”

I lowered my eyes, full of bitterness.

Three days later, the emperor issued an imperial edict to make a match for General Zhenyuan and Li Xiyue, the daughter of the Grand Maester.

Li Xiyue is excellent in both appearance and talent. She is gentle and lovely in her twenty-nine years. With such a match, it seems that Zhao Jin is too high. Shun Fei was really very attentive to him and found such a good girl for him.

The wedding date was chosen on the sixth day of the third month, a good day chosen by Qin Tianjian. On the day when the

snow was the heaviest, a distinguished guest came to my palace.

“I know you have something to do with this.” There was no expression on Shun Fei’s face, and her eyes were calm.

I took a sip of green tea and smiled back. “Is the imperial concubine coming to settle accounts with this palace?”.

She shook her head. “I don’t blame you.” I was a little surprised. She should hate me very much. There was something moving in

her eyes, as if she were recalling something. “I’ve known him since childhood, and we were supposed to be a match made in heaven.” When I was sixteen years old, I went to the palace for a talent show. When I stepped in with one foot, I didn’t want to go out. This palace is really a nice place to enjoy all the splendor and wealth, so I broke my head just to stay.

“The night before I entered the palace, he came to question me. I couldn’t speak. I watched him being dragged away by his father, and all I could think about was the way he tore his heart out and called my name.”

I regret it. This palace is a luxurious cage that will trap me for the rest of my life. The higher I climb, the more I think about him, like crazy. In my dreams, he cries out, tearing his heart out. After

fourteen years, he finally came back. But everything has changed, me and him, after all, impossible. I suddenly feel that splendor and wealth have no meaning for me. Do you think this is retribution?

Her eyes glistened with glittering tears. She closed her eyes and forced herself to suppress the bitterness. I am speechless.

She opened her eyes and laughed. “I know that Zhao often comes to see you, and he likes you very much.”

“The fourth prince is a good boy.” When I think of Fu Zhao, I feel a little guilty. Concu

bine Shun smiled and said, “In the future, I would like to ask Concubine Yi to take care of Zhao.” She

doesn’t have to tell me, and I won’t treat Fu Zhao harshly. When she

left, she said, “I don’t want to fight anymore.”

I just take her as a gesture.

Three days later, Shun Fei entered the Royal Qingyun Temple and took her hair to practice Buddhism. From then on, it was often accompanied by the ancient Buddha.

I didn’t expect that she would come to say goodbye to me that day.

She left me a letter, listing everything about Fu Zhao. At the end of

the article, she said, “It’s funny to say that there are so many people in the palace, but I only believe you.”. I entrust Fuzhao to you, and I ask you to treat him well from now on.

Take care.

“I don’t know. She’s been hiding someone else in her heart for more than ten years.”

He frowned and looked a little lonely. He is the real emperor, high above the king of a country, Shun Fei, is tantamount to a slap in the face of him. Now that Em

press Shun has finished with the mortal world, she has not let the emperor down. You don’t have to pursue it any more, and you have the right to take all these years of affection. How about that?

The emperor shook his head. “I don’t want to pursue it.” He looked down at me and said, “Qingyu, I can’t see through you any more..” I don’t think you would have interceded for her.

I am slightly dazed, the matter of Shun Fei, is my hand, this should not intercede for her. It’s just that the palace has trapped her for more than ten years, and it can’t ruin the rest of her life.

Besides, I can’t let Fu Zhao lose Ah Niang.

Without waiting for an answer, he added, “Ching Yu, you..” Do you have a sweetheart?

“What if there is?”

He twisted his eyebrows and held my hand a little tighter. “Even if there were, I would never let you go.”

I couldn’t help but laugh, and leaned into his arms. “It’s only when I meet the emperor that I first get to know what it’s like to be in love. How can I have another sweetheart?”

He laughed, and a warm kiss fell on my lips, stirring my heart.

Next April, Xiu Nu general election. Since the imperial concubine left the palace, I took care of the six palaces on behalf of the empress. It’s up to me to worry about the draft.

Those women are more than ten years old good years, green and beautiful, smile, let this palace give birth to a little more spring. Soon, those beautiful smiling faces will become hypocritical, cruel and lonely because of the infighting. There are only a few more canaries in this beautiful cage. It rained a few times in the

late spring, and the weather changed quickly. Fu Zhao was weak and sick several times. At the first sight, he started to burn again. It’s very worrying. After Concu

bine Shun left, I asked the emperor to raise Fu Zhao in the Xianfu Palace. At first, he cried every day to find his mother, then slowly stopped looking, only occasionally asked me where the mother had gone? When can I come back? I didn’t know how to answer, so I had to coax him. I can’t tell him that Shun Fei will never come back.

Now he was ill and had nightmares at night, always crying for his mother and concubine. I had no choice but to coax him to sleep every night, and he stopped crying.

The weather warms up and Fu Zhao’s illness is cured. He was afraid that he was bored these days, so I asked Cui to play with him everywhere to relax.

Fu Zhao went out happily, but when he came back, his eyes were red.

I was worried that something had happened to him, so I quickly asked him how he was. He burst into tears, tears like broken beads. “My mother didn’t want Fu Zhao!”! Mother and concubine. Mother, she will come back. Mother and concubine. Mother and concubine..

I coaxed him for a long time before he slowly stopped crying and sobbed and asked me, “When will my mother come back?”? Fu Zhao misses her.

I wiped his tears for him and said softly, “Fu Zhao’s mother has gone to accompany the Buddha. When the Buddha feels sincere, he will bless her and Fu Zhao forever.”. Does Fuzhao want the Buddha to bless you and your mother?

He nodded in bewilderment, and tears fell down again. “But what if Fu Zhao misses his mother?”

“Then Fu Zhao will be obedient. When his mother sees it, she will look for Fu Zhao in her dreams.”

He winked. “Really?”

I smiled and wiped his face. “Really?”

He finally laughed and wiped his face at random. “Fu Zhao is going to recite the poem now. When his mother and concubine come, Fu Zhao will recite it to her!”

He ran to the study with great interest, without seeing any sadness.

I smiled and looked at Cui. “What’s going on?”

……

Xiu Nu has been in the palace for a long time. It’s time for the palace to teach the rules.

Fu Zhao and Cui Er are flying kites in the green pond. They meet Xu Meiren, who is new to the palace. She accidentally tramples on the kite. When I heard about my relationship with Concubine Shun, I mistakenly thought that Fu Zhao was not favored in my palace. Relying on the emperor’s favor, he did not take Fu Zhao seriously, but also spoke evil words to slander him. Cui moved out of me, so that she could restrain herself.

Everything can not only rely on their own assumptions, the palace should be more careful. In the end, she hurt Fu Zhao’s heart, and I can’t see Fu Zhao being wronged, so naturally I won’t let her go easily. The woman kneeling on the

ground had red and swollen cheeks, blood overflowing from the corners of her mouth, a face of pear flowers with rain, and her eyes were full of fear.

I sat on a pear-wood chair, sipping a cup of clear tea and looking down at the kneeling man. As soon

as Hsu Mei-mei’s body shook, tears began to flow out again. “Empress, spare my life!”! Empress, spare my life! I know my sin. If I don’t dare to run afoul of the four princes again, the empress will forgive me.

“That’s very good.” I stood up and walked up to her. “I want you to remember that the four princes will always have my support.”. If you dare to do it again, I won’t spare you!

“Concubine, remember the teachings of the Empress.”

……

Three days later, Xu Meiren was demoted to a commoner and driven out of the palace.

Her asked to know, I teach her the second day she will pear flower with rain to the front of the emperor, add oil and vinegar to me. The emperor sent father-in-law Fu to investigate and knew the cause and effect. Xu Meiren not only collided with the prince, but also assumed the name of deceiving the emperor. The emperor was so angry that he simply drove her out.

This Xu Shi is also a stupid, steal chicken not to lose rice, put oneself in vain. Now be driven out of the palace, this life is ruined.

Pathetic.

“How is Fu Zhao these days?”

I poured him a cup of Longjing tea and said with a smile, “Zhao’er has learned some new poems recently, and she’s going to recite them to her father, the emperor, and the imperial concubines.”

The emperor looked up at me as he sipped his tea. “Is he still thinking about her?”

I smiled. “Blood is thicker than water. Shun Fei is Zhao Er’s birth mother. How can she not read it?”? It’s also a good thing that Zhao’er values love.

He was silent for a moment, his eyes twinkling, “I’ll give you..”

“My concubine is now very satisfied to have Chao by her side.” I know what he’s going to say. He’s been talking about the baby for years. The light in

his eyes dimmed. He looked at me, and there was some anger in his voice. “Four years. I’ve given you four years. Isn’t that enough?”? You still refuse to believe me!

I stared at him, unable to speak. The anger in

my heart rushed out of my mouth, and I couldn’t hold it any longer. He looked at me like that, without the tenderness of the past. “I think of you and protect you everywhere. Can’t you see it?”? Ryan is gone, I am not sad? I cherish you, give you time to heal, what you want, I will give you. Do you think I don’t know what you’ve done all these years? I’m just turning a blind eye! I felt

a shock in my heart, and the pain spread. I understand that he is certainly not ignorant, but I never thought that my private means, those scheming, those cheating, he actually. I know all about it! I knew he loved my innocence, and I never dared to think that when he knew how I would react to my scheming over the years, he would not say anything.

I think at least you are sincere to me. But now I feel that in your heart, there is no me. I am a human being, and I also feel pain.

He stopped looking at me and turned away. I reached for his hand. “No, I..”

He didn’t listen to my explanation. He shook off my hand and didn’t look back.

I stood in place for a long time, the night was cold, the wind blew in, cold to the bone.

Over the years, I stubbornly painted the ground as a prison, imprisoned myself, refused to go out, and refused to let him come in. I selfishly indulged in my own grief, never considered his feelings, and blamed him for not protecting me, Ryan..

I didn’t protect Ryan, I trapped myself, I hurt him.

I raised my hand and covered my face with tears. I went to see him many times

these days, but he didn’t see me. The ninth day of

the fifth month, my birthday, his future. I haven’t been able to see him for half a month

in a row, but I heard that he has recently become a new Zhaoyi, and I love him very much.

It’s just that I made a mistake, and I should give him some time to calm down. On the third day of

June, he finally came to my palace to ask for punishment.

During the day, while the sun is good, take Dou Er and Fu Zhao to the Imperial Garden to relax. Not for a long time, it is still a colorful, exotic flowers and grasses, fragrant, just looking at it makes people feel good.

Dou’er was so excited that he sniffed here, looked there, and ran happily. Fu Zhao took the ball to tease it and threw it far away. Dou ran to pick up the ball and had a lot of fun.

Fu Zhao and Dou’er were playing in front of me, and I walked slowly behind them. Occasionally, I saw one or two unique flowers, so I stopped to taste them, and I felt the long-lost peace in my heart. So much for the quietness of time.

Walking to the rockery, a group of people suddenly came around the corner, just in time to bump into the beans. The leading woman cried out and was so surprised that she took two steps back. Somehow, she sprained her foot and fell to the rockery, breaking her forehead. I

didn’t expect such a thing to happen. I was so frightened that I hurried forward to check. The woman had red eyes and the wound on her forehead was bleeding. I didn’t dare to delay any more. I invited a sedan chair to drive her back to the palace.

When the doctor dressed her wound, I made an apology before I left. On the way back to Xianfu Palace, she told me that that was Xu Zhaoyi, who had been very popular recently. I have mixed feelings for a moment.

Fu Zhao, knowing that he had made a mistake, pulled my sleeve and admitted his mistake to me with guilt on his face. It was an accident, not his fault. I comforted him for a long time before he smiled again.

The emperor really doted on the woman, and when he had just passed Xu, he came angrily to ask me for punishment.

It was an accident, but in the end I should also take a responsibility.

“It was my concubine’s negligence that hurt Hsu Chao-yi. I hope the emperor will forgive her.”

“Oh,” he sneered, looking down at me. “You know whether it’s intentional or not.”

“Does the emperor think I did it on purpose?”

“Haven’t you been doing that all these years?” He just looked at me coldly without any tenderness. The pain of cutting flesh with a

blunt knife spread from the bottom of my heart, and I could hardly help the bitterness in my eyes.

“I would never hurt an innocent person. If Hsu Chao-yi did not provoke me, I would not..”

“That’s all. I don’t want to hear it.” He interrupted me, as if recalling something, and asked me, “Do you remember when I said I liked you most for your innocence and kindness?” Stunned,

I nodded. “I remember.” A look of pain came into

his eyes. “But now I’m not going to recognize you.”

“I just want to live well. Did I do something wrong?” It’s not just him. I don’t even recognize myself.

“I said I could protect you!” How long did

the emperor think his concubines could live on his favor alone? If I don’t argue, does the emperor think you can still stand here today to ask my wife for punishment? Why does the emperor think Ryan is drowning? The emperor said he would protect us for a lifetime, but what happened? Xi Pin didn’t push Ryan down! Your Majesty might as well guess how I would die if I didn’t fight with my concubine. I laughed with tears on my face.

He stepped back and his face turned pale. “No, you’re not wrong. I’m wrong. I said I would protect you, but I broke my promise.” He shook his head, as if he had lost his strength, and turned slowly away.

I stood alone in the empty yard, facing the direction of his departure, crying my heart out.

People often say karma, and now I have finally answered it. This thief, God, really refuses to suffer losses.

My Chinese rose no longer sprouted this year, and the bare flower branches withered day by day. The gardener was at his wits’ end, so he closed the yard.

Fu Zhao asked me, “Mother, why don’t you try again?”? Maybe it will bloom again!

I rubbed the soft top of his hair and told him with a smile, “Everything in the world can’t be forced.” He nodded vaguely and leaned cleverly in my arms.

Dead things, how to bring back to life?

I never looked for him again.

He said it was true to protect me, but I was already strong enough to protect myself. A person’s life is too long, this road has gone too long, and he can never go back. He broke his word, I hurt him, and in the end, we didn’t owe each other.

From then on, my life is only a hundred feet of palace walls, no longer many lovers. In the first snow of

winter, I went out of the palace to attend the funeral. Dad walked peacefully and went west in a dream.

He always talks about Ah Niang, and now it’s time for a reunion. I’m not very sad. I just shed a few tears.

The emperor came once, and a few words of consolation were enough. I woke up at night and couldn’t sleep again. Fortunately, accompanied by Fu Zhao and Dou’er, the rest of his life is not sad.

He has never treated me unjustly. I am still the concubine who stands high above the masses. I will not be involved in the disputes in the palace any more. Enjoy flowers in spring, play in water in summer, pick fruits in autumn, look for plum in winter.. Without infighting, the days become clear.

Five years later, Shun Fei died of illness.

Fu Zhao didn’t mention her for a long time. I didn’t want him to be sad, so I hid it from him. He took a strand of his hair, hid it in a bag of tricks, and sent someone to Qingyun Temple to be buried with Concubine Shun.

Douer left the year before last, and I was left with only Fu Zhao. He grew up day by day, and I grew old slowly. In the year of

Fu Zhao’s weak crown, the emperor became ill from overwork. He fell ill several times, and his health was not as good as before. In the thirty-second year

of Mingde, on the twentieth day of the winter month, at the third quarter of Yinshi, the death knell spread all over the imperial city.

He left suddenly, leaving only a testamentary edict, allowing Fuzhao and I to leave the palace and spend the rest of our lives in Biyun Villa.

He really protected me all my life. After a few days of confusion,

I vaguely remembered what he looked like when I first saw him. He was tall, handsome, and not angry.

I thought to myself at that time, this is my husband, my dependence in this life.

I entered the palace at the age of fifteen and left at the age of forty-two.

That day, the sun was still fine, I sat in the carriage, through the palace gate, only to hear the wheels rolling over the snow, the wheels slowly turning. Gradually, the eyes seemed to be covered with a layer of fog, and the huge palace wall could no longer be seen. A dream of

the imperial city, from now on, the mountains are high and the rivers are long, and you will not be restored.

“If there is an afterlife, what should you do?”

“If there is an afterlife, we should grow old together with you.”

Finished