Lovesickness led
me to marry Bai Jianzhi. On the wedding day, the Crown Princess, who had left him to have a miscarriage, broke into the Bai Mansion. After holding back for a long time, she asked me if I would like to be his side concubine. On the wedding day of Bai Jianzhi and
I, the Crown Princess, who had left him to have a miscarriage, broke into Bai Fu. After holding back for a long time, she asked me if I would like to be his side concubine.
I laughed.
If I want to, then my brain is really kicked by a donkey.
The first time I saw Song Yu was on the day of his mother’s birthday, when I was only fourteen.
The red silk was blown away by the wind, and I stood behind my father and saw the prince in high spirits.
He seemed to be shining, shining, gentle Ruifeng eyes looking at others always with a curved smile, I was stunned, there was a bud in my heart.
The gongs and drums are so loud that I have no intention of thinking about anything else.
“Are you the younger sister of the Yan family, Zhizhi?” This is the first sentence that Song Yu and I said. When I wake up in the middle of the night, I often think of this scene.
Song Yu always likes to sneak to the back door of Yanfu to send me some strange things, such as his self-made peach wood sword pendant, self-created poems, hand-carved rabbits, and Bean Paste Cake cooked by himself.
But what surprised me most was the purse he embroidered with his own hands. If it was an ordinary man holding a needle to embroider, it was enough to make people stunned, but it turned out to be His Royal Highness, the crown prince of Song, and the future emperor.
Ugly is a little ugly, but it is also very attentive. This is also my favorite gift. I hang it on my body every day.
Later, Song Wei became busier and busier, and he could not deliver the gifts in person. Every time, the boy hurried to deliver them without saying a word.
But I also understand that he is the prince, how can he only revolve around me.
But after a long time, I was unhappy and went to the East Palace without telling the people in the house. After Song Kui knew it, he left the minister who was still discussing the matter to see me. After
seeing Song Wei, I regretted my impulse. He seemed very tired, and his eyebrows and eyes were tired.
“Chi-chih, my father is ill, and I have to take on a lot of things. I can’t go to see you. Don’t be angry.” Song Wei in front of me will never put up the identity of the prince, he explained, while I peeled the longan sent by Jiangnan.
I felt sorry for him, but I insisted, “If you don’t come, I’ll marry someone else.”
“Good boy, if you marry someone else, I’ll be alone for the rest of my life.”
I laughed and retorted, “You are the prince, and in the future you will have three palaces and six courtyards. How can I be the only one?” I can’t decide
my own business? I only want one person in my life. Song Yu’s eyes were red and he took me into his arms. Feeling better,
I patted him on the back and asked, “When will you be free to come and see me?”
“I will come to see you when my father is better.” Sung Yu hugged me even tighter. “No, when my father is well, I’ll marry Chih-chih and go home.”
His embrace is so warm, so firm, I believe Song Wei will not lie to me. Song Yudang really loved me
at that time. When did it
start to change? When the
emperor is ready? Or after that day of separation? Or maybe it’s all fake from start to finish.
The second time I went to the East Palace, I wanted to ask for an explanation for myself, but I didn’t see him, but I saw another person. The girl in the
yellow dress came and walked out of the palace, just like a master.
I knew her. She was Song Yu’s cousin Su Jinmian, but she didn’t know me. She threw me out as a troublemaker.
I always thought that there must be some reason why Song Wei couldn’t see me. Maybe he was delayed by something important, or maybe he was worried about how to solve it. He used to be so sincere. I don’t believe he changed his mind in just one year.
In the dead of night, I climbed over the wall of the East Palace. Song Kui didn’t know I knew martial arts. Even my father didn’t know. My mother taught me secretly.
Su Jinmian was Song Yu’s cousin and his future Crown Princess. It seemed natural to stay in the East Palace. I lay on the roof and watched the two of them walk side by side. When I got closer, the conversation became clear.
“Brother, I have nothing to do these days. Why don’t we go to Changtianlou? I heard there’s a new cook there, and the food is delicious.” Su Jinmian’s face was filled with a sweet and glutinous smile, and when he looked at Song, his eyes were shining with stars.
Sung Yu reached out his hand and picked a Chinese rose. Not knowing what he was thinking, he handed it to Su Chin-mian and said, “Okay, why don’t we just do it tomorrow?”
Su Jinmian happily turned a circle, the gauze skirt was elegant, then so naturally took Song’s hand, full of spring scenery in the garden, gifted scholars and beautiful women, a good match. Cold
hands and feet, off the general spread out on the roof, a short scene, but overturned all my guesses.
Song Wei is not busy. He just doesn’t want to see me.
Stumbling away from the East Palace, perhaps running too fast and falling, my knees trembling with pain, I looked up at the blurred moonlight, warm liquid sliding down the corner of my eyes. The wind was particularly strong
today, and I thought it was going to rain. My clothes were flying in the long wind, and the silver hairpins on my temples were ringing. An oil-paper umbrella covered my head and the moonlight.
Following the source, I saw that the man was a whole head taller than me. He was dressed in purple with a jade belt, and wore a jade pendant engraved with the Chinese character “Zhi” around his waist. His eyes were shining with the tenderness of flying freely. He was particularly good-looking, but he was not like those young men with fine skin and tender flesh in the capital. If you looked carefully, you would feel a little familiar. I
remember that when I saw Song Kui, there was a bodyguard named Bai Jianshu beside him. Now he is the deputy commander of the moat army, and I am half a friend. He also has a brother, but he has been away all the year round. I heard that the prince married an important minister and returned to the court. Is it him?
So I said tentatively, “Are you Bai Jianzhi?”
He smiled without a word, but nodded. “What are you doing here?”
I asked.
Bai Chien-chih looked at me with a half-smile on her lips. “I’ve been asked to see Miss Yan home.” It can
‘t be Song Yu. It should be Bai Jianshu. When
the prince was about to get married, he was temporarily transferred to guard the East Palace. He wanted to see me, but he couldn’t get away, so he asked his brother to look for me.
My heart was a little more grateful to Bai Jianshu, but I felt embarrassed. I was abandoned first, and then I climbed over the fence. At the moment, the tears on my face were not dry, and everything was seen clean by his two brothers.
Bai Jianzhi didn’t say much. He just followed me quietly and kept a proper distance. When he got to the back door of Yanfu, the heavy rain suddenly fell. Bai Jianzhi didn’t go. He looked at me like that. He mostly wanted to come in to shelter from the rain, but I hesitated for a long time. After all, I didn’t dare to ask him to come in to shelter from the rain.
After all, I sneaked out and came back with a man, which was somewhat impolite.
“I just want to see Miss Yan enter the house safely. I don’t mean anything else.” Bai Jianzhi is still holding an umbrella, the heavy rain wet his shoulders, shoes are mostly wet, tall and straight posture is the habit of marching all the year round, looking at it makes people feel at ease.
I looked at the face that was not very clear and thought, is this person so good to everyone? After
closing the door, I lost sight of him. After a long time, I knew that Bai Jianzhi had been hiding from the rain for two hours under the eaves that night.
Later, on the wedding night of the prince, I hid on the roof, watching the East Palace with red silk fluttering, vocal music everywhere, and continuous congratulations, which were exactly the same as I had imagined, but the Crown Princess was not me.
Qionglin Yushu, Throwing Fruit Panlang, the peerless prince, dressed in red, stood out from the crowd among the officials. I stared at him for fear that he would disappear from my eyes in the next moment.
Song Wei seems to have grown a lot, but also more beautiful, but not as clear and comfortable as before, between the eyebrows are gloomy color. In the middle of the
night, when all the people were gone, Song Kui sent the palace eunuch to fly up to the roof, which happened to be where I was hiding.
“Don’t mess around next time. The secret guards of the East Palace are not as kind as Gu.” Song Wei’s voice also changed a little, becoming more calm and magnetic.
I did not intentionally hide, so that the dark guard saw me to report to him.
I put aside my face, obviously very angry, but when I saw him, I could not say anything cruel.
“Zhi Zhi, I’m sorry.” Sung Yu walked up to me with his back to the moonlight. I couldn’t see his expression clearly. “Maybe I really liked you before, but now..” Liking is of no use to solitude.
It’s useless. The soles of my
feet were weak and I looked at him in disbelief.
“Sung Yu, you lied to me.” Countless grievances came up, but I knew that my hatred was just as useless to him.
Song Wei did not speak, just quietly looking at me, the moonlight hit him, obviously very close, but I feel thousands of miles apart.
Song Yu has changed.
Not only the outside, but also the heart.
“Do you have any problems?” I choked up and completely forgot my previous plan. “I can..” Don’t want the position of the imperial concubine.
“No.” The hem of Sung’s clothes and the night wind are lingering and flying. “Zhizhi, today is different from the past. I can’t marry you.”
Song said, as long as the branch is alone, but now I don’t mind having more people, and Song doesn’t want me.
What kind of love is useful? For example, Su Jinmian, her aunt is the present empress, the mother of the prince, her father is the prime minister, the right-hand man of the emperor, and her mother is the wife of the emperor.
And I, just from the daughter of the second-grade minister of the Ministry of Rites, is really useless compared to Su Jinmian, but when did I ever think that it is not worth it to like Song Yu?
Song Kui is no longer my Song Kui, he is the prince of Song, is Su Jinmian’s husband, but is no longer the Song Kui who holds the embroidered purse for me. I lost my soul in
a muddle, thinking that I shouldn’t always be so stubborn. I must be hurt face to face before I give up. In that case, there is no need to ask any more questions. When I went back to Yan’s house
alone, I took out all the things Song Kui had sent and planned to throw them all away.
But every time I took one, I looked at it again and again and put it back.
Even if he is heartless, I still can’t bear to part with him. I only blame myself for being incompetent.
For Song Wei, I was just a playmate in my spare time. He never told me about the court, nor did he talk about his ideals and aspirations. In fact, now that I think about it, besides those gifts, there are also wasted days together. I am really useless to Song Wei.
Young love, but also than reality of the choice.
I understood, but I cried for a long time.
Later, I heard that the Prince and the Crown Princess loved each other and traveled together. The Prince would hold an umbrella for the Crown Princess to shade the sun. He would also cook in person because the Crown Princess wanted to eat Bean Paste Cake. He also planted a peach tree for the Crown Princess.
I shoveled my peach trees overnight and ordered that there should be no more Bean Paste Cake in the house.
I am seventeen years old, and my parents have to start thinking about my life.
So I saw Bai Jianzhi again.
White family power than su home, white of the father is Qiu, uncle is the minister of war, cousin is now Xian imperial concubine, brother is deputy commander of the imperial city moat, and white of the army is holding six hundred thousand ZhenNing general, su home main civilian, then white is the main military commanders.
Compared with the Su family, the royal family is more afraid of the Bai family.
His father did not like him, but his mother was very happy. The first lady of the Bai family and his mother were young friends. If I became a friend of Bai Jian, it would be just to her liking.
Bai Jianzhi is indeed a good candidate, and if it is also a peaceful relationship between civil and military officials, the emperor is naturally happy to see its success, in order to facilitate our marriage, the two families tacitly arranged for me and Bai Jianzhi to travel together, I looked at the mother’s well-intentioned appearance, nodded.
Men and women travel, in addition to spring in the suburbs, that is to go to the lake.
I chose to go to the suburbs because there were few people there, so I didn’t meet people I knew well.
But this luck is to think of what does not come, do not think of what happens to come. As soon as Bai Jianzhi and
I got out of the carriage, we met Crown Princess Su Jinmian, who was traveling in disguise.
Su Chin-mian looked at me, then at Bai Chien-chih, and then said jokingly, “What kind of son is this? I’ve never seen him before.”
Bai Chien-chih did not recognize Su Chin-mian, but thought he was an acquaintance of mine. He politely replied, “Bai Chien-chih of the Bai family.”
The Pai family? General Zhenning?!
Su Jinmian undisguisedly looked up and down at Bai Jianzhi, surprised and incredulous, and seemed to feel that Bai Jianzhi was lying.
Bai Jianzhi went to war with the army since he was a child. Although he was a famous general of Zhenning, he had not seen many people. It was reasonable that Su Jinmian did not recognize people. When
I looked up behind Su Jinmian, I happened to meet Song Yu’s four eyes. He frowned, his lips were tightly closed, his jaw line was tight, and his eyes looked at me coldly. As I stepped back
, Bai Jianzhi’s shoulders covered most of my face.
Bai Jianzhi seemed to be aware of something, but also with my eyes to see, the eyes are calm without waves, I am the prince, but also have to respect him a little.
“What are you doing down here, brother?” When Su Jinmian noticed it, he turned to meet him and called his brother gently and delicately.
Sung’s face changed visibly, and he returned with a smile. In his eyes was the light I had seen before. “It’s rare to come out together. How can I not accompany you?”
Su Chin-mian took him by the arm, looked at me casually, and then pulled Song Yu back. “Then let’s go. Don’t let irrelevant people interfere with this wonderful time.”
Song Wei nodded and never looked at me again from the beginning to the end. He just looked at Bai Jianzhi and said hello.
When the two of them were far away, Bai Chien-chih turned his back to me and said unknowingly, “Ah Chih, it’s still early spring. Next time you go out, you should wear more.”
I looked at this sunny, helpless smile, the original heartache when the hand will shake.
Bai Jianzhi said that what he was best at was killing people, riding horses, shooting arrows and playing guns. He asked me which one I wanted to play. I shook my goose bumps and chose riding horses.
Since I was a child, I have been proficient in climbing trees on the wall and learning equestrian, but Bai Jianzhi always said that he was afraid that I would fall down and insisted on holding the horse for me. He was reasonable, but I wanted to sleep. Unexpectedly,
a general talked so much. While he was not paying attention, I patted the horse, and the reins left his hands. Then I galloped away. My heart beat like a drum. Before I was proud for a moment, my body was thrown out unsteadily.
“Zhi Zhi!” Bai Jianzhi’s voice resounded throughout the woods. He was just a few meters away, watching me stand firmly on the ground with the help of a big tree on one side.
His eyes flashed with amazement, but in the end worry prevailed. “Yan Chih-chih, take the initiative and don’t listen to military orders. Be beheaded!”.
I slowly smoothed my pounding heart. On the surface, I looked as steady as an old dog, but in fact my feet were already weak, but I still stubbornly replied, “I’m not your soldier.” The
horses didn’t know where they had gone, and Bai Chien-chih and I could only walk out of the woods on foot. To ease the embarrassment, I took the lead in saying, “When you ride a horse on the frontier, you should be free and happy, shouldn’t you?”.
Pai Chien-chih looked at me and then looked into the distance. “You’re supposed to be on vacation. Your days in the frontier are either fighting or training. How can you have time to be happy?”
I said, “Oh,” and suddenly felt that I shouldn’t speak.
Bai Chien-chih seemed to realize that he couldn’t get a wife. He softened his tone and said, “Don’t try to be brave next time. What if something happens?”
Originally with anger, I nodded, thinking in my heart that I was afraid, my parents had only one daughter, if I died or limped, it would be unfilial. In the days that
followed, Bai Jianzhi would come to see me every day. At first, he always carried it in a rigid way. Later, when he became familiar with each other, he began to talk more. Only then did
I know that he went to war with the army when he was ten years old. His family was not around. He joined the army without telling his life experience. Because he was good-looking and too bookish, he was always bullied and felt that he could not stay in the barracks for a long time. I always felt that he was saying that he was good-looking in disguise, and I had evidence.
From joining the army to General Chen Ning today, I’ve talked for three days and still can’t finish. I asked Bai Chien-chih, “I’ve heard that the soldiers in the barracks have been single for a long time and look at the sows with beautiful features. What do you think of me?”
He restrained his expression and looked at me carefully for a moment. Then he thought of something and burst out laughing. “Chi-chih is the most different girl I’ve ever seen. You’re a million times more beautiful than a sow.”
I think what he said is not credible, but also reasonable, after all, I am also ranked in the capital of the beauty, but turn to think that there is something wrong with this, until the side of a Zhao also did not hold back laughing out, I suddenly realized.
“Bai Jianzhi!” I raised my hand and slapped Bai Jianzhi on the chest. He didn’t hide. He just smiled and looked at me with a pair of long, narrow and beautiful eyes.
Bai Jianzhi was already twenty-three years old, and he had either children or wives and concubines in the capital. I always deliberately avoided their marriage, and he didn’t ask. He just came to accompany me when he was free.
But Bai Jianzhi is a general stationed in the frontier after all. He can’t stay in the capital for a long time. If the marriage has not been decided after he returns to the court, it is estimated that there is no fate between us.
Bai Jianzhi will leave Beijing in ten days. I worked overnight to make a pair of kneepads for him. He said he would also give me a gift, and he would send it the next morning.
But what I never expected was that he had moved all his assets to the Yan Mansion. I was so shocked that I couldn’t speak for a long time. He cleared his throat and blushed. “All my rewards in the past ten years, except what I used up, are here.”
I looked at the gold, silver, and jewelry that filled the house. It took me a long time to stand firm with the help of Ah Chao. “It’s just a return gift. It’s not necessary..”
“Miss, this is supposed to be a marriage proposal.” Zhao corrected me.
I was silent for a long time, and Bai Chien’s face became more and more strange. He replied, “It’s a marriage proposal..”
I walked around the mountain of gold and silver, and then asked Bai Chien-chih, “Do they all belong to me?”
Bai Chien-chih nodded his head solemnly, then added, “From now on, all my rewards and salaries will be yours.”
As Ah Chao’s eyes glowed with gold, I picked up a piece of gold and put it in my arms. “Good.” If
I accept the marriage, Bai Jianzhi can leave later. I didn’t expect
Song Yu to appear in Yanfu. He was dressed in a black robe, and his robe, which was usually not wrinkled, was a little messy at the moment.
I quickly drank a cup of tea and washed away the cake that almost choked. Before I could open my mouth, Song Yu imprisoned me in his arms with one hand, and then jumped out of the yard.
Song Wei took me back to one of his other courtyards. There was no one inside. His whole body was cold. For a moment, I suddenly thought of Bai Jianzhi. If only he could come to save me.
“Chi-chih, you will live here from now on.”
“What?” I am stunned, Song Wei this is to put me under house arrest?
Song Wei did not reply, but picked me up and strode into the house. A sense
of foreboding came into my mind. I grabbed him by the collar and lowered my voice. “Do what?”
Sung Yu looked down at me. I don’t know when his eyes were already red. “I can’t marry you, but I don’t want you to marry someone else. Tonight is our wedding night.”
My mind went blank for a moment, and then the pain and anger in my heart rushed up, “Song Yu, are you crazy?”
Song Wei is trying to force me.
He won’t marry me, and he wants to destroy my innocence when I already have a fiance.
A slap in the face was thrown in the past, and it was Song Yu who hit me, but it was me who cried.
“Zhizhi, don’t cry.”
Song Wei was stupefied, not considering that he was a prince but was slapped by me, but wiped away my tears with his finger pulp, the pain in his heart poured into his throat, and I could not control my nausea.
So it should be. Now Song Wei makes me feel sick.
His face froze visibly, and then he began to breathe harder, holding back his anger. “Don’t be ungrateful, Hiroyuki.”
I don’t know what’s good for me? Is it right
to let him bully me?
“Breaking off the marriage with Bai Chien.” Song Wei supported me, and it hurt me a little.
“What, you’re only allowed to marry and have children, but I’m not allowed to marry?” Why did he take it for granted that he lied to me first and wanted to destroy my innocence later? He was the one who
said he couldn’t marry me, and now he wants to keep me around.
Song Wei ate deflated, just fixed looking at me, as if I was the heartless person who betrayed his faith.
“From now on you will stay here, and I will always come to be with you.”
Song Wei said such a touching sentence before he left. I didn’t reply any more. He probably thought it was a great gift to me. I
am the only daughter of a minister. Although I am not as noble as Su Jinmian, I am also the spoiled daughter of my family. I will never do such a self-deprecating thing.
At daybreak, there were two more serving maids beside him.
They did not speak, nor did they dare to look up at me. I did what I said, just like two wooden men. I didn’t find anything sharp
anywhere. Maybe Song Wei was afraid that I would die.
I disappeared overnight, the Yan family is estimated to have been in a mess, the daughter of the minister disappeared in the middle of the night, spread out without accident can make up ten stories.
I looked at the two wooden maids, with my skill can knock them out to escape, but no, after going out, how can I face all the people? How do
I explain my disappearance? Said Song Wei tied me up, if he does not admit, who will believe?
So I’m going to wait, wait for the stolen goods to be found.
Ben also thought about how to deal with Song Kui, but the next time, he did not come, the night maid thought I was asleep, two people whispered something, listen carefully to know, Su Jinmian pregnant, Song Kui can not get away to other hospitals.
I sat in the room, my mind was in chaos, there was no sadness in my imagination, I just felt that everything was ridiculous.
Two days later, the travel-stained Bai Jianzhi found me before her parents.
Song Wei is well informed, I and Bai Jianzhi have not yet gone out, he came with his troops in a hurry.
Bai Chien-chih protected me behind his back and faced the crowd alone. “The emperor committed the same crime as the common people. I don’t know what crime the prince is going to convict of abducting the general’s unmarried wife.”
Bai Jianzhi is a military general, just the momentum of the whole body can frighten people.
Song Yu ignored Bai Chien-chih, but instead looked at me. His eyes were getting cold, and his voice was heavy enough to clap. “Chih-chih, come here.”
I pulled Bai Chien-chih’s sleeve tight to avoid Sung Yu, and all the past flashed by, and finally it was fixed on the day of his wedding, when he said, “You can’t marry me.”.
“Zhi Zhi, come here.” Song Yu was bound to repeat again, his hand on the sword, the murderous look.
Song Yu raised his chin and looked at me. If I wanted to stay, he could get rid of all responsibilities.
It’s really a good way to throw the pot.
“Bai Chien-chih, let’s go home.” I’m really tired.
I never understand Song Wei, do not understand his ambition, do not understand his trade-offs, do not understand his natural, I do not want to say a word with him.
“Hiroyuki!” Song Yuhan’s eyes were like a sword, and I felt that his sword might appear on my neck in an instant.
He probably thought I would compromise again for him, but I didn’t, so he was angry.
Bai Chien-chih took me by the hand and held me behind him. Taking advantage of the situation, he grabbed a man’s sword. The sharp sword shone with a cold light. With great momentum, he opened his mouth to the soldiers, “Whoever dares to stop this general and take him away today is an enemy of this general. Anyone who is not afraid of death can come up.”
Song Kui’s sword was unsheathed, and he and Bai Jianzhi looked at each other without giving in, but the general who had been on the battlefield eventually overwhelmed the well-fed prince.
I usually have a little skin, but I have never seen such a scene. I kept beating drums in my heart and unconsciously clenched Bai Jianzhi’s hand a little.
He felt something and turned to me to comfort me. “Don’t be afraid,” he said. “No one can hurt you with me.”
Looking at his back, the unprecedented sense of security filled my heart, my eyes were slightly red, and I relied on him wholeheartedly.
At daggers drawn, or father and a group of adults appeared to break the deadlock, Song Yu is in the wrong, even if he is the prince can only endure anger to see me leave. After
returning to the mansion, my father sighed and went to the palace overnight, while my mother was angry and crying, and finally quarreled with my father.
I have a headache tight, Bai Jianzhi took the tranquilizing incense to come over, he did not talk much, just quietly came, and hurried away.
“Miss, in fact, General Bai is more suitable for you than His Royal Highness.” Zhao said.
Yes, he always knows when to talk and when to be quiet. He can take care of everything in good order. He always appears when I am down and out, and then protects me, just as he carefully sent me home when I first met him.
I sniffed the tranquilizing incense in the air and calmed down.
I don’t know what my father said to the emperor. The next day, the news that Song Yu was grounded for three months came out, but there was no news that I had been missing for two days. My mother hesitated to tell me.
“Your father spent the whole night on his knees before the emperor to seek justice for you.” With a deep sigh, the mother sighed, “Since then, the Yan family has had a quarrel with the prince, but your parents won’t let you suffer this grievance in vain.”
I wiped my tears and cried for a long time with my mother in my arms.
Two months later, Bai Jianzhi and I were officially married.
Bai Jiaguang invited people from all over the world to attend the wedding banquet. Song’s father loved his son and asked the emperor for permission to hold a big event. Some people in the court could not see past it, but they had no alternative. In the
wedding room, I faintly saw a figure that did not belong here.
Song Yu forced his way in as an uninvited guest and stunned the others.
I opened my mouth and couldn’t speak for a moment.
Song Wei stopped three feet away, and although I couldn’t see his eyes clearly, I still felt like I was on pins and needles. After
holding back for a long time, Sung Yu said slowly, “Chih-chih, go with Gu.”
And then? To be your outer room? Or to be your concubine? This is probably the first time I have talked to Song Yu so coldly.
“If you break off your marriage and stay alone for a while, the time will come to give you a place.” What Song Wei said was taken for granted, not an inquiry, but an order.
I laughed at myself and suddenly felt how ridiculous my youth was. Song Yu may have loved me, but he loved himself more.
Sung Yu stood straight and spoke with some desolation. “Now the Su family won’t agree, and neither will Su Chin-mian.” If you enter the East Palace, I’m afraid I won’t be able to protect you.
“But as long as you come to me, I can’t give you a place, but all my love is only for you.” Song Wei approached me slowly. There seemed to be someone outside, but he stopped at the door.
I felt the coarsely made purse around my waist, and felt a dull pain in my chest. Slowly and firmly, I replied, “I don’t want to.”
I am a living person with flesh and blood, not his plaything, and I will never become a canary in a cage for him.
“Zhi Zhi.” Sung Yu seemed to have made up his mind. After a while, he continued, “I can make you a side concubine and grant you the position of a good wife, as long as you break off the marriage, OK?”
Song Wei’s shamelessness has reached a level I can’t understand. Although he is a prince, he doesn’t have to be so confident about himself.
If he chose Su Jinmian, chose power and gave me up, I would never pester him, but he clearly did so, but still refused to let me go.
I looked at him and for a moment I laughed angrily. “Sung Yu, I told you, I don’t want to.”
“I’m really not fit for the East Palace, and I’m not qualified to be your Crown Princess. I’m of no use to you. Su Chin-mian can help you rise through the ranks. So please secure your position and don’t fall. I’m already married to Bai Chien-chih, and even if I’m not married, I can never be with you.”
“Zhi Zhi..” Song Wei’s tone was dull. He was very close. I smelled the familiar pine wood fragrance. It used to be a reassuring smell. Now it’s the tranquilizing fragrance sent by Bai Jianzhi that suits me better.
I pressed the word “roll,” which was ready to come out, and adjusted my breath. “Please stay away from me. You will be your royal prince, and I will be my lady Bai Shao. From now on, we will have nothing to do with each other.” It took him a long time
to react. His hands clenched and rattled, and he uttered these words like a threat: “Yan Chih-chih, aren’t you afraid at all?”.
To be honest, I’m a little scared.
He is now the prince still has the emperor queen containment, if later he became the emperor, then I Yan family Bai family how to deal with?
But I don’t want to show weakness. I don’t want to beg him. I believe in Bai Jianzhi. In the
dim light, Sung’s hand slowly approached the red veil. I clutched the purse in my hand and said, “Let’s go. We won’t see each other again.”
Song Wei’s hand stopped, and the whole room fell silent for a moment. I listened to my messy breathing and heartbeat, and my palms sweated slightly.
I do not know how long, someone knocked on the door, Song Wei moved his feet, a moment later finally turned around, did not leave a word over the window to leave.
As soon as he was relieved, the front door was pushed open.
“Chih, are you hungry?” With a plate of cakes in his hand, Bai Jian, dressed in red, entered with the evening breeze. I raised my eyes and looked at him through the red veil. The candle flickered and finally settled down.
I think he was the one outside the house just now, and he should have heard what I said.
After taking the cake, Bai Jianzhi called the servants and carried out the maids who had been knocked unconscious one by one. After
looking around, Bai Jianzhi sat down beside me. “Don’t be afraid, Chih-chih. Everything has been taken care of.”
“White..” After a pause, I pulled the purse from my waist and handed it to him. “Husband, help me throw it away. It’s old. It’s time for a new one.”
Bai Jianzhi looked back at me, first dull for a moment, then grinned and took the purse in my hand. When
Bai Jianzhi took me for a walk, he passed by the street and heard that the Crown Princess had a miscarriage yesterday, but the Crown Prince had disappeared all day. The emperor was so angry that he came to the East Palace and waited all night.
Bai Chien-chih put the broken hair on my forehead behind my ear and asked me softly, “Do you regret it?”
I nodded. “Regret.” The light
in Chien-chien’s eyes dimmed. I took his hand in mine and laughed jokingly. “I regret not meeting you earlier.”
“Glib.” Bai Jianzhi pinched my face, angry and funny.
Two months later, there was a big change in the court. My family sent a message asking me to go back. Bai Jianzhi was busy returning to the frontier, but he still insisted on sending me outside the door before leaving.
As soon as I entered the mansion, I felt the atmosphere was particularly solemn. My mother greeted me alone. She sighed and said with red eyes, “I don’t know what your father did wrong in the court. Your Majesty has fined him three years’ salary and put him in confinement for a month. He is old, and it is cold and dark in that confinement room. If he is not careful, his life will be in danger..”
“How come no one knows about such a big thing?”
This.. I don’t know who did it. The news was blocked. I was going to tell you and Jane, but I got a letter this morning. It said I could only tell you, or your father wouldn’t see the sun tomorrow..
Such a big thing is hidden so tightly, even Bai Jianzhi doesn’t know. I’m worried. I know more or less about my father in the court. Although he always wants to climb up, he is not a person who disobeys the holy will by all means. I’m afraid someone framed him.
Before I could figure out why, a secret letter from the East Palace came over. The letter said that I was invited to get together in Changtianlou. I could only go alone. If I went, I could save my father.
The signature was not Song Yu, but Su Jinmian. Is
Su Jinmian trying to get back at me? But she was the one who married Song Yu, and she was the one who became the Crown Princess. I have no quarrel with her. Why did I hurt my Yan family?
Too late to think about it, after telling my mother, I went to the appointment alone, but when I arrived at the appointed place, Su Jinmian did not see it, but met Song’s subordinates. My
intuition told me that it was not suitable to stay here for a long time. Without hesitation, I turned around and ran outside. But as soon as I got out of the wing, I bumped into a solid chest. The other side did not hold me. I could only fall down because of the impact.
Looking up, a tall shadow covered the bright light on the top. I blinked and tried to see it clearly. Song Yu was in a commanding position, and his eyes were deep that I could not understand.
Do not know when to start, in addition to the necessary occasions, Song Wei always love to wear ink this kind of heavy and stuffy clothes.
“Go in.” Song Yu picked me up with one hand and pushed me into the wing. Then he ordered the bodyguard behind him to close the door. The room was dark for a moment. I stepped back and pulled away from him.
Sung Yu took out a letter from his bosom. “This letter is to clarify the evidence of your father and the third emperor’s brother’s embezzlement of official grain.”
I looked at the thin piece of paper and gritted my teeth. “What’s the condition?”
Song Kui around such a big circle is certainly not to help me in vain, the emperor has always hated the corruption of courtiers, it is no wonder that he did not remember his old friendship with his father’s classmates so angry.
Sung Yu puts the letter back in his arms, and his eyes are filled with dark emotions. “Bai Chien-chih’s military power–and you.”
“Impossible.” Not to mention me, as far as the military power of Bai Jianzhi is concerned, it is earned little by little with his life and countless life-and-death battles. I can never let him make such a big sacrifice to help me.
Since my father was framed, there will always be a day to find evidence. I crossed Song Yu and had a clue in my heart. It was impossible for him to cover up the sky in the court.
“Yan Zhi Zhi.” Sung Yu held out his hand to block my way and looked at me sideways. “Is he that important to you?”
“Nature is important. It is not only my husband, but also the person I love. I will never allow anyone to hurt the Yan family and the Bai family.” I do not shy away from looking at him, even if he is the prince, I will never compromise.
Sung’s hand slumped down, and he took out the letter again from his bosom. “Stay with me for one day, and this will be yours.”
Song Wei is not such a stubborn person, he is too clear to weigh the pros and cons, too know how to choose, I can not think of any use for him to make him so persistent.
I shook my head, not looking at his heavy and tired face. “Your Highness, your choice is not wrong. What is wrong is that we should not meet. Don’t be stubborn any more. You are just a passer-by, a meaningless passer-by.”
“Is your father’s life no better than that of Bai Jianzhi?” Song Wei kneaded the letter into a ball, his eyes waded through the ripples, and the bright and dark light refracted a little bit of crystal. When I
looked at him, I just felt sarcastic. It’s not who is more important than who, but I don’t want to be threatened by you anymore, and I don’t want to have anything to do with you anymore. We shouldn’t be like this. It’s all your choice.
Without waiting for his next sentence, I pushed the door open and strode away. At this moment, I just wanted to go home and see Bai Jianzhi. One
of Soong’s subordinates blocked my way. Behind him, he said, “In that case, you’ll never see him again.”
A broad hand took my shoulder, then dragged me into the room, the door slammed shut, and my cry for help stopped in the room. I
was afraid that Sung Yu would be so angry that he would silence me, so I forced myself to calm down and said in a trembling voice, “Sung Yu, you don’t have to offend the Pai family for me.”
Song Wei took me into his arms and circled my waist with one hand, so strong that I almost suffocated.
“Zhi Zhi, Gu won’t hurt your life. Gu wants to kill Bai Jianzhi.” Song Wei seems to have a plan.
I confused the mind, now white Jane of no soldiers will be in the capital, if Song Kui design assassination, simply is bound to die. Although
I have martial arts in the body, but also only some of the skills of the body, the fight is not better than Song Yu, can only change the plan.
“Sung Yu, I’ll stay. Don’t do anything stupid.”
“Really?” Song Yu released me, and he stared at me inquiringly, as if he wanted to confirm something.
“You and I knew each other when we were young. I loved you for three years, but you left me. Don’t you want me to be angry with you?” “Don’t do anything stupid because of me,” I said. “The Bai family is very powerful. Killing Bai Jianzhi will do harm to your future.”
“I don’t believe you.” Song Yu said.
“What are you going to do?” My heart beat faster for fear that he would see through my words.
“You kiss the orphan.”
I was stunned and suddenly remembered the way Bai Jianzhi had kissed me with his ears burning.
I looked at Song Wei, the person I loved deeply when I was young, but I couldn’t say anything at the moment.
“Sung Yu, I’m already a married woman, and you’re the crown prince. Don’t..”
“You are a loner, and loner doesn’t mind.” Song Wei’s finger pulp rubbed my ears, and the strange touch made me feel uncomfortable all over.
“But..”
“Your Highness, General White is coming!” The bodyguard outside the door breathed heavily and did not know whether he was tired or afraid.
I breathed a sigh of relief in my heart, but I was worried about Bai Jianzhi. In a moment of panic, I pushed Song Wei away. He looked at me, and his cruel eyes made me tremble.
“Kill him.” Song Wei said as he tried to pull me back.
“Kill, kill..” The people outside the door seemed to be frightened, to block the battle-hardened Zhenning general, to kill a few of their bodyguards?
I have never seen Song Wei like this, strange and frightening, it seems that killing a person is not important to him, but a matter of words.
When I turned to run, he reached out and grabbed my sleeve. Then the sleeve split and I fell forward uncontrollably, hitting my head on the edge of the table.
Dizzy feeling came violently, I shook it and was caught by Song Wei. I couldn’t hear what he said. In a trance, I saw the door being kicked open. The loud noise made me wake up a little. “
Your Highness, you’d better let go of my wife, or I’ll kill you even if you take the crime of rebellion.”
I was dazed and called Bai Jianzhi faintly.
Song Wei did not speak, nor did he let go, but took out the brocade handkerchief in his arms and wiped the blood for me, totally ignoring the thin beads of blood that had oozed from his neck. After less than a moment of
stalemate, Bai Jianzhi withdrew his sword and picked me up from Song Kui’s arms.
Song Yu half crouched on the ground, as if he had been immobilized. As soon as I
felt Bai Chien, my mind cleared up for the most part, and I asked him in tears, “Why did you come so late?”
Bai Chien-chien’s purple robe was stained with red blood, and his clothes were raised in the wind. He held me in his arms, and his words were full of remorse and heartache. “Don’t be afraid, madam. My husband has come to take you home.”
Out of Changtianlou, I looked at the clouds in the sky, and then looked at Bai Jianzhi standing in the crowd. Suddenly, I felt all the light shining on him. I looked at him in a trance and laughed out loud unconsciously.
He looked at me in puzzlement. “Are you stupid?”
I shook my head, closed my eyes and snuggled into his arms. On the second day after
I came back from Changtianlou, Bai Jianzhi found a clue and found evidence to prove his father’s innocence in only two days. The person who framed him said that he had always been incompatible with his father, Lord Zhang.
Lord Zhang is Song Yu’s man, but he is just a scapegoat. On the way
to the palace to see the emperor, someone threw the letter into his carriage. He just looked at it and threw it away. When
his father was acquitted, the emperor granted him a month’s rest to make up for his injustice, exempted him from all punishment, and added a title.
I asked Bai Jianzhi how he knew I had an accident that day. He said that after I came home, he went to Bai Jianshu to say goodbye. Bai Jianshu often walked in the palace. Someone leaked the news. He knew that his father had an accident, so he rushed back to Yanfu. His mother told him that I had gone to Changtianlou, otherwise he did not know what would happen.
When all was said and done, I went to the frontier with Bai Jianzhi for two years. Since then, I have never seen Song Yu again. I heard that after the miscarriage, Su Jinmian could not bear any more children. During the two years, the empress successively gave him Liangdi, Fengyi, Zhaoxun and Chenghui, without exception, all of them were her people. The
little glutinous rice dumpling ran into the room crying and pulled my thoughts back to five years later.
A Lan cried to me that his father had assigned him a lot of homework today. He was so busy that he had no time to go to the toilet. I laughed back and forth, just like a stepmother.
Bai Jianzhi assigned him a lot of homework every day. The reason was that as the grandson of Bai Jianzhi’s parents, he should be proficient in everything and not delay from the baby. But I always felt that Bai Jianzhi was in order to let me spend my mind on him. After the
frontier was pacified, Bai Jianzhi took me and a Lan back to the capital. When I was free, Bai Jianzhi took me to do business. He said that he would resign from his official position and go around doing business together if there was no war in the future. I was very happy, so I learned to manage the accounts seriously. Finally, I was leisurely but had something to do.
A year later, the emperor died, and the crown prince Song Yu ascended the throne with the name of Chengjing.
The Crown Princess died suddenly before the empress’s big gift. Since then, the empress’s position was empty. In addition, Emperor Chengjing had no children, and the court set off a storm. After thinking over and over again, his father resigned from the post of minister and took his mother to travel around.
As a queen, the queen mother constantly designed to support their own people ascended, the emperor was furious, the queen mother was placed under house arrest in the palace, free from all rights. The changes of the
royal family can not help but make people sigh, but the past generations should have been used to it.
But these have nothing to do with me, once occupied most of my young time, has now become a small role in my life, so small that it only exists in a few words of gossip when others chat. Thirty-four years after
Song Yu’s
reign, I finally ushered in my own death, listening to the wailing of concubines and ministers, vaguely remembering the past.. When I
was a prince, I saw a peach tree outside the palace one day. I remembered that Zhizhi loved peaches and peach blossoms, so I sent someone to buy a peach tree and plant it in the East Palace, thinking that maybe Zhizhi could see it in the future.
But I don’t know who said that I was planted for the Crown Princess, and Su Jinmian was happy for a long time, so I didn’t want to refute it.
Branches love to eat is always those ordinary folk things, Bean Paste Cake is one of them, suddenly some miss and branches sitting together on the fence to eat Bean Paste Cake, so I devilishly under the kitchen, was seen by the palace, I was afraid of more changes, then lied to the Crown Princess to do.
Su Jinmian is not used to eating, but forced a smile to say delicious, too fake, not like a branch.
I once thought of letting Zhizhi seek a worthy person, but when I really saw that she was no longer called me by Song Yu, but hid behind others, I felt that I should keep her by my side, even if the price I had to pay was immeasurable.
But before I could do it, my subordinates told me that Zhi Zhi and Bai Jian were engaged, that is, General Zhenning, who was in charge of six hundred thousand troops guarding the frontier.
I called Bai Jianshu and asked him how they knew each other?
Bai Jianzhi knelt down and looked like he faced death unflinchingly. He said that a few days before my wedding, Zhi Zhi had come to the East Palace and saw that I was intimate with Su Jinmian. She was so sad that she ran a long way alone. He couldn’t rest assured, so he asked his elder brother, who had not been back to Beijing for a long time, to see him off.
I kicked Bai Jianshu, and I don’t know whether to blame him or myself.
I sat in the study all night, thinking of my wedding day with Su Jinmian. She had said that she wanted to be with me even if she didn’t want the position of Crown Princess. But how did I answer? I refused her. The support of the Su family is indispensable to
stabilize the position of the crown prince. Su Jinmian is the favored daughter of heaven, the noble daughter that everyone can’t get. Fortunately, she took a fancy to me alone among several princes. I am not a mother. She has two other sons. If I am not careful, I will be replaced. So the crown princess can only be her, and only she can have the invincible backing.
I asked to marry Su Jinmian that day, she only said one condition, that is, never marry Yan’s daughter, otherwise the Su family will never help me, of course, I can also abandon the Su family to choose the Yan family.
Yan Wenhong was a second-grade minister. Although he was a classmate of his father and had a different friendship from other courtiers, he could not compare with the intertwined Su family.
Do I love Zhizhi? I always think so. I
love her, but I really can’t give up everything to be with her. I don’t love her, but I have been punished by my father and suspected by my mother for three or four times.
Zhizhi said goodbye to me in Changtianlou. As a prince, she was not afraid at all. She only thought about her husband. I was far-sighted step by step in my life. I killed my wife and brothers for a solid position, but I didn’t want to hurt her in the end. I saw
her in her wedding dress. Later, when she was pregnant, I went to see her secretly. She gained a lot of weight, but she always smiled. I think she was really happy. The day before
I ascended the throne, I left the palace without telling anyone. Before I knew it, I came to the back door of the Yan Mansion. A little man climbed over the wall and jumped right into my arms. He stared at me with big round eyes. After a while, he said, “Who are you?”
I looked at this familiar face, as if I knew who he was.
“Your mother’s friend.”
“Oh?”? Then why don’t you go in through the front door? The little fellow looked around me with a bad look on his face.
“Then why don’t you come out the front door?” I asked him with a smile.
The little fellow hemmed and hawed. “It seems that neither of us is here to do anything serious.” He made me laugh, and
I touched his meaty face. “What’s your name?”
“Bai Yanlan.” The little fellow put his hands on his waist and looked up and asked me, “What about you?”
I imitated his way, “Sung Yu.”
The little guy said that we would be friends in the future, so he would not tell his mother that I had been here, and I could not tell him to climb the wall secretly and go out to play.
I smiled, but my eyes were a little blurred. It seemed that I hadn’t talked to Zhizhi for a long time.
…… My affair
with her was so long ago that it was all blurred out, and the wailing sound in my ears was getting weaker and weaker. I tried to open my eyes, as if I saw peach blossoms falling with the wind, branches sitting on the fence, and a bell ringing on my waist. From a distance, I shouted loudly, “Song Yu, you’re here.”
