What was the reason for going abroad?
9
I think Kiriko may have misunderstood.
So I said, “Well, baby… camera.” I’m sorry.
But Kiriko’s eyes are completely cold and he doesn’t know if he heard me.
He let go of my wrist, slowly step back, then crouched down and picked up camera fragments from the floor.
The glass was sharp, accidentally cut his hand, and red blood sprung out and fell on the ground.
He seems to be undetected and is still cleaning up debris.
Carefully, gently, with apologies.
An inexplicable pain surged from the heart, drilled into the bone marrow and immersed in a cold.
The April wind in Shanghai was so wet and cold, I opened my mouth and found myself unable to spit.
“Ooh. “Lanting’s voice, with a bit of hesitation, as if it came from a long distance, “You cried? I’m sorry.
“Who gives you permission to call her this?” I’m sorry.
Because of the restraint, his men’s consciousness was tightened by the glass fragments in their hands and the blood flowed even more.
We have seen him in the shape of an attack, and know that he intends to use a pain near to self-absorption in order to suppress the anxiety and negativity of his heart.
And look at the Landing in front of him, and I’m afraid he’ll stay and stimulate Ki-yan’s emotions. What you just said, we’ll talk about it next time.
“Ooh. “Lanting was a bit anxious to interrupt me, and he looked at Kiyoko again, and his voice was down, and it was not normal. I’m worried about your safety. I’m sorry.
What am I worried about?
With all due respect, we’re in a state of soberness.
Moreover, Kiyoko is a patient, who only suspects and even loathes when he has an illness, but never harms others.
I couldn’t explain this to Lantin for a second, but I had to push him. Go ahead, go. We’ll talk later. I’m sorry.
Lantin finally got away with it, and then he went back to Ki-yan, and he got up, and he looked at me, desperately, and the star in his eyes faded, and he finally decided.
“Ooh. He smiled and said, “You worry too much, I won’t hurt him. I’m sorry.
The smile, which upsets me, forced the mood down and threw itself at his wounds, which led to the discovery that his hands were all bloody and many broken glass were embedded in his skin.
But as if he had not felt the pain at all, he was still staring at me, even with a slight radians on his lips.
“No, Kiriko, you have to deal with this wound.”
Half of the time I said it, I was suddenly pulled and the sound was cut off, and then I went all the way until I fell into the car.
“Let’s go home.” I’m sorry.
He’s got a fog in his eyes, and I can barely see the mood inside, and I can’t help but say, “Can I drive?” Don’t push. I’m sorry.
I’m very light, and there’s a strong appeasement in the voice.
Kiyyan is silent and his voice softly: “Good.” I’m sorry.
I’m the driver’s license for the high school exam, but I haven’t been driving since my car was sold, I’m a little rusty and I don’t know how to drive, but I’m going to follow the navigator’s command, and I’m going to go to the hospital at 40 feet.
On the way, Kiriko was silent and silent, and the smell of blood grew in the car, deepening my fears and panic.
I’m conscious of something from the past.
I didn’t fight with Kiyoko in my youth.
I’m doing a great job. I’m doing a great job.
My mom was so happy, she specifically authorized me to play a game, and then I went crazy, either in a cyber bar, or on a bike, swimming through half of the city, digging in an alley for food.
He didn’t come back to me even if I asked him where he was going. I didn’t think he’d stay here for high school.
I didn’t know he had been diagnosed that summer and had been in hospital for half a month.
Nor was it known that after a fight with his stepmother ‘ s brother, he moved out of that caged villa, renting an apartment outside and living alone.
I didn’t know until school started, that Ki-yan was still here, and I was in a school, a class.
After school, I wanted to be a good student, and that was when my fake brother Zhang Zhang Zhou Zhi.
“It’s okay, we’ll go out this time, just once — we’ll start learning next week. I’m sorry.
We went through the window and the wall and went to the cybercafe.
I got a bottle of Coke in the net and went back to see Chang sitting in front of the computer and laughing cheaply.
“What’s wrong? I’m sorry.
He hooks his finger at me, “Do you watch horror movies?” I’m sorry.
I listened to the horrors, I put my head over my head, and I saw the picture on the screen, it was a blur and the light was dark.
It had not yet become clear that Zhang had suddenly been pulled from his chair by a force like radish, and then punched him in the face.
Zhang screamed and jumped in shock, and a obscenity was just half out and punched again.
It is only now that I see who did it: “What are you doing?” I’m sorry.
“What am I doing? He paused, looked over his head, smiled slowly, and the pride of his eyes came out again in a wet state. In the middle of the night, you don’t sleep in the bedroom and go over the wall and play games! I’m sorry.
I shook my head, and suddenly in my head I passed the picture that had just fainted, as if I understood, but still not.
I didn’t understand, but Ki-yan’s pride in his eyes stinged my adolescent self-esteem, so I grabbed his hand and said, “Let go of me. I’m sorry.
“You want to protect him in front of me? I’m sorry.
He went over his head and spat on my mouth.
I would like to say, “This is my brother, let me go! I’m sorry.
And yet it is only a saying: “Let go of me first.” I’m sorry.
Kiriko smiled, loosed his hand, stopped looking at him, and held my wrist and dragged me away.
There were a lot of people watching the show at the Internet cafes, and there were a couple of punks with flowers and hairs on their heads. The General of the Days called this their place.
Yet none of them came forward to see him like this.
Kiriko dragged me back to school and handed me over to the canteen aunt, and I was sentenced to a review, suspended one day, and asked my parents.
Not only that, he hasn’t spoken to me for a whole week.
I walked in front of him with that red handline on purpose, and Kiyoko didn’t see it at all.
When I sat alone at the playground, sad, and suddenly Zhang appeared by my side.
He said, “I found a way to avenge us!” My brother told me that he saw Kiriko scratching his arm with a handiwork knife in the gym. He’s got a mental problem. Maybe he’s crazy. Let’s give him some publicity! I’m sorry.
Then, in Zhang’s appalled eyes, We beat him to death, threatening him not to tell him about Kiyyan, otherwise I will not only tell the teacher about his subsequent visit to the Internet, but will also see him fight once.
Zhang’s swollen face had noded and ran away.
I went to the equipment room to see Kiriko, and he sat on the mattress, looking quietly at the sunset outside the window.
I didn’t talk, sat next to him, took half a day in my pocket, touched half a bag I hid all day.
“Take care of yourself, will you, Kiriko? I’m sorry.
He’s over his head, leaning down a little bit, covering up the complex colors.
The light of the sunset oranges fell on him, and the thick lashes of the crows dyed out the warmth of the stars.
I didn’t really go to the Internet cafe anymore, and I never talked to Chang.
Even after a long period of time, I will remember Kiriko, who fell on his face with his fist, his brow of his forehead, and his deep fears and joy hidden in his pride.
10
We made up, but this impulse and the powerlessness of the law did not diminish.
In the second semester, a basketball game was organized in schools, which was for the same grade and was restricted to boys. It’s a pity that we were on the back of the team for a few days, and I was on top of it.
I’ve been working with a couple of boys on the basketball team until the eve of the game. And then the game started, the ballback came back, and a couple of people went all the way to the finals, and I took a crazy picture with a single back camera from the class director.
In the end, our class won the grade championship, and in the school forum there was a rumor that our class played dirty, played in the dark and won the title.
I was so angry that I was in a forum with people, fighting all night, and the last few people said, “I don’t believe in reality.” I’m sorry.
The fight was about to take place in the willows behind the playground, and I was ready to go to the party, and I was dragged by Kiriko: “You will die.” I’m sorry.
“How do you know I can’t beat them?” I’m sorry.
Kiriko smiled and took a step towards me.
I took a step back, and the air went down, and I whispered, “They’re too much.” Why would they tell us the truth? I’m sorry.
“Do you know who those guys are? I’m sorry.
Kiriko’s voice was so cold, I shrunk my neck, and my mind shook.
And he laughed: “Are you going to die, two high-level third-grade gymnasts, and now they’re at the end of their physical examination, and they’re out of school?” I’m sorry.
Why would a senior sportsman run our first year?
And Kiyoko saw my face bewildered and light: “The finals and the little front that we played were the two men who collected the “students.” I’m sorry.
We were reminded, but in our hearts we were disobedient, and we were looking to Kiyoko to stop.
He was silent for a moment, whispering, “I’ll take care of this, go to the cafeteria and eat.” I’m sorry.
I don’t know what happened to him, but the next day, I heard that two sports students in high school had been suspended for two weeks for fighting. When they came back, they didn’t bother me anymore.
It’s the student who stopped me at the door of our class and got kicked out by a couple of guys from the basketball team.
It was also at that time that I realized that it seemed as if my position with him had turned upside down since we met again. He was always protecting me and cleaning up my mess.
I’m finally getting a lot better, and I’m putting too much energy into learning.
I thought Kiyoko and I were going to go on like this, and I didn’t think I’d see Kiyoko and her next class in the studio I was preparing for art students after the second semester.
Kang Myung is an artist. He’s a very handsome man and a good character. Her hair is light rose brown, so the sun shines, a little pink.
She held the pen, took it seriously on the frame, dyed the paint on her hand, and whispered over her head.
Kiyoko, who was lying by the window, returned to her and took her wet towel to wipe her hands.
I thought about it in my mind, thinking that since I’m a good brother, I can’t delay Ki-hian’s happiness, and then I’m just going away.
I felt a little bit of grief in my heart and I had to leave it behind.
“Here we are. I’m sorry.
And the cold and dumb voice of Diyan caused me to withdraw from my memory.
I stepped on the brake and looked at his hand and found that the blood close to the wound had dried up slightly. I searched for a place to park and brought him all the way to the hospital.
As a rich man, Kiyoko had no habit of carrying a health card with him, and I had to sign him with tears in cash to take care of his wounds.
The doctor cleaned up the blood trail with an alcoholic cotton ball, then took the glass out of the wound with a stubble, took the medicine, and ended up saying that the wound was a little inflammated, and that it would be better to take the anti-inflammation pill after the tetanus.
“No, no, no. I’m sorry.
“Use it. I ignored his request, “Doctor, write the bill, I’ll go downstairs and pay the bill.” I’m sorry.
I never thought I’d come down the hall and run into Kiyoko’s friend.
The young man was accompanied by a little girl who saw me say hello. I’m sorry.
“…I’m called Fuzzy. I’m sorry.
“Oh, yes, I am. You’re Ki-yan’s sweetheart. I know, it’s a bit of a name. * And I look at you * I’m sorry.
And I hesitated, “It’s not me, it’s Kiyyan, he’s a little uncomfortable.” I’m sorry.
I didn’t want to say anything about him being hurt because I didn’t know if he knew what happened to him.
I don’t really want Kiyoko to take the risk, given the prevailing environment or prejudice against people suffering from manic depression.
I am, however, vague, but the look of the white sky is serious.
He turned around and said two words to the girl next to him, and he took out a card, and he got rid of her, so he looked up and looked at me, “Is he again?” I’m sorry.
“Did he not tell you how he and I met?” I’m sorry.
I shake my head.
“He and my mother are sick friends and live in the same nursing home while abroad. I’m sorry.
The scenery turned around, the outpatient hall was filled with people, and it seemed that, at any given time, the places associated with old and old illness and death would never be clear. People live and die every moment of the world; some suffer and others recover.
When I was in high school, I saw Kiriko’s death several times.
He was not a man who loved to speak, but he kept his mouth shut in the eyes of others, and he kept saying, repeatedly and repeatedly, about his hatred of Qi’s father and his hatred of his unsettled mother, and then found a sharp instrument near him, crossed over his arm and put it in.
And even once, he stood before me with a blood-stained circle, and looked at me in the eyes.
I didn’t say anything. I broke the rules and took him to the infirmary.
He believed me. He never hid his emotions from me, and I kept it very well. When he left the country in his third year, no one but me knew that he had been sick for years.
“It was because he was already very sick, and the doctors advised him to leave the country and try new places. But when he left the country, his original number was disabled and his tweets and e-mails were not returned, and I thought he would never come back. I’m sorry.
“He doesn’t come back because he can’t come back to you. “At the same time as Kiyoko and my mother, she is too sick to be emotional and communication equipment is not allowed.” In addition to daily medication, electroshock treatment is required when the condition is severe. I’m sorry.
The word “electric shock” pierced the eardrum and my brain was buzzing.
I look at the white scene before me, and I cannot tell whether he has compassion or ridicule in his eyes.
Kiyoko…
“Do not think that he has gone abroad to enjoy his good fortune; indeed, many of the foreign students are uneducated dudes, but surely he is not.” His life had been difficult and, in order to counterbalance his father, he had spent two years completing his four-year credits, at great cost, to set up his current jewellery company. I’m sorry.
The white sky stopped, and my heart hung high.
“The only way to support him is to get back at his father. I’m sorry.
I opened my mouth and found myself unable to say a word. It was as if someone had thrown it in a piece of ice, rubbing it in the flesh, rolling it cold and painful.
“Let’s go, I’ll go with you and see Ki-yan.” I’m sorry.
“What about the girl you were with? What’s she doing here? I’m sorry.
“She has to go alone, but it’s not her first time.” I’m sorry.
I put up with it for half a day and didn’t take the “Scum Man” out.
When I got in the elevator, I looked around and looked at me, and all of a sudden it appeared like a smile: “The children she had before were not mine.” This time, she would not have had children if she had not put a hole in it herself and tried to force it. I’m sorry.
“Put your cheap compassion down. The adult world has its own rules. I’m not Kiyoko. I’m sorry.
He looked me in the eye, with a cold smile, and went out first. As a result, he had no idea where Kiyoko’s room was. After two steps, he had to wait for me.
I grunted and walked by him for half a second.
When entering the door, Kiyoko was sitting in a chair by the window, looking away.
The light swept through his pretty face, leaving a deep and shallow shadow, and the lashes were down, making it hard for me to see the emotions in his eyes.
When he heard the noise, he turned around and saw the white scene behind me, and his eyebrow wrinkled: “What are you doing here? I’m sorry.
“I heard you were hurt. Come look at you.” I’m sorry.
And he turned his lips away from him, and he just said to us, “Come here.” I’m sorry.
Eleven.
I am acutely aware that the atmosphere between Kiyyan and the white view is not so good.
Kiriko, wait a minute. “I’ll go to a doctor and hang the needle. We’ll go home soon after the drop.” I’m sorry.
I deliberately softened my voice, and Kiriko’s eyelashes were softly shivering, and the lightness came down, and I answered.
I turned to the clinic and went to the nurse’s table with the medicine.
I don’t know what Kiyon and White Chikage said, but when I took the nurse back, I heard him say, “I’m not like you.” I’m sorry.
I was just about to say something, turn around and see me come back, and I shut my mouth and waved at him: “Well, since you’re not hurt bad, I’ll go first, and I’ll see you next time. I’m sorry.
“You better not come.” I’m sorry.
He smiled and turned away, and I hesitated to follow him out and found him standing in the hallway outside the door, as if he was waiting for me.
I didn’t say anything yet, and he turned around and looked at me like he was thinking. I paused and whispered, “Do you know what Ki-yan is hiding from me?” I’m sorry.
“What about, for example? I’m sorry.
“Why did he leave the country? I’m sorry.
This question has been hidden in my heart for a long time, and I have just heard from Shiraito that Li-ian’s life abroad was very bad, and that, in addition to his grief, the previous doubts had resurfaced.
As a matter of fact, Kiyoko ‘ s condition is even more serious, and it is not necessary to leave the country to change cities and stay in the country, and his mother ‘ s family is more comfortable with him.
Unless…
Unless something important happened, he could not stay in the country at all and had to leave the country to hide.
When I was in senior year, it seemed like after a normal weekend, Kiyoko suddenly didn’t come to school and didn’t return my message.
After three days, I finally waited for him to re-emerge.
But he looked pale and dazzled and looked at me with fog in his eyes, and his voice was as light as a smoke. I’m sorry.
“Where are you going?” I’m sorry.
“I’m going abroad. He smiled and laughed, reaching out and pulling two books out of his drawer.
I bowed my head, and I found his back so hard that his finger was a little twirling, that I couldn’t give his heart a pain, and my hand over his hand, “Why? Did something happen to you? I’m sorry.
“I’m going abroad for treatment. I’m sorry.
And he looked at me with deep eyes, and We could not describe the moment when he looked at me, and it was as though he had melted into the ice platitude that came to me.
It’s as if this is the last sight we’ll ever see in our lives.
He raised a little hand, as if he wanted to touch my hair, and then he got stuck and took it back.
I didn’t care, but I was anxious to ask: “Is it only a cure that cannot stay in the country, and must go out?” I’m sorry.
Kiriko smiled softly.
“The fish are trapped in the water, or they will die.” This time, I lost. But I don’t want to die. I want to see you again. I’m sorry.
Kiriko’s withdrawal from school was arranged by his uncle, who left school one day, and packed up his stuff from the dorm. Quick, like a runaway.
Three days later, I went to the airport to drop him off.
He did not speak to me, but looked back at me before entering the gate and whispered, “I am afraid, until I come back.” I’m sorry.
But I don’t think he’s coming back.
Nevertheless, I solemnly answered him, “Okay. I’m sorry.
The voice of the white sky brought me back. And he smiled, and said, “To cure.” I’m sorry.
“Is that the only reason?”
“Or what? “If you really want to know, there’s always a way to find out. I am afraid that you will be remembered, but I see that you are at ease in your own country. Love, work, fitness, everything. Or are you just looking at him now that he’s all right, that he’s so rich, that he’s so obsessed with you, that it’s okay to follow him? I’m sorry.
The white sky completely reduced the smileful face that was used as a mask, staring into my eyes, as if I were ashamed to admit that I was a greedy woman.
Unfortunately, I have no morals. He can’t kidnap me.
I nod my head and said, “You’re right, but I told Kiyyan not to like me. He prefers me not to listen, but to spend me.” I’m sorry.
The white sky is shaky, and suddenly it’s hard to look.
“No, you like Kiriko, so he can’t like me.” I’m sorry.
I’m pissed off.
If you don’t tell me, you’ll have to scold me when you’ve been here all day.
I grunted back to my room, and the nurse had put a needle on him. I was busy looking at the speed of drops and confirming that it was right before I sat down by the bed.
“What are you looking for?” I’m sorry.
Ask him something about you. I’m sorry.
“You want to know about me. Ask me. Ask him what to do. “Leave him alone, that’s not a good man.” I’m sorry.
I was surprised: “Didn’t he help with the matter last time? I thought you had a good relationship with him…”
“I was close to him, and he wasn’t a good man. And he said, “Well, there’s something complicated, and I’ll find the right time to tell you, but not now.” All you have to do is remember that White Sky is not a good person — at least he’s not a good person in front of you. I’m sorry.
I wrinkled my nose and was a little upset: “Of course I know!” Do you know why he came to the hospital today — to have an abortion with his girlfriend? He left the girl alone and came to see you. I’m sorry.
“That’s not his girlfriend. I’m sorry.
Kiriko suddenly broke my eyes and smiled at me with a small smile: “You know why? I’m sorry.
Why?
‘Cause he thinks none of those people deserve to be married to their white family. But he likes young and beautiful women, and in order to attract people, he gives sweets like money, cars… or is a promise from Mrs. White. There’s always someone to blame. The one you saw today is one of them. I’m sorry.
Kiyoko’s voice has been calm and even cold: “They’ve been together for a long time and they’ve got new targets and they don’t want to go on.” But she didn’t want to give up because she thought that when she was pregnant, she would compromise — but the result, you saw it. I’m sorry.
I stood there and wanted to say something, but I opened my mouth and found myself broke.
He described to me a life that existed only in television dramas and novels, as if it were detached from reality and was hanging up in the trees, but from his tone it seemed as though he was used to it.
“Omnis, things in this world are always lost. The more I went up, the more I realized I had lost a lot. I’m sorry.
Kiriko suddenly reached out with a hand, gently over my hand.
And We looked at him, and he looked in his eyes, and he looked in his eyes, and looked in his eyes, and looked at it, and said, “Do not leave me alone in their abyss.” I’m sorry.
