Nanke
Mengfanghua Complaint: Fireworks are easy to be cold. For whom to bow down
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. The mother is very beautiful.
It is said that she went to war with her father in the past year, beating drums for his father on the battlefield, and the bows and arrows originally held high by the enemy fell together.
It is said that her father, who was the crown prince at that time, fell in love with her at first sight. Day after day, he came to show his love to her. Day after day, he was beaten away by his grandfather. It took him a year to finally embrace the beauty.
It is said that her talent is peerless, playing the piano can attract birds, embroidery can attract butterflies.
Allegedly, allegedly, but I can only hear allegedly.
For as long as I can remember, I have never seen my father again. When his mother drummed for him, she failed to save the defeat, and his father, who had been on the throne for less than a year, died on the battlefield to suppress the rebellion.
Fortunately, her mother’s beautiful appearance left her a chance of survival, and she changed from the queen of the former Dynasty to the concubine of His Majesty today.
But unfortunately, the new king could not tolerate me, and I was thrown into the cold palace to live and die before I could remember. If it hadn’t been for the care of a few old ladies who were grateful for my mother’s past kindness, I would have died many times.
As for my mother, I never saw her again, but I heard that she was very popular. I don’t know whether to be lucky or unfortunate for a moment. After all, I have a relative in the world. In a twinkling of an eye,
I was fourteen years old. The old palace maid said that I was more beautiful than my mother. A beautiful girl like me should be loved like pearls and jade. She should not spend her years in this remote cold palace.
But now, a good-looking girl like me is pressing on a man. From a distance, it looks like a romantic painting. Close up, you can see the broken porcelain in my hands and the scars on the man’s neck. I haven’t learned anything else
in the past ten years. I only learned to save my life. In order to save my life, I have to judge the hour and size up the situation and endure it.
So when this little brother in extraordinary clothes had to lean on me with the smell of alcohol, I was going to endure it. When he almost crushed me to death, I was going to endure it. When the smell of alcohol when he spoke vaguely was about to kill me, I was going to endure it again. When he had to touch me with his claws, I.. I can’t stand it.
This girl is only fourteen years old. Do you have any conscience? Even if I inherit my mother’s congenital good conditions and look like a fairy, you can’t extricate yourself at first sight. This is not the reason for you to play hooligans.
I closed my eyes and hit him hard on the head, knocking him straight to the ground. I covered my head and planned to run away, but I didn’t expect that the disciple would grab my skirt and pull me down.
He was badly hit, and his eyes were blurred, and he did not forget to continue to play hooliganism. In a hurry, I picked up a piece of porcelain and put it against his neck. Fortunately, I was a man who cherished his life, so I did not continue to do it.
Not far away came the voice of the old palace maid calling me. I drew a cruel line on the back of Dengtuzi’s hand. He probably drank too much. Even the pain was very slow. Look at the blood oozing from the back of his hand and then look at me. His big eyes flickered. Those who didn’t know thought I had bullied him. Only then did
I see his face clearly. He was a young man of seventeen or eighteen years old. He had a very good skin. It was a pity that there was a lady-killer hiding under him. He was indifferent to younger girls at a young age.
I got up and ran back. After two steps, I turned back. Dengtuzi sat on the ground in a daze. I thought for a moment. While he was in a daze, I went around behind him and pulled him down by his collar. Then I picked up the porcelain that had just been murdered and ran away. I was relieved until I saw the familiar old palace maid.
“Why is the princess running around again? There is a Mid-Autumn Festival banquet in the palace today. Be careful not to run into a noble person.”
I wiped the sweat from my face. “Mother Ann, I’m fine.” Mother Ann took care of me
when she was my mother, so she still calls me princess, even though she knows I’m no longer princess. Just like I know I’m not going to be good tonight.
So when someone came to me the next day, I didn’t panic at all. I was even glad that Mammy Ann wasn’t there, otherwise she would be worried again. After all, it was the first time in history that the princess of the fallen country had made me so worry-free. I made a guess about the identity of the disciple
yesterday. I thought he was the son of an aristocratic family. I didn’t know that I had beaten the prince yesterday until the Chamberlain led me to the East Palace and saw the big bag on the forehead of the master of the East Palace. After
a moment of panic, I thought it was interesting that the prince had his father’s true biography. When his father took a fancy to my mother, he took a fancy to me. Even though I was only fourteen years old, I didn’t let go. The blood inheritance of the beast in clothes was quite complete.
Today, your majesty’s surname is Xie, and the prince’s single name is Yu. He is really a son raised like pearls and jade. When I was
young and ignorant, I sneaked out to see my mother. By chance, I met the new emperor. He was a hostile man, not like an emperor, but like a military general who had fought in the battlefield for many years. In fact, he was indeed a military general when he was not the emperor.
Hsieh Yu, however, was different from the new emperor. She looked at me with a smile. “Was it you yesterday?”
“I’m not. I’m not. You have the wrong person.”
When Hsieh Yu smiled, he looked like a fox, with arched eyebrows and eyes. He looked harmless to people and animals. I watched him stretch out his hand toward the big bump on my forehead. He deliberately poked me hard. “No, but your wound looks familiar.”
I didn’t answer, and I didn’t want to talk to him. I guess Hsieh Yu also felt that I wouldn’t honestly admit it, so he thoughtfully began to talk to me about the past. “I know you. You are the child of Empress Qin, Princess Ning Huan of the former Dynasty.” The Empress Qin
he said was my mother, the former Empress Qin, and now the imperial concubine Qin. Ning Huan is the name my father gave me, but unfortunately it backfired.
“We met once when we were young, and when you saw me, you were so happy that you held me back and refused to let me go.”
I silently rolled my eyes at the bottom of my heart and made no comment on such lies.
“You were born just like Lady Chin, and you even have the same temper. No matter how much your father tried to please her, he just ignored her.”
He was a garrulous man, and I stood there silently, not knowing why he suddenly said this.
Suddenly he thumped his hand and said, “How about I take you to see Empress Qin?”? I’m sure Empress Chin will be happy, and if she’s happy, my father will be happy, too, so I don’t have to copy the book today.
I looked at him confusedly, wondering if he was sick. If the mother now see me not in the cold palace but in Xie Yu’s side, it is estimated that she will be scared to death.
However, Hsieh Yu felt that her logic was very reasonable, and she pulled me to leave. I clung to the door and refused to go. “No, I’m not going.”
“So you don’t want to see Empress Chin. It’s hard for me to be so kind as to help you and your daughter.” Xie Yu looks a little sad. I
shook my head like a rattle, hoping that he would quickly withdraw his kindness, which I could not afford.
But Hsieh Yu just felt sad for a moment. She pushed my fingers away one by one, grabbed my hands and said, “It doesn’t matter. I’m willing.” I was dumbfounded. I had
seen unreasonable people, but I had never seen such unreasonable people. However, no matter how I struggled, I was taken by Xie Yu to the Laiyi Palace where my mother now lives.
Xie Yu’s mother, the empress, died of illness years ago, and her position was empty. Her mother became the most noble and favored woman in the harem. But this is in the eyes of outsiders, and only she knows the inside story.
Xie Yu took me all the way to my mother’s bedroom unimpeded. Before I went in, I heard a quarrel inside. A porcelain bottle was thrown directly from inside and broken in front of us.
Hsieh Yu said, “Oh, unfortunately, my father and Empress Qin are quarreling again.”. Guess if I push you in, they won’t quarrel.
I’m sure I won’t quarrel anymore. I guess his father will be more willing to kill me first. As
he spoke, someone came out of it, dressed in a bright yellow dragon robe, tall and powerful. His eyebrows and eyes were seven or eight points similar to Xie Yu’s, but the wrinkles around his eyes showed that he was obviously getting older.
This is Xie Yu’s father, the enemy who killed my father.
The new emperor reprimanded Hsieh Yu: “If you don’t study well in the East Palace, what are you running around for? You’ve brought a mess of people with you..”
He seemed to notice me for a moment, and then he was furious. “Who gave you permission to come out?”
I stare at him all the time. I can’t seem to do anything but stare at him.
Once upon a time, in order to please my mother, he also wanted to be nice to me, but I was very ignorant. Every time I saw him, I was beaten and bitten. In the end, he left me in the cold to fend for myself. Mam
my Ann said that I was born like my mother, with only one pair of eyes like my father, so when I looked at the new emperor with hatred, it was no surprise that I angered him.
“Xie Linxiu, let her go.” The
bedroom door was half open, and the voice of the queen mother came from inside, “Let her go.” When I
was taken away by Xie Yu, I looked back. A white figure flashed by the window. I suddenly turned back and ran back to see the shadow clearly, but was restrained by Xie Yu.
“Hush, hush, don’t scream. If you don’t want to die or suffer, come with me.”
Xie Yu brought me back to the East Palace. I lived in the East Palace for several days. I couldn’t leave here without his words.
He didn’t seem to think there was anything wrong with it. He came to tease me every day. I ignored him every day. To be exact, I ignored everyone. I didn’t say a word. The ladies who took care of me suspected that I was a mute.
Hsieh Yu is very busy. He is only eighteen years old, but he has already begun to go to court to listen to politics. At the same time, he has schoolwork to deal with every day. At the same time, he is also very patient, especially in my body, accompany me every day, but I do not know why he did so.
Finally, one day I couldn’t help saying, “I want to go back.”
Hsieh Yu was pleasantly surprised. “Ah, you finally spoke. Today is a good day. I have to write it down.”
“I want to go back.” I repeat again.
“Yes, I do not agree.” Xie Yu lowered his head again to write his strategy.
“Why? Aren’t you afraid of your father’s anger if I stay here?”
Hsieh Yu didn’t even lift her head. “I’m not afraid. If you stay here, I’m even more afraid.”. And my father has decreed that you should read with me in the East Palace.
“What do you want to do?”
Hsieh Yu looked up at me thoughtfully for a moment and then said with a smile, “Because you and Lady Chin are alike. I like Lady Chin, but she belongs to my father. Fortunately, I have you. You are mine.”
I shuddered. “Nausea.”
Then I tried to run, but Hsieh Yu caught me. He held me with one hand and drew a black spot on my head with a brush in the other? But what about that? You’d better stay here, or Empress Chin will be sad.
Crazy people. Crazy people. I clenched my fist and gave Xie Yu a hard punch, but my strength was small. He didn’t hurt at all. He just rubbed his chest and laughed. The more he laughed, the louder he laughed.
I turned around and ran, not daring to look back, not wanting to have a little involvement with this madman.
Although I didn’t want to admit it, I really couldn’t beat Xie Yu’s madman, so I was forced to stay in the East Palace and read with him honestly. I
don’t know what enmity I have with Xie Yu, but he racked his brains to torment me. When he is in the East Palace, I will follow him every step of the way. I will study ink when he reads, accompany him when he eats, and serve tea at any time when he listens to Taifu’s lectures. I will also copy the Four Books and Five Classics he prepared for me.
Although I am as weak as bean sprouts because of my perennial cold palace life, I also have a heart of resistance. Xie Yu amused me, so I retaliated. He deliberately knocked over the ink and stained his manuscript. He put pepper and aniseed in his dinner plate. He asked me to copy the book, so I deliberately did not copy it.
But Hsieh Yu was still the same, kind and amiable, and then pulled out a ruler from somewhere and gave it a sharp blow in my hand, and then deliberately asked, “Does it hurt?” I
didn’t want to talk, I didn’t want to talk to him, so he came over and pulled my face. “I’m just for your own good, little princess. Don’t be angry. Smile.”
He did it on purpose, he absolutely did it on purpose. He reminded me of the fact that I was no longer a princess and made me understand that I could only depend on others.
And when he is not in the East Palace, I will not have a good time. He specially invited the female officer of Shanggong Bureau to teach me piano, chess, calligraphy and painting. If I slacken a little and let him know, it will be a hand board.
My mother is good at singing and dancing, but that’s just my mother. It’s very difficult for me to live. I don’t have the leisure to learn these things. So after a few days, it doesn’t work. I just have to eat fried meat with bamboo whip every day. Just as
I was sitting on the threshold feeling sorry for my hands, Hsieh Yu’s Chamberlain, Xiao Yin, was holding a box and an umbrella. She said to me, “Miss, it’s raining outside. Please change your clothes and go to the Hall of the Supreme Principle to deliver an umbrella to the prince.”
I didn’t move. I just looked at him. After a while, I asked him sincerely, “Do you have a brain disease?”
Anyone who is not sick can not say such a thing, from the East Palace to the Hall of the Supreme Principle where the emperor called the courtiers to discuss the matter, the road is not long or short, Hall of the Supreme Principle is not without servants, the palace will not be so poor that only the East Palace has an umbrella, so heavy rain specially go out to send an umbrella this kind of thing fool will do.
Silver was embarrassed and could only say, “This is your Highness’s order.”
“Oh.”
That’s right, after all, Xie Yu’s illness is not a matter of a day or two.
I put on the blue brocade dress that Silver had brought with me, put on my cloak, and reluctantly took my umbrella out of the door and walked slowly to the Hall of the Supreme Principle, preferably until the rain cleared up, so that I didn’t have to send any umbrella. When I arrived at the Hall of the Supreme Principle
, the rain was getting heavier and heavier. The little eunuch under the porch saw me and greeted me from afar. “Your Majesty is still discussing political affairs with the minister. Empress Qin, you..”
When the little eunuch approached and saw my face, the words stuck in his throat and his face was strange. An old Chamberlain came over and slapped him. Then he bowed to me. “Miss, your Highness will come out later. He said to wait here for a while.”
“Here?”
He is not afraid that I will be blown away later.
“Yes, this is the order of His Royal Highness.”
Because it was his order, the Chamberlain did it, and so did I.
So I can only hold an umbrella and wait honestly, afraid of being wet by the rain and pressing the umbrella surface very low, although it is useless.
I do not know how long, Hall of the Supreme Principle the door opened, the minister filed out, I slightly raised the umbrella, see them look at me, I quickly lowered my head. I didn’t go over until the Chamberlain called your Highness, and I wanted to run away after delivering the umbrella to the madman.
I stood in the rain curtain and handed him the umbrella, but he didn’t take it. He just looked at me with a half-smile. I’m mad as hell, and I know I look like a drowned rat right now, but what are you laughing at. It was
only when another man came out Hall of the Supreme Principle and the Chamberlain called out “Your Majesty” that he took my umbrella, grabbed me by the wrist and pulled me down to the porch. He said ambiguously, “Why did you go there yourself? You’re wet like this. If you get sick later, I don’t care.”
Forgive my stupid little brain for not knowing what kind of big play he was going to play. To be exact, when I saw Xie Linxiu, I only knew to hide behind Xie Yu, for fear that I would do something stupid when my brain was hot.
Hsieh Yu said to Hsieh Lin-hsiu, “Forgive me, Father. She doesn’t know the rules yet. She’s just worried about her son. She didn’t mean to make you angry.”
Who’s worried about you? He is a big man and shameless.
But it’s rare that Hsieh Lin-hsiu didn’t get angry with me today. He just looked me up and down and said, “Um,” and watched Hsieh Yu pull me away.
Before I had gone a few steps, I heard Xie Linxiu say, “Ning Huan, how about making you a princess and letting you move in with the imperial concubine?”
At the foot of a meal, I froze in place, the heart is about to jump out.
But before I could respond, Hsieh Yu suddenly clasped my hand and said to Hsieh Lin-hsiu for me, “I don’t think Ning Huan would like to. My father is very kind.” As soon as I came out after
taking a bath, I saw that the blue dress I had worn in the daytime had been tidied up and hung in front of my bed. The dress was gorgeous, but a little old. I seriously doubted whether it was dug out from a tomb by Xie Yu.
Hsieh Yu came in without knocking, wiping my hair with a handkerchief. “The little princess is really good today. What reward do you want?”
I just don’t talk, and no matter how cold I am, he can talk by himself.
Hsieh Yu didn’t seem to wait for me to reply. She said to herself, “But I also gave you a reward. I personally helped you turn down your father. How about that? Thank me?”
In fact, what my father said today is somewhat sincere, but I don’t want you to leave me. If you go back to Empress Chin, I may never see you again.
“So the little princess doesn’t have to worry, just stay with me.”
“You used to be a lot more normal than you are now.” I opened my mouth.
Before Xie Yufei said that I had seen him, although I did not want to admit, but the remaining sporadic memories still let me know that it was true.
Probably when I was just thrown into the cold palace, the huge gap in my life made me cry almost every day. Mammy Ann couldn’t coax me. I even wanted to escape to find my mother, but I was often caught and thrown back by the guards.
Xie Yu met me after I escaped again. At that time, he was also a child. He rescued me from the guards and sent me back to the cold palace.
Later, he came to the cold palace to play with me every day.
The cold palace is remote and desolate. The people here are either old or crazy. Xie Yu was my only playmate at that time, although I didn’t know who he was at that time. Until one day he suddenly disappeared and never came again, I still regret for a long time, did not expect to grow up to meet a good person to become a madman.
“It’s hard for you to remember. I was really sad when you denied it before.”
“Why are you doing this today?”
Because.. It’s fun.
「……」 I was wrong. How can you expect a madman to answer me honestly.
“Well, there’s no harm in telling you for the sake of being so good.” He tore off the blue dress. “This is Empress Qin’s dress. A few years ago, she wore this dress and knelt down in the rain for an hour, begging her father to let go of the remnants of the former Dynasty.”. I bribed her maid to find this one and change it for you. It took me a lot of effort.
“And then?”
“Later.” He chuckled. “Later, when my father finished discussing the government, he took empress Chin into Hall of the Supreme Principle, where they stayed for a day and a night, and then empress Chin was carried back to the palace of ceremonies, and then the remnants of the former court were able to survive.” When I
heard that the dress belonged to my mother, I wanted to take it, but when I heard him say it, I immediately drew back my hand and got goose bumps all over my body, wishing I could go back to take a bath again.
But Hsieh Yu wouldn’t let me. He held me down on the chair by the shoulder and said solemnly, “The little princess will be married next year. How about I marry you as Crown Princess?”
I just thought he was joking. “If you’re not afraid of death, you can try.”
Hsieh Yu is very confident. “It’s all right. You can’t kill me.”
“What about your father?”
Hsieh Yu encircled me. “My father won’t kill me, but he will be jealous, just like today.”. If he is jealous, he will be unhappy. If he is unhappy, I will be happy. I
have never understood the way Xie Yu and Xie Linxiu get along with each other.
Xie Yu’s mother clan guarded the border all the year round and held the military power. At the beginning, Xie Linxiu married the former empress just to win over the courtiers. Although Xie Yu’s mother clan contributed a lot when Xie Linxiu conquered the world in the past year, the change of time has not hindered the separation of the monarch and his subjects.
Therefore, Xie Yu’s position is very delicate, maintaining the balance between the royal family and courtiers, so he is so unscrupulous to disobey his father again and again.
This is also, Xie Linxiu that day said no whereabouts, I still have to feel at ease in the East Palace to accept the destruction of Xie Yu, more than half a year has passed in a flash. There is a very tall acacia tree in
the East Palace. Every morning when I get up and wait for Xie Yu to go to court, I climb up the tree to collect dew. The tree was higher than palace wall, and every time I went up, there was always a group of people around me, afraid that I would make them lose their heads. Xiaoyin also secretly complained to Xie Yu for this, but Xie Yu didn’t say anything, so I remembered Xiaoyin in my heart and drew a king’s eight and secretly pasted it on his back. Hsieh Yu could not hide anything from the
East Palace. Naturally, he knew exactly what I was doing and asked me, “Have you relieved your anger?”.
I nodded. It’s okay.
“While you’re happy, I’ll tell you another happy event. Empress Chin is pregnant.”
I don’t think this is a happy event, whether from my standpoint or from Xie Yu’s standpoint.
Hsieh Yu went on to say, “My father has always wanted to have a child for him and Empress Qin, but all the children he had conceived before were gone by accident. This time it was not easy to have one again, and my father was going crazy with joy.”. If he were a boy, he would probably fight me for a seat when he grows up. Do you think I should quietly get rid of the child in the womb of Empress Qin in order to save myself?
I looked at Xie Yu quietly to see what else he could do.
“In the past, the child would probably have died at the hands of Empress Chin herself, but this time it’s different.” Hsieh Yu casually took a passbook and handed it to me. The King of Yongan insulted his ancestors and was given a copy. His father wanted to make an example of him and dispose of the remnants of the royal family of the former Dynasty. He collected a large amount of evidence. As a result, before she could wait for her fate to be decided, Princess Yongan went to the palace a few days ago to look for Empress Qin, and then came the news from Laiyi Palace that the imperial concubine was pregnant.
Folding has been approved, Xie Linxiu will all the members of the former royal family moved back to their native Lanling, although no wealth, but at least can survive.
Hsieh Yu’s dishonest paw rubbed my head again. “It’s such a happy event. Why don’t you smile?”
I closed the fold and handed it back to him. “Are you happy?”
“Happy.”
I don’t know why he’s happy, but it’s good to be happy.
“Since you are happy, can you promise me something?”
Hsieh Yu thought it strange. “It’s rare that the little princess would ask me for help. With that, I have to say yes to whatever you say.”
In fact, it’s not a big deal. “Mother Ann, who has always taken care of me, is not in good health in her old age. I want to ask you to let her go out of the palace and spend her old age in peace.”
Hsieh Yu had some regrets. That’s it. I thought you were going to say something big. In fact, if you know how to do it, and if you grow up, with your face, you can naturally coax a lot of men at your disposal, but it’s a pity that the little princess is too simple to understand these foxy tricks.
I frowned and asked impatiently, “Do you agree or not?” It looks good to
be angry. It’s not that difficult, it’s just..
“Just what?”
It’s just that leaving the palace is a matter for the harem. The affairs of the harem have always been handled by Empress Qin, and I can’t interfere. How about this? I’ll take you to see Empress Chin, and if you ask her, she’ll certainly say yes.
Xie Yu kept staring at me when she said this, which made my back tremble.
Moments later, I sighed and said, “It’s so much trouble. Just pretend I didn’t say anything.”
“You’ve said it, but how can you pretend you haven’t?” Hsieh Yu patted me on the head. “Since you don’t want to go, it doesn’t matter if I go.”. But are you sure you don’t want to see Empress Chin?
“I don’t want to.” I answered without hesitation.
That’s the truth. I really don’t want to go to Laiyi Palace to see her.
But I have already understood that there are some things that I can not do if I want to.
the Beginning of Summer is coming, the mother’s birthday is also coming, Xie Linxiu wants to hold a birthday banquet for the mother, Xie Yu pulled me to join in the fun. No matter how I resisted, I was caught by him like a chicken and went to the Qiming Hall where the banquet was held. A stage was set up outside
the Qiming Hall, on which the Palace of Eternal Youth was being sung. Hsieh Yu pointed to the person sitting at the front and said to me, “Father and Empress Qin are sitting there. Don’t you want to see Empress Qin? I’ll take you there.” Naturally,
I could see the people in front of me, and I knew that if I went in, I would see my mother, whom I hadn’t seen for ten years. But when Hsieh Yu pulled me up, I grabbed his sleeve and said, “I don’t want to..”
It is estimated that too do not want to, unconsciously I actually cried out, that posture, as if Xie Yu brought me in today can kill me.
Hsieh Yu probably didn’t think of this either, and wiped the tears from my eyes. “If I don’t want to, I don’t want to. That day I saw that you wanted to come back to the Imperial Palace anyway. I thought you wanted to see Empress Qin too much. That’s all. Then you can honestly wait for me for a while. I’ll come out and bring you two pieces of snacks to eat.”
I let go of my hand and stood in front of the Qiming Hall watching Xie Yu go in. He went to Xie Linxiu’s side and saluted him. His mother remained motionless, ignoring both Xie Yu and Xie Linxiu. Until Xie Yu did not know what to say, I saw my mother’s shoulder moving, as if to look back at something, I turned my head and ran in a panic, just thinking not to let my mother see me.
I don’t want to see her, and I don’t want her to see me.
I didn’t know where I was going. I just wanted to leave the Qiming Hall. I kept running until I reached a pond and couldn’t see the lights of the Qiming Hall.
“Who’s there?”
A man came over, and the lantern shook and cast a piece of light, which made me see clearly what the man looked like. He was a noble young man. I don’t know which playboy came to such a place for no reason.
I took my breath and asked him, “Who are you?”? Breaking into the harem is a capital offense.
The young man was good-looking, but his brain was not very bright. When I said this, I took a step back. “I, I didn’t mean to. I came to the party with my family. I wanted to walk around, but I never thought I would get lost.” He
‘s a road nerd, and he deserves his bad luck. He’s almost in the cold palace. This place used to be guarded, but today it’s all transferred to the Qiming Hall. Poor boy can’t find anyone and can’t find the way.
I pointed out the way I had come and told him, “Follow this road to the east and you will return to the Hall of Enlightenment.”
He saluted me solemnly. “Thank you, girl.” Then he took out a handkerchief and handed it to me. “I don’t know what happened to the girl, but don’t be too sad. This lantern is for you. The road is slippery in the dark. Be careful, girl.”
I was stunned for a moment, did not pick up his things, did not speak, turned to the East Palace. If Xie Yu sees me receiving other people’s things, he will probably go crazy again, after all, I don’t even look at the things he sends on weekdays. Before he had gone a few steps
, he saw Hsieh Yu waiting in front of him with a lantern. “If you have the ability to run so fast, if you have the ability, you can walk back by yourself. What kind of circle are you making here?”.
“Lost.” I said that my face was not red and my heart was beating. With a light laugh
, Hsieh Yu stepped forward and took the lantern from its handle. Holding the lantern in one hand and the long pole in the other, she handed it to me. “Hold on. I’ll take you back. It’s cold and dark. The little princess must follow me closely.” Holding the pole,
I followed him step by step, walking through the brightly lit Qiming Hall and back to the East Palace in darkness.
My days in the East Palace were very boring. Every morning, I climbed trees to collect dew, and then learned piano, chess, calligraphy and painting. When Xie Yu came back, I made tea for him with dew, and then stayed with him in the study. He read the book and I copied it until evening, and the day passed again.
If Xie Yu hadn’t brought me two boxes, I almost forgot that I was dead.
According to the old custom, when a woman is married, her elders should comb her hair and add her hair. But my elder was almost dead, so Xie Yu, who was shameless, insisted on acting as my elder to comb my hair.
“After today, the little princess will be able to talk about marriage. If you have a favorite son, I’ll go and ask my father to marry you.”
I rolled my eyes, not to mention what would happen if I said there was such a person. Besides, I was in the palace, and the only healthy men I saw in my life were Xie Yu and Xie Linxiu’s father and son. Who else could I like.
Hsieh Yu took out an emerald hairpin from the box and waved it in front of my eyes. “It’s a gift from Empress Chin. If you don’t want it, I’ll throw it away.”
As he made a gesture to throw it away, I subconsciously stopped him. Hsieh Yu was very satisfied with my reaction and helped me pull back my hair with a hairpin. “That’s right. What’s there to say about my own mother and daughter?”
Not long after, Hsieh Yu patted me on the shoulder and said, “Well, the little princess has grown up and is even more beautiful. Today is your birthday. If you want anything, I’ll promise you.”
I looked up and asked him, “Really?”
“Why did I lie to you?”
“I want to listen to the opera. I heard a few lines from the Qiming Temple last time, and they were pretty good.”
Hsieh Yu poked me on the forehead. “Who told you to run so fast last time? Do you regret it?”
I nodded. “Well, I regret it, but I don’t want to listen to it in the palace. I want to go out of the palace and listen to the play outside.”
Hsieh Yu said with a smile, “If you want to leave the palace, just say so. What are you doing in a roundabout way?”
Anyway, at least Hsieh Yu kept his word and took me out of the palace, but he somehow pulled out a curtain and put it on my head. “Such a beautiful face can’t be seen by outsiders.”
I curled my lips to express my dissatisfaction, but Xie Yu ignored me.
In order to make me more comfortable, Xie Yu took me to a theater without an entourage. We went late, the play had already begun, the stage was very lively, I was attracted attention as soon as I went in, and let Xie Yu pull me away.
To be precise, this was my first time attending an opera. Hsieh Yu didn’t have much interest in it, but I watched it with great interest. I heard Yang Guifei sing, “If you give me three feet of white silk, would you like to bury me beside you?”. There were even two tears.
Hsieh Yu teased me: “I don’t see that you’re still a man of temperament. What’s there to see? A beautiful woman in a beautiful city promised a fickle king. It was a much-told story in the heyday, but once there was a crisis, she could only be a victim. It was obvious that the emperor was incompetent and that the beauty was involved, but it became a much-told story. I think it’s more like a joke.”
I retorted with a sob, “You are a heartless man. You don’t understand even if you say so.”
Hsieh Yu surrenders. “Okay, I don’t understand. You keep looking. I won’t bother you.”
Without Xie Yu to spoil the scenery, the play was enjoyable to watch. It was a rare trip out of the palace, and I didn’t want to go back like this. When I got out of the theater, I went to the market by myself, turning east and west. Xie Yu followed me step by step, and when he saw what I liked, he spent money to buy it. Apart from anything else, his appearance of spending money was quite pleasing to the eye.
Unfortunately, the weather didn’t cooperate. After a few dull thunders, it suddenly began to rain heavily. Hsieh Yu dragged me to the eaves of a hospital to take shelter from the rain. “It’s a pity that the rain really didn’t come in time.”
I looked at the dim sum shop opposite and said, “It’s a pity. I wanted to taste their dim sum, but I smelled it from a long distance away.”
His family’s snacks were made outside, and when they were cooked, the fragrance drifted far away, but unfortunately they were taken back when it rained.
Hsieh Yu freed one hand to pinch my face. “Normally you don’t eat so many delicate things in the palace, but you have to come out to eat them. It’s really hard for you to feed.” As
I stared at the snack bar, Hsieh Yu asked me, “I really want to eat. How much do I want to eat?”
I pondered for a moment and then answered, “Just like I want to see a play.”
“Cheng.” Hsieh Yu gave me the whole thing. “It’s rare for you to have a birthday, and you just want to eat a snack. Naturally I want to be satisfied.” Then
he ran to the dim sum shop in the rain and knocked on the door. A waiter came out and waved his hand not to sell it, but Xie Yu pointed at me and said something to him. The waiter finally let him in.
When Xie Yu came over with a hot snack, I had two more bags of medicine on my hand. He asked me what it was.
“I was afraid you’d get sick, so I made you some ginger tea.”
The little princess is so considerate of me that I haven’t wasted my efforts. Eat quickly. Originally you couldn’t eat it, but I told the guy that my little lady couldn’t eat it, and after begging for a long time, he made me another one. I had already looked down on
his shapeless appearance. I carefully picked up a piece and put it into my mouth. It was soft, glutinous and sweet. It was really delicious.
Xie Yu was so strong that it was nothing to get wet in the rain, but the next day I fried him a ginger tea and sent it to him with a small jar.
This is the dew I picked. Help me give it to my mother. Empress Chin.
Hsieh Yu smiles, “I can help you, but how can you thank me?”
“How do you want me to thank you?”
“Then I have to think about it. Why don’t you marry me?” He said
similar things many times, but this time I didn’t refute them. “Yes, if you’re not afraid that your father will kill you, or that I will cut you at night, you can have a try.”
“Don’t be too hostile, little princess. Besides, you can’t kill me.”
Recently, my relationship with Xie Yu has eased a lot. Of course, this is his unilateral view. Maybe it’s because I was willing to talk to him when he asked me recently. I didn’t resist when he wanted to teach me how to write by hand. After all, I have to ask him to help me bring dew to my mother.
Every three or five days, I would beg Xie Yu to go. Sometimes he would deliberately refuse to go. I just needed to show a little sadness and he would have to give up. At this time, I would be very grateful for my face.
Hsieh Yu asked me, “Lady Chin has talked about you several times. Are you sure you don’t want to see her?”
I thought for a moment and shook my head. “Give it some time.”
I’m waiting, waiting for the right time.
And soon, the time has come.
After a long time, I still remember that overcast day, several guards broke into the East Palace and took me away. Silver didn’t say anything to stop me, but I was calm and let them take me to Laiyi Palace. A lot of people gathered in front
of Laiyi Palace. The chambermaid, the imperial physician, all had a flustered look on their faces. The chambermaid, the medicine boy, filed out one after another, and a basin of blood was poured out.
Not long after, Xie Linxiu came out, his dragon robe was still stained with blood, his face was solemn, and his eyes seemed to eat me alive.
He looked at me, and I looked at him, and the guard knocked me down with a scabbard, and he came up to me and said, “Did you do that?”
When I didn’t say anything, he gave me a slap. “Say something, did you do it?”
Let him be exasperated, I just do not answer, just look at him, and behind him to make people turn upside down to the palace.
“Beat her, beat her until she speaks, beat her to death and drag her out.”
Xie Linxiu wants to kill me for more than a day or two, but I can’t die yet, at least not here now.
My back hurt so much that I couldn’t feel anything. In a daze, I saw Hsieh Yu kneeling down in front of Hsieh Lin-hsiu and saying something. Another stick came down, and I let out a wail. Finally I said, “I did it.”
“It was I who put zedoary in the dew and killed the child you were thinking about.”
Zedoary can cause fetal death, which I know in the cold palace. When I was sent to Laiyi Palace to eat, I would check it, but no one would suspect that I wanted to harm my own mother, so I would not check it later. A small jar of dew mixed with zedoary can kill an unborn child in less than a month.
Hsieh Yu was kneeling in the shadows. I couldn’t see his face clearly. Hsieh Lin-hsiu was so angry that his whole body trembled. “That’s your own mother. Why did you do that?”
Why? Why?
I spat out a mouthful of blood foam and glanced at Hsieh Yu. Before I could answer Hsieh Linxiu’s question, I heard the maid of the Laiyi Palace exclaim, “Empress!”
Hsieh Lin-hsiu’s figure flashed and he pointed at me and said, “She was killed with a stick, and her body was thrown into a mass grave. I want her to pay for my child’s life!” In the end,
however, I did not pay for my life. When I woke up, I found myself back in the East Palace, lying on the bed, unable to move, and feeling a severe pain all over my body.
“Don’t move.” Hsieh Yu pressed my shoulder and pushed me back onto the bed. “When the wound opens, I’ll have to change the dressing.”
“Is it you?”
Hsieh Yu sat on my bed and said, Although I really wanted to admit it and use it to make the little princess owe me a favor, it’s a pity that it wasn’t. It was Empress Qin who said that if anything happened to you, she wouldn’t live alone, so my father asked me to bring you back. You’ve been in a coma for three days and three nights, and Empress Chin has refused to take her medicine for these three days. It’s a good thing you’ve woken up, otherwise you and your daughter could have met in the underworld.
“You were badly hurt that day. Such a beautiful girl was beaten so badly that she almost lost her human form. Tell me, why did you do that? Where did you get the zedoary?”
“I bought it when I left the palace, for no reason.”
Hsieh Yu chuckled and pulled me up. “Isn’t it for me?”? Otherwise, why did you look at me when my father asked you?
I lowered my head and did not speak. Hsieh Yu said to herself, “Oh, you want to drag me into the water and make our father and son fall apart. You can’t see that the little princess still has such scheming.”. But it’s all right. Now that my father sees you as my man, next time I ask him for marriage, he won’t think too much about it.
I thought he was just talking about marrying me before, but I didn’t think he really opened his mouth to Xie Linxiu. I looked at him in surprise. “Why did you marry me?”
Hsieh Yu says, “My mother had no intention of disciplining me before she died. She wanted to win the favor of her father with all her heart. She used to be a talented woman known far and wide. She knew everything about piano, chess, calligraphy and painting. She was even more gentle and kind. She was a competent queen.”. But no matter what she did, his father only had eyes for Empress Qin, and even though his mother was seriously ill, he never came to see her again.
“I didn’t know any better, and I resented Empress Qin, but when I saw her, I couldn’t hate her. She was really beautiful and kind. Even if I was angry with her, she only had pity in her eyes.”
“Then she said she was concerned about her daughter who was in the cold, so I went to see you. You are like mother and daughter. Obviously you are in prison, but you still pity my situation.” After
my mother died, my relationship with my father got worse and worse. After I met you again, I thought of a good way to make my father unhappy, and that was you. You have the same face as Empress Qin, and if you treat me as well as your mother treats your father, I can easily get what my father can’t get for more than ten years. That would be fun.
He was less than twenty years old, and with a kind of naive cruelty, he tried to get back at his father by clumsy means, but I was involved by mistake.
“And now?” I asked him, “Your mother doesn’t know how to kill people. Does she still think it’s funny?” It’s even more fun
now. It turns out that the little princess and I are the same person, do you know? Empress Chin is pregnant with a boy. I really want to thank the little princess for helping me eliminate a rival. After
this time, I had a serious illness, and I heard that my mother was the same. Xie Yu said that all the precious medicinal materials in the palace had been sent to the Laiyi Palace and the East Palace.
Because of illness, I can only stay in the East Palace every day, Xie Yu will come to see me every day to talk about what happened in the palace to relieve my boredom. Xie Linxiu was very happy to
hear that his mother was getting better.
I heard that Xie Linxiu wanted to make up for his mother and sent her a lot of things.
I heard that Xie Linxiu wanted to make his mother queen. The
last news surprised me, and I couldn’t believe that Xie Linxiu was really not afraid of the world’s comments. But those ministers should stop, even if he is the emperor, can only think about it.
But a few days later, when I was in good health, Hsieh Yu came in with a scroll of imperial edict and said to me, “My father has decreed that Empress Qin be made empress.”. A few days ago the Marquis of Anyang asked for his son to marry you as his wife.
Xie Yu brought the imperial edict that Xie Linxiu wanted to make me a princess and marry me to the prince of Anyang, but he hadn’t pressed the imperial seal yet, so it didn’t count.
“The Marquis of Anyang received the grace of the former emperor and the Empress of Qin in the past year. I didn’t expect that this man would be cautious for so long, but he would take the lead for you. Does the little princess want to agree to this marriage?”
I did not answer him, but clasped the imperial edict tightly and got out of bed. “I’m going to see my mother.”
Hsieh Yu stopped me. “Don’t even think about it, unless you want to be beaten to death by your father.” Something happened to the
queen mother, didn’t it? She hasn’t recovered at all. Something must have happened to her.
Had she not been seriously ill and her days were numbered, Xie Linxiu would not have had the courage to cross the Rubicon and dare to risk the world to make her queen, nor would he have suddenly married me.
I struggled to get to Laiyi Palace, but Hsieh Yu stopped me with one hand and said, “Don’t go.”
“Let me go.”
I punched and kicked him, but I didn’t let him go. While I was arguing, suddenly there was a bell outside. No more, no less. It was twenty-seven. When
the bell rings twenty-seven times, it is a national mourning.
The queen mother has already buried the day, Xie Linxiu is still healthy, that is dead.
All my strength seemed to be emptied for a moment, and I knew I couldn’t catch up with it no matter how hard I tried. I pulled Xie Yu’s sleeve tightly, and a mouthful of blood spat on him.
Xie Linxiu asked me to hold a wake for my mother, and I wanted it. I just think it’s funny that our mother and daughter haven’t met each other for more than ten years because of him. Now that Yin and Yang are separated, let my daughter do her filial piety.
My mother’s coffin had to stand for three days before it could be encoffined. During the three days, there were quite a few people who came and went to pay their respects. While they were weeping for my mother, they would secretly look at me a few times. It was estimated that I was a heartless person who did not even shed tears when my own mother died. What is
this? At the beginning, my father died in battle, the country was destroyed, my relatives and friends died, and I just cried because I was sent to the cold palace. There were so many
people peeking, but only one person leaned over to comfort me and said, “The old friend has gone. Don’t be too sad.”
I looked up and saw that it was my mother’s birthday banquet that day. I met the lost son, who was also the son of the Marquis of Anyang. Xie Linxiu originally pointed out to me the future husband. What’s it
called? Forgot.
I withdrew my eyes and continued to burn the paper, waiting for him to walk away. But the prince, who had no vision, continued to stand beside me, hesitating for a long time, blushing and saying, “You can rest assured that I will take good care of you in the future.” Then
I looked him straight in the face. “What do you mean?” Embarrassed,
the prince scratched his head. “It’s nothing. I just read some stories that say that.”
I suspect that this man is a fool, and I suspect that Xie Linxiu retaliates against me.
“I won’t marry you.”
“But my father said that this was the last wish of the Qin Empress, and that we should let the deceased rest in peace.”
I didn’t say anything, but continued to burn paper for my mother, while the prince said to me, “If you don’t want to, then we can divorce after we get married. In a word, Dad said he would take you out of the palace.”
I don’t understand why Anyang Hou knows that his son is a fool and tells him everything. I’m not afraid that this man’s nonsense will be killed by Xie Linxiu.
I looked up at him and said with a smile, “What about you?”? Will you not be wronged in marrying me?
He shook his head. “If you don’t feel wronged, it’s the same to marry anyone, not to mention what you gave birth to.” It’s so beautiful.
I nodded, feeling that I was taking advantage of my face.
Seeing that I didn’t want to talk to him, he didn’t ask for trouble. Like last time, he took out a handkerchief and put it on my mat. The smoke is so heavy that you need to wipe your eyes when they are red.
I sniffed and turned away from him. After he left, I continued to burn paper into the basin, one by one, and the smoke became thicker and thicker. I coughed twice and wiped the tears from my face. The smoke is really smoky.
A hand grabbed my arm. “Don’t burn it,” he said. “Later, people will think that Empress Qin has come back from the dead and set fire to the temple.”
I pursed my lips and continued to stretch his hand toward the brazier, but he quickly drew back. “The little princess is so cruel. It’s hard for me to bring a sacrifice to the empress Qin.”
The so-called sacrifice is a jar, which I fill with dew every day. The acacia tree in the
East Palace is very tall. Standing on it, you can see the roof of Laiyi Palace. My mother
and I haven’t seen each other for more than ten years. I don’t want to see her, and I can’t see her, and so can she. I can still stand on the acacia tree and look at the roof to chat for comfort, but she can only press all her thoughts in the bottom of her heart and continue to make friends with Xie Lin. Perhaps only when she sees the dew I sent from the altar can she know that her daughter is safe and is watching her silently on the other side of the palace.
Maybe we can spend our whole life like this, knowing that each other’s peace is enough. But there are some things she can’t stand, and I can’t stand.
Mother has done her duty to protect the former royal family for her father. She will not like the enemy who killed her husband, nor will she have children for him. Otherwise, she would not have worn white clothes for her father on her birthday, or her handwriting would not have been left on the handkerchief that the Marquis of Anyang gave me that night. It’s just that I didn’t think she would die. The zedoary I personally sent killed my own mother.
I smashed the jar to pieces. Hsieh Yu avoided the broken porcelain and patted me on the head. “Are you comfortable?”? If you don’t feel well, I’ll keep looking for something to throw at you.
“Why didn’t you let me see my mother for the last time that day?”
Hsieh Yu wiped away the tears from the corners of my eyes? Not all of them will die.
“Then you’re going to die sooner or later. What are you doing alive now?”
I knew I was barking like a madman and spreading all my anger on Xie Yu to ease the pain in my heart.
Hsieh Yu was not annoyed. He grabbed me by the wrist, still laughing. “How dare you talk to me like that? Don’t forget, no one can protect you now.”
“Then kill me.” I shook off his hand. “Do you think I want to live like this just so I can die clean?”
If you walk faster, you may be able to catch up with your mother on the way to the afterlife.
“I won’t let you die.” Hsieh Yu says, “It’s so boring in the palace. Fortunately, I have you as my companion. Don’t worry, as long as I live, you will live. Don’t forget that you owed me a favor and promised to be my Crown Princess.”
I took a few steps back and leaned on my mother’s coffin, squinting at Hsieh Yu. “Hsieh Yu, aren’t you playing a game to get yourself into it?”
Hsieh Yu didn’t answer directly. “That’s not true. It’s just that now I’ve discovered that my toys are just like mine, and I think they’re more interesting.”
“My mother’s last wish is for me to marry the prince of Anyang. Hsieh Lin-hsiu won’t go against her.”
Hsieh Yu seems to have just remembered, “The beloved son of his parents has a far-reaching plan. Empress Chin has arranged a good way out for you before she dies.”. But the prince of Anyang had a serious illness when he was young, and his mind was not complete. Are you willing to do that?
“I do.”
“No, you don’t. I know.” Hsieh Yu approached me. “The little princess and I are the same person. A madman should be with a madman, don’t you think?”
I slapped him in the face, and Hsieh accepted. “I seem to really like the little princess. What can I do?”.
As soon as I finished guarding my mother’s soul, I was seriously ill. Before long, rumors began to spread in the palace about me and Xie Yu. They all said that I was shameless to recommend myself to save my life. Naturally, the
rumor spread to my ears, and I knew who had done it. I did not go to find Xie Yu, knowing that it was useless to go, so I went to find Xie Linxiu before I recovered. He avoided me, and I stayed outside the Hall of the Supreme Principle from day to night. He called me in after the middle of the night, and I came out the next morning. Then he asked me to go to Puyao Temple to pray for my mother.
This is the first time I have thanked Lin Xiu for finally letting me leave the palace.
Puyao Temple is located outside the city. It is a cold and remote place. There are only three nuns left in the huge temple except me. They usually chant sutras and pray for blessings, no matter who lives here. It’s natural to be bitter, but I feel much more comfortable without some people and some things. For
three months in a row, I spent a rare period of peaceful life in Puyao Temple, so when I saw Xie Yu, I inevitably looked a little ugly.
Hsieh Yu suddenly appeared in front of my bed in the middle of the night. As soon as I opened my eyes, I saw this man. He was so scared that he didn’t speak for a long time. He was still in the mood to make me laugh: “Are you afraid?”? I never saw you so timid in the past.
He put the paper bag beside my bed. “The cake I brought for you is the one you insisted on eating when you left the palace last time. It’s a pity that you slept too hard and let it cool.”
I shrank to the foot of the bed. “What are you doing here?”
He lit the candle and sat on my bed. “Can’t I come?”? Oh, yes, if you become my father’s concubine, I really want to avoid suspicion.
I turned my face away and refused to speak, but he forced me under the chin and said, “Your face is really useful. Why did you leave the palace? With this face alone and a little more leverage, you’ll be carefree for the rest of your life.”
He pinched me in pain. I was really afraid of Xie Yu like this. His eyes were so red.
“What’s it to you? Go away.” I slapped him so hard that he let go. I wanted to run away when I was
free, but this annoyed him even more. He turned over and pressed me directly on the bed, holding my wrist tightly with one hand.
I kicked him hard, and he didn’t let go until he saw a red mole on my forearm. He pressed on me and rubbed my Shougong sand. “So it’s still there. I thought you..”
“What do you think?” Annoyed, I asked him, “Do you think everyone is like you, who will stop at nothing to get what they want?”
He was still on top of me, rubbing my wrist. “Aren’t you?”
I slapped him with my backhand, and he got up resentfully and tidied up his clothes, as if we had really done something.
I pulled down the curtain and groped myself to get dressed before getting out of bed, while Xie Yu sat by himself drinking tea. I asked him, “The prince is about to get his crown and marry another beautiful woman. It’s not good to come to me all the time.”
He pulled my wrist and shook it. “Is the little princess angry?”? If you don’t want me to marry someone else, shall I marry you?
“The land of the Buddhists is clean. Your Highness, the prince, is more dignified.” I brushed his hand away and said, “I just think you’re going to kiss someone. If you want people to hear what you have or don’t have, the future Crown Princess will be angry and turn around and spread the fire on me. I have no place to cry.”
He looked at me with bright eyes and put his arms around my waist so that I could sit in front of him. “The little princess seems to be a little different. Why, after staying in the pure land of Buddhism for a long time, people have come to terms with it.”
Xie Yu likes to touch me is not a day or two, I know that in his eyes is just a funny thing, after all, he is willing, I can not eat any loss, about such a day will not last long.
“I don’t think it’s interesting, and I don’t really want to provoke the prince, but I don’t have the ability to stay away from you. I just hope you understand the current affairs and stop pestering me every day.”
“You have a point.” Hsieh Yu pretended to think, “But what should I do? The little princess is too attractive. I can’t let you go.”
I laughed, too. “Then I’ll ruin the face, and you won’t like it.”
“Why don’t you just light up and die?”
“Because I haven’t lived enough. What am I going to do if I die?” I
really didn’t live enough. I spent more than ten years in the palace, making a living under the eyes of my enemies. I finally came out. How could I be willing to die like this. Xie Yu didn’t do anything
that night. I guess he just misunderstood what I did with Xie Linxiu. Of course, I won’t tell him that I knelt all night in Hall of the Supreme Principle and begged to leave the palace, which led to the weakness of my legs and feet when I left the next day. It’s good for him to misunderstand something. No one restrained me
in Puyao Temple, and Xie Linxiu probably didn’t worry that I would take the opportunity to run away. Of course, I knew that I could not run far by myself, so I cut off my mind and just went to the city for a stroll, drinking tea and listening to the opera, and lived a leisurely life. There are many noble people in
the capital. Although I seldom see them, I always meet a few familiar ones, such as the silly prince of the Hou family in Anyang. I don’t remember his name. When he
met me, he was embarrassed to come up and talk directly. He just sat on the tea table opposite me and looked at me from time to time. I had the right to pretend that there was no such person. After drinking a pot of tea, he took the curtain fence and prepared to go to the near moon building to listen to books.
Seeing that I was about to leave, the prince also followed me. I walked faster, and he also walked faster. I walked slowly, and he also wandered slowly behind me. But when I turned around, he pretended to have nothing to do, looking left and right. Finally, at a corner, I couldn’t help but hide and caught him in the act
. “Why are you following me all the way?”.
He blushed and said, “I..” I didn’t.. I only saw you alone, and I was afraid that you would be in danger, and I wanted to protect you.
I was speechless for a moment, thinking that he followed me like this, which made me feel terrible. Remembering that Xie Yu had said before that he was mentally deficient, he let him go, as if he had not seen the man, and let him follow me.
It’s just that I’m a little unlucky today. I’ve worked so hard to find that I’m not going to tell a story today. I can only prepare to leave in frustration.
The prince quickly walked a few steps to catch up with me. “You look a little sad. Do you like listening to books so much?”
“I didn’t like it very much either. I just felt that I had made a trip and found nothing, and I was a little disappointed.”
“That’s the way to do it.” He looked even more nervous than I was. He looked around and suddenly said to me, “Wait for me for a while.” Then
he ran in and said something to the shopkeeper. The shopkeeper respectfully invited us to the largest box on the second floor. Then he moved a table and brought in a screen and melon and fruit snacks. I don’t know why, so I sit down and have tea and snacks.
Not long after, a man stood behind the screen, and with a knock on the startled wood, he began to tell a story: “It is said that in the former court, there was a great general named..”
I was stunned for a moment, and then I couldn’t help laughing. I could see that the prince had never read a book. I guess he didn’t know where he got the script. He was hiding behind the screen and pretending to read it to me.
He is so attentive, I naturally can not brush his face, listen with relish, I have to say, this book is quite well written, the prince is articulate, read clearly. He didn’t finish reading it
until sunset. I clapped my hands, but he just hid behind a screen and asked me, “Would you be happier?”.
“Happy, prince, come out, you invite me to listen to the book, I invite you to drink a cup of tea.”
“No, no, no.” “Men and women are not close to each other,” he said in all seriousness. “Although my father has asked Your Majesty to marry you for me, you are not married after all. You can’t be in the same room with a foreign man like me, or it will damage your reputation.”
He is thoughtful.
I looked at the time. “It’s getting late. I should go back.”. I’ll invite you to tea next time we meet.
Out of the building near the moon, I looked back and saw him standing in front of the window. Seeing that I was waving my hand to me, I waved to him as a farewell. After staying
with a madman like Xie Yu for a long time, I almost forget that there are normal people in the world. After staying
in Puyao Temple for a year, Xie Linxiu seemed to have almost forgotten me. Naturally, I was eager to do so. It would be better if Xie Yu could also forget me, but it often backfired.
Xie Yu comes here every three or five times. I don’t know how he, the prince of the East Palace, can be so idle and play with me all day long. He didn’t do anything when he came. He just sat with me for a while and occasionally brought me some gadgets. I accepted everything. It was better to follow him than to go against him. I just hoped that he would get married quickly and stay away from me.
“It’s time to celebrate the birth of Empress Chin. Although my father’s health is getting worse these days, he insists on going to the tomb of Empress Chin to pay his respects. He also says that after a hundred years he will be buried in the same cave with Empress Chin.”
“Oh.” I am indifferent, just feel absurd, but think about it carefully, there are many absurd things, and there is no shortage of this one.
“I have to go with you, so I can’t come to see the little princess at this time. You must be obedient and don’t take advantage of my absence to make any mistakes.”
I laughed perfunctorily. “Don’t worry. If you leave Beijing, I’ll say I’m sick and stay at Puyao Temple. How about that?”
“Good boy.”
Three days later, Hsieh Lin-hsiu took the prince and his ministers to the emperor’s mausoleum to worship his ancestors. Ten days later, in the middle of the night, I was playing with a dagger I had bought at the market. Hsieh Yu was caught off guard when he pushed the door and came in. With a smile in his eyes, he asked me, “Do you know that the body of the empress Qin was destroyed?”.
Is it? Just found out.
Hsieh Yu gave me a vivid account of what had happened: “My father had temporarily buried her on the hill opposite the emperor’s mausoleum in order to be buried with her. It was a solitary grave. At first glance, it didn’t look unusual, but when my father went to pay his respects, he found that the tomb of the empress Qin had been dug up and the coffin and the body had been burned clean. It looked like it had been newly burned.”
I took the dagger back and didn’t care about what he said.
Hsieh Yu went on to say, “My father was so angry that he fell ill. He probably had a stroke. On the way back, he was carried back by others.”
I looked up at him, and he looked like an irrelevant spectator when something like this happened to his father.
Hsieh Yu leaned in and asked me, “You really don’t know.”
I leaned back and shook my head. “I don’t know.”
He suddenly grabbed my wrist and lifted the sleeve to reveal the gauze on my wrist. He did not break it, but said, “I told you earlier that we are the same people. The little princess did not disappoint me.”
“I didn’t expect you to be so proud.” I pulled back my hand. “If that’s the case, why are you still entertaining me here? Xie Linxiu is already a useless man. Get ready to ascend the throne.”
Before no matter Xie Linxiu and Xie Yu father and son before there is any rift, but in the end Xie Yu or prince, if Xie Linxiu really stroke is afraid of life soon, Xie Yu will be the emperor.
Hsieh Yu thought for a moment and smiled. “The little princess has helped me so much. How can I thank you?”
“Thank you, all right. Give the imperial edict that the prince of Anyang married me to Zhongshu Province, and I’ll thank you.”
“Anything but this.”
“Coincidentally, I don’t want anything but this.”
“You like that fool?”
“I just don’t like you.”
“Don’t say angry words, little princess.” No matter what I said, he didn’t get angry. “I’m not the emperor, and you’re not the emperor of Qin. Some things can’t be generalized.”
“Did you tell this to me or to yourself?”
It’s all the same. You’ve been doing very well recently, and I’m very satisfied. When I ascend the throne, I’ll make you queen. He took the dagger from my hand. “How can such a crude thing be worthy of my little princess? I’ll give you a better one in a few days.”
I took it back and said, “You can keep the good things yourself. You don’t have to waste your mind on me.”
“The little princess didn’t talk so much in the past, but why did she suddenly change her temper today?”
“Because you are so stupid that you have to say something in front of me. If I don’t make it clear, you won’t know how much I hate you.”
“What can I do? The more you hate me, the more I like you.”
Sure enough, Xie Linxiu went soon after, but it was a pity that his wish to be buried with my mother was ruined by me and Xie Yusheng. It was estimated that we would be cursed severely in the underworld.
The news was brought to me by the prince of Anyang, which is strange. I used to go down the mountain to meet him, but he came to Puyao Temple for the first time. What’s more strange is that after a year, I didn’t remember his name, and I was embarrassed to ask more questions, so I was so confused.
As soon as he came in, he said, “It’s the prince..” Your Majesty asked me to come.
Oh, that’s right. How can Xie Yu tolerate me to see other people.
The prince hesitated for a long time and suddenly apologized to me: “Daddy asked me to say sorry to you.”
“Where does that come from?”
“My father has mentioned our marriage many times. Before, it was held down because of the national mourning. Now, now it’s your majesty who refuses. My father says he’s sorry for being entrusted by Empress Qin.”
I lowered my eyes and said, “It’s nothing. It’s an old thing. It’s hard for the Marquis of Anyang to remember it for so many years. It’s all right if it doesn’t work out. If it does, I’m afraid I’ll have to live in guilt all my life.”
“Dad says that a drop of water should be repaid with a spring of water, not to mention a life-saving grace, which naturally needs to be repaid even more.” He suddenly came up and took my hand. “But he also told you not to worry. Your Majesty is a strange man, but he is not a violent man. He should not do anything to you.”
What about you? Do you treat me so well just to repay a debt of gratitude?
He tilted his head, a little puzzled. “Daddy says you’re my fiancee. Isn’t it natural to be nice to your fiancee?”
So that’s all it is.
Seeing that I smiled, the prince was at a loss. “Why, did I say something wrong?”
“No, the prince is a rare person with a simple mind. It’s a great blessing in my life to be able to make friends with you. If you marry the prince in the future, I will give you a big gift.”
He looked down in dismay. “If..” I
didn’t want to hear it, so I interrupted him. “If it’s all meaningless assumptions, don’t say it. You and I know it.”
Because of this sentence, he left a little unhappy, although I am sorry, but there is no way, who let me live so big have not seen a few normal people, really do not know how to communicate with normal people.
It’s really hard for this prince to be so sad that he still cares about my safety and tries his best to send me this token out of the city. I originally did not want to go, but now do not go, it seems that some sorry Anyang Hou father and son this affection. There is a secret passage in the back hill
of Puyao Temple, which may have been opened by monks to escape during the war several years ago. Last time I went to my mother’s spirit, I walked from here. The place is remote, and it is difficult for ordinary people to find it. There is a horse at the foot of the mountain, and I want to know who left it. Fortunately, Xie Yu forced me to learn this and that before, otherwise I could only lead the horse to run. Go
down the mountain and walk more than ten miles to leave the boundary of the capital. I was on tenterhooks all the way. It was false to say that I was not afraid. This was the first time I left the capital. If I did, the nightmare that had haunted me for more than ten years would end.
However, I have always had bad luck. Not long after I was born, my country and family were destroyed before I enjoyed the splendor and wealth. I had a chance to reunite with my mother, but I was separated by Yin and Yang before I met her. The way to leave was in front of me, but the people I really didn’t want to see had already led the troops to wait here.
From this distance, I can still see Hsieh Yu’s smile: “It’s late at night and the dew is heavy. Where is the little princess going?”
I clung to the reins and breathed a sigh of relief. “Of course, there is no place for you.”
He drove his horse over and carried me to his horse at the waist. He raised his knife and fell down. The horse prepared for me by the Marquis of Anyang fell down with a long cry. I closed my eyes and dared not look again.
He held me in his arms. “I thought if you had the ability to find a new way, maybe I would let you go, but you didn’t, little princess. You can’t go the same way twice. You have to remember that.”
I did not speak, remember not to remember, it has nothing to do with me.
Xie Yu took me back to the palace and locked me up in the Laiyi Palace where my mother lived before. I thought I might be left in the palace for a long time like my mother.
Hsieh Yu-kang had just ascended the throne and was still very busy. After the ministers had asked him to choose the candidates, he took the memorial to the throne and deliberately asked me, “Little princess, guess what these ministers will say if I marry you?”
I didn’t speak. I haven’t spoken to him since I returned to the palace. No matter whether I say it or not, he won’t change his mind.
Fortunately, Xie Yu is not too crazy, crazy enough to let me be the queen. He fabricated an identity for me and let me be his imperial concubine without telling the world. I want to laugh when I
hear this imperial edict. This father and son are really a virtue. At the imperial concu
bine ceremony, Xie Yu specially arranged two strong palace maids to follow me on both sides, but unexpectedly, I was very clever. Hsieh Yu was obviously very satisfied with
my performance. After nightfall, he went out of his way to praise me, saying, “It’s rare for the little princess to be obedient today. I thought you were going to make a scene.”
I ignored him with a cold face. He raise my chin and rubbed that Rouge on my lip. “The little princess is really beautiful today. The first time I saw her, I thought you were the most beautiful girl in the world. Today you are more beautiful than when I first saw you.”
He handed me a glass of wine. “I’ve heard that couples have to drink together on the wedding night. Although you and I are not husband and wife, this ceremony is indispensable.”
I pretended to take it, suddenly let go of my hand, and the glass fell to the ground and fell apart.
Hsieh Yu is not annoyed either. “You’re so reluctant. I thought you were over it.”
I gave him a hard push and got up to run, but the dress was really in the way. I tripped and fell to the ground, which made Hsieh Yu laugh. “What is the little princess doing? Is it boudoir fun?”.
His eyes were hot and burning, and I closed my eyes.
He coaxed me in a soft voice, “It’s all right, I’m not afraid.”
I bit my lower lip, closed my eyes, and cut his neck without hesitation.
It was the broken wine cup that had just fallen to the ground. It was not big, but it was sharp enough. Besides, I had killed it. The
blood gushed out, and Hsieh Yu covered his neck and lay on the couch, his eyes red with blood. He didn’t seem to be surprised, and even at this point he was still laughing. “Did you get what you wanted?”.
I gasped. The tile was still in my hand. Half of my body was covered with blood. I thought I must be quite terrible now. Then
he asked me, “Did you get what you wanted?”? When you get what you want, you should wake up.
What do you mean? In an instant, countless pictures and memories poured into my mind. I covered my forehead and watched Xie Yu’s blood slowly drain away, approaching death bit by bit, and then disappear. Everything around him began to collapse. If
you get what you want, you should wake up.
In the end
, when I opened my eyes, the broken curtains were wrapped around the bed, the cobwebs in the corner were swinging with the wind, and the wind made the windows squeak.
It was already winter, but there was no fire in the hall. How could it be called a cold palace if it was lit.
I tried to open my mouth to call, but my voice was hoarse and my neck hurt badly.
Oh, I cut myself on my neck. I wanted to die, but I didn’t. It’s embarrassing. The
queen mother is very beautiful.
But she only has a good face.
Once upon a time, she became the empress of her father, and after her father was defeated and committed suicide, she became the imperial concubine of the new emperor, with a good conscience. Anyway, once the gate of the palace was closed, she could not hear what people outside said, so she just needed to enjoy her splendor and wealth.
As for me, I was a burden she did not want to mention, and I was thrown into the cold palace from an early age.
These things were told to me by Mammy Ann, who took care of me. She whispered in my ear day and night about how bad my mother was. It seemed that there was no worse woman than her in the past and present. Her resentment was due to the fact that she had been a member of her mother’s side in the past year, but her mother was afraid of annoying the new emperor and sent all the palace people of the former Dynasty to the cold palace.
But no matter how much Mammy Ann cursed, it wouldn’t hurt my mother, so she took her anger out on me. It doesn’t matter exactly how it happened. In a word, I always felt that I could grow so big because of God’s blessing. The days in the
cold palace were very hard. I met Prince Xie Yu by chance. He liked me very much. When I was fifteen years old, he took me out of the cold palace. I became his man. I think he was very good to me. At least he was the best to me since I can remember.
He would take me out of the palace, go to Puyao Temple to pray for Buddha, go to the theatre to see a play, and buy the most delicious snacks for me to eat. He said he liked me from a very young age, and now that I finally grew up, he would like me even more.
So even though I know he is my enemy, I can’t hate him. All I want is this simple warmth.
However, I have always been ill-fated, and the more I hope to get something, the easier it is to lose something. Not long ago,
Xie Linxiu betrothed Xie Yu to the Crown Princess. She was a noble daughter from a distinguished family, but she had a bad temperament. After she married to the East Palace, I knew that her temperament was quite bad.
She can’t tolerate me, so she always makes things difficult for no reason.
She is the Crown Princess, I have no name, I can only silently endure, because I know that even if I and Xie Yu said he would not bother, he is tired of me. At this time, I was particularly envious of my mother, envious that she could cling to Xie Linxiu all her life.
I can endure anything. Anyway, life is only a few decades, and it will be over.
Later, Xie Linxiu was seriously ill, and Xie Yu was about to become the emperor. At that time, the Crown Princess was the queen, and my mother became the imperial concubine, still supreme. I, on the other hand, moved back to the cold palace in silence. Mammy Ann had gone, and I was the only one left here. It was all right. No one was talking in my ear, but it was quiet.
But Hsieh Yu wouldn’t let me be quiet. He was angry that I wouldn’t listen, so he moved me back and had my things thrown out and burned. I pulled a quilt and struggled with the Chamberlain, saying to Hsieh Yu, “No, this is the only quilt I have left.”
Xie Yu’s face was black. He scolded me for being sick and insisting on living in such a place. But where else could I go?
Xie Yu let me live in Yigong, which was big and bright, but I was in a state of anxiety all day long and had a sense of foreboding. Sure enough, my premonition came true soon after.
The Crown Princess still couldn’t tolerate me. She pretended to invite me out of the palace to pray for the baby. Although I tried every means to shirk it, I was dragged into the carriage by her maid Mammy. Then, out of the palace, out of the capital, halfway up the hill, the Crown Princess kicked me out of the carriage.
I fell black and blue, and when I woke up, I found myself lying in a mountain depression somewhere. It was twilight. Fortunately, there were no wolves in this place, otherwise I would not have woken up.
I am glad that my clothes and jewelry are still valuable, and I should be able to get some money just by pawning them for a while. As
I thought about my future life, I limped away from the capital. But contrary to his wishes, he was caught back by the people in the palace before long.
It turned out that the Crown Princess met an assassin when she was praying at the Huguo Temple. I betrayed her in order to save my life and ran away, causing the Crown Princess to miscarry. The maid beside
her spoke plausibly, not to mention Xie Yu, I almost believed it.
Xie Yu asked me if it was true, of course I denied it, but Xie Yu did not believe it, I felt speechless, do not believe what you ask.
Xie Yu wants to give an explanation to the Crown Princess, and I am the one he wants to give. He said very well, he said will not kill me, will only let me suffer a little flesh pain, then I should thank him?
Then Xie Yu asked someone to send me to the cold palace to imprison me temporarily and deal with me later. That’s good. I’m more comfortable in the cold. When the
palace escorted me out, I saw my mother come in, but she didn’t squint and just wanted to see the Crown Princess. After all, in her opinion, my cheap daughter was far less important than newly frightened Crown Princess.
I spent a few days in the cold palace, and the people outside would talk in a low voice from time to time. Thanks to them, I knew that the Crown Princess had woken up and was determined to ask me to pay for her child’s life. Then, Xie Yu agreed. It’s not that
I haven’t argued for myself, but Xie Yu didn’t listen, and no one believed me, even though the lie seemed ridiculous.
I can die, but I can’t die in such a vague way, so on the day of the Beginning of Winter, I wrote a suicide note in blood, and then I cut my neck open with the broken porcelain.
Too bad I didn’t die. I fell into a dream, but it was a dream after all. When I
woke up, instead of dying, I left an ugly scar on my neck.
Hsieh Yu came to see me the day after I woke up. He was very sad and looked very real. He asked me, “Why did you do that?”
Nonsense. I don’t want to live. But I have a sore throat, so I don’t want to talk to him.
Xie Yu told me that he had figured out everything and knew that I was wronged, and he would certainly compensate me.
In fact, if he had not brought me back, and did not bother to save me, I would be very grateful to him, must do these superfluous things and then compensate me, which is very boring.
I am in a daze every day, sometimes I can’t tell whether I am in reality or in a dream, and I don’t know whether Xie Yu is real or dead. I know I’m crazy. When I wake up, I think I can be crazy. It’s ridiculous.
Xie Yu said that when I look at him, he is always full of hatred. He is very sad. I really want to tell him that I have no time to comfort you when he is really sad. Anyway, there are many Yingying and Yanyan in his harem, and I don’t need to comfort them.
He wanted me to move back to the Imperial Palace. I shook my head. “I don’t want to. How embarrassing it would be if your Crown Princess saw me.”
“No, I’ve told her she won’t do anything to you anymore.”
I lowered my eyes. “I had a dream in which I killed you.”
I told him about my dream many times, but each time he didn’t take it seriously. He just said to me, “It’s all right. It’s just a dream. Dreams are all fake. Look at me. I’m standing in front of you.”
“Sometimes I wish it were true.”
He grabbed my shoulder anxiously. “It’s not true. I’ll treat you well in the future. Don’t fool around, okay?”? Trust me, I won’t hurt you again!
I looked at the tall acacia tree in the courtyard and suddenly felt very bored. Hsieh Yu had been perfunctory to me so many times, but it wouldn’t have mattered if I had been perfunctory to him once: “Okay, tomorrow, I’ll wait for you to pick me up.”
Hsieh Yu looked at me, and I knew how fake my smile was. I also knew that he had a lot to say about the past, the present, and the future, but he didn’t say it out after all. He just sighed, “I’ll come to pick you up tomorrow, and you have to wait for me.”
I smiled and did not speak. Only
a fool would wait for him, a liar.
After nightfall, I took down the broken curtain and hung it on the tree.
This kind of thing, once born and twice ripe, last time because the porcelain is too blunt, suffered in vain, this time I specially wrapped the rope very strong.
I stepped on the stone bench, closed my eyes, and kicked the stone bench away. What’s good about
reality? If there is a next life, I would rather be a madman who lives in a dream forever and never wake up again.
Record No.: YX01VmYJ9oaMgq9rR
Issued on 2022-06-23 1602. It is prohibited to reprint
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