30. Soft heart
Soft heart.
Love rises with the wind: with your twilight and four seasons
I’ve been chasing a man for four years, and I’ve seen it coming, and I’ve given up.
Delete all contact details, I went to work in another city alone.
But four years later, he closed me to the front door of the hotel. I’m sorry.
One.
Today is my day to report.
But right now, I’m standing in front of a projection, and I’m confused.
I didn’t think I’d be here in four years.
When I was a college boy who had been chasing him for four years, watching him graduate, he promised to be with me, and I deleted all his contacts and came to work in Sioux City alone.
“You can start now. I was reminded by my superiors.
I’ve been working so hard to get my mind back on the project.
Two hours later, the meeting was concluded.
A middle-aged leader of the other side said, “What’s wrong with you?” I’m sorry.
He did not participate in the discussions throughout the meeting.
I found him in a few people’s card and looked at him — the quality department manager.
“No, as always, Miss Yu speaks, speaks well and speaks well. He looked at me and said,
I looked at him in my heart.
Middle-aged leader was interested, “Oh? Listen, do you know each other?”
He leaned back, saying, “No matter how much he knew.” I’m sorry.
The people at the conference table were looking at him, waiting for him to continue.
“I actually went to college with Sing. I’m sorry.
I’m going to get the message and I’m going to make sure he doesn’t talk.
He looked me in the eye, and his mouth was sarcastic.
Then I pulled out my phone and pushed it across the conference table, “Well, please give me the product manual and equipment. I’m sorry.
I looked at the two-dimensional code on the screen and had a slight hesitation.
The transmission of company documents such as this is e-mail communication, even if there is little trust.
And until such time as cooperation has been reached, it is almost impossible for the A side to take the initiative to request additional information.
And I hesitated, and I opened the door, and I couldn’t refuse.
Two.
The department had a probationary colleague who suddenly left, and Chao had asked me to take the job before he recruited him.
I’m happy to take this job.
Then the work became particularly busy.
But I want to be more busy, fill my head with work, so I don’t have to think about anything else.
I’ve been busy until Saturday, and I’ve had a hard day off.
I’m sorry.
I pick up a strange phone and hang up.
But then the phone went on and on.
I took the call myself.
“Hey…” I’m not awake. It’s a sound with tummy.
There’s a familiar sound in the microphone, “It’s me. I’m sorry.
I’ve lost all the troubles.
He didn’t wait for me to talk. He just said, “Do you have time for lunch? I’m sorry.
I sank and said, “There’s something going on at noon. I’m sorry.
“Your things are with me. I’m sorry.
I thought, I can’t think of anything at his place, but I’m not ready to wonder.
“Then please help me with this. I’m sorry.
He smiled and said, “I have no habit of being free to dispose of people and things. Please rest assured, Miss, I just want to return to my rightful owner as soon as possible. I’m sorry.
You can deliver it!
She didn’t give me a chance to talk, she just hung up.
I hung up on the phone and a hotel location was sent on a tweet.
And a simple message…
6 p.m. _Other Organiser
3
I threw my handle on the bed and started thinking about the past.
I fell in love at first sight at the university’s sports fair, and then I asked him to believe.
But a friend’s application was added, and there was no response on the other side.
But I’m not an easy man to give up.
Whenever you have time, you send him a friend’s request and write a crap in that line.
Maybe I’m bored, or something. One day, I just came back from class and suddenly I found out that Shing had approved my friend’s request.
I was happy like a fool.
I’ll send him a message every day after I add a friend.
He did not return from the beginning until he occasionally responded to two sentences, and eventually returned to each.
Although he did not promise my confession, our relationship has progressed dramatically.
I’ll be jealous of him when I see him talking to other girls.
It’s been so long, but every time they remember, they’re still alive.
I’ve been thinking about that time over and over for years.
But I’ve always been sure that if I did it again, I would still choose to leave.
I can’t be with someone.
Then I’m going to spend all my time thinking about what people like and approve.
4
After breakfast, I went to the supermarket to buy some fruit and drive to Grandma’s house.
My mom cheated on me in the middle of the exam.
Divorced, married each other, and my mom and dad had a very good time together.
Even for me, they’re both in the same way.
At first, I went to two new homes.
I’ve been living with my grandparents since.
“Why are you here so early?” Grandma picked up my bag. I’m sorry.
“Have you eaten? Where’s Grandpa?”
“Let’s go out and get some food. I’m sorry.
She went into the kitchen and started washing the fruit I brought.
After lunch, I watched some TV with them, and I left for dinner in the evening.
I’ve been sitting there waiting for me.
I sat there for a while and he didn’t mean anything.
I ended up losing, and I started to say, “How do we choose this restaurant? It’s a long way from your house. I’m sorry.
I saw his address when I sent a gift to the company.
And raise up their eyes a little, and they will not answer me.
I’m embarrassed. Why did I come if I didn’t talk?
This atmosphere of silence is so painful that it should not be here today.
I decided to do it quickly. I’m sorry.
“Do you eat spicy now?” And finally, he talks.
I’m a little tired of eating, “I’m not hungry. Give me something. I’ll go first. I’m sorry.
“Is there anyone waiting at Miss Yu’s house?” Or would you hate it if you stayed with me a little longer? I’m sorry.
5
I looked up, “No. I’m sorry.
“Nothing?” His eyes were staring at me, and there seemed to be some hope in his eyes.
I bit my lips, and I said, “Sing, we’re working together. I don’t hate you. I’m sorry.
And suddenly he smiled, and it was ridiculous.
“No, it’s fine. I’m sorry.
Finally, after dinner.
He stood up and said, “Wait for me at the door. I’ll take the car and take you home. I’m sorry.
“Huh? “No, I’ll take the subway. It’s convenient. I’m sorry.
He walked straight through me, “What’s in the car, you’re here to get something? I’m sorry.
He’s driving fast.
My heart rate is soaring.
“You slow down, it’s too dangerous. I’m sorry.
Bang! The car hit the back.
Irritation keeps my body moving forward and stuck in a seatbelt.
And an arm suddenly over my chest, and his fist towards the door.
Six.
How are you?
He asked me if I’d hit anything.
I was scared. I didn’t turn my head for a second.
When I got here, I saw his hand bleed, and nothing else happened. Should I put wings on you and set a rocket? I’m sorry.
I guess I can still yell at him, but he’s laughing.
The guy who hit our car has called the police. He’s got a good attitude and he’s always apologizing.
It didn’t hit so badly that it could drive.
It was the front car that suddenly slowed down, and he followed it, and the back one hit it without brakes.
When the traffic police are done, it’s over 10.
I looked at his hand. It’s swollen. I’m sorry.
“Well, I’ll take you home first. I’m sorry.
It’s almost an hour before I drive to the hospital.
“Let’s go to the hospital. I’ll navigate to the hospital nearby. I’m sorry.
He stopped me, “No, I’ll go home to ice tonight and go to the hospital in the morning. I’m sorry.
And then whatever I said, he insisted on sending me back.
I’m angry I don’t want to mind him anymore.
Downstairs, I fell out of the car, fell out of the door.
7
The following day, a letter was sent, stating that the hand was fine, that it had been treated with medicine and that the car had been repaired.
I want him to take a picture of his hand and send it with a diagnosis written by the doctor.
That’s how I can really get down.
But I feel like I’ve been told to take care of it.
After that, she didn’t send any more messages.
On several occasions, I tried to call and ask, without knowing my status.
It would be better for us to stop being involved in each other’s lives.
This day, downstairs, I’ll go to my parking space.
There’s a car honk not far away. I look at it.
Sing is coming out of the car, wave to me.
“Did you fix the car?”
I looked at his hand. It was nothing.
He seemed to see my mind and laughed low.
“Come on, I’ll take you there. I’m sorry.
That’s what it takes to get me to work.
I look at the time and I’m late and I don’t keep pushing.
Maybe the crash had a big impact. Now the car’s very honest.
“Are you not working today? I’m sorry.
“Take leave. I’m sorry.
♪ ♪ I’ll tell you ♪ So what?
“Send me off to work? I’m sorry.
He didn’t look down, he looked straight ahead, “Yes. I’m sorry.
I don’t know, that’s the reason for the leave and tomorrow’s Saturday.
“I can’t wait for tomorrow. He says:
8
I sat in front of the company in a quiet and quiet place.
He helped me with the door. I’m sorry.
At noon, he sent a message asking…
Working late today?
I don’t really know what I’m related to now.
Friends are certainly not. No friends take leave to work.
Men and women are not!
It is not clear what the situation is.
I know very clearly that I do not want to be with him right now and that I want to be, and I think I have not made myself clear.
I decided to talk to him at night.
Six o’clock is when there’s traffic.
The car was lined up on the road, and I looked out the window and wondered how to open it.
He didn’t talk, when the car was stuck, he put his hand up and turned the music off.
There was no sound in the car.
I don’t understand him.
He looked over and whispered, “Are you still with him?” I’m sorry.
9
I reacted for a while to figure out who he was.
I just hacked his contact details, and he called and asked me, and I held my handle and I hid in my heart.
He kept asking why, for one reason or another, it seemed like it could be done, and I ended up being forced to say, “I like people.”
In a random reply, he did not expect to remember four years.
The car moved slowly forward, and he took a left turn at one of the junctions, drove it to a small road and stopped it, then looked at me quietly and did not press me to answer.
How?
He said he didn’t have a boyfriend, and then he told him the truth.
Or do you want to continue this lie?
“Speak, Zoo.”
He called me that, and I was soft.
“None. I’m sorry.
They took a cigarette out of the cigarette box, lit it and took a sip and then threw it out.
I felt very acutely that he was not satisfied with the answer just given.
I knew it. He looked down and laughed.
Look at me. It’s quiet. “When were you together? I’m sorry.
I close my eyes and don’t say anything.
A sip of smoke.
There was smoke in the car.
It’s the first time I’ve seen a smoke.
He’s wearing a black shirt today.
The sleeves of the shirt roll up, and the arms reach to the back.
The finger was long, the index finger was wearing a ring of silver, and the ring had a nice bouquet.
At this point, the index finger and the middle finger contained a cigarette with no face but extremely attractive.
I feel so hot in the face, it must be red now.
I turned around and pretended to be choked and coughed.
The smoke is getting shorter and shorter, and he smoked his last sip and ran it over in the ashtray. I’m sorry.
I was unconscious noding, “Well. I’m sorry.
I just lost my voice, and I suddenly bullied myself.
10
He’s got a strong smell of smoke in his mouth.
I missed and missed the mountain and followed him, and I didn’t push him away.
When I got home, I took a shower and lay on my bed.
I put my hand on my lips and it’s numb.
I’ve been dreaming all night. I’ve been dreaming about him.
Wake up at 5 o’clock and sleep again.
I started thinking about us with the light on the screen.
I do not regret yesterday’s meeting, but I do not regret leaving that year.
In my senior year, my famous mother came to me.
She said to me, “We’re not so traditional, we’re asking for a house, we just want girls to grow up in a healthy family. I’m sorry.
I don’t know what kind of career this woman is in front of. She didn’t mention it to me.
But her sentence hit the key.
I’m not a good family, I’m not healthy.
I was ashamed of my mother’s cheating in that moment.
I don’t know how she knows my family, or how much they know.
I just feel like I have nowhere to hide.
At that time, I almost didn’t think about it, and then I took a decision.
Eleven.
The fragrance of fragrance rat’s tails spread throughout the room.
I came out of bed and washed my face, and I spilled cold water on my face, and I felt a lot better.
Just made breakfast, the phone rings.
“Hello?”
“I bought a movie ticket to pick you up. I’m sorry.
I think the situation is as I have not made myself clear, but I am not sure what I want to do now.
“Wind, you give me a while and then I’ll find you. I’m sorry.
“Give you time?” Will I trust you again? Yuo, I won’t.”
He said, “If you don’t like me, you should have pushed me away last night. I’m sorry.
I felt a little wrong and whispered to the phone, “I’m sorry. I’m sorry.
There’s a huge hang-up.
12
I do have very little credibility with him.
By the time his mother came to me, she had gone to a field internship.
And apart from the absence of a solemn confession, we’re already in the same situation as normal couples.
Now in retrospect, he actually treated me like a girlfriend.
He called me every night.
And I spent almost all of my time studying except to sleep and eat, and I canceled every night.
It seems a little unsettling about my sudden change.
He went back to school for five hours.
I was hiding from him, tearing his contact details, and when he called and asked, I said, “I’m sorry, I have someone I like. I’m sorry.
After that, I changed my phone card.
I haven’t spoken to my classmates in years.
This day, I made myself a cup of coffee in the break, and Chai sent me a nail.
“Come on. I’m sorry.
I just pushed the door to the office, and I heard Chai-san’s voice, “Come on, Benz’s about to touch again on Thursday. I’m sorry.
I’m hanging on, “Okay, I’m going to do a separate price communication. I’m sorry.
Cha’s all over the pen, “Well, it’s still the last price. Have some dinner tonight. I’m sorry.
It’s weird.
“Just the two of us?”
13
He put the pen down and smiled at me and said, “Yes, I’d like to buy you a meal. I’m sorry.
What’s going on?
He was called Chao Chao because he had only graduated for a few years and was not very old.
The new industries have grown so fast in recent years, and the internal sector of the company has been abolished and merged, and has been restructured. After the formation of the first two sectors, he has taken on the following tasks and has been acting as director for several years.
Dinner’s about in the 52nd floor restaurant.
Before I came, I proposed to go to Kawakawa’s.
But he insisted on seeing the night.
It’s a beautiful night view. It’s in a window.
I picked the last pasta to put it in my mouth.
I’ve been thinking about how to start with someone I like, and if Cha always means that, we don’t have to waste any more time, so we can all work together.
Miss Yu, what a coincidence. I’m sorry.
I looked back, and I saw Shing standing behind me, and said hi in cold.
Chai always stood up and let him sit, “Let’s have a drink? I’m sorry.
He pulled the chair next to me and said, “Okay. I’m sorry.
Waiter, come here. “Sing, take something. I’m sorry.
A little bit of my plate, and the waiter said, “Just like her. I’m sorry.
Then he said, “It’s like I’m here and Miss Yu is upset. I’m sorry.
I think he’s amazing.
“The manager is thinking too much. “I don’t want to talk to him in front of people, I’ll put the fork down and look at Chao, “I’ll go to the bathroom. I’m sorry.
Get out of the bathroom and I’ll finish up at the front desk.
We’re back in position, and we’re done for the festivities. “It’s late. Let’s go. I’m sorry.
They’ve been drinking. There’s a driver at the door.
Stand at the hotel door and say, “I’ll take you home. I’m sorry.
“How can you give me a drink? I’m sorry.
Cha, too, can’t drink wine. I’ve got a bottle of wine today, and I’ve got to get him on the train.
“Why aren’t you leaving? “I looked back and saw Shing standing in front of the hotel.
“Let’s get you home first. * He says *
“I took a cab. I’m sorry.
“Then I follow your car. I’m sorry.
I’m “…”
In the end, I was dragged to the back, and on the way he held my hand.
A few times, he held it tight and I held it.
I have to admit, it’s good to be held by him.
I was caught in a dilemma and liked him, and I didn’t want to look down on myself in the face of his family, much less think about what he would look at me later.
Even if only to think of the way he might look down, I would be alone in the desert, desperate and helpless, without the courage to struggle…
I was afraid of that moment.
These years have also been running away from the real development of our relationship, when his family stood up against it and stood in the middle to weigh the benefits and the uncertainties.
I think I can accept that he doesn’t like me.
But… not once in my original family.
Moreover, his mother ‘ s objection was justified. Over the years I have seen discussions in some of the original families that a child who is not loved by his or her parents has a great chance to grow up and bring his or her unhappy and unconscious child.
That’s the way it is. The humbled party has to leave silently to preserve its dignity.
14
The next morning.
I got a message from Chuck. I’m sorry I got drunk last night.
I returned my tweets, and I sat in front of the mirror, and I put on my makeup.
Today’s Mercedes company is coming.
This time, there was a lot of people, and there was a lot of enthusiasm, and they were wearing white shirts, and they were very visible among a group of people.
The head of the department received them and took them to the R & D room, the equipment room and the parking lot.
It was 5 p.m., and the company arranged a hotel.
On the table, on the side of B, it is inevitable that everyone has to take a turn to drink.
I’m the one who gets dizzy with a beer.
Chao’s got his body on my side and his finger on the table. I’m sorry.
I knew what he meant, and my head leaned over, and I said, “No way. I’m sorry.
“No, you be careful. He held his hand in his eyes and smiled at me and said, “Only you, a little girl, you don’t count.” I’m sorry.
I’m a little boy, and I’m often thought to go to college.
“Good. “I feel a lot easier when I do.
Wait till you get over and see me on the other side.
In the dining room, no one talks about work, it’s easy.
It’s about young people being in love.
“Does Miss Yu have a boyfriend? A leader sitting above asked me.
Suddenly I was named, and I put it in the bowl, and I laughed, “I don’t have a boyfriend. I’m sorry.
He seemed surprised, “I didn’t think Miss was so good and good that she was single.” I’m sorry.
He brought a glass this way.
I stand up and pass the glass.
He smiled and said, “My son doesn’t have a girlfriend, he has a chance to meet you. Young people make more friends. I’m sorry.
I laughed, “Okay. I’m sorry.
15
When it was over, I went to the bathroom, and I wasn’t expecting to come out, and I was standing in front of the hallway.
He was wearing a white shirt and was smoking on the wall with some drunk slops.
See me out, his deep eyes look over.
I nod my head and say hello and walk by him.
But he grabbed my wrist too hard.
I feel like I’m in pain. I’m sorry.
“Being busy. * He says with some irony *
I don’t think he’s making any sense.
And he didn’t wait for me to answer, and he went on to say, “There’s one around and one waiting to meet. I’m sorry.
I’m completely speechless. The promise at the table is just polite, and the others may not mention it.
I don’t want to get in the way of him here, and my colleagues may be here any minute.
I broke it out. I didn’t.
The people who travel have begun to look at them.
And We shall not break free, and We shall see with Our eyes full of glory, and We shall hold fast,
His eyes were on her, and his eyes were on her, with a painful look, a drink, and his hands were holding my wrist with stubbornness.
He said, “What about me? I’m sorry.
I feel terrible about this.
I threw the cigarette out of his hand with the other hand.
Then he held his hand and said softly, “I’ll call you at night. I’m sorry.
He’s still not loose.
“The arm hurts…”
My voice is tiny, it’s a little stingy, it’s a little stingy.
His hands slowly moved around my wrist.
He took his eyes away, he looked down, he said, “You always knew… how to torture me. I’m sorry.
Speaking of the last few words, his voice is not very clear.
16
It’s more than 10 o’clock home, and I’m a little drunk, but I feel dizzy.
I made myself a glass of honey water.
After taking a bath, it feels totally good, and I don’t blow my hair.
Are you asleep?
It’s been a long time.
I fell asleep while waiting.
He didn’t reply the next day. I guess he was busy at work and didn’t fall back.
By Saturday, I was awakened by a musical bell.
“Hmm? * I haven’t woken up yet. *
“It’s me.”
“I know. I’m sorry.
It was quiet over there for a while, saying, “I didn’t feel well with the drinker that day and didn’t get back to you. I’m sorry.
I rubbed my eyes and opened them, “Is it okay now? I’m sorry.
“None. I’m sorry.
Ah, not the answer.
I haven’t spoken yet. I heard him say, “Sorry. I’m sorry.
“What’s wrong? I’m sorry.
I’m still sick and sound a little sick. “I didn’t mean to offend you that day. I’m sorry. I’m sorry.
I changed the subject, “Go to the hospital. I’m sorry.
“Don’t go. I’m sorry.
“Where’s Uncle and Auntie?” “It’s okay to have someone at home.
“I live by myself. I’m sorry.
So what do you mean, “speak to me”? I don’t know what to do with it.
“So… did you eat breakfast? I’m sorry.
“None. I’m sorry.
Hey!
“If you don’t send me the location, I’ll go down. I’m sorry.
17
I’ve seen it not far. It’s close to me.
I went to buy organic rice and vegetables and it was almost 7:30 at his house.
Just came in and smelled smoke.
“How many cigarettes have you smoked? I’m sorry.
I put something in the kitchen.
Go to the balcony and open the window.
Open the fridge.
Nothing.
He’s been standing at the door since I came in, and there seems to be a line between my eyes and me, and wherever I go, his eyes go.
I took my coat off and let him go back to the bedroom.
“If you’re not feeling well at noon, you have to go to the hospital and sleep in your room. I’ll cook for you. I’m sorry.
Proud or not.
I pushed him in the end.
When the porridge was ready, I gently pushed the door in the bedroom, and Shing fell asleep.
The ashtray over the bed was filled with cigarettes.
How did he…
I sat on the couch by the bed.
The gap in the curtains is through a little light and the smoke is thick in the house.
The room is not clean, it is not clean.
I’ve seen every single one of them, and all of them are so ordinary that he’s connected and he’s attracted to me and he wants me to get close.
I ended up looking in his face.
Meet me for a month.
I can finally…
Look at him in the sight and in the sight of him who is free.
Those who have endured undisguised feelings and are now in the dark.
Maybe it’s still a little uncomfortable.
His eyelashes are long, a little bit of eyelids are covered.
Straight nose.
Even with his eyes closed, he could see that he was a good-looking man.
18
I saw the corner of my pillow showing a big ticket to Beijing.
It’s the city I’ve been in for years.
It was two months ago. Did he travel to Beijing?
I lifted my pillow with a thick notebook.
When it was not lifted, it was full of plane tickets.
I turned the first page, and there was a big sticker I took with him.
In the picture, I smiled and looked at the camera as if I had all the fun under the sky.
This is a big sticker I ran into when I was at the mall, and I let him shoot it with me. I thought he wouldn’t agree. I didn’t think he’d say yes.
Instead of looking at the camera, it looked at me.
I felt like I didn’t get a picture of his face and focused on it, but he felt good and took it away.
Turning back inside, every page is randomly marked with a train ticket, a ticket and a taxi ticket.
It’s not a good sticker. It’s a lot to fall off.
There’s a page where there’s a little portrait, almost the size of a thumb, but it’s a picture.
Turning over the page, the last page says, “Where are you?” I’m sorry.
Four years, he ran dozens of cities.
There are second-line cities and even townships.
When I closed the book, I cried.
I took out my phone and carefully photographed every page, and then closed the book and put it back where it was.
When he left, he should have known that he could not find me, but he kept going on and on.
I woke up at 9:00.
He looks a lot better.
“Brush your teeth and eat. When he came out, I put porridge and food on the table.
A meal to slow him down.
“What will you do later? “The question of slow and twirling.
“Go home. I thought I’d just packed a table full of glasses of cigarettes and asked him, “When did you start smoking? I’m sorry.
“For years now. I’m sorry.
“You… didn’t college talk about your girlfriend? “I’m a little uncomfortable when I’m done with it, and I’m looking at the oven in the kitchen.
After a while, he was low and clear.
He’s still giving porridge to his mouth with a small sip, and he can’t tell if he’s eating.
I couldn’t help but say, “I don’t drink Chinese medicine like you do. I’m sorry.
“I’m afraid you’ll leave when I’m done…”
Maybe I haven’t spoken for too long and turned around and asked me, “What are you thinking? I’m sorry.
I just want to say I’m not leaving tonight. Can I get up and make you breakfast in the morning?
And when I was trying to be euphemistic, I suddenly came and leaned over my shoulder.
I hold my breath and don’t move.
But his hair kept rubbing in my ear, and I tried to control my hand and grab it.
It took me a while to hear him whispering and asking me, “Can you be nice to me?” I’m sorry.
I didn’t say anything.
I think my heart’s full of love, and I have to do something to get my heart back to a smooth beat.
I bow my head to his ears.
Turned into him standing still.
And just as I wanted to do something else, he just got up and grabbed me.
19
“Aah!”
I was thrown on the bed and then covered with a big body.
There’s no space for a second.
I couldn’t stand it, I fell into his tender country.
The festiveness of the day is complete.
We went to the movies and bought food to make at night.
Sunday he came to pick me up and continued to be sticky.
Next weekend, we’ll walk under a tree in the forest, by the lake, in the district.
Don’t get bored.
We haven’t said a word about it, we haven’t said a word about it, we don’t seem to need it.
It’s all natural!
Having him again, everything around me has become better.
In contrast, the past few years have been aging.
Although they were awarded scholarships, found good part-time jobs, completed their studies and received good offers. But the happiest thing is now, as if everything now had meaning.
I don’t know what people like to look like.
But I, seeing a word that he said, “um,” could be a long time back, trying to run over and be held in his arms.
This day off, I bought him shoes on the Internet, and I was ready to deliver them to him after work.
The day after tomorrow is Saturday, just give it to him, but I can’t wait to see his gift.
I got off a little late today. You wait for me at home. I’ll take you home. _Other Organiser
I picked up my phone to answer…
[OKk]
The house is on the second floor. I didn’t wait for the elevator.
The door lock entered the code, pushed the door in, a man was sitting on the couch and the television was still on.
Both of them.
I said, “Hello, Aunty. I’m sorry.
20
I put my head down and changed my shoes and put my present in the cupboard at the door.
“When did you meet?” “Singe-san leaned on the couch, with a serious look and an interrogation gesture.
For several years, I have been able to accept such communication in peace.
No longer, with a weak self-esteem, no one else will be allowed to touch a star and a half.
I said, “Recently. I’m sorry.
“How long are we going to talk?”
I heard my voice loud and clear, “We’re in love on the premise of marriage.” I’m sorry.
She’s not happy on her face.
“I can tell you, I won’t allow a daughter of a mother who cheated on her, and you won’t be a good girl. I’m sorry.
She held the cup on the tea table in her hand, and she continued, “And what will Young think of you when she finds out?” Even if he were to be with you, men would eventually look down on you. You should be ashamed. I’m sorry.
It is as if time had gone back a few years ago, before the graceful woman, who stabbed her most vulnerable in a gentle tone.
Open the door.
“Mom, are you here?”
No slippers. Come on in.
I’ll introduce you.
“No, I’m better known than you. I’ll go first. “Sing’s aunt walked outside the door with her bag.”
It is also clear that the atmosphere is not right.
Come round me in my arms, big hands like a baby to sleep, gently slap me, whispering, “Wait for me, just a minute, wait for me. I’m sorry.
He went out with his shoes on. “Mom, I’ll take you down. I’m sorry.
21
There’s no one in the house. I had a straight back on the couch and closed my eyes.
Those words were repeated over and over in your head.
Those words cannot be refuted.
Auntie was right, but he was not ready to run away as long as she wanted to.
20 minutes, sung back.
“Didn’t you send Auntie? I’m sorry.
“She has a driver. I’m sorry.
Ooh.
He’s not very emotional, but he’s just having an unpleasant conversation.
He came around me with his big body, put his hands around my waist, and buried his head in my arms, and his voice suffocated, “What do you think?” I’m sorry.
I don’t think. I just want to know what he’s thinking.
Didn’t hear me. He squeezed my waist twice.
I’m the one who’s scared of being touched here.
He’s got his arms around me, “What are you thinking, throw me again?” I’m sorry.
I followed my own path, and I said, “No, I’d like to say that if you’d mind, I’d be doing nothing for a while…”
“Who would mind if your mother was your mother, you were you, what she did to you. He raised his head and interrupted me.
At this point, our faces were very close, and their breaths were entwined.
His eyes are getting darker.
“I’m hungry. I’m turning around.
His head was suddenly tied to my neck, so he took a deep breath and let it go.
“I’ll make noodles. I’m sorry.
22
I’ll clean his room while he cooks.
The ashtray was taken out and dragged twice.
The window opens and the night wind blows in.
It’s just a haze.
It also smelled smoke in it. I opened the cupboard to find a new set of four.
A big glass bottle in the closet.
The bottle is about 40 centimetres high, with different sizes and different colours.
I’m going one by one.
Seeing the note I wrote to him in college.
At that time, he never returned my message and I went to wait for him on his way home.
I didn’t stop him from leaving, just to talk to him and put a piece of love in his hand before leaving.
I can’t believe he saved it all.
I looked at it and the tears came down.
In order not to let him out of the bedroom, I cleaned my tears.
Not only did she make noodles, she fired two vegetables.
“Is it bad? I’m sorry.
“Hmm. I’m an honest nod.
“It’s all right, I’ll study, teach. I’m sorry.
I stood up, leaned over the table, got right to his lips and took a little.
And then get out and pick up the chopsticks again, “No, I’ll do it. I’m sorry.
23
In New Year’s, the snow was rare in Sioux.
I was just about to take out my phone and send a message to Sing. His phone came in.
I called, “Hello? It’s snowing! See? I’m sorry.
There’s a happy smile, “Come down, you downstairs. I’m sorry.
“Ah… I went to the window again and saw him waving himself downstairs. I’m sorry.
Snow is flying!
The district street lights turned snow into warm yellow!
There’s a man on the streetlight!
I took a breath, and this picture made my heart fly out.
Falling down, trying to give a man.
Well, when you think of him, you think of your people.
I was wearing a pyjamas and I went out with a scarf on the couch.
“Why are you so out of here? I’m sorry.
They took off their feathers and put them on, and put out a little warm water bag and then a black fur hat.
I was so warmed up by him, “What do you think you’re doing with these? I’m sorry.
“Want to walk with you in the snow. I’m sorry.
“Then I’ll get dressed. You’ll catch a cold. I’m sorry.
“Yeah, I’m hot right now? I’m sorry.
“Hmm? “I doubt watching him.
“What’s wrong with your suspicious eyes?” I’m sorry.
He then leaned over and approached my ears, and his voice was full of wonders, “Do you want me to confirm it? I’m sorry.
Fearing that the event would catch cold, we walked downstairs in 20 minutes.
“I’ll make a bowl of ginger soup, wait for me soon. I’m sorry.
After the ginger soup, I took the fur hat and the scarf to the washing machine.
“The snow here isn’t like the north, it’s goose fur, it’s rain and snow, and it’s wet. I’m sorry.
It’s not happy to hear the sound of the speech on his lips, without a sound, and to press the remote control in his hand for a change.
I realized very acutely that maybe he… still thinks I’m in love with someone else and going north.
Or years in the north, I may not be alone.
I don’t want to leave the misunderstanding until tomorrow.
24
“You go take a shower, you’re sweating. I’m sorry.
“No, I’ll go back and wash. He finally locked a program.
I threw him a light pink towel, “Go on. I’m sorry.
He goes in after.
I turned on the air conditioner to 28 degrees, and I don’t have a thick nightgown for him, afraid he’s cold.
A new set of four sets was replaced in the bed.
And a drop of cinnamon oil on the pillow.
When he washes it out, the temperature’s up.
In addition, they were put on in the bathroom and wanted to see the body.
I threw over a blanket, “Put it on. I’m sorry.
It’s fun, “You’re a ginger and a blanket. “What did I do to make you think I was sick?” I’m sorry.
“You forgot to drink wine and get sick for three days. I’m sorry.
He was choked and ordered to cover his legs.
“I’m going to wash too. I was sweating. I’m sorry.
This must be the fastest bath I ever had.
The bath was washed and the hair was wet and shampoo was rubbed a few times.
The hair blows half dry.
And I put on my pyjamas, and I put on my wooled socks, and I wrapped myself up with little meat.
All right, I’ll walk over to him and watch TV.
He grabbed my hair, “Why don’t you dry it?” I’m sorry.
“Hold up, the air conditioner will dry for a while. I’m sorry.
I’ve been talking for a while.
“Don’t go back. It’s snowing. I can’t worry about driving. I’m sorry.
He was staring at me in silence for a while and suddenly he came to me.
Hands against my head.
He was gentle today.
I looked in the eyes and found him open, and there was a smile in my eyes.
And I sat on his lap, and I put my chin on his shoulder, gently, close to his ear, and I said, “Oh, I didn’t like anyone else, and I liked you all along, until now.” I’m sorry.
25
I don’t know which sentence I stabbed him.
He’s out of control more than ever.
In the supermarket, milk is picked in front of milk from all kinds of brands, and we’re going to Grandpa’s and Grandma’s.
He ordered his cell phone to search for what was better for the elderly.
I suddenly remembered something and asked him, “What did you say I had? I’m sorry.
“Nothing. I’m sorry.
“What, how so, say it. I’m sorry.
I’ve been grinding it all along, and it’s hard for him to tell me, “Little.” I’m sorry.
He’s talking fast and small, and I heard it.
“The graft of hair? I’m sorry.
He won’t talk to me.
I went up there and I couldn’t help but pounce him.
“That’s enough, Yum.”
“If you laugh again, I’ll make you cry when I come home at night. I’m sorry.
26
In another year, we’re going to our parents’ home with our annual goods.
“I don’t think we should go. I’m sorry.
“Why?”
“I’m afraid of my mother…”
“It’s okay. If auntie is upset, we’ll be back in a minute. I’m sorry.
By the time we got there, his parents were waiting for us, his grandparents.
I’m a little surprised that this is too formal.
I thought it was okay, and now suddenly I’m nervous.
“What about your new energy-related work?” I’m sorry.
It’s the first time I’ve seen Dad. Skinny.
He’s got eyes on his nose and he talks to me nicely.
“Well, it’s the tram charge. I’m sorry.
“In the new industry, you have a good career choice. “You’re still a great classmate?” I’m sorry.
“Thank you uncle. * I’ll put my hands on it and I’ll split it. *
“I went to college with Sing-sung. He was older than me. I’m sorry.
And the glamorous grandmother came and sat right next to me and grabbed my hand and said, “Look at this white-and-white hand, it’s a blessing? I’m sorry.
“Don’t cook anymore, let him do it. We women have to keep their hands up. I’m sorry.
“How can you be so partial? I’m sorry.
And when I eat, Grandma keeps holding on to me.
There’s a cooking aunt at home, and she’s burning a big table.
I’d like to stand up and help set the chopsticks. Grandma put my hand on and let me sit.
“When it’s time to get your grandparents to talk, I’m bored at home, and I’ll have someone to talk to.” I’m sorry.
Mom hasn’t spoken since she came in. I don’t feel like looking over there.
The meal was very good, and Grandma kept cooking for him, and there were a couple of my favorites on the table.
I looked at it, and I was moved by it, and he remembers all the little things he did.
This time it’s much better than I thought.
I thought I’d be unwelcome and come back soon. However, it had already been decided that even so, it would not be possible to opt out as it had been before.
The former one, who had built a shell of self-esteem, wrapped himself up in a shell that was fragile and shattered in one way or another, was in fact extremely low.
Now I will, no matter what, resolutely choose my lover.
“What are you laughing at? I’m sorry.
On the way home, I’m not talking to me.
I’ve got two big red buns in my hands. “The red one from Uncle and Auntie is so heavy and happy. I’m sorry.
When I left after dinner, my beautiful mother put the red bag in my hand and said, “You’re all adults, and I know it’s no use if I don’t want you to be together. I’m sorry.
“Why didn’t I see you happy when I gave you all my salary? I’m sorry.
I put the red bag in the bag, and I looked at him and he said, “How are you so good?” I’m sorry.
“What’s going on?”
“Did you call Grandma and Grandpa? I’m sorry.
Turn your face around and I quickly kissed.
“I’ll find a place to park! It just didn’t finish. I’m sorry.
27
At the end of the year, they began to arrange for a meeting between their parents.
“You’re in such a hurry. I’m sorry.
He pulled me over and sat on his lap, “I’m getting married, we’ve wasted years, and I don’t want to be apart any more. I’m sorry.
In March, we got a marriage license.
And I’m sending a circle of friends.
A bunch of college students were blown up in a popular circle of friends.
One morning he was busy responding.
I am the blessing of my colleagues.
Because of the severity of the epidemic, there is no way to have a wedding, let alone to travel on the honeymoon.
But we still took the wedding leave.
Two people were at home watching cooking, watching movies, playing games, sleeping.
Every day it’s like falling in a vortex of happiness.
Quintana.
One.
I’ve been looking for her for four years and I’ve been asking my classmates and teachers.
And she might go to the city.
I don’t know how to find her anymore.
I thought I’d be alone in my life.
She showed up.
One of my countless meetings.
I never thought she’d show up like this in front of me.
Maybe God saw me too poor.
She was wearing a light gray and ankle dress with a white snow shirt.
Her hair’s soft on the white shirt.
The girl next to her dragged her sleeve, “Yo-woo, let’s go.”
“Okay, now.”
It’s a good sound, but it’s still a good sound.
She sits down slowly, opens the file, presents the product methodically.
I looked at her dead and couldn’t get my eyes off her.
I can only see her side at this angle.
She was soft and clear, had a small red ear nail in her ear, had a radical flow of her ears and had a pink ear wheel.
I suddenly feel a little itchy.
Four years later.
She can still easily make it difficult for me.
And she looked at it from the beginning and looked at it from the projection screen.
She’s still the same.
One!
As always, there is a lack of indifference, reason and heart.
Two.
Add her wisps, nothing in the circle of friends.
Before driving, at work, and at dinner, I wanted to open her head.
This is how to ease the urge to miss.
Hold it till Saturday.
I think I have to see her.
Even if she doesn’t want to.
I arrived at the restaurant an hour early.
The person who walked in through the glass without a moment’s notice.
She wears a high waist and has a long, thin, straight pair of pants, with a black-and-white short vest on her back, a small waist, and a thin, thin waist line, with a long gray and leisure suit on the outside.
Cool and cool!
That way, he doesn’t get along with her.
Whether it’s college time, quiet and quiet for her.
She was also at the table that day, reporting on how well the programme was handled.
That night when I sent her back.
I can’t believe it.
No matter who she likes now, who she’s with.
I’m gonna put her around.
Don’t do anything.
3
On the night she left work, I asked her, “Are you still with him? I’m sorry.
“None. I’m sorry.
Sound Microsoft.
My heart is soft.
But think again of the man she liked.
Hate her again.
Fortunately, they’re not together anymore.
Otherwise, I might really lose control of myself.
I don’t know what I’d do to break them up.
“When were you together? I’m sorry.
She didn’t seem to want to answer, close her eyes and ignore me.
I don’t want to hear it.
For four years, however, these problems have remained as deep as the roots, and have gone on a day.
Like him what? When did you like it? How? I don’t know.
I’d like to ask her all the questions that torture me in the middle of the night.
I don’t know what kind of answer I want.
I don’t want to embarrass her, and I want to think of each other as strangers, like her.
I couldn’t handle it without seeing her.
That man’s coming.
I care about crazy.
But in the face of her silence, I could only suck a cigarette.
She was coughed by smoke.
“Your boyfriend doesn’t smoke? I’m sorry.
Her eyes are wet, her cheeks are pink and her ears are small and delicate.
She had a nostril.
I can’t help it any longer.
When her voice fell, she was kissed hard.
She’s a little one, soft as a cloud.
She’s in my arms, but it doesn’t feel real. I hold her tight.
Until her hands slowly surrounded me.
I’m a little twitched, I’m the only one who knows.
I put my chest on her and kissed her deeper.
4
I thought she was my girlfriend after this.
But she said she had time to think about it.
The company’s restaurant, I’m in the bathroom, holding her up.
“The arm hurts… * She’s sarcastic to me and her tone is full of frustration *
Like a kitten, my heart is twitched, and my hands are slowly moving away from her wrist.
She was standing next to me, the whole person was gentle and gentle.
I know.
She’s the coldest.
I was close to looking at her.
At this point, I think it’s okay if she doesn’t love me. I don’t care about her.
She just has to stay.
I ignored that man, that she wasn’t into me, that she was with her.
I found it good.
I can see her, I can hold her, I can hear her, I can see her eyes looking at me…
I slowly relax.
She shouldn’t have gone.
I could try harder to be nice to her and keep her from leaving.
But that day my mother came, and that kind of anxiety struck again.
My mother spoke with contempt: “A daughter raised by an unclean family cannot marry. I’m sorry.
I’m clear.
Why does she always live with Grandma? Why does she save so much?
But when she was in college, she gave me expensive sneakers.
I don’t feel bad about her at all. I just feel terrible.
I hate how I know.
And I’m scared.
She’s so proud that she won’t leave after I know.
She can always leave me anytime.
“Mom, I’m only married to her, not anyone else. I’m sorry.
I’ll run back to my room.
She’s in the sofa. I’m going to hold her.
I smelled her, and I felt better.
“What do you think? I’m sorry.
I didn’t hear her. I squeezed my waist.
“What are you thinking, throw me again?” I’m sorry.
“No, I’d like to say that if you don’t mind, I can take it as nothing for a while…”
I really wanted to strangle her.
After this thing, I clearly felt it.
She’s getting happy and sweeter.
This winter’s first snow day.
I don’t think I have any regrets in my life.
I looked at her one by one.
She’s really like a cloud.
From college to today.
My dream came true.
I can’t help myself. Crazy like you want her.
That night I saw her eyes with tears lit by stars.
I finally have my girl.
(concluded)
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Case number: YXX1azPQov2coL5PamUQ4rK
Green Mei.
Love rises with the wind: with your twilight and four seasons
Wait.
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I don’t know.
Keep your eyes on the road.
