The
monster’s body temperature
waiting for you to finish class, waiting for you to grow up
, I summoned up the courage to prepare to express my love to the school bully, but witnessed a very tragic scene.
The school bully was covered in blood and threatened me not to say anything.
“Promise me one condition, and I’ll keep your secret.”
I took the opportunity to hold the school bully’s hand, and he was stunned.
“Chen Chi-nien, be my boyfriend, and I’ll keep all your secrets from now on.” On the way
back, I tore the love letter I had written all night into pieces. No girl in the
world wants her first confession to be like this.
Chen Jinian is a man of the hour in the school.
Although he is a master who likes to make trouble and often likes to fight, he has good academic performance, good family background and handsome appearance.
Even the teachers and school leaders can’t do anything about him.
Punish him? What about
the enrollment rate. Chen Jinian was the most perfect boy I had ever seen before I
saw him hurt people.
So why on earth did this happen!
Just as I was staring at my desk in a daze and still in shock, a long hand knocked on my desktop.
I looked up and unexpectedly looked into Chen Jinian’s black and white eyes.
He looked calm, his school uniform was clean, and he was wearing the black sweater jacket.
It was as if what I had just seen was only an illusion.
Chen Jinian lowered his eyes.
“Your?”
He threw something with his other hand, but I didn’t see it clearly.
“It’s mine, it’s mine.”
I was nervous, a little embarrassed, and mixed up. A hint of fear.
“Next time you throw it away, you won’t be able to get it back.”
“Huh?”
I didn’t quite understand the meaning of the words, and I withdrew my hand submissively.
“Happy New Year.”
Chen Jinian suddenly approached, so close to my face that I could see the mole in the corner of his eye.
I was in a daze and my heart began to beat wildly.
“You’re shaking.”
This is a positive sentence. He seems to be able to read my mind.
“Where were you and what were you doing during the lunch break?”
“I..”
I pinched myself in an attempt to calm myself down.
I.. I’ll do the paper in the room.
He stared at me for a long time, squinting slightly, and smiling again.
“Is it?”
Then Chen Jinian did not ask again and turned to leave.
I breathed a sigh of relief and then sat down slowly. Open your palms and see what he gave me.
It was clearly the school card I had just dropped because of my violent running. The
school card was stained with undried blood, like a silent mouth, laughing at me for lying. Why did
Chen Jinian lay such a heavy hand? Who did he hurt.
I stared at Chen Jinian’s back with cold hands and feet, as if falling into an abyss.
Zhu Sui, the person you like seems to have a lot of secrets. Deep in
my mind, the voice has been echoing.
“Zhu Sui, why are you in a daze?”! The university entrance exam is in 50 days! The end of
a piece of chalk was thrown with a whoosh.
When I came to my senses, the math teacher glared at me ferociously.
“If it’s garbage, it should stay in the trash can, not pollute the whole environment and drag down the class.”
Then the class burst into laughter. My
math score was the lowest, and I was as quiet as a transparent person in my class. My family conditions were ordinary, and I had never secretly “paid tribute” to Teacher Ma.
To sum up, of course she doesn’t like me very much. For
three years, she always disliked me with her classmates.
“Zhu Sui, do you admit that you are a piece of garbage?” Teacher
Ma asked again.
Even though I have long been used to how to exist in this class atmosphere, but her words, I still feel very harsh.
“Teacher, I seem to have found a better solution to the problem you mentioned just now.”
Chen Jinian suddenly raised his hand and motioned to the teacher.
He broke the ice by making a sound.
Sure enough, the old horse thief immediately beamed and asked Chen Jinian to go to the blackboard to do the exercises.
Chen Jinian turned his head and glanced at me lightly.
That look almost gave me the illusion of saving the scene.
People finally stopped paying attention to me as a marginal person.
Chen Jinian’s back is the same as usual, but it reminds me of the brutal scene behind the boiler room during lunch break.
Also in this position, the fallen man was blocked by Chen Jinian. I could not see his face clearly. I could only see that his body was as soft as a noodle and never stood up again.
Students, learn more from Chen Chi-nien. When doing exercises, we should not be limited by the types of questions and open our minds.
“And you, Zhu Sui, when will you be like Chen Chi-nien?”
The old horse thief is like a noisy female duck in front of the classroom.
Like what?
Like him, he has excellent academic performance, but he is cruel?
I have a crush on Chen Jinian for three years.
In these three years, although I was not liked by the teachers and classmates in my class, I still liked to go to school because I could see him every day. I’m
not putting gold on my face. Apart from my academic achievements, we have a lot in common.
For example, I am not a very talkative person.
And Chen Jinian is a cool person.
Faced with the ridicule and ridicule of teachers and classmates, I am always noncommittal and indifferent.
Chen Jinian is often calm in the face of the brainless flattery of his teachers and classmates.
At the same time, he and I are two rare students in the class who do not give Mr. Ma red envelope. Because
I am poor, he is because the family has power and influence, the old horse thief dare not accept.
A person in the clouds, I saw some similarities in the mud, and I began to think that we were essentially the same kind of people.
It was not easy to stay up until the end of the evening self-study, and I was the last one out of the classroom to lock the door. When I
passed the boiler room next to the teaching building, I thought of the horrible scene during the day. I couldn’t help swallowing saliva. Just
as I was trying to speed through, suddenly a hand grabbed me.
“Save!”
I screamed straight to the spot.
“It’s me. Don’t scream.”
Chen Jinian rolled me into his arms, and the zipper of his black sweater jacket rubbed against my forehead.
I was in pain and hissed again.
Now you know you’re afraid? Why didn’t you call when you peeked during the day?
Chen Jinian’s voice came coldly from overhead.
I lost my temper at once.
I.. I don’t know anything, I don’t see anything.
The next second, he reached out and grabbed my hair, forcing me to look up into his eyes. Under the
night sky, his silhouette was half hidden in the darkness.
We all know exactly what you saw here during your lunch break today.
“Shall I go on?”
I interrupted him.
“I promise you.”
“I will keep this secret, but you have to promise me one condition.” In such an unequal situation,
I eerily negotiated with Chen Jinian.
If you can do it, it will rot in my stomach for the rest of my life. How’s it going
This time, Chen Jinian was stunned.
I pulled down his hand, stretched out five fingers, one by one, and clasped his hand. I may look calm
at this point, but only I know how nervous I am.
“Chen Chi-nien, if you were my boyfriend, I would promise you everything.”
Chen Jinian looked at me with some surprise.
“Zhu Sui, are you not ill?”
Looking back on that night, I thought I was crazy, too.
Later, Chen Jinian asked me.
“Zhu Sui, before you made an offer to me, did you ever think about your own life?”
“Will you not be afraid to lie there one day?”
My answer is more decisive.
“I’ve thought about it, but I’m also afraid.”
Imagine that when you secretly hurt someone, you were hit by the most non-existent female classmate in the class.
As a result, she is not only not afraid of you, but also lets you fall in love with her.
I predicted Chen Jinian’s prediction.
Think about it, there are so many girls who like Chen Jinian in school, and I am not the only one.
But I’m probably the only one who wants to be with him after seeing his face.
The next day, the Chinese teacher handed out the paper for the next model exam. The Chinese results of the
first model exam came out.
I turned to the last page of the paper, and in the composition score, there was a big 59 marked with a red pen.
I couldn’t help turning up the corners of my lips happily.
Even if the total score is not high, the red 59 points are enough to comfort me.
If math class is my purgatory, then Chinese class is my paradise.
I like writing compositions best.
Because of the intention, it is inevitable to attach importance to it.
“Starting from this first model exam, I will read out examples of high scores in composition in class for everyone’s reference.”
All along, everyone’s energy has been devoted to math and English. This time, I not only hope that everyone will pay attention to the subject of Chinese, but also hope that everyone will pay attention to the score of composition.
Hearing what the Chinese teacher said, I lowered my eyes again and saw the big 59 on the roll of paper.
Will you read my composition?
If you read it, I’m afraid the response will be everyone’s ridicule.
In spite of this, I still don’t know what to expect in my heart. After
talking for a long time, the Chinese teacher paused.
“Let’s start with the highest score this time, 57 points, Chen Jinian.” As
expected, I turned the roll back to the first page and leaned back in my chair.
Without a trace of expectation, lie back in the mud that belongs to me.
“Chen Chi-nien, bring me your composition.”
But the boy didn’t listen to the teacher.
He turned around and picked up the roll of paper from my desk and strode to the front of the platform.
“Hello.”
I blushed and called him softly.
In the exclamations of the students, Chen Jinian patted my Chinese paper in front of the teacher.
“The highest score of this composition is Zhu Sui, who got 59 points.”
“If you want us to pay attention to language, why don’t you start by paying attention to every student, teacher?”
The Chinese teacher blushed and hesitated to explain. What do
you mean by that? When did I not value every student? I, I forgot!
“Besides, Chu-sui’s grades are average, and if she only gets a high score on her essay, she won’t be able to convince the other students–what if she memorized it in advance?”
I got up and argued that I didn’t. Average
grades? It is unfair to choose to ignore what Zhu Sui is good at because her grades in other subjects are not outstanding.
Chen Jinian is a little taller than Chinese teacher, and this strong height contrast has brought a sense of oppression.
“Teacher, read it.”
Chen Jinian emphasized it again.
In the silence of the students, the Chinese teacher had to pick up my roll of paper. Hot
eyes, I fought back tears and looked at Chen Jinian.
He wore a black coat, had a buzz cut, sharp eyebrows and eyes, rarely smiled, a straight nose, and a beautiful jaw line. He was really handsome when he spoke loudly for me
just now. After
class, the Chinese teacher, with a calm face, asked Chen Jinian and I to roll to the last row of the classroom to write a self-criticism book. In the
first year of high school, the “grade monsters” chosen by some of the pranksters were put on a list, and on that piece of paper, in alphabetical order, I was written last. The “monsters” on
this list are nothing special, just some fat girl, or some soft-spoken guy, and so on.
Oh, there are also girls like me who are isolated and pale and thin by the teacher.
We are just ordinary boys and girls, but on the monster list, we have our own ugly and vulgar code names.
“a tank that can’t be driven”, “a shemale who likes to peep at male classmates urinating”, “a black fat cow” and so on.
Malice has no shape, but it is vividly reflected in the list.
At one point, the seven monsters on the list were called out.
We were surrounded by several heckling classmates, and later more students joined in.
It has been suggested that the “monsters” slap each other, and if they don’t slap each other loud enough, they slap each other again. The monster who
fans others the loudest and the most times can be removed from the monster list forever. No one started
at first, but between pushing and shoving, I don’t know who started first.
I didn’t want to give in to such disgusting orders, but in the end, I couldn’t stand the pain and began to fight back against others.
At that moment, the seven of us seemed to have become real monsters, and the roof of the teaching building was our Colosseum.
We fought in order to live the same seemingly normal and ordinary campus life as those who watched us.
Chen Jinian appeared at that time.
He rushed to the roof and kicked away the busybodies.
“Who started it?”
Chen Jinian’s veins burst and he picked me up with a low roar.
Do you think school violence is funny? Do you realize that you are ruining other people’s lives?
You like excitement so much? Come out and I’ll be with you!
He pointed to the edge of the roof behind him.
“If you want to play, play big. Why don’t you stand on the top with me and see who pushes the other side down first?”
“Do you dare to play?”
Chen Jinian smiled coldly. He waited for a few seconds, but no one dared to answer.
At that time, I was swollen like a pig, and it was hard for me to open my eyes.
Chen Jinian carefully carried me on his back, away from the nightmare. I didn’t cry when I
was beaten, but when I lay on him, I shed tears.
With him as the boundary, there is a chaotic world in front of him, and behind his shoulder is my youth that is tottering but caught.
At that time, I firmly believed that Chen Jinian must have come into my life with a sense of redemption.
So even if he killed someone else, I would like to leave room to believe that he is a good man.
Thoughts were pulled back, I stopped writing and looked at Chen Jinian.
“Chen Chi-nien, will you agree to what I said last night?”
Clever, proud and untamed.
If someone asks me to use a few adjectives to define Chen Jinian, I will certainly answer like this.
In my eyes, Chen Jinian is not a top student who sticks to the rules, nor a hoodlum who fights all day long.
He jumps out of two routines, just himself.
Most importantly, Chen Jinian has the courage not to be silent.
He could stand in the crowd that day, or he could be a quiet bystander forever.
But he didn’t.
Chen Jinian’s action that day inexplicably became my confidence. I came to the boiler room with a love letter that I had rewritten
in an evening self-study time. Sure enough,
Chen Jinian was there.
I handed him the love letter I wrote first.
“I did follow you on your lunch break that day, but I did it to give you this.”
He held the basketball in his arms and pointed the paper at the dim street lamp.
“I like you, Chen Chi-nien.”
Chen Jinian tilted his head and read out the first sentence very loudly. After
reading, Chen Jinian’s good-looking eyebrows and eyes rippled with a smile.
“Zhu Sui, your composition is so good, but why are your love letters so corny?”
He looked happy, but his words were full of disgust.
I felt a little ashamed and touched my nose.
“This kind of writing technique is called’straight to the point and straight to the heart. ‘”
Chen Jinian’s deep eyes turned to me.
“Since you were following me during the lunch break that day, you should have seen it.”
“I’m here to hurt people.”
Chen Jinian pointed to his feet, his tone light, as if he were talking about something very common.
“If the police find me, I’ll go to jail right away.”
“So what do you like about me?”
He approached me, clapping the basketball in his hand and closing my nervous heartbeat.
“Rooftop, Monster List, do you remember?”
My eyes are still firm.
“You saved my life that day.”
Chen Jinian seemed to remember that.
If you hadn’t shown up in time, I might have become a monster in the eyes of others. I remember everything
you said to me the other day.
You say, Do not get used to being a silent person, and do not be like them. I am not a monster, and no one can judge what I am.
“Only I can decide who I am.” The wind was a little cool
at night, but my ears were slightly hot and I didn’t feel cold at all.
And you always come to my rescue, I’m really.. Thank you very much.
I don’t know how long it took for Chen Jinian to kick the basketball away.
“It sounds like I’m a thoroughly good person.”
The basketball rolled to the side alone.
He approached me, put a hand on my head, and touched it very, very gently. Aren’t
you curious at all why I suddenly appeared on the roof that day?
And who is the fallen man, and why did I hurt him.
“Can your love go beyond these questions and continue frankly?”
His voice was deep and penetrated my doubts layer by layer. I
bite my lip.
“So, Chen Chi-nien, why did you suddenly appear on the rooftop that day?”
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“Because I have received the same invitation as you.”
Chen Jinian said lightly.
Yes, at that time, all seven of us came to the roof because we received an anonymous invitation.
I’m shocked.
“Why do you get monster invitations?”
He lowered his eyebrows and looked at the basketball in the distance.
“X on the monster list, that’s me.”
At that moment, I seemed to understand something.
Chen Jinian has recognized good grades, at the same time, because of his parents, there is no lack of teachers and classmates fawning.
But he is always a maverick and doesn’t like to make friends with others. Occasionally, there will be some whispering voices in the
class, feeling that such Chen Jinian is putting on airs, saying that he is pretending behind his back.
It turned out that X on the monster list was Chen Jinian.
I have imagined many answers, but I have not thought of this one.
“My reason for saving you may never be as great as you think, but it is because I am one of the monsters.” That’s
not true.
I took a deep breath.
Even if you don’t admit it, it doesn’t change a fact. You took me from the roof
that day.
“You stretched out your hand first, Chen Chi-nien.” Instead of being swayed by his words,
I was more determined by what I saw with my own eyes that day.
Chen Jinian was slightly stunned, and there seemed to be an emotional churning in his eyes.
Now, let me answer your second question.
“If you have a reason to do something like that that day-
” I don’t like it as much as you think, but I won’t be blind.
As long as you tell me the real reason, I will make my choice, but no matter what kind of choice, it depends on my own heart.
Chen Chi-nien seemed to subconsciously ask, “What choice?”
I said word for word, “Should I continue to like you frankly, or should I call the police and let the law decide?”
Speaking of this, I feel that the big stone in my heart has fallen to the ground.
Chen Jinian looked at me with dim eyes.
“Zhu Sui, I’m not as good as you think.”
Don’t come near people like me. It’s bad luck. You’ll have a better one in the future–Before
Chen Chi-nien had finished speaking, his face suddenly changed.
“Get out of the way!”
All of a sudden, he quickly pulled something out of the pocket of his sweater.
Everything happened so fast that I didn’t even have time to see his movements.
Chen Jinian stood in front of me.
And I was stunned. In front of
us, a man appeared out of thin air!
The man’s face was hidden in the darkness and I couldn’t see his features.
I don’t even know when this mysterious man appeared behind me.
The man raised the knife in his hand and stabbed Chen Jinian fiercely.
Chen Jinian snorted and reeled back.
But even so, he still protected me tightly behind me and did not move a step.
I screamed.
Chen Jinian endured the pain, grabbed the collar of the other side, and began to fight back with the sharp weapon in his hand.
Until the man did not move.
I fell down on the ground.
By the dim street lamp, I saw Chen Jinian covering his wound and dying.
I finally saw who was hurt by Chen Jinian.
Those puzzles and puzzles are all revealed today.
The third man lying in a pool of blood, from his eyebrows and eyes to his clothes, was all familiar to me.
It was clear that it
was another Chen Jinian. In my
panic, I immediately thought of calling 120 first.
“Don’t move.”
Chen Jinian gave a low shout and grabbed my hand.
He moved his body with difficulty to remove another “Chen Jinian” from his body.
He took a deep breath and reached out to pull out the knife from his body.
If Chen Jinian hadn’t just blocked this for me, it would be me lying here at this time.
Thinking of this, I felt so sad that I grinned and cried.
“I’m not dead yet. Why are you crying?”
His bloody hand came close to my face and somewhat roughly wiped away my tears.
“Zhu Sui, you are an accomplice now.”
Seeing me grinning, he was a little proud and laughed out loud.
“You can’t get off this pirate ship.”
I’m angry.
“What time is it? Are you still in the mood to say this?”
Chen Jinian lay on the ground, and the pool of blood was like a dark flower blooming on the ground.
He clutched his chest as if he were tired and made a silent gesture.
And under him, the blood, like burning ashes, gradually disappeared in the cover of night. I wouldn’t have believed my own eyes
if I hadn’t seen them with my own eyes.
I turned to look at the man just now.
Sure enough, another Chen Jinian disappeared with the ashes.
I have become a petrified sculpture.
I even suspect that everything in front of me is just my fantasy.
“This is the truth.”
Chen Jinian chuckled.
“Are you curious about why I hurt him like that that day, but the school has never disclosed any news?”
Soon, Chen Jinian’s wound healed as before.
I saw that even the cold liquid on my hands was gone in a flash.
“Who is he?”
I asked.
Chen Jinian looked down at his intact chest, as if a little helpless.
You see, he is me. I have met him nine times
since I first found him.
At home, on the street, at school. He’s like a shadow. He’ll appear anywhere at random.
If I hadn’t done it first, he could have hurt someone close to me, and I wouldn’t have allowed that to happen.
“The person I fight back against is myself.”
Chen Jinian lay on the ground like that, reached out to cover his eyes, did not want to reveal his emotions, and seemed to narrate calmly.
“Knowing this, do you still like me?”
I crouched in the light of the street lamp and looked down at him.
Somehow, I feel vaguely in my heart that at this moment, Chen Jinian would like to know the answer I gave to the second question. Between
the moonlight and the dim light, I bent down and dropped a very light kiss.
His lips were very cold, and at the moment when our body temperature reached each other, Chen Jinian trembled slightly.
Then he took off the arm that was covering his eyes, the corners of his eyes were red, and he stared at me viciously.
“Zhu Sui, remember, this time, you came to recruit me first.”
Next, I lost my first kiss for the second time.
Still lost to the same person.
Chen Jinian told me that he did not belong to my world.
He also said that maybe this is the world where I exist because of him.
“I have a notebook with my diary on the front and some random notes on the back.”
“One day, I noticed that something was wrong.” What
Chen Jinian said was wrong was that the contents recorded on the front and back of the notebook seemed to be changing.
I don’t know when those essays and diaries began to merge together.
He can’t even stop such a change.
According to Chen Jinian, the world I exist in should be the world merged by his diaries and essays.
Chen Jinian began to feel sleepy in another world and slept longer and longer.
However, every time he falls asleep on the other side of the world, he wakes up in my world.
At first, he couldn’t accept such a ridiculous thing.
Chen Jinian also tried many solutions, but whenever he wanted to return to the original world by hurting himself, parents in another world were also facing the pain of losing their children.
He couldn’t bear it.
Until Chen Jinian could no longer wake up from his own world.
“It was from that day that the man who was exactly like me began to appear.”
“What day?”
I asked in reply.
“On the day I knew I would never be able to go back.”
Chen Jinian said lightly. Random
place, random time. Wherever
he appears, another “Chen Jinian” will appear. The first meeting between
Chen Jinian and Shadow was at home.
The “shadow” suddenly appeared in the living room. Father Chen, who was sleeping soundly, did not know about the knife held high behind him.
If Chen’s father turned back at that time, he would have experienced the most horrible thing in his life. The man
holding the knife had the same face as his own son.
At that time, Chen Jinian was cutting fruit in the kitchen, and saw the face like a clone from the glass door, and the chill rose from the soles of his feet to his back.
But he soon calmed down and found the sharpest boning knife at the first time.
It was also the first time that Chen Jinian chose to fight back. When he was bleeding all over, the smell made him want to vomit.
The shadow turned and smiled sullenly at Chen Jinian.
“Chen Chi-nien, do you think you’ll forget everything if you hide here?”
He imitated the way the shadow spoke with a funny expression, but I couldn’t laugh.
Chen Jinian said before that he had killed the shadow nine times, so did he get hurt in these nine times?
Although his wound will heal, the process must be very painful.
“If you really feel sorry for me, you can study math with me and go to the same university with me in the future.”
He probably saw through my hesitation and teased me.
“Get into a school?”
With my grades?
I don’t know if Chen Jinian is crazy.
“Yeah, I don’t like long-distance relationships.”
He reached out and squeezed my face.
“Let’s go to a seaside city together, fall in love at the same university, and get married after graduation. How about that?”
Then Chen Jinian touched my head again.
“Even if you don’t get into a university, I hope you can have a good life.”
I grabbed his hand and shook my head stubbornly.
“No, I will chase you with all my strength.”
I must be admitted to the same university with Chen Jinian.
I don’t want to live my life without him. How can a life
without him be a good life?
Ten
days later, Chen Jinian wrote a real-name report letter, poking the ridiculous list of grade monsters to the Education Bureau. As soon as
the incident broke out, it caused a great uproar. The leaders of the
Education Bureau were furious, and five school leaders and teachers, including the principal, were dismissed for taking bribes in private. The day the
old horse thief was fired, he cried in front of me.
She apologized to me and asked for my forgiveness.
I said, no, not in my next life.
As a member of the monster list, any interview scenes with victims were completed by Chen Jinian alone.
He is angry for us and speaks for us.
I knew that Chen Jinian was protecting the other seven of us in his own way.
Soon, several people who took the lead in writing the monster list were found out one by one.
At the request of Chen Jinian, they wrote a self-criticism book on the school forum, recorded a video, and had to appear in full face and apologize publicly to the whole school.
At the end of that post, there was a picture attached by an anonymous alumnus.
That’s a photo of me and Chen Jinian standing on the basketball court. The
beautiful sunset always appears in the hot and dry evening self-study, and all the rays of the sun leap on our shoulders. With a basketball in one hand and a Pokémon Band-Aid on his left cheekbone,
Chen Jinian made a super ugly grimace and a gesture of wiping his neck with the other hand.
I stood on his left side, my head slightly inclined to him, holding a rectangular cardboard card with five big characters written on it.
“There are no monsters on campus.”
At the moment of pressing the shutter, I couldn’t help but gently raise the corners of my mouth.
That day, obviously very beautiful, but pretend to be no different from an ordinary day in our life. The countdown to
the college entrance examination is 30 days. The countdown to
the college entrance examination is ten days.
The days are passing and the time is getting shorter and shorter. I want to spend all my time studying
as if I had chicken blood.
With the motivation from Chen Jinian, I can see all the difficult math problems. If you can’t solve it
once, you can solve it ten times. If you can’t learn it ten times, you can brush it twenty times.
I care about the results after each big test, and the distance between my ranking and Chen Jinian’s ranking is gradually shortened.
However, Chen Jinian’s state is diametrically opposed to mine.
He seemed so tired that he even fell asleep in class several times.
Chen Jinian often fell asleep during his lunch break, and his classmates called him several times and couldn’t wake him up.
The most exaggerated one was that when he was talking to me, he fell asleep in the middle of the lecture.
I gripped the pen in my hand and watched him close his eyes.
“Hey, Chen Chi-nien.”
“Don’t sleep.”
I hate this feeling of anxiety, as if he will not wake up as long as he closes his eyes.
I reached out to touch his face, and Chen Jinian opened his eyes.
Seeing the tears in my eyes, Chen Jinian was stunned.
“Why are you crying?”
“You don’t seem to have a good rest these days. You can’t wake up.”
I pretended to be relaxed and raised my hand to wipe away my tears.
Chen Jinian was silent.
He didn’t say anything, he just threw his arms around me.
In his silence, I felt vaguely that something was happening that I didn’t want to admit.
I have been afraid to ask Chen Jinian what he wrote in his diary and what he wrote in his essays.
His life in the other world must also be very unhappy to create such a depressed world around me.
Our twisted high school life, our similarities, and.. The shadow asked him about that sentence.
Why did the shadow say that Chen Jinian was hiding here.
In another world, what is it that he does not want to face? In
his world.. Do I exist, too?
“Sorry, Sui Sui.”
“Lately, I always seem to be called back to another world.” The answer that
I hated most finally came out at this moment.
We agreed that no matter when Chen Jinian would fall asleep, we would work hard towards the common goal.
Even if there is a flame behind us that devours us at any time, we should walk side by side until the end.
Miraculously, after we have made such a decision, fate seems to shrink from us.
Chen Jinian is no longer unusually sleepy, but like me, he spends every day in a pile of paper rolls. The day before
the college entrance examination, Chen Jinian smiled and took my math model examination paper, very satisfied.
“Zhu Sui, it’s OK. Now I can get more than 100 points in the exam. Tomorrow I’ll have an extraordinary performance. It’s steady.”
I was amused by him, and my nervous mood relaxed in an instant.
Without the existence of Chen Jinian, I would never want to be a better person.
He changed me. On the day of
the college entrance examination, before the first Chinese exam, Chen Jinian came to my examination room in the rain and gave me a box of hot milk.
“See there? I’ll wait for you here after the exam.”
“Good.”
I promised him.
“Chen Chi-nien, come and check the answers with me after the math exam. If I exceed 120 points, you can answer one question for me.”
His capped hand paused, and then he smiled.
“Stupid, you can’t check your answers after the college entrance examination. If you don’t do well in the exam, it will affect your next exam.”
“Why don’t you ask me now?”
Think of what he said is also right, I hold the box of hot milk, standing in the fine rain, say the confusion buried in the bottom of my heart for a long time.
In your world.. Do I exist, too? What kind of person am I? Do you like me as much as you do now?
I wanted to ask only one, but I didn’t hold back, and I said so much.
Chen Jinian patted me on the head.
“It was agreed that there would be only one question.”
Still, he was patient. In the
other world, you are no different from what you are now. You are very kind and hard-working.
Most of all, I like you too.
“I was the first one to confess my love to you.”
At the end, my heart seemed to explode like a firework. I
don’t know if it was my illusion, but Chen Jinian’s hand holding my shoulder seemed to exert some force.
He turned his head. I couldn’t really see his face. According to
our quick report, two bodies were found on the east side of the No.2 residential building outside the examination hall of No.1 Middle School in our city after the completion of the mathematics course of the college entrance examination today. One of them is Chen Mou, a senior three student in No.1 Middle School of our city, and the other body information is unknown. Both victims were stabbed several times in the abdomen. According to the method, it should have been caused by a fistfight.
A slightly hoarse male voice murmured in the ward. The first thing the teenager, who had been in a
coma for six months, did when he woke up was to turn the ward upside down in order to find a crimson book. The passage
just now was read out by the young man from the book word by word. In front of the
hospital bed stood several men in white coats and police uniforms.
“What about celebrating the New Year?”
The boy asked coldly, dropping his arms like a sign of a storm.
No one responded, and it was so quiet that you could hear a pin drop.
No one dared to tell him the cruel truth.
In the campus bullying that shocked the whole city, the girl who fell from the building with the teenager was diagnosed with brain death on the spot on the day they were sent to the hospital together.
The teenager, named Chen Jinian, was admitted to the convalescent hospital six months ago.
He wakes up once in a while.
But every time he wakes up, he doesn’t eat or drink, and he doesn’t want to communicate with others. He just keeps writing in the red book.
Chen Jinian’s red eyes were gloomy with chaos. Write
vigorously, tear it off, rewrite it again, and repeat it countless times almost tirelessly.
As long as anyone dares to stop him, he will pick up the pen next to him and hurt people, like a weapon to defend everything.
“What are you saying, celebrating the New Year?”
The boy sat on the hospital bed like an angry beast, pulled out the needle in his hand and questioned all the people standing in the ward at this time.
Chen Chi-nien, we regret to inform you that your monitor, Zhu Sui.. She died in an accident six months ago.
But the letter she sent to the Education Bureau a week before her death was received by the leaders, and the relevant teachers and students have been dealt with.
“There will be no more bullying on campus in No.1 Middle School. This is the result of your joint efforts.”
The boy jumped to the ground barefoot and grabbed the collar of the police uniform uncle.
Fart! You’re lying! She obviously took the college entrance exam with me!
Chen Chi-nien, please calm down. You’ve just woken up now, and we can understand why you can’t accept reality for a while!
The healthcare workers stepped forward and tried to comfort the teenager who was on the verge of collapse.
“Get out of here.”
Chen Jinian’s eyes were red and no one was allowed to approach.
When he was left alone in the ward, he looked at his surroundings in frustration. The
cold ward was empty, and all that came into view was pale.
This is his world.
It seemed to take a long time for Chen Jinian to digest what the facts were.
The locked diary was opened gently by him.
From the front, I recorded how I hated such a bad and depressing high school life.
At first, it was only because the family did not have the conditions to “pay tribute” that the snobbish head teacher took the lead in isolating them.
Later, the charges gradually accumulated. Although
the results are not very bad, they are often ridiculed by the head teacher because of their partial subjects.
Do not like to talk, do not like to make friends, gradually become the charge of bullying.
The head teacher said that Chen Jinian was a monster and an alien. If you get close
to someone like him, you will also become unlucky.
Chen Jinian was noncommittal.
He knew that as long as he didn’t feel like a monster, he wouldn’t care if the whole world said so.
One person eats, one person plays, one person uses his fists to deal with all the malice of the outside world.
Until I met Zhu Sui.
Zhu Sui is the monitor and the student with the best academic performance. Not only that, he can also play the piano and dance ballet. He is also the object of many boys’secret love in the school.
He was in the school boiler room punching a bastard who had missed his own basketball, and after several punches, the man was already crying for mercy.
It happened that this scene was caught by Zhu Sui. She had never seen this battle before and screamed in fright.
Zhu Sui covered his mouth and exclaimed, as if he was a little cute.
So holding always want to play tricks on her mind, but inexplicably began to care about her.
Care about whether she has shoulder-length hair or a high ponytail today, care about whether she will stay when she passes by her desk, and care more about what she said to herself.
If Zhu Sui is the light, Chen Jinian feels that he is the dark side of the light, until he is wrapped by the light, he also expects to become the light.
Because even if the whole class isolated themselves, Zhu Sui never cared.
Zhu Sui will bring him breakfast, although it is only a box of hot milk, but it is the best breakfast Chen Jinian has ever eaten.
Zhu Sui told him not to fight again and bandaged his bloody hands.
He stared at the small neck that Zhu Sui lowered his head and exposed, and his heart melted into a cloud.
From then on, he did everything Zhu Sui said.
Zhu Sui said that if he studied liberal arts well, he would make up lessons obediently.
Zhu Sui also said that they should study hard and study hard in the future, and maybe they can be admitted to a university together. What about after
being admitted to a university?
Chen Jinian asked with a smile.
Zhu Sui’s ears were red and he said, “Well, we can still be good friends.”.
Shit.
Chen Jinian meditated in his heart.
Who wants to be your best friend, stupid.
One day, Chen Jinian carefully wrote Zhu Sui’s name and his own name together.
After a while, Chen Jinian wrote a big monster after his name.
Somehow, he began to feel that the label of monster was so dazzling.
It was also the first time he felt that he was not worthy of Zhu Sui.
Chen Jinian made up his mind to live a good last high school life. Besides studying hard, he also learned how to get along with other students, trying to eliminate people’s prejudice against him and remove the title of this monster.
But God likes to joke with him. The paper on which
their names were written was not known to be seen by any interested students, and the class soon spread the rumor of their puppy love.
Not only that, but they embellished the list by expanding it to “grade monsters.”. All the excluded students in the third
grade of senior high school are on the list. What made him
most furious was that Zhu Sui’s name was not crossed out on the list. How could
he make her an alien, too?
However, if it were not for the name of Zhu Sui on the list, he would never have appeared on the roof as promised on that day. On the day of
receiving the invitation from the monster, Chen Jinian went straight to the roof with a circlip knife.
“I don’t care what you think of me.”
Who added Zhu Sui’s name? My business is directed at me alone.
He had already thought about it, even if he fought for his worthless future, he would draw a clear line with Zhu Sui.
Even if he can’t go to the same university with her.
She likes to fall in love with monsters, so she can be nailed to the pillar of shame with monsters. So what if you’re a good student? She deserved it!
I don’t know who is laughing and his eyes are cold. Only
then did Chen Jinian understand.
A person’s evil can be attributed to the problem of character, but a group of people’s evil will become a kind of political correctness. The elimination of prejudice in
his vision is entirely his fantasy of human nature.
Even if he dies, everyone will still regard him as a monster.
Chen Jinian demanded that several other students who had been excluded be put back into the class.
He’ll finish everything up.
When Chen Jinian grabbed the collar of the initiator and stood on the roof, holding a knife against the man’s stomach, Zhu Sui did not know who had heard the news and rushed over.
She came forward and grabbed his trouser legs, with tears in her eyes, begging him not to be impulsive and not to do anything stupid.
She said that he had just promised her to study hard.
Chen Jinian slowly put down the knife.
He almost became the kind of person he hated most.
They clearly agreed to work together towards a bright and bright life.
But the scene was out of control.
No one saw who pushed him and Zhu Sui.
For a moment, too many students crowded up, probably trying to save the initiator.
Oh, right.
The damn instigator fell, too.
But he should have died.
Chen Jinian and Zhu Sui kept falling in a chaotic cry of surprise.
It was the only time that Chen Jinian held Zhu Sui for the last time.
She was so small and warm that she seemed to break when she was stronger.
He was an unlucky man, and only at that moment did his luck suddenly improve, and he was cushioned by a branch of a tree and fell heavily to the ground.
But Chen Jinian saw with his own eyes that his most precious girl, like a fragile butterfly, fell to the ground. How much
he hoped that the person who fell to the ground was himself.
Everything was clearly connected, and the whiteness in the ward was even more dazzling.
Chen Jinian curled up in pain.
He covered his ears and sobbed in his throat, but his eyes were filled with sour liquid.
He desperately turned the notebook to the back.
Chen Jinian saw that the words he wrote on the back of his notebook were diametrically opposite. In front of the
notebook is the paranoid and sensitive Chen Jinian. At the back of the
notebook is his tenderness to Zhu Sui. The words scribbled
there were clearly his fantasy of Zhu Sui and himself.
On the back of the notebook, he can weave dreams forever and indulge in them forever.
This time, Chen Jinian met Zhu Sui first, and Chen Jinian protected Zhu Sui first.
This time.. Zhu Sui will have a very good life, even if it doesn’t matter without him.
So he didn’t create the plot of meeting Zhu Sui.
However, their encounter still inevitably happened.
He did not know why these fantasies coincided with his diary. The
two worlds began to blend quietly, and many things were no longer under control.
At the same time, the fantasy world seems to have its own power.
For example, Chen Jinian never expected to exchange his life experience with Zhu Sui. He just wrote down that he would protect Zhu Sui, not to let Zhu Sui like him, let alone arrange the campus bullying.
However, these obsessions, in Chen Jinian’s fantasy world, turned into two of him.
One becomes the focus of the school, the perfect student, and the other is made up of his remorse and self-reproach, becoming the man in black. The man in
black wants to make the protagonist disappear by destroying Chen Jinian and everything about him, so that Zhu Sui can live.
“Don’t run away again.”
Yes, even if he escaped to such a utopia, he was still a sinner, and Zhu Sui died because of him.
But Chen Jinian also underestimated himself.
Even if he wakes up in another world, Chen Jinian would like to have a happy ending with Zhu Sui.
Constantly kill yourself because of guilt and regret, and then be killed by yourself who wants to be loved.
Perhaps, no matter which Chen Jinian, all want to protect their lover.
Unfortunately, neither he nor his other self waited for that future.
Chen Jinian suddenly remembered that the love letter torn by Zhu Sui was later picked up by him piece by piece and stuck together again. He was so happy
at that time.
Even if she saw blood on her hands, it might scare her.
He thought that if he had a chance to explain, he would tell her everything.
Apart from the first sentence, it was not really a love letter, but more like a girl’s thoughts. The moment
you reached out to me, I felt like I was in the forest and saw a lion bow his head and kiss a deer.
My love is brave and never afraid to say no.
“You mean to me like the stars in the sky. Even if I am lost in the universe, your presence will guide me to try to get closer.”
Chen Jinian covered his eyes, as if he were under the street lamp at that time, and his eyes were red silently.
Just like that time in his world, Chen Jinian blocked Zhu Sui in the corner to express his love, obviously very nervous, but pretending to be fierce.
She looked seriously into his eyes.
“Chen Chi-nien, study hard, and when the college entrance examination is over, I will promise you.”
At that moment, even if he foresaw all the sadness, Chen Jinian was still fascinated.
[End]
Sweetheart Tough Guy
Record No.: YXX13KaDJOce6mdKpSNBlM
School Bully’s Breakup Day
is waiting for you to finish class. When you grow up
, bite a candy, candy, etc
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