A Tear
First Love, Old Love, New Love
On the day my husband filed for divorce, I was found to have blood cancer.
His old love is back, and he is determined to marry her.
He said, “Su Liangqin, I have never forgotten Xi Yue.”. The reason I married you in the first place was because I thought you were virtuous. Now that she’s back, let’s get a divorce! When
Tang Moshu said these words, all I could think about was that he once said to me with a smile on his face, “Qin Qin, you and I really have telepathy. You are the one who understands me best in the world!”!
“Chin Chin, marry me. I will never let you down in my life!”
He knelt on one knee in front of me, smiling so hard that his eyes crushed the stars.
I stared blankly at the man who was different from my memory. His hateful expression and cold eyes were like a sharp knife in my heart.
I was stunned for a long time and did not give an answer until he slammed the door impatiently.
Nannan rushed out of the room, threw herself on my lap and cried loudly, “Mom, does Dad not want us?”
I rubbed his little head and sobbed to comfort him: “Fool, how could my father not want Nannan? My father loves Nannan best.”
“What about Mom?” Nannan raised her tearful eyes and asked, “Does father still want mother?”
I instantly like a lump in the throat, holding Nannan back to his room, comforting him until he fell asleep.
May be stimulated, I fell out of the children’s room, this fall, nosebleed can not stop. There was a lot of blood on
my clothes, and beads of blood fell on the floor. Afraid of being seen by my son,
I grabbed the mop and wiped it desperately, but the more I wiped, the more I wiped.
I had to hire a cleaner, grab my coat and rush to the hospital.
The doctor gave me a detailed examination and pronounced, “Blood cancer, terminal.”. It’s time to take care of the funeral.
My brain is buzzing.
Walking out of the hospital, the sky suddenly began to rain. The girl on the
roadside hid in the boy’s arms, and they ran to the bus stop on the roadside.
I watched them snuggle together, as if I saw many years ago, on a snowy day, I hid in the arms of Tang Moshu, he pulled his coat to cover the snow for me, and we ran to the narrow rental house together..
We fell in love in college.
Tang Moshu was deaf because of a high fever when he was a child. He was handsome and top-notch in his studies, but because of this physical defect, his temperament was very strange.
I later learned that he once had a childhood girlfriend.
The girl was admitted to a college in the capital, saw the outside world, began to dislike his disability, and eventually dumped him.
Tang Moshu was trapped in the pain of lovelorn. For two years, I silently accompanied and took care of him for two years.
He always did not eat on time, I went to the canteen every day to help him eat, sent to the door of his dormitory, so I was chased by the dormitory aunt of the men’s dormitory.
Later, my aunt was moved by my sincerity, but Tang Moshu was always on guard against me and refused to accept my kindness.
Once, when he was playing basketball on the playground, the ball smashed the cochlear implant. He had a fight with the player, and finally both of them were dragged into the Academic Affairs Office, which made the whole school know.
I just know that cochlear implants are so expensive. I spent
all the gift money I had saved for more than ten years, and I did a part-time job for a month to buy a more advanced cochlea and sent it to him.
In front of me, Tang Moshu has always been cold and noble. The first time he lost control in front of me was the moment he put on the cochlea.
“So clear!”
“It’s the first time I’ve heard the outside world so clearly!”
He looked at me in shock. “These cochleas aren’t cheap!”! Su Liang-chin, where did you get so much money?
I quietly hid my red and blistered hands and smiled indifferently. “It’s all right if you like it. It’s all worth it.”
Tang Moshu’s eyes were always sharp. He grabbed my hand and put it under his eyes.
The next moment, his eyes were red and he suddenly hugged me.
I could feel him using all his strength. He trembled and said in my ear, “Su Liangqin, let’s go out!”!
“Your kindness to me will be returned to you a thousand times over!”
He’s talking about giving it back.
He owes me a debt. Being
with me is just to make up for me, not because of anything else. After graduating from
university, Tang Moshu wanted to stay in Sioux City to start a business, and I resolutely chose to accompany Tang Moshu to stay in Sioux City. When
his first venture failed, he lost all his savings, and we had to live in a dark basement with rats.
At that time, we only ate one meal a day, we were so hungry that our eyes were dizzy, and we had to work hard.
He always leaves the delicious food to me and only drinks rice porridge to satisfy his hunger.
Several times when he couldn’t go on, he hugged me and cried, “Qin Qin, I’m sorry to let you suffer with me.”. I will make you live a good life! Trust me, I will do it!
I believe him.
And he did.
I accompanied him to borrow money everywhere, accompanied him to cooperate outside, and accompanied him step by step to this day.
His company is getting bigger and bigger and bigger and bigger.
Gradually, he grew up from a self-abased and sensitive teenager to a decisive and independent president of the company.
Everyone calls him General Manager Tang.
I think he is more and more strange. After
having a child, I stopped assisting him in his work and stayed at home as a full-time wife. When
I was pregnant with Nannan, the morning sickness reaction was very serious, and the weight was only 100 Jin near the birth.
Tang Mo-shu felt sorry for me, but I enjoyed it: “Do you want a boy or a girl?”
He froze for a moment and said, “Boy.”.
Later, I found his diary many years ago in the drawer of my study.
He once said that the drawer was full of important things and could not be opened without his permission.
It’s all about him and her. In
a certain diary, he wrote: Xiyue asked me whether I wanted a boy or a girl with her in the future. I answered the girl. I want a daughter as lovely as her. She angrily scolded me for being greedy, but God knows how much I wanted to have a family with her and have a child, which was my lifelong dream.
I comfort myself that everyone has a past. I have no time to participate in his past, but his future, my children and I will be indispensable.
Nannan refused to come out when she was due.
Originally, we wanted to have a natural birth, but because Nannan’s umbilical cord was around her neck, we finally had a natural birth. It happened that
I was allergic to anesthetics, so I got a knife and cut seven layers, which was no different from the fish on the chopping board.
It feels worse than death!
Tang Mo-shu probably heard my screams in the delivery room. When I was pushed out, he threw himself at my bedside and held my hand tightly: “No more babies!”! Never give birth again! Nannan is all we need!
His voice was trembling and his expression was sincere and warm.
I was in great pain, but I could still laugh. I thought the most important person in his heart must be me.
I thought I had already replaced Jiang Xiyue’s position in his heart, but unexpectedly, I was too confident.
I came home in the heavy rain.
Pushing open the door, Tang Moshu sat in the living room. He was stunned when he
saw my appearance. I
was so wet that I subconsciously wrapped my coat tightly, not wanting him to see the blood-soaked white shirt inside.
“Why don’t you bring an umbrella?”
He was a little angry: “Su Liang-chin!”! You’re thirty years old, and you can’t take care of yourself!
He knows that I am very good at taking care of people, but I can never take care of myself. My original family, which
preferred boys to girls, fostered my flattering personality.
When I was a child, my parents ignored me and gave all the good things to my brother.
I married Tang Moshu, but they didn’t come. Because there was no mother’s family, even her husband’s family began to despise me.
I was always very obedient. For the sake of Tang Moshu, I became a disobedient daughter for the first time. As a result, I betrayed my relatives.
He went to the bathroom to get a towel and came over to wipe my hair.
He used to do it all the time. I used to be too lazy to blow my hair after taking a bath, and he would go out of his way to help me dry my hair.
I was immersed in the happiness of the past, but he said behind my ear, “I have asked my lawyer to draw up the divorce agreement. Please have a look.”
It turned out that this was the real purpose of his return home.
Since the company went public, Tang Moshu often did not go home, and later, he and Jiang Xiyue revived, and came back even less.
I smiled. On the way home, I thought a lot.
If I were a healthy person, I could spend the rest of my life with him.
But now, I’m tired. I don’t have much time left.
I looked at him and said, “Let’s have one last meal. After that, I’ll let you go.”
Tang Moshu frowned, he should not want to continue to waste time on me, but looked at my eager eyes, he said, good.
I went into the kitchen to cook. After
eight years of marriage, I always cook the dishes he likes to eat.
He used to praise me for my cooking, but now he lingers in the wine pool and meat forest, and must forget the taste of the food at home.
I cooked four dishes and one soup, and when I finally seasoned the soup, my eyes turned black and I fell down with a clang.
“Chin Chin?” There was a sound of anxious footsteps
outside. When
Tang Moshu rushed in, I was covering my nose, and the crazy nosebleeds oozed through my fingers.
He was stupefied at the sight.
“Chin Chin, did you fall on your nose?” His eyes were red
and he ran to me. “How could there be so much blood?”? Let’s go to the hospital!
He reached out and hugged me, and my bones were falling apart, and I was buried in his warm chest. For the first time,
I feel that death is so close to me.
But I’m in heaven now.
His warm chest is my dream for many years.
He was the harbor I had hoped for all my life, and I could not lose him at all.
I cried so hard that I couldn’t tell the difference between blood and tears. I grabbed him by the corner of his coat and said bitterly, “Let’s not divorce. Shall we not divorce?”
Tang Moshu looked at me, and I couldn’t see through all kinds of emotions in his eyes.
He gasped and said very softly, “Xiyue is pregnant.”
I didn’t ask who Jiang Xiyue’s child was.
God always likes to take away everything I have.
My brother took all the love from my parents.
Jiang Xiyue and her unborn child took away my marriage.
He and she will have a daughter he is looking forward to. She
looks like Jiang Xiyue and gets all his love.
My Nannan, from birth, Tang Moshu did not like it very much. The time he spent with Nannan did not add up to the number of his business trips.
I choked up and said, “I want this house and custody of Nannan.”
He said yes, then let go of me and went to get the paper. “Are you sure you don’t want to go to the hospital?” I
shook my head. “Nannan will wake up soon. He will be afraid if I am not here.”
Tang Mo-shu was silent and finally said, “Every month, I will pay Nannan’s alimony on time. If you need me in the future, you can contact me at any time.” I read the
divorce agreement. He gave me very generous financial compensation. He didn’t want anything except the company. He wanted to be free.
But I am a dying man, what do I need so much money for?
“Nannan is still young. He just needs you to spend more time with him.”
Tang Mo-shu frowned again. “You know, I’m usually very busy. I don’t have that much time.”
I laughed again and suddenly asked him seriously, “One day, if I disappear from this world, will you regret the decision you made now?” Suddenly
he was stunned, and a layer of frost covered his face. “Su Liang-chin, are you threatening me with death now?”
I guess he knew I wouldn’t do that. I couldn’t bear to part with Nannan.
He was only nervous for a moment and then relaxed.
I smiled and said, “I really don’t want to die, but God can conquer man.”
Su Liang-chin! I don’t want to hear that again! He furrowed his brows and said in a strikingly fierce tone, “You live well, do you hear me?”
I laughed it off. “Let’s eat first.”
Nannan woke up.
He didn’t cling to me for a hug as usual.
He hid warily at the door of the restaurant and looked at Tang Moshu with some fear.
I understand.
He wants to get close to his father, but now he thinks that his father doesn’t want him and his mother.
I waved to him, and he carefully went around Tang Moshu and got into my arms.
I kissed him and said, “Nannan, are you happy that Dad has come back to have dinner with us?”
He raised his little head and asked me earnestly, “Mom, are you happy?”
My heart is sour, this child, always put my feelings first.
He must be an angel sent by God to make up for me.
I smiled and said, “Happy.”
He also laughed: “If my mother is happy, I will be happy.” Tang Moshu,
sitting opposite us, was at a loss.
He coughed unnaturally and said to Nannan, “Be obedient to your mother.”
Nannan cocked her head and looked at him. “Dad will listen to my mother, too, okay?”
Nannan choked him with a word.
Poor Nannan doesn’t know that his father and I have divorced.
His father has no obligation to listen to me anymore.
Tang Moshu answered a phone call. A woman’s voice came from
over there, and it was Jiang Xiyue.
She sobbed and said on the phone, “Ah Mo, I have a stomachache. Can you come over now?”
Tang Mo-shu’s tone suddenly became tense: “Don’t move. Just wait for me.”
He pulled away impatiently.
I looked at the meal he had hardly touched, and the tide of disappointment engulfed me. He didn’t want to eat the
last supper with our mother and son.
I have loved him for so many years, but in the end, it is not as good as a drop of tears from the old man. When
I went to the hospital for radiotherapy, I met Tang Moshu who accompanied Jiang Xiyue for prenatal examination.
He carefully supported Jiang Xiyue, asking patiently from time to time, with a gentle smile on his face.
Jiang Xiyue nestled in his arms, her belly bulging high and looking like she was about to give birth.
At that time, I was pregnant with Nannan, and Tang Moshu was on the rise in his career, and I did the prenatal examination before and after running alone.
I subconsciously grasped the checklist and squeezed into the crowd, passing them by.
“Su Liang-chin.”
Suddenly, a thick and familiar voice called me.
I was stunned for a moment when I saw Tang Moshu let go of Jiang Xiyue and stride towards me.
His eyes revealed uneasiness, because now I am skinny and my hair is falling off. Sometimes, even I can’t believe that the pale and thin person in the mirror will be me who used to be cheerful and smiling.
“What’s wrong with you?”
He questioned me loudly, and his white eyes were red and bloodshot, which was frightening and terrible.
I had never seen him so out of control before, and I almost told him the truth. At that moment, Jiang Xiyue came over and took Tang Moshu’s arm. “Ah Mo, you are so fierce that you frighten Sister Liangqin.”
I fought with Jiang Xiyue countless times, and every time she pretended to be innocent and called me sister Liangqin sweetly.
In fact, she was one year older than me. She married a wealthy businessman in Beijing. After being dumped by the wealthy businessman, she returned to Tang Moshu.
Perhaps too much love, she came back, Tang Moshu lent her a suite to live.
He said, “Xiyue didn’t have a good time outside. That bastard abused her, and her family refused to accept her. She only has me now.”
I saw something wrong in his eyes, and I forced them to break it.
That day, Tang Mo-shu looked at me coldly and said, “Su Liang-chin, you are too cruel.”
She is the one who lives in my youth. How can I be cruel to her? I can’t let him die! Then he hugged me, who was trembling all over. “She hurt me so much. It’s really impossible for me and her.”
I believed it, and then what?
They went deeper and deeper, and Jiang Xiyue could go in and out of his company at will.
All the people in the company mistakenly thought that Jiang Xiyue was Tang Moshu’s wife. The rumors of the
company gradually came to me.
Tang Moshu went home less and less until Jiang Xiyue was pregnant, and he resolutely asked me for a divorce.
My heart twitched and said, “I have a little cold. I just had a drip. I’ll go first.”
“Su Liang-chin.”
Tang Moshu grabbed me by the arm. “Give it to me!”
He said, fixing his eyes on the checklist in my hand.
I forcefully hid the list behind me: “Tang Moshu, Jiang Xiyue is still waiting for you.”
He was stunned, but still had no intention of letting go.
Seeing the stalemate, Jiang Xiyue fell down and covered her stomach in pain: “Ah Mo!”! Help me!
Tang Mo-shu was startled. He ran to her and said, “Xi Yue!”! Don’t scare me!
Doctor! Nurse!
His panicked roar pierced the corridor, and I smiled bitterly. From the beginning to the end, Jiang Xiyue was the one he cared about most.
I took the opportunity to leave the hospital and returned home. Lawyer Wang was waiting for me.
I made a will and gave it to lawyer Wang for safekeeping.
When I die, he will make my will public. Before
parting, he gave me a deep look.
He was actually the representative of the legal department of Tang Moshu Company. Because he came early, he was also familiar with me. He was also the only person who knew I was ill and helped me a lot. During
this period, I was actively preparing for my death.
Coffins, cemeteries, all ordered.
I even paid good money to book myself a hilarious funeral. When I was alive
, I had a lonely life. When I die, I want to have a lively life.
I sent Nannan to the countryside to be raised by my parents-in-law. Although
they are urban people, they have reached the age of retirement and are unwilling to stay in the prosperous big cities. The
air in the countryside is good, and you can grow vegetables when you are free.
Tang Moshu had no way to take them, so he remitted money to them on time every month and let them come. Although
they don’t like me, they love Nannan very much. After all, Nannan is their own blood of the Tang family, Nannan also likes his grandparents. When
I was in confinement, my mother-in-law came to cook for me every day in order to give me more milk.
Nannan to them, I am very relieved, but the car back to the city, I cried all the way.
I lied to Nannan that I would pick him up after this winter vacation.
In fact, we may never see each other again.
In the middle of the night, the door opened downstairs.
I thought there was a burglar in the house, wrapped up in a coat and ran into the corridor.
Almost subconsciously, I slipped onto the number of Tang Moshu.
Thinking that we had divorced, I quickly pressed 110.
Had not hit go out, I saw, change good shoe in porch place, the Tang Mo book that strides into the sitting room.
I was so surprised that my mobile phone fell to the ground with a thump.
Tang Moshu found me, and he looked straight at me. Only then did
I realize that his eyes were full of fatigue and he looked very tired.
He sat down on the sofa and unbuttoned his coat one by one. “Did I wake you?”
He knew that I was always a light sleeper and could not hear a sound.
I looked at the coat he had taken off. Instead of tidying it up for him as usual, I went downstairs and asked politely, “Where is Jiang Xiyue?”? You don’t have to accompany her today?
“She gave birth.”
He looked at me and said, “It’s a daughter.” “Congratulations,”
I said sarcastically, “you finally got what you wanted.”
“Su Liang-chin, don’t you have anything else to say to me?”
He suddenly seemed worried and said to me word by word, “She was pregnant when she came back, and the baby was her ex-husband’s.”
I was a little surprised and then relieved. It doesn’t matter whose
child it is.
The important thing is that he will raise her with Jiang Xiyue.
“You came back here to tell me that?”
“It’s very late now. I’m going to sleep. Please leave.”
“Su Liang-chin!” As he
tur to go upstairs, he cal my name loudly.
He threw a stack of materials in front of me and stared at me like a wolf, as if he was going to eat me.
“Why did you hide it from me when you were so sick?” For the first time,
I heard him make a trembling sound, like a whine of extreme sadness.
“Were you going to die quietly if I hadn’t sent someone to investigate?”
With his current ability, it’s easy to know anything. Why don’t
I tell him?
Because he took pity on me from the very beginning. I don’t want him to pity me any more. What I want is love.
I have never felt love in my life, so I have been longing for love all my life, so that I mistake his gratitude for love, and I suddenly feel miserable for a moment.
“You can’t die!”
Tang Moshu’s eyes were red, and he hugged me very hard.
His head, buried in my neck. The
warm liquid hit my collarbone one by one, and it was very heavy and hot.
He suddenly took my head in his hands and kissed me fervently, as if eager to prove my existence, with all his strength in every movement.
He ran me over and kissed me so hard I could hardly breathe.
I don’t understand why he can’t forget his old love while he still pesters me.
I don’t want this kind of relationship. I’ve been trapped in a three-person relationship for too long. I just want to be free.
I reached out and shoved him, and he picked me up and threw me on our wedding bed.
Tang Moshu pressed down eagerly. He held my hand tightly. My broken body was unable to stop anything.
That night, he was like crazy, and he didn’t let me go until dawn.
I woke up in the arms of Tang Moshu.
He hugged me like he was in love, asked me if I was hungry, and said he would make me breakfast.
Then, as if thinking of something, he stood up and kissed me on the cheek. “Good morning, my wife.”
This is what we agreed a long time ago.
At that time, I was angry when I got up, but when I heard him call my wife hoarsely and lazily and say good morning to me, I was not angry.
So he promised me that he would kiss me every morning and say good morning to me. The sweetness of the
past, now think about it, how can it be so ironic?
If he wants to act, I will accompany him to finish the play.
Tang Moshu hasn’t been in the kitchen for six or seven years, and the eggs are fried. I
couldn’t stand it, so I rolled up my sleeves and said, “I’ll do it.”.
As soon as he left, his nose was hot and the blood began to fall down again.
Tang Moshu panicked. He didn’t even have time to turn off the fire. He threw himself in front of me and wiped the blood with his hand.
No matter how hard he tried, the blood seemed to be inexhaustible.
He didn’t know that since last week, I have been going to the hospital for blood transfusion.
My whole body is bleeding badly, because I lost my immunity, I can hardly do anything, but he pressed me to do that last night, my body can not bear, once the bacterial infection, it will be fatal.
Tang Mo-shu completely panicked. He half knelt down in front of me and cried to me, “Chin Chin, let’s remarry!”! Your illness will be cured! From today on, I will take good care of you!
I have trusted him unconditionally so many times, and this time, I don’t believe him.
“Tang Moshu, I know you feel guilty about me, but I don’t need you to do anything for me. Just go.”
My punishment for him is that he can never make up for the mistakes he has made. His eyes
widened and he said earnestly, “I’m not leaving.”. I’ve asked my assistant to cancel my work for the week.
“Why do you bother?”
I understand that career is his life, 365 days, and he has 364 days in the company.
He looked at me deeply, his eyes very fragile: “Chin Chin, I’m asking you for a divorce, but there’s something else going on.”
I don’t want to listen to the shit between him and Jiang Xiyue anymore. I ignored him and went to the bathroom. The
cold water pierced my skin and washed away the blood stains on my face.
I looked at myself in the mirror and smiled bitterly. What if he turned back?
Now, do I still need his love?
I fainted in the room, and Tang Moshu sent me to the hospital.
Maybe the doctor said something to him. When I woke up, I saw him secretly wiping his tears with his back to me.
I wanted to get up, and my whole body was soft without a trace of strength.
He heard a noise behind him: “Chin Chin, are you awake?”? Is there anything uncomfortable? Shall I call a doctor?
He took my hand, and I was keenly aware that his hand was shaking.
I looked at him strangely, and he hugged me. “I’m sorry!”! I’m sorry Qin Qin, I made you suffer so much, and now, I still let you suffer from illness.
“I’ve spent a lot of money to hire top doctors from abroad to treat you, and I believe that miracles will happen!”
“I don’t want to be treated.” I shook my head at him. “The disinfectant in the hospital smells so pungent. I want to go home.”
He stared at me, choked up and said, “OK, let’s go home.” After
he sent me home, he didn’t leave.
No matter how hard I tried to evict him, he stayed shamelessly and refused to leave.
I didn’t have the strength to argue with him, so he built me a medical room at home.
It’s filled with expensive medical equipment.
He hired five doctors for me, who consulted and took turns looking after me. I take medicine and injections
every day, and I hardly wake up.
However, it doesn’t help my illness, it just reduces the number of times I bleed. Every time
I finished the treatment and was pushed out in pain beyond recognition, Tang Moshu always turned his back to me and his shoulders trembled badly.
Then, as if nothing had happened, he asked me gently what I wanted to eat, and he went to make it for me.
I often lie at the door of the kitchen and peep at the busy figure in the kitchen.
This has been a picture I have imagined countless times, and at this time, my empty heart will be squeezed into a trace of warmth.
After frequent practice, Tang Moshu’s cooking skills have finally improved.
I like to eat vegetarian food, and he cheated me to eat protein in a variety of ways. When I was in a daze,
he always said seductively, “Chin Chin, marry me again.”
I replied, “No.” Unsatisfied,
he hugged me and asked, “You used to like me so much. Why didn’t you marry me?”
I said, “I used to be silly. I thought that if I liked someone, I should be nice to him and marry him.”.
“It was only later that I discovered that love is only love in both directions, otherwise it is the suffering of one person.”
“Qin Qin, do you think I don’t like you?”? If I don’t love you, why should I marry you?
I was so sleepy that I couldn’t hear the rest of his words.
That day, when I came out after treatment, I heard Tang Moshu quarreling with others at the door.
“Who is it?”
I asked, drowned in Tang Moshu’s angry roar, “How did you find this place?”? What do you want to do?
“Did I warn you that we should never contact each other again?”
The woman sobbed and cried, “Moshu, I only have you now. How can you leave me?”? You don’t know how I spend these days!
I know you have me in your heart. You’re just stuck with that woman. She’s pretending to be sick! She wants to break us up in this way, but we are true love! As I
walked past, I happened to hear Jiang Xiyue’s “true love” remarks.
She grabbed Tang Moshu’s hand, but Tang Moshu’s eyes were about to crack, but he did not shake her off. “Long time no see, Jiang Xiyue,”
I interrupted with a smile.
Jiang Xiyue froze, she looked at me blankly, do not understand what I mean. When
Tang Mo-shu saw me coming out, he said nervously, “Chin Chin, you go in first, and I’ll take care of her.”
I ignored him and said to Jiang Xiyue, “Come in and sit down. Let’s have a chat.” Those who
are favored have nothing to fear.
Jiang Xiyue faces me, always has a well-thought-out plan, high above the masses, today is no exception.
Tang Moshu didn’t want us to be alone, but at my insistence, he went out.
In my bedroom, Jiang Xiyue could smell the smell of Tang Moshu, and she suddenly became red-eyed. I
left him because I was cheated by a bad man, and I didn’t really want to break up with him! Every day after I married a
bad guy, I regretted my stupid choice!
“I know he’s been waiting for me to come back. He can’t forget me at all. How can you get involved in our relationship of more than 20 years?”.
Jiang Xiyue sneered, “Even if you marry him, you can’t change his feelings for me.”.
Otherwise, how could he be so nice to me? He even spent many nights in my place, Su Liangqin, you have already lost! Defeat!
We have fought many times openly and secretly, and she is always unforgiving.
I don’t want to compete with her for favor, and there’s really nothing to compete with.
She thought I was pretending to be ill. I opened the drawer, took out my thick medical record book and handed it to her. When she
saw this, her expression was surprised, and her tone weakened a little: “When you die, I will be Mrs. Tang.”
I smiled. I asked her in with that in mind. If
she becomes Mrs. Tang, she will be Nannan’s stepmother. For this reason, I must lower my stature.
After listening to my words, she was so surprised that she couldn’t say a word.
I said to her seriously, “I hope you can keep our secret. Thank you.”
She stood up, and at the same time, the bedroom door opened from the outside, and Tang Moshu came in. With a cold face,
he glared at Jiang Xiyue with hatred. “Why don’t you go?”
Jiang Xiyue looked at his cold eyes and ran away crying.
“Chin Chin.”
Tang Moshu called me, and I was so sleepy that I couldn’t open my eyes. Recently, I became more and more sleepy, and I knew that my time was coming.
“Xiyue and I are not the kind of relationship you think.”
He was explaining to me: When she first came back, she was covered with injuries from domestic violence. Because she had been hurt for a long time, she had a very serious psychological disorder. I didn’t dare to stimulate her. I thought that when her mood was more stable, I would contact her family to take care of her.
Unexpectedly, she was pregnant with her ex-husband’s child. Pregnant women are more likely to be emotional. I sent someone to take care of her 24 hours a day, but she still did stupid things again and again.
“I really did it out of sympathy and her parents’ instructions to me. I didn’t have any other ideas about her. On the day of the divorce, I said those words to you because..”
The doctor pushed the door open and interrupted him: “Miss Su, it’s time for you to take your medicine.” A trace of regret flashed across
Tang Moshu’s face. He answered and handed me the medicine.
This night, I had a premonition of what would happen. Tang Moshu usually slept on the floor of my room, but today, I allowed him to go to my bed.
I asked him to take off the cochlear implant. He hesitated. He usually took off the cochlear implant when he slept, because it would be disturbed by the magnetic field. But he was afraid that I would get up at night. He was afraid that I would have a situation. Recently, he even slept with me.
His mood was tense all the time, and he looked several years older.
But lying beside me, he slept very peacefully.
I took the opportunity to say goodbye in his ear.
My punishment for him is that he can never say goodbye to me properly.
I want him to live in regret, and I want him to never forget me.
I’m dead, but Tang Moshu thinks I’m still alive.
He looked for me everywhere, without food or drink, without sleep.
Finally, the police found my body, which had fallen off the cliff and was almost out of shape.
Tang Moshu’s eyes were about to crack. He rushed over and hugged me. He just held me in a daze.
I floated not far from him and heard him say in pain, “How cruel you are!”! You don’t even give me a chance to say goodbye!
He said he would live in guilt all his life and never forget me.
He took off his more high-tech cochlea and put on the pair I bought him eight years ago.
It turned out that he still kept it. I thought it had been discarded by him long ago. After all, it was something that was eliminated by the market.
Unfortunately, my voice will never come into the cochlea I gave him.
My parents-in-law took Nannan to my funeral.
When Nannan learned of my death, he cried so pitifully that I wanted to comfort him, but the transparent hand went straight through him. Lawyer
Wang read my last words at the funeral I arranged. The property under
my name was given to Nannan, and the funds were returned to Tang Moshu.
Those are the things he gave me when he got divorced.
What everyone can’t figure out is that I transferred the villa that Tang Moshu gave me on the sixth anniversary of our marriage to Jiang Xiyue.
That day I said to Jiang Xiyue, I wish her and Tang Moshu a hundred years of good union, I only hope that after she becomes Mrs. Tang, she can be better to my Nannan.
In order to show my sincerity, I gave her the property certificate of the villa on the spot.
Jiang Xiyue also attended my funeral, along with her, as well as the shareholders of Tang Moshu Company.
I finally understood what Tang Moshu had not finished saying to me that day.
It turned out that his company went bankrupt.
He was burdened with high debts. In order not to implicate me and Nannan, he transferred all his assets to my name and asked me for a divorce.
It turned out that he stayed at home to take care of me, not because he had asked for leave from the company, but because the company had disintegrated and he had become a poor boy with nothing.
But the money I left behind was enough for him to start a new business and make a comeback, but Tang Moshu directly took the legacy I left behind to charity. Instead of going into business,
he found a leisurely job and took care of Nannan and his parents.
I thought he would marry Jiang Xiyue after I died, but no, he never saw Jiang Xiyue again after my funeral.
Jiang Xiyue came to the door several times, but he did not see him behind closed doors.
He seems to have a serious illness, in addition to work is with his parents and children, he no longer go out to eat and drink, almost lost all hobbies.
Speaking of hobbies, his only hobby may be to go to my grave and talk to me. I didn’t know he was such a chatterbox
before.
When I squatted down in front of him, he seemed to see me and said, “Qin Qin, you are the best person in the world to me. How can I not love you?”?
I loved you, so I married you, so I divorced you. I always want to give you the best life, but how can I lose you?
“I’m sorry..”
“It doesn’t matter.” My voice is ethereal, I want to wipe his tears, but my body is gradually disappearing.
I stay with the remaining hatred, and when I forgive him, I will disappear.
Tang Moshu, if there is an afterlife, I want to know you earlier.
Author: Qing Feifei
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