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sin First love, old love, new love
When his ex-girlfriend came to him with her children, he and I were confused.
He didn’t know that his ex-girlfriend found out she was pregnant after breaking up and gave birth to a child alone.
Now the child is sick and needs a biological father. As soon as the
bell rang, I picked up my handbag on the platform and went straight to the school gate.
I know Lin Dongchen is waiting for me.
In the recent summer, when the weather gets hot, he always calculates the time to take me home.
Sure enough, I saw the low-key black Volvo parked on the side of the road at the school gate.
Lin Dongchen is buying water in the convenience store next to him. He looks young. Today, he wears a black hoodie and blue jeans. Although he is already twenty-seven or twenty-eight years old, he is not against the crowd of college students.
Seeing me, he couldn’t hide the smile in his eyes and handed over a bottle of my favorite jasmine tea.
“If you are gallant, you are either a traitor or a thief.” When I got on the bus, I gave him a playful glance and said, “Why have you come to pick me up from work recently?”
He fastened my seat belt and took advantage of the opportunity to kiss me.
Then he leaned close to my ear and complained, “Aren’t you afraid you’ll be exposed to the sun?”? A smelly wife has no conscience.
His voice was deep and hoarse, and the heat brushed my ears, causing a burst of itching.
My heart suddenly missed a beat, sweet honey. He chuckled
as if he had succeeded, and then asked, “Have you eaten the folic acid today?”
Oh, yeah, I haven’t eaten yet. I have been preparing for pregnancy
recently, and I have been taking folic acid for three months. Without waiting for me to reply,
he laughed and said, “Take my wife to a big meal today!”
He is actually a very cool person outside, but in front of me, he is always clingy and talkative.
As soon as he paused, he solemnly told me, “We must eat more later.”
The latter half of the words were deliberately kept in suspense and stopped talking.
I couldn’t help but turn my head sideways and ask, “Why do I have to eat more?” With a sly smile,
he came up and lowered his voice. “Aren’t you ovulating today?”? In the evening I’m going to be Shichijiro..
His voice is low and sexy.
I blushed and couldn’t help beating him.
In fact, we have been quite frequent, especially since the pregnancy.
But every time I still feel like I just fell in love, I always blush and shy.
I can’t help it. He was the first person I fell in love with.
In my place, he is always the most special. He
was laughing when his cell phone rang. After
answering the phone, his expression was a little depressed: “Wife, Mom said there was something important. Let’s go back now.”
Opening the door and entering the room, besides Lin Dongchen’s mother, there was also a strange mother and daughter sitting in the living room.
The woman is about the same age as me, with curved eyebrows and thin eyes. Although her face is a little tired, she can still see the natural charm of obsequiousness.
I suddenly remembered an old photo that I had found in an old book that Lin Dongchen treasured. This is the woman in the
photo, Lin Dongchen’s first girlfriend, Kang Jingjing.
Soon, my attention was attracted by the little girl beside her.
The little girl and her mother are totally different in appearance, five or six years old, eyebrows like ink painting, with big eyes flickering like deer, looking around curiously and timidly.
My breath stopped for a moment, and the child’s eyebrows and eyes were too familiar, as if, as if, carved out of the same mold
as Lin Dongchen.
I subconsciously turned to look at Lin Dongchen.
He was also staring at the two uninvited guests in front of him, his eyes full of shock and confusion.
My heart is like a stone falling from the top of the cliff, and it falls to the ground with a thump.
Seeing us, the woman in front of us calmly stood up and said to Lin Tung-chen, “Long time no see.”
Lin Tung-chen asked subconsciously, “Why are you here?”
The woman had tears in her eyes and did not answer immediately, as if she were holding back something.
She adjusted her breathing and quietly took the hand of the girl beside her and said to Lin, “This is Taotao, your daughter.”
Her voice was very soft, but it was like a bomb to the hearts of everyone present. The tight string in
my brain suddenly broke. The
same collapse, and Lin Dongchen. The expression on
his face seemed to freeze, and it was a long time before he found his voice and murmured, “How is that possible?”? How is that possible?
The woman’s face was a little complicated, and for a moment, forbearance, grievance and pain alternated on her face.
She took a deep breath and tried to keep calm. “You can have a paternity test,” she said.
However, there is no need for a paternity test.
That child and Lin Dongchen look very much alike, the same outline, the same facial features.
Hearing the conversation of the adults, the silent child burst into tears: “Are you my father?”? Why don’t you want me?
I sat on the sofa, listening to their explanations and their arguments quietly.
Kang Jingjing is Lin Dongchen’s first love, from freshman to senior, from 18 to 22 years old, four years of first love, unforgettable.
But on graduation, Kang Jingjing decided to break up with Lin Dongchen.
At that time, Lin Dongchen was too poor, his father died early, and only he and his mother depended on each other. Obviously
, Lin Dongchen couldn’t give her the life she wanted.
Kang Jingjing saw no hope in him, so she turned into the arms of a rich second generation when she graduated.
But Lin Dongchen can not let go, she is his countless first time, but also the first time he really loved the deep-seated person.
He was crazy, and for many days in a row, he stood downstairs in Kang Jingjing for a night.
He got drunk in the bar and laughed in the street, trying to take back his infatuated heart, but he tried many times, but he still couldn’t stop.
He cried to admit his mistake, he put harsh words, both hard and soft, put down all dignity, and begged Kang Jingjing not to break up.
One night, looking at the haggard and affectionate Lin Dongchen, Kang Jingjing could not help but be moved, two people experienced a night of madness.
But still could not stop Kang Jingjing from deciding to go, and they broke up. In the third month after the
breakup, Kang Jingjing found herself pregnant. When she went to the
hospital to have an abortion, the doctor said that her uterine wall was thin and it was difficult to get pregnant again after the abortion.
She gritted her teeth to give birth, and naturally broke up with the rich second generation.
However, as proud as she was, she did not look back for Lin Dongchen.
Probably because the words she said to Lin Dongchen were too cruel, coupled with her youth, she would rather give birth to a child alone than bow her head and eat back grass with Lin Dongchen.
What’s more, Lin Dongchen is poor and blank, together will only be chicken feather bits and pieces, what can he do?
Originally thought that there would be no intersection in her life, after all, she had a good life with her children for five years, and she was used to it.
But as fate would have it, now the child has leukemia and needs a bone marrow transplant.
She didn’t match the baby’s bone marrow, so she found the father.
They went back first.
The room was eerily quiet, leaving only Lin Dongchen and me.
I lay in the dark bedroom, closed my eyes and didn’t want to say anything.
“Wife!” Lin Tung-chen approached me cautiously, then leaned close to my ear and coaxed me carefully. “I’m sorry.”
My tears can’t help falling down.
I’m sorry. What?
He didn’t do anything wrong. He doesn’t know anything.
But I feel so sad in my heart. Why should I bear this. A
few days ago, he told me that he wanted to be a father and that he wanted to have his first child.
Now, he did have his first child, but not with me.
My husband had already had a child with another woman.
Grievance and depressed sobs came out of my lips.
He hugged me tightly from behind, and I struggled to keep him away in a fit of pique.
I even bit his arm hard, but he didn’t say a word.
He hugged me more tightly, as if he was afraid that I would escape.
“Wife,” said Lin Tung-chen in a hoarse voice from behind, “you won’t leave me, will you?”
Just now in the living room, for a moment, I really thought I should leave him. There are his mother, his children, and the mother of his children in the
house. Would they be happy without me?
I’m the extra one.
At that moment, I had an idea to leave.
But I can’t bear to part with him.
Lin Dongchen is very good to me. When I
met him, I was in graduate school and he had just started his own business.
At that time, in the early days of his business, he was so busy that he couldn’t sleep all night, and he was still able to drive four hundred miles just to get to my school in the morning to see me.
“I missed you, so I came here.” Early in the morning, his clothes were wet with the cool dew. He was caught off guard and sneezed, but he still smiled brightly at me: “It’s worth not sleeping just to see you.”
For me, he is always extremely patient, the umbrella on rainy days, the warm baby when dysmenorrhea, the delicate and beautiful roses and the public confession. He gave me both
timely help and icing on the cake.
Now that I think about it, he knows so much about girls, probably because he has done these things to Kang Jingjing countless times, so he is so familiar with them.
And then we got together.
His company got bigger and bigger, and I went on to study for a PhD.
He waited for me for four years until I graduated with a PhD and finally proposed. After
getting married, he withstood the pressure of his mother’s birth, and it was not until I gained a firm foothold in my work that we began to prepare for pregnancy. I can’t bear to part with
such a good Lin Dongchen.
Kang Jingjing and Taotao came from other places and temporarily lived in a community near the hospital.
I know it was arranged by Lin Dongchen.
But I don’t seem to have enough reason to stop him from taking care of them.
That night, Lin Tung-chen buried his head in my shoulder and said,
“I’m sorry, my wife. I’m really sorry.” After all,
that child is mine, and I can’t leave her alone. If I don’t care about her, she may be gone.
His nasal voice was buzzing, tears fell on my neck, and his voice was full of helplessness.
I still have a cavity of resentment, want to hit him, bite him, hard to vent.
But when I heard his choking voice, I felt like punching cotton, and suddenly I lost my strength, and finally I just cried silently beside him. We didn’t sleep a wink
that night. In the darkness, we had our own things on our minds.
But Taotao’s illness can’t wait.
The next morning, I heard Lin Dongchen’s cell phone ringing in a daze.
He picked it up and went into the bathroom to speak in a low voice, but I knew it was Kang Jingjing. After
hanging up the phone, he came out gently, and I simply continued to close my eyes and pretend to sleep.
He walked carefully to the bed and squatted down, then took my hand, kissed the back of my hand gently, and went out of the bedroom and closed the door. Darkness returned to the
room, leaving me alone.
I don’t know whether it’s stubborn or rational, but I’ve been holding on for the past night, not hysterical, not laughing and scolding.
Instead, he has been calmly discussing the future with him.
I have always been an emotionally introverted and alienated person. From childhood to adulthood, due to the lack of natural sense of security, happiness and unhappiness are used to being buried in the bottom of my heart.
But now, after he has gone, I can finally cry out loudly regardless, and let the sad emotions vent freely in the air.
In the future, my husband will really be the father of other people’s children.
Even if I have children in the future, my children will never be Lin Dongchen’s only children.
I think of the appointment last night.
I agreed to face it with Lin Dongchen.
Lin Tung-chen promised me, Wife, when the child is well, let her continue to live with Kang Ching-ching, OK? I won’t let her get to us. When
he said this, his voice was sticky, with a trace of guilt and ingratiation.
After waiting for a long time, I finally said slowly, “Good.”
Hearing this, Lin Tung-chen put his fingers between my fingers and clenched them tightly, and his voice leapt with obvious joy: “In the future, all I have to do is pay child support regularly, and then see her regularly..”
Finally, hesitantly, he added, “Of course, if you don’t let me see you, I won’t.” How can
I not let the father see the daughter?
My tears slid silently into the pillow and he couldn’t see them.
I don’t want to give up my five-year relationship with Lin Dongchen, but I really mind that he gave birth to a child with another woman.
He was the first person who came into my heart.
I didn’t grow up around my parents, so I didn’t experience the kind of unreserved love. It was not
until Lin Dongchen’s cool and handsome face came into my life at the age of 22 that I began my first love. After
being together, he showed me a different enthusiasm from his cold appearance. He was considerate to me, and his deep love often overflowed from his eyes when he looked at me.
He also gave me enough sense of security.
Lin Dongchen is young and promising, and with an excellent face, there are actually quite a few women who hit him.
However, no matter how beautiful a woman’s invitation is, he will always quietly refuse it: “I have an appointment with my wife today. If you have anything, please communicate with my assistant first.”
He is always the first to reveal the identity of “the owner of the famous grass,” and never leaves any room for suspicion.
It was his preference for me that made me gradually cheerful.
Thinking of this, I decided to give Lin Dongchen another chance.
Perhaps, I also retained a trace of unwilling, why five years of feelings with the emergence of a child will fall apart. Are
love and marriage really so fragile?
I want to challenge it.
Four days later, the news came that Lin Dongchen and Taotao’s bone marrow were successfully matched.
The hospital quickly arranged an operation for them, the operation was very successful, Taotao stayed in the hospital to continue observation and treatment, and Lin Dongchen donated bone marrow and came back to rest the next day. If there
is no accident, as long as Taotao’s body recovers, she can return to her original place.
Thinking of this, I breathed a long sigh of relief. Lin Dongchen and
I should be able to go back to the original days.
“Honey, I’m in pain.” Lying on the bed, Lin Tung-chen looked at me with a pair of wet eyes, a little aggrieved: “You haven’t kissed me for a long time..”
I looked at his somewhat pale face, could not help but soften down, bowed his head and kissed his eyes. After
kissing, he just wanted to get away, but he held the back of his head.
His mouth fumbled over and pried open my lips.
“Wife..” Lin Dongchen’s voice is hoarse and his ears are hot, which is his emotional performance. He and
I really haven’t been intimate for a long time.
“Obviously you are beside me.” He tightened his arms and locked me in his arms. “But my wife, I miss you so much. I’m going crazy..” As soon as
my heart moved, the feelings that had been suppressed for a long time could not help pouring down, and I lifted his cheek and wrapped it around his lips and tongue. The grievance, heartache and entanglement of
these days are all poured into this fierce and long kiss. After
a kiss, the clothes were messy. Breathing unsteadily,
he pushed me into his arms and leaned close to my ear, saying, “When I have a good rest, you can wait for my wife.” I haven’t heard
such intimate and provocative words for a long time, and suddenly I went back to the days when I was wrapped in honey. After
lying together for a while, his cell phone rang and the hospital asked him to discuss the situation of Taotao.
“Wife,” Lin Tung-chen ruffled my forehead apologetically. “I’m going to the hospital first. You can eat by yourself later. Be good.”
But I stopped him and said, “Lin Tung-chen, I want to go and have a look with you.” When I
opened the door of the hospital ward, besides Kang Jingjing’s mother and daughter, I also saw Lin Dongchen’s mother.
She sat on the edge of the hospital bed, not knowing what Taotao had said, which made her laugh heartily.
Seeing me behind Lin Dongchen, Lin’s mother’s face froze.
In fact, Lin Dongchen’s mother has been a little dissatisfied with me in the past two years. She likes children and always wants a grandchild, but I can only delay her request for work.
Every time Lin Dongchen coaxed both sides, he was at peace with each other.
Now she and Taotao are deeply in love with each other so soon, which shows her love for Taotao.
Kang Jingjing sees me, the corner of the mouth seems to flash quickly a trace of imperceptible sarcasm, I do not know if it is my illusion.
But Taotao greeted us with a smile: “Hello, Dad! Hello, Aunt yuan-hsi!”
Although I had already done some psychological work, I couldn’t help but feel a twitch in my heart when I heard Taotao say “Dad.”.
I subconsciously glanced at Lin Dongchen, but saw him open his eyes and answered with a smile. There was a subtle trace of sourness in
my heart, but I just bent my lips and smiled at Taotao.
Objectively speaking, Taotao is a very pleasant little girl, with black hair and round eyes, like a pure and harmless deer, smiling with two small pear vortexes at the corners of her mouth. I
remember that when I was preparing for pregnancy, I asked Lin Dongchen whether he liked boys or girls.
At that time he put his arms around me and said longingly, “Of course I like my little cotton-padded jacket. When the time comes, my wife will be my big baby, and my daughter will be my little baby. I will certainly raise my two babies to be white and fat..”
Now he does have a small cotton-padded jacket, but my heart is not the taste.
Soon, the doctor came to call Lin Dongchen and Kang Jingjing to discuss the condition, Lin Dongchen’s mother was eager to follow the past.
For a moment, only Taotao and I were left in the room. Not long after
sitting down, Taotao smiled at me and opened her big round eyes and begged, “Aunt yuan Xi, I really want to drink milk. Can you buy me a bottle?”
I looked at her. Her little face was a little pale, but her smile was very sweet.
I couldn’t help softening my voice. “Can you drink the milk?”
“Of course, I like milk best.” She said coquettishly, “My mother buys me a bottle every day, but today she is too busy to remember.”. Auntie yuan-hsi, just buy me a bottle.
Hearing the little girl’s soft voice, I unconsciously promised her: “Then wait a minute, Auntie will be back soon.” When
I passed the service desk, I asked the doctor on duty if the leukemia patients could drink milk, and I got a positive answer before I went to the convenience store downstairs.
Soon I came up with the hot milk, and Taotao was very happy and finished drinking it.
After a while, Lin Dongchen and the three of them came back.
But Taotao was not good this time, and there was a cold sweat on her forehead. Seeing this,
Lin Dongchen hurried to find a doctor.
“It’s the symptoms of allergies,” the doctor looked around and asked, “Did you give the baby anything to eat or drink?”
I remembered the milk and was about to speak. Taotao, who
had been breaking out in a cold sweat, suddenly said, “Aunt yuan Xi just gave me milk..”
The doctor frowned and scolded, “Isn’t this nonsense?”! Leukemia patient’s immunity is very low, the patient is allergic to milk and let her drink milk, serious words will lead to a series of infections, the consequences are unimaginable! “
When Kang Ching-ching heard this, she excitedly rushed over and pushed me.” yuan Hsi, are you trying to kill my daughter? ”
“Taotao has been allergic to milk since she was a child. If she drinks a little, she’ll break out in a cold sweat and have diarrhea. Why do you want to give her milk?”. There was a buzz in my
brain, and I said subconsciously, “It was Taotao who said she wanted to drink milk.” When
Kang Jingjing heard this, she reacted even more fiercely. “You’re talking nonsense,” she scolded with a sneer! Taotao has hated drinking milk since she was a child. I think you don’t have a good heart at all, and you have bad intentions for her!
Lin Tung-chen’s mother also shook her head and said, “It’s not their own child, but they don’t know how to feel sorry for each other.” Unable to defend myself,
I looked at the glaring Kang Jingjing, the reproachful Lin Mu and the angry doctor, and suddenly felt a panic and grievance.
I could only turn around and look at Lin Tung-chen: “I didn’t..”
Lin Dongchen looked embarrassed, but he patted my hand soothingly, ready to say something.
At this time, Taotao burst into tears: “Dad, Dad, I am so painful.”
All the attention in the room was immediately drawn to her. Hearing the sound, Lin Tung-chen walked quickly to her bed and said, “Dad is here. What’s wrong with Taotao?”
The doctor also said, “The ward is too crowded. It doesn’t matter. Let’s go out first.”
I was pushed out, and the door of the ward slammed shut, separating the two worlds.
They’re inside, I’m outside.
I wandered alone in the busy street.
The streets were bustling with laughter and laughter, and I was alone and out of place. A family of three in
front of Yan Yan, father and mother walking side by side, the little girl riding on the shoulders of his father laughing, his mother rushed to support her.
If Lin Dongchen and I had children, would there be such a happy moment?
However, Lin Dongchen and I have no children.
He and Kang Jingjing have a daughter who can laugh like this. I couldn’t stay on
the street any longer, so I went home dejectedly. Lin Dongchen did not go home
in the evening, nor did he call me.
In a mess, I opened a QQ account that I haven’t used for many years. Only one person, Kang Jingjing, was added to
this QQ account.
It was a few years ago.
At that time, I had just established a relationship with Lin Dongchen.
What Lin Dongchen didn’t know was that the first time I saw him, I liked him very much.
So, like many young girls who fall in love, I am always interested in my boyfriend’s ex, always making sure if there are any clues left by his ex.
I don’t know if I should say that heaven pays off. Finally, I saw the news of Kang Jingjing in one of his old diaries.
This old diary has Kang Jingjing’s QQ account, which is placed in a beautiful box with Kang Jingjing’s photos and many love letters written by Lin Dongchen to Kang Jingjing, and is locked in the safe by Lin Dongchen.
Lin Dongchen expressed his love for Kang Jingjing with fervent words in his love letter.
He said that Kang Jingjing was to him what sweet nectar was to the dry desert.
He said that Kang Jingjing’s appearance in his barren heart was like a red rose in full bloom, which made him crazy.
He said that from now on, he would never love another woman as he loved Kang Jingjing.
She was his irreplaceable, the unique white moonlight in his secret heart.
Originally, Lin Dongchen has such a good literary talent.
This is the treatment I have never had in Lin Dongchen.
I don’t remember how I put the box back together with my hands shaking.
Later, Lin Dongchen seemed to find that the box had been moved, and then the box disappeared.
Since then, I don’t know if it’s out of guilt, Lin Dongchen has been getting better and better to me.
Gradually, I was relieved by his kindness to me.
But I still applied for a QQ trumpet, find a reason, and add Kang Jingjing’s QQ. There was little information on
QQ, and gradually I felt so bored that I seldom logged in.
But tonight, devilishly, I want to go up and have a look.
There was one just posted five minutes ago, which was very succinct: “Father and daughter.”
I clicked on the big picture and saw Lin Dongchen holding Taotao with a gentle and spoiled smile.
Obviously, the photo was taken by Kang Jingjing.
My tears fall down, in the silent night, very lonely.
Lin Dongchen came back the next morning.
I fell asleep in the early morning and woke up instantly when I heard the noise.
Lin Tung-chen’s face was a little pale. Pushing open the bedroom door, he saw me and laughed. “Why did you wake up so early?”
He smiled a little reluctantly, and I didn’t know what to say for a moment.
He came up and tried my forehead. “Are you sick?” The tip of
my nose was a little sour, so I grabbed his hand and said, “I didn’t know Taotao was allergic to milk. She said she drank milk every day, so she asked me to buy it for her.”
Lin pinched my face. “I know you’re not like that. Taotao is out of danger now. You don’t have to worry.”
My heart seems to come alive a little bit. “I brought breakfast back,”
Lin explained as he walked out. “You remember to eat it.”
He has to go to the hospital again after washing and changing clothes. Taotao is very attached to him recently and always wants to stay with him.
Lin Dongchen went to the entrance to change his shoes, and he paused before opening the door.
When I looked over, he didn’t turn around, but he said, “Xi Xi, recently..” You’d better not go to the hospital. After
saying that, he opened the door, went out and closed the door.
I was left alone at the table.
Lin Dongchen spends less and less time at home. There are more and more photos in
Kang Jingjing’s QQ space, all of which are accompanied by Lin Dongchen.
I looked at the photo of Lin Dongchen’s happy smile from the bottom of his heart, and glanced at the dust-laden folic acid on the bedside table for a long time, feeling sour and astringent.
Lin Dongchen is not looking forward to having children with me now, is he?
He never supervised me to eat folic acid again, and never asked me to eat well and exercise as before.
Lin Dongchen, like quicksand between my fingers, is leaving me little by little.
But there was nothing I could do.
He hasn’t been with me for a long time.
I can only see him in the space photos uploaded by Kang Jingjing.
Now, it’s getting dark again. It was raining heavily
outside, with thunder and lightning, and I was in a daze in the quilt.
I am most afraid of thunderstorm weather. When I was a child, my grandmother was busy and sometimes went out to work while I was asleep. Once
I woke up in the middle of the night. It was dark inside. There was thunder and lightning outside. But there was no one around me. I cried alone for two hours in the terrible night.
I was four years old.
From then on, I had a deep fear of the thunderstorm night. It’s better when you
grow up, but you will inevitably be afraid.
In the past, Lin Dongchen would always accompany me when there was a thunderstorm late at night.
Thinking of this, I pulled the quilt and hugged myself, curled up in a safe position.
While I was staring blankly in the dark, the bedroom door opened.
“Wife.” Lin Dongchen’s voice came over and the lights were turned on.
Hearing the sound, I narrowed my eyes and saw Lin Dongchen standing there as if he had fallen from the sky. Seeing him
suddenly, I was like a person who had been walking in the desert for a long time. Suddenly, I saw the water source in front of me, and my eyes lit up.
I lifted the quilt and got out of bed, almost rushed to him and hugged him tightly. Looking at Kang Jingjing’s photos
these days, I felt angry and painful, and planned to wait until Lin Dongchen came back to have a good talk with him.
But now that he suddenly appeared in front of me, all my emotions turned into grievances.
I just wanted to have a good cry in the arms of my lover, so the tip of my nose began to sour.
“Husband..” My eyes were red and my voice choked with sobs: “I’m so scared..”
I am so afraid of thunderstorms.
I’m so scared.. He will never be there for me again.
Lin Dongchen put his chin on my forehead and patted me gently on the back.
His voice, as tolerant as ever, coaxed me as gently as a child: “My wife is not afraid. I’m coming back to accompany you, aren’t I?”
After hugging him for a while, he laughed and said, “Well, I’m all wet. Don’t give me a cold.”. I’ll go and wash up first.
He went to the bedroom to wash up. After washing for a while, he opened the bathroom door, revealing a crack in the door: “Wife, bring me a bath towel.”
I took the bath towel and walked over, just in time to see the drops of water in his hair sliding down his cheeks to his delicate collarbone.
The drop of water stayed at the clavicle for a moment, then continued to fall, sliding down his bare chest and abdominal muscles, and finally fell to the ground with a splat.
My face turned inappropriately red. After the
bath, Lin Dongchen is still so attractive.
Just now, he teased me clearly: “Wife, would you like to come in?”? I’ll show you the light..
I glared at him, shoved the towel into his hand, and turned back to bed.
Behind him came Lin Dongchen’s laughter. When he
came out, he changed the lamp into an ambiguous yellow bedside lamp.
“Wife, do you miss me?” As soon as
Lin Dongchen went to bed, he hugged me from behind and sprayed warm breath on my ears.
Of course I do.
But I did not speak, I think of those photos of Kang Jingjing, some depressed, some angry.
Lin Dongchen is excited, he began to kiss me, from the sensitive earlobe to the sensitive neck, I lost inch by inch.
Lin Dongchen is much more indulgent than usual this time.
“Wife, I’m so tired..” He put his head in my arms and said something in a sullen way.
“What?” I was so fascinated by his kiss that I didn’t hear too clearly.
“Nothing.” He seemed to come to his senses, then leaned close to my ear and said, “Concentrate.”
He lit fires everywhere, and I fell. At the end of the last
step, his cell phone rang again.
My heart sank, and a nameless anger quietly ignited from the bottom of my heart.
Lin Dongchen patted me soothingly on the head, then got out of bed and went to one side to answer the phone.
A few minutes later, he came in and looked at me awkwardly. “Honey, I’m going out.”
But my anger can no longer hold back, these days brewing anger and sadness, at the moment a rush to the head.
I grabbed him by the wrist, looked him in the eye, and said angrily, “Don’t go!”
Lin Tung-chen touched my face helplessly: “Wife, Taotao is a patient, and she’s emotionally unstable now. Would you please accommodate her first?”
I stared at him and did not speak.
Then he broke away from my hand, dressed and went to the bedroom door to go out. I couldn’t stand it
any longer. I choked up and shouted, “Lin Tung-chen, if you leave this door, you’ll never come back!” After a pause,
Lin Tung-chen said hoarsely, “Wife, I’ll explain to you when I get back. Don’t blame them.”
Then he lifted his feet and walked out, never looking back. There was a dead silence in the
room again. I
opened my eyes until two o’clock in the morning, and I was still not sleepy.
I shamefully opened Kang Jingjing’s space again.
Sure enough, I saw the latest one: “This is the man I had my eye on. Perfect.”
The accompanying picture shows Lin Dongchen feeding her spoonful by spoonful in front of Taotao’s hospital bed.
Lin Dongchen’s eyebrows and eyes were smiling, and he could not see any trace of the dispute he had just had with me. Lin Dongchen and
I fell into a cold war.
It was said to be a cold war, but in fact, I did not contact him unilaterally.
Recently, he was so absorbed in Taotao’s mother and daughter that he probably didn’t notice that I was really angry. More than a week
has passed, during which Lin Dongchen came back in a hurry and left in a hurry.
Sometimes I am at home, but most of the time I am at school, so I seldom see him face to face.
I vaguely know that Lin Dongchen probably spent a lot of money for Taotao during this period.
He asked the relationship to prepare the best medical conditions, the most expensive medicines and the most intimate care for Taotao.
And I probably have no position to interfere with anything, after all, it is his daughter.
If I have a different opinion, I will become a villain if I am not careful.
But my heart is very blocked, not for the money spent, but Lin Dongchen did not specifically discuss with me when making these decisions, he seems to think I will stop. As soon as I finished class
that day, I received a call from Lin Dongchen’s assistant, Xiaosun.
“Teacher yuan,” Sun said awkwardly, “we can’t get in touch with Lin. Is he at home?”
Sun said that there has been a bit of a mess in the company recently.
Lin Dongchen took the money originally used to buy raw materials to treat Taotao, which led to a little tension in the capital chain.
Not only that, recently he is always not in the company, when he needs to make a decision, we always can’t find anyone, which is very delaying.
Of course, what is more important now is that a week ago, Lin Dongchen made an appointment with a customer to talk about cooperation today. Seeing that the customer will arrive at the company in the afternoon, Xiaosun could not get in touch with Lin Dongchen.
This customer is the biggest customer of the company. If we lose this cooperation, the consequences will be very serious.
So Xiaosun had to call me. After
hanging up Xiaosun’s phone, I thought for a moment, but I still had to call Lin Dongchen.
As a result, no one answered, and no one answered the WeChat voice sent in the past. For the sake of the
overall situation, I decided to suspend the cold war with him and go to the hospital to find him.
After hurrying to the ward on the floor of Taotao, I saw only Lin Dongchen’s mother and Taotao inside through the door of the ward.
Lin Dongchen and Kang Jingjing did not know where to go.
I wandered around the floor, hoping to find Lin Dongchen and tell him about the customer. I
looked around and couldn’t find anything, but when I passed the escape stairs, I was stunned. Kang Jingjing, who was
crying with pear flowers and rain, was throwing herself into Lin Dongchen’s arms and hugging his waist tightly.
And Lin Dongchen even patted Kang Jingjing on the back comfortingly. My
blood stagnated and I stood there and watched them hold me for a few minutes.
When I came to my senses, I stepped forward and shouted “Lin Tung-chen” in a hoarse voice. Hearing the sound,
Lin Dongchen turned his head and saw that it was me. His eyes flashed a touch of panic, and he immediately pushed Kang Jingjing away subconsciously. With
an eager look on his face, he quickly opened his mouth and explained, “Wife, it’s not what you think..”
With these words, he came forward to pull me.
However, he was stopped by my eyes full of disgust.
I frowned and looked at him bitterly. “Is that why you don’t go home, Lin Tung-chen?”
Lin Dongchen moved his lips, but did not open his mouth.
He just looked at me with those wet eyes, with a little grievance and helplessness. I
used to be softhearted every time he looked at me like that.
But now, I feel so angry and sick. After a few seconds of
quiet confrontation, Kang Jingjing behind him snorted coldly.
“Yes, as you can see, he’s been with me and Taotao all this time!”
I was so angry that I couldn’t help scolding her angrily: “When Xiao San is still so shameless, are you so cheap?”
Kang Jingjing was obviously enraged, and she began to shout crazily:
“Am I a mistress?”? Look at yourself in a mirror!
I was his first love, the woman he loved most! What’s more, I even gave birth to a child for him, so you should be called a mistress, right?
“You don’t even have a child with him. What kind of wife are you?!”
“He gave me all his firsts. What are you?”
……
She scolded me badly, but I couldn’t refute it.
Because what she said is true.
At this moment, how I wish Lin Dongchen would deny it, saying that she was talking nonsense and farting.
But Lin Dongchen seemed to be dumb and said nothing.
I stood there like a fool, looking at the arrogant Kang Jingjing and the silent Lin Dongchen, until my eyes were filled with tears, not knowing whether it was anger or sadness.
Kang Ching-ching was still scolding, but Lin Tung-chen finally shouted, “That’s enough!”
The shouting stopped abruptly.
I stared at Lin Dongchen. Once again, the
air fell into a deathly silence.
It was not until I asked Lin Dongchen in a trembling voice, “Is what she said true?”? You never let go of her? You’ve always loved her the most?
I don’t want to tremble. It’s too humble and pitiful, but I can’t control my voice.
Lin Dongchen bowed his head and kept silent for a long time. I don’t understand why he looked so painful.
It was a long time before he raised his eyes to look at me.
The eyes were red and bloodshot, and I couldn’t understand the complex emotions.
He said,
“Xixi, let’s get a divorce.” It was as if
I had suddenly been poured a basin of cold water from the top of my head, from my hands and feet to my heart. “What did you say?”
I asked him in disbelief.
This time, he turned around and told me clearly again, “I say, let’s get a divorce.” All kinds of emotions in
my heart are churning badly, and the blood is constantly rushing to my head.
Anger, disbelief and sadness are so intertwined that you can’t make a sound in your mouth. It was he who
made the mistake, and it was Kang Jingjing who clamored. If I want to divorce, I should mention it first. Why should I be divorced?!
But at this moment, I just thought of the former Lin Dongchen.
He is so good to me, is it all fake?
I tried very hard to calm down, but as soon as I opened my mouth, a trembling voice gave me away: “Lin Tung-chen, did you really love me?”
Lin Tung-chen paused for a moment, then replied huskily, “Of course I do.”
My tears also flowed down uncontrollably. I pointed to Kang Jingjing and asked him the question just now: “What about her?”? Are you still in love with her?
Lin Tung-chen didn’t make a sound for a long time, and just when I thought he wouldn’t make a sound, he said faintly, “Xixi, everyone has feelings..”
What does it mean? It goes without saying.
My heart seemed to be hit by a blunt instrument, as if it would not hurt, but I just couldn’t breathe.
I see. I see.
I heard myself ask at last in a numb voice, “So, between me and her, you chose her, didn’t you?”
Lin Tung-chen’s figure stiffened, and for a long time he replied in a low voice, “I’m sorry.”
I’m so ridiculous.
And I did laugh out loud.
Very good, Lin Dongchen. Very good.
So be it. It’s over from now on. The
previous friendship, all feed the dog. With
a squeak, the door of the safety staircase opened, and it was Lin Tung-chen’s mother standing there holding Taotao’s hand.
I mechanically turned my head to look at them, but I saw the ancestral jade Guanyin hanging around Taotao’s neck.
The Jade Goddess of Mercy was promised by Lin Dongchen’s mother that when I had a child, she would personally bring this ancestral treasure to my child.
Heh, heh.
But Lin Tung-chen’s mother still wants to say, “yuan Hsi, we are sorry for you.”
“You look good, you have a good job, and you can find a better family in the future.”
I interrupted her and dropped a cold sentence directly at Lin Tung-chen: “Lin Tung-chen, next week, go and get the divorce certificate.”
Then I went over them and walked out.
I did not go home, I do not want to go back to the house with traces of Lin Dongchen.
So I went to my sister. I don’t have much contact
with my sister at ordinary times. After I had her when I was a child, my parents ignored me even more. In addition, she and I have no common childhood memories, so we are always not as close as other sisters.
But now leaving Lin Dongchen, in my most painful, most lost moment, I can rely on, in addition to the sister of blood relatives, it seems that there is no one else. When
my sister opened the door and saw that it was me, she was startled. “Sister, what’s wrong with you?”? What’s the matter?
Come to think of it, I look so down and out and miserable now. Without saying a word,
I went into the room and sat down. Seeing this, my sister was a little worried. She took out her cell phone and prepared to call Lin Dongchen to ask about the situation.
I stopped her. “I’m getting a divorce.”
I told my sister about what had happened. She was so angry that her eyes turned red. “Sister, why didn’t you tell me these things earlier?”? They are too bullying!
With these words, she would put on her shoes and run to argue with Lin Dongchen.
With my last ounce of strength, I grabbed her and said, “Don’t go. Stay with me now, okay?”
I think my voice must be very sad and helpless, because my sister began to hold me tightly and could not help crying with me.
“Cry if you want to, sister.” My sister patted me on the back and comforted me with a sob: “My sister is so good. I’m sure I’ll meet someone better and better in the future.”
I had a good cry in my sister’s arms. When I was tired of
crying and sleepy, my sister helped me to bed, wiped my face and covered the quilt. Before I went to
sleep in a daze, I was thinking that I had more than one Lin Dongchen, and I had relatives and friends.
No matter how unforgettable Lin Dongchen is, I can definitely quit.
My sister asked for leave to accompany me for three days, and finally she reluctantly went to work under my urging. I
think I’m going to get divorced next week, but my things are still in my original home.
I’m going to pack up and move out first, and talk to Lin Dongchen about divorce directly next week. I don’t have a lot of things
anyway. Just take out the few clothes and supplies.
But I didn’t expect them to be so shameless. When
I got home, the gate was open.
I went in and saw that Kang Jingjing appeared in my house with Taotao, although I don’t know why Taotao didn’t stay in the hospital.
A wave of anger went straight to my brain. I asked Kang Jingjing, “Who let you in?”? Where is Lin Tung-chen?
When Kang Jingjing saw that it was me, she gave me a contemptuous glance and said with a sneer, “Who else do you think could let us in?”
“Get out!” I suppressed my anger and asked Kang Jingjing to go out, but she remained motionless and expressed her contempt for me with silence.
I was so angry that I went up and dragged her arm and pulled her out.
My strength grew under the blessing of anger, and I really stumbled and dragged Kang Jingjing out of the gate.
But she just clung to the door frame and refused to let go, and there was such a shameless person.
In the midst of the standoff, Taotao, who had been standing nearby frowning and glaring, suddenly rushed over and shouted, “Let go of my mother!”
She came with a whirlwind, like a small bomb, which caught me by surprise.
I was pushed by her a big stumble, straight back a few steps, but did not expect to have been pushed to the top of the stairs.
I rolled down the stairs like that, and my stomach seemed to hit something sharp, and the pain made me sweat. Dizzy
, cold sweat, there seems to be something hot flowing down between the legs.
I reached out and touched it, and it was blood.
I saw Lin Dongchen coming out of the elevator, carrying the lunch of Yonghe King’s family, which should be bought for the mother and daughter. In
a muddle, Lin Dongchen seemed to rush towards me.
“Xi Xi.” Lin Tung-chen’s voice was flustered, as if he were worried. “What’s the matter with you, Xixi?”? We’re going to the hospital. We’re going to the hospital. We’ll be fine. We’ll be fine.
He repeated the sentence incoherently. Driving on a rampage
all the way brought me to the emergency room.
I’m pregnant.
I had a miscarriage. It’s
not just a miscarriage.
The doctor said that my abdomen, due to the violent impact on the uterus, is likely to be infertile in the future.
Lin Dongchen’s eyes were full of remorse. He knelt in front of my hospital bed, haggard, and tears kept falling down.
He held my hand tightly, and his voice was hoarse to the extreme
: “I’m sorry, Xi Xi.”. I didn’t protect you, I didn’t protect our children.
“Hsi Hsi, can we not get divorced?”
I regret it. I regret it. I shouldn’t have told you about the divorce. I can’t bear to part with you. After you left, I thought of you all the time.
Xixi, shall we be good in the future? I will protect you and make up for you.
I tore myself away from his hand in disgust, so hard that my fingertips brushed his face fiercely.
My eyes must have been bitter. I glanced at him and turned away from him.
His expression is very hurt.
He was at a loss. He wanted to shake my hand and hug me, but he didn’t dare to come forward.
But I hate them. I hate them.
If I had a knife in my hand, I would not hesitate to plunge it into his chest.
Maybe I’m venting my anger on him, but if it’s not him, where did all this shit come from.
“Get out!”
“Take that bitch and that child and get out!”
“One look at you will stain my eyes.”
I kept saying the worst things in the world to him, but he didn’t move and just looked at me so sadly.
Enough, really enough.
I hate that innocent, incompetent look on his face.
So I shouted again with all my strength, “Get out!”
But I was so excited that it involved my abdomen again. It hurt so much that I curled up. Frightened,
Lin Tung-chen said in a panic, “I’ll roll, I’ll roll. Xixi, don’t get excited. Don’t hurt yourself..”
He’s gone.
He went to get the doctor.
I was so tired that I fell asleep again. When I woke up
again, I was surrounded by a circle of people.
Sister, parents, relatives, and my little friend, Chi Xun, whom I haven’t seen for a long time. When
they saw me awake, they rushed forward to see me. Holding my hand,
my mother wiped away her tears and said, “Hsi-er, you’ve suffered. It’s all my parents’ fault. I’ve been sorry for you all these years.”
She started rambling on about what she owed me over the years. My father stopped her: “Well, why are you talking about this now? Let’s let our daughter get better first.”
They talked to me about some happy things to divert my attention.
They told me that Lin Dongchen was severely beaten, mainly by Chi Xun. When he
said this, Chi Xun winked at me and said proudly, “Do you want to thank me?”? Then get well quickly and treat me to a big meal!
I smiled weakly.
He really hasn’t changed, and he is still so arrogant.
He was my grandmother’s neighbor’s child. I was a neighbor of him from the age of a few until I was picked up by my parents in the third year of junior high school.
It’s also a childhood sweetheart.
Later, he went abroad to go to college, and our contact was cut off. I don’t know when he returned home. After my
relatives saw me, they went back one after another, leaving my parents and sister to take care of me.
During this period, Lin Dongchen also appeared quietly, while I was asleep, while there was no one in the ward. Sometimes
he looked at me from a distance for a long time, and sometimes he kissed my forehead secretly while no one was in the ward.
I was discharged from the hospital after a few days of recuperation.
I couldn’t wait to divorce Lin Dongchen, so I used the fastest speed and could not refuse to let Lin Dongchen get the divorce certificate with me. On the day of the
divorce, he broke down in tears at the gate of the Civil Affairs Bureau.
And I turned and left, with no nostalgia.
I seem to be ill.
Although I have divorced, I always think of Lin Dongchen and Kang Jingjing’s mother and daughter from time to time. It’s
really hard for me to let go.
But sometimes I inevitably think of a few months ago, when Lin Dongchen and I were still an enviable immortal couple, how could we suddenly become so different.
But I really hate it.
I was killed by their mother and daughter to lose the ability to bear children, this life can no longer have children, and Lin Dongchen to give the child money for medical treatment.
But the culprit, Taotao, is only a little girl of five or six years old, a minor.
She won’t be punished at all.
She made me lose my child, made me unable to bear any more children, but she didn’t pay any price.
I hate it.
Even when I was lying in the hospital bed, Kang Jingjing took advantage of the fact that no one in the ward came to disgust me:
“You deserve to have an abortion!”
“I can only say that this is an act of God, so that Lin Tung-chen will devote himself wholeheartedly to saving Taotao, and I won’t have to worry that he still misses you!”
Oh, yes, Lin Dongchen left most of his property to me.
Only a small part was left for Taotao’s treatment.
But this kind of compensation is not worth one in ten thousand of my injuries.
I really can’t get over it.
I started having nightmares all night, and sometimes I couldn’t sleep all night.
I seem to be depressed.
When I woke up one morning, I found that I couldn’t remember what happened yesterday.
I thought and thought desperately, but I couldn’t remember what I had experienced some time ago.
But the hysterical sense of powerlessness and the unwillingness of despair and anger have been alleviated a lot.
My parents tried to ask me about the past, and I could remember everything about them.
But they said I was divorced, and I had no impression.
They spoke cautiously about my husband, saying that his name was Lin Dongchen, and about my abortion for him.
But I have no impression.
I don’t remember being married, and I don’t remember a man named Lin Dongchen.
And my parents said that some very bloody things happened to me, and I couldn’t remember them even if I wanted to break my head.
So they took me to psychiatry, and they took me to a psychiatrist.
The final diagnosis was that I had post-traumatic stress disorder, or PTSD, because of the severe mental stimulation I had suffered before.
PTSD, in turn, leads to psychogenic amnesia, or selective forgetting.
I forgot the people and the things that hurt me.
I don’t know what those people and things are, but it seems good.
Chi Xun always comes to see me recently.
Sometimes he would accompany me to the hospital to see a doctor.
He was now always dressed in an expensive black suit and a pair of fancy gold-rimmed glasses, like a gentle scum.
Every time he appeared, the girls at the nurses’ station would hide together and whisper, “Is this handsome man a star?”? It’s too handsome and so on.
Come on, I’m getting calluses in my ears.
Every time he always shows off these in front of me, he is still as childish as when he was a child.
I heard that he was mainly going back to China to visit relatives this time, but I didn’t expect that he would run into me. Co
incidentally, he studied psychology in university and is still doing psychological research abroad.
“Hey, little hedgehog.” “Would you like to go abroad with me?” Chi Xun asked carelessly.
Hedgehog is the nickname he gave me when I was a child, because at that time I was more sensitive and had thorns all over my body, especially for him.
And I call him, uh, a stinky pig. It’s a pity that it can’t be called any more
now.
“Oh?”? Tell me about it? I got a little interested.
Anyway, you’re not fit to stay in the old environment now, so you might as well go out and have a look. By the way, being a visiting scholar will also help you get promoted in the future.
That’s true.
Although I’m not as miserable as I used to be, sometimes when I wake up in the middle of the night, I always feel empty, and then I fall into an inexplicable state of nothingness. It’s not impossible to find something to do
now.
I agreed to his proposal.
I went abroad to be a visiting scholar for a year, and he happened to be around to take care of me.
What I didn’t expect was that everyone agreed.
My parents, grandmother, and Chi Xun’s parents always show a happy aunt smile when they see us together now.
I
Chi Xun:.
Then he gave me a meaningful glance.
Everyone seems to be knocking our CP.
However, let everyone down. It is impossible for
me and Chi Xun.
He can’t.
His sex is male.
But the hobby is also male.
Although others don’t know, I know very well that he began to be interested in psychology because of his own orientation. In the second
year of junior high school, he liked a boy at work, and that boy happened to be interested in me.
Later, I found his hostility to me, and then I found his orientation.
We went from being hostile to being good friends who talked about everything for no reason.
Until he went abroad from university, the contact became less and less.
Now that he’s back, he and I are still the same as before, and there is no estrangement.
Perhaps this is the sense of security that childhood friends can bring.
Contact the British docking university, now as long as I finish a few courses in my hands, I can set out with Chi Xun.
Before I leave, I will go to the hospital on schedule for treatment.
Many times, I could see the same man looking at me quietly.
But he never came forward, nor did he approach, but watched silently.
On one occasion, I deliberately turned back suddenly, and then caught his eyes that he had no time to withdraw. There is still too late to take back the obsession and love in
that eye.
In the crowded hospital, he and I looked at each other across the vast sea of people. I
don’t know why, I think of some scenes in movies, and I seem to have a sense of fate. After
watching for a while, he seemed to wake up and tried to push through the crowd to find me.
However, the pain from the bottom of my heart came again.
So I turned around in a hurry and ran away quickly.
This man should be my ex-husband as everyone said.
Since you are an ex-husband, you should stay away from him. I had a full and busy year in England
with Chi Xun. The
cycle of research, lectures and forum exchanges kept me so busy that I didn’t even have time to go to the university next door to find Chi Xun.
This tense and high-intensity arrangement made the remaining pain in my heart disappear. No longer will
I wake up in the middle of the night and sink into a void. The reward of
this effort is that I have published many SCI journal papers.
Chi Xun teased me, “Now that you’ve returned to China, it’s all right for you to be a professor.”
Then he came up to me and said, “No, no, no.”? Our little hedgehog is not going to be the youngest female professor at Nantah, is he? I couldn’t help laughing out loud when I
saw his expression that he needed to be beaten.
He was right.
A year later, Chi Xun and I both returned home.
Then I submitted the SCI paper published this year, and in addition to my previous good performance, I succeeded in becoming the youngest “beauty professor” at Nantah. When
I finished class, Chi Xun was already waiting for me by the roadside.
“Let’s go and take you to a big meal to celebrate!” He looks happier than I do.
As he spoke, he reached out to help me pin the hair that flew to my forehead behind my ear. Chi Xun and
I now have an iron “revolutionary friendship,” just like Monica and Ross in Friends, like brother and sister and like friends, in short, very iron. When
my family saw that Chi Xun and I really had no intention of “being together,” they stopped demanding it.
I remembered Chi Xun’s help to me since I went abroad for a year, and it was time to find an opportunity to treat him well.
“Go!” With a big wave of my hand, I said, “Pick the most expensive restaurant, and my sister will treat you today!”
During the meal, Chi Xun casually asked me, “Hsi Hsi, actually I never told you. The things you forget when you lose your memory can actually be awakened by hypnosis. Do you want to wake up?
I was stunned for a moment before I realized what he was saying.
But I chose to forget: “You don’t have to!”
Now that the body has made a choice before consciousness, I think those memories are not worth remembering in my life. After
saying this, I turned to look out of the window.
I happened to see a seemingly familiar figure turn around and leave.
I shook my head, looked at the red leaves outside the window, remembered the warm concern from my family and friends recently, and smiled from the bottom of my heart.
I raised my glass to Chi Xun: “Come on, let’s drink to life!” On the afternoon when he was called back by
his mother, Lin Dongchen was still thinking that he would take Xixi to have a good meal another day. She was so tired recently that she didn’t eat well.
Thinking of this, he tilted his head and glanced at someone who was dozing in the passenger seat. Seeing that her eyebrows and eyes were peaceful and beautiful, his heart suddenly softened. He couldn’t help laughing when he
thought that the person he had put on his heart was finally ready to give him a baby.
A child with the same blood as her and him, the bond of their lives.
Just think about it, you will feel happy.
But when he entered the room and saw Kang Jingjing’s mother and daughter, he had a vague feeling that something might be doomed to dissipate.
At that moment, what he thought in his heart was that when Kang Jingjing wanted to break up, he should not go to retain, let alone entangle with her for a ridiculous night.
At that moment, he regretted it very much.
This is his original sin.
That night, he was really afraid that Xixi would leave him.
So he couldn’t help being red-eyed and holding her tightly in his arms.
However, he also had some grievances.
He just had that time with Kang Jingjing. Why did God play him like that?!
He sighed deeply in his heart, wrapped the person in his arms more tightly, and rubbed her neck humbly.
I don’t deserve her.
In other words, if Xixi gave birth to a child for another man, he would be out of breath with heartache.
Xixi’s heart must be very painful.
But he is a softhearted man.
The child was in his blood, his physiological daughter, and he could not ignore it.
He made a bone marrow match for Taotao. Fortunately, the match was successful, and soon he donated bone marrow to Taotao.
His plan is to return to the original place with Kang Jingjing after Taotao recovers, and he will pay the alimony regularly.
If Taotao misses him or needs him to come forward, he will occasionally visit him and fulfill his responsibilities as a father.
As for Xixi, he owed her, and he could only make up for it by treating her better in the future.
But what he didn’t expect was that Taotao, the child, would stick to him so much.
Perhaps it’s true that blood is thicker than water. Every time Taotao is like a well-behaved kitten, she doesn’t even need guidance. She will sweetly call him “Dad.” She is so sensible that people feel distressed.
Taotao told him that she was often bullied at school.
Because she had no father, the other children called her “bastard”, “your father doesn’t want you”, “a wild child without a father”, “something no one wants”..
When Taotao heard this, she would jump up and fight with others. As a result, she was often outnumbered and beaten black and blue.
He listened to Taotao’s past, and his heart ached as if he had been pricked by a needle, and he could not help hugging the child.
“Dad, are you sure you don’t want me?” Taotao raised her big wet eyes and looked at him longingly.
How could it be? Taotao is so cute. Daddy won’t leave you. When he said this, he was as gentle and loving as any father.
But he thought of Xi Xi again. What would
she think?
It’s hard to have both.
So, many nights he actually went home.
But he doesn’t know how to face the brook.
He sat downstairs, looking at the figure of the brook reflected in the curtains upstairs, feeling that there was something in his heart.
However, if she asks, “When will Taotao go back?”
So how should he answer?
He hasn’t decided yet, and his mind is in a mess.
He didn’t want to see Xixi’s disappointed and lonely eyes because of his wavering attitude.
He is very upset.
Just spend the night in the car downstairs, so that you can get closer to the stream and not have to face her for the time being.
But at that time he did not know that Kang Jingjing would take pictures of him holding peach every time, and then send them to the space, deliberately showing them to Xixi.
He broke up with Kang Jingjing long ago.
Six years ago, after waking up that absurd night, the house was already empty, and Kang Jingjing finally left without saying goodbye.
He laughed at himself. It turned out that even if she had a relationship, she didn’t want him to be responsible. Kang Jingjing was really determined to him.
At that moment, he suddenly put it down.
He began to close his heart and devote himself to his career.
Until I met Xi Xi.
He still remembers the scene of his first encounter.
He went to Nantah on business, and when he reached the artificial lake, he saw a girl with black hair holding her knees and sobbing softly, so sad.
At that moment, he was inexplicably moved and wanted to be a hero to protect the girl.
Later, he asked for her contact information and began to pursue her enthusiastically.
In his world, she is always like the bright moon in the night sky, the snow on the top of the mountain, gentle and quiet.
Fortunately, his persistence and patience finally let him embrace the beauty. Once
he opened the safe to look for something and accidentally saw a love letter to Kang Jingjing when he went to school. He had forgotten that there was such a thing when he
put it down, and now the love letters lay there quietly, like evidence of his guilt.
He was in a panic and quickly took it away and threw it away.
Not bad, if let Xi Xi see, must be sad.
That night he felt lucky and happy, so he worked extra hard in bed.
Taotao’s illness is somewhat repeated, sometimes good and sometimes bad, and more and more clingy.
He has to spare more energy to accompany his children.
On that thunderstorm night, he knew that Xixi was afraid, so he hurried home. When he got to the bedroom, he saw that the person on the bed had lost a circle of weight. He was very distressed. Can
not help but miss the suffering, tightly hugged her.
I miss her, miss her smile, miss her coquetry, miss her hug, and miss her body.
Recently, he and Xixi have been too cautious.
She no longer spoke in front of him as she used to, without reservation.
And he probably couldn’t open his mouth to discuss Taotao with her.
In fact, Taotao’s condition has deteriorated recently. Doctors say that this stage is a critical period, which determines whether Taotao can get better completely.
But when he was in the bathroom, he saw that there was no bath towel, and he had a rare idea of teasing Xixi.
He deliberately let her take the bath towel, deliberately said dirty words to tease her, and then looked at her blushing.
It seems to go back to the past. A
rare moment of happiness.
He couldn’t help hugging her and kissing her, and looked up to see the folic acid on the bedside table.
By the way, they were preparing for pregnancy, and they were going to have a common child. He’s going to work harder
tonight, he thought.
But at the last moment, his cell phone rang again.
Remembering the doctor’s words, he spoke with difficulty to go to the hospital. Her
eyes were red and her voice choked with sobs: “Lin Tung-chen, if you leave this door, you’ll never come back!”
This is the first time that Xixi has said such a heavy word to him.
But he had no choice but to bite the bullet and reply, “Wife, I’ll explain to you when I come back. Don’t blame them.”
He could imagine how disappointed Xixi would be behind him, and he dared not look back.
He thought, wait for the matter of Taotao to pass, he will make up for Xixi.
But Taotao’s condition took a turn for the worse.
That morning, the doctor called Kang Jingjing and him to the office and told them that Taotao’s resistance was too poor and her recovery was far away.
More than that, if you want to keep Taotao’s life, I’m afraid you have to pay more energy and money.
Kang Jingjing cried.
He’s confused.
How did this happen? Coming out
of the doctor’s office, Kang Jingjing couldn’t help throwing herself into his arms and crying.
After all, she is the mother of the child, he is the father of the child, even before more grudges, at the moment he and Kang Jingjing are just a pair of ordinary people who want the child to get better.
Kang Jingjing took Taotao alone until she was five years old. She must have swallowed her tears at ordinary times and felt very sad.
Thinking of this, he raised his hand and patted the difficult mother to comfort her.
However, God always treats him so cruelly, just once, as soon as he turns around, Xixi is calling him.
He suddenly panicked, he had never seen Xixi so sad and sad.
Her eyes were red, and her words were even trilling, and he was very distressed.
He hurried forward to explain, but the disgust in her eyes was too obvious.
He stopped.
So quietly the two looked at each other.
But Kang Jingjing couldn’t help making a sound. She said to Xixi that he just couldn’t let go of their mother and daughter. Subconsciously,
he tried to retort, but somehow he remembered the doctor’s words.
The doctor said that Taotao needed more material and more energy to stay. What
does that mean? He knows.
It means that he may have to spend all his money, accompany him day and night, and be on call.
If this is really the case, how can it be fair to Xixi?
These days, he did not see the lonely expression of Xixi.
He was a little distressed, but he was mentally and physically exhausted.
At that moment, what he thought was, let Xixi go.
He had taken good care of her for so many years, and he could not bear to pull her into this quagmire.
Let her go and let her pursue new happiness.
So he said, “Xixi, let’s get a divorce.”
He saw Xixi’s shocked and then extremely injured expression.
At that moment, was he not hurt and sad?
Obviously deep love, but to be cruel to leave, all the bitter fruit can only be swallowed alone. “What did you say?”
She asked without giving up.
He couldn’t bear to look her in the face again, so he turned around and said again, “I said, let’s divorce.”
Almost word for word.
However, he was already in tears.
His stream, invisible.
Kang Jingjing is still adding oil and vinegar to stimulate Xixi.
He understood Kang Jingjing’s intention.
Kang Jingjing was afraid that he would walk away and leave Taotao to fend for herself.
So she wanted to do everything possible to attack Xixi, let her leave voluntarily, and never appear in front of him again.
Xixi is really sad. Tears rolled down
her face as if she had burned her boats. “Did you ever love me?” She asked.
How can you not love?
I only love you for so many years. “Of course,”
he answered hoarsely. “Do you still love her?”
She asked.
Kang Jingjing?
How is that possible. Seeing Kang Jingjing
again, in addition to strangeness and embarrassment, he and Kang Jingjing probably have a trace of resentment towards each other.
Kang Jingjing resented him, and he could feel it.
Maybe he hated that he shouldn’t have pestered her that night, otherwise there would be no peach, and she wouldn’t have worked so hard with peach for so many years.
Especially when their mother and daughter were down and out, she hated them even more when she saw that the man who was the culprit had his wife in his arms and was very happy. And him?
He analyzed his heart and found that if Kang Jingjing hadn’t given birth to Taotao on her own initiative, he would still be immersed in the gentle countryside of Xixi, happily looking forward to their first child.
So what about love between him and Kang Jingjing?
It’s just endless embarrassment and resentment, even worse than strangers.
But he still can not ignore peach, since the child is a fait accompli, what is the use of resentment.
So Xixi finally asked him, “Is that why you chose her?” “I’m sorry,” was all
he could say.
Xixi is gone.
His heart is empty. Just live like a
walking corpse.
He spent almost day and night in the hospital this time. On the one hand, Taotao needed people when her condition was getting worse. In his home, on the other hand, there was no one waiting for him to go back.
Home living room is equipped with monitoring, he turned on his mobile phone every day to see that Xixi never went back. The place
without her is probably not called home, but an empty house.
Later, Taotao made a wish for her parents to take her out for a day.
He said yes.
The doctor has told her before that she should try her best to make her happy every day, and if she has any needs, she should try her best to satisfy her.
Taotao said she wanted to see where her father lived.
He took Taotao’s mother and daughter with him.
He hated it so much. Why was he not there at that time.
When he came back after buying food, he saw Xixi lying on the ground with a pool of blood around him.
He’s going crazy. Only after being
sent to the hospital did he know that Xixi had been pregnant with his child for more than a month.
But now that the child is gone, Xixi can no longer bear children.
He’s so regretful.
He hates it.
He hated himself for not protecting the stream.
From divorce, to abortion, to infertility, Xixi’s pain is almost all brought by him.
He hated his incompetence and his softness of heart. It was Taotao who
hurt Xixi, his child, or the child he had to take care of.
At that moment, how he wished he was a scum man and a scum father.
He just wants to be with his Xixi, what children, what leukemia, he does not want to care, really do not want to care.
The thought went round and round in my mind.
But he can’t. He can’t do it.
If he did, he would have trouble sleeping and eating all his life.
Later, Xixi’s family came. A man
named Chi Xun gave him a good beating.
He did not fight back, and even thought to himself, hit harder.
Only by making his body more painful, the pain in his heart will temporarily ease a little.
Chi Xun did not let him down.
Later, Xixi divorced him.
He broke down in tears in front of the Civil Affairs Bureau, and his Xixi would never kiss his cheek again.
Later, Taotao’s condition continued to deteriorate, and he saw the little girl’s life passing away little by little, but he could not hold it. One
morning, Taotao sat on the bed with a ruddy face and talked to him.
“Dad,” Taotao raised her little face to look at him. “Can you help me apologize to Aunt yuan Xi?”
Taotao said that she pushed Aunt yuan Xi down the stairs, and she did it wrong.
When she saw Aunt yuan Xi pulling her mother, of course she had to run over to help her mother.
Did not expect to let Aunt yuan Xi roll down the stairs, this is not her intention.
And last time, she deliberately asked Aunt yuan Xi to buy her milk to drink, and deliberately did not tell Aunt yuan Xi that she was allergic to milk.
“I’m sorry, Dad.” Taotao lowered her head and apologized in a low voice. “I thought it was because of Aunt yuan Xi that you didn’t want me to be with Mom.”
He has mixed feelings, but in the face of the young child, he can only force out a stiff smile: “Knowing that an apology is a good child, Aunt yuan Hsi will forgive you.”
The next day, Taotao went.
Kang Jingjing went crazy and vented all her anger on him.
Until her family came and took her away.
Later, I heard that she was in a trance and was not very normal. For a long time
, Lin Dongchen had to rely on alcohol to fall asleep. He turned black and white upside down and was drunk.
Every day, I have to hold the pillow printed with Xixi’s head before I can fall asleep.
Looking at her son’s dejected appearance, Mother Lin could not help but hide her face and wipe away her tears. How nice it would have been
if Xixi had been left behind. After
her husband left, it was too hard for her to take care of Lin Dongchen alone, so she began to believe in Buddhism. When she
saw Taotao, she felt that she had a predestined relationship with the child.
This child looks so much like Lin Tung-chen when he was a child, and his little mouth is still very sweet. He likes to snuggle up to her and sweetly call her “Grandma.”.
After hearing that Taotao was always bullied at school, she was even more distressed.
She wants to keep this child by her side, after all, is Lin Dongchen’s bone and blood, how can she be bullied outside.
So the balance in her heart began to tilt to Kang Jingjing, and she wanted to help her children fight for a complete home.
Unexpectedly, it turned out to be such a result. After a month of muddling through,
Lin Dongchen was finally woken up by his mother’s scolding. If
you still can’t let go of Xixi, go and get her back! What can be the result of living in a drunken dream all day in the house?
Is it? Is it possible for
him to recover Xixi again?
He began to look for information about Xixi again. After going to the
school to ask, he learned that Xixi had visited Britain and would not be back for about a year.
A year, all right.
Then take advantage of this year to work hard and try to provide her with better conditions when she comes back.
He began to work again, because he had a beautiful dream, and he had expectations again.
He would often go to Xixi’s school, walk the way she had walked, go to the place she had been, as if he could get closer to her.
It’s not that he didn’t want to find her in England, but he didn’t dare. He
heard that she had been stimulated before, and he was afraid that appearing rashly would frighten her.
Just wait for her to come back quietly.
Finally, one day, he went to the restaurant near Xixi School for dinner and saw the haunting figure.
But she already has a good man to accompany her.
It’s Chi Xun.
Her childhood sweetheart.
He saw Chi Xun intimately pulling up the sideburns of Xixi’s forehead and helping her pin them behind her ears.
At that moment, his heart was choked and he was almost out of breath.
He dared not look again and turned away.
But in the end still not reconciled.
He found a time when Chi Xun was not there and stopped Xi Xi who was going home after class.
She was still so attractive to him that she easily occupied his whole heart, with peaceful and beautiful eyebrows and eyes, and calm and elegant manners, just as she had been many years ago.
His heart was pounding in his throat.
He blocked her way. He took a
deep breath, then slowed down his breathing and called out softly, “Xi Xi.” The
man in front of him looked up from his hurried thoughts and looked at the stranger’s eyes.
Indifferent and confused.
“Who are you looking for?” She frowned lightly and took a step back subconsciously to distance herself from him. “Don’t you know me?”
He asked hoarsely.
She shook her head gently.
I don’t know.
He froze in place.
Then he saw the person who was haunting him, said “sorry” to him, and left in a hurry.
At that moment, the heart in his throat fell heavily and fell apart. Once again,
he understood what heartbreak meant.
Fanwai · Fate is you
. Recently, Chi Xun always wants to introduce me to someone.
“I’ve already helped you get through. You’re the absolute best man. Just take a look!” Chi Xun brought up the topic again.
But who’s free? Prepare lessons
every day, declare projects, take students.. A person has to break it into eight pieces. Isn’t he good at doing business?
Besides, I’m a divorced woman, and I can’t bear children.
The average man, hearing this condition, I’m afraid the first reaction is to retreat, right?
But the ears are really going to be worn out by Chi Xun.
I decided to meet him, and as soon as I came up, I laid out my actual situation. It should not be difficult to scare him away. I’ve
booked a rendezvous. Seeing this man’s back
from a distance, he should be an elite man. With his
expensive black suit and well-groomed hairstyle, he was drinking coffee in an elegant manner.
Unfortunately, I don’t know if he will be so calm after knowing my conditions.
“Hello, I’m yuan Xi.” I went up to him and said hello.
The man looked up, and I froze.
It’s an acquaintance.
“Elder Martial Sister, long time no see.” He laughed happily, his eyes were almost bent away, and two pear swirls appeared at the corners of his mouth, which were sweet. It is well known that he is
my former fellow apprentice.
This guy had chased me before, and when he learned that I had a boyfriend, he left sadly. It’s a little awkward to meet on such an occasion
now. After
sitting down, I looked for a topic to break the awkwardness: “Why are you still single?”
The question stirred up a hornet’s nest, and he gave me a plaintive look.
Then he said with a half-smile, “It’s all my fault that the people I met when I was young were so amazing that I couldn’t hold any other women in my heart.”
I
“Do you understand my situation?” I said again, “I am a divorced woman, and …” And you can’t have children later.
He poured me a glass of water and said casually, “You don’t think this date is a coincidence, do you?”
Uh?
It turned out that he had asked Chi Xun and waited for a long time before he finally made an appointment with me.
Well, it’s a little touching.
“What about the children?” I asked.
He replied nonchalantly, “I’m a dink. It’s better to have no children. Having children is a burden to me.”
So..
I’m a little moved. It’s a good
date, but I haven’t said yes yet.
He started all kinds of operations. First, he came to visit our school and told the leader that he wanted me to receive him.
And moved across the street from my house.
Then pick me up from school every day.
God, I can’t stand it.
A year later, we got married. Another
year later, I got pregnant unexpectedly. The moment I
heard the news, the man held me in his arms and turned around several times.
I’m going to be a father! I’m going to be a father! He was so happy that he was incoherent.
Didn’t you say you were a dink?
Liar.
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