Mind trick
secret love silent: just like you
lost the game.
He was forced to ask for the contact information of the handsome guy at the next table.
Scan code and find that this person has long been my good friend.
Every year, he sends his best wishes on holidays and birthdays. For
seven years.
1
“Can I add my contact information?”
When I said this, the next table was obviously quiet for a moment.
I smiled and shook the phone in my hand. “I lost the game, you know.”
People no longer look at it.
Only the designated handsome guy never raised his head from beginning to end. My friend
behind me was still staring at me, and I had no choice but to ask again, “Is that all right?” Then
he looked up and fixed his eyes on me. The look in his eyes
was quite threatening, like a lion who had been hungry for a long time and finally stared at his prey, almost showing green light.
I feel a little strange.
Obviously this person is a gentle handsome man, even clinking glasses and drinking are gentle and delicate.
Afraid of being rejected, I softened my tone: “Do me a favor.”
I seldom act like a spoiled child, but as far as my past experience is concerned, there is almost no disadvantage.
Sure enough, he nodded, his voice a little hoarse: “Good.”
He took out his mobile phone, opened his business card QR Code, and slowly showed it to me as if he had made a major decision. When I finished
scanning the code, I found that the mobile phone did not pop up the interface of adding friends.
I can send him a message directly.
This man has long been my best friend?
I looked at him suspiciously and opened the dialog box doubtfully. What came
into view was a screen full of white boxes, all of which were dialogues sent by him.
L: “Happy birthday.”
L: “Happy Mid-Autumn Festival.”
L: “Good health on the Dragon Boat Festival.”
……
I went all the way down and found that every year on holidays and birthdays, he sent me blessings.
The conversation stops in 2015.
At the top is the sentence “You have added an L, now you can start chatting.”.
I can’t breathe for no reason. The handsome man who was highly praised by
his friends as the best of pure desire was my best friend in the first year of high school?
I looked up at him.
I found that he was also looking at me, dodging and insisting.
I understood in an instant that
he liked me.
My good friend put his arm around my shoulder from behind and excitedly gossiped, “What took you so long?”? Did you add it or not? Feeling guilty,
I locked the screen of my phone and calmly said, “Yes.”
She hugged me happily to go. I looked at the handsome man again. He had lowered his eyes as if nothing had happened.
I raised my phone and said to him, “Thank you.”
The party was over and it was drizzling on the horizon.
I sat on the sofa in the hall waiting for someone to pick me up, and I saw the people at the next table coming out in a rush.
They clamored, and the silent hall was very lively for a moment.
Someone saw me, took his arm to the handsome man, and motioned him to look at me. Without a glance,
he went to the front desk to check out.
After checking out, he asked for an umbrella at the front desk and walked towards me.
“Here.” He put his umbrella on the tea table in front of me.
“I’m waiting for my boyfriend.”
He froze for a moment, but put down his umbrella. Then he got up and said, “No conflict.”
Seeing that he was about to leave, I quickly asked, “What’s your name?”
“Lu Yi Chuan.” He answered like this. I’ve heard
that name before, more than once. Three years of
high school, the God of learning, always sitting in the first place, the top student in the eyes of the teacher, the God in the eyes of the super scholar.
But I vaguely remember that face on the honor roll, doesn’t it look like this?
I sent a message to my best friend asking for help, and she immediately sent me a picture of Lu Yichuan in high school.
I tasted it carefully.
Found that the facial features are still like, but the whole temperament is very different.
In high school, Lu Yichuan was a typical straight A student with sluggish eyes, like a bookworm. He was particularly handsome when he was
green and astringent. His thin-framed glasses were on his face, adding a bit of gentle and ascetic breath. His gestures were full of exciting hormones. As soon as he sat down, he was stared at by our table.
I lamented how much he had changed. I took out my cell phone and saw that twenty minutes had passed and my boyfriend had not arrived yet.
I got up and went to the door to meet him. She
did not welcome her boyfriend, but ran into Lu Yichuan, who was still waiting under a tree not far away.
He was alone, and his friends should have left long ago. When
he saw me, he dodged behind the trunk, as if he didn’t want me to see him.
I knew in an instant that he was waiting for me.
I tightened the umbrella in my hand and walked toward him. “Are you waiting for me to return the umbrella?”
He was at a loss for words. No.
“Why haven’t you left since the rain stopped?”
He doesn’t talk.
I asked directly, “Why don’t you confess that you like me?” Judging
from the chat records, the time he likes should not be short. “You have a boyfriend,”
he said pointedly.
“Always have.” He said so.
I don’t think that’s the reason: “But a lot of people know I have a boyfriend, and they still express their love to me.”
He stopped talking again.
A supercar passed behind me, and he hugged me with a panicked look on his face and hurriedly said, “Be careful.”. The rise and fall of
his chest was great, and he seemed nervous.
I was protected in his arms, and my eyes could only fall forward.
The supercar was already parked in front of the clubhouse, and the two men in front of the driver’s seat were still kissing.
For a long time, the co-driver’s door opened and a tall man with long legs stepped down from the car.
My boyfriend. It should be an ex-boyfriend
now.
He took out his cell phone and lowered his head to make a phone call. Soon, the screen of my cell phone in my hand lit up.
I picked it up, and his voice was full of spoiling. “Baby, I’m here. Where are you?”
“Go back to the car and kiss. It’s nice.”
He was stunned, holding the phone around looking, I hung up the phone directly.
Looking up at Lu Yichuan again, the corners of his mouth were tight, as if he wanted to laugh but dared not, and he was very tight.
I said, “No boyfriend this time.”
He smiled and said earnestly, “Then can I chase you?” The man who
said he wanted to chase me didn’t move for a few days.
My best friend came to me every day to ask me about the latest developments, and in the end she was worried: “Are all the school gods so sultry?”
“Not really,” I said. “I remember the student God I dated before was quite good at getting things done.”
My best friend giggled and said, “You sound like a scum girl.”
I lay on the bed and turned over comfortably. “Didn’t you say that?”? It’s a pity that I don’t fall in love a few times like this.
My best friend was quite interested: “So it seems that our high school students have a chance to learn about God?”
“Let’s see how he does.”
“But what about Hsu Ching-chen?” My best friend added, “I really didn’t expect him to have an affair.”. When he was chasing you, you told him to go to hell, and he didn’t even say anything, did he? I wanted to laugh at the
mention of this. After laughing for a long time, I replied, “He said he relied on a rich woman to support me.”
My best friend laughs: “Is that a rich woman?”
“I don’t know. I don’t like it anyway.” Before
hanging up the phone, my best friend reminded me, “You really have to be careful with Hsu Ching-chen. I don’t think he’s going to give up so easily.”
“I know.” I answered.
Xu Jingchen is really not a good stubble.
But I’m not the one kissing someone in the car, and there seems to be nothing to be afraid of.
The next day, I went to work as usual.
Before leaving work, I received a message from Lu Yichuan, who had been silent for a long time.
L: “Can I invite you to dinner tonight?” A
short line of words, but I have a kind of “finally came” feeling of excitement.
It’s like.. I’ve been waiting to hear from him.
But I didn’t have much feelings for him at first.
I can’t help suspecting that this is Lu Yichuan’s routine.
If he was just an ordinary suitor and chased me the next day like other people, then I don’t think he would have any extra ideas.
But I began to look forward to my interaction with him because of his pursuit of me and the reunion as if I were dead.
I replied neatly, “Yes.”
His message followed: “I’m downstairs in your office. You can contact me anytime.”
I raised an eyebrow in surprise. “Did I tell you where I work?”
He doesn’t reply again.
I laughed for no reason.
Every time asked the key, this person is silent, is really a good hand to play dead.
Finally, when I got off work, I went downstairs with my bag.
Lu Yichuan is waiting for me downstairs.
He was leaning against a Volkswagen Phaeton, with a white shirt and black trousers, and a delicate and elegant face, giving people a sense of restraint and publicity.
Just like that car, it’s low-key and luxurious. “What would you like to eat tonight?” He asked demurely as he
welcomed me into the car.
I looked at him with a smile. “It doesn’t make sense. You even know where I work. You didn’t ask me what I like to eat?”
He froze for a second, suppressed a smile, and said frankly, “Yes.” Shall
we go to the Grand Hyatt? I’ve already made a reservation.
I nodded.
Driving all the way to the Grand Hyatt, Lu Yi-chuan explains: “There’s been a sudden change in the final project, and I’ve been busy these days.” Suddenly
I said, “I thought you did it on purpose.”
“Deliberately what?”
“Hang me.”
He looked at me seriously and said, “No.”
As soon as we arrived at the Grand Hyatt, the waiter skillfully led us to the window.
I sat down with him and was about to order when a voice of surprise came from behind me: “Pei Yan, is it really you?”
I looked up, and it was my ex-boyfriend.
“I knew I’d meet you when I came here for dinner. You used to love this restaurant’s private dishes, especially the turpentine tofu, which you couldn’t get tired of eating..” I was embarrassed by
his rambling.
Especially in front of Lu Yichuan.
Xueshen’s ex-boyfriend also noticed Lu Yichuan’s presence. His face changed slightly, and he slanted his head and asked me, “Your boyfriend?”
“No.” I answered. For some unknown reason,
he took Lu Yi-chuan by the shoulder with a familiar voice, saying, “Brother, stop in time. Don’t chase me. Look at me. I haven’t come out of the breakup for two years. This woman is a scourge. It’s better to give up as soon as possible.”
Lu Yi-Chuan brushed his hand away and calmly looked up. “Your friend is still waiting for you.”
The ex-boyfriend looked back, said a few more words, and turned away.
The atmosphere was frozen.
I looked at Lu Yichuan’s face and said tentatively, “Why don’t you stop the loss in time?”
Lu Yichuan was wiping his hands with a towel, and the one that had been wiped seemed to be the one that had just touched his ex-boyfriend.
He looked up calmly, as if to ask me,
“After seven years, how can I stop?”
Since then, the atmosphere has been harmonious.
Lu Yichuan does not speak much, but the style of conversation is moderate, and every sentence has the right sense of propriety, which will not make me feel uncomfortable.
I guess his EQ should be OK. In
a few words, I also pieced together an excellent Lu Yichuan. Graduated from
a famous school, and opened a company with the same school senior, artificial intelligence direction, small success, just signed a big order some time ago.
“You came to me on the day of the celebration.” He said.
I immediately thought of that night and wondered, “What were you thinking when I came to add my contact information?”
He was silent again and began to play dead.
But this time I wasn’t going to let him off lightly. “Are you nervous?” I asked.
“I was thinking,” he finally said, his voice muffled. “You still don’t remember me.”
「……」 I
didn’t do anything wrong to him, but I have a feeling that I am a scum.
I decided to explain, “You’ve changed a lot. I don’t remember high school students looking like this, so..”
His face darkened as I explained. “But as soon as you mentioned Lu Yichuan, I remembered. You’re really good. I’m impressed.”
“Besides, you are very handsome now.” I added in a whisper.
He smiled faintly and said, “I know. I don’t blame you.”
“I will only blame myself for not attracting you.” He raised his eyes lightly and added slowly. The moment I looked
at each other, my heart suddenly trembled.
I decided to withdraw the judgment that Lu Yichuan would not come. Judging
from what we’ve been getting along with tonight, he’s even better than my god-like ex-boyfriend.
After dinner, Lu Yichuan sent me home. At
the gate of the community, he suddenly stopped the car. “What’s the matter?”
I wondered.
He pointed to a tall figure not far away and asked, “Is that your ex-boyfriend?”
I followed a look, and sure enough, it was Xu Jingchen. Most of
his body was hidden behind the street trees, his side face was illuminated under the street lamp, and his whole body was shrouded in darkness, so he could not see clearly without looking carefully.
I nodded and said yes.
Lu Yichuan is still staring.
I was about to ask what was wrong when he asked, “What’s that in his hand?”
I fixed my eyes on it again, but I couldn’t really see it clearly, but I could guess: “It should be a knife. When he’s idle and bored, he has a habit of turning the knife.”
Lu Yichuan looked at me in amazement.
I guess he had a misunderstanding and explained earnestly, “It’s one of those fancy turning knives. He should be holding a butterfly knife in his hand.”
“No matter what kind of knife it is, it can hurt people.” He said.
“He shouldn’t have done this..”
I inexplicably remembered my best friend’s advice, and I couldn’t finish it smoothly.
“I’ve known about your ex-boyfriend, and I’m not at ease.” Lu Yi-chuan stated the facts: “He used to hurt people with violence, and he left a criminal record with the Public Security Bureau.”
In fact, it is because of jealousy.
I want to answer like this, and then think, now I and Lu Yichuan appear at the same time, is not the best time for Xu Jingchen to be jealous.
“Or,” his voice suddenly went dry, “do you want to get out of the car and tell him clearly?”
Seeing my silence, he added, “I want to be with you.”
“Can you beat him?”
“I don’t know.” He replied, “But I can protect you.”
This makes me feel that getting out of the car at this time is a heinous crime.
Hesitantly, my cell phone rang.
The caller shows Xu Jingchen. He
looked up and saw that he had come out of the dark.
Xu Jingchen held his cell phone in one hand and stared at the car I was in.
His other hand was still turning carelessly, and the sharp tip of the knife grazed his fingertips, and the brilliant and dangerous movements matched his cold face, which was particularly shocking. Later,
I felt a little scared and felt at a loss. “What should I do now?” I asked.
Lu Yi-chuan hesitated for a moment, then stepped on the accelerator and said neatly, “Go to my house.” It was already ten o’clock in the evening when we
arrived at Lu Yichuan’s home. When I
got into the elevator, my best friend happened to send me a message: “Hsu Ching-chen just called me several times. Are you all right?”
On the way, Xu Jingchen kept bombarding me with phone calls. I was bored and blacklisted him directly. Unexpectedly, he called my best friend again.
I answered that it was all right. By the way, I told her what happened tonight and asked her to blacklist it.
She sent messages one after another.
The mobile phone tinkled one after another, provoking Lu Yichuan to look askance frequently.
My best friend was obviously angry. In order to appease her, I took care of my cell phone all the way and didn’t take too much care of Lu Yichuan’s feelings.
It wasn’t until he came in that
Lu Yi-chuan handed over a pen and paper: “It’s probably going to be overnight. Write down what you need. I’ll go and buy it now.”
I was busy replying to the message, and subconsciously said, “Just make do with it.”
“Everything is okay?”
He asked me, glancing at my cell phone again, his voice straining like a string: “So much to talk about with my ex-boyfriend?”
“Ah..” I held up my cell phone and hesitated to answer, “This is my best friend.”
He raised his hand and rubbed his nose, looking guilty. “I’m sorry.”
“It’s all right.”
I put away my cell phone and wrote down on a piece of paper what I needed for the night. When I handed it to him, I said sincerely, “Thank you.”
Lu Yichuan took it dejectedly and was about to go out when her best friend made a video call.
Lu Yichuan stopped and looked like he wanted to see but didn’t dare to see more.
I was about to explain, but he didn’t say anything and turned away. When
the phone was connected, my best friend sighed, “I was scared to death. You haven’t replied to me for so long. I thought Hsu Ching-chen was looking for me.” Where are you now?
She stared suspiciously at the place where I appeared in the video.
“Lu Yichuan’s family.” I answered slowly. First
she was silent, then she screamed, and after cheering, the topic changed sharply and went straight to my relationship with Lu Yichuan to gossip, saying that she was relieved to have Lu Yichuan to protect me.
I can’t refute anything she says.
Because she was like a fanatic on CP at this time, and she didn’t listen to what the Lord said. Influenced
by the bombardment of my best friend, I felt a little uncomfortable when Lu Yichuan entered the door.
He handed me a paper bag and said simply, “Some stores are closed. Buy a replacement.”
“It’s all right.”
He helped me run the bath water, led me to change my slippers, and acted like a host. When I came out of the bathroom, he even made the bed in the guest room for me, and there were two books I had read in the circle of friends at the head of the bed.
The care was impeccable, and I said earnestly, “Thank you very much for tonight.”
“You know, I’m selfish.” He answered like this.
So honest, I can’t say anything more. When
Lu Yichuan was taking a bath, I was watching a campus movie in the living room. The combination of a
genius man and a fool woman, the plot is fascinating, but my mind is still full of Lu Yichuan.
The woman was chasing the man and was rejected by the man on the grounds that her studies were important. I was thinking that it was nothing to fall in love with Lu Yichuan.
Just thinking about it, the mobile phone rang, a strange number.
I picked it up, and it was Xu Jingchen again.
I was really annoyed: “What do you want?”
“Who is that man?”
“It’s none of your business.”
“Baby, give me one more chance. I’ll listen to you from now on.” “I just want to give you a better life,” he said in his humble words.
I’m speechless.
“I really love you. No one can love you more than I do.”
I really can not listen to, silence do not start, but found that Lu Yichuan did not know when to take a bath and sit over.
He was dressed in simple home clothes, his hair was slightly wet, and he was peeling an orange with his head down.
He peeled it carefully, gently and slowly, and after removing the orange skin, he even removed the tangerines wrapped around the outside of the orange petals. It
was clearly a gentle picture, but I felt dangerous.
For a long time, I still think of the night we met again in the bar, and the deep and quiet eyes of the beast.
By the time I realized it, I had pressed the hang up button.
Lu Yi-chuan handed me the peeled orange and asked softly, “Ex-boyfriend?”
I nodded slowly.
He didn’t say anything this time, but smiled softly. “Why did you pick him to be your boyfriend?”
“He’s handsome, and he loves me.”
“Is that all?”
I nodded, “I need a boyfriend once in a while to help me out.”
Lu Yichuan was silent for a long time.
When I put the last piece of orange into my mouth, he said again, “Can I try?”
“Sometimes I help you keep out the peach blossoms or something.”
At this point, he laughed again, as if laughing at himself: “Even if it’s not a boyfriend.”
6
“And so you are together?” My best friend asked in surprise.
“I don’t know if that counts.”
My best friend was even more surprised: “Don’t you even know whether you are in love or not?”
I thought it was crazy, too, but I said, “It’s just..” He is very strange.
“He doesn’t check my phone, he just asks me who I’m with.” I added, “Occasionally, a confession message pops up on my phone. He sees it, but he doesn’t care at all.”
“Aren’t you jealous?”
I nodded, “And when I went out to dinner with him and met his colleagues, he didn’t introduce me as a girlfriend.”
“Is Xueshen shy?” My best friend asked.
“That wouldn’t be so shy.” I thought about it and said, “It’s been half a month since that night, and he hasn’t even held my hand.”
“Holy shit!” My best friend was completely surprised.
“But he’s really nice to me and obedient, and he’s always there for me whenever I need him.”
“What is this?” My best friend murmured, “Does the God of learning really think of himself as an artifact to block peach blossoms?”
I simply cannot refute this statement.
“Is he incapable of falling in love?” My best friend added, “You see, he’s been able to send several blessings back and forth for seven years in a row. It doesn’t look like he’s talking about love, does it?”
“I wonder if he likes me at all.”
“I’m sure I do. You see, he’s been rich for seven years.” My best friend said with certainty, “Who can do it in seven years?”
I pursed my lips.
My best friend asked, “Did the God of Learning say why he likes you?”
“Because of the face.” I smiled and replied, “Which of my ex-boyfriends didn’t like me because of my face?”
My best friend suddenly fell into thinking.
“What’s the matter?”
“Now that you mention your ex-boyfriends, I think you have a bigger problem.”
“Huh?”
Her eyes lit up: “I remember you complained to me more than once before that it was annoying for your boyfriend to check your cell phone, that it was annoying to call every day to check your attendance, that it was annoying to be jealous, that it was annoying to declare sovereignty at any time and anywhere, and that you were the most annoying to touch..”
She said, “Why do you bother to come to the God of Learning when he doesn’t do anything?” “I just feel strange,”
I retorted.
“Would it bother you if God did those things to you?”
It seems to be.. It’s not annoying. I thought so silently.
My best friend saw everything from my expression and said, “That’s all right.”. Since God cannot learn, we will teach him.
Teach him to fall in love? It’s so strange.
My best friend said tentatively, “So he’s so annoying that he can’t even fall in love. Why don’t we just kick him out like before?”
I thought about it and said, “I’d better teach him.”
As if sleepy, someone handed a pillow. One second, my best friend
and I were still thinking about how to teach Lu Yichuan to fall in love, and the next second, my mobile phone prompted that there was new news. When I
clicked on it, it was a dinner invitation from the client.
And the last message was: “I really like you, can you be my girlfriend?”
My best friend immediately said, “Take a screenshot, and then send this picture to Xueshen.”
I appreciate it: “You have a lot of ideas.”
When the pictures were sent out, my best friend and I waited for Lu Yichuan’s reaction.
He sent three words: “What’s wrong?”
“Withdraw!” My best friend said. “Say it’s a mistake and let him think about it. I don’t believe he can sit still.” I
did what I was told, and Lu Yi-chuan responded more calmly: “Won’t you eat with Ni Hsiao tonight?”
Ni Xiao is my best friend. She and
I looked at each other, each feeling that Lu Yichuan really did not follow the routine. The
final reply was to follow Lu Yichuan’s words and say, “Xiaoxiao has gone home.” The news from
Lu Yichuan soon came again: “Then I’ll pick you up?”? Have dinner with you by the way.
“Good.” I’ll reply like this. My best friend, who
was watching the whole process, touched her chin and said, “I found that Xueshen has a very high rank.”
“Hmm?”
“Although he was not openly jealous, he settled the matter quietly.”
When I think about it carefully, it’s true.
“So does he really not know how to do it, or does he pretend not to?”
“I don’t know.” My best friend said, “Watch and see.” After
my best friend left, I waited in the mall until five o’clock, and finally waited for the figure of Lu Yichuan.
It’s just that he came at a bad time, and I was being accosted.
A man chased me for contact information, I refused, he was unrelenting, or follow.
When Lu Yichuan saw someone beside me, he stopped in a very “interesting” way.
I’m rather depressed.
Usually at this time, isn’t it the boyfriend who comes forward and puts his arm around his girlfriend’s shoulder to declare sovereignty?
I pointed to Lu Yichuan and said, “My boyfriend is here.” Then
the man gave up.
When Lu Yichuan came forward, I turned around resentfully, leaving him a handsome figure.
Fortunately, he still knew how to chase me at this time, pulling my sleeve and eagerly asking me what was wrong.
I said, “Your girlfriend was accosted and you just stood there. What did you say?”
He was silent for a moment, then uttered a few words softly and slowly: “May I?”
“Hmm?”
“Say you’re my girlfriend.”
“Why not?” I wondered. “I am.”
He smiled and answered with relief, “Good.”
I walked along side him for a long time, and then I heard him ask, “What about being jealous?”
I understood what he meant in an instant and answered, “Yes.”
“Holding hands?” He asked again.
He asked seriously, but I couldn’t help thinking. He has to ask before he
does anything, and then do other things.
I quickly stopped thinking that I shouldn’t have and replied with a straight face, “Yes.”
Soon, there was a warm and dry touch in the palm.
I was held tightly. The first time I held hands, I was a little nervous,
he said. If you have done anything wrong, please forgive me.
My heart gave a sudden tremor.
Still very depressed, this person will or will not ah! Lu Yichuan, who has been
trained, is much better than before.
Although he is still a little dull in love, he has made progress in general.
Everything is going well.
The only thing that’s not going well is that Xu Jingchen is out of prison.
Some time ago, he had a girlfriend and a rich woman. Somehow, the rich woman knew about it.
The rich woman was very angry, but also extra means, directly sent him to the Bureau, happy to mention the top 15 days set meal.
Fifteen days later, Xu Jingchen came out, and the first thing he did was to contact me again.
Lu Yichuan is not at ease.
In order to prevent Xu Jingchen’s wanton harassment, I lived in Lu Yichuan’s home and was forced to live with him.
Also because of this, I just know, Lu Yichuan is Zhao mother-in-law’s grandson unexpectedly. On
his desk, there are pictures of him and Grandma Zhao. “I thought you knew,” Lu Yi-chuan said, surprised to see the
photo.
He said, “I added you because of my grandmother.”
I really have no impression. I only remember that Grandma Zhao mentioned that she had a very good grandson.
Lu Yi-chuan said with relief, “That’s right. There are so many people who have added you.”
「……」 The feeling that I was very bad came up again.
It’s really not my fault.
I am a member of the student union in high school and university. Because of the nature of my work, I need to add a lot of customers, which leads me to see new applications for friends, and generally I will not refuse. If I
have something to talk about, I will keep it, and if I am full of nonsense, I will delete it at the first time. Over the years, there are still many friends left in the address book.
As a result, the blessing messages sent by Lu Yichuan in the past seven years were submerged in a large number of unread messages.
It’s not that I don’t reply, but that I can’t reply because there are too many messages.
I decided to go back to the original topic: “Did Granny Chao ask you to add me?”
“It’s my own idea.”
He said, “Grandma kept telling me that there was a girl who often came to take care of her and chat with her to relieve her boredom. She was careful and patient. She praised you so much that I really wanted to know what this girl was like.” It’s rare for
me to be nervous: “Are you disappointed after understanding?”
He shook his head. “I just didn’t expect you to be so beautiful.” “You don’t like me because I’m beautiful,”
I said vaguely.
“Because I like you, I think you are beautiful.”
He stared at me, smiled and said, “But you are very beautiful.”
I felt an idea collapse in my mind.
I have always thought that I am beautiful will be liked, the original is not, Lu Yichuan is not.
He likes my kindness.
Lu Yichuan is still praising me. He counts what I have done for Grandma Zhao and sincerely thanks me for everything I have done.
I suddenly feel that I am ashamed of this sincere feeling, because I am not really kind.
I’m selfish.
He said, “When I was in junior high school, I actually went to my grandmother’s house a lot, but I never met you. Later, I heard from my grandmother that you usually went to see your parents on weekends.”
I nodded. “My father remarried, and so did my mother.”
Lu Yichuan looked at me quietly.
I decided to be honest: “I’m not as good as you think.”
“I lived alone in that house, and during the day I would be afraid of anyone walking through the stairwell, so I would go to accompany Granny Chao, because when I accompanied her, she accompanied me.”
“On the surface, she needs me, but in fact, I’ve always wanted to be needed by her, and I’m afraid that one day I’ll be kicked out of the house by her.” After
my parents remarried and had their own families and children, I was kicked around like a ball. Even if I come to the door every week, I still can’t get a little bit of parental love.
In the most sensitive time of adolescence, I have been troubled by a question:
Am I redundant?
I don’t want to think like this, and I try not to think like this, but I can’t help worrying about nothing.
I have come to like the feeling of being needed.
As long as I am needed, I can try my best to be better.
To be the focus, not to be ignored, indispensable.. It makes me feel safe.
“Why not?” Lu Yichuan asked.
“You’re good enough. How can you be good enough?”
“Yes,” I tried to explain. “I didn’t help her out of pure kindness. I’m not as good as you think.”
It’s like.. A little unworthy of Lu Yichuan’s pure love. But
he said, “Then I pay attention to you because you help your grandmother. Is this not pure love?”
I was at a loss for words by him.
He took the initiative to hold me and put his big warm hand on my head: “Nothing is pure or not pure. In my eyes, you are the best.”
At that moment, I suddenly felt the warmth of thirst for a long time.
It’s like a person who has been hiking in the desert for a long time and finally finds water. I want to indulge in this embrace forever.
Lu Yichuan took me to see Granny Zhao on the weekend.
The old man still lives in that narrow old alley, Lu Yichuan they have proposed to take care of the old man, but the old man is probably nostalgic, no matter how to say is unwilling to move.
No way, Lu Yichuan they had to ask the daily care of nurses, and they often come to visit.
Zhao’s mother-in-law is old, has some memory problems, and her eyes can’t recognize people clearly, but when she sees her grandson appear, she still babbles.
She also babbled at me and dropped Lu Yichuan’s hand on the back of my hand.
I looked at this scene and felt a lot. Coming out
of Grandma Zhao’s house, Lu Yichuan and I walked in the narrow alley.
Perhaps revisiting the old haunt, I suddenly had a desire to talk. Pointing to the shabby little house on the third floor, I said, I lived there for three years in junior high school. There used to be a big tree here, and sometimes in the middle of the night the wind would blow a branch against the window, and I would wake up scared.
“And then?”
“Then I moved away.”
“My first year of high school, my mother was very merciful and said she would take me over to live with her. I was very happy because I really wanted to live with her. Who knew it would be better for me to live alone than to depend on others.”
“Aren’t you happy at your mother’s?”
“Not happy.” I said honestly, “My stepfather was once caught peeking at me when I was taking a shower. I went to my mother’s house, but she said that the man had just come in by mistake and helped him. Then I didn’t go back to that house very often.”
“I’d rather wander the streets on the weekend than go home and feel their plastic affection.”
Lu Yichuan’s expression was suppressed.
And then I started having boyfriends. In fact, I don’t remember them very much now, but I remember the feeling very clearly. They liked me so much, and I wanted to see what it was like to be liked so much.
Lu Yi-chuan only asked, “After falling in love, have you become happier?”
To be honest, no.
I try to use love to fill the blank in my heart, but I find that no matter how many times I fall in love, the blank is the blank, which can not be filled.
But now.. These blanks seem to be filled by Lu Yichuan.
I looked at him and asked earnestly, “I’ve had one boyfriend after another in front of you. Aren’t you jealous?”
He took me by the hand, his eyes sincere: “I don’t care about your past, your future is me.”
I thought silently, and I was quite conscious.
At the same time, I was also thankful for the “um” I casually promised that night.
I was just trying to be with Lu Yichuan, just like many times before, but now I’m glad I agreed.
Lu Yichuan is really good, so good that I am willing to consider a lifetime of good with him. On Monday
after the weekend, I still have to go to work.
Near the end of the day, Lu Yichuan suddenly sent a message that he had something to do today and could not come to pick me up.
I will reply silently.
In fact, recently Xu Jingchen has no movement, I guess he has given up, but Lu Yichuan is not at ease, insisted on sending me to and from work. It’s still safe to
work alone.
Xu Jingchen did not come to harass again, I also went to the supermarket on the way to buy a dish, do four dishes and a soup waiting for Lu Yichuan to go home.
Just did not wait for Lu Yichuan in the end, but waited for a call from the hospital. On the other end of the
phone was a strange male voice, saying urgently, “Brother Lu is injured. Sister-in-law, hurry up and come to the hospital!” Only when he
arrived at the hospital did he know that Lu Yichuan’s injury was entirely caused by Xu Jingchen.
Xu Jingchen knew that Lu Yichuan was my current boyfriend, and also learned that the rich woman knew that he stepped on two boats, which was leaked out by Lu Yichuan. New hatred and old hatred were counted together, and he came to find Lu Yichuan with his butterfly knife.
Lu Yichuan was talking with people at that time, and for a moment he was not on guard, so he was injured. “How is he?”
I asked.
“I don’t know, but in a hurry he put his hand in the way. I don’t think he hurt anything vital.”
The man also said, “The boy has been taken away by the police. It is estimated that he will have to be locked up for a few days. We will see if we can keep him in custody for a few more days after the report on Lu’s injuries comes out.”
I was so upset in an instant.
Guilt, remorse, and remorse.
I was really blind at the beginning, how could I find a boyfriend like Xu Jingchen! The
waiting time outside the emergency room is bound to be difficult.
Even though his friend had been reassuring me that it had nothing to do with me, I couldn’t help but take the blame on myself.
How could it have nothing to do with me?
My ex-boyfriend’s injuries and my current boyfriend’s injuries are all related to me.
The doctor finally came out and said simply, “The wound has been taken care of. The stab wound in the chest is the deepest. I’m afraid it will hurt the lungs. It’s best to stay in the hospital for two days.”
I nodded blankly. When
his friend went to go through the hospital procedures, he did not forget to say to Lu Yi-chuan before he left: “Sister-in-law is very self-reproachful. You should comfort her quickly.”
Lu Yi-chuan was now sitting in a wheelchair. His face was a little pale, and his arm was still wrapped in a conspicuous bandage. But he was smiling at me, and his voice was gentle:
“I’m all right.” The more
he does this, the more I want to cry.
My eyes were like radar to confirm his wounds, one on his arm, one on his chest, and a cut on his waist.
I asked him, “Does it hurt?”
He shook his head and said, “It doesn’t hurt.”
I don’t believe it. “I hit him too,”
he said. “I kicked him to the ground. I was so bad–ah, don’t cry!” His voice was momentarily alarmed.
I don’t want to cry, but I can’t help it.
I sniffed and squatted down beside his wheelchair, apologizing earnestly, “I’m sorry, it’s all my fault.”
“What’s the matter with you?” Lu Yi-chuan is rarely serious. “Did you tell him to hurt me, or did you stop him from hurting me?”
“He’s just a madman. How can you be blamed for what a madman did?”
I’m not listening.
My brain is in a mess, and my thoughts are out of my control.
Lu Yichuan finally said, “That’s my fault, too.”. Who told me to be so useless that I should even get hurt and make you worry?
I was so angry that I gave him a look.
He said, “So don’t blame yourself. I prefer you to blame me.”
“Why are you so nice to me?” I murmured.
“Why can’t I be nice to you?” “You deserve all the good in the world,” he said earnestly. If
Lu Yichuan wants to be hospitalized, he must prepare some daily necessities.
His friend Qin Zheng sent me home again. I
quickly packed up the things I needed for hospitalization. Before I left, I saw the cold food on the table. After heating it in the microwave oven, I packed it and took it with me. The
atmosphere was dignified all the way. To ease the atmosphere,
Chin Cheng says, “If Brother Lu knew that my sister-in-law was sitting in my passenger seat, he would be jealous.”
“He doesn’t like to be jealous.”
“How could he not be jealous?” Qin Zheng looked surprised. “He’s the one who loves to be jealous, okay?”
I suspect that what he said and the Lu Yichuan I know are two people.
Lu Yichuan is a person who looks at me one after another and doesn’t care about having a boyfriend.
“Let’s put it this way,” says Qin Zheng. “Brother Lu has a file on which he records the zodiac signs, blood types, and birthdays of all your boyfriends. He even analyzes the advantages and disadvantages, and compares his own strengths and weaknesses. It’s more detailed than making a product analysis chart.”
I was stunned.
Qin Zheng said, “Sometimes he would cut out a picture and ask me where he was worse than this man.”
I still can’t believe it. Didn’t I teach
Lu Yichuan to be jealous?
Qin Zheng saw that my expression was not right and blinked: “Sister-in-law, you really don’t know?”? Is Brother Lu hiding so deep?
“Why is he hiding?”
He immediately shut up and said, “I dare not say anything. Sister-in-law, if you want to know, you’d better ask him yourself.” When I arrived at
the hospital, I looked at Lu Yichuan’s eyes full of suspicion and suspicion.
Qin Zheng saw that the situation was not right and had already slipped away.
Lu Yichuan sat on the hospital bed and ate his belated dinner. As he ate, he asked me, “What’s wrong?”? Did Qin Zheng say anything to you?
I decided to test first: “Do you remember the man we met at the Grand Hyatt?”? It’s my ex-boyfriend.
He nodded his head.
“He just contacted me and said that his father is the director of this hospital, and he is willing to help us if we need it.”
“His father is not the dean.” Lu Yichuan said subconsciously. “How do you know his father isn’t the dean?”
I asked.
He stopped talking and pretended to be dead.
I decided to follow up my victory. “You have a document. Is it true?”
He was silent.
“Do you really know every single one of my ex-boyfriends?”
He is still silent.
“Don’t speak when you acquiesce.”
He coughed twice and asked me, “Did Qin Zheng say that?”
Why did you hide it from me? You can tell me if you mind. “I don’t mind,”
he denied. “I just want to know how they are better than me.”
“They are not better than you. You are the best.”
He gave a satisfied smile.
I asked again, “Why didn’t you tell me if you were jealous?”
He started playing dead again.
“Is that a hard question to answer?” After much deliberation,
he said, “You have an ex-boyfriend who you dumped because he was so jealous.”
“That’s because he likes to be jealous.”
Lu Yi-chuan said silently, “I also like to be jealous..” The next second
he promised, “But I can hold back and pretend I’m not jealous.”
I was almost amused by him. “You don’t have to. You’re not like him.”
He was pleasantly surprised for a second, and then he said, “You have an ex-boyfriend who was dumped by you because he loved Chagang too much.”
I just said, “You can look it up.”
“You have an ex-boyfriend who you dumped because he was too clingy.”
“You can be clingy.”
I looked at the cautious Lu Yichuan and finally understood why he was hiding.
He is afraid of being dumped by me.
I leaned on his shoulder and said earnestly, “You can do anything. I won’t break up with you.”
I promised, “I won’t leave you as long as you need me.”
Lu Yichuan was silent for a long time.
Until a hand slowly climbed up my waist and held it tightly.
His warm words rang in my ears: “Do you know how jealous I am when I see you dating one boyfriend after another?”
He buried his head in the side of my neck and said in a muffled voice, “I’m going crazy!” Lu Yichuan, who
exposed his true nature, I was really overwhelmed. It’s understandable that he’s clingy
in the hospital, after all, he has difficulty in moving.
But he’s still clingy since he left the hospital.
Especially when you get home, you don’t want to be separated from me for a second.
I sometimes marvel at the degree of boredom. Can it
really be so sticky? Won’t he get bored?
Lu Yichuan proved with practical action that he could really be so sticky that he would not be bored. Clingy
at home, clingy when you go out.
That time I just went out shopping with my best friend, and his phone came immediately.
The words were somewhat restrained, not directly asking me when I would go home, only asking if I would prepare my dinner in the evening, and asking him if he would come to pick me up.
I answered patiently one by one, and when I hung up the phone, I was laughed at by my best friend.
She put her arm around my shoulder and laughed, “It seems that our Pei Ta-mei has really fallen!”
“How are you?” I saved face by force.
She was still laughing, “Didn’t you used to be the most annoyed by this?”? Anyone who dares to disturb your pleasure in shopping will look good!
“That Luyichuan is different.” I argue.
Hmm? What’s the difference? She asked.
I can’t answer. Anyway, I feel he is different.
“It’s still a high level of learning. If you don’t make a move, it’s already done. Once you make a move, it’s amazing.” My best friend sighed, “Why should he be called Lu Yichuan? Just call him Lu Yiming.”
I laughed at her. “Enough already.” He was still taken home by Lu Yichuan
that day.
In fact, Xu Jingchen has been brought back to his hometown by his father after he was released from prison. It is estimated that he will not have a chance to appear in front of me again, but Lu Yichuan is still not at ease and insists on picking up the car.
As soon as he entered the door, he hugged me from behind and said in an aggrieved voice, “You only said 13 sentences to me today.”
I didn’t really count, but I always felt more than that. “What you say on the phone doesn’t count,”
he added.
I had no idea what to do with him and asked patiently, “What should I do?”
“Just give me 13 kisses.” He had turned me around to face me face to face.
The action is very strong, but the eyes are very aggrieved.
I looked at his handsome face and hesitated where to start.
He suddenly changed his tune: “Thirteen kisses seems a little too much. If you don’t want to, you can kiss once.” The appearance of this
compromise is really cruel to the heart.
I covered his face many times in one breath, and at the end of the kiss, I couldn’t help laughing and blaming him: “When I first met you, I didn’t expect you to be so clingy.” He
is obviously a handsome guy with cool style. How can he change a person as soon as he falls in love.
He added, “If you don’t like it, I can pretend not to be clingy.”
I can’t help it: “Then you’d better stick to it.” Holding me in his arms,
Lu Yichuan said from the bottom of his heart, “I’m a little insecure.”. Your ex-boyfriends have been dumped by you for various reasons, and I’m afraid I’ll be dumped by you one day.
“No, I won’t break up with you.”
“I know,” he said, “but I just.. Not feeling safe.
His voice was aggrieved and frustrated.
I really couldn’t hear this. After much thought, I finally came up with an idea: “Why don’t we get a license?”
I looked at him carefully and said, “Do you feel safe when you get married?”
Lu Yi-chuan was stunned for a long time before nodding his head solemnly: “Good.” On the day of
getting the license, the weather was fine. Less than hour after I went in and out of the
Civil Affairs Bureau, my relationship with Lu Yichuan has undergone a qualitative change. He held two red books in his
hand, and his eyes did not deviate half a minute until he got on the bus.
I sat in the passenger seat and waited and waited, and finally I couldn’t help asking, “Honey, aren’t we going?”
He stared at me in amazement for a long time, the corners of his mouth rising at a speed visible to the naked eye, and the smile eventually covered his whole face. Rubbing his cheeks,
he seemed to force himself to wake up and said, “Wait a minute, I’ll send a message to my circle of friends..”
He looked at me, hesitated, and called out shyly, “Wife.”
I was so excited.
Lu Yichuan took a picture, edited the text and sent out his first ever circle of friends.
L: Go to the top. “Picture,”
I asked, “What do you mean?”
Lu Yichuan said, “It means we want to see better scenery together in the future.”
I always felt that there was a deep meaning in it, but at present I couldn’t understand it, so I just let him go. After
sending the circle of friends, Lu Yichuan received a large number of friends’likes and comments, sitting in the car brushing blessings, and grinning for half an hour. I was
afraid that it would be dark if I waited any longer, so I couldn’t help acting like a spoiled child: “Husband, I’m hungry. Let’s go to dinner.”
“Good.” Lu Yi-chuan was finally willing to put away his red book and look at me. “What do you want to eat?”
“Anything is good.” The car, which had been
parked for a long time, finally set off.
The horizon is a beautiful setting sun, surrounded by beautiful people, he carried me to a new journey.
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