The Flower of
Evil: Awakening and Redemption
in a Dark Dilemma My husband took care of his first love throughout the pregnancy. When
I had a high fever, he used his cell phone to help her check “What to do if I have severe morning sickness?” On the anniversary of
my mother’s death, he stood in front of his first love’s delivery room and prayed, “Mother and child are safe.”
On this day, peace is his first love. He’s the one who’s
crazy.
Chen Yu smelled of alcohol and kissed me carelessly.
I blushed, covered my stomach with one hand, and dodged a little.
He noticed and pulled me into his arms with a little force. He asked me in a hoarse voice, “What are you hiding from?”
I pursed my lips and gave him a hint. “Turn off the light first.” In the
room, only the desk lamp on his bedside table was still on, and there was a pregnancy test sheet I put on purpose beside the desk lamp. I’m
pregnant, and I want to tell him today.
But the first thing that caught his attention was the sudden ringing of his cell phone.
Usually, he picks it up and hangs it up.
But now he’s holding the phone in his arm, pausing, hovering over my pregnancy test. Two words appeared on the
caller ID-Yunxi.
Meng Yunxi is Chen Yu’s first love.
He held my arm and unconsciously let go. “I’m going to take a phone call.” Close the
door.
I stared at the ceiling. When I was
with him, there were calls coming in, but Chen Yu answered them directly in front of me.
Meng Yunxi, however, is an exception.
For a long time, the door was pushed open again.
He came in smelling of smoke and leaned over to kiss me.
Thinking of the baby in my belly, I turned my head in an instant, and his kiss fell on the corners of my mouth.
He frowned and said to me, “You are very strange tonight.”
Then he turned around and went to change his clothes. “I have a case to deal with. You go to bed first. Don’t wait for me.”
Chen Yu runs his own law firm and doesn’t take urgent cases at all. Before he
left, he suddenly leaned over me again and said, “Do I still smell of smoke?”
I was stunned for a moment.
He frowned and murmured, “I heard that pregnant women can’t smell smoke.”
My heart missed a beat and I thought he knew.
But he suddenly got up and rubbed my hair. “What are you talking about? You’re not pregnant.”
Then he walked out of the bedroom without looking back.
I stared at the pregnancy test sheet at the head of the bed. If I wasn’t pregnant, who was.
Later, I finally understood that the pregnant one was Meng Yunxi. After
Chen Yu left, I called my best friend Li Si and planned to tell her about my pregnancy.
“I’ll tell you one thing. Don’t get excited.”
She stopped me. “I’ll tell you three things first. Don’t get excited.”
“Meng Yun-hsi is divorced.”
“Meng Yun-hsi is back.”
“Meng Yun-hsi is pregnant.”
Three words are like a stone thrown into a calm lake.
The water splashed everywhere.
I’m a little confused. There was
about half a minute of silence.
And I said, “Well.”
“What were you going to tell me?”
I found a random reason, “I kind of want to eat dumplings.”
Suddenly, no one wants to tell.
I had a crush on Chen Yu since high school, and then I went to the same university.
We have occasional contact.
In his senior year, he suddenly appeared at our break-up dinner.
It’s just that he’s been drinking, his eyes are red, and he’s not talking
. I sent him home drunk.
He was drunk and still sober. “Wen ran?”
“Chen Yu, it’s me.”
He said, “Let’s try.” At that time,
I just felt that years of unrequited love had finally blossomed.
Later, I learned that it was a special day.
……
Chen Yu said let me not wait, I did not wait for him all night, but waited for a message to add WeChat friends. Friend application
from Meng Yunxi.
I agreed.
But she didn’t speak.
Instead, he posted a full-body photo of himself in the mirror in the circle of friends.
Thank you for helping me tidy up my new house at night. Later, a new beginning, a new me and you. In the
photo, her hand is on her stomach, and her lower abdomen is slightly bulging.
But what is more dazzling than this is the half of the male arm reflected in the mirror, and the watch on the wrist is the first wedding anniversary I gave to Chen Yu.
I looked at the time.
It’s 12:43 in the evening, and Chen Yu is helping his first love decorate his new home.
When I was ready to tell him that we were going to welcome a new life.
He went to find Meng Yunxi overnight.
How ridiculous. When I
graduated, I was also worried about finding a house and moving.
At that time, when I was dating with Chen Yugang, I didn’t dare to bother him. The whole process of moving was my own resistance. I
have no money, so I rent a single room in the village.
One night, a drunk kept knocking on the door. I was so scared that I called Chen Yu. When I heard his voice, my emotions burst out and I cried out of breath. After
he knew the whole story, he helped me call the police, and then someone rushed over.
The next day, I learned that he was on a business trip in another city that day and drove back for two hours overnight.
I was worried about his job, and he was silent about me renting this unsafe place.
Then he began to help me find a house, moved to a community with better public security, and paid a year’s rent for me. At a loss,
I mumbled to him with red eyes, “Thank you. I’ll pay you back.”
He laughed angrily and pushed me into his arms. “Wen Ran, I’m your ***ing boyfriend.”
I thought that was a girlfriend’s privilege.
And now.
Meng Yunxi probably wanted to show me on purpose.
I gave her a like as she wished.
Chen Yu didn’t come back all night, so I fell asleep. When I got up to work
the next day, I saw his message to me. It was too late
last night. I was afraid of disturbing you, so I didn’t go back. I went directly to the law firm today. I picked you up for dinner after work in the evening.
I typed back and forth to ask him if he knew about Meng Yunxi, if he was with her last night, and to tell him that you were going to be a father.
But in the end, he didn’t ask.
My stubborn temper comes up.
I think, these things, no matter what, should be Chen Yu himself to tell me.
[All right.] I replied to him. When she
was ready to get off work, Li Si called me and asked me to accompany her to visit IKEA.
“Chen Yu will come and pick me up for dinner later.” I say.
“He had a little conscience, so he didn’t rush over to find Meng Yun-hsi.”
I didn’t speak.
As soon as I hung up the phone, Chen Yu’s call came in.
“Sorry, Xiaoran, I have to accompany a client tonight, so I may not be able to have dinner with you.”
I lowered my eyes. “Good.”
Accompany Lisi to IKEA.
Reese is going to buy a children’s desk for her little niece, and I’m going to walk around by myself.
A turn.
“Ah Yu, I don’t want to change. This dress doesn’t look good with slippers..”
Suddenly saw Meng Yunxi, standing in front of him is Chen Yu.
It’s Chen Yu who told me to work overtime with clients. Holding a pair of slippers in his hand,
Chen Yu squatted down to take off Meng Yunxi’s stilettos, regardless of his unwillingness to act like a spoiled child.
“It’s not good to walk in high heels for a long time when you’re pregnant.”
Meng Yunxi said she didn’t want to, but still let Chen Yu help her change the stilettos, with a sweet smile on her face.
“Ah Yu, you must be a good father in the future.” Not knowing what he was thinking,
Chen Yu paused for a moment and smiled a little at the corners of his mouth. “Hmm.” A thorn in
my heart. I once said
this to Chen Yu.
When he decided to have a baby with me, I talked about how to decorate a children’s room.
Chen Yu pinched my face helplessly. “If you describe it to a designer like this, nine out of ten people will be driven mad by you.”
But a few days later, he drew the design draft for me to see, and pieced together my small and messy ideas into a children’s world.
My eyes were red and my heart was bulging like cotton.
I praised him earnestly, “Chen Yu, you must be a good father in the future.”
He did not answer at that time.
Now he’s the one who said he’d be a good father.
I think I should go, if to expose, I am in a mess, not Meng Yunxi.
But Meng Yunxi saw me.
“Xiao Ran?!” Her eyes lit up, as if she saw a good friend for many years, and she came to me quickly. At
that moment, I saw Chen Yu helping her, saying slowly, for fear that she would fall down. I am really the one who is in a
mess.
Meng Yunxi insisted on holding my hand to catch up.
I was so angry that Chen Yu lied to me, but he still faced me so frankly.
Even if he feels guilty and flustered for a moment. I won
‘t seem so insignificant at this moment.
I pulled my hand out.
My strength is not very great, but simply to pull my hand out of Meng Yunxi’s hand.
But in the moment of wearing slippers, her body was badly crooked.
Chen Yu hugged her.
He frowned and looked at me. “Wen Ran, Xiaoxi is pregnant.”
Whose fault is it? Sour
nose.
I clenched my fist and sank my nails into the palm of my hand, desperately, desperately, holding back tears.
I thought, at least not to look too embarrassed.
I laughed. “It’s my fault. I’m sorry.” Is that
all right? Chen Yu. I
recall that I was bullied by my colleagues at my first job.
At that time, it was ready to open the tender, but it was only two days ago that it was found that there was a problem with the tender. It is certain to
do it again, but in order to shirk the responsibility, the old staff reached an agreement to put the blame on me.
I have always stated that this is not my problem.
But no one believed it from the leaders to the employees, and I was still the one who took the blame in the end.
At that time, I felt angry and aggrieved, but I was so stubborn that I didn’t shed a drop of tears in front of them. When
we met, Chen Yu saw that I was in a bad mood and asked me, “What’s wrong?”
If no one asks, maybe I can hold it for the rest of my life.
But as soon as Chen Yu asked, my tears burst.
I was sobbing and a little confused as I talked about the tender.
Chen Yu listened patiently and finally wiped my tears. “Don’t cry. I won’t let you be wronged here.”
Later, the news of the company’s tax evasion broke out. Originally, the company’s scale was not large, and the whole company was directly destroyed. When I
heard the news, I was stunned for a moment, only to know that it was written by Chen Yu and their law firm.
Looking back on the past, the tears did not hold back after all, to fall. I
don’t think this situation is so embarrassing.
I just don’t understand why people can go back on their word so easily? It was he who said
at that time that I would not be wronged. And
now?
I believe in the true heart, but the true heart changes rapidly.
Seeing me crying, Chen Yu’s eyes finally appeared flustered.
He let go of Meng Yun-hsi’s hand and tried to pull me over. “Little Ran, I just –”
I stepped back and put my hands behind my back. There’s a lot of
resistance.
“Don’t touch me.” I say.
Chen Yu’s hand stayed stiffly in the air.
Meng Yunxi took one look at me and pressed his empty hand down.
Xiao Ran, I am now a client of Ah Yu, and I have entrusted him to help me with my divorce lawsuit. I just moved to a new house and needed to buy furniture, so I asked him to help me.
“If you’re not happy and don’t think it’s appropriate, then Ah Yu and I will stop here today.”
“Ah Yu, I’ll take a taxi back myself, and you take Xiao Ran home.”. Explain to her properly and don’t lose your temper.
Meng Yunxi finished and turned to walk smartly. How clever
she is.
The weak are sensible and make people feel distressed.
The pestering person is vexatious.
When I got home, Chen Yu handed me his cell phone.
“Yunxi is just my client. I didn’t even add her WeChat. I really don’t have anything to do with her.”
I’m tired.
There was no desire to look at his phone.
I didn’t make trouble or lose my temper. I just ignored him.
But he was the one who lost his temper.
I was cold all night, and he couldn’t stand it. He clenched his teeth and pulled me out of the quilt.
“Wen Ran, how long are you going to make trouble?” I’m afraid you’ll be angry
today. Yun-hsi has already left directly, and she’s giving in to you as a pregnant woman. Tell me what I have to do to satisfy you.
I was burning hot and dizzy.
But I still want to laugh.
Now I am the one who is not sensible.
Meng Yunxi is pregnant. What about me?
My pregnancy test is still on the bedside table, and it’s obvious. For
professional reasons, Chen Yu usually knows the details of the changes in the objects at home.
If I throw away a withered flower, he will find it, and then buy a new bunch the next day to replace all the flowers in the vase.
Now, he can’t see the pregnancy test sheet placed close to him.
I was able to tell him, “Chen Yu, I’m pregnant.”
Then what?
See if he will change his mind and give up Meng Yunxi? Can
I think that the particularity of Meng Yunxi does not exist?
Now, it doesn’t matter if I’m pregnant or not.
Some clear ideas are forming in my mind.
“Chen Yu, I don’t want to talk to you now. I’m very tired. Can you let me rest first?”
But in front of outsiders mature and steady Chen Yu, sometimes stubborn like a child.
“Settle things before you go to sleep.”
I sighed and took his hand and put it on my forehead. “Chen Yu, I must have a fever.”
Chen Yu hesitated for a moment and immediately got up to rummage through the spare medicine chest. “Why didn’t you say so earlier?”
He put the antipyretic paste on my forehead and found the medicine for oral administration.
I touched my belly and lowered my eyes. “I’m afraid of suffering. Can you find a candy for me?” Not
at home. Chen Yu wants to buy it for me in the supermarket downstairs.
When he left, I got up and flushed the medicine down the toilet. When
he came back, I ate the candy he bought as usual.
I don’t know whether it was my weakness after my illness that aroused his protective desire or my tears during the day that made him feel guilty.
He’s extra gentle tonight.
Has been sitting on the edge of the bed watching me, the water on the bedside table has been warm, every half an hour to measure the temperature, constantly wring wet towels for my physical cooling.
His actions are loving me.
However, this did not prevent him from sitting beside my bed to take care of me, while using his mobile phone to check “What should I do if I have severe morning sickness?” Before
that, he just got a phone call.
Still out of the bedroom to pick up. Meng Yunxi is the only one who
can make him answer the phone like this. When I
got back, I thought he was going out.
He just checked my temperature, changed the antipyretic patch on my forehead, and sat down.
I turned and looked at him in puzzlement.
He asked me, “What’s wrong?”
I shook my head, did not speak, and closed my eyes to rest.
But now the five senses are very keen.
The bedroom was dimly lit, and the light from the screen of his mobile phone was so dazzling that it was directly reflected on my eyelids.
I couldn’t help but open my eyes and see him asking, “What should I do if I have severe morning sickness?”
Then the text will be edited into text messages to send, and finally additional.
Chen Yu: [Pregnant women can not take medicine casually, it will affect the child.]
[I flash you an order for oranges. See if you can slow it down.]
If not, you go to the hospital to register.
Meng Yunxi’s news came back quickly.
Meng Yunxi: [I dare not go to the hospital alone. Ah Yu, will you accompany me?]
Chen Yu: [Xiaoran has a fever. I can’t leave.]
Meng Yunxi: [OK, you take good care of her. I can do it alone.]
She is a smart girl, and she knows Chen Yu.
Chen Yu doesn’t like girls who fool around, but he easily feels guilty.
So she never pesters and always retreats in order to advance.
Seemingly sensible, not noisy, but around the heart of Chen Yu.
Sure enough, could have ended the conversation, Chen Yu after a pause, or replied to her.
Chen Yu: [If you still feel uncomfortable tomorrow, I will accompany you to the hospital.]
Meng Yunxi: [You should also have a good rest. Don’t exhaust yourself while taking care of the patient.]
Chen Yu: [Hmm.] When the
phone was put down, Chen Yu lay down and turned around to encircle me in his arms, sighing in my ear,
“Little Ran, get better soon.”
You really want me to get better.
Or after I get better, you can accompany Meng Yunxi to the hospital without psychological burden?
I have peace of mind.
It doesn’t matter. It doesn’t matter which one it is.
My physical quality is OK, although I did not take medicine, but after a night of physical cooling, the fever still subsided.
Chen Yu is sleeping now because he took care of me all night.
I got up and cooked a pot of fragrant porridge.
A lot, more than two people. After
I finished with Chen Yu, he looked at the rest of the porridge and said, “I’ll pack it up and go to the law firm.”
“Good.” I found him a thermos with a Buzz Lightyear sticker on it. Before he
left, he habitually wanted to kiss my forehead.
I subconsciously hid back, and later felt that this action was too abrupt, before Chen Yu became suspicious, I took the initiative to reach out to tidy up his tie.
He didn’t say anything. He reached out his hand and touched my forehead. “The fever is gone. Do you still feel bad?”
“Much better.”
Chen Yu went out. I asked for leave at home
today, and I’m going to go to the hospital for a pregnancy test. On the way
to the hospital by taxi, I checked my moments.
See Meng Yunxi update.
[Morning Porridge & # x2F; Love]
Insulated box with Buzz Lightyear cartoon.
I clicked like and went to comment.
“Is it good?”
“I cooked it.”
6
seems to have a hunch. When I
got to the hospital, I suddenly didn’t want to register.
But I didn’t leave. I sat quietly in the hospital lobby and waited.
About half an hour later, Chen Yu and Meng Yunxi came in.
Meng Yunxi smiled and talked to Chen Yu. He bowed his head slightly, his eyebrows and eyes were gentle, and he listened carefully.
I tried to remember if Chen Yu had ever listened to me so gently.
The answer is yes.
I have a lively temperament, but I don’t like to communicate with my colleagues during working hours. I often hold back a lot of words. When I get home, I keep talking to Chen Yu like pouring beans.
Chen Yu would put down his work, listen carefully to my nonsense, and then hand me a cup of warm water at the right time.
But it’s not just for me.
That person can also be Meng Yunxi.
Chen Yu didn’t see me. They went into the elevator.
There was a pregnant woman who came to the antenatal examination, and she asked me for help. I thought about it, nodded yes and accompanied her to the obstetrics and gynecology department. I saw Chen Yu again in the crowd walking
across the rest of the soil.
In front of these couples waiting for pregnancy tests, he and Meng Yunxi had no discord and feelings.
Even because both of them are particularly outstanding in appearance, they stand out in the crowd.
“Their children must be very good-looking.” The pregnant mother around me also sighed with emotion.
I looked at Chen Yu and did not answer.
Chen Yu suddenly looked up, crossed the crowded heads, and saw me.
At this moment, all the people in the hospital seemed to be still.
He looked flustered and stepped towards me.
I think it’s the second time, Chen Yu.
This time I raised the corners of my mouth and smiled at him.
When he came over, his subconscious reaction was to hold my hand and see that I didn’t escape, then he was relieved.
“Today Yun-hsi came to the law firm to provide divorce materials. When she arrived, she said her stomach wasn’t feeling well, so I accompanied her to the hospital..”
“I know.”
I kept the smile just right.
Meng Yun-hsi followed, watching as Chen Yu took my hand and quietly averted his eyes. Then he looked at me
and said, “Little Ran, I asked Ah Yu to accompany me to the hospital. Don’t blame him.”
I kept smiling. “Chen Yu told me that.”
Meng Yunxi observed my expression, and I looked at her calmly.
She burst out laughing and then said two words, “Yummy.” Is it
good.
It’s delicious.
Meng Yunxi’s attack came so naked.
Straight to the heart.
I clenched my fists and kept my face calm.
Not now, Wen Ran. Wait
a little longer.
……
Chen Yu bought a lot of vegetables to go home. In fact,
he seldom cooks, but today he is very attentive. I
bought flowers and lit candles.
Under the dim romantic candlelight, he kissed my forehead and promised me,
“Yun-hsi and I are just friends. If you’re not happy, I won’t contact her again after you help her finish the divorce lawsuit.”
I asked him, “Chen Yu, if Meng Yunxi comes back on our wedding day, will you still marry me?”
He was silent.
Silence is also the answer.
He just realized that he should say something.
I covered his mouth. “Remember what you said, Chen Yu. Those who break their promises will be punished.”
Chen Yu’s time with me is getting longer and longer.
But Meng Yunxi is still between us.
But since it was made clear, in Chen Yu’s mouth, she was no longer a nameless customer, but directly told me that it was Yunxi.
It seems that as long as he tells me openly about his visit to Meng Yunxi, he and Meng Yunxi are simply partners.
Clean and innocent.
At this time, I just nodded faintly, but as long as he said he was going to meet Meng Yunxi, I would ask him to bring something back for me. Something that is
not very special and in urgent need.
Sometimes it is to buy a few apples; sometimes it is a bowl of wonton; sometimes it is a magazine.
For two weeks. Once
, Chen Yu told me that he wanted to meet Meng Yunxi to talk about work.
And I, on purpose, didn’t tell him to bring anything.
He went out and came back and asked me, “Don’t you need anything today?”
I shook my head.
He looked at me stubbornly. “Is there really nothing to bring?”
I raised the corners of my mouth and said, “We don’t have any soy sauce at home. You can bring one back.”
He kissed me on the forehead as if he had received a prize, and then left contentedly. The
seemingly beautiful and sweet coat is just hiding something rotten. Chen Yu’s birthday is
two days away.
He usually has two birthdays, one on the official day and one in advance. The
early day is used to let the colleagues of the law firm celebrate with him. He is the boss of the law firm. Every time his birthday comes, the colleagues will give him a birthday party at the law firm.
In fact, in the first year, Chen Yu only celebrated his official birthday. At that time, his colleagues in the law firm also celebrated his birthday. He invited me there.
But I personally am not very good at interpersonal relationships, and I am more afraid that a stranger alone will destroy their atmosphere.
I said no.
The next day, Chen Yu asked me to spend his birthday alone with him.
I asked him why doubtfully.
He said, “If you’re not here, it’s not a birthday.” From
the second year, he asked the law firm to help him celebrate his birthday one day earlier, leaving the official birthday to me.
This year is no exception.
As usual, when he celebrates his birthday at the law firm, I will not participate.
But this time, suddenly, I want to go.
Because Meng Yunxi just posted in her Moments: [This year, every year.]
The picture is a heart-shaped cream cake with a man and a woman on it, and it can be seen that she and Chen Yu are wearing high school uniforms.
They met in high school, and it seems that they want to recall the past together.
I just want to see what she’s going to do, this year, every year. The
law firm is decorated very warmly.
I bought a box of yogurt on the way, and when I got to the law firm, their activities had already started.
It’s a little late, but in a sense, it’s better to come early than to come at the right time.
At this time, Chen Yu and Meng Yunxi stood side by side in front of the barbecue grill.
Meng Yunxi probably stood with a big belly for a long time, and his waist hurt a little. Holding her back,
she frowned and complained to Chen Yu.
Chen Yu said a few words to her.
She curled her lips and shook her head like a little girl acting like a spoiled child with her boyfriend.
Chen Yu stretched out his hand and rubbed it lightly on her back waist. The yogurt in my
hand was cold, and I held it tightly.
Sister-in-law? Why don’t you go over there? He is Xu Zhi, a partner of Chen Yu Law Firm.
I don’t come to the law firm very often, but I come here occasionally, and everyone in the law firm knows me.
I smiled and said, “Later.”
Xu Zhi did not understand why he wanted to stay until he turned around and saw Chen Yu rubbing Meng Yunxi’s waist.
“Shit..” In shock,
Xu Zhi turned to look at me and then shouted, “Sister-in-law is here!”
Chen Yu and Meng Yunxi looked over at the same time.
In an instant, Chen Yu immediately loosened his hand on Meng Yunxi’s waist.
It’s like touching a hot iron.
He came hurrying towards me with a long stride.
As if anxious to prove something, he reached out and wrapped me tightly in his arms. “Little Ran, I really have nothing to do with her.”
But it’s the third time, Chen Yu.
I swallowed the fishy smell in my throat and pushed him. “I brought you yogurt.”
Chen Yu let go of me, eyes like a hook, has been locked in my face, trying to see something.
I just smiled at him, the corners of my mouth turned up and my eyes curved.
To nourish your stomach before you drink. But am I disturbing you?
Chen Yu shook his head and held my hand tightly, as if he were afraid that I would run away.
“I don’t want to bother you. I’m glad you could come.”
He led me to another barbecue grill, as if deliberately avoiding suspicion, he did not give Meng Yunxi a look.
It was Meng Yun-hsi who took the initiative to come over and greet me with a smile, “Little Ran, you’re here too.”
I said, “I just came to deliver yogurt to Chen Yu, and I’ll leave later.”
Chen Yu wants to go with me.
Meng Yunxi’s mask appeared cracks, as if he could not believe that Chen Yu would choose me. “Ah Yu,”
she said, “are you going to leave me here alone?”
Chen Yu paused and said, “I’ll ask Xu Zhi to take you back.”
……
These days, Chen Yu came back very early, and stayed at home for almost half of the day, and the housework at home was all done by him. I bought a lot more bags and jewelry
for me.
I accepted it with pleasure, and he was more happy to buy it.
But as time went by, I was still calm, and Chen Yu seemed to be beginning to feel uneasy.
He hugged me and kissed me impatiently. “Why aren’t you angry?”
I knew it, but I still pretended to be stupid and said, “What are you angry about?”
“On my birthday, I helped Yunxi..”
“Chen Yu, you made me believe in you.” Irritated for no reason,
he scratched his hair. “I don’t know what’s going on. I just don’t think you should be like this.”
“Xiao Ran..”
He gave up looking for the source of his anxiety and kissed my finger and said slowly,
“I have handed over the Yunxi lawsuit to Hsu Chih, and I will never contact her again.”
I listened in silence.
Chen Yu said he had cut off contact with Meng Yunxi.
But Meng Yunxi made an appointment with me when I had the most serious pregnancy reaction.
I turned her down twice on the grounds that I was not feeling well.
But I didn’t expect her to come directly to my company.
Today, when I came out of the bathroom near the end of the day, my colleague at the front desk told me that a lady surnamed Meng was looking for me.
I know it’s Meng Yunxi.
But not in a hurry to get out.
I just retched from the bathroom, and now my face is pale, and I look very weak and have no aura.
I touched up my makeup. Sit down
with Meng Yunxi in the tea restaurant downstairs of the company. The first thing
she said was, “You’re smart.”
I keep my countenance.
“Every time I meet with Ah Yu, you let him bring you something. Is that on purpose?”
“In this way, even if he is with me, he will inevitably think of you.”
I know Meng Yunxi will know sooner or later, but I am not afraid that she will understand.
She poured tea for me and said, “Thank you for accompanying Ah Yu this time and letting him get out of those difficult days.”. But now that I’m back, he doesn’t need you. A sick feeling rose in my
stomach, and I tried to suppress it.
Meng Yunxi went on to say, “May 16 was the day I officially dated my ex-husband, so Ah Yu was with you that day to annoy me.” The sick feeling in
my stomach turned into colic, and my forehead was covered with cold sweat.
I gritted my teeth to prevent myself from showing a flaw.
“December 3 was the day I got my marriage certificate with my ex-husband, and the next day he immediately posted his marriage certificate with you, just to annoy me.” My
lips had been bitten by me, and my mouth was filled with a strong smell of blood.
My stomach began to cramp, and I could hardly sit up straight because of the pain.
“Little Ran!” Meng Yun-hsi looked at me with pity on his face. “I don’t want to expose it, but I have to tell you that all the preconditions for Ah Yu to be with you are for me.”
“If I hadn’t left, then there wouldn’t be a place for you.” I couldn’t stand it
any longer. I got up and ran straight to the bathroom.
I didn’t eat anything, so I couldn’t spit it out.
But the nausea and cramps in my stomach took away almost all my strength. Anger and rage
in my heart make me want to tear up everything around me.
Why.
For what.
But in the end, I could only sit in the corner, curl up and hold myself, and wait quietly for the pain to pass slowly. When I
walked out of the bathroom, I was back to normal.
Thanks to the lipstick I just put in my bag, I look at least the same as I did just now. “Why have you been gone so long? Are you all right?” Asks
Meng Yun-hsi.
“I have some diarrhea. Sorry to keep you waiting.”
“So, do I need to go on?” Meng Yunxi looked at me.
A letter of dissuasion that directly hit the facade. The pain in the
stomach seemed to be transferred to the heart, as if it had been grabbed alive, maliciously pinched, loosened, pinched and loosened.
My hand was at the bottom of the table tightly.
I adjust my breathing.
I smiled.
“Do you want my position so much?”
“If I give it to you, your place will be vacant.”
“a vacancy that I love but can’t find, and that I can’t forget.”
Meng Yunxi wants everything.
She said, “Ah Yu and I are together, and his life is complete. There will never be such a person again.”
I chuckled. “Meng Yun-hsi, there is no such thing.” The conversation
with Meng Yunxi ended abruptly. When I
got home, I dug out a locker.
From dating, to getting married, to today, I sent Chen Yu, Chen Yu sent me gifts to commemorate each of our special days, all packed in it.
For a moment, the emotions that had been holding back suddenly broke out.
I will damage all the souvenirs. If I can’t damage them with my bare hands, I will use scissors.
Until everything went from being complete to being broken, including the pregnancy test that was never found.
However, the irritability and anger in my heart are becoming more and more turbulent.
It has no outlet and no outlet.
Suffering. The feeling of
nausea rose in an instant, and I rushed to the bathroom.
Spit up nothing but bile. When
Chen Yu came back, he came in and patted me on the back worriedly. “How are you?” There is still no place to vent the dryness in
my heart, like an inflated balloon.
I threw him to the ground and put my scissors against his neck. “Chen Yu, you can die.”
Chen Yu’s eyes seem to be filled with a lot of tenderness. “As long as you feel better.”
Every time, every time, he seems to love me.
But every time, every time, he seems to love someone else.
My brain is clear in an instant.
Almost.
But not now.
……
Chen Yu carried me to bed.
I stared at the ceiling in a trance, and many pictures appeared in my mind.
I said, “Chen Yu, you’ve been with me recently. Is that all right?”
I made a list of things to do, including a virtual baby besides me and him.
Chen Yu promised, and he did it.
The first one.
In the living room, Chen Yu made me a glass of milk before I went to bed. After I drank it, he asked me to go to bed.
I went into the bedroom and came out with a can of baby milk powder and a bottle in my hand.
Chen Yu is a little stupefied.
I raised the corners of my mouth. “Don’t you want to have a baby?”? You have to be able to make powdered milk.
Chen Yu was clumsy at the beginning, either the amount of water mixed with milk powder was not right, or the temperature was too high, in short, the situation was full of problems.
But he seems to be a little addicted to it and never gets tired of it. In the
last few successful times, I even wanted to take the milk powder I had just made and go downstairs to the community to find a child to feed a few mouthfuls.
I ticked the first box on the list.
The second thing.
In the kitchen, I’m in charge of preparing the dishes, Chef Chen Yu.
But today I prepared a small portion of extra ingredients.
Chen Yu doesn’t know why.
I said, “When the baby grows up, you can feed him some complementary food.”
Chen Yu hurriedly took out his cell phone and checked the baby’s complementary food menu at the last minute.
Chen Yu can cook, a little try a few times, he started, do baby complementary food is not difficult for him.
He even has to change the pattern every day, and the fruit, rice, vegetables and meat dishes are evenly matched.
I ticked
the second and third item on the list. When
Chen Yu was ready to get off work, I called him to buy some baby guardrails and climbing mats.
I told him, “There should probably be a place in the house for the baby to play by himself.”
He answered cheerfully.
Recently, Chen Yu has become obsessed with playing the role of father.
It’s like opening a blind box, and I even look forward to what new father tasks I will give him every day. When he
was picking up guardrails and climbing mats, he kept making videos with me, and when he was learning about various materials with salesmen, he was serious as if he was analyzing the case.
He picked for a long time, a long time, and when the mall closed, it was already more than 10 o’clock when he got home.
He was in high spirits, did not feel tired, and began to clean up the corner of the hall, directly surrounded by guardrails and covered with climbing mats.
“Let the baby play in it from now on.”
Chen Yu hugged me from behind and pointed to the corner that belonged to the child.
I ticked the third box on the list.
The fourth.
I asked Chen Yu to look for a kindergarten. He looked at all kinds of prices and finally chose a bilingual kindergarten with more than 40,000 yuan a semester.
I said it was too expensive. “It doesn’t matter,” says
Chen Yu. “The baby can’t lose at the starting line.”
Later, he went to see the small schoolbags used by the children, and bought four for men and four for women.
“I don’t know if it will be a boy or a girl in the future, but I’ve bought a few, and I’ll change my back later.”
I smiled and said yes, and then put my schoolbag neatly in the children’s room.
I put the fourth tick on the list. The
fifth thing.
Chen Yu went to see the primary school. The
sixth thing.
Chen Yu went to see the junior high school. The
seventh thing.
I discussed the training class with Chen Yu. The boy let him learn Go and Taekwondo, and the girl let her learn piano and dance.
The next day Chen Yu himself retorted, “This can only be the advice we give our children. If the children have their own hobbies, we have to respect them.”
……
I put the seventh tick on the list.
The eighth.
The ninth.
Number ten.
……
Sixteenth.
It’s not a thing.
It’s a question.
I asked him, “Chen Yu, if it is a daughter, what kind of person do you want her to marry?”
Chen Yu did not hesitate: “She could never marry.”
I looked at him quietly.
He surrendered and said earnestly, “Of course she is a person who loves her with all his heart, cares for her, tolerates her, doesn’t let her suffer, and doesn’t let her be wronged.”
“What if there is someone else in that person’s heart?”
“In the divorce, I personally filed a divorce lawsuit for my daughter, and he lost both money and money.”
“What if she’s pregnant?”
There’s no discussion. Destroy it. This is her responsibility to herself and to her children. Abortion and divorce are the most appropriate ways to deal with it.
I nodded in agreement. “You’re right.”
Chen Yu picked me up and said, “Xiao Ran, when will our child come?”
He seems desperate for our children.
He seems to want to run a good family with me.
But.
He thinks, and thinks, and thinks.
He wants, he wants, he wants.
Chen Yu fell asleep beside me. A text message popped up on
his mobile phone, “Ah Yu, my due date is one week away, and I want you to accompany me on that day.”
Another unread text message was sent maternity hotel to remind him that the reservation was successful.
Click on the shopping record, Chen Yu bought a package for delivery, as well as many things that pregnant women and newborns need.
Very complete and thoughtful.
Mobile browser search terms are also about mothers and newborns.
How to take care of the puerpera? What should
the puerpera pay attention to in confinement? How to deal with
postpartum depression? How to choose the most reassuring
month sister-in-law?
……
While he was indulging in playing the role of a father, he was also preparing everything for Meng Yunxi. Chen Yu
on one side.
One side, Ah Yu. How many identities do you
want?
Bang-
the phone was smashed against the wall and the screen broke into cobwebs.
Chen Yu woke up with a start and subconsciously hugged me. “What’s wrong?”
“I had a nightmare. I thought your mobile phone was the centipede that bit me in my dream. I broke it. I’m sorry.”
He ignored the phone and hugged me tightly. “Go to sleep. I’ll be with you.”
I’m glad. Everything on the
list has been completed.
And one day, these memories will become the sharpest knife.
……
Chen Yu suddenly became busier and busier.
He told me that the firm had more cases.
I didn’t ask. Sometimes
he came home in the wee hours of the morning, and then he often got up and left after answering a phone call on a thunderous and rainy night.
Whenever he leaves, I get up and collect my things.
During this period, Meng Yunxi sent a circle of friends.
It’s a photo of a passenger seat with no text.
But I could tell at a glance that it was Chen Yu’s car. Chen Yu and I chose
this car together.
At that time, I played the role of a master and told Chen Yu, “The co-pilot can only let me sit.”
Chen Yu didn’t say anything, but the co-pilot’s seat had never been adjusted.
I pulled the corners of my mouth, and now if I go to sit again, I’m afraid I’ll have to adjust the seat.
But it doesn’t matter. I’ve already made an appointment for an operation. It’s the same day as Meng Yunxi’s due date. The day before the
surgery, it was the anniversary of my mother’s death. After
my mom died, my dad started a new family.
I grew up with my grandmother. After her death two years ago, I had no real relatives. In order not to make me feel lonely, no matter what happened to him that day,
Chen Yu would turn it down and accompany me to mourn my mother in all weathers.
But this year.
He doesn’t seem to remember what day it is.
He only knew that today Meng Yunxi’s due date was ahead of schedule, the amniotic fluid broke, and there was some dystocia. She is
now praying for her in front of the delivery room: mother and child are safe.
I bought flowers and some sacrificial items alone, drove up the mountain, sat in front of the tombstone for a long time, and talked to my mother a lot.
About work.
About life.
About Chen Yu.
Mom, Chen Yu didn’t come this year, and he won’t come again. I have decided to divorce him.
“I’ll be alone again,” I sniffed and smiled. “But it doesn’t matter. You don’t have to worry about me. I can live a good life myself, earn a lot of money, buy a big house, and let myself live a good life.
It was getting late and I drove down the hill.
Back home, Chen Yu did not come back.
It was expected, and even felt a little ridiculous.
I contacted Reese, “Is it convenient to come and help me move?” Without saying a word
, Reese hurried over and looked at the things I had packed. “I should let this coolie know why.”
I pulled the corners of my mouth and said, “Chen Yu is waiting with Meng Yun-hsi to give birth.”
“Go, no, run!”
When the last thing left the house, I looked back at the house.
Sometimes giving up is just so so.
I smiled and closed the door.
Chen Yu frowned. An inexplicable panic in
my heart. I
feel like I forgot something very important.
He wanted to look at the mobile phone memo, but found that the mobile phone was not on him.
Just want to go to the car to look for, the delivery door was pushed open.
The nurse told him that it was the daughter and that the mother and daughter were safe.
He can only temporarily put down the matter of looking for a mobile phone, go through the formalities, and take care of Yunxi.
When Yunxi woke up, he looked at the baby and suggested that he be named. What
he thought at that time was Wen Ran. What would happen if he had a child with Wen Ran?
He must be a qualified father.
After all, he has already practiced, and even the child’s junior high school is good.
He must, he must be able to take good care of his and Wen Ran’s children. As
Chen Yu thought, a smile rose from the corners of his mouth and he blurted out, “Chen Yin, her nickname is Tuan Tuan.”
Meng Yun-hsi says with a smile, “It’s very nice, and the baby will definitely like it.”
Chen Yu reacts and frowns, “Yun-hsi, you misunderstood.”
“That’s the name I chose for my child with Xiao Ran.”
Meng Yun-hsi was stunned. “Your children..” Yu, are you in love with Wen Ran?
Chen Yu did not deny it. When
you came back, I was also confused. How do I feel about you?
“Recently, I finally figured it out.” A smile appeared on Chen Yu’s lips. “When I first imagined having a child with Wen Ran, when I made my first bottle of milk powder by simulating a father, I finally realized that I really wanted to have a child with Wen Ran.”
I miss you, I am unwilling, and I am angry. There is no love alone.
“I love Wen Ran.”
Meng Yun-hsi’s tears fell down. What about me? What am I? “Ah Yu, what is all the care you’ve given me these days?”
“Think of it as a misunderstanding that I can’t recognize my own heart.”
Meng Yun-hsi smiled with tears in his eyes. “Ah Yu, do you know how hurtful you are?”
“I’m sorry. If you need anything, you can come to me. I’ll do my best to help you.”
Chen Yu finished, feeling relaxed all over.
Suddenly I miss Wen Ran and want to get in touch with her quickly.
Finally found the phone.
But when he saw the reminder message popped up in the mobile phone memo, Chen Yuru fell into the ice cave.
Yesterday was the anniversary of Wen Ran’s mother’s death?
He forgot. How could
he forget! The panic in
my heart gradually spread, like a spark falling into a foam pile, instantly igniting a large ash.
He called Wen Ran,
[Sorry, the number you dialed is not answered for the time being, please dial again later..]
[Sorry, the number you dialed is not answered at the moment, please dial again later..]
[Sorry, the number you dialed is not answered at the moment, please dial again later..]
……
Answer the phone..
Why don’t you answer the phone.
Chen Yu drove home as fast as he could. Most of the furnishings in the
house have not changed, and the things prepared for the children in advance are still there, but it seems that something is missing.
His first reaction was to go to the wardrobe.
Only his clothes are left.
More than. All traces of her life
at home were taken away.
As if completely removed from his life.
Chen Yu suddenly remembered something and turned out a locker.
When he saw a pile of broken things inside, he collapsed on the ground.
It’s filled with mementos of every special day they’ve passed.
Wen ran said, these are the most important things between them, if she does not want, is not him.
It’s impossible. Wen ran loves him so much. It is impossible for
Wen Ran not to want him.
Wen ran liked him for a long time, and he always knew.
However, when he turned to a torn pregnancy test sheet, he suddenly became frightened.
Wen Ran, are you pregnant? The time of the
pregnancy test was three months ago.
It was just when Meng Yunxi came back.
And he didn’t know about it for three months.
Chen Yu’s pupils suddenly widened.
No, he didn’t know nothing about it.
Wen Ran had given him hints many times.
In the past three months, Wen ran always used various excuses not to make out with him.
Wen ran retched badly several times in the morning.
Wen Ran likes to wear loose clothes recently.
Wen Ran suddenly. Let him play the role of father.
If he, if he’s careful enough.
If he had not been disturbed by Meng Yunxi’s return.
It turned out that Wen Ran knew everything. It’s not that
she’s not angry, she’s just slowly accumulating disappointment. He knows how stubborn
Wen Ran is.
He wants to find Wen Ran and ask her to forgive him.
Tell her he loves her.
But he couldn’t find Wen Ran. I met Chen Yu
again three months after I finished the abortion operation.
I know he’s been looking for me all this time.
But he is not so powerful that if I deliberately hide, he will not find it anyway.
This time, I contacted him on my own initiative to talk to him about divorce.
Chen Yu is haggard a lot, the stubble that emerges has not been dealt with, the shirt on the body is not as bright as before, piled up a crease. When he
saw me, his first question was, “Is the baby still there?”
I looked at him calmly.
He knows the answer.
The eyeballs are bloodshot.
He took off the black backpack he was carrying and took out a lot of baby products.
“This is my new bottle, this is the clothes the baby will wear when he is one month old, this is the clothes for three months old, this is the clothes for seven months old, this is the silver bracelet for the baby, and this is the longevity lock.”
“Enough, Chen Yu.” I interrupted him.
He did not answer and still laid out all the things in his backpack in silence.
“Xiao Ran..” Chen Yu wants to come and hug me.
I took a step back.
His outstretched hand fell feebly at his sides.
All this time, I’ve been looking for you. I miss you very much, Xiao Ran. I know I was wrong. I shouldn’t have gone to see Meng Yunxi when you were pregnant. I
didn’t want to hear it, so I interrupted him and took out a divorce agreement. “Sign it.”
He looked at me in disbelief and said to himself with red eyes,
“I kept all the things about the baby at home, but the climbing mat was a little moldy because of dampness, so I changed it for a new one. I don’t know if you like the color, Xiao Ran, will you accompany me back to have a look?”
I repeat, “Chen Yu, sign.”
I won’t sign it! I couldn’t have signed it. He tore up the divorce agreement in front of him.
I took out a box of photocopied divorce papers. “How many more copies do I have to tear?”? Is this enough?
Wen Ran, I have lost my child. You don’t know how painful it is for me to look at the things I bought for my baby at home every day. I want to be a father like crazy, but when I think about it, it’s me, it’s my fault that I lost my child, I feel like I was beaten late, isn’t that enough punishment? Why won’t you forgive me?
“Forgive you?” I chuckled. “What about me?”
You’re with me because Meng Yun-hsi associates with someone else. You married me because Meng Yunxi married someone else. When Meng Yun-hsi came back, you were out of your mind. Did you ask me to forgive you?
Chen Yu’s face blanched. “You already know.”
“Wen Ran, I don’t love Meng Yun-hsi anymore. I love you now.”
I laughed out loud. “I loved you for three years, and now you’re starting to love me.”
Chen Yu, sign it. Don’t make me look down on you.
Chen Yu finally signed the agreement, but he looked at me stubbornly,
“Wen Ran, I won’t give up on you.”
“I signed to end my previous relationship, which was unfair to you, and I will pursue you again so that you can see my true heart.”
Chen Yu can be terrifyingly paranoid about certain things, and part of the reason his firm has been so successful is his somewhat paranoid personality.
But he has been able to control the scale very well.
But this time he was as paranoid as a madman.
Chen Yu follows me every day. Normally, he
doesn’t disturb my life, but whenever I’m free, he will take his backpack and let me see what’s inside.
Sometimes it’s a bottle of milk powder, sometimes it’s a complementary food, and there are many sets of baby clothes of different ages.
He showed it to me like a treasure.
At first I ignored it, thinking that over time he would give up on his own.
But he is like a cowhide plaster, which can not be shaken off in any case.
I was so annoyed that I suppressed my temper and said to him, “Chen Yu, you love to be trapped in the memories of the past. That’s your business. Don’t pull me back.”
“Do you know how I feel now when I think about the past?”
“I feel sick.”
“Why do I have to accept when you say you love me?” Aren’t
you pursuing me? Then I’ll tell you the answer. I can’t forgive you in my life, and I won’t be with you.
“So don’t be a bitch, Chen Yu.”
Chen Yu stood dejectedly in place, as if his strength had been taken away.
Since then, Chen Yu has never appeared beside me again.
It’s just that Meng Yunxi suddenly contacted me.
“Wen Ran, are you satisfied?”
“Chen Yu’s mind is now full of you and your non-existent child. He can’t tolerate me at all!”
I asked in a cold voice, “I should be asking you this sentence. I’ve already given up my position. What else are you not satisfied with?”
You had planned to leave long ago, and you wouldn’t have left Chen Yu’s child behind. But you deliberately gave him a dream of becoming a father, and finally you punctured his dream and told him that he had given him the knife himself.
“Now he stays at home all day, holding a doll in his arms and saying that it’s yours and his!”
Meng Yunxi’s mood gradually became excited.
I was not interested in her hysterical anger and hung up the phone.
Meng Yunxi insists on sending me videos every day. In the
video, Chen Yu always holds a doll in his arms. Sometimes
he called it Chen Yin, sometimes he called it Tuan Tuan.
These are the names he once told me to give our daughter. There was no wave in
my heart, so I blacklisted Meng Yunxi directly.
Another month later, the police contacted me and asked me if I knew Chen Yu and asked me to deal with his affairs.
I asked the police to contact someone, and the police said that he only remembered my contact information.
I was forced to come to the police station.
The police Comrade told me the whole story.
Chen Yu took a doll to the kindergarten and insisted on going through the admission formalities for it. After the principal repeatedly refused, he could only call the police to deal with it.
“If the family member has a mental problem, I suggest you take more care of him. I think he is very dependent on you.”
Chen Yu came up to me with a doll in his arms and a gentle smile in his eyes. “Little Ran, let’s go and get Tuan Tuan accepted.”
I looked at him calmly and said, “Chen Yu, stop acting.”
Chen Yu’s expression froze for a moment, and he insisted on holding my hand. “Little Ran, let’s go and get Tuan Tuan accepted.”
I pulled the doll out of his hand and threw it on the ground.
“Don’t talk about mental illness. Even if you die now, I won’t blink.”
I turned and walked out of the police station.
His hoarse voice came from behind him. “Will you forgive me if I die?”
The wind was a little strong, and I didn’t look back.
Later, I met Meng Yunxi, who had a sallow complexion and lost a lot of weight.
She glared at me with hatred.
I walked past her lightly.
I vaguely heard Li Si mention that Meng Yunxi asked her ex-husband for alimony, but in the end she found out that her child was not her ex-husband’s.
Now she was appealed by her ex-husband and sued for compensation for all kinds of expenses.
Get covered in mud.
Later, she received another phone call from Meng Yun-hsi, who cried,
“Wen Ran, Chen Yu’s situation is very bad now. If you still have a conscience, come and see him.”
I’m silent.
“No.”
“I’ve been feeding the dog for three years.”
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