Human beings are not suitable for flying
in troubled times. Love in
a Fallen City calls a Ferrari, and the driver is my ex-boyfriend.
He looked at my destination with a grave expression. “To the hospital?”? What’s wrong?
“Pregnant.”
“Don’t be ridiculous.”
“Don’t ask about passengers’ privacy.”
Zou Shen pushed his glasses and his eyes stopped at my flat lower abdomen.
“Shen Sisi, we’ve been separated for half a year. Where did you get pregnant?”
“Who said it was yours?”
He nodded with an expressionless face, even a slight clenching of his teeth, as calm as an old dog, as his name suggests.
Only at the foot of the invisible, he stepped on the accelerator. The feeling of
pushing my back brings out my double chin.
An hour later, the bank card received five million yuan.
Postscript, “Take care of yourself and your children for me. Thank you, Shen Sisi.”
No, who needs someone to take care of him? Why do you take his place! Not only is
the child not his. It’s
not mine either.
Half a year ago, on February 14, Valentine’s Day, I broke up with Zou Shen.
The reason is that he lost the ear of my rabbit doll.
“I’ll buy you a new one.”
He moved his fingers, and after a phone call, the expensive dolls were sent home by his assistant.
It seems to be overbearing and spoiled.
“Si Si, if you want anything, just ask.”
“Is it all right not to go?”
“No.”
He was so gentle, so gentle that he pulled my fingers away from his clothes one by one.
Then he put his arm around my waist and hooked me into his arms. “It’s time,” he said. “Be obedient and let go first, okay?”
My tense emotions burst out completely after the sound of “let go.”.
Do you really need a girlfriend, Zou Shen? What am I, a decoration in the house, a loyal dog that can wag its tail after two months of starvation?
I let go, grabbed the other ear of the rabbit, and swung it hard on him, one after another, painless.
Zou Shen is too lazy to hide.
You are really an asshole, Zou Shen. You have money and good looks, but you can’t stand being a bastard. Tired of
playing, I panted. Do you return to
this home? Only it, it accompanies me to sleep every night. Now it’s broken, too.
I pointed to the culprit. “You did it.”
He tried to get close, but I beat him back. Silence is his best self-defense.
I punched one by one like cotton, powerless to pain.
He is too lazy to quarrel and coax.
Zou Shen, for two months, only one day, I slept with you in my arms. It was half past five in the morning today. When you came back, you put your hand on my waist, and I clung to it so tightly that I was afraid that if I let go, I would be gone.
“Si Si..”
Zou Shen shouted with deep affection, but one hand had already been put on the suitcase packed beside him.
Without this sound, I thought he was a doll, and he didn’t say a word.
“And the result!” I looked at my cell phone. “You’re still ***ing gone, so soon!”! Seven o’clock, it’s only seven o’clock, an hour and a half, and you have to go again, to catch your plane, to go about your business, to break through the clouds!
I threw the rabbit at him.
You are the king in the clouds, and I am the chicken walking on the ground! We’re not the same kind of people at all, so why do we have to get together?
Finally, the other ear was torn off.
White down filled the air, romantic and desolate.
“Go and work with me, go.” Tired,
I collapsed on the ground and pointed to the door.
“I love you, Si Si, but the plane is really going to be late.”
He still left, twisting the suitcase that accompanied him through the spring, summer, autumn and winter, and they were more like a couple.
“I’ll bring you a present. If you have anything to say, wait until I come back.”
Come back and say?
There’s nothing to say. I won’t see you off. When I moved out of
the room, I pushed the suitcase with one hand and twisted the rotten rabbit with the other.
Downstairs, I threw it into the green belt.
Men always think that every quarrel is a common one.
I am the obedient rabbit, and then show my teeth and claws, as long as I touch my head and feed a few carrots, I will always be fine, and I will always shrink into a ball in his cage. It
never occurred to him that a broken doll would leave the building empty when he came back from this trip.
This is my “dearest ex-boyfriend”.
Zou Shen is a young talent, entrepreneurial elite and trapeze artist with a distinguished family background.
He is gentle, rich, generous and hard-working.
He was obsessed with his career, traveled frequently, built a company from scratch, then developed rapidly, and now has a considerable scale.
He’s all right, except for the fact that he loves me, and his performance is terrible.
On February 18, after a short period of official business, he returned. In the
following period of time, Zou Shen blew up my cell phone, and I blacklisted him. So
he gave me money to leave a message, and he talked to me in the message.
“Sisi, I picked up your rabbit doll and sewed it up. It misses you very much, and I miss you very much, too. Will you go home?”
I sent the money back to him and left a message.
Zou Shen, what time is it? Why aren’t you going to catch the plane? If you don’t fly, the world will stop.
After that, he also came to my house to see me.
At first, he was always red-eyed, squatting downstairs in my house waiting, like a rabbit who had stayed up a few nights. Once
, I caught a glimpse of him going through our chat logs, laughing at the news that I had lost my temper and cursed him for breaking up the plane and blowing him up.
I really don’t know what’s funny. Laughing,
he took off his glasses and buried his face in his knees. After
several closed doors, Zou Shen looked at me from a distance, driving his car Maserati at that time, parked 20 meters away from my house downstairs.
So Wei gave the photo of his car and the license plate number to the security guard of the community.
“There’s a pervert following me. Don’t let him in.”
The security guard looked at the picture and then at me, and nodded with a complicated face.
“Stalking people in a Maserati? That’s sick.”
After that, Zou Shen stopped for a while. He hasn’t come to see me since April
Fool’s Day on April 1st. Go fly
again. In his previous
life, he must be a thorn bird, a Kongming lantern, and a Nake Lulu. The sky is where he belongs, and he will die if he falls to the ground.
This time he seemed to fly for a long time, so long that my life turned 180 degrees. Countless changes and incidents filled this spring, and I almost forgot that he was such a person.
Until today, July 29, we broke up for nearly half a year.
My best friend Qian Xiaomin, she is pregnant.
She was trembling with fear in the hospital with the report, and a phone call came.
“Si Si, come to the Central Hospital. You’re going to be a mother!” When I was
half asleep and half awake, I was shocked. “What?”? What mother? Half nervous and half excited
, Chien Hsiao-min jumped on the other end of the phone: “I’m pregnant, and we’re going to have a baby!”
Ooh!
I’m going to be a godmother!
I was completely awake, so happy that I couldn’t close my legs. I jumped out of bed with dishevelled hair, washed hastily, called an online taxi without drinking water or taking medicine, and ran out of the door in slippers.
As a result, an outrageous scene appeared.
I called a Ferrari!
The driver was also very considerate and took the initiative to open the door for me.
I stepped back warily.
He looked up and showed a handsome face that he had not seen for a long time.
I looked at the driver’s information on the software and then at the man in front of me: “Master Zou?”
“Mmm.” Zou Shen nodded, very much into the play, “mobile phone tail number?”
Without waiting for me to answer, he volunteered, “4088, I didn’t change my cell phone number.”
“It’s not dirty, so why change it?”
I looked over his new Ferrari.
“What’s the matter, Master Zou?”? The car I used to drive is dirty, and I need to get a Ferrari to be worthy of my new girlfriend.
“No.”
“Nothing?” I am unrelenting.
“No new girlfriend, no dirt.”
“Get in.” He nudged my head and put his hand over it to prevent me from hitting the door frame. Fasten
my seat belt, close the door, and Zou Shen sat in the driver’s seat. Let’s
go, Miss Shen. There are snacks and drinks you like on the right hand side. After eating, throw the garbage in the car and I will deal with it.
“Quite skillful, Master Zou.” I folded my arms and shook my legs, squinting at him. “How many girls have I coaxed with that?”
“This is the first time someone has sat in the co-pilot’s seat today.”
Zou Shen helped me pull out the copilot’s light barrier.
MD, this smelly man is always inappropriately sweet and unreasonable. It
is unreasonable to stir the spring water, which is full of ripples.
He pushed his glasses: “It’s an honor to finally open.”
Since we were together, Zou Shen’s copilot has always been a family seat. No one has ever touched it
except me and his parents.
Once upon a time, his female partner had just opened the door of the passenger seat and was stopped by him.
“I’ll call a car to take you. Please wait a moment.” “I’m sorry,”
says Zou Shen, who is tactless and indifferent
, “but now the parameters of the passenger seat are set by my girlfriend. I’m afraid that if someone else adjusts them, she won’t feel comfortable sitting up.”
Always move oneself on this kind of trifle, have a wool to use after all!
Whoo, if you have the ability, you should go home. In the
hospital.
My best friend Qian Xiaomin looked at me and then looked at the notice of five million yuan on my mobile phone, laughing back and forth.
“Pregnant women can’t have mood swings. Please control them. Be kind to my adopted daughter, Ms. Qian.” I couldn’t
laugh, so I reminded him with a straight face.
“I’m sorry, it’s really too funny. So Zou Shen misunderstood that you were pregnant with his child?”
Maybe.. Right.
“So when are you going to talk to him?”
“Say what?”
“The truth.”
Why do you say that? If I don’t say it, I’ll let him misunderstand. It’s not very good. I won’t take the money anyway.
I muttered and turned around. I couldn’t tell myself whether I really wanted to make a clean break with Zou Shen.
If you ask me, Zou Shen is also very good. To drive a special car for you.
How could it be for me? It must be a new entrepreneurial project. The big boss goes down to the bottom and experiences life.
I pointed to myself. “I’m just the bottom that he hit.”. I’m sorry he’s not another beauty.
Chien Hsiao-min shook her head and said
, Shen Sisi, don’t die. How did you cry when you broke up with Zou Shen? I have a video in my phone.
She pointed to a building on the hill not far away, which was the local astronomical observatory.
Remember, I went up with you. You point to a model of a satellite and say..
I put my hand over her mouth. Memories of
death suddenly began to attack me, and in a moment I was black and blue.
Qian Xiaomin shouted vaguely, “You say you want to be launched into the sky, so you can stand shoulder to shoulder with Zou Shen!”
Shame on people and animals!
Qian Xiaomin checked that everything went smoothly.
Out of the hospital, unexpectedly, Zou Shen’s car was still parked at the door.
I’m leaving. He’s following. Moving
inch by inch, it’s hard for Ferrari to drive slower than a shared bike.
Finally, I lost my cool and knocked on his window.
“Master Tsou, don’t follow the passengers.”
“If you get in the car, I won’t follow.”
“I’ll complain to you again!”
Zou Shen followed more closely.
“Don’t complain, okay?”
He looked at me earnestly and said
, “I’ve been grabbing orders near your house for more than ten days before I finally got your order.”. Please, don’t let me lose my job.
“Don’t do that, Zou Shen!”
Being late and affectionate is cheaper than grass. I jumped back and said, “Don’t play the emotional card. Don’t pretend to be pitiful!”
He then changed the subject: “What did the doctor say? Is the fetus stable? How many months?”
“Pretty good. It’s been three years. He’s a Nezha, and he’s already calling his mother in his stomach.”
“That’s good.” Unable to
cure him, Zou Shen went down the slope and said, “What did the doctor say?”
“Eat a lot of muddle, learn the 18 kinds of martial arts when you’re free, and don’t let the kids get too idle.”
He nodded knowingly. “When will you go to the hospital next time?”
“When the Chentang Pass was flooded.”
He wasn’t annoyed, but I was annoyed first: “Any more questions, Master Zou?”
He thought about it.
“Can I be a father to my child?” What’s wrong with
being a father? With one hand on my waist,
I was speechless and choked: “Yes..” Can Can Why didn’t you die? Zou Shen!
“Can?” He raised his eyebrows.
“No!”
He nodded. “Get in the car and take my baby home.”
Who is he, baby? Is he even listening to me!
All right, round up. I was his baby for three, four, five years.
So I got in the car.
Halfway, Zou Shen answered the phone, and the other end was a gentle and intellectual female voice.
Vaguely, I heard her say, “This side of the airport is very congested. If you don’t come to pick me up, I’ll go directly to the company to find you.”
You are really a chauffeur. It turns out that I am not his only one.
Zou Shen cleared his throat and was silent for a few seconds.
“Mmm.”
After a while, Zou made a sound, like a child who had done something wrong. I caught him with a guilty conscience and dared not speak.
I looked at the caller ID, English name, Jiang Zhen, read very foreign.
“See you later.” The woman’s voice was light and melodious, and she added, “I just went to buy an autumn dress. It’s so hot in Shenzhen recently. I didn’t expect it to be so cold when I got off the plane.”
Shenzhen.
Two words, call my heart a stem.
It was like Nezha in my stomach was dancing with the silk of the sky, which stirred me up.
In the past, I always helped Zou Shen pack his luggage for business trips, and I would prepare clothes for him that were ten degrees warmer than Beijing.
Because Shenzhen, at low latitudes, is his most frequent destination.
I never knew there was a girl named Jiang Zhen.
“Zou Shen.” I spoke out of the blue before
he hung up the phone.
“Hmm?”
He seems to have been sealed, and now he can only talk through his nose.
“I feel like throwing up?”
“What’s the matter?”
Oh, finally, he spoke. It turned out that he was still nervous.
Morning sickness, don’t you understand? It is perfectly natural for a pregnant woman to suffer from morning sickness. “How can you be a father to a child if you don’t understand this?” I said coldly, with a gun and a stick. I even raised my voice deliberately when I
said these nonsense words.
I don’t know what I’m fighting for, or who I’m fighting with.
With Jiang Zhen?
Or with Zou Shen?
It’s so strange. We broke up. Who is he going to see? What does it have to do with me?
“Can I throw up in your Ferrari?” I asked him with my head held high. With a slightly calm face
, Zou pushed his glasses with his middle finger.
“Shen Si Si.”
No way, no way, with the name and the surname, this is annoying?
“You can do anything you want.” Jiang Zhen’s embarrassed voice finally came from the other end of the
phone. She called out Zou Shen’s English name and asked, “Is it not convenient for us to meet today?”
“It’s all right. It’s convenient.”
Zou Shen found a roadside parking space, slowly stopped, and at the same time cut off the phone.
“I really have no experience in taking care of pregnant women.”
He looked at me piously,
“But from today on, I will study hard.”. Now, can you tell me first how you can make yourself more comfortable?
“I must see this Chiang Chen today, right?”
“Not necessarily, but preferably today.” The meaning of
this is that we will see each other sooner or later.
“Did she have anything to do with your flight to Shenzhen?”
Silence.
Zou Shen skillfully put on the armor of “silence,” and has been invulnerable ever since.
I was expiratory dyspnoea, my head was hot, and I couldn’t swing a weapon out, so I stuck it all on myself.
After a while, he grudgingly said, “I don’t want to lie to you, Si Si.”
I’m really going to throw up.
Opening the car door, I rushed out.
Through the reflective glass, I saw Zou Shen laughing behind me.
He’s laughing? How can
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make you more comfortable? This is not the first time that Zou Shen has asked this
question.
The first time I asked, it was the first time.
Zou Shen is always like this, polite and eager to learn.
At that time, we were together for almost a year. He started his business and went to Shenzhen on business alone for more than a month.
I secretly bought a plane ticket, knocked on the door of the hotel on his birthday, and gave myself to him as a surprise.
The door opened, Zou Shen looked at me, stunned for a second, he pulled me in.
Closing the door, without waiting to open my mouth, my hands were raised above my head, pressed against the wooden door, and my lips were attached, and then attacked.
Zou Shen breathed quickly and quickly. He was as calm as he was, and he was as quick as a wild animal.
“How can I make you more comfortable?” On the big
soft bed, he held my face and asked.
He seems to know the answer better than I do.
What can I say?
He doesn’t talk much, but he has a lot of unique skills. After
all the ups and downs, Zou Shen hugged me from behind. He said that his order had been negotiated, and soon he would be able to give me a better life. Really
? Then I want the most expensive wedding dress when I get married, and I want a black wedding dress, which is the only one.
Zou Shen said he wanted a Ferrari.
He said that when he was ten years old, his parents divorced, and his mother went to Macau with an old man who drove a Ferrari. When he had a Ferrari, he went to Macau to pick up his mother.
Unfortunately, he didn’t tell me at that time that a better life had a big house, a Maserati, a car full of dolls, but not such an ordinary night of embracing.
Of course, I didn’t know at that time that there was a girl named Jiang Zhen in the same city.
And today, he wanted to see her.
Zou Shen made a mess of my life at once.
The next night, I went to my best friend’s drinking party that I had made an appointment with early in the morning.
Qian Xiaomin was pregnant and had to say goodbye to liquor and halter skirt briefly, and asked me to bring her good news.
“I have something important to say when everyone is here.”
In the bar where the lights are blinding and the music is deafening, I wear a rag-like battle robe and hold a shaking red wine glass, just like the strongest God of war on the dance floor tonight.
“What is it?” The sisters asked in all sorts of ways.
“a happy event.”
I grinned, but my heart was inexplicably bitter, as bitter as a big mouthful of bile.
Being late seems to be an unwritten rule. The midnight bell will ring, and people haven’t got together to get the table.
I don’t know whether it was Zou Shen’s sudden intrusion that made me fascinated and distracted, or whether it was Jiang Zhen from Shenzhen who made me panic, or whether it was the sudden “mother” that made me overjoyed, but in a short time, I was already drunk and half of my face was red. After breaking up
with Zou Shen, I always drank like this, but my drinking capacity did not increase at all.
A little milk dog looked at me several times across the table from my neck to my long legs.
Finally, he came over with a purpose and whispered softly in my ear: “My sister’s earlobes are red, so cute.”
Teasing me?
I took advantage of the opportunity to shave his nose with a backhand.
“Does my sister have a boyfriend?”
“No, my sister only..”
“Just a child.” Before the words were out, a man suddenly appeared behind me, put his arms around my shoulders, and pointed to my flat stomach under my skirt. “It’s right here. Do you want to see it?”
Zou Shen, he fell from the sky at an inopportune time.
The little milk dog ran away.
Spoilsport, speechless.
I shook off Zou Shen, but he simply sat down next to me.
Friends naturally knew that it was my ex-boyfriend, looked at him and looked at me, and looked at each other in silence.
“Did Si Si say anything? I have some good news today.”
“Tsou Shen, I don’t think it’s appropriate for you to be here. Have you finished seeing Chiang Chen?”
Zou Shen’s face did not change color, his heart did not beat, and he did not pick up my words at all.
He found the right direction and went straight to the point: “Actually, Si Si has already..”
Good boy, I know what he’s going to do! I put my hand over his mouth before
he killed me.
I laughed awkwardly. “Don’t listen to him!”
“Already what?” My little friend stared at us suspiciously.
“Could it be..” Suddenly, her eyes widened in disbelief. “You two..” Getting back together again?
“Huh?” I was stunned for a moment.
Zou Shen pushed aside my hand and held it in his own, noncommittal.
He paused. “And pregnant.” There was a cold breath between the
card seats.
“No, I, I really didn’t..”
I also wanted to defend myself, saying that Zou Shen had blocked my way: “So, don’t call her in such situations in the future.”
Faxiao looked at my skirt slit to the waist, then at my shining eye makeup, and finally did not forget to get under the table to confirm that I really wore 18-centimeter boots with pointed heels.
She was very angry.
Zou Shen, I’m not talking about you. This is at least your child, Shen Si Si runs around like a mad dog, why don’t you look at her well? Wouldn’t it be better to tie her up with an iron chain than to let her out and let her drink and dance and hook up with men?
My childhood friend was indeed my childhood friend. She was worried and sincerely blamed Zou Shen.
He is very good at talking, and he has a small mouth, and every word is not bad.
When Zou Shen made a mistake, he admitted, “I didn’t do a good job.”
He took advantage of the situation to pick up my body, which was hot from the alcohol, and stood up. “Then I’ll take the two of them home first.”
Maybe I really drank too much. I thought about it for a long time and was carried out of the bar. Then I kicked him in his arms and said
, “Niang and Niang?”? Where did the two women come from? I’m not your mother. Don’t treat me like a big boy.
“You’re not my mother.” Zou Shen wrapped me in a suit jacket.
“You are my little ancestor.” He
got out of the car and was carried into his long-lost home. I was
so drunk that I couldn’t even tell where I was for a moment.
Zou Shen poured a cup of hot water.
“Cold.” I didn’t answer. I was wrapped in a blanket and huddled in the sofa.
“Where is it cold?”
I rubbed a pair of bare feet.
Zou Shen immediately understood, first covered his hands with a cup of water, then grabbed my feet and put them in his arms.
“Still cold?”
“Cold.” I nodded.
“Where is it cold?”
「…… Every night you’re not home, it’s cold.
Zou Shen did not say anything, but put it more tightly in his arms. He
lowered his face, and his eyelashes fluttered slightly, very dull.
After a while, he called me, “Si Si, it was too bad for me in the past.”
“It’s pretty bad.”
His voice was low. “But I love you.”
“Where is my rabbit?”
I didn’t want to listen, so I deliberately covered my head with a blanket and quickly turned around to avoid his words:
“I’m sleepy and cold, and I want to hold it to sleep.”
“Wait for me.” Zou Shen got up to get it, took two steps and suddenly turned back, squatting on the edge of the sofa.
Caught off guard, he raised two fingers to his head.
“Hold me and I’ll be your little rabbit, Zou Shen.”
I grabbed his face roughly and pulled it around. Who
do you say you are? Are you Tsou Shen?
I mumbled.
He nodded his head.
Boom! Pow! Suddenly, I raised a finger above my head and opened my palm. “Zou Shen loves the sky. Shoot him out and blow him up into fireworks!”
Zou Shen was stunned and did not know whether to laugh or cry.
“Don’t blow me up like a firework.”
His head droop slowly.
Holding my cold hand and rubbing it repeatedly, he pressed it against my head and said, “Keep me by your side.”
……
“All right, Si Si?”
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I do not answer him.
Zou Shen then annoyed, overturned, the familiar breath from the lips and teeth, continuous attack, tossing people waist pain and legs soft!
……
The next morning, as I lay in Zou Shen’s bed, I was indeed surrounded by his smell.
It’s just that I sleep in my clothes.
MD, it’s a dream!
This is also..
What a shame!
I blushed from the root of my neck to my forehead, and I couldn’t say whether I was ashamed or annoyed.
Shen Si Si, you are really a waste, covet beauty to have a dream at night, unexpectedly still do not give a person to take down!
Because you can’t?
Before I could think about it, my mother called, and I remembered that I was awakened by the bell.
“Did you drink too much last night?”
“How?” I giggled.
The other one snorted coldly, “You’ve grown up, Shen Sisi. You’ve stopped drinking and become pregnant, haven’t you?”
「……」
I am speechless. Don’t even
think about it. I’m sure I sent a novel. This small mouth is really eating snail powder on the highway-smelly and fast.
“Whose?”
I heaved a sigh and said helplessly, “To tell you the truth, Qian Xiaomin.”
My mother reacted angrily, “Do you think your mother is a fool?”? Why didn’t you just say you were pregnant with a Nezha?
「……」
Actually, I did.
“Si Si, it’s time for breakfast.”
Suddenly, Zou Shen pushed the door and entered at the wrong time. He deliberately raised three tones for fear that my mother would not hear him.
“Are you on the phone with your aunt?” “Hello, Auntie. This is Xiao Zou. Have you received the caviare I sent you?”
He asked. My mother on the other end of the
phone immediately fell silent. Why did I wake up at Xiao Zou’s house?
I fell silent, too. When did he send my mother a caviare?
Moments later, my mother seemed to have captured some great information and was so happy that she could not close her mouth:
“Oh, Xiao Zou, I said you two were back together.”. Si Si, this child is really. What time is it? It’s hard for you to make breakfast for her. You, too. Don’t spoil her too much. Even though she’s pregnant, she’s very delicate.
“I didn’t..” I have a calm face.
“Look, it doesn’t make people say it’s delicate.”
“I mean I’m not pregnant!”
I finally know what it means that every lie needs a hundred lies.
“Mmm.” Zou Shen answered, “Auntie, Si Si is not delicate.”. She can wear 18-centimeter heels, a skirt with a slit to the waist, and shake her hands at one o’clock in the morning.
I put my hand over his mouth and whispered ferociously in his ear, “One more word..”
I raised my little finger to reveal my five-hundred-dollar manicure: “I scratched your Ferrari so that you can’t drive a special car.”
“Oh.” He lowered his eyebrows and raised his voice again. “Auntie, Sisi doesn’t seem to like my Ferrari as a wedding car.”. When do you think you are free? Come and accompany Si Si to see the car. I can do whatever I want about getting married, mainly depending on what you and Si Si like.
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Wedding car? Get married?
It’s a good thing I didn’t have breakfast, or I would throw up again. He thinks
such a joke is funny, doesn’t he? How long have Zou Shen and
I been together? I can’t
remember, anyway, it was from the clean sleeves in the school, to his successful career, from the telephone in the dormitory, to moving into this full flat floor in the city center.
Unfortunately, I waited for years and years, but I never got the word “marriage” from his mouth.
I’m finally tired. I won’t wait. Now he wants me to have time to see the wedding car? What does
he take me for?
Peg-top?
Playing, whipping, fiddling, and finally turning back to his feet, round and round, and never getting tired of it?
In this way, the difference between a top and a dog is really not big.
Before Zou Shen went to work, I was ready to leave his house. When I
passed the living room, I saw a mess on the sofa and a few cigarette butts in the trash can.
I twisted up the rabbit doll on the sofa and looked left and right. The sewing on the ear was crooked, and there was a faint fragrance of tobacco.
Last night, Zou Shen slept here with it in his arms.
I couldn’t help muttering, “Smoking again?”? When did it start?
“The time you sewed your rabbit ears.” Like a child who has been caught in the wrong place,
he pushes his glasses to hide his emotions:
“I was clumsy, and I sewed all night.”. I’m too sleepy. Take a few puffs to refresh myself.
“Don’t smoke anymore.” When I
got to the door, Zou Shen called after me, “Si Si, help me take it downstairs and throw it away.”
“Don’t throw.”
“Be obedient.”
I said, word for word, “I said-no-throw!”
I know what he’s doing.
He’s mimicking when we were still together. But
I don’t understand myself, looking at the cigarette butts he smoked, my heart is aching. After
that, Zou Shen never contacted me again. He really thought it was funny to
come into my life and suddenly disappear.
I have to admit that playing hard to get is always old-fashioned and provocative. A week
later, on August 6, my mother called to say that she would come to accompany me. As if I had finally caught an opportunity, I sent a message to Zou Shen.
My mom’s here. You’re in trouble. You take care of it.
He doesn’t solve it.
Left and right, I fell asleep and woke up again.
23：39……
2：18……
3：29……
4：44……
4：59……
I opened my eyes again and again from my drifting sleep, turned on my mobile phone, empty message list, dated from August 6 to August 7, and he never replied to me.
I’m used to it. Zou Shen is a ghost and his whereabouts are uncertain.
He must have been in flight mode again, wandering in the sky all night, like a flying probe far away from the earth, losing signal in the vast universe. At five o’clock
in the morning, I was woken up by the phone.
When Qian Xiaomin called, her voice trembled and she said that she had a stomachache and a lot of blood. On the way
to the hospital by taxi, I stared at my cell phone. Zou Shen still didn’t reply. I sent another one.
[Xiaomin sees red, I’m so scared.]
I’m really scared. When she
arrived at the hospital, she had been pushed into the operating room.
Sitting on the noisy corridor, I suddenly felt very cold and frightened. Life is always so fragile that no one can protect anyone.
Until, when I was dazed, a tall and tall figure blocked the noise and put a suit jacket on my shoulder.
I looked up.
He showed up unreasonably.
Zou Shen, last night like a ghost, now like a God, elusive, always falling from the sky.
“Why didn’t you tell me when something happened?”
Open your mouth. He blames me.
No, he blamed me? Who is he to blame me? How dare he blame his ancestors? I raised my head with
red eyes, and I was caught off guard by a heavy blow from my fist on his chest. “Who are you fighting against?”
Zou Shen was dumbfounded and wronged, as if he could not be more gentle.
“Then you come back.”
“Why don’t you answer my messages?”
“Go to sleep.”
“With whom?”
“Want to be with you.”
Zou Shen squatted down and looked at me with fixed eyes, as if to hint at his unique skill: “But without you, I can only be alone.”
“I said, my mother is here!” “It’s not like the wolf is coming,”
he said with an indifferent look.
“If you get into trouble on the phone, you can solve it yourself.”
“Oh?”? Am I in trouble? Zou Shen lowered his eyebrows and eyes for a moment, then suddenly raised them again, as if to eat me. “Si Si..”
He turned the tables and said,
“Are you hinting at me to propose quickly so that your mother can help pick out the wedding car and call the baby father after the birth?”
I
He patted my stomach and said, “Little Nezha, your mother is in a hurry.”
Your mother just..!
Civilized, civilized pregnancy, civilized life.
Not long after, Qian Xiaomin was pushed out of the operating room. There was no danger, and the fetus was still in the abdomen.
I breathed a sigh of relief, my eyes became more red, and I sobbed unconsciously.
I rushed up and hugged Qian Xiaomin, who had just regained consciousness, and kissed her on the forehead.
“Wu Wu Wu, mother of the child, you have worked hard. It’s great that both mother and child are safe.”
Chien Hsiao-min raised her eyebrows in silence, unable to move, and could only recite the words “retreat.”
“Don’t say strange things. She has a husband.”
Zou Shen twisted my collar and dragged me away.
After a pause, he added.
“You should have one too, Shen Sisi.”
I have a husband?
Sorry, I don’t have that kind of good thing, I only have the existence of all the women in the world who want to launch rockets out of the earth-ex-boyfriend!
I rolled my eyes and pushed Qian Xiaomin’s bed back.
“Can we make up?” “I really miss you,
” Zou Shen said out of the blue in a weak voice.
Miss me, how to miss me?
I stopped with a sneer, turned on my cell phone, and showed him our message page, which was green, greener than a man’s head.
Because I sent all the messages, everything, and he never replied to any of them.
I miss you too, Zou Shen. But you don’t even reply to me. Very occasionally you appear in front of me, and at other times you don’t hear from me.
I put the screen of my mobile phone in his face. It
used to be like this when we were together. You were flying in the sky and there was no signal. It’s still like this. What the hell are you doing? You never get a signal! Is Jiang Zhen back to Shenzhen, so you have time to tease me? You said you wanted to make up? I think you want to go up to heaven!
He reflected and suddenly laughed: “Are you jealous of Chiang Chen?”
？？？
What is the ability to draw the key points?
“No!” Lying on the hospital bed
, Chien Hsiao-min rubbed her nose: “I can smell acid.”
“I said no!”
He was tall, one hand pressed down on my head, and my teeth and claws were easily controlled by him.
He’s laughing again!
When Qian Xiaomin was sent to the inpatient ward, the nurse greeted me, “Long time no see, Miss Shen.” It’s a
hospital. It’s a good thing not to see.
Zou Shen was not convenient to go in and sat on the chair at the door to play with his mobile phone.
His screen is all white, and I sent all the messages. After
settling Qian Xiaomin, I walked out. Zou Shen looked up and said, “I saw your message.”
“What?”
“Sorry, I went to take care of something this morning and didn’t have time to get back to you.” He paused. “But you said you were afraid, so I came back.”
He looked steadily at me, his eyes bloodshot from staying up all night. “I’m so afraid of you.”
He’s afraid?
He said he was afraid?
I thought Zou Shen would be afraid, only the company’s running water has become less, the company’s size has not risen, and the company’s new goods are unsalable. Things related
to me, always at the end of the list, are not worth his energy consumption, nor his mood swings. The word “
fear” is too strong. I can’t stand it.
But now, his voice is really shaking.
Heavy and dumb.
Si Si, all this time, every day, I’m afraid.. How scared and how much you miss me when I’m not around. If you can’t find me at those times, or if you have no reason to find me at all, I really don’t dare to think..
“Well, yes.” I freely admit, “I’m pretty scared. Most of the time, without you, I’m really scared.”
I nodded
frankly: “But I am more afraid, we are confused to continue the relationship, but I am not sure whether I am important or not, whether we are suitable or not.”. I want a simple and warm home, you want the sky outside, you want to fly, we are all right, just not in the same space.
“I fell to the ground, and I fell beside you.”
He took my hand and it was cold.
Landing comes with a price, and unification means sacrifice and compromise on one side.
“Zou Shen..”
“Can we make up?” Out
of the blue, Zou Shen asked again.
I looked down at him as if for the first time, I was holding the option, I was looking down.
He was pitiful, praying and pleading with his eyes.
“Min seems to have called me.” I
didn’t have a good answer, so I pulled out my hand and ran away. After
driving Zou Shen away and settling Qian Xiaomin, I received a phone call.
That’s an unexpected female voice.
Jiang Zhen.
“Miss Shen.” She is respectful and ingratiating.
I was alert to remain distant.
She came straight to the point and asked me to meet her at her studio an hour later. It turned out that she had not returned to Shenzhen.
“I don’t have time..”
Jiang Zhen was silent for a while, as if he had no choice but to do so.
“It was Tsou Shen who wanted you to come.”
“Oh?”? What do you want to tell me face to face, both of you?
“Yes.” Chiang Chen cleared her throat and said, “It’s very important, so I won’t leave without seeing you.” When I
hung up the phone, I furrowed my brows, and a lot of guesses rushed up.
“Go! Stay away from me, please!”
Chien Hsiao-min pouted at the door:
“Go figure it out, figure it out, you and Zou Shen, what kind of ending do you want?”. Not with confusion, not with regret.
Jiang Zhen’s studio is really beautiful, and it is full of girls’ dreams.
“Miss Shen, I invited you here because I have something to give you. Mr. Tsou ordered a gift for you.”
She opened one of the curtains.
Caught off guard, under the holy white curtain, there is a wedding dress, a black wedding dress, wantonly dazzling.
Half a year ago, Mr. Zou came to my studio in Shenzhen and asked me to customize this black wedding dress for you. He said he would propose to you in a few months and let me bring it here.
Wedding dress.
He is fulfilling my dream.
I covered my mouth, and all the discrete points were connected. When did
he decide? What day?
Jiang Zhen showed me the order, and the date was written in the lower right corner.
February 14, Valentine’s Day, the day we broke up.
That day, he went to catch a plane early in the morning. Before going out, he said, “I will bring you a gift.”
It was his gift, but it was too late. At that time,
Mr. Zou said that he would finish his business in Shenzhen as soon as possible during this period. After that, he would stop flying around. He would land and stop beside you. He says that you can develop your career anywhere, but making you spend every night in fear is something he never dared to think about in his life.
Jiang Zhen gave me a push.
“You are very happy, Miss Shen. Go and have a try.” I was so confused
that I couldn’t take a step.
This information is too dense, so dense that I am not ready to face a fact.
One, the fact that Zou Shen seems to really love me. Two people who
are not suitable will not suddenly be suitable unless one of them changes.
I thought I had always compromised, but I never thought that Zou Shen had been quietly changing in places I could not see.
He was silent and decided to give up flying.
No wonder, no wonder that morning of the breakup, he left resolutely, because he couldn’t wait to arrange everything.
No wonder after we broke up, he suddenly seemed to have a lot more time, and suddenly began to circle around me.
But I haven’t figured out why he was surrounded for two months, then suddenly left, and then disappeared like the world, until now he reappeared.
But it doesn’t matter. The future is long and the past is unknown.
Now, it’s my turn to wait. In the
dressing room, I looked in the mirror at the black wedding dress that fit perfectly.
When I went to Shenzhen to find him, our dreams came true one by one.
We have also encountered new dilemmas, which seem to have no solution.
In fact, the solution is not that we continue to rush forward with our heads covered, two intersecting lines, through the intersection, if we continue to move forward in their respective directions, we will only go in the opposite direction and get farther and farther away. Take
a step back so we can meet again.
“Does it look good?” When the door of the
fitting room opened, I asked Jiang Zhen with a smile, but suddenly bumped into a bosom.
Zou Shen has been waiting here for a long time. Waiting in fear for
his ex-girlfriend in a wedding dress.
“Let me see.”
He supported me and looked at me in a circle.
“Good looking, my bride.”
Finally, we seem to see each other clearly.
“It’s not yours yet. You should say, good looking, my ex-girlfriend.” Are you
ready to be a bride? “
Zou Shen knelt down on one knee and said
,” Shen Sisi, maybe you’re right. Humans are not suitable for flying at all. Now, let me land, let me stay by your side, will you? Are you
ready?
I don’t know, but I’ve really been preparing for too long.
From before the breakup to after the breakup, every day is preparation. Prepare
during the day, prepare in the dream at night.
I used to think that in this life, my preparation would be useless.
“Yes.”
I handed him my hand.
His lips moved and he said something I couldn’t hear.
This is the last page of my dream.
If only everything would stop here.
183
days later.
My mom’s here. She
was not as happy as I expected, and her face was worried.
“You say you’ve seen Zou Shen?”
At the mention of Tsou Shen’s name, she felt as if she were facing a formidable enemy: “Which days?”
Which days? It doesn’t seem to be
a few days. At 6:58 am
on July 29, Qian Xiaomin told me that she was pregnant. When I called a taxi, I met the driver of the special bus, “Master Zou.”. At 23:37 on the evening
of July 30, my friends and I were drunk in a bar, and Zou Shen helped me out when we were accosted by a little milk dog. At 8:15 on the morning of
July 31, I woke up in Zou Shen’s bed and received a phone call from my mother. At 5:02 on the morning of
August 7, Qian Xiaomin said that when she saw Hong, I immediately went out to the hospital. Zou Shen fell from the sky and begged me to make up.
……
I met him for four days.
Cold sweat oozed from her forehead, and my mother gently pushed me away, rushed into my room, and dug out my case and medicine bottle.
“Crash”..
She poured out the white pills and counted them one by one. There are four
more.
For four mornings, I didn’t take my medicine on time.
She understood at once, turned her back to me, hung her head, put her hands on the edge of the table, and shook her shoulders slightly.
“Si Si, Zou Shen won’t be coming back.”
Her nasal voice was thick: “You have to take the medicine on time, and then you will get well.”
I don’t know what she means.
“Where did Tsou Shen go?”
My mother turned to look at me, pulled out an embarrassed smile, and raised her fingers to the ceiling.
“You forget, he flew away.”
He’s in the sky.
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Oh, yes, I forgot.
Zou Shenfei is gone.
February 14.
We broke up and he flew to Shenzhen.
……
February 18.
He came back and tried everything to make peace with me, but to no avail.
I blacklisted his contact information.
……
March twenty seventh.
I found myself pregnant, Zou Shen’s child, and I want to tell him on April Fool’s Day.
Now that I think about it, maybe my mother told him first.
Otherwise, in this life, there is no chance to let him know.
……
April 1.
Zou Shen flew to Shenzhen again to solve his last remaining problems, and then he could stay and not have to fly around any more.
……
Unfortunately, this trip, he did not come back. The plane
he was on crashed.
This is the most absurd but true joke I have ever heard on April Fool’s Day in my life.
……
April 2.
I added his contact information back.
“Zou Shen, where are you?”
“Zou Shen, stop flying and come back.”
“Zou Shen, shall we make up?”
“Zou Shen, I miss you very much, and the baby also misses you very much.”
“Tsou Shen, I’m so scared without you.”
……
Zou Shen, you can fly wherever you want. I don’t care about you anymore. I won’t tie you down. As long as you stop once in a while, stop and look at me, don’t hold me to sleep, don’t accompany me, just look at me.
“Look at me..”
He hasn’t replied to any of them.
He’s still such an asshole. I hate him.
……
April twenty seventh.
I failed to keep this little life because of my excessive depression.
……
May 15. Qian Xiaomin and
I climbed the astronomy tower.
I said I also wanted to be launched into the sky and become a star with Zou Shen.
…… How could
I forget?
Damn, how can I forget that Zou Shen really flew away?
……
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July 23.
I received a call from Jiang Zhen for the first time.
She said that Zou Shen had ordered a wedding dress for me in Shenzhen early in the morning, and she would send it to me next week.
……
I never knew that Zou Shen was going to marry me. I
thought he didn’t care about me. I thought he didn’t love me. It
must have been that moment, from which my brain began to mend my regrets.
Crazy, regardless of the cost.
……
Soon after, on the morning of July 29.
I received a phone call from Qian Xiaomin. She said she was pregnant.
I was so happy that I went out in such a hurry that I forgot to take my medicine.
I called the car and called the master surnamed Zou who was driving Baojun.
At that moment, without the shackles of drugs, the brain began to lose control.
I imagined Baojun’s horse-shaped car logo as Ferrari, and Zou Shifu with the same surname as Zou Shen. Coming out
of the hospital, I received a phone call from Jiang Zhen in the taxi. She said she came to me, but I set her up as an imaginary enemy. It was
also on that day that I received a five million payment from the insurance company.
And Zou Shen’s last request: “Take good care of your own children for me.”
I didn’t do it well.
Zou Shen, stop being an asshole. Do
your own thing, and no one will do it for you.
…… Midnight,
July 30th.
I was drunk in a bar, and the little milk dog came up to me.
He asked me, “Does my sister have a boyfriend?”
I said, “No, sister, only..”
I turned on the screen saver of my mobile phone, and it was Zou Shen’s posthumous photo.
The younger brother is very charming, but at the moment, the way he runs away is also very funny.
……
That night, I came out of the bar, touched Zou Shen’s house, hugged his pillow, smelled his breath and slept all night.
When I left the next day, I saw his cigarette butts in the trash can. Those cigarette butts that have been
left for half a year.
I don’t want to throw it. I really don’t want to throw it.
These are all his relics.
…… On the evening of
August 6.
I texted Zou Shen, and as always, he didn’t reply to me.
He can’t get back to me anymore.
I forgot again.
…… In the early morning of
August 7.
I was called to the hospital by Qian Xiaomin and left in a hurry. I forgot to take the medicine again.
Qian Xiaomin, I would like to call it, the killer of psychotropic drugs. At the
hospital, I saw the nurse who had taken care of me when I had a miscarriage. She said, “Miss Shen, long time no see.” It was
also that day that I saw Zou Shen for the last time.
In Jiang Zhen’s studio, I finally put on the gift he prepared for me.
Then I forced myself to make up a perfect ending.
…… How
I wish that was really the end. In
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Zou Shen’s music software, a song I recently listened to stopped on April 1.
It’s “man should not fly.”. The
song says, “How can a man fly without romance?”
I think the best gift Zou Shen left me is the ability to fly.
He doesn’t need to land. Somewhere, we’re flying together.
I’m weak. They will
not face the deterioration of their feelings, nor will they face the death of their lover.
I’m strong, too.
In the miserable life, I have sought the perfection of the void in a moment.
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