Zhong Yu finally meets
the secret love silently: I just like you
. I am the little devil who is responsible for the ghost pressing the bed. In order to eat a meal, I catch a bully who always presses every day.
For nothing, the bully always goes to bed early.
Because of the good performance, I didn’t have to go to work every day, and I went less.
As a result, one day, the bully was so angry that he caught me and asked, “Why don’t you come? Do you have another dog?” It’s three o’clock in the
morning, and the client I selected today is still playing with his mobile phone and sleeping later than a ghost.
I yawned three times and felt a little discouraged. If I couldn’t finish the task, I would starve again.
I can’t remember how I died. After
he died, he found a job to live from hand to mouth, and he was the little devil who was responsible for the ghost pressing the bed.
I wanted to make a living, but now people sleep later and later, which makes my business difficult to carry out.
Just when I was dizzy with hunger, I broke into a room in a muddle. The people
inside are sleeping soundly.
My heart a happy, quietly pressed up.
Although he couldn’t hear me, I apologized in a whisper, “I’ll just hold it down for a while. I’m so hungry.”
I closed my eyes and touched my hands randomly, and I had a good figure.
So I fell asleep with satisfaction.
But I didn’t see the person who was sleeping soundly open his eyes quietly.
The next day I woke up in the man’s arms, and my face turned red. I can’t remember much about
my life, but I still know that I am a single mother who has never been in love. This is the first time that such an accident has happened after working for so long after
death.
I guess I was hungry for too long, so I didn’t wake up in time. As soon as
I got up, the man woke up.
He rubbed his head and looked tired.
I feel a little guilty. I should have caused the problem.
But I couldn’t get out of this place, and there weren’t many clients to choose from, so I had to find him. After a big meal
last night, my mood became better again. He observed the people in front of him with
great interest.
He was so efficient that he not only finished the morning exercise in a short time, but also made a simple breakfast for himself.
I nodded approvingly, and my life was regular and healthy.
That’s good. I like it. Relying on
the fact that he could not see me, I did not restrain my eyes at all.
He just took out his clothes to change, glanced in my direction, and then turned into the bathroom.
That look made my heart jump and I almost thought he could see me.
At least she is an unmarried girl, and I am shameless.
It’s impossible to chase him to the bathroom to see him change clothes.
Just when I thought I was going to have another boring day, he started working from home.
I was a little surprised, but I was more happy.
He can’t see me, but I can see him.
So I have someone to accompany me.
“Pei Yu.” I looked at the user name on the computer screen and read it out gently.
The name is very nice, and I felt it in my heart. The hand that
did not notice Pei Yu’s password paused for a moment.
Pei Yu is very busy, all day at home, meetings and phone calls have not stopped.
I sat in my chair and stared at him.
Today’s sunshine is so good that his ears are a little red.
Sunlight came through the bright window, and Pei Yu was immersed in it, as if he was shining, and I actually tasted a trace of sacredness.
But slowly, I began to get bored, so I felt around the room.
“I can’t find a book I can read on the shelf, even a children’s book.” I frowned at the books on the shelf with some dissatisfaction.
Of course no one answered me.
My eyes fell on the table again. “If there were a bunch of sunflowers, the room would be much more lively.”
Pei Yu still felt nothing and concentrated on his work. As a prank,
I leaned close to Pei Yu’s neck to watch him hold a video conference.
“Wow, I don’t understand a word. You’re really something.” I gave a sincere compliment.
Turning his head, he saw Pei Yu’s red ears.
“Is it hot?”
I frowned and murmured, trying to draw the curtains for him.
Pei Yu suddenly coughed lightly and picked up the cup to drink water.
I touched my stomach and sighed, “These days, it’s not easy to be a boss. I don’t even have a lunch break. I’m hungry.”
As soon as the complaint was over, Pei Yu announced the end of the meeting.
He stretched himself and went back to his bedroom.
I ran after him happily.
Wait for Pei Yu to change his clothes and lie down.
I couldn’t wait to throw myself on him, take a deep breath in his neck like a cat, and sigh contentedly.
This is really my most satisfied customer.
No, it’s not the client, it’s the breadwinner.
I fell into a deep sleep with Pei Yu in my arms. When I
woke up, I was nestled in Pei Yu’s arms.
As the saying goes, once born, twice ripe.
I stepped out of his arms without changing my face.
Then the doorbell rang.
Pei Yu went to open the door sleepily.
I followed him to watch the scene of bustle. As soon as the door opened, a large bunch of sunflowers blocked my view in an instant.
I was stunned and did not speak for a long time. With flowers in his arms
, Pei Yu ordered the staff who delivered the books to put the newly bought story books and novels on the shelves.
Looking at the bookshelves full of financial magazines, novels and picture books are suddenly inserted.
My heart was beating wildly, and I was so excited about a possibility that I wanted to prove it right away.
When the room was quiet again, I ran up to Pei Yu and asked in a low voice, “Can you see me?”
I thought I would get a response.
Unexpectedly, Pei Yu skipped me directly and turned to the kitchen. A
great disappointment hung over me. Am
I wrong?
So this is all just a coincidence? When I finally
saw some hope, I was a little unwilling and chased it to the kitchen.
Pei Yu, if you ignore me, I’ll.. I will kiss you. I self-righteously put out cruel words.
Pei Yu’s eyes seemed to shake to my side, and I was a little uncertain.
I stood on tiptoe, close to his lips.
Originally, I just wanted to frighten him, but I didn’t want to stand on tiptoe and suddenly felt a pain. I couldn’t stand steadily, so I jumped on him directly.
“Shit, my first kiss!” The warm and soft touch made me panic and run away. I didn’t see Pei Yu’s dark eyes
at all, nor did I think why I could have such a clear touch. I’ve been hungry for three days
because of the first kiss I accidentally lost. It’s not that
I haven’t thought about looking for other clients.
But this is a villa area, there are not many people living in it, and those social elites often do not go home. I can’t bear to
see the children who stay up late to do their homework. I stayed away from the couple’s bedroom
because I had bumped into indescribable pictures several times before.
After thinking about it, Pei Yu is the most suitable.
But he pretended not to see me as a nuisance.
“Three days. Do you know how I spent these three days?” The more I thought about it, the more angry I became. The kid on the
other side shook his head and said honestly, “I don’t know.”
I wanted to pour out my grievances, but I gave up: “Forget it, you’re still young.”
“You are not a few years older than me.” Shen Ching-ching said, with a look of disapproval on her face.
Shen Qingqing was the only friend I knew after my death. He was not yet eighteen years old when he died.
She is a road ghost whose daily job is to play tricks on people and children.
There is no bad heart, just love to play a little.
Maybe we are both very salted fish, so we naturally become good friends.
“I’ll take it out on you.” Shen Qingqing patted his chest with a confident face.
That night, Shen Qingqing and I ambushed at the intersection where Pei Yu went home.
The original plan was for Shen Ching-ching to play a trick on Pei Yu and take him around a few more times, so that he could understand what a “ghost hitting a wall” is.
Shen Qingqing went confidently and returned five minutes later. With my
eyes round and my fingers trembling, I pointed to the bribe in her hand and said, “What about taking it out on me?”
“But it’s a lollipop. I haven’t had one in years.”
I continued to condemn, “Aren’t we the only good friends?”
“But it’s strawberry milk, my favorite flavor..” Shen Qingqing withstood my eyes of killing ghosts, and his voice gradually diminished.
Forget it. What do you care about with a foodie. I
have to do it myself.
I left Shen Qingqing and ran into Pei Yu’s house in a huff.
Because in the gas head, also did not pay attention to see, accidentally deviated, as soon as entered the door by the dense hot air to confuse the eyes. In a
trance, I seem to see something I shouldn’t see.
The next second, I was sent out of the door by a force, and I fell down and ate shit.
Ghosts hurt, too.
“Pei Yu, you liar!” I bared my teeth and shouted. I
swear, I have never been so humiliated in my life or after my death.
Pei Yu came out of the bathroom with a calm face and went to the refrigerator to get a bottle of water before slowly sitting on the sofa and looking at me.
Yeah, look at me. The look
in his eyes made my teeth itch with anger.
But I was still sitting on the ground, like a dwarf for no reason.
I leapt to my feet and said with certainty, “You can see me.”
Pei Yu didn’t deny it this time. “Hmm,” he said, and then raised his eyebrows. “So what?”
“Then why do you pretend not to see me?”
“Trouble.” He went back. After hearing these two words, all
my momentum disappeared, and a kind of inexplicable sadness came to my mind.
“Sorry.” After a long
silence, I heard my own voice say so.
Pei Yu is the only living person who can see me. I don’t know what kind of psychology I have to say that. I didn’t realize I had crossed the line
until I was broken.
No one has the obligation to help himself, even if he may be the only one who can help me.
I feel that my emotions are very inexplicable. He frowned with
some boredom and wanted to find Shen Qingqing.
“Sorry.” There was another apology in the
silent air, and I looked up in surprise.
This time it came from Pei Yu’s mouth.
“My tone was not good just now. Don’t take it to heart.”
Pei Yu explains, “I’ve seen some dirty things since I was a child. If I took care of every one of them, I wouldn’t be able to live a normal life.”
He’s right. There shouldn’t be too much entanglement between the living and the dead.
Not to mention, not all souls are kind and friendly.
I pursed my lips and nodded in agreement.
“If you don’t have a place to go, you can stay.” Seeing that I had the intention of leaving, he asked me to stay.
This ghost does not accept the food of lamentation. “No,”
I said stiffly. “I have a place to go.”
As a result, as soon as I took two steps, my legs and feet became weak and I fainted to the ground. It’s
over. I’m afraid I’m the first ghost who fainted from hunger in history.
I woke up in the familiar bed again. I
opened my eyes and looked at the time. It was already eight o’clock. Pei Yu should have breakfast after morning exercises.
I felt full of strength and supported myself again. When
he fainted, he was forced to work overtime and had a big meal.
In fact, Pei Yu is a good man, I think. When
I went downstairs, the good man Pei Yu was finishing the last bite of his sandwich. When he saw me get up, he raised his eyebrows and said, “Morning.” I’m always in a good mood when I’m
full.
I trotted up to him, leaned in close, and gave him a big smile: “Good morning.”
Pei Yu coughed lightly, lowered his head to drink soybean milk, and his ears turned red again.
I looked out of the window somewhat inexplicably. It was cloudy today and there was no sun.
“Pei Yu, stop drinking soy milk.” I said sincerely.
“Why?”
I pointed to his ears with a serious look on my face and said, “Your ears are red. I’m afraid it’s not an allergy.”
The air suddenly fell silent.
I think Pei Yu gave me a white look.
I’m not sure. I’ll see.
I leaned close to Pei Yu and carefully observed his expression. “Can you roll your eyes for me again?”
Seriously, I don’t roll my eyes.
Before I saw Shen Qingqing often rolled her eyes to tease those people and followed them with great interest. As a result, she laughed for three days.
How could a ghost not roll his eyes? Shen Qingqing said she really couldn’t figure it out.
I was so angry that I gave her a blow in the head.
Pei Yu ignored me and cleaned up his plate by himself. Now that
he picked me up and brought me home, I will stay.
I pushed my luck and pestered Pei Yu, “Are you going to work today?”? Can I go with you?
“No, I can’t.” How can you say such cold words with a body temperature of more than
30 degrees? It really breaks the ghost’s heart.
Pei Yu is very busy, but not at work, do not know what to tinker with.
I took one look and lost interest and began to stare at the TV.
It happens to be a horror movie.
I put up with it, but I couldn’t help being curious.
As I wallowed in it, the door clicked open.
“Scared to death!”
I got up from the sofa and ran to Pei Yu. Seeing this
, Pei Yu felt somewhat helpless: “Aren’t you a ghost?”
The ghost scares the ghost, scares the ghost to death, has not heard of it.
I curled my lips and followed Pei Yu even more closely. I didn
‘t even realize it, and I seemed to be more and more dependent on him.
I followed Pei Yu, and a handsome guy came in. He
seems to be very familiar with Pei Yu. The moment
I looked up, the man also looked in this direction, and I looked at him.
I felt the blood flowing backwards all over my body, and I was stiff in the same place, and I didn’t even know the tears were falling.
“Zhong Yao.” The voice was thin and weak, and I murmured. The moment I
saw the clock, I seemed to have a lot of memory fragments in my mind, but I couldn’t piece together a complete picture.
He didn’t stay at Pei Yu’s house for long, and I didn’t listen to a word of the chat between them.
I just stared at Zhong Yi. I can’t remember
anything, but I feel sad in my heart.
When the door was closed again, I slowly withdrew my eyes.
I felt a little stuffy in my chest, took a look at Pei Yu, or quietly left.
The subconscious doesn’t want to bring these negative emotions to him.
Pei Yu has no obligation to solve these things for me.
I’m just a ghost who doesn’t know where he came from and has no way to return.
You should do your part.
The moon is bright and the stars are few. Shen Qingqing and
I were sitting on a cherry tree, looking at the stars in the sky and chatting with each other.
“Shen Ching-ching, do you know what love is?” I asked with a sigh. She
tilted her head. “Two hundred?”
I raised my hand and gave her a brain blow.
Shen Ching-ching covered her forehead and shook her legs. “I just saw a new joke from them.”
Although Shen Qingqing was not eighteen years old when he died, he had more experience in being a ghost than I did, and he was always on the front line of eating melons.
Besides her, I have no one else to turn to. Off and on,
I poured out what I could think of in my mind and what I felt when I saw Chung:
“Do you think I liked him when I was alive?” Touching my chin,
I continued to guess, “Love but not love?”? Sadomasochistic love?
Shen Qingqing leaned against the tree trunk and said in silence, “Can we not fall in love?”? Be careful that I send you to dig wild vegetables.
“Why dig up wild vegetables?”
I’m a little confused. What does this have to do with love.
“Forget it. I won’t explain these trendy memes to you, an antique.”
Shen Ching-ching sighed, “Have you ever thought that besides lovers, you might also be family members or friends?”
I was silent. When I
first became a ghost, I thought it was good not to remember anything, as if it was a new life.
No matter the sad or happy memories in life, they all fade away with the passing of life. After
death, I have seen a lot of scenes of life and death, and I don’t have much feeling.
It was as if my seven emotions and six desires had disappeared together.
But the moment Zhong Yan appeared, I felt so sad. For the
first time, I thought, if only I could remember.
Shen Qingqing couldn’t bear to see me with such a sad face. She suggested, “Then go and ask Pei Yu. Didn’t you say that they seemed to have a good relationship?”. He should know something about it.
“Maybe Pei Yu, that scheming dog, knows you. He just knows how to pretend.” She said with some hatred. I couldn’t help laughing when I heard
that.
Sure enough, it was a child’s mind, and he was fooled by Pei Yu before he held a grudge, so he failed to resist the temptation.
But Shen Qingqing’s words really coincide with what I think in my heart.
It’s just that I’ve been struggling.
I looked at the villas not far away and distinguished the one where Pei Yu lived. My eyes were gradually far away and my thoughts were flying.
Pei Yu? Is
he really cheating on me.
In order to find out what happened before I died, I went back to find Pei Yu.
Late at night, I slipped into Pei Yu’s bedroom and was about to work hard and think about what to do.
As a result, people who work and rest regularly on weekdays sit on the bed with their eyes open at this time.
A look is waiting for me.
“Why aren’t you asleep?” I pretended that nothing had happened and said hello calmly.
Pei Yu’s thin lips were tight, and his face was heavy. “Where have you been?”
My heart jumped for no reason and I felt guilty for no reason.
This posture is so like parents catching children who come back late.
“I didn’t go anywhere. I just chatted with my friends.”
I answered in a low voice, and then I changed the subject. “I’m hungry..”
Pei Yu sighed helplessly, his lips stammered, and finally, without saying anything, he lay down consciously and began to sleep.
Faced with this silent indulgence, I tried to suppress the rising corners of my mouth, rushed up and began to go to work.
Listening to Pei Yu’s strong heartbeat, I felt extremely at ease.
Maybe I have something on my mind, and I haven’t been asleep.
Although ghosts don’t need to sleep, I still keep the habit of living after I die.
When Pei Yu’s breathing gradually slowed down and fell into a deep sleep, I immediately sat up.
I traced his eyebrows and eyes with my eyes and felt worried.
Then he looked down at his hand and fell silent.
This time I can be sure that every time I come into contact with Pei Yu, my soul will not be so weak.
This is not the same as the feeling I had before when I came into contact with other people. It is obviously stronger.
According to Shen Qingqing, when she first met me, my soul was so weak that it almost dissipated. His face
was dull and his eyes were empty, but it seemed that there was an invisible thread hanging on me all the time, so that I could not float freely.
Later, she couldn’t bear it, so she helped me find a job as a ghost.
Slowly, I became an ordinary kid.
Depends on Shen Qingqing’s words, and has been clinging to me, I also follow a lot of cheerful.
I put my eyes back on Pei Yu, and it seemed that I had to keep a distance.
Normal people are often pressed by ghosts, which is always bad.
Even if Pei Yu exercises every day and is in good health, he can’t help pressing me like this every day.
I sighed, a little worried that keeping a distance was not enough.
I have nothing now, since I want to ask Pei Yu for help, it is impossible to say nothing.
In addition to the help I received before, it seems that I owe a little too much.
“How can I repay what I owe you?” I murmured. For the
next half month, I tried to be very clever.
When Pei Yu went out to work, I watched TV at home, and then secretly looked for everything that might be related to Zhong Yu.
Like graduation photos or something. When chatting
on weekdays, I always hint him to eat more to nourish his body.
Although there is no way to wash hands and make soup in person, there must be a verbal expression.
But whenever this time Pei Yu will look at me, see my heart a jump, gradually silenced.
And next time I dare to say.
These days, Pei Yu gets off work more punctually than before. He comes back early every day to clean up and lies in bed brewing sleepiness.
Silently implied, obviously.
But for the sake of his health, I can only pretend that I don’t know anything.
Because I stuck to Pei Yu every day before, my performance exceeded the standard.
In fact, I don’t have to work every day.
So every night, I went out for a walk on the pretext of chatting with Shen Qingqing.
Or watching Shen Qingqing playing with those people. For
several days in a row, every time Pei Yu tried to catch me, I ran so fast.
Are you kidding me? Am I still a ghost when someone catches up with me? I
think I have performed well during this period, and I have been caring and considerate.
So I picked a dark and windy day and planned to confess to Pei Yu. Before I
went there, I even went to the water ghost barber shop and washed my hair specially. The relationship that
girls meet after washing their hair should be taken seriously.
As a result, as soon as I stepped into the door, Pei Yu’s face appeared in front of me and was caught red-handed. “Good evening,”
I said with a smile of joy.
Pei Yu did not speak, but his face was so ugly that he coughed twice from time to time.
“Do you have a cold?” I am concerned.
Pei Yu ignored me and turned to get the mask. “Why don’t you come these days? Did you find someone else?” He asked
in a husky voice.
Others?
Where did someone else come from? There is one other ghost. Inexplicably,
I tilted my head to look at him, but I could only see his back. As soon as
he put on his mask and turned around, he sneezed loudly. Pei Yu, who
covered his face, showed only a pair of eyes.
My eyes naturally focused on his eyes. At
a glance, all the words I wanted to say were swallowed back in an instant, and my fingers trembled slightly.
These eyes.. I recognize it.
It comes from the memory of my life.
Noisy streets, indescribable abuse and accusations, my whole person is almost drowned.
I stood in the same place with an expressionless face, as if I was out of tune with the world. What are
they arguing about? It’s so annoying.
I was pushed and fell to the ground, my eyes casually swept around, and a pair of eyes attracted me.
It’s so beautiful, I commented in my heart.
Then, the smell of blood spread.
I crouched down and covered my chest, and my soul was trembling. I can’t remember
any more pictures.
At that time, was the outstretched hand of the owner of those eyes to push me or pull me? The
probability is half.
I suddenly felt very uncomfortable and a little out of breath.
Why do you have half the probability.
If Pei Yu is really one of those people who contributed to my death.
Even if it’s only one point, then I.. What am I supposed to do? What do
you want me to do?
I ran away and hid myself.
I hid in the cherry blossom tree and stared at Pei Yu looking for me at night.
For a week, I didn’t show up, always staring at the villa in a daze.
Shen Qingqing also hid with me.
“Are you avoiding him like this?”
She was rarely serious: “If you have doubts, then go and find the truth.”. If it’s really him, let’s bring him together as a colleague. It’s no use hiding like this now.
“Mouth is for speaking, not for explanation.” Shen Qingqing earnestly persuaded.
I pursed my lips for a while before whispering, “I’m afraid.”
Fear of the truth can not accept, fear of betrayal, fear of really pushing me to hell is Pei Yu.
Pei Yu finally stopped looking for me.
I breathed a sigh of relief at the same time, but also implied loss.
“Shen Ching-ching, I feel like I’m sick. Can ghosts get sick too?”
Shen Ching-ching sighed helplessly and poked me in the heart. “You’re lovesick.”
I opened my mouth and tried to say something to refute it, but I couldn’t say a word.
These days, Pei Yu’s figure is in my heart and mind.
It seems a little lucky.
Even if Pei Yu is the one who killed me, so what.
After all, it is not equal to the different paths of human beings and ghosts.
While I was sighing and torturing myself and Shen Qingqing, a person who surprised me appeared.
He stood under the cherry blossom tree and looked up at me.
I breathed a sigh of relief and hesitated, “Can you see me now?”
He didn’t look away, he stared at me almost greedily.
Then the palm spread out, and a scarred safety button lay cleverly in his palm.
“Yueyue, go home with your brother, okay?” His voice was choked, almost begging. The word
“elder brother” is really too old for me. As
far back as when I was a few years old.
That safety button is like a memory switch.
All the memories that I deliberately forgot came to my mind in an instant.
Looking at this face, which was more calm than I remembered, I stubbornly refused to admit, “Chung Wan, you’re not my brother.”
Zhong Yi’s eyes dimmed a few minutes, holding the safety button tightly, silent.
I don’t have a brother.
Zhong Yu is a child adopted by our family. In order to climb to a higher position,
my father chose to adopt Zhong Yu in order to improve his reputation.
At that time, I was only a few years old, and I didn’t understand these twists and turns. I just thought it was good to suddenly have a brother at home.
Zhong Yi is excellent.
Whether it is appearance, learning, or hands-on ability, they are excellent, and they are legendary children of other families.
But it always follows my little tail.
In short, in my mind at the age of A few, he is the omnipotent Doraemon, omnipotent.
Unfortunately, the good times did not last long.
My father was gradually lost in the power of debauchery, and my mother could not bear loneliness and began to go out frequently.
My memory of home, only countless quarrels, as well as the empty home, I and the figure of the clock. I
was born prematurely, and I was a medicine pot when I was young.
Husband and wife are separated, so many years of quarreling, have long forgotten that they have a daughter, but also wear down the love for me.
Nannies changed one after another because of the miasma in the house. It can
even be said that I was brought up by Zhong Yu.
Later, the broken home could no longer be maintained, and it finally broke up.
After my dad was on the wrong side, the family was closed down, and my mom quickly divorced. Neither
of them wants me, let alone the adopted son of Zhong Yu.
“Who wants the baby?”
“You gave birth to her. Of course you took her away. I don’t have the money to support her now.”
“Like it’s not your child. I don’t want it anyway.”
“It’s really troublesome. Your mother doesn’t want you, and I don’t have the money to support you. Here’s ten thousand yuan. Take it and don’t look for me again.”
I held a bank card in my hand and did not shed half a drop of tears.
My mind went blank. Too many things happened in a
short time, and I didn’t react at all. He
stood in front of me, rubbed my head, and held me in his arms.
“Don’t be afraid. I’m still here. My brother wants you.”
Because of a brother, Zhong Yu’s tender shoulders carried the whole family.
He not only has to study, but also has to work part-time to earn money to support his family.
For my expensive medical expenses every month, Zhong Yao is often so tired that he falls asleep sitting down.
Sixteen-year-old boy should be high-spirited and vigorous, instead of surrounding me, a medicine jar without any blood relationship, eating the last meal without the next meal.
My dad was right. I’m a problem.
“From now on, you’re not my brother, and you have nothing to do with me, Zhong Yue.”
Even if the house is rented, it is also rented by Zhong Yu.
I packed my things and was about to leave.
Zhong Yi stopped him.
Later, I learned to be smart and ran away from home quietly.
As a result, Zhong Yu went crazy and stopped attending classes. She went street by street to look for him.
He hugged me tightly and begged me with sobs not to go again and not to let him worry.
I cried and scolded him and beat him, but he didn’t hide.
Later, I didn’t leave.
In those years, I obediently did not give Zhong Yan any more trouble, but also learned to take care of people.
The days are hard but happy.
I can feel that Zhong Yao is trying to make me feel at home.
I appreciate it.
When Zhong Yu went to college, his family would be a little better off.
Zhong Yan is the top student in the college entrance examination. He not only has awards from the city, but also has scholarships from the school. In addition, his part-time job is enough to support our expenses.
However, all the calm was broken by a kick at the door.
My dad had a gambling debt, and those guys came to me and forced me to pay it back.
I couldn’t pay, so they trashed the house.
Looking at the home that Zhong Yao and I dressed up little by little over the years, it was destroyed in a moment.
I suddenly felt that my whole life had been dragged into darkness.
Why is it always me? Do
I only cause trouble to others.
I am a disaster, I should not live in this world.
At that time, I always had such an idea.
I know. The depression I’m trying to hide is getting worse.
In order not to worry Zhong Yan, who went to school in a neighboring province, I chose to hide the debt collection.
As a result, before I moved, the debt collectors came again.
They swore and threw their belongings into the corridors and streets, looking for valuables everywhere.
Unknown neighbors are all watching the fun, and some even take photos and videos to get exposure on the Internet and satisfy their vanity.
But no one came forward.
My eyes shuttle past, looking at different eyes, some numbness.
Then he stared at the fruit knife in the corner.
That was bought by Zhong Yi.
Every time he would use this fruit knife to cut beautiful rabbit apples for me, just to coax me to drink medicine.
Now it’s thrown on the ground randomly.
Alone, a little pitiful. Seeing that they couldn’t find anything valuable,
the group turned their eyes on me.
“If you can’t come up with the money, you can pay it back yourself.”
Let me finish it.
As long as I die, everything is over, and Zhong Yi will not be dragged down.
These people will also be punished accordingly.
Seeing that I had no reaction, one of them scolded and pushed me.
I sat down on the ground and looked up to see a pair of beautiful eyes. The owner of the
eyes reached out to me.
I smiled, waved him away, and neatly picked up the knife in the corner. The
blood spread and the screams continued.
I was rescued, and Pei Yu saved me.
But after a month in the hospital, I couldn’t hold on any longer.
I have been disgusted with myself in my heart, as if I had dragged Zhong Yan down again.
Life had begun to improve, because I seemed to have a black fog in front of me. There
is no way forward and no way out.
Pei Yu and Zhong Yu are alumni, one year younger than Zhong Yu. Pei Yu was always with me when
Zhong Yu was working part-time to earn medical expenses. Inject a ray of sunshine
into my pale life.
He tells me jokes or reads to me in different ways every day.
I put a smile on my face every day in order not to let them worry.
Zhong Yan even wanted to leave school to take care of me, but I strongly refused.
I rubbed the safety button in my hand.
This safety button is a birthday gift from Zhong Yao. I hope I can be safe every year. I haven’t taken it off for
so many years, except when I was in the hospital.
Now it is scarred and full of bruises, just like my short and incomplete life.
“Chung Wan, I’m in pain and I want a hug.”
This is the first time that I have been close to Zhong Yu since I broke up at home. Surprised and excited, even a little overwhelmed,
he slowly leaned forward and gave me a hug.
I hugged him tightly and said goodbye silently.
Later, I cheated everyone’s sight and jumped into the river secretly. Conscious
again, is to see Shen Qingqing.
Zhong Yun has been waiting for me with a safety buckle. Are you
going home?
I don’t have a home.
I am a problem that no one wants.
I broke down in tears and said, “Chung Wan, I don’t have a home.”
Zhong Yu’s face was full of heartache. He wanted to hug me, but he passed through my soul. He
and I were stunned.
Looking down at the almost transparent soul, I laughed at myself.
I have a feeling in my heart that I am going to disappear, really disappear in this world. Suddenly a man rushed out of the
darkness, and before I could see clearly, he fished me into his arms.
A long-lost and familiar taste.
In countless hospital days and nights, the smell is incompatible with disinfectant water. An embrace that made me feel at ease
both before and after death.
“Where else do you want to go, you liar?” Pei Yu asked me, “Do you have another dog?”
I cried and shook my head.
From the beginning to the end, he was all I had.
“Why don’t you count those who promised to be with me?” He released me and stared at me with accusatory eyes.
I was made to feel guilty.
Before I died, I decided to jump into the river that day. I deceived everyone with my clever and sensible image, but I was caught by Pei Yu on the way.
No flowers, no specially arranged scenes, just standing in the noisy corridor, Pei Yu asked me if I wanted to be with him.
The tone is simple but sincere, as usual as eating, but it makes me flustered.
But I just wanted to send people away quickly, so I agreed at random.
Send him to buy flowers to renew his confession.
Later, all the past events were forgotten by me.
But once again entangled with Pei Yu.
I weep for my weakness, for my ingratitude; I weep for the way of man and ghost, for the sickness of yearning.
“Sorry.”
Pei Yu painfully wiped away my tears and held me in his arms again. “Why are you crying? If I know I’m sorry, I’ll hurry back.”
I looked up doubtfully. “What?”
“Don’t you see I can hold you?” Pei Yu paused. “You’re not dead yet. You’re just gone.”
It turned out that Pei Yu walked halfway that day, found something wrong, and came back to me in time.
So I was saved by him again.
However, because of the lack of oxygen for too long, the cranial nerves and brain cells are permanently depleted, showing a state of continuous coma.
Which is a vegetable.
“Then why can only you touch me?”
Pei Yu rubbed my hair and said, “Because of my constitution, I’ve been able to see those things since I was a child, so I’ve worshipped a master. Now I’m half a sorcerer, so naturally we have our own way.”
I nodded, not wanting to pursue the details.
“Then why did you pretend you didn’t know me in the first place?” I continued to ask.
“You don’t remember me.”
Pei Yu’s voice was full of sadness. “If I show my identity rashly, you will escape even farther.”
I bit my lip, bowed my head, and felt guilty. After being together for
so long, he knows me very well.
Pei Yu is afraid that I don’t have the will to survive. I’m
afraid I’ll be lying in bed forever and I won’t wake up.
So I lay in the sanatorium in the form of a vegetable for so long that I couldn’t wake up. It was the resistance in my heart that I didn’t want to live any more.
But Pei Yu and Zhong Yu tried their best to keep me in their way.
Shen Qingqing said at the beginning that there seemed to be an invisible thread hanging me so that I could not dissipate, I think it was probably because of them.
“Little crook, come back.” Pei Yu hooked my little finger with his little finger and asked in a low voice.
My heart is soft in a mess.
After this, I realized how wrong I was.
What I thought was liberation and salvation, on the contrary, made the people who loved me fall into greater grief.
I twirled his finger and shook it back, “Good.”
Pei Yu breathed a sigh of relief and slowly approached me. I closed my eyes and waited for the kiss to come.
“Cough.” Zhong Yi coughed lightly, and his face was very bad.
Blame just too into the mood, I forgot next to Zhong Yu and a face to see the play of Shen Qingqing.
My face turned red with shame.
Interrupted kiss, Shen Qingqing in the side of the angry straight call pity.
I turned to look at her, obviously have a lot of words to say, but is silent for a long time.
Shen Ching-ching laughed, revealing a sweet little pear vortex: “Don’t put on such a ghostly look. Since you have the hope of living, you can’t give up.”
Hearing this sentence, I couldn’t hold back any longer and tears fell down.
Only she and I know how heavy this sentence is.
I only heard Shen Qingqing talk about his life once.
She grew up with her neighbor brother Cheng Anjing, and in all the memories of youth, she only had Cheng Anjing. In their
young and ignorant teens, they made the most sincere promise and kissed under the cherry blossom tree.
Later, when Cheng Anjing moved, Shen Qingqing began to miss him endlessly.
The two men secretly made an appointment to go to the same university and worked hard for the same goal.
It’s just that God is always joking. Shen Qingqing, who
is already a senior in high school, suddenly got a serious illness, her body deteriorated rapidly, and her life was less than three months.
In the last three months, she thought every day if she could live a little longer.
At least wait for her to finish the college entrance examination.
Their family prefers boys to girls.
Shen Qingqing listened to her parents talking about her spending money every day, and her brother complained that he had not bought new clothes for a long time. She suffered all
these cold eyes and supercilious looks, and put all her energy into her study.
Even if the pain is severe, Shen Qingqing has never given up learning.
Finally, at her insistence, she went to take the college entrance examination.
Her grades are very good, even in the environment of serious illness and pain, she was admitted to the school that she had agreed with Cheng Anjing.
It’s just that she has no time and is doomed not to wait for the admission notice.
I remember clearly that when Shen Qingqing finished talking to me, she said with tears in her eyes, “If only I could live.”
Some people despise life, some people try to live just one more day.
I hugged her again. “Is there anything I can do?”
Shen Ching-ching touched my forehead and said, “No, just give me more money to burn later.”
I looked at her steadily and did not speak.
Shen Qingqing looked like she had been defeated by me. She sighed, “Don’t look at me like that. I’ll be softhearted every time.”.
I admit I just went against my will. If you can see Cheng Anjing, tell him I didn’t break the appointment. Also I’m sorry.
I looked at myself lying on the bed in the nursing home, and although my face was a little sickly pale, my condition was not too bad.
I think it was Pei Yu who took good care of me.
“What if I go in and I don’t wake up?”
Pei Yu said, “Don’t worry, I’m here. Just keep thinking that I’m waiting for you.”
His tone is very indifferent.
But I saw his hand trembling slightly. He is not sure about
this matter.
Pei Yu is afraid.
I turned to look at Zhong again, and his face was full of black eyes, showing fatigue.
“Brother, I’m sorry.”
This is the apology I owe to Zhong Yao, but I am too late.
Zhong Yi stretched out his hand to hug me, but half of his arm stretched out, thinking that I was still in the state of soul, and shrank back.
“It’s all right. My brother is waiting for you.” He tried to make himself seem less nervous.
I pursed my lips with a smile and turned to walk to myself. I can’t remember what happened
later. I only remember that I walked in the dark for a long time and couldn’t find a way out.
Until I heard someone calling me desperately.
Then there was a light at the end, and I trotted to the two voices. When
I woke up, the two big men beside the hospital bed were red-eyed. Only then did
I know that a year had passed since I went in.
This year, I can’t imagine what kind of mood they are waiting for me to wake up. I
thought I would be able to open my eyes and talk to them soon, but it was gone forever.
“Little liar, don’t scare us next time.”
Pei Yu was angry and distressed, and finally he could not clean me up, so he had to pinch my cheek.
“I’ll deal with you when you’re ready.” He put down his harsh words angrily.
I bent the corners of my lips. “Good.”
Half a month later, I finally left the hospital.
It turned out that Pei Yu’s villa was so close to the sanatorium.
Yangchun March, again feel the sun shining on their own body, there is a warm feeling.
So this is what it feels like to be alive.
At this moment, I realized Shen Qingqing’s desire to live again.
“I want to go under the cherry blossom tree.” I said to Pei Yu.
Pei Yu gave me a shawl and wrapped me up tightly before he walked slowly with me in his arms.
Without Pei Yu’s help, I can feel Shen Qingqing’s existence, but now I can’t see her.
“Sorry I’m late.” When I
woke up, the first thing I did was to ask Pei Yu to find Cheng Anjing.
Unexpectedly, Pei Yu had already done this for me, and after many inquiries, they had already got in touch.
And helped pass on the message.
“Is he Cheng An-ching?” I asked, pointing to the man not far away.
Pei Yu nodded, “He comes here once a year.”.
I asked him, and he said there were people here he liked. I almost thought he could see Shen Ching-ching as well as I could.
I looked into the distance, and I knew.
The cherry tree was the place where they had been in love. When the
breeze blows, Cheng Anjing disappears in the pink cherry blossom snow.
I withdrew from Pei Yu’s embrace, took two steps outside, and turned to look at him.
“Pei Yu, if you want to love others, love yourself first.”. In the past, I didn’t even love myself, and even gave up my life easily. Now I have been reborn once, and I still have many imperfections, but I have learned to accept myself.
“I want to ask, are you still willing to accept an imperfect me?” I accepted Pei Yu’s trial with trepidation in my heart and returned the choice to him.
Pei Yu took me into his arms, as if to rub me into his bones and blood. “How can you rob me of my words?”.
Zhong Yue, will you get married? No refusal.
I laughed at him shamelessly and answered him with a warm kiss.
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Untouchable Corner
Secret Love Silent: Just Like You
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