Once a startled swan took a photo
of Fanghua and complained: “Fireworks are easy to be cold. For whom do I bow down
? My appearance was destroyed. It is the shame of the royal family.”.
But Xie Jingzhao is the spring boudoir dream of Dayong women. He and
I were separated by clouds and mud, but the emperor’s younger brother married me to him.
I didn’t expect that my brother would marry me to Xie Jingzhao. When I
was young, because of an accident, I was left with a scar on my face. Although it was only a small piece at the moment, it was enough to be a disgrace to the royal family.
And Xie Jingzhao is the only son of the general protecting the country, Zhilan Yushu, Guangfeng Jiyue, is the spring boudoir dream of Dayong women. Not long after Chu Yu, the
emperor’s younger brother, succeeded to the throne, he sent his fifth brother to the fief in northern Xinjiang and his second elder sister to foreign countries for marriage.
Now, he’s starting to get rid of me. He can’t wait to have this big palace all to himself.
My mother’s concubine came from a humble background. She was originally an embroidery girl, and I was the least favored princess in Miyagi. Xie Jingzhao and
I are different from each other.
Probably, the new emperor with an unstable foundation wants to use my shame to suppress Xie Jingzhao’s spirit? It’s better for him to be laughed at by the world. The
young emperor probably wanted to warn him in this way that you could only catch what I gave you.
“The Hsieh family’s subordinates seem to be a little restless these days. After Sister Huang has gone, you’ll have to keep an eye on me. When I get rid of the Hsieh family, I’ll give you what you want.” Chu Yu smiled meaningfully.
Three days later, Xie Jingzhao greeted me with Dayong’s most beautiful gift.
At that time, pomegranate flowers shine in the eyes, green willows sing warblers, and everything is fine. I put a little flower on my face to cover the mark, and I did the best I could.
But I still heard a lot of regret, people for Xie Jingzhao to fight against injustice, feeling that his pearl is covered with dust. There
were sighs everywhere, and I was wronged for him.
So, after entering the bridal chamber, I gently comforted him: “The general and I are both cold-hearted people, so we are not afraid of any other entanglements. You and I only need to respect each other for three years, and your wife will die of typhoid fever, and there will be an empty grave on the bitter ridge. After that, no one can stop you. The general thinks, how good is this?”.
He raised his eyebrows, and there was a little surprise in his beautiful eyes. After a moment, he smiled and said, “Very good.”
“Then tomorrow, the flower on my face will be General Lao.”
So, the next morning, as soon as the maids came in, they saw such a scene-the general, who
had always been full of the spirit of killing, was only wearing a nightgown at the moment, holding the dressing table in his left hand, bending down slightly, his hair hanging down, hooking up the hair of the woman in front of him. And the right hand, which had been used to holding a sword, was now holding a slender pen, the tip of which hung above the woman’s skin, separated by the weak fluff in the light and dust, as if to test and inquire. After a long time, the tip of the pen slowly fell, with a faint sense of fatalism, trembling, wandering, fondling, and disturbing the breathless breath.
At that moment, the maids blushed for no reason. It was
also at that moment that they knew that Xie Fu had a hostess after that. If you live
in the palace wall for a long time, you will understand that sometimes what these slaves value is not your identity, but how another person with identity treats you.
If they see that I have been rejected by Xie Jingzhao, then in the future, my life in this house will not be easy. The moment the tip of the
pen left, the scar left many years ago had a faint burning sensation. I met him and looked at my eyes. I wanted to find a few flaws from the eyes with concentration and inexplicable solemnity. It was impatient or cold, but the bottomless eyes like a cold pool were silent.
I can’t see his mood.
That’s right. War is a treacherous way. The same is true between men and women.
I looked back at myself in the mirror, and the crabapple at the end of my eyes was in full bloom, delicate and beautiful.
I smiled, but my heart suddenly trembled.
It turns out that a general who can fight can naturally act. I met a master. The beginning of
June is the day of the Summer Solstice sacrifices and foreign countries coming to court, and I am newly married soon, so naturally I should take my husband back to the palace.
I stood at the entrance of the school yard, looking at the figure of Xie Jingzhao’s drill soldiers from a distance, hesitating whether to come forward or not. I know the rumors in the
army, and many people are indignant about this marriage.
I was looking down and thinking when suddenly there was a figure in front of me. Hsieh Ching-chao’s voice was clear and light:
“There is a lot of dust here. You should wait for me at home.”
I smiled, wondering if he was complaining that I shouldn’t be here. Before
I could react, Xie Jingzhao handed the sword to the attendant beside him, then took my hand and walked to the group of soldiers in the distance.
I shrank back subconsciously, but he clenched harder.
He held my hand and walked forward, free and firm, as if I were really the one he loved.
I’m not used to being so intimate with a man, even if he is my nominal husband.
I frowned, a little unhappy in my heart, just acting, is it necessary to do this? I had no choice but to keep up with him. When I stood still in front of the soldiers, I whispered in his ear and said, “The play is so well done. When I die in the future, you will have to cry a lot before you can finish it.”
He looked back at me, as if he had heard a whisper in the boudoir. He turned to me and smiled.
“This is my wife.” He said to the group of soldiers.
Wife.
This is a word rarely heard in the palace, only one word, but it is regarded as a treasure by those women who sleep alone every night.
But this precious word only makes me feel melancholy-what I want is not to be someone’s wife. After entering the palace
with Xie Jingzhao, I found that the Summer Solstice ceremony could be so lively. The vassal States of Dayong came to congratulate one after another. The palace was decorated with lanterns and colored streamers, and music played everywhere. In the middle of the tedious ceremony, I suddenly felt a headache and found an excuse to hide in the Imperial Garden.
After a while, I heard the bell of the ceremony gradually stop, and then I got up and went to the main hall.
The sky was dark, and I was dressed in dark clothes, and I didn’t have a lantern in my hand. I was walking on the road like a ghost. Perhaps it was because of this that the foreign envoy who lost his way didn’t see me and bumped into me at the corner of the rockery. At the moment of
collision, the things in the hands of the other side fell. Seeing that the man could not find his way on the ground, I bent over and picked it up and handed it to him.
Under the moonlight and the dim light, I accompanied my mother to embroider the new clothes for so many years. I hated the darkness, but I was used to it.
At this time, the main hall came the sound of the evening drum of the banquet, the other party knew that he could no longer neglect, glanced at the things in his hands in the dark, and hurried to the main hall.
By the time I arrived, the banquet had already begun, the guests had already taken their seats, and the ceremonial officer was standing in front of the hall door singing the ceremony. As soon as
I reached Xie Jingzhao and sat down, a cup of hot tea was handed to me.
“Still not feeling well?” He asked. His eyes were quiet and deep, as if he could see people’s hearts all the time.
I shook my head with a smile, but a cold sweat slowly broke out in the palm of my hand.
It happened that the ceremonial officer sang, “Northern Qi, present an amulet for 100,000 troops!” The
foreign envoy stood in the temple and respectfully handed the brocade box in his hand to the attendant in front of the temple. At the end of the
ceremony, the envoy should have retreated to his seat, but when he came to Hsieh Ching-chao, he stopped: “When the old general protected the people of our country, I heard that the little general and the princess were married. It was a small gift. I wish the little general and the princess a hundred years of good union.”
Northern Qi was a vassal state of Dayong. When barbarians invaded the border villages of Northern Qi, General Xie always sent troops to protect them. Over time, the whole country of Northern Qi respected the old general. There were even rumors that the old general’s prestige in Northern Qi had surpassed that of Emperor Dayong.
Later, because of his fear, his father transferred the old general from the frontier of the Northern Qi Dynasty to southern Xinjiang. Recently, there was a change in southern Xinjiang. When I married Xie Jingzhao, the old general was busy suppressing the rebellion and did not come back to watch the ceremony. As soon as
I took the brocade box, Chu Yu’s meaningful eyes fell over, and I knew what he was thinking.
The Xie family had a deep relationship with the Northern Qi Dynasty, and he had to guard against it.
So, while Xie Jingzhao was greeting the envoy, I opened the box with my own hands and took out the contents.
“What is this?” As soon as
my voice fell, the envoy’s face turned pale, his lips trembled and he could not speak, and he froze in place. The hall, which
was originally bustling, was so quiet that needles could be heard, and all the eyes of the hall came together and fell on the objects in my hands, like needles and thorns.
No one dared to make a sound. After waiting for a long time, Chu Yu said faintly, “This is..” A talisman?
The envoy had lost all his strength. He collapsed on his knees and cried out, “It was dark just now. When I was passing by the Imperial Garden, I accidentally collided with a maid of honor. It must have been at that time that I mixed up the two gifts. Your Majesty is aware of this!” As he spoke, someone had opened the gift box he had just presented to Chu Yu, which contained a pair of Lian Liyu.
Chu Yu only glanced at him, and then his cold eyes fell back on Hsieh Ching-zhao. I stood beside him, watching as Hsieh Ching-zhao was about to come forward to play. I was the first to say, “Your Majesty, you have just performed a sacrificial ceremony today. It is not appropriate to punish you.”. It’s better to return good for evil and believe that he was the result of a moment of carelessness. Besides, my husband’s behavior is clear to the emperor. If he was really such a person who colluded with foreign countries, how could you trust me to marry him at the beginning?
When he heard this, Chu Yu stared at me, wondering what he was thinking. After a long time, he frowned and said to Hsieh Ching-chao, “Sister Huang is right. I’ll let you go today.”
I breathed a sigh of relief, thinking that the storm was calmed down, but on the carriage back, Xie Jingzhao just looked at me without saying a word.
“What’s the matter?” I asked.
He smiled and gently stroked a petal from my hair. After playing with it with his fingertips for a moment, he suddenly said meaningfully, “The cherry blossoms in the Imperial Garden tonight..” It must have been an excellent drive.
My heart was startled, and cold sweat came out from my back. At the beginning of
July, the summer heat was rising, and it was said that several soldiers on the school yard had fainted under the scorching sun.
Xie Jingzhao’s training was extremely harsh, but I couldn’t say anything. Bored, I ordered people to get up the ice cellar in the mansion, chisel out a few pieces of ice every day, pull them to the school yard with a carriage, and make some iced sugar water for the soldiers. The attitude of the soldiers in the army towards me has changed a lot since they sent the wrong gift at the
banquet. Even Shen Ning, who has always been used to putting a bad face on me, can now talk to me.
Shen Ning is Xie Jingzhao’s lieutenant, the name is under the heart and abdomen, but in fact they are like brothers.
“The weather is hot, and it’s hard for my wife to make these trips every day.” Under the arbor, the soldier took a bowl of iced lotus seeds and smiled shyly. Before
I could answer, Shen Ning, who was standing next to me, winked and said with a teasing look on his face, “There’s nothing wrong with you. We’re just in the light of someone!” At the end of his speech, his eyes fell on Xie Jingzhao not far away.
Hearing this, the surroundings suddenly sent out a sudden sound of booing, until Xie Jingzhao looked over, I was already blushing.
Seeing this, he strolled over, and the soldiers immediately kept silent, burying their heads in the bowl. I brought him a bowl, and he took it. He touched my forehead with his other hand and frowned. “It’s a hot day,” he said. “Don’t come here again. Your face is red from the sun.” As soon as
he had finished speaking, the soldiers had narrow smiles on their faces, and after a few glances at each other, they began to sing folk songs used by men and women to flirt.
Xie Jingzhao looked at them and was about to shout when they dropped the bowl and ran away together. Embarrassed,
I was about to say something when I heard Hsieh Ching-chao scold, “Little bastard..” There was a smile in
his voice, and I turned my head in surprise, right in his line of sight.
I found that his face was even redder than mine.
In summer, Xie Jingzhao’s posture is tall and straight, and the sunshine plates him with a layer of gold, which makes him more tall and straight, handsome and extraordinary.
My heart was suddenly a little weak, as if I had been poked by something.
Close your eyes, warm light, warm sun, everything is very beautiful, suddenly, only feel like a dream.
Unfortunately, the dream will eventually wake up.
I always knew that the man I called the “father emperor” was a mediocre monarch. Under his rule, the people of Dayong had been in dire Straits for many years. Now Chu Yu has only been on the throne for a few months, and all parts of the country are unable to hold back their restlessness. The rebellion in southern Xinjiang has not disappeared, and there are bandits in Shu. Not long after
I came back from the palace, my family received news that Chu Yu had rejected Xie Jingzhao’s request to lead troops to suppress bandits. In the
study, Shen Ning’s impatient voice came out, without the slightest hesitation: “For him, is the peace of the place not as good as the so-called military parade?”
Yes, although the local magistrate asked to send troops many times, but Chu Yu did not put those mountain bandits in the eye, now, he is full of a few months after the parade of military affairs, only hope to let lurking in Kyoto south spy to see the real force of Dayong, so as to deter the south countries.
As early as a few months ago, Chu Yu ordered Xie Jingzhao to take charge of the parade. Now the soldiers have completed the drill, related matters are almost ready, Xie Jingzhao then please play with troops to suppress bandits, but Chu Yu has repeatedly refused, not only do not let him leave the capital, but also ordered no one to deploy the army in the capital.
Hsieh Ching-chao’s voice was faint: “Those mountain bandits are good at using the steep and deep terrain to manipulate the treacherous road. You are impatient, and you are only good at cavalry. You may not be able to deal with it..”
“There is no need to persuade any more.” Shen Ning interrupted Hsieh Ching-chao. After a while, he went on to say, “Although I don’t usually care about the undercurrent in the court, I’ve heard that those condescending people have slandered the old general a lot. I don’t know when I’ll be back. I just want to advise you that if you doubt me, I’ll punish you, and if I doubt you, I’ll oppose you. If you can’t bear some things, you don’t have to bear them..”
Hearing this, my heart sank and I was about to leave in a panic, but Shen Ning had already come out. The moment he
saw me, he raised his eyebrows, and the surprise in his eyes was quickly replaced by the intention to kill, but after a moment, he looked back at Xie Jingzhao in the room, finally sighed and shook his head, and strode away.
I hesitated outside the door for a moment, then went in. “The emperor’s side, I still couldn’t persuade him..” Be assured that I have not heard much of what you have just said.
He smiled, and his eyes were calm. “You’re my wife, and I know you’re not going to trap me with just a few words.” There is no such thing.
I lowered my eyes and trembled in my heart.
Xie Jingzhao is smart and alert. I should be more careful with every step I take. Not long after
Shen Ning set out, news of victory came from southern Xinjiang. The States negotiated peace, and the situation was somewhat stable, but the Chinese officials were quite dissatisfied with this situation. When they talked about the old general Hsieh, they were already secretly accusing him.
“Although there are many tribes in southern Xinjiang, compared with Dayong, it is a tiny place after all. The old general shouldn’t have delayed so long to settle it.”
“It seems that the old general is really old, and it’s time to hand over his talisman and take a good rest.”
“Have I ever heard that the old general deliberately delayed this long, but only because the gift from southern Xinjiang to him was not properly discussed?” Although
these words were said behind Xie Jingzhao’s back, their voices have drifted everywhere, and even the common people have heard of them.
After the banquet in the Summer Solstice, Chu Yu did not pursue the envoy who sent the wrong gift, but in the eyes of many courtiers, Xie Jingzhao’s ambition was exposed, and the guilt of colluding with foreign countries had been confirmed, so now the downwind gradually turned, and Xie Fu, once full of friends, was now gradually cold and silent. I didn’t know if Hsieh Ching-chao cared about all this until one night, when he stood under the porch and looked at the clear moonlight in silence for a long time. Suddenly he turned around and said with a smile, I grew up in the battlefield, and I was used to the wind, sand, cold, and snow beyond the Great Wall. Occasionally when I went back to Beijing to see the wine and meat of the vermilion gate, I always thought that soon, the wine in Kyoto would poison those well-fed adults. I also drank the wine of Kyoto, but also. All these years have passed in peace.
I looked at the tall and straight figure, my heart suddenly filled with a trace of sour.
He could not go to help his father kill the enemy, even to suppress bandits were not allowed, not because of any military style, but because he was Chu Yu used to coerce the old general’s chips, is to prevent the old general’s rebellion proton, as long as the old general Xie is still there, Chu Yu is also afraid of the Xie family, Xie Jingzhao can only be imprisoned in Chu Yu can control the place. Years
ago, he once galloped across a thousand mountains in the evening snow, but now, he can only be confined to this dark cage.
Half a month later, Xie Jingzhao received letters from Shen Ning one after another. As he initially expected, Shen Ning was not good at dealing with those bandits, so he was defeated repeatedly. In
those days, I watched him stand in front of the desk with clenched fists every time he read the letter, sighing with suppressed anger.
Every letter silenced him.
Until. The fourth letter.
It was a funeral note.
Shen Ning is dead.
I heard that his head was hung on the highest tree on the top of the mountain at dusk and fell into the wolf’s mouth in the middle of the night. After reading
the letter, Xie Jingzhao stood motionless for a long time under the Bauhinia tree in the courtyard.
I walked slowly over and stopped a few steps away from him. After
a long time, he did not reply: “This redbud tree was planted by Shen Ning himself. He once said that when the tree was covered, we could bring our wives, children and grandchildren here to enjoy the cool.” His voice was so calm that every word seemed to come from far away, and it seemed to be the echo of his voice many years later.
Perhaps as early as when Shen Ning left, he had anticipated that there would be today’s ending. The first time
I went to war, it was he who carried me out of the dead. I regarded him as my elder brother. I knew that he would have a good ending in his honest life. He would either return to his hometown with honor or die in battle. But he died alone in a nameless ravine. A hundred years later, only one local chronicle would have his name in it.. He did not deserve to die like this.
Hearing this, I smiled silently. Shen Ning is not the only one who can’t die? Just as
I was about to say something, he turned and left. When he passed by, I glanced at him and saw that his eyes were bloodshot.
Just for a moment, it makes people tremble in their hearts.
Those hate, he can not say, but through the blood of his eyes, he may have killed the enemies in the Golden Palace many times. But one of them. Will there be me?
I think I should have a child with Xie Jingzhao. Things have come to this point, and he and I have no way out. The moon was very round
that night. I personally made Xie Jingzhao’s favorite dishes and filled him with wine.
When Hsieh Ching-chao’s fingers caught the thin lace of my blouse, I heard him ask me softly, “Do you remember the three years?”
I nodded. “You don’t regret it?”
He asked.
I shook my head.
How can you regret it? Every step of the way, I think clearly.
……
Xie Jingzhao is very gentle, more gentle than I imagined. I slowly opened my eyes
when I heard his breathing become deep and long. The moon is really round, the moonlight sprinkled a yard, silvery white with faint blue, like a blade quenched with poison, cold and cold.
The only warm thing is Xie Jingzhao’s hand. In his sleep, he held my hand all the time.
I took his hand in my backhand and gently snuggled up to his chest.
Mountain bandits are not yet peaceful, the situation in southern Xinjiang is not yet stable, but rumors are everywhere in the capital, every word slanders the Xie family, I occasionally go to the school yard, only to see a downturn, the soldiers look full of long-accumulated gloom.
I know what they’re complaining about, but.. It’s not the right time yet. Their complaints come too early.
I subconsciously put my hand on my abdomen, and saw Xie Jingzhao’s eyes on the stump become cold day by day, and my heart became more and more anxious. It was not until one day that the doctor looked at my abdomen after taking the pulse that I was relieved.
It was late autumn, and I carried a hand stove to the bleak courtyard, covered his hand with heat, and slowly moved it to my abdomen. It
was not until then that his eyes, which had not had the slightest emotion for days, flashed slightly.
“Hsieh Ching-chao, we have a child.”
I finished with a smile, letting my hands and his hands tremble slightly. The first snow after
five
years is regarded as auspicious snow, and the whole Dayong is waiting for it.
Chu Yu set the ceremony on the day of auspicious snow, and the surrender letters of the countries in southern Xinjiang were also set to be submitted on that day.
Although it was day, it was cold and dark outside the window. I pulled my eyes back into the Imperial Study and looked at the glass lamps on the table. “As long as the surrender letter is not handed over, the situation in southern Xinjiang will remain unstable. Those leading civil officials should restrain themselves. The Hsieh family can’t push too hard now. After all, you still need them to defend southern Xinjiang for you.” The Hsieh family is not the only one
in Dayong who can put down the chaos. Had it not been for the imperial elder sister who added fuel to the flames and let those fatuous people see the overstepping of the Xie family, I’m afraid most of the people in the court are still in the Xie family. In the matter of bandit suppression, I did what you said. If I just refused to deploy troops, it would be easy to get rid of Hsieh Ching-chao’s confidant.. He paused, then suddenly looked at my bulging stomach. His words were a little more sullen. “Sister Huang is now indecisive. Is it because she wants to be a mother?”
I frowned without showing any trace and instinctively protected my stomach. Chu Yu is afraid of the Xie family, he will not tolerate the Xie family to leave descendants, not to mention, this child has half of the royal blood, even if it is born, how long can it live. On the day of the
review, Dayong didn’t wait for the letter of surrender after all. The countries
in southern Xinjiang pretended to surrender and launched a surprise attack while the Dayong army was slack. In less than half a day, the garrison in southern Xinjiang was completely annihilated.
Heard that the bodies piled up on the battlefield, looked half a man’s height, the old general already did not know where to be buried.
The court clamored for half a month, and the civil officials almost ran out of saliva, but no one pitied the old general who had been loyal all his life. After his death, there was no title, nor sighing. There was a lot of cursing behind him, and in the end, there was only a tomb. In the
mourning hall, all the people who came to pay their condolences were soldiers under the command of the Xie family. None of them shed tears, and I knew the reason-because they had hatred in their hearts, and between their lips and teeth, they could not shout out their indignation.
But Xie Jingzhao has no sorrow or hatred from beginning to end. Compared with when he first learned of Shen Ning’s death, he even had to calm down a little. Yes, he was the best person in the world to hide his emotions, and he was also the best at deceiving himself.
The so-called soldier is a treacherous way. He’s the best deceiver, and he often deceives himself.
The old general buried a month later, suddenly came the news, north Qiang Khan died.
North Qiang, is the second sister and the place to go.
I have heard that after the death of the northern Qiang Khan, the son of the Khan, that is, the next successor to the Khan, will marry his father’s concubine according to the northern Qiang custom, and for my proud imperial elder sister, this is what a great shame. Although
I was worried, I could only sigh a few times. After sighing, I looked up and saw Xie Jingzhao appear at the door.
He had probably heard about my second sister, so when he sat down in front of me, I thought he was going to comfort me, but what he said was a past event.
“Do you remember that many years ago, there was a rumor that there was a very beautiful princess in the palace who liked to wear a yellow dress?”
I nodded my head. The princess in the yellow dress is my second sister.
“That year when I went to the palace for a banquet, I met such a princess in a yellow dress.”
At that time, the spring and the scenery were bright, the water was soft and the mountains were warm. In the Fanyi Garden, the young man sleeping in the flower cluster disturbed the little princess picking the flower branches. The young man’s flute was sparse, and the princess’s eyes were bright. When the four eyes were facing each other, some people breathed in disorder, some people’s eyes moved slightly, the yellow belt crossed the flower branches, and a tiny crack was added to the yellow dress in an instant.
Xie Jingzhao’s voice was flat, but it sounded pleasant, so the spring he said brightened up in front of my eyes, as if I had seen it with my own eyes.
“a princess must have a lot of dresses, but she was so flustered that it seemed that the dress belonged to someone else. Then I thought she must have loved the dress..” At this point, seeing my blank face, he lowered his eyes and said, “I owe her a dress.”
“So now you have to go all the way through Kuanshan to return it?”
He nodded his head, and I was finally enlightened. After a moment, I began to think seriously for him: “Outside the vast territory, my sister has a very free life. After she goes here, you don’t have to come back.”
He looked at me very seriously for a long time, hesitating to speak as if he wanted to say something, but I had already picked up a glass of wine and said with a smile, “It’s a long way to Qingshan. I only have a glass of wine to practice for my wife. My husband, don’t give up.”
A few days later, when it was still early, I stood on the gate tower and stared at Xie Jingzhao’s disappearing figure in the morning light. Only by clenching my teeth could I not sob.
As early as the day I married him, I had anticipated the end of the future, the fate of entanglement, and even the rivers of blood. But I didn’t expect that there would be today’s pain in my heart. After
seeing Hsieh Ching-chao off, I counted the time to enter the palace. The first thing I said when I saw Chu Yu was, “Hsieh Ching-chao has left Beijing for the north.”
I did not explain his specific whereabouts, just want to let Chu Yu mistakenly think that Xie Jingzhao went here in order to join the five imperial brothers in northern Xinjiang, and then conspire to rebel. In
a rage, Chu Yu drew up three imperial edicts in succession.
The first is to depose the five princes as the common people’s letter, the second is to declare the Xie family’s guilt, and the third is to arrest Xie Jingzhao and abolish the Xie family’s military letter.
I shook my head. “If only Hsieh Chia-chun is abolished, there will still be endless trouble. That group of people..” Protect the Lord very well.
“Is there a reason to kill them now?”
The Hsieh family already has the name of a rebellious minister. If they know this and still associate with the Hsieh family.. What is the reason for this? Tonight, I will secretly summon Xie Jiajun in Xie Fu, pretending to discuss the countermeasures to rescue Xie Jingzhao, and you, while they are not prepared to lead troops to encircle and suppress the Xie family, then in addition to them, will not fall into reality.. After
leaving the palace, I secretly went to the school yard again, and my hands were still trembling when I returned home.
Now everything is ready, son. You’re the only one left.
I stroked my bulging abdomen, gritted my teeth and closed my eyes. After hesitating for a moment, I picked up the decoction at hand and drank it down.
That’s oxytocin.
That day, I was very busy, many details have been remembered is not very clear, only know that often in my pain to faint, then a sound of Xie Jingzhao’s name, I remember, I was calling him for a long time, trance to remember that he was not here.
Xie Jingzhao went to see the princess.
The dim light of night is always cool, but the night in the palace is always piercing. I had just given birth to a baby
at dusk, and I didn’t have enough rest to speak, but I still managed to get into the palace.
I want to see Chu Yu off for the last time.
Since ancient times, the winner and the loser, I wanted to go out of the momentum of the winner as I often dreamed before, but my legs always trembled faintly, after all, I couldn’t.
So I had no choice but to walk to the discomfited Chu Yu with a pale face and superficial footsteps. After squatting down slowly, I smiled. For a moment, of the two of us, it was hard to tell who was more miserable than who.
“I’d like to thank you, Adi, for agreeing to my request and telling them to wait for me to give birth before going into the house to get someone.”
“You lied to me. There are no Hsieh Chia-jun generals in the mansion.”
Yes, when the imperial guards rushed in, there was nothing but emptiness. In the huge house, there were only me and the midwife, and my newborn baby.
At that time, Xie Jiajun had just entered the imperial city. The troops
originally stationed around Kyoto were dispatched by Chu Yu’s confidant to southern Xinjiang to put down the rebellion, because the number of the imperial guards was roughly the same as that of the Xie family troops in the capital. The encirclement and suppression of Xie Fu occupied part of the imperial guards. When the Xie family troops on standby got my signal to launch an attack, it was the time when Chu Yu was most unprepared.
“But you were busy with production at that time, how could you have time to inform them?”
“The first cry of a child’s birth was the signal for Hsieh’s troops to enter the imperial city.”
“I never saw through you. I thought you wanted to be free.”
Chu Yu, don’t you understand? A person who has been dormant in darkness for a long time, what she wants more than freedom is light. After a pause, I moved my eyes to the glass lamp in the center of the hall and smiled sarcastically. “Is there any place in the world brighter than Golden Hall?”? From the day my face was destroyed, you should know that I will not leave here. This high palace is my place.
Yes, most of the more decent princesses in Dayong will be sent outside the country, and I will destroy my face in order to stay here.
“But even if I die, how can you get the world?”
The emperor’s younger brother is far away in northern Xinjiang, and he has been deposed by you. Even if he really wants to take this opportunity to return to Beijing, the wind and sand in the frontier.. It can also destroy people’s lives. I smiled meaningfully, and my son has the blood of both the Chu and Hsieh families. Whether he is a supporter of the world or the Hsieh family, he is justified. In this way, he will naturally be able to sit on that high position. At the end of
his speech, Chu Yu’s pupils shook. So this is just one of your games. As early as when you married him, you thought about it. First, you intensified the contradiction between me and the Xie family, so that the Xie family held a grudge against me. When they couldn’t help it any more, you used them to get rid of me, and you just had to burn the bridge and use a child to ascend to a high position as a matter of course.. But what if you’re wrong? What if you had given birth to a baby girl?
“The world is so big, why worry about not having a baby boy born on the same day?”
“Don’t forget, it was the Hsieh family that took over the world. If Hsieh Ching-chao came back and knew that you had bought the hearts of the Hsieh family and secretly used him in every way, do you think he would let you sit back and enjoy this imperial power?”
Even without me, the Hsieh family wouldn’t last three years. I just did what they were going to do in advance. Not to mention.. I closed my eyes and tried to hide the tremor in my voice. “Hsieh Ching-chao can’t come back.”
He seemed to want to provoke me. “Kill your husband, kill your brother, kill your master,” he said with a sarcastic smile. “If you had been so cruel, your mother and concubine would not have died so miserably.”
“You’re wrong. If my mother and concubine hadn’t died so tragically, I wouldn’t have been so cruel.” Why is there only four claws in the dragon pattern on the collar of the
father? It’s really out of order.
Yes, at the beginning, just because of Chu Yu’s words, my mother and concubine lost their lives, and it was from then on that I understood what life was like dirt.
“Brother, do you know why life is like dirt?” Before
he could answer, I waved, and in a flash of lightning, a bodyguard came forward and coldly inserted a long sword into his chest.
“Now, do you understand?” After
a long time, I wiped away the tears from my eyes and asked him again with a smile, but he could not answer me any more.
Because the war in southern Xinjiang was not peaceful, the new emperor ascended the throne in a hurry without waiting for the national funeral.
The premature baby, who was born only three days ago, cried like a mosquito in the chorus of thousands of courtiers. I held him gently in my arms and could hardly feel his breath.
At that moment, when I sat on the high seat and looked down at the world, I only felt that my children and I were ants under the giant ship, and in a twinkling of an eye, they would be crushed.
Later, I learned that the great ship that crushed us was called fate.
When Xie Jingzhao came back, it was fate.
Chu Yu said that I was absolutely ruthless, but seriously, I was still not ruthless enough.
If I am ruthless, I can find many opportunities to kill Xie Jingzhao in countless ordinary days and nights with him in the past, and the cup of practice wine before leaving should also be a cup of poisonous wine.
If I am ruthless, before I seize power, the younger brother of the five emperors should die in the northern frontier, not continue to live in this world.
If I am ruthless, I should immediately recall the troops in the frontier and slay the soldiers of the Xie family, leaving no future trouble.
But I always leave a leeway, just like the dragon claw that my mother didn’t finish embroidering, and eventually, this leeway becomes a dead place.
When the dead soldier I sent out to kill Xie Jingzhao returned empty-handed, my heart did not have much ups and downs.
“I set out ahead of time as ordered and waited for him on the only way to Northern Qiang, but no one was there.”
“Now that you’re back, I’m sure he won’t be long.”
I waited for Xie Jingzhao over the Golden Palace for two dusks, and on the third day, his figure finally appeared in the hazy afterglow. Do
you have.. Bring the princess back with you?
He smiled, surprisingly softly. “The princess I met in Fanyi Garden in those days never left here..” As the
words fell, I felt a twinge in my heart, but he just looked at me from a distance and said quietly, “It’s just that I remember when I met her, there was still a light in her eyes.”
He sighed and walked slowly toward me. “You were wearing a veil. I couldn’t see your face, but I remember your eyes.”
For a moment, I hastily closed his eyes, his voice is like a lifetime ago, and that word by word, but can not escape the fate of reincarnation.
Yes, at that time, because I wanted to see what my father looked like in the dress embroidered by my mother and concubine, I borrowed my second sister’s dress to attend the banquet. It was before the banquet that I met Xie Jingzhao when I went to Fanyi Garden to pick flowers to make headdresses.
So, going to Northern Qiang to save my second sister was just an excuse for you to leave Beijing. You went to Northern Xinjiang, and then.. When you bring back the younger brother of the fifth emperor, you must hold him in your arms.
He nodded for a long time before saying, “I always knew what you were doing.”
“If that’s the case, why didn’t you stop me in the first place?” “Because you want to kill Chu Yu by my hand, because you don’t want to be a rebel, and you want to go to the Golden Palace in the name of the king.” With
that, I laughed at myself, and in a trance, I remembered that year when the garden was full of elegance. I couldn’t help looking back at him. At one glance, the figure that had disappeared into the spring scenery came into my destiny.
I should have known that whoever turns back first will lose. And that day, he never looked back.
“The soldiers of the Hsieh family are innocent. You shouldn’t have trapped them in unkindness and injustice and called them rebellious officials.”
If there were no bony bones at the bottom, how could the high seat be so high? And how to lay the foundation? I’ve seen too many people die in vain, cold palace concubines, nameless slaves, just like Shen Ning, these people should not have died like this, the world should not be like this.. I looked up at him. “Hsieh Ching-chao, what’s the harm in giving me the world?”? As long as you don’t stop me, the weak will no longer have to linger under the broken lamp. There will be no more cold palace, and there will be no more war in the frontier. I will let the people of Dayong open their eyes and see the light of the sky, instead of waking up countless times like me, only to see the endless night of Weiyang.
He was stupefied, and his voice suddenly became a little more angry. “Is it possible that after you married me, all you saw was darkness?”
Almost subconsciously, I tried to retort, but in the end, I just smiled.
Because of Xie Jingzhao, I have seen the sky in my life, but the light is too vague.
I shook my head. “Only by climbing here can no one shake me. Only by this imperial power can I be as bright as day.”
“It’s nightfall, Yunsi. It’s time for us to go home.”
Yeah, it’s nightfall, and it’s already.. It’s too late.
I am a rebellious minister, if I live, after the new emperor ascended the throne, Xie Jingzhao will be difficult to live. I can’t go back.
“Look, Hsieh Ching-chao, that glass lamp is really beautiful. Even at night, it shines as brightly as in the daytime.”
If my mother and concubine can embroider a new dress under this lamp, it must be the most beautiful in the world. In
a flash of lightning, I closed my eyes, took out the dagger in my arms when he was not looking, and then trembled into my heart.
The dagger has been covered by me warm, I thought, covered hot, the heart will not feel cold, I will not be painful.
But originally, so painful. Three years after
her death, their child closed his eyes, and he was the only one left in the world. When the
child was buried, Xie Jingzhao did not go to see it. He only thought that everything was the same as before he met her, who had never appeared around him, who had left him.
He refused to admit that the cold wind and the silence around him, which could not be avoided under the porch, had now made his heart tremble. Years ago, he was clearly never afraid of the cold.
Many years later, he lit an ever-burning lamp for her. Sometimes the light was fluttering, but it also made the night white.
And that little light in the palm of his hand has become the only warmth left in his life.
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