9. Go home together.

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the world of mortals on the same

road and live up to me: crazy criticism of the love and redemption

of beauty. My mother is the most wonderful woman in the world. At the age of six,

she wrote the poem “Quiet Night Thoughts,” which became famous all over the world. At the age of eight, she said to today’s emperor, “Every man is responsible for the rise and fall of his country.”.

And the mediocrity of me has become a stain on her life.

The emperor also thought it was a pity, so he gave her a clever son. The day before,

my mother told me that I would only have one child in my life, and the next day, she smiled from ear to ear at the son she had given me.

Take the mother’s revenge, implacable!

Just this enmity, how more and more something is wrong.

My mother is the most extraordinary woman in the world. At the age of six,

she wrote the poem “Quiet Night Thoughts,” which became famous all over the world. At the age of eight, she said to today’s emperor, “Every man is responsible for the rise and fall of his country.”. Everyone

thought that she and the general’s children were either generals on the battlefield or gifted scholars with peerless talent.

And then I was born. When

I was six years old, my mother ran after me with a handkerchief and said, “Miss, wipe your nose!” When I was

eight years old, my father ran after me with a cane: “Why are you playing truant again?” Everyone was so disappointed

in me that I was the biggest stain on my mother’s life.

They advised their mother that if the tuba practice was abandoned, she could create another trumpet practice. It was my mother who said

this to me. Although I didn’t quite understand the meaning of large size and small size, my mother hugged me and said, “Ah Shu, don’t lose heart. Mother was like this when she was a child.”

She also vowed to me that she only wanted me as a child in her life.

Only love me as a child. I was so moved

that I vowed to fight for my mother.

As a result, the next day I heard that my mother was going to have a new son.

“If you talk nonsense again, I’ll tear your mouth off.” I shook my fist at Li Jian who started the rumor.

He is the only grandson of the Minister of War, and he is the most difficult to deal with in school. I don’t listen to a word

he says.

“If you don’t believe me, go back and have a look. I’m afraid they’ve all been sent to the General’s Office.” Li Chien was rather gloating. “This is a gift from the emperor, saying that your mother can’t just have a child like you who doesn’t live up to expectations.”

I don’t believe it!

But I don’t believe a lot of things.

Just like when I was six years old, I stayed up secretly for three nights and couldn’t write a poem.

As soon as I entered the door, I saw a young man standing in the main hall, dressed in a cheap green shirt, with a straight back, who could attract people’s eyes with a figure.

Hearing me, all the people in the main hall looked at me.

Teenagers also turn around at this time.

I have to say, he is more beautiful than most beautiful Li Jian in the school.

“Ah Shu.” My mother smiled and waved to me, “Come and see your brother Yifeng.”

She looked like a different person from yesterday when she said she would only have me as a child.

I stepped back and shouted at the people in the main hall, “I don’t have a brother!”

Then I turned and ran out.

I thought that the emperor who was not a piece of shit had given a son to his mother, and even if she accepted him, she would not like him.

But just now in the main hall, it was obvious that the young man was like their own son who made them proud.

As I ran, I listened to people talking about the young boy who had been sent to the General’s Office. Everyone is

very happy for their mother.

Like I’m the only bad guy.

I squatted under the bridge in the west of the city and threw a stone into the lake with all my strength.

For so many years, I couldn’t figure it out. I

don’t understand why my mother gave birth to me like this. I

don’t know why I’m a mother’s child.

“I didn’t pick it up.” I looked at the lake and blurted out that I didn’t look much like my mother. Suddenly there was a chuckle

overhead. I was so

frightened that I slipped and fell into the lake. Seeing this, the man on the

bridge jumped down and picked me up and carried me to one side.

I spat a few mouthfuls of water before I saw the teenager sitting beside me twisting the water in his clothes.

“Is it you?” My eyes widened.

Isn’t this the boy who just stood in the main hall?

OK.

This quarrel is completely over.

The young man looked at me with his lips slightly raised. “Can’t it be me?” He asked. It

can’t be him. I want to kick him into the lake now.

In fact, I did the same. Floating on the water, the

boy frowned slightly. “Is that how you treat your brother?” It’s okay if

he doesn’t mention it. When he mentions me, it’s like a firecracker being lit.

“What kind of brother are you?” I picked up the stones on the ground and threw them at him, splashing water on his face.

He was not annoyed and swam slowly back to the shore.

“Even if you don’t recognize me, I’ve just saved you. Didn’t the Master teach you the four words of gratitude?” His voice is light, not as reckless as Li Jian, which makes people feel very comfortable.

But I’m not feeling well now.

Very uncomfortable.

“If it wasn’t for you, I would have fallen into the lake.” Then I stared at him, “If you dare to say what happened just now, I want you to look good!”

“Then you come home with me now.” “Or I’ll tell,” he whispered to me as he wrung out his clothes.

His blue gown was wrinkled by him, and it was very ugly.

At the thought that he would walk into the General’s Office with me like this, I felt that I would lose all my face, which was not much.

“What’s your name?” I asked him angrily, “How old are you? How did you get into the General’s Office? You’d better tell me clearly.”

“My name is Lin Yifeng. I’m three years older than you. After my parents died, I met the emperor on a tour of inspection. The emperor took care of me and brought me to Kyoto.” I

was still angry when I heard that his parents were both dead, and more than half of my anger disappeared.

I gave him another awkward look.

The setting sun fell from the bridge and fell on his picturesque eyebrows and eyes, just like a fairy coming down from the sky.

“Since you’ve just come to Kyoto, there are still some rules I have to make clear to you.” I opened my mouth and said, “The people in Kyoto are very ferocious, and even your two taels of meat can’t fight them. How about you follow me and listen to me, and I’ll take care of you?”

Lin Yifeng looked at me with curved eyes.

It’s a bit like watching my jokes, which makes me feel more guilty.

Just as I was about to continue my ramblings, he said, “Good.”

“So can we go home?” He asked me in a gentle voice.

“No.”

I have to take him to buy clothes first.

Then wait for me to grind him slowly later. When

I went home with Lin Yifeng, there were many people waiting in the main hall. It’s a relief to

see us go back together.

My aunt looked at me with a smile and said to Lin Yifeng, “Oh, Yifeng has the ability. Even Ah Shu can be persuaded to come back.”

？？？

What kind of words are these?

What do you mean I come back? Lin Yifeng has the ability. All of a sudden, the air that

had dissipated came up again, and he turned to Lin Yi-feng and said angrily, “Take my clothes to my room.”

I just took him to the ready-to-wear store to buy clothes, and as a result, the women’s clothes were much newer, so I bought a few together.

Lin Yifeng’s temperament is extraordinary, and he looks like the son of an aristocratic family after changing his clothes.

Although I ordered him around like a servant, he was not embarrassed. Instead, he smiled and replied, “Good.”

“Look how good the relationship between these two brothers and sisters is.” Someone in the main hall laughed.

OK.

Very good.

Brother and sister, right.

I clenched my fists and vowed to show everyone how we became brother and sister.

From then on, every day when I opened my eyes, I thought about how to make Lin Yifeng lose his reputation at home.

I put a laxative in his water, but he didn’t drink a mouthful and poured it on a potted plant that was a little withered.

I put worms in his meal, and then he picked them out with a smile in front of everyone, saying that this year must be a good harvest year.

No matter what I do, he won’t fall for it. I was so

angry that I broke my pen in class. Li Chien, who was

sitting next to me, leaned over and asked me in a low voice, “Why don’t we join forces and punish him together?”

Since Lin Yifeng came to school with us, he has become a precious pimple in the eyes of the master.

Whoever makes a mistake should be compared with him.

One of the most mixed Li Jian, of course, the master said the most, Li Jian is also very dissatisfied with this. Li Jian and

I hit it off.

The next day he asked me to go to the mountain to catch snakes.

“Will everything be all right?” I went to the mountain with him, and I was a little worried. “I have asked,”

he vowed. “The snake is not poisonous, but it can bluff people.”

The last time I saw someone so confident, my mother said that I would be the only child. I

suddenly felt that the matter was going to be ruined.

Li Jian said that we should do it without being noticed, so we didn’t bring any servants.

I knew he was afraid that his grandfather would give him a family law.

I was also afraid that my mother would be more disappointed with me if she knew.

So we went up the mountain together with our own thoughts, to find the snake that could scare people.

And then we got lost.

The moon is dark, the wind is high, and the mountains are old. Li Jian

and I hugged each other when we heard a crow.

“Whoo, whoo, whoo. You said you knew the way.” I cried and complained about Li Jian.

Li Chien also cried, “I remember it.”

I don’t know how long I cried, but there was a strange noise not far away, and we were so frightened that we kept silent.

Just when I thought I was going to die on the mountain with Li Jian, a bunch of flames appeared.

The flames are getting closer and closer.

Until Lin Yifeng appeared in front of us. Without saying a word,

he led me down the hill and went home.

My father and mother waited in the main hall and were relieved to see that I was safe and sound.

“Ah Shu, why are you so disobedient?” Mother sighed and for the first time blamed me for my ignorance.

I knelt on the ground and looked up at her.

All the grievances poured out at this moment, and all the tears accumulated in the night fell out.

Originally, I thought it didn’t matter if everyone didn’t recognize me. As long as my mother loved me, I would be satisfied.

But now my mother hates me too.

I can’t say a word.

Then Lin Yifeng knelt down beside me. He said to my mother, “I didn’t take my brother’s responsibility. If my mother wants to punish me, punish me.”

“Yifeng, this has nothing to do with you. You don’t have to cover for her anymore.”

It’s always like this. It will

always be like this.

Lin Yifeng is sensible in everything he does, and I am not sensible in everything I do.

I wiped away my tears and got up from the ground and ran back to the room.

Mother came half an hour later.

She gently pushed open my door and came in, putting the food in her hand on the table.

“Ah Shu.” She called to me as she came to my bed.

I moved and wrapped the quilt more tightly.

“Is Ah Shu angry with her mother?” My mother sat beside my bed and asked me softly.

I sniffed and did not speak.

“Mother brought you your favorite walnut cake. Would you like some?”

I continued to sniff and not speak.

No matter what my mother said, I didn’t say anything until she said to me, “Mother will tell you a secret.”

I stopped sniffing and pricked up my ears to hear what she said next.

“My mother didn’t write’Quiet Night Thoughts. ‘” She said this sentence flatly.

I was stunned for a moment and then lifted the quilt to look at her.

Impossible. Everyone

says she made it when she was six. When

she saw me lift the quilt, she smiled and reached out to touch my head. “It was written by a poet named Li Bai.”

“Isn’t Li Bai just you?” Li Bai is another name for his mother.

Every poet has many names, and mother is no exception.

The mother shook her head and said, “You are still young. When you grow up, mother will tell you the story.”

“I have grown up now.” I sat up in bed.

“Not enough.” My mother gathered up the quilt for me and then scraped my nose. “Does Ah Shu think that my mother doesn’t love Ah Shu anymore?”

I blinked, not daring to say yes, not wanting to say no.

Yifeng’s life experience is pitiful. Ah Shu also knows that, doesn’t she? Mother will always be Ashu’s mother, but adopting Yifeng was a last resort. She touched my head. “Don’t put worms in his bowl anymore. His hands are shaking as he holds his chopsticks to defend you.” I didn’t notice

that.

“You can’t do anything else today. What if something happens to you?” Her worries between the lines cleared away the depression in my heart.

My mother talked to me a lot and coaxed me to eat some snacks and go to sleep before retreating from the room.

Although she did not understand why her mother said she was not Li Bai, she was satisfied to know that her mother still loved her.

This night was the best night of sleep since Lin Yifeng entered the mansion.

Li Jian is different. When I saw him again

the next day, he grinned even when he sat down.

It seems that the family law he wanted to avoid was not avoided. Smiling,

I looked back and saw Lin Yifeng, who was serious about reading books. Remembering his mother’s words last night, I decided to call a truce for the time being.

Thinking that he was a man who was even afraid of insects, he couldn’t help but whisper a “sniff.”.

I don’t know if he heard me, but he looked up at me. It’s all right to

look at me, but it shows the most deceptive smile again.

I blushed and quickly turned around.

“That’s all. Pity him.” I whispered to myself.

But I didn’t expect that the truce would last for seven years.

Hugh has come to me.

My grandmother has been ill this year. When

my father left Beijing on official business, my father and mother took me and Lin Yifeng out of Beijing to my grandmother’s home.

In order to be more comfortable, I chose a boat with Lin Yifeng.

My mother frowned slightly. She said to me, “You’ve grown up. You should avoid suspicion.”

“Mother has changed.” As I looked at her, I didn’t understand. “Originally, my mother was very willing to see me and Lin Yifeng get close, but in the past year, it seems that my mother doesn’t want me to get close to him any more.”

The mother looked away for a moment and said with a smile, “Didn’t mother see that you didn’t like Yifeng very much?”

“I really don’t like it very much.” Since

he entered the General’s Office and called my father father and my mother mother, he should be surnamed Liu with me.

But he didn’t want to. For seven years, his surname was Lin.

His father and mother indulged him in everything because he was too good to win glory for them.

I don’t like his insufferably arrogant appearance.

But when I went to my grandmother’s house this time, I wanted to have a good time first.

“But since he’s my brother, even if I don’t like him, he’s my brother.” I opened my mouth to talk nonsense.

Mother looked at me, perhaps because she thought I was sensible, so she didn’t say anything more.

On the second day, our family set off for our grandmother’s home in Chengdu.

Over the past few years, Lin Yifeng and I have always maintained the state of well water not interfering with river water, but whenever my parents praise him, my heart will be sour for a while.

So when we got on the boat, we also chose the two rooms that were the farthest apart.

But to my surprise, on the third day on board, I had a high fever. The only person

on board who knows medicine is Lin Yifeng, who is excellent in everything.

My personal maid, Ah Li, despite my obstruction, ran crying at night and knocked on Lin Yifeng’s door.

He doesn’t care if I live or die.

He wished I was dead so that he could enjoy all the love of his parents alone. With

this in mind, I fell into a deep sleep. When I woke up

again, Lin Yifeng sat beside my bed.

He was good-looking, and the candlelight flickered slightly on him, making him look more like an immortal who came down to help the world.

“Are you awake?” When he saw me wake up, he asked me softly.

He is always like this, no matter how I treat him, he always looks gentle and considerate.

Annoying.

My whole body is burning, even my eyes are burning.

As soon as I wanted to say something, I couldn’t control my tears.

It’s really embarrassing.

Lin Yifeng was stunned for a moment and reached out to touch my forehead. The cold

hand on my hot forehead made me tremble.

“We haven’t retreated yet. We’re going to dock at the next pier.” He frowned slightly, and his beautiful hands took the towel from my forehead, dipped it in the cold water beside it, and put it back on my forehead.

I frowned slightly, too.

“Father’s official duties must not be delayed.” This is what I overheard. We wouldn’t be in such a hurry to leave

if we weren’t in such a hurry.

Lin Yi-feng’s face is a little ugly, but his voice is still gentle and soft: “You can’t delay your illness. If you go on like this, you’ll burn yourself silly.”

“It’s not smart anyway.” I muttered and turned my back.

Lin Yifeng obviously won’t listen to me, just as I won’t listen to him.

The next pier is still docked.

But he said to his parents, who were getting off the boat with him, “This time my father is on official business, so he can go first. I’ll take care of Ah Shu. There won’t be any mistakes.”

If I said that to them, they would think I was too fond of playing and didn’t want them to follow.

Lin Yifeng said no.

His father praised him for being sensible, only his mother.

She looked at me worriedly and hesitated to speak.

“Mother can rest assured that I will listen carefully to Lin Yi-feng.” I pursed my lips and struggled.

At this time, even I feel that I really know the general situation.

Father’s sensible words should also fall on me.

After they left, Lin Yifeng and I sat together in the carriage. I was still very uncomfortable, but Lin Yifeng patted me on the head and said, “Ah Shu has grown up and is sensible.”

I was stunned.

He is really very annoying. I seldom get sick

since I was a child, but I didn’t expect that I would be sick for half a month.

“Miss, don’t go against the young master. These days the young master has lost a lot of weight in order to take care of you, and every day he tries to find a way to collect fruit preserves for you and coax you to take medicine.” A Li stood beside my bed and tried to persuade me. As soon as

her words fell, Lin Yifeng took the medicine and pushed the door in. The light outside the

house was blocked by him, so it seemed that he had lost a lot of weight.

I squashed my mouth awkwardly.

Lin Yi-feng went to my bedside and sat down. As usual, he put the candied fruit aside and coaxed me: “Ah Shu drinks the medicine. Today I added some licorice to the medicine. Maybe it’s not bitter anymore.”

I don’t really understand.

I don’t understand.

“Why are you so nice to me?” At first I teased him everywhere, but later, although it was a truce, I often embarrassed him.

But he always defends me and takes care of me.

How could someone be so nice to me?

Lin Yifeng laughed and blew the medicine in the bowl. “You’re my sister, so naturally I want to be nice to you.”

Casual. He can say whatever he

wants. Half a month after

landing, I was finally in good health and could board the ship and continue to move forward. What’s

the saying?

Blessings never come in pairs, but misfortunes never come singly.

The boat had just sailed for two days when it met the water bandits again.

I couldn’t sleep at night and wanted to get some air outside. I happened to meet Lin Yifeng, who was also standing beside the boat.

Following his gaze, a boat not far away was on fire.

“What is that, that, that?” I was so scared that I couldn’t even speak quickly.

Lin Yifeng’s face was unusually cold. He turned around and ordered me coldly, “Go back to the cabin and don’t come out.”

He had never spoken to me with such an expression.

I was so frightened that I took a few steps back, nodded wildly and got back into the cabin. Perhaps the

boat turned around, and I sat in the cabin, throwing everything off the table.

I heard the sound of hurried footsteps outside, and it must be that the servants were transferred outside to guard the cabin.

It all happened so fast. Li and

I hugged each other, listening to the noise outside, and we were too frightened to move.

It was not long before I heard the sound of killing.

Lin Yifeng!

I realized he was still out there.

He was not in good health, and he lost a lot of weight in order to take care of me a few days ago.

“Miss!” I stood up to go out to have a look, and was pulled by a Li.

She cried and asked me, “Where are you going, Miss?”

I comforted her, “I’ll go and have a look. Have you forgotten that I know kung fu?”

Although I am useless, my father has never been slack in my training, and now it seems that it is really for my good. When

I found Lin Yifeng, he had fallen on the deck. There were several men in black

in front of him.

“Get in there.” He stepped back, saw me, and growled at me. He has

been in the house for seven years, and he has never said such a serious word to me.

Normally, I would have been so angry that I would have kicked him off the boat.

“This young lady is really beautiful.” Led by a man in black, his laughter was obscene.

I sneered, too, and when I picked it up, the knife I had snatched from the dead man’s hand cut at him.

I don’t know why they are fighting with me, but their minds are all on Lin Yifeng.

I don’t have my father’s skill in martial arts, nor can I defeat five with one, so in the end the only thing I can do is to block the sword that stabbed him for Lin Yifeng.

“Don’t be complacent.” I fell into Lin Yifeng’s arms and said to him, “I’m just afraid that my father will blame me for not protecting you.”

After all, he bears all the glory of his parents. It’s better for

him to live than for a loser like me. It’s like

I’ve been thrown into some kind of purgatory.

Sometimes it’s as cold as a thousand years of ice, and then it’s as hot as a stove.

“Ashu! Ashu!” I heard someone calling me.

But it was dark all around and I couldn’t see anything.

Then I heard the voice say, “You shouldn’t have saved me.”

The voice sounded like Lin Yifeng.

What do you mean you shouldn’t have saved him? It’s not his turn to comment on Miss

Ben’s work.

When I wake up, I’ll be the first one to get even with him, and by the way, I’ll get even with him for killing me on the boat. It took a long time

to muddle through.

In a twinge of pain, I finally found a luminous slit in the darkness.

Following the light, I slowly opened my eyes.

Lin Yifeng is thinner again, the whole person is very haggard, stand by my bed to twist eyebrow to look at me.

“You..” My voice was so hoarse that I could hardly hear it.

Li was closest to me, and when he saw me open my mouth, he cried out with a “wow.”.

“Miss is alive, Miss is alive.” She laughed and cried.

Lin Yi-feng also came over. He twisted his eyebrows slightly and asked me softly, “What does Ah Shu want to say?”

I pursed my dry lips. “You …” Why should you be so mean to me?

He was stunned.

After I reminded him, he seemed to remember his attitude towards me on the ship.

“I shouldn’t have scolded Ashu.”

Well, it’s comfortable.

I fell asleep again with satisfaction.

This time I saved Lin Yifeng, and my father will praise me.

Lin Yifeng is also grateful to me.

It’s not in vain to block a sword for him.

The doctor said that I had just recovered from a serious illness and then suffered such a serious injury, which really hurt the foundation of my body, and I was afraid that I would have to take good care of it in the future. As

I drank the medicine, I heard the doctor tell Lin Yifeng that there was no such thing.

“As long as I keep it, I’ll keep it. Anyway, my mother also said that she would look after me when she got married. I won’t be like that when I get married.” I said this to comfort the red-eyed Ah Li.

Also incidentally fell into the ears of Lin Yifeng, who was talking to the doctor. After seeing the doctor off,

he said to me, “Ah Shu, don’t worry. I will cure you.”

I threw the candied fruit into my mouth and said, rather innocently, “Then go to the doctor.” I have no hope in my life

anyway.

But when the time comes, they will get married in a hurry, and then live a life that can be seen to the end. It was half a month later that I

arrived at my grandfather’s home. The fact that

I blocked a sword for Lin Yifeng has already been passed on. Everyone

was waiting to meet me at the door.

I have never had such treatment, so I have to thank Lin Yifeng.

“Ah Shu.” As soon as the mother called out, she could not speak, her eyes were red, and she was about to shed tears.

I was afraid that she would cry, so I deliberately jumped twice: “Aren’t I fine?”

The father frowned. “Have you forgotten all the swordsmanship I taught you?”

I was stunned.

I never thought that the first thing he said when he saw me was like this.

I thought he would praise me for saving Lin Yifeng on my own.

At this time, Lin Yifeng stepped forward in front of me, blocking my tears that were about to fall.

Shu did a good job this time, and her swordsmanship improved a lot, but I didn’t protect her well. I ask my father to punish me.

I looked up at Lin Yifeng’s back in front of me, and suddenly felt as if I was used to seeing him first in front of me every time I was punished.

I don’t know from when, I don’t seem to hate him to stand in front of me and take all the wrong things for me.

Before I could think too much, my mother came to help me to take me to rest.

On the way, my mother asked me, “Is there anything unusual along the way?”

I thought about it carefully, and the most unusual thing was that Lin Yifeng killed me.

“No, what happened?” I shook my head, and my mother would not ask this for no reason.

The mother shook her head and said she was just asking casually.

She would never ask casually.

“Ah Shu should not be too close to Yifeng in the future.” After I had gone to bed, she tucked me in and said to me, “Ah Shu is going to be married soon, and when she returns to Beijing this time, she will be betrothed.”

She has mentioned it several times.

I nodded.

“Ah Shu is good.” Mother patted me on the head and got up to leave.

I subconsciously reached out and pulled her sleeve.

She was surprised and looked back at me.

“My mother once told me that she hoped I could find a suitable husband who would please both of us.” I blink my eyes.

Hearing this, my mother’s face changed slightly.

“Does Ah Shu have a good match?” She sat down beside my bed again.

Lin Yifeng’s beautiful face flashed through my mind at this time, and I was so frightened that I shook my head.

“When parents love their children, their plans are far-reaching.” My mother gently touched my head. “Mother only hopes that Ah Shu can be carefree for the rest of her life.”

Obviously, that’s not possible.

From the day I became her child, I could not be carefree in my life. When

my mother went out of the room, she happened to meet Lin Yifeng who came to see me.

But she didn’t let him in the house.

I could only faintly hear her say, “Yifeng has a heart.”

Her attitude toward Lin Yifeng did not know when it began to become somewhat strange.

I sat up from the bed, casually put on a dress so that a Li did not make a sound, and crept out.

Mother and Lin Yifeng went to a pavilion together.

“Mother.” Lin Yifeng gave a faint cry.

He is always like this, clearly called respectful, but not half humble.

His mother looked at the dark pool and asked him, “You said you would take good care of Ah Shu.”

He lowered his head slightly. “It’s Yifeng’s fault.”

“You miscalculated.” His mother looked up at him, her voice rising and falling. “You didn’t count on her taking the sword for you.”

I hid behind the rockery and listened to their conversation.

Hearing my mother blame Lin Yifeng for me, my heart is happy, but also some is not the taste. My injury

this time actually has nothing to do with Lin Yifeng.

“I’m only asking you if this has anything to do with you.” Mother’s voice was cold. I had never seen her like that.

I have never seen her treat Lin Yifeng like this.

Lin Yifeng has always been the pride of the General’s Office, and everyone is very precious to him.

Have you ever questioned in such a cold voice?

Besides, how could the water bandits have anything to do with him? Behind the rockery,

I was somewhat anxious for Lin Yifeng, hoping that he would quickly defend himself.

No one knows what it’s like to be misunderstood better than I do. Unexpectedly

, Lin Yi-feng raised his head and asked his mother in a cold voice, “When did my mother find out?”

It looked like a crescent moon hanging in the sky, cold and without any emotion. It is different from

his usual gentle appearance.

“I warn you, don’t touch my Shu.” This is the last thing my mother said to Lin Yifeng when she left.

Looking at his mother’s back, Lin Yifeng gave a laugh. I didn’t hear a word

as if I had said something. I

can’t understand what they’re saying, but I’m sure they’re hiding something from me.

Or it’s not just me.

I thought so and turned to leave, but I didn’t expect to step on a dead branch. The sound of the broken

branches was particularly clear in the dark night.

“Why did you come out?” As soon as I turned around, I saw Lin Yifeng, who was almost in front of me.

He was now so gentle and amiable, as if all that had just been an illusion.

“I..” I thought, “I’m hungry and I want to come out and get something to eat.”

Lying is what I do best.

Lin Yifeng walked up to me and frowned slightly.

Doesn’t he believe it?

“Why don’t you put on more clothes?” He frowned at my thin clothes, stretched out his hand and took off his robe to cover me. “It’s cold in the night. Your wound is not completely healed. Don’t run around.”

I didn’t expect this from him.

His robe covered me, and I was covered with his faint fragrance, and my heart beat uncontrollably in my chest.

I quickly covered my chest and ran away from him.

“I know, I know.”

Grandmother’s illness did not get better because of our arrival.

I have not been able to visit her because of my illness.

It was not until a few days later, when everyone said I looked much better, that my mother said she would take me to see my grandmother. The

last time I saw my grandmother was when I was six years old. My grandfather retired and returned to his hometown. He took my grandmother to settle down in the south of Beijing. Ten years have passed

in a flash, and my grandmother is no longer as energetic as she used to be.

“Ah Shu is here.” As soon as I entered the room, I heard my grandmother calling me.

I hurried a few steps to her bedside and called her sweetly, “Grandma.”

“You’re so old. You were only a little taller that year.” She was half sitting on the edge of the bed, holding my hand in one hand and drawing in the air in the other. As she

spoke, she seemed to think of something interesting. She patted me on the head and smiled. “That day you came to me crying and asked me why you gave birth to such an excellent mother. You cried in my arms all afternoon.”

That’s when I can’t write a poem after staying up for a few nights.

I blushed and called out to her, “Grandmother.” But

the mother smiled and said, “Oh?”? And this?

“No, no, my grandmother made a mistake.” I glanced at Lin Yifeng standing aside.

What a shame! There was a lot of laughter

in the room, and the atmosphere suddenly became better.

“Is this Yifeng?” My grandmother looked at Lin Yi-feng behind me and said kindly, “I’ve always heard your grandfather talk about you and say you’re very good, and the general thinks highly of you.”

Lin Yi-feng saluted and said modestly, “I thank my grandfather and grandmother for their concern. My grandson has ordinary aptitude, but thanks to my father’s patient teaching, he has some knowledge.” After a few

more pleasantries, the grandmother told everyone to step down.

Just me and my mother.

“Is mother feeling better these days?” Mother came forward to tidy up the quilt for her grandmother before sitting down beside the bed.

Grandmother shook her head. “I don’t think it’s going to be a few days. I’m satisfied to see you and Ashu come back.”

Hearing what she said, I can’t help feeling a little uncomfortable.

“These days I always think of you when you were young. Do you still have those dreams now?” Grandmother looked at her mother.

I saw my mother stiffen.

Then she smiled at her grandmother, shook her head and said, “I haven’t had any more dreams. I haven’t had any more dreams since I had Ah Shu.”

What dream? A nightmare? I also went up curiously.

My mother never told me about dreams.

The mother pursed her lips and did not speak.

“Your mother used to say that she wasn’t from here in her dreams, and that even her poems were written by people in her dreams. She’s just too smart, and she likes to think too much.” My grandmother raised her hand to touch my head and said to me with a smile, “We’re fine, and we won’t live as tired as your mother.”

I looked at my mother, perhaps seldom at such a close distance, and saw the faint gray hair in her hair. She is only thirty-three years old

this year.

She is so excellent, so smart, praised by the world, how can she live tiredly?

“Do smart people get tired?” I thought that only people like me who were not smart would live more tiredly.

Mother smiled and shook her head. “After I had Ah Shu, I wasn’t tired anymore.”

This is why I don’t understand why my mother is so excellent but she gave birth to such a me, but I don’t blame her at all.

She has always loved me.

When my grandmother talked, she said she was tired and wanted to rest. My mother covered her with a quilt and took me out. As soon as the

door closed, I saw that my mother’s eyes were red.

I know. She’s afraid she doesn’t have many days left to live.

Grandmother really has only a few days to live. Those were the last words she spoke to me

that day.

My father didn’t see my grandmother for the last time when he came back from business. The mother, who

had always been strong, fainted in her father’s arms in front of her grandmother’s coffin because she was too sad.

“If you grieve too much and make your already poor health even more tired, your grandmother will be sad in her grave.” Lin Yifeng knelt beside me and handed me a white handkerchief.

I looked at him sideways and couldn’t stop my tears.

“Of course you’re not. She’s not your grandmother.” I said angry words, and then I regretted it.

He tightened his grip on the handkerchief.

“How do you know I’m not sad?”

Because I can’t see it.

From the conversation he had with his mother that night, it seemed that he was never what I had imagined. After the funeral

for my grandmother, we stayed in Chengdu for another month before leaving for Kyoto.

Father’s official business doesn’t seem to be handled very well, and he grimaces every day. In order not to touch his bad luck,

I also want to return with Lin Yifeng a boat.

But this time, the mother did not agree.

“If you dare not take a boat with your father, let him go with Yifeng, and I will go with you.” Finally, the mother made a retrogression. My

original meaning was that I didn’t want to be with my father, and my mother’s way was also very good.

But I still feel a little lost.

The return trip was not delayed by so many things, and it took only half a month to get to Kyoto. On my last day

on the boat, my mother asked me, “What do you think of Li Chien?”

Li Jian and I grew up together. Although we didn’t deal with each other when we were young, we became brothers after we lost our way in the mountains together.

“Not bad.” As I ate the fruit on the table, I replied, “It was fun to play with him.”

The main thing is that we are in cahoots, and a lot of ideas can come together.

“What do you think of him as a husband?” Mother said tentatively.

I didn’t expect my mother to say this, and the fruit I was about to swallow got stuck in my throat.

My mother said she wanted to see my husband, but in fact, she had already seen him.

Originally, I didn’t mind marrying someone casually, but I was a little unhappy because I didn’t ask for my advice.

“Mother, you know how Li Chien is. He doesn’t know anything. He doesn’t have any good qualities except a good family background.” Although I said so, I silently said sorry to Li Chien, “It’s really not a good match.”

Li Jian is actually very good. He is loyal, hard-mouthed and soft-hearted. He is suitable to be a brother.

My mother gave me a glass of water: “The other day the Crown Princess gave a banquet and met his mother. His mother mentioned this marriage to me.”

“She said that Li Chien threatened at home not to marry you.”

？？？

All right, you Li Jian.

I treat you like a brother, and you should do this to me.

“He’s joking, Mother. This is not a life event to be trifled with.” I was afraid that my mother would marry me easily.

She looked at me as if she wanted to see through what was on my mind. “Shu, two months ago, you told me that it was up to me to arrange this.”

That’s not an arrangement for Li Jian!

“My chest is a little stuffy. I’m going out to get some air.” I made an excuse to slip away. I

was about to arrive in Kyoto, and when I stood by the boat, I could see the lights of Kyoto. It’s

very busy there.

And I am like a boat floating on the sea, lonely and stubborn.

At this time, a man came out of the boat behind him. His whole body was noble, and even the thick night could not cover his elegance.

We faced each other across the boat.

He is also like a lonely boat floating on the sea.

The river is calm and lonely all around.

We just looked at each other until he spoke first.

“It’s cold at night. Go back to the cabin.”

This time it was rare that I wasn’t in the mood to go back, so I just said “oh” and went back to the cabin.

Back to the general on the second day, I led a Li to kill in front of Li Jian. When

Li Chien saw me, his eyes lit up. “You’re back!”! I figured I still had a few days to get there.

I put the whip on the tea-table and asked him, “Li Chien, are we brothers?”

He looked at me and shook his head. Seeing my fierce face, he nodded quickly.

“Even if we don’t say that we have shared the joys and sorrows of brotherhood for so many years, don’t we have any quarrels?”

He nodded.

“Then why did you hurt me?”

He was stunned. “What did I do to you?” Why do

you go around saying you won’t marry me? Three months ago, when we went to Hualou together, didn’t you tell me that you already had a sweetheart? I stared at him and wanted to swallow him.

Hearing what I said, his eyes flashed and he bowed his head and did not speak.

Seeing him like this, I immediately felt that things were not so simple.

You don’t like the flower queen in the flower house, do you? Are you afraid that my family won’t agree to take me on? The idea crossed my mind for the first time.

In retrospect, he did look at the flower queen all the time and didn’t even blink.

The more I think about it, the more I think it’s the same thing.

All right, you Li Chien! I treated you like a good brother, and you let me take the blame! I pretended to give him a kick. “Tell me what to do now!”! My mother has misunderstood!

Then he looked up at me.

After a long time, he seemed to think of a good idea and asked me with a smile, “Anyway, you said you didn’t care who you would marry in the future. Why don’t you just do me this favor and marry me?”. You see, we can do a lot of interesting things together, and I have a good family background to protect you.

My eyes widened.

We’ve been playing together for so many years. I know he has a thick skin, but I didn’t think he could be so thick.

“In your dreams!” I was so angry that I picked up the whip and went out.

As soon as he came out of the wing, he met Lin Yifeng.

He seemed to be coming out of another room.

“What are you doing here?” Isn’t he supposed to be reading books at this hour? The exam

is coming, and my father said that he would win the first prize this year.

He walked up to me and glanced slightly into the wing.

“I’m here to see a friend. What about you?”

Isn’t this asking knowingly? He saw it all in. Before

I could open my mouth, Li Jian opened the door from the inside and came to me.

He proudly raised his eyebrows at Lin Yifeng. “Of course Ah Shu has come to see me. We’re going to get married in a few days. If you dare to bully Ah Shu in the future, I’ll be the first to forgive you.”

I didn’t expect him to talk nonsense in the daytime.

“What are you talking about?” I subconsciously stole a glance at Lin Yifeng.

He doesn’t have much mood swings on his face. Disappointedly,

I heard his warm voice ringing overhead: “Oh?”? Why didn’t I hear my mother mention it?

“I think it’s for the sake of Ah Shu’s reputation. In two days my mother will go to the General’s Office to propose marriage.” Li Jian stood beside me and made irresponsible remarks.

I’m afraid Lin Yifeng will believe it. The whip in

his hand hit the wall with a “bang,” scaring the people around him into silence.

Li Chien, you’ve gone too far, and you know it’s for my reputation! You lied in public to discredit me for the sake of that flower queen.

I was so angry that I pulled Ah Li out of the teahouse. What

I didn’t expect was that what Li Jian said was true.

That night, my father called me to the main hall to discuss the matter with me. They

said they were consulting with me, but in fact, they had already thought about it.

“I won’t marry!” It’s always been like this, and this time even my mother didn’t respect me like everyone else.

The father pounded the table and said angrily, “The marriage of the children is the matchmaker’s word and the parents’ order. Is it up to you to say you won’t marry?”

“After all, I’m just a tool for your marriage. You have no idea why Li Chien wants to marry me!”. I ran out crying.

Every time I was in a bad mood, I would sneak into the garden next door and climb up the tallest sycamore tree, hiding in the dense leaves to see the prosperity of Kyoto.

This is a good place I found when I was ten years old, no one knows, even if I cry in it, no one will find it.

This tree holds many of my secrets.

I didn’t expect Lin Yifeng to find this place.

I sniffed and looked at the person who suddenly landed beside me in shock.

Maybe because I was so shocked, I couldn’t hold back a crying hiccup.

Lin Yi-feng took out a handkerchief and gently put it over my face. His voice was clear and cold: “My face is all dirty from crying.”

He is a big man, and he always wears a veil.

I unceremoniously wiped my face with his veil and blew my nose.

Seeing that there was not the slightest dislike in his face, I folded up the veil with satisfaction. “Don’t say I’m taking advantage of you. This veil is dirty. I’ll take it back and wash it and give it back to you.”

He didn’t answer me and sat down directly beside me. I don’t think

he’s stingy enough to ask me for a handkerchief.

“You don’t want to marry Li Chien?” Suddenly, he asked me.

I twirled my fingers around the handkerchief in my hand and whispered, “No.”

“Why?” He turned to look at me with a heavy look in his eyes. “You were willing to marry him.”

I quickly covered his mouth and said, “Don’t talk nonsense. When did I say I would marry him?”

He lowered his eyes slightly and looked at my hand.

His cold lips pressed against my palm, as if he had lit a fire in my palm. It

was so hot that I let go of my hand. No one asked me if I wanted to marry Li Chien

except you.

“Does everyone think I’m not qualified to make a choice?”

“Ah Shu.” Lin Yifeng looked back at Kyoto outside the garden, and the moonlight fell on his face through the leaves.

“If you don’t want to, don’t marry.” Li Jian’s mother

had originally set the day to propose marriage, but her mother waited in the main hall for a day without waiting. It

was not because Li Jian’s conscience found out that he would not marry me, but because his grandfather had an accident. Something big has

happened.

How could you hide a weapon? Is there a misunderstanding here? I hid outside the house and heard my mother ask my father.

The father sighed deeply, “Of course the old minister can’t, but the assistant minister..”

Shilang is Li Jian’s father.

I don’t know anything about government, but I know it’s a big crime.

What they meant was that Li Jian’s grandfather wanted to take all the charges by himself.

Li Jian was raised by his grandfather. Although he always complained to me about how his grandfather punished him, I knew that the most important thing in his heart was his grandfather. When he

found Li Jian, he knelt outside the old minister’s house.

Should have been kneeling for a long time, the whole person is a little shaky.

“Ah Shu.” When he saw me coming, he called to me in a hoarse voice, “You help me to persuade my grandfather.”

How can I persuade you?

Even I know that his grandfather wanted to exchange his life’s contribution and life for their entire family.

In the end, I had no choice but to knock out Li Jian, who could not hold out for long, and called the servant to carry him into the house. When I

came out, I just saw the old minister open the door and come out.

He came up to me and smiled at me with a kind smile. “Ah Shu is a good girl.”

Our Chien’er is also a good boy. Although he is a little naughty, his heart is pure and kind. Can Ashu help me take good care of him?

I was a little sad, but I couldn’t say a word. I just nodded.

He watched him drag his old steps out of Li Fu step by step. Once you

go, you can’t come back. Selling weapons

privately is a big crime, and the old minister can’t stand it alone.

In the end, there was only one Li Jian left in the whole Li family.

“Is Ah Shu feeling sorry for Li Chien?” Lin Yifeng appeared at my window at night.

I looked at him, who was about to merge with the night, and sighed.

“I just feel sorry for him. Overnight, he’s all by himself.”

Lin Yifeng looked at me as if he wanted to understand what I meant by this sentence.

“Aren’t the soldiers on the frontier pitiful?” He leaned against the window and looked up into the sky. “Aren’t the common people who lost their sons, husbands and fathers in one night pitiful?”

Yes.

In this world, either you or I am pitiful.

“Lin Yifeng.” I put my hands on the windowsill and looked up at the full moon. “Are you hiding something from me?”

I have a vague feeling that this matter should have something to do with him.

He turned around and looked down at me.

My face was only two fingers away from his, and he still had a shallow smile on his lips. Seen

so close, the smile seemed to be the mask he had always worn on his face.

Just as he was about to speak, his mother’s voice sounded outside the door.

“Ah Shu is asleep?”

Then someone pushed the door and came in. In

the blink of an eye, a gust of wind blew across my face, and Lin Yifeng, who had been standing outside the window, disappeared. My

intuition tells me that there must be a lot of secrets hidden in him.

“Why are you standing by the window?” My mother came to me and closed the window for me. “Your body must not catch cold now.”

Mother pulled me back to bed.

“Thinking about Li Chien?” Seeing my face full of worries, my mother sat down beside me.

I nodded.

I grew up with Li Jian, and I really thought he was a brother. How can I not worry about him

now?

“Mother, do you think there’s something hidden in this?” I always feel that it is a pity that the old minister has worked hard all his life.

The mother shook her head and said, “Old Shangshu is a wise man, but he has a useless son.”. The emperor found out very clearly, and the assistant minister confessed his guilt.

“It’s Li Chien’s child. He’s a little pitiful.” She sighed deeply. “Since you promised the old minister, go and see him more often.”

Now that the Li family has suffered such a disaster, I am afraid that those families in the capital who love to cling to the powerful will no longer dare to be contaminated.

I, Liu Shu, hate people who cling to dignitaries most in my life. They don’t want to be contaminated, but I want to be contaminated. When the

old minister left, he told me to take good care of Li Jian. Since I promised, I must do it. In the

following days, I went to find Li Jian every day.

Let him go out of the city with me every day from the very beginning. The rumors about us in

Beijing are getting more and more rampant.

In order to take care of Li Jian’s feelings, I never stopped him.

Until this day, Li Jian and I had tea together in the teahouse.

“Liu Shu and Li Chien, a pair of devils of the world, together, can be said to have brought peace to all the young boys and girls in Kyoto.”

“That’s right. If you look all over Kyoto, who would dare to marry Li Chien, and who would want to marry Liu Shu?” Lady

Liu is so talented and beautiful. How could she give birth to a beautiful woman like Liu Shu. Fortunately, Lin Yi-feng, who is equally talented and gorgeous, has not become a lifelong regret.

………… The conversation in the

corridor was getting farther and farther away, and I held the cup and did not speak.

Yes. There is a difference between Lin Yifeng

and me.

He is the cloud that everyone praises, and I am the mud that everyone steps on when he is mentioned.

Li Jian threw the cup in his hand on the table and got up.

I quickly grabbed him, he is now different from the past, no one can protect him.

“They can just talk about me. Who are they to talk about you?” Li Jian was so angry that his fingers were trembling.

I put my head down. What

they say is not unreasonable.

“Do you also judge Ah Shu?” A cold voice sounded not far away.

I looked up at the closed door, as if I could see Lin Yifeng not far away.

“Mr. Lin..” Someone called out in a low voice.

“Ah Shu deserves the best man in the world. If I hear you say such a thing again in the future, not to mention the General’s Office, even if I hear it once, I will make you pay the price.” Without looking, you can imagine what Lin Yifeng looks like when he says this.

My heart beats so fast that it seems that it can jump out of my mouth in the next moment.

He has always looked like a young man in front of outsiders, but today he would argue with others for me in full view of the public.

Yeah, too.

He will always defend me.

“Yes, yes.” With a few footsteps leaving in a hurry, the outside was quiet again.

Li Jian looked at me.

“Ah Shu has someone she likes.” He didn’t ask me, and his tone must have some emotion that I didn’t understand.

I was surprised and took a sip of tea in my hand.

“Don’t talk nonsense.” I retort in a low voice.

If people know that the person I like is the son given to my mother by the emperor, let alone me, the whole General’s Office will become the laughing stock of the world.

That’s when I really became a stain on my mother’s life.

I accompanied Li Jian to the Hanshan Temple outside the city to pray for the old minister, because it rained halfway, and the mountain road was not easy to walk, so I stayed in the Hanshan Temple. I

was afraid that my family would be worried, so I sent my servant back to report it.

That night, when I was about to close the window, Lin Yifeng appeared by the window.

His face seemed to be covered with a layer of frost, and his beautiful eyes were not as warm as they used to be, as if someone had touched the ink inside.

“Liu Shu.” He called me by my first name.

He never called me that. My hands were frozen in the air when I

closed the window, and I was afraid.

“Are you going to marry Li Chien?” When he said this, he seemed to gnash his teeth.

“No.” Why did he suddenly say that.

He reached out to take my hand, and I found that he was all wet.

“Did you get caught in the rain?” Angry and anxious,

I called him into the room.

The rain in the mountains is so cold that I don’t know how he can endure it until now.

“Do you know how the people in the capital are passing it on to you two?” He was still led into the house by me. What do you think of staying with him on the mountain again today? What do you want them to think?

I looked back at him and blinked.

“Lin Yifeng.”

“Are you angry as a brother, or as Lin Yifeng?”

Just a few months ago, he told me that his kindness to me was his duty as a brother.

But now? Is

he still asking about his sister’s marriage as a brother?

“I have always been Lin Yifeng.” He looked down at me, so close to me that he could imprint his lips on his lips by leaning slightly.

This time his lips were not raised, not the mask he used to wear.

His eyes were dark, and I was the only one inside.

I stared at his thin lips and swallowed saliva, completely oblivious to what he was saying.

If I kiss it, is it frivolous? Thinking

like this, I leaned up slightly.

His lips were cold, and as soon as I touched them, I felt his whole body stiffen.

Then when I was about to pull away quickly, his hand hanging at his side raised and pressed my head.

This is the first time I have felt his overbearing.

He tossed and turned on my lips, domineering and gentle, as if it were a kiss he had been waiting for for a long time.

“Lin Yifeng..” I called him softly in a gap. It seemed that

his scattered reason suddenly came back, and then he let me go carefully.

“You provoked me first.” His forehead was against mine, and his voice was hoarse.

He is not as serious as he used to be.

I gasped for breath and quickly covered my chest with my hands, my heart beating wildly.

“Ah Shu.” Along with Li Jian’s voice, there was a knock on the door.

I was startled.

Lin Yifeng’s eyes, which had warmed up, cooled down again. Holding his hand,

I pretended to be calm and said, “What’s wrong?”

“I heard a voice from your side, and I was worried about you.” Li Jian’s voice is indeed full of worry.

“It’s nothing. I’m already asleep. I think it’s the sound of the mountains.” After Li Jian was

sent away, I pulled Lin Yifeng to sit down.

“You are all wet. You must change into clean clothes.” He was already weak, and he was sure to get sick this time.

He gave me a pull and sat me on his lap. I was so

frightened that I almost exclaimed.

Such behavior is really impolite.

“You’re kicking me out?” He put his arm around my waist and played with my fingers. His

clothes were wet, but his body was surprisingly hot.

So close to me, every inch of my skin seems to feel his body temperature.

Too late to be shy, I jumped up from his lap and reached out to touch his forehead.

Sure enough, it’s hot.

“I told you you couldn’t!” I’m mad as hell. How can I not know

his body?

A little rain can be sick for several days, not to mention the night rain in the mountains.

He is really desperate.

“Shu can’t say I can’t.” He pulled me into his arms again, with his head on my shoulder and his breath on my neck.

At this time, he is still here to talk about these things. Angrily,

I broke away from him. “Take off your clothes quickly.” Many of the pilgrims who went to Hanshan Temple

today stayed in the temple because of the rain. If I disturb the people in the temple at this time, I will have a bad reputation.

Lin Yifeng’s reputation can not be bad.

Hearing what I said, Lin Yifeng froze for a moment.

I didn’t bother to tell him more, so I went straight to untie his clothes. When I stripped

him down to his coat, he reacted and stopped me.

“Shu, no.” He grabbed my hand and wouldn’t let me go on.

“I’m not afraid. What are you afraid of?” Is it more important than his life if it’s just some empty courtesy? Didn’t

you say last time that if you didn’t treat the fever in time, it would burn your head. If your head burns out, my father will not let me go. As I

spoke, I continued to strip him of his clothes in spite of his difficulties.

“Lin Yifeng..” My voice is shaking. As soon as

his skirt was open, he could see the scar across his chest.

Old.

New.

Lots of them.

Even a battle-tested father doesn’t have so many scars.

Lin Yi-feng flustered with one hand to tidy up his clothes, and raised his hand to cover my eyes: “Ah Shu, don’t look.”

I suddenly remembered that day on the boat.

He collapsed on the deck, dressed in a black robe. It was so dark

at night that I thought he was wet with river water.

So much blood, so serious injuries, he did not say a word, but also took care of me for half a month.

A wave of fire went straight from my Dantian to my forehead, and I angrily knocked his hand off: “Don’t look at anything, don’t look at anything, take off your clothes quickly and go to bed.”

I’m not a proper lady.

Seeing that he didn’t take his body seriously, I was so angry that I wanted to throw him directly on the bed.

Lin Yifeng also grew up with me, and naturally knew my temper.

Finally, instead of arguing with me, he consciously took off his clothes and went to bed to cover himself.

Just as I thought. In the middle of the night,

Lin Yifeng’s fever did not subside, but became more severe.

His eyes were burning red.

If we don’t think of a way, I’m afraid it will really burn.

I got up and was about to leave, but he stopped me. “Where are you going, Ah Shu?”

His voice was hoarse from the fever.

I turned around and patted him on the head. “Be good, I’ll be right back.” There is no one else who can help me

now except Li Jian.

Li Jian stood in front of the bed and looked at Lin Yifeng, who was not wearing clothes on the bed, with a very ugly face.

Lin Yifeng looked at Li Jian who appeared in front of the bed, and his face did not look good.

“Ah Shu, how can you behave like this?” Li Jian turned his head to look at me, and his face was rarely serious. It is not proper

for a man to lie naked in his own bed.

“Don’t worry about decency. He’s going to die.” I was too anxious to explain to him. “Hurry up and think of a way to save him.”

He looked at Lin Yifeng on the bed, then looked at me, and asked me, “If I save him, will you marry me?”

My eyes widened.

Without waiting for me to speak, Lin Yifeng sat up directly from the bed.

But in the twinkling of an eye, his suit was in good condition, and he could not see any illness except for a pair of red eyes.

He walked over to me without looking at Li Jian.

“Go home.”

I was brought back to the General’s Office by Lin Yifeng overnight.

The next day, it was said that my relationship with Li Jian broke down, and Lin Yifeng was ordered to go up the mountain late at night to bring me back to the General’s Office.

He knows whether he is ordered or not.

Mother knows, too.

Mother stopped me on my way to see if Lin Yifeng’s fever had subsided. She looked very ugly and pulled me back.

“Mother.” I tried to break away, but my mother held on too tightly.

Mother pulled me back to the house and asked Ah Li to close the door.

“Ah Shu, do you like Lin Yifeng?” She came straight to the point and her tone was very angry.

My heart missed a few beats.

Like a thought that had been hidden for a long time, it was suddenly uncovered in broad daylight.

“I didn’t..” I have no confidence in quibbling.

If I admit it, will my mother be disappointed with me?

Mother sat down on the low couch and motioned for me to sit down too.

“Ah Shu, you fell from your mother’s body. Do you still want to hide your little thoughts from your mother?” She sighed. “You’ve always liked him, haven’t you?” Startled,

I looked up at her.

This is the secret of my heart. A secret that

no one knows.

Even the tallest sycamore tree, I have never said.

Seeing me like this, my mother really looked like this.

She took a deep breath and closed her eyes. “Tomorrow I’ll let Li Chien come to discuss the marriage,” she said in a tone that I couldn’t refuse.

“Mother!” How can you do this!

“There’s been a lot of talk about you and Li Chien. Everyone in Kyoto knows you’re going to get married. You’re going to get married next month, and it’s time to discuss marriage.” “The Li family is in decline, but Li Chien has assured me that in three years’ time he will definitely be on the list of candidates for the scientific examination. This time the matter of the old minister has calmed him down a lot, and I’m relieved to give you to him.”

“I won’t marry!” I jumped up from my low couch and said, “Even if I were a nun in the mountains, I wouldn’t want to get married!” As soon as

my words fell, my mother’s slap fell on my face.

With a clear sound, the room was completely quiet.

Mother’s eyes were red and her hands were shaking in the air. Even she didn’t think she would be like this.

I didn’t expect that either.

From childhood to adulthood, my father punished me.

No matter how big the mistake was, my mother never laid a hand on me.

Tears rolled down his eyes and down his burning face to the ground.

“I won’t marry..” I murmured.

For the General’s Office, for Lin Yifeng, even if I don’t marry him, it doesn’t matter.

Then I will never marry.

“It’s not up to you.” Mother dropped this sentence and left.

She has asked her servants to surround my house so that I can’t go out again from now on until I get married.

Li Jian really came to the general’s office on the second day to discuss marriage.

With my mother’s permission, he came to see me after discussing the marriage.

“Ah Shu, Mrs. Liu is also for your own good.” He stood outside the door with a little helplessness in his voice.

For my own good.

She is only for the reputation of the General’s Office.

I threw a cup on the door to show my displeasure. There was a moment of silence

outside the door. He pressed against the door and whispered to me, “Shu, open the door. I have a plan.”

I ran to open the door for him. Apart from

anything else, Li Jian has been my brother for so many years, and I am very confident about his endless ghost ideas.

“Marry you first, and then help me escape?” I stared, and sure enough, it was a ghost idea.

Li Chien was sitting at the table, a bit of a fool. “If you don’t run away, I’ll build you a yard outside the city.”

“You know, I originally wanted to marry that flower queen. Isn’t that the best of both worlds?” He shrugged his shoulders, the same playboy he used to be.

That’s a great idea. I can’t marry Lin Yifeng

anyway. It’s not bad to live

like this all your life.

I patted Li Chien approvingly on the shoulder and said, “Brother, it has to be you.”

“So you’re not going on a hunger strike?” Li Chien laughed, but I couldn’t see the emotion in his eyes. He continued, “You’re so greedy, how can you go on a hunger strike?”

“There’s no end to it. I’ll let them bring me food. I’m starving.” I’m smiling.

Without waiting for me to say anything, Li Chien shouted out of the room, “Miss wants something to eat. Hurry up and bring it in.” On the second day after

I promised to marry Li Jian, Lin Yifeng got into my house from somewhere.

His face was white, and there was hardly any blood on his thin lips.

“Lin Yifeng?” I felt a pain in my heart and hurried over to help him sit down on the edge of the couch.

He grabbed my hand with a cold hand and said, “Did you promise to marry Li Chien?”

By rights, he should have known about it yesterday. Why did he come to ask me today?

He looked up at me with a faint gloom in his eyes.

“Have you not recovered from your illness?” I looked away from him and changed the subject. “I knew they had an ulterior motive for getting rid of me,”

he sneered. He is not in the house

these two days.

Li didn’t tell me.

“Who are you?” It was definitely not because he was my nominal brother that my mother had such a big reaction.

Lin Yifeng pulled me into his arms and rubbed his chin against my shoulder.

“Shu, wait a little longer.” When did

I fall in love with Lin Yifeng?

I don’t know.

Perhaps I heard that in order to defend me, he was so scared that his fingers trembled, but he still told his parents that the weather must be good and the insects fell into the bowl by themselves.

Maybe every time my father picked up a cane to hit me, he stood in front of me.

Or maybe Li Jian and I were making trouble in front of me, but I accidentally looked back and saw him cleaning up the mess for me behind me. No one’s

ever done this to me.

My mother was very kind to me, but she also knew that the more she defended me in front of others, the more I would be compared with her.

But Lin Yifeng is different, no matter how mean I am to him, he will stand in front of me every time.

I hate him so much. How dare

I let anyone know that I like him.

Any chance I get to spend time with him, I’ll find an excuse to take it.

I thought I had deceived everyone, but I didn’t think my mother had already seen it.

Although I promised to marry Li Jian, the person my mother arranged to take care of me did not withdraw.

I know she wants to prevent Lin Yifeng.

But she couldn’t stop it.

Lin Yifeng had caught a cold on the mountain that day, and when he came back, his father sent him out to work.

Listen to a Li said originally is to go out for seven or eight days, the result is two days to finish and rush back. I

must have heard that I agreed to the marriage before I came back, and the consequence was that I was ill for more than half a month. After he

recovered, he sneaked into my room at night every day.

Because of his outstanding talent, my father did not ask him to practice martial arts, but I did not know that his martial arts were so profound.

Combined with the scars on his body. There must be a big secret

in him.

“Will your secret hurt me?” I sat with him on the soft couch. “Will it hurt the General’s Office?”

He doesn’t want to tell his secret now, and I won’t ask.

“No.” He traced my eyebrows and eyes. I expected

this answer, and I nodded with satisfaction. “What about Li Chien?”

His hand fell from my ear and he pinched my earlobe.

“He grew up with us, and you know he’s not a bad person, and he’s in trouble, and he’s willing to help me..” Seeing that his eyes were heavy and he was afraid of misunderstanding, I patiently explained to him. Since getting along with each other

in recent months, I have gradually found that the former Lin Yifeng was really faked by him.

But I also find that I like him no matter what he is.

He gently twirled my earlobe and said in a deep voice, “If Ashu doesn’t want to be hurt, there won’t be any harm.”

That’s enough.

Who cares about the secret?

“Ah Shu is going to get married. I want to give Ah Shu this unique gift in the world.” He arched his eyebrows and laughed.

He looks like a man coming out of a painting, and his smile is really ugly. I laughed, too,

when I heard him say that.

It seems that tonight will be a good dream. A big thing happened when I was only a month

away from my marriage.

The prince died suddenly.

Compared with my shock, my parents did not show much surprise.

As if they had expected it, they were more worried.

I don’t know what they’re worried about.

Until an imperial edict fell to the general’s office. Lin Yifeng,

who had been living in the General’s Office, the son given to his mother by the emperor, the orphan who had no father or mother, turned out to be the son left behind by the emperor.

It’s like a thunder falling over my head.

I knew Lin Yifeng had a big secret, but I didn’t expect it to be such a big secret.

It all came so suddenly that I was not prepared at all.

What made me even more unprepared was the imperial edict of marriage on the day of my marriage.

“Your Majesty is wise. Our Ashu made a promise two months ago.” The mother knelt down before the emperor and said what she had prepared.

The emperor seemed to know what she had said. “Yu-er, Yifeng has lived in the General’s Mansion for so many years, and has lived and eaten with Ashu for so many years. It was all right to have the name of a brother, but now Yifeng is going to move into the East Palace and doesn’t marry Ashu. It’s not a good thing for Ashu’s reputation.”

I was surprised.

But in January, Lin Yifeng will move into the East Palace.

“My wife was also worried about this problem, so she asked Ah Shu’s fiance after Yifeng entered the palace. The child had always loved Ah Shu and had no hard feelings about it.” Mother is neither humble nor pushy, and she answers fluently. I

‘m the only one who knows she’s talking nonsense.

Li Jian doesn’t mind because he originally used me as a cover, where to say love.

But in front of the emperor, I naturally dare not be presumptuous.

I dare not, but my mother does.

Everyone knows that mother grew up with the emperor and was not afraid of the emperor at all.

“Your Majesty, please withdraw your order.”

“What if I say no?” How can

I see my mother quarrel with the emperor one day. Mother is the only one in the

world.

“Then we, Ah Shu, can only go up the mountain and become nuns.”

This

Mother has made up her mind, and no one can change it.

So I was really arranged to go up the mountain to be a nun on the same day.

This is the gift that Lin Yifeng said he would give me.

What a gift. Don’t let me see him

next time!

On the way up the mountain, Lin Yifeng got into my carriage. What about the

future crown prince? Do all these shameful acts of climbing windows. I huddled in the corner of the carriage and didn’t want to talk to him very much.

“Angry?” He smiled and crouched down in front of me. “I told you, I’ve always been Lin Yi-feng.”

Bah! You might as well talk to your mother about

these sweet words.

“You might as well just tell them that you’ve already had a deal with me, and I can’t marry anyone else.” When I got angry, I didn’t know what I was talking about.

After listening to my words, Lin Yi-feng frowned and said, “Nonsense.”

At this time, there were horses galloping outside the carriage.

“Ah Shu.” Li Jian’s voice is outside the car.

Afraid that Lin Yi-feng would happen, I quickly covered his mouth and answered, “What are you doing here?”

“Didn’t we agree? Why do we have to go up to the mountains to be nuns now?”

Do I want to?

I stared at Lin Yifeng in front of me.

“It was decided by my mother in front of the emperor. If you really have a heart for the flower queen, you can marry her well.” I said to him seriously, “Although she was born in the dust, she deserves to be treated well.”

Li Jian has been riding outside the carriage, listening to me as if to stop. He didn’t speak for a long

time, and just when I thought he had left, his voice came from behind.

“Ah Shu, you are really not smart enough.”

I was already going up the mountain to be a nun, but he still said that about me.

I was so angry that I lifted the curtain of the car and scolded back: “You are a coward yourself, but now you still blame me!” As the

carriage went farther and farther, his eyebrows and eyes were a little blurred, and he could not see whether he was also distorted by my anger at this time.

I lowered the curtain with some disappointment. As soon as the

curtain fell, I was held down by Lin Yifeng.

“What are you doing?” I growled at him.

He laughed. “I don’t want to be a coward.” Then

a kiss fell on my lips.

“Shu, wait for me to pick you up.”

Mother was afraid that I would run out of the mountain and that Lin Yifeng would come to me.

So on the second day I went up the mountain, I also found a reason to run to the mountain to accompany me.

At night, she and I huddled together in a small bed. After

being sensible, my mother never lay in the same bed with me again.

“Ah Shu, do you blame your mother?” There was no light in the room, and there was no light except the moonlight from the small window.

I looked sideways at my mother and could only see her side face blurred in the dark.

“Lin Yi-feng is not simple.” She sighed. “He’s not who you think he is.”

I looked back at the dark ceiling and asked her, “What kind of person do you think Lin Yifeng is in my imagination?”

Warmth? Gentle? Courtesy? Or is it brilliant? I blinked and laughed. “Mother, in my heart, he is just a person who can always protect me, who is willing to stand up for me, and who is good to me.”. I don’t care whether he is simple or not, and I don’t want to care what his identity is.

Mother listened to my words and sighed again.

“Then do you know that he had something to do with Old Shangshu’s death?”

“Do you know that he knew from the beginning that he was the emperor’s son, but he kept it a secret from us, from the emperor, and from the people of the world?”

“Do you know that the water bandits you met when you went south were related to him?”

“Do you know how much blood he has on his hands?”

“Do you know how many secrets he has?”

Mother threw a series of questions at me, which made me a little confused.

“Old Shangshu?” This incident really had something to do with Lin Yi-feng, and I quickly asked, “Could it be that they were wronged?”

“That’s not true. The evidence of possession of weapons is conclusive.” His mother’s voice was soft. “But how scheming he is, and how manipulative he is.”

“Ah Shu, he’s not someone you and I can understand.”

But why do we have to understand it?

Is it true that when two people are together, they must see each other clearly before they can rest assured?

I turned my back and asked my mother, “Does my father understand my mother?”

Even I know that my father never seems to have entered my mother’s heart. Every time

she looked at her father, it was like looking through him at another person.

“Ah Shu..” Mother put her hand on my shoulder and said, “He will soon be the crown prince, and in the future he will be the king of a country. Which king is not the king of the harem?”? Even though today’s empress is famous for her jealousy, she can’t make the emperor have only one woman. Are you willing?

These are the words that come to my heart.

Am I willing? Naturally,

I am not reconciled.

“If that were true, I would stay on this mountain forever and be a pure nun.” My voice is light and my tone is calm.

The mother just sighed again.

Then the room quieted down.

I don’t know how long it was so quiet that I almost fell asleep.

Only then did I hear my mother say, “Ah Shu, do you still remember the story my mother told you when you were a child that you couldn’t tell until you grew up?”

I remember.

“Mother says she’s not Li Bai.” My consciousness is gradually gathering.

“Mmm.” Her voice behind me was a little vague. “Mother is not really a person of this world.”

My closed eyes opened as if I couldn’t believe what I was hearing.

“Do you think Mother is crazy, too?”

I rolled over and faced my mother. There was no light

in the room, but I could see the sadness in her eyes that could not be covered.

“What was the mother’s world like?” I couldn’t help asking.

She didn’t seem to expect me to ask, and she was stunned for a moment, and then there were crystal tears rolling down her eyes.

Where everyone is equal, houses are tall, cars are fast, and women can go out to work as well as men, and are just as valuable. Without an emperor or a eunuch, each man could only marry one woman. When she said this, there was a shallow smile on her lips.

Such a yearning tone.

Although I think all this is impossible, I can’t help believing her.

“It sounds like Mother’s world is much better than here.” Holding my mother’s hand, I suddenly remembered my grandmother’s dreams about my mother. “So Li Bai is a person from your world?”

Mother nodded. “He’s a great poet.”

For a moment the room was quiet again.

I drew myself into her arms and asked the most important question of all: “Does she want to go back?”

Mother did not answer.

But I can feel her yearning to be one with the night. The bright moonlight in front of the

bed looks like frost on the ground. Raise your head to look at the bright moon, and bow your head to think of your hometown. When

she was six years old, what kind of yearning and hesitation did she have to read this poem?

Mother is a very stubborn person. Almost no one can change what

she believes.

Too bad I’m too much like her and just as stubborn.

When I knew I wanted to marry Lin Yifeng, I couldn’t make do with anyone else. In the days

that followed, we lived and ate together, and when I was bored, I would pester her to talk about her world, which was impossible for me.

Just when I didn’t know how long she would stay with me, my father’s attendant came.

Father is going to war.

This expedition is different, together with the new prince who has just entered the East Palace. When

my father goes to war, my mother will follow, and this time is no exception.

I stood on the top of the hill and watched a lot of people passing by. Among

the leaders, I couldn’t tell which was the father, which was the mother, and which was Lin Yifeng.

I begged my mother for a night, but she didn’t let me give Lin Yifeng a ride.

She’s trying to break my heart completely.

If she knew that Lin Yifeng would sneak into my room at night, I don’t know if she would be angry to death.

“You really need to change that.” I sat on the bed, my mouth was full of disgust, but my feet were swinging happily.

“When I marry you, I will change.” Lin Yifeng smiled and sat down beside me.

I looked at him sideways, and I thought I should be happy at the moment.

“Mother said that when you became the king of a country, you would have thousands of harems.” At this point, I was a little unhappy. “When your harem is tens of millions, how can you treat me like this?”

Lin Yifeng listened to my words, his face changed slightly, and he reached out to embrace me. His

whole body was covered with the faint fragrance of his good smell.

“No, Shu.”

Only this simple sentence, I do not even know whether he said he would not have a harem, or would not be bad for me.

Mother was right. How many people in that seat can do whatever they want.

That is, he himself did not want to have other women, which of the former courtiers would be willing. “Lin Yi-feng, I once swore that I would never work with another woman in my life,”

I said in a muffled voice, lying in his arms and burying my face in his chest.

This is actually a foreshadowing for our ending.

I will not be one of his thousands of harems.

As an emperor, I can’t be the only woman.

“Good.” He put his hand on my head and said softly, “I swore I would only marry you in my life.”

Lin Yifeng has been staying with me until late at night.

“If you don’t go, how can you catch up with the army?” I’m a little worried about him.

He looked at me with deep eyes and said, “Ah Shu, I don’t know when I’ll be back.” Of course I know

that.

Fast is three or five months, slow is three or five years.

“I’ll wait for you as long as I can.”

I don’t know if he was satisfied with the answer. He lowered his eyes. I couldn’t see the emotion in his eyes.

Then I saw him take a small box out of his sleeve.

The box is exquisite enough to show the value of the person who sent it.

“I was in a hurry last time, and the gift hasn’t been delivered yet.” He smiled and handed the box to me.

I thought the bad wedding was his wedding gift to me.

“It was a gift to myself, but as I expected, it didn’t work out.” He laughed, a little helplessly, “Ah Shu, I have to do something, but I also have to marry you.”

What he meant was that he knew from the beginning that the marriage would not succeed.

I don’t know what he said he had to do, but he said he would marry me.

I was relieved.

At last he dropped a soft kiss on my forehead and disappeared into the night.

He didn’t even say, “Wait for me, wait for me to come back and marry you,” as he used to do.

I sat at the table and looked at the delicate box on the table for a long time.

It took me a long time to open it slowly.

Inside was a white jade hairpin inlaid with colored beads.

This is a hairpin I took a fancy to in Baoxiang Pavilion the year before last, but I heard that it was decided by the Crown Princess at that time.

I was sad for many days.

I didn’t expect to go round and round, and it was in my hands again.

At that time, I took a fancy to this hairpin in Baoxiang Pavilion, not because of its luxury and rarity, but because I thought it matched with a white jade hairpin of Lin Yifeng.

These thoughts are hidden in my heart, and no one will know. He

picked up the hairpin and put a handkerchief under it.

I picked up my handkerchief in disbelief, and my heart trembled when I saw the word “Shu” crookedly embroidered with silver thread on one corner.

I was forced by my father to learn needlework not long ago, and when I had nothing to do, I learned to embroider my name on the handkerchief like other ladies.

I embroidered this handkerchief, but I lost it.

How did you lose it?

On that day, Lin Yifeng and his father went hunting with the emperor. As a result, he fell off his horse and was seriously injured. He was carried back to the General’s Office and was unconscious for several days.

I slipped into his room when no one was there, and when I saw him, I was so distressed that I cried in front of his bed while scolding him for being useless. When I

got back, I found that my handkerchief was lost.

I ran back to look for it later, but I didn’t find it. I thought it was lost somewhere else.

But I didn’t expect him to hide it. When did

he start?

This problem troubled me for a long time until Li Jian went up the mountain.

He said he would accompany me.

“I don’t need your company.” I am watering the flowers and plants in the yard, which I found for me when I let Ah go.

Li Chien, with his usual cheeky smile, sat down at a stone table on one side and said, “That young man wants to accompany me.”

I stared back at him. Don’t

you still want a scientific examination? You had three melons and two dates at that time. If you didn’t work harder, why would you take the exam?

“Ah Shu cares so much about me, why don’t you marry me? I’ll let you be the champion..” Before he had finished talking, I turned around and poured water all over him.

I threatened him, “Ah Li, go to the house and get my needle and thread. I’ll sew up this little bastard’s mouth.”

We bicker like this for a few days.

The days were as calm as if nothing had happened.

What I found wrong was that Li Jian threw a letter into the fire behind my back.

“It wasn’t a big deal. I saw that the fire wasn’t strong enough, so I threw it in.” That’s what he explained to me.

If his eyes hadn’t been evasive, maybe I would have believed it. When

a Li came back from the foot of the mountain, I was sitting at the table, looking at the hairpin that Lin Yifeng gave me.

When she came back, I looked up at her and said, “What happened?”

She lowered her head and looked a little flustered.

“Say it.”

“Our army fought the enemy at Yenkuan for ten rounds, winning every time.” She said this without the slightest pleasure.

I stared at her while she continued, “For the eleventh time, the prince is badly wounded.”

“Before the Twelfth War, Madame was taken captive..”

“For the last time..” She began to cry before she finished the

rest of the words.

My eyes went black and I fainted. When I

woke up, Ah Li was kneeling not far away and crying all the time. Li Chien sat beside me and scolded her angrily: “Who told you to talk nonsense with the young lady?” Whether

it’s nonsense or not, he and I both understand. And

his burned letter.

On a dark and windy day, I pretended to fall asleep and waited for Li Jian to go out and then ran away secretly.

As soon as he went down the mountain, he met a large army from Kyoto to support him.

As long as I follow them, I can go to find my mother and Lin Yifeng.

Stealthily followed the army for ten days, Li Jian took a Li to catch up.

“Liu Shu, don’t you want to die?” Li Jian grabbed my arm and his eyes were red with anger.

I was very calm and did not quibble. “If you were my brother, don’t worry about me,” I said in a faint voice.

He gave me a deep look and a long sigh. Naturally,

he won’t ignore me. With his management, we won’t have to follow the army secretly.

With the army and ten days, finally arrived at the Yan Guan.

It was the first time I had seen the battlefield since I grew up. When I arrived at Yanguan, the overwhelming smell of blood almost made me vomit.

Other men’s sons, husbands, and fathers lay mutilated on the ground.

“Miss!” As soon as we entered the barracks, a voice sounded not far away.

I followed the sound and saw a woman standing outside a tent, thin and haggard. It was Mammy Qin who had accompanied her mother.

Seeing that it was really me, she ran to me crying. When he

came to me, he cried even more bitterly, “How could you come?”? If Madame. Madam

The rest of the words were drowned in her cries. It’s like someone hit

my heart with a hammer.

Mother hasn’t come back yet.

All these days, I have been praying day and night that all this is false.

What I didn’t expect was that the entire military camp, except for the injured father, even Lin Yifeng had disappeared.

“Your Highness was plotted against by the enemy in order to save his wife, and now his whereabouts are unknown.”

The words fell on my ears, like a knife in my heart.

I grabbed the man in front of me and asked him ferociously, “What do you mean by missing?”! You tell me what it means to be unaccounted for!

Obviously, he was so badly injured.

Why are you still..

“Nonsense!” A stern voice sounded behind me.

I looked back with blurred eyes and saw my haggard father.

He glanced at me, frowned and asked Li Chien, “Is that how you take care of her?”

Without waiting for Li Chien to quibble, he called the soldiers over and said, “Send the young lady back to Kyoto.”

“Let’s go now.”

I have always been a disobedient child.

From childhood to adulthood, I will not obey my father’s orders, no matter good or bad.

This time is no exception.

“You’re going to the enemy?” Li Chien stared at me. “Are you crazy?”

I didn’t.

Mother is still waiting for me. My

intuition tells me that my mother must be waiting for me.

This time Li Jian still didn’t argue with me.

I know this may be a death, but I think I should go, Li Jian is different.

“Go back to Kyoto and take the exams you want to take. Don’t let the old minister down.” I stood in front of him, blocking his way.

He gritted his teeth and looked at me. “Are you kicking me out?”

“The flower queen is still waiting for you to go back and marry her. Don’t make her wait.” I advised him that it was not a good feeling to wait for someone.

“She won’t wait for me. Her heart is not in me.” He gave a wry smile. “If you don’t let me go with you, I’ll knock you out and tie you back to Kyoto.”

He can do it.

I spat at him: “Stupid! You can just be stupid.” A

group of us dressed up, dodged many checkpoints, and finally arrived at the enemy camp.

Li Jian did not know how to find out the place where his mother was detained. I

heard that it was not an enemy camp prison, but a house arrest in a tent, and the stone in my heart was finally put down.

Along the way, unexpectedly also heard the enemy’s respect for the mother. When she sneaked into her tent

dressed as a new maid, her mother lay in bed and seemed not to be angry.

Her hair was all white at the temples.

I felt a pain in my heart and went to her and called her softly, “Mother.”

Mother’s body stiffened and she slowly opened her eyes in disbelief.

Her scattered consciousness quickly gathered at the moment she saw me.

“Ashu?” The tears that I had

endured for so long fell down at once.

“Mother..” I threw myself into her arms and couldn’t help sobbing.

Mother put her hand on my back and gently soothed me.

When I had cried enough, she sat up in bed.

Now, in just a few months, she has lost a lot of weight, and it seems that a gust of wind can bring her down.

“How did you get here?” After a long time, the mother seemed to think of something and became serious. Before

I could speak, a male voice sounded outside the tent.

“Of course it was the king who let it in.” As soon as the strong male voice fell, his hands came in from the outside, lifted the curtain and came in. I was so

frightened that I hugged my mother tightly.

The man was followed by several soldiers and brought in Li Jian and a Li, who had been captured.

It turns out that we have always thought we were smart, like clowns.

“You don’t eat or drink. Don’t you just want to see her?” The man’s voice was not angry. He looked at his mother. “The king let her in to accompany you. Are you satisfied?”

I was stunned. I really didn’t expect

such a scene.

The mother turned her head away and said quietly, “Let them go.”

“I don’t. I want to be with my mother.” I hugged my mother and wouldn’t let anyone take me away.

Finally, the man took Li Jian and a Li out of the tent, and the mother drove them out.

I blinked and seemed to feel that things were not what I thought. In the days that

followed, as the man said, he treated us with great courtesy. If I hadn’t accidentally seen him treat prisoners of war one day, I would have thought he was a kind leader.

But even though he treated us well, my mother’s health did not get better.

My mother likes to tell me more and more about her world.

Every word expressed how much she wanted to go back.

“Does the mother have a way to go back?” I sat on the edge of her bed and finally asked the question I wanted to ask but dared not.

She looked at me with a lot of emotion in her eyes.

She reached out and touched my face, but smiled and did not answer.

“Is mother happy here?” She always seems to smile, but she never seems to smile.

Without waiting for her to answer, I said, “If it’s for Ashu, mother can rest assured that Ashu has grown up.”

This is not what I mean. Naturally,

I want my mother to stay with me forever.

Mother’s health was getting worse and worse, and that day the man was so angry that he punished all the doctors who came to see him. The

doctors all said that the mother had a heart disease and had been ill for many years, and there was no medicine to cure her. I am the only one who knows

her heart disease. On the day when

his mother was dying, Lin Yifeng, who had disappeared for a long time, did not know where to take his soldiers to the enemy camp. There was a lot of war

outside, and I was in front of my mother’s bed.

Since I was born in this world, I have been looking for a way to go back, but my mother has been very kind to me, and all her love has been poured into me. The day I found a way back, the doctor said I was pregnant. My mother put her hand on my face and her eyes were full of love. “I never thought I would have a child, but here you are.”

“You are little, and you will call me mother with a smile, and you will feed me delicious food, and you will laugh in my arms, and you will cry in my arms.”

“Shu, I’m sorry.”

“You are the pride of my mother. When she was young, she was not as kind as you, not as sensible as you.”

I know she’s dying.

Her voice was very soft, but her words were clear.

“But Ah Shu, a mother in that world also has a mother, a father, a friend, and a lover.” She looked at the roof of the tent, and crystal tears rolled down from the corners of her red eyes. “Every night when the moon is full, I wonder what they are doing.”? Will they think of me the way I think of them?

That’s why I can’t help reading the poem “Quiet Night Thoughts”.

Later, no matter how she explained to adults that it was someone else’s poem, everyone would only think that she was modest.

“But Ah Shu is still so young. If I’m not here, who will protect Ah Shu?” As she spoke, she began to cry.

It should be time soon. She didn’t even make a sound of crying.

I cried along with him. Cry

for yourself and cry for her.

She has lived in this world for more than thirty years, but no one understands her loneliness and miss.

“Ah Shu,” she called me softly, her eyes gradually emptying. “Yifeng is a good boy, but his mind is too heavy. He has hatred in his heart, how can he love you well.

“Ah Shu, mother is going back. You must take good care of yourself.”

I cried and asked her, “Is it sure that I can go back?”

She slowly raised the corners of her mouth.

“I don’t know..” Mother had closed her eyes when

the man rushed into the tent.

Her face was full of peace, as if she was finally going where she wanted to go.

The man went to the bed and picked up his mother. His eyes were moist. “Who told you to go?”! Who gave you permission to go?

At this time, Lin Yifeng rushed in with people.

“Ha ha!” The man laughed, “Ben Wang said you didn’t love Liu Yan at all!”

You don’t love him! You have died in the king’s arms. How can he contend with the king?

He glanced up at me and then at Lin Yifeng standing in the doorway.

Then he reached out and slapped me out of the way. The wind

blew at Lin Yifeng’s feet and caught me outside the tent.

“Ah Shu.” He screwed up his eyebrows.

I buried my face deep in his arms, clutched his sleeve tightly, and my little sobs grew bigger and bigger, and finally I couldn’t help crying.

Since then, I have no mother.

At this time, a raging fire broke out in the tent just now. All the soldiers in the

tent escaped.

Only the man and the mother remained inside.

“Mother!” I shouted to rush up, but was pulled by Lin Yifeng.

He ordered people to put out the fire, but he did not know why the fire was burning more and more fiercely, and the red flames seemed to stretch out to the sky.

I watched my mother being devoured by the fire bit by bit.

And finally turned to ashes. I

was brought back by Lin Yifeng after I cried and fainted.

This time our army victory depends on Lin Yifeng’s surprise attack, not only the victory, even the enemy king is dead in the account. There was no atmosphere

in the tent to celebrate the victory.

Because my mother is dead.

The famous strange woman is dead.

Father sat on the hill not far from the barracks for a day and a night. When

I went to look for him, his eyes were red and his eyes were staring at the burned tent.

“Shu, am I wrong?” His voice was not as dignified as it used to be, and it was hard to distinguish.

I looked at him and didn’t know how to answer him.

“There were countless people who liked her back then, but she wanted to go up to the mountains and become a nun.” His voice floated in the wind. “I lied to her. I lied to her that I could help her find a way back.” Where can

I find it? Like everyone else, I didn’t believe what she said about the world, thinking that it was just a false world constructed in her clever mind. He gave a wry smile. “I was drunk that day, and I knew she must have thought of me as the person in her heart, the person in her dream, but I was willing.”

My father looked at me sideways and said, “Ah Shu, I am not a good father. I even envy you sometimes. I envy you for getting all her love.”

But one night.

He seems to have aged many years.

I couldn’t help hugging him: “Father, I don’t blame you, and you don’t blame mother either.”

In the end, it seems that I am the happiest person who has not been happy all the time.

Our army won a great victory, and the people of Kyoto lined the streets to welcome the soldiers back triumphantly.

I sat in the carriage and listened to the cheers of the people outside, as if nothing had changed.

It’s like everything’s changed. There is no strange woman in

the world who has a unique thought and is not afraid of anything.

In this battle, Lin Yifeng secured the position of the crown prince.

He told me that he would come and marry me when he had done what he wanted to do.

He has become the crown prince, and soon he will become the emperor.

The whole world belongs to him.

I don’t know what he means by what he is going to do.

Mother said he had blood on his hands and hatred in his heart.

He grew up in the General’s Office at the age of twelve, and all the people in the General’s Office were very kind to him except me.

If he has hatred in his heart, it can only be right.

“I am not the emperor’s son.” He sat with me in the big tree at the top of the hill and said this without waiting for me to ask.

I have thought about countless possibilities. I think the emperor failed their mother and son. Maybe the jealous queen killed his mother.

But he never thought that he was not the son of the emperor.

How is that possible?

I heard that he did take out the token that the emperor had given to his mother and told all kinds of things about his mother.

“Ah Shu, I don’t really have a father.” He looked down the hill, his eyes sinking. “When the emperor was traveling in disguise, he met my mother at the Lantern Festival. Seeing her beautiful appearance, he tricked her into breaking off her marriage and running away with him.”

His voice became softer and softer, as if he were slowly opening his scars.

The queen is jealous, and knowing her mother’s existence is naturally intolerable. The emperor relied on the queen’s family to stabilize the country, and naturally chose to abandon his mother. The mother’s family could not bear to see her displaced, so they placed her, who was already pregnant, in a village in the mountains.

“a few months later, the mother gave birth to a baby boy.”

I can’t believe these stories I read in the script are actually true.

“Isn’t that your baby boy?” Why did Lin Yifeng say that he was not the son of the emperor.

A gust of wind passed us, rustling the leaves.

Lin Yifeng lowered his eyes and gave a laugh.

“It would be better if I were you.” This seems to be mixed with a lot of bitterness. When the

baby boy was just half a year old, someone brought the queen’s order to take the lives of the mother and the baby boy. The whole family of mothers were killed.

I was surprised that the queen was known to be jealous, but she didn’t expect to be so vicious.

“The mother ran down the mountain with the baby boy in her arms. After running for three days and nights, she fainted in a ruined temple. After being rescued, she thought she had met a good man.” At this point, his throat is dry.

“The men threatened the baby boy and abused her every night.” Every word in that sentence is like being scraped by a knife.

I looked up at him in surprise. How bitter

that must be. How desperate

his mother must have been.

Lin Yi-feng turned his head to look at me. The corners of his eyes were slightly red, and he said with a wry smile, “Ah Shu, that’s how my mother made me.” I

felt as if I had been beaten hard in my heart, and I wanted to say something, but I couldn’t say a word.

My mother ran out and found out she was pregnant with me. She tried everything, but couldn’t get rid of me. I think if it wasn’t for her brother who needed her care, she would have thought she would rather die than give birth to me.

“In order not to let others discover my existence, she has been hiding me in cabinets, jars, and cellars.”

“Maybe she was trying to protect me, or maybe she just wanted to clean up my brother’s life.”

“But ever since I was a child, I’ve been like a rat who deserves to live in the abyss, dirty and unable to see the light of day.” My

heart ached and I cried and shook my head. “No, you’re not.”

He is the white cloud in the sky, the dazzling moon and the warm sun. The

quiet days did not last long, but the group broke into the house. I was only four years old that year, and I was locked in a cupboard by my mother. Through a crack in the cupboard, I watched my mother and brother being hacked to death by them. His voice was hoarse, and his eyes were full of hate. “Ah Shu, I have to take revenge.”

I couldn’t help hugging him and holding him tightly. He

wanted to say something to comfort him, but he felt as if everything was pale in the face of these things.

“Your mother is a very clever person, and although I hid it well, she discovered it a year ago.” He put his hand gently on my head. “She warned me to stay away from you, and I wanted to stay away from you, too.”. What I have always wanted is revenge, even if I don’t want this dirty life.

“But Shu, why do you keep bumping into me again and again?” I passed by a small alley after school

that day, and you were pressing Li Chien under you, and the people around you who were playing with you were all beaten up by you. I thought you had some kind of conflict with them again. Just as I was leaving, I heard you say, “Lin Yifeng is my brother. If you dare to say that he is an orphan again, I will throw you into the river to feed the fish.” At this point, Lin Yi-feng rubbed his fingers on the top of my hair and chuckled. “You said you were going to drive me out of the General’s Office.”

I

How did he see all this!

Every time I go out with my father, you always hide in the doorway. Every time I get sick or hurt, you have to come quietly and cry. Obviously he is the most soft-hearted, but his mouth is always unforgiving. I’ve spent countless nights trying to get through it, and every time I think of you like this, I feel that this world is not boring.

I know, I am too selfish. I want to hold on to you forever, when you deserve someone better.

Without waiting for him to finish, I leaned over his mouth.

“Lin Yifeng, I’ll wait for you.” The wind in our

ears seemed to stop all over us.

I saw the tiny light in Lin Yifeng’s eyes, like the stars in the sky falling into his eyes.

“I’ll wait for you to do what you have to do and marry me.”

I have never been a little white flower, let alone let Lin Yifeng put down the words of hatred.

Those bad guys should have been punished.

The only thing that makes me unhappy is that I can’t do anything to help.

I still live in the nunnery on the hill and take care of the flowers and plants in the yard every day.

Waiting for Lin Yifeng to pick me up after he finishes his work.

It’s just that Li Jian occasionally comes up to see me. After so long, he still hasn’t married his flower queen girl.

I can’t help worrying about him.

“Huh?”? You mean flower queen girl? She redeemed herself two months ago and went home to get married.

Hearing this, I threw the watering pot in my hand and sprinkled Li Jian all over.

Look, look, look! I told you to do it earlier, and now all the cooked ducks are flying. I scold him with some hatred.

He looked at me and burst out laughing.

“Whatever, as long as she’s happy.”

Really open-minded. “Lin Yifeng hasn’t been here for days. Can you tell him for me that I miss him?”

I continued watering the flowers.

Li Chien touched the petals on his side and said, “I don’t know him well.”

Cheat the ghost!

Last time I saw them go down the mountain one by one, and they chatted for a long time on the mountainside.

“If you don’t tell me, the next time he comes, I’m sure I’ll give him a good scolding.” I put down the kettle and picked up the scissors bitterly.

Li Jian nodded approvingly and stopped talking.

“By the way, what did you say you were doing up here this time?” I looked at him sideways.

He touched his nose and said with a smile, “I just came to see how you are doing as a nun.”

All these years, I know him better than his mother. Every time

he lies, he touches his nose. Something

must have happened. Something happened to

Lin Yifeng.

On the day when I was going down the mountain to look for him, as soon as I opened my eyes, Ah Li pushed the door from the outside and came in.

“Miss.”

“Something big has happened.”

The big thing is that the emperor is dead.

The queen is dead, too.

I quickly looked at her and said, “Where is Lin Yifeng?”

“Gone.”

Disappeared?

The emperors and empresses are all dead, and the prince has disappeared. This is not to make the world chaotic.

“No, the little prince is in charge now.” Li Jian came in from the outside.

Little prince?

“a palace maid was secretly born after being visited by the emperor, and Lin Yi-feng found her back, and a few months ago he was restored to his status as a little prince.” Li Chien came to me and said, “From the very beginning, Lin Yi-feng never intended to succeed to the throne, and the little prince was taught very well by him.”

No wonder his eyes were so sure when I told him that I would not be one of the thousands of women in his harem.

Because he never wanted to be emperor.

He didn’t want the world to be in chaos. He arranged everything very well.

Only.

I sat up in bed and stared at Li Chien. “What about him?”? Where did he go?

A sense of foreboding came over me.

Li Jian sighed.

“I don’t know.” He sat down beside my bed. “Shu, he told you not to wait for him.”

I don’t believe it.

I don’t believe it! I

shook my head. “You lied to me. He said he would come back. He said he would come back as long as I waited for him.”

“Some said that they had seen him wounded so badly that they feared he was dead.” He grabbed me by the shoulder and tried to make me accept the reality.

Impossible.

Mother said that Lin Yifeng was not a simple person.

He won’t die easily. I don’t believe a word of

Li Jian’s words.

I want to go down the mountain to find Lin Yifeng, but I’m afraid he can’t find me when he comes back.

He had to pray in front of the Buddha every day.

When Li Jian saw that he could not persuade me, he also accompanied me to eat fast and recite the Buddha’s name every day.

I don’t know if our sincerity moved Buddha. Half a month after the

little prince ascended the throne, I finally waited for Lin Yifeng. In the evening of that

day, the last rays of the setting sun were sprinkled in front of the courtyard, stretching the shadows of the outsiders very long. My heart missed a few beats

before I could see the man’s face.

“Shu, I’m back.”

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