The
heavy crown
does not have the melancholy dark hatred to give birth to
Jiang Jing to marry Zhao Ye in the third year after Ah Chu left. It was
also that year that Zhao Ye ascended the throne, and the next year, the late emperor died.
Why did she marry Zhao Ye? She herself was equally indifferent. Perhaps this is the habit of a noble woman in the capital, choosing the lesser of two evils and the greater of two benefits. When
she woke up leisurely from the bed, it was the anxious face of the maid Lu Chan. She was a little confused for a moment until she sat up and felt a pain in her neck. Her heart immediately panicked, and her hands trembled when she put on her shoes. Lu Chan saw her like this to help her dress, she immediately prepared to leave the house, but was stopped by his grandfather. Only then did
she know that Ah Chu had died of illness in prison.
She doesn’t believe it. If Achu really dies, he will also die under the imperial power. Her grandfather, who
had always doted on her, grounded her. Royal secrets must not be overstepped. She begged her grandfather, but in the end she only begged to send Ah Chu for a ride, but she was not promised. She cried day and night in the mansion, thinking of going with Ah Chu, but often thinking of that day, Ah Chu said to her, to live well.
She didn’t know how many tears she had shed. Until once she saw her grandfather come to see her, when she looked at him, she felt that he was really old, no longer as tough as he used to be, his brother was still young and needed her to take care of him. Of course
she knows she has her own responsibilities. It’s just that no matter how sober and clear you are, it’s hard to solve your heart knot. She pretended that everything was normal during the day, but when she thought of Ah Chu at night, she still couldn’t help crying. She sometimes thought that if Ah Chu knew, he would play tricks on her and take her out to relax.
She was in such a mood every day that she would fall asleep when she was tired of crying, and she pretended that nothing had happened during the day.
Her heart seemed to have been pierced deeply by a dagger and then cut open, which was dripping with blood and crying with pain and whine every day.
She is good at pretending. Everyone thought she was quiet and gentle, but in fact she yearned for the freedom of Ah Chu. The matchmaker who came to talk about marriage introduced her to gentle and elegant playboys, but she did not love those who did not have a free mind.
She had never visited Ah Chu, and she did not want to know where Ah Chu was buried. As if not to see, she can deceive themselves, a Chu just left the capital. In the first year of
Ah Chu’s visit, all the people who came to the Guogongfu to propose marriage were sent back. Grandfather said he wanted to keep her for another year.
The next year, the person who proposed marriage was sent away by her grandfather, and she did not know why. Later, in private, her grandfather mentioned to her that the emperor meant that she should be the Crown Princess.
She reacted violently at that time, and she would never marry the person who killed Ah Chu! Until that day the grandfather talked to her, the grandfather meant that the emperor’s order was difficult to disobey, and the emperor sold his face to ask, which was a great grace. Secondly, Jiang Jing’s father is a useless, she is a legitimate daughter, her mother gave birth to Jing An when she was four years old. Her father doted on her concubine, and she and her brother would not have had a much better life without their grandfather’s protection these years. But the grandfather will be old, will die, he hopes Jiang Jing can marry the prince, the royal family can protect her life, she will be the mother of the world, others in the house have her deterrence, also dare not bully Jing An.
She knows that. Of course she does.
She suddenly gave birth to despair, she will always marry in this life, no matter who she will marry.
Zhao Ye under the post to visit, she is almost immediately, the heart has already made a decision. Later, whenever she thought of this day, her heart was still ashamed, she thought, she and Ah Chu are different after all. If a Chu will not care about these, she will only live their own, do not care about these false reputation. But she can’t do it, not only can’t do it, but even weigh the pros and cons.
She and Zhao Ye have not seen each other for two years. When
she saw Zhao Ye, her heart was a little shocked. When she just learned that Ah Chu was dead, she wished she could directly carry a knife to kill the prince. It’s just that he’s the prince, so what can she do? If she really kills him, the Jiang family will be killed by the nine clans.
This is power.
It can make you soar to the sky, or it can make you a prisoner.
He came to tell her that the emperor was going to issue a decree for marriage. He was ready to say a plan to make the emperor change his mind and needed her cooperation. She looked at him and spoke almost resolutely.
“If you do one thing for me, I will marry you by decree.” After listening to her request,
he did not speak for a long time. At last he asked her if she was really determined to do so. She nodded her head with great determination, and he finally said, “OK, I promise you.”
When she saw him out of the house, she noticed that he used his right hand to mount the horse and lead the reins, and that his left hand seemed to be only a decoration. In the third year of
Chu’s death, she was ordered to marry Zhao Ye.
In this national wedding, he and she had no smile and joy. The day before she got married, her grandfather told her, “The last thing a royal family needs is sincerity.”
She understands.
She found time to see Ah Chu once, the only time in her life. She will soon marry Zhao Ye, she is sorry Ah Chu, after she has no face to see Ah Chu. On the
wedding night, she sat in the room and lifted her veil. The maid wanted to say something, but she was afraid of being happy, so she didn’t say anything after all. She had a dagger up her sleeve that no one would have thought of.
If Zhao Ye promised her not to count, she could only commit suicide.
Zhao Ye came with the smell of alcohol, and he told everyone to go down. She looked at him with trepidation. But Zhao Ye suddenly took out the marriage certificate from his sleeve pocket and lit it with a candle. “Don’t worry,” he said. “I will do what I promised you.”. The marriage certificate has been destroyed, and there is no relationship between us. After that, you will only bear a false reputation, and you will do whatever you want. Then
he unscrewed the secret passage with his hand and went out through the side door.
After that, Jiang Jing assumed the undeserved reputation of the Crown Princess, which was the best way she could think of. When
the late emperor died, Zhao Ye had been on the throne for a year, and she became the queen. Zhao Ye is indirectly helped her, her heart can not let go of the matter of Ah Chu, but also spurn the use of other people’s own. She is always cold to Zhao Ye, and they seldom meet, except on necessary occasions.
But Zhao Ye, in the first year of his accession to the throne, there were ministers who reported that there were too few people around the new emperor, which was not conducive to the reproduction of the emperor’s heirs. Zhao Ye blocked back on the grounds that he had just ascended the throne to deal with political affairs. After the death of the late emperor, he pushed the draft in the name of national mourning. In
the third year, she had gone abroad to mourn, but the empress had nothing to do. The ministers played every day. Zhao Ye had a headache and accepted Shu Fei and a Jieyu. Jiang Jing was completely unaware of
this process. Later, when she was free, she lived in the small house where Ah Chu used to live. It was said in the palace that the empress was eager to have a son and often went out of the palace to worship the Buddha and do good deeds. She could not help sneering.
She will never have children in her life. As for these big things, let Zhao Ye deal with it by himself.
Until she knew that Zhao Ye had accepted two beautiful girls into the palace. She was a little surprised. Because she had seen Zhao Ye out of his mind.
That day was Ah Chu’s birthday, and it was also the fifth year after she left. Of course she knew what Zhao Ye was thinking of Ah Chu. Zhao Ye drank some wine that day, and as usual, when he came to her temple to prepare to leave, he turned his back to her and said with some loneliness,
“Jiang Jing, do you still remember what Ah Chu looked like?”
“Of course I remember.”
Today.. It’s her birthday. I wanted to paint a portrait of her, but I couldn’t. Chiang Ching, I’ve been painting this for five years, but I can’t paint any of her features..
Jiang Jing did not speak. She was angry and anxious. Didn’t you kill Ah Chu?
But after all, she swallowed everything down, and only blessed herself: “Jiang Jing respectfully saw the emperor off.”
He said nothing more and left. Jiang Jing thought, how can they talk about Ah Chu together? Said she knew he liked Ah Chu? Or how much she misses Ah Chu? Or how did Ah Chu die? Or what did he cheat Ah Chu so that she would not hesitate to assassinate the prince? After
Zhao Ye accepted two beautiful girls, Jiang Jing did not go back to the palace very much. She thought that Zhao Ye would eventually set foot on the real road of an emperor, and that he would no longer remember Ah Chu, nor would he love Ah Chu. He thought that Ah Chu might simply miss it to show the great grace of the emperor. She is just a queen in name only, and there is little difference between her and her in the palace.
Until a year later, Shufei and Jieyu cried in front of her. They were all girls. They said things in a very obscure way. But she still heard that Zhao Ye had never touched them.
She was extremely surprised. She didn’t think it would turn out like this. But although she pretended to be able to persuade the emperor, she could not open her mouth. Her relationship with Zhao Ye is not what they think.
She had to be silent.
Until Rong Zhaoyi came to the harem.
In this world, there is no floating dream Dan, nor regret medicine.
Zhao Ye dreamed more than once that day Ah Chu said to him, I am not reconciled, I am not reconciled. He would wake up from his dream sweating profusely, his chest blocked with regret, but the room was deserted and no one knew.
He used to sleep with a candlestick. But Ah Chu liked to sleep in the dark. At first he didn’t like it, but later he was taken by her and got used to it.
He is now the emperor, and everyone respects him, respects him, and fears him. He thought that if Ah Chu was there, he would not care about his identity, and he would not have to pay attention to his identity in front of Ah Chu. There was no place for him to breathe for a moment in
this huge palace.
He thought more than once that if he had not been forced to treat Ah Chu as his sister, then Ah Chu would at least be alive. He would see her grow up, marry, have children, and be safe all her life.
He will keep his heart in his heart, and no one will know it in his life.
But in the world, there is no if.
So he can only taste the pain day after day, which is his punishment. He couldn’t let it go, because he had killed Ah Chu himself. It’s him who
deserves it. When
Zhao Ye heard the Imperial Physician say that Princess Sining had died, he grabbed the Imperial Physician by the collar, his eyes were red, and he jumped out word by word: “You, say, what, what!” The Imperial Physician had never seen your Highness so hysterical. He knelt down directly in the carriage, but the carriage was so narrow that he could only kneel down on one leg. He trembled and said, “Go back to your Highness, Princess Sining..” Indeed, it is dead.
Zhao Ye held Ah Chu in his arms and kept calling her, but Ah Chu did not respond any more. He went crazy and shook Ah Chu, but there was no response. He really began to be afraid. He went to hold Ah Chu’s hand. Her hand was already cold. He is anxious and panic, that fear and fear is more like a knife to attack him, Zhao Ye only felt the blood surge, he forced himself down but was eaten back, a mouthful of blood spurted on the clothes of Ah Chu, he still forced to hold, immediately ordered the carriage to turn around to the palace, where there are groups of imperial doctors, he did not believe! He only fed a Chu a little sweat medicine, she will fall asleep, there is no reason to die!
In the palace, despite the doctor’s dissuasion, he forcibly picked up Ah Chu and ran to the house. The doctors all came, but they were all helpless and fell to their knees.
At this time, the emperor came. What
are you going to do in such a big battle? What has the hospital done wrong that you should reprimand it like this?
At that moment, he was suspicious of his father. He suspected that his father had done it secretly. But he eventually came to his senses, and the doctors tacitly retreated, leaving only him and his father.
“Did you kill Ah Chu?” He is a little crazy, what father and son, monarch and minister, completely forgotten.
Later, Zhao Ye knew that his father had the same mind as him. As a result, the drug conflict led to the loss of Ah Chu. When he
knew the news, he couldn’t accept it. He almost wanted to kill himself, and he blamed himself for being smart and guessing the divine will.
Zhao Ye’s left arm wound has already opened, all by a spirit of support to the present. When he heard that Ah Chu was indeed gone, he felt a surge of hatred and regret. He vomited several mouthfuls of blood and collapsed to the ground. Later, he passed out again because of excessive blood loss.
The doctor’s head was covered with sweat, and the wound on his left arm was too deep, but there was still some hope for recovery. Now I’m afraid it’s. No longer possible. He reported his illness to the emperor, ready to be questioned, but this time the emperor did not launch an attack, only let him try his best to cure.
Mother has committed suicide, a Chu also passed away, Zhao Ye in a coma just want to sleep like this forever. What does the land have to do with him? His father has more than one son.
He is a man who deserves to die. Since
fate is so capricious, it will end with him.
But fate refused to end with him.
He was unconscious for only two hours before he woke up. He was woken up by the pain, and the doctor was bandaging his left arm. His father stood beside his bed and asked him to bury Ah Chu as early as possible.
He can’t remember how he did it. He only knew that he should bury Achuan beside her mother. Chu’s tablet was carved by him bit by bit, and he didn’t sleep a wink for days and nights. He didn’t know what kind of identity he wanted to carve, and after thinking about it, he only carved her name.
Her name is Lin Chu. She is free and unrestrained all her life. She should not be bound by anything.
He thought that it was because he had sinned so much that he killed for his life when he finished saying goodbye to his father. Even if he didn’t kill Ah Chu’s mother himself, he knew what his mother did. He should die with her, a life for a life. When
Zhao Ye was young, he was severely disciplined by his mother and could not be free for a moment. He always pretended to be sensible and mature in front of his mother. After all, he was still a child at that time, but he never told his mother what he thought in his heart. Even later, his lies came casually.
At that time, he thought he was actually a master of cheating. Because he will do half true, half false, no one can see.
Zhao Ye is lonely. The other princes in the palace did not associate with him because he was the crown prince. Even if contacts, the surface also pays great attention to the etiquette status, speaks the moment to pinch the sense of propriety, he is very disdainful. There were other princesses who often came to his mother’s palace, and he could see clearly who was clinging to his future and who was in favor of his father.
He seemed to be born with such an insight into people’s hearts. So he is proud, disdainful, and lonely.
Until Helang came to the palace. He Lang is not rigidly adhered to his identity, the first time they met, they had a fight, and Zhao Ye lost.
Later, there was a time when he and Helang pinched each other almost as soon as they met. They tacitly did not tell anyone. Even if they sometimes had injuries on their faces, they kept silent.
This situation was broken half a year later when he was poisoned. It was the mother of the six princes who poisoned her.
He lay weak in bed with a stomachache, but he suffered in silence. He Lang came to see him, and he could see the real concern and worry in his eyes. He thought that if he died, maybe the only one who really felt sorry for him was Helang.
Simply because he is sad.
The mother will be sad because he is her son, but he is also a pawn in her net of power. The father would be sad, but he felt that maybe the father was more because there was no successor in his world who met his expectations.
Love is conditional. Although
he did not like the other princes and did not regard them as brothers, he did never want to harm them.
Experience will change a person, this thing also changed Zhao Ye. He realized that if he was destined to sit on the throne, everything was doomed. It is doomed to be bloody. Why should he die? Those who deserve to die are those who have bad ideas.
Later, when he sent the two princes to prison on the charge of forming a clique for personal gain and plotting against them, the two princes said to him, Zhao Ye, you were born the son of the empress, and as the eldest son of the wife, you enjoyed all the glory, and your father had a green eye for you. So you always stand high above the masses and look down on all living beings. You are always disdainful of us, because you get all this too easily. I didn’t lose to you. I lost to the system.
Zhao Ye listens to him to say to turn around to leave, leave the cell that section of road, his heart is mocking. He mocks the fate, mocks this to be unable to obtain. He had no intention of being the crown prince, but he was trapped in it. There are many people who want to get this power, but they are defeated one by one.
They didn’t get what they wanted. Who actually won?
Just already set foot on the road, he can not turn back.
So when he learned that his father had an illegitimate child outside, he himself was extremely disdainful. He even thought, how much ability can you have when you grow up in the countryside? He doesn’t feel he needs to guard against him. But he could see that the mother’s intention to kill was out of jealousy.
He didn’t want to upset his mother. He could not shake his mother’s determination. Besides, the man he wants to deal with is the third prince.
Later, whenever Zhao Ye remembered this scene, he felt that it was his own retribution. It was his blood in such a meaningless struggle for imperial power that made a big mistake.
One step wrong, one step wrong. When
he went to see his father, he had already set out the wine and was waiting for him. He didn’t say anything else, except to say, “Everyone says that the emperors are the most ruthless. In fact, it’s not the emperors who are ruthless, it’s the emperors who can’t tolerate half of their true feelings.”
Because in the whirlpool of power, sincerity will kill a person.
His father told him about the war.
Ye’er, you grew up in the imperial palace, so you never saw it with your own eyes. The position of emperor doesn’t mean much to you. I sent you to the front line, you must have seen the innocent people, displaced. You have the talent of an emperor, but you have too little experience. But after this war, you must understand that to really be a wise king, it is not up to ordinary people to think hard and seek calculation. Governing the country is by no means ideal. The emperor poured a glass of wine for Zhao Ye and paused. “Sining’s father is also very sad. Ye’er, now I have just gone through the war in the Northern Dynasty. The power in the court has changed, and everything needs to be done. I need a new monarch.”. This seat will be you in the future. I trust you, and you will do well.
“Father, son..” I don’t want to be the emperor. Zhao Ye said and knelt down to the emperor, he in front of the road has been unable to turn back, it is better to end from him here.
“I have only a few years left to live as a father.” The emperor sighed as he spoke. At the moment they looked like the father and son of an ordinary family. “Ye, you just can’t get out for a while.”. My father can only entrust this world to you.
Zhao Ye later learned that the original is before the West and the princess, she just came under the chronic poison, each time only a little bit, not easy to detect, although later found, but the father’s body has been hurt to the root.
Zhao Ye doesn’t remember how he got back to the palace. He stayed in his own palace for a period of time, of course, he understood the sufferings of the people, but in addition to him, other people can not do this emperor?
He knew that he should not be so narrow-minded as to say that he wanted to die or live for a woman. It’s just that he killed Ah Chu himself, and he can’t get over it.
In the end, he succumbed to reality. Father’s body did slowly begin to decline, he was in a high position to enjoy the splendor and wealth, he knew that he should not evade responsibility. At
the enthronement ceremony, he put on his crown, which was so heavy. He is the new king, and he will be responsible for the whole world.
Zhao Ye put all his energy on politics. He did have the talent to issue some decrees, reform some old practices, and reduce the tax burden, which did bring about a good cycle. He also focused on dealing with the annexation of Western Vietnam, appointing officials and pacifying the people.
The only thing that worried the minister was Zhao Ye’s harem.
Zhao Ye has been on the throne for seven years, but he has no son. Harem concubines are also very few, although your majesty had better not indulge in women, but there is no interest, but also worried about the supervisor.
The empress is not like the empress, who goes out of the palace to worship Buddha all day long, regardless of all the things in the harem. The emperor was not annoyed and let her go. Although Guogongfu was once a patriarch, your majesty really gave him face. In the third year of
Zhao Ye’s accession to the throne, he won the titles of Shu Fei and Jie Yu in the draft. Five years later, Zhao Yi was selected in the draft.
Even if is the emperor, also has his helplessness. When
Zhao Ye cried and asked her what was wrong that day, he still left. He usually put all his mind on politics to escape these, but now he can not escape. He built a small secret room for himself, and only this small secret room was the place where he could really relax for a moment. There is nothing
in the room, only the portrait. He looked at the picture in a trance.
He knew that he would eventually have children, otherwise who would pass the throne to in the future? Children are uncertain, and the world is prone to turbulence, leading to people’s livelihood. He is a monarch and cannot do such a risky thing. Only He really can’t do it.
He thought of the past again. At the beginning,
Ah Chu was more like a childhood sweetheart to him. He could not perceive Ah Chu’s intention to him, as if Ah Chu just let nature take its course and happened to be him. Later on the March all the way down, he was watching with his own eyes, from the beginning to see him just smile and call him Ye Zhao, to the end to see him are happy to rush over and embrace him.
They were in the same room at that time, and at night she took off her clothes directly, took off her stockings, put her little white feet into the water, and then asked him to wipe her feet. He couldn’t help teasing her: “You’re so bold and unconstrained that I look like a young lady.” But she didn’t care about his teasing at all. She raised her eyebrows and said, “What’s the matter?”? Don’t you have feet? We don’t look the same. What’s wrong with this dress? I have clothes inside. What’s wrong with this. My mother said, you’re.. What are you.. As if she had forgotten, she raised her little head, thought about it seriously, and said, “This is feudal thinking!”! The harm is not shallow.
He looked at her triumphantly and did not argue with her, but after wiping her feet, it was difficult for him not to make waves, so he told her, “It’s all right for you to do this in front of me, but not in front of others.”
“Well, what’s the matter?”? I’m all dressed up. Yeh Chao, what’s the matter with you? Why are your ears red?
He did not want her to see his embarrassment, so he hurried her to sleep and blew out the light. In the darkness, only he knew how many fascinating scenes he had imagined.
He thought that on that day, she would be dressed in a wedding dress, red and gorgeous, which would wash away the coldness of her body. She would look at him with a smile when he lifted the veil, and they would drink together, and she would be as shy as all brides.
He would kiss her seriously, kiss her everywhere, look at her and own her. She will only show her beauty in front of him, her brilliance, her brilliance. More than once
he had thought how touching she was like that. Presumably she will also be active, happy and enthusiastic.
She would be under him, looking at him with arched eyebrows, and the coldness would fade inch by inch, and the warmth would be kissed by him on her cheek layer by layer, and they would be the closest people in the world, and they would be one, and nothing could separate them.
In fact, if he wants to, he can do it at any time. But he didn’t want to neglect her. Her mind was still immature at this time, and she was a little manly. He was not in a hurry. He thought that everything they had should be the best and the most perfect.
But in the end, she went to the afterlife and never called him a leaf, nor did she look at him again.
Zhao Ye put his hand deep into his hair.
He thought of Rong Zhaoyi’s cry that day. What’s wrong with them? They married him, and they would never leave the palace again, and they would be royal until they died. He was a master of cheating. He would go to the harem and actually sleep with them, but he never touched them. He had an effortless insight into people’s hearts, and he could certainly see that the eyes of these women, from the beginning of the expectations, to the end with sorrow.
And the culprit of all this is him.
Maybe, maybe let them at least have a child. Maybe when they have children, they will be more lively after all.
Zhao Ye sighed deeply. He thought, since he put on the crown, many things are doomed, he can not change, but the time is early or late.
He went to Rong Zhaoyi’s house that night. He was sober, he wasn’t drinking, and he wasn’t pretending to be tired or making excuses as usual. He is actually a little dull. He felt that he didn’t deserve to like Ah Chu at all.
He could tell she was nervous. He could only comfort her, as well as himself: “Don’t be afraid, everything will pass.”
Gu Murong woke up the next day still a little dizzy. She couldn’t believe that she had really gone to bed? She thought of last night, he comforted her softly, in fact, she was not afraid, she was just worried that she would be mistaken for Lin Chu. It’s just that he’s sober. He’s always been sober. She actually knew it in her heart, but it was already very good, and she didn’t want to ask too much.
He was not rude to her, and even understood that it was her first time. He took care of her for a long time and waited for her to adapt before continuing. She decided to let herself not think so much and go on like this. That’s good.
Zhao Ye was stupefied for a long time after bathing. He knew that with the first time, the beginning could not end. He felt as if he were a runaway carriage driving to a cliff, and sooner or later, he would fall to pieces. He brought
this on himself.
He deserves it. Even if he tastes the pain of eating his heart day and night, he deserves it. The first time
yuan Qingqing met Zhao Ye was at a banquet in the palace. At that time, it was only the Mid-Autumn Festival, the first emperor held a banquet, and all the people went with their families. When she saw Zhao Ye, she was informed that the prince had arrived, and she knew that he was the prince. Royal children are naturally outstanding, character, talent, appearance, martial arts, Zhao Ye is a leader.
She was willing to enter the palace, and was elected, the beginning of the set is Zhaoyi, after the bed will be named Shu Fei.
But she had never thought that this bed would make her unspeakable.
Her temper is calm and graceful, and her words and deeds are the model of a lady, which is really hard for her to say. At this time Zhao Ye is the emperor, she is more afraid of him, he said how to do, dare not ask. She was afraid of overstepping her authority and leaving a bad impression on him. In fact,
she knew that the emperor should have a woman he loved deeply, because she had seen her. At the Lantern Festival Glutinous Rice Balls for Lantern Festival that year, she wanted to try her luck in the street, even if it was only to see him from a distance. She saw the prince holding a woman’s hand and laughed happily. She had never seen his Highness’s relaxed smile, which reached his eyes, and his eyes were full of her. He was holding the woman’s hand, with many gadgets in the other hand. The woman was beautiful, smiling warmly, holding stinky tofu in her hand and sending it to his mouth. His Highness seemed not to like it, and she had to bite the bullet and taste a piece. She looked at him like that and couldn’t help laughing. The servant girl did not understand what she was laughing at, and she felt that he was really cute like this. This is what a young man should look like, not an old man every day.
Only later when she entered the palace, she did not see the woman. She had never seen the emperor so happy again.
He was very polite to her and was never stingy with his rewards. But she always felt that he was a little depressed, and his eyebrows were filled with sadness.
She doesn’t blame him. She wanted to marry him herself. Apart from the bed thing, he was really good to her. He took care of the reward, the position, and the mother’s family.
She doesn’t expect anything. She thought that something might have happened to him, and that it must have made him very difficult. She thought she would stay with him and take good care of him. When he came to rest in her bedroom
that day, she thought it was the same as usual and did not make any preparations. When he suddenly took off her clothes, her whole body was suddenly afraid. Because she felt that such an emperor made her too strange. Although
she was afraid, she did not dare to make a sound. She was afraid of spoiling his interest, but she could not help trembling. He seemed to be aware of it and shook her hand, as if to comfort her and tell her not to be afraid. He kissed her so carefully that she could not help humming. She never knew that she would take the initiative. She felt a little embarrassed. Fortunately, he did not say anything. The lights went out. She could not see her blush in the darkness.
Women are always sensitive. She knew that although he had been very kind to her last night, he had not kissed her.
A kiss is not the same as a kiss.
Rong Zhaoyi had a wedding in the second year after she entered the palace. In the third month after Rong Zhaoyi was happy, Shu Fei was also happy. When Jiang Jing learned the news, an unspeakable pain rose in her heart, for Ah Chu and for herself.
She thought that Zhao Ye had forgotten after all. After all, she was the only one in the world who remembered Ah Chu.
After many years, she went to Ah Chu’s tomb again. She thought that Zhao Ye had not been here for a long time, because the graves were covered with grass, and the flowers on the road were gone, leaving only this green bamboo forest.
She always felt that she had no face to see Ah Chu. But she knew that Zhao Ye would come when he had time and sweep the grave with his own hands every time. She thought of Rong Zhaoyi’s pregnancy again, and she thought, after all, it was different.
She looked at the stone tablet and heard the rustling of the bamboo forest. She thought of that year when Ah Chu told her that her mother described her as a green bamboo. She had never seen Ah Chu’s mother, but she thought that she must be a strange woman, and how accurate the metaphor was.
Bamboo is tough and straight. Chu is like this, no matter where, always tall and straight, her eyebrows with a touch of alienation and cold, the corners of the mouth do not smile when showing a stubborn. She is always full of vitality, looking at her as if there is no need to panic when it comes to big things, there is no need to be afraid when it comes to obstacles that can not be overcome, she is showing such tenacity.
But when she smiles, her eyebrows and eyes suddenly give birth to a lot of warmth, her eyes are shining, showing cleverness and cunning, the corners of her mouth are raised, and the whole person is as sweet as a child, so that you can’t help but want to praise her, hug her, and even can’t help but want to kiss her in high spirits.
She was lost in thought until she heard a familiar voice behind her: “Little Jiangzi, is that you?”
Jiang Jing looked back in disbelief. Who did she see? She saw Ah Chu!
She was still dressed in men’s clothes, and her hair was tied up like a man. She was a little whiter and fatter than when she came back from the war. The scar on her face was gone, and she was more chivalrous than before. She just stood there and looked at her with a smile.
Chu, you’re still alive.. This is the best thing in the world.. Jiang Jing walked a few steps forward in disbelief. She trembled a little and touched Ah Chu’s cheek. The warm and real touch of her face made her inner joy ripple round and round like a lake. She could not calm down. She really understood the words “crying with joy”.
Jiang Jing’s tears fell without a sound. She didn’t know what she should say. She just kept repeating, “You’re still alive. It’s really great. Ah Chu, you’re still alive..”
“When I left, I sent you a letter with a veil. Didn’t you receive it?”
Jiang Jing shook her head to show that she didn’t know, but she didn’t want to waste her energy on this trivial matter at the moment. She interrupted Ah Chu: “These are not important, Ah Chu, they are not important. You are still alive. This is the most important thing.” She couldn’t help hugging Ah Chu tightly, and then burst into tears.
Jiang Jing has never cried so bitterly, she does not know why she is so sad, seems to want to cry all the tears of her life. Chu said nothing, but hugged her and let her cry, stroking her back from time to time. She cried until finally tired, the bottom of her heart like a string suddenly loosened, so that she actually wanted to sleep at the moment. She separated herself from Ah Chu, only to find that half of Ah Chu’s shoulder was wet with tears. She looked at Ah Chu and smiled, Ah Chu was still alive, so good.
It was the twelfth year of their separation.
Together they returned to the small house where Ah Chu and his mother had lived, and rested together at night as they had when they were young. They have too many words to ask each other in their hearts, but they don’t know where to start. However, the two men tacitly did not mention that Jiang Jing liked Ah Chu.
As far as Jiang Jing is concerned, she is grateful that Ah Chu did not mention this. She was also grateful that Ah Chu had not alienated her and regarded her as a freak because of this. She still treats her as usual, which makes her very satisfied, Ah Chu has his own life, she should not affect her.
As far as Lin Chu is concerned, she just thought of it, but it was not easy to open her mouth.
Both of them tacitly did not mention Zhao Ye and He Lang. Instead of talking about the past, they wanted to ask each other how they were doing later. Just two people look at each other, and tacitly smile, are immersed in the joy of this reunion.
They could not resist the sleepiness and fell into a deep sleep. The next morning, Jiang Jing pushed the door open and saw a strange man standing outside the courtyard, looking angrily at Ah Chu. Jiang Jing looked at Ah Chu and found that they should know each other. The man had an elegant temperament, which seemed not to be contaminated by the earthly world. He was thin, dressed in white, with anger in his eyes. When he saw Lin Chu, he left without saying a word.
Jiang Jing was about to ask Ah Chu who this person was. Unexpectedly, Ah Chu repeatedly said something bad. She was a little anxious. She left her address with a pen and paper and gave it to Jiang Jing. She said, “Little Jiang Zi, I have something important to do now. This is where I am now. You can come to me at any time.”. I’ll explain everything else to you later. I’ll go first. Then
Ah Chu hurried away.
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