When I was 18, I found a schoolboy who nobody wanted.
I tried for a long time, but I couldn’t keep him warm.
Then his little Qing Mei appeared.
I knew he had a gentle side, but not to me.
The day I let go, I lied and said I’d go.
Then he never came back.
Seven years later, the film was re-emerged and he grabbed me:
“I’ll be right back.”
“Where the hell have you been? I’m sorry.
01
I’m sweaty.
I’m five meters behind you.
As soon as I turn around, I’ll run into him.
He said: “Sir, Mr. Pei, you shall show your love and unreward in the next play. I’m sorry.
Bae Chi softly laughed.
“Beloved”?
Deputy director: “Do you think it’s wrong?”
“It’s all ex-girlfriends. What else is there to love? I’m sorry.
His voice is still the same.
When he was 18, he called me with this voice, or light or heavy…
“Age. I’m sorry.
Discussions behind us continue.
I didn’t hear you.
But the sound of Bae’s distant voice is clearly in the ear membrane:
“My predecessor? I forgot I didn’t have a hobby to turn back. I’m sorry.
Ooh.
I’m not going to meet him either.
After the show, we split up, fine.
That’s what I was thinking.
“Age, have you found the props? I’m sorry.
02
All of a sudden it’s quiet behind you.
I picked up the props and ran away.
Bae Chi didn’t catch up.
He probably didn’t hear it.
I might have heard it, but it doesn’t matter.
And when I set up the studio, I said to my colleague, “Don’t call me a young man next time. I’m sorry.
“What’s wrong? How old are you?” I’m sorry.
“It’s more professional. I’m sorry.
My colleague laughed and believed in it.
This is my first play to become an assistant director.
I knew he was Bae Sheng before I joined the group.
He’s the star of the second generation. He’s got half a circle of resources.
I happen to be his first love.
I hesitated to come.
Eventually, I didn’t want to give up such a good job.
I swear in my heart, he can’t find me.
Or I’m finished.
Because seven years ago, we broke up badly.
I said in my letter:
“I knew you were a star. I don’t like little punks, I like Sven’s boys. Don’t see me again. Bye.
As much as the words are spilled, so much as I walk.
I don’t know what it’s like to read that letter.
But he is one of those who pay the price.
If he catches me, my career might be blocked.
My colleague said, “The Bae-jin Man is better-looking than the TV. I’m sorry.
“I don’t want to think about who his parents were, who they used to be. I’m sorry.
“I like Bae-jin’s style! Qing Joon-man. Ow, he must have grass in school. I’m sorry.
I almost choked.
Bae Chi? School grass?
Big mistake.
He’s not just school lawn, he’s an asshole who everyone can avoid.
I’ll never forget his first face.
He’s just finished fighting, all blue.
In the rain, people were rushing in the streets, but he was as dead and sat by the side of the road.
Until I got close, he looked up:
“Go away. I’m sorry.
His tone was as if he were a mad dog, and the next second he would tear me apart.
But I didn’t roll.
I wrangled my hand and covered his head with a small chute.
That’s the beginning of me and Baez.
I shook my head and threw my memories out of my head.
The scenery’s over.
The studio was too noisy. I went to the stairwell.
Just pushed the door open and it choked.
Bae Sheng stood in the dark and a little red on her finger.
He lifts up thin eyelids and looks at me.
Just like that year.
03
The stairwell is dark and quiet.
“…sorry to disturb you. “I bowed my head and left.
“What do you do?” I’m sorry.
“The director’s assistant. I’m sorry.
“Just graduated?”
“Hmm. I’m sorry.
“It’s good to be an assistant to Zhang upon graduation. I’m sorry.
“Thank you, Mr. Pei. I’m sorry.
“How old are you? I’m sorry.
Twenty-five. I’m sorry.
“We’re the same age, you call me teacher?” I’m sorry.
“The co-director also calls you Teacher. He’s 433. I’m sorry.
“And call again. I’m sorry.
I:
I’m hard-headed, “Mrs. Pei. I’m sorry.
In the dark, I can’t see.
But the kind that smiles without any feelings.
I’m so hairy.
I’m lucky he didn’t recognize me.
Compared to seven years ago, I almost changed.
From a thin yellow-skinned bean sprouts to a pretty little girl who’s gonna be flattered.
My relatives almost didn’t recognize me, especially now that I’m in the dark.
“Teacher Pei, rest. I’m going home. I’m sorry.
“Wait. He stopped me again.
“What’s your name? I’m sorry.
Bae Chi asked suddenly.
04
“Traffy.
“I call, Zhi Yi.”
“Have you ever used another name?”
“None. I’m sorry.
Bae Chi is silent.
I have a cold sweat.
My name was Cheng Yao and I changed my name.
He lied to me, and now I’m even if I lie to him again.
I found Bae Sheng on the corner.
He said he had nowhere to go and no family.
I believe it.
I thought he was a poor kid like me.
When I was a kid, Mom hated me because I was my daughter.
After she and my dad divorced, they formed new families.
I have a son.
They don’t want me, I’m in foster care in aunt’s basement.
I’ve been a good boy since I was a kid.
Be good, at least eat.
Me and Baez are completely different people.
He smokes and fights.
I’m quiet inside and I don’t know anything but to learn.
Me and Pei Sheng are in a class.
I sat in the first row, his last row.
No one knows what his family does or even hears that he has no parents and is homeless.
We’re both in school like strangers.
But no one knows. Every night, Bae Chi knocks on a window in the basement.
I’ll make a little floor and let him lay the floor.
The next day, before his aunt’s family woke up, he would leave early, as if he had never appeared.
Bae Chi regularly skips school and is always injured.
Every time, I drugged him.
He said, “Can you be gentle with him?” I’m sorry.
“Call me old. I’m sorry.
“Oh, old classmate. I’m sorry.
My little name was my age, and my dead grandmother took it.
I prefer that name to Kichi.
Because Bae Chi used to work in the floor, I subconsciously felt that he was worse than me.
In addition, there’s a delusion –
When I forgot my textbooks in class and was questioned by my teacher, Bae-jin went from the last row to the front and threw my books on my desk;
When I was bullied by my classmates from outside, and I didn’t know how to argue, Bae Chi would stand in front of me and say that I was his cover.
I thought we were together.
It was not until later that I realized that there was nothing to be ashamed of.
Bae Tsing is a second generation, home property, cars.
He’s got a shoe that can buy me a season of clothes.
He’s just borrowing me to piss off his family.
When did I find out?
It’s about the day Sue appeared.
The thought was interrupted.
Back in the studio, a cup of milk and tea to my hand.
The colleague said, “Su was visiting again and bought milk tea for everyone. Look! White Fu-mi stands with the Shadow King! I’m sorry.
I’m not looking far.
Sojoon is poignant.
Bae Tsai’s on his side, listen.
I, like everyone else, can’t look at this beautiful picture.
Suddenly.
Bae Chi seems sensitive.
Look at me.
05
I’m down right now.
Bae Chi wasn’t looking at me.
As if it was just my fault.
Sojo is still stinging.
Brother Bae, you come to Paris with me after killing Qing. I’m sorry.
Voice, like seven years ago.
I can’t help but think.
When I was in high school, Bae-jin and I were in pure school together.
Until the end of the exam.
The summer, the reunion, it’s till midnight.
I was followed by a few drunk punks.
Bae Chi fell from the sky and beat them up with his fist.
Maybe he’s out of school, maybe he’s grown up.
All of a sudden, I’m happy to see Pei.
I got the courage to confess.
Then he took the initiative to hold hands, hugged, kissed for the first time.
Bae Chi is not enthusiastic, nor does he refuse.
He’s still like a hard bone that can’t eat, and there’s no soft word in his mouth.
But in some ways, he’s a qualified boyfriend.
For example, be there on call, be generous to me.
Bae Chi never takes me to his friends.
Once, I went to the pool room and I wanted to surprise him.
And he covered his face, and he said, “Don’t come here later.” I’m sorry.
I didn’t think much of him at the time.
Until, of course.
She wears expensive little skirts, and she has a fine makeup, like a light, in my world.
And she cried out to his brother, scoffing.
Brother Bae, why are you here?
Brother Bae, where’s the Ferrari you just bought? Take me for a ride!”
The word “Farraly” almost gave me a flashback.
“Who is she?” I’m sorry.
“Hello, I’m Bae Chi’s girlfriend. I’m sorry.
“Huh? Are you kidding me? How can Brother Bae like you? I’m his future girlfriend. We have a marriage. I’m sorry.
Bullshit. I’m sorry.
Bae Chi’s face was black-faced, pushing Su Chow out.
“Don’t listen to her. I didn’t agree to the engagement. I’m sorry.
His explanation is pale.
Later, my parents came to me, and I realized that Bae Chi was a star.
It’s not just the second generation. His family owns almost half of the entertainment.
Bae Chi has a bad relationship with her parents.
He deliberately moved from a nobility school to a general high school.
I didn’t want to go home.
Parents are often out there, have a hard time with their son and have no idea what he is doing every day.
At the end of the conversation, his father said to me:
“You may not know that Bae Chi is a rebel and that he was with you on purpose, not in love with you. And if you do not believe, observe how he was right.
“He likes it, but two kids from childhood and he doesn’t realize his feelings.
“You’re not with us, Cheng. I’m sorry.
Like a thunderstorm.
Then I found out his dad wasn’t lying to me.
But Bae-jin is very patient with her.
I’d let her have a little temper and satisfy her.
The most serious one.
Sue laughed at me the first second, and the next second Bae-jin appeared, she became Zhang’s face.
“Big Bae, Cheng Yao just pushed me to a punk! I’m scared!
Bae Chi was in a hurry: “Age, I told you, don’t mess with her.” I’m sorry.
Sue stood behind him and pretended to be a ghost.
I understood that moment.
Bae Chi is not an iron tree, just not a flower for me.
At the end of August, I accepted Bae Chi’s parents’ offer.
With their financial support, study abroad.
On my terms, this may be my only chance to study in my life.
The day I left, I told Bae Chi I wanted to buy chocolate.
Bae Chi used to pull out his wallet: “I want to buy the most expensive.” I’m sorry.
I didn’t answer, “No, I’ll go back.” I’m sorry.
“Well, wait for you.
Then I never came back.
06
At the request of Pei Chi’s parents, I left a vicious break-up letter that completely broke her mind.
This first love, which was limited to three months, fell with the fall.
I changed my name, and I broke up with my high school classmates.
– I didn’t have much of a sense of existence.
I cherish hard-won access to school and learn to work and dress.
The name changed, and Pei Chi’s parents wouldn’t find me.
In his eyes, I was dead.
But I haven’t heard much about Bae Chi.
After I left, he decided to read it and take North Electric.
College’s out of the way, Starfleet.
He’s in front of the camera, and he’s so clear and soft and smiles to the hearts of his fans.
I can’t see the shadow of the day at all.
People change, I guess.
At the end of the day, I was so tired.
Coworkers seem to have had chicken blood.
“Oh, my God! This is awesome! I’m sorry.
“What? I’m sorry.
“The New Pathfinder of Pei Chi! Hot search! I’m sorry.
I stretch my head.
A photo of the scratch, it’s hot.
“Peez, this scene is an accident. Look at him! It’s amazing!”
Bae Chi’s got the Man One on the line! I’m sorry.
In this picture, Bae looks forward to it.
It’s good to raise your hands.
The dark flames are burning in the eyes.
And even more alarming is the edge of the picture, where he looks.
Fake the back.
It’s me.
07
Next day, shoot continues.
There’s been an accident by the heroine.
This is an important male and female competition that no one can afford.
The director was in a hurry and finally decided to find a double and shoot Bae-jin’s camera first.
Bae Chi will personally choose a replacement.
I’m standing on the outside of the crowd.
Bae’s eyes are on me.
“There she is. I’m sorry.
I’m confused.
The director didn’t have a problem with it, but he made me put on the lead lady’s clothes.
I just need a cover.
But in order to prevent it, the make-up guy gave me a makeup.
And when he stood before Bae-chul, he had a moment of deity.
I can’t look at him.
“You’re nervous. I’m sorry.
“I didn’t act. I’m sorry.
“You don’t have to. Just listen. He said, “Easy, you’re nervous, you’re stiff, and it’s not natural. I’m sorry.
“Okay. I’m sorry.
“You can breathe deep, adjust. I’m sorry.
“Thank you, Mr. Pei. I’m sorry.
“Well, you just listen to my lines. And…
He didn’t go on.
“What else? I look up and look at him.
“And where’s my chocolate?”
Bae Tsai’s eyes were full of madness and he didn’t lose.
He slowly reached out his hand.
“You’re seven years old. You should have bought it. I’m sorry.
08
I lost my horse.
That’s my first reaction.
Bae Chi already recognized me.
And this is also the story of the man who told her the truth after a long time.
I thought that was what he wanted to say to me.
But how is that possible?
Bae-jin, in reality, never said anything to me.
After the shoot, the director raised his thumb at me.
“You’ve got some talent, Cheng. I’m sorry.
I:
Is it possible that we’re both on the scene?
I’ll pick up Pei Tsing’s next show.
I’m so big, Pei Chi has so much to gain, the director can’t be offended. What’s not revenge when I’m appointed?
I’ve been raised from assistant to assistant, assistant to Pei Sheng.
Eighteen hours a day to go around him.
But I’m more than just an assistant.
For example, the group has to carry heavy props and the girls have to be strong.
I just lifted my sleeve and I was caught by Bae-jin.
“Buy me a milk tea. I’m sorry.
Not just milk tea, he ordered a lot of snacks.
I had to come back.
But one thing is, my colleagues are envious of me, and I can go out with pay.
Buying snacks and not eating them.
“I don’t want to eat, take it away. I’m sorry.
So, working for Bae Chi for a week, I’m fat.
It’s been a long time since I’ve been curious.
“Did he buy you snacks on purpose? I’m sorry.
“No way. I’m sorry.
“But he’s really letting you go. My colleague said, “Pe is tough, his company has invested in this play, and his former deputy has been told, but he has never lectured you. I’m sorry.
“Nothing. I deny it.
It’s good if he doesn’t torture me.
The verse in the group floated into the ears.
Su was in a hurry to come.
“You’re Brother Bae’s new assistant? I’m sorry.
I couldn’t help but correct her: “It’s a side guide.” I’m sorry.
“So young, can you do it well? I’m sorry.
“Miss Sue, please don’t judge by appearance. I’m sorry.
Sue just looked at me and looked at me.
“Did I meet you somewhere? I’m sorry.
09
“Maybe you’re mistaken. I’m sorry.
I’m not interested in talking to the princess.
So he grunted: “You women of the band, I see much more. I’m sorry.
I said, “What?”
“Do not think that Brother Pei will use you again, and you will have a chance to climb up, and I urge you to take your place, or you will not be able to end up sad.” I’m sorry.
“What are you talking about?”
“You’re a little like your old girlfriend. I’m sorry.
Having said that, Susu awaits my response.
She thought I’d be shocked and sad and treated as a double.
But I looked at her with confusion: “So what?” I’m sorry.
“He used you again. He used you as a double, not as much as he appreciated you.” Brother Bae hates that man. Don’t be too proud! I’m sorry.
I dropped my job and laughed at her.
“Why do you need a double if you hate him? That’s contradictory, Miss Sue. I’m sorry.
So, you’re right, so angry.
After she left, my heart couldn’t rest.
Bae hates me.
That’s true.
At night, Bae Chi suddenly sent me a message to give him medicine.
I bought the medicine and sent it up.
I thought Baez was just messing with me.
But he’s sick and he’s sweaty.
“What’s wrong with you? I asked.
“The stomach hurts. I’m sorry.
“Where’s your assistant? I’m sorry.
“Going downtown, not coming back. I’m sorry.
That’s weird. Bae-jin didn’t have stomach problems.
I said, “What’s wrong with your stomach?” I’m sorry.
“Rereading that year, not eating well. I’m sorry.
“Why don’t you eat? I’m sorry.
“No one left me food. He’s half eyelids, look at me.
It reminds me of before.
When Bae Chi comes to the store, I leave him a meal.
By the time I finished my homework, he’d eaten his food clean.
“Where’s the cafeteria? I’m sorry.
“It’s bad. I’m sorry.
Well, it was his stubbornness.
I see a big table on the table and it’s hot.
Bae Chi said, “I just got here, I can’t eat my stomach. I’m sorry.
“Too bad. I’m sorry.
I’m dying every day at the troupe.
“You eat. He said, “It’s a waste to keep it or to eat it or to pour it out.” I’m sorry.
I broke a chopstick and sat down at the table.
I ate very quietly, and the house was quiet.
I thought Baez was asleep.
He’s looking at me and laughing.
Just one look and his smile is gone.
He’s back to what the world owes him.
Bad dogs.
Nothing’s changed.
I’m whispering.
We are as silent as we have ever been.
Bae Chi didn’t ask until I left.
“Age, I have nothing to do with Sue. No, no, no, no. I’m sorry.
“Oh,” I nod in a polite place, “but I don’t care, Mr. Bae. I’m sorry.
10
I said that for a few days.
It doesn’t matter. It’s killing him anyway.
But just days before the killing, there was a big accident.
A boat play, a windy day.
The recorder went to the bathroom, and I took his job, standing on the edge of the deck, holding a microphone longer than my own.
I’m a little unbalanced, shaking.
I fell out of the boat when the wind blew.
Here’s the lake and I can’t swim.
In chaos, I heard a shout.
“Age! I’m sorry.
Bae-jin jumped straight down.
He’s holding me up like he won’t let go.
Then I don’t remember anything.
I woke up in a strange room.
On the bedside there is a hand-written message:
“This is my house. It’s not far from the studio. I’ll take a few days off. If you want to change, there’s a lady’s clothes in the hood. I’m sorry.
It looks like Bae Chi’s.
A lot of actors have rooms around the shooting base.
Bae Chi is no exception.
I used to read gossip that he lived here most of the time.
The house was clean, I went into the cloakroom, a flower umbrella, the first curtain.
It’s the one I beat Pei Chi.
The umbrella is old and of poor quality, but it is placed at the centre of the cloakroom.
And suddenly I remember the day of the rain.
I used this umbrella to cover the storm.
Bae Chi has been trying to blow me away.
I don’t know where I got the courage to rip off his coat and examine his wounds.
“You’re–” He tried to swear, and he put up with it.
“Fine, no hospital. I put an umbrella in his hand, and I said, “Wait, I’ll buy the medicine, I’ll be right back. I’m sorry.
Get out of here! I’m sorry.
He’s pissed off.
Ten minutes later, I went back, bought medicine, bought food.
The rain made me a little water man.
He looked at me in silence.
Since that day, Bae Chi has not spoken to me in a dirty word.
Then I realized, actually, he was shocked.
No one has ever returned in his life.
I was the first.
I don’t know.
End of memory.
I found the lady’s clothes and slowly changed them.
The shirt was not ready, and the door in the closet was suddenly pushed.
Me and Bae Shen face.
A little awkward.
Eleven.
Bae Chi immediately withdrew.
When I changed my clothes, he said, “You haven’t moved, I thought you were gone again.” I’m sorry.
I said, “What is it? I’m sorry.
Bae-hyun, calm down.
That used to work.
As long as Bae-Zhi is angry, I will ask him, “What’s so bad?” And he’ll just blow his head off.
I didn’t know it worked.
I went on to say, “Why don’t you knock in the closet? I’m sorry.
“I didn’t know you were in there! “I didn’t see anything, really! I’m sorry if you’re upset. I’m sorry.
“…”
I’ve found out before that Bae-jin was like a mad dog, but in some things, unexpected purity.
“It’s okay,” I’m a little tired to say, “It’s not like I haven’t seen it. I’m sorry.
It’s not right to finish.
It’s true, Bae-jin has lips, from face to neck, all red.
I’m off the subject: “You’re not doing anything today? I’m sorry.
“I’m done. I’m going to cook some rice. You’ll take your pills later. I’m sorry.
I had a cold because of the water.
Bae-jin was wearing an apron when he brought in the rice.
I can’t help but take a look.
“The dog is an apron, a good wife and a good mother. I’m sorry.
“What did you say?”
“I said, thank you. I’m sorry.
Bae’s eyes are so bright, they seem to have won a prize for a dog.
But the tone of the speech is harsh: “Eats are empty, don’t waste them.” What else do you want? I can make it hard for you. I’m sorry.
“Don’t bother, do your thing. I’m sorry.
“I’m not going back to the show tonight. I have time to prepare. I’m sorry.
I hesitated, “What if you sleep here?” I’m sorry.
“Hmm. I’m sorry.
“…I moved to the side. I’m sorry.
“There is no extra mattresses on the side, and on the side is a fine lie, and do not make a diversion.” I’m sorry.
Bae Chi pointed to the floor.
“As usual, I lay the floor. I’m sorry.
12
I set fire in the middle of the night.
Bae’s hardly asleep, so change my towels for the rest of the time.
People are so confused that they’re hallucinating.
I thought I was going back to that little basement.
Bae sleeps on the ground, shunning, and is miles away from me.
There was a table between us, and I looked and only saw his back.
Once, Bae-jin was sick, and he didn’t say anything.
I felt wrong in the middle of the night. Get up and try his forehead.
It’s hot.
I went upstairs to find a deflammation pill and wiped his face over and over again with a towel.
Bae-jin reached out and grabbed me.
I caught him for a while, like I was walking away.
Wait till you fall asleep.
That was my last contact with him before graduation.
Most of the time, we’re strangers and we pass through school.
I don’t know.
He was dazed all night.
The next day, Bae Chi was gone.
He was temporarily called to repo.
But on the table, there’s already cooked food.
Right in the middle, is a pack of chocolate.
The most expensive kind.
Half-eating, people coming in.
I thought Bae Chi was back.
But here comes a strange man.
I have the impression that Bae Chi’s agent is his best friend.
The agent just looked at me.
“Fuck, Bae Chi will hide a woman. I’m sorry.
13
I’ll explain everything. I’m just the assistant director.
The agent asked me my name.
We said: “Then call me old.” I’m sorry.
He almost jumped.
“Age? You’re an old man!”
“What’s wrong? I’m sorry.
And he looked at me with his heart: “You are old!” I’m sorry.
And he said to me, “Peez was crazy about you. I’m sorry.
I:
“And when he could not find you, he turned his back on himself, neither to eat nor to sleep, and the whole man fell down to the bottom of the valley, and fell.” I’m sorry.
The broker smiled and said, “Well, he found it, he’s safe. Seven years, he won’t have to torture himself again. I’m sorry.
“You’re joking,” I said, “I’ve only been talking to him for three months, not so memorable. I’m sorry.
“How? You didn’t know Bae Chi was a star, did you? I’m sorry.
I’m holding.
“Because of his parents’ relationship, he was a big fan of the star career, and he refused to let him out of the house. But right after I broke up with you, this guy suddenly said he wanted to be a star.
“Say it because you like movies, and when you’re a star, you can stand in the brightest place to see…”
There’s something about that.
One night I couldn’t sleep and talked to Pei.
Are you asleep?
“None. I’m sorry.
“I watched a movie today, Roman Holiday. It’s beautiful. I’m sorry.
“Not interested. I’m sorry.
“I love movies. I wish I could make movies, but it’s expensive, right? I have no money. I’m sorry.
“No charge, shoot.”
I think he doesn’t know anything. He just doesn’t talk.
Turns out he remembers.
The broker is very impressed.
“O thou art only for three months, that he may think for a lifetime. I’m sorry.
In the afternoon, Bae Chi came back.
“What are you doing here? I’m sorry.
“You’re going to kill him. Come clean up. I’m sorry.
“No, you go. In addition, I need to take a break from the announcement. I’m sorry.
“Oh, you’ve forgotten, remember, before you couldn’t find her and cried in front of me…”
“Don’t say that in front of my girlfriend.” I’m sorry.
I corrected “ex-girlfriend.” I’m sorry.
“You don’t break up without telling me. I’m sorry.
“I wrote. I’m sorry.
“It’s just a letter. I threw it away after I read it. I’m sorry.
The broker slipped away.
I said, “Do you not get angry at seeing this letter?” I said I’m going to rip you off…”
“You don’t have the guts. Besides, I can’t watch the news myself. I’m sorry.
I’m dumb.
Bae Chi went to wash fruit.
I went on to say, “It takes one person to agree to break up.” Whether you admit it or not, we’re done. I’m sorry.
“Then I will pursue again.” I’m sorry.
“It’s no use, Bae-jin. I’m sorry.
“Are you mad at me?”
He had a smoke on the scene, but looked at me and strangled it.
‘Cause I lied to you, didn’t I tell you my background? Or because I didn’t explain it to you in time because of Sue. I’m sorry.
“both and neither. Bae Chi, we’re not on the same page. Don’t ask. I’m sorry.
It’s quiet inside.
For some time now, Bae’s eyes were covered in blood and said:
“I’m going to ask. I’m sorry.
14
I didn’t take Pei Chi’s words seriously.
After killing Qing, I went back home.
My aunt’s old house was to be demolished and asked me to help with the furniture.
Aunt used to be partial to her children, but after all, I didn’t want to be a wolf.
On the way back through high school.
The renovation of school buildings in previous years has changed considerably.
I stood at my mouth for a while, and I was stopped.
“Hello? You’re who you are! I remember you! I’m sorry.
The guard room came out with a man who looked like me.
“You’re from this school. I remember you were in the same class as Bae Shek, right? I’m sorry.
I nod, “Who are you?” I’m sorry.
“I fought with Bae Chi before. By the way, why are you alone today? He’s always behind you. I’m sorry.
“Follow me behind me?” I’m sorry.
“Yeah, every night after school, Bae Chi followed you and sent you home. I’m sorry.
How could this happen?
I don’t believe it. The boys say:
“The most exaggerating was when I had an appointment with him! At half the time, he suddenly stopped and said he was going back to school. Hey, I’m curious. Just him. Back to school? I followed him. I was curious. I found the guy waiting at the door. I’m sorry.
Yeah. I’m sorry.
The boys pointed to the tree in the corner.
“He was standing there waiting. I’m sorry.
Seventeen-year-old Bae-jin likes to wear black and keep his head.
Always mixed with the night.
A wind blows.
He stood there like a star.
Aunt called me.
When I got there, I was handling the basement.
I’ve slept in the bed, I’ve used the desk and moved out.
She said, “Age, I found something. Come on. I’m sorry.
She means the corner of the dark, bald ground.
That’s on it, all my name.
15
“Is that the guy who carved it? I’m sorry.
Aunt said, “The boy who’s a star now. I’m sorry.
I wonder, “How do you know…”
“He came to see me! I’m sorry.
“…when?”
“Do you remember I found a cigarette in here and I trained you? I’m sorry.
“Remember!”
“You were so stubborn, I didn’t want to talk about you! You didn’t tell the truth, you said you smoked it yourself. But I know you’re not that kid. I’m sorry.
Remembering once, my aunt was in love.
“The day I lectured you, the boy was in the window, and he saw it all. Then he found me in private, kneeled before me and made a mistake, begging me not to blame you. I’m sorry.
I grabbed the horn, I was breathing slow.
“I fear he will corrupt you, and do not allow him to go back to the pavement.” I’m sorry.
I see.
By the end of the sophomore year, Bae Chi stopped eating.
At school, he was always surrounded by a bunch of punks, and I couldn’t find a chance to ask him.
One day, I finally had the courage.
I didn’t wait for Bae’s answer, and the next guy laughed: “Pe is amazing, and a good student is warmed up.”
Bae-jin’s fists were raised and he was bleeding.
“She’s a girl, don’t be such a bitch! I’m sorry.
It was the first time I saw Pei’s anger, a little bloody, and I ran away.
The next day, Bae Sheng passed through my desk and said, “I found a place to live.” I’m sorry.
Kind of answered my question.
Those marks on the fingertips.
This is where Baez used to lay the floor.
They mean, there was also some sleepless night.
Bae Chi said nothing.
But he called me in his heart, thousands of times.
16
The day before the demolition.
I walked back to my aunt’s again from the school entrance.
This familiar path is covered by a thick tree.
All the way to the end, saw that little window in the basement.
It’s like an EKV, I turn around.
Bae Chi was wearing a mask and standing across the street.
Twenty minutes later, we sat down at a restaurant we used to go to.
I haven’t heard from him since he was killed.
Didn’t think he’d find it.
The old pool room next to the restaurant.
I looked in and out of the boys and suddenly wanted an answer.
“Pezy, I came to see you that summer. I’m sorry.
“Hmm. I’m sorry.
“You were impatient to get rid of me. Do you know I’m sad? I’m sorry.
And Bae was stunned: “I was not impatient, but I was old, and I was only afraid and anxious. I’m sorry.
“What are you afraid of?”
“That pool room wasn’t a good place, and the guy I saw that day wasn’t a good guy, and he was always trying to beat me up. I was so scared when you showed up, I was afraid they’d be watching you.”
Bae’s eyebrow is locked, remember.
“I’m sorry I’m old, I’m so nervous, you got the wrong idea. I’m sorry.
That’s when the boss called us.
I let Pei Chi buy a bottle of water.
In the middle of his departure, I was surrounded by a bunch of dirty men.
“Beautiful, to play with?”
“That was your boyfriend? What’s wrong with him? I’m sorry.
And I looked at them, “Go away. I’m sorry.
“Yo, that’s not a bad temper. That’s more fun with us. I’m sorry.
The man who hit his head reached out and tried to touch my shoulder.
Next second, he’s screaming in pain.
Baez almost broke his wrist.
“Fuck you! Beat him! Beat him!”
Bae Chi kept me behind.
He completely abandoned disguises and man-made structures and breathed his breath.
I looked up.
It’s him, I’m familiar with Bae Chi back.
Brutal, grumpy.
I’ve been protected.
I have no doubt that Bae Tsai will turn them all over.
But I have to stop him.
He’s special today. He can’t fight.
Bae-jin was stubborn, staring at the four of them, had to get justice.
I pulled his hand.
Bae Chi, please, I’m scared. I’m sorry.
Bae Tsai lost his mind.
Then the whole man was brushed under the water, and there was nothing to breathe, even the angles became soft.
“You’re afraid of being old… I’m sorry.
“Pei Chi, let’s run. I’m sorry.
Bae-jin held me back and pulled me and ran.
Through the streets and people.
We run and run and we’re tired.
Heart beats are amplified in my ears, boom, boom…
The last time I heard this voice, it was because of this man who brought me a young vibe.
And now.
He’s still like that kid.
17
We ran all the way to aunt’s house and went into the basement.
It’s empty, waiting for tomorrow’s demolition.
There’s no light, only moonlight comes in.
Bae Chi…
“Age…”
We have nothing to say.
Finally, I’m going to say it first.
“You used to take me home every day? I’m sorry.
“Well, it’s a very remote road for you. You go alone, I don’t feel comfortable. I’m sorry.
“Why didn’t you tell me? I’m sorry.
“Why would I tell you? He was lazy and said, “You’re scared, you’re scared. You’re going to college. You’re going to study. I’ll take care of the rest. I’m sorry.
And I pointed to the carvings on the ground: “What does that mean?” I’m sorry.
“I like what you mean. I’m sorry.
I took a moment to say, “You didn’t say it when you were 18. I’m sorry.
Bae-jin looked down and opened his mouth: “Because I didn’t know what to say before…”
Bae Chi has a special past.
He’s got parents, but I don’t think so.
Growing up in a cold relationship, no one taught him how to love someone.
No one told him how to express love.
Bae-jin thought it was a confession to pay me if you asked me to.
He’s actually happy about my sudden initiative.
But it’s passive because it’s not used to being loved and not being intimate.
Bae Chi practiced, looked in the mirror, but it was weird.
He said no, just write it down.
He folded a thousand cranes, and each one of them says, “I like you.”
I was going to give it to me on my birthday.
Unfortunately, not until that day.
Then he filmed, experienced different lives and finally learned to express.
But the person who wanted to speak to was gone.
For a moment, I went on to ask:
“What about Zoan? You were so good to her.”
“I was good to her because she saved my life.” I’m sorry.
I looked up, “What?” I’m sorry.
“When I was little, Mom and Dad left me alone, and she used to come and play with me. She cried and started to draw the attention of adults, and they found me sick. The doctor said I’d burn my head a little later. I’m sorry.
Turning up the past, Pei Chi laughed.
After that, I promised her I’d treat her like a sister. I did think of her as my sister after all these years. But that summer, there was a secret.
“Sou Zhou threatened me, if he didn’t tolerate her, to complain to my parents and make them hate you. My parents have always believed in you, and it’s bad for you.
“And I don’t trust my parents, who, if they turn their backs on you, may work in secret to keep you out of college. I’m sorry.
I was like, “So you told me not to mess with her…”
“Yes. I’m sorry.
Bae Chi knows what I’m talking about.
“Sou Zhou said that you had set her up, and I did not believe a word. I simply hoped that you would not have any connection with her, nor even speak, so that you would be safe.” I’m sorry.
Bae Zhi Zhuen pulls his head like a depressed dog.
“I didn’t think you’d get this far, old, but you could ask me directly. I’m sorry.
I remember the past, and I felt it.
He doesn’t know how to love someone.
No, I don’t know.
I lost the courage to ask questions after being abandoned by my biological parents.
As a child, I only obey.
In my world, only obedience, good conduct and good conduct will be given a rare compliment.
I don’t want to be abandoned again.
I’d rather die than ask him a word.
Not to be angry.
No love, it’s both of us.
Bae Chi is a dog.
Am I not?
I’m just a dog eager for salvation.
The moon was so cold, Bae-jin grabbed my hand and never let go.
But there is one more thing.
“I left the country for your parents. I’m sorry.
“I guessed. I’m sorry.
“I can’t actually leave but that’s probably my only chance to study, and I’ve been selfish. I’m sorry.
“I see,” and Bae smiled, “You’ve always been a good boy, but I’d rather you be selfish and not hurt by the outside world.” I’m sorry.
“…I will also focus on my career.” I’m sorry.
“No problem, I follow you. I’m sorry.
“You’re the Shadow King, you have a future, why follow me? I’m sorry.
“So what? You’re the one who started the movie. Age, I want to be your exclusive guardian. I’m sorry.
Just like ever.
Stay with me, walk every night.
I’m a little tired, head on his shoulder.
“Pei Chi, we only talked for three months. I’m sorry.
Bae Zhu devoutly fell on my forehead.
“But I like it more than three months. I’m sorry.
18
Bae Sheng’s got a full score.
The day after the misunderstanding, he posted his tweet.
And Art me.
“Three months, for life. I’m sorry.
Hot search almost collapsed.
I’m worried about Pei Chi’s parents getting into trouble again, but I’m worried.
Bae Chi is 25, so what if his parents don’t agree?
They can’t interfere with Pei-jin’s character.
Or maybe, seven years ago, they couldn’t handle it.
I just lost my courage.
After Bae Chi was released, another man went to the hot search.
Zoujan.
On the same day, Sue found me with joy.
“I said I’d seen you somewhere. You’re Cheng Yao. I’m sorry.
“It’s a journey. I’m sorry.
“I don’t care what your name is. I tell you, break up with Brother Pei. I’m the one who’s engaged to him!” I’m sorry.
I opened my mouth and stopped talking.
Bae Chi’s here, standing behind Sue.
Surprising.
“Have you seen the public opinion online? They say you’re a third-rate girl. If you don’t want to lose your job, break up with Brother Bae and give him back to me. I’m sorry.
“How can I not know how I feel? I’m sorry.
Bae’s cold doesn’t make a sound.
And Su Zhou fell upon him immediately, and said, “Why is it that you are bewitched again? I’m sorry.
“Speak nicely, I don’t hit women. This post is part of our special coverage Nepal Protests 2011.
Sue was surprised and pale.
“You… you… you said you’d treat me like a sister, always nice to me.
“I’ve done my best, Sue Zhou Zhou Zhou Zhou Zhou Zhou Zhou Zhou Zhou Zhou Zhou Zhou Zhou Zhou Zhou Zhou Zhou Zhou Zhou Zou Zhou Zhou Zhou Zhou Zhou Zhou Zou Zhou Zhou Zou Zhou Zhou Zhou Zhou Zhou Zou Zhou Zhou Zhou Zhou Zhou Zou Zhou Zhou Zhou Zhou Zhou Zhou Zhou Zhou Zou Zhou Zhou Zhou Zhou Zhou Zhou Zhu Zhou Zhou Zhou Zhou Zhu Zou Zhou Zhou Zhu Zhu Zhu Zhu Zhu Zhu Zhu Zhu Zhu Zhu Zhu Zhu Zhu Zhu Zhu Zhu I’m sorry.
No one’s ever said that before.
Bae-jin, are you being tricked? I’m going to develop it! You wait! She can’t wash her identity off! I’m sorry.
“First of all, I have no written proof of my engagement with you, and my parents’ jokes, and I have publicly denied them many times. I’m sorry.
Bae Tsai’s blindfolded, “Well, don’t blame me for being open. I’m sorry.
“But this poor woman doesn’t deserve you.” I’m sorry.
Baeji suddenly looked at her with some mercy.
“Do you really like someone? I’m sorry.
“Of course I like you…”
“No, you don’t like me. “If I’m not Pei, if I don’t have a star parents, if I’m a smoker, you’ll like me? I’m sorry.
It’s like I never thought about it.
“If you saw me sitting by the side of the road on a rainy day, would you support me? You wouldn’t. You’re just gonna call me a sociopath.
“What you like is who I am, not who I am. You can’t even accept this. I was a punk. I’m sorry.
Bae Chi pulled me away.
As I turned back, Soo was still there.
I wonder if she understands.
But the next day, I heard.
The press conference was held as scheduled.
19
Bae Chi has no right to prevent the press conference.
But he’s prepared a lot for the next crisis.
It’s just, it’s not what we thought.
Su was dressed up in front of the camera.
Her eyes were red, like she cried for a long time.
“Today, I have a statement to make.
She bit her lips.
“Me and Bae Chi, no marriage contract. I’m sorry.
It’s all over.
We’re all here to write things, like a movie king cheating.
“I grew up with Pei Chi, because of our relationship. But he took me as his sister, and I took him only as a brother.
“Marriage contract? It’s just rumours, neither one of us admits it, and both parents just say it and don’t count.
“I never liked Bae Chi, and he did, and I hope that you will stop making false statements.
“As for the journey-
Sue took two shots and said:
“She’s the first love of Bae-chul and the only sister-in-law I ever recognized. I used to take a look at her. I’m sorry about her. I’m sorry.
Public opinion is rampant.
There was a lot of discussion among netizens about the past and the characterization.
But the good thing is, Bae Chi’s got nothing to use.
Sue left the country.
She said she was going to start a new life and meet more people.
Six months later.
Bae Chi’s father is sick and can’t go out and fight again.
His mother also dropped most of the notices and stayed at home.
In response to Bae’s perception, the business had become more successful and soon took over the company.
He is in power and his elders will not interfere in any of his decisions.
It’s like you’ve changed.
The less we used to have, the more we want to make up for it.
Half of his tweets were me, and I was on the show.
“I was an asshole. My girlfriend pulled me out of the dark and showed me a light. I’m sorry.
But there are consequences.
I’m afraid I’ll leave again.
Occasionally, the midnight dream came back and he held me in his arms.
“Age. I’m sorry.
“Age. I’m sorry.
“Age. I’m sorry.
Not tired of calling me by my name.
Reminds me of the writings buried in the dust.
20
Twenty-seven.
Bae Chi and I went back to school.
Youth is like four seasons, one after another.
There’s always someone young.
People are always overwhelmed by the shock.
Outside the classroom, there was a big tummy.
We stood under the tree, listening to Long’s reading.
I asked Bae Chi, “For seven years, what if I don’t come back?” I’m sorry.
“You’ll come back. I’m sorry.
“So sure? I’m sorry.
Bae Chi: You came back the day of the rain. So I believe, this time, you’ll come back. I’m sorry.
I’m the only one who’s gone back to me.
Today, still.
We’re standing under the classroom window.
Bae-jin, lower your head and kiss me.
“Age, I love you.”
– When I was in high school, I picked up an uninvited bull.
Today, I found his tenth.
It’s the first day of our marriage.
If anyone asks me in the future what the best love letters are.
I’ll tell him.
It’s school trail.
It’s a night with each other.
It’s a bunch of silent engravings.
May you and I be happy.
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I don’t know.
Keep your eyes on the road.
