My foster mother’s son is a school figure and receives a lot of love letters every day.
In order to torture me, he will push my bedroom door at night, and I will kneel down and read these love letters to him.
Until one day I misread his name as Luchuan — the god of our school.
Lin Jian was almost mad and kissed me around my neck.
But he didn’t know that after he left, Lukawa would sneak into my house and spend the whole night.
And I’ve been waiting for them two lunatics to come together, the dogs to bite the dogs, and then I’m free.
01
Lin is sick, mentally ill.
Seven years old, he put a pair of scissors in my right hand.
Just because I don’t want to paint him.
And We, the Emperor, crawled on the door to the foster mother, and none answered.
Until Lin stood behind me and grabbed my hair and whispered.
“Don’t you know?”
“Your parents sold you to my house…”
“Just to make me a toy. I’m sorry.
02
My heart is falling and tears are a physical reaction.
When I cried, Lin asked for a family doctor.
He reached out and wiped the tears off my face.
Then, in front of me, I threw my favorite painting into the fireplace.
“Sister, be good. He’s a childish voice.
Look at the burning painting, I’m almost crazy.
I can’t help it.
I looked back helplessly, and the gate to the villa was closed.
At that point, Lin gave me a “sweet” cell phone and dialed the number.
That’s my parents’ phone.
When the phone came through, I couldn’t stop crying.
However, the other side of the phone immediately hung up.
Lin was looking at me like a poor dog.
Like he said, my parents really don’t want me.
That year I was 10 years old and became a Toy to Lynch.
I started writing with my left hand, and I never drew.
I’m beginning to understand that Lin-chun’s disease is my demon.
All my struggles are going to be fed to hell.
03
Since then, Lin Chiu has experienced considerable stability as a result of regular visits to doctors.
Gradually, he became an extraordinary man with a long body.
In school, he’s always the man.
I’m the only one who knows how terrible it is to be private.
Over the years, I’ve tried to swallow all the sleeping pills.
I cut my veins countless times and covered them with fear.
I don’t want to live, but I dare not die.
So, running away — it was the only thing I had in the first half of my life.
But I’m too small.
Every time I ran away, it was too bad. Far from being as good as I thought.
I once thought I was destined for life.
I forgot.
If accepted, there are demons in the world.
Well, there must be angels.
So angels appear in high school.
04
In high school, Lin received more and more love letters.
He always smiled and thanked the red-faced girls.
At night, Lyn’s gonna call me in the bedroom.
He made me kneel on the earth, and commanded me to recite the Book of Love in a seal.
At first, I didn’t want to trample on those blue hearts.
Klin says:
“Well, you stick these on the board tomorrow. I’m sorry.
I couldn’t help but read love letters.
In my mind, the face of another person often appears.
Lugawa.
He’s the head of class A, and our class is the same chemistry teacher.
And he and I are both representatives of chemistry.
He’s a good student in grade number one and two.
Likes to wear a white shirt and smell of sunshine.
I’ve always followed him quietly and kept my secret.
Until one night.
I read Lin’s name to Lugawa.
05
The loud night, the buzzing.
On the chair, Lin stopped.
He leans down, smiles in a twisted face, but his eyes are full of shit.
Sister, you like such a good student? I’m sorry.
“Let me think, is he more popular than me? I’m sorry.
“But do you think he’ll like you? I’m sorry.
He stopped laughing and made me look in the mirror.
“Sister, do you want to see yourself down? I’m sorry.
Promise me, don’t dream. I’m sorry.
In the mirror, Lin used a hand to cut my arm.
The other hand, pinching my throat, can only look in the mirror.
Looking at the picture in the mirror, I suddenly understood.
Turns out, I’m already a broken silk puppet.
Lin Zheng…
His long fingers get the gold prize for the guitar competition.
Or, if you want.
06
Thinking about it, I sneered.
Lyn stopped and grabbed my chin and forced me to look at him.
Sister, why are you laughing?
I had no intention of exploring the inside of a madman and restoring the usual low breath.
“I know I’m a bitch. I’m sorry.
Lin hates me the most.
He likes to see me fight, to see me struggle.
Only I don’t like it.
It’s true, Lin’s eyes are obnoxious.
He tore my hair and he shoved my face in the mirror.
I saw his face disfigured by anger.
My face hurts, but my heart is full of revenge.
“What else would you do besides hit me?” I said. I’m sorry.
Lin stopped for half a second and suddenly turned his lips and laughed.
I didn’t think Lin would kiss me.
07
Lin insisted on holding me so hard that he almost dragged me into his body.
I don’t know whose lips are broken.
It tastes sweet and instantaneous.
It took me a long time to get rid of me.
I’m thinking of Lukawa and Zilong’s smile, and my eyes are red.
I put up my sleeves to wipe the blood off my mouth, and I was blindfolded again.
Lin is looking at the screen of his cell phone, and there’s an exciting light in his eyes.
His arms around my shoulder forced me to look at just taken pictures.
In the picture, my hair spreads and my clothes are messy.
In your eyes, you’re filled with hate.
Lin raised his handler and touched my profile in the picture.
He didn’t touch me, but I was cold.
“Sister, hate me, I don’t care. I’m sorry.
“But don’t like others. I’m sorry.
He’s very light, and he’s a little weird and gentle.
My throat was sore and my voice was shaking, “Why?” I’m sorry.
And then, Lin’s cold hand came over my neck, and his ear sounded cold:
“I’m afraid I can’t help it. I killed you and him. I’m sorry.
Finger closes slowly, and I just feel oxygen drained.
When I suffocated, there was only one thought in my head:
Lin, kill me and go to hell.
However, Lin seems to have seen through my mind and suddenly let go.
In the mirror, I saw a purple handmark on my neck, like the devil’s mark.
When he left my loft, he threw me a high-collar shirt from the closet.
“Hide your pretty neck. Good night, sister.
After Lin ran away, I sat on the floor and coughed my tears.
But the next second, there was a noise coming out the window.
The sound of the twilight, a long, thin body turned in.
He sat on the window, dressed in black and smiling in the sun.
“Ann, he’s bullying you again. I’m sorry.
It’s Lugawa.
08
I first met Lugawa two years ago.
On the way from school, Lyn left me.
He ordered me to run home in ten minutes.
I ran so hard I could eat for the next three days.
Maybe it’s too much of a panic hunt.
On the near road, a wild dog was staring at me.
It’s coming up, standing in front of me, confronting me.
The eyes are red and the mouth is saliva, hiding in the shadows, afraid of the light.
It’s typical rabies.
I’m scared. I’m shaking.
As a result, the flat by the side opened the door.
One hand, pull me in.
“If you’re afraid, you can be bullied. I’m sorry.
Look up, it’s Lugawa in a greasy room.
His warm smile diluted all fears.
That house is really poor.
But I feel like I’m being dragged into heaven by an angel.
If I don’t see the next picture.
09
Lugawa opened the door.
He bends over to pick up the bricks on the side of the road.
Then he walked towards the mad dog, but the bricks hit fast.
In the sunset, the blood stains his face with the white shirt.
I was scared to cover my mouth and turn my head.
So, I saw my picture on the whole wall.
Various angles, various times.
By the wall, it’s a cabinet that smells of decay.
There I saw something familiar again.
It’s like, you know, with your own bare bead pens, lost books, school uniforms that were thrown out of milk.
I almost stayed.
And then Lugawa came back.
He was covered in blood, and his eyes had not shrunk before he hit me with his head.
Then, the fierceness of Lugawa’s face disappeared.
It’s a shame to laugh.
“Ann, it’s okay. I’m sorry.
While I was talking, Lukawa seemed to realize I saw those pictures.
My heart beat, almost stopped.
10
But the next second.
Luchuan immediately opened his arms and the whole man jumped on the wall.
Hands dancing.
“There’s nothing here! It’s too dirty here! I’ll do it!”
I watched Lugawa’s “drama.”
I’m supposed to panic, right?
I swallowed my saliva and waved, “I didn’t see anything…”
Luchonton went for a while.
The man was also attached to the wall and turned his head.
“Am, can I call you Anne?” I’m sorry.
He’s making an excessive demand in a strange position.
He saved my life. I should say, “Okay. I’m sorry.
Next second, Lugawa smiles with satisfaction.
Then he looked at me and looked at me begging.
“Well, I haven’t…”
I listened, for a few seconds.
Take off your hair card, gently on the floor.
The whole thing is numb.
“Can I go?” I said.
“Hmm-hmm. I’m sorry.
I’ll go back and open the door.
When I came back to say goodbye, I found Lukawa leaving the wall.
He looked at my picture against the wall and ignored me.
He was obsessed with saying, “Ann, we’re getting closer. I’m sorry.
I ran away.
Eleven.
Later, as Luchuan said, he was getting closer to me.
In the dark, talking to me, trying to get something from me.
Even, hack into my bedroom.
It’s like you can’t leave me for a second.
Unlike Lin, he really seems to have three personalities.
One is the sunshine of the school.
One is a young man who turns a blind eye to life.
One is a young man who only seems weak in front of me.
So I can’t not always think of him.
And, at first sight, the dead dog.
The helpless eyes of blood will always be the eyes of the forest.
I think that my secret is that of an angel who wanders on earth, who bears the taboos of madness and blood.
12
In the moonlight, Rugawa pulled an orange out of his arms and stripped it.
I bowed my head on my sore knees and whispered:
“Lugawa, don’t come to me. I’m sorry.
“You know, Ann, that’s impossible! I’m sorry.
Roll over, pass me the orange.
He lifts his hands off my pyjamas, he takes my knees seriously.
I eat oranges in one of my petals, learn God in school, kneel before me and lose my mind.
Luchuan stood up and walked in the bedrooms.
As he moved, he took out several needle-eye surveillance.
Luchuan placed surveillance on the bed and carefully replaced the batteries.
That’s what he’s been doing for years.
During this period, the room was so quiet.
I’m bored, and I’m swinging my legs.
Finally, Lugawa put the surveillance back in the corner.
He walked in front of me, experimented, reached out.
He rubbed my head.
“Ann, you just called my name. I’m sorry.
“Stop eavesdropping. I’m going to protest against this.
“I’m afraid you’re in danger. I’m sorry.
“I would not ask you to let me see you forever.” I’m sorry.
All right, if you don’t want to cut your hands off and send them to Lin, it’s “please.”
Even if you send a pig’s hoof I still think about it.
But perhaps in hell for a long time, the desperate want to give warmth.
I don’t want Luchuan to be in danger. I just want him to be safe.
“Just leave him alone. I said, “Go to college.” I’m sorry.
“He’s nothing. “I can even live in your bedroom, he doesn’t know.” I’m sorry.
“Lugawa! I’m a little taller.
“Sorry. Luchuan immediately heads down.
I looked him in the eye, and I saw him in the eye, full of pride and fanaticism.
He then turned over the window and left behind a smug smile.
“I decided not to listen to you, but you remember. I’m sorry.
“Ann, I’m yours. Luchuan says:
13
“Sister, you are mine. I’m sorry.
The next day, at the entrance to the school, Lyn was saying to me,
In the car, he handed me a cell phone and called him.
“Talk with me until you get home. I’m sorry.
Lim told me to keep the radians up.
I noticed that he was wearing a Mini wireless earpiece in his right ear.
Rin, blud, like a snake’s eye.
I have the exact same “reward” he gave me.
“Earphones should also be worn. I’m sorry.
“Sister, I want to make sure you don’t do bad things behind my back. I’m sorry.
Lin is soft. The Viper spits out the letter.
The phone was on his hand. I didn’t answer it.
Just look quietly at the school door outside the window.
That was my silent protest.
“Well, I understand. If you don’t want to. #Lin says #
Huh? I was curiously looking at him.
Lin’s cold hands covered my neck, punched my shirt across my high-collar neck and rubbed it.
The kind of pity in his eyes, like, touching a cat.
It’s very light to say, “Let’s not go to school today. It’s not a big deal to drop out. I’m sorry.
“So we can be together every minute. I’m sorry.
“Only me and you. I’m sorry.
Lin hands softly.
And I felt the suffocation of my throat.
He knows, he knows.
I still haven’t given up running.
Just trying to get to graduation and get away with it forever.
Clint, seems to see through my weakness and desire.
then enjoy the joy of destruction.
I took my cell phone and whispered, “I do.” I’m sorry.
The forest sneered and laughed, and its head shook.
“Sister, you’re always like this, not funny…”
I listened to his irony.
Outside the window, Lukawa’s thin body broke into my curtains.
He pushed the bike, seemed to look at it.
Even if it’s through the glass, it’s still a short shot.
Lin realized my anomaly.
He turned his head and looked at the road out of the window.
Strangely enough, Lin is excited.
“Sister, be careful. I’m sorry.
“If I hear you do something bad with Lugawa…”
“That would be fun. I’m sorry.
14
Lin put on my headphones and signaled me to get off.
I tied up my bag and I ran down the road.
And when the wind passed, I heard the murmur of Lukawa, “Am and An…”
At the same time, my earpieces have the voice of the forest.
He said: Sister, tell me why Lukawa’s eyes are on you. I’m sorry.
“I’d like to rip his pretty eyes off…”
The summer sun swung, and Lin insisted on making me like an ice cellar.
And We warned Lin-judg in a calm manner: ‘Don’t mess with me and Lugawa.’
Lin was smiling, a moment later his breath was left in his earpiece.
Sister, do you feel it?
“Hmm? I’m sorry.
“We seem to be living in each other’s bodies. I’m sorry.
Lyndon’s tails are long and light.
I’ve lost all my strength.
Somehow, I suddenly remembered the kiss that night.
Lin, I think he’s getting sick.
Looking back, Lin ordered earphones.
“Remember, keep it on, keep it on. I’m sorry.
15
I’m only two aisles away from Lincoln’s seat.
Lin laughed at his classmates all morning.
And I’ve been restless.
His mouth is getting dry, he doesn’t want to drink, he doesn’t want to talk.
Even in class, Lin-chun’s breath seemed to be close.
I was noticed by the teacher, who named me twice.
In the headphones there’s a whisper from Lyncho:
“Sister, focus on your lessons. I’m sorry.
“I’m with you.”
Who needs you with me.
I finally got to the end of class, and Lin was talking, and the words of concern were disgusting.
“Sister, you didn’t go to the bathroom all morning. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
“Lynn, are you too broad? I’m sorry.
I finally couldn’t bear it. I went back.
Lin was laughing twice, like he was forgiving.
“Go to the next class and call me back. I’m sorry.
The sound in the headset disappeared.
I was relieved, and I was pushed on my arm, “Anji, who were you talking to? I’m sorry.
She didn’t notice my headphones hidden under my hair.
I’m tired of shaking my head.
“Let’s go, next physical education. I’m sorry.
Before I went to the playground, I thought about putting Lin’s phone and headphones into my uniform.
Only then I didn’t expect my obedience to be irreversible.
16
At gym class, I was sitting at the podium drinking soda.
There were dozens of students outside the stadium, and there was some cheers from time to time.
Today we’re at the A-Ban Friendship Race, and Lugawa and Lin-san are here, so I’m not going to make a scene.
I was thinking, suddenly, the voice of Lin-jin came in the headphone.
“Look at basketball. I’m sorry.
I scratched my hair and pretended not to hear it.
“You better not miss Lugawa’s blood. I’m sorry.
I stomped.
It’s almost a jar in hand.
But he got up and ran all the way to the basketball court.
By that time, a lot of girls had been surrounded.
Lin’s overheaded, sweating through his Liu Sea.
I saw him with funny smiles.
And then another round of cheers came.
I just noticed it was Lukawa who scored.
Unfortunately, that basketball came to me.
” Pick up basketball. I’m sorry.
Lin-chun’s orders.
I’m in a hurry to take three and two steps and hold the basketball in my hand.
I thought I was going to give the basketball to Lin.
I’m afraid there’s nothing humiliating about it.
I’m holding a basketball ball and I just feel numb.
However, Lin was present and said with a voice that only the two of us could hear:
“Good. I’m sorry.
“Now, to Lugawa’s face. I’m sorry.
“Hold harder. I’m sorry.
“You’ll soon see him bleed. I’m sorry.
“What are you stalling about?”
Sister?
“Think about your studies. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
In the basketball court, the noise stops.
Everybody’s staring at me.
My brain is almost blank, and I’m walking in mechanical steps, and I’m coming to Ruegawa.
I seem to have seen the joy in Lukawa’s eyes.
But I still raised the basketball.
Next thing you know, it hit Lugawa’s nose.
After another shock, Lukawa’s nose began to bleed.
I can barely face Lugawa’s eyes.
Lyndon seems satisfied, “That’s great. I’m sorry.
“Now everyone will know you’re a freak. I’m sorry.
“Sister, no one loves you but me…”
In the headphones, Lin’s voice, suddenly stopped.
Because we all saw Lugawa coming to me.
17
Lugawa said something to the angry boys around him.
Then he came to me alone.
People look at me like monsters.
I want to explain to Lugawa, apologize or leave.
But I can’t talk and my feet don’t listen.
Lugawa stopped in front of me. He raised his hand.
I consciously closed my eyes.
But it felt, that hand, through my black hair.
He seems to have noticed my earphone.
In the sound of a cooler.
Lugawa’s face, slowly fall down.
His lips were in my ears, and the warm breath passed.
“It doesn’t hurt, Lynch. He says:
18
In a moment, my blood was pouring over my head.
I turned hard.
Lin was standing in the middle of a group of people with a wooden face.
Then Lin laughed again.
He took off his headphone and threw it in the air with his hands.
One, another.
Somehow, that earpiece was more like a crush on my heart.
My heart rises and falls with his hands.
It’s as if I’m the one in the palm of Lin.
19
I’d like to step back and stay as far away as I can.
I pulled my cell phone out of my head and tried to reassign it to Lynch.
I would say that Lugawa did not deliberately provoke him.
I want to beg him. I don’t want to drop out.
I didn’t have time to call, but my hand was held up.
Lukawa’s hands are warm and he has the magic to calm people.
I looked to Lukawa, and he showed a sign of shame.
His voice is clear and everyone on the field can hear it.
“Guess, I was wrong. I promised to spend my birthday with Anne today. I’m sorry.
“But I forgot. I’m sorry.
“Anne should be angry. I’m sorry.
When Lugawa’s voice fell, it was silent for seconds.
I almost forgot it was my birthday.
But I’ve never had a birthday, let alone asked Lugawa to spend my birthday with me…
Gradually, a boy reacted first, pointing his index finger between me and Lugawa.
“Oh, it’s just a little couple. I’m sorry.
The boy’s words suddenly distract us.
I’m not keeping pace.
Before the exit was denied, Luchuan took over his shoulder.
One of his smiles looked at the other side of the forest.
In the sound of the rising sound, Loukawa whispered, “Don’t be afraid, I will save you.” Ann. I’m sorry.
But in my sight, Lin fell on the floor with his headphone.
I’m looking for the hand of Ruegawa, and I’m looking at the smell of it.
The blue earpiece lay silently at his feet.
The smiles of the forest’s mouth are strangling, and the sharp horns of its mouth are drawn into a line.
Once upon a time, Lin Dynasty would not be in public at school, even if he was not angry.
This time, different.
I swallowed it and watched the forest come to me step by step.
Sister, didn’t you tell Lugawa? I’m sorry.
“Today is our last day at school. I’m sorry.
“We’re going to study. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
20
Because of Lin’s words, everyone realized that my “boyfriend” didn’t know I was dropping out.
It’s like talking in secret.
Everybody’s waiting to see what happens.
I squeezed my fist, but I couldn’t rebut it.
My accountbooks, IDs are all in the hands of the foster mother.
Don’t tell me to leave the country with Lin. If Lin died today and wanted me to bury him, the foster mother would agree to die with me.
“Oh. I’m sorry.
Lugawa noded in the unsavory place and said, “It’s okay, I’ll go together.” I’m sorry.
I opened my eyes to him.
In his financial situation, how could he…
I immediately realized that Lugawa was bluffing.
But it worked, and Lynch’s pupils shrunk and smiled and said, “No country has yet to be decided. I’m sorry.
“Not yet. “Lugawa’s words were softly held by me towards the school building.
He left Lin’s last words with a confident smile:
“We can discuss it ourselves. I’m sorry.
I turned back, and Lin stood still on the basketball court.
He’s calm, but I always thought it was like a line in his head fell off.
The feeling of badness is growing, and I have to speed up my departure.
It’s just, I haven’t gone out for two steps, and I heard a noise.
Immediately thereafter, the road fell uncontrollably.
I turned my head in a state of shock, and Lin was so tall that it covered the sun.
His sleeves have been pulled up and his fists have been bruised.
For learning soft arts, Lin sat on the back of Lugawa.
His thighs were squeezing Rogawa’s throat, leaving no room for struggle.
I was scared, but it was the first time I was able to push out Lin-Chi.
Lin’s hands were wide open, he grabbed me and pulled me to the ground.
The pain came from the wrist as if it had been strangled by steel.
I held back the screams, and I looked down on him.
But I saw that Lin had pulled a little scissors out of his arms.
I’m freezing.
That scissors used to cut off my hair.
And now Lin is down and whispers:
“What hand did you touch her with? I’m sorry.
Don’t go crazy! I cried out, but it did nothing.
I only heard Lin say, “Sister, watch.” I’m sorry.
Right after that, Lin locked Lugawa’s left hand.
He was holding scissors high.
Then he stomped into his hand,
Lugawa grunted and didn’t scream.
From my eyes, he didn’t even frown.
People have never seen this look, the screams of the girls, and the gallant men who want to come up to the Larin.
Physical education teachers not far away keep whistling.
But Lin-chun was like he heard nothing.
Until that beautiful hand fades.
Sister? Are you crying?
Suddenly, Lin stopped.
He looked at me in cold blood and wiped the tears of my cheeks.
But I can hear you. Lin-chun got even more angry.
I’m sure it’s a bad laugh, and Lin’s tense face is loose, and Lugawa is spared.
And he laughed and said: My fault! Take him to the hospital. I’m sorry.
After all, Lin left alone.
I took up the road and refused the other students’ help and rushed out of the school.
But if I’m smart, I should understand that there’s never been a good end to listening to Lin.
21
In front of the school, Luchuan and I stopped a taxi.
“Go to the third hospital. I’m sorry.
After I said it, Lugawa suddenly grabbed my hand.
His face was pale, and he tried to squeeze out a smile and said, “Shall we go further?” I’m sorry.
I swooped, over my head.
“Wait for college. I whispered.
I don’t even have one.
That’s pathetic.
A silk puppet, the most hateful of those who manipulate themselves.
The most indispensable is he who manipulates himself.
“I know you’ll say that. I’m kidding. I’m sorry.
Lugawa smiled and said, “You’ll be afraid even if you go to heaven.”
It’s not over yet. The cab was hit by a huge impact!
Strong inertia has brought me and Lin to the front seat.
“Fuck! How do you drive?”
Along with the driver’s scolding, I rubbed my head and looked behind the car.
In a moment, my heart came up.
It’s Lin’s car.
Through the windshield, I can see a faceless driver and a laughter with Lin.
22
The driver got out of the car and was on his way to find the back-car theory.
But the car started moving back slowly.
The driver ran after him.
However, his footsteps are getting slower.
Because, that car, it’s starting to accelerate.
Fuck! I’m sorry.
Faced with the car coming straight, the driver screamed and jumped.
Boom!
The impact is coming again.
This time, Lugawa held me tight.
My head is blank, and all I have left is fear.
Get off?
No way.
Lin’s gone crazy again. He’ll kill us!
And that’s when Luchuan turned to the front seat.
He was sitting in the driver’s seat, and the key was wringed somewhat.
Yes…
Yes! Run! I’m sorry.
I was so busy holding my seat and yelling.
I look back once again.
Lim’s car has accelerated again!
Go, Luchuan!
“I know, Ann. I’m sorry.
I can’t believe Luchuan’s still got time to cross his face and smile at me.
Then the gas door was at the bottom.
With another round of inertia in the opposite direction, I held on to the front seat.
Run! Go! Go!
I’ve heard my cry, but Lukawa never answered me.
Overhead, Lin’s car has been lined up with us.
It was only observed that the co-pilot’s forest shook the window.
His eyes, even those I’ve never seen.
Bang!
This one hit, from the side.
I don’t even have the strength to shout anymore. I can only hum.
Look up again, Lin’s car has gone beyond us and gone.
I’ve got a little bit of hair on the streets of the vast, desolate suburbs.
Is it over?
I’ve just come up with this happy idea, and I’ve seen Lin’s car stop in front.
Then the car turned around.
It’s coming to us.
Turn around! I’m sorry.
I’m breathing and pushing.
However, Luchuan is not listening.
Even, I can feel he’s accelerating.
“Lugawa! What are you doing? Turn around! I almost cried.
Finally, Lugawa comes back.
“Ann, don’t be afraid. He says:
“I won’t let anyone bully you again. I’m sorry.
His eyes are gone.
The distance between the two vehicles is shrinking at an extreme rate.
I see from a smiley road to a face-skinned linquoise.
Again, it’s dark.
Boom.
That big bang, took a lot of stuff.
23
It’s like I’ve been sleeping for a long time, open my eyes, with no power.
Look around, white.
In this paleness, I walked long.
Until I walked into a bedroom and saw Lyncho.
He had scissors and cut a girl’s hair.
What’s wrong with him? I walked over to stop him.
I just found out that the girl was me.
In front of him, he squeezed his fist, held his mouth and his eyes were red.
“Sister, you know. I’m sorry.
“Is it true that many people laugh at you? I’m sorry.
“Only I won’t. I’m sorry.
“My toys will stay long, I’ll always like them. I’m sorry.
“You must cherish it. I’m sorry.
I listened to Lin’s gentle voice and had to cover my ears and run away.
Then I ran to a cold house.
Luchuan sits at the table, writing in thick notes.
Sit behind me in school uniform.
Anji was very nervous and said, “I have to go. I’ll be back for my lunch. I’m sorry.
Luchuan’s face is so depressed.
“Ann, I don’t want to write someone else’s name in your diary. I’m sorry.
He said, “I will go mad.” I’m sorry.
And it was only when he said, “You write about me.” I’m sorry.
“Yes, Anne, I value everything you say to me. I’m sorry.
“What’s wrong with your head? I’m sorry.
Luchuan scratched his head, didn’t respond, kept writing.
“Don’t remember that.” I’m sorry.
I’m trying to touch the boy who wrote.
But the scene is getting blurry.
More images began to appear and disappeared, and countless voices surrounded.
Midsummer, late night.
“Sister, this time I’ll punish you for eating and vomiting for three days. I’m sorry.
After all, did I see you reading about gym boxing? I’m sorry.
“What a mistake. Do you want to attract someone? I’m sorry.
“Or do you want to hit me?”
I don’t know.
Kim Autumn, noon.
“Ann, would you stop trying to convince me? I’m sorry.
“I really want to kill that bastard. I’m sorry.
“I know, I know you’re good for me. I know, you’re the best. I’m sorry.
“But I’m not afraid. Forget it I’m scared. I’m sorry.
‘Cause, as long as Lin stays, you’ll be afraid of him. I’m sorry.
“But if I kill Lin-chun. I’m sorry.
“Will you be my friend? I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
Long winter, early spring, Lin Dynasty, Lugawa.
Two psychotics, boom.
I barely know who it is.
So I heard a strange and familiar cry.
“Anji! I’m sorry.
Who is it? And We were unable to turn our heads and find the image of Ani.
But it was my parents, looking at me.
I was busy looking around, and I didn’t find any more “America.”
So you’re yelling at me?
Look down and find out, small hands.
Ooh. I thought it was my childhood.
“Daddy, Mom.” I said something.
“Stop calling us parents, Anji. Dad says.
“You’re someone else’s kid. Be good. Mom says.
And Dad said, “Don’t give us any trouble. I’m sorry.
Mom said, “Be smart, don’t be a bitch at home!” I’m sorry.
Mom and Dad, too.
I don’t know. I thought they were after-sales policy.
That’s how I was sold. No wonder I was like a chicken.
I really listen to my parents.
So We said, “Scram, you.” I’m sorry.
But you’re crying.
That was the joy of many years ago, the helpless cry.
And then I heard…
“America. I’m sorry.
I turned my head, and it was a very bright white light, and there I stood.
I tried to open my eyes.
See, it’s the road by the bed.
“Oh…”
I stayed here long enough to say, “I’m back, Lukawa.” I’m sorry.
24
Pale ward, palelukawa.
He reached out and rubbed my head.
When he leaned down, I saw the clinical forest.
Lynch is watching me too.
His eyes, with a crazy look, are like talking.
“You’re awake, sister. I’m sorry.
In fact, Lin-chun also spoke of him.
And there’s only one thought left in my head.
Run.
It’s too much trouble, and no matter what, Lin-chun and the foster mother will spare me.
So I worked hard on my body, and I found that the limbs were normal except for pain.
I was too busy holding Lugawa’s hand.
We said, “Let’s go. I’m sorry.
That’s it. In his suit, he ran out of the room.
Run again?
“It’s different. I said, “This time, I’m not going back. I’m sorry.
I’m not going back. I don’t think I’d go back out there, even if I had to.
“But, Ann, you’ll be afraid of him forever. I’m sorry.
Luchuan is worried.
“Stop it!”
I stopped and yelled back.
“If it hadn’t been for you, would this have happened? I’m sorry.
“What’s wrong with running away? I’m sorry.
I screamed at Luchuan, I stunned, I stopped talking.
Only the patients and doctors in the corridor have shown me a different look.
This deadlock is not an option.
I don’t fight anymore. Pull up Lukawa’s hand.
In your head, a thought emerges.
What’s wrong with taking him?
Escape?
25
We escaped from the hospital and travelled through the streets of the car.
My feet are getting heavier and my mood is getting lighter.
I think that’s the feeling of freedom.
Unfortunately, my escape plan is as rough as ever.
Because I thought, oh, it’s the feeling of hunger.
I stood in front of a convenience store with Luchuan, facing Guandong, cooking saliva.
“Didn’t you bring money?” I asked in despair.
Luchuan, “No. I’m sorry.
“Cell phone”?
“None. “Lu Trenton, he said, “But I can take it. I’m sorry.
“I’m surprised you weren’t arrested. “And Lin-chun, I should have called the police and arrested all these lunatics.” I’m sorry.
“You know it won’t work. “Lugawa smiles proudly, “I’m yours, you can’t throw it away. I’m sorry.
“Stop talking nonsense. I’m sorry.
I was discouraged to leave the convenience store.
“Go to the train station. At this point, Lugawa said, “We can skip tickets. I’m sorry.
26
We started running again.
Go to the train station, take an hour.
I’m on the move of hunger, like a dead body.
“Ann, what can we do when we run to a place where nobody finds us? I’m sorry.
Lukawa asked me suddenly.
I couldn’t wait to say, “Of course it’s money.” I’m sorry.
“You’re easy enough to satisfy. Lulukawa’s feeling, “Don’t you think Lin will find him?” I’m sorry.
“I’m not afraid. Okay. “A few years of nightmares at most. I’m sorry.
“Ann, haven’t you thought about trying not to be afraid anymore? I’m sorry.
“Why do you talk so much? I’m sorry.
I waved my fists, and I said, “It’s better to talk than to ask for money.” I’m sorry.
Luchuan shut up.
And I look as if there was no end in the road as if there was nothing but confusion.
Can a man escape to the farthest part of the world?
And where are the limits of human suffering?
And We protected it as if it had been consumed long ago.
27
Inside the train station, moving around.
I’m in the corner with Lugawa.
In the waiting room, there are a few large screens.
Most are car messages, and a few are broadcasting advertisements or news.
While they can be seen to pass time, hunger cannot be alleviated.
“Lugawa, can you get me some water? Free. I’m sorry.
“You’ll learn to be self-reliant, Anne. I’m sorry.
“The child is too old to listen. I’m sorry.
And We left a gruesome line, and ran away to get warm water.
We were going to find one of the biggest ticket gates and get in.
Sadly, there is very little traffic at the station today.
Until the night comes, I will be starving.
I can’t believe I didn’t drink any water.
I wonder, “Are you hungry? I’m sorry.
Lochuan was staring at the gate of the ticket, and suddenly he said, “This is a very crowded car, let’s go.” I’m sorry.
I came up with a lot of energy and followed Luchuan into the crowd that started the check.
My head is down.
It’s hard to get to the gate. I’ll look at the moment, an arrow step, right behind the passengers who just finished the check.
He was taken by the police like a duck and grabbed his collar.
Change of plans! Luchuan! I’m sorry.
I cried out, “Help me!” I’m sorry.
Around, Lugawa’s eyes are sharp.
He turned to the police: “Let her go, or I will do it.” I’m sorry.
We’re not moving.
Lukawa’s face was even more grim, and he said, “Are you looking for death?” I’m sorry.
We’re not moving.
Lukawa finally took his sleeve and said, “Okay, I’ll give you three seconds…”
I can’t take it anymore and yell, “Why do you keep talking? If you don’t save my car, it’s gone. I’m sorry.
As a result, Lugawa immediately changed his expression of frustration.
He said, ‘Do not pretend to be blind, Ann. I’m sorry.
“What are you talking about?”
I look back, I look back, I look back, I look on a big screen, and I’m playing a story.
A car accident, a dead man.
The deceased was a high school student whose body was covered in white cloth and whose blood was dipped from underneath.
I turned around and went to see Lugawa.
My eyes, like a loss of focus, look at his shy smile and thin body, from blurry to disappearance.
Look around, everybody’s looking at me like a freak.
Lugawa?
Ooh…
That’s why you talk all the time.
Turns out you’re dead.
28
I almost forgot how I walked back.
Hunger, cold, all gone.
It’s just numb.
I think I’ve had the happiest and freest day of my life.
It’s a mess, but it’s okay. There’s a crazy guy with me.
I should have gone crazy, actually.
Maybe that way Lugawa won’t disappear.
However, my life has never been better.
The cold winds have kept me awake and brought me closer to Lin Dynasty.
By the time I got back to the hospital, Lynch was still up.
“Sister, I know you’ll come back. I’m sorry.
“Hmm. I’m sorry.
I take it lightly, but I think of another person’s name.
I’m not afraid anymore.
You’re right. Don’t let yourself be bullied.
Now think, the end of fear is just to become fear itself.
Don’t run, Lugawa.
29
Lin was badly injured and cast on his long legs.
“Sister, I want water. I’m sorry.
Lin’s tongue is out and licks the dried lips.
The glass was right next to him, but he couldn’t reach it.
And I watched his prayer, and stretched out my hand to move the cup further.
Lin’s got a wound to his arm, and his eyebrow is sore.
I sat by the bed, touched his forehead with my hand, slowing down the tone.
“Lynn, you remember when you were a kid, you tied a fish wire to my finger and taught me how to play the piano. I’m sorry.
My hand followed his neck, slowly down, and stopped on his paralysed leg.
Lin found out about me, frowned me, didn’t talk.
We went on to say, “I know that my life has been tied to your hand and that it is you who is a twilight puppet.” I’m sorry.
“My parents traded me for money, my foster mother used me as a target, and I let you go…”
While I was talking about sad things, I lifted him up to the wheelchair next to him.
“I’ll take care of you. I’ll take you to the wind, okay? I’m sorry.
30
I pushed Lin out of the hospital through the streets where we grew up.
Late at night, very quiet. I heard Lin’s chatter.
Sister, where are you taking me? I’m sorry.
“If you go home, you should take a cab, okay? I’m sorry.
Home? I’m sorry.
I was silent for a while, and I said, “Is that the home?” I’m sorry.
“Well, there’s a six-year-old who sees his mother hanging out with other men? I’m sorry.
In the cold wind, silence spreads.
For a long time, Lin said, “Anji, what are you talking about? I’m sorry.
He doesn’t call me sister anymore.
Because I don’t look like a toy anymore?
“That’s it. I said:
“The boy was terrified. Call his father. I’m sorry.
“As a result, his beloved father was burned alive by his mother and the rapist. I’m sorry.
“His mother told the boy not to tell anyone. Or you’ll lose your mother. I’m sorry.
“That’s a home. I’m sorry.
“Go back?”
And the hand of Lin, when it was lifted up, seemed to slap me.
I ran away easily.
“Don’t go back. Don’t be angry. I said:
“Lin Jian, didn’t you refuse to admit it happened? I’m sorry.
“Your mother takes you to a shrink and fears that you’ll remember the truth, so you’ll be sick to think. I’m sorry.
“including adopting me and making you toys. I’m sorry.
“You remember? That day, I drew my family’s blessing, hid under my pillow, and you found it. I’m sorry.
“In the end, you stick scissors in my back. I’m sorry.
“Do you remember what you said? I’m sorry.
Lin’s lips moved.
He said, “Remember. I’m sorry.
We said, “Tell my sister. I’m sorry.
The wind is rising again, as if it were spreading the voice of Lin Zhen, into the voice of Lin Zheng.
“Sister, don’t trust the adults. They’ll kill you. I’m sorry.
“Don’t love them. I’m sorry.
“From today, I will protect you. I’m sorry.
I laughed, and said, “Yes, Lin Qin, but you have broken your promise.” I’m sorry.
“You just want me to be buried. I’m sorry.
“So what? “What can you do? I’m sorry.
I shook my head and twisted Lin’s clothes.
Then put it in the mouth of the forest.
“I can’t. I said, “I’ll make you.” I’m sorry.
31
In the booth, we came to the campus.
I pushed Lindsey into the elevator.
At the top of the stairs, I moved Lyn from the wheelchair.
Grab his hands, a section, from the stairs to the roof.
It must have been painful, but it was silent.
It wasn’t until I reached the roof and dragged him to the edge of the roof that Lin laughed.
“Oh, sister, you want to kill me. I’m sorry.
I keep my mouth shut and I concentrate, like I’m doing my homework.
Sister, will you stay with me?
I can’t believe I’m not afraid at all.
“You’re not afraid to kill? I’m sorry.
“The police uncle will arrest you. I’m sorry.
“The people in prison are better than me. I’m sorry.
“Shh. I said, “Don’t worry about your sister. I’m sorry.
I was satisfied with Lin’s resistance and I dragged him to the edge of the roof.
I looked at the cities of fire, turned my head and said something.
Suddenly, there was a feeling of loss.
I held myself in fear, my fingernails held on the edge of the roof and looked down.
It’s Lynch.
32
I’m still missing out.
Lin caught me when I wasn’t watching his time and took me down.
Immediately thereafter, his hands were wide open, he invaded my upper half, and he held me in peace.
I can feel his strong muscles, shrunk.
I can’t even breathe.
And this is how Lin-chun held me, and the elbow and the waist worked together and rolled me on the cold ground.
In the end, his hands were tied to my wrists and he put me on the edge of the roof.
And over his face We saw the night dark, and the moon was covered.
“Sister. I’m sorry.
My eyes were locked in my face, he was breathing and he was mad: “I don’t want to live long.” I’m sorry.
“You will die with me, right? I’m sorry.
“On the other side, still with me, right? I’m sorry.
“Sister, I actually, actually like you. I like you, don’t you see? I’m sorry.
“Why did you run away? I’m sorry.
As Lin Dynasty spoke, he started taking me to the edge of the roof.
My head is already in the middle of the air, and I can’t help but stand around my neck.
At this point, Lin’s smile faded.
He said, “Shall we go there? I’m sorry.
And he bowed his head, and his lips were turned over my lips.
However, at this moment, Lin-chun’s eyes were soared.
He looked all over his back and tried to stay away from me.
But I bit his lips tight.
Lin can’t take it, howl, let go of my hand.
But his hands and backs are already bleeding.
In the moonlight, the hook on his back was shining.
33
Three hours ago, I walked into a fishing gear store.
The boss is closing, asking me what I want.
My poor son said, “Can I have some hooks for my brother who is fishing without a hook?” I’ll pay tomorrow?”
The boss paused and looked me in the eye and said, “Yes, I’ll find you.” I’m sorry.
Then the boss handed me what I wanted.
“The hospital can also fish,” said my boss. I’m sorry.
I understood that the boss knew I was lying.
I’m tired, and hunger slows my brain, and I don’t know how to deal with it.
As a result, the boss waved and laughed, “But you’re well enough to learn. I’m sorry.
“Okay. I tried to squeeze out a smile.
34
Three hours later.
I’ve been hiding three fish hooks in my fingers, and I’ve been holding them in the back.
One, two, three…
I finally got rid of Lin, back on the roof.
His eyes were full of anger and fear and his hands were moving back.
But he forgot.
There’s a line on the hook.
I stood up, cold-looking Lin.
Then I tightened the line in my sleeves and started squeezing on my side.
On the other side, the forest, which was about to pull the hook out, made another heart-breaking scream.
He can’t help but stretch his hands to my side to avoid the severe pain.
“Linqun, familiar?”
I stopped the movement in my hands, kept the line tight and kept Lin from moving.
I saw his angry eyes and I laughed and said:
“That’s what it’s like to be a silk puppet. I’m sorry.
35
“Sister, you’re so sweet. I’m sorry.
The pain has made all his lips white, and he says on his forehead, with his sweat.
“I’m relieved. He said, “I’m so relieved that you can live alone. I’m sorry.
“Don’t say that, Lynch. I don’t need your forgiveness. I’m sorry.
I shaked my head and watched the forest plumb.
Hands move the line again, pull Lin over.
Because they can’t push hard, the fish lines are basically full of linches.
He must have hurt.
Many people have been shocked by Lin’s cries.
I can hear people breaking into the playground.
And that’s when the fish line has received me in front.
It’s like a mess of mud.
“Sister… I hurt…”
I heard him mumbling.
So We comforted him, and said, “Before soon, brother.” I’m sorry.
My hands crossed his waist and dragged him to the edge of the roof.
The moon comes out, the silver shines on the forested face.
So you’re crying.
I looked at my tears and his eyes were filled with fear.
“Anything to say?”
We said, “It was only then that I found myself a little disobedient to you. I’m sorry.
Lin hears me and gives hope.
He opened his mouth and said, “Sister, I…”
I broke up with him and ordered an ear.
Although there are no headphones left.
But I laughed and said, “Remember, keep it on, keep it on. I’m sorry.
After that, I kicked him under my feet.
Their hands are raised and their fingers are floating like the Milky Way in the night.
On the playground, screaming, a few flashlights came to me.
I feel like I’m standing in the spotlight, looking down, on the playground, there’s no sound.
“It’s over. I’m sorry.
I whispered to myself.
This puppet show.
36
And then after that, I swayed and stood up.
I’ve been a twilight puppet for over 20 years, manipulated, abused, abandoned and recreated by these people.
Now, the line tied to my soul is untied by me.
And not far away, as if I had heard a young man again.
He was wearing a white shirt, like a long time of courage.
“Ann, can I call you Anne from now on? I’m sorry.
Yes, Lugawa.
I fell into the basement, pushed the classroom in Ruegawa and found his seat.
I flip out his notes and watch.
This is the last paragraph of the “Middler Peace”.
“Well, I can’t listen to Anne anymore. I’m sorry.
“It’s better to kill Lin-chun earlier. I’m sorry.
“It doesn’t matter if Ann and I are friends. I’m sorry.
“It doesn’t matter if he dies. I’m sorry.
“Nothing. I’m sorry.
“I’m sure I’ll make it. Before I do, find a way to make Anne my girlfriend. I’m sorry.
“Not with her consent. I’m sorry.
“I’m such a bad guy! I’m sorry.
I couldn’t stop looking at Lugawa’s handwriting and imagine what he was thinking.
Then he pulled out the pair of scissors that Lyn could not take and aimed at his throat.
Lugawa, I’m good.
I’m afraid of everything.
Just a little scared, so die and never see you again.
The sting is coming.
And the last sight I have left on earth is peace in the way of the moonlight. Register number: YXX12eo1reJcwA5QxoyC3K3Q
I don’t know.
Keep your eyes on the road.
