Do you have any suggestions for the Master’s super-spray, male urn-class crematorium novels? – What?
They all say I’m like the dog of Rudd.
Otherwise, I’m not mad at you because you’re calling me.
Only I know that he was kicked in the head to save me before he was 13.
It was with his salvation that I put up with him until now.
One.
On the playground of summer inflammation, basketball hits the ground and bangs.
I looked up the third time my name was called.
The people in the middle of the basketball court are clearly a little impatient and frowning at me.
I ran over with mineral water.
“What are you thinking?”
The finger slams on my forehead, and I hide behind.
Looking at him, his bottom line seems to be clearer than my life plan.
Because of the thin sweat on his forehead, he pushed his hair to the back of his head, no wonder the girls just at the basketball court screamed.
When he finished, he put an empty bottle over my head and laughed, which meant nothing.
“Hand over.”
I don’t know.
Sick.
I swayed, the mineral water bottle fell in response, bending over to pick up the bottle, and he turned back to the field.
Two.
After the second half of the fight, Twilight was nearing its end, and the evening wind was blowing around the neck, and I just remembered to look for him, and a girl ran from behind him.
Girls I know, basketball president.
I don’t know why the president of the basketball club is a girl and why he’s never been to a school basketball game.
All I know is that she’s on the staff of Lu and she’s not looking at me.
I think I’m not a threat.
Get up and bring him Lu’s coat on his leg, which he took for granted.
“Get your coat on, watch out for the cold. I’m sorry.
“I’ll remind him. “The girl smiles sweetly at him.”
“I’ll be back later tonight. “It seems they’ve just had a deal.
I wanted to tell him that tonight’s my birthday you promised me.
But I repeat, forget it.
He’ll miss days that are so important to him.
3
Ten years ago today, he was kicked in the head to save my life.
He really got kicked by a donkey and went to the hospital for a month.
And it’s a real loss of memory, not a complete loss of what’s in the TV show, but a loss of memory in pieces, and a confusion of memory.
This has led to the loss of a lovely young Luk-shin before he was 13.
He said I was a princess and he was a knight, why he wanted to be a knight and not a prince because he wanted to protect me for the rest of his life.
I’m mad at you for thinking about this, and I’m not wrong for you to say no to protect me, not to stab me.
His vows were eaten by dogs.
But I also have an oath.
That is, he did save me, and I vowed in my heart that the princess would listen to him for 10 years from the day he saved me.
Today is the end of the ten-year treaty.
For countless days before today, I have tried to put my son’s son’s ass up.
4
I’ve had a good time with my sister, and I’m ready to go to bed, and my cell phone stunned right before I went to sleep.
Rusty Lu’s shit.
I hung up on the phone and I was going to drill into the nest and my phone rings again.
Hello? I’m sorry.
“R76, pick me up. I’m sorry.
The voice on the phone was low and sticky, and it was probably drunk.
I did get up to pick him up at one or two in the morning, but not after today, never again.
So I went straight to sleep.
I don’t know.
The next morning, I was called seven or eight times.
And his two.
“Can you hang up my phone?”
“What? I’m sorry.
I didn’t return him.
It’s my last tribute to all these years of old love.
But then he didn’t come to me, either, for about two or three days, and it was a good time not to follow the landing, and the quality of life with them was much better.
I went out this afternoon with my classmates, and I bought him a cup of milk tea.
He doesn’t drink milk tea.
“What’s wrong? I’m sorry.
“Ah, Aoi, I know what you mean. I’m sorry.
He scratched his head and I saw everything.
“You’re asking me to bring this to your brother, right? We have a basketball game this afternoon. I’m sorry.
…not really.
I put a hole in his mouth with a straw with a milk tea and I shook his head.
“We’re over. I’m sorry.
Are you serious, Aoi? Why don’t you lick the dog?
“…”
He seems to be saying what he thinks.
“In fact, we’ve been guessing for days because you’ve been waiting for him in front of my brother’s classroom, and you’ve been sending him lunches, milk and tea, but you haven’t come to him lately. I’m sorry.
“Sorry about me?”
“Hmm-hmm. I’m sorry.
He’s done too much.
“And I heard, I heard…”
I mean, I mean, I mean, you know, I mean, I mean, you know, you know, you know, I mean, you know, you know, you know, you know, you know, you know, you know, you know, you know, you know, you know, you know, you know, you know, you know, you know, you know, you know, you know, you know, you know, you know, you know, you know, you know, you know, you know, you know, you know, you know, you know, you know, you know, you know, you know, you, you know, you know, you know, you know, you know, you know, you, you know, you know, you know, you know, you know, you, you know, you know, you know, you know, you know, you know, you, you know, you know, you know, you know, you know, you, you know, you know, you know, you know, you, you, you know, you know, you know, you know, you, you know, you, you know, you know, you know, you
“Senior Lu has been very angry these days. I’m sorry.
“…”
“So it has been said that your steadfastness has made him realize that you already have your place in his heart, but you have left him…”
“All right! Stop, stop, stop, stop. You’ve left this story, and I never liked him.”
So sometimes, reality is worse than stories.
We turned the corner and met Secretary Lu.
5
I hung up on him the other day. It was the first time we met.
This man’s emotions have always been on his face, and I’ve been used to him in the past, and I’ve seen him in the middle of nowhere, and I’m ready to take my classmates and wipe him.
But suddenly he grabbed my wrist.
In front of my senior.
…are ready to prove that story?
Indeed he was angry, and he was even more angry when he met me, and almost dragged me to the no-man’s door, laughing at me in the low.
“You got a new brother? I’m sorry.
I can’t see what’s in his eyes, I can’t see what’s in his eyes, I can’t see what’s in his eyes.
“Yeah, new brother. I’m sorry.
“The forest twilight. I’m sorry.
He almost took my name out of his teeth.
“Why don’t you come back to me?
And he who puteth his ear upon me, and stouted his breath with itching, and We fled him.
“I don’t know. Maybe I’m tired? I’m sorry.
“Worried”? I’m sorry.
He said, “I think it’s probably because I didn’t go to him for a few days, but I’m tired of taking care of him.”
“Don’t regret it. I’m sorry.
Picked the frown, his smile gave me a bad feeling.
He used to laugh at me too, but mostly he played with me.
He gave me lunches all morning, and I blamed him for making them so bad.
That’s how he laughed.
That’s why I don’t like him. He used to be stupid, but he kicked the donkey for my head, and in exchange for now, he would probably shove me in front of the donkey and make fun of me.
Six.
I had a dream about him during my nap.
I spent the summer with him in the country.
It’s just weird that I’m going to climb a tree and get me some fruit, and then I’m going to get some popsicles in the fridge.
He said he was going to be Ottoman, and I knew him before my age, and told him that he did not exist.
“No! No! Otmann exists. I have Ott power! I’m sorry.
“Well, you’re Ottmann, I’m a monster. You’re saving the world. What am I going to do to destroy it? I’m sorry.
I asked him a lot of questions about my chin.
I thought he’d say, “Well, then I’ll kill you twice or something, and he’s really wrinkled for a while.”
“Well, then I’ll be a little monster. I’m sorry.
He said he protected me.
I always felt sorry for him because he really did what the knight did.
I was the one who was in the rain about to mess with that hairy ass, and he was the one who took the fall of a frightened beast.
I know he’s right. He just forgot. He just forgot all about the Ottman little monster’s summer ice cream.
One day he may remember, or he may never remember.
But I’ll be angry at him when he laughs at me at some point, or when he says I’m fat again when he says I’m new and ugly, and I miss the kid who says I’m protecting you.
I’ll be my knight taken away by the dragon and he’s dead.
So after napping, he grabbed his hair, and the lab was supposed to be empty and empty.
Turns out I was sitting next to someone who was reading.
7
“Wake up? I’m sorry.
The Hezhou gift was my coach’s proud student and my senior.
At the same time, he was looking at the books in his eyes, and the golden frame glasses reflected the sun outside the window.
And I looked, and I couldn’t even count his eyelashes.
“The teacher wants the data from the experiment. I’ll get it for you. I’m sorry.
The senior’s voice line has been so cold, I noded my head and gave him the papers that the group had prepared this morning.
But he’s still sitting there and he doesn’t mean anything.
There was no one in the classroom, so I found me standing, he was sitting, he looked up at me.
The infinity and tenderness of the evening that fell into his eyes also seemed to be frozen, while the quietness that had left me embarrassed.
“Senior, what else…”
“I heard you broke up with Lu. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
What’s wrong with me today?
“No, because we’ve never been together. I’m sorry.
He was silent.
“You go to him every day. I thought you two were together. I’m sorry.
I always thought the look in your eyes was that you licked your ass without being together.
I didn’t want to explain the childish ten years I made myself when I was young. I just threw it away, and after asking me, he didn’t say anything, and I put it in a book.
He went to the door and looked back at me, and it was a warm evening of summer, and I felt it.
“Come on. I’m sorry.
The senior said the coach wanted to see me.
The office of the outside professor of our school was to go through a long alley, where the stains on the wall were always like a dark time, so that the sound of the wind could tear the noise off the playground.
“Why don’t you like him? I’m sorry.
The senior asked me in front of me.
“…”
I’ve never seen you talk like that before.
It’s hard to explain, but it’s still hard not to answer him.
Heroes are a very special presence in our college, and it seems to take courage to speak to him even though so many girls like him.
Good thing the vibrations on my phone broke the embarrassment between us.
It’s my roommate. Sounds like a rush.
Where are you? I ask you to look at the ranks, and it’s all over. I’m sorry.
I thought, “What does it have to do with me?”
It turns out that the core of their discussions today is me.
The reason for this is that a girl lost her computer in her classroom, and that was the day that the camera in our school building was upgraded and overhauled.
In fact, I saw her put on a public notice, which means that someone stole her computer and returned it within three days, or I’ll call the police.
As a result, no one was looking for her for three days, and she asked in her group that there was nothing to be done, and that such lost and found would not be returned.
As a result, someone went down and saw me walk out of the classroom the last day with a big bag.
It’s from the basketball director.
So I blew up the pot, and when I saw the news of her computer, I went crazy and asked me who was in the yard and which class I was sleeping and never came back.
In addition to the inflaming analysis, she has now almost concluded that I am afraid to return.
I recall very carefully the next day, when I was on the same class as Secretary Lu, and I should have followed him out of the house without any surprise.
Because he needs to get his clothes.
I said in the group, “I’m not the last one to go out. I’m with Secretary Lu.”
He saw me like this, and the crowds were scattered, and he jumped out of the crowd and said something.
“I’m not with you. I’m sorry.
When I saw that, I suddenly remembered that he had laughed and told me not to regret it.
I watched the phone screen, and I heard one after the other.
He thought I was lying, grabbed me and asked me to go with her.
The president of the basketball club also made a very clever statement, saying, “I’m not wrong,” and Lu didn’t show up after he said that.
Even in the group I’ve been asked to apologize.
It is like being taken away from me, and I do not know how to explain it.
I remember very well that I went out with Secretary Lu that day.
He’s playing basketball at night. I’ll get him water and clothes.
He has a good memory. I don’t believe he can forget.
In other words, he wanted to make a big deal out of me.
8
I don’t remember when Lu was so fond of teasing me.
First it’s just a little prank, then it’s getting worse.
There was a loud midday afternoon when he deliberately gave me the wrong address and asked me to find him for two hours under the hot sun.
When I found him, he sat on the rails of the school playground, behind him was a blue sky cloud, where amber-coloured pupils showed me panting, with a subtle radiance in his mouth.
“Why follow me?”
I think his smile was too bright.
‘Cause you saved me, Secretary Lu. I’m sorry.
His smile disappeared again.
He knew that he had been kicked by a donkey to save my head when he was 13 and why I was following him.
He held a bottle of mineral water in his hand, and I didn’t notice until he broke the cap and the water came down on my head.
Wet hair and clothes.
It’s not really cold in three-volt skys, even a little cool, and I’m standing there and feeling like I’m probably just a little bit too coy.
“Now you’re following me, huh?”
He’s so lazy, he’s so mean.
I kept telling myself that if Lu had been in surgery all night, his life would have been my back.
But I’m still shaking. It’s probably cold water flowing into the back neck.
That night, I had a fever.
It is estimated that the cold was a little cold a few days ago, and that, together with the wet clothes that came home, the temperature of the fever was not high, which could have been very bad.
I was sucking my nose in and I was sucking my throat, and I thought it was too bad to have a fever, or I wasn’t as strong as I thought.
I owe you.
I intend to pay for my 10 years, when he has done nothing to me because I owe him.
I owe him.
9
By the time I came back to God, the senior had read all the conversations by my hand.
“C Building”? I’m sorry.
I nod my head.
“You stole it?”
He laughed around his lips.
I know he’s joking, but it’s only now that I see his eyes are peachy, and it’s always so white.
“Let’s go. He suddenly turned in a direction.
“Where to?” I got him.
“Go to your supervisor, and I’ll testify for you if you don’t want to testify. I’m sorry.
“…Presentant. I’m sorry.
“Hmm? I’m sorry.
He looked back at me, and he looked at the light in the alley.
“I don’t know. I’m sorry.
10
It’s impossible to settle this in haste, even if it’s true.
I heard that the police had intervened and that the crowd was gone. Of course, I remember him knowing that he could testify and throw dirty water on me.
I’m really angry.
I put up with it every time before, but this time it’s impossible, I went to the Internet cafe next to the school he’s been visiting lately, and I know he must be there.
I know even where he is, but he’s not the one on that plane today.
I thought I was going back to nothing, and I ran into him at the corner of the wall at the door of the Internet Cafe.
He had taken a cigarette, and the light on which the lighter was lit quickly passed, and he took it and the lighter back in his pocket.
“What’s going on?” He asked me.
“How many times a week did I not complete the last class with you? Why didn’t you see me that day? I’m sorry.
“Yeah, when were you not with me?”
He’s got a weird focus. His voice is dumber than before.
“Why aren’t you here this time? I’m sorry.
“Why do I have to be with you? I’m sorry.
And I went back a few steps, and he set me up.
The man in front of him was a little strange, and his hair seemed to have grown, and some of his hair covered his dark eyes.
“You said you owed me. What, it’s over?”
I opened my mouth and couldn’t say anything.
“Lin Ziquor, who knows that day? I forgot. Maybe you weren’t with me that day? I’m sorry.
“You don’t know, I have a problem. I’m sorry.
He pointed to his head.
“It’s not too much for me to forget everything I did before I was 13. I’m sorry.
“Then it’s time for you to go to the hospital and look at your head, Lu. I’m sorry.
I wrinkled and tried to push him away.
He blocked my path, and then the lights lit up a golden edge for his contours, and there was something in his eyes I couldn’t understand.
“These days, I’ve always had headaches. I’m sorry.
“I told you to go to the doctor…”
Suddenly, he grabbed my wrist, covered his forehead, slowly down.
“When my head hurts, I think of something. I’m sorry.
“It can be vague, especially…
My sight fell on his black head, and for a moment his shadow coincided with the shadow of a child who had been attached to me.
“Will I regret it? I’m sorry.
His voice was sticky and dumb and I didn’t really hear it.
“I don’t know. I’m sorry.
I looked up behind him, and the streets were luxurious, and the light of the car was running, and the light was flashing.
Eleven.
“Do you understand?”
The senior didn’t know when he was sitting next to me. He had two cans of coffee in his hand.
I don’t drink coffee much, and I can’t sleep at night.
But he drank a large sip of his face, and the twilight of his larynx looked at the moon, unprovoked.
So I learned how to drink from him.
There’s an artificial lake downstairs. It’s a very nice view, but it’s close to the medical school where the teacher is.
I don’t know how he found me, but I’m not in the mood to guess.
In fact, after all these years, I’ve already cut him off from that kid.
I don’t know what to do with him, but I just wanted to stay away from him and I didn’t even thank that kid.
Can I ask you a question? I’m sorry.
“Hmm? I’m sorry.
“If you particularly like fish, one day you’ll be stuck in your throat with a fish stabbing, and you’ll put a blood mark in your throat, and you’ll take a long time to pull it out and you’ll eat it again? I’m sorry.
He looked at me quietly and looked at me.
“I’ll get another fish to eat. I’m sorry.
The moon fell into his eyes, clear and clear.
12
Are you sleepy?
Those around me stood up and looked at me, and the light on the lake fell into his eyes.
“It’s just coffee. How can you be sleepy? I’m sorry.
“I guess so. I’m sorry.
I found out he liked to laugh.
“Do you want to go somewhere with me, Lin Tzu? I’m sorry.
That’s how I looked at him that day.
The youths had a small neck, with light light in their eyes, and the water of the twirling lake was so rotten, and the wind soared.
I made a terrible promise, put him on my hand.
I don’t know.
I’ve actually heard before that the senior family is rich.
But when the concept of money is converted into this orange race I’m sitting on, I still can’t react.
It’s far away from my world, far away.
It’s a bit embarrassing to say it. It’s my first ride.
I was shocked by the sound of the engine tearing the air.
There was a moment when my adrenaline did rise, and I could feel my heart beating and my soul gathering.
“Where are we going?” I asked him.
The engine’s roaring, like the beast’s roar.
“I don’t know. He says:
That’s not what I usually see.
The senior is a very good man, very serious and very motivated, and we always focus on him when we do group programmes and ask him first what difficulties we have.
But today he told me he didn’t know.
It’s just on the main road, and it’s spread a thousand miles away.
Finally, it stopped at a convenient door.
It was like nothing happened.
“I drive it when I’m upset. I’m sorry.
The Chief shot his steering wheel.
“Turn around the road. I’m sorry.
“…”
“But it’s like it’s useless now. I looked at him.
But he had buried his head on the steering wheel, and I could only see his black tail and a red ear.
It’s like there’s only a little light in a convenience store.
The glow shakes between us, as if it were so quiet.
I got off to the convenience store and bought him a bag of hot milk.
He had a bag of milk, and he didn’t smoke.
“What, the milk of civilians is not used? I’m sorry.
So he laughed, and his eye turned down, and he passed away.
“I’m at my place…”
And suddenly he pointed me to his neck, and the idle night fell into his eyes, and dazzled the moon.
How about your name? I’m sorry.
I was surprised.
And the people who were there looked at me with ease, and his eyes were too calm, and there was light in pieces.
He’s serious.
I looked at him, but he laughed first.
“Don’t you want to?”
“I am…”
I don’t know how to take his word for it.
“If my dad knew I had another girl’s name on my body, she would have killed me. I’m sorry.
“Then you’ll have to do it.” He looked at me.
I’m responding.
My family doesn’t want to do anything. I’ve been through this, probably in my senior year.
Call it treason.
13
The engine of the car is buzzing again, but this time it’s going to our dormitory.
It’s a pretty noisy engine, but it stops and it’s quiet like it’s never been in the future.
The senior leans his head against his seat and doesn’t speak.
I suddenly think it’s amazing that if you don’t come close to someone, you don’t know what the other side is.
He finally bit off the hot milk bag and I got off and he looked at me.
It’s not as cold as it used to be.
“Bye. I told him.
He looked at me with his eyes.
Starlight goes into the stars, and I think he doesn’t like to laugh.
No, what a time of rebellion.
The peach blossoms around him, he can’t stand it.
I don’t know.
My mom called me this week.
I can’t believe I heard it from her.
“Ah, he went out in the middle of the night for a drink and fell off the stairs and hit his head again. I’m sorry.
“You say that little Luk looks smart, and you don’t advise him. I’m sorry.
“Is he out of love or something? What’s the big deal? You’re from a school, you know that? I’m sorry.
“…”
I really don’t know. I don’t even know if he’s been in class these days.
My mom said a lot of stuff on the phone, and she brought some fruit to see if he had a problem with thinking and asking if the doctor had a problem with his head.
I was able to hang up.
The room number was sent to my cell phone, and I know their elders were worried that my parents and I were going a long way.
But I don’t want to see him now, not now.
So I dragged my roommate to hand over a basket and asked the elders what they were worried about.
At noon that day, his roommate called me on my phone.
Hello? I’m sorry.
There’s no one on the other side of the phone.
I thought it was a mistake. I was just about to hang up, and I heard a voice I hadn’t heard in a while.
“You don’t want to see me? Forest Twilight. I’m sorry.
It seemed that he had not changed his words, as he had been before, but was proud and scattered.
“…”
I don’t want to fight with him. He’s like he ate a powder keg.
“How are you hurt? Your mom’s worried about you. I’m sorry.
“And you, are you worried about me?”
I don’t know.
“You’ve hit your head again, have you, Lu? I’m sorry.
I can’t help it.
“Yeah, I hit my head again. I remember a lot. I’m sorry.
“…”
I admit, I was breathing.
“Do you think I’d apologize to you? I’m sorry.
“Do you think you’re so great? Follow me for 10 years and you do what I tell you. I liked you when I was a kid. Do you think it’s time for me to regret it? I’m sorry.
“Oh, Lin Twilight, I just think you’re hypocritical. I’m sorry.
“…”
When he said that, if he sat across the street from me, I would have put the plate on his face.
“You…”
I opened my mouth and found myself having nothing to say.
Am I… hypocritical?
I’m hypocritical. I do what he tells me to do.
I lied, and I sat under the sun’s inflammation and held him in my clothes.
I was hypocritical, and he poured a whole bottle of mineral water from above my head, and then caught a fever.
How hypocritical I was. I followed him like a little tail.
He kicked a few feet in the back.
I found out that he hung up his phone when I organized some greetings, and I was so angry I broke my teeth, tried to argue something, and his nose was sore.
I never, never wanted his apology.
I just thought that, in any case, he would remember, so that maybe he wouldn’t be so arbitrary to me, so that maybe he wouldn’t look down on me again, so that maybe he would stand before me when someone framed me.
I thought he was still him, but he wasn’t.
I was trapped 13 years ago, and it was always me.
I’m mad at him for cutting off all his chats.
Lin Tzu, buy me a bottle of mineral water.
Rin Twilight, bring me my clothes.
Don’t bring me any food.
You’re not yellow. Don’t wear that dress.
I did listen to him.
14
The first winter rain is like wetting human bones.
It wasn’t so rain, I came back to my dorm with rain, and I had a bunch of bells around my bike, and it was still able to roll around.
I thought I’d go straight to Lu’s room and pull him out of his bed and give him a serious injury.
I don’t want to see him. It’s kind of disgusting. I never thought I’d been meaningless for 10 years.
I kicked the stone in front of me several times.
“What’s on your mind? It’s so divine. I’m sorry.
Until someone talks to me.
How long has he been with me?
He was driving a car, moving slowly around me, not that night’s race, but the other one, which was much lower than the orange.
There were a lot of people on the noon campus, even if it rained, and he did it, and I could feel a little bit of vision coming together.
“How come there’s no umbrella? I’m sorry.
His eyes are still on me.
“I’m almost in the bedroom, Chief, or you’ll have to go first…”
“Get in the car. I knew it.
And the black car stopped as I stopped, and there was a moment of interaction between me and his sight, and the people in the car had a thin eye.
“My cat’s gonna flip back. I’m sorry.
“…”
Who can refuse a cat that just flips back?
I thought so when I was sitting on the sofa.
Too bad his cat ran away as soon as he saw me.
I look at this with a bit of a “home” for me, and according to the senior, it’s a small set of his downtown house.
He passed me a cup of tea and sat on the couch opposite me.
Safe distance.
I’m just sitting here with him, and it feels like he’s staring at me.
But in this case, it’s too weird to look at him again.
“Abu, bring me some clothes, ma’am. I’m sorry.
I was flattered.
“Student, Master…”
It’s the first time I’ve seen this. I’d love to tell him it’s raining. I don’t have to change.
“Hmm? The bathroom’s on the second floor. Better take a shower. I’m sorry.
He’s still very thoughtful about everything.
I admit, I’m like a bastard.
I thought changing clothes was the limit of my knowledge of their class, and when I got on their elevators, I was numb.
I wouldn’t be surprised if you told me you had a pool at home. I’m sorry.
“Do you mean indoor or outdoor? I’m sorry.
“…”
There is.
The bathroom is so big, twice as big as my room.
When you wash your head and come out, and you see someone on the couch with a boned hand and a cat, I don’t think that’s the boss.
That’s my thigh.
White cat with blue eyes snorted to his hand, and he looked at me with his chin.
“It’s perfect. I’m sorry.
“…”
Plus five-digit clothes, even if they’re not right, I’ll wear them hard.
The senior said the clothes were not for nothing and asked me to accompany him to his friends.
“Where to?”
I wasn’t surprised when he changed his car.
I even knew the door was going up.
“The bar. He says:
So he went to the bar.
15
The bar, as the Chief said, was being driven far away from the city, as was the case at night when the luxury car at the door was still one to another.
The dim field was accompanied by an exciting sound, and the PV was on the noisy, and I was taken to a booth, surrounded by young men and women.
“Yo, Ha, are you really here?”
Two beautiful young people greeted us, and he seemed quite familiar with the people here, and the rhythms were turned to the maximum, so they had to shout.
“You brought a girl for the first time! I’m sorry.
This time, I heard you. He’s holding my shoulder tight.
And he sat with me in the corner, and put a cup over the dice in his hand, and suddenly the dazzling light appeared on the sea floor, blue, graceful and demonic.
“First time”?
I shook my head.
It’s not the first time I’ve been here before with a curious roommate.
So he laughed, and the youth gave him a bottle of wine, and he filled the cup with water.
I couldn’t hear any sound in the loud voices, but he was leaning towards me, smelled like wine and sweet in the air, and my ears were numb.
“It’s my first time here. I’m sorry.
“…”
Don’t scare me.
But it seems to fit him.
No smoking, no drinking, sometimes experimenting with the doorman to get rid of him.
It was in the middle of the dance floor that a stage was raised, and it was only when the beautiful women who were exposed were dancing around the steel pipes that the night had just begun, and the long school had been staring at the happy crowd and pouring themselves a glass of wine.
I wanted to ask him, wasn’t too much.
But this feeling is amazing, and I want to see what destroys him. People have the desire to erase things that are clean, and he’s like a piece of white paper that’s finally dirty.
He did not escape until the young woman who was with him turned around.
Grab my hand and walk to the back of the bar.
“What’s wrong, you don’t want to drink? I’m sorry.
We asked him, “Through the crowd, he was not speaking, and the bar was built at the bottom of what hill, and behind the door was the way up the hill. He dragged me and kept walking, and I couldn’t walk, so he stopped.”
I found a rock and he stood before me.
“No point. I’m sorry.
He said, look at me.
“Hero Boat, you see, today’s moon is particularly bent. I’m sorry.
I told him he didn’t go to see it either, but he kept his head down.
I want to tell him that you smile, your eyebrow bends like today’s moon, and it looks good.
But I didn’t say, “Autumn leaves are in the mountains, and Long’s moon is on the horizon.”
He’s not happy, I know.
But I thought I couldn’t say anything to him. He was standing on a different ground from me since he was born, and I couldn’t understand his pain.
My hand pulled the horn of his coat and poured some chicken soup over his head, but before he said anything, something in his eyes was ripped open.
It’s like being swallowed up, and it’s like being insulated with desire.
He leaned down, one hand around my neck and kissed me.
It wasn’t an easy taste, it was an offensive, and there was no one who looked at each other, and I looked at him quietly, almost devoured by the madness in his eyes.
Not at all.
16
The changed clothes were still at his house, so I had to go back and get them.
When I walked back, I was about two or three metres away from him.
“The forest twilight. He called my name.
I didn’t know he was still drunk, but I heard his voice, dumb and sticky.
“I’m sorry. I’m sorry. Can you stay close? I’m sorry.
“…”
What’s this?
I swayed in front of him, with his eyes in his eyes, and his body coat was so long, he stood like a boneless drunk.
He didn’t stop looking at me for a few seconds, and he looked behind me, and his eyes were covered in thin ice.
We turned off all the lights and now his house is on fire.
I don’t know.
That’s the first time I’ve ever seen a greeting.
The woman sits on the sofa and looks at the expensive fur around her shoulder.
She doesn’t even look like a woman. It just makes me uncomfortable with the way she looks at me.
“What are you doing here? I’m sorry.
When the greeting boat saw the person sitting on the couch, the first time the move to the door stopped.
Some abominable frown.
“Wei Wei, who is next to you?”
Women lift their chins and ask me.
He can’t do that.
It’s not the right atmosphere, it’s the wrong instinct that tells me that the woman is a family member of the greeting boat, but the attitude of the greeting boat is no longer a normal family grievance.
“You’ve got a hard wing. You’ll bring a woman home. I’m sorry.
“Let Miss Zhou’s face go, you want a girl like this?” She’s looking at our family’s money. I’m sorry.
The woman’s spear was pointed at me, with red nails on her finger, straight to my nose.
“I advise you to keep your mind down…”
It’s not that small, but it smiles behind me.
The villa was empty and quiet, and he laughed somewhat and pulled me behind him with my hand.
“Suh Jolan, I see how you look like yourself. I’m sorry.
“You! I’m sorry.
A woman looked like that for a second, but she was fast-adjusted and looked at me hard again.
“I am for your own good, this earthy girl. I will not allow her to marry us.” I’m sorry.
“I never wanted to ask you to marry anyone. I’m sorry.
He can’t seem as calm as he looks.
“You believe me, I’ll talk to your father. Who do you think gave you everything you have? If I let your father stop you, you’ll still be…
I didn’t hear you.
The woman who stayed in the room was sorely scolded for writing because of the sound of the greeting.
“Wait, I’ll drive. I’m sorry.
When he was in the driving seat of another Land Cruiser, I pulled him off.
And he looked back at me, and the moon fell upon his eyes light, and even if it were to be confused, it was still shaking the hearts of men.
“Hmm? I’m sorry.
Like I didn’t hear you.
“I’m driving. I’m sorry.
I’m suffocating.
“What if you drink like this and drive again, and I’ll die with one head? I’m sorry.
“Then martyrdom. I’m sorry.
That’s what he said.
I’ve only been in my mother’s car, and for the first time I’ve been in control of this field, and the sight is much wider than I thought, but the roads are dark and unobserved.
He doesn’t talk. I don’t know what to say.
It was not long before his voice was heard.
The streets were always quiet at night, and the cars were quiet, so I felt like I could catch the tremors when he spoke.
“The woman, not my mother. I’m sorry.
“…”
I held the steering wheel, and the light spreads all the way up, and I made a terrible move.
“My mother died, was she my father’s first love or something, and she found my father three months after my mother died. I’m sorry.
“The woman, who wanted to have my father’s child, who gave her nothing, never gave her birth, and she didn’t know how many times she’d done it. I’m sorry.
“It’s not funny that now that she’s too old to know that I’ve inherited a penny of her property and forced me to marry a distant cousin or something? I’m sorry.
“I’d rather have nothing to do with this shit.” I’m sorry.
“How could I have seen that woman take away something that belonged to my mother? I’m sorry.
The scenery outside the window was smooth, and suddenly he opened the window, and the wind was pouring into the car with a brain, and it was fragrance of the mountains, and it rose with it.
“I’ve never been free, never.” I’m sorry.
“When I was a kid, my first-grade dad would drag me out and beat me up, and then when my mom left me, I had no one hugging me, and I ran away once, and I got caught back in my room for a week. I’m sorry.
“I’m an accessory to my father, I’m something he shows off, and if I don’t listen to him, he’ll break my leg.” I’m sorry.
“What does it mean to be alive?” I’m sorry.
“…”
The wind in the wilderness is so big that I’m still shaking over my body.
When he spoke to me, I kept pointing my fingers forward until I saw him fall asleep in the chair, when I knew when there was no sound.
I parked the car on the side of the road.
There is a bridge, and the other is a light-fired bridge.
There was a bright light, and the river ran through it, and its upside-down shadow was broken down by the wind.
I got out of the car and the phone in my pocket was shaking.
A strange number.
Hello? I’m sorry.
Where are you?
At this point, I heard the last voice I wanted to hear.
I hung up.
After a few seconds, the phone remembered.
You didn’t go back to your dorm tonight, did you? I’m sorry.
“Mr. Lu, are you my housekeeper or not? I’m sorry.
I’m a little angry and I can’t help but raise the volume.
“What else do you want?”
“I am…”
“I’m out. I’m sorry.
“You don’t have to tell me. I’m sorry.
“That day, I remembered who you were before I drank, and I was a little scared, and I knew what I was doing wrong, but I was, and I was particularly sad. I’m sorry.
“I said something really bad to you, because I know you’ve been so nice to me for years, not because you like me, never. I’m sorry.
“I just want you to like me, like me, not to save my life, not…”
Enough. I’m sorry.
Enough!
And what else will he say? Then I shouted.
I was scared myself.
“You must remember what you said the other day. I am hypocritical. Everything I did to you is a lie. I’m sorry.
“That’s what you said. I’ve been paying you for 10 years. If you still think I owe you, I’ll hit myself once. I’m sorry.
Don’t…
I can’t hear you better.
The guy at the end of the phone said something else, but someone took the phone from me and hung it up for me.
In the night when there is only one street lamp, there is a broken light in his eyes.
He dragged me into his arms.
Too warm.
Maybe it’s too cold.
His voice was still scattered, and his silence was shattered.
“Go somewhere, Lin Twilight.” He says:
17
I never knew where else we could escape.
The heavens and the earth are wide and wide, and the dawn and the road ahead are dark and dark.
The car was driven long and slow, and I was tired and lost in my seat, and then woke up in an open wilderness.
The wind rises and the grass shakes, and the light of dawn rotates.
“Where are we going?”
His car was parked in front of a two-storey building on an open flat ground.
“Go to heaven. I’m sorry.
“Go to heaven…”
“Are you afraid of heights?”
“It’s okay, sir. We’re…”
He naturally took my wrist and went inside the building.
“This is a jump club. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
The clockwise crossed four points, and there were already people waiting on the first floor of the club, and he seemed to know him well and picked his eyebrow at him.
“You’re just in time for the first shift. I’m sorry.
The senior punched a yawn and pulled me on his couch.
“I’m strangling. I’m sorry.
Men seem to notice me and smile at me.
“Your girlfriend?”
Half an hour, no response.
I was just trying to explain that the senior suddenly went soft.
He was sitting next to me, so I heard it very clearly.
I know there are times when there is no need for more explanations, but I’m not comfortable with being honest with you.
The heart of a silent night has jumped like a revival.
I don’t know.
My first jump.
But he seems to be an old man, and he helps me put on my vest, and when he pulls the button behind me, he has a strong sense of presence on my back.
I want to find something to break the silence.
“How high are we dancing, sir? I’m sorry.
He didn’t talk, but the power on his finger somehow passed through my tailbone.
“Is it possible to jump to death, sir?”
“…”
Still don’t talk.
“Leonster”? I’m sorry.
He’s uh-huh.
“When I’m done with your back. I’m sorry.
…that’s what it was.
It happens that the man we just met on the first floor passed us with his helmet and laughed a few times in a funny way.
That word changed in a moment.
When you’re done with your hair, you’re gonna get your head in my ear.
“Ears pointy red, forest twilight. I’m sorry.
Not enough.
“…”
We jumped 4,000 meters.
And the sun rises and says to one of our helicopter men that today is a particularly lucky day and that this view is always unattainable for the guests.
The sound of the helicopter was particularly loud, and I was almost sitting in his arms because he wanted to jump with me.
The vests have the buttons that tie us together.
Not to say whether it was the first time that a helicopter was flying at a height of 4,000 metres, or whether it was about to jump down with this man, the sound of a heart beating could be heard even by myself.
But suddenly, the view outside the window entered my eyes.
I have never seen the sun rising on the horizon, and the golden yellow of a vast blue.
Up to a high place, even the clouds were under, and the light arcs of the sky leaped into the bottom of their eyes, as if they would never see them in their lifetime.
Someone jumped at 3,000 meters and jumped back against us with a thumb.
Then, 4,000 metres later, when the helicopter door opened, the wind came in, and the senior put on a goggles from behind.
“Are you afraid?”
Because the wind was so loud, he just talked in my ear.
I shook my head.
The main thing is, he’s tied up. I don’t have a choice.
The man with us who jumped before us because he was a single jumper, he jumped off a helicopter and managed to be handsome.
And then finally we arrived.
He seemed to have said something to me when he was about to jump down on the side of my door.
But I didn’t hear it. It was a vast cloud and sea beneath my feet, and the wind was whistling through my ears. I thought I only knew that he had asked me to hold my belt, and then he jumped back with me.
That’s the best sky I’ve seen in my life.
And so quickly the helicopter passed away from my sight, and he turned me over in the air, looking down as an infinity mountain and river, as a golden arc around that vast sky.
The sun rises from the horizon, and the radiant radiance of the radiant orange.
I can’t even hear it. I just think it’s just a moment to fall, fall into the arms of a mountain or burn before dawn.
He took me to a place where nobody could go.
Jumping from a distance of four miles, to say the least, is a blink.
Especially fast, and never thought about the end of this trip after opening the parachute.
But his legs were soft, and when he landed, he was almost half my arms.
Without the wind, his breath was ringing in my ear.
“Be my girlfriend, Lin Twilight. I’m sorry.
He took off my goggles and stuck my hair behind my ear and kissed me.
18
“Twilight, are you having trouble with Lu? I saw you come back and never looked for him. I’m sorry.
When I was young and returned home on winter break, this friend came and went.
It’s probably just that I went home too far, not only without the landing, but I couldn’t say it back.
They all think I’ve been chasing him for 10 years.
I shook my head.
I don’t know.
Of course, the cold-leave event was a friend-to-friend meal, but I forgot to write novels, and I didn’t want to go to the station where my daughter was.
I still met him.
He’s not changed, he’s got a bad temper, but there’s no contradiction between good and bad personality, or someone around him.
Especially for girls, probably a few of them like him to pull.
When I pushed the door in, a girl probably didn’t notice me, or what I’ve done.
I jumped into the lake to pick up the basketball that Luk Secretary threw in the water.
It’s not cold in summer, I can swim, but who’s stupid enough to pick up a ball for a man’s clothes.
This thing ended up making fun of me at a few girls’ parties.
It’s funny to think that I’m chasing someone they like and being played with.
The girl was talking about it, and the minister sitting there was so impatient that he probably wanted to open another bottle of wine and look at me.
He looked at me like that.
I’m here, and the girl who said it didn’t stop.
“Oh, Rin Zhiqiu, you’re here. I told you you couldn’t stand to see Luk.
“Don’t talk without your mouth.” I’m sorry.
The sound of the bottle cracks all over the box, and it all seems like it stopped, and when it reacts, he has crushed the glass in his hand.
He can crush it. It’s not a very good wine cup.
The girls were scared to hide, glass fragments were spilled on his hands and blood and alcohol were mixed.
It was a little party that I hadn’t seen for a long time.
I know everyone’s looking at me, and I’m looking down, and he’s got a scary wound on his hands, and all the glass is in his hands.
“Looks like I’m here. It’s a mess. I’m sorry.
I tried to make my voice sound a little smooth, and I turned around and grabbed the bag and left the box.
“Wait, Lin Tzu…”
He shouted at me behind his back, closing the door and strangling the broken words.
I don’t know.
New Year’s, no year’s taste.
At 5 p.m., if the bedroom does not turn on the light, there will be only the sunset left behind.
I don’t understand why this happened. I don’t understand why Luk-shin won’t let me go.
The cell phone was buzzing in my pocket and it was shaking, and I picked it up a long time ago.
Hello? I’m sorry.
“You sound like you’re in a bad mood. I’m sorry.
No one can judge by one word whether the other is in a good mood.
I pulled my mouth off. The call was from the He canary.
Actually, I also rejected the senior.
I can’t stay with him.
He’s nice to me, but he’s actually standing in a place high above me.
The way the rich get out is by jumping, and people like us can only smoke and drink.
No matter how good he was to me, I just thought it was too easy for him to dump me.
If he was a rich generation I didn’t know, I’d be better with him.
But it was because of him that I was more afraid of what he could not bury in my heart.
“It’s snowing here, I want to show you, and suddenly you’re gone. I’m sorry.
“I’m just going home, sir. I’m sorry.
He was soft and dumb again.
I don’t know why, after that day, I’ll always have to rely on him.
It’s enough that he jumped me from a height of more than 4,000 metres. No one can forget that.
The chief’s words were few or even few, and I refused to say anything, and I was automatically kept at a safe distance.
But sometimes he brought me a hot milk when I didn’t eat in the morning, and the experiment always took care of me, and there were people who felt it if they didn’t.
Ask me if you’re chasing me.
My face is in the arms. People are always in conflict. You don’t want to be nice to yourself.
I don’t talk, the Chief doesn’t move, there’s someone out there who drinks and the bike rings the bell.
“Don’t cry, Lin Twilight. I’ll find you if you cry again. I’m sorry.
“…”
The tears were wet and I was only breathing, and he heard.
Don’t be nice to me. I’m sorry.
I told him.
He laughed.
I never thought I was good to you. I’m sorry.
“I just did what I wanted to do to you. I’m sorry.
19
Smash into my room.
“Go, Lin Twilight. I’m sorry.
She took my hand and pulled me outside the door.
I had to hang up and ask her what happened.
I’ll show you. I’m sorry.
The winters in the south are always wet and cold, and I’m not wearing a scarf, and I shrunk my neck and asked what the hell I’m gonna do when I’m out in the middle of winter.
Walking, I found the destination wrong.
It’s the basketball court where Lu Xing plays.
That lake next to me was the one that jumped off to pick up the ball.
The lake is surrounded by people, small and familiar.
And there was one man who struggled to pull water on the surface of the lake.
I thought I was young to show me a brain in winter where I was swimming in winter.
It was only later that I found out that it was Secretary Lu.
I don’t know how cold the lake is, but I just think it’s starting to get cold.
What does he want?
I wrinkled, and someone told him not to swim.
I stood there and watched him slowly swim to me, and he was all wet and I had never seen anything like it.
Was it the same summer I swam at him to get the ball?
When he landed, he fell and fell.
It seems to have choked too much water, his eyes were red, and there was too much feeling, like screaming for something to swallow me, and the water slipped down his nose.
“Lin Twilight, are you satisfied? I’m sorry.
He just looked me in the eye.
It’s like a black pupil who’s lost in winter’s lake.
“It’s okay if I’m not satisfied, I can do a lot of things, those things I’ll make it up to you one by one, okay? I’m sorry.
“…”
I went to him step by step.
How long has it been? I haven’t seen him that seriously in a long time. I haven’t been to him since my birthday.
He’s crazy and inversely unexpected to me.
I don’t understand. I don’t understand him.
And when I stood before him, I heard that he even breathed slightly.
I raised my hand and slapped him.
It’s very clear. It’s by the lake in January.
He looked at me, and he looked at me like he couldn’t focus.
His collar was wet and cold, and when I strangled, the lake was in my hand.
“You think you’re a grudge, don’t you, Lu? I’m sorry.
“What do you want? You think I’m gonna let this go? I’m sorry.
“Do you think I’m comfortable with what you’ve been hurt? I’m sorry.
“Can you not carry your own life on me? I’m sorry.
He was silent for a long time.
I can’t feel the winter wind, it’s cold, just angry.
I’m angry at him for trying to restrain me in the form of his life.
“Why are you with me for 10 years? I’m sorry.
When he said it, it was broken and trembled.
“You know what? It’s hard to catch an unrealistic fantasy, too. I’m sorry.
“Will you be good to me because of yourself, not because of what I saved you? I’m sorry.
“Can I?”
Like a prayer, I’ve never seen him like that.
“I don’t hate you, Secretary Lu. I’m sorry.
I said to him, “Leave your hand on his collar.”
He stood there disillusioned, and then I said, “Go on.”
“So you don’t like me, you don’t love me, and you never break your heart because of me, do you? I’m sorry.
“…”
And he laughs.
It’s a broken laughter, and it’s buried somewhere in an unsuspecting whizz.
“Ha, is that it? It’s over. I’m sorry.
“Ten years is ten years, Lin Tzu, you gave me a long dream. I’m sorry.
“You never thought of giving me a chance to regret it, did you? I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
Yes, it’s over.
I still do not know whether my commitment was right at that time and whether my decade was worth it. It was probably a rather long story, passing through my ill-advised and restless youth.
It’s not even over.
20
When I was sad, I sat on the hill at the back of the house.
After a vast mountain road is a city of fire.
“It’s beautiful. I’m sorry.
“You’ve seen a thousand times more beautiful than this, have you? I’m sorry.
The people next to him were laughing, and the starlight had a brain in his eyes.
“Really? I don’t remember. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
By the time I got a call from the senior, he had arrived at our station.
This guy, actually, was on the train for the first time.
There’s little luggage, too few.
“My dad threw everything out the door, so I came to you. I’m sorry.
It’s not as easy as he said it was, it’s as if it was a lot of noise, but he still doesn’t like it.
I think he’s been waiting a long time for this.
The evening wind blows out the bright lights of the night, and he wears little, and the light in his eyes is bright and especially bright.
“I’ll probably rent a little house outside. I’ll have to start from scratch. I said I’m after you. I can’t even buy a bowl of $20 beef noodles. I’m sorry.
“Don’t go after him. I’m sorry.
“Yeah, gotta wait for me…”
“Let’s be together, Hezhou. I’m sorry.
He looked at me quietly.
I used to love his eyes because there was a galaxy that was so far away, but this time he lost his mind.
I’m gonna kiss my neck and I’m gonna get away.
“You’re weird. I’m sorry.
Why don’t you just put your chin in my neck?
“Think you’re following me now. What do you get? I’m sorry.
The whispers are devoured in the night.
“The position of the future president and wife of the Hester Group? I’m sorry.
I think I’ve read some of those big novels, probably.
He smiles, his breath tickles.
“No, it’s $20 a bowl of beef noodles. I’m sorry.
“…”
You’re too real, sir.
He really took me to that bowl of beef noodles.
No one eats noodles at night, and near the New Year’s Eve, the boss’s little daughter swings a fairy stick on the steps in front of the door, and the sparks sparkle the night of an empty hole.
I don’t know.
Then I realized, when the Hezhou gift came to me, there were only 20 left in my pocket.
That day, he smiled at me and ate all his food for four days.
He never promised me anything. He just did what he could.
And the story of how he showed up in the business world and how much more than his famous father.
That’s all there is to it.
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I don’t know.
Keep your eyes on the road.
