In the first week of school, I often dreamt of two men saying they were my boyfriend.
I woke up sore, I went to a shrink.
“Just stress too much, don’t be nervous. I’m sorry.
He smiled and gave me some pills, “You’ll sleep early after eating.” I’m sorry.
Then I found out that the dream was longer.
In the dream, another man grabbed my hand and smiled:
“I told you, it’s too long. She can’t take it. I’m sorry.
One.
“Look at you, you’re beautiful…”
And that hand was pretty long in front of my collarbone.
I couldn’t see his face.
Jealousy, wake up!
Suddenly someone woke me up from my sleep.
The roommate sat by his bed with his face on his face and touched my sweat’s forehead.
“I envy you if you have a fever and a red face. Why don’t you go to the hospital? I’m sorry.
At this point, I lay in the small bed of my bedroom, sweating, and my heart hit my ribs, and I was sore.
“I’m fine. As soon as he opened his mouth, his voice was dumb.
Bedroom alarm ticks and ticks.
I moved my wrist, and the pain left in my dream was real.
Before they woke up, the two crazy men were working on how to tie my hands and hang them in front of the mirror…
Two.
This is the fourth time in a week.
Since I moved into this bedroom, I’ve been dreaming a lot.
Two men appear in every dream.
I can’t see my face.
An older, warmer, long fingers, a distinguished wristwatch on his wrist and the sound of the Soods softened their legs. Like a Sven.
The other one is younger and, while always smiling, he is a real radicalist who has no mercy on me.
They all say it’s my boyfriend.
It’s a big deal.
Every time I wake up, I feel sore and even when I get down, I need to hold on to the bed.
“I’m jealous. I’m late for anatomy. I’m sorry.
White Wing hugged the textbook and broke my mind.
I’m a medical student, a steadfast atheist.
So the strange dreams, I always thought, were too stressful to start.
But I’m afraid to tell Baek Yi.
She’s so tender, she even has to watch horror movies in the corner.
3
Friday afternoon, the autopsy class was crowded.
White Zhu has already found a seat in the first row of the classroom.
“I envy, where are you going?” She greets me in crowds.
I’m still thinking about dreaming and I’m walking.
More people move around.
I don’t know who tripped me from behind when I moved something back.
It’s about to fall down with books.
All of a sudden, there’s an extra strong hand in the back and it’s hot and thick.
A light tip stops my push back.
“Be careful, it’s bad to wet yourself. I’m sorry.
A slow, dumb laugh, soft on my legs.
Because in my dreams I’ve heard this noise so many times.
Isn’t that a ghost?
The white tweezers are getting closer to me than they are.
I look back slowly.
It’s a few years old, and the doctor is studying. He’s currently an anatomy assistant.
He was standing behind me, side by side, and the low eyes looked good.
Under a long eyelashes, dark eyes with smiles.
“Can I help you?”
I’m sweating like a man, and I’m in a hurry to take two steps back, “No, thank you.
He fell on my face and smiled a little, “Sit back, class is about to take place, classmate.” I’m sorry.
I never talked to him before.
There are countless bees chasing him at school.
But I never heard he had a girlfriend.
There are rumors that his preferences are extraordinary.
Sunshine across the windows.
He stood in front of the podium, dressed in white coats, and in the shadows, cut the light into pieces.
He’s wearing white latex gloves and he’s got a knife.
The gloves fit seamlessly with his skin, and the five-finger blades allowed to travel between flesh and blood.
I’m ashamed to hold my hand. “I’m jealous. Do you know that the Master’s anatomy is well known? I’m sorry.
She’s louder.
I think you heard him. He looked at me.
The light pupils fell on my face, not feeling warm, but rather with a tasteful look, with a dark vision that casts a hair over my head.
I shrunk very carefully to the whites.
From the podium, the five-fingered, flexible flips, and the anatomy is very effective.
He started to teach us about textbooks.
I can’t help but remember the dream — he’s using the same technique, and he’s allowed to play in the palms until you collapse and beg for forgiveness.
This is crazy.
I have to go to the hospital.
And when he had finished his lesson, We fled despite the sound of the white sarcasm, and packed the books and ran away.
4
The school hospital is on the southern side of the school, not far from the school district.
Friday afternoon is the peak of the hospital.
I hung up the shrink’s number, and then I went in.
The clinic is quiet.
The sun shines through the window.
Only the mechanized mouse click is left.
In the eye, a long, white hand gently sets on a round mouse.
The wristwatch reflected bright light.
Turning against the light, I could barely see his blurry side face and the uppermost contours of his shoulder.
This is the famous professor of psychology at our school — the Tsui.
Young, not only with an excellent academic mind, but also with a charming skin.
It’s all over it, and it’s a cold breath.
“Where’s the pain?” He asked.
My heart is shaking.
So soft-legged line, in a calm evening, in my ear.
I thought of that big hand that locked me in front of the mirror and the voice that smiled and made me look at the mirror…
I’m really crazy.
Anyone who sees is suspected of being the man in his dream.
“Are you listening to me?”
Tsui’s gentle vision came through the top of the glasses and pulled back my thoughts.
I licked my dry lips and found him not bowing down to write his disease, but holding his arms and preparing to hear my statement.
“Sorry, I’m listening. “I made a mistake. Sit still.
It’s as if one look at him, it’s blasphemy.
“Take it easy. Just let me know if you have any questions. I’m sorry.
His voice was sweet and easy to calm down.
I nod my head, I spit, “I’ve been having nightmares all week.”
After that, the face burned uncontrollably.
“Nightmare? Any details?”
I’m saying, “I can’t call it a nightmare and I’m being molested.”
Suh’s cold eyes have flashed a bit of dumbness, and the pen has hit the table gently, and the rhythm is regular.
He seems to be interested, he’s looking forward, “Well, so what do you think it is? I’m sorry.
I was so nervous, I was so nervous, “It’s probably too stressful, and it’s causing sleep quality to decline. I’m sorry.
“Wake up tired?”
The sound of the party was softened, and people followed his thoughts unconsciously.
“Yes, Professor, I’m tired. I’m sorry.
He smiled, he looked down and wrote something in his medical history.
“You’re just stressed out, don’t be nervous. I’ll give you something to eat on time. It’ll put you to bed early. I’m sorry.
I’m relieved, “Thank you, teacher. I’m sorry.
It is hoped that this red-faced symptom will be eased.
5
That night, I sat at the table and took out the sleeping pills I bought and put them on the table.
“Did you go to see Professor Seo today?” I’m sorry.
“How do you know? I’m sorry.
“Nothing. She had a dark look and she gave me a glass of water with sweet taste, “Yeah, I’m jealous. I think I’m a good senior, don’t you think? I’m sorry.
Not bad?
Maybe.
I swallowed a sleeping pill in the water from the white sap.
The drug came up quickly, and I got confused.
I thought I’d finally get some sleep tonight.
But…
Dreams come back.
Those two men again.
The cold sound came: “…she’s not feeling well today and she’s a little less. I’m sorry.
I’ve been thinking about it.
But he didn’t have the strength to say his name.
And suddenly in your ear, another grown man’s low laughter, soothing:
“Good boy, just a routine check. It won’t hurt you. I’m sorry.
I lost my voice and struggled, but I couldn’t wake up.
There are three odours in the air.
White pine fragrance mixed with citrus and disinfectant water.
That’s what they smell like.
Help, even dreams. I’m still being forced by them to study the exam.
Another man whispered next to him, “It’s so cute. I’m sorry.
Say low-headed kiss me.
I’m in a hurry to fight it.
All of a sudden, my lips ache, my blood spread out, I hum, almost choked.
I can’t breathe like a dehydrated fish and keep my mouth open.
The man’s hand mat was in the back of my head.
“Enjoy, breathe, and you will choke yourself to death.”
She laughed, “I told you, it’s too long. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
Boom!
It was accompanied by a huge sound, but the dream stopped.
I woke up and found myself sitting on the floor of the bedroom.
It also knocked over the water basin by the bedside.
“Today’s weekend, envious, you don’t sleep, what to do…”
“I’m sorry…”
I apologized and found myself weak as if I had just finished a marathon.
That’s what happens.
I had another dream last night.
Dreaming symptoms are not abating, but are longer.
I’m holding the bed fence and shaking.
A weakness from the depths of my soul makes me feel weak even to stand up.
After a few minutes, I stood up and got a glass of water.
And the moment when the lips touched the water, the sting of the rare pull gave me frown.
It hurts…
I walked into the bathroom.
See only – The girl in front of the mirror was wearing a simple tampon-printed pyjamas, with a twilight and a red face.
In the position of the lips, there was a small wound.
Bite?
Broken?
I was holding my wrist up.
On the inside of the wrist, there’s a very light red mark on the skin…
I looked in the mirror, I couldn’t believe it.
Is it really just a dream?
Six.
I’m in self-doubt.
Is it me or…
“I’m jealous. What are you thinking? “Today’s class, the teacher’s name is called. I’m sorry.
I really envy her. I can sleep well every day.
Ten minutes later, I dragged tired bodies into the classroom.
My back hurts like an old man.
No accident. We’re late.
“Sit in front, late classmates. I’m sorry.
As soon as my ass got to my seat, the teacher’s voice came.
Look up …
He’s got his hands on the podium and smiles.
But there was no sound in the classroom.
After all, he just hung up half of his class in the last semester.
I sat in the front of the classroom with the white tweed.
He didn’t criticize me in person, but he did it with my name. I’m sorry.
I sound like a mosquito fly, “No rise…”
“Oh, what did you do last night? I’m sorry.
I choked, “Sport.” I’m sorry.
And then suddenly he smiled, “As far as I know, sport has to stick to it to be effective. I’d like to ask my classmates to practice more. I’m sorry.
I’m blushing, “Okay…”
In the second half of the day, I was left alone.
“I’d be happy if I were you.” I’m sorry.
I heard something wrong. “What am I happy about? I’m sorry.
After all, I’m in the outsider’s eye, and I can’t hit it.
It’s like you like me in your mouth.
She choked and rubbed her finger, “Hey, you’re a little distracted…”
7
After school, I put my books in order to catch up.
“Come here, I have something for you.” I’m sorry.
His voice was cold and he acted in a formal manner.
I hesitated for a moment and walked back.
“To you.” I’m sorry.
“What? I’m sorry.
“The ointment,” he put his head down to clean up the teaching, “The physical sprain, it’s better to put this on.” I’m sorry.
“…”
He glanced at me, and he said, “She told me, she chose my mentor, and now she’s my sister. I’m sorry.
“Ah … I see. “I have a momentary shame for my wild speculation.
No wonder it’s weird.
She doesn’t think he likes me, does she?
That’s why he tried to set me up with him.
8
When I went back to the dorm this day, I bought some snacks for the white crotch.
She’s sitting in front of a computer doing something.
I was sneaking up, trying to surprise her.
But when I saw her on the computer screen, the smile on my face was so solid.
She’s studying… knots?
A plethora of knots is enough to tie a man to death.
When I heard something, the white man turned back, and saw me, as scared as I was, fast-tracked the computer.
“I’m jealous. Why are you back? I’m sorry.
She’s looking away and confused.
I’m so confused, I mechanically threw snacks into white arms. I’m sorry.
“Thank you…”
Although she’s more polite.
But this time, it gives me the creeps.
“You were just…
She blinked and she said, “Student in knots. Surgeon just taught me. I want to practice. I’m sorry.
I’m trying to stay calm.
‘Cause those were not the kind of surgery you taught me.
“I’m hungry, I’m jealous, I want you to eat with me.” I’m sorry.
I looked at her in the back and suddenly had a bold guess.
My dream, maybe just hypothetical.
But the traces of reality are made of white.
The worse I thought, it seemed I could not bear to continue living with her, and that night I submitted an application for a change of bed to the counselor.
The counselor said I’d be back next Wednesday, which means that I need to stay in my bedroom for two or three nights.
Before I fell asleep, she handed me a glass of honey water, as usual.
I fell while she was in the bathroom.
It’s late.
Out of tension, I lay in the dark and remained vigilant.
And finally, because I was too tired to sleep.
Open your eyes, it’s light.
He was dressed, covered in black hair, softly in his head, and said:
“I’m going to the cafeteria. What do you want? I’ll bring it for you.”
It’s been so long since I’ve had a good night’s sleep…
“Thank you, no. I’m sorry.
I was lying there, staring at the ceiling, and I was relieved, and I saw the problem.
Just one precaution, there will be no problems.
For the next few nights, I’ve been able to sleep very well without the honey water.
I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m even buying snacks.
There are things that I can’t respond to, and I can’t be sure.
The only way to do this is to wait for notice from the supervisors.
9
I went to the hospital the day before I moved the bedroom.
I wanted to thank you for the party, and I wanted to ask how to ease the mild anxiety.
Meets the head of the study department in front of the hospital, and he sees me, and he smiles so passionately, he says, “You’re jealous. I’m sorry.
He’s been chasing me for a while, more enthusiastic, and I’ve turned him down several times, and he’s been holding on.
It’s a little awkward now.
“Well, I went to psychiatry. I’m sorry.
He wonders, “Have you been under a lot of stress lately?” It’s okay. Take it easy. I’ll walk you in. I’m sorry.
And then he dragged me upstairs.
There are fewer psychologists today.
After he spoke to the nurse at the door, he pulled me and pushed the door of the room.
“Professor Seo, I have a schoolgirl to see you…”
His words stopped, and in the bright room, his legs were folded and he sat in his office chair, while his hands were cut in and he was lazyly reclining at the window.
Hear the noise and turn around.
I can’t see their faces.
It’s just a sudden feeling that the back hair is being watched.
The Minister of Learning scratched his head, “I’m sorry, the nurse at the door said you didn’t have a patient, and I–“
“Who are you jealous of?”
His words were evenly interrupted.
The Minister of Learning smiled, “I’m chasing her. I’m sorry.
Word down, room quiet.
The party was hand-to-hand, and it made a smirk that seemed to be a disgrace.
Two hands came out of the pocket and stood up.
It’s just a little bit dark around here.
I’m blushing.
The Secretary of Learning pushed me in, “I have to go. I’m sorry.
Bang.
The door’s closed. There’s only three of us left.
I didn’t think they knew each other.
“I’m sorry, I’m out first.”
I walked back and watched him get closer and blocked by him.
There was a light smile in his dark eyes, and he approached me, and his hands round my waist.
Just listen for a second.
The door is locked.
And the next minute I heard him laughing, “That’s your good idea. Let her rest for a few days and make a wild man.” I’m sorry.
Whoa!
The buzzing swung through the brain.
My thoughts are stagnating and my face is getting pale.
Suh rises, stands in front of me and the leg, takes off his wristwatch.
“So to apologize, you first. I’m sorry.
10
At dusk, the noises in the hospital were becoming quiet.
I was held in the back of my head and I pressed his lips in cold blood.
The fragrance of citrus fills my mouth.
And the after-light of the sunset fell in my pupils, and lit up my panic.
But they don’t seem to see.
The party grabbed me from behind, with his fingers softly on my neck. Didn’t you go through it?”
My thinking has become confused, and I can’t imagine why I have become so.
Sweat my red ear, “I wanted you to rest for a while, but you’re so annoying. I’m sorry.
“What does it matter if someone likes me? I’m sorry.
And then she rubbed my red, red lips, and laughed, “Look, she doesn’t seem to know what’s wrong with her. I’m sorry.
He picked me up from the party, and he put his arms on my waist. I’m sorry.
The party held its arms and whispered, “The little door on the right.” I’m sorry.
“What are you doing? I’m sorry.
“Of course it’s a good meal. I’m sorry.
The party stayed outside.
I was dragged into a dark lounge, and the air was fragranced with white pine, and his private space was served with a work pass for the party on the bed table.
He threw me on the bed.
I climbed a few steps forward and was dragged back to my ankle.
“What for?”
I was so sweaty, “No, I’m not well.”
“Don’t pretend,” he smiled, and said, “I did all your research. I’m sorry.
And I was in a panic somewhere, and he groaned, and he grabbed me, and he said, “I envy, and I am useless, and I will not spare you.” I’m sorry.
The atmosphere is still spreading in the air.
I was trapped in a little space, gently kissing my forehead.
The power gap is too wide, and my resistance, in his view, is just scratching.
It turns out those are really not dreams. White is his sis and he’s inside.
I can’t help but feel familiar.
Suddenly, the sound of the nurse’s voice came out the door.
I looked up, “Save me.”
“Who do you want to save you?” I’m sorry.
“Ah, Professor Seo, is anyone inside?”
“Well, fresh cat. I’m sorry.
“Wow, we like cats. Can I see them? I’m sorry.
“I’m sorry, it’s too small to see anyone, because she’s sick.” I’m sorry.
I was sweating out of a fierce struggle, and I ended up in bed like a dead fish.
God damn me…
Suddenly, the glass door was pushed.
A light was slammed on the closed shutters, and the Tsui party stood at the door and said, “Today I fear I can’t do it. I’m sorry.
“What’s wrong with you?” I’m sorry.
When his arms stood up, he sat up on the bed and found that the party was leaning on the door and scrambling me.
He took the covers around me and drew some tissues to wipe off my face.
“I haven’t seen it, I can hide it.” I’m sorry.
I’ll clear my voice and swallow the sand, “Can I go?” I’m sorry.
They both looked at me with their smiles as if I had asked an extremely stupid question.
A few minutes later, I was caught in the middle by two of them, one to the left, and I walked in red in front of the nurse.
“Huh? Professor, does the lady need any help?”
“No, thank you.”
“I almost got caught, envied, and you don’t want to be humiliated in public?” I’m sorry.
Eleven.
I didn’t find the right time to run.
The party sat in the driver’s seat and Wing and I sat in the back.
My phone rings suddenly.
It’s the supervisor.
It’s a little picky.
I swallowed saliva, “Let me take it. If you can’t reach anyone, you’ll be in trouble. I’m sorry.
“Pretty. I’m sorry.
I do what I say, the next second, the conductor’s voice:
“I’m jealous. We can move early today. You go back and pack. I’m sorry.
The start-up car would have gone to the front if it hadn’t been for a long time.
“It doesn’t look stupid to be jealous…”
His cold eyes passed through the rear-view mirror, and fell on my frightful face, with his eyes swooped, and his smile was shallow, “What do you think?” I’m sorry.
And my heart swung in it and whispered, “Please, let me go back.” I’m sorry.
It’s like, “Well, it’s not that bad. I’m sorry.
They’re yelling at the white crotch.
In the middle of the autumn, the crotch wore a windie with a knee, and took me from the car.
On this occasion, she no longer had the gentleness of the past, strangling my wrist and dragging it into the dormitory building.
I can’t believe I’m just being released.
On the way, I asked Baek, “Do you know what you’re doing?” I’m sorry.
Nothing is said.
I think she may have gone crazy, too, and suddenly she threw herself away and ran to the permanent security booth next to the student dorm.
“Help! Somebody’s trying to kidnap me! I’m sorry.
The uncle at the police booth was drinking water, and I was stunned. I’m sorry.
12
There was a lot of noise. Half an hour later, the conductor arrived.
Sitting across the street is still a good student.
What’s going on?
The white eye was red, and the left arm was covered with blood.
“I don’t know about the teacher, I’m jealous that she’s not feeling well lately, and I want to take her to a shrink, and she–
I was so nervous and sweaty, “I repeat, it’s a party and a party, they’re trying to imprison me! I’m sorry.
The face of the conductor was empty, not just her, but the same expression was shown by others.
They don’t believe it at all.
“Mr. Zhang, have you heard of a problem with a student? I’m sorry.
The marked voice of the party came from outside the door, and the next second, he was in a suit and appeared at the door.
The lower cheeks are slightly lifted, half a face bathed in the light and the look of the face.
An invisible sense of oppression struck me.
I could even see him hiding in his eyes as if the cat was playing with a rat trapped in a cage.
The conductor got up right away, “Sorry, Professor Seo, I’m sorry to bother you. I’m sorry.
When the eyelids were lifted, smiled, “It’s you. I’m sorry.
“You know each other?”
The conductor got nervous and instinctively blocked me.
Suh Noded, “She came to the psychiatry a few days ago and diagnosed a serious delusion. I’m sorry.
It’s not like that! * I got up so hard * I’m sorry.
The party pushed the eyeglasses and lamented, “Good boy, unfortunately, manic. I’m sorry.
“I demand a new doctor! I’m sorry.
“Sir, I envy that you’ve been taking sleeping pills for days, and the dosages are increasing and sometimes there are ligature marks on her. And she met a teacher a few days ago. How could a teacher think of her? I’m sorry.
The conductor’s eyes went from vigilance to fear.
“I’m jealous. Take it easy. Let’s talk. I’m sorry.
Mr. Tsui’s advice is that, “In the interest of the safety of students, would you like to consider placing them in a psychiatric hospital for further treatment? Of course, she’s not worried. I can find another attending. I’ll pay. I’m sorry.
My parents died long ago, and the aunt who raised me broke my maintenance when I was a man.
I was so cold, I finally understood why they were so relieved to let me go.
There was a question: how can he prove that he is a normal person if he is in a mental institution?
The answer is no.
The party was the authority of industry, and it was very difficult for the patient he had consulted to have the courage to overturn his allegations.
This way, he’s blocking it.
13
The director wouldn’t let me move to the new bedroom because of the party.
She hung me up three days later and took me to a doctor.
If it was that serious, I’d be hospitalized.
And then there’ll be no escape.
I didn’t want to be played with like this, but I secretly booked a flight to the capital.
The party can’t cover the sky with your hands.
There’s always a better psychologist than him.
As long as I can get a psychotic diagnosis, I can send them in.
The flight took off on Wednesday night.
I chose it.
He’s out of the club.
The party had an academic meeting and had a business trip, which was the safest time.
I took a small suitcase, walked out of the school door, reached out and hit a car.
“Go to the airport, thank you. I’m sorry.
I looked down, I was busy talking to my fellow citizens in the capital, and then I got my eyes pulled off the phone.
The car was on a highway around the city and had entered the rich areas.
Master, are you wrong?
I saw a familiar eye through the rear vision mirror.
Cold peach eyes, tiny picks.
It’s Dip.
“No mistake. Envied, today is your day home. I’m sorry.
I stopped for a second and decisively picked up my phone and called the alarm.
The copilot man whispered, “Stand aside, I’ll go back. I’m sorry.
I didn’t even notice that the co-pilot was sitting at a party.
The moment of the telephone connection, the party opened the door.
The long, wide palms covered my mouth, and he took my phone softly and cut it off.
“You want to run?”
He strangled my jaw and forced me to look at him, and drew a smile of mercy on his lips.
“It’s a shame we can’t run away. I’m sorry.
14
They took me to a large apartment.
The light in the living room was lit and the light was not very clear.
I was cold, and I sneezed a few times as soon as I got inside.
Give me a bath.
The party was slow to drop the suitcase, open and pack for me.
“It’s a lot, but most of it’s not necessary, and we’re all ready for you. I’m sorry.
I had a vibrate.
“Why me? I’m sorry.
The thumbs of the party smudged my wet tears and rubbed them on my lips, “I envy you, I don’t like you to cry, okay? I’m sorry.
Tears are salty and bitter.
“Can’t you leave me alone?”
Suh smiled and suddenly snapped out of my waist and whispered, “No. I’m sorry.
When the hot water came back, I was taken to the bedroom by a party.
In the middle of the door, I asked, “Where’s the party? I’m sorry.
He’s standing behind me in the dark, and he’s in the middle of a soothsay and whispering:
“I’m jealous, you say, if I go too far, will he hear me? I’m sorry.
I was in a state of panic trying to escape, holding the doorknob, pressing down.
Bang!
The back collar was crushed by a party.
Because of inertia, I was afraid I’d accidentally hit the door, so I could take a breath of air.
And the main cause of the event, Seo, laughed, “Shh, keep it down. I’m sorry.
After that, he said to the outside: “She was hungry, she went to the kitchen, and you looked again. I’m sorry.
15
I was tied to him.
“This is a nice body. * And it’s a door *
With a rope in his hand, I will be within two metres of his body, lest the party steal me away while he is unaware.
I brought out my clothes, and they took them all.
There are only pajamas left in the closet.
My face is burning, “Can I apply for a change?” I’m sorry.
When you pull it, you drag me outside the door.
“Eat breakfast. I’m sorry.
The party was dressed and sat on the table and read the newspaper.
The white shirt is adhesively tied to the top buttons, the sleeves are slightly raised, and the flow of muscle lines appears.
Part of it was wearing a black light T-shirt, half-cut pants.
Just me…
Hair is messy, sleeping skirts are weeded, like a homeless man who’s barely sheltering.
The party heard noises, raised its eyes, fell on me with a dark look, tweaked its lips, “Come here. I’m sorry.
And it didn’t stop.
I walked barefoot, I was held in my arms by a party, and I carried my hair with my fingers, like… touching a pet.
“There’s a part of you today that’s good at home. I’m sorry.
I was bored for half a day and said, “I want to go to school. I’m sorry.
The party looked up and looked through the glasses, and it seemed like it was easy to see through me, “Envious, don’t get me wrong.” You’re ours. I’m sorry.
I was breathing and I carefully kissed his lips.
It’s thin, it’s cold, but it’s biting like a beast with a hard head.
I’m nervous, and I’m always careful that the party eats me.
Fortunately, he struck me with pleasure to respond.
“Envious, this is the first time you’ve ever kissed me. I’m sorry.
I look at him with a little panting in my begging eyes, and I say, “Sir, please. I’m sorry.
I know exactly what I’m saying to get him to surrender.
He said, “Okay, leave it to me.” I’m sorry.
The party left without a word and left me and jealous.
“Don’t look. Honey’s here. And he dragged me over, and he didn’t smile, and he said, “It seems like he doesn’t know what a bowl of water is. I’ll teach you today. I’m sorry.
16
That night, when I was dug out of a nest, I was mechanically repeating:
“I love it.”
My voice is mute, my eyes are closed and I have some scars on my body.
I was fined for some move in the morning, half an hour ago, when I was allowed to rest.
“It’s me.”
The scenic voice came, and the next second I was put in a warm arms.
I’m freaking out.
What are you doing back here? I’m sorry.
“I’m not coming back. Can you hear me? “I thought I’d come back to give you a dream, and now it looks like we didn’t teach it. I’m sorry.
I totally woke up, “I was wrong, I’m sorry. I’m sorry.
“Oh, is that a lie?” I’m sorry.
I’ve got it all figured out. I can’t hide from them.
Zoo, I got something tied to my neck.
I looked up in shock.
“What are you doing? I’m sorry.
Suh smiled at my face, “Baby, this is a gift for you. I’m sorry.
I looked in the side of the bedroom at the landing mirror.
On a thin neck, an extra silver collar.
There’s nothing there, very clean.
The party was so obsessed with touching my neck, strangling my mouth, smiling:
“In here, there’s a lethal muscle laxative. Me and Dian, one remote control, guess where we’ll find your body, if you don’t say goodbye one day. I’m sorry.
I’m shaking so hard.
They’re completely insane…
Excess muscle laxatives completely paralyze human respiratory muscles and suffocate.
He reached out to me.
Pop!
I hit him in the back of the party. I’m sorry.
Because of anger and fear, I’m in the chest.
Suh’s eyes and eyes on his red hand’s back. I’m sorry.
“You’re a pain in the ass, don’t blame me. I’m sorry.
“You don’t seem to understand the rules. “It’s okay, we’ll teach you. I’m sorry.
Autumn heavy rain.
Inside the windows, but it’s so hot that people panic.
I was lying in my arms and he was holding me in his chin and I just saw myself in the mirror.
Tears are covered in lashes, with red cheeks, like a dried fish, struggling to escape the entanglement of the deep sea, and rising on the surface of the water for a second.
The hair of my hair, the long fingers rubbed through my roots and brought a deadly sommel.
I’ll let you go if you’re wrong. I’m sorry.
“No, I’m right.”
The eyes that were born with a little pain are slowly dying.
“Really?”
He softly asked.
All of a sudden, a hard hand.
The voice of Ei Ei was terminated.
He’s so cold, “Well, if he can’t say anything that would make him happy, just block it.” I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
17
A week later, I went back to class.
My classmates thought I was sick and they looked at me.
He sat behind me in silence and said nothing.
She’s calling me from behind.
“You live with them, don’t you? I’m sorry.
I’m holding a textbook and walking through her. I don’t care.
The white wreath came, dragged my collar and pushed me to the wall, pulled the gap and revealed silver collars and delicate kiss marks hidden under a high-collar sweater.
She was shaking, “You… you…”
I put my collar in peace. It’s all thanks to you. I’m sorry.
“No, I just want to give you to the twilight…”
I was in my heart, and there was something that I suddenly understood.
“Do you like the party? I’m sorry.
It’s as if it’s been stabbed in the heart, and it’s ugly.
I was so angry, I pushed her so hard, “That’s why you’re hurting me? You’re shameless?”
“Did you suffer? “I thought if you had him, you wouldn’t accept the party, but why are you so greedy? I’m sorry.
It’s crazy…
She pushed me into the abyss without knowledge, but she wished to blame me, so why not bring her with her?
“Did you ever think that I’d never want one from the start? I’m sorry.
Because of her, I’m an animal who begs at people.
Even freedom has to pay for it.
I don’t know why.
“Bitch, you should have seen what you did. I’m sorry.
I looked down and wrote a note in haste and stuffed it to her, looking deep at her and turning away.
18
Oh, my God.
The living room light’s on.
I slowly walked in.
Suh’s sitting at the table, and he’s so restless, he says, “You’re late, go change.” I’m sorry.
I saw the nightgown on the couch, and I knew I had no dignity in this house.
“I … borrowed some psychology books today. I’m sorry.
“You want to choose psychology? I’m sorry.
“Yeah. I’m sorry.
After the undergraduate degree, we’ll have to choose the direction of the study.
Choosing psychology, and I’ll be a psychiatrist, like Seo.
“Yes, it’s nice to have a party, ” “Do you have a mentor? I’m sorry.
“You. I’m sorry.
“Can you tell me why?” I’m sorry.
“I like you, don’t I? I’m sorry.
He snuggled, his fingertips slipped my nose, his lips, and he said, “I envy you, and I love the way you talk nonsense. I’m sorry.
“If you don’t agree, I’ll change the autopsy, and I’ll like it anyway. I’m sorry.
“No, I promise you. “I should… teach you well.” I’m sorry.
I’ve been in hell for a while.
Suh’s heart is sick and he has set up a reward and punishment mechanism.
That’s right. Wrong answer.
And he’s, like, picking something deep to test me.
One day, at noon, I came out of the room of the Cheyenne party with my face on my knees with the uqing that had not been dispersed.
Duan just walked in the door and hugged me. I’m sorry.
The party followed him from the back, “Envied, punished for a mistake.” I’m sorry.
Since the last time, it’s been like this.
“Are you abusing her?” I’m sorry.
“No, just teaching. I’m sorry.
My mind is on the verge of collapse, and it’s in my arms, “I just want to be with you today. I’m sorry.
“Well, today you belong to me.” I’m sorry.
19
I finally had a good night’s sleep under the protection of Dinni.
And We opened our eyes in the evening, we were exhausted, and We found a body holding me, and the cold eyes were dazzled by light, a few of them undetectable.
“You slept for two days and one night. I’m sorry.
The tall nostrils are projected in the light, for a moment, with a strange sense of familiarity.
I’m slow, “I’ve seen you somewhere? I’m sorry.
I didn’t say anything.
But I can see he’s happy.
“High school? Middle school?”
“Think again, seriously. I’m sorry.
Wrong.
Kindergarten?
I was staring at him, and suddenly I was staring at him.
“You are…”
“You finally recognized me. “Why can’t you remember that you saved me so many times?” I’m sorry.
I suddenly remember the old alley where my parents lived before they died.
At that time, there was a boy who was always blocked from school every day for money, the worst of which was being run over in a plastic bucket.
I can’t see it. He called the police.
My parents died in a car accident and I was taken away by my aunt.
It’s him.
I opened my mouth, and it stopped. “You must want me to let you go, right?”
And he smiled, and he said, “I’m jealous because of your interference, I’m being bullied. I wanted to drag you back to punishment every day. Now, my purpose has been fulfilled. Why did I let you go? I’m sorry.
My eyes were turned from surprise to shock.
I’ll lock my hands, and I’ll put a button on it. I’m sorry.
20
September, postgraduate studies.
I became a student at the Tsui party.
The first day I entered his office, I looked at the glory of the wall, and I blinked.
“What’s wrong, jealous?”
“You’ve never told me anything about you. I’m sorry.
“I’ll tell you what you want to hear. I’m sorry.
He pulled the chair, sat across the street, and his gentle eyes fell on me.
I looked around and grabbed his tie, “Where do you like me?” I’m sorry.
Suh’s eyes moved slightly down, laughing, “All over.” I’m sorry.
“That’s…” I pulled a little closer, looked at his incomprehensible eyes and said, “Is it because I look like someone else?” I’m sorry.
He suddenly strangled my jaw, and his smile became cold, and he said, “Doesn’t it take a long time to remember? I’m sorry.
I used to see a picture of a woman in the wallet of the Tsui party.
Looks like me.
Maybe that’s why Tsui was obsessed with me.
The force on the chin is so strong that he talks about me, he takes me in front of a hand-washing mirror, he warns me with a voice that can’t be lighter, “One more time, I’ll show you what you’re doing.” I’m sorry.
I put up with my anger and shame and smiled at my lips, “Sorry, I was wrong. I’m sorry.
21
The secret of the party has been bothering me.
November 13th, it’s the birthday of the Tsui party.
I wasn’t home, and the party gave me a day off to prepare my present.
I know what he wants.
I used to think it was a little more radical than a party.
But the fact is, I’m more afraid of the abusive factors in Seo’s party.
If it wasn’t for him, I wouldn’t be alive.
At night, when the party came home, the table was set up with a regular meal and a cake with candles.
The party stopped and stood at the door.
I sat in candlelight and laughed and sang him a happy birthday song.
He was in the dark and listened to me and whispered, “You should know, that’s not what I want.” I’m sorry.
He likes those weird pajamas in the closet.
But he’s finished.
I carefully cut down the cake and took it to him, and said, “Happy birthday, Cheyenne.” I’m sorry.
He lifts a dark eye, stares at me, next second, holding my wrist, “What are you doing? I’m sorry.
“I love you, so I want to give you a full birthday. I’m sorry.
Ever since I became a student at Tsui, I have learned indirectly from his colleagues around him that he never had a birthday.
Because his sister died that day.
Tsui’s been wary of me touching too much psychology to grow too fast to cause unnecessary trouble.
However, the higher they stand, the easier it is to ignore some simple and practical ways.
Like gossip.
I kissed him gently, and the sound was just as soft, “Can you love me as I love you? I’m sorry.
“I’ve always loved you. I’m sorry.
“But in your heart, you pretended to be someone else. I’m sorry.
Night itself is a vague catalyst.
It fuels the desire of humanity to express secrets.
He strung my fingertips, slow twilight, hot kisses down until the oxygen ran out.
“Not what you think. She’s my sister. He left me and ran away. I’m sorry.
So he hated me as much as he hated my sister.
Incarceration and possession is just the way to torture me.
And this is what he is, and he does not.
So, unfortunately, the mindset has changed.
I surrounded his neck and made a serious promise, “I will never leave the party behind.” I’m sorry.
I took his eyelids to the bottom, and I put the ribbons on his chest in the hands of the Cheyenne, and I said, “Well, now, it’s your turn to open the present. I’m sorry.
22
After that day, I started showing up at the Tsui party.
It’s not that bad.
At last one morning I couldn’t help it.
“I envy you, I think we need to talk. I’m sorry.
The incoherent tone fills the ear, and soothing spread from the back of the neck to the tail.
I softened my body in vain to tighten the cuffs of the Cheyenne, suggesting that he could save me.
But the party didn’t do anything, “I have no right to ask my partner to give you up. I’m sorry.
“and learn to move in. And then I smiled, and I broke my finger, and I said, “You’re jealous and you’re staring at him. I’m sorry.
What am I thinking?
I was thinking that one day they’ll pay their dues.
A year goes by.
At this moment, I’m studying second, and I’ve been discussing my subject with Tsui.
Perhaps I saw his shadow in me, and the laxing of my discipline by the Chewie feast even allowed me to communicate with many well-known teams via e-mail, and of course every one of them would have to be reviewed before it was sent.
Perhaps there was something that came to light, and one night I was held in my arms, and said: “I envy and give birth to a child.” I’m sorry.
I felt a strong heart beat in his chest, and I opened my mouth: “What makes you think you can protect him?” I’m sorry.
That’s what’s going on.
“Your protectors have been locked up. Isn’t that enough? Don’t you think you’re like a disaster? I’m sorry.
This is too harsh a sentence to say, I cannot help but suffer.
But tonight, I was held in my arms, and I didn’t say anything.
For a long time, he pulled my hair and put my face on him hard, and his back was clear and clear.
“I know, I envy, I’ve had enough of you in my life. I’m sorry.
23
On November 13th, the birthday of the Tsui party is here again.
It’s snowing outside.
In the morning, at the table, I swallowed milk and said:
“Today, I want to spend my birthday with you. I’m sorry.
To hear that, two men looked at me at once, as if they saw a wolf of flesh.
At night, it came first.
I was wearing a white veil, sitting face to door.
He saw me, eyebrow.
“Is it cold?”
I put on makeup, and I was shy.
In invisible places, the skin gives rise to goose bumps from exposure to cold air.
I walked barefoot, grabbed his neck and whispered, “I want to go to the roof.” I’m sorry.
When my eyes were sunk, my throat slowly rolled, and suddenly I was hugged, put on my coat and opened the door and walked out.
The cold wind is everywhere. I’ll bury my face in his arms.
“Not your proposal? What, afraid of being seen?”
Suddenly there was footsteps downstairs.
Not bad, not good.
I’m so nervous.
He breathed and said in my ear, “Shall we see who’s here?” I’m sorry.
The more nervous I get, the more excited he gets.
Step a little closer.
I shivered in fear.
Suh is standing below the steps, facing this unexpected show, stinging his lips, “Envious, do you like this?” I’m sorry.
He went through the house and came up.
Go around, provoke my jaw and kiss me.
“She wants to go to the roof, you go home and wait.” I’m sorry.
“Go. I’m sorry.
The iron door of the roof was pushed and the cold wind was pouring in.
I was held on the outside of the roof, behind me was the street of the car.
A sense of urgency between life and death has kept me in a state of tension.
“Is it exciting? “But it’s bad.” I’m sorry.
He has always been mindful of these, so he has never left a hand in front of anyone else.
I had a cold wind, a sip, and I laughed. I’m sorry.
Suh’s hands fell on his back.
At this moment, the wind is silent.
The good old prisoners have finally come to light tonight.
So that those who are in control of their fate were in a moment of confusion.
Sorry, the dream’s over.
“What did you say? “The hand of the party touched my cheek, and then reached the weak neck, gently pulling, and I hit him in the abdomen, like a pet that was slaughtered.
It’s hard to breathe.
“You gonna strangle her? The first half of my body was dragged up in an attempt to relax my collar.
I looked up, I looked at the party, and I laughed, “Because you’re so annoying, it’s your birthday, and I sincerely wish you…”
In the sights of the feast, I say a word of the curse buried in my heart: “Forever”
The next moment, the Zephyr squeezed my neck, and the strong suffocation came.
I didn’t stand up and kneel before him.
The other hand held my hair tight and my bones were white.
“You said you would love me forever. I’m sorry.
I look dark in front of my eyes and hold his hand because of the resistance, and my body trembles, “Love you?” Tsui, you dream. I’m sorry.
His eyes were filled with anger, and he pulled out the remote control, but he was delayed.
“Kill me, Tsui, whether I’m alive or dead, you’re the one left behind. I’m sorry.
“Is this your truth?” He moved his thumb to the switch and his voice was soft, “Do you really want to die?” I’m sorry.
As soon as you fall down, the lethal pine will be injected into my body and I will be held alive.
Enough! It’s not necessary to do that. I’m sorry.
I look back, I stare at it with red eyes, and it’s like, “Don’t you want a baby? Let him disappear, I give you life. I’m sorry.
It suddenly sunk into silence.
Suh’s lips are ticking, and a cold laugh echoes in the night.
He tightens his mouth, chokes my jaw, “Who do you think you are?” You’re — what are your qualifications?”
Boom!
A squirt.
A part of the kick was on the knees of the party.
Sweat and hum, and the next second, he was run over.
I fell with my inertia.
“What are you doing?” I’m sorry.
“Sorry, she’s giving you too much, so you disappear.” I’m sorry.
In the middle of the day, the two were swung together.
The party was still holding my collar unfailingly.
I fell down on my knees and ate an inch and rolled out of the party with my collar covered with my collar.
Not yet. First time to the remote.
I’ve secretly found the remote control.
Feet sunk.
It’s being dragged by the Cheyenne.
And he drank, and said, “Look, don’t let her provoke you. I’m sorry.
I cried, and I cried.
“I can’t live. I saved you many times. Can you save me once? I don’t want to see the party anymore. I’m sorry.
He bit his teeth, his eyebrows were sore, he lifted up the bricks on his arm.
When my ankle is loose, I’ll hold something in my hand that threatens my life.
At that moment, the police broke in.
It snowed in the sky, and I lay facing it under the roof.
Smiling out.
After two years in prison, I finally got the freedom I wanted.
24
After they went in, I lost my coach.
As a result, they were transferred to other mentors so as not to affect graduation.
Waiting for the day of sentencing, I received psychiatric treatment.
On the afternoon of the hospital, the white man came to see me, carrying milk, he hesitated to come in at the door.
“Sorry. I’m sorry.
That note two years ago was full of what happened to me.
I will leave it to Baek to consider whether to try to make amends or whether one day I will send her in.
I’m glad I got a hand.
There was no doubt about this.
Because even if I went back to class, I’d always be under the surveillance of the Cheyenne, and he wouldn’t allow me to have friends, let alone to think that Baek had become my friend.
“That tape on the roof is just part of the evidence, and you… are there anything else? I’m sorry.
The camera on the roof, it was secretly repaired by the white crotch.
and took their testimony.
“None. I’m sorry.
“But with this alone, there’s no evidence of rape and illegal detention…”
“It doesn’t matter. I don’t care how many years they can pass. Just be guilty. I’m sorry.
“You’re not afraid of them coming out to get revenge?” I’m sorry.
The light outside the window fell on my eyelashes, and I laughed and changed the subject, “Thank you for e-mailing the professors. I’m sorry.
“It’s okay, it’s what I should do, but is schizophrenia your research? How do I remember your subject not this. I’m sorry.
I didn’t answer.
At present, however, it is sufficient that after two years, the sentence was pronounced schizophrenic.
There is too much room for investigation and progress is slow.
It was six months later when I was last out of the police station, and I passed the dissertation and found a satisfactory job.
The police in charge of this case called me in.
“In the future, protect personal information. We’re having a mental illness, you know? I’m sorry.
“I know. I’m sorry.
The psychiatric sentence is not long and there is a high risk of being transferred to a local psychiatric institution.
If you’re sick, it’s not impossible to leave.
For a victim who has suffered a great trauma, there is an unconscious devastating blow.
I can guess the choice for the party.
He’s a psychologist, and he’s set the best course for himself, and one day, as soon as he comes out, I’ll have his violent revenge.
When I walked out of the police gate, I got a call:
“Hello, is it a doctor? Tomorrow at 8:00, please come to my house on time. I’m sorry.
25
Three months later, the psychiatric hospital of the city of danger.
The weather is getting warmer, and a flu pandemic is sweeping most of the disease.
Early in the morning, the nurse pushed the car and came all the way from the end of the corridor, knocking on the door and giving the medicine.
. . . . . . . .
With the rhythm of the high heels hitting the ground with the ears of the ears, there was a shadow around the corner.
Dr. Jealousy.
Just a few months ago.
During the school year, it was reported that a large number of high-scoring papers had been published and that scientific research was highly capable.
So, just as soon as he arrived, the Chief of the Section was considered to be Xanax.
At a young age, there is a certain amount of speech in the Cori, and there are no few of them.
But she seems to be all academically interested in rooms 01, 02 at the end of the corridor.
“Good morning, Doctor!”
A warm greeting.
I laughed, “Good morning.” I’m sorry.
Sunshine on her.
White coat, long blonde hair.
Her beautiful and delicate face was reflected in the mirror, and it would have surprised her to be like him if someone familiar with the party had been present.
I’m so jealous, it’s like the old day’s party.
The director came over and filmed the enviable shoulder, “Yo, I heard you had another book in English yesterday. It’s a long way to go. I’m sorry.
Since her arrival, the science level in science has risen sharply and reputations have been ranked nationwide.
“It’s the director who’s doing well. I’m sorry.
“Hey, I don’t dare. You can come to today. Thank you, teacher! I’m sorry.
Thank you… for the party?
Looks at the end of the hall, smiles, “Director, I’ll go see the patient. I’m sorry.
The Psychiatry of Psychiatry is dependent on the sea, and rooms 01 and 02 can see a wide coastline.
I envied the door and walked in.
He lays on his bed, closed his eyes, and is in good spirits.
It was just when the jealous shadow fell on the eyelashes, he opened his eyes and looked at her pretty face and didn’t speak.
“Why aren’t you taking your medicine today? I’m sorry.
‘Cause I want to see you. I’m sorry.
I envied the medicine to his lips, opened his mouth and put it in, and then bit it with his teeth at the fingertips of envy.
Slowly, it seems to bite her finger off.
So he looked at him, and when the pain reached its peak, and said, “I will never come again after seeing blood.” I’m sorry.
Words fall, the fingertips are loose, the croaks of the larynx roll, and the pills swallow.
“I’m jealous. Will you come and see me tomorrow? I’m sorry.
To this day, he has been blinded and envied by the feeling of a cold back.
She’s used to it. She smiles, “Look at you. I’m sorry.
Turn around and walk out.
Next door is Room 1, envious to enter.
The man was dressed in a sick uniform, with his back to the door, sitting in a garden chair on the side of the window, with his legs on, like he was in the clinic.
Seems like every time I see him, it’s decent.
Even if she was her loser.
“What are you looking at?” is envied by the soft temperature.
On the side of the party, the twilight side bathed in the morning light and laughed, “I envy you, I miss you. I’m sorry.
But instead of looking at him, he looked at the sea and smiled. I’m sorry.
“Yeah. “You were with me for two years. If not, why two years? I’m sorry.
It’s funny to stare at him.
‘Cause I need two years to get my life back. I’m sorry.
Call the police. It’s too easy.
For the first time, she asked for help.
She was defined as a psychotic.
She can’t hold the party.
Beyond despair, I envied hope.
The party was a psychologist who stood on his shoulder, had access to the wider world and even had the glory of life that could not be touched.
Why can’t she be him?
She was not worried that if caught, he would do everything he could to exonerate himself and transfer to the largest psychiatric institution in the city.
But what about Dip?
He’s a normal man who has to do everything he can to put him under his nose.
So, I envied myself for two years to make a work of my own.
Maybe he didn’t know he was in the trap of envy.
At the same time, she has spent two years writing a large number of papers and creating a rich curriculum vitae for herself.
On the eve of graduation, I envy the choice to end this.
The party and the transfer to the psychiatric hospital was the end of June.
I envied my entry on the same day and offered a high score SCI as leverage in exchange for the director ‘ s authority in rooms 01, 02.
“I’m sorry about your diagnosis. I kept it. And you won’t change that until you die. I’m sorry.
In envy and calm, there is a vast sea in the pupils’ eyes.
No accident, he won’t be released in his life.
Scrambling, “I’m jealous. Has anyone ever told you you and I are alike? I’m sorry.
“That’s like. “Even if the roses are poured with their own hands, there will be a day when the hand will hold.” Mr. Xu, why do you have to go through the past if you have a vested interest? I’m sorry.
Anyway, she has won.
The waves hit the rocks on the shore.
The seagulls outside the window are ringing.
The party didn’t talk, maybe he’s taken his life.
Perhaps, in the dark, one day it will again drag into the abyss.
I don’t want to think about it.
She walked out of room 01 and wrote her own medical opinion on the register at the door:
The situation has not improved, and it is recommended that treatment continue.
Document number: YXX10mba26tRxeNZv8hQQ9
I don’t know.
Keep your eyes on the road.
