“On the way back from work, all I thought about was sleeping. I’m sorry.
“Well, what now?”
“Now it’s all with you…”
The morning I woke up the next day, before I opened my eyes, I felt a hairy hair.
My leg, out of curiosity, I couldn’t help but explore a few more…
The next second, bang! The door was open and a crowd came in.
I was scared to take my hand back and hold it tight.
“Doctor Lu, the director calls you…”
A few men came in as if they were scared, and they made a sound of surprise.
I: ?
What doctor?
I looked at them and a man lay next to me. Straight and long legs, covered with hormonal hair, then up…
I’m blind.
“We…we didn’t mean to do it,” a group of people shut their eyes and explain.
I don’t know any of those people, much less the one who’s lying down, when I’m in the middle of something.
Wait…
The man next to me stretched out his hand and pulled the covers, opened his eyes and swiped me.
“What about me?” I’m sorry.
It took me a second to think about that and then to just let go.
The blanket covers a certain part, and he closes his eyes and is lazy: “Let’s go. I’m sorry.
Well…
I was scared, and he was about to get out of bed, and he was groaning.
You. I’m sorry.
Word is, the men finally stopped watching and threw the next line.
Yes, you will. “I was in a hurry to get out of my room.”
The world is suddenly quiet.
I’m holding the corner of the covers, sitting there, twitching.
“What are you afraid of?” It’s like I’m shaking him out of sleep.
Eyes, not holding. Close your eyes again.
“I’m… I’m like… a little hurt. *I’m starting to get a lot of *
Words, just want to smoke yourself.
He opened his eyes this time and finally didn’t close them.
Squeeze the temple, then take a long hand and hold my waist.
Like, just a minute. I’m sorry.
He should be comforting me.
But instead of being consoled at all, I got a cold sweat.
And then I looked down and I saw a little blood on the sheets…
Leather numb.
He’s got his eye on the blood. He’s got his hands on my head.
“Sorry, I’m out of control. I’m sorry.
Out of control?
I’m in a cold sweat again.
“Who are you?” I ask with pain.
He was suddenly laughing at me, “You don’t even know who I am, and you came to sleep with me.
Already? “I, I can’t remember…” I’ve never seen anything like it.
Get up. “Isn’t this pregnant? I’m sorry.
All right, I’m in for myself. I’m in for a while.
The key question is me.
He opened his eyes to me again. He was exhausted.
Looks like I’m gonna touch it and he’s gonna have to break his breath.
I was so ashamed of how crazy I was last night to make people like this.
“No, I won’t. He summed it up in a simple and clear manner.
I have no experience, I can’t even remember the specific process of last night, and I dare not ask.
He said he wouldn’t be pregnant and I believed it. After all, they called him a doctor.
Maybe he did something? I can only think of that.
“So, goodbye?” To avoid the embarrassment of being sober, I chose to run.
He looked at me and suddenly laughed, “Okay. I’m sorry.
3
I thought I’d never see him again.
But two weeks later, I sat in front of his office with a pregnancy test stick and was shaking.
Sister-in-law! A male doctor jumped at me. I got scared and almost got sent away.
“Are you waiting for Dr. Lui?” He’s as passionate as I am, but in fact…
It’s probably just that morning at the hotel.
It’s the one that makes me so ashamed.
Two weeks ago I went to a high school reunion, drank too much, went to the wrong room.
I found out that Dr. Lu and a group of doctors had a meeting at that hotel that day.
I happen to be next door to Dr. Lu’s room, and he’s still sick.
I forgot to close the door on my way out, and I just broke in.
Then a colleague went to his meeting in the morning…
So there was a scene that morning.
“Oh, yes. * I’m faking him, my whole face is red.*
“Wait inside with me. He didn’t say anything, he dragged me into the lounge.
He looked at me as if he didn’t know me.
I don’t really recognize him, either. I haven’t seen him out of bed in his clothes.
The look.
I waited two hours to get to know him through the nameplate on his desk.
It’s called Lunar, Cardiovascular Intern. I secretly searched his resume and found out he was 29? I don’t know.
I’m still counting a few generations between me and him.
After a while, he finally came in to change his clothes.
Wait weeks?”
I: ?
“Dr. Lu, I’ll wait for you. * I stand up and hold my bag and sound like a mosquito *
Yeah.
“Who are you?”
I: ?
You really don’t know anyone when you get out of bed?
“Two weeks ago, at the hotel, we… “and I explained it to him hard-headed, the more I explained it.
It’s not good enough. I’ll just take out the pregnancy rod and I’ll put it in front of him.
Like, pregnant…”
“Dr. Lu, eat up. That’s when a female doctor broke in.
I tried to hide the pregnancy test stick, but I accidentally fell into the trash next to the table.
A barrel.
I looked at the trash, and I was afraid he didn’t see it.
“…” hasn’t spoken for years, just staring at me, with a funny look. “Your patient? “The woman doctor didn’t want to go, but she looked at me.
On body.
I’m going to stop, a little awkward.
“Something, you guys go. He didn’t introduce me.
I feel like a thief.
The lady doctor left reluctantly and pulled his sleeve on purpose.
It is a declaration of sovereignty.
He has a girlfriend.
I’m like a thunderstorm.
4
He sits back on the stool and starts writing about his illness.
“We’re well. I’m sorry.
Well, my heart beats faster than he says.
“It’s okay. “I am free to respond.
He looked at me and laughed.
“I’m in charge? * I admire him so much * I can write my medical records as if I were just… *
Looking for him.
“I just don’t know what to do. “I didn’t mean to hold him responsible.
As a result, some of them were desperate to hear his opinion.
Did you drop it?”
I’m actually sweating.
He’s still writing his medical records as if I had nothing to do with him.
Bastard.
He’s calm enough to drive me crazy.
“Look at you. * He looked up, looked straight at me, and still nothing *
Ready. “If you decide not to, then not. I’m sorry.
“Hmm. May I? Now this is…
“Fear? “It’s a bit of a twitch in his tone.
“Hmm. I’m speechless.
“Now I know I’m scared” means he looked at me and turned over a new one.
“This is not like you that night. I’m sorry.
I: ? I want to know what I did that night.
What?
But it’s like he’s got all the wrongs on me.
Not good.
“It’s not my fault either. * I’m whispering, I even feel *
Hard to hear.
And then he stopped, and he picked his eyebrow at me.
A little smile, “I had a fever that night, and you thought I was strong against it? I’m sorry.
This…
I was blocked by him.
I’m thinking, “I don’t have the strength to fight.
Scum is a piece of shit.
There’s more to this kind of thing.
I can’t play him.
“If you think about it… he’ll be silent for a while, and he’ll continue to write his medical records and finish his last.
It’s just that he’s suffocating, looking up, “Just next week. I’m sorry.
Next week?
“I’m free next week. He explains. “Okay. I’m sorry.
Adults pay for what they’ve done. I have no objection.
It’s the inside.
5
A week later, I showed up again in his office.
My resolve to operate was shaken.
It’s because my mom asked me to eat this week.
Gotta get hot.
Back to the rental house, I looked around, and I was thinking about my mom’s house.
I suddenly sighed and felt as lonely as ever.
My mom and dad divorced when I was little.
After the divorce, I followed my mother, and I’ve been in school since junior high.
Because when I was in junior high, my mother met her uncle and formed a new home.
Court.
She’s happy, I should be happy.
But back at the rental house, I was so tired.
I suddenly wanted to keep the kid. I was so lonely. I know it wouldn’t have been agreed to by any of us.
He might have a girlfriend.
So until I sat in his office again, I was wondering if I’d like to keep the kid.
Son.
“Sister-in-law, are you looking for us again? This should be the week of the month.
“Yes. I’m sitting there. I’m a bit ludicrous.
Don’t call me that! I whispered to him.
“Don’t be shy.” Weeks come up, look around, press down.
“We were all betting who would bring down the cold Dr. Rudd.
It’s you. We admire you. I’m sorry.
“Ah?” I was blindfolded by his words, whispering, “You’ve misunderstood…
Me and him are not…”
And I finally gave up fighting, and I said, “Didn’t he have a girlfriend? Don’t talk nonsense.
Aah!
“Who?” he looked at me, “How could I not know? I’m sorry.
“…”and I’m not sure.
“You mean, you’re looking for another woman behind your wife’s back? I’m sorry.
“What? I don’t know how to explain it. I’m the other woman. “Are you busy?” Suddenly, a word came up, and we were all there.
Before.
Year!
I got scared to stand up and there was an embarrassment caught in the middle of a class speech.
I just wanted to say something.
Weeks have also gone off in a state of terror, with a medical history.
“Not you. “After weeks gone, the years were quiet and rubbed my head,
I sat down, and I sat at the desk.
I’m a little confused. Why does he keep touching my head? He doesn’t know this move, Jean.
Do people feel intimate and ashamed?
“Why are you always afraid of me? “He had no reason to look at me. “I’m scared.
People? I’m sorry.
I sat a little nervous, “No, you might feel older like…”
“Like what?” He’s suddenly excited.
“The elders. I’ll be honest with you.
“The Elders? He laughed. “How old are you?”
“A month by 22 years old. “I’m a little bit smug by him. A serious person suddenly laughs, and it’s really fucked up.
Besides, he’s had an overly charming face.
“It’s a little small. He’s got a smile and he doesn’t know what to think.
“You wait. He suddenly stood up and changed his clothes.
I’ve been waiting a long time, and I’ve been having a bit of a hard time.
Because the week before I said Dr. Lu had no girlfriend, my heart was even more shaken.
I’m 22 years old, I haven’t been in love, and I don’t care what I look like.
It’s in every way that I think of the other half.
Except, of course, he sucks that.
I was thinking maybe I could have a relationship with him.
In the end, I had the courage to stand up and walk to his doorway and knock on it.
“Dr. Lu, I want to ask you a question. I’m sorry.
I held my fist tight and said to my face, “I don’t have the courage to go through the door, much more.”
Okay.
He didn’t answer. I hesitated or went on.
“Do you have a girlfriend? If not, can we try? I want to stay.
Down this kid. It’s like exhausting all my strength.
I stood at the door and waited for his trial.
And then the door opened, not waiting for his trial, for the cell phone amplifier trial…
Stay! Of course I’m staying. If you move, I’ll cut you loose! Take me.
Bring your daughter-in-law back! I’m sorry.
He leaned on the door frame, handed his cell phone over to me and kept changing.
The sound of the end is high enough to reflect the anger on the other side.
“What’s this? * I picked up this hot potato and my heart’s beating out *
“My grandfather. * He reached out and pressed the temple and laughed. *
Don’t be afraid, I’ll fight when the kid returns
Break his legs, and he dares to bully you the child must stay…”
My grandfather said a great deal on the phone.
Nod, say yes.
And the last time I heard about it, I was sitting there writing about it.
Calendar.
Is he human?
I’m out.
After six phone calls, my head buzzed.
I walked in front of him and returned his phone to him, afraid to look at him.
He looked at me and groaned.
“I didn’t know you were answering the phone. I’m sorry.
“Anyway, don’t listen to him. He stood up and summed up.
“Doctor Lu, did you hear what I just said? I’m going into the subject.
“My grandfather heard it, don’t you think? He asked me back.
“Oh. I’m waiting for his answer.
“Think about it. I’m sorry.
And We turned his back on it, and stood still, and his hands and feet were cold.
“Why? “I admire myself for asking such questions at such times.
Question.
“…”he stung for a moment, and he sighed, “You’re too young, too good, I…
Not a good guy. I’m sorry.
And then he took a look at me and said, “It’s too small. I’m sorry.
I couldn’t tell him when he was small, where he was small, but I was ashamed. I don’t know how I got out of that office.
It’s just the last thing he said in his head.
“The best way to solve one mistake is to stop the damage in time, not with another.
To cover up previous mistakes. I’m sorry.
I told him to stop surgery today and run away.
7
Two days later, when I didn’t have any hope for it, I was suddenly passed on.
Family called.
These included his grandfather, his grandmother, his grandparents, his parents, his aunts and uncles.
Auntie…
In a day, I almost got a crash on the phone.
They’ve got one thing in mind anyway. The kids have to stay. They’ve got to go.
Done.
And how?
I don’t think anyone can stand such a wave of relatives bombing.
So, the next day, it was at the door of my rental house.
“What are you doing here? I was surprised when I opened the door to him. Because he leaned on the wall of my door, and he had a cigarette in his hand, and he was pale,
Up and down a cigarette butt.
“To solve your little problem. * Says he reached out and touched my head *
Get one side and head straight for my house.
“I’m sorry, I don’t know how your grandfather had my phone. I can see that.
He’s upset about this.
He put out the smoke and didn’t answer me.
“I was on night shift last night, and I’m a little sleepy, so I can borrow a place to lie down for two hours.
Yeah? I’m sorry.
“Ah, yes.” So I moved the doves on the couch and gave him a place to lie down.
No wonder he looks so tired.
When he lay down, I realized that my sofa was too small for his height.
I don’t think he’s comfortable sleeping like this.
But he’s still asleep in a second.
He said he’d sleep for two hours, let me call him, but when it’s time, his head is still deep.
Buried in my couch, it looked exhausted, and I couldn’t bear to call him.
I didn’t call him, but he woke up at the point.
He looked at the watch on his wrist, “8:30, open up. I’m sorry.
After that, he sat up, and the whole person looked very shaky. “What’s open?” I asked him.
In fact, these two hours, I’m so tired, I don’t know what he’s doing here.
After that, I didn’t want to see him again.
“Is the account book here? He suddenly stares at me.
“Not here. I suddenly missed a shot, “at my mom’s.” I’m sorry.
“…he looked at me for a while, and he smiled, and he said, “It’s time to go.
Ben. I’m sorry.
8
When I came back, me and him were downstairs with my mom.
“Sushi. He suddenly called me by my name.
“Hmm. I’m sorry.
“Have you thought about it?”
“What? “I can’t think straight, but I’m used to it.
“Hmm. I’m sorry.
“All the things I said before are true, and I’m usually busy.
God, six days in the hospital, and the rest of the day’s on the line.
The kind that gets out of bed and ass and leaves. * He looked at me suddenly and sighs *
Spoken. “Oh, I see. It’s great that your doctors saved lives and wounded. * I don’t know how *
Pick him up.
“…”he stares at me for a second, like he wants to read in my eyes if I’m out.
That’s a lie. He’s got me staring at.
“That’s okay. I’m sorry.
After that, he pulled me upstairs.
My mom was a little surprised at first, and then she didn’t know what she was talking about.
I’m happy to laugh.
I thought family relationships made him feel uncomfortable.
It turns out he’s got more than one. I’ll take my mother and uncle.
Down.
After dinner, my mom pushed me to testify.
“Go on, don’t delay Luk’s surgery. I’m sorry.
I: ?
I don’t know what ecstasy soup I put on my mom.
How can you give your daughter to a man who met her first?
Lee.
I went with him to the Civil Administration after a meal that was very confusing. I didn’t get away from the shock of marriage until I finished reading the vow of marriage.
9
They say marriage is the tomb of love, but we don’t even have love.
I feel like I’m a ghost.
He came out of the Civil Administration the same day, and he went to the hospital and threw me a key.
And it never happened again.
I thought it was boring to live alone, so I moved back to the rental house.
“Not home? I got this text from him in a few days.
I laughed, and he finally remembered me.
“and friends out. I’m sorry.
And when he texted me, I was shopping with my best friend.
“You take a break today?” I sent him another message, and it fell into the sea.
I’m a little angry.
What does he mean?
I didn’t want to. I sent him another one. “Do you want to eat at night? I’m sorry.
As a result, there is still a long time to come. I’m out.
I’m not in the mood when I go shopping. I’m dying.
I don’t know about the evidence, but Lynne knows.
“You haven’t slept with each other since you got married? She looked at me with surprise.
“He’s busy. I’ll explain.
I can’t even convince myself of that.
“He’s a man if you’re busy. “The words of Lynn made me feel good.
Strike one.
Lynne means he wouldn’t have another woman.
I thought of the female doctor who had dinner with him that day.
But I don’t have a relationship with him. He’s probably forced by his family.
I don’t seem to have any qualifications for this.
I’m tired of thinking about this.
10
I went back to him at night.
Look around, nobody. He’s gone.
I have a loss inside me.
Back in the room, I stood by the closet and started changing, ready to wash.
And I just took off my underwear…
“Come back? * He sounds lazy, like he just woke up *
I was scared. I reached for myself. I turned and I saw the lid.
Half a face.
“Why are you silent? “I’m in shock and cold sweat.
“..he barely pulled up a lid, moved up, and finally looked at it.
“Do I really not know if I’m home or on purpose…”
He smiled and looked up at me.
“You! I’m sorry.
He didn’t come back for days, and when he came back, he was a punk.
I was so upset to find a suit.
I went to the bathroom and his eyes were still staring at me.
I was out of the bathroom, and he was staring at me, and he was laughing. I’m a little hairy.
“What are you staring at me for, not sleeping? I’m sorry.
When he changed his usual seriousness, he was lazy, “Sleeping all day, unable to sleep.”
Okay. I’m sorry.
Sleeping all day?
He didn’t return my message because he was asleep?
I admit, I’m in a frenzy because of what he said, and I’m getting rid of it.
“Then I’m going to bed. I still don’t want to talk to him.
He can’t see me for days, and he won’t contact me.
No respect.
I hesitated to sleep in bed or on the couch.
And then I thought, “I’m gonna tell him, I’m gonna go straight to bed, I’m gonna pull.”
Son, back to him.
He’s not moving around.
I couldn’t stand it. Turn around and watch him take out.
“You didn’t eat?” I asked him.
“Not in time. He said back to me. I looked at him a few more times, and I thought he was tired.
Rice, how tired is it?
Are the doctors so tired?
“You haven’t come home for days. Where do you live? I couldn’t stand it, I asked him.
He looked at me and probably didn’t expect me to ask him this, “Hospital. I’m sorry.
I’d rather stay in the hospital than go home.
I don’t talk anymore.
“I can’t get out of here. * He said drop the phone and stare *
I am.
It’s like a fist in a cotton fort.
Come on.
“Oh,” I said, “What do you think?” I’ll get you downstairs.
Eat. I’m sorry.
He stunned for a moment, and then the smile spreads through his mouth.
Think about what I’m saying, and the more I think about it, the less I think about it.
When I realized why he was smiling, I was ashamed.
“I’m talking about egg noodles! * I don’t know how to counter it, I just think he smiles even more *
Crazy out.
Just when I was in a bad mood, he put his phone down and put his smile on. I’m sorry.
“Then wait for me. “I’m going to the kitchen to calm down. I’m going out to bed.
Because I’ve never lived with my parents since I was a kid, and I’m actually more independent, and I can cook, but I’m not good at it.
Thinking he’s hungry for a day, I’m a little fast, and a little bit of grunting in the pot.
Turning around, I found him in his pyjamas, leaning over the door frame and looking at my noodles.
“There’s only a few things in the fridge. It’s really just eggs and noodles, and I bought them the other day. I’m sorry.
He looked at it for another moment and laughed, “Okay. I’m sorry.
After that, he stepped down to the living room, dragging his feet.
10
Then I found out I probably underestimated his diet.
He ate very slowly and he was good.
When you eat noodles, you can’t even put soup on your mouth. But he ate a bowl of noodles, even with a spoon.
It’s over.
“I’m not cooking too much. I’m a little shaky.
“It was me, too hungry.” When he said the last two words, he suddenly looked at me.
It’s a long tail.
I missed half my heart beat, avoided his eyes and went to the kitchen.
Just after the wash, he turned around and bit a cigarette and stood at the kitchen door and looked at me.
I’m not comfortable with this guy tonight.
When I was getting ready to get out of the kitchen, I swiped his shoulder and whispered.
“So much smoke.” I’m sorry.
When I was done, something tripped my foot, and my heart broke, and the whole man jumped in his arms.
Lee.
I was so nervous that I had to leave and he held me back.
He looked down, looked at me in his arms, and took off the smoke, and he kept his voice down:
“Don’t like it?”
“I smell a little dizzy. I’m whispering.
He stunned for a moment, and then he grabbed my shoulder, and he pulled me closer.
Tell me, “I won’t smoke anymore. I’m sorry.
For a moment, I didn’t know if I was being seduced by his words or whether I was being confused with him.
I can’t even say a word.
My heart is beating so fast, I’m sure the whole face is red.
“I don’t want to, but sometimes I need it.
Say it? He made me laugh.
I know he’s teasing me and I’m still nervous.
“Do you want some chrysanthemum tea? I’m whispering.
Poo-poo.
I just finished. He laughed again.
At first it was just laughter, and then it was all shaking.
I don’t know what he’s laughing at, or what I’m saying.
He hugged me in the back, and then he held me to the kitchen table, and he pressed me over.
Come on, hold my head. “The chrysanthemum tea is for fire, fool. I, no, need…
Yes. I’m sorry.
His kiss fell down on the floor.
My brain is suddenly blank. I pushed him with my hand, but he couldn’t move.
There are natural differences in strength between men and women.
Half the kiss, and I found out his hand started to look down, and I just came back.
Hands hold his restless hands.
He stopped for a second, looked at me, started to smell a little shaky.
For a while, the eyes were still full of desire.
“You really don’t give a shit what I said, huh? * He’s on my waist *
Squeeze it gently and stare at me again.
“What’s the word?” I’m not all clear.
At this point, a cell phone was ringing.
It’s him.
He looked at the direction of the living room, looked at me again, and finally he let me go.
Get out and answer the phone.
He walked away so I could breathe.
My whole head was buzzing, and he walked in again, but at this point, the desire in his eyes…
It’s gone, “I’m going to the hospital, you go to bed and don’t wait for me. I’m sorry.
After that, without any other language, he left, and I watched him leave.
In the direction, only one closing sound was heard. Eleven.
I’m sitting alone in the kitchen.
I don’t know what he means by kissing me all of a sudden.
Is it sudden or is it just to walk the kidney, not to go away.
I feel the latter.
I’m upset. I’ll just go back to my bed and cover myself with a blanket.
Sleep.
But there’s still his scent on the covers, which gives me a heart attack.
He woke up in the morning and was empty, and he never came back.
That kiss last night, like a dream, woke up with no trace.
But I still haven’t moved out. I don’t know what I’m thinking.
Think about it.
In the next few days, I felt very tired and restless.
His grandparents and parents have come to give me a lot of food.
Eggs, stuffed with a full fridge.
I was a little overwhelmed by their enthusiasm. They asked me what happened to me. I said it was good. God knows, I’ve had a few more.
God has not seen him.
Just when they smiled and said they were going to tell their kids what to call them.
I suddenly felt a bit different under my body.
I went to the bathroom, and I was scared by blood on my pants.
The brain is blank.
I was taken to hospital by almost a large family.
I can’t take care of anything else. There’s only one thought in my heart. I hope the kid’s okay.
I started blaming myself. Why are you tired these days?
The yard looked, didn’t even tell Lunar.
I’ve never been so scared. I’ve been shaking. Maybe I’ve seen a lot of TV.
The baby must be gone.
I went to the emergency, and the family was busy running, and last year came.
When he came, I couldn’t help it anymore, I cried out.
“Don’t be afraid. He took my hand.
It’s also the first time I’ve seen him wrinkled.
The emergency doctor finally finished the check-up, leaving everyone out, leaving only one person behind. “Doctor Lu, are you sure your sister-in-law is pregnant? I’m sorry.
I: ?
What do you mean? “It’s been a long time.
“By indicators. “Emergency doctors stop talking and finally whisper,
“Sister-in-law seems to be just a normal physiology period. I’m sorry.
“Are you kidding me?” I got it.
“…”and look at me every year.
“I’ve been out of menstruation for two months. I’m sorry.
According to B, your sister-in-law has a benign cyst in your womb.
The swelling usually causes delays in menstruation, menstruation, etc. The emergency doctor explained:
“Did you not examine?” He asked.
“No, I just bought a pregnancy test. I got pregnant. I whispered.
It’s been a long time since I’ve said anything.
“You gave it to me and I didn’t see it. You bought a pregnancy test, not a platoon.
Egg test paper?”
Boo!
A thunderstorm fell off my head and I’m gone. “I didn’t look at it. “I’m so nervous. Take it at the pharmacy.
One left. I took a look at it, and I didn’t dare to see it again.”
The emergency doctor has withdrawn and left us space.
Listening to me all the time, some laughs.
He stopped for a while to accept the fact and reached out and touched my head.
“It’s okay, don’t think. I’m sorry.
He seems to be relieved and lift me up.
It’s probably okay. I’ve been crying stupidly.
“So… your family, they asked me what to do. * I’m so stupid by my actions *
French.
I’m just stupid. I’m worried about a bunch of people out there. I really want to.
Get a sew in there.
“Don’t worry, I’ll talk. He calmed me down and went out.
I don’t know what he said. It was the last time I went out, they didn’t.
Outside.
Probably mad at me.
I’m sorry to think of this.
I ended up in the summer lounge.
He asked me to wait for him to leave work and go back together.
I’m all alone in the lounge.
“Where are your doctors? I heard a woman outside the door and I sat up.
“He went into surgery. A little nurse’s voice.
“He didn’t sleep well last night. Why did he have surgery? I’m sorry.
“A visiting patient, assigned to Dr. Lu. I’m sorry.
I don’t think I should think about it, but I’m still confused when she says he didn’t sleep well.
Okay.
“Dr. Leung, are you and Dr. Luk close? And the nurse whispered.
“It’s early. It’s early.” Dr. Liang’s speech was full of laughs.
Get out of here!
I didn’t mean to eavesdrop, but when I heard this, I couldn’t stop getting cold back there.
My whole body’s light and my head’s a mess.
Then I slipped away, and when I came back, I was standing at the crossroads. Watching people come and go, they pass by me, but no one does.
I’ve stayed and thought about what I’ve been doing all month.
Down.
I didn’t know how long I’d been crying. I took a cab to his house and I took something.
Move out.
13
Back in the rental house, I edited several tweets, and finally, I pulled the sending key.
There is only one sentence.
“Let’s get divorced. I’m sorry.
Maybe he’s being childish. I’ve always been the one who made them. No.
I’m the one who gets married if he wants to, divorce if he wants.
But even if I wanted to keep him, I didn’t have a reason.
He causes trouble, troubles his family, nothing.
That Dr. Leung is the girlfriend I thought he was working for.
We’re together, we’re together, we’re together, we’re together.
Not…
I can only quit.
So the kiss of that night was an impulse, and it made no sense.
After the message was sent, I turned off the phone and went to sleep under cover. I woke up in the middle of the night.
I’m dragging myself into a tired body and getting myself a warm water bag to cover my stomach.
I still can’t stand the water.
As a result, the mood fell to the bottom.
He didn’t answer a single message.
He’s probably busy.
The patient may have new conditions.
He probably fell asleep and didn’t see it.
He saw, probably forgot to return.
I don’t know.
I’ve found all kinds of reasons for him, but I don’t even believe in myself.
I can’t believe he’s keeping himself.
Then I held a warm water bag, and I was in a nest, and I wanted to go.
It’s sour, it’s still tearing.
I haven’t told my mother about this. I don’t know what to say. She might scold me.
Why are you yelling at me?
Dragon, what a shame. Sleeping all night, at 7:00 in the morning, I got up in the bathroom and I took a look at my hand.
I can’t believe there’s a message.
“Wake up? Open up. I’m sorry.
It’s a land year.
My heart is tight.
Look carefully, the time for information is 6:30.
He came half an hour ago?
I went to open the door before I could change. I was worried he was gone.
After all, he doesn’t look very patient.
As soon as the door was opened, I saw him smoking on the wall with his eyes open.
Get out of here!
He heard the door, and looked at me in the shadows.
A pair of cold eyes scared me.
“What are you doing here? “I bow my head and don’t want him to see my eyes.
Some swelling.
He didn’t talk, he just smoked out, one hand grabbed my head and the other hand slammed the door.
“What’s the message I sent last night? He brought me to the door, looked down at me, and forced me to look at him.
I bit my lips and didn’t answer.
I don’t know how to answer that.
It’s time to get back on track. I don’t want to let myself get married.
“You didn’t say you wanted to try it with me. Why, in a few days? I’m sorry.
I’m not talking.
“I’m not willing to ask. If you really think about it, then I respect your decision. I’m sorry.
When he said that he respected my decision, my heart was still stinged in mysterious ways.
“It was because I misjudged that we had children, and now I know it’s a farce, and I shouldn’t be bothering you anymore. You have your life, you can go with the girl you like, you deserve, you’re free. I close my eyes and try not to cry.
“What girl? Where’s the girl?” He’s a little angry.
A pair of eyes staring at me cold, and it seems like it’s on the edge of fire. “Don’t talk? If you don’t tell me what girl you’re talking about today, I won’t let you.
Bullshit. I’m sorry.
I don’t know why he’s so angry.
Did I force his family to marry him?
He didn’t come home every day because he didn’t want to.
Now I did what he wanted. Why is he still angry?
“Dr. Leung, doesn’t she like you? I’ve got the courage.
“…” he stopped, and he was quiet for a while, and he said, “She likes what I keep.
Something? I don’t feel for her again. I’m sorry.
I don’t know why. He said he didn’t feel anything for Dr. Liang.
Gas.
“And who do you feel for? “I think I’m too bold to ask.
Ask him questions like that.
He was a little surprised, too. He ended up with a face.
My man. I’m sorry.
He again! Again with my shame of the night!
I feel like I’ll never be his opponent in that respect.
So I shut up completely.
“…he saw me not talking, took away his breath, rubbed my hair on my head gently, and sighed, “Why are you so incompetent? I’m sorry.
“I’m not a pet. I’m whispering.
He stunned for a moment and suddenly laughed.
“I didn’t have time to see my phone last night. He whispered, “You know what I feel when I look at your cell phone at 3:00 in the morning? I’m sorry.
Why does he always stay up late, always work so late, so tired?
I suddenly felt a little out of line.
“What does it feel like? I’m whispering.
He looked at me and suddenly his whole face leaned over.
I thought the next step was to kiss me, and my fingers were holding tight, and he turned my face wrong, and then he turned his ear, and he said, “Doctor’s a good career, a bad girlfriend. I’ve been working for years, and my girlfriends have run away, and it’s hard to find a miserable little white rabbit who jumped into a pit and almost ran away. I’m sorry.
He’s laughing right there.
I’m holding back. He’s making me jump out of my heart.
When I didn’t react, he tried to kiss me over his head, and I took it back. “Huh…” He licked his lips and snorted, “No kiss? I’m sorry.
“No teeth brushed. “I just got up and I can’t imagine if he kissed me.
I’m so ashamed.
“Did I brush my teeth or did I smoke?” He asked me.
“No, I didn’t. I have a little cry.
“All right. I’m sorry.
All of a sudden, I was emptied.
“What are you doing? “I had to stretch my hand around his neck because I had a hard time.
“Brush your teeth. * Says he took me into the bathroom and then two people were in this weird mood *
Down, brush your teeth.
I brushed my teeth and tried to run, but he caught me.
He put his hand on the door, one hand on the back of my head, head down, kiss.
Up my lips.
He must like my orange toothpaste. Why else would he kiss my tongue?
He won’t let me go.
In the end he held me in the waist and he put me in his arms.
“You don’t want to divorce me? I had no reason to ask.
He’s always like this, he kisses me, he doesn’t know me, he doesn’t say anything, and I feel like I’m empty and I can’t catch it.
He looked at me, he didn’t answer my question, he just breathed, he said, “Do you want to come again?” I’m sorry.
“No! No! I look down in shame.
He made it sound like I was talking about kissing.
It’s wonderful to kiss him, to have an accelerated heart rate, to be dark, but I’m not the kind of guy with no face.
“Don’t mess with me. “Do you know I can’t stand it?” I’m sorry.
I’ve got a little twitch in my heart.
I didn’t know when he held me tight when I kissed him.
That’s how he said it. I’m even more blushing.
“Don’t do this all the time…” I’d like to get a positive answer from him, “I’m a very emotional man, and my mom says I’m too stupid, too serious, and I’m gonna take a long time to make a joke. If you don’t like me and tell me this again, I’m gonna be so confused, I’m gonna be in trouble, I’m gonna wonder what you’re talking about, are you playing me or…
I can’t say anymore.
I have been a man of excessive seriousness since I was a child, and thus I have often been mocked by others who say that I cannot afford it.
And then I learned to say as easily as possible what I cared about, or simply to bury what I cared about, so that I wouldn’t be out of step with what everyone seemed like.
Just like this hasty marriage.
I’ve been thinking about it for a long time, and I’m afraid that I’m a real person and I’m afraid I’m not sure what I’m going to say.
I don’t have to, I’m married, I’m married, and I don’t want him to get mixed up with me and others.
He doesn’t come home every day, and I pretend that I don’t care, but when he comes home I feel like I can’t help it.
I don’t know.
“You’re not stupid. “If I don’t look at you, I’ll never touch a woman in my life, and I won’t see you out of control for the first time.” I’m sorry.
I: ?
What do you mean?
He liked me the first time he saw me? Is that a possibility? Or did he lie to me about making it up?
13
In the morning, he held me to the bed and lay with him for a while.
His whole body seemed exhausted, but his hands held tight and he refused to let go.
In confusion, he started talking to himself again.
“That night I ate at the hotel, met a bunch of your students, laughed, and you were the only one.
Quietly sitting in the corner, I noticed you at first sight, and I thought, “What?”
There’ll be such a quiet, nice girl.
No, it’s a nice day. I’m sorry.
“You’re spying on me!” I was shocked.
I didn’t see him at all.
I was going to confess to a boy I’ve liked for years, but I haven’t.
He brought his girlfriend.
Years of dark love, and finally I’m alone.
So I sat there in peace because I didn’t want to talk.
It’s too bitter to laugh.
“And then you started drinking, and I see you’ve had a lot of it, and I’m falling.
The glasses, you came to my room, you kissed me as soon as you could, and I was so impressed. * He’s half-eyed and cuddled me *
“How can you be so cute?” I’m sorry.
Ahh…
It’s a shame I’m kissing him when I’m up there.
Okay.
“…forget it.” I cried, and I tried to erase his memory.
“Don’t. * He bit me in my ear *
Maybe we could try to refresh our impressions. I’m sorry.
All right, I got it, I stopped talking.
I got out of bed before he could say anything more to make his face beat.
“You get some sleep. I’ll get some food. What do you want? I asked him.
He smiled, “Yeah. I’m sorry.
Okay.
I don’t ask him anymore. I’m done.
It’s strange that love is really a cure for wounds. I had a stomachache last night.
My heart hurts, but when he comes, he’s got nothing wrong with me.
The doctor is a doctor. He can cure the post. So on the way to buy food, I got really relaxed.
14
Buying food home, I made a few.
He slept until the afternoon.
Eat while laughing.
“What are you laughing at?”
When he smiles, I feel guilty.
“You’re a good cook. He says he’s got another rib and he eats it fine.
“Because of a man, I don’t usually have a hobby, but I’m studying and eating. * And I *
I don’t want to tell you that I’ve done everything to please him.
Come on.
“Then I earned it. He smiled at me, and he said, “The food in the hospital is really bad.
They eat in haste, they don’t taste. I’m sorry.
He’s got a heartache for his work.
I couldn’t help but feel sorry for him.
“Can you come home at night when you’re off duty? You told me, I…
Dinner’s ready for you. Or you can tell me what you like to eat.
Down. “I’m even going to take a little book of his favorite food.” And suddenly he smiled again.
“What are you laughing at?” I’m speechless.
“Marriage feels good. * He drank another spoon of soup without covering it up *
I do the food’s favorite.
I was so happy to hear him say that.
Think it’s all worth it.
At dinner, I was washing dishes in the kitchen, and he walked behind me and held me around the waist.
I was frozen in a moment.
“What’s wrong? I’m sorry.
“I’ll fight for the rest of my shift back. Don’t think about it, huh? * He kissed *
Take a look at my neck.
It tickles.
“Good. I’m sorry.
“Kids, whenever you want to have a baby, I can do it. It’s just time for me to take care of my family.
I’m afraid you’re too hard. He explained to me.
“That’s what doctors do. I care about my family. I don’t care about my patients.
I’m important to myself. They put their lives in my hands. I can’t do anything.
Save a patient and save a family, you know?
“I didn’t want to hurt you, you’re too young, and I’m afraid you’re not in love with someone like me and having a boyfriend isn’t.
“I’ve been like this all my life. I don’t even know if one day I’m gonna die on a table where I’ve had countless operations, and you’re still young, and I’m afraid you’re not in love yet, and you’re in such a foreign relationship. I’m sorry.
He said it was a little stingy.
I’m surprised.
He’s telling the truth, I’ve never been in love, I’ve never been in love, and I know doctors are hard and busy.
But I don’t know, he thought about it when he rejected me. I thought he just wanted to play, he was a slag.
“I’m actually quite independent. Don’t worry, I’ll take care of myself. I laughed at him and said:
He took my body, looked at me and stopped.
And finally he held my hands, “You’re fine. I’m sorry.
“Hmm. I’m sorry.
At this moment, my heart is sweeter than my honey. 15
At night, the years went away again.
I moved back to his house.
He’s still busy. He’s good at home for two nights a week.
I can’t always see him.
At first I thought about him a little bit, but then I got used to it, so I took his time.
Pack up the house and pass the time.
Sometimes I go to see his grandparents, their parents, and they don’t mind.
What happened was to talk me out of it, say we’re young and have a chance to have children.
Son.
Everything’s going so well. I feel like my life’s on fire. Everything’s on my mind.
Think of it.
But I always felt something was wrong.
One morning I was held in one hand behind me.
I woke up and I was just about to ask him, and he pulled me over and kissed me in detail.
Knock it down and kiss my head.
His hands aren’t idle.
What happened then happened naturally. “Sushi. He called me by my dumb voice.
“Hmm. I reached out to him with my hand around his neck and responded to him.
“Susu. I’m sorry.
I: ?
I was called by him, like, a little creep.
“You…”
“Baby. I’m sorry.
It turns out that old men will get up and I can’t stand it. Early in the morning.
He made a few rounds.
“You get some sleep. “I’m so sorry he’s so tired, and I came back thinking about it.
“On his way back from work, he’s got his head full of brains.
Sleep. I’m sorry.
“Well, what now?”
“Now, it’s all about sleeping with you. I’m sorry.
He’s been getting more and more rogue lately.
“Are you not tired? “I didn’t take a good look at him. “I’m tired. He said the truth. “I blame you for sleeping next to me, like poison.
I can’t help it. I’m sorry.
Can you talk normally?
I’m always surprised by his train. He’s still in the hospital.
The court is serious about his shadow.
My head was buried in his chest. “What did you tell your family last time?
That joke?”
“…and he paused for a moment, and he said, “Just say you’re mad at the kids, so they don’t mess around.
You. I’m sorry.
What!
“What are you talking about? “I’m just like him.
“It worked really well, didn’t it? They’re better for you now than for me. I’m sorry.
I: ?
But he is telling the truth.
No wonder his family didn’t hurt me at all.
It’s not about that.
I suddenly feel like this guy, he doesn’t usually do anything romantic, but…
In fact, like me, I think of each other in silence. Great.
“You’re very kind to me. I couldn’t help but kiss him in the face.
“Stop kissing. “I’m afraid you can’t stand it.” I’m sorry.
He shut me up again.
He looked funny at me and looked at me shut up, stretching his hand and rubbing my head.
I wish my family would be nice to you.
Your fix. I’m sorry.
That’s what he thought.
I didn’t say anything, but he was so sweet.
“Why don’t we have a baby later? I won’t be alone with her.
Okay. I’m sorry.
And he paused and said, “Okay. I’m sorry.
And then his breath came down, and he fell asleep, and I lay in his arms, and I felt…
It’s a quiet time.
