I got cancer, and the day I got the re-examination book, I returned Pei Zhao’s freedom, and then completely disappeared from his world.
I got cancer, and the day I got the re-examination book, I returned Pei Zhao’s freedom, and then completely disappeared from his world.
But I do have a gift for being a pervert, and my home is full of my eyes. The 4K camera shows me everything about Pei Zhao very clearly.
I thought he would be relieved, but the man who wanted me to die knelt down in front of Buddha and kowtowed again and again. I
hope I can live.
Pei Zhao is a pauper. The first time
I saw him, Pei Zhao was in a pile of young masters, wearing a white denim jacket, and his hair was probably arranged by the landlady. Like a hedgehog, the root is raised, especially with that stubborn face, which looks like refusing to admit defeat.
I like him very much. It is human nature to
be lustful, and Pei Zhao has a jealous face. Fortunately, when God opened a window for him, he closed the door, and at that time Pei Zhao was so poor that three meals a day were steamed bun, with gruel that could be used as a mirror. The whole person is as thin as a gust of wind can blow down, shoulder blades top out a thin arc, from behind it looks very lonely.
I told the landlady that I wanted this man, and the landlady complimented me while glancing at Pei Zhao, who was shuttling back and forth in various boxes.
“The young man is very stubborn.”
“Then don’t let him have any business in the near future.”
Pei Zhao works as a waiter at night, because he is good-looking, there are always people who buy wine from him in an attempt to develop something in depth. Pei Zhao always accepts everything, and then coldly refuses the scheming sisters.
This is the biggest club in a city. Every time I come here to talk about business, I can see him. There was
only one expression, the lips were straight and the eyes were drooping listlessly. Holding a fruit bowl or a drink in his hand, he was so busy that his heels did not touch the ground.
He never took the initiative to talk to me. Once I drank too much when I was talking about business and vomited at the door of the toilet. I grabbed him, and I said, “Give me a piece of paper.”
Pei Zhao wiped my mouth with his handkerchief, and his eyes were a little moved.
“Drink less, sister.”
I squinted and felt bad. After
that day, I investigated all the details of Pei Zhao, an orphan, who had a sister with congenital heart disease.
He was saving money for that expensive surgery, and I cut him off. As I signaled,
the landlady stopped allowing him to sell wine, and at the same time let the young master bully him hard.
I was silent for almost a week, and when I stepped into the night again that day, Pei Zhao was surrounded and beaten by a group of people. He lay on the ground, hunched over like a shrimp. Cover your head and let the crowd beat and scold you.
I pushed aside the crowd, came to Pei Zhao’s side, and held out my hand to him.
The man staggered to his feet against the wall, pushed me away, and walked away.
The landlady grinned and said, “You see, you have a lot of backbone.”
Later, I found Pei Zhao and spread out a box of money in front of him.
“Your sister’s surgery can’t be put off. I can help you hire the best specialists at home and abroad.”
Pei Zhao stared at me warily.
“Conditions.”
I have a kind of relaxed pores all over my body, and my chest, which has been silent for a long time, seems to finally jump up again at this moment.
“I want to keep you.” Eight years
have passed, and Pei Zhao is now my pillow man, although he is reluctant.
He still often had a cold face and turned a blind eye to my overtures. I didn’t come back until the wee hours of the morning in the name of busy work, and I was already asleep at that time.
I stirred the Congee with Minced Pork and Preserved Egg, and my chest was filled with nausea. Obviously very hungry, the lips are hungry to tremble, but see the food is unable to eat. As soon as the
nose itches, the warm liquid slides down, contaminating the warm, fragrant, soft and glutinous porridge thoroughly.
I wiped my nose and didn’t panic. “Chi Yao-kuang, sometimes I feel like you’re not a human being at all,”
says Pei.
We are not warm-hearted people, and we often deal with our own business together. In the dead of night, loneliness comes to my mind, and then I hug to a place and lie down on the huge bed, lingering to death, as if this can prove that I am not lonely.
But I know, when we have sex, when I am in love, Pei Zhao is not so focused.
Think about it, how can he be willing to be a gigolo when he is in his prime.
He is a man of ability. He runs his own trading company and has been flourishing in the past two years.
Probably will leave me soon. Before
we were together, I sent Pei Yue abroad.
This sister, who is not related by blood, is his only weakness, and it is also my sweaty existence every time I dream at midnight.
It’s so cold. It’s midsummer.
I sent a message to Pei Zhao wrapped in a blanket.
“Come back for dinner tonight. I made your favorite glutinous rice balls in fermented rice wine.” I didn’t reply for
a long time, and I sent a few words at noon.
“Busy, no time.”
I looked out of the window, and the sun was scorching, and the Chinese roses were blooming.
“If you’re busy, you have to go back, or your goods will be detained.”
Pei Zhao finally compromised and stepped into the villa at exactly six o’clock.
I also want to be soft, but after a long time of ups and downs in the market, my blood is cold, and I will not say those words to coax people.
“General Manager Pei is really busy every day. I’m afraid I’ll have to take a lottery to invite you to dinner.”
I bent my lips and the color of the lipstick was too strong. Pei Zhao frowned, pulled out a tissue and wiped some away.
“I’m not here?”
I grinned and poked him in the chest.
Don’t think I don’t know. It’s because Pei Yue is back, isn’t it? We haven’t seen each other for eight years. Your brother and sister should have a good time catching up.
Pei Zhao seemed a little angry, but I never looked at his face. His anger was like hitting cotton in my eyes, and it disappeared without even rebounding.
He went into the kitchen and brought out the dishes one by one.
“Let’s eat.”
I chewed the fish slowly, not daring to blink for fear of tears.
I said Pei Zhao, let’s break up.
Pei Zhao’s hand holding the chopsticks paused and gave me a puzzled look.
He knows. I love him so much. How can I let him go so easily.
For many nights I stroked his generous back and called his name over and over again. All I was left with was a stubborn and indifferent figure, and I put my hand into his dark hair. Sadism usually pulls out the roots of his hair so that he knows how to meet his financial backers. I am not always so good-tempered, and I can laugh and watch him refuse me again and again.
Pei Zhao still carries me on his back, and my boiling blood is cold again. Then he loosened his hand and wrapped the quilt tightly. After eight years
together, I said I broke up many times. But without exception, within a week, a black Maybach will stop at the gate of Pei Zhao’s company at 8 o’clock on time every day. Rolling down the window, I stared at Pei Zhao with an expressionless face and bent my lips.
He only knows that I have destroyed his dignity, but he doesn’t know that I have put myself into the dust countless times and lost all self-respect.
“What’s wrong with you?”
I laughed in a low voice and looked at the full white rice in front of me with a little absence. I won’t be able to eat it after a
while.
“This time it’s for real.”
I looked at Pei Zhao, who still had a serious expression. It’s like watching a clown who uses dirty tricks to try to get a little attention and stingy to give a little pity.
“My bags are packed, and I will move out tonight.”
Pei Zhao finally moved, eyebrows slightly raised, even that pair of calm eyes are wide open.
“Congratulations, Pei Zhao, you are free.”
I walked up to him, bent down, and whispered, “On the day I marry Pei Yue, I’ll give you the money.”
Pei Zhao did not move.
“Go well.”
I heard a muffled voice in his throat.
Pei Yue moved in. I met her a long time ago. At that time, Pei Yue’s hair was withered and yellow, and her whole body was as thin as a skeleton wrapped in skin. The eyes of the young man, which should be clear, are lifeless. Only when she saw Pei Zhao, she would burst into a little brilliance. She hugged him and called him brother affectionately.
She was only eighteen years old, and even though she was terminally ill, she was still so beautiful that people trembled.
It is a kind of weak, pure, people can not help but want to care for the feeling.
I will never have this kind of temperament in my life. I was killing people in the mall when Pei Yue was half dead with a nutrition needle. Demolished a village for a resort. The amount of
compensation was extremely low, and many people scolded me behind my back. But Pei Zhao never said I was cold-blooded. He was just like me. We are the same kind of people, how can he fall in love with Pei Yue like a little white flower?
Now I’m really going to die. The image from
the pinhole camera was particularly clear. Pei Yue was nestled on my favorite velvet sofa. Pei Zhao washed a box of strawberries for her. He went to Pei Yue thoughtfully, then picked out the reddest ones and fed them to Pei Yue one by one.
I was a little upset. Pei Yue didn’t even take off her shoes. The pointy soles of the boots left deep marks on the blue sofa.
This is one of the few places where I have good memories with Pei Zhao. I had a bad cold at that time, and I was in a daze. Pei Zhao hugged me, patiently coaxed me to take medicine, and sang unknown lullabies to watch me fall asleep.
Probably people like Pei Zhao are naturally fond of being gentle, and they are strong enough to need someone to snuggle on their shoulders. Not a woman who would wear blood lipstick on his head.
Pei Yue said she didn’t like the sofa.
Pei Zhao probably thought that I might kill a horse gun in a week, so he hesitated for a moment.
“After a while, my brother will take you to pick out furniture.”
Pei Yue smiled sweetly.
“My brother is so kind.” When
Qi Chengming pushed the door and came in, I was still staring at the computer. In the
picture, Pei Zhao has just taken a bath, his hair is still dripping, and his perfect figure makes people want to scream.
He subconsciously went for the cup on the bedside table, but it was empty. When I am gone, there is no one to put a glass of water at his bedside all the time for him to take at any time.
Pei Zhao did not know what to think of and angrily smashed the cup against the wall.
Qi Chengming said I was a pervert.
“What’s the matter with you, watching people’s lives 24 hours a day?”
I smiled.
Not only that, but also private detectives. I know exactly where he is when he is not at home.
Qi Cheng-ming shivered and said, “Qi Yao-kuang, you are really a pervert.”
I don’t speak. I weave a net with love. He can’t escape. One
day Pei Zhao will find that I have been integrated into his life bit by bit, and the Pei Yue in his heart, leaving only a seemingly beautiful skin. The
hot towel was pressed on my arm, and after a few days of hanging water, my arm was blue. If we draw blood again tomorrow, we may not be able to find a place for the needle in the injured arm.
“Sister, why are you doing this?”
I took a good look at my brother. We’re half-brothers. When his mother died of illness, his father had no way to take him back to the Qi family.
I was afraid for some time, because the huge family property was likely to be divided by more than half by Qi Chengming.
I reached up and lifted his chin. Like his mother, he had clean eyes. When I
was a teenager, I intentionally or unintentionally tested him, and after learning that he cared more about art, I resolutely sent him to Italy for further study. Qi Chengming thanked me very much, and I was relieved.
Only now I’m bringing him back because I’m terminally ill.
That blood relationship used to be the thing I feared most, but now it has become the most powerful backing.
“Will you cry for me when I die?”
Qi Chengming froze and threw the towel on the ground.
“Can you say something nice?”
I was glad to see him so anxious.
“But you are not enough. If I do die, my widow will be the one who cries the most.”
Qi Chengming is dumb, he can only comfort me.
“It’s going to be okay.”
Pei Zhao slept in the middle of the night and finally got up and went to the kitchen to get a cup of water. There was no porridge simmering in the casserole. The kitchen without a trace of fragrance is less fireworks, and it is so cold that people are afraid.
Pei Zhao pursed his lips and began to wash rice and cook porridge.
He had not done such a thing for a long time, and it was hard to avoid being unfamiliar. There was too much water, and when I got up the next day, it was all over the floor.
He got up earlier than Pei Yue, so he put a bowl on the table. But until I got off work in the evening, the bowl of porridge was still there and did not move.
The house was dark, and no one would glance lazily into the kitchen to wash his hands and eat.
Pei Zhao took a deep breath and dialed Pei Yue’s phone.
To the ear is the sound of loud music, Pei Yue’s words hazy.
He tried to maintain a moderate tone.
“Yueyue, where are you? My brother is going to pick you up.”
I closed the computer and called Pei Zhao’s partner.
“There’s no need to provide cargo ships for Xingye Commerce and Trade. I’m in a hurry to deal with the accessories here.”
With Pei Zhao’s ability, these things will certainly not be a blow to him, he will just be very busy. Then I found out how many obstacles I had smoothed and how many roads I had paved for him. The little nurse with a
round face gently reminded me not to make up. I touched my face, and there was no meat left.
This is my armor. I maintain a decent robe. How can I take it off so easily.
Qi Yaoguang, how can you allow yourself to show your vulnerability.
I’ve always been strong.
“Did the bone marrow bank find the right bone marrow?”
“No, but don’t lose heart. You’ll get better.”
I want to get better. I want to hear Pei Zhao say he loves me.
If I die, I want him to remember me forever.
Pei Zhao has been very busy recently, not only for the company, but also for Pei Yue.
The once pure and lovely sister did not know when to become extravagant and dissipated, and would point proudly at a row of new products in luxury stores, drooping her eyelids and saying “I want it.”. Then he got into the taxi and went into the noisy bar. The
neon lights are constantly flashing, which is somewhat bizarre in the steel fortress created by the metal wall. To the rhythm of the music,
she shook the expensive drinks in her hand. Eyes narrowed like a lazy cat.
Pei Zhao would look at her coldly and drag her back from the excited crowd. Pei Yue’s whole body was stuffed into the bath, and the cold water choked Pei Yue’s cough.
“Brother!”
She gave a short, sharp cry. Pei Zhao finally came to his senses and said in an indisputable tone, “I will cut off your card from tomorrow.”
Pei Yue licked her lips and didn’t seem to care.
“Anyway, my brother doesn’t give me much money every month. That old woman always calls me.”
Her arms clung to the bathtub, as if she had thought of something funny, and her eyes narrowed into an arc. She sounds like
a strong woman, but in fact she is just a humble wretch. Brother, you must not know how she talks to me like she is my sister-in-law. He nagged me to take good care of myself, and then transferred money to the card on time every month. You asked me to say something nice in front of you. It was so funny.
She shook her hand in disgust and scolded, “Disgusting.”
“Pow”.
Pei Zhao slapped her in the face.
This man is very silent when he is angry. He is not a talkative person. There is always low pressure hovering around him. This is especially true when angry, but the eyes will be fixed on a certain place.
Pei Zhao finished slapping, his hands trembling, and he woke up when he saw Pei Yue’s red and swollen face. Patiently to coax her, broad palms slowly patted Pei Yue’s thin back. But no one could see that he was absent-minded, only me.
Pei Zhao’s eyes fell on the corner of the bathroom, where there was a lonely little yellow duck.
I was very naive for some time and bought a lot of little yellow ducks to put in the bathtub when I took a bath. In the belly of
the little yellow duck is a fragrant ball, orange flavor, which is a rare taste that Pei Zhao likes.
He always said that my perfume smelled like a funeral hall, but unfortunately we had a fight later. I threw away all the little yellow ducks, leaving only one on the floor drain, which made the bare place look good.
Pei Zhao returned to a person’s room.
The bed was cold and there was no human heater. He
did not know what he was thinking, turned on the computer and browsed the web aimlessly until the early morning.
I guess he forgot the website, and I made a web page for his birthday one year with great interest. He wrote a lot of disgusting words, accompanied by Pei Zhao’s favorite songs as a gift to him. At that time, Pei Zhao just looked at it coldly and ignored it, and of course he couldn’t remember it with his residual impression.
I pursed my lips. The juice was bitter.
Pei Zhao must not have known that the web page had been deleted by me, but I left a screenshot in his computer.
I want him to find out slowly, and I want his love for me to come like a flood.
Multinational companies can not delay the business, the original partners suddenly do not provide cargo ships, Pei Zhao some stunned.
The person in charge said that they were originally the partners of Qi’s Group, and now they are very important there, and they must take care of their old owners first.
Pei Zhao some Leng, when Xingye just started, the consignment company came to the door. You can rest assured that the price is fair. It’s not that he didn’t think it was me, but the attitude of the other side was not like that.
“We are willing to help young people with dreams.” It took me a
long time to help.
This must make Pei Zhao very upset, because I pressed another head.
Pei Zhao is a little dissatisfied, because he really can’t compete with me.
But he was still smiling. People in business always have a standard smile with eight teeth on their lips.
“Give my regards to General Manager Qi.”
The person in charge smacked his tongue: “Little General Manager Qi, that man is too arrogant. It’s not as good as General Manager Qi.”
“General Manager Qi?”
In Pei Zhao’s impression, I am an absolute autocrat. The position of Director Qi must not be coveted by others. How can a little General Manager Qi suddenly appear.
The person in charge shook his head and said, “I don’t know. It seems that something has happened and he has retreated into the background.”
Pei Zhao finally remembered that I hadn’t contacted him for half a month.
The man hesitated for a long time before dialing the phone, but only the voice of the electronic customer service format came.
“Sorry, the number you dialed is power off.”
He didn’t go to the company to find me. He just stood there for a long time.
Pei Zhao found a job for his younger sister. Reluctantly, Pei Yue pouted and went to work. The
company’s affairs have been dealt with, and the time is free all of a sudden.
Pei Zhao often sat on the sofa in a daze for about a week, and he began to rummage through boxes and cupboards at home. When I
left, I took a lot of things, couple’s teacups, photo albums, and left behind mostly small, old objects that were not easy to detect in the corner.
Pei Zhao rummaged through boxes and cabinets and wiped every corner with a rag. Then he piled up the empty things in the living room and looked at them carefully one by one. I bought a
lot of them for him. The ring I
only wore a few times, the sunglasses I bought him when I went on vacation. The scarf knitted by hand in winter is the first time, so the head is big and the tail is small. The thread was so crooked that it looked ridiculous.
Pei Zhao didn’t wear it once.
Now he took the scarf, wrapped it around his neck, and looked at himself in the mirror and laughed out loud.
He found a lot of memories about us.
The one who is awkward and never accepts my love honestly. Now I cut myself open and crumble, and finally I find that we have been together for eight years, and we have long been used to each other’s existence.
It has been said that when an old friend leaves, the first thing he perceives is not sadness.
Even without feeling.
However, one day, at a certain moment, when you see everything she left behind, you will realize that that person will never be found again.
I don’t know what Pei Zhao was thinking. He put all those things in a cardboard box and dragged them into his bedroom.
I guess his heart must be very soft, because of his cold and hard character. He always puts on a layer of armor for himself, and the armor made of steel seems to be invincible. In fact, the package is more fragile than anything else.
No one loves him as much as I do.
Pei Zhao always puts himself in front of everything that fate has given him.
Poor family, parents died early, sick sister, embarrassed strange feelings.
He is like a turtle who shrinks himself into a tortoise shell, proud and self-abased.
Accepting fate and rejecting its gift.
Some people just refuse to face up to their hearts honestly.
I touched the computer screen and laughed. I didn’t even know that my nose was bleeding on the snow-white quilt.
Pei Zhao drove to my company. He waited quietly for me to get off work.
Like countless times before, I waited for him to come out of the glass door and sit in the car.
Too bad he can’t wait.
Qi Chengming was in a suit and leather shoes.
Qi’s decision-maker has changed, and she is no longer the woman with cold eyes and a disdainful smile at the corners of her mouth.
Pei Zhao was fixed, he was so motionless, watching Qi Chengming sit on my Maybach and walk away.
That night, Pei Zhao blew up my phone. From nine o’clock to twelve o’clock, there was no stop, but there was only a calm electronic sound on the screen.
He turned over the WeChat, and every message he sent was lost in the sea. Finally, Pei Zhao put his cell phone to his ear, clicked on the voice message I sent him, and listened to it all night.
Pei Yue said he was crazy and liked me, an old woman.
She pulled the box of things out of the door to throw them into the trash can.
Pei Zhao and she tore, accidentally tore the box, a mess of things scattered on the ground.
I watched Pei Zhao on the screen holding them in his arms and shrugging his shoulders.
He cried.
Pei Yue also cried, she asked Pei Zhao.
“Brother, don’t you love me the most?”
The man raised his head and touched Pei Yue’s face.
“We are brother and sister.”
Even without blood, you’re still my sister.
That’s all.
I’m relieved that Pei Zhao doesn’t really love Pei Yue. He’s just been kidnapped for too long, and the responsibility of having to take care of his sister has made him lose himself, and he can’t tell what is love and what is concern.
So I sent Pei Yue away, eight years is enough to change a person, also enough to forget a person.
I said to Qi Chengming, Actually, I like Pei Yue very much, because people like her are very easy to deal with. She is weak and selfish, and she has never seen the world. One side hates me, the other side has to cling to me. She felt that I had defiled her brother, but she accepted all the money I had transferred, and she felt that I owed them. I smiled and swallowed the pill. “Don’t look at her harsh voice. In fact, she is most afraid of me.”. She knew that in the past eight years, Pei Zhao had only me. There was no room for anyone else around him, even his sister, who had once been his closest.
I looked at Qi Chengming, who frowned and looked a little stern. After finding a comfortable position, I let myself lie down and felt less pain in my chest.
My father has a lot of debts outside, and I’m not surprised that I have a few younger brothers and sisters. I just didn’t expect that they couldn’t wait to come out as soon as I abdicated. What position does Chi Cheng-wei want?
“Chief Financial Officer.”
Qi Chengming bit his lip and cursed in disgust.
I’m a little funny. After all, young people always can’t hold their breath. Give him whatever position
he wants, and if he wants to play, you take him to play. Money, power, debauchery and women are knives that kill people without shedding blood. You don’t need to use them. What he can’t handle will turn around and kill him.
I touched Qi Chengming’s face. He looked most like my father. He had seductive eyes. The difference is that my dad never shows such a lost look in his eyes. He always has a plan. After
I die, Qi Shi will give it to you. Don’t act too hastily. Indulgence and strictness are the means of a manager. If he presses too hard, he will not be able to hold on to his property.
Qi Chengming opened his mouth and did not speak.
“You know, among all my brothers and sisters, I only think of you as one of my own.”
“But what if the Chi family is destroyed in my hands?”
I closed my eyes and felt a little tired, but I still had good words in my mouth.
“You are my brother, and I believe in you.”
The other party took my hand and said yes.
I know he appreciates me.
In the most difficult years of his life, I took this boy with me and told everyone that this was my brother, the young master of the Qi family.
He stepped from the quagmire to the clouds, from being spurned by everyone to being watched by all.
If he loves art, I will let him go to the best college for further study. If he wants love, I will send him food rain or shine.
It was just because Qi Chengming had no intention of saying that other students had a loving lunch box when chatting.
This is where I am smarter than my mother, who will only pinch Qi Chengming’s soft flesh wrapped in clothes with sharp nails in dark corners.
I know, but I never interfere.
This is her resentment, Qi Chengming’s original sin, he should bear. Qi Chengming never told me
about this.
I am his sister, his only shelter in the Qi family. Under the
club, the jackal will only resist. In the
sunshine and rain, the blooming flowers are better controlled.
This is my selfishness, to smooth Qi Chengming’s hatred, one less person to fight for family property.
But now, everything has changed, and this illness has caught me off guard.
I worked hard for the company for more than ten years, and I drank until my stomach bled before I got the business.
Am I really so willing to give it up and give it to a person who has never managed a business? The appearance of
illegitimate children is not accidental, Qi Chengming will gradually find that he alone can not control the whole Qi family.
Only the strong join hands, and I am his only choice.
“When Pei Zhao comes to you, remember to tell him I’m dead.”
“Hmm?” Chi Cheng-ming wonders, “Didn’t someone tell him that you were in the background?”
“If there were no inconsistencies, how could he have sensed something was wrong and come to me?”
I pulled up the quilt.
“I’m so tired. I’m going to sleep. Go back.”
Qi Chengming doesn’t know how patient and capable I am. But none of the things I want can escape, including this life.
Near the Mid-Autumn Festival, I asked Qi Chengming to send a box of moon cakes to Pei Zhao in my name.
As in previous years, he wrote a letter to him in his own handwriting.
It’s just that this year’s mooncakes are bought by Qi Chengming in the store, and I don’t have the energy to study the fancy fillings and appearances as I did in previous years. All I can do is write a letter to tell him that I am fine and I hope he will be happy in the future.
Qi Chengming asked me why I didn’t tell him directly that I was seriously ill and had to beat around the Bush to let him find it by himself.
Qi Cheng-ming curled his lips and said, “He’s really calm. He waits at the gate of the company every day, and he thinks he can stop you.”
Pei Zhao’s temperament is too calm, unless absolutely necessary will not take the initiative to attack. But I can’t wait. Leukemia is terminal. I have three months to live at most.
When he was enlightened, he chased Qi Chengming and asked me where I was. Maybe the grass on my grave was three feet high.
I told Qi Chengming, “Remember to tell him I’m dead.”
Qi Chengming nodded and took the moon cake box to find Pei Zhao. I turned on the computer and looked forward to Pei Zhao’s reaction.
In previous years, the Mid-Autumn Festival was a rare time for Pei Zhao to go home on time. He was looking forward to his family in his bones, so Pei Zhao attached great importance to this day of family reunion. He would even go around the vegetable market, pick out two dishes he wanted to eat and hand them to me awkwardly. So even though I don’t like the mooncakes I make, I will sit down and have one with me. He poured two cups of tea on the balcony and sipped them bit by bit.
The moon is very round, and when I sit side by side with Pei Zhao, I feel like an old couple. His eyes lit up when he
saw the moon cake box. I guess he must be thinking: Look, Qi Yaoguang, this woman finally can’t hold her breath. She came to me. She loves me, completely belongs to me, can not betray, can not leave.
So even though Qi Chengming has a smelly face, Pei Zhao is still happy to rub the box. He knew there was a letter from me in there, and it was the same every year, nothing new.
He jumped for joy and even grabbed Qi Chengming’s arm with some impatience.
“Where is she?”
Qi Chengming waved his hand impatiently.
“Dead.”
Pei Zhao was stunned and almost didn’t hold the moon cake box. He caught Qi Chengming again in disbelief and raised his voice: “What did you say?”
“I said she was dead.”
Qi Chengming’s words are perfect and his words are passionate. Looking at Pei Zhao a look of lost soul, sneer out loud. How can you pretend to be affectionate
now? Don’t you hate my sister to death? People are disdainful when they are alive, but they never forget when they are dead. I tell you, it’s my sister’s bad luck to like you, but you can rest assured that she won’t pester you anymore.
Pei Zhao looked at his hand, which was thrown away, as if he was recalling Qi Chengming’s words, and finally murmured absently.
“I didn’t.”
He looked up. “I don’t hate her. I just hate myself.”
Pei Zhao pulled a smile that was uglier than crying.
You lied to me, didn’t you? I know I’m sorry for Yao Kuang. I can beat or scold you. But life and death is not a trivial matter, and it can not be used as a joke. You’re her brother. You can’t curse her to death. She’s so young. She said she wanted to grow old with me. How could she die?
Qi Chengming probably could not bear to look at his lost appearance, irascibly lit a cigarette, no longer look at Pei Zhao, turned to go out. Pei Zhao was left standing alone in the doorway with the moon cake in his arms. After a long time, Pei Zhao suddenly tore the box open and stuffed the moon cakes into his mouth one after another.
Although the same is manual, but a look is fine packaging. How could it be wrapped by me? How could it smell like me.
Pei Zhao spat out, leaning against the door frame, first burying his head in his knees and weeping silently. Then he covered his face with his hands and cried loudly, calling my name intermittently as he cried.
He rubbed his eyes and found the letter in the box. What I wrote
this year is: I hope Mr. Pei will be happy and healthy for the rest of his life. I’m fine. Don’t think of me again.
Pei Zhao suddenly came to his senses and drove out.
Destination or Qi Shi, Qi Chengming seems to know that he is coming, early waiting there. The two black cars confronted each other, and neither of them was convinced. In the end or Pei Zhaoxian get off, he asked for help, has long lost the original arrogance.
Just like eight years ago, the day Pei Yue was critically ill.
Pei Zhao is also like this, lowers the head, puts the posture to the extremely low. Humbly put his palms against his knees, and there was determination and despair in his eyes.
I guess I did my homework before I came here, and I thought rich people were perverts.
I kissed his sideburns, and I said that you were mine from now on.
I never believe in love. Before my father married my mother, he said he only loved her. Later, colorful flags were flying everywhere.
But I believe in habit.
Who can say that after ten years of marriage, the love between each other has not been exhausted by daily necessities. But the habit will hold them tightly, as long as the connection is deep enough, they will never be able to leave.
This feeling is false but real enough.
I only know that I love Pei Zhao, and he will never leave me.
As for whether he loves me or can’t accept not having me around, maybe I don’t need to know the answer.
Now Pei Zhao is more humble than he was at the beginning. He trembles and his voice is hoarse. He bent his straight back and groveled to Qi Chengming.
“Please tell me where she is.”
Chi Cheng-ming took a breath and asked, “Are you feeling sorry for her?”
Pei Zhao shook his head. “No.”
“What is that?”
“Probably because I love her.”
Probably, probably, that’s enough. People can’t be too greedy. I saw Pei Zhao before I
couldn’t help falling asleep. He was standing in front of the hospital bed, his eyes were red and his face was incredulous.
I waved to him, but Pei Zhao did not come immediately. He took a deep breath, crouched down and covered his face.
I forgot to put on lipstick today, so I waved to Pei Zhao.
“Help me get the lipstick.”
Pei Zhao obediently did so, and even picked for a long time.
I found out that he knew that the color I used most was oxblood red.
I put on my lipstick and asked him, “Do I look good?”
Pei Zhao smiled, he never grinned, too exaggerated, a look is installed. Sure enough, he said it looked good, but tears flowed down.
“Is it that ugly?”
“No.” He took my hand. “I’ve got sand in my eyes.”
I know what I look like. He’s scrawny
, his eye sockets are deep and bruised. Because the symptoms are serious, there are many red dots on my body, which means that my subcutaneous bleeding is very serious.
My armor could not hide my sickly face, my thin head, my pale face. It happened that she had a red lip like blood. It’s
neither fish nor fowl, and it’s terrible.
Qi Chengming will spare no effort to praise me.
He exaggerated so much that he took away all the mirrors in the ward for fear that I would see my true face.
But electronic products are reflective. I’m not blind.
Pei Zhao stood in front of me, he is still so handsome, so tall. I was sleepy
again, and I was sleepy in the soft quilt.
The man kissed the corner of my eye, and tears fell on my face.
I’m sorry, I’m sorry. I didn’t realize how sick you were.
I don’t want to leave this world. Someone came to visit me in the dead of
night.
Unlike Qi Chengming, this is a serious man whose shirt button must be buttoned to the first one.
But they have one thing in common. They both call me sister.
“Bone marrow match failed?”
He nodded his head.
“I’m useless, sister.” It
‘s none of your business. It’s all fate. You are the hardest of the three men in the Qi family. Go to the Qi family and assist Chengming. You are brothers, and you should not be so strange.
Qi Chengze suddenly raised his head.
“Sister, do you think I’m a fool for reading?”
I was amused by him: “a little.”
Qi Chengze also smiled.
“I know what my sister wants. Chi Cheng-ming wants to dominate the Chi family. It’s impossible.”
He stood up and tucked me in. “You’re going to be all right, sister.”
Qi Chengzhi is not a great man. Qi Chengze and Qi Chengming, whoever wants to inherit Qi’s family must get the shares in my hands, so my will is the key.
Probably no one can easily put down the right, Qi Chengming even to do a bone marrow match are not willing to pull me.
But I want to live, I must live. I smiled
at my younger brother, whom I had rarely met, and said, “Happy cooperation.”
He will be Qi Chengming’s strongest opponent.
“Happy cooperation.”
Pei Zhao moved into the hospital and began to take care of me. Pei Yue was particularly dissatisfied. In her opinion, the death of my old woman was simply a contribution to society.
Children are children, and the only way to vent their discontent is to shout.
Even in the intensive care unit of a private hospital, she couldn’t help it, and the bodyguards in the next ward had already sent out to ask her to be quiet.
I lowered my head and smiled. If I were Pei Yue, I would not only not make trouble, but also care about it. After all, is a dying person, a little conscience will be on her side. The more you move, the more people think you are not sensible. On the contrary, the nausea of dark rubbing is the knife on the other side’s heart.
It’s a pity that Pei Yue is too simple to know the word “kill the heart”.
But I know.
I have a nosebleed every afternoon.
I looked at Pei Yue sitting on the chair in the ward, pulling Pei Zhao’s arm and asking him to leave me alone. Then he rolled his eyes and his nosebleed dripped down his lips. I looked at the stunned Pei Zhao with a disappointed face.
Pei Zhao really panicked, let people take Pei Yue back, not to let her step near the hospital.
He took wet wipes and carefully wiped my face.
I grabbed his wrist, so Pei Zhao stopped and looked at me in puzzlement.
“Be good, wipe your face first.”
I’m still laughing, the same as before. Pei Zhao particularly hates it, because it seems that I am the manipulator who controls the overall situation, while others are just one of the manipulators in the chessboard. He was particularly disgusted by the sense of powerlessness that had
been arranged.
But now, Pei Zhao followed my smile and showed his teeth.
Unlike Qi Chengming, he always has a sad face. I
want to die quickly, but I don’t want to lose me.
The tangled mood makes Qi Chengming have a kind of constipated struggling expression every time he comes to see me.
Pei Zhao’s smile is very sunny, the kind of lie as a reassuring pill, blind eyes laugh ignorance, so especially pure.
Even though his hands were shaking.
“I don’t want to die like this.”
Pei Zhao’s hands trembled even more, but he still laughed.
“What are you talking about? How can you die?”
“It’s worth it for you to do so much for me before you die.”
Pei Zhao restrained his smile and became serious, holding my quilt knuckles white.
“I told you to stop!” He gritted his teeth. “You’re not going to die.”
After a while, Pei Zhao seemed to be in a good mood and softened his tone.
“I’ll get you a glass of water.”
I looked at his back and asked the answer I had carefully planned.
“Are you in love with me?”
Pei Zhao paused, his voice choked with sobs.
Yes, the fruits of victory are hard won. So you mustn’t give up, or I’ll have to like someone else.
I turned on the computer and sent messages to Qi Chengze intermittently. Under my deliberate instruction, many of the company’s directors took sides under him. All of a sudden, Qi Chengming was isolated and helpless, and even I frequently looked at Qi Chengze with appreciation.
We are all smart people. After my death, whoever owns the shares will be the heir of the Qi family.
As a bastard, the winner will only exterminate the loser.
Qi Chengming studied art, while Qi Chengze studied business administration. Anyone with
a discerning eye knows who is more suitable for managing an enterprise.
Qi Chengming and I were successfully matched but did not move. He hesitated. On the one hand, I am really kind to him, but on the other hand, as long as I die, he can get the whole Qi family. He must not have thought that my father left him a strong enemy among his illegitimate children.
I chatted with Pei Zhao, and he didn’t understand what I did.
“Why do you have to do this? You could just ask Chi Cheng-ming to donate bone marrow to you.”
Do you know how Qi Chengming’s mother died? She gave birth to Qi Chengming and was thrown into the frozen river by my mother for half a morning. Although he left half his life, he died in a few years. How could he not hate me? Even if I helped him, our friendship wouldn’t be that deep.
I raised my eyebrows, and Pei Zhao took the hint and changed a light-colored eyebrow pencil.
I don’t want to say it directly. Then I owe him my life. I want him to be willing to save me. As for Qi Chengze, his mother was much smarter and knew how to contact me instead of rushing to die in front of my mother. So secretly I gave Qi Chengze a lot of money to make their mother and son rich. There is too much property in hand to be kept by one person alone. If he is willing to cooperate with me, I will give him a share. Similarly, if Qi Cheng-ming is sensible, I am also willing to give him a share.
Pei Zhao has blushed.
“But what if he is determined not to save you?”
I looked at the man in front of me, and he was so beautiful. His eyebrows and eyes were deep, his nose was high, and his earnest and attentive expression made him look like a carefully carved plaster statue.
But I love more than his face.
I love him for his stubbornness, his coldness, and his capacity for only one person.
He doesn’t love Pei Yue from beginning to end, otherwise I can’t get him easily.
I just hope I can remember me for a few more years before he realizes that I went through all the trouble to make him think he loved me.
If Qi Cheng-ming doesn’t want Qi Cheng-tse to inherit the Qi family, then he will donate bone marrow to save me, and then I will still be the decision-maker of the Qi family. But they will also get their own benefits. But if Qi Chengming really let me die regardless of any affection, then they will discover that there is only one name on my will, and that is you, Pei Zhao.
He was startled, and his lipstick was crooked, pulling out a long line at the corner of his mouth.
I took his hand. If that’s
the case, I really want to see the expressions of the two of them who are busy until the end. It must be wonderful. Who would have thought that I would leave my property to a stranger?
Pei Zhao looked at me steadily, as if across the four seasons, across countless time and space, eyes only me.
“Now you know how much I love you.”
The man’s thumb wiped the red from my lips.
I don’t want it. I have hands and feet. I can’t starve to death. It’s yours. Keep it for yourself! As
he spoke, he began to cry.
Why is it so calculated to let him give you the bone marrow! You’re his sister. You gave him his life! Without you, how could your mother have let him into the Chi family?
“Chi Yao-kuang.” Pei Zhao leaned over my lap. “You’re already so selfish. What can you do if you’re a little more selfish?”
“Where am I being selfish?”
“You asked me to be your lover.”
That’s voluntary. Your sister’s operation plus the cost of going abroad for so many years and your company will cost tens of millions of yuan. I’m losing money!
“If you don’t lose money, you won’t do business at a loss.” Pei Zhao’s tears soon wet a piece of bedding, I heard his voice is very vague. When
you give me your property, apart from thinking that they don’t deserve it, do you want me to never forget you in my life. All that I have, all that I have, is yours.
“You saw it.”
I have a guilty conscience, because I am so paranoid that I am not an ordinary neuropathy.
Pei Zhao took my hand and kissed it.
“You won.”
The doctor told me that Qi Chengming had gone to see him several times these days, and it seemed that he was going to make a match.
Qi Chengze also sent a message.
“Put a lot of pressure on him. Sister, you should be able to see good news these days.”
It’s not in vain that I’ve been planning for so long, and I’m finally going to keep the clouds open and see the moon.
“What do you want?” It took
Qi Chengze a long time to reply to my message.
“Give me some start-up capital and I’ll start my own business.”
He was really a wise man and knew that I could not give up my things from beginning to end. Before the
dust settled, I saw Pei Yue again, which almost didn’t let me survive.
“Why do I have to keep pestering my brother?”
“I’m not pestering him. Ask yourself. Is he still willing to go now?”
Pei Yue pulled the corners of her mouth disdainfully and threw me a pile of cameras wrapped in lines.
He must not know how sick you are! You are so good at psychology. Do you think my brother will fall into your trap if you do everything you can? I tell you, if he knew the truth about all this, do you think he would still sympathize with you? Do you change the concept of habit and pity into love? Is that love? That’s just a ridiculous lie of yours!
My brain suddenly jumped, and out of the corner of my eye I caught a glimpse of the door handle turning, and then Pei Zhao pushed the door and entered.
He heard it all.
He ran to me, but I couldn’t hear him.
My conscious reactions were all blunted, and my body was no longer controlled by my brain. My mind and my body are divided into two individuals, and perhaps soon my heart will no longer be able to provide kinetic energy, and then I will only be greeted by death. Complications of
leukemia, intracranial hemorrhage.
I finally looked at Pei Zhao. What was his mouth saying?
Please, please.
Please?
“Please don’t die, Chi Yao-kuang. I love you. Please don’t die!” When
the merry-go-round comes, I see a lot of things, details that have been neglected.
For example, I bought a gift for Pei Zhao, although that person has never used it, but without exception, they all bought the same women’s style soon after. He just didn’t send them out. He left them in his office.
I had seen it before, but I thought it looked familiar, so I didn’t ask.
Now that I think of it, maybe Pei Zhao was too awkward, and he was embarrassed to give it to me.
I thought with some sadness that it would be better if he didn’t love me. It would be a pity if he loved me and I died like this. I’m so close
to happiness that I’m just a little bit short of catching it.
And before the coma, I heard what he said, the words I had dreamed of for a long time.
Countless fragments played back in my mind, and then returned to darkness. When I woke up again, Qi Chengming and I were lying in the same ward.
“Sister, I almost thought you were going to die.”
I smiled at him.
“You’re going to be disappointed. I’m really tough, and God won’t accept it.”
Qi Chengming covered his face with his hands.
In fact, the operation had already been decided that afternoon, but who knew that something like that had happened. Do you know that Pei Zhao knelt down to his sister? He paused. “It’s the first time I’ve ever seen a man worry so much.”. He kept hitting himself with his sister’s hands, saying, “For his sake, don’t make things difficult for you. You really can’t stand any more stimulation.” My
throat was dry, but I still laughed happily.
“And then?”
Now Pei Zhao and his sister are completely separated. Sister, you have solved the biggest hidden danger. Then he beat me up and forced me to donate my marrow.
Qi Chengming said this and suddenly choked up.
“Sister, I was obsessed for a moment. Can you still forgive me?” The
hospital bed is not far away, and I can reach out and grab his hand.
“Why should I blame you? You are my brother no matter what.”
Qi Chengming held me back.
You have to be good, sister. Now Qi Shi is managed by Pei Zhao, and he knows you are not at ease. When you’re ready, you’ll still be Chi’s decision-maker.
I’m a little touched.
“Where did he go?”
“You should be praying to God and worshipping the Buddha at this time. Every weekend, the thunder does not move.” For a long time before the
operation, Pei Zhao and I had nothing to say. He always pressed his lips into a line. He sat stubbornly in front of the hospital bed and peeled apples with a fruit knife.
I don’t know where I heard that if the apple skin is not cut off, the patient will get better.
So Pei Zhao has been competing with Apple.
He slipped a series of Pitts and looked left and right with satisfaction. Then I peeled a small piece of apple and stuffed it into my mouth, and the rest I had to eat by myself. I ate dozens of catties in half a month. He
is obviously an atheist, but now he not only sincerely prays to God and worships Buddha. Even the apple represents safety and must be eaten up.
I laughed at him for being silly, and Pei Zhao retorted.
“You’re the fool. You can work on one person for eight years!” He said, sitting down on the edge of the bed, his eyes moist.
“Thank you for not giving up on me.” The day before the
operation, Pei Zhao went to buy a ring. My finger was too thin to wear the ring. It looked like a withered branch.
Pei Zhao wrapped the thread on the ring, and then chattered. In fact
, I felt something was wrong the day you left. I didn’t feel it when you were here. When you packed everything away, I found that my life was full of your shadow. I think of you when I drink a glass of water, I think of you when I eat a meal, and I can even see that stupid dead duck when I take a bath.
Pei Zhao stared at me and smiled.
I was thinking that you must have done it on purpose. You waited for me to come to you. You know, in fact, I’m used to it. Every time you say you want to leave, you will show up in ten days at most. So I waited and waited until you got over it. I don’t believe you are so smart that you don’t know that I have nothing to do with Pei Yue. But a month passed, two months passed and you didn’t come back. You know what I was thinking? I wonder if this woman is stuck by a wild man outside, or she really doesn’t want me. At that time, I laughed at myself about who could not live without him, until Qi Cheng-ming sent over the moon cakes.
Speaking of this, Pei Zhao could not open his mouth several times. At that moment,
I really felt that the sky was going to collapse. You said that it would be better if we were honest. Any honesty would not be like this. When Pei Yue threw the camera in front of me, I was not angry at all. I was even relieved. It turns out that someone really loves me. How can I leave her like this?
“Yao Kuang.” He touched my face. The ring was finally the right size. “Let’s get married. We won’t leave each other. We’ll live like this for the rest of our lives.”
I squeezed his hand.
“Good.”
(End)
