When I was tidying up the bedroom
for the boy I liked, I accidentally knocked over the trash can. A sticky
mess rolled out. Half wrapped in a
tissue, it doesn’t look like it’s been long. It could have been last night, it could have been this
morning.
I can’t describe the mood at that moment. When
my mother called, I was helping Lu He clean bedroom.
Since last month, Lu He put the spare key of the house in my hand. During
this period, I come here almost every day.
Although he hasn’t officially spoken yet, we seem to have a tacit understanding about this relationship
. After asking me about the trifles of my life
as usual, my mother suddenly mentioned that Zhao Yue had returned to China
. His hand, which
was wiping the bedside table, suddenly stopped at the moment he heard the name.
The next second, I quickly turned off the speakerphone. Through the crack of the unclosed door, I saw Lu He sitting on the sofa, playing quietly with his mobile phone. The expression on
his face was always calm and indifferent.
I don’t think so.
I want.
Relieved, I asked my mother in a low voice,
“Isn’t she getting married next month?”? Why did you suddenly return to your country?
“You don’t know?” At the other end, my mother seemed to hesitate for a moment and hesitated to speak.
Finally, he sighed and told me that Zhao Yue’s boyfriend cheated on her before marriage and was caught by her on the spot
, so the marriage was naturally over. Two
simple words have completely made me not calm. Although
Zhao Yue is my cousin, she is only a few months older than me.
We grew up playing together, and I felt bad when I heard my mother say that she had met this kind of thing
.
On the other hand.
Zhao Yue was the only girlfriend that Lu He had ever admitted during his college years. At that time,
I was at best a classmate who was close to Lu He. After learning that Lu He was in love with Zhao Yue, I intentionally kept a distance from them.
It’s just that every time I meet Zhao Yue at a family gathering, she always likes to talk to me about Luhe
intentionally or unintentionally.
Every time she said the most, but thanks to me, she could know such a good
boy as Luhe.
Later, I realized that she had seen my love for Luhe early in the morning, and just wanted to let me see it clearly in this
way.
This awkward way continued until graduation.
Two people because of the arrangement after graduation, Zhao Yue finally decided to go abroad for further study,
cruel to break up with Lu He.
For this reason, Luhe has been decadent for a long time.
During that time, I accompanied Lu He, watching him drunk, and then a little bit of recovery
.
Perhaps it was the company of that time that Lu He treated me a
little differently from others.
Speaking of the absurdity of Zhao Yue’s boyfriend cheating on her, my mother became more and more excited and her voice became
louder and louder.
Afraid of being heard by Lu He, I couldn’t help turning my head and looking at him through the crack of the door. Luhe is teasing the cat at the moment.
He lowered his head, his long fingers slowly along the back of the kitten,
the outline of the side face to the neck line is very superior, but there is still no expression on his face.
The kitten lay lazily beside him, half squinting, looking very enjoyable.
This eight-month-old Ragdoll was a gift I gave him when I heard the news of Zhao Yue’s engagement half a year ago and finally
summoned up the courage to confess to Lu He. He accepted my gift
that day and named the kitten Tuanzi on the spot, saying that it
was a soft and small ball like me. When he
said this, his eyes were rarely gentle, and there was a smile at the corners of his mouth, which strengthened
my courage to express my love.
Perhaps sensing what I was about to say, Lu He suddenly turned his head away from my eyes and said in a slightly heavy voice
,
“Jia Jia, wait a little longer, will you?”
My heart cooled down in an instant.
Perhaps at that time, I suddenly realized that even if Zhao Yue had a boyfriend and
was about to get married, Lu He was willing to wait for her all the time, just as I was willing to keep
him all the time.
“Chia Chia?” A reminder from my mother pulled my thoughts back. After collecting myself
, I casually replied to my mother, “Huh?” His eyes did not move away from Lu He in the living room.
He seems to be talking to someone on the phone now, with a faint smile on his lips all the time. A strong sense of crisis suddenly rose in
my heart.
Luhe’s lips suddenly moved slightly, as if he had read a name.
“Yue Yue..”
My mother was still saying something at the other end, and I was just in a daze, my forehead was
pumping, and my palms were cold. The trash can beside the
bed was suddenly tripped by a small dumpling running in. When I
went to hold the trash can, a box of Okamoto suddenly rolled out of it. It rolled out
together with a sticky mass. Half wrapped in a
tissue, it doesn’t look like it’s been long. It could have been last night, it could have been this
morning.
At that moment, I could not say what mood I was in, but I could even numbly pull
the paper towel at the head of the bed and throw the pile of things back into the trash can one by one.
My mother’s voice came from the other end of the phone:
“Yes, I wanted to ask just now. Your aunt said that Yueyue was in a bad mood and wanted to relax.
She bought a ticket to fly to you yesterday.”. It should have arrived last night. Didn’t she contact you?
Almost instantaneously, I remembered that I had made more than a dozen phone calls to Luhe last night, but
no one answered.
Until I came here today, Lu He did not have a word of explanation for me.
Everything is clear.
Zhao Yue really didn’t contact me last night. The person she contacted turned out to be Lu He.
I don’t know how I got off the phone or how I got out of the bedroom.
With Lu River’s eyes on the moment, I was stunned for a moment, the words of inquiry have not yet asked the export
, he has given the order to leave.
“I have something to do later. Chang Chia, you go back first.” The unconscious coldness in my
tone made my heart like being clenched tightly, and it was hard to
breathe.
I lowered my head and sank my fingers into the palm of my hand.
Half a year ago, after the failure of confession, I curled up in the quilt, covered my head, and told
myself again and again that it was time to put it down. When I
woke up, I worked and lived step by step every day, but never looked for
him again.
Until two months ago, I almost got lost in the mountains. The moment he found me, Luhe hugged me tightly for the first time.
His hot breath fell on my neck and he called my name eagerly, “Chang Chia, Chia
Chia..”
I could feel his worry, and his body was trembling slightly. After
that, our relationship grew by leaps and bounds. He even gave me a spare key
to his house.
I thought, this time, I could finally get what I wanted.
Unexpectedly, Zhao Yue broke up with her boyfriend. The
person who gets what he wants is Lu He.
Now, Luhe has returned to his former appearance of refusing me thousands of miles away.
It seems that these two months of tenderness and ambiguity are all my own illusions. The sound of the door lock turning
outside brought me back to reality.
Zhao Yue stood in the doorway, looking at us with complicated eyes. There was a look of embarrassment in
her eyes, as well as a sense of guilt and pity.
It makes me feel like there is a stuffy air stuck in my chest, sticky and heavy, and I can’t breathe. Zhao Yue saw me, looked at Lu He again, hesitated for a second, and immediately explained that she had come in a hurry last night
, and that Lu He had kindly taken her in.
When she came here, she accidentally left something in the guest room last night. When
saying this, Chao Yue deliberately emphasized the word “guest room.”.
After a while, Lu said, “OK, I’ll give it to you.”
I listened to their clumsy speech in silence and pulled my lips stiffly. As soon as
his eyes turned, he saw the familiar keys in Zhao Yue’s hand. There was a sudden buzz in
my head.
It seems that even this, I am not the only one.
Lu He soon came out of the room with a bag. When
Zhao Yue reached for the bag, Lu He suddenly grasped her wrist.
“Didn’t the doctor say that the symptoms were very mild? Why hasn’t the allergy been cured?” He frowned
, but his tone was soft.
This kind of soft voice is considerate, even in the most ambiguous two months with me, Lu He
has not given me.
Zhao Yue’s wrist is very white, long some red rash, very small, almost no trace.
She raised her eyebrows slightly and smiled at Lu: “It’s almost all right. The swelling is gone.” Lu Ho stares at her, finally loosening his tight lip liner. “That’s all right.” The
two men stood in the living room and talked as if no one was watching.
Let me have a slight trance for a moment. When
Lu He faced her, he seemed to be like this all the time. Every word
, every look, with warm affection, with the perfunctory to me is completely
different.
Later, when they broke up, Luhe pretended that he had put it down, but refused to be approached
by anyone.
Now, the two are reunited.
Lu River can finally unload layers of camouflage, almost deliberately, strong to let Zhao Yue know
that he does not want to lose her again.
At that moment, I clearly felt a kind of jealousy that scratched my heart.
At this time, the dumpling rubbed against my feet and began to act like a spoiled child crazily. It should be hungry. The two men were still talking
until I found the cat food and fed the dumplings. I
don’t want to stay here anymore. Embarrassed to watch them catch up, I packed up my things and prepared
to leave quickly. When
I got to the door, I thought about it, took out the spare key in my pocket and put it on the cabinet beside
the door. There are some things I don’t want to hear him say. It’s too embarrassing. “Chao Yue is allergic to cat hair,” Lu Ho’s voice suddenly heard
behind him.
I turned to look at him, not knowing what he meant.
Lu He just raised his eyes a little, and his tone was faint, but there was no doubt about it:
“Take the dumplings with you.” There was a momentary stillness in the
atmosphere.
I opened my mouth, but I didn’t know what to say. I just stared at Lu
River unconsciously.
Originally, sad to the extreme, but can not even cry out.
“Chia-chia, don’t get me wrong.”
My hand was suddenly grasped, and the temperature from my palm made me wake up. I don’t know when
Zhao Yue came to me.
She patted me soothingly on the back of my hand. Her tone was low, but very gentle
. Just now Lu He said that I was new here, and I had no place to stay, and it was not safe to stay in a hotel
alone, so he let me stay with him for a few days first. When I go back after I have had a rest, he will
take the dumplings back. As she spoke, she turned to look at Lu He and curled her lips. “I didn’t expect that after all these years
, he would still be so sweet.”
I looked at her, and when I reacted, I suddenly felt a little funny.
If there is anyone in the world who will stab me in the heart, it must be Zhao Yue.
Although she knew she was innocent and had no intention.
I think it was unintentional.
I still remember that at that time, Lu He was famous for his coldness in the department. He had a good family and looked
better, but he was too indifferent and alienated to be approached at will.
I was able to get familiar with Lu He, largely because the laboratory was assigned to a group.
During that time, I was very busy every day. Zhao Yue was very distressed to see me go out early and come back late. He came to the laboratory almost every
day to give me nutritional soup.
Slowly, Lu He and Zhao Yue began to intersect, and the nutritional soup gradually changed from one to
two.
Later, when they were together, Zhao Yue joked that he didn’t want to snub me and liked to
call me for everything. After being rejected by
me many times, Zhao Yue stopped mentioning it.
Once I was working late in the lab, and somehow I went out to dinner with them
. At that time, I was chatting with Zhao Yue, and I didn’t notice that Lu He ordered three Noodles in Scallion, Oil and Soy Sauce.
Zhao Yue likes to eat noodles, but she doesn’t like to eat onions.
She frowned invisibly, but said nothing. She picked up her chopsticks and sucked the noodles in small
bites.
Like a person, always subconsciously pay attention to her every move, Luhe is no exception.
He noticed that Zhao Yue seemed to be deliberately avoiding the scallion, sank his eyebrows, and suddenly pulled out a
toilet paper pad on the table.
Under Zhao Yue’s surprised eyes, she picked out all the scallions in her bowl one by one
. Having done all
this, Lu looked at Zhao Yue, who was still wide-eyed. He softened his eyebrows and
smiled: “Now you can eat.”
At that time, Chao Yue used the same tone. In the middle of the meal, he blushed and
whispered to me, “Chia-chia, Lu He is so sweet.”
I did not speak, looking at the bowl of noodles in front of Zhao Yue, some trance. After
that, Lu He often asked me about Zhao Yue’s preferences in private. I said everything I knew and
played a good assistant, but I never went out with them again.
Thoughts are pulled back to the present.
I pulled back my hand, pressed the bitterness in my heart, lifted my feet and went straight to the sundry room. After tidying up some of the daily necessities of the dumplings, I picked up the dumplings
stretching on the sofa without looking at Luhe during the whole process. When I passed Zhao Yue
again, I paused and pulled my lips slightly:
“Lu He has never been a considerate person, but the object is you.” On the way
back, it began to rain. Fortunately, I live very close to Luhe’s home, about
ten minutes away. When I got
home and took a bath, I also took a bath for Tuanzi. It was almost ten o’clock.
Chao Yue sent me a WeChat:
“Chia-chia, when I came back this time, I really didn’t want to rob Luhe with you.”
I thought about it for a while and finally replied, “But you slept last night, didn’t
you?” There
‘s no reply from there.
Looking at the screen of my mobile phone that was about to go out, I suddenly thought of something. A few days
ago, my best friend came to my place on a business trip, and Lu He and I invited her to dinner.
While waiting for the food to be served, my best friend’s eyes kept wandering back and forth on me and Lu He.
I felt a little uncomfortable and looked up at Lu River subconsciously. Luhe’s eyes remained unchanged, and he naturally took my hand, wrapped it in the palm of his hand, and rubbed it gently
.
It’s like an admission, or rather, a declaration.
The warmth spread along my hand, making my whole heart crisp and hot. It was not
until the waiter served all the dishes that I recovered a little.
Then I heard my best friend discussing with the waiter, saying that she accidentally ordered a wrong dish, her
friend did not eat onions, and then asked the waiter if she could change the chicken with scallion oil.
I was stunned for a few seconds and raised my eyes to collide with Luhe’s eyes.
Seeing the flash of surprise in his eyes, I lowered my head and felt that I
was in a mess at this time.
Probably I am really not important in his heart, otherwise why so long, Lu He also
did not find, I and Zhao Yue, do not like to eat onions.
Should have thought this through.
…… After a
while, I turned on the computer and prepared to find a house to move.
Half a year ago, I came to this city because of job transfer.
Apart from Lu He, I have no acquaintances here. He helped me find a house at that time. He said it was his little uncle’s vacant house and no one lived in it.
Lu He’s uncle, Shen Xianzhi, graduated from a famous foreign university with a master’s degree in finance and business administration
, but he is only three years older than Lu He.
Speaking of which, I met him once.
At Luhe’s birthday party, I failed to confess, and I could feel the sarcastic and sympathetic eyes of the people
present without looking up.
When I was embarrassed, only Shen Xianzhi in the corner gave me a friendly smile
. Not thinking long
at that time, I decided to live here, and asked Luhe for Shen Xianzhi
‘s WeChat, according to the market price, to transfer rent to him on time every month.
In addition, I have no other connection with Shen Xianzhi.
Staring at the screen, I don’t know how long, I found a few places with good location, added
the contact information of the intermediary, and gradually felt a little dazed. He rubbed his temples with
difficulty, and his vision began to blur.
Later, I simply turned off the computer, completely collapsed on the sofa, the whole person can not lift any
strength. It’s
probably because of the rain today. In
a daze, it seemed that someone was approaching. Then there was a cold touch on his forehead. When I woke up
again, I was lying on the bed in my bedroom, and it was already bright.
The fever seems to be gone, and the consciousness is very clear.
Staring at the ceiling for a moment, I turned my head and picked up the mobile phone beside the bed.
Dozens of unread WeChat and missed calls poured in.
Colleagues, girlfriends, real estate agents, and even Zhao Yue sent me
a “sorry” last night.
Only there is no Luhe.
Click on the chat interface with him, and the time stops two days ago.
I said that there was a love movie released recently, which had a good reputation and was very suitable for couples to watch. I asked
him if he would go at night. Without hesitation,
he replied, “OK, I’ll buy a ticket.”
As a result, Zhao Yue came over that night, and Lu He stood me up without hesitation.
I waited for him for a long time in the cinema, sent countless WeChat and made countless phone calls,
all of which were like sinking into the sea without any response.
Forcing myself to stop thinking, I lifted the quilt, got out of bed and went to the bathroom to wash. When I went downstairs and passed the kitchen, I saw a tall and straight figure.
The casserole rumbled and steamed, a few live raw
shrimps were placed on the chopping board, and the seafood porridge teaching of the food blogger came out of his mobile phone receiver.
The man stood motionless, looking a little helpless.
After a while, he had a reaction and began
to cook porridge step by step according to the food blogger’s teaching.
I noticed that in the video, when the blogger mentioned adding onions, he didn’t know if he didn’t hear it and
skipped the step. When I finally
found out that I was looking at him, the man turned his head slowly and met my eyes
.
“Chang Chia?”
I just recognized that it was Shen Xianzhi.
Shen Hsien-chih turned off the screen of his cell phone without a change of color, and his lips were filled with a smile.
“Your fever has just subsided. If you want to eat something light, go and sit on the sofa for a while. The porridge will be ready soon
.”
I nodded subconsciously and said “yes.”.
As soon as he turned around, he stopped him again.
“Yes, there is one thing I want to ask you for advice.” I slanted my head slightly. “Huh?”
“Our company has invested in a new project here, so I may come back to live for a
while.”
He paused and slowed his voice. “I came back
early last night without telling you. I’m sorry.”
I stared into his eyes and vaguely remembered the image of him carrying me back to the bedroom from the sofa, pouring water for me
, feeding me medicine, and almost taking care of me all night last night. There is a slight complication in
my heart.
In fact, apart from that encounter, Lu He seldom mentioned this little uncle
to me before, and occasionally mentioned it only in a few words.
I really didn’t think he was quite..
Helpful?
Seeing that I didn’t speak, Shen Xian-zhi’s eyes moved slightly. With one hand in his trouser pocket and the other hanging naturally
by his side, he said softly,
“I live here. Will it bother you?” “
If it’s not convenient for you, I can find
another house.”
I was slightly stunned. He immediately remembered that he was going to move out in a few days anyway, and said, “This is your house
, so I won’t bother you.”
……
Shen Xianzhi was still cooking porridge in the kitchen. I was so bored that I took out my mobile phone to brush the circle of friends.
The first one was sent by Zhao Yuegang not long ago.
The picture is a picture in the cinema. The man in the
photo was dressed in a black suit, with his head hanging slightly, showing only half of his
side face.
But I recognized him as Luhe at a glance. The movie
they saw today was the one that I was broken by Lu He last time.
Zhao Yue just caught the last subtitle at the end of the film: “For all
the lovers in the world.”. Unconsciously
, I have opened the chat interface with Lu He.
Click into the input box until the screen is almost black, and no word is typed. It seems that
I am not even qualified to question. Suddenly, the chat box shows that the other party is typing.
A heart suddenly hung in his throat.
The other side quickly sent a message:
“Tuanzi still has some things here. When will you be free to come and get them?”
The heart seemed to be splashed with a basin of cold water, completely cold down.
I pulled the corners of my lips, not knowing what I was expecting at this moment. About
to reply, Shen Xianzhi came out of the kitchen with a black casserole.
“The porridge is ready. Come and have a taste.”
I unconsciously turned off my cell phone and walked towards him.
Shen Xianzhi is holding a spoon to fill the porridge. The seafood porridge that
had just come out of the pot was full of heat. He first stirred it slowly, and then put it out little
by little in a bowl. After
filling up a bowl and handing it to me, Shen sat down opposite me and frankly spread out his hands.
“As you’ve just seen, this is the first time I’ve cooked seafood porridge. If it doesn’t
taste good, just say so. I’ll improve it next time.”
Next time? I held the spoon in my hand for a few seconds, then scooped up a spoonful and tasted it. I looked up
and gave him a sincere smile. “It tastes good.” He curled his lips
slightly. “I feel the same way.”
During this period, Shen Xianzhi answered a phone call, saying that he would go back to the company first, and that he might come back very late
in the evening, so he told me not to wait for him to have dinner. After
he left, I sat in my seat and pondered his words, and finally told myself not to think too much
.
After the porridge, my mother called me and told me that Zhao Yue told her mother that she was not
going back and would settle down here. I
was stunned for a few seconds before I realized the true
meaning of the “I’m sorry” Zhao Yue sent me last night.
After thinking about it, I told my mother that I was going to move.
My mother was silent for a long time before she asked cautiously, “Did you break up
with Lu He?”
I was stunned. Lu He and
I have never been together, so how can we break up.
“It’s good to break up.”
My mother sighed, and her voice seemed to drift a little across the screen of her mobile phone. Luhe’s child is in good condition, but he’s too arrogant and used to being taken
care of. Mom has seen how you’ve been getting along all these years.
“Last time Mom came to see you, you happened to be out playing with Lu Ho that day, and Mom was waiting for you at the door
.”
Mom saw him bring you back. It was very late, and you were so afraid of the dark, but
he went all out and left you behind for a long time. He didn’t
notice it at all, and he didn’t look back once.
“Do you know how upset Mom was when she saw it?”
My throat tightened. “Mom..” When you called Mom
the other day, were you helping him clean up the house? Don’t think
Mom doesn’t know anything.. As
she said this, there was already a trace of sob in my mother’s voice:
“Mom would like to have someone to take care of you.”
In the afternoon, I made an appointment with the real estate agent to see the house under the scorching sun, but
I was not satisfied with several of them. There was a traffic jam on the way
back. The driver was urged by me to find a shortcut, but he didn’t get back to the community until about eleven o
‘clock.
It was already dark, and the mobile phone was running out of power. The high-heeled shoes on my feet made my heels hurt, but I ignored the pain and clenched my fingers
. I just wanted to go back quickly.
I didn’t expect to see Lu He and Zhao Yue at the corner.
They were dressed in sportswear and seemed to have just finished running together.
Luhe held a cigarette between his fingers and smoked carelessly.
Zhao Yue said something beside him and laughed happily.
Suddenly, Zhao Yue squatted down, as if his shoelaces were untied and he was tying them.
Lu He walked a few steps without seeing her follow, stopped to wait for her, and walked side by side with her. The
dim light stretched the figures of the two people very long, intertwined, quite a sense of quiet years
.
I stood there and watched them walk away step by step.
Like, step by step out of my world. There was a
“click”. Something
seems to tear and collapse a little bit in my heart, and then reorganize
and heal a little bit.
And finally become sprezzatura.
At this moment, I seem to have no feeling for Luhe. It was half past eleven when
I got home, and the light in the living room was still on.
Shen Xianzhi, dressed in a gray home dress, sat on the sofa and tapped on the computer intently. When he heard the
noise, he turned his head slightly and looked at the door. “Are you back?” I was stunned by
this familiar and relaxed tone.
I looked at him for a moment, then hesitantly asked, “Are you waiting for me?”
He closed the computer and stood up, which was an indirect admission: “Now that you’re back, I
‘ll go upstairs and sleep.”
I looked at his back and lowered my head to meditate. For the
next few days, because it was a working day, I could only use the time after work to see the house
.
But no matter how late, Shen Xianzhi will wait for me in the living room.
Several times when it was too late, he directly asked me to send him the location and then drove to
pick me up.
Once I came back by Shen Xianzhi’s car, I hesitated again and again, but I told
him about moving.
He stepped on the brake directly. After a while, he said with a serious look on his face, “Next time I’ll go with you to see
the house. You’re not safe as a girl.”
I can’t help suspecting that he has other thoughts for me.
But why?
Just by that side?
What’s more, he is Luhe’s little uncle.
On Friday, I finally took a fancy to a house that was closest to the company and had a good environment, and
waited for the weekend to sign the contract. On the way
back, Shen Xianzhi and I were a little silent. After taking a bath
at night, I went to the kitchen to cut fruit. I was a little distracted and accidentally
cut my finger.
Suddenly, there was a low cry of pain, and blood beads gushed out from the tip of the forefinger.
Shen Xianzhi hurried over, took a look at my hand, frowned slightly, and then released
my hand.
Soon, he turned around again, holding ointment and Band-Aid in his hand, and lowered his head to help me treat
the wound.
His fingers were cold and the ointment was cold, but when he touched my fingertips, it was hot for no reason
. When it was done, I quickly pulled my hand back and said, “I’m going to blow my hair.” He
almost ran away. Sitting on the sofa
with a hair dryer, just as he was about to blow his hair, Shen Xianzhi
‘s low voice came from behind him, “I’ll do it.”
He took the hair dryer in one hand, and the other one was already in my hair, stirring
gently. The
warm wind blew my scalp, and his fingers carelessly brushed my ears and neck.
“Is it comfortable?” His voice was hoarse at the moment.
I shivered and stood up at once, blushing completely.
The hair dryer was hit on the floor and was still humming.
I squatted down to pick up, just Shen Xianzhi also squatted down, caught off guard four eyes. The sound of unlocking the access card came from
outside the door.
I turned my head.
Luhe stared at us in silence, his face extremely cold.
Looking at the obscure mood of Luhe’s eyes, I was slightly absent. Is he angry? After a long
delay, I avoided his sight and reached out to pick up the hair dryer on the ground.
Just as I was about to stand up, I probably squatted too long and my feet were a little sore and numb. I frowned.
Suddenly, a big hand took my arm and pulled me back onto the sofa
with a slight force.
I turned to see Shen Xianzhi.
He was sitting next to me, staring at Lu He. His face made people unable to see his emotions. “It’s so late
. What are you doing here, looking for Chia-chia?”
Lu He looked at him with a cold expression and his thin lips pressed together. “Why
didn’t you tell me when you came back?” “I’m sorry, I forgot,” said
Shen Xianzhi in a mild tone.
Luhe’s face was even worse. He clenched his fist and walked directly in front of me. He stared at
me for a long time before he said,
“Why haven’t you replied to my message?”
I was stunned, and then I remembered the WeChat he sent last time, saying that I should go to his place to get
the dumplings. Didn’t
I reply at that time? Busy with work and looking for a house these days, I came home to study cooking
with Shen Xianzhi, as if I hadn’t contacted him on my own initiative for a long time. After a moment of
silence, I looked up at him and said, “I’m sorry, I forgot.” As soon as the
voice fell, a muffled laugh came from the side. I
turned my head and saw Shen Xianzhi standing up. His tone was relaxed, and I could see that he was in a
good mood. “You talk, and I’ll go upstairs and get something.” Not long after
Shen Xianzhi walked, Lu He took out something from his trousers pocket and put it on the table.
“This is what Tuanzi likes best. You forgot to take it last time.”
I looked at the bell on the table and lowered my eyes.
This cat bell is the last time I went to the amusement park with Lu He, and he won the prize by playing games.
That’s why I didn’t take it.
I asked calmly, “Did you come here tonight just to give this bell?”
Lu He was silent.
Tuanzi just came down from upstairs.
When he saw Luhe, he meowed, walked quickly to his side, and rubbed
his calf intimately. Lu He picked up the dumpling and sat on the sofa together, put the dumpling on his knee and
rubbed its hair.
After a while he said, “You see, Tuanzi misses me very much.”
The tone was light, as if it meant something, and as if it meant nothing else.
But I didn’t want to guess any more, so I came straight to the point and asked him, “Did Chao Yue
know that you came to see me?”
Lu Ho frowned. “What does it matter to her?”
I reminded him, “Isn’t she afraid to stay at your house alone so late?”
Lu Ho was slightly stupefied, as if thinking of something, and raised his eyebrows slightly. “You’ve been ignoring
me these days because of this?”
I looked at him in silence.
He put down the dumpling and tried to hold my hand, but I dodged.
Seeing that I was so resistant, his eyes darkened and his voice was low and hoarse
: “Jia Jia, Zhao Yue has suffered a great blow and cannot leave me for the time being. That’s why I
let her live in my house.”. I’m just trying to take better care of her, that’s all.
I just thought it was funny. I stared into his eyes and said, “Are you taking care of the bed
?”
Luhe’s face was white.
Back in my room, I buried my face under my pillow and tried to calm down. In
his mind, however, he kept recalling what Lu He had just said uncontrollably, lingering
.
He said that Zhao Yue found him that night and cried about her fiance’s betrayal of her. He drank a lot with
Zhao Yue. That night,
he said, was an accident. A
sudden knock on the door interrupted my thoughts.
Opening the door, Shen Xianzhi leaned against the wall, holding a bottle of red wine in his hand.
I froze for a moment and asked softly, “Is Luhe gone?”
Shen Hsien-chih shook his head. “Suddenly there was a rainstorm, so I let him stay here first.”
I nodded.
Before long, I heard him ask,
“I have something to talk to you about.”. May I come in?
Seeing the bottle of red wine in his hand, my heart suddenly trembled, and I didn’t know where
to put my eyes for a moment. At
a glance, he saw Lu River standing behind him not far away. He was staring at us with an expressionless face.
For a moment, the atmosphere was slightly delicate.
“Come in.” I heard myself say. As soon as
I closed the door, I turned around and saw that Shen Xianzhi had sat down by himself, poured himself a
glass of wine, and took a sip slowly.
I didn’t speak, and he didn’t open his mouth.
After a while, he poured half a glass of red wine into another empty glass. Then he turned to
look at me and said slowly, “Do you want to drink?”
I looked up at him.
These days, because I am too busy, the spirit is always a little tired, can not play hard. When
Shen Xianzhi noticed it, he would accompany me to drink some red wine every night before going to bed, saying that it could relieve
fatigue and promote sleep.
So when he knocked on the door with red wine just now, I didn’t think there was anything wrong.
But now..
I don’t know if it’s my illusion, but he seems to be different from the past. The way
he looked at me, there was a kind of obscure complexity. With my heart beating faster, I walked slowly over and took a
sip of the wine in his hand.
“I’m going to sign the contract at ten o’clock tomorrow morning.”
I squeezed the cup in my hand and said in a low voice,
“You, didn’t you say a few days ago that a client had asked you to talk about business on the weekend, so you didn’t have to drive
me..” I’ll pack up my things tonight, and I’ll be able to move out
tomorrow afternoon.
“You are very nervous now.” Shen Xianzhi suddenly opened his mouth.
I froze for a moment and turned to look at him.
Shen Hsien-chih stared at me, his face moving closer. “Is it because of me?”
I looked into his eyes and my mind went blank for a moment. He
opened his mouth and was about to open his mouth when a familiar voice
came out of the door at an inopportune time.
“Chia Chia.”
It’s Luhe.
I sprang to my feet.
But in the next second, Shen Xianzhi held his hand. He also stood up, put his other hand on my waist, and hugged me slowly from behind.
Hot and humid breath floating in the ear, with a thin wine, do not want to know that my
ears must be red.
I stiffened and heard him whisper,
“Chia-chia, fall in love with me.”
I told Shen Xianzhi that I wanted to think about it.
Shen Xianzhi’s kindness to me is in my eyes.
He remembered that I didn’t like onions and knew that I was afraid of the dark, so he would leave a light for me.
His gentleness and consideration permeated almost every detail of my life, making it impossible for me to avoid
and refuse. In the
past, when I was around Luhe, I was used to being wronged and catering to him, humbly and carefully
trying to figure out his mood, as if breathing was given by him, and I was seldom cared for and cared for like this
.
And because of that, it makes me feel so unreal. There was a moment of disappointment in
Shen Hsien-chih’s eyes, but he quickly mediated and smiled. “At
least it wasn’t an immediate refusal.”
I pursed my lips with a smile. When he came out with Shen Xianzhi, he happened to see Lu He standing outside the door.
His eyes wandered over my face for a moment, and my lip line suddenly tightened.
“It took so long to open the door. What did you just do in there?” The tone of
questioning made me uncomfortable, but I didn’t want to explain anything to him.
“Do you feel guilty if you don’t speak?”
I lowered my face and didn’t want to say much to him. I looked at him and said, “Let’s go
downstairs.”
Shen Xianzhi nodded and looked at Lu He. “Excuse me,” he said.
Luhe stared at him, motionless.
I noticed that his hands were now clenched into fists, and the veins were bulging, as if he were holding back something
.
He frowned and stood in front of Shen. “Lu He, what are you doing?”
Lu Ho’s breath sank, and for a long time he gritted his teeth and said,
“Chang Chia, just because I made a mistake, are you going to find another man
?” As he
spoke, he paused for a moment and then suddenly sneered, “Still, you’ve been
with him since you moved here half a year ago.” “Bang.” An
unexpected punch, hard and accurate.
Lu He stepped back directly and almost stumbled to fall. Before
he could stand firm, Shen Xianzhi punched him again. The corner
of Luhe’s lips soon spilled a trace of blood.
He looked at Shen Xianzhi coldly, pulled the corners of his mouth, and then turned his face to look at me, his eyes were
obscure.
In the past, when I saw him show such a look, I would be distressed and even
fall into self-reproach.
Now it’s surprisingly calm.
“Lu He, I don’t understand why you’re so angry now. Even if I’m really
with Shen Xianzhi, you’re not qualified to question me.”
I took a deep breath. “We had nothing to do with each other all along,
did we?”
Yes.
He has never opened his mouth, nor has he ever admitted my relationship with him, so how can he change his mind
?
Lu He froze and his face turned a little white. Before he left, he looked steadily at Shen Xianzhi, and his voice could not hear his emotions. “You’ve been thinking about her for a long time
, haven’t you?”
Shen Hsien-chih didn’t answer. In front of Lu He, he held out his hand to me. His tone was naturally
innocent.
“My hand hurts.”
…… I packed all the necessities I
wanted to bring into my suitcase and was about to zip them up when
Shen Xianzhi stopped me.
“And this.”
He stuffed a large bag of medical supplies into it and said gently, “You’ve been in a daze since you were a child
, and you’re vulnerable to injury. These things are essential.”
I nodded and suddenly realized something was wrong. “From childhood?”
Shen Hsien-chih paused with his fingers and suddenly stood up. “I still have some work to do.”
I watched him leave and raised my eyebrows slightly.
When I was almost finished, the agent called and said that there was something wrong
with the house and asked me if I could move there next weekend.
I thought about it and said yes. He
went downstairs to pour a cup of warm water to drink, but saw Shen Xianzhi sitting on the sofa tapping on the computer. I walked up to him, probably glanced at him, and felt that the plan on the screen looked
familiar, as if it was the one he had been working on for the past few days.
I asked, “Isn’t this plan already done?”
Shen Hsien-chih is tapping on the keyboard with his fingers bent, and his jaw line is tight and smooth. “I’ve added a few
more creative points.”
I stared at the side of his face, casually said “Oh”, and heard him say,
“So when I show it to the client tomorrow, I’ll have a better chance of passing. Maybe we can
finish early and come back.
Shen Xianzhi slanted his head to meet my line of sight and bent his lips.
“I don’t trust you to move alone tomorrow afternoon.”
I was stunned.
The heart seemed to be scratched by something, and the itching spread and trembled layer by
layer. As I
looked into his eyes, I remembered something: “I’ll move next weekend.”
Shen Hsien-chih was visibly stupefied for a moment, his eyes burning. “Really?”
I felt my face and ears burn, and I turned my head away from his eyes. There’s been a bit of a problem with the agency
.
His eyes were full of joy. “That’s too bad.” The next day, Shen Xianzhi went to see the client and probably came back in the afternoon.
Before he left, he uneasily reconfirmed, “Are we really not moving today?”
I nodded in amusement. “I told the agency last night.”
Shen Xianzhi stared at me for a while, his voice a little hoarse. “Wait for me to come back.”
I lowered my head, my face burning for no reason, and gave a gentle “hmm.”. I called my mother
at noon.
She thought I was still sad for Luhe, and her voice was very soft, as if she was afraid of stimulating my
mood.
I had some helplessness and repeatedly said that I had put it down, but she just didn’t believe it, and finally she
said she wanted to introduce me to someone.
I stroked my forehead and was about to refuse when she hung up and sent me a
person’s business card.
Have to say.
It looks familiar. It looks
really familiar.
I sent a screenshot of my chat with my mother to Shen Xianzhi, who was silent for ten
minutes.
Me: “Explain?”
The dialog box keeps showing that the other party is typing.
I
Shen Hsien-chih slowly typed a line of words: “Why don’t I come back and tell you face to face?”
I agreed. At about six o’clock
in the afternoon, Shen Xianzhi came back.
He did not seem to be disturbed by the noon, his expression was very calm, and the moment
he met my eyes, he smiled at me.
“Have you eaten?” I asked.
He sighed slightly, and his tone sounded a little aggrieved. “I’ve been too busy. I haven’t
eaten all day.”
I frowned and turned to the kitchen. “I’ll cook a simple bowl of noodles for you to fill your
stomach.” The
wrist was suddenly pulled, and Shen Xianzhi leaned over and lowered his head to look at me with burning eyes.
“I lied to you. I ate it.” Facing his line of sight, my whole face seemed to burn up, and the hot temperature spread
to the bottom of my heart.
“That..” It took him
a long time to find his own voice, and he quickly changed the subject: “How do you know my
mother?”
He hesitated. “Probably when I was very young.”
I looked at him suspiciously.
Shen Hsien-chih’s lips curved. “Actually, you’ve known me
for a long time.”
Probably seeing that I was staring at him like a fool, Shen Xianzhi rubbed the palm of my hand
and finally told me.
“When we were young, our two families lived very close to each other, and my mother and your mother went to high school together, so we
had frequent contacts.” I was very impressed with you
at that time. Because my mother often lets me take you out to play.
Once I didn’t pay attention to the time and didn’t go back until it was dark. I still remember that you held my hand tightly
and trembled a little, but you were very stubborn. Tears were about to fall down and you
didn’t say anything. It was only then that I realized that you were afraid of the dark. I felt a
sudden tremor in my heart. In
my impression, it seems that there is a neighbor who has a good relationship with our family, but at that time I was too young to remember the specific things.
Then we moved, and the two families were cut off. It wasn’t until a year ago, when my mother went to a high school reunion, that they got in touch again. Somehow
, my mother pushed my WeChat to your mother, and my aunt would sometimes send pictures of you in the circle of friends, and occasionally chat with me and mention a few things about you. Now that I think about it, it was probably to set us up.
Finally, Shen Xianzhi looked into my eyes, his tone low, but very serious.
“Chia-chia, what Lu He said last night was right. I’ve been thinking about you for a long time.”
I stared at him in a daze, and something seemed to come out of my heart. Before
I could react, Shen Xianzhi put his arms around my waist and rubbed his fingers around my waist. The warm breath fell on my ear, “Jiajia, don’t move away, okay..”
I was instantly electrified, my whole body was numb, and my heart beat so fast that it almost burst. He clenched his
shirt helplessly, moved his lips to say something, and Zhao Yue suddenly called me. The
ambiguous atmosphere came to an abrupt end.
Zhao Yue said that Luhe came back from the rain last night, drank all night, and had a high fever at noon, which also caused stomachache. He refused to take the medicine and kept saying my name.
She sobbed quietly on the phone, “Jiajia, I really can’t help it. Can you
..” Have you come to see him?
I turned to look at Shen Xianzhi.
He took my hand and said, “I’ll go with you.”
When they arrived at Lu He’s home, Shen Xianzhi did not come in. “Let’s have a good chat.”
I looked at him for a moment and promised, “I’ll be right out.”
He smiled. “Okay.” When I
walked into the bedroom, I happened to collide with Lu He’s eyes.
He looked very tired, his lips were pale, his forehead oozed fine beads of sweat, and his face became more and more
pale and weak.
I pursed my lips. “Why won’t you take the medicine?”
Lu He was silent for a while, and his voice spoke with difficulty. “I’m sorry.”
I looked at him and said nothing.
“What I said last night was really a jerk. I’m sorry.” “Okay, I accept your apology.” I said softly, “Take the medicine quickly. Chao Yue
is very worried about you.”
“What about you?” Lu He looked straight at me. “Are you worried about me?”
I sighed and turned around. “I’ll go first.”
“Chia Chia.” “I used to think I was in love with
Chao Yue, but now I realize it’s just that I was unwilling when I was young.”
“Mingming, it’s always been you by my side.”
His voice was so low that it was indescribable. He said almost word for word,
“Chia-chia, I love you.”
“But I don’t love you anymore.”
I looked into his eyes and his voice was calm. “Luhe, no one will stay
here forever waiting for you.”
……
I didn’t expect Zhao Yue to stand at the door of the bedroom.
Her face was pale and haggard, and her eyes were swollen. I think she heard my conversation
with Lu He. “Chia Chia.” Her voice was hoarse and full of exhaustion. “After all, you
won.”
I looked at her in silence.
Chao Yueh lowered his eyes.
“Last night when Lu He came back, he drank one cup after another in silence. No matter
how much I tried to persuade him, it was useless.”
Then I tried to help him to bed, but he pushed me away. I will never forget
the look in his eyes at that time, full of disgust, without a trace of affection. Do you know what he told me
?
She paused and pulled her lips in self-deprecation. “He said with red eyes that it was
like that night. He can’t repeat the same mistakes. You will not have him.”
A week passed quickly.
Zhao Yue has moved out of Luhe’s home, and Luhe has not come to my home to look for
me.
Only occasionally when he came back from buying vegetables with Shen Xianzhi, he always happened to see him in the garden
of the community he had to pass through.
As for whether it happened.
I don’t want to go into it anymore. On Friday, Shen Xianzhi said that it was not good to stay at home all the time and that he would take me to exercise. When he
arrived, he knew that his so-called sport was bungee jumping. As I
looked at him, I could probably guess what he had brought me here for.
The person in charge quickly helped us with a series of safety measures and guided us with some
professional movements of bungee jumping.
“Are you afraid?” Shen Xianzhi asked.
I smiled. “I’m not afraid.” At the moment of
jumping, the brain seemed to be emptied and the heart stopped beating.
Those who thought it was very important, those who thought they could not let go of their obsession for a lifetime,
all disappeared with the roar and scream.
At that moment, the mind is very clear, unexpectedly is the second to jump down, Shen Xianzhi
with a gentle smile of encouragement. It was nine o’clock in the evening when
I got home. After washing,
I lay on the bed, picked up my mobile phone and called the agent to tell him that I would not move
. For compensation, I did not ask him to refund the deposit.
Then he sent Shen Xianzhi a WeChat and told him about it.
Soon there was a knock at the door. Opening the door, Shen Xianzhi looked at me quietly.
He should have just taken a shower, and his hair and eyes were wet.
After a while, his Adam’s apple rolled and his voice was slightly hoarse. “Have you thought it over?”
I looked at him and understood that he was asking about the last time I said I would consider being with him.
“Well, think about it.”
Shen Xianzhi asked in a low voice, “Then you and Lu He..” “I’m not going to have anything to do with him anymore,”
I said with certainty. The corners of
his lips curved, as if he were remembering something again. “That’s not
going to work either,” he said in all seriousness.
I was stunned for a moment, and I couldn’t help laughing.
Alright.
The little aunt is the little aunt.
