Hai Lanzhu:
I called Mu Ren, the name of my short-lived husband, when he was in love with you.
I did it on purpose. It’s really cool. “Are you annoyed?”
I said after hooking him around the neck in a defiant manner. Naturally,
he was annoyed and vented his anger on action, which made me so exhausted that I couldn’t say a complete word. “What are you doing, Hai Lanzhu?”
He pressed my head with brute force? All these days, you’ve been resisting me and driving me far away because you think of him.
I clenched my teeth and did not speak. When it was
over, he threw away my limp body and pinched my slightly open mouth. “Hai Lanzhu, you can’t talk nonsense. You have to bear the consequences.”
“What are the consequences?” I bent over the edge of the bed and gently rubbed the bruises on my waist.
“You wait.” He smiled darkly. “Just wait. You won’t be disappointed.” Of course,
the emperors of the Qing Dynasty never let people down.
Three days later, Huang Taiji told me with practical actions how he made me look good.
He gave Mu Ren’s only relative, his sister, who was in bud, to the lowest slave on the Mongolian grassland, and he was humiliated forever.
When I heard this, I bit my lips, and my mouth was full of blood. If
he can use me as a stand-in, why can’t I call out my dead beau.
So that night, I broke into Wensu Pavilion, set a fire, and burned up his white moonlight relics.
I’m fed up with these things he treasures, which satirize me, laugh at me, and tell me that I’m just a ridiculous stand-in.
Huang Taiji was so furious that he strangled my neck in the fire, as if he wanted me to bury these relics.
My breath was drained quickly. I grabbed him by the sleeve and told him with difficulty, “I’m pregnant again..”
“What did you say?” He suddenly released his hand.
“I am pregnant for more than two months.”
Only this sentence is like thunder on the ground.
He was stunned for a long time, then suddenly grabbed my waist, put his lower jaw on my head, and puffed out his cheeks slightly, as if he was clenching his teeth to compete with himself.
“I didn’t know. I didn’t know. Why didn’t you tell me earlier?” What is
this, an explanation or an excuse?
“Give birth to him, Hai Lanzhu.” He rubbed the back of my head. “I won’t let anything happen to him this time.”. Hai Lanzhu, you’d better protect him with your life. I got it
. I raised my lips.
I tried my best to conceive this child in order to turn him into an arrow in my hand and pierce the heart of the man in front of me.
Looking at his helpless pleading, I was really happy in my bones.
“Your Majesty.” I made no effort to conceal this ghastly, hearty smile. “But that’s not what the emperor said.”
“Hai Lanzhu, don’t mention the past.” He raised my face and said, “You still have a long way to go.”. Look at me and listen to me. You can only live if he lives. Understand?
I looked up. “But does the emperor remember?”? It was you who said you would never allow me to give birth to your prince.
This is my second pregnancy. Gold, silver and jade in
beautiful clothes, Huang Taiji sent them to Guanju Palace one by one.
He walked around the Guanju Palace twice, shaking his head and sighing, “It’s my beloved concubine’s bedroom that’s too small.”
Then he patted me on the face and said, “It’s these vulgar things, too. They don’t match my Hai Lan Zhu.”
I looked at him coldly.
“What do you want?” Seeing that I was still not happy, Huang Taiji pulled me to the window and pointed to Zhe Zhe’s queen’s bedroom. “If you want that, you can.” What does the
queen mean? I want to be queen mother. I played lightly with my fingernails. “It’s a pity. I’ll have to wait for the emperor to die first.”
Sure enough, he was annoyed again.
He gathered the iron fist that killed countless people, burst his strong veins, and tried to choke me, lest he really hurt me. It’s
fun. I really like this kind of game.
“Hai Lanzhu, if I die, all the women of Horqin will be buried with me.” Leaving this sentence, he left.
I was finally willing to look up at his back.
Horqin, always threaten me with Horqin, is it annoying?
Seven years ago, in the camp of Horqin, it was my elder brother Wu Keshan who personally sent me, who was already a wife, to Huangtaiji’s dragon couch. The
next morning, I knelt obediently on the ground to put on the fur boots for Huang Taiji. He handed over the hand with the bow and sword: “Go with Ben Khan and go back to Shengjing.”
“But I was married.” I looked up at him.
“What about your husband?”
“He’s dead.” I buried my head.
“Oh?” “How did he die?” He asked.
“When I fought for you, I was hit by an arrow.” I told him truthfully, “You know, Wu Ke-shan wants you to take me away, but he has to be excluded.” When
Huang Taiji heard this, he burst out laughing, took my hand and lifted me into his arms. His hand with thick cocoons scooped up my jaw, which made me itch.
As for Wu Keshan’s intentions, we have a tacit understanding. In
Huang Taiji’s harem, there are many women in Horqin, including my aunt Zhe Zhe and my sister Da Yu’er, both of whom entered Baylor Mansion when Huang Taiji was still the eighth prince.
Nine years later, Huang Taiji ascended the throne early in the morning, but the two in the palace did not give birth to a prince.
I am in a hurry, and my elder brother Wu Keshan is also in a hurry.
In order to let Huang Taiji have a prince of Horqin blood, they deliberately planned to send me to Huang Taiji’s bed in addition to Mu Ren.
It’s a pity that I couldn’t figure out why I was chosen at that time.
Horqin has a succession of young and beautiful beauties, but Ama and her elder brother want me to please Huang Taiji. Now I know, but because they know, I look like a person.
“Do you hate Ben Khan?” He asked me.
I shook my head. “No.”
“Hai Lan Zhu.” He put his arms around my neck, and his eyes began to look misty. Ben Khan has seen countless Manchurian and Mongolian beauties, and there are not a few Han women. But you are the only one who makes Ben Khan so moved.
He deceived himself, and like last night, it must have been followed by another madness and tyranny.
It’s just that at the moment, we’re all so sober that we suppress the animal nature.
I pressed against his strong chest. “Will the Khan treat me well in the future?”
“Ben Khan won’t say anything in love.” He clapped his chest and answered, “The only thing is that your husband Mu Ren died because of me, and I owe you this life.”. From now on, even if you make a big hole in Ben Khan, Ben Khan will never hurt you.
I put my arms around his neck and pressed it against his face. “Did you and my aunt Zhe Zhe, and my sister Da Yu’er, swear the same thing?”
He scraped my nose fondly. “Only to you.”
“Well, that’s only for me in the future.”
He nodded. “Ben Khan will give you everything.”
I don’t believe his story. A woman who
believes a man’s words will suffer in the future.
I followed Huang Taiji to Shengjing, where I met Yan Zhashulan, another woman he had sworn to, for the first and last time.
That day she carried a simple package, dressed like a Manchu woman, and walked on the way out of the palace.
My carriage bumped into her, and she looked up, showing a face like mine.
The only difference was that she had a sensational scar on her face. Long and red, as if it had not been added for a long time.
“My today is Fujin’s tomorrow.”
She suddenly scraped her unhealed wound with her fingernails and said something to me without thinking.
Blood oozed and she laughed like a madman.
But before she could say a second sentence, she was pushed and hurriedly disappeared outside the palace gate.
That night, I asked Huang Taiji, “Who is she and where is she going?”
“Did you see her?” Huang Taiji gently rubbed my face. He always loved my face. “Did you see the scar on her face?”
He pressed to my ear: “You must remember, Hai Lanzhu, that is for you.”
I suddenly felt that his fingers were like poisonous snakes, and I was frightened to shrink back.
“Don’t be afraid. I don’t want to do this to you.” He refused to leave my face. Shulan was gossiping behind my back, saying that you had been with another man. Ben Khan guessed that perhaps she also wanted to be friendly with other men, and naturally wanted the beauty of an adult, so he gave her to a Han minister who had defected. “The scar?”
I tried.
“She said you were wrong. Shouldn’t Ben Khan punish her?” Huang Taiji pinched my chin and raised it. “Hai Lanzhu, how can I thank Ben Khan?”
I don’t want to thank him, but I remember what my elder brother Wu Keshan told me.
He asked me to please Huang Taiji in every way, try my best to please him, spare no effort to conceive his heir, and then let him willingly give the Qing Dynasty to the prince with Horqin blood.
So I can only thank him, take off the dragon robe for him, and then use my body to take off the fatigue of the court and the battlefield for him.
“Hai Lanzhu, Ben Khan spoils you too much.” He enjoyed it so much that he held my head and pried open my tongue.
A joy, familiarity mixed with my deliberate arrangement of freshness, Huang Taiji is very satisfied.
“Your body is so greedy.” He pushed aside my legs, which were wrapped around him, and played with my calves. “Ben Khan is really spoiling you too much.”
Before I could wake up from the pleasure I had just had, I heard the words of the seeping man, and the cold air swept through my ears from his mouth.
“In the past, this kind of thing was done by women, and they shouldn’t get their hands dirty.” He shoved a knife into my hand. “When Shulan was just with Ben Khan, he used this knife to destroy the faces of others.”. Now Ben Khan has used it to carve the face of the Shulan.
My hand trembled slightly, but he held it tightly.
Don’t be afraid, Hai Lanzhu, don’t be afraid. You must learn to use a knife. Otherwise, you will be trampled on, hurt, or even killed. He lowered his voice. “Just like Wu Linzhu.”
This is the first time I heard the name of Wu Linzhu. Caught off guard after
a love affair. When
Huang Taiji talked about Wu Linzhu, he was not as sad as Huang Taiji.
The name seems to have sorcery, three words, a breath and a breath between the huff and puff, it makes people’s vertebrae as painful as heart.
It was the first time I had seen him so sad, and the second time, two years later, thanks to me.
I spent two glorious years in Shengjing Palace, beside Huangtaiji.
He did what he promised and gave me everything.
From the imperial palace of Shengjing to the horseback of Horqin Grassland, everyone said that Hai Lanzhu, the daughter of Borjigit’s concubine, was the first favorite concubine of the Qing Dynasty and the treasure on the tip of Huangtaiji’s heart. In the second year after
I entered the palace, Huang Taiji proclaimed himself emperor. He was no longer just the Khan of Manchuria and Mongolia, but finally an emperor.
He granted me the Guanju Palace and made me the imperial concubine of Chen, who was only under the empress.
He said, I am his lucky star and his treasure.
But as soon as he turned his head, he received the spoils of Dorgon’s pacification of Chahar, including a Mongolian woman who was eight points like me and seven points like Yan Zhashulan.
It was the first time that for three days, Huang Taiji did not enter the gate of the Guanju Palace, but lingered in the side hall where the Mongolian women lived temporarily. If
he doesn’t come, I’ll touch it myself.
Guan Ju Palace has spoiled me. I really can’t stand the damp and cold of the side hall, nor can I stand the familiar face. After scratching her face with a knife, I just want to leave quickly. When the
knife saw blood, she screamed in pain and wriggled on the ground, making dripping blood stains.
I’m not sure. I’m not sure what Huang Taiji wants from me. I’m not sure if this is his intention. I
can only gamble. After all, I can’t bear the consequences of losing my honor.
In the evening, Huang Taiji finally came to Guanju Palace again.
“Hai Lanzhu, you really don’t disappoint me.” He held me from behind and shook my body, which was burning with fear.
“You see, you did the right thing. You protected yourself.” He bit the end of my ear and said a ghostly and palpitating word.
“I also gave her a sword like this.”
My heart suddenly hit my chest violently.
If I hadn’t done that, would I be the one whose face was ruined?
I shoved him away, ignoring my own gaffes. “Your Majesty, why does the emperor want the women in the harem to fight to the death?”
“You misunderstand me, Hai Lanzhu.” He took my hand with pity. “I’m just trying to teach you to protect yourself. You don’t understand. In those days, Wu Linzhu just couldn’t protect herself.”
Wu Linzhu, Wu Linzhu, again Wu Linzhu, who on earth is she?
Zhe Zhe gave me the answer.
Zhe Zhe is indeed the queen of the world, dignified and sensible.
She said, “Hai Lanzhu, you shouldn’t keep pestering the emperor like this.”
Seeing that I didn’t like to go out, she gave me a cat named Cuizhu.
When Zhe Zhe sent Cui Zhu’er to Guanju Palace, the Mongolian woman had already been buried and her body was sent back to the Chahar tribe.
She was too young, too young to accept the disappearance of the chips, a white silk hanging in the cold side hall. Otherwise, she could at least, like Yan Zhashulan, leave this prison and survive. It was said
that the woman was also a noble lady of the Chahar tribe. Huang Taiji wrote a eulogy with his own hands. When he picked up the pen, he asked me, “What was her name?”
How ridiculous.
I hugged him from behind and pouted, “Your Majesty, what is my name?”
When Huang Taiji lost his pen, he picked me up and threw me on the couch. “Hai Lanzhu, were you jealous when you used the knife?”? Hai Lanzhu, have you ever been jealous of me?
“Yes, I have.” Laughing, I threw myself on him, trying with all my might to put the passing of my life behind me. “Your Majesty, you forgot that we were jealous of yesterday’s dumplings.” The two of
us were crying on the couch, and Cuizhu was crying beside us. That
was the time I got pregnant.
This is a happy event for the whole Horqin.
But I dare not say to anyone, I am too afraid, afraid that this child can not be born, can not survive in the world. After
that, I half pushed Huang Taiji, on the pretext that he was not feeling well, thinking of ways to move him to the Yongfu Palace of Big Jade.
I wouldn’t let him touch me, so he watched me. I leaned on the couch, and he sat on the ground, playing with me the game of two people on the prairie. It was
autumn, and the cat was in a bad mood. Pointing at Cui Zhu, he reclined on top of me, splashing and acting like a spoiled child. “Look,” he said, “she’s protesting that you’re treating me too slowly.” I
can’t help it. I always feel like vomiting these days. It’s really hard. Your Majesty, if, I mean if. Cautiously, I said, “I’m pregnant now..”
“Better not.” He got up suddenly. “This is very difficult for me.”
He is very difficult to handle.
Horqin’s happy event turned out to be a headache for Huang Taiji. In the days that
followed, Huang Taiji was busy with his official duties, so I had to keep company with Cui Zhu’er.
Cuizhu is wild and difficult to tame. She is crazier than wild horses on the Horqin Grassland. She runs around when she has nothing to do. I can’t catch her or find her.
Until it caught and destroyed the painting of Wensu Pavilion.
Huang Taiji heard the news and picked up the painting, so sad, so angry.
I only glanced at it, and even if the cat scratched half of her face, I could recognize that it was the portrait of Wu Linzhu.
Apart from Wu Linzhu, who else had the ability to splash the sky? A painting called the emperor of the Qing Dynasty out of line.
The remaining half of his face had the same eyes as mine and a vivid mouth and nose.
“Hai Lanzhu, are you taking revenge on me?” He clenched his teeth and forced out a few numbers, but he trembled in a trance. When I woke up
again, I was on the couch of Guanju Palace, surrounded by Zhe Zhe and Da Yu’er. It was
only a few hours ago, but it seemed like a lifetime ago.
It’s a pity that I remember Huang Taiji’s anger. I remember that his raised foot was falling on my lower abdomen. I remember that I fell to the ground.
Seeing me lying on the ground in pain, Huang Taiji was still not satisfied. He stepped on my abdomen and crushed me hard.
It was not until my face turned pale that he chanted something beside me that made my eyes dazzled and my heart like a knife: “Hai Lanzhu, you are only seven points like her. You have stolen the grace that belongs to her. Don’t be ignorant of good and bad again.”
I’m confused. What’s going on?
Am I not the most honored and favored woman in the Qing Dynasty? Am I not the Concubine Chen who is entrenched in his heart?
Thousands of love, tenderness, all with a painting went up in smoke?
I couldn’t hear him clearly, and I didn’t want to hear his words clearly. I could only feel the sticky red heat between my legs and the silly absence in my eyes.
“No matter how much you look like Wu Lin-chu, you’re just a pet.” He continued to exert himself. “Your life can’t compare with her paintings.”
I suddenly laughed, suddenly hoping that he would use more force, preferably to kill me immediately.
My husband died tragically, and my elder brother Wu Keshan treated me as a beautiful gift. Now the recipient of this gift, he will also abandon me like an old shoe. It was
not until my blood oozed at his feet that Huang Taiji finally let me go: “Don’t do it again, Hai Lanzhu, don’t let me move the idea of killing you.”. Don’t push me. With your face, I really can’t bear to part with you.
I have a big life, and the doctor said that I was all right, and the child was still there.
Zhe Zhe blamed me for not saying that I was pregnant.
Hearing her voice, I woke up as if from a dream. After seven days of begging outside the Chongzheng Hall, Huang Taiji finally agreed to see me.
I finally understand that the qualification to give birth to this child is not the right to be a mother, but the gift of Huang Taiji.
Even though he was cruel to me, I had to flatter him in a mean way and beg him to leave the child with me.
I kowtow, I implore, I kneel at his feet.
He looked down at me.
“No, Hai Lan-chu, no.” He said it word for word.
Let him be a commoner, not a prince. Please, even if you drive our mother and son out of Shengjing, even if you destroy my face..
He suddenly grabbed me by the neck and pulled me to my feet. “What qualifications do you have to destroy this face?”
“Well, I won’t destroy it. I’ll listen to you. I’ll take good care of you.” I became incoherent. On
his case is the portrait of Wu Yunzhu, which he has worked hard to restore. As expected, it is similar. Yan Zhashulan has five points at most, and I have eight points.
“Hai Lan Zhu.” With his other hand he touched the still dimple of Wu Yunzhu’s smile. “Do you know how Wu Linzhu died?”
He tightened the force of his men.
As if I had killed Wu Linzhu.
Cuizhu was thrown into the dry well of Guanju Palace.
When the hospital sent me the medicine, I didn’t dare to touch it, for fear that I would lose my little life after drinking it.
Three months later, Huang Taiji told me that he had changed his mind.
The condition is that he wants me to solve the big jade’s child.
“Do you think it’s a coincidence?” Huang Taiji looked at me with a sarcastic smile. “The Horchin woman’s belly hasn’t moved for so many years, but now she’s tied up and pregnant, which makes my head bigger.”
He didn’t want to have Horqin’s children in the harem, but now it was time for the battlefield to be deadlocked, and he had to unite Horqin’s forces.
With my hand, he can be clean.
I nodded and said yes, finding the long-lost blade and wiping off the dried blood on it.
Huang Taiji clapped his hands with satisfaction. “Well, Hai Lanzhu, I’m waiting for you to make a living for yourself.”
Before he turned to leave, I grabbed him. The tip of the
knife touched my slightly bulging lower abdomen, and my hand trembled: “Your Majesty, this knife goes down. Please give the mother and son peace.”
His smile slowly froze.
“Hai Lanzhu, you can’t do it.” He gritted his teeth and said, his eagle-like eyes not taking an inch away from the tip of the knife. “You don’t want to give up, you won’t.”
Yeah, I’m scared. I’m scared.
I was shaking more and more, but I couldn’t hesitate.
I lift the master, like crazy under the cone.
Blood, dripping hot on the ground, quickly dissipated into a room full of sweet and fishy.
His blood. Before the tip of
the knife pierced the abdomen, Huang Taiji grasped the blade.
He looked at me without changing his face. “You have won, Hai Lanzhu.”. I didn’t expect you to win a game from me. It is too early to
talk about winning or losing.
Huang Taiji left my child behind, grinning grimly, as if he had come up with a more disgusting move.
He pressed my head into his arms, his palms dripping with blood. “I and Wu Linzhu once had a son, and he was supposed to be the crown prince of the Qing Dynasty.”. Why don’t you make up for this regret for me?
He began to take good care of my pregnancy and had a bowl of black-bone chicken soup for three meals a day.
I have a bad morning sickness, and I really don’t like it.
He pinched my mouth open and poured the black-bone chicken soup into it with a small golden spoon.
I had one in my throat, and then I coughed up and vomited all over him.
“What are you doing?” He was a little annoyed.
I like his anger. I’m so powerless that I can’t do anything except make him angry.
“I don’t want to eat these.”
“What do you want to eat?” He is patient.
“What did your concubine Wu Lin-chu like to eat when she was pregnant with the emperor’s third son?” I stared at him.
She loves this black-bone chicken soup. Give me whatever she eats.
Sure enough, I knew it.
Huang Taiji could not help but increase the strength of his hands, pinching my cheeks, and then poured down all the hot and oily soup, covering my mouth, forcing me to swallow every drop. It was not
until I was choking that he finally threw me away and looked down at the heat escaping from my lips and the labored crimson of my neck.
This is the price of keeping this child. It is not enough for him to treat me as a substitute for Wu Linzhu. He wants me to be more like Wu Linzhu.
He forced all of Wu Linzhu to me, the honor of Wu Linzhu, the children of Wu Linzhu, even the habit of Wu Linzhu, the grievance of Wu Linzhu.
All the disgusting things were used to make up for his regret for Wu Linzhu. After
that, he sent someone to keep an eye on me, and he didn’t leave me until there was not a drop of black-bone chicken soup left for three meals a day.
I am too much like Wu Linzhu, except for this temperament. The news of victory
at the front spread frequently, and Huang Taiji was proud of his success. He drank some wine and came to Guanju Palace to see me for a long time. With a red face,
he pulled me into his arms, touched my stomach and murmured, “Wu Linzhu, Wu Linzhu, when you give birth to our child, let him be the prince of the Qing Dynasty..”
“Wu Linzhu, if you give me some time, I will soon conquer the world..”
Wu Linzhu, I’m sorry for you.. Horqin, it was Horqin who forced you to die.
He repeatedly called the same name, repeatedly told his regrets to the dead, mixed with resentment towards Horqin. I’m tired of
hearing about it, and I’m done. I
took down the gold hairpin that he had given me, which was worn behind the bun on the day of Wu Linzhu’s wedding, and tried to stab him in the chest.
But I trembled and struggled, raising my hands and dropping them again and again.
When I finally couldn’t listen anymore, I cupped his face and said, “Look at me, look at me, I’m not Wu Linzhu.”
He tried hard to open his misty eyes and hold up the thin folds of his forehead and the doubts of his eyes.
“Wu Lin-chu is dead, dead for many years.” We looked at each other. “You can’t even protect the woman you love the most.”
“That’s also because Horchin forced me..”
“No.” I shook my head. “You didn’t want to protect her.”
Huang Taiji looked at me in a daze. Then he held me and staggered to the bed. “Don’t talk nonsense. It’s too late. Wu Linzhu, you have a big body. You have to go to bed early.”
Wulinzhu Wulinzhu, I don’t want to hear that name for a moment.
I finally raised my hand and crossed it with my eyes closed. The sound of the gold hairpin piercing my flesh and blood splashed on my face. Unexpectedly,
Huang Taiji covered his neck, stumbled and let go, and I fell heavily to the ground.
“Wu Linzhu, what are you doing?” He said angrily.
“I am not Wu Lin Chu.” I protected my stomach and clenched my teeth to respond to him, “I am Hai Lanzhu, your Chen Fei Hai Lanzhu!”! Hai Lanzhu hates you and wants to kill you.
“Hai Lan Zhu?” He finally called my name again, “Hai Lanzhu..” Are you all right?
He carried me back to bed, and then in the Guanju Palace, he stopped the blood and wrapped the wound for himself.
My little strength is only enough to break a layer of skin. How can I talk about killing him. When
Huang Taiji finally sobered up, he looked left and right in the mirror. Then he turned to me and asked, “Come and show me. Is this cut obvious?”
I huddled on the bed and refused to move. “If
I go out like this and someone else sees me, you’ll be accused of assassinating the emperor!”
He poked me in the heart and said, “Don’t talk about you. The whole Guanju Palace, the whole Horqin, will be buried with you for your willfulness.”
I hugged my legs and shook my body slightly.
Huang Taiji pursed his mouth and breathed, dispersing his slight anger.
He himself went to find a fur to put around his neck and said softly, “Look at this. Can you still see the cut like this?”
I shook my head and didn’t want to look at it.
“That’s good.” He put on his coat and turned to leave. “You lie down. I’m going to find the royal doctor to look at your fetus.”
I don’t know where the stubbornness comes from, as if a bloody cut is not satisfying, and I have to force him to kill me with his own hands.
He was not annoyed, but I forced him to be annoyed, so I grabbed him, picked up the bloody gold hairpin on the ground, broke it in front of him, and threw the broken relics of his sweetheart at his feet.
“What are you doing?” Annoyed at last, he picked up the hairpin and put it in his hand like a treasure, letting the sharp tip cut through his palm. “Hai Lanzhu, you look like a madman now!”
“So does the emperor.” I’m more than crazy. “I’m crazy for the emperor, and the emperor is crazy for Wu Linzhu. We’re all like that. Who’s better than who?”
I don’t know when Huang Taiji left Guanju Palace, but I feel the quiet in my ears.
Silence is the cursed song of this cage that surrounds me and torments me. After
that day, he was so kind that he suddenly removed the disgusting black-bone chicken soup and let everything in Guanju Palace follow my heart. From time to time,
he sent Zhe Zhe and Da Yu’er to accompany me. Zhe Zhe took good care of my food and clothing. Da Yu’er talked with me from Horqin Grassland to Shengjing Palace.
Big jade son also told me a lot of things about the former Dynasty, said Huang Taiji war adventure, said the Qing Dynasty to the world territory of the separatist regime.
She said that Huang Taiji’s lifelong wish was to let the world return to the Qing Dynasty. For this reason, Huang Taiji sacrificed everything, including Wu Linzhu.
But when I asked her how Wu Linzhu died and what she had to do with Horqin, she refused to say more.
This is like the secret of Shengjing Palace in a box, which is closely guarded by everyone, as if once opened, it is the tragedy of Ru Mao drinking blood.
But Zhe Zhe or big jade son, there is a sentence they will tell me over and over again: “Don’t be self-willed Hai Lanzhu, you have to be obedient, to please him.”. You are the imperial concubine Chen of the six palaces, and you are the woman of Horqin. The rise and fall of the whole race is upon you. In
July, this kind of prosperity reached its peak.
Huang Taiji opened up territory and dominated the northeast. At the same time, eight princes with Horqin blood were born. On the day I
gave birth, I wailed in my bedroom for three hours, bleeding between my legs, breathing more and more difficult, and the pain all over my body swept me, and I couldn’t even tell where the pain was worse.
I feebly kicked my legs on the couch, and Huang Taiji rushed into the bedroom hall regardless of the obstruction.
“Hai Lan Zhu! Hai Lan Zhu!” He called me again and again through the curtain, “Listen to me, you are my woman, a gift from Horqin!”! You must live well, and you must be safe with his mother and his son.
The doctor said that I was too worried when I was pregnant, and my body was hurt before, so I’m afraid I can’t keep the baby.
I heard Huang Taiji trying to say, “Keep her. I can’t let her make any mistakes.”
I put my hand out of the curtain and waved it gently.
Huang Taiji immediately leaned against me and held my cold hand. “I’m here, Hai Lanzhu. I’m listening.”. Tell me what you want.
He put his ear to it.
“Your Majesty.” I said, “It’s just a double. It’s not worth it.” What happened
after that? I don’t know.
The eight princes were finally born, but they were born prematurely and congenitally deficient, so they were quite weak. I
myself was not much better. I lost my strength in childbirth. I went through the gate of death and couldn’t get out of bed for more than ten days.
Wu Keshan seized this loophole. When I was still weak and lingering on the bed, he had already advised that I was not blessed enough. He should give the eight princes to Zhe Zhe, the queen of the main palace, to raise them, so that the eight princes could inherit Zhe Zhe’s kindness and blessings before they could grow up safely.
I know what Wu Keshan is thinking. I am a concubine, and my birth mother is a guilty minister. I am humble and unworthy.
I married again, and my husband died at the hands of Wu Keshan. Naturally, I also had resentment against Horqin.
This child, of course, to belong to the name of the queen Zhe Zhe, is the most noble, the most likely to be crown prince, but also the most can be used by Horqin.
Horqin now rendered meritorious service on the battlefield, success, Wu Keshan’s request, even Huang Taiji is difficult to reject.
The child was sent to the palace, but I had no ability and qualification to resist. When he
came to see me, Huang Taiji hesitated to speak. He helped me sit up, tucked in the quilt, cooled the soup and put it in my mouth.
He said, “The eight princes are the most blessed. I am also the eighth of my brothers. Now I will inherit the throne, and in the future I will achieve the great cause of sitting on the world.”
I nodded my head and asked him in a hoarse voice, “Has the emperor decided on the name of the little prince?”
Perhaps I hadn’t seen me so obediently for a long time. Huang Taiji was stunned and put several mouthfuls of medicinal juice into my mouth. Seeing that I had swallowed them all obediently, he finally said, “I think..” It’s called the Lobo Fair, isn’t it?
“All right, Lobos will be all right.” I smiled. “Whatever the emperor says, it’s all right.”
Hai Lanzhu.. Or what do you think? What do you want him to be called?
“It’s called the Lobo Fair.” I answered cleverly, “I listen to the emperor.”
“Hai Lan-chu, you’d better take good care of yourself first.”
Seeing that he was about to leave, I grabbed him and said earnestly, “Your Majesty, don’t go. I like that name.”
I don’t like it. I’m sick!
Luo Bo is the name of the third prince who died early under Wu Linzhu!
I had expected that he would have such a name, so I took the initiative to ask him.
It doesn’t matter. I listen to him.
I will not be disobedient, nor will I play with my temper. I only ask him to leave the dignity and honor of Horqin to Horqin and my children to me.
Don’t give it to Zhe Zhe, don’t give it to others, give it back to me, give it back to his mother.
“Take it easy, Hai Lanzhu.” Huang Tai-chi, on the other hand, began to shrink back from his own idea. “The name is not urgent. You can choose it later.”. Let’s all think again and give him an auspicious name, so that he can live a healthy and successful life.
I raised my head and looked at him, watching him gently cut the broken hair in front of my forehead with the hand that fought in the battlefield. I saw him ask me in an unprecedented and ingratiating way: “Hai Lanzhu, you have made such a great contribution to me and the Qing Dynasty. What reward do you want?”.
“Leave him to me.” Seeing that Huang Taiji did not speak, I almost begged, “Please, don’t take him away. The child needs a mother.”
“Well, well, I promise you.” He hugged me and hurriedly wrapped me in a beautiful satin quilt. “Hai Lanzhu, don’t cry.”. I’ve seen you almost die once. It’s too painful.
“Please.” I didn’t listen to what he was saying, and I pleaded numbly, “It was my fault in the past, but in the future I will play Wu Linzhu well. I will play Wu Linzhu better than anyone else. I will do whatever you like about Wu Linzhu.” I
don’t know where I got the strength, but I kept knocking my forehead on the edge of the bed, begging him to let my child stay with me.
Until my forehead was blue and my eyes were red, Huang Taiji imprisoned me in his arms, and I no longer had the strength to break free and continue to beg.
I snuggled softly in his arms and murmured, “I heard that Wu Linzhu is the most respectful and obedient to the emperor. I will do the same in the future. What the emperor says is what..”
“Take care of yourself, Hai Lanzhu. I want you to live well, well.” His voice trembled.
“All right, listen to the emperor.” I repeated, “Listen to the emperor..”
Zhe Zhe also came to see me several times. As a mother, she could not help feeling pity and planned to return the child to me, but Wu Keshan refused to let go.
“Hai Lan-chu, you know what’s at stake.” Zhe Zhe looked at me and waited for an answer. “This child is the blood of Horqin.”. You are also the daughter of Horchin, and you will certainly help Horchin no matter what, right?
“Yes.” I kept nodding. “Yes, Zhe Zhe, give him back to me. Give him back to me.” In
October, the little prince returned to Guanju Palace.
The little prince was weak, and after a lot of trouble, he hurt his vitality.
He had a little blue face and a sad breath, so small that he seemed to disappear from the world at any time.
I held him tightly and didn’t want to let go for a moment.
Huang Taiji sent a lot of gold, silver and jewelry to Guanju Palace, but I could no longer show a smile.
He always held my face and asked me, “Hai Lanzhu, what do you want?”? Are you deliberately trying to annoy me and tell me that you can conquer the world, but you’re the only one who can’t get a laugh?
I don’t talk.
“What else do you want?” He pulled me over in frustration. I was as light as a thin piece of paper, swaying with his pull. “Didn’t you say that if I gave him back to you, you would listen to me?”
“Your Majesty.” I held the little prince in my arms and spoke as he wished. “Look, he’s coughing again, our child. He’s making my heart ache.”
So, Huang Taiji gave me a big gift, he pardoned the world, prayed for the eight princes, and asked God to protect the eight princes.
This is an honor and a gift without precedent.
We fought in vain. In March of
the next year, the eight princes, who were less than one year old, passed away.
Two days later, the big jade son gave birth to a male fetus, this child, is Huang Taiji to Horqin repeatedly meritorious military service.
Horqin had no time to grieve and immediately jumped for joy again.
Glory has been preserved, blood has been continued, and as for a deceased baby boy whose name has not come yet, why should the family mourn. When
Huang Taiji was wandering outside the big jade’s delivery room, I climbed to the top floor of the Phoenix Tower. Seen
from the Phoenix Tower, there is such a big capital outside the palace, and there is such a big world outside the capital.
But somehow, I feel that even if it is the four directions of the world, it is not as broad as the Horqin grassland when I was a child.
Huang Taiji ran all the way, and the dragon robe on his body had no time to change, until he appeared behind me.
“Come down, Hai Lanzhu, come down.” He called me back from the dream of the prairie.
He handed over the hand that had said he would take me back to Shengjing, half ordering and half pleading, asking me to withdraw my legs from the fence.
I shook my head. “Your Majesty, he is gone. Our child is gone.”.
“I know. You come down first.” Huang Taiji waved at me with an anxious look on his face. “Be obedient, will you, Hai Lanzhu?”. You are not in good health. The wind is too strong here. You will cough at night because of the cold. Come on, take my hand.
“I am not obedient.” I even moved further out, making him sweat. “I was told to be obedient, and I listened, and then what happened?”. He’s still gone, my boy. He’s gone. He was so young that I didn’t even give him a name.
“Good, good, not obedient, you are not obedient.” He coaxed carefully, “Come down first, will you?”? You come down, no matter how disobedient you are, no matter how you torment me, don’t stand there. Hai Lanzhu, Hai Lanzhu, just this once, you depend on me.. For the first time,
I saw the mess on Huang Taiji’s face, the kind of helplessness, the kind of urgency.
He tried his best, but he couldn’t handle the woman in front of him who had told him to abandon her like an old shoe.
I am very satisfied, very satisfied, originally he likes the dead, who died, who left an indelible mark in his heart. One of
my feet is hanging in the air, and if the story ends here, I’m already satisfied. The first person I saw when I
woke up was Zhe Zhe.
She said that Li Zicheng and the Ming army were fighting for thousands of miles, and it was a good time for God to give the Qing Dynasty.
The emperor lingered in military affairs and could not stay here day and night, but in the past few days, whenever he was free, he always stayed by my side.
I remembered the hand that grabbed me from the Phoenix Tower that day, and Huang Taiji’s self-deprecating smile in my ear: “Hai Lanzhu, you are really more difficult to deal with than thousands of troops of the Ming Dynasty.”. You really don’t look like her.
I was pulled back by him, hit my head on the pillar and was hit hard. In addition, I was heartbroken and really hurt my body. I lay down for several days before I woke up.
Zhe Zhe looked at me blankly looking around, as a mother, suddenly understood my intention.
She sighed and held me in her arms. “Hai Lanzhu, don’t look for him. He’s gone. He’s really gone.”
She stroked my back, gritted her teeth and said the following words, “Hai Lanzhu, your eight princes are gone, but Horqin still has nine princes of Dayu’er, and your road is not over yet.”. You are the most favored by the emperor, the most talkative, aunt beg you, Horqin beg you, in any case, you must let the emperor, set up the child of the big jade son as the crown prince of the Qing Dynasty..
“Yes.” I answered coldly, “Then tell me, how did Wu Linzhu die?”
Zhe Zhe released me and refused to make a sound for a long time.
“I can guess. I’m not a fool.” I snorted coldly, “Huang Taiji was only four Baylors in those days. In order to succeed to the throne of Khan and unify the whole country, he roped in the powerful Horqin tribe to help him.”. My Ama’s condition is to let the woman of Horqin be the future queen. For this reason, he had to sacrifice his first wife, Wu Lin-chu.
Zhe Zhe had tears in her eyes. She was always so decent and dignified, like a queen, like Horqin’s daughter. I didn’t even know that she would cry.
“Yes, but do you know that it wasn’t Horchin who killed Wu Linzhu, it was Huang Taiji who killed the woman he loved most with his own hands!”
Zhe Zhe lost his temper. She was complaining and roaring. Then, he wanted to put all the blame on me, and then on every woman in Horqin. He’s the coward, he’s the culprit!
Zhe Zhe told me that it was indeed at the behest of my Ama that the first Khan Nurhachi casually found a charge, deposed Wu Linzhu, and expelled him from Bei Le Fu.
However, on Wu Linzhu’s way from the palace, it was Huang Taiji who stopped her and stabbed her in the body with a knife.
Later, Huang Taiji personally sent Wu Linzhu’s head to Horqin as a betrothal gift to marry Zhe Zhe and Da Yu’er.
“My sincerity is enough. Should Horchin’s sincerity also be shown?” After saying this, he and I, Ama, laughed and drank three cups.
Before long, with the support of Horqin, Huangtaiji succeeded to the throne. Today, he is still inseparable from Horqin.
Zhe Zhe suddenly knelt down and suddenly knocked his head. She said, “Hai Lanzhu, you must help her, help her nine princes Fulin, and help Keerqin.”
I asked her, “How?”
“Let him love you and be willing to grant all your requests.”
I laughed. “He won’t.”
“He will, he will, Hai Lanzhu.” Zhe Zhe grabbed my hand. “No one has ever forced him to compromise. No one has ever asked him to beg. You are the first one.” After
that day, I was more like a chess piece. I just wanted to take a few more steps to the end and live like a walking corpse. In
autumn, he said he would go to the grasslands of Mongolia to ride horses and shoot arrows.
“Are you feeling better?” For this reason, he is concerned about me every day.
“All right.” I dared him on purpose. “I can hold a knife. If the emperor enters a new person, I will cut her face.”
Huang Taiji laughed when he heard this, as if he had enjoyed it in every way.
He said he wanted to take me with him. I asked if I was the only one or the three thousand beauties in the harem.
“Only Khorchin’s daughter, just in time to go back and see your Ama.” He had a spoiled smile on his face.
“No.” I stared at him. “I’m the only one. I don’t want Zhe Zhe, I don’t want Big Jade. I’m the only one with the emperor.”
Huang Taiji was stunned for a moment, then smiled and curled his eyes. “What’s wrong? Do you really want me to bear the name of the fatuous monarch who doted on you alone and snubbed the harem?
“The emperor is reluctant to give up?” I tugged at his sleeve and said, “I don’t want to exchange a bad name for my happiness.”
“Be willing to give up.” He held me in his arms as if I were carrying a piece of warm nephrite. “You are a ghost, and you take people’s souls, Hai Lanzhu.” In
September, the Qing army pressed the remaining territory of the Ming Dynasty again and again. On the
hunting ground, Huang Taiji was in high spirits. He said that Emperor Chongzhen was a spent force. Then he pulled an arrow and hit a fox steadily.
“No.” He changed his tune and said, “The fighting between the trapped animals of the Chongzhen Emperor is very much like the game in this garden.”
Looking at the twitching silver-white fox in his hands, Huang Taiji glanced at me and said, “It’s winter. Take it and make a cloak for Concubine Chen.”. Concubine Chen is weak, and she has prepared enough charcoal for her return. What kind of gallantry is there for no
reason.
I kicked the reins and ran away. After a long time
in the beautiful Guanju Palace, she forgot that she was a woman who grew up on horseback.
Huang Taiji was in hot pursuit, and today he was particularly eager to catch up with me, one after the other, and he was very happy.
I don’t know how long I ran, but as soon as I pulled in the reins and turned the horse around, the short blade in my hand pierced the back of the horse’s neck without warning.
It ate pain under a long hiss, startled hooves, also at this time, Huang Taiji just arrived.
Seeing that the horse’s hoof was about to fall, Huang Taiji’s face overturned him.
I smiled proudly and played with the rare panic in the eyes of the monarch.
“Hai Lan Chu!” He gave a loud shout.
At the critical moment, I pulled back the reins, and the horse continued to neigh, but finally dropped its hooves.
I jumped off the horse and it ran away.
“Your Majesty, look.” I looked up at him. “The substitute you don’t like has the ability to kill you. It’s up to me.” With a smile,
Huang Taiji dismounted and walked up to me, pressing it close to my ear. “Hai Lanzhu, you have a lot of skills.”. Do you want to get away with playing me like this?
Then he grabbed my skirt, dragged me into the woods, and pressed me under him.
Things went better than expected, and I tried my best to fill all his regrets for Wu Linzhu for Huang Taiji.
But it happened that the more obedient Wu Linzhu was, the more perverse I was. I disobeyed him and tormented him. Sure enough, he accepted everything. The same is true on
the prairie and in the palace.
He will let me make trouble when he is drunk.
I pretended to be angry and said that he drank and treated me slowly during the day, and then I really got angry and kicked him out of bed.
Huang Taiji was not annoyed either. Smiling, he got up and straightened his clothes, stroked my face tenderly in every way, and breathed out a thick feeling of drunkenness: “If Wu Linzhu were so disobedient..” He dared to say
this only when he was drunk.
I smiled and patted his flushed face. “Your Majesty, but you killed her.”
“No, no, Hai Lanzhu, you don’t understand..” Huang Taiji put his head on my shoulder. “Wu Linzhu, she’s not worth it. She’s not worth dying for me.”
He said intermittently, what is the knife brought by Wu Linzhu, Wu Linzhu himself stabbed in, Wu Linzhu put the handle into his palm.
Huang Taiji’s drunken words reminded me of the scene at that time.
On the way to the sunrise palace, Wu Linzhu said goodbye to Huang Taiji.
Caught off guard, Wu Linzhu flashed the short blade and stabbed himself in the abdomen.
“Eighth Master, they won’t believe you until I’m dead.” Wu Linzhu put the hilt into Huang Taiji’s hand. “Eighth Master, don’t cry, Eighth Master. It’s not like crying.”. Let Horqin conquer the world for you, I am useless, can’t do anything for you, only this life, send you as a bargaining chip..
Huang Taiji chattered about these past events. He said that Wu Linzhu had been like this since he was in the mansion. He was generous and gentle, but what he got was that he was repeatedly humiliated by prominent women. How
he wished Wu Linzhu had stabbed those who hurt her with a knife instead of hurting herself.
“So you let one substitute after another cut someone’s face with a knife.” I laughed at his shamelessness. “You let these women like Wu Linzhu fight for it, get their heads broken and bleed, and fight to the death, just to make up for Wu Linzhu’s regret of obediently sacrificing herself?”
No wonder, no wonder he likes my deliberate temper, like my disheartened after the wanton. He
didn’t have to answer. I pinched his face, and the roughness of the wind and the battlefield made my fingertips ache. “Then why do you hate me, Huang Taiji? Why do you hate Horchin? Why do you have to ask me to enter the palace, destroy Mu Ren and my children, and then destroy my life?”
“Hai Lanzhu, Hai Lanzhu, there are so many things that I hurt people.” He called my name and touched my face. “It’s over. You’re the last one.”. Believe me, you are the last one.
“The last stand-in?”
“The last woman.” He said, “If you do a good job as Concubine Chen, I will always spoil you.”
“Does it include making our prince of Horchin the crown prince?” I laughed.
He cupped my face in his hands and said, “Don’t make trouble with Hai Lanzhu. Don’t say these silly words on purpose. I’m not angry.”
He’s pounding on me.
I didn’t say this because I was angry with him.
These days lasted for two years, and I was pregnant again.
“The empress can’t have this child. He’ll kill you. In the end, both mother and child will be in danger.” When
the doctor said it, I didn’t know. When I
gave birth to the eight princes, I was badly weakened. How could I stand the fate of the gate of death again.
But I need him. He’s the last piece of the bargain.
“Hide it from the emperor first. Don’t tell me I’m pregnant.” I instructed, “Wait until I tell the emperor myself, and when the emperor asks, you can say that everything is all right.”
That night, a rare lunar eclipse took place in Shengjing.
People say that an eclipse of the moon is a sign of disaster.
Huang Taiji hugged me from behind, full of worries. He said, “Don’t be afraid of Hai Lanzhu. This is a good thing. This is the disaster of Daming. It is the eclipse of Daming.”. The Qing army will soon enter the palace and change the Dynasty.
I asked him, “What about the emperor?”? For the emperor, what is a disaster? The death of Wu Lin-chu?
“Now it’s you.” He rubbed my nose. “Losing you is my disaster. I’m afraid my heart will be broken and I’ll never have peace.”
I smiled disdainfully.
When Huang Taiji caught me, he picked me up and said, “Hai Lanzhu, you are a lucky star. With you here, I still want to win the battle.”. With you, I have no misfortune.
For so many days, I have deliberately given Huang Taiji a cold and a hot one.
Since I was pregnant with the words of the Imperial Physician, I have gone even further, teasing him at every turn until I can’t help it, and then pushing him to refuse to be happy with him.
Until two months later, he was finally impatient to deceive me, and then I deliberately called out Mu Ren’s name on the bed, followed by a pile of Meng Lang’s words, pouring cold water on his head and heart.
I made him angry and forced him to counterattack.
Because I want a reason, want a reason to destroy everything of Wu Linzhu, let him hate me to the bone but reluctant to touch me a hair reason.
I want to prove that in his heart, I am not just a substitute.
I got it. When I
told him I was pregnant, I clearly saw the light in Huang Taiji’s eyes.
The light seemed to be as bright and brilliant as the unification of the Qing Dynasty. The last thing
I have to do is to extinguish the light in his eyes.
He said, “Give birth to him, Hai Lanzhu.”. I will never allow anything to happen to him again. You must protect him with your life.
I touched my lower abdomen and my gold chips.
“The emperor wants me to give birth to him.” I said, “Then the emperor made Fulin, who was under her, the crown prince, and the prince of Horqin, the successor of the Qing Dynasty.”
“No, Hai Lan-chu, no.” He shook his head and thought for a moment, “But I can assure you that I will never hurt Horqin, nor the prince of Horqin.”. I will keep Fulin, and I will nurture him and love him.
Seeing that I wouldn’t budge an inch, Huang Taiji had no choice but to continue retreating.
He put his arm around my neck and put my forehead against his chest. “You are getting more and more helpless, Hai Lanzhu.”. Okay, then when you give birth to this child, you give birth to him, maybe I will agree to make him the crown prince of the Qing Dynasty.
“Then if the emperor breaks his oath, I will never be able to live in peace after I die.” “Do you dare to say, Your Majesty, do you dare to swear?”
He wouldn’t dare.
But that’s enough.
Huang Taiji came to Guanju Palace every day to guard me.
The eight princes are the pain in our hearts that we can’t let go. He put up a desperate fight and tried his best to prevent the tragedy from repeating.
Unfortunately, he did not know that this time, it was a man-made and doomed tragedy. As the doctor said,
I can’t bear this child at all. During the
pregnancy, I became sicker and weaker. In order not to let Huang Taiji and Zhe Zhe see it, I used the soup medicine to hang the spirit and filled the blood with the powder.
Everyone thought that Chen Fei was about to give birth to a healthy little prince, but no one knew that I, like Emperor Chongzhen of the Ming Dynasty, was a dying spent force. In
August, Huang Taiji went to the front to help Jinzhou. He said it was a decisive battle in the Ming and Qing Dynasties. When he returned triumphantly, let me take the child to the gate tower to meet him.
Great. He’s finally gone. I can’t hold on any longer. As soon as
Huang Taiji was gone, I was visibly emaciated, and I finished what the chess pieces should do most.
When Zhe Zhe came to see me, she touched my face and said, “Hai Lanzhu, you are a good child. You have really suffered.”
“Yes, I have suffered, for the sake of Horqin, for the sake of Horqin, who can place me everywhere as a chess piece.”
I grabbed Zhe Zhe’s hand, and every part of my body was so cold that I felt burning: I’m
tired, I’m really tired. Let me go. I was left with an empty shell early in the morning. If I had known it would not be long, I would have done everything I could do for Horqin in the end. I have not failed you, to please him, to please him, to submit to him, to consume him. I’m done. Finally, I want to live for myself.
Zhe Zhe was aware of Shiqi’s uneasiness. She held my thin shoulder. “What do you want, Hai Lanzhu?”
I want revenge.
To repay Mu Ren’s life, and to repay the rest of my ruined life.
I want to retaliate in my own way, even if I am just a chess piece, a gift, and let my pet bite a person for the last time. “Don’t be afraid, aunt. You know me. I’m the most obedient and the least noisy.”
I smiled wearily at Zhe Zhe. I just want to get some sleep. I’m so tired.
Yeah, I didn’t lie to her. I’m really tired. I should have a good rest.
Huang Taiji went to war for more than half a month. I heard that the battlefield was in a stalemate, and I also reached the time when the oil lamp ran out.
It’s time, this palace full of gold, silver and jewelry, this cage, I’ve had enough.
I asked the messenger in the palace to tell me that Concubine Chen was seriously ill and her life was not long.
On September 12, Huang Taiji, who received the news, had a burst of disbelief on his face, followed by grief, awakening and despair.
He put aside all the military affairs in Jinzhou and immediately set off to return to Shengjing. After quietly listening to the messenger’s reply,
I asked him one last question: “Is the emperor in good health?”
“Not good.” He was so anxious that he kowtowed. “The emperor was ill early in the morning, and when he heard the news, he coughed up a mouthful of blood on the spot, and then he felt dizzy and almost fell to the ground.”
“That’s good.” I say.
The messenger looked up in amazement.
I cut off all the medicine and felt the end of life.
Zhe Zhe watched me day and night, and I coughed up all the medicine she poured into my mouth.
“Zhe Zhe, let me live for myself, please.”
She hugged me and cried. She said that Huang Taiji was sorry for me, and Horqin was also sorry for me. If there was an afterlife, don’t be Horqin’s daughter, and don’t be a trapped animal in the palace.
I said well, if there is an afterlife, to be a grass on the Horqin grassland, new year after year, free to wither and flourish.
On September 17, I breathed my last breath. Zhe Zhe said that the emperor was coming soon. He said that he broke camp overnight, urged his horses, and was rushing back to Shengjing to see me at all costs.
“Zhe Zhe.” I said, “Look, I got it.”
I waved to her, “Zhe Zhe, help me.”
“Tell me, what do you want, Hai Lanzhu? What do you want me to do for you?”
I moved my lips and spat out every word with difficulty: “Knife, there is a knife under my pillow.”
She knew that I did not have the strength to explain, but also knew that I could not get up the storm, so she stopped asking questions and helped me take out the knife that Huang Taiji personally gave me and put it into my palm.
I lifted it shakily, breathed like a gossamer, and put the blade to my face with great difficulty. I
hate him. I hate this face. I don’t want to leave anything to him.
I cut the skin of my cheek with great difficulty, and the blood immediately soaked the edge of the knife, and I swam crookedly.
Inch after inch, so laborious, but so happy.
All these years, I don’t want to. This is my happiest moment. The
knife stopped at the root of my ear and fell with the soft drop of my hand.
“Hai Lan Zhu.”
Zhe Zhe called me.
“Concubine Chen has passed away.” Cried the little eunuch
outside.
