Princess Lechang: The lonely wild goose
flies and smashes in disorder. The flying arrow passes by. Deyan and I hold hands tightly all the time. The
city of Jiankang is broken, and the Dynasty is already in chaos!
Beside them were people running for their lives, crying and screaming, and the sound of drums in the distance was beating straight into people’s hearts.
“Be careful.”
Deyan put his arms around me. At
his feet was a stump flying from nowhere.
I glanced at the bloody piece of flesh-I couldn’t really see it, but I was almost sick of it.
Trying to suppress the desire to vomit, I gritted my teeth and said nothing to Deyan. We all know what it means to
be caught. If we can get out of the city, if we can get out of the city together, can we
still get a chance of survival?
The sound was more noisy, and when I looked up, I saw a little fire in the distance.
It’s the rebels! The palms of Deyan and
I were both greasy, and we hurriedly tried to change the way to avoid it, but the sound of hooves came from far to near, and the sparks of fire came from everywhere. We are clearly.. I can’t avoid it.
1
“Long time no see, Princess Lechang.” Behind the
torch, the face of the young general was reflected, half dark and smiling. He sat on his horse, wearing silver armor and holding a silver spear, and cut it straight down like that.
I quickly separated from Deyan, and then I was carried to the horse by him.
“Zhen’er–” Deyan pounced.
“You’re crazy! Let me go!” I wriggled wildly in his arms.
Yang Su grabbed my face and whispered in my ear, “The nobles of heaven, the princess can never escape.”. But if you come with me quietly now, the general will let him go.
With one word, all my movements stopped.
“Really?”
“The general never breaks his word.”
My sudden silence left Deyan at a loss.
“Jeong-ah..”
“Please, General.” I judged the situation and said no more. “Let me say goodbye to my husband.”
Yang Su didn’t stop her. “Go.”
I gave Deyan ugly laugh. “Brother Deyan, we can’t do anything about it.”
“I can’t protect you, I can’t protect you..” He laughed and burst into tears. He put one hand on my face and said, “If I had learned to cherish you earlier, wouldn’t we have had a longer happy time together?”
“Brother Deyan..” My nose is sore.
He took out a small bronze mirror with a delicate water chestnut flower from his bosom. “I wanted to give it to you as a birthday gift today, but I didn’t expect it to be given to you under such circumstances.”
I took the small bronze mirror, looked at it carefully, and then folded it in two, letting the thin edge scratch the blood on my hand.
If there is fate.. This is the mirror, divided and United, as always.
“Alas..”
Deyan took my injured hand, took the half of the bronze mirror, and put his forehead against mine. “If I’m alive, we’ll see each other again.”
I put the half of the bronze mirror into the position closest to my heart in my arms.
Yang Su held out her hand to me on the horse. “Come here.” As soon as
I touched the hand, I was in the air, and he held me on the horse.
“Let’s go.”
“No.”
“What’s the matter? I’ve said what I should say, and I’ve said what I should say. What’s the princess not satisfied with?”
“I have to see him go before I feel at ease.” I said, “General Yang can say that I have a mean heart, but I can’t tolerate any mistakes in my husband’s life.”
“It’s up to you.”
I watched the figure getting smaller and smaller until it completely faded out of sight, confirming that the Sui army could no longer catch up, and then put down a heart for a while.
However, it seems that the whole heart is drifting farther and farther, sinking deep into the bottomless black hole. Stranger
at the end of the world.
And then meet again, I do not know the end of what year, what kind of scene.
“It’s fine, but I hurt my hand.”
Yang Su wrapped a circle of fine cloth around me after applying the medicine.
The princess has golden branches and jade leaves, but she doesn’t cherish her body like this. If you are wounded again, the general will not be spared.
I pulled my hand back quietly.
This is the military camp of the Sui army, and we are the captured imperial dependents of the State of Chen. Once the city is destroyed and the country is destroyed, how can we talk about “golden branches and jade leaves”?
It’s just as cheap as sand and dust, and it’s just a fish.
I met some of my sisters here.
It turned out that apart from the status and title given by the royal family and stripped of the beautiful clothes, the proud daughter of the heavenly family admired by the world was nothing more than Er Er.
Like all the exiled and suffering people in the city of Jiankang, there is no difference between us.
“Oh, isn’t this Sister Twelve?”? Why, in the past it was said that you and your son-in-law were both very kind, but now that disaster is imminent and he has abandoned you, he will end up breaking up.
I sat down on my knees and did not answer.
The seventh sister and the eighth sister had hanged themselves, and the third sister and the tenth sister had become the ghosts of the Sui army. Sister Jiu and I have always been at odds with each other. Do I have to haggle over the gains and losses of her words at this time?
I just don’t know. What is the whereabouts of the emperor’s brother. When he fled in a hurry, he heard that his brother’s whereabouts were unknown, and he did not know what was going on.
My heart is still clenched tightly. It is true that my brother is not a good emperor, but he is the best brother who loves me most.
Fourteen younger sister looked coldly at this side, did not speak.
She always seems to be like this, aloof and reserved. Even if everyone falls into the dirt and mud together at this moment, she is like a crane with a high neck, and can not enter the world.
Perhaps it is also true that on the wedding day, when Xu Deyan told me that the person he really liked was Sister 14, my heart fell straight into the ice cellar.
“Since you don’t want to, why did you accept this marriage?” I
still remember, I remember when my brother finally agreed with me to choose my own son-in-law.
At that time, I felt that the tree was full of beautiful powder, and it seemed that the clouds on the horizon also reflected the girl’s mind. My heart was like a nest of rabbits, and the smile on my lips could not be pressed down.
I wish I could talk to everyone in the city of Jiankang and tell them that I can finally join hands with the young man I miss.
But it turned out that I was a self-sentimental person.
“The Heavenly Family Gives Marriage.” He said with a wry smile, “The whole family is tied up here. How many of you dare to refuse this marriage?”
“What kind of husband can you be if you can’t keep your words?” I left in a huff. Meet
the lantern for the first time, meet again under the porch, and appreciate the poems. He used to hold the first bunch of flowers in the morning for me, and he used to hold an umbrella for me in the rain. I thought.. He has me in his heart.
Thinking round and round, unexpectedly came back to the present.
Yang Su handed me a water bag and said, “Do you want to drink?” When
the troops were recuperating, I heard some of the rebels laughing loudly, even shaking their heads and singing “Yushu Backyard Flowers” like the singers in the palace.
Melancholy music. Melancholy music. It is in this obscene song that
we lose our country and our home.
I looked at the water bag and turned my face away.
Chang’an, the capital of the Sui Dynasty.
Now we are going to bow down at the feet of such a traitor, to be slaves and maidservants.
At that time, you will be more obedient in the temple and wait for the general to ask for a reward from Your Majesty. It’s much better to be someone close to the general than to be a slave in the palace or a prostitute in the camp. Yang Su whispered in my ear, “Did you hear that?”
He clamped my face and I finally nodded.
After he left, the nine elder sisters rolled their eyes disdainfully, but the fourteen younger sisters swept them lightly.
I also know that it serves you right to commit yourself to a thief and be contemptible.
He is also a wicked man who is hated by me, trampled by fighters, and humiliated my mountains and rivers!
Only I also know clearly that being around him is the best choice, and I always have to. Save your life for Deyan to come back. When
the Sui troops returned to the court, all the subjects congratulated them. We were paraded through the streets like rats crossing the street. Turn the
sky upside down.
When I really knelt down on the temple, I knew what it felt like to tremble with hatred. It was as if a serpent was crawling through my body with a message, and every pore of my body was clamoring for the death of the man sitting on the throne.
“Princess Lechang?”
Suddenly hearing my title, I blindfolded my head for a moment, and then raised a pair of red eyes to look at the Sui Emperor.
“The combination of talent and beauty is not empty words.”
“As for whether you will stay or go..”
“Tell Your Majesty.” “I implore Your Majesty,” said Yang Su, “to ask Your Majesty for this woman.” Just then
he was given the title of minister right servant shooting, with the prime minister. Such a high position is already a reward, and now the Sui Emperor’s attitude is ambiguous, or will not allow his request. I shouldn’t have refused
what Aiqing said. But all people love the fragrance and beauty of heaven.
My heart is full of ups and downs. If I enter the palace as a concubine and accompany you, I’m afraid I won’t be able to wait for the day when Deyan comes. I might as well bump my head into death in this hall.
“Your Majesty.” Sweating profusely, he suddenly heard a voice saying, “I would like to invite myself into the palace to serve your majesty.”
I suddenly turned to look, but it was fourteen younger sisters. Although
she was kneeling, her neck was not bent.
She didn’t look at me, but every word was a fulfillment.
“Ha ha ha, good, good.” Emperor Sui was overjoyed. “In my opinion, Princess Ningyuan has courage and insight.”. Her charm and appearance are even better than those of Princess Lechang.
“I will give you Princess Lechang as a concubine according to the words of Aiqing.”
“Thank you, Your Majesty.”
Sitting on the carriage and horse to Yang Fu, I was still uncertain. I don’t know whether it’s cold or fear, but I know that my mind is in a mess and my whole body is out of my control.
Yang Su took me in his arms. Are you
afraid? I don’t know what happened to the fierce way I slanted at me before.
I didn’t have the consciousness or the strength to push him away, and my body was still shaking.
His tone softened again. It
‘s all right, we’ll be home soon. Just take a good bath at home and get some sleep.
He kisses my hair, and all I hear is crazy talk.
Home? I don’t have a home.
Consciousness is more and more confused, and the scene in front of us is fragmented. At
this moment, I was so exhausted that I closed my eyes in his arms.
4
“Madame is awake!”
As soon as he opened his eyes, he heard the servant speak.
I still have a headache, and the position of my internal organs seems to have been run over by something.
The waiter chattered around me like a magpie.
“Your ladyship has woken up, and the maidservant is dressing her.”
“Who are you? I’m..” Naturally,
I am in Yang Fu. Little Cui,
the maidservant, this is in the lady’s bedroom. Last night the general came back with his wife in his arms, stripped and washed her with his own hands, and told the maidservants not to disturb her rest.
He probably didn’t spend the night here last night.
Before I saw Yang Su, I changed my clothes and ate according to what the waiter said.
Then he was called to the room by Chen, Yang Su’s wife.
Chen Shi, born in a noble family, has a charming temperament.
This is what Xiao Cui told me.
“Madam, when you see the first lady, you’ll have to be a little lower. You mustn’t contradict her.”
I said yes.
I have no intention of competing for favor, nor do I want to make everyone unhappy. I just want to live in peace in this house until the day when I see Deyan again.
“Sister Zhen’er.” “If I hadn’t sent for you, I probably wouldn’t have come to pay my respects today.”
I was a little stunned for a moment. I’ve been held in the palm of everyone’s hand
since I was a child, and no one has ever made such an attitude towards me.
But I also know that today is not what it used to be, and I am just a plaything now.
“It’s my fault. I should have come earlier to pay my respects to my sister.”
My attitude was so low that she could not continue to find fault with the matter, squinting and changing her words.
“I thought I was such a beautiful person, but I guess that’s all.”
“My concubine looks like a cattail tree and a willow tree, but she is far inferior to a lady who looks like a crescent moon and a shy flower.”
Maybe my soft persimmon was really boring. She pressed me a few words and asked me to go back.
I’m not interested in Mrs. Chen at all. Just another woman standing in the hall, with bright eyes and white snow, without joy or anger, had the posture of fourteen younger sisters.
Xiao Cui said that her name was Hong Fu, and she was a singer. In the
evening, Yang Su came to my room to look for me.
“I heard that Chen is making trouble for you?”
“No.”
“Why are you still so indifferent to this general, huh?”
He pulled me onto the bed and pinned me down.
“You’re already one of my generals. How long do you want to hide, and how long can you hide?”
I looked into his eyes and pointed to his heart. “There are already people here.”
“Do you like that gigolo so much?” “Your unfortunate son-in-law may have died on the road of exile,” he laughed.
“He didn’t.”
“How do you know he didn’t?” He pinched my waist with a bad heart. “The general said he was lying dead in the street.”
“He didn’t!” I stared at him.
“People all say that Princess Lechang is virtuous and virtuous.” He rubbed the back of his hand against my face. “I’m afraid the world has never seen you angry. You look like a little tiger calf.”
Then he got up and let me go. He
sat on a chair beside him and peeled a grape for himself.
Tell me how long it will take. How long will it take you to completely give up on Hsu Teh-yen?
“Impossible.”
“The general doesn’t like to be forced, and always feels that it’s better for a woman to be sincerely convinced.” He said, “But this general can’t see that his women always have such a heart.”
Three years, a deadline for you. After three years, I want you to have no distractions and belong to me completely.
I lay on the bed and grabbed my collar. Is it me?
He looked at me and said, “The first time I saw you, I liked you.” A lot of things happened on the Lantern Festival
two years ago.
One thing is that I met Deyan.
He picked up my handkerchief and returned it to me. I
have no reward, but I give it with a poem.
He also gave me flowing clouds and running water poems, which impressed me with his literary talent. It’s the first time
I’ve seen such a good-looking young man.
He was dressed in white, full of bookishness, and had not been contaminated by any stink of money. As long as you smile there, you can turn your heart into a lake of spring water.
I was wearing a curtain hat, and my face was flushed under the curtain hat. I dared to invite him to go with me to guess riddles and appreciate poems, but I was too ashamed to say much.
We got to know each other and went home happily. He said his name was Xu Deyan, and he was responsible for giving up the prince.
I didn’t leave my name, but I was happy to get his identity, thinking that I could go to the prince to see him more in the future.
But I was separated from him for a long time, and before I could be happy, I was put to the neck with a knife.
“Don’t move.” The man’s voice was gloomy and sorrowful. “Play a scene with me, and then I’ll let you go.” The girl who was
following me was about to cry: “Miss..”
“Don’t talk.” I said to her.
Then he opened his mouth to the man who held me captive, “I will cooperate with you in whatever you want to do, and I will give you all the money you have, if you do not take my life.”
“The young lady has a good sense of appearance, but she’s not like the other girls in the boudoir.”
He led me into a narrow lane, but he took off my hat, half untied my robe, and buried his head in my neck to make an intimate gesture. I
was ashamed and angry, and I had never been so frivolous.
Nearby is the Qinlou Chu Hall, and there are many benefactors in the dark alleys who can’t bear it. And he was clearly waiting for me with the inferior prostitutes-running through a group of noisy footsteps at the entrance of
the alley, the armor collided hand to hand, and it was clear that the Yu Lin Wei in the city was doing a search.
When he left, I pushed him away.
His words are still dissolute. “It’s easy to get out of trouble, but I don’t want to find a beauty with such a symbol.”
“I remember the beauty’s appearance, and if I see her again in the future, I will always thank her for saving her life today.”
Who wants to say goodbye to him!
Although I was angry, I was afraid that he would become angry from embarrassment, and I did not dare to say what I thought in my heart, so I simply tidied up my clothes, put on my hat and pretended to be dumb and left.
Unexpectedly, I saw him again Hall of the Supreme Principle! Envoys of
the Sui Dynasty, a title of generals in ancient times.
No matter how many titles he had and how many awards he received, everyone praised him as the favored son of the world. There is only one word in
my mind: the prodigal son. Naturally,
he also recognized me. “In front of Princess Lechang, behind Princess Lechang,” he flattered me and annoyed me all the time.
Thanks to me, I often hide in the prince’s mansion and hide my identity to talk with Deyan. Deyan Xiujie Jiaojiao can really solve the worries brought by this fellow. When
Yang Su was about to leave, he said, “How about goodbye?” He bluffed me so much that I coaxed my brother to agree to the marriage, for fear of complications.
But now.. Things are still like this.
If we hadn’t seen each other that day, maybe the situation would have been completely different.
Maybe worse.. Maybe. Maybe Deyan and I will escape.
I sent some gifts to Hong Fu.
I see that she feels close, and somehow I’m always looking forward to making friends with her.
Perhaps it was because she was too similar to the fourteen younger sisters.
Fourteen sisters.. Fourteen younger sister also do not know how.
Yang Su always said how well Emperor Sui treated her, but in her heart, she was always unhappy.
Who can be happy? In this case, the lost dog, fawning. I’m just a clay sculpture crossing the river, and it’s just as hard.
I like your handkerchief. Since we have received your gift, how about inviting you to play with us? Hong Fu said so.
My embroidered veil was so popular that it reminded me of an interesting thing.
That’s when I make up with Deyan.
Not to mention the fact that I always call him a fool who can even mistake people.
“Is this veil yours?” I still remember his jaw dropping at that time. “Was it you I met on the Lantern Festival?”
“Was it you that I saw in the prince’s house?”
“Who else do you think it is? Fourteen sisters?”
I feel a little stupefied, too, both happy and stupefied. He doesn’t say I don’t ask, still think he loves 14 younger sister early, originally also is not I flatter oneself.
“I asked the prince, and he said clearly that the woman on the porch was Princess Ningyuan.”
“I’m similar in shape to Sister Fourteen, and I wear a hat. I don’t know if he made a mistake for a moment.”
I looked at Deyan. Deyan looked at me.
Really angry and laughing, laughing and angry. After so
many days of sadness, it was all a misunderstanding. We
should be a couple of nerds.
……
“What are you thinking? It’s your turn to play your cards.” Hong Fu waved his hand in front of my eyes. “I’m still in a trance when I play the leaf card.”
Yeah, I can think of Deyan no matter what I do. Is
he all right? It’s better
to be safe.
I threw the cards in my hand and thought to myself, “If Deyan doesn’t show up for a long time, I’m afraid I’m going to carry our memories a few times.”.
“That card is wrong.” Startled,
I looked up, but it was Yang Su. I don’t know when
he showed up and looked at me with a smile. “You deserve to lose so much money.”
They all stood up and said, “General.”
Hong Fu’s attitude was cold, and he was not happy because of Yang Su’s arrival.
“No, no, sit down.” With a wave of his hand, he said, “Ah Ching, go with my general.”
I was stunned for a moment before I realized that he was calling me.
My real name is Chen Zhen, but no one ever calls me Ah Zhen.
“Hong Fu has a cold temper, but you can play with her, which shows that you are also likable.” Yang Su teased me.
I ignored him and asked him directly, “What are you looking for a concubine for?”
“Can’t I look for you if I have nothing to do?”
He led me to sit down in the pavilion.
“I heard that Princess Lechang loved poetry and prose, and now the Japanese generals have thrown in their lot to please her.” When I
sat down, I found that the dishes in the lake were the style of winding water and flowing cups. And pick up a dish, there is a poem on it.
I read a few of them carefully, and they are also good sentences.
“I have thanked the general.” I stood up and said, “But I’m not hungry. The general might as well pick up these delicacies and give them to the people in the mansion. It’s better than wasting them.”
I don’t want to accept his kindness. It’s okay to say that I don’t know what’s good for me. Now I can’t accept the favor.
And I just caught a glimpse of Chen’s jealous face, which was somewhat deformed. I’m afraid that now, I’ve been hated by her.
Sure enough, Chen called me over to listen to the training for several days.
Now her birthday banquet, the banquet has nothing to do with me, but let me go with the purchase. Even if something goes wrong, I can be punished on my head.
I went obediently.
Everything is fine, except that I can’t help but retch a little when I see the greasy pork knuckle. It doesn’t seem to be a good excuse not to smell the smell of meat
since childhood, but he was punished to kneel for a few hours. Every time
Yang Su wanted to attack me, she was always stopped by me. I didn’t want to add fire to her heart, in exchange for more serious treatment.
After all, she was the wife, and I was just a concubine who was described as “dressed and undressed.”.
However, I often have a bad stomach recently, and I doubt it after a long time. Hand gently touch the lower abdomen, is not it?
I carefully hid all my differences, and when I ate with Yang Su, I tried my best to suppress the disgusting desire of the upwelling food, and my fingertips almost tore my skin.
“You don’t look very well these days. Would you like a herbalist to come and see you?”
I shook my head.
No.
I want to wait a little longer, a little longer.
Although I also know that such behavior is almost crazy and stupid, but this is the only bond between Deyan and me in this world, self-deception is also good, if the child grows up enough, can we try to keep it? When
Chen called me again, I knew I couldn’t hide it.
She gave me a bowl of milk tea.
“Drink it.”
I back again and again, such a heavy smell of things, even if close to some will be nausea.
“Squeeze her!” “Pour the abortifacient into her mouth!” I
wanted to run, but I couldn’t compete with a few strong servants like that.
Like a ghost sent by the King of Hell, he took half my life in one fell swoop. The moment the
blood flowed out, I suddenly realized that I could not keep anything.
Pride, honor, husband, children..
Yang Su came just before I was about to faint, and he couldn’t save me.
He just wanted to split his eyes, weeping blood to Chen Shi.
“It’s hard for my wife to be so jealous!”
I lay in bed for a long time. When I
woke up and saw Yang Su, I said to him, “If that’s the case, it’s your wish.”
I have less ties with Deyan, and then a little less, will there be only a light myself left in the world in the end?
“The general is different from the jealous woman.” His eyes were also a little red. “If I had known first, I wouldn’t have been able to tolerate him.”
“That’s all.”
I also know that he should not be alive. Even if he can live in the Yang Mansion, in what capacity will he be?
“His mother couldn’t protect him, so it was a good thing to leave early, so he wouldn’t have to suffer in the world.”
Yang Su held my palm for a long time and did not speak again.
But Hongfu came to see me.
“You don’t have to be too sad. Everything is predestined.” She said, “Besides, no matter how much the general favors you, he can’t always protect you. That’s also true.”. You still have to rely on yourself.
Then she added, “None of the men in the world are good.”
I really want to tell her that there are still some.
If my Deyan were beside me, he would surely let me rest on his knee, touch my hair all the time, and coax me with nice words. When I finally no longer sad, kiss my forehead, conjure up a candy to coax me.
But my Deyan is not around me, I don’t even know if he is here, so I can’t say anything, just keep crying, as if all the words have been hidden in the tears.
Yang Su took me to see Sister 14, who was already Mrs. Xuanhua.
She was dressed in a long, elegant and magnificent dress of brocade, embroidered with pearls and agates. On the head also fell the step to shake the flower hairpin, a step shakes, the towering cloud bun also must follow to tremble on a tremble.
My little fourteen doesn’t like gold and silver most. Are you tired of wearing these clothes? Instead of saluting,
I rushed up and hugged her, sobbing and crying.
Little Fourteen patted me on the back. “Sister, Fourteen knows your difficulties. Fourteen knows.” I’m
just, I’m so sad.
I know that fourteen is a hundred times more difficult than me in this palace of treading on thin ice. I know that she has given me the opportunity. I know everything, but I wish I didn’t know anything. We can’t
go back, we can’t go back..
“Sister.” Little 14 said to me, “The road is all chosen by myself. My sister doesn’t have to worry about me, and she doesn’t have to feel burdened.”. I know my sister has something in her heart, right? My sister’s husband must still be waiting for her. If she’s tired, she can choose not to wait for him and live a good life with General Yang.
“My sister can do whatever she wants. My sister’s life is her own. I don’t want to be a lobbyist for anyone. I just want my sister to be happy.”
Xiao 14 said.
“My sister will do as she pleases, won’t she?” On the way
back, Yang Su handed me a handkerchief and said, “Don’t always make your eyes swollen, okay?”
I still ignored him.
Yang Su withdrew his hand resentfully.
A few days later, he kicked the door of my house with the smell of alcohol and kicked everyone out.
I was already asleep, and he was still trying to pull me.
Chen Chen, what are you going to do? How many days have you been sad? If that child is really so precious, will General Ben give birth to one with you?
He was deceiving himself, and I tried my best to refuse, but it was clear that he was using his arm as a car.
You said.. Don’t force me.
“I went back on my word.” He said, “I can’t help it.”
I sobbed all night, and in the morning he held me in his arms.
I knew it would come sooner or later, but, but..
He put his chin on my head. “Did General Ben hurt you?”
“No..”
He pulled his arms in tighter. “Then go to sleep.”
After a while, I was much better, and Yang Su began to take me to ride a horse.
I was sitting on my horse, and he led the horse in front of me. As he walked, he said, “I don’t like those poor scholars in the south who only know how to play with words every day.”
“It doesn’t feel so bad on horseback, does it?”
Riding is also good, but I still like my small flower garden in Chen. Deyan and I sit on the flower shelf, basking in the sun, listening to him read poems to me.
I think of Deyan again. I haven’t seen him for a long time.
“Forget it.” Yang Su says, “You can’t really feel the joy of riding a horse at first sight.”
“After a while, my general will take you to the Lantern Festival.”
Yang Su is really afraid of my cold. Three layers
inside and three layers outside, the fox fur cloak wrapped me like a ball.
He led me all the way to talk about what we couldn’t eat in the south and what he liked to eat when he was young.
Then he gave me a bag of chestnuts and asked me to wait for him by the roadside.
He squeezed into the crowd and went to buy something. I stood under the eaves of the teahouse and heard the storyteller telling a story. It’s
about my story.
It is said that Princess Lechang was extremely favored when she entered the General’s Office. General Yang loved her so much that he held her in his mouth every day, coaxing the princess to forget her national hatred and family hatred.
National hatred and family hatred. I squatted slowly on the ground.
Yang Su came back and took my hand.
“Why is it so cold?” He asked.
I smiled at him with a white face and shook my head.
Nothing. How can I forget the
national hatred and family hatred?
I asked Xiaocui if there was a very trustworthy Laodan.
“At the Lantern Festival, the most crowded street market, help me carry this half of a bronze mirror and sell it.”
“It’s just that no matter how high the price is, don’t give it unless someone comes along with a piece that can be put together, and then tell me, okay?”
I look forward with a hopeful heart. The appearance
of Deyan, or news. In the
evening, Yang Su came to my room. He was still carrying the temperature of the ice and snow outside. He leaned against me regardless.
I reached out and pushed him. “You’re so cold.”
“You can’t forget him, can you?” He spoke and rubbed his chin against my face. But
I froze and forgot to move.
“Three days.” He closed his eyes. “The general will only give you three days to look for him.”
“If you can’t find it, give your heart back to the general.”
He took me in his arms again and rubbed his chin against the top of my hair. “Do you understand?”
I understand.
I will let people hold half a bronze mirror in their hands and sell it at a high price in the street market with my piety on every Lantern Festival in three years.
When we first met.
I believe that if there is a Lingxi in the heart, the moral language will understand it.
I didn’t wait for Deyan, not even the next year.
I have even begun to pray that if he dies, it must be far away, somewhere I don’t know. I am
afraid that my faith will collapse, and I will live in a muddle day after day, and sooner or later I will die in the endless days. Nothing new has happened
in these two years.
Only one, about Hongfu.
The man said, “There is no good man in the world.” Suddenly one day she came to me and told me that she had found the best man in the world and wanted to fly with him and escape together.
I wish them the best and hope they get what they want.
“Madam, madam!” Little Cui called me, “Hong Fu has been captured by the general.”
I sat up suddenly, it was late at night, but my mind was very clear.
I’m going to ask Yang Su.
I pulled up my shoes at random, put on a few clothes and ran to beg him.
Kneeling at his feet, I said, “General, Ah Chen, please.”. Please, let Hong Fu go.
He was silent for a long time.
I lowered my eyebrows and said, “Ah Chen will do anything as long as the general lets Hong Fu go.”
Later, Yang Su finally let go, he not only let her go, but also let them fly away, and even promised the man a county official position.
“Put on your clothes, for the ground is cool.” He lifted my face. “You always have such a good heart for people.”
He added, “The general wants you to love me without a grudge. Can you do that?”
I prostrated myself on the ground and said, My concubine.. Can’t forget. The impassable gap between
us, separated by millions of corpses, separated by countless lives and personal feelings.
I finally got the news of Deyan in the third year.
He said that someone took the other half of the bronze mirror fragments to compare, inquired about my news and left a poem for me. The
mirror and the man are all gone, but the mirror returns and the man does not return. There is no more Chang’e’s shadow, and the bright moon shines in the sky.
Without the shadow of Chang’e, the moonlight shines in the sky. There is no more Chang’e’s shadow, and the bright moon shines in the sky.
I held the note and laughed and cried. If
he found me, why didn’t he come to see me?
I almost ran out of the house like crazy and ran into the street, shouting, “Xu Deyan, if you can’t do what you say, what kind of husband are you?”
That’s what I said to him on the first day we got married, and that’s what he said to me after he was demoted for speaking out to his brother. What kind of husband is a man who
can’t do what he says?
Why didn’t you come to me? Why did you leave me here alone?
The snow was so deep that my shoes and socks were soaked. Sitting in the snow with my knees in my arms and crying, my clothes were half wet, but I didn’t feel cold, but my heart seemed to be covered with snow.
Yang Su walked out of the house to find me and picked me up.
“Go home.” He said.
13
Deyan came to Yangfu.
Yang Su said, “He found it himself.”
I found that I still didn’t know Yang Su well enough. I had been around him for so long that I couldn’t tell whether Deyan was found by himself or invited by Yang Su.
Yang Su said, “When I saw him, I gave up.”
I said yes.
Then I met Deyan. I saw him again
after three long years.
He is much darker and thinner. The skin is not as smooth as before, and there are traces of wind and frost on the face.
But as long as I look at him, I have to clench my teeth to keep my tears from falling.
Yang Su said, “I’m going to see why the tea isn’t ready yet.” After
Yang Su left, I once tried to call him out, only to find that the voice didn’t seem to be my own. It was bitter and astringent, and I couldn’t stop my tears.
“Zhen’er–” Deyan opened his mouth, his voice equally bitter and astringent. “I’ve been thinking about how you’re doing,”
he said, holding on. Now that I see that you are living a good life, I am relieved.
I don’t want to hear that from him. Not at all. Where have
you been these three years? Why, so late? I choked up again.
“These three years..” He smiled bitterly. “Bad luck.”. Encounter roving bandits, rioters.. Without money, it’s such a long way to Chang’an..
My heart began to ache again.
Yang Su came in and saw me crying again. Will
you stop crying all the time? Um, little crying bag? He approached me as if to put his arm around me to comfort me.
But I subconsciously staggered.
I didn’t think that my body would react before my mind.
“I’m not.” I wanted to explain, but I found that everything I said now was wrong.
Yes, Deyan looked for me for three years, but in these three years, did Yang Su treat me badly? It
‘s not bad, but it’s beyond measure, so I can’t repay it.
I stopped crying and didn’t want to open my mouth again, so I just wrote a poem.
“What’s the move today? New officials versus old officials.”. If you don’t dare to laugh or cry, it will be difficult to be a man.
Then I hid in my room and didn’t want to see anyone anymore.
I cried in the quilt, and Yang Su pulled me up.
“I’ll let you go.” His tone was serious, not like a joke. “Why?”
I asked him with my red eyes twitching.
“Ah Ching.” He slowly stroked my head and said, “I’ll probably never get the thing that sparkles in Xu’s eyes when you look at it.”
I still chose to leave with Deyan.
On the day of my departure, Yang Su saw me off at the gate of the mansion.
I walked forward for a long time, but I couldn’t help rushing back to give him a hug.
“Thank you.”
He also hugged me tightly and quickly released me.
“I’m afraid that’s the only thing you’ve said to me over the past three years.” When
we walked forward for a while and looked back, Yang Su was still standing there.
I waved goodbye to him and he answered me with a smile.
Just afraid of this life. I’ll never see you again. In the days that
followed, Deyan and I returned to our native land.
It just doesn’t belong to the house we went to.
Instead, I will go boating in the south of the Yangtze River and wish for the rest of my life.
