Royal Green Plum
Old Friends Sigh: Do not ask the end of the song, people gather and disperse
. In the ninth year of Mingde, the imperial concubine Chen, who had enjoyed a glorious life, passed away.
“I’ll drink this cup of poisoned wine first and wait for the empress on the ground.” Chen Wanyu said and drank the poisoned wine in one gulp.
In a short time, she died, and a generation of beauties died, ending decades of glory and favor.
I stood up and looked down at her, stepped over her gorgeous clothes, pushed open the palace door, and the sunshine came in, illuminating the dust-laden memory. In the twenty-seventh year
of Jinghe, the late emperor died, and Kuang Xu ascended the throne. I was the queen, and I was given the title of Jingde.
People all know that emperors and empresses sing harmoniously and respect each other. It is true to respect
each other, and the harmony of the harp and the harp is for outsiders to see. Kuang Xu and I only maintain harmony on the surface, but in fact we hate each other. In the eleventh year
of Jinghe, when I was five years old, I was still an ignorant child. I let my wet nurse pin the pearl hairpin into the double bun on my head. She looked at my appearance carefully and nodded with great satisfaction. “The girl looks like this. She has the elegance of a young empress.” The empress is my own aunt.
In the early years, the slippery fetus hurt the foundation, and the knee had nothing to do for many years, so the emperor granted the six princes Kuang Xu to raise him. Although
aunt is the Lord of the six palaces, others respect her and fear her, even Kuang Xu dare not say much in front of her. But she treated me very well, not only preparing delicious snacks for me early, but also cutting beautiful clothes for me, which was envied by outsiders.
My aunt told me that I would sit in her seat in the future.
I have known since I was a child that my marriage will not be decided by me.
My aunt took me to live in the palace every three or five times in order to cultivate feelings with Kuang Xu.
I don’t like him, and neither does he.
Kuang Xu promised my aunt to take me to play well, but he deliberately left me at the corner and showed up again before my aunt came.
He left me in Imperial Garden. I was young at that time, and there was no one close to me. I could only squat by the rockery and shed tears secretly. I didn’t dare to make a sound for fear of being heard. Before
I entered the palace, my mother repeatedly told me not to cry in the palace, but to be happy, otherwise my aunt would no longer like me.
I was really scared, and I remembered my mother’s words, so I could only hide and cry.
But in the end, my aunt asked, and I told her with a smile and a feast that Kuang Xu treated me well and was very happy in the palace.
Kuang Xu glanced at me. He was four years older than me and a head taller than me. That night, he seemed to mock my hypocrisy in this matter.
Kuang Xu still did not like me, but I never told my aunt that he was not good, always after he left me to be known by my aunt, he found an excuse to whitewash peace.
In fact, that day, General Duan took his only son, Duan Su, back to the court. Duan Su was led into Imperial Garden by his father-in-law. He always had a good ear. He found me in the rockery, held me in his arms, and wiped away my tears with his sleeve. At that time
, Duan Su was just a young man who had not reached the crown. He coaxed me softly and played with me for a while before leaving.
Before I left, I stopped him and put the hair on his head into his hand. “Brother, my name is Shen Mingshu. What’s your name?” Half kneeling
, Tuan Su looked at me at the same level. “My name is Tuan Su.”
I felt a little reluctant to part with him. “Brother, my father is Shen Yuncen, and my family lives in Shen Guogong’s mansion. Can you often come to play with me?”
He touched the top of my hair and agreed with me, “Well, I’ll come and play with you often.”
I held out my little finger and said, “Pull the hook!”
“Okay, okay, pull the hook, pull the hook..”
But later, I did not wait for Duan Su to come at home day after day, for which I was sad for a long time.
Later, as I grew older, the matter faded.
Many years later, when he saw each other again, he was already an independent general of Zhennan.
He stretched out his hand to touch the top of my hair, but pulled it back. “You’ve grown so big,” he said with a hoarse laugh.
I look at him, but I don’t remember him.
At night, cicadas chirped loudly. I stood in front of the window in my middle clothes, watching the shadows of the trees shaking in the courtyard. I was absent for a moment.
Fourteen years later, when I was eight years old, it was a fun time for children, but my mother treated me very harshly. My aunt hired a nurse for me to teach me poetry, calligraphy, piano and painting during the day and rules at night. I won’t get half a minute to breathe
until I don’t have any mistakes.
She took me to the flower fair, and the girls of the same age were not as good as me. Outsiders all praised me for my good manners and my aunt’s youthful demeanor.
But I envy those girls who can fly a paper kite, the paper kite flies high in the sky, and the girls laugh like a silver bell.
Kuang Xu once gave a girl a paper kite, because he accidentally shot her paper kite, as an apology, Kuang Xu personally made a paper kite for her.
I watched him carefully paint the paper kite with gold powder and hang the octagonal copper bell, which was very delicate and beautiful.
After they left, I picked up the paper kite with footprints on it, which was shot by him. It was also a beautiful paper kite, although not as beautiful as the one sent by Kuang Xu.
That night, not long after I lay down, I got up in the middle of the night to eat tea because I was thirsty. I found a paper kite beside my pillow. It was more exquisite and beautiful than one Kuang Xu sent out in the daytime. It not only hung a copper bell, but also wrote my name “Shen Mingshu” on the back.
I put it away carefully, and it was my secret for a long time.
Three
scenes and twenty years ago, on the Lantern Festival that year, my mother gave me special permission to go out. To put it bluntly, it was also to visit the Lantern Festival with Kuang Xu. As usual
, Kuang Xu left me alone in the street market after going out.
The Lantern Festival was so crowded that I seldom went out on weekdays and lost my way in a short time.
I was pushed to the river by the people coming and going, and I was about to fall into the river, but I was held by a strong arm, so I didn’t fall.
I saluted him and thanked him. Before I looked up, I heard him call my name: “Mingshu, do you still remember me?”
I raised my head and looked at the benefactor, who was dressed in deep purple brocade, with high hair, delicate and picturesque eyebrows and eyes, but heroic. He was a very beautiful young man.
Although not as good-looking as Kuang Xu, he is more fierce and heroic than Kuang Xu, but I really can’t figure out who he is.
He looked at my height and said, “I’m much taller. Don’t you remember me?”
I gently shook my head, and he smiled, looking brighter than moon in the sky. “My name is Tuan Su, and I’m a little girl of the Shen family.”
But I still couldn’t remember who he was. He just smiled and said, “It’s not a big deal, little girl. You follow me and don’t be pushed down again.”
Duan Su took me around, guessing riddles written on lanterns, putting lanterns, and eating things I had never touched before.
Duan Su guessed that the riddles written on lanterns was very powerful, and soon his hands were filled with small things he had won.
He chose a delicate beaded flower from it and pinned it on my head, looking at it appreciatively.
We squatted by the river to put lanterns and make a wish to the lanterns. I learned from him and made a wish with my eyes closed. When I opened my eyes, I saw Kuang Xu on the other side of the river.
Across the river, Kuang Xu and a girl are also putting lanterns, the girl looked at the lantern, Kuang Xu looked at the girl.
I know that girl, that is Kuang Xu sent the paper kite girl, her name is Chen Wanyu, is a beautiful girl, is also Kuang Xu’s sweetheart, he left me is to accompany that girl.
Kuang Xu saw me and turned his head lightly. He probably thought I was following him again.
Duan Su sent me back to the mansion. He told me that he would go to war tomorrow and came to see me before he left.
I am a little reluctant to part with him, but I know this is a military order, he must go, I can only wish him a triumphant return.
From my neck, I took off the safety buckle from childhood to adulthood and gave it to him, hoping that he could come back safely!
The next day, when Duan Su was about to go to war, I sneaked out of the house, which was probably the most presumptuous time I had had in more than ten years.
I stood on the gate tower and watched him. He looked back, as if he had seen me, and waved to me. After
I returned home, my mother knew that I had gone out secretly and punished me to kneel in the ancestral temple. I was not unhappy about the punishment, but worried about whether he was safe or not. In the 21st year
of Jinghe, Kuang Xu, who was already the crown prince, insisted on bringing Chen Wanyu into the mansion despite his aunt’s obstruction. His action not only hit my aunt in the face, but also hit me in the face.
Mother cried in front of me about Kuang Xu’s behavior, but I was absent-minded. I had just received a letter from Duan Su. His letter said that he had won a great victory this time and that he would send troops back to the court in a few days.
I asked my mother tentatively, “Even so, if he has a sweetheart, I will help him.”
Mother accused me again, saying that I did not take good care of him, but let others take advantage of the loopholes, so scolded, I knew that there was no other possibility.
The scolding also diluted the joy in my heart, and I swallowed the delusion in my heart and never mentioned it again. In the 23rd year
of Jinghe, Kuang Xu ascended the throne, and his beloved Chen Wanyu was given the title of imperial concubine. At that time, they already had a pair of children, and they loved each other very much. On the
wedding day, Kuang Xu did not lie on the same bed with me, and even the blood on the veil was left by me cutting my wrist.
I sat at the table looking at the flaming dragon and phoenix candles, and he looked at me with unconcealed disgust in his eyes.
I was too lazy to pretend to be virtuous, and I didn’t give him half a look.
Since that day, he has never stepped into my palace again, and I am too lazy to deal with Yingying and Yanyan, so I avoid their greetings.
For a long time, the palace only knew the imperial concubine’s honor and favor, and did not remember that the empress was the empress of the main palace.
My female officials complained to me many times about Chen Guifei’s bullying, but I just waved my hand and ignored the world.
My aunt was very old, so she retired to the harem early, eating fast and worshipping Buddha all day long.
The days passed day by day. My mother often came to the palace. She was just worried that I had not been in the palace for many years. My face was not obvious. I laughed in my heart. I had never slept with Kuang Xu. How could I have children. I was more concerned about the war in southern Xinjiang
than how to get Kuang Xu’s favor. Suddenly one day, news of victory came from southern Xinjiang. The general was missing and his life was uncertain.
I was plucking the strings when I heard the news and accidentally broke the strings, which made my hands red and made a deep mark.
I am anxious, I comfort myself in my heart, no, he will be all right, but the trembling hand betrayed me. Kuang Xu, whom I hate to see most
on weekdays, has now become the only life-saving straw.
I went to the Imperial Study to look for him, but I was stopped at the door. After many hours, he let me in. I knew he was trying to make things difficult for me. As
I knelt before him, he frowned. “What do you mean?”
I bowed my head and said nothing. “Shen Ming-shu, are you here for Duan Su?”
He sneered.
I looked at him and said, “Your Majesty, please send someone to find General Duan. I am willing to abdicate.”
Kuang Xu threw the paperweight on the case at me, but I didn’t escape and let him break my forehead. In
an instant, the blood flowed down my cheeks and stained my clothes red.
He stepped forward and clamped my chin. “Shen Mingshu, this is my world, and you are my woman. I hope you recognize this fact.”. Go away. I don’t want to see you again. I
knew that I was begging him to no avail, so I stood up and saluted him and left. The blood on the
forehead stained my sight, and I was helped by the palace people to leave the Imperial Study step by step.
I didn’t care how embarrassed I looked, and I didn’t want to care what the concubines in the palace would say about me tomorrow.
I closed the gate of the palace to make the already deserted Zhonggong even more deserted. The female officer
beside me was anxious and angry. She was anxious that I didn’t care. She was angry that it was too ugly to hear outside. I just smiled and went to play my piano again. After
autumn, a rare guest came to the normally deserted Zhonggong Palace, Chen Wanyu, who was already an imperial concubine.
As if I didn’t see her, I played the piano. She put something in front of me. The sound of the piano suddenly stopped and another string was broken.
She was dressed in gorgeous clothes, and although she was already a mother of two children, she was very beautiful. She smiled beautifully, but what she said broke my heart: “This was found on the corpse of General Duan. He held this safety button until he died.”
I took the peace button. The blue and white jade button was engraved with the small characters of peace and happiness. It was clearly a common and visible peace button, but it made me tremble with fear. There was a scratch in the subtle place, that is, the peace button I gave to Duan Su!
I could no longer hold my usual complexion, and tears fell down unconsciously.
Duan Su is really dead. “Why did you tell me?”
I asked her with a smile.
Chen Wan-yu touched Dong-chu, who was the size of her thumb, and said, You’ve been sitting in this position for a long time, and now you’re going to have to find someone else. Duan Su is dead, but the empress is so sad, is it not an affair? Let me think. Could it be that the Shen family knows all about it?
Look, I think it’s ridiculous that she convicted me in two or three strokes.
“Chen Wan-yu, if this palace does not die, you will be a concubine after all.” I stood up and looked down at her. “Shen Mingshu,” said
Chen Wanyu with a sneer, “neither you nor the Shen family can escape. Everything you do now is in vain.”
At night, Kuang Xu came.
He stared straight at me with a chill.
I glanced up at him, and he seemed irritated by me. He picked me up on his shoulders and threw me on the bed. After decades of
marriage, we had never been a couple. He was on top of me. I looked at him a little sarcastically. He covered my eyes, as if he dared not look at me.
Tears flowed down my ears and temples and soaked my pillow. I closed my eyes, but the tears were like broken beads.
Ming De ten years, March, spring, I gave birth to my only child in this life, Kuang Xu named him Kuang Jia.
I looked at the child, a small, soft mass, lying quietly beside me, the tenderness of his tentacles filling a vacancy.
Kuang Xu seems to like this child, decades into the palace can be counted on one’s fingers, but for the child many times to stay in the palace.
He held the child carefully. Even though he had several children, he was afraid of hurting him. He would ask me how to take care of the child. At that time, he was really like a father.
Come to think of it, it’s ridiculous that we have known each other for nearly 20 years, but we can get along like a normal couple.
This kind of peace only exists for a short time, the children in the palace are easy to die early, Kuang Jia can not survive, he was poisoned. A
small mass, high fever, fever for several days, the body is surprisingly hot. The
palace doctor tried his best but could not save him. At that moment, my heart seemed to be dead.
Kuang Xu is probably also very uncomfortable, like when he was here, he came every day, standing next to me, watching me shake the cradle where Kuang Jia once slept.
He grabbed the cradle so that I couldn’t shake it. He held me in his arms and said, “Shen Mingshu, I know Kuang Jia is dead. You are very sad. We will have children again.”
I cried to get out of his arms, “No, no!”
He put his arms around me and kissed the tears on my face. “Mingshu, yes, I will.”
I kicked him, bit him, told him to roll, but he still put his arms around me, as if to comfort me, as if to comfort himself.
I burned all Kuang Jia’s things, just like Kuang Xu said, and started again.
He stayed in the palace every day, and I catered to him like other concubines, and we were like ordinary couples.
But I couldn’t close my eyes all night. As soon as I closed my eyes, I could see Kuang Jia smiling at me.
He told me, mother, I’m in pain.
Chen Wanyu probably did not expect that such a weak person as me would fight back and kill him with one blow in such a way.
Chen Wanyu is a dominant, in the palace these years in her hands do not know how many children lost, I do not want to pay attention to, now everything has evidence.
I threw the evidence in her face and looked at her coldly. These things
themselves are the means of filth in the palace, but I spread it out, magnify it, and make it known to everyone.
Kuang Xu even have the heart to protect her, but can’t resist the minister to the letter.
“Poisonous woman Chen, persecute the emperor’s heir, the crime is unforgivable!” I read it to him word by word.
I looked at him with a smile. My eyes were full of sarcasm. Do you feel my pain?
This feeling of powerlessness.
He held me in his arms and refused to let me go no matter how hard I struggled.
No one expected that a generation of kings would shed tears. I am in his arms, his tears soaked my skirt, I sneer, I do not know what to laugh.
Ming De 11 years, March, spring. The doctor felt the pulse and said it was a happy pulse. Kuang Xu was very happy, but I was not happy.
He gently touched my flat lower abdomen and looked forward to the baby in my abdomen.
I don’t know who I’m retaliating against. I don’t expect this child. Many times, I actually want to drink the soup to kill this child.
Later, the child was born, a boy.
When Kuang Xu wanted to name him, I said coldly, “Kuang Jia.”
He frowned, but did not object. When I
looked at this child, I thought of the last child. I was a useless person. I could only hide myself in the ancestral temple, like my aunt, eating fast and worshipping Buddha, as if this could lighten my burden of sin. In the twenty-seventh year
of Mingde, the king died, and I repented in that small ancestral temple for seventeen years without going out.
I finally came out, my child is also seventeen years old, looking at his delicate eyebrows and eyes, like Kuang Xu when he was young.
I looked at him in the emperor’s court clothes, and suddenly I saw Kuang Xu, who put lanterns across the river that year.
I went back to the palace, which was the same as my memory. I walked to Kuang Jia’s cradle, as if he was still there, shaking the cradle, but accidentally revealed something under the cradle.
I took it over and saw that it was a paper kite, the same as the one with my name on it, only newer. The brass bell was engraved with the words “My wife Mingshu.”
Side story, paper kite. In the seventh year
of Jinghe, my mother died. That year, I was five years old.
I knelt on her bed, and she slapped me with her last breath, so that I could swallow my tears and die.
Soon after, I was sent to be raised by the queen.
The queen had no children. She was very strict with me. I kept in mind the words of my mother. I was careful and cautious everywhere.
My life has been arranged by the queen, even if I don’t like it, I will do my best. She likes my obedience very much, and even for a moment, I regard her as my mother.
She wanted to marry her niece to me and often let me take her to play. I rejected what she forced on me, and I hated it with Shen Mingshu.
I left her on purpose. I wanted to see her cry and never pester me again. But she has the blood of the Shen family in her bones, and her dignified and generous hypocrisy is disgusting to look at. In the 14th year
of Jinghe, I met a girl who was holding the string of a paper kite and laughing like a flower, just like the woman who loved to laugh in my memory.
When I shot down her kite, she stared at me with a pair of charming eyes and asked me to pay for it.
She was different from the other girls I met. She saw that I was not afraid to please, but just like ordinary people.
I made a new paper kite and gave it to her, but my eyes were glancing at her from time to time. She was different from Shen Mingshu. Her eyes were smart.
Shen Mingshu stood beside us, watching me give her paper kites, watching us laugh and feast. I seem to have no intention of looking at her, she stood alone next to a person, the heart has a kind of revenge success carefree.
At night, when I close my eyes, I can’t get her lonely figure out of my mind.
Devilishly, I drew a paper kite, more carefully than in the daytime, as if I were doing something sacred.
Overnight, after years of learning, I sneaked over the wall into her room.
I stood beside her bed, absent for a moment. The little girl on the
bed slept soundly, closed her eyes quietly, and there were faint tears in the corners of her eyes. It is much more vivid than rigidity and dullness that do not conform to the age in the daytime.
I reached out to touch her face, but stopped in the air, suddenly I was a little upset, put the kite carefully on her pillow and left.
When the night wind blew in my face, I woke up and slapped myself. What am I doing? What is this.
Twenty-five years later, I deliberately got separated from Shen Mingshu as usual. I stood not far behind her and watched her being pushed to the river by the crowd. I subconsciously wanted to save her, but was pushed away by the crowd. In the confusion, I heard a girl crying, I thought it was her, hurried over, but when I saw that it was not her, I did not know why I was disappointed.
The girl got separated from her family and hurt her leg. I had no choice but to carry her on my back and take her aside.
The girl’s leg was broken and she was still full of vigor and vitality. She chattered on my back and said to herself, “My name is Chen Wan-yu. What about you?” “Kuang Xu,”
I responded casually.
“Kuang Xu,” she read my name word by word: “Your name is really nice!”
……
She chattered and quarreled with me all the way, and she saw someone put up a lantern and wanted to go. She still had a wound on her
leg, and I accompanied her to put the lantern, and I had to keep an eye on her all the time for fear that she would fall into the river.
As if with telepathy, I looked up at the other side, Shen Mingshu and a man were talking and laughing about the lanterns.
I turned my head and stopped looking at her, holding my breath, but feeling ridiculous.
Along the way, I don’t remember what Chen Wanyu said, and I played back her appearance on the other side of the river repeatedly in my mind.
I have never seen her like this, so unrestrained smile, compared to the usual appearance of the walking corpse, vivid like a demon. The person who put the lantern
with her was Duan Su, the only son of General Duan. I never thought she would like anyone else. The first time
I saw her that year, I deliberately left her behind and watched her cry. I
don’t know why, but when I saw her being bullied, it was like pulling back from the queen.
Duan Su probably met her at that time. In the twenty years
of Jinghe, I became the prince and lived in the East Palace. I thought I could break away from the control of the queen, but the huge East Palace was full of her eyes.
Shen Mingshu and Ji, we are going to get married, my heart is not happy, she treated me even a little more alienated than before.
Gradually, I gained a firm foothold in the court, and even replaced all the queen’s hands with my own. Like declaring war with her, I declined the marriage with Shen Mingshu and insisted on bringing Chen Wanyu, whose family was mediocre, into the mansion.
I succeeded. On the wedding day, I was drunk and slept in the study for the first victory in fourteen years.
Chaotic and sober, my mind was full of her appearance, or dignified, or clever, but not her smiling appearance.
I had never seen her smile at me, and she always had a mask of stereotyped smile on her face, which was just right in my eyes but deliberately not. In the twenty-third year
of Jinghe, I sat on the throne, and the empress retired to the harem and could no longer control me.
I could not have followed the path they had set for me, but I had to put her in that position. On the
wedding day, she looked at me with an expressionless face. She didn’t even want to pretend her usual smile. Her eyes were dead.
She slit her wrists and dripped blood on the snow-white veil.
Blood fell on the veil, like plum blossoms in the snow, but dyed my eyes red. I never set foot in her palace again after
that day.
I indulged Chen Wanyu and doted on her. No matter what she did, I turned a blind eye. For the first time in the ten years
of Mingde, she came to me on her own initiative. She knelt on the ground. I looked at her head and watched her kneel obediently at my feet.
She came for Duan Su. I was very angry. She was already my wife. Why did she always miss others? When
I threw the paperweight at her, she didn’t move. The blood fell from her forehead to the ground. I wanted to reach out to help her, but I pressed my mind hard.
I sent someone to southern Xinjiang to look for Duan Su, and even released my pro-guard. A few months later, news came from southern Xinjiang that Duan Su was dead.
My first reaction was to let people hide and not let her know.
But she knew after all, it was Chen Wanyu who told her.
Chen Wanyu added oil and vinegar to tell me that she was crying for Duan Su and wanted to go first. I was so angry
that I went to her palace to look for her. He was afraid when he
stood in the doorway.
She looked at me lightly, and my weight in her heart was not as heavy as a feather.
I forced her against her will. I kissed the scar on her forehead and blamed myself again and again. After
that day, I knew that she probably hated me, and I would never step into the palace again. In the eleventh year
of Mingde, she gave birth to Kuang Jia, and our relationship finally eased.
I came to see her by looking after the children, and occasionally I could stay in the palace.
We had a very peaceful time, and now that I think about it, it was probably the best time of my life.
Later, Kuang Jia died, and Chen Wanyu killed him.
She was very sad, even in a trance. I was also very sad to lose this child. This child made me a real father.
She killed Chen Wanyu and avenged the child.
She said, let me also feel the feeling of being powerless.
I smiled bitterly, I know that feeling better than anyone else, but I can’t tell her, just like I can’t and dare not say the word love.
She pretended to put it down and burned the child’s things. She was like what everyone expected, competing for favor and catering to me.
Soon, we had another child, and she insisted on naming him Kuang Jia, but after giving birth to the child, she hid in the Buddhist temple.
She hid for seventeen years. During these seventeen years, I moved the bedroom hall to the side of the Buddha Hall.
I wanted to see her, but I got cold feet at the door.
I secretly hide in the place she can not see, so not far not near to follow, never let her know. The young man who had an engagement
with me died on the battlefield.
The autumn rain has stopped, and there is still some coolness. When I
heard the news, I sat in front of the window to accept the soles of my shoes. The winter in the frontier was extremely difficult to endure. I was afraid that he would freeze, so I did it carefully and the soles of my shoes were thick. I kept moving my
hands as if I hadn’t heard.
The silk thread flew up and down, the stitches on the soles were as fine as silkworms, and the silver needle was finally broken in the unbearable sound. Holding the soles of
my shoes, the dam in my heart collapsed and tears poured down with the flood.
It’s all my fault. When I
was young, the two fathers made a joke after drinking, but I took it seriously.
Dad is a military general, stationed in the bitter and cold land north of the Great Wall.
My mother took me to Saibei to visit my father who had not returned home for three years.
I tugged at the corner of my mother’s coat and looked timidly at the unshaven and burly man in front of me. He smiled and opened his hand to me. “Ruan Ruan, come on, Dad, give me a hug!”
I haven’t seen him for a long time, and the strange father in front of me was afraid to hide behind his mother.
My mother touched my head and smiled gently at my father. “That child is afraid of strangers. I haven’t seen you for three years. I’m afraid I’ve forgotten.”
Dad sighed and crouched down to look at me behind my mother. “Ruan Ruan, Dad will take you out to play. There’s a lot of fun in Saibei.”. When it snows, the ground will be all white. Daddy will take you to catch birds. You’ve never seen snow in the south, have you?
I looked slightly from behind my mother’s body and watched the tall father squatting on the ground with a smile on his face and some ingratiating hands stretching out to me. There is no snow in
the south. I have never seen it.
I stretched out my hand to my father, who seemed to be very happy. His rough hands held me carefully for fear of hurting me.
In those days, my father and I gradually became familiar with each other, and even stretched out his face to rub his hard stubble. My father was delighted and distressed. With a wave of his big hand, he wanted to take me to the barracks to see the training.
I looked at a lot of soldiers who were as tall as my father. As soon as I saw my father swarming around me to tease me, I was so scared that I hid in my father’s arms. My father said to them, “Have you all practiced?”? My daughter is timid. Gather round her and don’t frighten her.
“Yo, pillow Liao, is the younger brother and sister coming?” A cheerful man patted his father on the shoulder and greeted him.
“Well, not two days.” He lowered his head and coaxed me softly: “Ruan Ruan is good. Call Uncle Duan.”
I looked at the slender figure of the man in front of me, which was much better looking than my father’s slovenly appearance. I called out in a low voice, and the man stretched out his rough fingers and pinched my face. “I didn’t expect that a rough man like you would give birth to a daughter like a dough ball.”
My father quickly protected me in his arms and said to him, “Go, go, go!”! My daughter’s naturally lovely Yuxue. Do you need to tell me?
Uncle Tuan beckoned his father, “Why don’t you go to my place and have a drink?”
“What will happen to my daughter if I go?” Dad kissed my face and refused Uncle Duan.
“My boy is about the same age as your precious daughter. Let that boy play with her.” Uncle Duan stretched out his hand to hug me, and I hid in my father’s arms.
Dad frowned. “Old Duan!”! You’ve got a pretty good little plan!
Uncle Tuan bent his eyes and smiled, “My boy isn’t bad either. Go and have a look.” The first time
I saw Duan Su, the little man was dressed in a strong suit, dancing a silver sword half a man’s length, and his movements were so neat that even his father nodded appreciatively.
I stared at him and saw that his movements were very beautiful, and when he turned his face, his face was even more beautiful, with delicate eyebrows and eyes, like a boy under the seat of Guanyin.
Uncle Duan told Duan Su to play with me so that he and Dad could go to drink.
Although Duan Su is also a child, he is like a little adult. I
was afraid that I would not adapt to leaving my father, so I took sweet candied fruit to coax me.
I followed the little brother who grew up with me, holding his clothes carefully. Duan Su seemed to see my embarrassment and held my hand tightly for fear of losing me. My mother
and I have been living in Jiangnan hometown, this is the first time to come to the north, many do not adapt. Mother has been lying in bed for several days in a row, but I am just a child, playing behind my father for a few days, and I am familiar with a lot.
Duan Su took me and sneaked into the street. I was a little scared when I
looked at many tall and different people.
Tuan Su squeezed my hand and comforted me by saying, “Don’t be afraid. This is the city where people exchange things.”
I looked at Duan Su, who was a head taller than me, but I felt much more secure.
There are many things that Jiangnan does not have, I looked very curious, Duan Su followed behind me, not bored, accompanied me to look around.
An old foreign woman, with a kind face, looked at me with a smile, holding a bracelet made of red beads in her hand, and muttering something she didn’t understand. I looked at Duan Su.
He smiled and translated for me. “She said the little girl looks like a flower. Would you like to have a look at this bracelet?”
I felt a little embarrassed at being praised so bluntly, and subconsciously I wanted to squat behind Tuan Su. He looked at me and smiled encouragingly: “Don’t be afraid, see if there’s anything you like.”
I looked at Duan Su, let go of my courage, and squatted on the ground carefully to select the things on the stall. The bracelet in the
old woman’s hand was very beautiful, but I took a fancy to a string of pomegranate sword spikes at a glance.
I plucked up my courage and pointed to Jian Sui and Duan Su and said, “I like this.”
Duan Su saw that I finally opened my mouth and wanted it. He generously took out the silver from his pocket and bought it without asking me what I wanted it for.
The old woman put the sword spike in my hand. She smiled and said something I didn’t understand. But before I could listen to the translation, a frightened horse roared to the sky and pierced the noise.
Duan Su hurriedly pulled me aside, but I did not pay attention to the sword spike dropped, I want to go back to pick up, but was Duan Su held down.
Watching the startled horse rampage through the streets in the thick dust, the vendors and pedestrians rushed to avoid it, while the benevolent old woman was knocked down by the crowd.
I wanted to rush over and pull her up, but Duan Su pushed me back a few steps and told me to stay where I was.
His figure flashed, dodging the frantic crowd and trying to rush across the street.
Unfortunately, the horse was so frightened that it could not see the road at all and went straight in the direction of the old woman.
Blood scattered on the dust raised, splashed on the sword spike not far away, and the blood dust stained Duan Su’s robe.
Duan Suhong stepped on the horse’s back with red eyes and plunged the dagger he carried into its neck. It didn’t take long for the horse to fall heavily to the ground, raising a large scarlet dust.
Duan Su’s eyes were red, and he was covered with blood and dust. He looked at me, who was standing there in shock. He hurried over and covered my eyes. “Ruan Ruan, don’t look.” The smell of rust on
his body enveloped my whole body, which made me feel a little sick. The old woman who smiled and praised me
just now died alive in front of me.
I don’t remember how I got back. The smiling face of the old woman and the white robe stained with blood and dust on the ground have been recalling in my mind.
As soon as I got home, I fell on the bed and stared at the front, which frightened my father.
My mother put cold water on my head with a veil, and my father held my hand, but the strong man trembled and could not say a complete sentence.
Ruan Ruan.. You. Dad is.. Ruan Ruan is not afraid, Ruan Ruan is not afraid.
Dad has been coaxing me, a pair of red eyes, like Duan Su.
The eyes seemed to be covered by blood and dust, only a scarlet, ears gradually blurred, nothing can be heard. Lying in bed for several days in
a row, I felt dizzy, and I could only see the red in my eyes.
Until Duan Su stood at the head of my bed and called me in a dumb voice, “Ruan Ruan, I’m sorry I couldn’t save her.” As I
looked at Duan Su, I couldn’t stop my tears, as if all the fears of the past few days had been released: “She died right in front of me..” One second, she was still talking to me. “I’m sorry I couldn’t save her,”
said Duan Su, holding my hand and thrusting a cold object into my hand.
Duan Su’s eyes were red, unlike that day, as if he was holding back tears and not letting them flow out. With
tears in my eyes, I looked at the blood-stained spike of the sword in my hand and put it in Duan Su’s hand: “I wanted to give it to you.”
He looked at me in amazement.
I smiled at him with tears still on my face. “Brother, I’m going home. I’ll give you the sword spike. You must become a general and protect more and more people.”
Tuan Su nodded his head and suppressed his tears: “Good.”
Later, he finally became a famous general.
Dad was transferred to the capital, so the whole family moved to the capital, also rarely see Duan Su. I didn’t know until the news of victory came
from the frontier fortress that he had won a great victory this time and would soon return to Beijing to hear it.
I soon pestered my father to ask when Uncle Duan would go to Beijing.
Dad calculated that he had not seen Uncle Duan for many years, and that his father and son would have a good drink when they returned to Beijing this time.
I asked Uncle Duan, but the drunkard’s intention was not to drink. I was secretly pleased in my heart that my father was careless and did not find my careful thoughts.
My mother took me by the hand and sighed, “The last time I went to the frontier fortress was six years ago.”
After so many years, mother is still like that, is a typical Jiangnan girl, gentle and weak.
She touched my bun and said, “We, Ruan Ruan, will be married in two years. We will be a big girl in the future. We will get married soon.”
Father said indignantly, “How old is Ruan Ruan?”? If any boy dares to think of my daughter, I will break his dog’s leg.
Getting married is a very distant word for me, but for some reason, when my mother talked about getting married, I was thinking of Duan Su, who was dancing with a silver sword, and his face burned for a moment.
My mother touched my burning face and jokingly said, “Ruan Ruan has a sweetheart!” Before
Dad could say anything, I ran away for fear that they would see the clue. When I saw Duan Su
again, he was very different from when he was a child. He was no longer the little brother who would sneak out of the house with me.
Duan Su, with his hair tied high, was a very beautiful young man with bright eyes and a straight body.
He saluted me, no longer the intimacy of childhood, the proper rules.
And just one more look at him, I was moved for a long time. On the
wine table, Uncle Duan and his father had not seen each other for a long time. After eating too much wine and talking nonsense, they betrothed me to Duan Su. With a red face,
I hid behind a screen and eavesdropped. Tuan Su’s voice was clear, and his tone was somewhat helpless: “Dad, you’ve had too much to drink.” The excitement in
my heart is empty. He doesn’t seem to like me, either. He wants to be a hero. How can
a hero be tied down by love.
But the words of Dad and Uncle Duan always make my heart burn.
As I looked forward to it, I carefully hid my mind for fear of being seen.
Duan Su stayed in the capital for a few days and then left, but I kept that drunken joke in my heart and could not stop the joy.
Mother took me to the flower fair.
A prince accidentally shot down a girl’s paper kite and repainted it for the girl as an apology. Many girls gathered around to watch.
I stood outside the crowd and looked at a little girl beside the prince. She seemed to be looking at the paper kite. Her eyes were full of envy. I was a little puzzled. It was just a paper kite.
The girls gathered around the prince, many of them not to see the kites. With my mind in my
heart, I didn’t want to go up, so I slipped to the river to amuse the fish. I
saw a man in a white robe, sitting in the pavilion and playing the flute, like Duan Su in my dream.
I unconsciously want to go forward, the flute is like water, suddenly woke up, that person will not be Duan Su.
Duan Su’s hand is holding a sword, not a flute.
Noticing my approach, the sound of the man’s flute suddenly stopped. I saluted him and fled, without seeing his face.
Later, the boy in white who played the flute became my husband.
He said that the first time he saw me, he was pleased with me.
I smiled bitterly, but it wasn’t him in my heart at that time.
Duan Su doesn’t like me either. On
that day, Duan Suo went to war. I waited for a long time, but only a string of red coral bracelets came.
I held it in my arms, ecstatic, and wore it on my wrist every day.
Duan Su is a great hero outside, and I wear the bracelet he gave me, which seems to add a lot of courage. I
met a group of teenagers throwing stones around a thin girl and calling her a monster. I stopped her with the guards in the house.
This is something I would never do normally. When I
saw the girl, I was a little surprised. Her hair was messy, and I could still see the hot red color. There were two pupils in her eyes.
I held her hand and gave her the purse.
The red-haired girl was very grateful. She said that her parents were dead and everyone treated her as a monster. She didn’t know where to go.
I wanted to take her home, but she refused.
She said she couldn’t get her sister in trouble.
She asked me where I could go.
I looked at her red hair, and I knew that she would be bullied by others if she stayed in the Central Plains with such a special appearance.
I told her to go to Saibei.
To Bon City.
There were a lot of people with yellow hair and blue eyes, and they wouldn’t say she was a monster.
There’s a story there. He’s a hero. He’ll protect her.
My father had only one daughter, and he was reluctant to betroth me to someone else. He didn’t marry until he was nineteen years old.
This year, Duan came back.
He didn’t seem to be very happy, sitting in his seat and drinking absentmindedly. When
Uncle Tuan mentioned our marriage again, Tuan Su said with a wry smile, “I have someone in my heart, and I don’t want Ruan Ruan to be wronged.” As soon as
the words came out, Dad and Uncle Duan were silly.
Uncle Duan was so impatient that he kept asking him and almost lifted the table and hit him.
He looked at the glass and gulped down the liquor without mentioning it.
I don’t know who is in his heart, but I know it’s not me.
I hid in my room and was so sad that I didn’t even go to see him off.
When I came out, my mother brought me the letter left by Duan Suliu, with only a few words on it.
He said, “
I’m sorry, Ruan Ruan. I have a girl I like in my heart.”.
Although I know I have no possibility with her.
But I don’t want to let you down.
I watched the tears blur the ink, and the words on it blurred into a mass, and I couldn’t see the shape clearly.
Mother knew that I was suffering and accompanied me every day without saying anything. When
my father saw my appearance, he was so angry that he scolded his mother and said he would tie him back.
I looked at my father and my mother, two very different people, and I didn’t know how they got together.
Mother touched my head and said that I was still young and didn’t understand a lot of things.
I looked at the red bracelet in my hand and told my mother that we didn’t have to be together even if we liked each other.
My mother touched my hand in silence for a long time before she said, “Ruan Ruan is a big girl.”
When I went to burn incense in the temple, I met a girl who was standing by and watching the paper kites that year. Her name was Shen Mingshu.
As if she knew me, she took my hand and smiled gently. “It seems you like it very much.”. She looked at the bracelet as if she were looking at someone else, but there was no smile in her eyes. It was more like a compromise.
She is probably the person in Duan Su’s heart!
Shen Mingshu is going to marry the prince.
They really can’t.
But I clearly know that she is Duan Su’s sweetheart, but I can’t hate her, but I love her very much.
She looked at me like she was watching paper kites that year, full of envy.
I know I’m a lot freer than she is.
I took off the bracelet and gave it to her, as if I wanted to give her the courage as well. The moment I
took off the bracelet, I didn’t seem so sad.
It seems that all my love for Duan Su was put into a bracelet and given to another girl he liked.
My affection for him slowly cooled into the same as when I was a child.
The Su family came to propose marriage, and my parents knew that I was very happy, so they carefully consulted me.
I looked at my father. He was a boor and couldn’t say anything nice. He just said, “I’ve seen that boy of the Su family. He’s as weak as a chicken, but he promised not to take a concubine in the future.”
My mother looked at me, pushed my father away, and talked about how she and my father were together. “I didn’t like him at first,”
she said.
But he was very kind to me, and when he came to ask me to marry him, he was too clumsy to say that he was obedient.
I’ve always liked talking about beautiful women and talented people in the book. He only said one sentence, and it moved me.
I asked, “Which one?”
Mother smiled gently, and the water in her eyes rippled. “He said he was a rough man and wouldn’t say anything good, but he would always be good to me.”
I knew my mother was trying to persuade me, but she didn’t know that from that moment on, I didn’t seem to be so attached to him.
He is like the most brilliant stroke in my memory, the brother who wants to be a hero.
Once upon a time, he would protect me, now he is a general, he will protect many people. After
marrying Su Cheng, I did not break off contact with Duan Su.
He often wrote to me, mostly about the battle, probably really regarded me as a sister, and even asked me about Shen Mingshu.
Su Cheng treats me very well. He will buy me my favorite cakes and cover them in his heart for fear of getting cold.
He likes to wear the clothes I sew with my own hands, and every time he receives them, he will be as happy as a child for fear of getting dirty. At the palace banquet
that year, I went to the palace with Su Cheng. Before
entering the palace, he told me to stand beside him and not go far.
I thought it was funny and made fun of him: “Su Yushi, who is serious and stuffy on the outside, looks like this on the inside.”
Su Cheng smiled helplessly at me: “My wife is the most important thing in everything.”
Somehow, the heart that has not been beating for a long time is palpitating at this moment.
I looked at Su Cheng, who was dressed in official clothes, but I remembered what he looked like when he was a teenager.
I asked him, “Did you play the flute before..”
Su Cheng interrupted me and said rather helplessly, “Madam, I just found out now.”
Many years ago, I was moved because he looked like Duan Su. Many years later, I was moved again because he didn’t look like Duan Su. At the
palace banquet, Su Cheng’s eyes never left me.
I looked at Mingshu sitting next to the emperor, she was more dignified than before, but those eyes, can no longer see other emotions.
The prince has now become the emperor, sitting high in the main seat, Ming Shu’s next is the rumor of the crown six palace of Chen Guifei.
But the emperor inadvertently put his eyes on Mingshu several times, but quickly moved away, not to let her find out.
I think he probably likes Mingshu, too. After
returning home, Su Cheng asked me, “Why have you been so absent-minded all night?”
I shook my head. “It’s just a pity.” “Why?”
He wondered. I told him what I
saw, but he smiled: “Sometimes, it’s not enough to like it.”. The more you are in a high position, the more you cannot help yourself.
I don’t understand why he can’t express his mind when he is already the emperor.
Su Cheng smiled without a word and did not speak again.
Many days later, I was pregnant, and Su Cheng was very happy to be a father for the first time.
Every morning, he would hold my stomach carefully and listen. I looked at him like a child and said to me foolishly that he heard it. This is a little girl.
I touched the still flat abdomen, and it was incredible that there was a little life in it.
Looking at Su Cheng’s appearance, I can not help but think, if it is a boy, I must let him become a hero of indomitable spirit.
Like Duan Su, protect many people.
Duan Su received my letter that I was pregnant and sent a wooden sword back, saying that it was a gift for the child, as a token of my uncle’s heart.
I looked at the wooden sword, and Su Cheng, now behind me, said, “It’s a bitter and cold place north of the Great Wall. It’s extremely cold in winter. Make a winter coat for my uncle!”
I looked at Su Cheng’s gentle face, some heart burning, holding him tightly.
In fact, he knows everything. He is smarter than anyone else.
But he was willing to accept me without any hard feelings and treat me slowly until he occupied my whole heart.
I shook my head. “I’ll only make clothes for you and shoes for my brother.”
Su Cheng likes the clothes I made by myself.
Duan Su is my adopted brother, to make a pair of shoes for my brother at home, is also a heart, is not beyond the rules.
But before the soles of my shoes were pasted, I received the news that he had died in battle.
At that time, I was about to give birth, and I couldn’t help crying and almost had a miscarriage.
I insisted on finishing the shoes and watched the boots finally take shape in my hands, but I was not happy.
Mingming said in his letter that if he was a boy, he would teach him martial arts, and if he was a girl, he would give her many rare things that the capital did not have.
But he left before the baby was born.
Su Cheng hugged me and said, “Ruan Ruan, and me, I will always be with you.”
I looked at him, and Su Cheng was no longer the young man who had a very long body.
His face is upright, a bookish eyebrows are full of firmness, he is not the shadow of Duan Su, Su Cheng is just Su Cheng. On
the day of labor, I was in great pain. Su Cheng stood beside me and held my hand tightly.
His hands were shaking, and he was more afraid than I was. Su Cheng, who
had always abided by the rules, insisted on entering the delivery room to accompany me despite the midwife’s obstruction.
He crouched beside me, held my hand, and gave me a lot of courage.
But this kind of pain, let a person want coma all the time, trance, I see a lot of people.
It was Duan Su, whose face was covered with blood, the foreign old woman who died under the horse, the dignified Mingshu, and Su Cheng, whose face was covered with tears.
He wept like a child who has lost his candy. He said, “Ruan Ruan, we won’t give birth, we won’t give birth..”
I endured the pain and wiped the tears from his face with a smile.
Just so so, I’m lucky. Although
the process was difficult, I still gave birth to a son safely.
I looked at the baby with a wrinkled face. At this moment, I didn’t want him to be a hero. He just had to be himself.
I think it’s too hard to be a big hero, and it’s good for him to be mediocre.
Su Cheng named the child Su Wei.
Su Cheng said that it took a lot of effort to give birth to this child, and he must protect his mother in the future.
He said that the child’s uncle was a hero who protected many people, even if he was not alive, but he must remember.
I smiled at the child, I do not want him to protect me, as long as he is safe.
It’s just that the unique teenager in my memory will never come back.
His name may be only a few strokes in the history books, but it is a brilliant stroke in my memory, which shocked my youth.
He has always been the brother I admire most in my heart and the hero of all people.
Su Cheng, he is not a gorgeous color, the ink lightly dyed all my heart. “
I married my childhood sweetheart, but his sweetheart is not me.”
This is the first sentence on the letter. My
name is Su Zhezhi, and I am the first female historian of Dachang. A few days
ago, when the Empress Dowager passed away, I found a well-preserved paper kite and a letter from the Empress Dowager’s belongings, which also pushed away the dust-laden past for many years. On the
letter paper, the pen and ink are fluent, with occasional pauses, and the last handwriting is somewhat illegible and almost inaudible.
Closing the letter, I sighed deeply. I seldom saw the queen mother in my memory. Most of the time, she was in the Buddhist temple. Occasionally met, also can only see that she is a very dignified and dignified person, unexpectedly did not expect to have this story.
I looked at the phrase “the only child” and frowned, wondering if I should present the letter to the emperor.
After thinking about it for a moment, I decided to present the letter to Kuang Jia.
Kuang Jia was exactly as I thought. After reading the letter, he was silent for a long time. Finally, he sighed deeply and said, “I know that my mother has never been able to get through.” “What do you mean?”
I asked cautiously.
“That’s what you think.”
For a moment, I didn’t know what to say.
Kuang Jia held me in his arms, buried his head in my neck, and said in a muffled voice, “Broken branch, promise me that after writing this paragraph, I will go to the palace.”
I stroked his back reassuringly and said, “OK, but I must find out about that history.”
Kuang Jia paused, as if thinking of something, and then said, “Princess Ning An Chang will enter the palace in a few days. You can ask her. There are some things I don’t know.”
Ning An long princess is the daughter of Chen Guifei, it is strange to say that after Chen Guifei was given death, her children were not affected a lot, but the Chen family, once at the height of its power, could not be inspired and lost its voice.
And the queen mother’s mother clan also gradually declined, people can not help but think more.
Not long after, I saw the long princess.
I heard the old man in the palace say that the former imperial concubine Chen was bright and beautiful, and the princess in front of me was a little older, but her eyes were pure, even better than cardamom girl.
She took me by the hand and asked with a smile, “Ah Jia has always been reluctant to make a queen, but she kept it for you. I was wondering which beauty it was. Now it seems that she is really a charming beauty.”
The long princess praised me blushing, but my father is just a four-grade Taishiling, Kuang Jia thought I entered the palace at most is a Zhaoyi, where dare to clamor for the position of queen.
In front of the long princess is really charming beauty, no wonder, she is really a congenial good son-in-law.
The emperor’s son-in-law was the one she really liked, and he was also the Number One Scholar from a poor family. They had a very good relationship. I talked to her here, and the emperor’s son-in-law waited quietly in the side hall to drink tea.
From the princess’s mouth, I also learned a more vivid Chen Guifei in the letters with the queen mother.
She said, “My mother and concubine are going to be strong all her life. When she has a memory of herself, she will raise me as a son. I will not miss any of what my brother has learned.”.
Unfortunately, the elder brother was born dull, many simple articles are difficult to swallow, spend a long time, can realize three or four.
I, on the other hand, am not the material in this respect, thinking that I am just a daughter, just fooling around. The mother in
my memory is very beautiful, and she is the most brilliant among all the concubines.
Therefore, she also asked us to strive for success, often a little too strict, so that my brother and I are a little afraid.
But in front of her father, she was like a little daughter. I also ran into her several times. Her charming appearance was quite different from that when she taught us to write silently. After
her father left, she sternly admonished us not to live up to expectations, not to study, and not even to coax her father to be happy. She has been very tired
all the time.
Even the same deputy queen has never taken it lightly.
At first, she regarded the slightly beautiful concubine in the palace as a threat, and then, the younger and more beautiful girl entered the palace, which made her feel like facing a formidable enemy.
Mother and concubine are cruel to others and themselves. When
my mother and concubine gave birth to me, she had fetal gas, dystocia, and a narrow escape from death. The cold got into her body, and she broke out in a cold sweat every day.
At that time, there was a concubine whose father was a general who held the military power. He was extremely coquettish and domineering, and was extremely difficult to deal with with his mother and concubine.
I stood by and watched. The imperial concubine was not a clever one. After a few words of sarcasm, the mother started to fight and pushed her into the lake.
At that time, the spring was deep, the lake was cold, and the mother concubine could not swim. Seeing that she was about to sink into the water, the concubine jumped down to save people.
But she did not expect that she had been pregnant for less than a month, not to mention the fall of the child, the body was also damaged by the cold lake water, and it would be difficult to have children in the future.
But my mother completely lost the chance to have children. When
his father learned of this, he was furious and not only demoted the position of the imperial concubine, but also implicated her powerful father.
Her mother lay on the bed, her face as pale as paper, and she clasped her brother’s hand and told him, “If you hurt a thousand enemies, you will lose eight hundred.”
Indeed, the father emperor no longer favored the concubine, she also gradually disappeared in the fresh time.
Heard that the queen who had been in the palace sent a bowl of soup to her father, and her mother, regardless of her illness, got up from the bed and painted her eyebrows and lips until she could not see half of her illness.
She was dressed in beautiful clothes, and the East Pearl as big as her thumb was shining like peony. When
she came back, the pain was almost unconscious, but the corners of her mouth were always smiling, as if the victory was in hand.
I looked at her and felt a little distressed, but I still didn’t like her like this.
Later, the empress was pregnant, and the father seldom came. The mother did not say anything, but urged me and my brother to study more severely, which made people breathless. When
the empress finally gave birth to a prince, her mother was so anxious that she had a bubble around her mouth, and her temper was even more melancholy. Even her uncle refused to see her.
She picked up the teacup and sipped it. “Later, you know.”
Later, Chen Sihua, the younger brother of Chen Guifei, was signed by many ministers for corruption, and Chen Guifei murdered the crown prince and many other princes and concubines, which was unforgivable. For a
time, the Chen family, which was at the height of its power, declined. After the
princess left, I looked carefully at the pear wood hairpin in my hand.
This hairpin is an old thing of Chen Guifei. Unlike her luxurious jewelry in the past, this hairpin is simple and rough.
Seeing me staring at her, the princess took off her hairpin and said, “This is my mother’s. I put it in the dressing box. I liked it so much that I wore it on my head.”. If you like it, I will give it to you.
I even refused: “This is what the imperial concubine left you, and it’s good to think about it.” “It’s better to live happily now than to keep thinking about the past,”
the princess said with a smile. “Besides, I didn’t bring you anything this time. It’s just a gift to meet you.” When
she said that, I didn’t refuse again. I just accepted it. Although
this hairpin is not delicate enough, it can be seen that the maker also used his heart. If you don’t look carefully, it’s hard to find a slight gap in the head of the Xiangyun style hairpin. I pulled down the head of the hairpin, and sure enough, it was hollow. Out of
the pear-wood hairpin fell a piece of yellowing paper, on which there was only one line from a poem: “As white as the snow on the mountain, as bright as the moon among the clouds.”. Lu Sheng. After
the princess left the palace, I have been sorting out what happened during the Mingde years. I have checked many books recording the big and small events in the palace, and a name appears on the paper.
“Chen Lien-yi.”
This is Chen Guifei’s dowry servant girl, after entering the palace became a talented person, and Chen Guifei in the same palace, is also the only survivor of that matter. When
I found her, she was already an old woman, and I could still see the beauty of her youth from the traces of vicissitudes on her face.
When I asked Chen Guifei, she told me with a smile that the imperial concubine was a very beautiful person, nearly 30 years old, and she smiled like a little girl.
But when I mentioned Lu Sheng, she was stunned, and her eyes, which were no longer clear and chaotic, rippled. Soon she came to her senses, and her tone was not as calm as before: “How did you know that?”. When
I handed her the pear wood hairpin and the note inside, Chen Lianyi took it with trembling hands and looked at it carefully. Not speaking
for a long time. When
I was about to leave, she opened her mouth and spoke wearily, recounting another story: “Lu Sheng was the only son of Lord Lu, the late minister of the Kuanglu Temple. He was also our young lady’s childhood sweetheart.”
She did not call the imperial concubine again, like that memory brought her back to many years ago, Chen Guifei, and herself. Mr. Lu asked me to bring
this hairpin to the young lady that year. The hairpin was made by Mr. Lu himself, and he even wore out his hands for it.
Childe is gentle, a pair of hands can write beautiful articles, but there is no talent to make things.
The young lady thought the hairpin was ugly, so she threw it into a dressing box and refused to wear it. On the day of my wedding, I secretly put it on. The young man probably didn’t know. The young lady never wore it until she died, and she didn’t know the secret.
She looked at the beautiful writing on the note: “As white as the snow on the mountain, as bright as the moon among the clouds, I heard that you had two intentions, so I came to refuse.” Master
Lu and the young lady were childhood sweethearts. They were the assistant minister of the fifth grade in my family. Lord Lu didn’t like them at all, but he insisted on marrying them, so he compromised. At the Lantern Festival
that year, the childe wanted to send the hairpin to the young lady, but it happened that the day was full of people, and we got separated from the young lady. When she was found
again, it was the six princes, that is, the first emperor, who personally sent her back.
Childe, this hairpin can’t be sent out.
Later, when the young lady became the sixth imperial concubine, she never took out the hairpin again, and she didn’t know what the young man’s mind was.
Two old tears flowed from her eyes: “I was trying to persuade you to change the sentence, but I didn’t think I could say anything.” As
white as the snow on the mountain, as bright as the moon among the clouds.
Lu Sheng’s heart to Chen Jinyu is as pure as the snow on the mountain and as bright as the moon in the clouds.
But unexpectedly, Chen Jinyu is not in his mind. In the 23rd year of the reign of
Emperor Jinghe, Emperor Xiaoguang was enthroned with the title of Emperor Jingde. The emperors and empresses sang harmoniously, and the couple loved each other deeply. When
I finished writing the last word, Kuang Jia came and looked at the book whose pen and ink were not yet dry. His thin lips were tight and he did not say anything.
I looked at Kuang Jia, who was wearing a court suit with a dragon pattern, and made him a cup of tea. “Are you coming to court?”
He took the teacup, thought for a moment, and finally said, “Broken branch, I’m going to marry the queen, the granddaughter of Grand Maester Qian.”
I nodded. “Maester Qian’s granddaughter is very nice and docile. You should treat her better in the future.” I have seen that girl, whose temperament is like orchid and whose speech is appropriate, is excellent. And
he said, “But I will not.”
I was puzzled: “Why?”
“I don’t want to be like my father, who can’t get his feelings out of his mouth and has scruples about both sides.”
“Broken branch.” He called me. “Yes,”
I whispered.
Kuang Jia rubbed her brows as if she were very tired. “Do you remember the first time we met?”
“Remember.”
When I was five years old, my father took me to the palace, but I was so fond of playing that I lost my way with the maid who led the way. I went round and round in the Imperial Garden and couldn’t find the exit.
At that time, when I was young, I got separated from people I knew well, and I was a little scared. I remembered that my mother had told me that I couldn’t cry in the palace, so I secretly hid beside the rockery and covered my mouth and cried.
But I didn’t want to meet a little brother dressed in brocade.
He took my hand and wiped away my tears, but I couldn’t stop crying, so he called his father to coax me.
Later, I learned that the little brother who coaxed me that day was the prince, and the uncle who had been making me laugh and making paper kites for me was the emperor.
Strangely, I didn’t say anything to blame when I cried like that. I didn’t understand
until I read the letter of the queen mother.
Kuang Jia also said, “When I was a child, I felt that my father had no responsibility. Since he wanted to see her, he was already above ten thousand people, but he only looked at her secretly.”
“He told a story at that time. He said that the emperor’s grandfather had a concubine whom he liked very much at that time. He did not dare to love that concubine too much. He did not even dare to give her status after he died.”
“I asked why. He was already the emperor.” But only sitting in this position, Kuang Jia can probably know their difficulties.
The more you are in a high position, the more you cannot help it.
You know, when you gain something, you lose something. Not everyone is perfect. I answered him with a smile that when I promised Kuang Jia to enter the palace, I lost the qualification to share with the people I loved.
Later, as I grew older, the matter faded. Will it change? Will I become the next Chen Guifei? But I don’t regret my choice.
Kuang Jia laughed and said, “I know.” I
knew the answer, but I was still a little disappointed. Kuang Jia held my hand and said, “I choose you.”
I was a little surprised that it was not a wise choice after weighing the pros and cons.
He also said, “I have chosen to follow my heart.” On the eve of the
seal, Princess Chang came to the palace to see me and presented me with a pair of beautiful bracelets: “I knew this pair of bracelets would be yours after all.” “The princess is very clever,”
I said with a smile. “There are few things in the world that the princess can’t guess.” The charming princess in front of
me is a very clever person.
“I guess it’s you.” The princess’s eyes were half narrowed, and her eyes were clear, as if she could see through my skin.
“What puzzles the princess?”
“You’ve been asking about that incident back then. What was it all about?”
“Can’t you guess?” I said half-truthfully.
“But isn’t it more accurate to say it out of your own mouth?”
I looked at the bright red nails and said, “But what I said is not necessarily true, is it?”
She seemed to think a little, and then she laughed and said, “Indeed.”
I have an uncle named Duan Su.
To become a female historian, to inquire about that period of history, but to know how he died.
Everyone says differently, and people tend to hide their dirtiest and darkest places. In the story about the first emperor, the queen mother and the imperial concubine Chen, the death of my uncle is probably the most innocent.
Chen Guifei did not love Lu Sheng, nor did she love the late emperor. She was willing to cooperate with the late emperor, knowing that he was ruthless to her.
The late emperor, like many former emperors, had more scruples about the Shen family than empress Dowager.
The empress Dowager and the first emperor are the same kind of people, in some ways, they are no less cruel than Chen Guifei.
But she is a mother after all, she dare not see Kuang Jia, she hid in the Buddha hall painting for the prison, to atone for their sins.
And the first emperor did not see her again until he died.
My mother has always been bitter about my uncle’s death.
And my uncle did die in battle.
Kuang Jiali made me queen, and I was a little surprised. Kuang Jia and
I are childhood sweethearts. I always call him by his first name. He has changed a lot since he sat in that position. On the
wedding night, dragon and phoenix candles flickered.
Kuang Chia lifted my veil and looked at me gently, like a pool of spring water melting. He called out to me, “a broken branch.”
I said, “Your Majesty.”
Kuang Jia frowned and finally poured the wine into his stomach alone.
“Broken branch.” He leaned against the couch and closed his eyes slightly, feeling a little tired. “Actually, the first time I saw you was not by the rockery.”
I frowned and did not speak.
He went on to say, “The first time I saw you was at the Imperial College, when you were about this tall.” He gestured at his waist. Dressed in a crisp green skirt and a double spiral bun,
you stand on tiptoe to reach the unripe fruit on the tree.
But before you picked the fruit, your father came and scolded you and told you not to be presumptuous.
At that time, I thought, how can there be such a lovely girl in the world. If I can marry her in the future, I will not scold her and let her pick the fruit.
If she can’t get it, I’ll help her. When I was a child, I was
not a well-behaved girl. I couldn’t calm down. I always liked to run around. And
he said, “But I married you at last, and you stuck to the rules because of me.”
Kuang Jia’s voice was a little hoarse. I sat next to him and let him lean on me.
You’re right. Everything has its price, but I wish my little girl could stand on tiptoe. If she can’t reach it on tiptoe, she can jump up and reach it without scruple. Instead of giving up the fruit she wants because of the so-called rules.
I held him in my arms and followed his back. “But you don’t know that the little girl is willing to give up the fruit for you.”
Perhaps the childhood sweetheart will be like the queen mother and the first emperor, love buried in the heart can not say, can only be a rift in the heart, gradually far away.
Perhaps childhood sweethearts will be like Chen Guifei and Lu Sheng, Lang Youqing, concubine has no intention.
Maybe he will love me for a long time and then love someone else.
But that’s all for the future.
Maybe childhood sweethearts can also love each other.
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