The reed flower does not remember the spring
, the old friend sighs: does not ask the song end, the person gathers and disperses
, takes a treacherous imperial concubine, I love the hillock to respect one’s work very much. In
the harem, I was diligent in seducing the emperor and being jealous. In the court, I acted in collusion with the nine-thousand-year-old Xie Fenglou, who was in power in the government and the public, and brought disaster to the country and the people.
Just when I finally fell in love with the emperor’s harem, conceived the emperor’s only child, got a promotion and a raise, and went to the peak of the treacherous imperial concubine.
I broke up with Xie Fenglou. When
Xie Fenglou came in, I was having morning sickness. In a
small room, the doors and windows were locked, a bed was placed in the middle, and the four corners were cast with iron chains. The chains were tied to my ankles to keep me from running, and the spittoons were beside the bed so I could spit in them.
I have to say, I’m pretty well prepared. “Why aren’t you dead yet?”
I said gratefully to Hsieh Feng-lou, who had arranged all this.
“Don’t worry, it’s not time for me to die.” “Madam,” he said, “Your Majesty’s illness worsened last night.”
It dawned on me, “So he’s going to die?”
Xie Fenglou looked at me in silence. After a while, he suddenly came to touch my stomach.
It is said to be pregnant in October. I was pregnant for more than seven months, and my belly was already very big. His hand fell on it like a feather. Even through the clothes, I was still burned by the heat of his palm, screaming, “Don’t touch me!”
He slowly withdrew his hand. “Your Majesty is very concerned about you. He has written a secret decree. If this child is a boy, he will be made crown prince. If it is a girl..” He will let you go home.
Go home?
This is how beautiful two words, nose, it seems to be able to smell the faint fragrance of flowers, it is my hometown specialty bluegrass smell. Before I entered the palace, Ah Niang picked one for me and put it on my temples. I didn’t want to throw it away until it withered.
I haven’t been home for years.
But I asked him, “Will you let me go?” In
the darkened room, his face was hidden in a shadow: “The child in your womb must become a prince.”
He won’t let me go.
I wanted to cry and laugh, and finally I could only curse him and say, “Hsieh Feng-lou, you gave birth to a son without an asshole!” “You’ve forgotten again,”
he said lightly. “I’m a eunuch. Eunuchs do not have sons. Every word
he said made me sick, and I leaned over and deliberately vomited on his shoes. On the vamp, the four-clawed golden dragon is embroidered with gold thread, which is worthy of the power of nine thousand years old.
But I remember that at the beginning, I embroidered an ugly reed flower on his torn clothes, and he was satisfied.
Time is fleeting and people’s hearts are changeable.
I lay back on the bed, the door closed, and the light disappeared inch by inch. The little thing in my belly suddenly raised his foot and kicked me. I told the little thing, “Don’t be afraid. Mother will protect you.”
The words were so familiar that I racked my brains and finally remembered that when I was young, I made a mistake and was punished to kneel in court. The rain was so heavy that someone held an umbrella for me and whispered, “Don’t be afraid, I will protect you.” The loquat trees in the
courtyard crackled in the rain, and I knelt there, my knees aching, but my heart was full of joy. For the joy of
that time is not to be counted.
Xie Fenglou, I think I must kill you. When I was
ten years old, I entered the palace as a palace maid at first.
Being a maid of honor is very tiring. She eats less than a chicken and works more than a dog. The most unfortunate one is that she has no prospects for promotion and still serves people.
As for Xie Fenglou, he was even more unlucky. He was a eunuch, and he had to get a knife first when he entered the palace. When
I first met him, it was in the summer. There were many Chinese parasol trees in the palace, and the cicadas were chirping noisily. I ran out to hide lazily on the pretext of sticking cicadas, and I saw him standing by the lake. The lotus leaves in the
lake touched the sky, and he stood there in his light blue shirt, as if he were enjoying the lotus. There are no idle people in the
palace, and those who have leisure and enjoy the scenery are all masters. I quickly lowered my eyes and saw him take two steps forward out of the corner of my eye, and then. He jumped down with great understatement.
How can someone commit suicide and still be so calm! Without thinking,
I jumped down with him.
I was born in the south of the Yangtze River and was good at swimming since I was a child. I dragged him ashore like a dead dog and punched him twice in the stomach. He coughed up two mouthfuls of water, and after a while, he slowly opened his eyes.
He had a cold face, thick eyebrows, long eyelashes, and a straight nose, which, even in such a mess, looked very expensive.
Is he some kind of big shot who visits incognito? “Are you awake?”
I asked, holding out my hand. But
he was ungrateful and brushed me away coldly. “You shouldn’t have saved me.”
Big people have big tempers. I understand. Suddenly there was a noise in the distance, and someone said angrily, “Where is Xiaolouzi?” Lazy
again! When the miscellaneous family finds him, they must let him know how powerful he is!
It’s two little eunuchs. They don’t seem to be of high rank. I looked back and continued to say to him, “You must remember that my name is Xiao Lu. If you want to repay me in the future, you must not find the wrong person.”
“In return?” He laughed. “What can I do for you?”
That’s a lot! Such as gold and silver, pearls and emeralds, he must not feel that these Philistine things insult me.
But he stood up and said to the two little eunuchs, “Here I am.” The small building in the mouth of the
two little eunuchs turned out to be him! When
the little eunuchs saw him, they immediately shouted at him, “Well, you bastard!”! I didn’t see it at all, but I ran here to have a private meeting with a maid of honor?
He just stood there and did not speak. The water slowly rolled down his face, but he looked so noble and fragile that I couldn’t help but stand up and say, “Blind your eyes!”! Who do you say has a private meeting? Just as
the little eunuchs were about to curse, I quickly displayed my waist card and said, “Do you dare to provoke a man who has a phoenix to come?”
Feng Laiyi is a palace built by the emperor for the empress. The empress is a phoenix, and the phoenix is attracted by the Chinese parasol tree. The palace is full of tung trees.
The people who had Feng Laiyi walked sideways when we went out. The two little eunuchs were so frightened by me that they trembled and said, “Auntie, we are blind.”
“Xiaolouzi and I are from the same hometown. From now on, you can’t bully him!”
They answered me repeatedly, and I said to Xiaolouzi, “If you have any more unpleasant things, just come to me, and I will make decisions for you.” There was a look of surprise on
his pale face, but he stared at me deeply for a long time. He made a deep salute to me and turned away.
His back is tall and straight, like Zhilan Yushu.
Unfortunately, he is a eunuch.
I thought wistfully that my gold, silver, pearls and emeralds seemed to be out of the question. When
I did a good deed every day, I was beaten when I returned to the palace. Aunt Tsao, who
took care of me, scolded me and said, “You’ve really grown up, and you know how to pretend to be a tiger!”! Is that waist card for you to take to be the king?
I was beaten and cried to my father and mother, “Auntie, I was wrong!”
Just when it was busy, my aunt came over and said, “What’s going on again?”? The empress has just woken up, and she hears you making a noise here.
I was too frightened to say a word. Even Aunt Cao knelt down, but a gentle voice behind her said, “Ah Yue, don’t frighten them.”
It was the empress who came!
I didn’t even dare to raise my head. All I could see was that the Empress’s embroidered shoes were getting closer and closer to me. When she came to me, she said softly, “Raise your head and let me have a look.”
When I raised my head, the empress smiled and said, “I don’t believe what you say, but when I see it, I realize that it really looks like me when I was a child.”
Then he said to me, “What is your name?”
Back to the words of the empress, the maidservant’s name is Xiao Lu. For when the maidservant was born, the lake was covered with reeds, and all of them turned white overnight.
“That’s a good name.” “My name is Ah Chao. It rained heavily for half a month before I was born, but when I was born, it suddenly cleared up. My father said this was an auspicious sign, so he gave me this character.” How dare
I compare with the empress?
I stammered flattery and said, “The posture of the sun and the moon is naturally auspicious when the empress is born.”
For a long time, but did not hear the answer, I dared to raise my head, the empress had already gone. With a sigh of relief, I quietly asked Aunt Cao in the evening, “Aunt, do I look like the empress?”
Aunt Tsao patted me and said, “You dare to say anything!” “It was obviously the Empress who said it first,”
I said.
“The empress can speak, but you can’t.” Aunt Tsao couldn’t bear my pestering. “The empress is also from the south of the Yangtze River,” she whispered. “There are beauties in the south of the Yangtze River. It’s a great blessing for you to be somewhat like the empress.” There are so many beauties in the
palace. The empress is not the most beautiful one I have ever seen, but she is the most gentle and dignified one. It is my good fortune to be like her.
I was so happy that I fell asleep in Aunt Cao’s arms. In the dim light, I heard her sigh and say, “I really don’t know whether it’s a blessing or a curse.”
Probably because of my kindness, the empress actually made a special speech to mention me from the last little maid of honor to the third-class female official.
This is like jumping three levels in a row, and if you continue to rise, you will be on an equal footing with Aunt Cao! As I
looked at what the empress had given me, I said excitedly to Aunt Cao, “Aunt, even if I become a bigger official than you, I won’t hit you.” I’ve been disciplined by Aunt Cao
ever since I entered the palace, and I don’t know how many times I’ve been slapped. When I heard this, she glared at me and said, “Since the empress treats you differently, you must remember her kindness.”
I immediately clapped my chest and promised, “I will never fail to live up to the love of the empress.”
The eldest aunt suddenly came in from outside and said, “Meng Niang, I have something to say to you.”
Aunt Tsao kicked me out and said, “Go on with your cicadas.”
It was already dark, and even cicadas had already rested. I deliberately took a few steps slowly to go out, and overheard my aunt say, “What did you think about what I told you last time?”? Her likeness to the empress is a blessing that has been cultivated for generations. Don’t be silly.
Aunt Tsao just shook her head. “She’s still so young..” Aunt
Cao said, suddenly looked over, I was startled, hurriedly shrank his neck to escape.
Outside, the moon was just right, hanging far away in the sky. Before I knew it, I walked to the lake where I had been last time. Suddenly I beamed and said, “Little building!”.
Little Louzi was also standing by the lake. When he heard this, he turned around and saw that it was me. He saluted, “Aunt Lu.”
When he called me that, I laughed. “What kind of aunt am I? Just call me Xiao Lu.”
Then he asked him, “They didn’t bother you any more, did they?”? Last time, why did you jump into the lake? Was it because you were bullied?
“Little Lu,” he didn’t answer. He just asked me, “Why did you save me that day?”
“See nature and save it.” I scratched my head. “I can’t watch you die.”
The moonlight fell on the lake, wrinkled by the wind, and the lake was covered with tiny snowflakes. He smiled softly and said to me, “You are a kind man.”. But in this palace..
“What’s going on in the palace?” And
he wouldn’t say anything.
He was eccentric and a bit of a lonely man. I took out a small purse from my bosom and said, “Give me your hand.”
He took one look at me and slowly stretched out his hand. His purse turned upside down and the candy fell into his palm. I picked one up and threw it into my mouth. “This is called Ding Ding candy. It was given to me by the empress.”. Xiaolouzi, I don’t know what happened to you, but in this life, if you believe in fate, you will be weighed down by fate all your life. If you don’t believe, maybe you can earn another piece of heaven and earth.
He listened intently, and I felt a little embarrassed. “That’s what my dad told me. He used to be a doctor, but he didn’t treat people well, so he was caught in prison.” But he told me not to be sad, but to live happily every day, so that I could live up to my visit to this world.
After a long time, he finally put the candy into his mouth and asked me, “If I work hard, I still can’t win my life.”
“At least you’ve fought for your life. Even if you lose, it’s still a glorious defeat.”
“Defeat is still glorious.” After reading it several times, he suddenly chuckled. “Thank you, Miss Lu.”. I have been condemned to enter the palace, and my heart has been dead. But after listening to your words, I know that there is no dead end in this world, only those who refuse to go forward.
It turned out that he entered the palace because of sin. No wonder a man like him became a eunuch.
I looked at his handsome features and whispered, “Just gossiping, you’re welcome.”
“What you said is, remember the great kindness in your heart and don’t need to talk about it.” When he gazed at me, it was as if he wanted to engrave me in his heart. “If one day you can use me, I will go through fire and water.”
“Where did you go?” The more he said, the more serious it became. I was afraid that he would soon go up to the mountain of knives and down to the sea of fire for me, so I hurried to leave, but then I turned to him and asked him, “Will you come here tomorrow?”
“If you have finished your errands, you will come.”
That.. See you tomorrow. “See you tomorrow,”
he said.
Such a simple agreement makes my heart jump for joy. I went back humming a song and saw Aunt Cao wiping her tears under the lamp. I was surprised and said, “Aunt, why are you crying?”
She hastily wiped away her tears and said, “I was blinded by the lamp.”
Then he stiffened and said, “Tomorrow, you will officially become a female official. Little Lu, you should study with your eldest aunt. Don’t play too much any more.”
I felt a little guilty. “Isn’t it hard to be a female official?”
As long as you study hard, you will learn well. You’re a clever boy.. “But I don’t know if I should expect you to learn well,” said Aunt Tsao. I really don’t understand what
she said.
The next day, before dawn, I was called up to study with my aunt. I thought I was going to learn to manage court maids, keep accounts, and so on, but my aunt asked me first, “Can you read?”
“My father was a herbalist, and he learned a little at home.”
“What about piano, chess, calligraphy and painting?”
“I’ve memorized the chess manual, but I’ve only memorized Mrs. Wei, and I’m not very good at playing the piano and painting.” “That’s enough,” said
the eldest aunt in surprise.
I looked blankly at Aunt Cao. Her face was tense and she was not happy.
I became more and more nervous, but my aunt said kindly, “Don’t be afraid. You know a lot of things. It’s really great.”. It’s just that she is good at playing the piano, chess, calligraphy and painting, especially the piano. You must study hard in the future.
That day I learned the piano from my aunt for a few hours, and my fingertips were so sore that when I saw Xiaolouzi, I was still very puzzled: “I really don’t understand why a female official has to learn these things.”
He frowned. “Do you think you look like the empress?”
“That’s what everyone says..” I felt a little guilty. “But I’m not bragging.” But
he asked, “How is the empress?”
The empress had been ill for a long time. She and the emperor were childhood sweethearts. When the emperor ascended the throne, he made her the empress. The two couples were deeply attached to each other. It was also a match made in heaven. It’s just a pity that the empress had an accidental miscarriage three years ago, and after that, she lingered in bed, and her body was sometimes good and sometimes bad.
I told him honestly, and seeing that he frowned more deeply, I poked him: “Why do you ask this?” “You might as well be stupid,”
he said meaningfully. “When you learn the piano, don’t learn it so well.”
Why can’t I understand what he said?!
But I believed that he would not harm me, so when I went to practice the piano again, I made a lot of mistakes. I pretended not to understand the music that my aunt taught me, and even broke the strings made by a famous artist. It was like this for several days in
a row, and the eldest aunt was so angry that she said, “Get out!”
Yeah! When
I ran into Aunt Tsao on the way out, I thought she was going to scold me too, but her tone was very warm: “Now that I’m tired of practicing, I’ll have a good rest.”
When she went in, I slipped under the window to eavesdrop, just in time to hear Aunt Cao say, “I told you she wasn’t made for this.”. Xiao Lu is already fifteen years old this year. When the empress and Your Majesty met, she was only eleven years old and became famous in the south of the Yangtze River, which attracted Your Majesty to fall in love at first sight. If you pull up the seedlings to help them grow, how can you have a good result?
The eldest aunt’s face was very bad. After a long time, she suddenly shed tears. “Don’t think I have to force myself. It’s the empress’s body. She really can’t hold up.”. Now, she was only thinking about her family. Gu Jia’s mistake this time was really too big. Your Majesty now forgave her for the sake of the empress, but when the empress left, it would be a disaster in an instant. Meng Niang, we watched the empress grow up. How could I have the heart to let her last wish not come true? When
Aunt Tsao heard this, she burst into tears and said, “Even if Xiao Lu is somewhat like the empress, how can she be sure to get Your Majesty’s heart?”? Don’t we know what kind of place this harem is? Why bother to push her into the pit of fire.. I didn’t listen to the
rest of the words, but my heart was already beating fast. I strode towards the lake and saw Xiaolouzi standing there in the distance. I couldn’t brake and crashed into his arms.
His strong arms wrapped around me. “What’s going on?”
Aunt.. Auntie, she.. I gasped and said, “Auntie, she taught me to practice the piano because she wanted me to serve Your Majesty!” His face was flat on
such an earth-shattering event. I came to my senses and said, “Did you guess that already?”
“It’s not hard to guess.” He said, “The empress has been ill for a long time, and all the honor and disgrace of her family are tied up with her. Of course, she has to think about her family.”. Your Majesty and the empress young lover, since you are similar to her, is the best candidate. Having you by Your Majesty’s side all the time can also remind Your Majesty to think of the Empress from time to time and to be tolerant and take care of the family.
“How do I match..” But
he said, “The empress has chosen you, and of course you deserve it.”
“But..” I looked at him with tears in my eyes. “But if I serve Your Majesty, I won’t be able to go home.” He raised his
eyebrows in surprise, and I choked up and said, “My father was sentenced to prison, and in order to save money to redeem it for him, I sold myself into the palace. My mother said she wanted me to live well, and when I was old enough, she would come and take me home.” In
my hometown, there are gentle streams, clear skies, jade-colored lakes, and clusters of lavender bluegrass. When I left, the little tree in front of the door had just sprouted, and now it may have blossomed. “If you marry the emperor,”
he said with a complicated expression, “you will be prosperous and rich in the future.”
“I just want to go home!” I said ferociously, “I want splendor and wealth in order to save it and take my mother to live a good life after I leave the palace!”! I’ve been here for five years, but I haven’t liked this place for a moment. Xiaolouzi, if you have been to my house, you will understand that in this palace, people are just walking corpses.
The more I spoke, the more angry I became. I wiped away my tears and turned to go.
Behind me, I reached out a hand and gently pulled my wrist. The moon was bright and the stars were rare, and his fingertips were slightly cool, pouring through his skin into his heart.
“I said the wrong thing,” he said with a note of guilt in his voice. “You’re going home.” I couldn’t help it
any more. I threw myself into his arms and cried out. I was never willing to say how sad I was in the palace. Aunt Cao was harsh and I was stupid. I didn’t know how many beatings I had suffered after entering the palace. The masters were unpredictable. A little thing might be a disaster. I am only careful to live, and in ten years, I will be able to leave the palace.
“Xiao Lu.” I heard him say, “I’ll help you.”
My heart suddenly quieted down, and I gave a gentle “hum.” Looking at the bright moon on the horizon, I quietly made a wish in my heart: The moon, if you can see the joys and sorrows of the world, I hope you can bless me and Xiaolouzi, so that we can all get what we want.
According to Xiaolouzi, it is not difficult to dispel the idea of the empress.
She is a talented woman, so I want to be her stand-in, but also to develop morally, intellectually, physically, aesthetically and laboriously, but if I can’t stick to the wall, they will naturally give me up. I’m good at
being mud!
To sum up, it is also very simple. I splashed ink when my aunt wrote, I sang when my aunt played the piano, I slept when my aunt read, and I lifted the table when my aunt played chess.
My aunt was so angry with me that she shook her head when she saw me, probably thinking that I was really incurable, and gradually she stopped teaching for me.
I was so happy that I even praised Xiaolouzi for his good idea, but he still looked preoccupied. “A few days ago, news came that the Gu family had been reprimanded by Your Majesty at the court.”
The Gu family was the mother of the empress, and had always been deeply indebted to the emperor, so that they were arrogant and domineering. They did a lot of harmful things in the south of the Yangtze River, and were sued by the emperor all the way to the capital. In the past, when such a thing happened, His Majesty would hold it high and put it down gently, but this time he was furious.
Thick clouds, heavy rain is coming, thunder and lightning are hidden in the wilderness, forbearance is only for the last blow.
But I didn’t understand any of this. I just asked him, “Does Wang Li still bother you?”
Wang Li is a big eunuch beside the emperor, who has been following his majesty since he was young, and has been firmly holding the position beside his majesty. But a few months ago, your majesty accidentally bumped into a small building, and he hit it off at first sight, and even promoted him to his side, to be his personal Chamberlain.
This, greatly offended Wang Li, after all, in the harem, not only the concubines compete for favor, but also the eunuchs want to win the heart of the emperor alone. When
Xiao Louzi heard this, he smiled and said, “I can handle it.”
Then he took out a veil from his bosom and unfolded it to reveal two small Ruyi cakes inside. “Imperial Kitchen freshly made cakes,” he said. “I remember you like them.”
I couldn’t wait to pick up a piece, only to feel sweet all the way to my heart: “Xiaolouzi, you are so kind to me!”! When I leave the palace, I will miss you very much.
He just smiled and looked deep, as if he had a lot on his mind.
That winter, the snow fell earlier than usual.
The empress’s condition worsened and she was bedridden. In March of the following year, the Gu family’s embezzlement of grain for disaster relief could no longer be covered up. Your Majesty was furious. The empress knelt down in front of the Minghua Hall for two hours. Finally, Your Majesty relented and forgave the Gu family once again.
But everyone knows that the moment the empress died was the time when the family was destroyed.
So when the empress called me in front of her, I just knelt on the ground and said nothing. Outside the window, the Chinese flowering crabapple blossoms were scattered all over the ground. The empress looked at me for a long time and sighed in a low voice, “That’s all right. Since you don’t want to, why should I bother to force you for myself?”
Then he said to his aunt, “When I’m dead..” Remember to send Xiao Lu out of the palace.
Empress.. She’s really a good person. When
I returned to my room with what the empress had given me, I saw a strange little eunuch standing in front of the door. When he saw me, he said anxiously, “Aunt Lu, it’s not good!”! Father-in-law Hsiao-lou went wrong on a business trip, and Grandpa Wang threw him into prison and had his head cut off! Wang Li is the only one who can be called Grandpa Wang in
this palace. I know he has always been domineering, but I didn’t expect that in order to exclude dissidents, he would be trapped at will
. Xiaolouzi has always been cautious in handling affairs. If someone hadn’t framed him, how could he have made a mistake? I was so
anxious that I was about to run out. I hesitated for a moment, but stopped. The little eunuch urged me, “Auntie, go quickly.”
I said, “You go first..” Stall for time. I’ll be right with you. What’s the use of
my going? Is Wang Li still afraid of me, a little maid of honor?
So I took a breath, stroked the corner of my clothes, and finally turned around and walked back into the queen’s bedroom. There was a bitter smell in the
palace, and the empress was drinking the medicine, and her face was extremely pale. Seeing me, she was a little surprised. I had already stepped forward and knelt heavily on the ground: “Empress, I am willing to serve Your Majesty!”
She frowned. “Would you?”
Yes, it was the maidservant’s good fortune to have the empress look at her differently. In the past, the maidservant was not sensible, and that’s why she made a joke. After you can.. Certainly not.
“Little Lu,” said the empress, “weren’t you unwilling just now? What’s going on?
Tears rolled out, and I choked up and said, “Empress, Empress, please..” Please save Xiaolouzi! I’m willing to be an ox and a horse, as long as you save him.
Wang Li won’t be afraid of me. The only one who can save Xiaolouzi is the empress. And I have no other bargaining chip, I can only pay with my own body. “He’s just a little eunuch. Is it worth it?” Asked
the empress with mixed eyes. Is
it worth it?
I remembered the beautiful moon shining brightly on his face. He looked at me and said softly, “I will help you.”
Everyone is forcing me for their own sake, no one is willing to help me, only he is willing to send me home. I hit my
forehead hard on the ground and said, “It’s worth it.”
“Ah Yue,” she said to her aunt, “take my cards and go for a walk.”
I breathed a sigh of relief and collapsed on the ground, but the empress sighed and said, “I only hope that in the future, you will not regret today’s choice.”
My father taught me to play chess, and the first thing he taught me was “no regrets.”. Besides, why should I regret if I can save Xiaolouzi?
It’s just a pity that there is no blue grass in the palace, and there is no small courtyard beside the stream.
The red wall is high, only four corners of the sky can be seen, how many people are inside, doomed to be trapped in the besieged city. As soon as I said it
, I followed my aunt to study hard.
I’m not a smart person, but I’m not very stupid either. I put in a lot of effort, and finally my aunt smiled and said, “I’m really a plastic talent.” “She looks like a big girl,” said
Aunt Tsao. Reflected in the
mirror was a face with dark and thick eyelashes and a pair of big and round eyes. In the past, it was always smiling and innocent, but now it was quiet and dignified again.
At first glance, it was very similar to the empress.
This is me.
I smiled a little, but outside, someone came in and whispered to my eldest aunt. When she heard this, she said to me, “Little Lu, someone is looking for you.”
I guessed who it was, but I saluted properly and went out. It was raining
outside, knocking under the eaves, making a sound like broken jade. Under a tree in the courtyard stood a man with an oil-paper umbrella in his hand. He was tall and thin, like Zhilan Yushu. Just wearing, is no longer a light blue gown, but a new set of silver and purple clothes-this Dynasty to respect purple, eunuchs can wear purple, must be very loved by your majesty. When he heard the
sound, he turned his head and showed a face like pearls and jade. I stopped and looked at him from a distance, but he suddenly strode forward and walked in front of me. His eyes met, and his Adam’s apple rolled up and down, as if he had something stuck in his throat. But in the end, he just said, “Why are you so stupid?”
“Xiao Lou Zi.” I smiled and asked him, “How are you these days?” He
probably didn’t expect me to ask this question. After a long time, he said, “Very good. With the good words of the Empress, Your Majesty has valued me more and more. Even Wang Li has made amends to me personally. No one will bully me again.”
“That’s enough.” I said, “You’re alive and well, so I’m not doing anything stupid.” As the
rain became heavier and the white mist rose, I saw a drop of water rolling slowly down the end of his long and narrow eyes, falling to his tightly pursed lips and disappearing.
“Little Lu,” he said in a steady voice, “I can’t repay you for my kindness. I have failed you a lot in my life.”
Ten thousand rivers with no roots rose into the air, and it began to rain heavily under his eyes. I tried to raise my lips, smiling so hard that my eyebrows and eyes arched: “Then we must all be good, and stay together in this palace.”
He held out his hand to me, and I thought he was going to hold me, but he just gently put a jade hairpin into my hair.
He said, Happy birthday. It’s just a pity that I can’t give you a piece of bluegrass.
Then he stepped back, gave me a deep salute, and turned away. I
looked at his background, and I couldn’t see it, and I was still looking. At some point, Aunt Cao stood beside me and said softly, “You are all good children, Xiao Lu. Don’t cry.”
I smiled and said, “Auntie, I won’t cry.”
But the tears still fell down.
I couldn’t help throwing myself into my aunt’s arms and crying silently.
The spirit is like an orchid, which will not change, and the heart is like an orchid, which will not change. Between
us, not even a hug, not even an orchid. Before the Mid-Autumn Festival banquet in
2008
, the empress died in her sleep.
The emperor was so sad that in March, Xiaolouzi sent a secret letter. The emperor had sent the Royal Guards to the south of the Yangtze River to collect evidence of the Gu family’s crimes. When he returned to court, he would catch them all. On the last day of
three months, I put on a white shirt and pulled my long hair back loosely, but this time, I didn’t let my aunt light the cinnabar for me. Deep in the corner of the
palace, I gently played a zither. The sound of the harp is leisurely, a hundred turns and a thousand turns. At the end of the
song, someone asked me, “Why are you playing here?”
“But I have a feeling.” When I had finished
speaking, I raised my eyes and saw the emperor standing in front of me. I pretended to be surprised and got up to salute. When the emperor saw my appearance, he was stunned: “You are..” The little girl in the Azhao Palace? How do you feel when you say you have a feeling?
“Tell your majesty that the maidservant has just played a piece called ‘The Phoenix Seeking the Phoenix.’ When Sima Xiangru wanted to marry Zhuo Wenjun, he painstakingly wrote this poem, but after only a few years of harmony between the husband and wife, he moved on and fell in love with someone else. He was as merciless as this bleak autumn wind.”
The emperor frowned and said, “Are you reflecting on me?”
“The maidservant does not dare.” In the old days, I would have trembled with fear, but out of the corner of my eye I saw a familiar figure behind the emperor, and my heart settled down. It’s just that at the beginning, the empress didn’t mind that the maidservant was born humble, and she personally taught the maidservant music. Even before she died, she still thought about the maidservant, and there was no way to repay her great kindness. If a maidservant, like Sima Xiangru, turned her head and left the empress behind, wouldn’t she have no talent and no strength of character?
The emperor’s face was uncertain. “What a man!” He sneered. “He has no talent and no strength of character.”. Zhao teaches well, and you also learn well. It’s just that I don’t think you have no talent. When you open your mouth, you will be smart. Lift up your head.
I raised my head slowly and stared boldly at the emperor.
The moon was high in the sky, and the sweet-scented osmanthus flowers were falling like pieces of gold. The fragrance was floating in the air. He narrowed his eyes slightly and asked me, “What’s your name?”
“Back to Your Majesty, the maidservant’s name is Xiao Lu, because when the maidservant was born, the lake was covered with reeds after frost, and all of them turned white overnight.”
“Xiaolouzi, arrange for her to come to bed tonight.” When
the emperor finished, he turned and walked away. The corner of his clothes smoked with ambergris brushed my cheek. I kowtowed, my forehead pressed against the cold green brick floor, but was held by a gentle and powerful hand.
It’s a small building.
He picked me up and said in a gentle voice, “Miss Lu, hurry back and get ready. I’ll take good care of Your Majesty tonight.” “Thank you, father-in-law,”
I said.
His hand suddenly clenched hard on my wrist, and I felt a little pain, but my heart was full of tenderness.
This is the plan I made together with him. I put on the clothes of the empress when she first met the emperor and played a song of the empress’s favorite song “Phoenix Seeking Phoenix”. Even this golden osmanthus tree was exactly the same as when they fell in love at first sight. And Xiaolouzi helped me lead the emperor to this remote corner.
A word spoken is a word that must be honored. The empress treated me with sincerity, and I naturally had to do everything I promised her.
The night was doomed to be sleepless. I was carried in a small sedan chair to the emperor’s Qiankun Palace. The emperor asked me, “Aren’t you afraid that I will cut off your head?”
I said respectfully, “You are the man that the Empress loves most. I believe that the Empress has never loved the wrong person in her life.”
“Sharp teeth and sharp mouth.” There was a flash of anger in the emperor’s eyes. “I’d like to see how bold you are.”
My courage is not big, but fortunately is a good student, before the death of the empress, she told me all the past with your majesty, but also left my aunt in my side to assist.
I started from the youngest talent and went up step by step. My face was both good and bad. When it was good, the emperor took me by the hand and sobbed, “Ah Zhao, every day is too long without you.” When it was
bad, the emperor wanted to dispose of the family, but the empress could not do it, so he sent his anger to me.
On one occasion, the emperor was so nervous that he hit me on the forehead with an inkstone, and the blood gushed out immediately and fell on his painting, like a little red plum blossom.
I sighed, “It’s a pity that your majesty made a good picture of the auspicious crane, but it was soiled by my concubine.”
He probably regretted that he had been too hard on me, and when I said this, his tone softened a little: “Why didn’t you know to hide aside?”
“Your Majesty, if you don’t get angry, what can you do if you go to the former court and have an attack on someone else?”
“Do you think I make trouble out of nothing every day?” The emperor, however, became angry again. “With all the family members, and with my favor, he ran amuck and acted recklessly!”! You want to protect them for the sake of Ah Zhao, but who should you ask for justice for the people who died because of them?
I was stunned, and for a moment I couldn’t think of anything to say, but the emperor seemed to be extremely tired. He waved his hand and said, “If you have the heart, go and kneel down to the gods and Buddhas in the sky to see if they are willing to forgive the family.” It was raining
outside, and the banyan tree in the courtyard was knocked by the rain. I knelt under the tree, and suddenly someone held up an umbrella for me.
I don’t have to look up to know who it is: “If Your Majesty sees it, he will be angry again.”
“No.” Xiao Louzi said, “Your Majesty actually likes you very much in his heart.”
“Xiaolouzi!” I chuckled. “Sometimes I wonder if I’ve done something wrong.”
I know that Gu Jia is not innocent, in the eyes of the people, I am the evil imperial concubine who helps a tyrant to do evil, and the small building that has been helping me is also a heinous crime. I am already the imperial concubine, even if the emperor is sometimes good and sometimes bad to me, in the harem, I am still the first favor. Everything
I got came from the empress, but I suddenly didn’t know where to go on this road.
Xiaolouzi gently put his hand on my shoulder-this is a gesture that is too overstepping, but in the palace, it brings me a little strength.
“Empress.” His tone was flat, but he made a lifelong promise: “Don’t be afraid, I will protect you.”
“Xiao Lou Zi.” I said softly, “You haven’t called me Xiao Lu for a long time.”
This day is my eighteenth birthday, and only two years have passed since then. Two years in a hurry, but in a flash, but I always feel that I have finished my life. There is no one in
the world to call me Xiao Lu, only the emperor’s concubines, only the endless competition for favor. There was a never-ending heavy rain in the
sky, and the huge palace was doomed to submerge me. In the tenth year of
entering the palace in 2009, I became an imperial concubine.
Since the death of the empress, your majesty has made it clear that the imperial concubine is the first of the imperial concubines in the palace. With my seniority, I should not have conferred the title, but I was pregnant. The
last child of the emperor was Princess Huiyi, who was born five years ago, and the only big prince died of illness two years ago.
So he showed great enthusiasm for the child I was carrying. After retiring from the court, he even came to my palace specially. After a long time of rambling, he suddenly asked me, “Can I touch your stomach?”
This request was a bit perverted. He and I were both silent. He was a little embarrassed: “If it doesn’t work, forget it.”
“Your Majesty.” Then I said, “My people are all yours. You can touch them if you want.”
He reached out his hand and carefully placed it on my lower abdomen. The baby was only three months pregnant, but a smile appeared on his face. “It seems to have moved,” he said in surprise.
I didn’t tell him that today’s children are still like small soybeans and can’t move at all. That night, when he was drunk, he hugged me and said, “..” Zhao, our child, the eyes should be like you, the nose should be like you, and the mouth should be like you. If only my eyebrows were like mine, you used to praise me, saying that my eyebrows were so thick that they saved me the trouble of drawing my eyebrows.
I couldn’t hold back my laughter, but I saw the end of his eyes, and a line of tears was slowly rolling down: “Ah Zhao..” If only our child had not died and you were still with me.
Ten years of life and death two boundless, do not think, since unforgettable.
He finally closed his eyes and fell asleep. I walked barefoot under the moon and saw Xiaolouzi standing there, staring at the top of his head in a trance. I went up to him and asked, “What are you looking at?” The moon is high
tonight, and it will be sunny tomorrow. The drought in Guangdong and Guangxi cannot be alleviated. He sighed and said, “Your Majesty has had no time to rest these days because of the disaster. Fortunately, he came to you so that he could sleep soundly.”
State affairs are busy, and the small harem carries the joys and sorrows of the world. Xiaolouzi is a eunuch, but also the heart of the people, if he did not enter the palace, must also be a good official.
He brought a pair of embroidered shoes and said, “It’s getting late, Empress. Let’s rest early.”
I didn’t like him calling me empress, so I kicked my shoes away and he picked them up good-naturedly. “You’re pregnant, and it’s easy to catch cold when you’re barefoot.”
“Xiao Lou Zi.” I whispered to him, “I haven’t had a child in the palace for so many years, and I’m a little afraid..”
He leaned down, took my ankle gently, and wiped the dust off my feet.
“Don’t be afraid.” “The child will be safe,” he said softly. In the past
ten years, not only have I reached a high place, but he has also become a powerful nine-thousand-year-old. Wang Li is no longer an opponent, and now he is respectful to him. Now that he has said it, he will be able to protect me and my children.
Even if I don’t say it, he will protect me, but I will listen to him. I also had a good sleep
that night, and when I woke up the next day, before I opened my eyes, I could smell the fragrance of the room. The hall was filled with flowers of all colors, bright and beautiful, as bright as the rays of the sun. I was pleasantly surprised and said, “Where did it come from?”
Someone said, “Early in the morning, Father Lou urged people to go to Lin Heng’s office to look for the flowers.”
When I turned to look, I was even more surprised. “Aunt Cao!”! What are you doing here? Aunt
Cao retired a few years ago and left the palace to take care of her. Although I often rewarded her, I haven’t seen her for a long time. Her face is a little older, but her body is strong, and she has a pot of gold in her hand. “It’s not your ancestor yet, and there’s a little ancestor in my stomach. How can I not come and have a look?” It
must be Xiaolouzi who invited her here! I was so
happy that I didn’t know what to do. It happened that my maid brought me a bowl of bird’s nest porridge. I brought it to her with my own hands and said, “My aunt used to take care of me in the past. Finally, it’s my turn to take care of my aunt.”
“I’m going to be a mother, but I’m still not so stable.” Aunt Tsao glared at me, but she smiled. “I thought I didn’t know. I didn’t like to drink bird’s nest when I was young.”
But she still opened her mouth and drank the porridge I fed her. But
I suddenly realized something was wrong: “I didn’t say I wouldn’t eat bird’s nests, so why did I suddenly bring this?”
The maidservant replied, “It was given by the Qiankun Palace.”
Now in the Qiankun Palace, Xiaolouzi is in charge of the outside, accompanying the emperor, and Wang Li is in charge of the inside, taking charge of all the internal affairs. A dark cloud rose in
my heart, and Aunt Cao asked me, “What’s wrong?” “Nothing,”
I hastened to say. Auntie, have you found out where my mother is?
Since I was promoted step by step, I sent people to the south of the Yangtze River to find my family. It was just the news from the spies that my mother and my brother had gone somewhere long ago.
The spies could not enter the palace, and if there was any news, they reported it to Aunt Cao.
“It’s still the same. There’s no news.” Aunt Tsao advised me, “No news is good news. Little Lu, don’t worry too much.”
I lowered my head and answered, but suddenly I heard a “click” and a big red liquid fell down, splashing a blood flower on the back of my hand.
I suddenly looked up and saw a stream of blood gushing out of Aunt Cao’s nasal cavity. Before she knew it, she smiled and asked me, “What’s wrong?”
“Auntie..” Trembling, I shouted, “Somebody!”! Pass on the imperial physician! When the doctor
arrived, Aunt Cao was already in a coma. After feeling the pulse, the imperial physician said to me in horror, “This is a poisoned pulse!”
“Can it be cured?”
“Empress..” The doctor knelt down and said, “I tried my best, but I could only let the patient wake up and say the last few words.”
Last few words?
I looked at Aunt Cao on the bed. Her face was as pale as paper. The blood in her lips and nose had been wiped clean, leaving a faint red mark. I pulled out my handkerchief and carefully wiped it for her.
The doctor was still saying, “Empress, make a decision early. If it’s too late, you won’t even hear the last word!” There was a buzzing in my
ears, and I looked around unconsciously, but there were only servants kneeling on the ground.
I took a deep breath and finally nodded gently.
The imperial physician was a national hand, but after a few injections, Aunt Tsao woke up and said, “What’s the matter?”
He asked me, “Why are you crying?”
“Auntie,” I choked. “It’s my fault. I hurt you.”
Aunt Tsao had been in the palace for many years, and when she thought about it, she understood: “That bowl of bird’s nest porridge?”
I nodded, thinking she would blame me, but she breathed a sigh of relief: “It’s a good thing I ate it, Xiao Lu, otherwise what would you and the child do?”
She doesn’t blame me!
Even if I feed her the poisonous porridge with my own hands, even if she is dying for me.
But she doesn’t blame me!
I wish I could gouge out my heart and use it as medicine, if only I could save her life-but I can’t.
I finally broke down and burst into tears, but Aunt Cao managed to straighten up and hold me in her arms: “Be good, little Lu, don’t cry..” You were only ten years old when you entered the palace, and you were not angry even if you got the smallest piece of Bean Paste Cake. I thought you were stupid, but you quietly handed it to me at night and said, “Auntie, you eat.”. In one’s life, there is a certain number of people who gather and disperse. Xiao Lu, if I can save your life, my aunt will have no regrets.
Her voice trailed off, blood gushed from her lips, and she held me tightly, as if laughing, as if sighing: “My silly girl.”
The last sentence was broken here.
Youshi has arrived, the drum tower sounded the sound of the drum, one by one, spread to the invisible distance. Aunt Tsao slowly cooled down in her
arms, and when someone tried to take her away, I grabbed her sleeve in a panic and said, “Don’t touch her!”
“Xiao Lu.” But it was the emperor who stood before me. “She is dead.”
No.. She’s not dead.. I smiled at him ingratiatingly. “Your Majesty, Aunt Cao isn’t dead. She’s just asleep. Don’t drive her away, okay?”
“Take her down.”
Someone came forward to take Aunt Cao away. I grabbed the corner of the clothes, and the man grabbed me and broke my fingers one by one.
His hand was so strong that I couldn’t resist it. When the last finger was broken, I raised my eyes in despair and saw Xiaolouzi bending over and breaking my finger with an expressionless face. With trembling lips,
I called out to him, “Xiaolouzi..”
“Empress,” he said softly, “the dead are gone. Don’t let Your Majesty worry about you.”
I suddenly lost all my strength and fell heavily on the bed, letting tears flow down silently. The emperor hugged me and said, “Don’t cry. What if you hurt the child?”? As long as you don’t cry, I will promise you anything. What else do
I want? I
was like a reborn ghost, and I could only say so viciously, “I want Wang Li to be buried with Aunt Cao!”
The emperor was frightened by me. After a while, he said, “Him?”
He sent that bowl of poisoned bird’s nest porridge in your name! Aunt Tsao died for me! I knew the emperor wouldn’t kill Wang Li, so I stared him in the eye and said sadly, “Rokuro, please.”
This is not what Xiao Lu should call him, only many years ago, Ah Zhao would call him like this.
The emperor looked at my eyes so sad, as if through me, looking at the past.
After a long time, he said slowly, “Good.”
I choked and threw myself into his arms, but there were no tears in my eyes. I used the empress to realize my wish, and I became the kind of person I despised most.
But I think, aunt, I have avenged you. In
the porridge is the crane top red, takes the intestines to wear the belly to be rotten, is most painful.
Therefore, when Wang Li was sent to prison, I personally sent him a bowl of bird’s nest porridge.
He was a very kind-looking old man, who had been in a high position for a long time and had raised a face that was not surprised by spoils and humiliations. Even in such a situation, he still bowed to me humbly and said, “Thank you for the reward from the imperial concubine.”
“Fate is wonderful.” I said with a sneer, “When Grandfather Wang brought me that bowl of poisoned bird’s nest porridge, he certainly didn’t expect that he himself would have to taste such an evil consequence.” But
Wang Li said, “Does the empress really think that the bowl of porridge was sent by a slave?” If it’s
not you, who else? In this palace, you have always befriended Concubine Ning and Concubine Hui. Knowing that I am pregnant, you naturally want to eradicate me..
“Empress.” Wang Li laughed, “Such a crude means, that is, the slave really succeeded, how can Your Majesty spare the slave?”? You might as well think about it. In today’s situation, who is making the most profit?
I suddenly froze and stared at him in a daze. In Wang Li’s eyes, there was a trace of sympathy: There are some things that slaves don’t want to say. After all, in this palace, maybe people who don’t know anything can live better. But the way the slave sees you in the dark is really a little pitiful.
I wanted to tell him not to talk nonsense, but after a long time, I only said, “I’d like to hear how pitiful I am.”
When I came out of the prison, the sun had set. Aunt
Cao’s funeral is today, but I can’t go to see her off in person. I can only stand on the wall and look out quietly. In
the twilight, the spring red faded, and the cool wind rolled up from the north. Xiaolouzi accompanied me and put on a big cloak for me. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw his hands, long and pale, and remembered that day when he broke my fingers one by one.
The emperor’s order is hard to disobey, and he also has his own difficulties.
“Before he died, Wang Li told me something.” I looked at the red clouds in the distance and said lightly, “Some of them are related to you. Do you want to hear them?”
“If the empress wants me to know, I want to hear it.”
“Xiaolouzi..” I closed my eyes with forbearance and managed to suppress my anger. “Do we have to talk like this?”
“High and low cannot be disobeyed.”
“Superiority or inferiority is just an excuse.” I sneered, “Besides, how could I be where I am today without you?”
He only said, “The empress has been too modest.”. Without me, Your Majesty will still favor you.
“Are you still playing dumb?” My fingernails pierced my palms, and the dull pain flooded through my heart. I heard my voice, which was still clear and melodious, but I didn’t see the innocence of the beginning. “At that time, the empress was willing to send me out of the palace, but in order to save you from Wang Li, I volunteered to serve Your Majesty..”
“Wang Li said that although he had put you in prison, he had not deliberately framed you, and even had some doubts about how a cautious man like you could give him such a big handle.”
Years ago, when I was young, I knelt down in front of the empress, the courtyard was deep, my forehead was on the cold floor tiles, but my heart was burning hot, beating only for my sweetheart.
But now, I looked at him and said, “I want you to tell me, did you deliberately make a mistake at that time in order to keep me in the palace?” At the sound of evening
drums, crows and birds swept across the cobalt blue and shrimp red sky. He stood there with his head hanging down. There was no surprise on his pale and handsome face, as if he had expected that there would be such a moment between me and him.
I heard him say, “Yes.”
So I asked him again, “Wang Li also said that he didn’t send me that bowl of porridge. After all, if he poisoned me, he couldn’t escape the blame.”. So. That bowl of porridge. That bowl of porridge.. He
raised his hazel eyes to reflect the mountains, rivers, the sun, the moon, and the moon. “I sent it in the name of Wang Li,” he said in a gentle and cold voice.
I was silent for a moment. “Why?”
“Wang Li met your majesty when he was young. Your majesty was softhearted and refused to deal with him. If he didn’t take advantage of the empress’s pregnancy, he would be in great trouble in the future.”
All the tender memories and innocent past have gone up in smoke at this moment. The
last ray of light fell, and I shivered back, leaning my back against the wall, looking at him, but I couldn’t remember what he looked like when I first saw him.
“Xiaolouzi..” I asked him softly, “What if I ate that bowl of porridge and died?”
“That bowl of porridge is bird’s nest. You never drink bird’s nest..” With a
bang, I slapped him hard, too hard, and soon a red mark appeared on his face. Pointing at him,
I was so angry that I burst out laughing and said, “What a nine-thousand-year-old man who has no plan!”! Xie Fenglou, you have got everything! You calculate that I will stay in the palace in order to save you, you take me as a ladder, these years in front of the emperor with Wang Li for favor, through my reputation, in the court to play power. I can forgive you for all this.
But I personally fed that bowl of porridge to Aunt Tsao. I didn’t kill Boren, but Boren died because of me. It was the two of us who killed her! With
tears in my eyes, I finally said in despair, “Hsieh Feng-lou, you’ve ruined my life. I really hate you.” The young man in
my heart is beautiful like a jade man in the moonlight, but when I look back, the moon is no longer hanging high, everything is illusory.
My sweetheart died, died in my fantasy, died in my tenth year in the palace.
“If only I had not known you.” As I whispered, my voice scattered in the wind and drifted away like fireflies, “Without you, I must have gone home..” When the
last sentence was over, I turned over and jumped down from the wall. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw his expression. For the first time, he lost his calmness and became so frightened and desperate.
He rushed toward me and called out to me in despair, “Little Lu!” Will
you suffer for me, too? I think, but Xie Fenglou, you really owe me too much.
To live one more day in this world is torture for me.
Unfortunately, I didn’t die.
Xie Fenglou pulled me back with quick eyes and quick hands, but I was too frightened to wake up. When
the emperor knew it, he was furious and ordered me to be imprisoned in the palace so as not to hurt his precious dragon son again, even if his dragon son was still in my stomach.
But I was just a stand-in for the woman he loved, a vessel for the reincarnation of his child who died early.
Only not Xiao Lu, not an independent woman. If
they don’t allow me to die, I will live well. Only by living can I do what I want to do. When
I was pregnant for more than four months, the emperor never came to see me again. Only Xie Fenglou always came and did not stay long. He looked at me and said a few words to me to make sure I was not crazy, so he turned around and left.
Later, I heard from the little maid who had never delivered a meal that the emperor was finally fed up with the Gu family. The Gu family was sentenced to behead all over the house. The huge romance disappeared in a moment. When I
knew it, I didn’t say anything. I just ate my meal in silence. As he ate, he apologized to the empress: “I don’t have the ability. I didn’t do what you told me..”
Rice like frost, a grain like snow, I feel bitter to eat, touch the face to know that he actually cried. When I was seven months
pregnant, Xie Fenglou came to tell me that the emperor was dying of illness. He also said that I would definitely give birth to the prince. I know what he means. Even if I give birth to a girl, he will turn the child into a boy.
Only in this way can he support a puppet little emperor and continue to be his nine thousand years old in power.
The baby was born on a winter night. It snowed heavily that night, and the hundred-mile imperial city was silent. When I was in bed, struggling to lose my strength, I finally heard the sound of crying.
It was a boy, red all over. The midwife brought him to me and said, “Your Highness, look how vigorously the prince is crying.” Before
I could look at it, the door was opened and the wind blew in with snowflakes. Hsieh Feng-lou stood there and said to the midwife, “Give me the prince.”
I straightened up. “Who dares to take my child away?”
“Empress.” “Your Majesty wants to see the crown prince,” said Hsieh Feng-lou.
“This is my child..”
But he had taken the child and turned away.
I struggled to jump down from the bed, my fingertips brushed the corner of his clothes, so staggered, the door closed in front of me, I could not even cry, I could only clench my teeth.
This is the child I was pregnant for 10 months, and I didn’t even see it, and it was taken away.
Xie Fenglou manipulated me like this, but in the end, there was nothing I could do.
During that time, I was in a muddle. One day, the door opened again, and the people who came in had peach petals on their shoulders. Only then did I know that it was already spring.
“Empress.” He bowed to me and said, “Your Majesty has passed away and left an edict that the crown prince will succeed to the throne. Until he comes of age, you will be in charge of the court.” But
I don’t care about this: “What about Hsieh Feng Lou?” It
wasn’t Hsieh Feng-lou, it was just the little eunuch who had followed him in the past. When he heard this, his eyes turned red and he said in a low voice, “Lord Hsieh..” His Majesty sentenced him to the penalty of Ling Chi for selling official posts and titles and perverting the law for bribes.
Ling Chi?
I didn’t understand for a moment. After a long time, I said softly, “Then I’ll see him off for the last time.” The first thing I did when I
became the Empress Dowager was to personally preside over the execution of Ling Chi at Xie Fenglou. The people in the
capital were so bold that they rushed to see the tragic situation of nine thousand years old. I sat at the head and saw him kneeling there. Even if he fell into the dust, his face was still as bright as the moon.
The executioner asked me, “Empress Dowager, the time has come..”
I answered, and he said majestically, “The hour has come. Execution!”
The so-called Ling Chi, is to use a sharp knife, cut the meat from the body piece by piece, the best executioner, cut the skeleton, inside a heart is still beating.
When the first knife fell on Xie Fenglou, I saw him frowning.
Blood gushed out in an instant, so hot and strong, just like his heart, so sincere. The
people were all saying, “He went mad and cut off the heads of many high officials, but he didn’t expect to follow in his footsteps.”
“He was a dog raised by the late emperor. He helped the late emperor kill all the people who needed to be bitten. Of course, it was time to die.”
“Ha ha ha, nine thousand years old, not as long as us!”
They said, actually laughed, on the same stage is silent bleeding Xie Fenglou, as if not in a world.
I stared at him, and he suddenly felt something and struggled to raise his head and look at me.
Across the crowd, his frowning brows suddenly opened and he smiled faintly at me.
I thought I heard him calling me, “Xiao Lu.”
But clearly not, even if he is in front of me, but he has not called my name for a long time. The
air was full of blood, mixed with the sweet fragrance of peach blossoms, and everything was so ferocious and clear.
He must have been in a lot of pain, and his face was as pale as paper, but he mouthed at me. I recognized him as saying, “Don’t be afraid.” Suddenly
I stood up, and the officer in charge of the execution was startled. “What’s the matter, Empress Dowager?”
“I’ll go back to the palace first.”
I said, as if I were running away, leaving this cruel place. Sitting in the car, I could not help sneering: to such a situation, even if he Xie Fenglou, but also to fawn.
But when I think of the way he was covered in blood, the light in his eyes when he saw me, and a certain inch of his heart, it hurts. When I
returned to the palace, I was extremely tired, but before I could rest, the commander of the Royal Guards was waiting for me.
The Royal Guards used to be in the hands of Xie Fenglou. They only listened to his orders. They must be a little rude when facing me. “The Empress Dowager,” he said respectfully. Surprised,
I said, “I called you here today because I want you to help me find someone.”
“The empress is looking for your mother.”
“How do you know?”
“Your mother’s whereabouts have long been found by Lord Hsieh.” “She died the year after you entered the palace,” he said.
I was struck by lightning: “Why didn’t he tell me?!”
“Lord Hsieh has left a letter for you. Perhaps if you read it, you will be able to solve your doubts.” As
he spoke, he handed me the letter and retired respectfully.
After he left, I slowly opened the letter and saw the first sentence on it: “If you read this letter, I must be dead.”. When
a man is dying, I can finally tell you everything. I’m sorry to have left you in the palace in such a terrible way. I’m sorry to have used you to please His Majesty. My surname is Xie. I was the only son of the Xie family in Longxi. In the sixth year of Dingbo, the Xie family was found to be greedy for money. Your Majesty was furious. The Xie family was exiled when they were over fourteen years old. I was thirteen years old that year. I was buried in the court and became a eunuch. Before I met you, I didn’t want to live in the world, but after I met you, I understand that fate may always have waves, but people can choose what they want to live like.
Without you, Hsieh Feng-lou would be dead. So, when you said you wanted to leave the palace, I really wanted to help you, even one step ahead of you, went to the south of the Yangtze River, wanted to bring your mother to Beijing, give you a surprise. But the man I sent told me that your mother and your brother didn’t get through the drought that year.
I know how much you love your mother, and if you hear this news, you will be in great pain. So I will force you to stay in the palace, stay with your majesty, at least in this way, you can enjoy the splendor and wealth, instead of losing everything after leaving the palace. By Your Majesty’s side, on the surface,
I have done all kinds of evil things by Your Majesty’s favor, but in fact, I have served Your Majesty’s secret decree to punish those corrupt officials. Your majesty is a wise king, but the court is in internal and external difficulties, it is time to sway, there are eunuchs autocratic, there are consorts domineering, so I would like to be the knife in his hand, cut all the demons, also a clean heaven and earth. Even when the universe returns, my sword will be broken, and I will be happy.
Wang Li has always colluded with the Ku family. Behind him stands a group of imperial relatives. Without conclusive evidence of guilt, it is really difficult to eradicate them. At that time, Your Majesty wanted to use the fetus in your abdomen as a guide to get rid of Wang Li and Gu Jia completely. I can not dissuade, only the bird’s nest porridge in the crane top red for abortion pills, if one must die, I would rather die in your belly of the fetus, not you. But I didn’t expect that your majesty saw through my plan and changed the medicine back to crane top red.
Sorry, I know you don’t love the palace, but I still force you to become the queen mother and stay in the palace all your life. It’s just that if you leave the palace, the rest of the Gu family will certainly harm you. You’re right. I killed Aunt Cao, but it had nothing to do with you. Don’t blame yourself. In front of all the gods and Buddhas in the sky, I will explain for you. Even if you go to hell, those sins will be borne by me alone.
A tear suddenly fell, and I suddenly came to my senses: “Somebody!”! Stop the execution! Go and get Hsieh Feng Lou back!
But the maidservant said, “Empress, the news came when you came back..” Lord Hsieh, you have already gone.
Already. Is it too late?
I sat back, trembling, and looked at the end of the letter. “When you saved me, I was thinking that I must not let such a beautiful little girl down.”. Unfortunately, in this life, your tears are mostly because of me.
“It’s too late for you and me to meet. Xiao Lu, if there is an afterlife, I will be a tree in front of the courtyard, to rectify the wind and shield you from the rain, and I will never be separated from you again.” In the
courtyard, the spring breeze is like a kiss, and the peach blossoms on the branches rustle and fall. As if I were crazy, I went out and gently dropped my hand on the tree.
The wind rustled through the treetops, as if someone were softly calling my name.
I remember him saying, “Don’t be afraid. I will protect you.”
It turned out that he had never broken his promise.
“How can you be so stupid?” I said, “You have fulfilled your mission, but everyone hates you and thinks you are a treacherous court official. No one will embarrass our mother and son. Even if you die, you have to plan to help me.”
“Hsieh Feng Lou, is it worth it?”
Peaches and plums do not speak, but I know that if he were still here, he would smile at me and say, “It’s worth it.”
The spirit is like an orchid, which will not change, and the heart is like an orchid, which will not change.
I rested my head on the peach tree as if I were in his arms. The summer at the age of
fifteen is always long, and the moonlight is as hot as a hopeless love. Only the fireflies that live and die in the morning and evening witness our past. The
cold young girl and the innocent girl smiled at each other, and suddenly it was the best time in their lives.
This is the first year of Ming Xi, to bid farewell to the old and usher in the new, everyone rejoiced and welcomed the new emperor to the throne.
Some people are buried in the old days, their eyes are dim, and they still look like the old days.
In the continuous spring, I closed my eyes and finally burst into tears.
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