Because of me, he was frozen by the club and even forced to retire.
But that night, he sent me a picture and said, “Sister, I want a rubber
band.” “Give it to me, will you?”
Later, he said, “There are two things that are important in my life.” “The game
and you.”
“More than like” (sister and brother text, has ended, please rest assured to eat ~)
1
that day
he said with red eyes: “You give me a soft. I will marry you if you are
soft, and I will not pursue everything you said to me before.
I said, I went back on my word, Jiang Mian, you didn’t expect that I would not like you one
day. When
I called Jiang Mian, his breath was a little confused. At night, the headlights streaked all over my body, and I pinched the microphone and went straight into it.
“I don’t want to marry you anymore.”
There was a moment of silence.
“Are you doing it again?”
After a while, he gave a sneer.
“Jiang Mian, it’s not a job. Listen to me. I’m serious.”
I tried to make my voice as clear as possible. Will you
stop it? Chul, I’ll be back tonight. There was a trace of impatience in
his voice, but he was still coaxing me in a low voice.
I glanced at the fluorescent alarm clock on my desk. It was 1:30 in the morning.
I don’t know if his decision to come back is a temporary idea.
“If you don’t come back, I’ll tell you that we broke up.”
“No, Gu Che.” This time he called out my full name.
You begged to be with me. You said you would not quarrel or make trouble. As long as I
am with you, you can accept anything. Did you say that?
“Yes.” I said softly. “Then you..”
“I went back on my word.” There was something flowing quietly in the
dark night, and he seemed to choke, and then clean.
“Don’t regret it.”
Hang up the phone and the room was plunged into complete darkness.
“Split up?” Suddenly there was a low and hoarse voice in
my ears, followed by a hot breath burning all over my skin.
I raised my eyes and looked at the reflection of us on the glass.
Actually, I didn’t go home. I was at the hotel. The woman in the
glass was wearing only a white shirt, while the man
holding her from behind was wearing nothing on his upper body.
Lu Siyuan’s outline is actually sharp and beautiful, but he seems to be born to hide in the dark
. The
first time he saw me, his eyes were looking at me in the dark. I still do
. I always think that when he smiles, he can amaze everything,
but he doesn’t like to smile. He put his arms around me gently and kissed me on the shoulder.
“You’re afraid.”
Declarative sentences.
“Obviously, he has had sex with many women behind your back. What
are you afraid of, huh?”
I sighed and touched his eyes in the glass.
“Lu Si-yuan.”
He grunted as if to answer me.
“You don’t look like a nineteen-year-old.”
The first time I saw Lu Siyuan, I helped Jiang Mian deal with the club.
I don’t know anything about e-sports, and I don’t play games. It was probably a game, and there was a flashing picture on the big screen
. I was bored
, and when I looked up, the screen cut to the side of his face.
He wore headphones, his eyelashes drooped slightly, and quietly
did not speak during the heated discussion among his teammates.
Dark eyes, eyelashes too long. There was an avalanche of screams, flashing fluorescent support cards, and the excited
tone of the commentary, shouting that his ID was storm.
Wind and Rain
It really looks like a person who can set off a storm.
I couldn’t understand the war on the electronic screen, but I also felt the restless atmosphere of the scene when the director cut to him
.
The spotlight hit him in the face, and his expression was indifferent. At the end of the game
that day, Jiang Mian called me.
“Where are you?”
He asked me all over his face.
“At the venue..” Didn’t
I tell you to pick up those kids in the break room? They just won the game, and
they all have to be well rewarded. The assistant can’t be found, so you can help her first
.
I was silent for a long time.
“Hello?” His voice was a little impatient.
“I see.”
I took a deep breath and didn’t tell him about it.
Today is my birthday.
I guess he doesn’t remember. In fact, he has always been like this. He doesn’t stick to trifles and doesn’t pay much attention to everything
about me.
Even with me, maybe it’s because I’m obedient.
Hang up the phone and I’ll find the lounge.
The venue is very big, and I’ve only been here once or twice before, and I finally found the place
20 minutes later than before.
“Sorry..” I opened the
door in a hurry, and I was stunned.
The lounge was a bit cluttered and everything was still in disorder, but the room was empty and there was only one person in the
sofa.
The man looked up at me when he heard the sound. His eyes were very black. When the light fell inside, it was like
sprinkling tiny stars.
It’s the man who was on the stage just now. His name is Wind and Rain. He looked at me for two seconds, then lowered his head and pulled his cell phone.
“I’m late. Sorry, where are the others?”
I went over to help him pack up.
He was carrying several bags, which should be peripherals. I don’t know what an assistant should do.
I guess he probably has to help people carry backpacks?
The bag was a little heavy, and as soon as I took it, the strap was caught by a long finger. Are the hands
playing games so beautiful.
He had stood up, but did not speak, his eyes were still looking at the screen of his mobile phone, but
he carried the bag in my hand on his back.
“Others..”
I asked him again, and this time he took the headphones off his ears and looked straight at me.
His eye shape is very beautiful, the end of the eye has a subtle arc, half hook not hook to look at people, I
just know what the soul will be sucked away.
“I’m hungry.” The
voice can be regarded as the freshness of a teenager, with a little hoarse.
I was said to be confused. In my impression, my task is to escort a group of people to the chartered bus, not to mention the other
team members, what should I do if I am hungry?
Seeing that I did not speak, he pursed his lips and suddenly grabbed my wrist and walked forward.
“You wait..!”
I stopped and shook off his hand.
He looked at me motionless and hooked the mask on his chin, showing only a pair
of wet eyes.
The look of what you can do with me.
“Everyone else is gone.”
After a while, his muffled voice came from the mask.
“What do you think? You’re more than twenty minutes late.” His eyebrows
were frivolous, and there was a little teasing in his words.
“Then why are you still..”
He obviously didn’t want to answer my current question, but asked it again.
“Can you drive?” While
waiting for the traffic lights, I subconsciously looked at the people next to me.
His hand was on his neck, and his eyes reflected the neon lights outside the window.
Seemed to feel my gaze, he explained softly.
“I just came of age last year, and I didn’t have time to get a driver’s license.”
Oh, just an adult. Six years younger
than me.
E-sports also seems to be a youth meal, and it is common to reach the end
of your career at the age of 25.
Jiang Mian used to like playing games, so now he will invest in e-sports clubs.
When I think of Jiang Mian, my heart is like being pulled down by someone else.
Causing the final brake to be a little sharp. The man
next to me was rubbing his wrist all the time, and when I looked over, he
showed it to me generously.
His wrist is very white, so the red mark is especially obvious.
“It’s an old hangover.”
It’s a bit of a mockery. Professional players’ wrists are more or less out of order because of a lot of practice for a long time
. I
don’t know if I was just thinking about Jiang Mian, but now I can’t restrain the fluctuation
in my heart.
It’s my birthday.
He doesn’t remember.
I don’t want to remember that he’s my boyfriend.
I suddenly leaned over and pulled open the locker on the other side of me. There was a spray
inside. I sprayed
him on his wrist for a while.
He quietly let me move, no sound, after a long time I looked up at him, only to
find that his eyes were slightly curved.
Laughing. The address
he gave me was a beef noodle restaurant, which
can always be found in the deep alleys of Shanghai.
Delicious, but not cheap. The person in
front of him seemed to be familiar with him, and when he came up, he turned the bamboo chopsticks to play in boredom. The chopstick fell down the jade white finger and rolled in front of me.
“You can go back after eating.”
I looked up and asked him.
He gave a hum, and his eyes, which had been smudged with ink, drooped, and he did not know where he was looking,
but he always felt that he had not listened.
“storm, have all your teammates gone back to the base?”
I called him, and at that time I only knew his name.
He chuckled when I said so.
“Lu Si-yuan.”
“Call me Lu Ssu-yuan.” Sure enough,
his voice was a little hoarse, but it didn’t stop him from listening.
I nodded and wrote down the name.
When the noodles were served, he glanced at me through the steaming mist.
“Why did you come to meet us today?”
Said your assistant was missing.. Wait, you know me? I’m a little surprised about
that. I don’t come to the club many times, and I come and go in a hurry every time. In my impression, I
met him for the first time.
He did not speak again and ate noodles with his head down. There were a lot of people in the
noodle shop, and it was very noisy. Just when I thought he would eat noodles
all the way, he opened his mouth gently.
“Of course I know you.”
“The landlady.”
Boss, that’s what he called me back then.
Bite those three words, like pondering. When
I came out, he was smoking. The
lighter turned around in his hand, and when he saw me, he didn’t light it.
I guessed that he could smoke, and his hoarse voice was smoking.
Putting the cigarette back in his pocket, he squinted, his eyelashes casting a shadow
on his eyelids.
“Sister.”
“Add a WeChat.” Now, I’m calling my sister again.
I looked at him by the warm yellow light of the street lamp.
His eyes looked like broken stars, and he lowered his head. I opened my mouth, but the words of refusal
did not come out. It was nearly eleven o’clock in the evening when
he was sent to the gate of the base.
I sat in the car, staring at his back farther and farther away, waiting for the loneliness around me to come down,
and then pressed the phone, there was a message from Jiang Mian to me.
“There’s a drinking party tonight, so I won’t be back.”
There is a liquor Bureau. I was startled by a
sudden sigh. It’s like an hour
before my birthday is over.
In fact, I didn’t expect him to celebrate my birthday. But he said last year that he would give it to me this
year.
He probably forgot long ago that he had such a promise.
I’m still waiting for today.
I sniffed, and the mobile phone beside me shook again. Lu Siyuan’s head portrait is actually a cat with a little yellow duck, which is not like him
at all. The message
he sent me was also very simple, four words. Happy
birthday.
After a while, the phone vibrated twice.
Elder sister.
Good night. When
I got up, the sunlight outside the window was shining through the curtain into the hotel.
Rubbing my hair, I recalled that I broke up with Jiang Mianti yesterday. There was no one in the
room, and if there were no traces of scattered quilts on the sofa, I would suspect
that Lu Siyuan had not been here yesterday. Press the phone
again, and there are more than a dozen missed calls. It’s from
Jiang Mian.
I stared at the call log, thinking that I used to make more than a dozen missed calls to him.
This time, the mobile phone vibrated again. “Hello?”
“You didn’t come home yesterday, Chul.”
His voice is a little hoarse, and there is no fluctuation.
“Mmm.”
“What do you mean?”
“Didn’t we say we broke up?” What did
I do to make you angry? Will you stop messing with me?
“I’m not making a scene.”
Gu Che, do you really think I dare not break up with you? When the time comes, I advise you not to cry and beg.
「……」
I suddenly feel very tired.
Yes, I used to cry and beg him not to leave me, so humble, so he seems to be used
to my infinite concessions, think I can tolerate him for a lifetime.
I’m like his toy, and he’s not happy about losing it.
I hung up the phone and blacklisted his number. When he had
done all this and looked up again, there was a man standing quietly at the door. Lu Siyuan, still carrying breakfast in his hand, probably listened to my whole phone call, pursed his lips, and did
not know what he was thinking about.
“Why are you still here?”
I asked him.
Hearing this, he raised his eyebrows, put the breakfast on the table, and looked at me with his head tilted.
“I can’t be there?”
“Don’t you have a training match today?”
When I went to the bathroom to brush my teeth, he followed me to the door, leaning against the door frame, his eyebrows and eyes sparse and
gentle.
“I’m going to Sweden in a few days. Can’t I see more of you?”
“Sweden?”
“Mid-season.”
He stared at my calf with black eyes, which was a little explicit.
“Lu Si-yuan.”
When I called his name, his eyes came up, like obsidian, deep and
beautiful.
“Don’t keep staring at your sister’s legs.” He squinted and smiled, looking like a rogue.
“I’m looking.”
In fact, Lu Siyuan left in such a hurry that he didn’t even have breakfast.
I know it’s not easy for him to spend so much time with me, but he’s just like this, and
he always looks light on the surface.
That’s why he doesn’t look 19.
I sat at the table and finished the fried food, thinking about Jiang Mian.
Jiang Mian.
I like Jiang Mian for a long time.
Long to many years ago, long to he is not what Jiang Zong, long to he has not been called
the national male God by the media.
It is estimated that no one would have thought that before the age of nineteen, Jiang Mian was a little fat.
I like this fat guy, and I can’t catch him.
Because the fat man liked a goddess with many stars around the moon. At that time, everyone said that he
wanted to eat swan meat. I, on the
other hand, want to eat toads. People around me thought I was sick, but I liked him at that time.
His good academic performance is one of the reasons, and I like the way he is fat but still cold
.
He chased his goddess and was rejected. His goddess actually said that it was because she didn’t like me who always followed
him.
So he hates me even more.
I said it’s none of my business. You can’t catch up with Ruan Linyue because you are fat, Jiang Mian.
He said get out.
I didn’t roll. I persevered. I even studied hard and went to the same school
with him.
I think I can impress him one day. He looks at me like a fly
.
The turning point was that one day, he was bullied
by a group of small gangsters outside the school in the alley.
I called the police to get rid of them.
He was very embarrassed at that time, his clothes were full of shoe prints, and his eyes were still not good at looking at me.
But then, not so exclusive of me.
I summed it up. Is this called taking short hands? I found out later that I wasn’t, because I was retaliated by those punks.
I was pulled into the corner. I was a girl, so it was a little girl who was fierce at me. She took
the screaming drink and smashed it on my forehead. The lid of the
drink was later cracked.
They told me not to be the first one. I was just thinking that it was lucky that Jiang Mian was not bullied.
Thinking about it, I seemed to really see him, he seemed to pass by, he seemed to recognize
me, and then went straight away.
Yeah, he’s smart. Of course he won’t be the first one.
The next day I lay down in front of him and showed him that my forehead was really dented.
He didn’t talk, but he did talk to me.
This is my chance to be close to him in exchange for my blood.
Now I feel stupid, but at that time I said to myself no loss.
My best friend hated that iron could not be made into steel, saying that no one cared about him, and only you treated him as a
treasure every day.
Facts have proved that I seem to have a good eye, because a few years later, the girl
who likes Jiang Mian is like a crucian carp crossing the river. Jiang Mian and
I were admitted to the same university. In fact, I peeked at his volunteer, and then wrote my own, 80
% of which coincided with him. I was very happy on the day I
got the admission notice, but Jiang Mian was not happy.
I heard that it was because he had crossed most of the city to confess his love to his goddess, but his goddess
had a partner.
I said to him, would you like to try to lose weight?
He looked up at me and snorted coldly.
I said try it. What if you lose weight and your goddess takes a fancy to you?
Later, I gradually ran with him.
I stayed with him for a long time. After that summer vacation, he stepped into his freshman year. His changes were subtle
.
But one day, he will be WeChat in the street, and his name will often appear
on the wall.
I never thought that his eyebrows and eyes would be so handsome when he lost weight. The big boy of 1.84 meters is like
a cluster of shining and warm light.
Not my light.
I thought I had been with him for so long that I could move him, but I didn’t. He
fell in love with a girl in the next class in a twinkling of an eye. I still like him, and this time more girls like him with me.
Later, when I was about to graduate, my love affair for several years finally came to an end, and I
was with him.
It was at the graduation party, when everyone was playing truth or dare, and his brothers were heckling
him to confess to me.
I hate that kind of laugh, which is to laugh at my jokes.
He really confessed to me, and I said yes, and we were together.
Right? We started like a joke, and no one expected that
we would be together for three years. After I
made up my mind to break up, I was ready to go home and move my things out.
In fact, the parents of both sides had already decided to get married. When I called my mother
, my mother didn’t scold me.
She said that she had long seen that boy not pleasing to the eye, she did not see where Jiang Mian was good to me.
But I’m in too deep. The
room was dark and the light was not on. I reached for the switch and my wrist was grabbed
. Why is
he silent. Sunlight came in through the cracks in the curtains. He was taller, blocking my light. His outline
was blurred, but his voice was hoarse than it sounded on the phone.
“Why did you come back?”
“Pack something.”
My hands were clenched even more tightly.
I earned it, but he didn’t.
“Jiang Mian, let go.”
For a long time, he did not speak.
“Ah Chul..”
Then he called my name in a low voice, leaned over and kissed me, and I dodged.
His lips ran across my lower jaw, and his breath stopped in my ear, very impatient.
“It’s time to let go.”
I shook my wrist again, and I don’t know whether I said it to him or to myself
.
He was silent for a moment, then let go of me and turned on
the living room light with a snap.
Seemingly unaccustomed to the fierce glare, he squinted and asked me. “Where did you go last night?” Instead of answering him,
I went straight to the room to pack up my things. There were scattered wine
bottles on the tea table. He drank a lot last night. The bottles of red wine
at home were of good vintage, and he was willing to drink them.
He stood behind me, talking to himself.
“You said you would never leave me.” The hand
that tidies up a thing still paused, I discover I am not as good as imagination to hold back tears
.
Yes, I used to think that as long as he didn’t dislike me, I could always be with him.
But does he know that I have never felt good about him
in the three years I have been with him.
He couldn’t remember my birthday, and he never accompanied me to the hospital. I am always on call and
never miss a message from him. But he pretended not to be there, and he didn’t
reply when he saw it. He thought I was annoying.
I packed my things at random and went out. He stopped me in front of me.
“Jiang Mian.” I called him.
“You open our chat records and count how many times you have replied to my messages
?” “Because of this..”
He seemed surprised and frowned, as he always did, taking for granted that I was so
good to him.
“Yes, because of this, I’ve had enough of being your little tail since I was a kid. This time
I quit. I don’t care who you’re with, and I don’t care
how late you come home.”
“Are you happy?”
I looked into his eyes seriously.
“Finally got rid of me.”
He didn’t seem to react for a moment, and his eyes were at a loss that I had rarely seen.
“You’re crying.” He said softly. As soon as
he reminded me, I felt tears on my cheeks.
Yeah? I’m still crying.
He tried to hug me, but I dodged, opened the door and strode away.
In fact, I know why I cry.
Not sad, just too wronged, after so long, I like a fool
like he played round and round, never got his warmth, will feel wronged to
death. Back at home, I deleted Jiang Mian’s WeChat.
He seems to have sent me a lot of words, but I didn’t read it. I don’t want to read it. I slept with my head covered for a few days
during the holiday, until I felt that I couldn’t go
on like this.
In the afternoon, the cicadas chirped hoarsely and slender, but the light could not penetrate the thick curtains. I turned on my mobile
phone and filtered out the messages one by one.
One was from Lu Siyuan, who was still the cat with the little yellow duck, and only sent me
a picture. The
background is the vast sea, and several big boys are walking on the rocks by the sea. I can find him at a
glance.
He was always quiet, half of his face hidden in a thick down jacket, showing only his dark
eyes.
Staring at the camera is like sucking in the person who is looking at the picture. As soon as
I was thinking about how to reply, his phone suddenly jumped up on the screen of my mobile phone.
Lu Siyuan is like this, straight into other people’s world, regardless.
“Hello?” When I
opened my mouth, I found that my voice was sticky and hoarse.
He was silent there, his voice cold and a little tired. Patter, it’s the sound of pressing the lighter.
“I’m going to play tomorrow.”
“Are you nervous?”
I asked him as if I were joking.
“Mmm.”
He was quiet, so quiet that I could hear the sound of the ocean in the distance, and his gentle,
regular breathing.
In fact, I thought he was used to the spotlight falling on him, and he could take everything
in his stride.
“I don’t want to lose.”
I heard him say.
“I really don’t want to lose.”
Careful and serious, with a cavity of blood and unswerving persistence.
I seem to be able to imagine the teenager lying on the railing, the melodious sound of the waves on the shore, and
the white mist from his mouth, scattered in the brilliant Aurora of Sweden.
In fact, I heard on the Internet that Lu Siyuan is a talented e-sports player, but no one has ever been optimistic about his
and his team’s journey in the mid-season. Because the enemy they have to face is very powerful.
It seems that the Korean team has been in charge, with a huge sense of oppression to make all the
teams afraid.
Lpl (League of Legends China Division) has not won the world championship
for a long time.
This time, it was like carrying a small kindling, which would be extinguished cleanly.
Not to be expected, not to be expected. It was not
until I heard someone calling his name on the other side of the microphone that I realized that we had been silent for too long
.
“Hang up.”
When I heard him say, I opened my mouth, but I didn’t stop him.
Just a series of busy signals. After
September 11
, my life seems to be getting back on track.
Without Jiang Mian, without the person who always wants to keep his cell phone and wait for him to reply, I
actually felt a little relieved.
I began to develop the habit of looking at the live broadcast of the game every day. I thought they were all adults
, but I didn’t expect that there were many colleagues who paid attention to the competition like me. Lu Siyuan, they played pretty well. The spotlight of the
stage always made his skin cold and white, and his eyes
, which were already dark, were coated with light. When
playing the operation, the scene was boiling, but his eyebrows and eyes were slightly drooping, still cold and quiet
.
It was as if he wasn’t the one who called me a few days ago and said he didn’t want to lose in an almost lonely and
struggling tone.
On the field, the 19-year-old boy became an invincible general.
…… When I came home
that night, I found a man lying on the railing in front of my house.
Long time no see, Jiang Mian looked a little haggard, his chin was black and blue,
wearing a plaid shirt, squinting at me.
“I want to talk to you.” What
is there to talk about? I went over him and took the key to open the door.
“Why did you break up with me?” His voice was a little hoarse, and he stared at me with paranoia.
“Hate you.” I whispered to him.
He seemed to be stupefied, and then suddenly laughed. Hate me? Chul, will you hate me too?
Yeah, would I hate him?
I exhaled a breath, and the noise of cicadas in midsummer made people upset, and the old lights in the corridor flashed
twice.
I was just stabbed by him with a knife, so I didn’t want to go near him. After
Jiang Mian was with me, he always liked to hurt me. The food
I cooked, he said, was not delicious, and he wanted to order takeout.
I bought new clothes to wear, and he said I was too thin, and I didn’t have that figure at all.
He disliked me from a long time ago, and I didn’t understand why he was still
like this when I was with him.
Jiang Mian fell in love with the League of Legends at that time. I couldn’t understand the game, but I wanted to fit in with
him too much.
His rank was much higher than mine, and he played a few games with me, saying that I was too bad and asked me to play by
myself.
He told me to practice one more hero, an ugly assistant who could throw hooks, and I
really practiced alone in the man-machine Bureau for a long time.
Later, my friend sent me a picture of him in the Internet bar. There was a girl beside him who played with him, and the girl operated a very lovely
heroine.
I suddenly felt that I was very stupid to have been practicing throwing hooks all the time. It was
also at that time that I learned that Fang Chun was the girl
who had a good relationship with him. When
I sent him a picture of them, he gave me a question mark after a long time.
“Our fifth platoon is short of an assistant.”
“I’ll help, too.”
You? Come on, you’re too bad.
That’s it. I stared at this sentence, and suddenly I cried.
Like Jiang Mian, very tired.
But it was funny that when I didn’t want to chase him anymore, he stopped by himself
.
“Ah Chul, will you come back?” He said softly behind me.
“I had a dream last night. I dreamed that a long time ago, when you were being bullied, I rushed out
to help you.”
“If I had really held you back, wouldn’t you have hated me
so much?” His voice was subdued, with the kind of paranoia that devours people.
I’m just.. I know I’ve always had this problem
, but I really can’t live without you.
“I’m not having a good time these days. You can be seen everywhere. Do you know that I find
I miss you too much?”
“If you come back, I won’t not reply to your message, and I won’t scold you.”
“Can I change it?”
If Gu Che heard him say that a few years ago, would she be happy? I’m not happy
now. I’m just uncomfortable. My heart is like being rubbed at random.
I took a deep breath and looked into his eyes.
“You’re just not willing to run away with your little tail.”
He smiled, and my shadow was reflected in his shallow eyes.
“I found that I really like the little tail. What should I do?”
“Jiang Mian, you are very boring.”
I thought about it, and in the days when I was with him, we didn’t quarrel.
In fact, he is a very poor person, and there is no limit to his words. The simple thing is that I am so tolerant that I can’t even
quarrel with him. Now, I don’t want to quarrel. I want to end it. I want to go to a place
where there is no river sleep.
The lights flickered on and off, and sudden tiredness swept over me. He stood
there with his lips pursed, unable to see his expression.
I left him alone and shut him out.
That night, I didn’t sleep well.
Always dream of a long time ago, obviously together, but I am like the shadow
of Jiang Mian behind him.
He is flamboyant, warm and likable, so he never lacks beautiful girls to throw themselves into his arms. Why is
he so reckless? Because he is sure that I will not leave him.
Not only him, I also thought that as long as he did not lose me, I could be with him for a lifetime.
However, people’s enthusiasm will always be exhausted.
I finally hit the south wall, my head was broken and bleeding, and I finally turned around and walked away.
The next morning, I had to go to work. I was woken up by the alarm clock. After washing
for a while, I opened the door and was startled by the people lying at the door. He
didn’t leave. He slept here all night. He woke up when he heard the noise and looked straight at me.
He must have slept worse than I did. His eyes were light and cold.
“Good morning.”
“What are you crazy about?” I stood in front of him with a frown.
“Think you’re crazy?”
……
It seems that the brain is really not clear.
“It’s up to you, Jiang Mian. You can move later. Don’t interfere with Auntie’s cleaning.”
“Don’t bother.” He stood up and leaned against the wall lazily, not taking his eyes off me
.
Suddenly he laughed.
Then turn around and walk cleanly.
It makes me want to contact the brain doctor I know and help him see if there’s something
wrong there.
In fact, my work is still very easy, because it is my own company, and the leader
can’t say anything about me. In the meantime, I finished the match played by Lu Siyuan yesterday, and they entered the final, which
is really the last hope of the LPL.
Weibo is full of refueling, and there are a lot of pictures of the players during the competition.
Lu Siyuan is very dazzling, there is a probably they won the game, he finally stared at the computer
screen smile, eyebrows curved up, flashing a little bit of light.
I brush brush those content, accidentally brush the super words of the wind and rain, the little sister
inside is obviously very excited, telling how she slowly fell in love with the wind and rain.
He has experienced too many disappointments, but others only saw the scene when he won the cup.
All the pressure is on the 19-year-old boy, and he can’t lose.
He The
sudden ringing of the phone startled me. Look at the name
again, it’s Lu Siyuan.
I was surprised because of the time difference. It was already one
o’clock in the morning in Sweden.
He has a game tomorrow.
“Hello?” I didn’t react for a moment when the boy’s unique hoarse voice came from the
phone. So he fed it again.
“Lu Ssu-yuan?”
“It’s me.” The voice on the other side of the
microphone is a little noisy, like someone is talking.
“Why aren’t you asleep?”
“It’s still early.”
“Don’t you have a game tomorrow?”
“Well, I can’t sleep.”
His voice was vague, and he was probably biting something, I think it was smoke.
“I’m in the Internet bar.” He said suddenly.
“I couldn’t sleep. I wanted to play a few more games to practice my hands, but the coach wouldn’t let us touch the computer anymore. I
ran away.”
“You know, I was just there talking to a foreigner about opening a machine, and it took me a long time to draw it. It’s funny
.”
His voice was tinged with a smile, and he was proud of himself for having done something bad.
“Don’t be disobedient. A good rest is also very important.” “I can’t sleep.”
He just repeated his reasons confidently, and his
voice suddenly became serious as I tried to persuade him.
“I opened it.”
His game should start.
“Then I..”
“Hold on.” When I
heard him say it, I guess I felt a little tough and softened my tone.
“Will you play the game with me?” The sound of
clicking the mouse was very clear, and he was not in a hurry, as if he was sure that I could promise.
“I’m going to get off work.” I sighed.
“What does it matter? Just keep the phone connected.”
「……」
Unrelenting.
“If I’m not in good shape for tomorrow’s game, I’ll blame you.”
More threats. I gave up resistance and resigned myself to doing my own thing with my cell phone on.
He basically did not speak, and sometimes the sound of tapping the keyboard suddenly became intense, very crisp
, unexpectedly durable.
I got off work and drove home alone. It’s drizzling in
Shanghai these days. While waiting for the traffic lights, I listened to the sound of him playing games in
another part of the earth.
Lpl shooter’s play has always been radical, and he is almost paranoid in this respect, often
single-handedly into the enemy, so that the audience who follow the game are nervous for him.
It is precisely because of this that he has made so many miraculous operations. When he
got home, he hadn’t finished playing, and he didn’t know how many innings he had played. There is no light
at home, I lie on the sofa, listening to the keyboard and mouse intertwined, actually
inexplicably feel at ease. I fell asleep in a daze
and woke up to find that it was nine o’clock in the evening. The phone is still connected
WeChat. That’s not good. He
tried to feed, but did not answer.
However, the sound of pressing the keyboard, I did distinguish carefully.
Still playing. It took him a long time to hum. It was sticky and felt very close. I suddenly took off one earphone
.
“Isn’t it time to go to bed?”
He gave another hum, which was obviously perfunctory. I sniffed, and he asked lightly.
“Got a cold?”
How is that possible? And how can he be so distracted. The sound of the crystal exploding came from
the earphone, and I didn’t know whether I had won or lost.
“I’m sleeping.”
I heard a light word from him.
I clenched the microphone and thought I should say something at this time.
Lu Ssu-yuan, that.. Play well tomorrow. There was a breathy sound in the
microphone, and he must have laughed.
“Well, yes.” The day of the
final was Sunday, and the live broadcast of the match began at 9 p.m.
As expected, they are going to play against South Korea.
And it is the South Korean team that has won two world championships in a row. On the live screen of the
computer screen, the bullet screen scrolled over and over again. After the documentary was broadcast, the final was officially launched. The
camera shot the players one by one, and the AD position was on the side. When it was given to Lu Siyuan, he had just put on his headphones and had no expression.
The audience is boiling.
Black eyes staring at the computer screen, he probably knows that he is the hope of many people at this time, otherwise he will not even sleep, otherwise he will not open one game after another in the Internet bar.
Enter the BP (choose hero and ban hero) link of both sides. After the selection, the bullet screen has already started to brush “gg”.
I conveniently turned off the bullet screen and stared at the computer screen, thinking about what mood Lu Siyuan was in at this time. When the
camera cuts to him, his face is always expressionless, and when he communicates with his teammates, he only touches the corners of his mouth.
His style of play has always been very neat, and there were several attempts to turn the tide in this game. After
playing for nearly forty minutes, the other side won.
This is the first inning, which seems to indicate that it will be a difficult night. When the bullet screen was opened again, there was almost a quarrel. Some people said that it was a good thing to lose the first game, while
others said that the South Korean team ended the game with three to zero. The camera was given to the players who returned from the break. Lu
Siyuan sat in a chair with heavy eyes. When
he lowered his eyes, his eyelashes would leave a shadow on his eyelids, and his bony fingers
would scratch the paper cups on the table, not knowing what he was thinking.
In the second game, they played more aggressively than in the first game.
Seemingly with the courage to cross the Rubicon, it seems that there is really the obsession of not wanting to lose, the bullet screen
occupied the screen, the commentary was ten sentences a second, and the excitement almost exploded the headset.
Everyone wants to win too much. The competition system of the
finals is bo5, three wins in five games, and everything is back to the original
point after winning one game.
The third round.. They lost.
On the opposite side, he took out a unique hero who had never played in the game, and was caught off guard
. He was caught in the wild, and then destroyed the ancient. At the moment when the
crystal exploded, the camera also gave Lu Siyuan a close-up.
He pursed his lips and stared at the screen, his hands still on the keyboard.
The bullet screen kept rolling, “Please play five rounds.”
I slammed the computer shut. I thought, I can’t watch this. If the South Korean team wins the
next game, we will really lose the championship trophy.
But at least in e-sports, Lu Siyuan is a very proud person. I can’t imagine what he would be like if he really
lost. As
if no one would care any more, Lu Siyuan was still a 19-year-old boy.
I turned on the TV and there was a funny show on, but when I concentrated on watching
it, my mind was desperately flashing on the person standing on the stage.
He said he didn’t want to lose.
After a long time, I opened the micro-blog to see, did not see the news of the final result of the game,
suddenly relieved. At the end of the
fourth game, they finally pulled back to the match point of the fifth game
. When the live broadcast was turned on
again, it happened that the players returned to the field. The bullet screen was filled
with refueling over and over again, and some people under the stage shouted their names in a hoarse voice. The voice of the
commentary echoed in the live studio.
The battle song sounded and the shouts of the scene surged. When I heard it at that moment, I didn’t know why
it was so tearful.
Yeah, that’s probably why those people love e-sports.
Even if we are beaten deep into the mud, even if the enemy is as frightening as a giant, we can still struggle to climb up, rush into the enemy, fearless, and tear a hole violently to let the light leak in.
Lu Siyuan told me a long time ago that he wanted a championship trophy in the finals.
That’s what every pro gambles for.
But maybe.. Youth is a pity.
E-sports is also, obviously so eager to win, obviously non-stop training, really to that moment, the commentary hoarse voice shouted when the wind and rain fell, really helplessly watching their own crystal blood bar slowly disappeared, at that moment, no one can react.
That year, the wind and rain, which they had high hopes for, never pulled back in the final bo5.
The camera shakes, Lu Siyuan stands up, takes off the earphone, in the eye is I have never seen the confusion. After
several days of high temperature red alert, Shanghai was like a huge steamer. I walked in front of the navigation, and the sound of cicadas disturbed me.
“Did you give me the right place?” I’m typing in the input box.
Yes, yes, you can go there. You know Brother Lu’s house number, don’t you? I wouldn’t dare mess with him. You can ask for your own luck! 「……」 On the other side of the
phone is Lu Siyuan’s teammate.
It is said that he has not been to the base for several days, although this will be the off-season, but after all
, he lost back, lost contact for many days, his teammates can not rest assured of him.
“Brother Lu will certainly be obedient to your words.” That’s what
he said.
I looked for Lu Siyuan on the WeChat, and the cat with the little yellow duck on its head had turned into a pure black head
, which made me speechless.
Is it a child? Is it a non-mainstream signature?
I was a little curious to poke in. Oh, fortunately not.
At this time, his WeChat was sent backwards.
“I’m at home.”
Well, it’s safe at home.
I nodded, relieved, and after a while, he sent me another message.
“Come to my house?”
「……」 To be honest, it’s not appropriate.
I pressed the black screen of my mobile phone and began my work with an expressionless face.
However, the mobile phone shook again.
“I’m so sad.”
「……」
I sighed until I stood at the door of his house and realized that every time I was led by the
nose by him.
Knocked at the door, but no one answered. Knocked again, but no.
What the hell? He didn’t just go out, did he?
I was just about to make a WeChat call or something when the door opened.
Lu Siyuan seemed to have just taken a bath, his hair was wet, he wiped his hair with one hand, and the drops of water
trickled down his collarbone.
“Sister, do you still want to see it?”
He pulled down the collar of his coat.
「……」
I looked back at his eyes, which were still wet, and he made way for me, and I
came in. In broad daylight, the curtains were drawn, the air conditioner was cold, and he was wearing only short sleeves and shorts
, sitting on the sofa with his long legs bent, looking at me unscrupulously.
The coffee table was full of beer cans, and I managed to find a seat.
“Hiss! Cold!” I protested softly.
Suddenly a blue blanket was thrown at me, full of his breath. He must have poured washing powder when he washed
his own clothes, so too strong fragrance, a little
tobacco mixed with the smell of his own bath lotion, rushed into my nasal cavity.
Hey, it’s better than nothing.
I didn’t know what to say. He poured himself a can of beer. His voice was clear.
He took a sip. I stared at his rolling Adam’s apple.
He put down the beer and looked up at me, then opened a can for me.
He lowered his hand and knocked on the mouth of his jar.
Cheers.
To be honest, I’ve been walking outside for a long time, and this cold beer is very cool.
I watched him, and he became the quiet man again, sipping the beer in
his hand, not knowing what he was thinking.
“How are you?” I asked him anyway. “Pay attention to the timing of entering the factory.” He curled the corners of his mouth and said suddenly.
“What?”
He laughed and ran his fingers gently across the lid.
“It’s time to go to work at the electronics factory, isn’t it?”
「……」
I knew he was joking, but his expression didn’t look like he was joking
at all.
It makes me feel that the mask he wears is really going to break when he touches it, and he really can’t go on.
“Why did you lose?”
He looked up and said softly.
I still can’t figure out what I did wrong? Where did I make a mistake?
“What is it, really..”
His bangs were a little long, so I couldn’t see his eyes clearly, but I still heard
a little tremor in his voice.
I just realized that he was going to collapse faster than I thought.
Come to think of it, he’s only nineteen. He just can’t accept his failure. He just gives up on himself. But it’s even more terrible
. No one cares about him. As the saying goes, no one will remember the runner-up
of E-sports. The
a/C was humming a little loud and I found the remote on the table and turned it
off. The whole room was quiet for
a moment. I stood in front of him and pulled him.
“Get up.”
No response.
I said it again.
Still no response.
His hair was still wet, black, wet and soft, and just as I was wondering if my wet hair would catch a cold with the air conditioner
, he sat up with a sudden whoop.
…… In this position, he held his head gently against me and smudged a circle of wet marks on his clothes.
“Lu Si-yuan.”
“Mmm.”
His voice was hoarse and nasal.
“Stay away from me. It’s very wet.” 「……」
From this angle, he could see the corners of his mouth rising, but he did not move.
“Give me a moment.”
In the dark room, I suddenly heard him say so.
Very clear, very depressed, with an indescribable feeling.
“Just a moment.”
Later, I had no news of Lu Siyuan for a long time, and slowly shifted the focus
of my life to work.
After the mid-season tournament, they still have the domestic summer tournament to play. I once again brushed
him on Weibo, which is a huge chapter of news.
FYN striker storm has slipped and it has been revealed that he has been transferred to the second team.
“There is no storm on the first list, will the storm be put up for sale?”
“storm said in a recent live broadcast that he wanted to retire.”
One stone makes a thousand waves.
Weibo has already exploded, speculation and so on, coupled with the approaching summer season, FYN
official announcement of the starting list did not have Lu Siyuan’s name, so that many fans are greatly worried.
I don’t know what the situation is, but if I want to know what the situation is, it’s very
simple.
Jiang Mian, Jiang Mian is the boss of FYN.
Since the last time I broke up with him completely, there is a bunch
of delicate and beautiful roses in front of my house every three or five times, and I want to know who is doing it.
Put him down. He’s after me. When I came home
that night, I saw someone lying on the railing in front of my house.
The setting sun has a burning magnificence, which blurs the figure of that person. I remember
that I chased that shadow a long time ago.
Now, he’s staying with me.
“I want to invite you to dinner.” He spoke very directly.
“No.” I’m more direct.
He laughed, as if he was sure I would turn back.
“Do you know how much Lu Siyuan’s liquidated damages are? If he wants to terminate his contract, I’m afraid
he won’t be able to fill in all the money he has earned in his career.”
I sighed. Turn your head and look at him in the sunset.
“Do you have to take it out on your team when it comes to us?”
“Is wind and rain important to you?” There was a smile in
his eyes, but it was bottomless.
「……」
I shook my head.
“What do you care what I do to him?”
I took a breath and looked at him steadily.
“Whatever you want.”
Turning to open the door, I really didn’t want to waste another second with him, but he suddenly grabbed my
wrist.
I shook it a few times, but I didn’t shake it off.
Ah Che.. Is he your boyfriend?
His voice was low, but his grip on my wrist was getting tighter and tighter. The
street lamp suddenly came on, and I looked at the distant light, and even the sunset was submerged in the horizon
of the city. Not knowing where the revenge came from, I closed my eyes and answered him gently.
「…… Yes. The
sudden tightening force made me cry out in pain, and Jiang Mian pushed me to the door and stared at
me.
“Say that again?”
“Yes, it’s my boyfriend. We’re just together. What can you do?”
I looked him straight in the eye, as if it was the first time I had been so close to him. In the past, if
he was angry, I would have coaxed him.
“Well, Gu Che, you are good.”
He released my hand and stepped back two steps. What can
I do? I can keep Lu Siyuan off the professional stage
for the rest of his life.
「……」
Jiang Mian can do so, but the price is that if Lu Siyuan is replaced, the FYN summer
game will not be easy.
Fans’public opinion, sponsors’ dissatisfaction, Jiang Mian did so, he was completely crazy.
This is to pull FYN to be buried with the wind and rain. Just because I don’t want him. At the beginning of the
16
Summer Games, FYN did not go to Lu Siyuan. It was
the opening game, and it was lost, and the official blog has been washed away.
For a few days, because Lu Siyuan signed a live broadcast platform to broadcast live, even with the camera on,
he just kept an expressionless face.
From nine o’clock in the evening to the early morning, the bullet screen went from a massive questioning
to a few words of “You go to rest”, but he did not speak the whole time.
If you open the record of wind and rain, you will find that these days, his team is playing games
and he has no chance to play these days, he has been playing games.
Not only Jiang Mian is crazy, but also Lu Siyuan is crazy.
I couldn’t stand the black and blue under his eyes during the live broadcast, and I really had a bad conscience
, so I found a time to call him in the evening. When he
picked it up, he was quiet and obviously waiting for me to speak first.
“Lu Ssu-yuan, mine.”
“Is Lu Siyuan yours?”
His voice grew hoarse and tired. I mean, you were transferred to the second team, probably because of my.. Pot.
“Mmm.” He answered in a low voice that I could hardly hear.
“That’s right. I took the name of my boyfriend, but I didn’t do anything that my boyfriend did.”
「……」
“Sorry.”
I know. I’m not sincere in apologizing to him like this.
In fact, I said to Jiang Mian that day that I regretted that if Lu Siyuan could not participate in
the summer competition, he would not be able to go to the autumn global finals.
This final is very important for Lu Siyuan. It’s
not just Lu Siyuan, it’s where every professional player wants to go. I buried it with my
own hands.
“How much is your penalty?”
I asked him.
He was silent for a while and then told me a number.
“Three thousand.” …… There should be four zeros in the back, which is really too high, and I can’t
afford that much money now.
But a player of such high value as him is not necessarily without a club willing to bear his liquidated
damages.
“I know a few club owners. Do you want me to put you in touch?”
I asked him.
He was silent for a long time, and then answered in a daze.
“I don’t want to care about that.”
“Then you want to..”
“I miss you.”
「……」
“Knock it off.”
“No trouble.” He felt as if he was turning the e-sports chair with ease, and his voice was light.
“Make it up to me, sister.”
“Isn’t it compensation to try to help you find a home?” There was a smile in
his voice at last. “I’m very short-sighted. I just want what’s in front of me.”
“Like..”
Lengthen the tone of voice, always feel that there will be some bad words.
Stop, stop. I’ll try to contact some clubs these days. Don’t worry, I
‘ll find you the one with the best pay.
“You will have a bigger stage, wind and rain.”
I hung up the phone in a hurry. I
don’t want to listen to any more irrelevant words from his mouth.
After a while, my mobile phone vibrated.
“Sister, I want a small rubber band.” The message
he sent was followed by a picture.
Pure black rubber band, very simple, with a bear hanging on it.
“For me.”
After a long time, I seemed to realize that I didn’t reply.
Barely added three words.
“Is it good?”
If I think about who else has a way to accept Lu Siyuan, the first one I think of is
RK.
Compared with FYN, RK should be more inclined to the real veteran e-sports giants.
The point is, their boss is my college classmate.
Lin Yao was very enthusiastic when he knew that I had communicated Lu Siyuan’s transfer intention.
“On my side, of course, I welcome Lu Ssu-yuan.”
Transfer fee? Liquidated damages? It’s all right, it’s all right. We’re not short of money.
But the communication on RK’s side was unexpectedly smooth, and Lu Siyuan’s side directly opened the difficulty of hell
.
After knowing that I had contacted RK, he said the word “no” firmly
.
“Why?”
When I asked him, he pursed his lips and refused to answer.
「……」
Lu Siyuan, in fact, you don’t have so many choices. RK is willing to accept you because they
have a lot of money and other clubs. Sorry, many people are not willing to bear your penalty
. “If you don’t go to RK, do you want to be frozen by Jiang Mian for a lifetime?”
I watched him seriously. Because he was transferred to the second team, Lu Siyuan is now playing LDL
(League of Legends Professional Development League).
Although the opponent is much weaker, the training intensity seems to be very strong. I had dark circles under my eyes
again, and I didn’t know where I was looking. I called his name again, and his
pupils focused on me.
The light was a little strong, so he narrowed his eyes, half of which should not be heard, and he could hear the
hoarse hum.
The child should be smoking a lot recently.
I sighed.
“You go to dinner with RK’s boss with me tonight and think about it.”
Seeing that he was still unmoved, I had to say again,
“..” I’ll give you the rubber band you told me about last time.
He looked up at me this time, and his eyes seemed to be smudged with ink, deep and clear.
“Just have a meal?”
I nodded.
So when it comes to eating, Lu Siyuan really shuts up and eats all the way. RK’s boss is a very good-tempered person, I think if not for self-restraint, ordinary people really
can not resist Lu Siyuan’s behavior of ignoring him all the way.
The attitude of chatting with me unilaterally, intentionally or unintentionally.
Obviously, “I don’t want to give a shit about your team.”.
The meal was peaceful on the surface, but I think it ended on bad terms.
Sitting back in the car, Lu Siyuan got on my co-driver, lowered his head and played with the rubber band I gave
him on his wrist.
His eyes reflected the magnificent light of the street lamp, beautiful and clear.
“What are you going to do?”
I leaned over the steering wheel and looked at him sideways.
He did not speak, but looked at me gently, and we made eye contact for a long time before he curled the
corners of his mouth.
The meaning is unclear.
“Sister, I..”
He suddenly approached, and I realized that he was actually an inner pair, with a little long eyelashes covering his
eyes, and his breath became clearly audible.
Tobacco. And the smell of lemon. Change to lemon washing powder.
I blinked, then sat up straight and changed the subject.
“Well, shall I take you back to the base?”
He looked at me for a long time and then fell back to his seat.
Um, it sounds like dissatisfaction.
In fact, it’s not that I can’t see that Lu Siyuan is interested in me.
But I’m really a little scared.
I was afraid that he would be like someone who didn’t want me when I was so deeply involved and gave him
my whole heart.
Lu Siyuan is very dangerous in this period. If I fall in love with him, I will almost drag him
into the water and kick him. I
managed to suppress the thoughts that came out of my mind. During this period, I have been paying attention to the club for
him. I
really can’t. I should be able to ask my family for some money to pay him the penalty.
The summer passed in a flash, and in a twinkling of an eye, it was Lu Siyuan’s last match in LDL. LDL’s summer match was far less popular than LPL’s, and few people watched the live broadcast,
but when the match was about to end that day, a sudden news broke out that made the whole stadium
boiling.
“FYN’s former team ADC, storm, announced his retirement.” When I
saw this hot search, I was on my way home.
Lu Siyuan is officially announced to retire, which means that he has negotiated with the club.
That is to say, Jiang Mian knows, Lu Siyuan himself knows, I do not know.
He’s retired, he hasn’t got the trophy he wants, and he hasn’t avenged that
MSI.
Retired.
I felt my heart beating uncontrollably, stepped on the accelerator, turned around
, and then drove to the stadium of the competition.
Thinking over and over again, how is it possible.
Lu Siyuan is a person who runs out the night before the finals. Even if he falls to the
second team, he still trains day and night. You say he doesn’t love e-sports?
You say he will retire far before he reaches retirement age? A little man forked out of
my brain and said, “Is this a dream?”?
But it’s not a dream. I stopped the car, and there was a circle of media at the gate of the venue. Fortunately, the staff knew
me and let me in through the back door. I called Lu Siyuan
as I walked, but he didn’t answer for a long time. Just when I thought
he wouldn’t answer, there suddenly came a light voice.
“Hello?”
“Lu Si-yuan, where are you?”
I asked him, but he did not speak again. The clouds outside the window were dyed red by the sunset. I looked
up and saw the man standing at the top of the stairs.
His eyes are strange that I have never seen before.
And his voice, word by word, came into my ears through the microphone.
“Gu Che, that’s it. I’ve given up my dream.” The yellow of the
setting sun stretched the shadow infinitely. I walked up the stairs step by step, hung up the phone
and asked him.
“What did you say?”
“Say that again?”
“You just said..” I tried to pull his collar, but he took a few steps and dodged. His
brown pupils looked at me shallowly, but I couldn’t figure out what was in his
mind all day long.
After a while, he spoke slowly.
“Jiang Mian agrees to waive my penalty.”
“The premise is that I have to retire.”
「…… And even if he comes back, he can’t join any team in the current LPL.
「……」
“You agreed?”
Such an unreasonable request, so do not give people a reason to retreat, in fact, think about it, really
like Jiang Mian’s means.
He nodded, unable to see his expression. Didn’t
I ask you to transfer to RK? If it doesn’t work, if it doesn’t work, I
can pay your penalty.
“Yes, I do.”
He interrupted me.
“I think I can accept Jiang Mian’s terms.” I stared at him, and he passed me by.
“One more year and start all over again.”
He went to the bottom and then turned to look at me, word for word.
“I can afford it.” Can you afford
it? But how many professional players can afford that year after year? Who can
endure, to find a team, to find teammates, to find sponsorship, starting
from the city game?
That year, I watched Lu Siyuan fall step by step.
Sometimes I wonder if he would have touched the golden
trophy without me? Did
he already.. What about winning? The news
about Lu Siyuan’s retirement was widely reported. In the
first two or three months, the heat did not decrease, the super-talk was full, the micro-blog flooded the screen, so many
fans told him not to go, asked him why, but since the announcement of retirement, there has been
no news of him. The ID of
storm never lit up again, and his rank stayed in the autumn of that
year forever. The autumn wind blows away the fallen leaves, and no one can remember a name.
The next year, Lu Siyuan took the initiative to find me.
Feel he is still thin, eyes a little strange, before his eyes are always wet
, but now a chaos.
He said he wanted to form his own team.
He really wants to start from the beginning and pull me to sponsor him.
I can’t refuse him, and I can’t tell him no. It’s not easy to build a team
from scratch, not to mention the place of residence, the schedule, the competition environment
, and even the selection of strong teammates.
But he did it step by step.
Looking for teammates, they are all big boys of seventeen or eighteen years old. They train in Internet cafes every day. In addition to ranking
or ranking, in fact, their eyes are moving, just like every
teenager who is looking forward to the competition. In the winter of
that year, the club was basically settled, and it was a very young e-sports club
.
It’s not big, but they finally have their own place to play games. Lu Siyuan went out with me
that day to buy the last thing he bought. As the
snow rose like goose feathers, he followed me silently in his thick scarf. “You must remember to wear slippers.”
I talked to him in a garrulous way, and he deserved to be undisciplined.
“Also remember to open the window for ventilation. Sometimes your room smells like takeout
.”
“Mmm.”
“Don’t practice too late. A rank that stays up too late is an ineffective rank..”
He finally laughed and spoke softly behind me.
“Gu Che, do you feel guilty?”
I was stunned.
“Do you think it’s because of you that I’ve become like this?”
「……」
Snow fell on the face, a little cool.
“After all, there is a reason for me.”
I said softly.
He walked past me carelessly.
“I don’t regret it.” “It’s a great pleasure for me to meet you.”
He spoke slowly, word by word, and stood in the snow as far as the eye could see.
“There are two things that are important in my life.”
“The game and you.”
Snow was always silent, but he held my hand quietly, and I felt it so
clearly. In the spring of the past
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years, the storm has come back.
If you want to get into LPL, you have to play LDL first.
Playing LDL was much easier than expected, city games, play-off round, spring games, summer games, and
finally the finals, the young team was on a roll.
All of a sudden, the media reported and the public opinion created momentum, and they all said that the man was back
.
Lu Siyuan returned to the LPL in the first year of his comeback.
That was probably the happiest time for the five boys. When I
go to the base, I always listen to their aimless imagination. Their middle name is a boy with small tiger teeth when he smiles
, and his ID is rabbit. He was clamoring to go to the S race at that time.
Lu Siyuan kicked him from behind.
“You are dreaming.”
“I don’t think we’re dreaming. I think we can win. Don’t you want to go to the game, Brother Lu
?”
He approached Lu Siyuan with a bright light in his eyes.
I don’t think I’ll ever see those shining eyes again.
Because in the first year of the LPL, in the spring match, Lu Siyuan lost six games in a row.
I don’t know how I got through those days, and I can’t imagine what
kind of pressure they were sitting on the court, one after another, being chased by their opponents. The hero manipulated by
Lu Siyuan may be able to kill all sides, but when he looks back, his teammates
are gone. After the
sixth round, Lu Siyuan walked to the backstage, and I saw the single player crying. The
atmosphere is like that, when the rabbit cried, I don’t know if it was influenced by him
, and I couldn’t stop my tears.
Lu Siyuan kept his head down and did not speak. Later, when he saw me, he bent over and rubbed away my tears with his cuff
.
“Why are you crying?” “I’m not crying. Why are you crying?”
He raised his hand and rubbed my head, even laughing.
It seems that in that year, I found that Lu Siyuan had grown up.
A person’s growth is really wonderful, he will not put his emotions on his face,
will not willfully drink beer for himself when he is not playing well. He can also speak seriously word
by word and analyze all the mistakes and problems for his teammates.
Later, the rabbit left.
Because he couldn’t hold up, the pressure was too great, and the more he played, the more problems he had. When he left, it was
a summer full of cicadas.
“Brother Lu, maybe I’m really not fit to play the game.”
But I still want to ask you, if one day you can play in the playoffs, can
you.. And fight back with mine?
The rabbit has an expression that is uglier than crying.
Lu Siyuan was silent, but in the end, he did not answer that sentence.
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Summer tournament is still not good, Lu Siyuan was once so close
to the championship.
But now, it’s so hard to get on that road. One day I attended a wine party and met Jiang Mian.
I had nothing to say to him, but he followed me out of the balcony
.
“What do you want?”
“I told Lu Siyuan before that he would not be allowed to join the LPL team when he came back. He really formed a team of his
own and came up from the LDL.”
He leaned over the railing, and the fountain downstairs changed its tune.
“But I let him go. He can go to any club he wants now.”
“You tell him to give up his current team. He has his own abilities, but his teammates
are really a bunch of rookies.”
“He can’t win. If he goes on like this, his career will be wasted here forever.”
Jiang Mian said. It’s true.
No money to dig players, can not win the game, can not pull sponsorship, no money, thus forming
a vicious circle. If
Lu Siyuan wants to jump out, he has to transfer to a big club.
But to do so is tantamount to completely ruining their current team.
As if, that spring, that winter, the base has just been established, won the first LDL
champion, it is meaningless. Feeling irritable, I nodded to him and tried to turn around, but he held my wrist.
“Ah Chul..”
His voice was so low that I could hardly hear it. I only
gave in because I didn’t want to.. You’ve been running around for him, soliciting sponsorship, and
publicizing.
To tell the truth.. I’m dying of jealousy. Team
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has turned to a new single, and it seems to have improved a little.
It seems that after adapting to the version, or the running-in of teammates is finally completed, the summer match is not
as bad as the spring match. It was only later that
I learned that Lin Yao was Lu Siyuan’s brother. That’s the boss
of RK.
He is Lu Siyuan’s half-brother.
No wonder he wouldn’t go to RK.
Lu Siyuan still played very well, still maintained a very high intensity of rank, still.
Refuse to lose. He also played with the rubber band of the bear, loosely around his wrist,
which was so cute, but he wore it with a sense of abstinence. He was discussed by
a group of female fans about who sent him. Lu Siyuan called me on the night of the end of the
summer competition.
He said he won the last game and they made the playoffs.
“I’ve lost my weight.”
He said to me, breathing so clearly.
“But it was such a great win that I felt like I had it all back.”
“They’re all back.” The
stars fell on the earth, and the distant sky suddenly appeared.
Although they still missed the S match that year, the young team was transformed at
this moment. There was an avalanche of cheers outside the
stadium.
I leaned over and saw that the lower auditorium was almost full, and someone was holding a banner with the logo of their team on it
.
“I really didn’t think they could walk here.”
The assistant coach came up next to me and lit a cigarette. The smoke dispersed and I was in a trance.
Yeah, who would have thought.
This year, Lu Siyuan really brought his team to the S match. Before that, no one would be optimistic about the old team and the new team. Some people even said that the era of wind and rain had already come to an end.
His ID appeared in the headlines of Weibo again, after four years.
“Is it okay if you don’t go to the game?”
Today is the Semifinal, and Lu Siyuan is going to face his old rival who cut him down from the altar by MSI.
It’s quite dramatic.
“No, my hand is shaking with the cigarette. I’ll slow down and let Old Fan keep an eye on it first.”
The game had already started, and the assistant coach went back after smoking a cigarette. I was lying on the railing alone, listening to the noisy shouting, and the voice of the commentary was so far away.
In fact, this is probably Lu Siyuan’s last chance to touch the championship trophy.
Think about it, the once talented AD has now become a veteran, and the LPL has become the world’s first division.
After such a long time, spring to autumn, generation after generation of people. I couldn’t see the big screen of the stadium, but I could hear the shouts of the scene. When I returned to the lounge
, a wave of team battles happened to break out.
The team battle won by a narrow margin, playing a wave of 5 for 3, and finally the single and ad pulled
out the incisor tower by the line of soldiers.
Then the situation will be clear.
After a while, Lu Siyuan returned to the lounge one after another.
Unlike the MSI of that year, Lu Siyuan’s expression was fairly relaxed.
At least you can turn the chair to play while sitting, and keep looking at the rubber band in your hand, as if you can see the
flower.
The coach was talking about their problems in the game, and when it came to the final team battle, I couldn’t
help echoing.
He looked up at me and curled his eyes.
“Gu Che, you understand so well.” When
he said that, I was stunned.
Yeah, I don’t know when to start. I know the mechanics of the game and the operation
of the hero like the palm of my hand.
First it was guilt, then I wanted to see him win.
Because he lost too much and wanted to see him win once. Want to see the once wanton wind and rain come back.
The young man who was confused and hesitated under the admiration of the Swedish star, he waited too long, too long. The night before the
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finals, I was not surprised to find Lu Siyuan on the balcony. The lighter in
his hand just wiped out a faint flame, and when he saw me, he slammed it off.
“Can’t sleep again?” I walked over to him.
“Mmm.” He lowered his eyebrows and played with the lighter in his hand.
“Chen Sang-chieh has been turning over all the time. It’s annoying.”
Frowning and looking in a bad mood.
“Why don’t you turn on the machine now and rank a few more?”
He looked up at me with a half-smile.
“Sister, can you feel sorry for me?”
“It’s not that you can’t sleep..”
“a rank that stays up too late is an invalid rank.” He got up and came to me step by step, and
I had to step back, as if he was satisfied that I could not retreat.
Tilt your head. Innocent. “You said it.”
“Then go to bed quickly.”
I pulled his sleeve, but I didn’t pull.
His eyes were always pure and beautiful black, and when he looked at people seriously, he seemed
to be able to suck them in.
“If I win tomorrow, I want to marry you.”
Word by word, very clear.
“What if we lose?”
“Chen Sangjie marries you.”
「……」
You don’t have to drag your innocent assistant into this, really.
“So I’m sure to win and marry you.”
He raised his hand to help me hook the scattered hair behind my ear and stepped back to look at me.
“My sister is so beautiful, I can’t let Jiang get the jump on her.”
「……」 As soon as
I tried to pull him to make his words clear, he turned and left. “I’ll get Sanjay to double row.”
He waved to me with his back to me and whispered.
“He can’t sleep anyway.” The
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finals were held in Shanghai, and there were many more people watching the local battle. There
is a sea of people, and the spotlight is dazzling. I was backstage with
Lu Siyuan on the day they stepped on the field.
This time the team members lined up to wait for the entrance, Lu Siyuan against the wall, black
eyes quietly looking at me.
“Have a good fight.”
I mouthed to him.
He smiled with twinkling stars in his eyes.
The host gave their names.
Step up the steps and come under the spotlight.
It is a journey called storm.
May fail, may fall, may have a confused and can not see the road of the night. The shouts of the audience filled the sea of people, the city returned to darkness, and he went to the battlefield, just
like four years ago.
Lu Siyuan said he would marry me if he won.
But he didn’t know.
He played so beautifully.
He’s already won.
Side Story 1: About our ending
, the fireworks are sprinkled overhead, and the cheers at the scene seem not to have dissipated.
I sat in the car, but I couldn’t believe that everything was true for a long time. I won
the championship. The team members in the
front seats were still chattering and discussing, but when it came to Lu Siyuan, it was unusually
quiet.
He also did not sleep, sitting next to me, stupefied, do not know what to think. The neon lights
outside the window were reflected in his pupils, and he seemed to have no spirit
and lowered his eyes. I
didn’t want to disturb him, so I turned around and asked my assistant for a quilt, but he grabbed my wrist
. “What’s the matter?”
I looked back at him.
“Don’t go.”
His dark eyes looked at me for a moment, and the car swayed slightly over the uneven road
.
I suddenly felt that he was too excited to win, and his brain had crashed. Get
you a blanket. There’s still a long way to go to the base, so why don’t you get some sleep?
“No sleep.”
The voice was soft and hoarse.
“Oh.”
I nodded, plugged in my headphones, and prepared to brush Weibo for a while. The screen of the
mobile phone was covered by a bony hand.
I turned to look at him. His eyelashes were very long, and his eyes were staring at me, like a deep
pool of light.
“Wait a minute.”
He said that it was quiet, obviously the teammates were very noisy in front, but
we seemed to be separated directly. He put his hand in his pocket and touched it for a moment.
“Gu Che.”
After a while, clear your throat. He
took my hand and put something in my hand.
It’s a little boring.
“Marry me.”
「……」
“Not to marry.”
“Why?”
He frowned.
“Lu Ssu-yuan, you proposed too hastily.”
“I won the championship.”
He said, his voice curled up in a fine and lingering way, and he was a little aggrieved.
“That’s your champion.”
“I am all yours.” …… Don’t be shameless. Anyway
, I.. I don’t really want to think about this kind of thing right now.
I leaned back a little, and his eyes were on me. The first time
we met, he was like this. I always felt that his eyes could absorb
everything.
After a while, he laughed.
“Gu Che, is it really that hard to admit that you like me?”
「……」
As if something secret had been punctured directly, there seemed to be no adult
detour and temptation here in Lu Siyuan.
I’ll just play dead. The bus will be here soon anyway.
He obviously didn’t want to do what I wanted. He held my wrist and didn’t move, but the car braked suddenly
.
Because of inertia and he pulled me, I fell firmly into his arms
. I was caught off guard by
his breath. I tried to push him away, but he
grabbed my waist and died.
“Let’s talk about it today, sister.” Then he called me “sister” and spoke to me in my ear, his hot breath spurting on my
ears.
“Do you like me?”
It’s straightforward, and it’s crazy.
It’s like putting a gun to your heart and panicking.
“Lu Ssu-yuan, don’t.”
“Hmm?”
“Like it, like it, let me go.”
If you don’t like it, who will accompany you for four years. The man
next to me laughed. He leaned close to me and said to me word by word.
“I’ve known for a long time.”
「……」
“But I like you better.”
Light and itchy kisses fell on the corners of my mouth, and I was in a trance for a moment.
I suddenly remembered that it was
a long time ago that such a rapid heartbeat was suddenly pulled up by a person. My cruel and sad secret love has passed for so long.
I am now.. Have a good life.
It turns out that he is really not indispensable, and I can live well without him.
Besides, I met someone who can make me very happy.
Really? That’s great.
Jiang Mian
experienced the feeling of losing something for the first time in his life when he came
home that day and found no one at home. The
room was dark and quiet.
She used to leave a light for him, and his first reaction was that she had forgotten.
But there was no one in the bedroom, and he suddenly thought of what
she had just said to him on the phone? She
said she wanted to break up.
Impossible.
She couldn’t have left him. She was just messing with him. Maybe she just went shopping
and would come back later. There was a sound of footsteps in the corridor, and he listened carefully.
After a long time, the sound of the mortise lock sounded from the next door. It was as if
his heart had suddenly fallen.
Damn it! How dare she.
It was a wonderful feeling, like a high king who had been overtaken, and he didn’t know
why he was so angry.
He picked up his cell phone and called her.
No one answered, so he called again and again, but still no.
He collapsed on the sofa and stared at his mobile phone on the tea table.
He suddenly got up and went to the wine cabinet and opened a bottle of red wine. Typing in the WeChat,
he asked her, “
When will you be back?”?
Did not answer, Gu Che before saw his message is almost a second back, and then foolishly with
a long paragraph of words. What about
now? Nothing. Like
a stone dropped into the sea. He looked at the clock on the wall and typed another line.
“Where are you?”
It was quiet. He had never seen a message so hopefully at a certain moment. Never
. Uncontrollable images of her began to appear in
my mind.
To be fair, he was a little annoyed with her. I can’t
even say whether I like her or not.
He felt that he was much less interested in her than in some of his ex-girlfriends, but she was too good to
him. Everything
they have so far has been maintained by her.
She did it so perfectly that he couldn’t even find a reason to break up. Like
a small tail, it always has a brilliant smiling face and will not cry or be sad.
He swiped up the WeChat, and their last message was a picture
she had sent him.
A pair of delicate drop earrings.
She asked if he was pretty.
He didn’t reply. When was this news?
It seemed to be in the morning. He looked at it and threw the phone aside. Because he’s busy with his work
. It doesn’t matter. He doesn’t do it once or twice.
This time he opened the picture and looked at it carefully.
He thought of her slender neck, and with these earrings, of course it was beautiful.
Suitable for wedding dresses.
…… Is she choosing their wedding earrings?
Yes, they have met their parents, and they are going to get married.
In this way, his heart seemed to be calmed.
She may be really angry this time, but so what? She will give
in to him every time.
She’s really gone.
Jiang Mian Leng Leng looked at a little empty house, belonging to her things have been moved away, he
did not think that the corner of the sunflower doll what is important.
But he misses it. He thought that she used to play games with him with sunflower dolls, and he disliked her most of the time
.
She always wants to play with him.
He turned on the TV and touched the controller. The archive of their game together was still there. She was too silly to play the game
and ran to save him. Then they often died together.
He asked her why she came to die together, and she said that it was meaningless
for her to live alone and play the game.
Women are amazing creatures.
He thinks she talks a lot. He thinks she likes him too much. Now, she doesn’t like him
.
She stopped smiling at him.
He used to think that she was a natural optimist who liked to laugh, but later he learned that she only laughed at
him.
Stupid.
He threw the handle back on the coffee table, closed his eyes, and his mind was full of her shadow.
He thought about why he accepted her in junior high school, as if she had been beaten for
him. He can’t live with his
conscience. Until now, there is still a mark on her forehead.
The heart is like being pulled up suddenly.
If he could cross back, he would pick up the young boy’s collar and kick him a few feet
.
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He went to see her best friend. He wanted her WeChat back.
The mobile phone was blacklisted WeChat, and he couldn’t find her.
He wants her back. Very much.
He suddenly found that she was so important in his heart, and he suddenly found that the girl who followed him from childhood
to adulthood actually had a lot of boys like her.
He didn’t want her to be taken.
But her best friend wouldn’t give him WeChat, she said, telling him to stop bothering her.
She said that Gu Che was very tired with Jiang Mian.
She said that Jiang Mian always brought a lot of pain to Gu Che.
She said that Gu Che actually cried many times.
She, originally can cry? He always saw her smile, because he had said that he hated her crying, she really did not cry in
front of him, until they broke up.
He wanted to hold her in his arms and tell her not to cry, but how could he hold her
?
He doesn’t want her. Really, he doesn’t want her.
Jiang Mian had thought about their marriage before.
Gu Che will wear a white wedding dress, step by step toward him, he will take her
hand, and then put on the ring.
But she didn’t marry him.
One fine day he heard that she was getting married.
It was her birthday.
How ironic that she met her groom that day.
That day, he forgot her birthday.
