I
am the lover who has stayed with him for the longest time, and I am also the most affectionate and well-behaved pet he keeps. After
seven years of cleverness, he still threw it away like an old shoe. In Song Jincheng’s eyes,
I am probably a self-recommended lover.
At that time, I had already shot a few minor dramas, in which I played the roles of vicious or coquettish and wayward female number two, three, and four. At the end of the year, the company’s gambling agreement failed, and he bought it at a low price. At the end of the year, he mercifully came over and showed his face. That was my chance.
My agent must not have thought I was so bold. In fact, she found other donors for me. No one dares to attack him. He is very powerful. He is said to be not easy to mess with. He is not a kind and good-tempered person.
But I really didn’t want to spend the rest of my life spoiling myself with one fat donor after another. That was the first time I had the courage to plan for myself.
When he went to the garden terrace alone to wake up, I followed him. When I gathered up my courage and stood in front of him with a red face, he looked at me with a heavy and silent look. I trembled under the look, but I still tried to introduce myself in shame. I said, “Hello, Mr. Song. My name is Qin Shi.”
He was very tall, his eyes looked down, and he looked at me quietly from head to foot. Finally, he pinched my jaw and raised my face. I looked back at him with trembling eyelashes. I knew I was beautiful. I was most beautiful when my eyes were moving. Sure enough, he narrowed his eyes and waved to the bodyguards who gathered around him. It was only
later, after being with him for a long time, that I discovered that he was not a person who would indulge in women. There were so many people who recommended themselves, and over the years, I was the only one who came to him in this way. When I was at his side for the third year, his assistant, who had always been very tight-lipped, said with emotion, “Miss Qin, you are very lucky.”
According to the plot development of the idol drama, I should be his destiny choice, even if not the heroine, should also be somewhat similar to the heroine so that he is willing to be soft-hearted.
But I’m really just cannon fodder.
After a long, long time, I dared to ask him, “Why, why me?”
He was in a good mood, so he squinted at me and finally replied, “You should be lucky.”
My luck is very good. I was young at that time, so the ignorant are fearless. If I do it again, at this age, if I dare to chat up Song Jincheng like this, then my answer should be no. On
my first date with Sung Chin-cheng, he took me to the Colosseum.
Except on TV, it was the first time I had set foot in such a place. Song Jincheng took me to stand in the private room on the highest floor and looked down. The dark crowd below was roaring fiercely. In the middle of the arena was a man and a tiger, almost unilaterally killing. I couldn’t help but feel sick, but I didn’t dare.
I slanted my head to look at Song Jincheng’s expression. He stared at the Colosseum. His expression hardly changed, but his eyebrows jumped slightly. Later, when I was familiar with his every micro-expression, I realized that it represented that he was excited.
Killing always makes people excited. That day was very unfortunate. Of course, I don’t know if it was intentional in the arena. The tiger in the arena jumped out and jumped at the crowd who were roaring and excited one second ago. Everyone ran around in panic. Finally, the tiger was stunned two meters in front of us. Warm blood splashed on the back of Song Jincheng’s hand, and he squinted slightly. When the boss of the
arena came to make amends himself, he was frowning at the drop of blood on his hand. I think the wisdom of my life was reflected at that moment. I leaned over cleverly and licked the blood on his hand meekly.
He ran his hand down my hair to the back of my neck and pinched the soft meat as if he were stroking a cat.
So later Song Jincheng said I was lucky, I can not help but secretly guess that if not for this time, I would probably be thrown into the middle of the Colosseum by him to fight with tigers and lions.
He’s a bit of a mystery.
Sometimes he rests at my place, and when he wakes up in a daze in the morning, he can often be seen smoking on the terrace.
The sky will be bright, the dark blue sky in the boundary between light and dark chaos, he wore silk silver gray pajamas, sitting sideways on the balcony smoking, fingertips a touch of light red flashing, clearly extinguished.
He didn’t smoke much, but more often he looked down at his fingertips, his dark hair was messy on his forehead, his handsome side face was very handsome, and his eyelashes were drooping, as if he were sad.
He is the favored son of heaven, whose business empire is unimaginably large, rich and powerful, and everything is within his reach as long as he wants.
I don’t know who can make him show this expression, and I don’t know what can make him upset and sad.
He had always been a man of great self-control, and for some time he smoked heavily and drank too much, and finally sent himself to the hospital.
At that time, his family was taking care of him in the hospital. I pretended to be a passer-by and passed by his ward. He was lying on the bed, surrounded by a young man and a young woman. They were holding a mobile phone to show him something. He was holding a peeled apple in his hand. His eyes were gentle. While looking at the mobile phone sideways, his face suddenly burst into a happy smile.
He seldom smiles, and when he is with me, I have seen very few smiles. In fact, he is very serious, and when his eyes are heavy, you will be frightened and dare not look at him.
So at that moment, I was really curious about what he saw? It’ll make him laugh.
I am the woman who has stayed with Song Jincheng for the longest time. I think this should be due to two points. The first point is that I am really beautiful. In the entertainment circle where beauty is everywhere, I have also been nominated for a long time in the “beauty ceiling of the entertainment circle”. The second point is that I am really obedient and well-behaved. You know, every woman. Especially the women around Song Jincheng, because they are fawned on too much, so they can’t help being spoiled and arrogant. Song Jincheng is willing to be perfunctory when he spoils you. If you are impatient, you should never see him again in your life.
I never had too much contact with his subordinates. Occasionally, someone wanted to ask him for something to come to me. I also smiled and refused without saying a word. The most exaggerated one was that someone came over with a whole piece of jade half arm high. It was transparent and of excellent quality. When it was put in the center of the hall, it was almost warm and shining. The leader smiled politely. “Miss Chin,” she said, “I don’t need any trouble. I just want you to help me meet Mr. Soong.” It was a lie to
say that I was not moved. My heart was like a battle between heaven and man, but I still smiled calmly on my face. After all, I was good at acting. I didn’t even look at the emerald out of the corner of my eye. I looked like I didn’t eat human fireworks. Later, when the man left, he praised me and said, “You deserve to be a person around Mr. Song. I haven’t seen any storms.” It’s very rude of me to ask you to do something with these little things.
Heaven can see that if this piece of jade is born with a spirit, he may also vomit blood when he hears that he is called a “little thing.” In fact, he does not know that my heart is also bleeding.
Later, this man found another way to see Song Jincheng. He found out about this, and that night the jade was sent to the high-rise apartment he gave me along the river. He looked at me with a smile and said, “It’s really hard for you not to be moved by such a piece of jade.” Then he laughed again. “I don’t know how he dared to come to me and recommend himself.”
Sometimes when I went out to socialize with him, he would look at the way the people below fawned on me, and would tease me with a half-smile: “Don’t scare her, my little girlfriend is timid than a mouse..”
Oh, yes, he called me his “little girlfriend.” Of all his female companions over the years, I was probably the only one who had this honor. In my fifth year at his side, it was said that the underground casino even set up a special gambling game to bet on whether I would fly to the branches and become a phoenix, and finally become a full member. The odds of the
bet were as high as 1:350. The bet lasted for two years. In my seventh year at Song Jincheng’s side, I went to bet that I would not. I was very happy to think that I could earn an extra pocket money after breaking up.
I think no one knows better than me that the reason why I can stay with Song Jincheng for so long is that I don’t love him.
Of course, he thinks I don’t love him.
Not loving Song Jincheng is a thousand times more difficult than falling in love with him. If you were me, you would know that with his personality charm, it would be very difficult for anyone not to be interested in him.
In Song Jincheng’s side for a long time, of course, I also had fantastic fantasies, I followed him in the second year, that year I had a live adventure variety show, there was a desert adventure,
the idiot crew put four people in the vast Gobi, gave a little survival supplies, and then let us survive for two days and one night. But the crew did not do a good job of protective measures, a sandstorm swept through the night, we lost contact with the crew, I stayed up for a day and a night, when I thought I was going to die in the desolate desert, Song Jincheng sent a helicopter to find me in the desert.
Of course, he himself did not come, but that did not delay his image in my eyes to become a God down to earth, you see how simple the heart, as long as a point, in an instant, can defeat the psychological defense line you build day and night.
When everyone is saying, “Mr. Soong seems to be serious about you,” “Mr. Soong has never treated anyone like you,” “Mr. Soong is probably infatuated with you, but no wonder, you are so beautiful, if I were a man, I could not help but be attracted,” and so on, you will also have extravagant hopes in your heart: In the end is not a bit sincere?
Fortunately, there were other people around him during the time when my mind was surging with love.
It may be that Song Jincheng really has the capital of a playboy, which leads people to think that there are many women around him, but in fact he is not very keen on women, probably because he is too troublesome, and at the same time, there will be no more than two fixed female companions, and those who can get into his eyes and cleverly understand his mind are not spoiled and arrogant and do not design him with a crooked mind. I’ve been the only one all these years.
That woman was a little flower at the same time as me. She made a campus drama at the peak of her debut. Her pure and simple image was deeply rooted in the hearts of the people and became popular all over the country. Of course, she was really simple. Song Jincheng was always generous to the people around him, so generous that perhaps the little flower had some kind of illusion. So in the first month she was with Song, she came
to me and warned me, “I tell you, Jincheng is with me now, and you’d better get to know each other.”
I was really confused at that time, thinking that Song Jincheng had also been conquered by this pure little flower. At that time, the budding little heart withered in an instant. It was not until three days later that Song Jincheng summoned me to accompany him to a banquet. When he went out, the domineering little flower standing in front of me was stopped by the bodyguard outside. He asked hysterically without any image: “Why, Song Jincheng?” Why did you suddenly say you didn’t want me? Did I do something wrong?
Song Jincheng frowned. Later, I never saw that little flower again. She didn’t even make a film again. So she was silent. During that time, I dreamed every day that the little flower was in tears and stopped Song Jincheng. It was so undignified and undignified. But when I dreamed, her crying face turned into my own. Song Chin-cheng,
however, lowered his eyes and looked at him with cold indifference. “Pull it down,” he said. Every time
I was awakened in this kind of eyes, and then repeatedly warned myself in my heart that I must not become the second flower, because crying is too ugly, damaging the image.
Gradually, I was the only woman by his side. Everyone said that Qin Shi was really a good trick, and Song Jincheng was also taken in by me. I was the only one who laughed it off. That was because the women around him were always too restless, and he was too troublesome. If I really took it seriously and ran to him and said, “Mr. Song, I like you.” I believe this will be the last thing I say to him. The reason why
I can stay by his side for so long is only because of my duty.
From the age of 22 to 29, a woman’s most beautiful years are here. Before
Dong Yun appeared, everyone thought I was taking the script of the heroine, but after she appeared, they suddenly realized that every cannon fodder, at the moment when the heroine appeared, was to return to its original position, just like Cinderella’s crystal shoes after twelve o’clock, there was no escape. The
first clue was in the headline of the business and financial newspaper. The cover showed him and a woman holding an umbrella side by side. The following details the background and wealth of the woman. It was believed that Song Jincheng was going to have a business marriage. This was not the first time that he was rumored to have a business marriage, but in the end it was all over. More than once, I imagined that his future wife would stand proudly in front of me and throw me an unlimited bank card to get rid of me, but none of them came true, so I didn’t take it seriously. The second time
they were on the entertainment news, he took her hand, slanted his head and looked at her intently, because it was a candid camera, so far away, the picture quality was very blurred, I could not see the expression clearly, but I felt a chill in my heart, the moment I put down the newspaper, I felt that my mind was blank, my body might still be trembling slightly, this time it was different. I heard another voice in my head saying to me. I
don’t know why, I suddenly remembered a long time ago an irrelevant thing. At that time, I was just emerging in the entertainment circle. Everyone in the circle was curious about the gold owner behind me. The paparazzi squatted on me all day and night, but I was not afraid. No one dared to explode the material of Song Jincheng, but there were exceptions. A paparazzi took a picture in which Song Jincheng did not appear. I just stretched out one hand from the car, put my hand on it, and with the other hand, I was about to bend down to get into the car with my skirt.
This photo was on the hot search. They guessed from Song Jincheng’s suit style with half of his wrist to his wrist with tens of millions of watches. They noticed his long hands with clear joints. Countless people I
didn’t know were nominated in the comments. The first thing I did after the hot search was to see Song Jincheng. As I stood outside his door, I thought I must be in a panic. My face was pale. I said, “It wasn’t me.” There was once a star who bribed the paparazzi to take pictures of Sung Chin-cheng to threaten him, but later the end was not very good, so I tried to explain, “It wasn’t me.”
He looked at me with a casual hum and said, “I know.”
My heart was slowly put down. There was no shortage of news in
the entertainment circle, and slowly no one was interested in this matter. After I became popular, someone went to dig up this matter, and it was quickly covered by my fans.
Now that the picture of Song Jincheng and a woman is so brazenly placed in the center of the entertainment news, I can only think of one possibility, that is, it is with his permission.
He allowed this woman to be placed right next to him.
I searched Dong Yun’s Baidu Encyclopedia on the Internet. She is the only daughter of a large enterprise in a city. She has been excellent since childhood. She can speak six languages. She graduated from a Buddhist finance major in the United States and likes extreme sports. By following the clues, I found her personal account, on which she shared a lot of photos, including gatherings with friends, meetings, and extreme rock climbing. In fact, she was not a beauty in the traditional sense, but she was warm and confident. She hung on the rock and turned back with a bright smile on her face, which made people think of the sunflowers blooming in the summer sunshine. The same brilliance is full of vitality.
I have never been in front of Song Jincheng, this is probably the self-cultivation of a kept mistress, but I really envy Dong Yun’s calm, of course, she has the capital to be calm in front of Song Jincheng.
Seeing Dong Yun, I was completely without any psychological preparation. It was at a party in the circle. I was Song Jincheng’s female companion. I was dressed in full makeup. It was an exaggeration to say that almost every hair was in its place. I stood beside Song Jincheng. I didn’t need to speak, just smile. It was at this time that
Dong Yun arrived. She was dressed simply but gracefully. When she passed by us, she took the wine glass handed over by the waiter on one side, looked me up and down, and then winked niftily with Song Jincheng. With a tacit smile of their class, she said, “This is not bad. You have a good eye.”
I tried to control myself at that moment want to frown eyebrows, endure and endure, I subconsciously looked up to see Song Jincheng’s face, his eyes fell heavily on Dong Yun’s face, with unfathomable exploration.
Explore what?
I ask you, have you seen the idol film? In idol movies, the general president is caught by the woman at a banquet with a female partner. When the woman forces a smile and says that you look well matched, what is the president exploring when he looks at the woman’s face sullenly? Of course, it is to explore whether the heroine is jealous!
Unfortunately, Dong Yun is really free and easy, and Song Jincheng? He was really exploring Dong Yun’s reaction when he saw him with another woman.
Not long after, I couldn’t help but beat around the Bush about his relationship with Dong Yun, and jokingly asked me if I should retire after success. Song Jincheng just casually flicked the cigarette ash in his hand and said to me, “We’re just friends.”
Friend, this is really an ambiguous and serious word, it can be a general summary of all the relationships you can not define at present, I was gently oh, and then lowered his head to concentrate on peeling the orange in his hand.
Song Jincheng likes to eat oranges, but he has a problem, that is, he doesn’t eat oranges cut by a knife. He must be peeled by hand. At the beginning, I was very melancholy, because girls like to make beautiful nails. If they peel oranges, they can’t leave too long nails, because if they use force, their nails will collapse and they will be dyed yellow. I haven’t had long nails since, and I mourned them when I was young. But now sometimes I think vaguely that if he is with Dong Yun in the future, he will probably never need me to peel oranges again. It was a little melancholy to
think about it, so I peeled one more for him. When I talked about this
with my good friend Mo Bei, she always sniffed at me, thinking that I was thinking too much and worrying too much. She has a classic saying: “Can a business marriage have true feelings?”? It’s just an unreliable marriage bond between evil capitalism and another evil capitalism. It’s weaker than paper burned to ashes, and it’s gone when the wind blows.
I smiled and did not speak at that time. I have always believed that a woman’s sixth sense, especially a beautiful woman’s sixth sense, is often more accurate than radar.
I am so sure of this thing, or because of a rainstorm night.
It was about two o’clock in the morning, and I was woken up by the ringing of Song’s cell phone. At first, I wasn’t particularly lucid, but by the time I had the sense to open my eyes, Song was already sitting up. As he answered the phone, he said in a gentle voice, “Don’t panic, speak slowly.”
“Where are you now?”
“Nothing, what landmark can you see now?” When
the house was being decorated, Song Jincheng only made one comment, that is, privacy and confidentiality, so the house was extremely soundproof, but now, in the silence of the room, I heard the wind and rain whistling from the other end of the phone, mixed with a flustered female voice, like a heavy mallet, hitting my skull hard. Buzzing.
I heard Song Jincheng’s gentle voice. He said, “Yun Yun, don’t be afraid. Wait for me.” The bed
next to it was light, and then the lock of the door clicked, and then I couldn’t hear any more. The sound insulation of the
room was so good that when the bedroom door closed, I couldn’t even hear his footsteps, but when I closed my eyes, I could imagine him going downstairs along the bedroom corridor, passing the living room on the first floor, then picking up the car keys, changing shoes at the entrance, and then walking to the underground garage. I lifted the quilt and went to the window to open the curtain. The rainstorm hit the window silently. A rain line slid down the bright and clean window, but was soon washed away by another rain line. I opened my eyes gently by counting 123. A headlight came out of the underground garage. I raised my hand and touched the headlight through the window. With a blink of my eyes, a line of tears fell quietly.
Later, Song Jincheng had a friend with a broken mouth who told me intentionally or unintentionally that Dong Yun’s car broke down on Guangzong Road on the way to the storm that night. Guangzong Road has a characteristic, that is, the road conditions are complex, there are many trails, known as the labyrinth of the city center, Dong Yun herself did not know the specific location, she called Song Jincheng in a panic, waiting for half an hour, Song Jincheng magically appeared in front of her.
Guangzong Road, I read silently, from our house to Guangzong Road is usually at least 40 minutes by car, in the case of not knowing the specific location of Dong Yun, he found her in half an hour, I can not help but think, this is really a damn friendship ah.
His friend Zhan Qi finally leaned back on the sofa, squinting his eyes lazily and reminding me: “Qin Shi, to be honest, of all the people around Ah Cheng, you are my favorite one. Dong Yun has come back, so you should make some plans for yourself as soon as possible.”
“You can’t compete with Dong Yun. She doesn’t have to do anything. Just stand there and you’ve already lost.”
I raised a glass of beer in front of me, smiled at him and drank it down as a toast to him.
I heard that Song Jincheng and Dong Yun first met in the United States. Song Jincheng, as a specially invited alumnus, returned to the school to give a speech. I don’t know how they met and knew each other, but I know that Dong Yun first met Song Jincheng earlier than me, and more morally decent than me.
Zhanqi told me that I couldn’t compete with Dong Yun. She didn’t have to do anything. She just stood there and won. If I said I never wanted to compete with others, he wouldn’t believe it.
In the eyes of these people, even if they say to me that they appreciate and like me again, they can’t hide their contempt for me. People have to pay for what they have done. I am close to Song Jincheng with impure purpose. This is not what I can choose.
When I met Song Jincheng, he was not married and had no girlfriend. In terms of morality and ethics, I did not have any fault. I just wanted to work hard to make myself live a little better, a little more decent and not be trampled on by everyone.
I don’t think I’m at fault.
They felt that I was as indifferent as a chrysanthemum in front of Song Jincheng, just a person I had painstakingly created. When Song Jincheng abandoned me, I would completely reveal my fox spirit tail, or pester me endlessly, or cling to me. It was not so much that his friends were reminding me as beating me. The attitude of
a person’s friends to you determines your position in that person’s heart. From the moment Zhanqi said this to me, I thought, I have been worried for seven years, and finally I will usher in my own big ending.
In a long time ago, I imagined countless times that Song Jincheng and I ended at the last moment. In countless idol dramas, such a scene was undoubtedly accompanied by a pouring rain. I stubbornly looked up at the sky at 45 degrees, not letting the tears in my eyes flow down, and sadly looked at Song Jincheng’s resolute back without looking back..
But in fact it was just a very ordinary sunny day, Song Jincheng rarely came to eat at noon, the nanny made a very simple four dishes and one soup, I remember very clearly, a spareribs and winter melon soup, a dish of braised pork, a dish of fish, a dish of lettuce, an egg fried shrimp, the Song family has its own farm. It specializes in planting vegetables, raising fish and shrimp in water, raising cattle, sheep, chickens, ducks and geese in captivity, all of which are organic and original. These food raw materials only supply the daily three meals of the Song family, and do not do business with the outside world, so although it is only a simple four-course dish, it is better than original ecological taste. In the middle of the
meal, I began to peel the oranges for Song Jincheng. The faint fragrance of oranges filled the air. Song Jincheng suddenly opened his mouth and said to me, “I’ve already found someone to transfer the ownership of that villa in the western suburbs of the city to you.”
“Last time I had someone order your favorite sports car from abroad, and it will be delivered to you in a few days.”
He took a sip of water from the cup, then slowly wiped his mouth and continued, “The rest is in your account. You can look at your account.”
I lowered my head and carefully peeled the orange bit by bit, as if this was the most important thing for me at the moment. After a long time, I heard Song Jincheng say to me, “Do you still have any needs?”
I handed him the whole orange and said, “Eat this orange.”
He looked at me for a long time, then took it and finished it bit by bit.
I smiled. I knew I looked the best when I smiled, so I smiled at him very lightly. I said, “I have a play this afternoon, so I won’t keep Mr. Soong.”
He nodded, his face watertight, his eyes glancing at my face for a moment, but then he stood up, picked up his coat at the back of his chair, nodded to me and said, “I’ll go first.” As
I walked him out and stood by the door watching him leave, he suddenly turned around, his handsome eyebrows slightly frowning, and said, “If anything happens in the future, you can go and find Zhan
Qi.”
I smiled and nodded.
I know this is his last indulgence to me, he is so crisp and never sloppy, can say such a sentence is not easy, after all, he hates to have contact after separation.
I have been standing by the door, watching his car ride the dust, gradually turned into a small black spot, slowly disappeared in sight.
In the evening, when the nanny came over, she was very surprised. It was about 10 o’clock. She was used to making night snacks for Song Jincheng at this time. I didn’t turn on the light. When she turned on the light and saw me sitting at the table in the living room, she was shocked. She asked, “Miss Qin, are you all right?”
I shook my stiff bones and found that I had been sitting like this for several hours without knowing it. I smiled reluctantly. Before I could speak, the nurse asked, “What’s wrong with Nong Sansa?” The nanny was an old Shanghainese aunt, and because Song Chin-cheng was from Shanghai, she liked to speak Shanghainese whenever she was in a hurry. I rubbed my eyebrows, shook my head wearily, and replied, “I’m all right, aunt.” After a pause, I added, “You don’t have to come here anymore.”
She was so shocked that she stopped speaking Shanghainese and asked me, “What if Mr. Soong comes?”? He is used to the way I cook. There were no outsiders
here, so I let myself frown fiercely between my eyebrows, and my voice was almost murmuring. I shook my head and said, “He won’t come again.” Mobei and
I went out to play for a year. We had no destination and did whatever we wanted. The craziest thing we did was to soak in the wild hot springs under the snow mountains in Albania at night. The next day, we bought tickets and flew to Iceland to see the Aurora on a whim. Anyway, we had a lot of time and money. When I got the news of
Song Jincheng’s marriage, Mobei and I were visiting the ancient city of Medina in Marrakech. The open-air market was bustling with people. There were colorful silk and spice baskets everywhere. It was noisy and dirty, but it had a charming ancient flavor. I stood by the roadside waiting for Mobei to choose silk cloth from the stalls. I turned on my phone absentmindedly. The latest news came from my agent three days ago. There were only four words: “Are you all right?” After separating
from Song Jincheng, I changed all my contact information and drew a deep gap with Song Jincheng’s circle of friends.
But I almost took the hint. When I opened the news push, I saw Song Jincheng and Dong Yun’s wedding of the century. The cover was a wedding photo. Song Jincheng slanted his head and looked at Dong Yun, who was wearing a snow-white wedding dress. What overflowed from his eyebrows and eyes was deep feeling and gentleness.
My mind went blank for a moment. It wasn’t until Mo Bei came to push me that I realized that my hand holding my cell phone was shaking all the time. I thought my face must be very ugly, because Mo Bei looked very flustered. She asked me, “What’s wrong with you, Qin Shi?”? Don’t scare me!
Later, Mo Bei accompanied me to lie in the hotel for three days. I didn’t know what was wrong with me. In fact, I told myself very clearly that you were not an onion. Even though you had been with Song Jincheng for seven years, did you have a sad position? But I am tired, tired from the depths of my heart, this tiredness spread to the limbs and bones, people do not even want to move a finger.
I am extremely grateful to Mobei for his tolerance. After
returning to China, I started my normal work. Even if I broke away from the resources of Song Jincheng, my daily work was still very full. I was good at nothing in acting and singing, but fortunately I was beautiful. These days, people are particularly tolerant of good-looking people. In addition, I have self-knowledge, and I am not a demon, easy-going, modest and low-key. Big directors and brands are also willing to cooperate with me. I met Song Jincheng
again two years after he got married. I was a regular guest at the China Merchants Fair of the top variety show in China. Song Jincheng was probably an investor. The circle was so small that we didn’t meet for three years, probably because he secretly instructed us.
That meeting, perhaps he felt that three years later, there was nothing to avoid suspicion.
I generously toasted with the creative team, but it was still decent to be in front of him. The glass was half a cup lower than his, and I called him politely, alienated, and self-aware: “Mr. Soong.” In the
past, when I was extremely close to him, I used to call him Jincheng in his ear. At that time, after I called him, my face turned white, but he smiled, smiled deeply in my ear, and asked me, “What are you afraid of?” When I
was so intimate, now that I think about it, it’s like a good dream that people are burning in the yellow beam, so I seldom think about it. After three rounds of
drinking, a producer sister who took good care of me asked me to send a suit of clothes to Room 302 upstairs. I stepped on the thick carpet with my dress. The high heels
were silent. The whole third floor was empty. Pushing open the door, I saw a familiar silhouette.
Song Jincheng leaned against the window and was smoking. The smoke curled out of his mouth. His side face was still very handsome. I knocked on the door before I went in. He turned to look at me. Then he pressed the cigarette in his hand into the ashtray beside him. His voice was hoarse and he said sorry.
When we were silent, he spoke first, “Did you change your cell phone number?”? Azaki, they want to contact you, but they can’t find anyone. After a pause, he added, “I heard you sold all those houses. Where do you live now?” With a hum,
I explained, “I was just afraid that my husband would be troubled if old things and old people were dragged out after his marriage, so I dealt with them all together.”
He was supposed to be drunk and frowned deeply. I looked at the fold between his eyebrows and couldn’t help thinking, why are you so unhappy when you marry the person you love most.
He looked at me with heavy eyes. When his eyes met, I seemed to have been pressed the pause button. His eyes moved and he slowly leaned over to me. I wanted to escape, but his legs seemed to be on the ground. When his warm breath fell on my face, I closed my eyes obediently in despair, and my hand almost held his front in fear.
He got married, which was a very immoral thing. My inner reason was crying hysterically, but I couldn’t refuse him.
I could never say no to him.
I tried three years of defense, as long as a moment, as long as his eyes will not be defeated, as long as that person is him. With my face
up and my eyes closed, I felt his breath brush past my lips and bury it in my neck and shoulders. The breath was warm and he said, “I’m sorry.” Then he pushed me away, his eyes looking annoyed. Seldom has he lost control and self-control like this. He rubbed his forehead and said, “Sorry, I’m drunk.”
I tried to lift my lips and smile like a clown, and I said, “It’s okay.”
The next day I was on the gossip headlines, and then I understood what Song Jincheng meant by saying sorry.
There was no one on the third floor, and the whole venue was full of friendly media, but Song Jincheng and I were photographed in a high-definition photo. I raised my face and closed my eyes. He bowed his head and bent over my shoulder and neck. His hair hung slightly in front of his forehead, covering his eyebrows and eyes. If it were not for a very familiar person, he would not recognize Song Jincheng.
But such ambiguous photos, without Song Jincheng’s instructions, no one dares to release them even if they are taken by the media.
My agent’s cell phone was blown up. They were all beating around the Bush. Who is this? Is it my boyfriend? The overwhelming scolding was transmitted along the network line. Mobei called and scolded Song Jincheng. But I was not sad or frightened. I just wondered sincerely. Why? I don’t understand the significance of Song Jincheng’s doing this?
A few days later, I understood because I met Dong Yun at an event. She laughed when she
saw me. She laughed from the bottom of her heart. She even teased me secretly: “I saw that picture. It was a good one. I bet with Zhan Qi that you were the right girl for him. Zhan Qi even laughed at me. After all these years, you were really a good match.”
I was suddenly enlightened at that moment, and then I felt sad and painful for Song Jincheng.
You see, this is the sweetheart that Song Jincheng wants to marry, but she doesn’t love him.
She doesn’t love him.
I think of Song Jincheng frowning tightly that day, he deliberately instructed to release this photo, nothing more than to take me as a raft, to test Dong Yun’s attitude. I was still wondering why such a big top variety show would ask me to be a regular guest. Now I think it should be the compensation given by Song Jincheng. I think he must be very frustrated at the moment. I saw the smiling Dong Yun in front of me, and I was very sure and confirmed that she didn’t love him.
Dong Yun turned around and walked away. I don’t know why, but I suddenly stopped her. She turned around doubtfully. I looked at her quietly and explained word by word. I said, “Miss Dong, I broke up with Mr. Song a year before he married you, and I haven’t seen or contacted him since. That photo that day was just a misunderstanding.” After a pause, I added, “You must remember that Mr. Soong has never betrayed you since he married you.”
She looked at me in surprise with her mouth open, as if she didn’t know what I was talking about.
Only I know why, I think Song Jincheng can use me as a raft to test Dong Yun, but I don’t have the heart to let the person he loves misunderstand him like this. If he and Dong Yun have the slightest possibility after a long time, I can’t let me become the old thorn between them.
If you really love a person, then you must be able to understand my feelings at the moment, but whenever Song Jincheng can grasp the opportunity to be happy, I want to help him.
I really, really hope he can be happy.
I officially announced my relationship six months later, and it was an actor with high national popularity who participated in the variety show with me. He knows everything about me. He is very tolerant and gentle. He can give me good advice in life and work. He teaches me like an elder. There are no big waves and ups and downs with him, but he is very relieved. We got married
a year later. On our wedding day, I received a gift in my dressing room. My agent haltingly handed it to me. I opened it and saw that it was a very ordinary crystal ball, in which the complete moment of fireworks was preserved. It must have been a long time ago, when Song Chin-cheng and I were standing on the top floor of the World Trade Center and watching the fireworks on the Bund. At that time, we sighed with emotion: “Glass is fragile and colorful clouds are scattered. All the beautiful things in this world are fleeting.”
Unexpectedly, he still remembered that he had stored the fireworks in this crystal ball, and below it was a wedding message written by himself:
“May you be as bright and happy as these fireworks.”
“I know this is very touching. Don’t be impulsive. Don’t be stupid.”
Just as the dressing room door was pushed open, my groom stood by the door waiting for me to pass. I smiled, covered the box and walked over to him.
To my own future.
As Song Jincheng said, I want to be happy with him for a long time. When
I shut myself up in my study and concentrated on making crystal balls, Zhanqi came to find me.
He looked at the table full of materials, the garbage cans, and the discarded half-finished products I had thrown all over the floor. He looked very incomprehensible and incredible. He asked me, “Ah Cheng, what are you doing?”
Cheng, what are you doing? When the news of
her marriage was leaked to me by the familiar media, I flew back from Los Angeles overnight. When I woke up, I had already parked my car downstairs in her house. When I sat in the car and looked at the lights in her house, I asked myself, Song Jincheng, what are you doing?
To tell you the truth, I always hate women. After I separated from Qin Shi, I didn’t think she could handle it so cleanly. She changed all the contact information, sold several properties I bought for her, and handled them cleanly. I didn’t find it at first, but one day, a partner gave me a box of pearls, which claimed to be comparable to the Orvieto pearls found in 1520.
I never had a big idea about these things, but at that time I didn’t know why I opened them and took a look. The pearls were round and inlaid in the brocade box. I
suddenly remembered Qin Shi, who never liked to wear gold and silver, but liked pearls very much. She wore a round pearl necklace around her slender neck, and her skin was white as if it could shine through.
Occasionally she spent the night there, and sometimes in the morning she would lean against the door with interest to see her sitting in front of the dressing table making up, her dark eyebrows, her upturned eyes, her bright red lips, and finally she unfolded the jewelry box, and her long snow-white fingers stroked the exquisite jewelry box one by one, all kinds of pearl earrings. One by one, they picked them out and put them to their ears. Then they turned to me slightly sideways and asked softly, “Does this look good?” The
delicate and round pearls were shaking under her ears, and with that face, it was the icing on the cake. I don’t have many women
around me, but I’ve never stopped. Qin Shi, among my many women, is extremely beautiful. Just like the first time we met, she rushed to avoid the bodyguard and came to me. She looked at me shyly and introduced herself, saying, “Hello, Mr. Song, my name is Qin Shi.”
My displeasure disappeared the moment I saw her face.
At that time, she was still young and seemed to be in her early twenties. She was so young that she could pinch out water. She was far less familiar than she is today. I still seem to remember the blush on her face, which spread from her ears to her neck. Her whole body was trembling with fear, but it was absolutely beautiful. I
immediately remembered a one-month-old leopard cat I had raised before. Qin Shi was the same as the leopard cat, with a small ball of fried hair trembling and a fierce grin in the palm of his hand. So I waved to the bodyguard who was lurking around the garden and slowly leaned over, reached out and pinched her chin and raised her face.
She obediently closed her eyes at my fingertips and closed her long eyelashes like a butterfly spreading its wings to fly.
Seeing this box of pearls, I thought of her again, so I left the pearls alone and handed them to Zhan Qi, saying to him, “You help me give this to Qin Shi.” After a pause, I added, “Don’t tell her it’s from me.”
I gave her a gift after the separation simply because I thought the pearl was suitable for her, but I didn’t want her to misunderstand that it was a hint of my broken connection.
I am a person who never turns back.
But unexpectedly, after making a phone call, Zhan Qi looked up at me with a half-smile and said, “It’s an empty number.”
He looked me up and down maliciously and said, “Ah Cheng, you can’t do it. Your little lover changed his cell phone number and didn’t tell you?”
Not only her mobile phone number, but also her WeChat private number. I don’t remember how I felt at the time, but I probably didn’t know whether to laugh or cry. “You can send it yourself,” he said to me. “I’m too lazy to look for people everywhere, just to send a box of pearls.”
I held the red velvet box and bumped it, and then I didn’t know what I was thinking, but I actually drove to her place.
I knew she had no notice at that time. The properties I bought for her ranged from villas in the suburbs to flats in the city center. That day I drove around the city and found that she had sold all the houses. When the
car stopped on the side of the road, I laughed back angrily, raised my hand and threw the box of pearls on the passenger seat out of the window, and drove away without turning back.
To the extent that she did, the fool knew what she meant.
Later, when Zhan Qi mentioned her, he also said with emotion, “That Qin Shi is usually quiet, but she is also a ruthless person. We used to guess that she stayed with you long enough because she was honest, but now it seems that she is honest because she really doesn’t love you, Ah Cheng.”
He always likes to watch the fun and talk about it. He took the opportunity to satirize me, but I ignored him. The
last time I met her was at an investment fair for a variety show. I was the biggest investor, and she and the creative team came over to propose a toast. Later, in a quiet room on the third floor, I pretended to ask her casually, “Did you change your cell phone number?”? Azaki, they want to contact you, but they can’t find anyone. After a pause, he added, “I heard you sold all those houses. Where do you live now?” With a hum,
she explained softly, “I’m just afraid that if you bring up old things and old people after your husband’s marriage, it will cause you trouble, so I’ve dealt with them all together.” She
went around and around without answering me where she lived.
A little dispirited, I need to focus on a lot of things, I have no time to think about a woman I left behind. As time went by, until today, I knew she was going to get married.
Qin Shi didn’t tell me where she lived, but there was nothing I couldn’t find.
I lit a cigarette downstairs, and the smoke curled up. The faint smell of smoke filled the narrow space. I didn’t smoke very much. I hated everything that was addictive and out of control. More often than not, I just lit the cigarette and watched and smelled the smoke. This environment could calm me down and make me think about a lot of things. When
the cigarette burned to the end, I saw Qin Shi, followed by a tall figure, two people dressed very casual, big bags and small bags in their hands, should have just come back from the supermarket, to be honest, I have never seen Qin Shi like this.
She wore a loose T-shirt, jeans, flat white shoes, and a black mask to cover most of her face, but her eyes showed a quiet smile and a strange look when she listened to the man next to her.
This is her I haven’t seen. When she was
in front of me, she was never like this. She was always in full makeup. Even when she wore a bathrobe, her posture was elegant. Say a word in front of me to consider for a long time, lest which one makes me unhappy, Zhan Qi said she was false, in my side every moment, her state can be directly carried to the red carpet.
Now this scene is not suitable for catching up. I didn’t let her see me and drove away. When I
went back, I sat in the empty room drinking, turned on the TV which had not been turned on for several years, and turned to the variety show they had made love with. When I saw the sponsorship logo at the beginning of the film, I remembered that this variety show was invested by me. The man
with Qin Shi is a famous actor. They have a huge group of CP fans. I don’t need to look for them frame by frame. Someone cut their separate CUT.
I sat alone in the dark audio-visual room and went to see her love story with him. There are a lot of
sweet cut, do not rule out the deliberate editing of the program group, but there is a scene that makes me feel like a lump in my throat.
Her group lost the game. The punishment of the game was to jump from a 5-meter-high springboard into a swimming pool. Qin Shi was afraid of heights and water, and remained motionless on the springboard for a long time. The
game guests were all heckling, but the man got up and went to the swimming pool, stood under her, looked up at her and said, “Qin Shi, don’t be afraid. I’ll catch you here.” With the impact of
5 meters high, the game guests were all joking with him, but only Qin Shi, looking down from the 5-meter-high springboard, looked at him very seriously. CP fans of the
two probably like this scene very much. The frozen picture of the clip is constantly overflowing pink hearts, pink filters, and a sweet love song with unknown names when they look at each other.
I think of an inopportune time many years ago, when she was filming a costume drama in Fujian, when I went to visit the class on a whim, there was a scene in which she flew from the cliff to the riverbank below with a wire.
At that time, the debugging wire was out of order. She suddenly landed at the bottom of the cliff in midair, rolled down again, and finally stopped at the bottom of the cliff about 5 or 6 meters up, clinging to a protruding stone edge, and tears flowed all the time. At the bottom of the
cliff was a bottomless lake, and it was not easy to carry out the rescue, so she had to jump from the top to the boat herself. At that time, the crew tried their best, but she did not dare to jump. Finally, I followed the rescue boat to the bottom of her position, looked up at her, and held out my hand to her and said, “I will catch you.”
She looked at me with tears in her eyes. I don’t know why she trusted me so much after being persuaded by the crew for more than hour. She closed her eyes almost instantly and jumped at me. The
huge momentum rushed over, and I held her in my arms and stumbled back and fell into the cabin. But I held her firmly in my arms, holding her shivering and coaxing her: “Don’t be afraid, look, I caught you, didn’t I?”
Her eyelashes trembled twice and she looked at me with wide eyes. In her dark eyes, my smiling face was clearly reflected.
I’m not a very patient person, but it’s strange that I’m willing to coax her occasionally. When I was with
Qin Shi, besides being afraid of trouble, in the final analysis, I was also a very qualified lover.
I don’t know where Qin Shi wanted to marry that man, but according to my understanding of Qin Shi, the swimming pool should be a great opportunity for their emotional turning point. After
turning off the TV, a nameless fire rose from nowhere. I called the director of the variety show and vented my anger. The chief producer kept apologizing submissively on the other side of the phone.
But the depression in my heart is still hard to get rid of, and I haven’t slept all night.
Not having a good rest leads to a bad mood the next day. When I
drove to pick up Dong Yun, she still looked at me and said with a smile, “No, senior, you don’t have to be so angry. You think you haven’t had any setbacks in your life. You just think I’m doing this to make you more human. Just smile and it’s over.”
She thinks I’m browning because we’re getting a divorce today.
No matter how I really feel or think, I am always a gentleman and considerate in front of a lady. I rub my forehead and apologize to her: “I’m sorry.”
She shrugged her shoulders and looked at me worriedly. “Are you all right?” She asked.
This kind of nameless impatience and depression cannot be explained to outsiders. I politely replied, “It’s all right.”
She didn’t ask any more questions. Dong Yun and
I got married three years ago-about three years ago. I don’t remember it very clearly. She is a very perfect person, a very qualified wife, a very good family background, I am also smart, generous and capable.
The first time I met her was when I was invited to give a speech at the university where I graduated. She was still a graduate student at that time. My speech was very successful. People who have a successful career have this privilege. No matter what they say, a group of students in the audience regard my words as wise words. She was the
only one who stood up with her hands raised, tilted her head, flapped her big eyes, and said with a smile, “Senior, I don’t agree with your ideas.”
Senior, that’s interesting. It was the first time someone called me senior after graduation.
I also remember her, a girl with a very bright smile.
Our two families are family friends. Later, after she returned to China, we began to have more opportunities to get in touch with each other. I found that she was a very interesting person. She was warm and cheerful. When she smiled, it was easy to brighten people’s mood. When she was having a business dinner
with her father, he would sometimes laugh and say, “My daughter, I don’t know what kind of person she will marry. Only the father knows. I don’t trust what kind of person I will marry.” He changed the subject and said, “Mr. Soong can be reassuring.”
I looked at Dong Yun standing in the distance. She was probably bored. She was bowing her head to molest the child at the next table. Holding the candy from the hotel in her hand, she shook it in front of the child’s eyes, leading the child to look at it with her fingers in her mouth.
I couldn’t help laughing.
I really liked Dong Yun, but at that time I heard that she had someone she liked, and she was trapped by love, so I faded down at that time.
Later, I met Qin Shi.
Qin Shi has been with me for seven years, seven years and three months. Sometimes I wonder how a woman can stay with me for so long.
But for so many years, such an exception should be only her, except her, probably no woman can be around me for more than six months.
In the end, she was actually the only one. There was a period of time when it was the most outrageous. It was said that I had taken my heart. One of my friends, Shen Mu, made a special bet on whether Qin Shi could subdue me. Finally, she became a legitimate Mrs. Song. At that time,
I laughed and scolded him, but I didn’t take it seriously. Then one day, he called me in surprise as if he was telling me a joke. He said, “Damn it, Ah Cheng, what’s your little girlfriend’s name?”? Yes, Qin Shi, she actually came over to place a bet. Ha ha ha ha. That’s very interesting. Guess what she’s betting on?
It should not be. Will
not fly to the top of the tree and become a legitimate Mrs. Song.
Shen Mu, who was watching the scene of bustle, didn’t have the nerve to ask me, “Shit, how do you know?”
Because I know enough about Qin Shi, before we separated, I have been so convinced.
She is the most sensible and agreeable one of all my women. I don’t know how anyone can be so agreeable to me. Except for the initial running-in and adaptation, every time I raise my eyelids, I feel that she knows what I want.
She is not blindly obedient and obedient. Occasionally, some women are coquettish and coquettish, but they are all within the scope of my tolerance. When they are good, they make people feel distressed. When they are coquettish, they make people softhearted. When they pretend to be angry, they are just right. I am also willing to coax her.
I love her as my girlfriend. Sometimes I like to add a small word, because she occasionally comes out with inappropriate childishness and foolishness. For example, sometimes she dares to ask me, “Will you go bankrupt?” What is
this? To my level, I have earned more than money. In the words of the mayor of the city, once I fall, the GDP of the whole city will go back at least ten years.
When I asked her why she asked such a question, she would act like a spoiled child to me: “Because I have thought that unless you go bankrupt, I will never get you in my life.” When she said this, the corners of her eyes were up, with a leisurely smile, and she could not see whether she was sincere or not.
But I didn’t ask. Between
men and women, there is no long-term plan, it is impossible to really delve into a problem.
Year after year, year after year, when I decided to marry Dong Yun, I separated from Qin Shi.
Once married, I will give my legitimate object a basic right-respect.
Deciding to get married was a very hasty decision. It was on a rainy night that I found Dong Yun, who had lost her way on Guangzong Road. With tears streaming down her face, she said to me, “Will you marry me?” Whenever
a woman asks you this sentence with tears streaming down her face, there are only two possibilities. One is that she loves this person miserably, and the other is that the person she loves miserably breaks her heart, so she breaks the pot and prepares to find someone to make do with.
Dong Yun is undoubtedly the latter.
I didn’t expect that one day, I would be associated with the word “make do”. Dong Yun was the only person who made me move. At that time, I was conceited and thought that there was nothing I couldn’t get in the world. In addition, there was no more suitable person to marry me than Dong Yun. We were very compatible in all aspects, such as family status, family values, and so on.
I said yes. It is my respect for my future wife to solve the problem of female companions
before marriage. I hesitated for a long time before I separated
from Qin Shi, which was one of the few things I was uncertain about. My first acquisition as a teenager made me famous, and I rarely made wrong decisions, but I wasn’t sure at that time.
Zhan Qi could not bear to see me like that, so he first went to knock Qin Shi. Later he came back and said to me, “Ah Cheng, Qin Shi is different. If you say you are separated from her, she won’t cry and make you unhappy.”
It was not a relief, it was depressing, but I had to admit that he was right. On the day of
separation, the weather was very good. I drove so slowly for the first time. Along the way, I thought about countless words, how to say, what would not be so cruel. I have not been so considerate
, before this kind of thing, I do not have to come forward, someone will be specially for me to solve, but I do not want others to see the embarrassment of Qin.
After all, after more than seven years together, I want to give her the last decency.
As a result, I didn’t say the words I prepared on the way, and I just told her while eating.
“I’ve already found someone to transfer the ownership of the villa in the western suburbs of the city to you.”
“I have ordered the sports car you loved most last time from someone abroad, and it will be delivered to you in a few days.”
“Everything else is in your account. You can look at your account.”
Finally I asked her, “Do you have any other needs?”? Whatever it is, I will satisfy you.
Ever since I started talking, she has been peeling oranges with her head down. I don’t know why she is so happy to peel oranges for me with her hands. In my impression, girls usually value their nails very much and do all kinds of manicures, but she doesn’t. Her nails are clean and have a healthy crescent moon, white and pink. The first night
we were together, she was peeling oranges for me. In the sealed room, she sat awkwardly at the dining table, a little uneasy. She was so cute that I couldn’t help but want to tease her, so I looked at her without saying a word. She was very nervous, as if to ease her tension. She foolishly took out an orange from the fruit bowl on the table and said with a forced smile, “Mr. Song, I’ll peel an orange for you.” There was a fruit knife
next to her, but she was so silly that she had to peel it with her hands, both of which were yellow juice. I couldn’t help laughing in a low voice, and then leaned over to kiss her. She subconsciously
wanted to push me with her hands, but realized that her hands were stained with orange juice, so she put her wrist on my shoulder helplessly. Struggling feebly between kisses, he murmured, “Wait, my hands are dirty, Mr. Song.”
I laughed. “Then be careful not to get it on me.”
It was her first time, because she was too nervous, she had been holding half of the orange in the palm of her hand, and finally the room was full of orange fragrance, the whole bed sheet was full of orange juice, of course, I was inevitably stained, and more orange fragrance came from her fingertips and neck, she shrank under my body, smooth and round shoulders naked outside. There were still tears in my eyes, which seemed like quicksilver. I was both shy and frightened. I asked, “What should I do, Mr. Soong? It’s all on you.”
She’s trying to kill me.
Food and sex are also, perhaps from then on, I fell in love with the fragrance of oranges.
I don’t like to eat hand-peeled oranges because they feel dirty, but I like to see her lower her head and peel them for me bit by bit. After asking her to peel it for me twice, she probably thought I liked it very much, so every time I went, she would peel it for me.
Later, I formed a habit.
Now on the day of separation, after I asked her what else she wanted, she handed me the whole orange and said to me, “Eat this orange.” After Dong Yun and
I came out of the Civil Affairs Bureau, she patted me on the shoulder and said to me, “Senior, I’m sorry. Let me invite you to dinner.”
I don’t know whether to laugh or cry. In fact, there is no one who is sorry between us.
Three years of marriage is not a good experience for both of us. I always thought I liked Dong Yun. But on the first night of the wedding, when Dong Yun closed her eyes and looked up, I found that I couldn’t kiss her.
I never embarrassed myself, so I quickly let go of Dong Yun, rubbed my eyebrows, and apologized to her. She heaved a sigh of relief, opened her eyes, looked at me, and said, “I’m sorry, too.” The
awkward atmosphere was swept away, and both of us couldn’t help laughing.
Some people may be suitable to be friends, not more intimate.
Later, I asked myself why I couldn’t go on kissing, and in a moment I didn’t want to admit, I thought it was probably because I thought of Qin Shi. The first time
I kissed Qin was the day after we first met. She closed her eyes timidly, clutched the buttons of my shirt tightly, and tightened all over. I pressed my lips against hers and whispered, “Relax.” She tried to relax, but it seemed to be tighter, and her face was so death-defying.
I do not know why, after the separation, I will think of her so frequently. When I was having dinner
with Dong Yun and talking about her love life, she didn’t know what to think of. Suddenly she said to me, “Do you still remember the thing that you and Qin Shi were on the news?”
“When we met a few days later, she solemnly explained to me that she had nothing to do with you and that she had broken up with you a year before we got married. She told me not to misunderstand you.”
“Senior, I’ve always felt sorry for you about getting married, but Qin Shi I feel like a very good person, if..” She hesitated to speak, and finally took a sip of wine to cover up the past. “Ha ha ha, my own feelings are in a mess. How can I be qualified to advise you?”
I remember this thing.
It was the investment fair of the variety show. After I asked Qin Shixin’s address and she didn’t answer, I bent over to kiss her. At that time, Dong Yun and I had decided to divorce, but after all, we had not divorced yet. When we were about to kiss, I used my greatest strength to restrain myself from turning my head, because she held my front hand and trembled with fear.
I can’t be so shameless. At least until after the divorce-that’s what I thought at the time.
Later, I instructed the media to leak photos of me and her in the room, because as I was going upstairs, I heard one of the investors behind that variety show say to the people around him, “Hey, that Qin Shi, I didn’t know that before, but when I looked closely, I thought, wow, he looks really cool.”
I glanced at him coldly, and then I instructed the media to release the picture. She raised her head and closed her eyes, and I buried my head between her shoulders and neck, with my hair hanging down, covering my features well, but enough for me to open a protective net and quietly take her under my wings, quietly warning those malicious prying eyes.
I just don’t know how she met Dong Yun and why she said such a thing to her.
But it was too late. I was sure she wouldn’t leave. I didn’t think she would decide to marry someone else so soon. After separating
from Dong Yun, I went back to my residence, lit a cigarette, stood on the platform overlooking the downtown scenery, and told myself silently in my heart.
I was born with a cold personality, and I really seldom care about anything. If there is no one around me after my divorce with Dong Yun, I will go to find her, but I am sure I will not marry her.
If I can’t marry her, I won’t bother her when she’s going to have a perfect marriage.
Because I can’t take the responsibility.
After all, it’s been seven years, and I’m still a little nostalgic.
I was going to give her a wedding gift. The list of gifts was sent one by one. I was not satisfied with it for a long time. When Zhanqi came over, he laughed at me: “What are you doing, Ah Cheng? Aren’t you just a woman? Are you searching everywhere in a big way just to give me a wedding gift?” After a pause, he deliberately retorted, “Did they send you a wedding invitation?”? I didn’t get it anyway. I
didn’t confess what I was thinking. Instead, I found a reason: “After all, it’s been seven years. It’s a good reunion and a good separation.”
Finally, I decided to give her a crystal ball because someone set off fireworks at the Huangpu River at night, and I remembered one thing in the sky full of fireworks. One year, I took her to the top
floor of the World Trade Center to watch the fireworks. She sighed with emotion: “Glass is fragile and colorful clouds are scattered. All the beautiful things in the world are fleeting.”
At that time, the disappointment and regret in her eyes were so obvious that it reminded me of a lifetime ago.
I suddenly want to send her a firework that will never die.
The crystal ball is made by myself. I studied chemistry in college. The color of fireworks is too complicated, especially in the crystal ball, the color is not easy to show. I tried about a hundred kinds of materials, only to pick out one, and then a little bit of color. The Wall Street M & a war was easier than this. Before her wedding
, I asked someone to take the crystal ball to her agent, who passed it on to Qin Shi. In addition, I personally wrote a congratulatory message for her wedding:
“May you be as bright and happy as these fireworks for a long time.”
She accepted it and asked someone to convey a thank you to me.
Another sleepless night. I was in the United States on the day of
their wedding. I was busy from morning till night. I can’t say whether it was intentional or not, but Zhanqi sent me a video of her wedding. Many years ago, Zhanqi was cheated by a woman for money, sex and heart, and was cuckolded. At that time, I laughed at him inhumanely. After many years, he finally succeeded in revenge. In fact, before that, I had never thought about what it would be
like to wear a wedding dress in Qin Shi, but the video was very intuitive and unexpected. She was beautiful, and she was
beautiful when she cried, wearing a snow-white wedding dress and a ring given to her by another man.
She has shot many wedding scenes, more than once through the wedding dress, only this is the most real
. When I
crossed out the video, I raised my hand to touch my heart, as if silently telling
myself: This is just a scene, a realistic scene. When they finish exchanging rings,
someone will shout “card” to this marriage.
I tried to ignore the dull pain in my heart.
As I said, I hate everything that can be addictive and out of control. Qin Shi is like my
addiction to smoking. I believe I can control this out of control.
I made it.
At this point, she completely disappeared from my life.
However, there is a follow-up, the dull pain does not disappear, but after you ignore it for a long time
, it suddenly appears again. It was three years later that
I first realized that she was really a wife. She
happened to be bored and in a bit of a mood, so she went shopping with a female companion, shopping for bags
, shoes, and cosmetics. When she reached the children’s clothing section, she looked at the children’s clothes
in a pretentious way, and then covered her lips with a smile: “So cute.”
When I was really stupid, my face sank, I turned around and walked away, and then I saw Qin Shi.
She was holding hands with her husband, who was holding a pink girl in his arms, with eyes like hers, round and dark, looking at me without blinking, while she and her husband were bending down together, choosing skirts for their daughter. I
stood where I was, and my brain buzzed as if I had been struck by lightning.
It just so happened that my female companion behind me couldn’t read the color, so she stuck it on like a piece of cowhide candy. She glanced suspiciously at Qin Shi, and then asked me, “Mr. Song, what’s wrong?”
Qin Shi was probably startled by the noise and looked at me. I felt like I had no place to hide, but fortunately I looked indifferent. Surprised for a moment, she looked away from me to the woman next to me, and then paused. “I got divorced three years ago,”
I explained quickly.
This is very strange and abrupt, I have never done such a stupid thing, but Qin Leng Leng, smiled at me, we simply exchanged greetings, separated. When I
went back, I was very angry. The female companion grabbed my sleeve in fear and was slapped on the ground by me. I knew in my heart that I was venting my anger, but I lost control.
Eight years ago, when Qin Shi and I were separated, I didn’t feel anything like heartache. I thought it was just a habit. Accustomed to a person to accompany her, when she left home, will not adapt.
Three years ago, when Qin Shi got married, there was no hiding place in his heart. I think the pain everywhere is simply out of control, but I am good at controlling out of control.
Three years later, when I saw the Qin family standing happily in front of me, the anger and jealousy that had been suppressed for so many years came up from the bottom of my heart, and I had to admit it.
I like Qin Shi. It has nothing to do with habits and time. I like it so much that I can’t handle it. If I can’t control it, I have to satisfy my desire.
I called Shen Mu, who had some shady channels in private to deal with some gray things. For so many years, I have rarely been involved in illegal things, standing at a certain height, a lot of things are insignificant.
But this time, I want to do it. When I
got through, I just said, “Here’s a deal. You take care of one thing for me and clean up the tail.”
There was a long silence, and then I burst out laughing. “Can’t you help it?” He asked me.
The next day, I don’t know where Zhanqi learned about this. He hurried over and said, “Jincheng, are you crazy?”
I kept silent and slowly took a sip of water before replying, “Zhan Qi, you have the least say in this matter. I remember that Jiang Man’s concubine had his legs broken by you in those days. It was the time of the crackdown. If I had been late, I would have had to help you collect the body of that man. What qualifications do you have to say that now?”.
I would never poke him with such hurtful words. Brothers always know the limits and the bottom line. But this time, I quickly began to attack him. I didn’t want to hear him expose the truth. After
so many years, that incident was still very destructive to Zhanqi. He was red-eyed and didn’t say much. He just patted me heavily on the shoulder at last. Before he left, he said
, “Jincheng, Qin Shi can break up with you as soon as he breaks up. Such a person doesn’t love you, if you don’t want to regret it.” Then leave her husband alone.
I didn’t say anything.
Zhanqi said she didn’t love me, and I sniffed. It’s not that
she doesn’t love me, she’s just too transparent. In
her third year with me, I was half drunk one night and woke up in the middle of the night to find someone touching my face. Her hand is very light, along my eyebrows across the bridge of the nose, inch by inch of the past, and finally stopped on my lips, warm breath slowly approaching, she is very light, very light head nestled in my chest, the whole person curled up.
I heard her whispering, and she called my name again and again.
Song Jincheng, Song Jincheng, Song Jincheng..
These unspeakable love stops at the lips and teeth, and hides in the years she has been with me.
I don’t like the women around me to move their minds, because once they move their minds, the more they want, the more they want, the more they ask for, and they will begin to expect something, which is a burden for me. I got up and left before she woke up
that morning. I didn’t get in touch with her
for more than three months. In the fourth month, she called my assistant. She didn’t say anything but, “The farm has a good harvest of oranges. The people in Chuang Tzu have sent all the oranges to me. I’ll ask someone to send them to my husband.”
There was a woman who threatened me with suicide after the separation. She cried and asked me hysterically, “Do you have a heart?”
I just feel annoyed. Some women think too much. If they want to stay with me, they must be conscious and get both money and goods. We are all adults, say clearly, you love me, in addition to money, do not want to get anything else from me.
But Qin Shi was different. It was like being obsessed. That night I told myself to give her another chance. I called her back and told her I was going to dinner tonight. The moment I
hung up the phone, I could hear her crying.
After that, she did her duty, and we were all at peace.
Not long after, one of her leading roles won a Golden Broom Award. When she came back with the award, she began to hug me and cry. At that time, I casually comforted her for a while. When she was about to get impatient, she came to her senses and looked at me with a smile, saying, “Oh, forget it. Anyway, my best acting skills are not used on the screen.”
She didn’t use it on the screen. She just used her best acting skills on me and tried her best to play a person who didn’t love me, thinking it was her own secret.
I turned a blind eye to her mistake-filled acting skills and became a qualified audience who pretended to be deaf and dumb, never trying to pierce her little thoughts.
But after so many years, I suddenly don’t want to be a qualified audience who pretends to be deaf and dumb any more. I want to continue to “invite” the protagonist at the end of the curtain call back to my side. This time she doesn’t have to do her best to play a person who doesn’t love me. I want to give her the greatest love.
Perhaps a person really only after the real experience of loss will know what he wants most. After I
lost her, I finally understood. What
I want is very simple. Just the two of us, just
like before.
I want her, forever and ever, just for me.
Shen Mu arranged it perfectly. Her husband was filming a costume drama somewhere in the mountains recently. The equipment malfunctioned, the wire malfunctioned, and he fell off the mountain. There were so many ways to make it look like he died in an “accident.”. Before I
did it, I didn’t know why, but I took a chance to see her.
As if by an ordinary “coincidence,” I took my female companion and pretended to run into her by chance. At that time, she was at the amusement park with her daughter, and when we went to say hello, she was half crouching
in front of her daughter, holding an ice cream in her hand, and her tone was very stern: “No, we said we would only eat one bite.”
The little girl wore a pink bunny ear headband on her head and two ponytails. She was soft and cute. She shook her arm and twisted it on her body like a cowhide candy: “No, no, give me another lick, OK?”? I wasn’t ready just now. She spits out the tip of her little pink tongue and shows it to her mother. “Mu Mu just licked the tip of her tongue a little bit. Isn’t this a good one?”
I looked at Qin Shi, and in the face of the little girl’s coquetry, she immediately stuffed the rest of the ice cream into her mouth, and opened her mouth to show the little girl: “No, mom has finished eating.” Shocked and disappointed, the
little girl burst into tears.
I just feel heartache, pain with anger and jealousy, I can not contain the thought, if. If this is my daughter with Qin Shi, she asked me for ice cream like this, I would probably hold the most delicious ice cream in the world in front of her without principle.
If. Unfortunately, there are no ifs. When Qin Shi got up and turned around to see me, he was stunned for a moment, and then greeted me with a natural, generous and decent greeting: “Mr. Song.”
Her eyes were calm as if I were a common friend who had not met for many years and was not familiar with each other.
I struggled to control my emotions. It happened that the float was paraded through the streets of the amusement park. Her daughter quickly came out of the sadness of the ice cream, took her by the hand and shouted excitedly, “Mom, float!”
The crowd surged, and her small body was submerged in the crevices of the crowd. I bent down to pick her up and let her sit on my shoulder, and she didn’t struggle. Her body was small and fragrant, and her little hands were soft on my ears, making a sound of exclamation: “Wow, look, Mom.”
Qin Shi looked at me in surprise, with a slightly frightened expression, and said uneasily: “Mr. Song..”
I don’t really like kids. I just think they’re noisy. I was wondering why I was doing this. Before I could get into it, the little girl suddenly held out her hand to her mother on my shoulder and shouted, “Mom, can we make a video call to Dad? I miss Dad.”
Qin Shi glanced at me.
Finally, she couldn’t help making a scene. She made a video call to her husband. The little girl was very excited. She sat on my shoulder and held up her cell phone to show her father the float. Finally, she said coquettishly, “Dad, I miss you so much.” When
I slanted my head to see Qin, she stood beside me, smiling at her husband and her children, with gentle eyebrows and eyes. When her eyelashes drooped, it was like when she peeled oranges for me. When I looked down, I saw her long nails.
She loved me. I’m sure.
But when Qin Shi was around me, she was always cautious and worried about gains and losses, but now she is very relaxed and relaxed.
I have to admit that she was very happy after she left me. I looked at the smile on her face and compromised with myself, and I thought forget it, forget it.
Come on, let her be happy all the time.
The crowd was noisy and joyful, and I gazed at her quietly
for a long time in the joy of the surging crowd and made a final farewell.
I don’t think I’ll ever eat oranges again in my life.
