My ex-boyfriend took a picture of my roommate when he was in love with me online. Half a year later, when he was having dinner with me, he said he was not himself and came for someone else.
Had it not been for online love, I would not have had a chance to know that I would have no bottom line in order to get a partner.
I stood at the appointed place, watching the people coming and going, feeling up and down.
From praying that he’s not a photo cheat, to hoping that he’s taller than 1.8 meters, to not wearing Doudou shoes and tight pants. Until, I looked at the spirit of the young man who suddenly ran out to shoot the live broadcast, poured Sprite on his head, then came to a social shake, and finally flew home on the flower hand.
I want him to be a physically and mentally stable, normal male.
“Tang yuanyuan?”
I took two breaths and did a good job of psychological construction.
But when I turned around and saw a potbellied black uncle in the Mediterranean, my mind suddenly recalled the years when I called his little baby softly in those sleepless days and nights.
I looked around and couldn’t find a handy weapon.
I can only thank the cleaner’s aunt for her hard work. Otherwise, if I pick up a plastic bag, I will strangle the turtle grandson who cheated the net.
I took two deep breaths and walked up to the uncle. “Elder brother, are you Liang Yan?”? Baby? Is that you?
Unexpectedly, the uncle gave me a glance and said, “What’s wrong with you?”
Oh, you’re still horizontal. You look like this. I didn’t call the police. It’s good for you to cheat. Are you still with me?
Just as I was rolling up my arms and sleeves to tell him about the Eight Honors and Eight Disgraces, a man beside me suddenly waved his hand in front of me, “Don’t you even know who the object of your online love is?”
I am stupefied, looking at the big handsome boy who suddenly appeared in front of me, and fell into a short period of beauty vertigo. In fact, I have seen
such a handsome man for a long time. Although I am myopic and the degree of contact lenses I wear today is not enough, I can feel his pressing handsome from his outline 400 meters away.
But, “?”? Who are you? He
didn’t know why he suddenly had a brief moment of chagrin on his face. He turned slightly sideways and scratched his head. “Well, are you here for an online dating meeting?”
“Ah.” His behavior made me a little suspicious at one time. Is he a liar? It shouldn’t
be cheating. With his face, it’s hard to say who is cheating.
Cheat my money?
I looked him up and down. If you let me hold hands, I can be cheated by you.
Visual 1.83 meters, arm lines, white T-shirt faintly outlined the faint outline
of the abdominal muscles, I secretly determined, 200 bar, can not be more.
“I’m here for Liang Yen. He can’t come today because he has something to do.” After
hearing that he was not himself, the deer in my heart died at once. When
my eyes met, all I heard was the sound of my heart breaking.
Two,
I should have shed tears on the spot and waved away.
“Want to get something to eat and sit down for a while?”
“Good.”
But he is so handsome that I want to sit for a while. I
found a coffee shop and sat opposite each other.
But I am still a dreamy girl, even the beauty of the present, can not shake my pure
love.
What about Liang Yan? He didn’t tell me anything. We were just in touch. In a daze,
he took out his cell phone and compared it. “Ah, well, I have his cell phone.”
I felt very angry at once. Liang Yan probably didn’t take me seriously at all. He ran away and couldn’t meet me. He gave his cell phone to someone else. It was estimated that all the details of our love were printed and passed on to everyone in the city.
“All right, then you can tell him that you don’t have to see him anymore. Go back and delete me.”
The angrier I got, the hungrier I got. Angrily, I ordered two pastas, two cakes, a cappuccino, and a coke.
The handsome guy was a little scared for a moment, and he was in a hurry to speak incoherently. “You, don’t do this. He’s really delayed. He’ll explain to you when he gets back.”
I was so angry that I stuffed the cake into my mouth and said vaguely, “No, just think of it as a dream. When I wake up, I’m not moved at all.”. Eat and go home when you are full.
The handsome boy was hesitating and cramped. He wanted to say something, but he didn’t say it for a long time. His face was red. I
‘ve always been shy when I see a handsome guy. This is the first time I’ve seen a handsome guy lose his temper in front of me. He’s still so handsome. I immediately became interested and thought he was very interesting. The Lord is
not in a hurry, but you are in such a hurry? Is he some cousin of yours? Third uncle? Second uncle? Don’t tell me, you both have the same accent. Are you really
related?
I have been in love with Liang Yan online for half a year. I have exchanged photos and voice messages, but I haven’t had a video.
Liang spoke less and spoke slowly. Basically, he listened to me talking all the time
, but he just laughed. As soon as
he heard me mention the accent, he blushed even more, hung his head down, and did not speak for a long time.
“Liang Yen-hsin is really great, too. He found a handsome guy like you to meet me, and he’s really not
afraid that I’ll change my mind when I see things, forget righteousness when I see sex, and be blinded by lust.” As soon as
he heard me say he was handsome, I saw a flash of disappointment
on his face?
This is probably the real handsome guy, who is allergic to being praised as handsome.
“Don’t worry, I’m not interested in you. It’s just a heartless exclamation
of beauty.”
I couldn’t quite understand his expression, probably because I was concentrating on scolding Liang Yan in my heart.
As soon as he looked up, he didn’t order anything. “Aren’t you going to eat something?”
He tugged at his cuff. “No, I’m not hungry.” Only
then did I pay attention to the clothes of this handsome man. All over his body, only his shoes were
branded, and his trousers were washed a little old.
This is probably the reason why he is very handsome, but he looks very down to earth. “Waiter, add another order of pasta.”
The handsome boy opened his mouth wide in front of me? Do you want to eat so much?
I gave him a sideways glance and said, “I’ll thank you for Liang Yen for making this trip today.” With a quick wave of his hand,
he said, “No, no.”
I did not speak, but stared at him with my head tilted, pretending to be angry and impatient. Sure enough, he took
the soft hand and put it down, with a flat mouth and a look of being at your disposal. I was surprised by
this. I was just acting because I was in a bad
mood. I didn’t expect him to be so obedient. I was so obedient that I even suspected that he had borrowed the face temporarily today
.
The rest of the time I am silent and serious dry rice, dry rice people dry rice soul, do not love dry rice
is not a person. After
eating, I looked up and saw his worried face. I didn’t know what he was worried
about. I didn’t eat your rice either.
Now that I’m full, I’ll check out. I won’t see you in Jianghu.
When I said goodbye to him solemnly and smartly, and got up to check
out valiantly in an attempt to leave a handsome figure, my mobile phone was out of power and turned off, so I
got up and sat down again. In the eyes of
the handsome guy, I probably just ate up and lifted my pants and sat down again.
That, big brother, is like this. My mobile phone is turned off. Can you pay the bill in advance? You leave your Alipay account to me, and I’ll go home and charge it and call you.
The handsome man smiled kindly and said, “I’ll pay. There’s no reason to let a girl pay the bill.”
I had nothing to say, so I could only follow him dejectedly to check out, thinking that I would keep the bill for a while and go back to call Liang Yan.
Then I saw the handsome man skillfully unlock the mobile phone, open the Alipay scanning code and enter the password.
At that moment, in a flash of lightning, it was like an ape suddenly learning to walk upright, lightning flashed and thunder roared, and a flash of wisdom thunder flashed through his mind.
Liang Yan, you’re really good at fooling me with fake photos? Still pretending to be friends? Which friend will tell you the password of Alipay! You saved his mother from the river?
It’s outrageous!
Three,
then there was a strange scene.
A man and a woman quarreled on the side of the road. The woman insisted on turning around without looking at the man’s face. The man insisted on turning around the woman in an attempt to communicate face to face.
It’s not that I don’t want to look at him, but if I look at his face, I really can’t guarantee that I can still be logical and firepower. My angry mood and lustful primitive desire are at war in my heart.
While angrily scolding him 360 degrees, he could not help but sigh in his heart,
really ***ing handsome, side face handsome, front face handsome, even the skull handsome.
Tell me, why did you lie to me with a fake photo? And pretend to be
a friend to meet me today? What, are you so afraid that I look bad? My
feelings are not feelings? Is it interesting to be here and see me in the dark?
Boy, he frowned, isn’t he still a little distressed?
“I didn’t mean that, I just, I just..”
He panicked and stood in the sun, looking at a loss.
I relented. “Come on, I’ll give you one more chance to explain it to me,
or we’ll be done from now on.”
Liang Yan stood there without saying a word, pinching the corner of his clothes and looking at
me with red eyes, like a homeless Samoyed.
Ok, the child must have some difficulties. He must not have lied to me on purpose. It was
probably just a slip of the hand that sent me someone else’s picture. It must be a mouthful today to say that you
are not yourself.
Mader, I hate my horny self.
I sighed. “That’s all for today. Go home. Think about it when you go back.”
All right, send me a message and explain. When he turned to go, he gently grabbed my sleeve and looked at me with wet
eyes.
The most annoying thing is that the man hesitates and grinds, and he can’t fart for a long time.
But, “What’s the matter?” I
couldn’t help being gentle with him, and I wanted to slap myself twice. Do you
know how to write the word backbone!
“Don’t go. I can explain.”
Sorry, I really don’t know how to write these two words. Who says that higher education conflicts with illiteracy
? Today, I am the fish that slipped through the net of the nine-year compulsory education, and I am blinded by lust
.
“Well, then you can explain.”
Summer tree-lined road, even the rich green can not hide the hot and dry.
He hung his head and walked half a shoulder away from me, saying in a low voice,
“I don’t want you to follow me because of my appearance.”
Boy, is this the trouble of handsome men?
But it convinced me.
“And I’m afraid I’m not good enough for you.” His words were very vague, but I understood it at once. His family situation
should not be very good, and the probability is quite bad. The self-esteem of a
teenager turns into a sense of shame and sews up the mouth that wants to open.
I suddenly began to worry, just that meal, will not eat
half of his living expenses this month, right? Does my husband still have food to eat?
“So you want to be my boyfriend?”
He opened his mouth again in surprise, as if he didn’t expect me to be so direct.
“Well, for the time being, forget it. I think I’m still..”
What husband? This bullshit man who doesn’t understand amorous feelings.
“All right, keep your mouth shut.”
He really shut his mouth.
What a beautiful face, what a silly person. Have
you ever been in love before?
“Yes.”
Also, if you look like this, even if you go to the Shaolin Temple to become a monk, you will be pestered by female pilgrims and forced to return to
the secular world. “Why did you break up?”
Liang Yen was silent for two seconds, then whispered, “She feels that she has no future with me.”
“Do you think I’m that kind of girl?”
“I don’t know.”
Boy, I’m straight. Boy, brother, do you have to be so honest?
But I like it.
Then I tell you, I’m not. I’m also a poor student, but I don’t have to rely on my boyfriend
to change my life and create my future. When I tell you this, I don’t have to tell you
anything. I just want to tell you what kind of person I am. I don’t like people to
misunderstand me.
“If I were ugly, would you still like to chat with me?”
I gave him a sideways glance. “First of all, half a year ago, I didn’t know you looked like this. I thought
you looked like that in the picture. I can’t say you’re ugly. It’s just that you’re not very handsome. I
think you have a good personality.”
But if you are ugly, I certainly don’t want to chat with you. Why do I have
to like to chat with ugly people? If I were ugly, would you like to chat with me?
He smiled shyly, showing a small tiger tooth. “That’s true. I don’t want
to either.”
“So, what do you think of me? Ugly?” Liang Yan really looked at me carefully. “You’re not ugly. You look better in person than in the photo.
Your photo is a little strange.”
Help! Please tell me a lie, will you?
“So, do you want to be my boyfriend?”
“Uh, ah, that, how to circle back … …”
I found that in just a few minutes, I was already so strong and invulnerable to all kinds of poisons. “All right,
shut up, I know.”
We found a place to borrow a power bank to sit and charge it. “Can I still call you
a quilt after that?”
That’s my pet name for him. I’ve been calling him that for months.
His face turned red again. “Yes, yes.”
“If you can, you can. If you can’t, you can’t. What do you mean you can?”
Liang Yan’s face turned even redder. He didn’t even dare to look at me. He stared at me and said, “Yes, yes
.”
I snickered and felt that it was really a very interesting thing to tease him.
The electricity was almost charged. I sent him away and asked him to go to the other side to buy ice cream. As expected
, he was obedient. He is more than 1.8
meters tall, with broad shoulders and narrow waist, and he walks like a tiger. I got up to return the power bank and went to the convenience store behind me to pack him a bag full of food
, including fast food, snacks and drinks.
In summer, the ice cream melted quickly. From a distance, I saw him almost trotting all the way back
, with his long legs moving very fast. I
shouldn’t have told him to buy ice cream. Just buy something else.
He handed me the ice cream, and when he saw the bag I handed him, he was confused and then
resisted.
“No, no, I don’t want it.”
I gave him a sideways look. “If you don’t want it, I’ll turn around and throw it into the trash can.” Then he
made a gesture and went to the trash can. Sure enough, he softened down and reached out to take it.
He spent a lot of money today. If I go back and give him money, he will not accept it. I don’t know if the rest of the money
is enough for him to live on. After thinking about it, it’s
best to buy him something to take back.
Silly boy, only one ice cream was bought for me to eat.
I took the ice cream, he took the food, and we walked side by side to the station. The
ice cream is over, and the bus is almost there.
I sat in the car and saw him still standing there looking at me and waving to me.
The car started and the message came from the mobile phone. “Would you like to come to the place where I work next week?”
He is a junior now, and working should also be a part-time job in his spare time.
Is it fun? I won’t go if it’s not fun.
“Fun! I’m sure I’ll show you how fun it is.”
My little dog started rolling his belly at me.
I didn’t expect that the place where he worked was an amusement park. On the day
we met, it was probably the most sultry day of the summer. It seemed that it was going to rain.
The weather was overcast and the air was as sticky as cotton candy.
I got up early to make up and wear high heels. I was already a little tired when I got there
by bus. My constitution was not very good, and I was easily tired. When
I felt tired, I wanted to get angry.
Arrived at the appointed place, I sent him a message, left and so on and so on also did not see him, the
heart is more depressed. As soon as
I sat down, a staff member dressed as a large doll approached me.
Usually when I see this kind of staff doll approaching, I will follow the interaction, if it is a
leaflet, I will also pick up, because I know this work is very hard.
It’s just that I was really not in high spirits that day, the weather was stuffy, the physical strength was poor, and the lining of the skirt was wet and stuck to my legs. The doll came over and interacted with me several times, but I ignored it and even frowned away.
It’s just that I feel more and more wrong. The doll is unusually close. The tourists around him don’t pay much attention to his interaction. Instead, they stick to me all the time. I served a snack and looked at it over and over again. I looked at the little bear who was comparing his heart to mine. I called out tentatively, “Liang Yan?” When
he heard me calling him, he took off his headgear. The moment I saw him, I couldn’t help turning around.
On such a hot day, in the high temperature of 30 degrees, he was stuffy in the bear, his hair was all wet and stuck to his scalp, and his face was covered with sweat. His face looked red and hot, his mouth was dry and peeling, and only his eyes were shining at me. As soon as
I looked at him, I felt a pain in my heart. I couldn’t imagine how much this silly child had suffered.
Noticing something strange about me, he put aside his headgear and reached out to pat me on the shoulder. “How do you pull, yuanyuan?”? Are you in a hurry to pull? Get angry?
As soon as I heard his voice, I couldn’t help crying with my head down. He turned around and took his hand. “Come on, let’s not do this. I’ll break the pot and sell the iron, and I’ll pick up the bottle to feed you. Let’s not do this.” When he
saw me, he held up his bear hand and smiled gently. “Look at you. It’s all right with me. Why are you crying?”.
He couldn’t get his hand out, and he felt that the doll’s hand was not clean. He didn’t want to wipe my tears with this, so he just shook the hand back and forth and looked down at me with concern.
I took him by the hand and stood up. I went behind his back and pulled down the zipper of the bear’s condom. “No, I won’t do this. I won’t do it for any money. Go. Go today and now. I’ll support you.”
“Well, well, listen to you. If I had known it would make you cry, I wouldn’t have asked you to pull it. I thought you girls would like this.”
He took off his clothes and sat on the bench with me. “I don’t sit here every day. It’s just an occasional guest appearance. It doesn’t matter. yuanyuan, don’t cry.”
After I calmed down a little, he slowly explained to me that he had originally been dragged by the amusement park to act as a real NPC to receive tourists, but because every time he went, a large group of girls surrounded him to take pictures and followed him WeChat, he felt really uncomfortable, so he changed to act as a doll, which was 300 yuan a day. Shall
I go back to be the NPC? Will you be angry, yuanyuan? Of course
I was angry. A group of women surrounded him. I felt angry when I thought about the scene. But when I looked at him again, he was in such a mess. He was a handsome man, and he was like a refugee who picked up waste. I was even more distressed.
“Liang Yen, can’t you not be at the playground?”
He scratched his head. “The leader who recruited me was very kind to me. He gave me the easiest shift and always bought me food. I couldn’t just leave.” That’s what
he said, and I can’t ask him to change places.
“Come on, I’ll show you around.”
Then he pulled me and walked around the playground with a bright smile on his face.
I was afraid of heights, and couldn’t play with many devices, so I picked and picked and sat on a merry-go-round with the children. He stood at the bottom, holding up his cell phone and taking pictures of me meticulously. From time to time, he moved his head out from behind the phone and called my name, “yuan yuan, smile, it’s very beautiful!” That afternoon,
he took the trouble to take pictures for me until I waved and said, “Forget it, you can have a rest.”.
“It doesn’t matter. I remember you said that no one usually takes full-body photos for you. Today I have a rare opportunity to take more pictures for you.”
I was stunned for a moment and recalled that it was an unintentional complaint I made about two months ago. I have few friends, and I’m embarrassed to open my mouth to trouble others, so I seldom have full-body photos.
yuanyuan, are you hungry? Let me take you to dinner. After
walking all afternoon, we were both hungry.
“No, I brought food.” Before I
came here, I thought I would eat here. I searched the price of food in the park in advance and found that it was very expensive. Before I came, I had two sandwiches in my pocket, and I wanted to make do with them, otherwise he would spend money again, and I would not be able to rob him. My bag is not big, and two sandwiches stuffed in my bag become a little ugly
in one day. When he
took it out, he looked at him awkwardly and said, “I stuffed it a little out
of shape, but it doesn’t affect the taste. Let’s just eat this. The food in the park is too expensive
to be economical.”
His eyes became a little lonely, and he took the sandwich and did not speak for a long time.
“That’s why I don’t want you to be with me. If you are with me, you will only be wronged.”
I thought it was a very common thing, and I didn’t think much about it, but he
thought a lot. The sandwich in my hand became a little hot for a while.
“Liang Yan, it’s not up to you to decide whether you feel wronged or not. It’s up to me to decide. I don’t think
this is a grievance. This is called managing the household with diligence and thrift.”
He smiled and took a bite of the sandwich in his hand. “But what if I never let
you live a good life?”
I don’t really know.
Young people always feel that nothing is better than love except birth, old age, illness and death.
But there is always a day when we are no longer young.
Six,
I met him under the comments of a movie blogger, because of the same movie
, you come and go a few words and then feel congenial. I
am a person with a strong desire to talk, and I want to find someone to share every day when I step on a few steps, while he happens to be a person who is used to listening and afraid of silence.
At that time, both of us had just ended our last relationship.
Two unlucky people who were dumped together.
My ex-boyfriend thought I was too noisy and clingy, his ex-girlfriend thought he was too silent, and maybe it was just because the family was not well off. When
I first met him, he was just a strange friend who shared what he had seen and heard, and even his friendship was not full.
At that time I joked, “If we were both still single in six months.”
He smiled over there and said, “What?”
“Then we two are really hot chickens.”
But I have never met a gentle boy like him, no matter how boring I say, he will give me a serious response, no matter how impatient I am, he will not have the slightest impatience. Talking
to him gives the illusion of being loved all the time.
He seldom takes the initiative to say anything to me, but as long as I send him a message, I can be sure that he will reply to me as soon as he sees it. Even if the message is sent out at three o’clock in the morning, there will be a response at the latest eight o’clock the next day. If you don’t reply immediately, you will tell me what you were doing just now. Every video, every book, every movie, every joke he shared,
as long as he promised, he would watch it carefully, never perfunctory, not once
. A lipstick of the
same color and a skirt that looks the same. Send it to him to help me choose, and he
will really choose it with his heart. I can’t resist the tenderness that is always placed unconditionally
and properly
because I am perfunctory and almost accustomed to it. It was also my suggestion to
exchange photos. I was ready to continue to like
him even if he was not good-looking. I just wanted to see him.
Because in my narrow perception, I think good-looking people will always be naturally arrogant
, and they will not be kind to this extent. The photos
he sent are not really handsome, but they are much
better than I expected.
So it was almost a matter of course that I fell in love with him.
I could fall in love with him at that time, and now I have no reason to give him up.
A good day? What kind of day is a good day? As long as you don’t mind, marry
me now, and I’ll give you a good life right away.
He froze for a moment, then hung his head and smiled shallowly.
Liang Yen, I don’t lack anything. Although my family is not a rich man, they don’t
just want to rely on boys to give me a good life. You just need to live your own life and
let me know that I’m not wrong about anyone, and that every day will be a good day.
He took a few bites of the sandwich in his hand and took my hand for the first time. “Let’s go and take you to see the fireworks.”
It seems to get dark very fast, or maybe not very fast, but I think the time I spend with him is very fast. The place where the
fireworks show started was a little far from where we were sitting. He pulled me back and asked with a smile, “We may have to hurry up. Are your shoes all right?”
I stuffed the last bite of my sandwich into my mouth. “No problem.”
He took the packing bag in my hand, crumpled it into a ball with his own, threw it into the trash can by the roadside, and pulled me to the fireworks show.
I will always remember that day.
In the evening, the heat of the day dissipates and the wind brings some coolness. The lights in the
playground came on one by one, and he took my hand through all the frolicking crowds, and I saw his hair up and his white skirt. His beautiful face was covered with a dreamlike shadow by the light, and he smiled back at me from time to time, so beautiful that I was even in a trance. When we
arrived, the fireworks show had already begun, and we both panted and leaned against the street lamp.
As the fireworks were set off, the crowd gradually boiled up and more and more tourists gathered. He surrounded me with his arms to avoid being washed down by the crowd. I could hardly hear anything except the sound of fireworks exploding. I looked up at him, and
the fireworks flickered around me. When
he looked down at me, I looked at him as if the world was quiet. At that moment
, I suddenly wanted to say, “I love you.” There
was so much noise around that he didn’t hear clearly. He lowered his head and put his ear to my mouth. What did you say
? I didn’t hear you.
“Look at the fireworks!”
“Does it look good?!”
“Nice!”
Then the two of us laughed together and watched the beautiful flowers on our heads explode and scatter in the
sky.
From then on, every windy night in midsummer will bring me back to that day, because the evening
breeze hides all the secrets of lovers.
Seven,
after that day, he was more active and comfortable in front of me. He
occasionally shared some of his daily experiences with me, and I gradually learned that his family
situation was a little worse than I thought. He grew up in
the countryside with nothing, and his father and mother were not in good health, but he still gave up
two college students, he and his sister. He didn’t tell me about his growing experience from childhood to adulthood, but I still think about how much the child
has suffered along the way to get to where he is today.
I should have thought that such a person who looks luxurious, like a pile of gold and jade,
how much wind and snow can wear down such a gentle temper.
Some people say that it’s not terrible to like a man, but when you start to pity him, you
can’t help it.
This sentence is quite right.
This love, which grew out of love, finally clenched my heart. I began to
ask for nothing from him. I felt lovely when I watched him breathe.
So when I actually saw him, in his uniform, standing in the middle
of a crowd of screaming girls. Not only did I not feel jealous, but I was even a little proud of the old mother to show
everyone the comfort of her baby son.
But for some women, it’s wrong for you to touch my son directly!
I stood at a distance, watching an endless stream of girls line up to take pictures with him, then
turned their heads and ran away laughing, feeling like a ruthless killer hiding in the dark.
He knew I was there, so every time someone got too close, he would quietly move away and
look at me with a guilty conscience.
And I would put my hands around my chest and give him a cold nod of encouragement.
But after all, this is his job, take the money to work, I can not be so
unreasonable, pick up the bowl to eat, put down the bowl to curse. So I didn’t go much, but occasionally
I came to see him when I had nothing to do. When
he was working in uniform, I never went up to declare my sovereignty, nor did I go around announcing that I was his girlfriend. I just stood far away with him and waited until the crowd dispersed late at night, when he got off work and changed his clothes, and brought him some food and water. All
that summer, we sat on the same bench, teasing him about how stiff he was when he took pictures during the day, and which of the girls looking for him was prettier than me.
Summer is over, early autumn is coming, and Valentine’s Day of that year is coming.
I bought him a pair of good sports shoes as a gift, because he has to walk a long way to work part-time, and he has to stand for a long time. I think he will be more comfortable with a better pair of shoes.
He was also very happy that day. When he saw me go, he waved and greeted me with a big smile. As usual, I sat in the same place and waited for him, hiding the gifts I had prepared for him behind the bushes, thinking of giving him a surprise.
Liang Yan finished work very early that day, he did not say, but I thought he actually wanted to accompany me to have a good Valentine’s Day. There are no rest days in the
amusement park. When everyone has a rest, they have to go to work, so we seldom date. I know his financial situation. He has to earn his own living expenses and occasionally subsidize his sister. He doesn’t have so much free time to accompany me. I understand very well.
But he always felt indebted, so every time we met, he would make up for me in the way he could think of. As long as he is beside me, my hands are useless except to embrace him.
His kindness is always so clumsy and direct. He was as happy as a child
that day. He ran to me excitedly and pulled me
up to have a good meal.
Remembering the gift hidden behind the bushes, I grabbed him and said, “Is there a surprise
today?”
He laughed and pinched my face. “Yes.”
Then he took out a small black box from his pocket and put it into my hand with a red face.
This gift surprised me. I knew that he had
sent half of his living expenses home to buy medicine for his father recently. I couldn’t imagine how many times he had
starved himself to buy this gift.
He opened the box, and inside was a silver necklace with crystals.
As far as my aesthetic is concerned, that necklace is really a bit ugly, and this brand
is also a brand with a very serious premium, which is really not worth it. I really don’t want
him to be hungry for a few meals just to buy me such a gift. The most wrong thing I did
that day was that I didn’t take it happily. Instead, I
blamed him for spending money on it and asked him if I could return it.
I just thought it was not worth it and blamed him for spending money recklessly and not consulting with me.
Forgetting that he was just trying to make me happy. I only care about my own mind, but ignore his mind.
If time could come again, I would take
it with joy and kiss him well, saying that it was beautiful and I liked it very much.
Sure enough, my boy’s mood fell down, holding the necklace as if he had done
something wrong.
That expression, no matter how many times I recall, I feel very sour in my heart.
I took the necklace and asked him to put it on for me. “Does it look good
?” He asked.
“Good looking.”
He nodded, not daring to look at me, and lowered his head to stagger. Shall we
go? Let’s go to dinner, and I’ll treat you to something good today.
The little boy laughed again, took my hand and raised his beautiful face, which was
too cute.
I went around to the back of the Bush and took out the gift for him.
He froze for a moment and took it over. “What is this?” Valentine’s Day gift
for you. You stand for so long every day. It will be more comfortable if you wear a better pair of shoes
. Come on, come on, come on. Try it on. Let me see if it looks good.
“Are these shoes expensive?” “It’s all right. I don’t think it’s expensive to buy anything for you. Try it quickly.”
He was not as happy as I expected, and he put on the shoes with a smiling face, but I didn’t notice it at
that time.
I asked him to stand up and walk around to see if he was comfortable. “That’s great. My boyfriend is really good-looking
. Now those girls will have to chase you even more.” The
speaker was unintentional, the listener was intentional, and his face sank a little. After
that day, the atmosphere was a little strange. Obviously, both of them were laughing, but
they were not relaxed at all.
The dormitory was closed, and my home was local, so he sent me home directly. Downstairs
at my house, he gave me a gentle hug and said, “Happy Valentine’s Day.”
I couldn’t see his expression clearly, maybe because there was no moon that day.
“Happy Valentine’s Day, call me when you get back to the dorm!”
Then I didn’t wait for the phone call.
Just wait for a few words, “yuanyuan, in the future, we still don’t want to see each other again.”
Eight,
my love was hot at that time, with a little self-moving blindness, completely
unable to calm down to think about the many imbalances in our relationship.
So when I saw those words, I completely lost my mind.
I frantically dialed his phone, sent him hundreds of messages at a stretch, and left messages on every social media app I could think of to contact him.
Unrelenting, pitiful and ridiculous.
For three days, Liang Yan did not reply a word, and then called him again, it was a busy tone directly.
My heart finally began to cool down, and even began to resent him. Looking back now, I will still blame myself, even if I do not love, I should not attack a person who once held himself in the palm of his hand.
So I regretted it almost instantly. In
that kind of love and hate, after two days, a full five days, I lost eight pounds, black eyes almost fell to the chin, unkempt, crying and laughing.
One night, at three o’clock in the morning, I suddenly woke up from my sleep. I felt my heart beating fast and my hands were numb. In those ten seconds, I thought I was going to die suddenly.
What kind of love is not worth my life.
So I got up and did two bowls of rice. After class, I dressed up and went to the playground where he worked.
Not to quarrel, not to question, I just want a confession, a confession for myself.
I want to look at him, stare into his eyes, and hear him tell the reason why we will never see each other again, even if I have guessed it in my mind.
I want to stand in front of him frankly and tell him that my love is not garbage that can be thrown away casually. I love you does not mean that I am so humble that I lose my dignity. I feel sorry for speaking ill of you in a hurry. I also understand that loving a person does not necessarily mean a result. I am here to say goodbye to you today and to this summer.
But the truth is, when I got there, I ran away again.
I went to the familiar bench, stood in the original position, and looked at him from a distance, watching him being surrounded by girls screaming for a group photo.
He bent slightly, lowered his head, and smiled so well. During the
push, a girl reached out and hugged his waist. He was startled. He hurried to the side and took a few big steps. It was not his fault, but he still looked like he had offended others. He bent over and said sorry.
He was probably used to my gaze, so he looked at my position again with a guilty conscience.
Our eyes were on each other, and both of us were stunned on the spot.
He’s not thin, he’s not fat, he’s not haggard, he’s not glowing.
But at this glance, I seem to forgive everything and be relieved of everything.
Because I still love him very much.
So I immediately turned away, lowered my head and pulled the necklace off and held it in the palm of my hand. Back at school, I found a box
to put away all the tickets I had saved for the amusement park, together with the necklace, and stuffed them into the cracks of the cabinet.
If you think leaving me will make you happier, then leave, and I seem to prefer
you to be happy.
Nine,
I silently deleted all his contact information and returned to the life before I met him. Nothing
seems to have changed.
Lovelorn will not die, the sky will not collapse, even the failure will not sympathize with you.
If there is no confession and no breakup, it is considered love.
Even, I suddenly found that there was no group photo in my mobile phone except for a bunch of single photos
taken for him. What
the hell am I, a top dog. What’s wrong with
being lustful? The person is not lustful, is that still a person? Just
when I thought I could really forget him slowly, one day when I had nothing to do,
I saw him on a short video platform. When I
saw the familiar face, I was stunned and watched the video play repeatedly for more than ten seconds
. The
video is a bit corny and not as good as he is, but I watched it over and over again. I didn’t like it, I didn’t pay attention to it, and I didn’t open it. I just stared at the interface and looked at it again and again.
I still miss him very much.
When I opened the few comments section, most of them were good, and only a few comments were not very friendly. I was so angry that I wanted to take the keyboard to charge. But after thinking about it, the typed words were deleted and changed, and finally they were all deleted.
I’m not qualified to defend him against injustice. I guess even he thinks I’m full.
Wang Xiaobo said, I think I love you, from now on, no matter when I can not be indifferent to you.
Now I have a deep understanding.
In the end, I gritted my teeth and slid across the page, watching other videos as if nothing had happened.
A minute later, I suddenly rummaged back like crazy, but I couldn’t find him. I was so anxious that I wanted to cry, relying on a few sporadic keywords I had just seen in my memory, and searching out hundreds of videos one by one.
At first, the fingers were so fast that there was a burning sensation on the screen, and then I calmed down and looked for them one by one. I couldn’t find the key words of the video, so I looked for the words of the user name, hundreds of similar names and similar avatars. I sat down, bent over, lowered my head and stared at the screen one by one. When
I wanted to give up, I finally found his account and clicked on it.
Use the trumpet. I hid behind that account, watched his videos every day, and occasionally squatted on his live broadcast, brushing him two sour cucumbers.
He still doesn’t talk much, and his smile is shallow. I looked at the number of people he paid attention to, from hundreds, to thousands, to tens of thousands. In the
third month, I received the first advertisement, an unknown brand of washing and nursing. This is probably the first time that this
fool has filmed a business for someone. He directly wears a T-shirt and washes his hair for a live broadcast. He has never seen such a sincere live broadcast of washing his hair in his life. He didn’t say a word in the process, and only said a few words after washing. He is also dry and looks very sincere. “It’s very clean, very good.”
In that video, his white T-shirt is all wet, revealing the muscle lines that are faintly visible below. Because he was good-looking and his temperament was so simple that he was a little dull, the video made him an instant hit, and he became a little famous Internet celebrity with nearly 10 million likes in one night. Strange to
say, after knowing that he had become famous and his income had increased, I no longer paid as much attention to him as before. I used to scold myself every day and force myself not to go to see him, but now I really seldom open it to see him.
I thought that from now on, we would forget each other completely, and the intersection would be divided into two parallel time and space.
Who would have thought that at this time, he would come to us again. Ten,
I can’t even avoid it.
Because every few minutes, students who know or don’t know me come up and call me.
When I was in the dormitory, more than a dozen girls came up to my dormitory and knocked on the door, saying that the
handsome guy downstairs had asked them. With an eager look on his face, he blocked me in the toilet
when I was shitting, watched me change my pajamas, watched me wash my socks, and two girls
took my two bottle caps of Blue Moon.
Then I finally grabbed an acquaintance and asked what was going on downstairs.
My classmate told me that there was a handsome guy downstairs, and many girls secretly looked around. Seeing this,
the handsome boy asked them about you and said that he couldn’t get in touch with you. Could you call
him for help.
In the end, even the housekeeper shouted in the corridor, “whose name is Tang yuanyuan!”! Someone’s looking for
you! You are so handsome! I
saw that I could not hide any more, so I hurriedly put on a dress, a mask and a hat
and rushed downstairs.
It seemed that some fans recognized him, but there were not many people. A few people gathered around him and asked him to sign the
book for a group photo. Through the glass door of the hall on the first floor, I seemed to be back in
the playground, and I always stood a few meters in front of him and looked at him.
“Liang Yan.”
I haven’t seen you for ages. When
he heard my voice, he turned his head, locked my position precisely, said sorry to the people around him, and then came to me. After I
felt everyone’s gaze, I almost took to my heels, covering my head and hurrying forward with my head down, accidentally kicking a protruding stone and stumbling.
Liang Yan stepped over, reached out and grabbed my arm, pulled it back, hugged me and walked out.
Someone called out Liang Yan’s name in a low voice, and the whispers around him exploded.
At the last moment when he dragged me to the car, in order to escape the possible cyber violence in the future, I used all my strength and shouted to the crowd, “Sisters!”! This is my uncle’s son! My cousin! Please support my eldest brother!
He threw me into the passenger seat, and I immediately got down and covered my face with my hat until the car drove out of the school.
“All right, there’s no one else. You can get up.”
Liang Yan reached out to pick up my hat, pulled my arm and tried to pull me up, but I didn’t move for a long time.
“What’s the matter?”
“I have a cramp in my leg.”
He pulled over to the side of the road, leaned over, squeezed my shoulders with both hands, helped me to the seat, and then naturally reached out to lift my legs and put them on his own legs to rub them for me.
“I tell you to exercise more, but you don’t listen, or you’ll always get cramps.” It
used to be like this. Whenever I had a cramp in my leg, he would squat down and rub
my leg at any time and anywhere. Even I felt embarrassed, but he never felt ashamed.
It’s only a whole summer together, but I miss you with the whole autumn.
I pulled my leg back and coughed with a slight embarrassment, but his face did not change color.
“Add my contact information back. I can’t find you.”
“I don’t think so.”
“So next time I’ll ask someone to find you like I did today?”
As soon as I heard this, the embarrassing scene just now played back vividly in my mind.
“Forget it, add it back.”
Liang Yan had no expression and asked lightly, “Are you going to dinner?”? Let’s eat first. Before
I could answer, the car started. We chatted a
few words along the way, like old classmates we hadn’t seen for years, and neither of us mentioned the past few months
.
“It seems that you’ve had a good time recently, and you can buy your own car. Then I’m relieved.”
I looked at him in the reflection of the car window. His simple white sweater seemed to be a little whiter and thinner. It seems to be more stable and mature than before, and it even makes me feel a little strange when I turn the steering wheel.
“The car isn’t mine, it’s given to me by the company. Why don’t you come to watch my live broadcast recently?”
“Ah, I’ve been a little busy recently, and you’ve had a good time.” After
I said it casually, I suddenly trembled. How did he know?!? Seeing my shocked expression,
Liang Yan smiled, “All your social media platforms use the same nickname, Galaxy Mighty Man, and there are records of watching live broadcasts in your news feed, which are located in your school. As for all your passwords, they are your name plus 123.”
I was shocked and speechless, shocked that he was so careful, speechless that I was so stupid.
But now that it’s known, it’s all right to talk about it.
“You think I have a good life?”
What’s the matter? Is it not good to make money?
“Very good.” There was silence again in the
car. After a long time, he said to himself, “Actually, it’s not good at all.” Eleven,
to the place to eat, he booked a private room, go in and sit down, the waiter’s little sister
shyly asked him for a photo, or I took it.
“Looks like you’re really on fire.”
He looked at the menu without looking up and said angrily, “Ah, yes, that’s not
exactly what you want.”
When I saw him like this, there was a nameless fire. He had burned incense in his previous life, but he couldn’t burn
such a good girlfriend and ex-girlfriend. When we were together, he took care of me in every way. When we broke
up, he took the initiative to clarify for him. He was still putting on airs with me.
“Invite me to dinner. I’ll order my own food. Give me the menu!” As soon as the
words came out of his mouth, his tone was a little blunt. He was startled and handed me the menu in a daze.
Since you are so popular, then fire one. Otherwise, I’m sorry for the
noise I swallowed for you, and make up for the internal injury I suffered
when I watched my boyfriend get sticky with people all day.
He laughed instead of being angry, called the waiter in, and really let her fire a book.
What’s the matter? Are you relieved?
“Relieving Qi?”? Not to mention, you’ll have to eat all of this before I can get rid of my anger.
Liang Yan froze in place, “I didn’t realize you were so..” “I didn’t realize I was so considerate, gentle and beautiful, and I was also diligent and thrifty in managing the household and upholding
justice.”
He burst out laughing. “So you have such a character?”
“I’ve always been like this.”
“You weren’t like that when you were with me. You were really
understanding at that time. I haven’t seen you angry since we were together.”
“I didn’t want to be angry with you at that time.”
His expression gradually cooled down, as if he didn’t expect me to say such a thing.
“And now?”
I held the cup on the table in front of me and tightened my hands a little.
“Now you are no longer the one I need to restrain my temper.
After today’s meal, we will officially break up. From now on, we will not appear in each
other’s lives again.”
I used to love him, depend on him, be infatuated with him, and
love him with the aura of a savior. After
he disappeared overnight, I blamed him, hated him, and even cursed him.
I feel that my love is a chicken rib that he can easily discard, and my pay is a laughing stock that he turns a
deaf ear to. I hate him for not understanding my kindness to him, and I also blame him for feeling sorry for himself
but not really shouldering the responsibility like a man. As the days and nights passed, I thought of his difficulties and situation, and gradually understood him.
But I can’t get over it.
Because I pay too much, love too much, but in the end I am the one who is abandoned.
If my repeated understanding and concessions will only make you feel pressure or even escape, then I think
my love is not worth it.
I also have my own pride.
Even though I still have feelings for you.
yuanyuan, I know I may have done something wrong. But I really just don’t want you to suffer with
me anymore. I didn’t see any hope at that time. I thought you were with me,
which delayed you. Now that my life is finally getting better, I dare to come to you.
Across the table, it was my turn to look up at him. I closed my eyes and thought about his
eyes now. I was afraid that if I saw them, I would not be able to be ruthless.
“But what if you never get better?”
He didn’t answer.
“What if there is no improvement in one year, two years, three years, or even five or ten years?”
I suddenly deflated, loosened the cup in my hand, and laughed at myself.
Then you won’t come to me again, and we will never see each other again in this life. Do you think it’s because of love when you meet again now
? How many Internet celebrities in the world like you can become famous
in a few months? It’s your good luck, your unique good luck.
Liang Yen, I’ve said many times that I don’t care about your family, and I don’t care whether you have money or not. As long as we’re together, I think we’ll have a good life, but you still gave me up. Not a word of explanation or a chance for me to say goodbye with dignity. You are not the only one who has self-respect, and it is not the case that whoever is weaker is more reasonable.
In fact, I had expected that the words would be more ugly and sharper, but after a hundred turns and a thousand turns, I still didn’t want to say it to him.
He hung his head and whispered, “I’m sorry, I..”
“There are some things you didn’t say at the time, and you don’t have to say them now. Let it all go.” Suddenly there was thunder
outside the window. I looked back and saw that it was already overcast and dark. It began to rain. The
rain was getting heavier and heavier, and it came in through the window.
I got up to close the window and went to the window to catch a wet and cold wind mixed with the smell of fallen leaves, which easily penetrated my unlined clothes and made my skin tremble. At that moment,
I suddenly remembered the lyrics I heard a long time ago.
The world is suddenly late, and the mountains and rivers are already autumn.
12.
The dishes were placed on the floor one by one. The waiter looked at Liang Yen with some care and asked, “Sir, do you really want to fry a book?”? There are only two of you, so I’m sure you won’t be able to finish it.
Liang Yan did not dare to answer and looked at me casually.
I took a deep breath, but after all, I was relieved. “No, just fry a third of it. We can’t waste food.”
The waiter answered with relief and went back to tell the kitchen. When I
saw Liang Yan’s eyes, I quibbled, “I’m not being soft on you, I’m being soft on the farmers.”
Business is not benevolent and righteous, and I really don’t want to have a tit-for-tat fight with him.
After all, he didn’t abandon me because he kept a second wife.
Today, I don’t have such an attitude. Firing a book can’t solve the problem. I will probably go to his school overnight with banners and slogans to tell the world that good men don’t keep mistresses. When
eating, he would subconsciously turn my favorite dishes in front of me.
At that time, when we were together, because we had no money, every time we went to a restaurant, we would eat very economically. Many times, two people ordered a dish and two bowls of rice. He will always eat some side dishes, until I finish eating, he will be confident to eat boldly.
Later, I didn’t dare to eat. Every time I ate a little, I said I was full, so that I could leave him a little more. Once I ordered a few more dishes, I said I treat, and then I said we AA,
he did not allow, he said that girls should not spend money when they go out. I have no choice. He is a boy
. He has to work and go to class every day. How can he not eat enough? So every time I go back to school after
dinner, I will buy something to eat. The romance of the
poor is always shameful in its unspeakable warmth.
But it lasts forever. Is
their cooking to your taste? It’s the first time I’ve seen you eat so much. With my head
down, I quickly picked up the rice. “This is just how much I can eat.” At the end of
a meal, the rain outside was getting heavier and heavier, with lightning and thunder, wind and rain
.
We stood side by side by the window. He was very close to me. The rain was so loud that I couldn’t even hear him
. But I could catch his breathing rate even in the crowd.
“I don’t have an umbrella with me. Sit down for a while and then go back.”
“Liang Yan, would you like to get caught in the rain with me again?”
He froze for a moment, then looked out of the window for a long time. Then he began to laugh. “Good
.” The
first time we kissed was on the first rainy day after we met. It was rare for him to accompany me to go shopping
that day. The rain came very quickly. It was sunny
, but suddenly there was a heavy rain pouring down.
I always keep a sun umbrella in my bag, but it is so small that it will only cover our heads.
He held me in his arms with his umbrella. The umbrella was overturned several times, and the rain poured on us from head to tail with the strong wind. The two of
us, like two fools, did not feel embarrassed, but felt funny. When his hair was soaked through, he grabbed it and made an angry hairstyle. And my eyeliner was completely dizzy, as if I had just been punched twice. All the people
around were in a hurry to shelter from the rain, but we were out of breath with laughter.
Finally, we found the eaves of a coffee shop. We were too wet to go in and sit on a wet chair. He was afraid that I would catch cold, so he went in and asked me for a cup of hot cocoa.
Showers come and go quickly. Before
the cup of cocoa was cold, the rain stopped outside, and it was a sunny day.
Looking outside as if nothing had happened, he looked at each other again and laughed out loud.
We squeezed through the bus together in the heat of nearly 33 degrees, my armpits and back were wet, I hugged in all kinds of sweat, and I rubbed greasy skin with countless people. At seven o’clock in the morning, I went to the roadside to eat the hanging stove cake on the table which was covered with oil and could not see the true color clearly, with a bowl of Beancurd Jelly for one yuan. He only drinks ice dew because it is cheap. I bought a beautiful patch on the Internet. For the first time, I took a needle to mend his clothes. I pricked my hand and pointed out the blood many times. I bought him eight pairs of socks for ten yuan because I was greedy and cheap, and the whole socks were rotten in a day. In order to save the taxi fare, we walked nearly ten kilometers to go home together
. The blood blisters on our feet were swollen and broken, and it hurt when we took off our shoes. I saved half
of my living expenses to buy things for him, and he went hungry just to eat with me.
But I don’t feel embarrassed. I just remember the countless times we looked at each other and laughed.
At that time, I really loved to laugh. After
the heavy rain, it was rare to see a rainbow, a very clear rainbow.
“Liang Yen, it is said that seeing a rainbow represents good luck. You must have good luck!”.
He pulled the umbrella open and held it up again, and the light reflected a warm yellow on his face through the umbrella. His smile
was very gentle, and his eyes were full of affection as if he were writing a poem.
I gawked as he leaned over and kissed me gently.
“Meeting you is my best luck.”
I did not say that meeting you is also my good luck, even today, I still feel
so.
But no one has good luck all the time.
Maybe the autumn rain was too cold. I had a high fever after I went back that day. I slept in the dormitory
for several days. When I
woke up, I found that he had posted news on Weibo.
Because some fans found out that the person who came to me that day was him, so they took the picture and asked him if he was himself and if he was in love. Although he is not yet a star, he is also a famous Internet celebrity, and the news of the exposure of the suspected love affair has stirred up a moderate splash. Even the pictures of him sitting and eating with me when he was working in the amusement park were taken out.
Someone dug up my social media account, and my selfie was spread on a small scale, and everyone read it to see my sister-in-law, with more sarcasm than blessing.
I thought Liang Yan would come out and deny it directly, or say that we had broken up to save our reputation.
But he only sent one message: “She is the girl I once loved very much. I lost her by accident, and I am sorry for her. I don’t want to hurt her again. I hope everyone will not disturb her, nor spread her information to disturb her life. I hope she can live happily in the future.”
Be Frank and generous. After
seeing this news, I seem to be finally relieved.
I forgive you for running away when you feel inferior, and thank you for maintaining my dignity when you are proud.
It seems that he was really lucky. After his news was sent out, more and more people found out the way I was with him at that time in the corner. I looked at the photos and had mixed feelings. I was so busy taking pictures of him that I forgot to take some pictures of us. We didn’t have a group photo until we broke up, but we didn’t expect to have a group photo under such circumstances.
We gradually piece together this story, a variety of versions, but in the end it is love but not a good end. This layer of tragic color gives Liang Yan a thick filter of bitterness, which makes his persona more three-dimensional. All of a sudden, the novel, hand-drawn and edited video based on his story set off a storm of the second man in the bitter idol drama. With this momentum, Liang Yan became more popular.
I didn’t say anything, even though the stories were somewhat distorted, even though I was not very glorious in some versions, if he could live well, then I would like to be consumed.
And netizens will soon forget me, and when the next hot spot appears, no one will remember who I am.
Liang Yan’s subsequent business activities are visible to the naked eye, with endorsements, magazines, interviews, and even invitations to variety shows.
I think this time, I really lost this boy forever.
The boy, who frowned, pinched the corner of his coat and looked timidly like a dog, became a star in a suit and leather shoes with an indifferent expression under the flashlight.
Even if I don’t want to pay attention to him, his news is everywhere when I turn on my mobile phone. The number of
his live broadcasts is getting less and less, and the time is getting shorter and shorter. He no longer smiled as unguarded as before, probably because he had learned expression management. He smiled very well and his expression became more and more relaxed. I am less and less from him to find the shadow of Liang Yan, I will even trance, will doubt whether I really loved him, those days are illusory like a dream.
I cancelled all the social accounts that were found, leaving only the platform to watch his live broadcast.
Taking advantage of this limelight, some people even came to interview me, asked me to buy an account, and asked me if I wanted to go to the draft, but I refused. First, I don’t think I want to rub Liang Yan’s heat and discredit him. Second, I don’t think I deserve the heat. I have my own life plan.
Fate pulls us together but tears the gap of fate.
Finally, one day, I can be as calm as an old friend across the screen.
At that time, he was wearing a hat, dressed in black, and stood by the street lamp downstairs of my dormitory after dark.
Even though I was less than half a meter away from him, I didn’t recognize him. If
he can wait for me, he must have stood there silently for a long time.
Fortunately, it was already dark. I took him to the playground where there were few people. The lights were so dim that there was no distinction between people and animals.
He stood casually on the side of the road with his hands in his pockets. Probably really red gas to raise people, obviously even the face can not see clearly, the passing girls will already look at him a few more eyes.
Are you all right? Are the fans giving you a hard time?
No, everyone is too busy chasing you, and there’s probably no time to scold me. Have you been busy since you became popular recently?
He shook off his hand and said in an irritable tone, “Yes, I’m very busy. I came to see you today because I ran away.” “Oh, what’s the matter?”
I was only a few punches away from him, but I felt too far away to hear his voice. It was
quiet except for the rustling of the leaves in the wind.
“yuanyuan, I seem to be really red.”
I listened and laughed. “Yeah, you’re popular. It’s not like it’s true
.”
But he still has a dignified look, and his tone is heavy.
“The company signed me up for an acting class, and arranged for me to enter the group to act, probably as a second
or third man.”
“Very good. Take your time to hone your acting skills before you play the leading man.”
“No, that’s not what I meant.”
Hmm? Then what do you mean?
He raised his head slowly, took a step towards me, and stared at me.
I haven’t signed a contract yet. I only signed a short-term contract with the original company. yuanyuan,
if I take this step, I won’t be able to take it back.
I probably knew why he came to me. I didn’t speak and waited for him to finish.
yuanyuan, if you want to be with me, I don’t have to sign. It’s enough to be an Internet celebrity and have enough money to spend. I don’t have that much ambition. The entertainment industry is not the life I yearn for. I want to be more down-to-earth and live a step-by-step life.
This is the truth, his greatest ideal has always been his wife and children to warm the Kang, to settle down at home, to live a simple life.
Liang Yan, not everyone is as lucky as you. If you have come here and gained such fame, you are already the object of consumer ridicule and attention, and you can’t escape. Why not take this opportunity to change the fate of you and your family? We ordinary people may never have such an opportunity again in our lifetime. Now that the opportunity has been thrown to you, take it well.
I know, but..
No, but even if I make up with you today, we may not have a result. But if you decide to act today, your life will double countless times with this decision, which is a certain result. Even a star on the one hundred and eighty line is not an ordinary person like me. It doesn’t take ten years to give up a clear and bright future for the sake of a momentary love affair, and in half a year you’ll hate me.
He turned sideways, and finally he could see his face vaguely under the street lamp, and he lost a lot of weight.
Frowning, a little aggrieved, “yuanyuan, I’m a little scared. All this makes me a little scared. Can you accompany me?”
I saw my little dog again. He was tall and big, and he was used to acting like a spoiled child. I can’t be with you. The way I can walk with you is over. You can only walk by yourself in the
future, because I have my own way. Go be a big star, okay
? The kind that sparkles like water. Don’t live as hard as you used to,
not even for a day.
Thanks to this moonless night, wet eyes can also feel magnanimous.
In fact, I still love him, but this love, gradually separated by too many things.
Misunderstanding, estrangement, estrangement, resentment, blame.
And now through the crowd shouting and glow sticks.
He is now a male star, which is an important rising period of his career. At this time, falling in love is no different from
digging his own grave.
I can’t be the last obstacle in front of his brilliant light. Not only will he hate
me later, but I will also hate myself. I don’t deserve him now, and I can’t pull him back to the original
quagmire.
This time, it’s my turn to run away selfishly.
My original intention is to hope that he has a good life, and now he has a better life than I imagined
.
If there is a chance, I hope I can stand in front of you in the future.
If there is fate, I hope we can get to know each other again in the future. Before that, I hope my boy will become a real star, let me look up to you
, hang in the sky forever, and never fall back into the dust.
A few months later, I happened to see the press conference interview of the new play.
“Hello, everyone. I’m actor Liang Yan. I play the second man. It’s my first time filming. I hope you’ll forgive me if I don’t
do well. I’ll continue to work hard.”
“Mr. Liang, it is rumored that you have tried many times to get back your ex-girlfriend. I wonder what
the result is?”
“It’s all over.” In the end, there are only four short words
about all this.
It’s all over.
Finished
