How to write a story beginning with “I don’t want to marry him anymore”?

I don’t want to marry him. I met him when I was

27 years old, and later I learned that he had a blind date

with his family. It took

us less than two months to get married. When I was

25 years old, I told myself that if I couldn’t marry love before I was 27 years old, I would

marry the richest person I could meet.

I didn’t do that because I met a man named Zhou Yang.

He is very good-looking and quiet, and his personality is not really cheerful, nor is he very

humorous.

But the unexpected congeniality of our conversation, especially his smile, had

an irresistible attraction for me. It

‘s not love at first sight, but at least this blind date makes me very satisfied.

I thank God in my heart that I can still meet the hero

by chance at this age, and the eight characters match. So I gave up the money and married him. Before we

got married, we spent some time together, and I imagined and hoped that love

would come to my life so quickly.

But I was wrong. On the day of the

wedding, he was so drunk that he vomited in the bathroom. When

he came out, I stood at the door with a glass of water. Without

even looking at him, he staggered towards the living room, then leaned on the

sofa and nestled on the ground.

I followed him, put the water on the table, and asked him if he was uncomfortable, but he didn’t respond.

I reached out to help him sit up, but he refused. Then he slowly raised his head and looked at me with extremely

cold and desperate eyes and said, “How long is life going to be

?”

I froze for a moment, laughing that he was really drunk, and tried to help him up again. “I want to be alone,”

he exhaled. “You go to bed

first.” The night of the

wedding was very long, and Zhou Yang did not move in the living room. I tossed and turned

in the big room and couldn’t sleep, so I opened the bedroom window to

get some air. The autumn night is already very cool-

reflecting the light, I watched the withered and yellow leaves fall with the wind, and the bare and dry

branches still slanted in the air.. How long is

life going to last?

I have always felt that there is a tacit understanding between us, for example, the first time we met, we both ordered

grape-flavored soda, and as I acquiesced, marriage

without vigorous love foundation can also be very happy.

Originally he did not compromise, he endured the mood or broke out, he is a favorite

person, or perhaps he just drank too much today.

But I had an uncontrollable feeling of fear. When he woke up

in the morning and walked out of the bedroom door, he found that breakfast had been prepared on the table, and he sat there quietly

, as if he had been waiting for a long time.

I smiled and walked over-

he told me that he didn’t plan to have children in the near future, told me that he was on the morning shift, told me that I didn’t have to wait for him to eat after

work, told me that I would sleep at night when I was sleepy, and didn’t have to leave a light for him..

I cut him off and asked him, “Do you have someone you like?”

He looked up at me and said, “Yes.”

I was stupefied, not too surprised, and said, “I’ll give you time.”

He did not reply, bowed his head and ate breakfast.

I will occasionally stand in front of the mirror in a daze, thinking that even if the appearance is not amazing, there is still some beauty to talk about, and tell myself, forget it, there is no time in life to force.

Anyway, there’s no one to urge me to get married now, and if I have my own plan, no one will ask me anything anymore, and I can live in peace. In addition to working at school and dealing with some things

every day, the rest of the time is very leisurely. I usually have lunch at school and cook dinner at home after work.

He often comes back very late. I don’t know where he is and what he is doing, but occasionally I send him a few messages to ask him if he has eaten, if his work is going well, and when he can accompany me to my parents’house for dinner. He replied to

most of the messages, and he did what I asked.

Sometimes it feels awkward, and sometimes it feels like our relationship is normal. After

dinner, I will go downstairs alone and take a walk in the garden of the community. When the

weather is good, there will be a lot of people coming out for activities. Before ten o’clock, there will be people singing a few songs, playing guitar or other instruments. They are very serious and idle. I often hear the last song before leaving. At

my childhood birthday party, she asked me if life was sweet for such a high-quality man.

I brazenly asked her, “Do you know what eating is?”

She opened her mouth wide in surprise, then patted me on the shoulder and told me not to joke.

I smiled and changed the subject.

When I got home, I asked him through the wine, “You married me, and then you wasted me. You wasted me like this. Can you live with your conscience? How can I be so unlucky?”

He said, “It’s the same to marry someone you don’t love.”

I let my tears run wild on my face. He went to the kitchen and cooked me sobering soup. When he brought it to me, I pushed it away and spilled it all over him.

I smiled at him and said, “Come on, get angry with me. Don’t be like a dead man every day!”

He still did not have any fluctuations, I like him that day leaning on the sofa sitting on the ground, do not know when to doze off, shallow consciousness felt that someone carried me to bed.

I was not drunk, nor did I sleep to death. I could feel the temperature and shallow breath in his arms, but the time was very short, very short. He closed the door gently and went out. I didn’t see him

the next morning. There were fried eggs and bread on the table and some porridge in the rice cooker. In the

past 27 years, my life is not without a little color about love, but I am tired of the weak feelings and the overflow of true and false vows. I

didn’t have puppy love, and I was only hastily accosted in college. I walked forward in a regular and even muddled way, as if no one had anything to do with me. But I believe in fate, I believe I will meet a gentle person.

“When I’m free, I stand with you at dusk. I smile in front of the kitchen and ask if the porridge is warm.” It’s so vulgar, but this is the first time I

saw him, I wanted to fall into the vulgar picture with him.

Facts stopped me from daydreaming. I chewed rice porridge and thought: If I can

, I think I should be able to forgive and bless him and her. I think I am unlucky when this

happens at this age.

the Winter Solstice that day, my mother-in-law asked me to go home with him to eat dumplings, unable to shirk, he

told me that he would pick me up after work. It

‘s not surprising that we cooperate like a newly married couple. When his mother-in-law asked him at the

dinner table when he planned to have a baby, he replied without hesitation, “We

have our own plans, so don’t worry about it.” The conversation at the

dinner table was very pleasant, and both parents were very happy, saying that when

they went back, they found it snowing outside. There was a thin layer on the

ground, the road was wet and slippery, and at night, my parents-in-law were worried about

our safety and insisted that we stay for one night before leaving.

It was the first time I lay in the same bed with him. After

taking a bath, I was wrapped in a bathrobe and leaned on the bed. He went into the bathroom and listened to the sound of running

water. I was a little nervous.

He blew his hair and naturally sat on my left side, leaning against the head of the bed to play with his mobile phone, so

I also lit the screen of my mobile phone back and forth. After a while, he asked me, “Can you turn off the light?”

I said, “Okay.”

The two of them just lay quietly.

That day, I don’t know what kind of craziness broke the long silence.

I asked him, “What do you think of me?”

“What do you mean?”

“Hue.”

“It’s pretty.”

“Do you have a problem with that?”

He chuckled twice, but I continued to attack without a word

. “If I take the initiative, will you still be a

gentleman?”

“I’m not sure. You’re my lawful wife. As long as you both live, you can’t

do anything too much.”

He paused and said, “I won’t touch you because I’m afraid that when I do it with you, my mind will still be full

of her.”

I suddenly calmed down and asked him, “You will abandon me sooner or later, won’t you?” “No.” There was no audible tone in his words.

“Do you know how ridiculous you are?”

He said indifferently, “You like to make do so much that it suits me.”. If you can’t marry her, marrying you

is the best choice.

“Why do you always say such hurtful things casually?”

“Because you married me casually.”

……

Although I haven’t met many people, I don’t think there are many people

like him who are persistent and restrained.

But is he a good man? Probably not, at least not in my place.

He’s just loyal to his heart, not so frivolous, but he’s so hypocritical, so

hypocritical. He dropped me off at school

in the morning and asked me if I wanted to go home with him after work.

I still care about what happened last night, and I said no, but he still came to pick me up.

Looking at the snowflakes flying all over the sky, I still sat in his car.

The snow was pressed on the road by tires, frozen into smooth and slippery blocks, and the car could only move forward slowly

.

I sat in the passenger seat and felt sleepy with the warm wind blowing.

He suddenly asked me, “You are very qualified in all respects. Why did you come for a blind date?”

“Then why are you –” You don’t even have to think about it. You must have been forced by the situation.

I sat up straight and began a long speech:

“What’s wrong with a blind date?”? Each other to see eye affinity, chat or not, even with a purpose, but also quite pure. There’s nothing wrong with seeing each other and trying to get along.

He gave a little snort. What

are you humming? Am I wrong? Sometimes you have to believe in fate. A high-quality blind date is no worse than a fruitless love affair.

“Haven’t you ever been in love?”

「……」 Stunned, I replied, “How is that possible?”

“Are you satisfied with the result of the blind date?”

「……」

Quite satisfied, after all, I never suffered any real harm, until later, he began to infiltrate my life a little bit. On Christmas Eve, the office was very lively. I gave the apples sent by the students to the old teacher

. Professor

Chen asked me, “What does Xiao Zhou do?”? With such a busy time, it’s popular

for young couples to go on honeymoons. Winter vacation is coming soon, so I’m sure I’ll have to make up for it!

I dealt with it “well”, and my heart was full of trance and helplessness. When

I got to the parking lot, I remembered that I had just sent the car for maintenance in the afternoon and could only go home

by bus.

A person is free, want to eat hawthorn, go to the school back street alley to buy sugar

fried hawthorn.

Because it was Christmas Eve, outside the school was much more lively than usual, with many more flower sellers and

apple vendors.

I swept it hastily and walked towards the stop sign with a bag of sugar-fried hawthorn and a bag of chestnuts.

It was getting dark earlier and earlier, and a few cold crystals fell on my hands. It

was snowing, the street lights in the old block were shining yellow, snowflakes passed through the beam, and I

stopped involuntarily to enjoy the snow..

“Lin Man, why don’t you go home?”

I turned to look at the sound source, and Zhou Yang put his head out of the window. Seeing that I did not respond, he hurried out of the car, walked up to me, took the things

in my hand, stroked the snow off my head, and pulled me to the passenger seat.

“Why aren’t you driving?”

“Maintained.”

“Why didn’t you call me?”

“Should I expect someone who doesn’t come home for dinner to pick me up?”

“Oh-”

“What are you laughing at?”

“It turns out that you can also speak with a prick.”

I paused, nibbled off the sugar skin of a hawthorn, and ignored him.

I don’t know when he has returned home and prepared the meal.

He told me that the food would be ready soon. I nodded and sat on the sofa peeling chestnuts.

I asked him why he came back so early today, and he said that the department had nothing to do and left work

early.

He said that he had learned the pumpkin paste recently and asked me if it tasted good.

I nodded and asked him if he could teach me. He said, “If you ask me, I will teach

you.” I looked up at him and smiled in surprise. He smiled too. He seemed to be in a good mood today.

The atmosphere was rare and warm.

When I went into the kitchen to wash the dishes, he said he would do it for him today. I was puzzled, but I didn’t give in any more

. I sat back on the sofa and watched TV. When

he finished, he came over and handed me a big, red apple.

“Ping An Guo.” The

apple was washed, and there were a few drops of water hanging on it.

I took it and asked him, “Why are you so attentive today?”

He said, “It’s Christmas Eve.” Will you think of me on

Christmas Eve? You shouldn’t — “

No matter how much scum I am, I want you to be safe.”

I smiled and asked him if he had any more. He pointed to the kitchen and asked me, “Can I still

have two after dinner?”

I ignored him and went into the kitchen to pick out a big red apple, but it was still

a little worse than mine.

I scrubbed them carefully, went over like him, and handed them to him: “Peace to

you, too.” No more, I don’t want to break the only feeling of home, still monopolizing the queen room of four meters

, and he is still playing the role of Xiao Zhou next door.

Life always has to go on, we can never have no intersection, let our relationship warm

up, should be due to his stomach disease. After a three-day holiday

on New Year’s Day, I went shopping after work before returning home. When I entered the door, I saw a pair of men

‘s leather shoes on the shoe-changing blanket. Just when I was wondering that

he had come home so early today, I turned around and found him leaning on the sofa

with his head on one side and his face white.

I hurried over to him and asked him what was wrong. He replied feebly, “I feel a little sick

in my stomach.” I’m sweating because of the

pain, and I still say it’s a little? I muttered, asked him to put his arm on

my shoulder, helped him downstairs, and drove him to the hospital.

It was acute gastroenteritis caused by irregular work and rest and excessive drinking. The doctor said that he needed to

recuperate in the hospital for a period of time. I helped him go through the admission procedures and sat beside his bed to help him watch

the intravenous drip.

“If you drink so much that your stomach is bleeding, why are you doing this to yourself?”

He was as weak as a sheep and could not say anything cruel. He

said he wouldn’t do it again and thanked me.

He is so obedient that people can’t bear to scold him again.

I asked him, “The doctor said you can’t eat anything today, and you can only eat liquid food from tomorrow. What do you want to eat?”

“All right.”

“All right, go to sleep. Tell me if you feel uncomfortable. I’ll be right here.”

“Good.” He said, “Lin Man.”

I didn’t wait for him to pop out those three words. I said before him, “Don’t say thank you to me. Don’t bother yourself in the future.”

He moved the corners of his mouth, and I wasn’t sure if it was a smile.

I bought him porridge for three days, and he told me about his funny things in the past three days.

On the fourth day, I went to work normally, the school was not very busy, I would accompany him in my spare time, his parents and friends also came to praise me as a good wife.. More than

a week later, I was carrying the same white porridge for thousands of years, feeling that it was torturous and unworthy of the title of a good wife. Suddenly, I thought that the pumpkin paste he gave me on Christmas Eve should be quite suitable.

So I ran to the ward and asked him to tell me the steps. Then I rushed home confidently and went into the kitchen. I looked at the materials in front of me. I didn’t know how to do it for a while. I dilly-dally until 10:30. I still gave him a video.

He gave me serious instructions: first peel the pumpkin, steam it in the steamer for 15 minutes, take it out, put it in another pot, add a bowl of water.. As he spoke, I scrambled to operate.

He would frown and tell me that the pumpkin he cut was too big, he would say

more anxiously than I did, turn down the fire quickly, he would tell me to be careful not to burn, he would look at the kitchen I had made in a mess

and laugh..

I held my chin and looked on expectantly as he tasted my victory.

He smiled and said, “Lin Man, you are quite talented, although your kitchen is a bit

like a chemical plant, ha ha.”

Every time I go to the ward to see him, he will find a topic to talk to me.

We are like old friends who have known each other for many years. Although it’s a little bad, sometimes I still

feel glad that he has a sudden stomach trouble this time. It seems that because of these, I have a chance to

see him talking to me.

He stayed in the hospital for more than half a month, eating liquid food every day, and even though he didn’t exercise much, he still

lost a lot of weight. On the day he was

discharged from the hospital, he looked at me solemnly, pinched my face and said, “Thank you,

Lin Man.” In the days

after that, I was still alone in the empty house, and I felt that those days

were just a dream I had.

But I really can’t do anything, go to scold the street, ask his conscience was eaten by the dog? What is the reason for

his hot and cold? Have a big fight with him, and then divorce him if you can’t do it?

In that case, it’s not Lin Man. The fifth day after

New Year’s Day was his birthday. I sent him a WeChat to say happy birthday, and then

asked him what gift he wanted to receive.

He said he wanted to go home for his birthday. Let’s have lunch with him today.

I replied, “OK, I’ll take care of everything.”

Usually in the school to solve, today suddenly home, more or less a little happy.

Everything must not go smoothly. I rear-ended a middle-aged female driver who was a little grumpy.

I was indeed at fault, but I was not fully responsible. Both cars had scratches. The woman got out of the car

and pointed at me, asking me to pay for it. As soon as

I began to reason with her, she shouted abuse, and I froze in place for a moment, attracting

a crowd of onlookers.

The woman had a helper in the car and shouted as if she wanted the whole world to hear, “You have to

take full responsibility for the rear-end collision!”! If you can’t drive, don’t! There was a lot of discussion

around me, and I couldn’t stand it for a moment, so I was ready to pay and leave, when a familiar

voice came over:

“Excuse me, excuse me.” Pushing aside the crowd of onlookers, he walked up to me, glanced up and down at me and asked,

“Are you all right?”

I nodded my head in a daze. Then he pulled me behind him and said to the two women

, “I’m his husband. Tell me if you have anything.”

Zhou Yang seemed to fall from the sky, and I looked at his thin and powerful back.

I couldn’t hear what he was saying to them, or see how the people around him looked

.

It’s just, at that moment, I don’t seem to be afraid of anything. After

Zhou Yang handled it, he asked someone to pull the car to repair it and led me to his car.

“Lin Man, call me when you have something to do. Don’t stand pitifully

in the middle of a group of people like a stray cat and be bullied.”

“Ang.”

He said no more. The bare trees on the side of the road quickly disappeared from my sight. I turned

to look at him. “I’m sorry. It’s your birthday, and you’re still here to clean up my mess.”

“Stop it.”

He frowned a little angrily. While

waiting for the red light, he opened his mouth and called out to me, “Lin Man-”

and rubbed his face with his hand on the window, hesitating to speak. We ate at a random restaurant.

I ordered a cake for him and handed him a gift bag containing a camel woolen overcoat

and a gray scarf I knitted.

He laughed and said, “How can I return the favor?”

“Just be nice to me.”

He is very happy, and he should not care to explore the meaning of my words.

We enjoyed the meal very much.

In the evening, he celebrated his birthday with his friends, and I just went out to attend my friend’s reception

.

With the opportunity of the reception banquet, several of our friends who had a good time in high school got together to chat

, and finally drank too much.

Someone found a substitute driver, and most of them were taken home by their lovers. I took out

my cell phone and called him.

I don’t drink too much, but the alcohol level is not low, and my head is a little dizzy. Ask him on

the phone, “Will you take your wife home?”

The other side suddenly laughed.

“What are you laughing at?” I asked him again, “Will you take it?” “Take it.”

He parked the car and opened the door for me.

I asked him, “Why don’t you carry me up?”

He still laughed, but without hesitation, he picked me up and said, “You’re so

clingy after drinking too much.”

He put me on the bed and prepared to press the quilt for me. I held his face and asked him,

“Why don’t you call me?”? Other people’s families have picked them up and left, but you’re not

coming. I

‘m sorry, I’m afraid.. Well, I’ll pick you up on time next time. When

he was about to leave, I suddenly sat up and asked him, “Are you leaving again?”

He looked back at me, stood in the doorway for a long time, then sat down in front of me, took my

hand and said, “I’m not going.” Little by little

his breath came closer, and little by little I sank in.

Although we were legally married, that night of tossing and turning made me feel the excitement and shyness of drunken

sex.

The next morning, he prepared breakfast as usual, not cramped and even more

energetic.

I pretended to be relaxed and went over to have breakfast. He started asking me to tie his tie and walk me to work. When I

was about to get off the bus, I couldn’t help but tease him: “the Winter Solstice what you said

to me, but you broke your promise.”

“No.”

“Don’t you admit it?” “I’m

not a monk,”

he said, imitating my tone of voice. “If you don’t let me go, I won’t let you go.”

I blushed and ignored him. When I got out

of the car, he took my hand and put it on his chest

. “All right, I won’t tease you, Lin Man.”. I haven’t broken my promise. Between you and me, it’s

just you and me, working hard and going home together after work.

In the morning, his mouth was so poor, and in the evening, he said he had to work overtime, so don’t worry about him. On the

third morning, before he could say anything, I asked him, “Why don’t I leave the light for you?”

“Ang.” He looked up at me.

I asked him again, “Are you sure?”

“Not sure.”

I lowered my head and tore the bread, not ready to give him a step down. He said, “I’m afraid if I bring it up, you’ll think,”

“What else do you, Chou Yang, dare not say?”

“Is that all right?” He looked at me uncertainly.

“Will what work?”

“Give me half of your bed.”

“Oh,” I don’t know whether to laugh or cry. “It’s up to you.”

That day Chou Yang posted a message in her circle of friends: After 28 years of life, for the first time I feel that the three words “whatever you

want” are so beautiful. I

forgot what had happened before, and I quickly threw myself into the world that belonged only to me

and him without any reason.

But I still know about him and her. I heard about it by chance at a party

he took me to.

I heard that they were an enviable couple in college. The girl was a dancer and

beautiful, but later she wanted to mix in the entertainment industry. She took part in many talent shows and signed

a company. Because she wanted to develop, her relationship was not made public.

Zhou Yang’s father did not understand and did not agree with them to continue, but Zhou Yang did not listen.

Later, she had a bad rumor, and Zhou Yang didn’t believe it. She told Zhou Yang that she would get married when her career

was stable, but she did not develop well. No matter how angry Zhou’s father is, Zhou Yang has been waiting for her. Later, when the scandal was

uncovered, Zhou Yang went to find her, and they had a big fight and broke up.

Later, I knew nothing about it, so when I saw her team holding an activity in the mall where Zhou Yang belonged

, I panicked.

Looking at Zhou Yang carefully looking at her appearance on the stage, I found that the knot in my heart

had never disappeared and was growing.

But I don’t know how to bring it up, I don’t know how to ask, and I don’t know

what the odds are.

That night, I did not go home on time, a person wandering on the overpass, and then

wandering into the neighborhood, walked to the place where I used to listen to music many months ago.

I listened in a trance, unable to hear the lyrics, only a little melody accompanied by the late spring wind blowing through

my ears..

“Do you often come to listen to music?” He stood beside me.

I was surprised by Zhou Yang’s sudden appearance and asked him what was the matter. “No,”

he said. “I was just a little worried when I got home and found no one there. The old man

on patrol told me that you often come to the garden to listen to music.”

I nodded, not wanting to talk, and he stood quietly with me to listen. When the

crowd had dispersed, he asked me, “Are you sleepy?”

“Mmm.” We walked together, and I said, “When you are not here, I go home to sleep after hearing the last

song.”

“Is it that good?” He asked me.

He didn’t know what I was talking about, so I said no more. When the season

changed, I caught a wind-heat cold.

He made breakfast and found that I had not moved. He came up to me, looked at me

, touched my head and asked me why I had a fever.

I was so confused that I woke up in the hospital, and he asked for leave to take care of me.

“If you have anything to do, go and do it. I just have a cold due to wind-heat.”

“If I marry you, I have to take care of you.”

Maybe I was confused, or maybe I couldn’t stand it anymore. I said, “Compared to your

love for her, being responsible is really cheap.”

He was stupefied, and then replied, “Who says that being responsible is not a kind of love?”

I didn’t speak again. I had an intravenous drip for two days. He drove me home. In the car, he told my

parents a lot of short stories. I agreed absentmindedly. After

dinner, we went for a walk in the park. We were about to the Beginning of Summer, and the wind

was warm.

I walked slowly on the gravel road, and he was beside me, walking slowly with my footsteps.

I suddenly stopped, and he suddenly noticed me. He stood two steps away from me, turned around, and asked me, “What’s wrong?”

I said, “Chou Yang, what you told me in the hospital today is not love. I don’t want any more bullshit responsibility!”

He said, “Well, if you say no, then no.”

“I saw her. She came to your mall for an event, and you were there.”

He was stunned in the same place.

You still haven’t thought it through, have you? Will you find that you never lead me when you walk. All your kindness to me can be regarded as responsibility. I have never been given an explanation for the separation since I got married. What do you take me for? “Chou Yang,”

I said, “I’m becoming more and more stingy and greedy. Besides the fireworks of the world, I also want a true heart.”

“Lin Man.” He said, “I’ll give you an explanation.”

I asked him, “Now that you have a chance to be with her, would you go to her?”

I waited for him to say. We stood face to face. He was slow to express his attitude.

I laughed at myself and said, “This time, I don’t want to settle. I don’t want to go any further.”

We walked home in parallel without another word.

The next day, he drove me to work.

I said to find a time to go through the divorce formalities. He said that he would go to the headquarters for a meeting and an examination recently, and the matter of going to the Civil Affairs Bureau would be decided when he came back. I nodded and got out. I didn’t send him any messages these days when

he was on a business trip, and he didn’t give me any information.

I began to live alone again, eating alone, going to work and getting off work. Without him, it seemed that I didn’t have to go to the supermarket very often. I forgot to bring an umbrella when it rained, and I got up late without breakfast.

A person shopping will be very boring, a person’s dinner will be left more than half, these times I will tell myself, such a day to get used to as soon as possible..

But I had a bad fate, and when I wanted to put it down painfully, I would always be tied down. On the fourth day of his business trip, I soberly realized that my period had been delayed for more than a month, thinking that the bloody story was really going to be repeated on me?

I was a little flustered and went to the hospital for a test. Coming out

of the hospital, I held the pregnancy test sheet in my hand. I didn’t know how I felt for a moment. I clicked on the phone bar and hesitated to call him.

He was a week behind schedule, so when he suddenly stood next to me, I was in a daze.

Or the big locust tree, I stood under the locust tree, he stood next to me, playing the guitar is a young boy, wearing white short sleeves, five-minute long black shorts, full of juvenile feeling..

He asked me, “Do I have to hear the last song before I leave?”

I said, “I’m used to it.”

He suddenly took my hand and walked out to the lake, where there were fewer people. He let go of me and said, “Can we not divorce?”

My heart missed a beat and I clenched my hands nervously.

He seemed to think about it for a long time and said, “That question is meaningless, but I still want to tell you that I will not leave you to find anyone.”. Lin Man, I do not know when to start, I can not help but think of you, see the street flower sellers will think, you will not like, buy you you will not think I am puzzled. If you see something delicious in a magazine, you will want to cook it for you. On a business trip, I passed by interesting places, so I thought I must take you to see them. I can’t see you being bullied by others. You are still carrying everything on your own, which will make me very uncomfortable. My father said that I should spend the important days with my family, and I could only think of you at that time. Every nook and cranny of my life is you, and it can only be you.

I asked him, “You and her-”

“I did contact her, but I didn’t go to her. I slept alone in the office, turned on my cell phone, saw your message, and then I felt that she was not so important..” He lowered his head slightly and went on to say, “At first I couldn’t get over the barrier in my heart, but

later I didn’t dare to go back.”. I don’t know how to face you, how to make everything

as if it never happened and make you not so angry.

He said, “Lin Man, don’t be angry with me. Let’s live a good life. This time I’ll show all my

heart.”

He tried to stretch out his arms and hold me in his arms. I felt his warm embrace, and

suddenly I felt like a dead tree in spring.

I wiped the tears from my face and told him, “You won the lottery.”

He laughs: “It’s really a big prize to capture Lin Man’s heart.” Smiling,

I showed him the pregnancy test. “This time it’s buy one get one free.”

Some people quarrel bitterly because of daily necessities, but the relationship between us is

growing, and life is getting sweeter and sweeter.

He is very good at cooking, he said his work is not very busy, let me just be a happy

little fairy, but I always pester him, let him teach me to cook all kinds of delicious food.

He said that although my cooking looks very awkward, the taste is really delicious; he said that he especially

enjoyed sitting on the sofa on the weekend to read the economic weekly, listening to me in the kitchen, and

then having lunch with me..

He has a good character, which is something I knew when he didn’t accept me.

I sometimes do housework carelessly, but no matter what, he will not be angry,

even the next day’s meeting to wear clothes were ironed by me, he will not blame me, but first smiled to comfort me.

I said, “I messed up the one I picked out yesterday, and you didn’t bother me.”

He held me in his arms, stroked me and said, “You are my wife, not my employee

.”. You accidentally screwed up. If I bother you, how can I highlight my discrimination

?

I often feel that the whole world is very warm because of his words. When the

license plate is limited, we will wait for each other to get off work and walk home.

Sometimes when I see a barbecue stand, I will have a meal on the spot. He will pick me up from my business trip

in the hot summer in the early morning. What I like most is to lie in his arms and take a nap on weekends, and then go shopping and park with him in

the afternoon. Sometimes

he is very busy, so I go to bring him a meal.

He said, “Now that you have a baby, you need to rest more.”

I said, “Big babies are more important.”

He was as happy as a child, and then told me his idea while eating. We planned

to drive to Xiamen during the holiday.

Seeing the courtyard in the suburbs, we will imagine living in such a place

when we are old, enclosing a fence, planting my favorite flowers, building a small vegetable garden in the backyard, raising a

dog, planting two trees to enjoy the cool in summer..

My childhood friend told me that she and her husband were going to Guangzhou for development, and they were struggling to buy a house soon. I told her about my bright future with Zhou Yang.

She giggled and said, “What kind of old age thinking is that?”

I said, “You don’t understand. It’s called soul bonding.” In September of

this year, Zhou Yang’s father left in his sleep.

He told me a lot about the past.

He said, “My mother left early, and my father has always been in charge of me.”. He married my stepmother when I was fourteen years old. I refused to accept it anyway, and my father was not in charge of it. On Christmas Eve, my father gave her an apple and she turned around and gave it to me. I hit her on the ground and kicked her far away. My father beat me up. With tears in my eyes, I picked up the apple, washed it and ate it. Then my father went to get another apple and asked me to pass it to my stepmother. He said that no matter how bad a person’s heart is, he should always bless the people who live with him.

He stood in front of his father’s grave, as if to tell the old man and as if to recall himself:

“He has gone, no one has beaten me, and no one cares about me.”. Sometimes I hate him. I hate that he talks to me every day, but he can’t keep my mother. I hate that he likes to take care of everything, as if he were the boss in the world. Sometimes I think he’s especially great, like a mountain or a book.

Dad, you’re in charge of me so much, and the best thing you did was to let me marry Lin Man. Thank you. You can rest assured that I will take good care of Lin Man and my stepmother for you. He was standing alone on the balcony

at night. There was a trace of scarlet in the darkness. I went over and hugged him from behind.

He put out his cigarette and turned to me. I reached out and touched his face. He had been crying for a long time. It was painful to cry. Tears were flowing out.

He said, “My mother is gone, my father is gone, and I’m the only one left in that family.”

I held him very, very tightly and told him, “You have me, and our child, and we will always be with you.” On my

28th birthday, I accidentally sprained my ankle at school. Zhou Yang came in a hurry and refused several times, but it was useless. He still carried me downstairs in full view of the public and went to the hospital for examination.

The doctor said that it was not a big problem. The child was more than three months old and developed very well. Zhou Yang finally breathed a sigh of relief and picked me up carefully. He did not put me down at the parking place.

He said that the hospital was not far from home, and now there was a traffic jam on the road. If I wanted to make a birthday wish before twelve o’clock, let him hold it. As

he walked, he asked me my birthday wish.

I said, “As long as the family is safe, anything else is optional.”

Is there nothing of substance? About yourself?

“Ang, yes, at the age of 26, when my mother urged me to get married, I promised in the marriage temple that I would marry a gentle man, share the fireworks of the world with him, and then watch a grand sunset at the seaside.”

“Lin Man, let me take you to travel, first go to Erhai Lake to accompany you to watch the sunset, go to Beijing to stroll the alleys

, and then go to Nanjing to see the Chinese parasol trees..”

“Good.” Then

he asked me, “Where else do you want to go?”

“Go to Chongqing to eat hot pot.”

“Good.”

I asked him, “I’ve been to so many places, and then what?”

“Then I’ll go home, cook pumpkin paste for you, cook all the things you like to eat, and then

accompany our children to grow up slowly.”

“Ha ha ha ha..”

I snuggled in his arms and smiled happily. I still remember the laughter of

that day, the feeling of great happiness that day is still warm in my heart,

but those times are far away. As

far as I mention the five-month-old child, I no longer feel regret. Zhou Yang and

I failed to go to one place after another in his mouth. Except that he accompanied

me to watch the sunset once before he left, we failed to realize any of our wishes. When Zhou Yang arrived at the hospital, the doctor had already done drainage for me, and I was very weak

lying on the bed, feeling lost.

He came panting, looked at me in a panic, squatted beside my bed, held my

hand and said sorry to me countless times.

I said, “Chou Yang, I lost him by accident.” “It doesn’t matter,”

he said. “It’s all right if you’re all right. When Zhou Ying (his sister) said you were in the hospital

, I was almost scared to death.”

He never mentioned the child, and his eyes were full of me, which made me feel as if it was not so

painful.

Two days later, when I saw the local news report that the girl he had been thinking about was doing an activity in the

mall and was viciously attacked, he accompanied the victim to the ambulance..

And on that day, I lost my child of five months.

I packed up my things at home, stepped on a chair, slipped carelessly, and then my abdomen began to ache

. I called him but no one answered. When I moved downstairs, the blood had flowed to

my ankle. It was my neighbor who called me an ambulance..

It seems that everything has returned to the original point, we are not the young couple

that everyone envies in the mouth of others, he is still him, but I am no longer me. I

don’t have the strength to hate, I don’t have the energy to blame fate, and I only have a numb

heart.

He explained to me with red eyes: “You believe me, Lin Man. At that time, the person in charge of the Publicity Department was not there, and the security department informed

me. I didn’t think so much. I would go to help anyone.”. The mobile phone was

squeezed out in the chaos, so I didn’t get your call. Really, don’t read what people on the Internet are saying.

I just helped take her to the hospital without hugging her. I didn’t even look at

her directly.

I said, “I know.” The more

I say this, the more sad he is, but I have nothing else to say, I really

know, I know what he said is true, but I still feel very aggrieved, very sad,

days to tease the feeling, really not so good.

He looked at me, squatted down slowly, leaned against the corner, hugged his head and cried, crying until his body

trembled.

Such a tall man, who gave me a sense of security at countless moments, squatted helplessly

in the corner and cried.

The incident continued to ferment on our city’s news network, with public opinion and posts everywhere.

“It seems that the relationship between husband and wife is not in harmony. No wonder they haven’t had a child for two years.”

“You can’t just forget your first love in 1978.”

“I think this 20-line dancing star and this store manager are a good match.”

……

My heart seemed to be covered with a layer of haze. I tried very hard, but it still couldn’t disperse.

I think I should go out for a walk, so I signed up for the teaching activity that I had hesitated for a long time. The place was far away and the facilities were relatively backward. I hesitated because of Zhou Yang, and now I want to go because of him.

I only left him a note: the little turtle wanted to swim in the sea, and then went into battle lightly and started a new life.

There was no airport chase. He understood, so he let me go.

He sent me a message on the WeChat saying,

“Be safe and take care of yourself. I’m here to fight for you. You go outside and get some air. But don’t be too long. I’m afraid I won’t be able to resist looking for you.”

I thought about it for a long time, but I replied, “Yes.”. Although the

teaching place is a remote mountain village, but the scenery is very good, the air is very fresh, the villagers are also very kind, there are two primary schools, a middle school. In addition to training several local teachers,

I occasionally teach the children in the school. Although I am a little busy, I feel very meaningful and full, and my mood is much better.

Zhou Yang sends me messages every day, reporting to me what he ate, what time he slept, what time he woke up, several meetings, telling me to take good care of myself, telling him what he wants to eat, and he sends me..

Sometimes I would forget to reply to his message, he did not say anything, the next day is still step by step to send me.

He sent me two power banks and a flashlight, a lot of snacks that I usually like, and some daily necessities from time to time, including sunscreen, mosquito repellent, and two pairs of newly bought sports shoes.

He seems to know the weather here before I do, and then tell me whether to wear thick or thin early, reminding me to remember to take an umbrella. In the middle of

May, the sports shoes I brought from home had worn out the soles. I walked up and down the slope of the board shoes. When I came back from school and looked at the blisters on my feet, I remembered that Zhou Yang had sent me two pairs of sports shoes, which had been piled up in the corner of my room as idle goods.. One morning

in June, looking at the sunny day outside, he reminded me again and again to take an umbrella. I impatiently took my backpack and went to class. As a result, when school was over, the rain outside had made the yellow earth muddy.

I stood at the door waiting for the rain to stop, carefully turning over every message he sent me, and my nose was sour.

I told him, “Chou Yang, I don’t have an umbrella.” “It doesn’t matter,”

he said. “I’ll wait with you until the rain stops.”

Then he called me on a video call. We hadn’t seen each other for more than two months. He seemed to have lost weight. When he saw me, he was smiling.

He asked me how I was doing, and I said it was OK. I also asked him, and he said it was not good.

He said, “Lin Man, I miss you. Can I come to you?”

“Why are you like a child?” I said, “I work here, and I don’t have time to accompany you even if you come.”

He nodded and told me no more about coming. I told him that I was all right here and let him take care of himself.

He also told me a lot. I listened carefully. When I hung up the video, I told him that he should go back at the end of the year. He smiled and said yes.

In August, the fifth month I stayed in that place, the weather was very hot, there was no air conditioning, so I had to take a cold shower to relieve the fever.

Villagers would set up tables under trees and by the roadside to enjoy the evening breeze, and I would go back very late. I would also enjoy the evening breeze with them in the streets, and sometimes I would get watermelons soaked in well water.

I often walk back to the place where I live alone in the dim street lamp. I don’t know which day I start to feel that I am being followed. I take a flashlight to shine on it, but I can’t see anything.

Later, the man would throw one or two stones. I pretended to call someone and hurried back. After that, I didn’t dare to go again. I was blowing a fan in my room alone. In the middle of the night, someone hit my window with stones.

I reported the situation to the village branch. They said that there was indeed a mentally abnormal man in the village recently. They said they would deal with it and told me not to be afraid. When I

got back, I still couldn’t put my heart down. I had a nightmare all night and woke up to find someone sitting beside my bed. I was so frightened that I clenched my blanket. “Don’t be afraid,” he said. “I’m Chou Yang.”

I looked at him dreamily, and he sat quietly, as if waiting for me to confirm.

He said the company had a long holiday, and he came. I

don’t know why, but I couldn’t control the tears on my face.

He leaned over and held me in his arms. “Why are you still crying?”

I didn’t tell him about being followed. I said I should be happy.

He stayed there with me for a week, like a little sidekick, following me from

school to dormitory, and from dormitory to school.

When I was lecturing, he was waiting for me outside. When I went back, he also went back, and then he was my kitchen

.

I played the role of a tour guide and took him around after dinner every day. The wind

near September is no longer so sultry, he led me, we stood on a hill,

in front of an endless grassy slope.

The setting sun covered half the sky, and the orange light spread to the

feet of the child with the windmill, followed by his father and mother.

“Chou Yang, when I get back, let’s have a baby.” Stunned,

he looked at me and said, “Good.” I dropped him off at the station in town and told him he’d be back by the end of the year. He nodded and

hugged me tightly.

I patted him on the back and said, “All right, why are you still being pretentious?”

The next time I saw him, it was Frost’s Descent, our wedding day.

“Affectation is affectation, Lin Man. Today is our second wedding anniversary, and I have to come here no

matter what I think.”

I giggled, took his arm and told him, “I just miss you again.”

He gave me a scarf, saying that there should be no time to come before the New Year and let me wear it in winter.

I laughed that he was becoming more and more nagging, a bit like my mother, and he laughed too.

He looked at my empty and humble kitchen, said that a person’s life can not be too settled, and

then dragged me to the town to buy things. When he came back in the

evening and passed by the wild grass, he squatted down and picked some flowers, tied them with ropes and handed them to

me.

He said that there was no one to buy flowers nearby. If he brought them from home, they would wither. The flowers were ugly

, but his heart was true.

We just talked about everything, and when we got home, we found that we didn’t buy oil.

I teased him with a smile and told him to wait at home. I went to Mr. Chen’s house next door

to borrow some. The houses here are not next to each other. Most of them are separated by a few trees or a clump of grass. I borrowed the

oil, holding the porcelain bowl back, a figure suddenly flashed in front of me, the oil spilled half a bowl

out. Steady,

I hurried around from one side and ran towards the door. The man suddenly ran like crazy

. With a bang, I was thrown to the ground by him. The bowl was broken and there was still oil and water on my hands

.

I frantically shouted for help and hit his body with my hand.

Zhou Yang soon appeared, but he could not take any action.

The man imprisoned me in one hand and held an axe in the other.

I forced myself to calm down and not make any sound.

“I can give you anything you want.” Chou Yang told the man, “Don’t be impulsive

.” “I want a wife, and this is my wife!”

The man shouted in a confused voice.

As he spoke, he approached me with the tip of the axe.

“Good, good.” Chou Yang tentatively asked the madman, “Where are you going? I’ll take

you.”

“Get out!” The madman yelled and said to me, “Let’s go home.”

Zhou Yang looked at me. I shook my head gently and was forced to turn around and walk forward

with the same frequency as the madman. In

the fifth step, Zhou Yang broke off the madman’s hand from behind, and I ran away quickly while the madman was frightened.

The madman swung from side to side. Zhou Yang clamped him on the ground. At the moment of taking the axe away, the madman swung the axe and cut Zhou Yang’s left abdomen. Blood came out in an instant and dripped on the ground through his clothes.

The madman laughed a few times and ran away. I knelt down beside Zhou Yang in horror, and the neighbors ran over when they saw it.

Zhou Yang was sent to the only clinic in the village. The doctor went into the back room to sew him up. He stayed inside for a long time. I was so scared that I felt cold all over, but my palms were wet with sweat.

Do not know how long, Zhou Yang came out, some white lips, the spirit is very good.

He said it was just a little skin injury. Don’t worry. The doctor said it was better to go to the town and disinfect it again.

I asked the doctor, “Is it not sterilized?”? No tetanus?

Chou Yang grabbed me and said, “Of course I’ll do it, but the disinfection facilities here are not complete. I’m afraid I’ll get infected. I’ll just go to the town clinic and have a good disinfection.” With a troubled look on his face, the

doctor told me, “The South River is going to flood. We have to do it as soon as possible!”

Hearing this, I felt a sudden chill in my heart. I grabbed Zhou Yang and told him that I wanted to go with him. He didn’t allow it, but there was no time to push.

It was already very late, and there was no special bus to the town. I borrowed an electric tricycle to drive Chou Yang. Halfway up the mountain, I met a large group of people. A man panted and stopped me

: “The Nanhe River is going to flood, and some houses are going to collapse. Everyone is running up the mountain. How can you go down?”.

Zhou Yang pulled me from behind and said he should be all right. Don’t go down the mountain again. It’s very dangerous. The doctor at the

town clinic is an old-timer, and I should be sure he won’t be leaving soon.

I drove a little faster and said, “The flood hasn’t come yet. I don’t know how many days I’ll have to stay on the mountain when the flood comes. It’s even more dangerous for you to be infected.”

On that day, we were like prisoners who had committed a great crime and were at the mercy of fate.

The sky is dark, the closer to the bottom of the mountain, the stronger the wind, the whole mountain town is like a huge beast to devour us, the people of the town run up the mountain wave after wave, the eyes are full of war and chaos..

I rushed to the south slope regardless. The door of the town clinic was wide open. I rushed in and found the old doctor lying on the ground. I helped the old man up. Zhou Yang did not sit on the tricycle waiting for me.

He came over and helped me with the old doctor.

I asked the old doctor, “Where is the emergency medicine box and the medicine for the knife wound? I’ll take it for you and send you out now.” Chou Yang and

I took the old man to the south slope, and someone came to meet him. Then we took a loudspeaker and shouted down the slope: “Let’s go, we have to evacuate urgently, the South River is going to flood!”

I rushed down the slope regardless, ready to run into the house to get the medicine box. There was

a dull rumbling sound-in

my dizzy consciousness, I could still feel a man desperately protecting me in his arms.

Zhou Yang propped up in front of my body, the two of us squatted in a narrow corner, the beam slanted in front of us, blocking other collapsed heavy objects, the water on the ground just over the ankle. I couldn’t see his face clearly in the

dark, and I reached out to touch his shoulder, arm, back.. Trying to see if he was hurt.

“Lin Man, this isn’t the right time to play hooligan, is it?”

I couldn’t laugh at all, and as I listened to his slightly difficult breathing, I began to sob again.

I asked him, “Does your wound hurt?”

“It’s okay.” He said, “They said they wouldn’t let you come. Do you know how much I would blame myself if you couldn’t get out?”

I shook my head and said to him, “I’m sorry, Zhou Yang, I’m sorry, it’s all because of me.” “Don’t cry.”

He stroked my face with difficulty. The air was cold and damp, the water on the ground had spread over the calf, and the whole body was cold to the bone

marrow.

Zhou Yang put his head on my shoulder, and I leaned against the wall and fell asleep intermittently until a beam of light came in through the gap

.

“Lin Man, I love you.”

We looked at each other-

I smiled and told him seriously, “I love you too.”

“If only we had known each other earlier, we’d better be childhood sweethearts, and then I’m sure I’ll marry you without

hesitation.”

I said, “Come on, you must be responsible for me in this life.”

“I’m sorry. You could have been so lucky, but I’m the only one.”

“What’s so unlucky about marrying your first love?”

He smiled, still so good-looking, so calm, as if he had not experienced any pain

at the moment.

We were there for 19 hours, and the cold water was buried up to my waist line. Too many simple days

before, never thought there was such a tribulation, until I felt that

death was very close to me, I found that everything was so fragile and changeable, we

were whipped to kneel in front of fate. I

prayed, I prayed..

Until I heard someone shouting outside, the old doctor told the villagers that we were still trapped at the foot of the mountain. The village brigade and enthusiastic villagers brought tools and dug for three hours to rescue us.

Zhou Yang had a fever. Fortunately, the fever subsided the next day. He jumped twice in front of me and told me that his injury was not serious. He told me not to be so cautious.

We stayed in the mountains for six days, the town began to rebuild, and the person in charge let me finish my work early.

I left that place and returned to the familiar city. There were still people singing downstairs in the community. The school still made me feel full of vigor and vitality. The park on weekends was still full of laughter and laughter. My home with Zhou Yang was still that home.

The days are dull and happy, as if nothing had happened.

From then on, Zhou Yang began to cherish the present. He made plans with almost all the time he could, and then fulfilled them one by one.

November 1

“Lin Man, do you have no classes tomorrow?”

“Ang, what’s wrong?”

“Let’s go and see the sea.”

“Don’t you have to go to work?”

“I asked for leave.”

I looked at him in disbelief and he responded with a firm look and a gentle smile.

We took the high-speed rail to the nearest place to see the sea, because it was not a holiday time, so there were not many people at the seaside.

He took me by the hand and we walked on the beach until the sun went down.

At the foot is the mellow sand, the sea breeze is cool but not biting, and the sunset is walking, kneading the sky into its own color bit by bit. The sea in the distance was also dizzy, it was a grand sunset, much more shocking than I had imagined.

We found a homestay for one night, and the next day we went to eat local specialties. I took his arm and happily forgot myself. If we

forget ourselves, there must be something bad to break

. When we were walking in the nearby park, a fortune-teller stopped us with great enthusiasm. I thought, let’s make a divination. The fortune-teller asked Zhou Yang to avoid it professionally. Zhou Yang sat on the chair in front of me and waited for me.

Sure enough, it disturbed all my good mood. Zhou Yang laughed and asked me what was wrong.

“The fortune-teller was deliberately giving me a hard time. He said a lot of things I didn’t like to hear, although the first half of his guess was generally correct.”

Chou Yang put his arm around my shoulder and asked, “What did he say about offending my little fairy?” “He said I was doomed.”

Zhou Yang suddenly stopped, stood opposite me and said, “Give me your hand.”

I stretched out doubtfully.

He held out his hand and took my hand with his fingers and said, “Now, all your bad

luck has passed on to me.”

Bah! I frowned and tried to pull my hand away, but suddenly

he pulled me into his arms and hugged me very tightly.

“What’s the matter?” I asked him.

“It’s all right. I suddenly want to hug you.”

I reached out and stroked his back and told him, “It’s all right. Actually, I don’t believe in fortune

telling at all.”

the Beginning of Winter, he cooked a table of dishes. When I got home from work, I looked at the table in surprise and asked

him, “Will there be guests in the house today?”

“No.” He pointed to several dishes on the table and said, “This, this, and this,

I haven’t cooked for you, and I want you to taste it.”

On the weekend, I had planned to take a photo shoot, but it rained. We had a hot pot at

home with a sense of ritual. After dinner, he cleaned up the battlefield and I followed the drama. After

he packed up, he sat next to me. I snuggled in his arms and chatted with him about what to eat during

pregnancy. I don’t know if it was a hallucination. I felt his body stiffened.

“If Xiao Lin needs something, I’m sure I’ll have to take care of it.”

I gave him a white look. “I’m telling you the right thing!”

“I know, but I went to the master to calculate. The master said that our child was suitable to be born in January. I calculated that it would have to be conceived in April and May.”

“Since when do you believe in this?”

“This is actually believing in fate. Don’t you also believe in it?”

I giggled and didn’t care about him.

From then on, he became very busy. Maybe it was almost the end of the year. He didn’t have time to go shopping with me. He didn’t have dinner with me. He didn’t know what time he had to work overtime at night. He couldn’t see him for three days in a row.

Then he came home, I told him not to work too hard, I was really lonely when he came home at night, he didn’t say anything, just hugged me tightly, I also hugged him, feeling the long-lost temperature.. On Friday, November

16, I made an appointment with Zhou Yang to have dinner at a theme restaurant. After work, I drove happily to prepare for the appointment, but I received a phone call from Zhou Ying.

She cried and told me that Zhou Yang was in the hospital and asked me to go there quickly.

I wondered again and again if I had misheard. Why did I go to the hospital? Suddenly, my heart was in a mess and I galloped all the way to the hospital. Zhou Yang has just been rescued and is lying in ICU. I can only see him through the glass window.

They told me that Zhou Yang had tetanus and there was rust on the axe. His wound was not healed at all

. The

village clinic did not have tetanus antitoxin at all. At that time, the situation was urgent and there was no guarantee that

he could get the medicine from the town clinic. So he lied to me that he just needed to disinfect. The South River

flooded and washed everything away.

The doctor told me that Zhou Yang’s infection belongs to the more serious kind, and it

has been nearly a week since he entered the attack period. At present, he can only take targeted intervention, and there is not much hope of recovery.

My legs collapsed on the ground as if they had been pulled out of their sinews.

There’s not much hope. There’s just a glimmer of hope.

On November 19, Zhou Yang was transferred from ICU to a single intensive care unit.

His consciousness is very clear, and there is no obvious morbidity from the outside. He can say

a lot of words to me, and I respond to him with a smile. At four o’clock in the

afternoon, he had a violent spasm in his face, neck and abdomen. After that

, he could not speak. No matter what I said, he stopped looking at me. At 11 o’clock in the

evening, I was lying on the bed. He was lying on the bed and asked me, “Lin Man,

did I scare you?”

“No.”

“Are you afraid?” “I’m not afraid.” I said, “What I fear is that you will ignore me. We are husband and wife, and we should

share weal and woe.”

I searched for a cure for this disease in many ways, but I didn’t get a clear

answer. The attack

a week later made Zhou Yang cry. He said he was in pain because he was not awake for a moment during the attack

.

Six days later, he suffered from apnea and was sent to the emergency room. I almost broke

down and begged the doctor to save him. At 8

P. m., he returned to the ward, wearing a ventilator, and continued to sleep.

On December 5, he was able to remove his breathing mask and maintain normal oxygen intake.

On Christmas Eve, I lay on the bed and told him about my childhood. He took out an apple from the drawer like

magic and handed it to me across the bed. His hand

was shaking. I caught it quickly.

“This is the third safe fruit you have given me.”

“Mmm.”

On December 27, Zhou Ying looked after him in the hospital, and I went home to pack up some daily necessities.

At the elevator entrance, I met Hu Xiaoliang (Zhou Yang’s assistant), who was also his good friend.

“Just in time, sister-in-law, I’ll give you the key,” said Hu Hsiao-liang. “Manager Chou asked me to take some documents from his

study.” I nodded, listened to his greetings and went upstairs.

When I went downstairs and passed the trash can at the door, I saw a cardboard box.

The cardboard box was clearly just taken by Hu Xiaoliang. I thought about why

his friend came to throw the document, so I picked up the cardboard box. After

opening it, my heart was completely pulled up.

Inside was a pile of newspapers about the mountain village, and there was a stack of air tickets, train

tickets and bus tickets to get there.

Far more than two times he met me, there was a physical examination report in early November, a

travel plan, which was written

from the day he promised my birthday wish, and he made a very detailed strategy for every place. At the bottom of the

box was a stack of work notes, on which he wrote an essay:

“Lin Man made dinner and waited for me to get off work in

2016. It turns out that home feels like this.”

“I seem to like Lin Man.”

January 2017

: Zhou Yang, you are so weak that you dare not mention anything about going back to the nest.

April: How to save the scum of the hesitation. June: Remember to lead Lin Man when walking.

September: Father passed away, a little lonely.

November: I’m sorry, I’m sorry. April 2,

2018: Go to the place where Lin Man works. The road is not easy to walk, the shoes are wasted, the road

is too dark, and the power supply is unstable.

April 23: Send her sneakers and power bank.

May 19: No supermarket, send snacks.

June 26: There are more mosquitoes over there, so spray is sent.

July 23: Someone followed him, she was afraid, caught the man did not beat him, turned out to be

a madman.

August 4: Go fair and square.

September 15: Time goes by so slowly.

October 21: The second wedding anniversary of Lin Man is three days away, so I have to go

there.

…… Whether she can

live a few more days or not, Lin Man still has a lot of wishes that have not come true, but it seems that there is no

chance. I’m sorry. In my next life, I will fall in love with you first. “If I hurt you again one day, it must not be my intention.”

“I love you, LM.”

I looked through the paper box with tears and a smile.

Putting things in the passenger seat, I drove fast on the road. There was a traffic jam at the big bridge. I got

out of the car and rushed to the hospital with things in my arms. While

waiting for the red light, Zhou Ying called me to say that Zhou Yang was gone.

My heart was beating suddenly, but my brain was pulled into a straight line, fixed in place, my feet could not move a step

, and my hands holding the box were getting colder and colder.

Zhou Ying found me and took me to the hospital. I didn’t dare to look at him. I didn’t have the courage to step into

the room.

Zhou Yang died after swallowing half a bottle of sleeping pills. They said it was good and it wouldn’t be too painful

.

They said it was doomed and that he should have made a decision very early.

Zhou Ying said that she looked for everything around him and found that he only left me a letter.

In this season, the wind has been cold to the bone, the withered flowers and plants have no new life, the trees

beside the road only have withered branches, I hold the letter he wrote to me, like a corpse whose soul has been taken away. “

The first time I saw you, I thought you were special enough,”

he said. You are so quiet but full of sharpness. When I first married you, I was thinking that this woman could really endure it. I was like that, and I didn’t cry or make trouble. It was just to benefit me.

You give me enough right to let me bully you, but for me now, the harm I did to you before, ten lives are not enough for me.

Later, I didn’t get used to it without you. We are very happy and have a tacit understanding with each other.

You pushed me out of the kitchen, I was in a hurry, I was making documents on the tea table, listening to you tinkling in the kitchen, you called me to eat, I was going to listen to it for fifty years. If you say too much, you will think I am hypocritical again.

Lin Man, when bad things come, people have a premonition. The doctor in the village clinic said that it was dangerous not to have a tetanus. I wanted to gamble, but when I thought of you, I thought I couldn’t gamble. You were in a hurry to go down the mountain to get medicine for me. You were trapped in such an uncomfortable place for so long. So, you don’t owe me.

Maybe it’s doomed. This life is really predestined. You believe in fate so much, and you are beautiful and kind. You are sure to meet a person who is better than me. Let him take good care of you for me

in this life, if he bullies you, I will become a ghost for you to clean him up, but don’t be superstitious, in fact, there is no master to calculate the birth of a child in a few months, ha. I actually smiled. Don’t you also like to see me smile? You said that when I smiled, I saw that the first time you saw me, you had the courage to entrust me for life.

Lin Man, you are so shallow. I didn’t change the subject. Don’t be angry. I’m sorry for taking the initiative. But I’m separated from you by life and death. I really don’t want to be haunted by a child in your

life. I hope you can always be free, willful and happy.

Lin Man, I know you are very tired. Every time you talk to me with a smile in the ward, you don’t cry in front of me. But now you don’t look in the mirror when you see me. You run to me with red eyes like rabbits. Do you know that every tear you shed is like an ice knife in my heart?

I almost forgot, this letter is not used to remember, it is used to say goodbye, let’s stop here.

Lin Man, there is nothing to cry, I may just be used to the years with you, and I don’t love you much.

I sat on the bench with the letter. That day, it snowed again. I knew that no one would touch the snow off my head and take me home.

That day, I did not cry, but felt that my heart had been depressed with a thing, but many days later, at home, the dining table, the kitchen, the tea table, the bedroom, I could stare at anything for a whole day, and then unconsciously burst into tears.. Living together for a

long time is too intimate. I don’t know how many years my love will last, but there will never be another person in my life.

Snow is dusk snow, branches are late autumn branches, we love the years or each other in the end.

the Spring Festival, I stayed at my parents’ home for a few days. When I moved back home, they still didn’t trust me to live alone

. I told them that they were all right and would have to face it sooner or later.

After tidying up, it was already eight o’clock in the evening. Urged by my parents’ repeated phone calls, I wrapped

myself in an overcoat and prepared to go downstairs to buy dinner.

Out of the door, all the red street scenes rushed into the eyes, red couplets

were pasted on the two walls of the store, red lanterns were hung on the eaves of the door, pomegranate lanterns were wrapped around the trees, and

children ran happily laughing and setting off fireworks..

I was awakened by the sound of a cannon, so this is the year, the year is not over. It took a long

walk to find a porridge shop.

“Welcome, tonight.” The man at the counter stood up. “What

would you like to eat?”

I scanned the menu, my eyes fixed on the stomach porridge column.

“What’s your Pumpkin Congee like here?”

“Oh, our Pumpkin Congee is made of pumpkin and glutinous rice flour, without any..”

“Pack one for me.”

……

“Pumpkin paste. Peel the pumpkin and steam it in a steamer for 15 minutes.”

“The pumpkin you cut is too big.” “All right, all right, turn down the fire.”

“Lin Man, you are quite talented, although the kitchen you built is a bit like a chemical plant, ha

ha ha..”

……

“Your Pumpkin Congee, madam. Our store has just opened. There is a raffle. Will you join

us?”

“No, thanks.”

The pumpkin paste was hot, so I grabbed it in my coat, pushed the door open and went out-

bang!

A child running towards me bumped into me, and the pumpkin paste fell to the ground with the packing box, and some of it spilled on my clothes and hands when I squeezed

it.

I looked at the porridge spilled all over the floor and the red hands, and I froze in place.

“Apologize to Auntie..”

“I’m sorry, kids don’t know what to do. How much money do you have?”

……

I squatted down slowly, straightened the box, and cried uncontrollably. I cried for a long time, the whole body of water will be squeezed into tears by me, whether passers-by regard me as

a madman or a fool, crying until I collapse, crying until I lose my voice..

Suddenly, a man squatted down, squatted beside me, stroked my tears, and held my hand. What’s

the matter? Lin Man.

That voice is so familiar, I frowned, struggling to think, to find.

I looked at him, tried to look at him, but I couldn’t see his face clearly, so I was still

crying, desperately in the world where I seemed to be alone.

……

“Don’t be afraid, I’m Chou Yang.”

I opened my eyes-

he was crouching beside my bed, holding my hand.

I looked at Zhou Yang with tears on my face and hugged him tightly.

He touched my back and asked me, “What’s wrong?”? Crying so bitterly?

“What’s the date today?”

“December 26th. Why?”

December 26th, 7:18. I snuggled in Zhou Yang’s arms and told him about last night’s dream.

“How can I leave you alone?” He smiled and touched my head.

“Didn’t the doctor say that he was getting better and would be out of the hospital soon? Don’t always

think about it.”

My heart still couldn’t calm down for a long time. Holding Zhou Yang’s hand tightly, I raised my head slightly and told

him:

We have experienced so much together. We must be together well. I’m sure the doctor

will cure you, but whatever happens, don’t leave me alone,

will you?

“Okay, we’ll be together. I’ll be with you forever.” He laughed and said,

“I’m not that great. Love can make people selfish. You don’t know. I

wish I could be with you every day.”

I looked at him with a smile and felt that I had got the most reassuring oath in the world.

Zhou Yang was discharged from hospital in March next year, a particularly bright morning. On that day, there were many more people in his ward

, relatives, friends, colleagues..

They came to celebrate Zhou Yang’s recovery from a long illness. I

finally put down the heart I carried every day and breathed a sigh of relief.

Thank fate for not letting Zhou Yang leave me.

Yes, thank you. Zhou Yang is finally well. Zhou Yang can finally hold my hand and say,

“Thanks for your hard work, Lin Man.”. Let’s go home..

Good. Let’s go home..

We went back to the home that belonged to us, and everything was still the same.

Zhou Yang took out a book from his storage box and handed it to me. It was a very detailed travel plan book. I opened it. The first place was Erhai Lake. It was suitable for the time, mode of travel, accommodation, special catering.. He wrote down everything about the place carefully. “I started a long time ago,”

he said. “Now I’ve written about 29 places. I’ll write about them when you think of something you like.”. Take your time. I’ll accompany you wherever you want to go.

“When you are young, you hold each other in your heart and see the world more. When you are old, you hold the world in your heart and I only look at you.” This should be the best life. On the first day of

the Qingming holiday, we visited Longevity Hill together.

In April, the weather was neither hot nor cold, and the warm sun was shining on the breeze. He led me, and we got on the ship of the Great Song Dynasty. With the flow of people, we walked from the cross slope to the battlefield of the walled city. We bought sugar figurines, watched many performances, and enjoyed a lot of cultural scenery. At the end of the day, we walked more than 26,000 steps. Nine o’clock in the

evening, a tired but also a carefree lying in the guesthouse, he planned the next day’s trip, I lay in his arms, do not know when to fall asleep.

Zhou Yang.. Zhou Yang.. I cried out his name. “Well, I’m here.” In the

dream, someone held my hand gently.

…… When I

woke up, Zhou Yang squatted in front of my bed with a glass of water. What’s

the matter? Have you had a nightmare?

I sat up wearily, looked around, swept the room’s furnishings, and made sure it was

another nightmare.

I looked at Chou Yang and hugged him around his neck. “I’ve been having strange

dreams lately.”

“Well, don’t be afraid,” he told me earnestly, patting me on the back. “I’m here to protect

you.”

I dreamed that I shouted Zhou Yang’s name in front of a tomb, said a lot of words in a muddle, and

felt so real that I cried wet the pillow towel in my dream.

Zhou Yang told me that he didn’t want to go back to work in the mall. He planned to open an advertising company

because that was his major in college, and now a classmate just wants to do it

.

I told him, “You just go ahead and do it, and I’ll support you!”

“Good–” he responded, laughing and throwing himself next to me to tickle me. “How could you

curse your husband like that!”

“Ha ha ha ha. Just kidding. Just kidding.” In the middle of

April, he began to work in the company. He was busy until late at night every day, but no matter how late I would wait for him to come back. I told him to take his time and not to be too tired.

He said he was not tired. He said that every time he looked up and saw the lamp I left for him upstairs, he felt relaxed. The company that

Zhou Yang and his friends built together has a good momentum of development. Perhaps in the early days of its establishment, it was not as relaxed and free as he said, and the time to go home was not regular.

But he called me every day, asking me if I was home, urging me to eat on time, and when I came home from work, he would ask me if there was anything I wanted to eat, and he would bring it home to me.

He usually stays at home on weekends. I cook in the kitchen and he works carefully in front of the tea table.

……

“Chou Yang–let’s eat!”

He came over and hung my broken hair behind my ear. “Sit there,” he said. “I’ll take the rice.”

“I can’t. I’ve put on weight recently. You always fill me up with so much.”

“It’s kind of cute to be fat.” “Oh, I can’t believe what the scum say!”

……

“So much?” He scooped up a large spoon of rice and confirmed it to me.

“Again, go to this place again..” I gestured to him in the air. Early

June.

I had lunch at home by myself. I felt a little uncomfortable when I washed the dishes. I vomited many

times. I took the bus to the hospital for a check-up, which was unexpected.

When I called Zhou Yang, he was a little angry and asked me why I didn’t call

him in advance to accompany him to the hospital.

I laughed and teased him about how he had such a childish temper. After repeated excuses, he insisted that

he would come to pick me up immediately and let me find a place to sit for a while.

I watched from a distance as he ran towards me and gently held me in his arms.

He said that he would soon finish his work and make time to accompany me

and take care of me.

I patted him on the back and told him, “Don’t worry, I’ll take care of myself.”. Do your own thing in

a down-to-earth manner.

He picked me up from his arms and asked me innocently, “Have you changed

your mind? You used to be very clingy to me.” “Well, it’s possible!” I teased him with a long drawl.

He pouted the flesh of my face together and said, “Don’t you love me any more?”

“Love, love, love..” I hit him on the hand and answered him. At the end of

July, Zhou Yang Company suffered a change, the capital chain was broken, the company could not operate

normally, and even began to appear deficit.

Zhou Yang didn’t tell me, but after being with him for so long, no matter how he hid it,

I still saw the depression in his eyes. I asked someone to inquire about his

situation.

At eight o’clock in the evening, he entered the door without exception and changed his shoes by the shoe cabinet.

I went over and hugged him.

He let out a long breath and asked me, “What’s wrong?”

“Don’t you need a hug?”

“Need.” He hugged me a little tighter.

For a long time, I pulled myself out and took out two cards and a house book from my pocket.

“This is the gift money and scholarships I’ve saved up since I was a kid, and this is

what I’ve saved up since I started working. This house was originally my home in my hometown, and it was my dowry.” I looked at him with a smile

. “Quite a lot. I’ll give it all to you. Your partner will think of something else. It should be

almost done.” “What if I fail?”

“Then start all over again.”

“In case I can’t –”

“Whatever it is, I’m willing to face it with you, share the joys and sorrows.”

He took my hand and held it in his.

I told him, “We are a family, and I hope that I will stand behind you as a shield and

not a burden.”

“Oh, I didn’t realize that my wife was not only a rich woman, but also a saint.”

“Of course, why don’t you pour the king a glass of water?”

“Promise.”

“Ha ha..” The snow in

2019 came very early, and I dragged my growing pregnant belly and wandered around the cinema

hall waiting for Zhou Yang to go to the appointment. People came and went in the

movie hall until the last screening was over and all the people dispersed, but Zhou Yang

still did not come.

During this time, I made three phone calls to him, one missed and two were “right away.”. When he ran in, I immediately dropped my heart into my stomach and turned angry

.

I knew he had work to do, but it was the weekend, and I wondered if he would become a workaholic if I let

him?

“I was wrong.” He followed my steps forward.

“I’m very angry and I don’t want to forgive.” The

snow was sizzling when I stepped on it, and the fog was particularly eye-catching under the street lamp.

“Please, let’s go home first. You can do whatever you want when you go home.”

“What’s the matter?”

“No, I’ll make amends. You can do whatever you want.” He hugged my arm and begged

for mercy. “The doctor says it’s not good for pregnant women to be angry all the time.”

Pregnant women? Has pregnancy become a synonym for me?

“No, no. Your Majesty, get in the car. It’s so cold outside. I’m worried to death

.”

“It’s your employees that worry you more.”

“How is that possible? You must always come first.”

…… As I walked on, Zhou Yang ran back to the car and brought me a big cotton-padded jacket. He wrapped

the cotton-padded jacket around me and hugged me.

Unable to move, I followed him home. As soon as

he entered the house, he hurriedly served me tea and put me on the sofa.

I was holding a cup of water, and he sat cross-legged on the blanket and wrapped my hands around it. Then he looked up and asked me,

“Did you have dinner today?”

He smiled with a soft look on his face, which made me lose my temper. He

said he was really busy recently, but he would be fine after a while.

He said that when the company was stable, I just needed someone to take care of me. He was the boss and arranged

for the employees. He was with me 24 hours a day.

He said that the advantage of being a boss is that you don’t have to be on call at any time, you have more time at your disposal

, and you won’t be late.

I heard him talk big, and then I rolled his eyes.

He suddenly got up, ran and took a big dictionary from the study, and then sat down again.

“What are you doing?”

“Give our baby a name.”

“So early?” “It’s getting late,” he said, flipping through the dictionary and leaning over to me. “Look at this.”

Ai? Chou Ai?

“Lin-”

“Oh, it’s so rustic.”

Ha ha.. I think it’s fine.

……

“Let’s take the word’year, ‘” I said. “Every year has its present day, and

every year has its present day.”

“Good!” He smiled back at me, propped up his chin and waited for me to continue.

If it’s a girl, it’s called Chin-nien. If it’s a boy, if it’s a boy

, what should I call it?

“Zhengnian.” He said, “It’s exactly this year, exactly that year.”

“Chou Cheng-nien, good.” I put my hand on his shoulder and said, “You’re pretty good at choosing names,

Chou.”

“Just so so.” He took my hand and turned to me and said, “That’s no good. If it’s a

boy, we’ll have to make another daughter.”

“Why?” “Otherwise, the name’Chou Chin-nien ‘that you’ve been working so hard to come up with won’t be useless?”

“We’ll see..”

“The rich woman is really easy to talk to.” He leaned over my shoulder.

“You are so beautiful!” I grabbed him by the ear. “I didn’t say yes!” During

pregnancy, my potential personality was exposed one by one, but no matter how vexatious

, Zhou Yang was very tolerant of me.

His company gradually stabilized, so he had more time to take care of me.

In December, Zhou Yang accompanied me day and night. I told him that there were parents

, don’t worry, the company still had to find time to see, but he refused. At four o’clock in the afternoon of

December 27, I suddenly had a severe pain in my heart. A group of people

came to see the doctor and did a comprehensive examination. There was nothing unusual, but the pain was not stopped. My chest

seemed to be stripped of something, which made me desperate.

Zhou Yang frowned, helplessly holding my hand on his chest, feeling his heartbeat more intense than

mine, I can not help but nose sour, let tears flow all over my face. Before

entering the delivery room, Chou Yang held my hand tightly and looked at me tenderly, saying, “Lin

Man, don’t be nervous. It’s all right. I’ll wait for you outside.”

I smiled and nodded.

Big fool, I should not be as nervous as he is. When Zhou Yang held my hand, I obviously

felt his hand wet with sweat and a slight tremor. Zhou Zhengnian was born at the coldest time, and the doctor told his family members to do a good job of

keeping me warm and keeping up with nutrition.

I was well taken care of by them, and Zhou Yang was even more careful. Every day, he only went to

the company to report his arrival. When he was free, he came to watch me and asked me what I wanted to eat, whether it was cold or hot

. When he wanted to exercise, he was also supported by him.

“I’ll be there later today. I have something to deal with in the company.” Zhou Yang called me.

“It’s all right. Go ahead. I’m not a child.”

“Is there anything you want to eat? I’ll buy it for you later.”

“soup noodles with spare ribs, if you come across anyone selling sugar-fried hawthorn, give me a bag.” I can’t help smiling

when I think of myself who has been eating like a tiger recently.

Zhou Yang also laughed. I asked him what he was laughing at and whether he thought I ate too much. He

said no. He said he laughed because he heard me laugh.

“Chou Yang, you are becoming more and more glib.” I laughed and teased him, “I won’t talk

to you anymore. You can work hard. Goodbye.”

“Okay, I’ll see you later.” When

my mother came home with a change of clothes, she asked me what I wanted to eat. I told her that I had asked Chou Yang

to buy it for me. My mother scolded me, “It’s snowing so heavily outside, and Chou Yang

is running around buying this and that. I don’t know how to feel sorry for people!”. My heart missed a beat and I told my mother that I didn’t know it was snowing. Standing by the window and

looking out, snowflakes were flying all over the sky. At seven or eight o’clock, there were very few pedestrians on the road. There was

a thick layer of snow, and the car could not move.

I quickly called Zhou Yang and told him that I didn’t need to buy it, and I could eat in the hospital canteen. The creaking of his

feet in the snow, accompanied by his irregular panting, came from the other end of the phone

. “I’ve bought hawthorn for you, and I’ll go back after I finish buying noodles.”

“Are you cold?”

“It’s not cold. The scarf you knitted for me is very warm.”

Really? Then I’ll knit you another one next year.

“The son you gave birth to is also very lovely.”

That.. Go away, Chou Yang, you — “

All right, all right, I won’t tease you any more. I’ll go back right away.”

“OK, be safe.”

“Mmm.”

…… When

Zhou Yang came back, it was nearly nine o’clock. I heard him stamping his feet outside the door. He should

be shaking off the snow on his body. Smiling, he pulled soup noodles with spare ribs and

a bag of hawthorns out of his padded jacket and put the noodles on the table for me to unwrap. “

Eat them while they’re hot.”

His mother handed Chou Yang a cup of hot water and said, “It’s a snowy day. I can’t drive. Is it a long

run?”

“Not far. It’s near the hospital.”

“Have you eaten yet?”

“Yes, I have.” Chou Yang told his mother, “Mom, I don’t have to go to the company tomorrow. You can rest

. I’ll take care of Lin Man.”

Mother was lying on the empty bed in the south, and Zhou Yang sat beside me with a cup of hot water in his hand, watching

me eat noodles.

I reached out and touched the tip of his red nose, feeling a little distressed. “If you can’t buy it, don’t buy

it. I don’t have to eat fried hawthorn with sugar.”

“It’s really not far.” He smiled and touched my face.

I took a hawthorn and fed it to him without saying anything more about it.

I looked at the bag of Suji sugar fried hawthorn, opened my mobile phone and saw his WeChat steps, I

can’t imagine how he walked more than 23000 steps in the ice and snow. When the

child was one month old, Zhou Yang told me that he set up his own business in order to have

more free time and come to me at any time.

I told him that I could take care of myself and that I should be more busy there while the company was developing well.

He laughed and said that his size was at most a studio. He didn’t want to be rich and noble. He could be simple and have a little savings.

I held the baby and he put his arm around me and hummed, “The most romantic thing I can think of is to grow old with you until we’re old enough to be everywhere.”

I was so confused by him that I snuggled up to him and cried half of his shirt wet. Laughing,

he asked me, “Why are you crying more and more? I cry with you every year.”

I looked at the baby in my arms and told him, “You must be too rustic and sing too badly.”

“No, people in the company say I’m comparable to Dawn, ha ha..”

Every year on our wedding anniversary, he would take me to a place with a little sense of ceremony for dinner, no matter who had brought much malice, no matter what had happened in our lives, when we raised our glasses and looked at each other sincerely, when he said to me with a smile, “I am very happy, I love you very much.” I feel that everything is still vivid and lovely, and life is always brilliant.

Zhou Yang is a ray of light in my long dull and hurried life. He shows me his inner tolerance and love without reservation.

“Chou Yang, you cry every year. What should you do?” “Chou Yang, every year he calls out to his father and mother.”

“Chou Yang has been waking up every year, looking for his father.”

“Chou Yang, that pineapple Sweet and Sour Pork, do you put the pineapple or the meat first?”

“Chou Yang, it’s so fast. It’s one year old every year.”

“Chou Yang, let’s eat.”

“Chou Yang, buy me a bag of salt.”

“Chou Yang, are you off duty?”

“Chou Yang, you’d better go to Yushan Island first in May.”

“Chou Yang, drive safely and go home early.”

……

Zhou Zhengnian can walk. Zhou Zhengnian can talk a lot. Zhou Zhengnian doesn

‘t cry at his grandmother’s house. I evaluated the title. Zhou Yang’s company is booming. We went to Erhai Lake

to watch the sunset. We went to Chongqing to eat hot pot. We went to Beijing to stroll in the alleys and met a heavy snow.

Go to Yushan Island to see the flowers all over the mountains, we will watch Zhou Zhengnian grow up slowly, we

will go to many places..

Time keeps running, as if everything is moving forward without stopping.

We guard the beauty of the years with love and sincerity, just as he says to

me every year, “I am very happy and love you very much.”.

Today is June 9, still plain but still happy day. At six o’clock in the

afternoon, I came back from studying in other places. Zhou Yang picked me up at the airport. Then we went to my parents’ house to pick up Zhou Zhengnian. We caught the rush hour after work, and the car was stuck on the boundless main road.

“I’ll go down and buy two bottles of water.”

“Good.”

This is a relatively busy street, the sun is just about to set, all the stores are lit up the door lights, crowded.

Walking forward a few steps, I suddenly noticed a closed shop next to it, the bottom of the glass door had accumulated a thick layer of ash, the orange sunlight slanted on the table in the room, and my heart was suddenly empty. How could there be such a shop in

such a popular street? I took a few steps back and stared up at the door in a trance. There was a wooden plaque hanging on the

door, a plaque with a very old flavor. The two words “tonight” were engraved on the plaque in black ink, which was particularly conspicuous. April 5,

2019.

I came to see you, Zhou Yang. I’m going to travel for a while, and I’m going to go to the places we agreed to go, according to the strategy you wrote. If the activities you wrote are not fun, who should I go to..

Lin Man reached out and stroked the tomb, wiped off the rain that had just fallen from it, and held up the umbrella that had been in his hand for a long time.

“It’s really raining, Chou Yang. You guessed right again. I took my umbrella, too. You’re really mean. It’s only at times like this that you come to my dream..” December 27,

2019.

“I’ve come to see you, Chou Yang. You’ve been away from me for a year.” Lin Man squatted down and put a bowl of pumpkin paste in his hand in front of a bunch of withered flowers. “I’ve forgotten the pumpkin paste you taught me to make. It was bought at a porridge shop called Tonight. It tastes very similar to what you made.”. I bought it many times, and the two waiters in the store knew me. I bought it for the first time on the night of the 13th, but I didn’t drink it. It was scattered all over the floor. I cried. I was hit by a child crying. You say, how can I be as hypocritical as you? December 27,

2020.

I came to see you, Zhou Yang. It snowed yesterday. There are children making snowmen in the neighborhood. They are so cute. Well, do you think there will be a parallel world where you and I are living happily? We have one child, or two, ha ha.. If it’s a boy, it’s called Zhengnian. If it’s a girl, you say if it’s a girl, what name should we give her?

“By the way, according to the travel plan you wrote, I’ve already been to three places. These are photos, this is the pottery I made, and this is the flowers I brought you from Yushan Island.” She put those things down one by one.

「…… You’ve been away from me for two years. Why does the pain of losing you not diminish in my heart? Chou Yang, what should I do? June 9,

2021.

Lin Man stood in line for 40 minutes at “Tonight” to buy a portion of pumpkin paste. She walked alone in the street, walking on a noisy long street, the sunset shining on the sunset glow, and Lin Man only looked at her feet.

She held the porridge in one hand, half clenched it in the other, and clenched her palm bit by bit: “If you were still here, you would hold my hand and take me home..”

Chou Yang came over and woke up Lin Man, who was in a trance. “What’s the matter?”

“It’s all right. I’m just familiar with this porridge shop.”

“It opened two years ago. I came here several times to buy porridge. I talked to the shopkeeper and said that business was not very good. Now it seems that this place is going to be demolished and renovated.”

“Oh.” Lin Man chuckles. “Maybe I’m wrong. I remember this shop is doing very well, and there are two waiters..”

“Do you want to eat porridge at night?” Holding Nian Nian in one arm, Chou Yang stretched out his other hand and took Lin Man by the hand. “Come on, I’ll do it for you when I get home.”

The sun went down, the city was covered with a layer of soft gold, the crowd was bustling, Lin Man took back his dream-like thoughts and held Zhou Yang’s hand.

“OK, go home..” ……

“Okay, let’s go home.” There should be many, many years of

such days.