Why do girls break up suddenly?

I thought I would love him for a long time if I didn’t see his ex-girlfriend’s micro-blog

.

She posted a picture of the rain looking out of her car with the caption:

“After all these years, you’re still the only one willing to spend three hours waiting for me to get off work.” It was

released on my birthday. On

that day, I waited for my boyfriend at home for three hours.

(1)

I know that Sui Huai loves Pei Zhi, not only me, but also the whole world.

They have been in love for four years. If Pei Zhi hadn’t gone abroad to study after graduation, maybe they

wouldn’t have separated at all.

And I was with Sui Huai, and no one knew except the two of us.

Because I liked it so much, I thought I could wait.

Wait until the clouds open and the moon is bright, wait until every

leaf of the big tree in Sui Huai’s heart is engraved with my name.

But it was not until I saw that Weibo that I realized that I could not wait, because Sui Huai’s heart had never planted a seed about me. When

I was in a daze for a moment, the sound of opening the door sounded, carrying a cold air, melting in the warm room.

Sui Huai took off his coat and suddenly paused when he saw me. Then he said, “I forgot to buy the medicine.”

My menstrual period has always been very difficult, always have to rely on medicine to spend, this afternoon I can not even walk in pain, the medicine at home is gone, I can only lie in bed, please take a box when Sui Huai comes home.

Normally, I would probably nod my head understandingly and say, “It doesn’t matter, after all, you’re busy with your work.”.

But now I suddenly find that I don’t want to excuse him anymore.

I wonder, if the person who is lying in bed with a terrible stomachache is Pei Zhi, will he still take this matter so lightly?

Unable.

He just doesn’t love me.

All the excuses are self-sentimental, in fact, I already know the answer.

I did not speak, stood up and walked alone to the door, brushed past the moment, Sui Huai took my hand, he frowned, tone like dissatisfaction. “Are you angry?”

He seemed to be saying, “Why are you angry? What are you making trouble out of nothing?”.

I really want to tell him that I really hope that I am just making trouble out of nothing, and I really hope that we

can quarrel and make up like an ordinary couple.

But I know it’s not.

Because of my sad discovery, I don’t even have a trace of sadness.

I just want to go over his head to buy a box of medicine, I want to say, if you are not willing to care about me,

then at least I have to be responsible for my body. The moment the

door was closed, the cold air poured into my nasal cavity and woke me up at once

.

I suddenly thought, I don’t seem to love Sui Huai anymore.

(2)

The convenience store downstairs is open 24 hours a day, but when I approached it, I found that the lights were already

dim.

The world doesn’t seem to be very sincere. Even a convenience store that promises to open 24 hours a day can turn off the lights in

the middle of the night. How can you blame Sui Huai for not loving me?

Besides, he never promised me anything. The plastic bag in Mingming’s hand only contained a box of ibuprofen, but it felt extra

heavy in his hand.

I exhaled a breath and slowly floated into the air in the ice and snow.

It’s too cold.

Suddenly, I saw a figure leaning against the door.

Sui Huai did not wear an overcoat, only a black cashmere sweater with a high collar, and looked at me with his hands in his

pockets.

I was stupefied, and then I lowered my head and continued to walk into the neighborhood. Suddenly, a hand

reached out and took the plastic bag in my hand.

He handed the plastic bag to his other hand and took me by his left hand.

Why is it so cold? The

warm feeling came from my right hand. Sui Huai took my hand. His hand was very

big, and there were some hard cocoons in his finger joints.

At that moment, I suddenly felt a sour nose, because I found that I couldn’t

even remember the last time I held hands with Sui Huai.

He didn’t want to go shopping with me. Even if he went out to eat occasionally, he always walked very

fast. He didn’t like the lovey-dovey appearance of other young lovers, so I was very sensible

and didn’t stick to him.

Work occupied most of his life, and I used to be lucky, thinking that even if he was busy, he might think of me when he was free, but I found myself wrong.

A person who does not love others is a speck of dust, a useless empty collection, and an unknown weed everywhere.

Even if it appears in front of us from time to time, it is an insignificant existence.

I lowered my head and gave a muffled “hmm” in my voice.

Sui Huai probably did not expect me to answer so briefly, after all, in the past, if he opened his mouth to care about me, then I would jump up happily on the spot.

Sui Huai pursed his lips and said, “It’s my fault today. I won’t forget it later.” After

listening to this sentence, I looked up at him with some surprise, and for a moment I couldn’t believe that he would say such a thing to me.

But apart from unbelievable, I seem to be too stingy to have any other feelings.

Later? What is the use of this word in the future? It should be painful, and it should be disappointed.

I nodded. “Thank you.”

Sui Huai looked at me, frowned and opened his mouth. He seemed to have something to say, but he didn’t know what to say, so he didn’t say anything in the end. The yellow street lamp shines down, elongating the shadows of two people. My right hand is hot and my left hand

is cold.

(3)

I have been with Sui Huai for three years. When I

was in college, Sui Huai was the dream of all the girls in the school. I will never forget what he looked like when he spoke on the stage

as a freshman representative. The lights of the

auditorium lit up the stage, and everyone was in darkness, but he stood under the light

.

At that moment, the golden light splashed everywhere.

At that time, he and Pei Zhi were the most enviable couple in the school.

In her senior year, Pei Zhi’s family sent her abroad, and she broke up with her.

I can’t figure out why someone would abandon such an excellent and good boy. Can’t she

see how sad Sui Huai is?

But I still want to thank her. Had it not been for her determination to leave and her unfeeling when she

broke up with Sui Huai, maybe Sui Huai would not have agreed to my confession. The moment

he nodded, my hands trembled with excitement.

I think it doesn’t matter if Pei Zhi doesn’t love him. I will love him. I will love him well.

But at that time, I seemed to forget that wishful thinking never had a good result. It’s like everyone thinks they’re the last key to open the door.

But what if I hadn’t expressed my love to Sui Huai? For

three years, I never thought about it.

But what if?

At that time, the school is not no one to pursue me, although they are not as good as Sui Huai

, but after a long time, perhaps one day I will like them?

If we love each other, we will love each other like an ordinary couple.

What if..

I sat up suddenly and touched the sweat on my forehead.

“Nightmare?”

Sui Huai was still at home at this point. He also sat up and looked at me sideways with a worried face

.

I looked into his eyes, nodded, and then shook my head hesitantly.

Sui Huai pulls back the quilt and says, “I’m going to make you breakfast.”

“No need.” I stopped him. “There’s toast in the kitchen.”

Sui Huai turned his head and his expression seemed a little surprised. Only then did I realize that Sui Huai

had never cooked a meal for me, but today I refused. I looked at Sui Huai and was wondering if he was going to be angry, but the next second, I

saw Sui Huai’s smiling face.

“If you want to eat, then eat toast.” At

the table, Sui Huai came out of the kitchen and handed me a bottle of milk. “Drink this.”

I reached for it and scooped up another piece of nut toast from the side.

Sui Huai was stupefied and said, “Aren’t you allergic to nuts?”

I raised my eyelids and glanced at him.

“It’s Pei Zhi who is allergic to nuts. You’re wrong.” The moment

the name came out of my mouth, the air seemed to freeze

.

Sui Huai withdrew his smile at a speed visible to the naked eye. He frowned and showed a slightly angry

expression on his face.

“Why do you mention her?”

I looked at his sudden surge of emotion, suddenly sad, I feel so powerless,

I do not want to say anything more.

“It’s nothing. I said the wrong thing.”

Sui Huai was stunned, as if he didn’t expect me to skip the subject so quickly. He leaned

back in his chair and made a sharp sound on the floor. Then he got up and said, “I’m full. You can eat.”

As the door closed, I smiled a wry smile and looked at the bottle of milk at hand.

Sui Huai, after three years, do you still not remember my lactose intolerance?

(4)

Sui Huai and I were silent for a whole day, but it was too

quiet to stay in the same house. In the

evening, he took his coat and went out, but after a while, I got a

message on my mobile phone:

“I have something to do tonight, so I won’t eat.”

I took one look and turned off the screen.

A sense of suffocation of expiratory dyspnoea came up again.

I probably know what it is, after all, Pei Zhi just sent a micro-blog saying that he had to work overtime

at night.

They could go out for a meal together, and Sui Huai would wait downstairs for her to get off work, and in the evening

. Will Sui Huai come back

in the evening?

I took a deep breath and went out with the key.

Winter is not over yet, the air is cold and astringent, the leaves on the trees are all gone, but it hasn’t snowed yet.

I walked aimlessly. It was already dinner time, but I still didn’t feel hungry.

I thought at random, what was Sui Huai doing with Pei Zhi at this time? I

should have just finished my meal. I used to go out to eat with Sui Huai. I like to eat hot pot and barbecue, but Sui Huai always sniffed at these oily and spicy things.

If replaced by Pei Zhi, he should be willing to accompany her to eat everything she wants to eat, right?

In the past I have been unable to see through, in fact, so many years of love has long become a kind of persistence, a kind of unwilling.

Whenever I am with Sui Huai, I will think of Sui Huai and Pei Zhi.

If Pei Zhi is the rose in Sui Huai’s heart, then she is the thorn in my heart.

For three years, the thorns went deeper and deeper until I was completely immune. As I

walked, I passed a bar, and the voice of the resident singer floated out of the open door. Like a ghost, I stepped in. There were few people in the

bar, probably because it was still early. The singer sat on the stage, holding his guitar and bowing his head to tune the tone, occasionally singing a few sentences. I asked for a glass of sweet wine at the bar and sat in the distance squinting at the stage.

The light was so dim that people could not see the faces of the people around them. After drinking

a glass of wine, my face began to burn, and I knew I was not a good drinker, so

I finished the glass and went out of the door. When I

went out, the night was darker and the weather was colder. I shivered and was

about to take out my mobile phone to take a taxi, but I couldn’t find my mobile phone in my pocket.

At that moment, a voice suddenly came from behind:

“Guoguo!”

I was stunned.

Guoguo was my nickname in high school. At that time, my face was round and often red, so

my classmates in high school gave me such a nickname.

I looked back and saw a figure running towards me.

I narrowed my eyes and saw from my clothes that this was the

singer who had just sat on the stage.

I stood in place waiting for him to run closer, his mouth exhaled hot air, it was not easy to asthma

evenly, and put the phone into my hand.

“After all these years, how can you still be so careless?”

I looked at my cell phone and then looked up at him, expressing my doubts with my eyes. He seemed surprised to raise his eyebrows. “Don’t you remember me?”? I am Cheng Hsien.

Cheng Xian? How could

I not remember.

My deskmate in high school, like playing basketball, like sleeping late, but also like to study in the morning

with sleepy eyes looking for me to copy homework.

Teachers always turn a blind eye to his behavior, after all, Cheng’s life can be written with

an article “My District Chief Father”.

At that time, everyone thought he would have a smooth life, until the third year of high school, he clamored

to play music, broke up with his family and ran out, dropped out of school and

disappeared.

He looked at my expression and smiled.

How was it? You remember that.

I nodded and pulled my scarf up over my chin. “Long time no see

. Do you work here?”

Cheng Chien shook his head. “At my friend’s bar, the singer asked for a temporary leave of absence and asked me to help

him.”

I nodded, but the next second I didn’t know what to say.

I have met many classmates who have become

mature and silent without exception in the process of growing up. The brothers

who used to go to the toilet shoulder to shoulder have become young people who flatter each other at the drinking party; the sisters who used to listen to each other’s sad things late at night have not even sent an invitation card when they got married.

People say this is the norm. This is growing up.

And in this normal state of being trapped by the big stream, it seems that only Cheng Xian has been standing in place.

He put his right hand around him and said, “Come on, I’ll take you home.”

It was like a flash back to ten years ago, when we were 16. After a game of golf, he lazily took me by his arm as I was doing my homework and said, “Go and accompany me to the grocery store.”

But at that time, I nodded and said yes, and ten years later, I could only try to think of excuses to refuse.

Cheng Chien saw my hesitation, and suddenly his smile turned sly. “All right, look at yourself how you’re blushing. The good students of those days have also learned to be bad.” The face that

had been drunk was even more red.

Without waiting for me to open my mouth, Cheng took out a car key and said, “I’m going to drive, and you wait here.”

After a while, a Mercedes Benz appeared in front of me. Cheng Xian pulled down the window and shouted to me, “Come on up.”

Probably because the title of Cheng now reminds me of us in those days, my nervousness has disappeared a little. I found a topic and said, “Where did you go later?”? He left without saying goodbye

.

Cheng Chien pursed his lips. “Didn’t I fall out with my family? I went to Beijing

alone, signed a contract with a company, and the company paid for me to go abroad to study at a music school.” “Oh,”

I said. “So this company is pretty good.”

Who would have thought that Cheng Xian turned his head to look at me and chuckled.

“There’s no way this kind of cake could fall out of the world. It was only later that I learned that it was my mother who couldn’t bear to see me suffer

, so she contacted the record company and arranged it for me.”

I said “Oh” again. The

car suddenly fell into silence.

Passing the traffic lights, the car stopped, and Cheng suddenly held the steering wheel more tightly.

“Actually, I didn’t leave without saying goodbye.”

I was stunned. “Huh?”

Cheng Xian suddenly raised the corners of his mouth, revealing his sharp tiger teeth like a small beast.

I went back to No.1 Middle School to find you and climbed over the wall. You were in PE class at that time. I

took one look and left.

His eyes were fixed on me, which made me feel confused for a while, but in the end, I

attributed it to my reluctance to give up my good friend. So I said, “Thank you.”

(5)

When the car was parked downstairs, I was surprised to find that my lights were on. He

looked up and saw the figure leaning against the window.

Cheng Xian stepped out of the car, saw me look up, and also looked up.

Not knowing if the light was hurting his eyes, he narrowed his eyes as if to ask casually,

“Your boyfriend?”

I nodded and said, “Yes.”.

Cheng Chien suddenly smiled and said, “What can I do?”

I was stunned and my thoughts drifted back to ten years ago.

At that time, there were boys in some classes who pursued me fiercely, and breakfast love letters were delivered on time

every day.

As a result, they were all snatched by Cheng Xian to be eaten or used as draft paper. “What can I do? If

you fall in love with him, I won’t have to copy my homework,”

he mumbled as he chewed the deep-fried dough sticks that should belong to me.

deep-fried dough sticks, he smacked his lips and concluded, “That’s why you’re not allowed to talk.” I turned around and blinked at him, unable to figure out the inevitable relationship

between falling in love and copying homework.

“Is it difficult for me to fall in love with you in the future?”

Who knew that Cheng Hsien put away his cheeky smile and nodded his head with a serious look on his face,

“Yes.” The tone of

ten years ago overlaps with the immediate picture.

I said, “Fortunately, I don’t have to do my homework now.”

Cheng turned his head and smiled meaningfully.

“Then I’ll go.”

I said yes.

The car gradually disappeared from view, and I put away the smile on my face and looked upstairs

again.

Sui Huai was still leaning against the window, frowning, and after receiving my line of sight, he stepped back slightly

and drew the curtain.

When I went upstairs and opened the door, I smelled a strong smell of smoke.

Sui Huai has quit smoking for many years. He once said that it was because Pei Zhi didn’t like it. It

‘s just that he started smoking again after he was with me, but it’s not as violent as it is now.

Sui Huai sat on the sofa with scarlet eyes. He looked at me and did not speak. I was about to walk over him to the room when Sui Huai suddenly called my name.

“Lin Nian Si.”

I turned around and looked at him with an expressionless face.

Probably did not expect me to be this cold look, Sui Huai originally prepared words like

being stuck in the throat as a meal. The anger on his

face was swept away by his stupefaction. He opened his mouth and said

, “… …” Did you go out at night?

I nodded, my hand on the doorknob.

Sui Huai stood up, as if a little anxious.

“You used to tell me when you went out. No matter how bad it was, you would leave a

lamp for me.”

I was silent for a moment, then slowly turned around, looked him in the eye and said, “Really

?”? I thought you were with Pei Zhi and wouldn’t come back tonight.

Sui Huai stopped talking.

Watching his sudden silence, my heart sank inch by inch.

So no matter how many years I have been with him, no matter what cracks

have appeared in our relationship, as long as Pei Zhi is mentioned, I will always be the second choice, the stale rose

, the one who has been abandoned. Sui Huai’s face showed helplessness. He pinched his brows and explained, “Her company is far away from home

, and it’s not safe to take a taxi at night.”

I looked at him as if he were looking at a mildewed cotton-padded jacket. The powerlessness in my

heart has made it impossible for me to argue with him. Arguing? That’s what lovers in

love do.

I looked into his nervous eyes and nodded casually. “I understand.”

Then he closed the door.

(6)

When he got up the next day, Sui Huai had already left home. He didn’t go back to his room

all night yesterday. As

the Spring Festival is approaching, the company has a few days off.

Because Sui Huai asked me to keep our love secret, so even at home, I

always said I was single.

In previous years, my parents would always call me to ask about my relationship status. Their thinking tends to be old-fashioned

. They think that the best destination for a woman is to get married and have children.

But this year is unusually quiet.

I thought they had finally figured it out until Sui Huai came home in the evening and urged me to change my clothes

and go to the restaurant. I frowned. “Do you have a dinner party?”

Sui Huai’s eyes dodged. “I called our parents here. After all, it’s been three years.” It’s

time to set a date for the wedding.

My heart missed a beat, and a bad feeling rose in my heart.

When I opened my mouth, my voice trembled with anger.

You.. Have you contacted my parents?

Sui Huai looked at my excited expression, closed his eyes, and asked, “Don’t you want

to marry me?”

I looked up at him and said firmly, “No, I don’t want to.” In the

past, I would like to get a license with Sui Huai on the spot and let the whole

world witness my happiness.

If only a few months ago, I would have done the same.

But not now, because I do not want to deceive myself, I know that Sui Huai does not love

me, I am not happy at all.

My one-sided love is just a joke that arouses the pity of the whole world.

I looked at Sui Huai and didn’t even understand why he was like this.

He should be the high-spirited teenager standing on the rostrum, even if he doesn’t love

me, he will respect me.

It was not until I saw Sui Huai’s flustered expression that I realized that my eyes were sour and tears had fallen.

I don’t know whether I’m crying for him or myself.

Sui Huai reached out and hugged me. “I’m sorry. I’m just afraid of losing you. I’m really just afraid of losing you.”

I cried so hard that I didn’t even have the strength to push him away. I felt dizzy in front of my eyes, but a voice in my head said clearly,

“You’re not afraid because you love me. You’re unwilling because you’re going to lose something that should belong to you.”

I forced myself to calm down and said in a muffled voice, “Now that my parents are here, I’ll finish this meal first.”

When Sui Huai pulled me away, his eyes lit up. He seemed to realize that the scene was not suitable for expressing excitement, so he just said a few “good” words.

(7)

The decoration of the hotel is very grand, and it is a famous high-end restaurant in Jiangcheng.

I wore a long black dress and tied up my hair.

When Sui Huai was promoted to director, their company held a party. I bought this skirt secretly. I thought he would invite me, but in the end, he didn’t even tell me about it. It seems that the party was also in this restaurant.

I looked around and laughed at myself in the bottom of my heart.

“I’ll have dinner with your parents today, and the day after tomorrow my parents will be in Jiangcheng, so we can have

dinner together and settle the marriage.”

Sui Huai looked in a very good mood and planned our future with a smile.

He turned his head as if to ask my advice, and I saw

my tired face in his eyes.

Sui Huai was stunned for a moment, then took my hand and put it in his arm, not knowing whether to

tell me or comfort himself.

“It doesn’t matter, it doesn’t matter, just settle down..”

I was pulled by him and had to quicken my pace, but my heart was desolate.

I don’t love him anymore. I know.

Because I have seen my lover’s appearance, I know very well that I don’t

love him at all.

Advanced mathematics problems are endless, but youth will be over, in the resplendent city,

there will be no more sunny summer. The

elevator went up to the twelfth floor, and as soon as he got out of the elevator, Sui Huai’s phone rang. I took one look at the note, clenched my heart tightly, and suddenly put it down heavily. Like

a dangerous building, you are afraid that it will fall, but you are afraid that it will not fall, and on the

day it really falls, you will breathe sigh of relief.

Sui Huai frowned and pressed the hang up button.

I looked at him in surprise, but Sui Huai continued to walk forward

as if he had not felt it.

After a few steps, the phone rang again, and Sui Huai turned his head and looked at me with uneasy eyes.

I pulled the corners of my mouth. I didn’t know if the smile was sincere. I just heard myself

say in a tired voice, “You take it.”

Sui Huai seemed to get the order and immediately got through. The woman’s voice came out clearly

from the other end of the phone, with a clear cry.

After a few minutes, Sui Huai hung up the phone and looked embarrassed.

“Something happened to Pei Zhi..” I didn’t

even think about it. I went straight to his words, “You go.”

Sui Huai was stupefied. He probably didn’t expect me to be so happy. After hesitating for a few seconds,

he said, “Are you really all right?”? But your parents’ side..

I clenched my fist, and the sharp nails hurt my palms. I clenched it and let

it go. Sometimes people have no choice in the face of problems. The so-called choice is just to give you a

chance to surrender.

This is my last step.

Maybe Sui Huai, who is in a hurry, hasn’t realized it yet, but I have to understand.

Because I’m the one who was thrown away.

“It’s okay, I’ll take care of it.”

Hearing this, Sui Huai seemed to be completely relieved and trotted to the elevator.

Even at the last second when the elevator door closed, he just looked down at his cell phone and didn’t look at

me.

I stood there and took a few deep breaths, lifted my skirt and tried to sit on the sofa

beside me for a while, but the next second, my mobile phone vibrated.

When I opened the WeChat, it was a voice message from my mother for more than thirty seconds.

When I clicked on it, my mother’s excited voice came out.

“My youngest son, Mom and Dad are at the door of the hotel!” Where is the entrance. Old man

, you see how promising our daughter is, working in such a big city and finding such a filial

boyfriend! The

voice, also mixed with the father’s voice, can be heard, is also full of laughter. After

listening to this passage, I finally could not hold back and sat on the ground. I covered my face, warm tears flow to the palm of my hand, I really do not know how I should face

my parents who came all the way to Jiangcheng, with such a discomfited posture. I

don’t know how long I cried, I wiped my tears and tried to stand up, but I

stumbled and fell to the ground.

Suddenly, a figure came out of nowhere and supported me. I looked

back in a daze, but unexpectedly saw a familiar face.

“What are you doing here?”

Cheng Chien frowned and glanced up and down at me. “I just finished a meeting. What’s

the matter with you?”

Hearing this concern, my tears could not help but want to flow down again.

I lowered my head and quickly wiped away my tears regardless of the image.

“It’s okay, I’m okay.”

Cheng sighed, took off his suit jacket and put it on me. He looked

a little upset, put his hand into his black hair and rubbed it, then called

my name seriously.

“Lin Nien-san, you never pretended to be polite to me before.”

I raised my head to look at him, but before I opened my mouth, Cheng Xian spoke again as if he was afraid that I would refuse

.

“No matter what happens, I can help you-no matter what.” (8)

Golden light illuminates the room, and the revolving glass on the dining table is filled with exquisite meals. Sitting beside me,

Cheng Hsien raised his glass and nodded to my parents. “Hello, uncle

and aunt,” he said. “I’m Cheng Hsien.”

And then, gulp it down.

My father was a typical small-town father who judged a person at the dinner table by whether

he could drink or not.

Obviously, Cheng Xian’s action just now won his favor.

He clapped his hands and said “yes” several times.

As for my mother, when she heard the name, she was stunned at first, and then repeated, “Cheng

Xian?”

I bit my lower lip and guessed that Sui Huai had already reported

his name when he contacted my parents before, which made them suspicious. “I forgot to introduce myself,”

Cheng said

with a smile. “My name is Cheng, and I’m Guoguo’s fiance.” As soon as

the words came out, they immediately attracted the attention of my parents.

My mother was a little excited. “Are you getting married?”

Looking at her expression, I could only nod my head. My mother clapped her hands! My daughter is getting married, she’s getting married!

My father said to one side, “Look at you. Don’t let the son-in-law see the joke. It’s like our

daughter can’t get married.”

Just with a smile on his face.

I was a little helpless, afraid that my parents’ actions would frighten Cheng Xian, and the

moment I turned to look at him, it happened to be right in his smiling eyes.

Cheng Chien seemed intent on making fun of me. He pinched my wrist and whispered, “Little fiancee?”

My cheeks turned red. At

the dinner table, I found that no matter what topic my parents talked about, Cheng Xian could pick it up.

From securities and stocks to family gossip, everything is just right.

Obviously, my parents were very satisfied with Cheng Xian. My father was probably drunk, with a red

face and a garrulous voice.

Our family has had their own opinions since we were young, and when we decided something, we never looked back.

When she said she didn’t want to get married, we were both worried. We are not forcing her,

but we are afraid that she will be bullied if she is single in the future. It’s all right. She met you

. You have to treat her well, or..

At this point, he seemed to choke and his voice trembled.

“Or I won’t forgive you!” My mother knew he had drunk too much, so she quickly took his arm and patted him on the back.

Then she looked up and said apologetically, “This old man likes to talk nonsense when he drinks too much. Don’t mind, Cheng

.”

Hearing this, I couldn’t help it any longer, my nose was uncontrollably sour, and I secretly

reached out to wipe my tears.

Cheng Hsien, on the other hand, put away the expression on his face and said earnestly, “Don’t worry, uncle and aunt, you

can leave Guoguo to me.”

That night, I settled my parents in a nearby hotel. It was already ten o’clock in the evening.

In order to take care of them, I decided to stay in the hotel that night. The

night wind was slightly cool, and I was still wearing Cheng’s coat on my shoulders. When I was free and

saw myself in the hotel mirror, I realized how embarrassed my face was.

Even if it is light makeup, it has been thoroughly spent, the color of lipstick has disappeared, and the whole

face looks tired and pale.

Fortunately, my parents were old and blind, so they didn’t notice my embarrassment

. I sighed and pointed to my face. “Why didn’t you remind me?”

Cheng Hsien glanced sideways at me. “What have I never seen you like?”

Then he lowered his head and broke his fingers as if he were counting carefully.

“When you were a sophomore in high school, you failed in math and cried and burped for a class. When you were a senior in high school, you fell on your feet in a physical test

.” “Cheng Xian!” I called out his name with anger and shame.

Cheng Xian looked up at me slightly and finally laughed.

I looked at his smile, as if in a trance, as if the next second, wearing a blue and white

school uniform, Cheng was about to show the basketball he had hidden behind him, and flashed in front of my eyes.

But then Cheng Xian asked, but I can not help but be stunned.

His expression seemed a little cautious. “What’s the matter with you today? Did you quarrel with

your boyfriend?”

I breathed a sigh of relief and thought, finally I spoke.

An inaudible sigh, and the pain of being cut by a blunt knife deep in the heart. With a

wry smile, I said, “His ex-girlfriend had an accident and called him at the last minute.”

Cheng stopped walking forward, turned around, frowned at me, and asked what

I had never dared to ask myself.

“Even so, aren’t you going to break up with him?”

The street lamp is dim, lengthening our shadow.

I said, “Cheng Xian, I’ve been with him for three years, and I’ve paid an unimaginable sunk

cost.”. No one is a saint, and there is no way to let go

rationally when you know you are not loved.

“I will leave without any nostalgia after cutting off all my feelings with him, but not

now.” I looked into his eyes. “Three years is really too long, isn’t it?”

Cheng looked at me, silent for a long time, and finally raised his hand and wiped the tears from my face

.

He said yes. “Three years is really too long,”

he said.

(9)

Early the next morning, my parents knocked on my door. I opened the door and saw the bags

and their smiling faces.

I was a little confused. “What are you..?”

My mother stepped forward and said, “Mom and Dad are back, and we

‘re relieved to see you living well here.”

For a moment, I dare not reply.

Because I don’t know if Sui Huai mentioned meeting his

parents when he called them.

My mother seemed to see what I was thinking, took my hand and patted it again.

Years turned into wrinkles on her face and hands. I can’t even remember the day

when “mother” and “old age” were linked. After all, in my memory, she was

still the pretty girl who would pick a wild flower to take home on her way to school. She spoke in a soft voice. “My daughter has grown up and is very good. Mom is not worried that you will go bad at

all.”. Whether it’s your own life or your own relationships, Mom believes

you will make your own decisions.

“Isn’t being a parent all about standing behind your children and supporting them in all

their decisions?”

Her expression was gentle, and I blinked my eyes, trying to keep the tears from flowing.

It turned out that they knew everything, knew that I had suffered emotional misfortune, and knew that Sui Huai

was Sui Huai and Cheng was Cheng.

But they chose not to speak, they chose not to ask.

Even if they don’t know the specific story that happened in the middle, they are willing to cooperate with

the incomplete play.

My father stood behind her and gave a little cough. “Well, why

are you telling her this? Let’s go. The car is already downstairs of the hotel.”

My mother smiled and finally patted me on the back of my hand.

“Don’t come down with me. Take care of yourself, you know.”

I nodded forcefully, as if I wanted to repay every apology I felt for my mother’s advice and nagging

when I was a child.

Watching their backs recede, I closed the door and lay on my back on the hotel bed.

The ceiling was grey and dark. The silent mobile phone popped up several messages, all of which were

sent by Sui Huai one after another from last night to now.

“Nian Nian, didn’t you come home last night?”

“How are your uncles and aunts? I’ll have dinner with you tonight to make up for my

mistakes.”

“Pei Zhi had a car accident last night. She has no friends in this city except me. I really

can’t help it.”

Pei Zhi. It’s Pei Zhi

again.

Seeing the name, I pressed the black screen button.

I looked at the ceiling and remembered my mother’s smiling face when

she said, “Support them in all their decisions.”.

At that moment, a strong sense of guilt burst out from the bottom of my heart.

In the past, I always felt that I could live my life as long as I didn’t regret it. I loved

Sui Huai, so I tried to cover his heart for three years. Because it was my own decision,

I could do anything as long as I could be responsible for myself.

But now, I suddenly feel that I can’t.

A person’s life is not so thin that only one person can support it. If my mother knew what had happened to me, she would be sad.

Mom will be sad.

Just thinking about it, the feeling of guilt almost squeezed my heart

.

I sat up and turned on my phone again.

The picture still stayed in the page of dialogue with Sui Huai. I took a deep breath and bit

my lower lip tightly.

Fingertips leap on the screen, and a message is sent successfully. “Let’s break up,” said

the

green box.

(10)

I went back to pack my things on a sunny afternoon.

Sui Huai was not at home, the whole house was in a mess, cigarette butts were thrown on the ground at random, the windows

were closed, and a strong smell of smoke could still be smelled as soon as he stepped into the door.

It seems that he has had a hard time these two days. During

this period of time, he persistently called and sent messages to me, and the

pestering person became him, and now I finally realized his state of mind at that time. It turns out that being disturbed by someone you don’t like is really a very distressing thing.

I frowned and looked for a place to stay on the dirty floor with debris.

The suitcase was pulled into the bedroom, and I swept the clothes in the wardrobe into the suitcase.

I have very few things, even though I have lived in this house for several years.

Clothes, skin care products, several pairs of shoes.

Other than that, there is nothing else to take away.

I stood at the end of the bed and looked around, even if I didn’t come back for two days, I felt

strange.

Like I never belonged here.

In fact, I don’t belong here.

The black pillow on the sofa was chosen by him when we went shopping

together.

At that time, I took a fancy to a brown bear-like pillow, but Sui Huai said that the style did not match the decoration of our

house, so I took the pillow out of the shopping basket and

threw in a black one.

And the Disney doll.

Last year, on our second anniversary together, I called Sui Huai for a long time before he finally nodded

to accompany me to Disney. But on the day of departure, the company called him back at the last minute. I went to Disney alone

that time.

Even though I felt a little sad, I kept my emotions well hidden until I came home and held the

doll in front of Sui Huai like a treasure. He gave me a sidelong glance and said, “How adult

are you? Aren’t you childish?” Feelings

of grievance welled up in my heart, and I hid the doll in the deepest part of the wardrobe, until today

, it was turned out again. Everything in

this house is a silent description of my pain.

And now, I’m finally leaving.

I took one last look at the room, backed out, and closed the door.

At the same moment, the sound of the password lock opening sounded, I was stunned, looked up, on the

eyes of Sui Huai.

He looked much thinner and had some blue stubble on his chin.

Seeing me, a trace of nervousness appeared on Sui Huai’s face.

“Every year.” He exclaimed.

I clenched the lever of the suitcase and gave it a gentle “hmm”.

Sui Huai walked into the door and saw my box at a glance, with a painful look on his face. Do I have to go? You must.. Break up with me? Before

I could speak, he said, “What happened that day was my fault. Every year,

I was really wrong..”

I’ve heard him say it a million times, and if there was room to stay,

I wouldn’t be standing here with a suitcase.

I interrupted him with words of determination not to have anything to do with him any more.

I said, “Sui Huai, it’s no use. I’m really tired.” People who

don’t love can even fall in love again, but what should they do if they are tired?

I looked at him as if I were looking at a paper that was one point short of passing. I felt

tired all over my body. I really didn’t have the courage to do it again.

Sui Huai looked at me as if he were looking at a stranger he had never known. I understand his feelings

, after all, in the past, I would never say such a thing, he would not have thought

that I could actually pluck up the courage to leave him.

Sui Huai smiled bitterly, he looked at me, but his eyes seemed to pass through me, I do not know what to think of

.

He said, “I thought I didn’t love you.”

I raised my head slowly and looked at him.

“It wasn’t until I came back from the hospital and saw the dark room that I suddenly thought maybe we

could get a dog together so that you wouldn’t be too scared at night.” “But when I turned on the light, I found that you hadn’t come back at all.”

Sui Huai’s eyes focused on my face again.

“Is it too late for me to realize this?”

I looked at him with mixed feelings and didn’t know what to say. It seems that as an adult, you finally

got your favorite lychee-flavored lollipop when you were a child, but when you grow up,

you don’t like candy anymore.

I took a deep breath and slowly let out a single syllable:

“Yes.”

(11)

The new house is rented near the company. On the way to

move, I walked on the cobblestone path in the community with my box in my hand, and unexpectedly

saw a familiar figure.

Cheng Xian, wearing a gray sportswear, led a golden retriever and walked slowly. When

I saw him, he saw me.

Cheng took off his headphones, looked surprised, and walked up to me after a few quick steps.

“You moved?”

I nodded. “You live here, too?” Cheng Xian also nodded.

Then his eyes rested on the huge box in my hand and he naturally reached out

to take it.

The golden retriever seemed to feel neglected and cried out.

Cheng Chien tilted his head slightly and said, “Dried meat floss.”

I leaned down, held out my hand, and greeted him with a serious look on my face. “Hello, meat floss

. It looks like the dog is just like its name.”

The golden retriever looked at my palm and tilted his head, looking a little confused.

“He hasn’t learned to shake hands yet.”

I said “oh oh” twice.

Cheng thumped the box and lifted it up. “Which building do you live in?”? I’ll carry it up for you first.

“The eighth floor of five buildings.”

Cheng Chien raised an eyebrow. “I’m right downstairs.”

I opened my eyes wide. “What a coincidence?”

Chatting, unconsciously walked to the bottom of the five buildings, the golden retriever looked very excited,

all of a sudden rushed forward, pulled Cheng title to stagger forward. I quickly supported him with my hands and eyes, and Cheng stood up straight. I don’t know if it was my

illusion, but his face seemed to turn a little red.

The elevator door opens and he goes upstairs. Standing at the door, Cheng puts the box down. “This is where I sent

it. I have to go back. I haven’t eaten the meat floss today.”

I took out the key to open the door and turned around and said yes.

Who knew that as soon as the door opened, the golden retriever suddenly rushed inside, shaking two big ears, a

happy and mindless look.

“Dried meat floss,”

Cheng Hsien shouted as he stood outside, but the golden retriever was so excited that he didn

‘t pay any attention to his cries.

Cheng Xian scratched the back of his head awkwardly, as if he had seen his disobedient child.

I looked at his face and chuckled for no reason. Then I turned slightly away from half

the door and said, “Come in and sit down.”

I handed Cheng a cup of coffee and sat down on the sofa.

“I haven’t asked you yet. What do you do now?”

“After I came

back from abroad, I worked in a band for two years. Then the band broke up and I started my own business.” “It seems that boss Cheng bought that Benz himself,”

I said with a look of teasing. “That’s not true,” Cheng said

slowly, squinting his eyes and looking inscrutable. “It’s my father’s.” Before

I could reply, I heard him continue, “But I

bought a Porsche myself.”

I stared and nearly choked on a mouthful of coffee.

“Are you panting on purpose?”

Cheng Chien smiled and raised one eyebrow. “Isn’t that supposed to be down first and then up?” “What about you?”

He asked.

The golden retriever was probably tired in the room and lay at Cheng’s feet, looking

at us with a pair of eyes.

I smiled and said, “I’m doing design work in the office building next door to this community, but I’ve

already applied to be transferred to the headquarters next year.”

Cheng Xian was stunned and asked a seemingly nonsensical question

that was closely related to my words.

“Break up with your boyfriend?”

I glanced at him and nodded slowly with a smile.

Cheng Xian looked at me and hesitated to speak. “It’s all right. After so many years in this city, it’s time to change places

.”

Cheng nodded and said, “Remember to tell me when you leave so I can see

you off.”

I said yes with a smile.

(12)

a few days after moving home, I received a text message from a strange number.

“The coffee shop on Renmin Road at two o’clock tomorrow afternoon.”

I looked at the message and wondered who sent it. After much

thought, I decided to keep the appointment. It was drizzling in the

afternoon, and there was water in the street. After I got out of the taxi, I accidentally

stepped into the puddle, and my trouser legs were stained with water.

Perhaps because of the rainy day, there were few people in the coffee shop. Almost as soon as I opened the door,

I saw Pei Zhi sitting by the French window. The person who

can make Sui Huai miss for so many years naturally looks good. When she was

at school, she was like a gardenia, with a thick fragrance, lingering in the crowd, leaving

a fragrance that could not be brushed away.

Today, she put on a lot of makeup, but she still couldn’t cover up her fatigue. I pulled out the chair opposite her and sat down.

“What does Miss Pei want with me?”

Pei Zhi’s eyes were staring straight at me, as if he wanted to see something from it.

After a while, she said, “Sui Huai and I are going to get married. I came to tell you.” With

that, he leaned back in his chair and looked at me in a contemptuous manner.

I smiled and held out my hand. “Where’s the invitation?”

Pei Zhi’s eyes fell on my palm and stiffened for a moment.

I smiled a little more and withdrew my hand.

“You can’t take it out, can you?” The smile

on Pei Zhi’s face was all over, and he kept silent and did not open his mouth.

I continued, “If Sui Huai is really going to marry you, you don’t need to pretend to be arrogant and declare your sovereignty in front of me

.”

“Pei Zhi, you find that your position in Sui Huai’s heart is not what it used to be,

right?” After

listening to this sentence, Pei Zhi’s face showed a painful look, and then turned into fierce. Did

you say something in front of him! Sui Huai waited for me for three years, and now that I’m back

, why doesn’t he even want to see me? I was stunned, I thought Sui Huai’s feelings for Pei Zhi would be weakened, but I didn’t think he would do

this.

“After you broke up, Sui Huai started getting drunk to drown his sorrows. I thought this was the best time for us to get back together

. Who knows..” Pei Zhi closed his eyes in pain. “Who knew that he

said he regretted that he had not beheaded me clean.” After

listening to her words, I didn’t even know what to say for a moment.

Feelings between people is really a very strange thing, come quickly, go quickly, once

said that the lover can turn around and abandon, abandon the former has become the mouth

of the sweetheart. The only thing I’m glad about

now is that I’m out of this whirlpool.

I paused and finally said, “That’s the story of your relationship. It has

nothing to do with me, and I’m not interested.” With

that, I got up and crossed Pei Zhi to go. I know best what

a woman who is crazy about love looks like, because I used to

look like that, so now I especially hate to see such a person.

I am afraid to see my own shadow in them, and then fall into endless pain

.

Who knows the next second, Pei Zhi also hurriedly got up and called me.

“Lin Nian, I beg you, will you give Sui Huai back to me? I can’t live without

him. I really can’t live without him..” Still?

What do you mean, give it back to her?

If you treat each other as your own property at the beginning, why do you leave for three years

without asking? If you don’t cherish it when you

have it, you will be unwilling to retain it when you lose it.

I looked back at Pei Zhi, who was already crying into tears, and a touch of disgust appeared in my eyes.

She and Sui Huai are the same kind of people.

Not worthy of sympathy.

(13)

During the Spring Festival, I went home. When my parents saw me coming back alone, they didn’t

say anything. They just asked me how my life was recently.

I said that everything was fine. I had moved home and was closer to the company. The company’s notice had come

down, and I could be promoted and transferred to the headquarters after working for about half a year. It suddenly occurred to

me that Sui Huai and I lived in that community

just because it was very close to his place of work, and I could have been transferred early in the morning, but

I secretly refused several times in order not to separate from Sui Huai.

I have been accommodating him, and I have been failing myself.

Now I finally have only myself in my eyes. Hearing my promotion, my father was so happy that he opened a bottle of wine that had been hidden for several years and drank

until his face was red. My mother took my hand and repeatedly told a girl

to pay attention to safety when she was alone outside.

I also said yes again and again.

From the relaxed atmosphere of the New Year, I once again put into work, without emotional

ties, I feel that my life is much happier. Get up

on time, eat only what you want for breakfast, live in a room decorated

in the style you like, and occasionally watch a few movies projected.

Just often, I will also meet Cheng Xian.

Sometimes he appeared in the elevator, sometimes on the way to the neighborhood, sometimes even in the

supermarket.

He appeared so often that even I, a dull person, could see the clue.

Once again, when I met Cheng Xian, who was walking his dog on the park road, I said to him with a smile, “The first two.”

One day I spoke to Miss Liu, and she said that after graduation you went out of your way to ask her where I was going

.

Cheng turned his head to one side and did not speak, but his index finger was wrapped around the dog rope, and the whole

index finger was wrapped around the rope and loosened.

I continued to ask, “Cheng Hsien, did you like me at that time?”

Adults like to be magnanimous enough, without the shyness and stumbling of their youth. He gave a little “hmm” and looked down at me as if he were waiting for my reply

.

Cheng Xian behaved so naturally that if it weren’t for his reddish ears, I would even think

it was just an ordinary chat.

I asked Cheng Xian, maybe every girl will ask such a

sentence when she receives love.

“Why?” “I don’t know why,”

Cheng said. “Maybe by the time I realized it, I already

liked it.”

“Maybe I realized it when Chang Lieh sent you a love letter, or maybe

I realized it when you fell down on a physical test and I could laugh at you, but I didn’t want other people to laugh at you

.”

He looked into my eyes with a soft expression. “I thought I would never see you

again after graduation, but I didn’t expect that when I saw you again, you already had a boyfriend.”

I can’t stand such affectionate pictures, nor can I stand such affectionate eyes.

I started it, but now I’m the one who avoids his eyes. “Then you’ve been planning it for a long time,”

I said jokingly. “Not really,” sighed

Cheng Hsien. “After all, the whole world has seen it, but you haven’t

.” I glanced away. “Thank you.”

Cheng Xian smiled, his breath was warm, and he brushed a few strands of broken hair in my ear.

“Just thank you?”

I looked into his eyes and said, “I’m sorry, but I’m leaving the city

next year, so..” The likes of

adults are magnanimous enough, and the rejection of adults is realistic enough.

It’s not that I don’t like it, it’s not that I don’t like it, it’s just that the reality of bone makes love no

longer as pure and plump as it is on campus.

So I won’t say if you can wait for me like I did when I graduated, and I won’t say maybe you come to

my city and we’ll be together.

We have grown up to understand that in the long life, love is only one

of the roads, not the only one, nor is it important, even without this road, life can

go on.

Cheng looked down at me, his eyelashes drooping, so that I could not see through what he was thinking.

After a while, I heard him say, “I know.”

(14)

Time passed aimlessly for half a year.

When spring is warm and flowers are blooming, I begin to pack my luggage. All the furniture in the house had been disposed of, and everything had become what it was like when I first moved here.

Cheng led the meat floss to visit again.

Perhaps the dog is really spiritual, meat floss looked at the empty room, the original excited face suddenly

wilted up.

It bit my trouser leg and made a “whine” sound in its mouth.

I crouched down and touched his head. “Well, I’ll be back in a year.” When

Cheng Hsien heard this, he raised his eyebrows. “Are you going for a year?”

I nodded and asked, “I have to go back to Jiangcheng.

Will I stay there for the rest of my life?”

Cheng Hsien gave a long “oh-“.

Then with a teasing look on his face, he said, “Then I’ll wait for you to come back with the meat floss.”

I looked at his face and said grumpily, “What are you waiting for me to do? Live your own life

.”

Cheng Chien spread out his hands and shrugged his shoulders, then showed a more serious expression. “Take care of yourself

and keep in touch.”

I chuckled. “Why do you talk like my mother?”

It was a sunny day, with light clouds and light wind. The wheels of the suitcase rolled across the airport floor, and the cold air blew faintly

on people’s skin.

I sat on the plane, looking at the soft clouds floating around me, thinking about the last thing Cheng said to me at the airport

.

“Eight kilometers in the air. I’ll take you there. When you come back, I’ll

be here waiting for you.”

Wait for me? The glass of the

cabin was cold, spreading from fingers to heart.

I shook my head.

Forget it, I don’t want to. In

this year, I was so busy that I couldn’t tell the difference between day and night, but occasionally when I was free,

I would hear some news about other people.

For example, a junior high school classmate got married and a college classmate gave birth to a child.

For example, Pei Zhi finally chose to go abroad again. As for Sui Huai, maybe his

name was my forbidden word in the past, but as time went by, someone

finally mentioned him in front of me.

Once there was a friend in college who somehow guessed that Sui Huai and I had been together.

After we broke up, he called me.

The first sentence was, “Did you break up with Sui Huai?”

I am stupefied, subconsciously want to deny, but want to break up, naturally do not have to abide by Sui Huai said do not want to make public the agreement.

So I said, “Yeah, what’s going on?” The other end of the

phone hesitated, “Do you know what Sui Huai has become?”

I didn’t say anything because I knew the other person would speak again.

He sighed, “I know I shouldn’t say that to you, but as his friend, I really can’t see past it.” Even after I broke up with Pei Chi, I didn’t see him like this.

“After you broke up, Sui Huai’s whole personality changed. He started talking to a lot of girls, and after a few days he broke up. At first we thought he was just trying to heal his wounds in this way, but after a long time we found out that it was wrong.”

“The first girl I met was in a snack bar in the university town. She looked clean and her eyes looked like yours. The second girl I met was in a bar. Even a few of us said she looked like you when she smiled. Sui Huai Lei couldn’t help but be praised by people for three days, and the girl went home with him.”

He tried to go on, but I interrupted him.

“That’s enough.”

I took a deep breath and opened my mouth, but I didn’t know what to say.

I can’t imagine what Sui Huai looks like in his mouth, just as Pei Zhi couldn’t imagine what Sui Huai would look like if he didn’t love her. It was also at that moment that I deeply realized that the young

man I loved would never come back.

Did I hurt him, or did he?

But I couldn’t save him. People who

have managed to get out of the quagmire are reluctant to return to it

.

So I said, “Tell him I’m sorry and wish him happiness in the future.”

The tone was unexpectedly distant and cold, as if even the fingertips were frosted.

The other side wanted to say something more, but I hung up the phone directly.

I turned to look at the gray sky outside the huge French window of the apartment.

“It’s going to rain.” It’s

going to rain, but it will clear up after the rain. When the

weather clears up, everything will get better gradually.

I reached out to touch my face and accidentally felt a wet.

(15)

“I haven’t seen you for a year. Look how thin you are.” The daughter is back, the daughter is back! Come and see, old man!

My mother was wearing an apron and holding a spatula in her hand.

In order not to let two people go all the way to the airport to pick up people, I only said that I would go home in the near future,

but did not say when.

Similarly, I didn’t tell anyone when I would return.

Including Cheng Xian.

I don’t know what I’m afraid of in my heart. I’m afraid that he really kept his promise

. I’m even more afraid that it was just a joke.

So just run away.

My father looked energetic and came out with a cat in his arms. When I

made a video call, they told me that this was a stray cat in the community, and

they took it home and raised it.

The little guy went from skinny to fat and strong at a speed visible to the naked eye.

The little orange cat became a little orange pig. My mother could hardly hold it. Only my father still hugged it all day

.

“Why didn’t you tell me in advance when you came back? I can cook a good meal for you at noon.”

I shook my head. “I didn’t say anything just so I wouldn’t bother you.” My father put the cat down, picked up the suitcase and dragged it into the house. Then he turned to my mother and said,

“Go and make a phone call and ask Cheng to come home for dinner.”

I was stunned. “What little Cheng?”

My mother took the spatula to the kitchen, probably thinking of the burning dishes in the pot, and her

tone was a little urgent.

It’s Cheng Hsien. Didn’t we have dinner together. This year he

has been running to our house every day, saying that you are not here, and that he is doing filial piety for you.

“Now that you’re back, shouldn’t we invite Cheng to dinner?”

I leaned against the door frame of the kitchen, listening to my mother’s tone as if she were coaxing a child, and I couldn’t help

laughing.

“You can treat me if you want. Isn’t it just a meal?”

My mother said “tut” twice, and her expression looked very dissatisfied.

“Do you really not understand or don’t you really understand? Let me tell you, after this year, I

‘ve treated Cheng as a son-in-law. He’s handsome and tall, and he can talk..” The subject

in front of me was about to veer off, and I hurriedly shouted, “Mom!”

My mother glanced sideways at me and said, “OK, OK, I won’t say anything. You young people are in charge of your own affairs

.”

While we were talking, my dad looked up from his cell phone with his reading glasses on

. “Cheng says he’ll be here soon.”

I held my arms, helpless on my face, but nervous in my heart. During

this year, I kept in touch with Cheng Xian. He would talk to me about the interesting things in

life, and I would share the troubles in work.

Sometimes I think that we are really like Shen Jiayi and Ko Jingteng when they keep in touch

after graduation, so I will inexplicably close the conversation that I want to send messages.

Window. When

the doorbell rang, my dad shoved me and gave me a look.

I stood up, went to the door, and opened it gently.

Cheng Chien is wearing a white T-shirt and a black jacket. He looks very fresh.

His eyes are bright. “Long time no see.”

I said, “It’s only been a year, not a long time.”

Cheng said, “It’s been long enough for me.” The first reaction of a person who

has not been loved well after receiving love is to want to run away.

I turned my head. “Come in. My parents are waiting for you.” The food was already set on the

table, and my mother was even more enthusiastic when she saw Cheng than when she saw me,

saying, “Little Cheng, eat more.”. Halfway through, Cheng Chien went out to answer a phone call. My mother picked up his coat, which was draped over the back of his chair.

Nu Nu looked at me with his chin and said, “Send it to someone. Don’t catch a cold.”

I was helpless. “He’s a big man..”

The second half of the sentence was broken in my stomach under my mother’s eyes.

I went to the balcony and saw Cheng back to me and said something, too far away, I faintly

heard only a few words.

Blind date.. Go home for the Chinese New Year..

My heart jumped and I called out his name.

Cheng turned around and saw me not far away, and there was nothing unusual about my expression.

Looking at that face, inexplicably, I was so angry that I threw my coat into his arms

and turned away.

After a while, Cheng returned to the table and poked me with his elbow. “What’s the matter with you?”

I stuffed a mouthful of rice into my mouth. “It’s all right.”

“Are you sure?”

“It’s all right.”

(16)

After dinner, my mother asked me to send him. Not seen for a year, Cheng Xian seems to have lost some weight, but the jaw line is more obvious

.

He put his hand in the pocket of his coat and turned his head. “I haven’t been back for a year. Has Jiangcheng

changed a lot?”

I nodded and said yes.

Tall buildings grow faster than us, the distance between buildings is getting closer and closer,

but the distance between people is getting farther and farther. “When are you going home this year?”

I asked out of the blue.

Cheng was stupefied, and then pointed to the short t on his body. “It’s too early

to say that.”

Then there was a smile in his voice. “But my mother told me that if I don’t bring my girlfriend

back this year, I won’t come back either.”

It was my turn to be in a daze. I stopped and asked, “Didn’t your mother

ask you to go home for a blind date?”

“No.”

Cheng’s legs were long, and in the few seconds I stopped, he was already some distance away from me.

He suddenly turned around with a dull expression on his face and said,

“Lin Nian, are you just jealous?”

I looked at his face and sighed silently. I can’t seem to escape.

So I nodded and pretended to be calm.

Cheng was frozen. He slowly raised his right hand and touched his neck.

Many years ago, Cheng Xian also loved to do this action, when he could not do math problems, when he

dozed off in class but was suddenly called up by the teacher.

I know. It’s a sign that he doesn’t know how to react.

I sighed again.

I think, Cheng Xian this fool brain, obviously very smart, why sometimes look

so not smart?

I took a few steps forward, grabbed the zipper edge of his open coat with both hands, and stood on tiptoe

kissing it.

The dragonfly skimmed the surface of the water, and when I stood back in place again, Cheng Xian still kept the action of touching his neck with his

right hand.

One second.

Two seconds.

Cheng title suddenly scolded in a low voice, and then subconsciously stepped back a few steps, a face of disbelief

. “Lin Nien-suan, did you sneak up on me?”

I looked at him in a funny way, and suddenly something flashed through my mind and was caught.

I said, “Cheng Xian, you haven’t been in love in the past few years, have you?”

Cheng Xian opened his mouth and closed it again.

He wrapped his coat around his body, like some good family man who had been violated, and then said in a calm tone that could be debunked at a

glance, “I’m leaving.”

I folded my hands. “Okay.”

“I’m really leaving.”

I held out my hand and made a gesture of invitation.

Cheng Xian looked at me, and there seemed to be a trace of bitterness in his eyes.

I watched him walk out of the gate of the community, and then I turned around and walked home.

Just as I was about to step up the steps, a hand suddenly appeared and grabbed me. My center of gravity

fell back unsteadily and fell into a broad and warm embrace.

Cheng Xian should have run back, panting slightly.

He straightened my body.

He said, “I just thought about it, and I think it’s better for boys to take the initiative

in this kind of thing.” Then I saw a magnified face.

I think I should be smiling at the moment, gentle eyes, I think Cheng Xian must be.

I suddenly remembered that many years ago when I first expressed my love to Sui Huai, I asked him carefully

if he could be with me. He just glanced at me and said yes.

At that time, I took ninety-nine steps, just for Sui Huai’s step.

But a truly healthy love should not be like this.

Cheng Xian took fifty steps towards me, and I should have taken fifty steps towards him. It is love that goes to

each other.

Otherwise, how can we stand in the center of the world and embrace it?

……

“We’ll go home to meet my parents at the end of the year and get married in the spring of next year, okay?”

“You’re in too much of a hurry.”

“I’ve been waiting for so many years, and I just want to fast-forward the ending.”

“I haven’t said I’ll marry you yet.”

Tut, who else but me? The dried meat floss only recognizes you.

“Well, for the meat floss.” “What a reluctant tone, Guoguo.”

“Cheng Hsien, are you asking for a beating?” As

the sun sets, we wait for spring to come and winter to go.

Time scratches at the turn of the seasons.

Seventeen-year-old Lin Nian could not imagine that she would marry the

boy like sunshine after going round and round in the future.

But the 17-year-old Cheng Xian thought of it. That’s what

he always thought. The summer

in Jiangcheng never stops, and the heat wave is rolling in.

Sometimes when you love someone and live on the same street, you can’t see them, but when

you don’t love them, the situation of that person comes to you like a heat wave, which catches you

by surprise. The air conditioning in the

living room was on full blast, and I was lying on the side of the sofa looking at my cell phone, with my legs across the sitting

Cheng’s legs. A photo suddenly appeared in the

circle of friends, which made me stupefied.

It was the back of a couple of newlyweds, even though it was a little blurred, but I recognized it at a glance

. And the person who sent this photo is my friend with Sui Huai who called me before

. When I got married

a few years ago, I had a grand wedding and invited almost all my acquaintances. It was Cheng Xian

who offered to ask me if I wanted to invite Sui Huai.

I looked at his face, smiled softly, and then refused.

He is generous not because he is generous enough, but because he loves me enough.

And my choice, of course, can not let him down.

Cheng Hsien looked at me, but his mouth was still hard. “Are you really not calling him?”

I shook my head and looked at him with some amusement. “I’m afraid your jealous jar will flood the whole wedding scene

.”

Over the past few years, Sui Huai did not come to me, exhausted all kinds of methods, both hard and soft,

until I could not bear it any more, all his contact information was blacklisted and deleted.

I didn’t mean to hide it from Cheng, and I was even more afraid that if he found out, the situation would

get worse, so I took the initiative to explain to him every time.

Cheng will not be angry with me, but he will sulk himself, so angry that his teeth itch. Late at night on

our wedding day, I received a message from a strange number

with just four words:

“Happy Wedding.”. I know who sent it, and I think he should know that I will guess.

I thought about it for a while and sent the wedding photos I had just taken two days ago. I said, “

Yes, I am very happy.”

Then he blacklisted the strange number. When

Cheng saw the chat record, he was so happy that he didn’t close his mouth all night.

He said, “Guoguo, you like me, right? You just like me.”

I opened my eyes, full of festive red, then turned my head and gave him a white look.

“I’m married to you, and you still ask such retarded questions.”

Cheng Hsien was not annoyed either. He turned over and held me in his arms. “Yes, now that you’re my wife

, you must like me. It’s nice that you like me.”

I was aroused by his disgusting words, an arm of goose bumps, difficult to raise his head, but to see

Cheng Xian has closed his eyes, the corners of the mouth are still smiling. After all,

I did not open my mouth, adjusted a comfortable posture, and gradually fell asleep. The last thing I thought before I

fell asleep was, yes, it’s good, Cheng Xian, it’s good that you are the last

one.

And since that day, Sui Huai has not appeared in front of me.

Until today, I swiped the pictures of his wedding.

Scrolling down, I saw a few more pictures in succession. Just as I didn’t invite him, he didn’t invite me. I think he knew I wouldn’t go.

The bride is not Pei Zhi.

That girl doesn’t look like me, nor does she look like Pei Zhi. She looks very cute, the type of a little Jasper.

I heard that they met on a blind date and got married three months later.

As for Sui Huai, he was quite different from what I remembered. I tried to think for a long time, but I couldn’t describe where the difference was.

Later, I thought, probably not love, so even the memory can not beautify the people in front of me.

Sometimes I lament the fate, Pei Zhi’s four years, my three years, but did not let us have a result. At

this time, I would see Cheng Xian, who came to the kitchen to cook for me sleepily with his head in the chicken coop.

Then I found that I had no regrets at all.

My life is dull, but not boring. I revolve around work and family every day.

There was a time when the meat floss was so excited that it rushed out as soon as the door opened, and Cheng could not hold it. It was not until I saw the little golden retriever playing on the grass that I realized that the meat floss also met

its love.

Cheng Hsien has always held an attitude of supporting free love, and sometimes he would

proudly look at the figure of the dried meat floss running out and say, “See, single-minded, follow me.”

At this time, I would look at him helplessly, and I really couldn’t figure out where

his pride was. When

Cheng was not too busy with his work, he would take me to the bar

where we met to sing.

He took off his suit and changed into a casual suit. His peach blossom eyes were deep and beautiful. The dim light

covered him with a sense of alienation, which made many young girls blush.

But every time he finished singing, he would come straight to me and hold my

hand without hesitation.

“Come on, 4th wife, let’s go home.”

Sometimes when we meet people who don’t know and ask us if we are lovers in love, Cheng Xian

will show the ring on his ring finger like a treasure.

“We are already married.”

He sounded as proud as if he had won the basketball championship in high school.

As for Cheng’s parents, I was once worried that they would not like me, but it

turned out that I thought too much.

Cheng’s father was somewhat serious, but his mother was well maintained and open-minded, as if she were just a sister a few years older than me.

They never interfered between Cheng Xian and me, and they seemed more concerned about maintaining their own feelings than their son’s.

Sometimes I hear Cheng Hsien on the phone, and his voice says, “Why are you pushing the company’s affairs to me again? You want to go out with your wife, and I want to, too.”

I leaned over and saw the word “Old Cheng” on the call screen. I couldn’t help but stare at him.

In return, Cheng Chien curled his lips with grievance, as if he were complaining to me, “Don’t you think so..”

I looked at the picture still on the phone, blushed, and reached out to cover his mouth.

Some time ago, I went back to his house for dinner with Cheng Xian. His mother pulled me happily and praised me for looking more beautiful than last time we met.

His father is probably not good at words, and the way to express his love for the younger generation is to give money, but when I saw a bank card he handed over, I was still at a loss to turn my eyes to Cheng for help.

Cheng Hsien, however, took the card and put it in my hand. “Take it. The old man must have given me a lot.” And

, of course, getting a look from his dad. His father looked at Cheng and asked, “Are you still living in the house in Xitingyuan?”

Xitingyuan was the place where I stayed before I went on a business trip, and it was there that I met Cheng Xian from the same community

. Stunned,

I subconsciously asked, “What Xiting Garden?” When

his father saw that it was I who opened my mouth, his tone softened a little, and he explained, “This kid didn’t

know what to do before. He didn’t live in a good home, so he had to go out and rent a house.”

He wanted to go on, but Cheng stopped him in a hurry.

Cheng Hsien glanced at me and stammered, “There’s soup in the kitchen. I’ll go and bring it

over.”

I looked at his back and silently got up and walked over.

When Cheng Xian saw me, he was so flustered that he lowered his head and admitted his mistake like a meat floss.

I didn’t mean to hide it from you. I’m afraid you’re angry. I’m afraid you think you didn’t meet

me by chance.

His voice suddenly stopped, because the next second, I took a few steps forward and hugged

him.

“I’m not angry.” Why should I be angry when

a person tries his best to love me.

I raised my head and looked into his eyes. “Cheng Xian, I love you.”

-End-

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