Two hearts know
that the beauty has passed away: I still remember that I was the most beautiful girl in Shangjing when
I was in love with thrush.
Married to a butcher. On the
wedding night, the young master of the Lu family stormed into my bridal chamber and lifted my veil.
“Ah Yun,” he said in front of me for the first time, “would you rather marry him than me?”
I straightened my sleeve, and my tone was as firm as ever.
“Lu Ming-yen, I won’t be a concubine.”
Yes, I, Shu Yun, was born humble, but I will never be a concubine.
He had a black face and a layer of hatred in his eyebrows and eyes.
After a long time, he finally spoke.
“I wish you everlasting happiness and a long life together.”
He gave me back the words I gave him.
I pulled the red veil from his hand and answered with a faint “good.”
Lu Mingyan loves me.
The whole of Kamikyo knows. In order to see me,
he spent thousands of yuan, and even the extremely rare luminous pearl became an object for him to make me happy.
In other people’s words, if I am more interesting and hold this young master of the Lu family, even if I do an outer room in the future, I will enjoy endless splendor and wealth.
But I’m not interested. Every time
he sees me, I have to ask a question.
“Will you marry me?” The
response to me is always a long silence.
Obviously, he won’t.
So I shut the door and kicked him out.
The next day, he sent many precious treasures.
I still have the same problem.
But this time he obviously came prepared. He asked me, “Ah Yun, if I were a down-and-out scholar or a butcher in the countryside, would you marry me?”
He threw the question to me.
I was silent for a moment and then told him.
“Yes.”
“I will marry anyone who can carry me through the door fair and square.” The most persistent thing in
my life, Shu Yun, is that the Ming matchmaker is marrying four big characters.
He raised an eyebrow, obviously in disbelief.
But when I actually married a country butcher, he panicked.
Naturally, this is the last word.
At that time, he was frowning and saying to me, “Ah Yun, why can’t you make a concession?”
“Be obedient. Even if you are a concubine, I won’t let you suffer any injustice.”
His hand fell on my cherry blossom button.
I took a few steps back and responded faintly to him, “I have never been a good person. I was born not to wronged myself and to help others.”
“If you can’t do what I want, please go back.”
He was speechless for a moment.
On the third day, he found me again.
But this time, apparently without the previous two righteous words.
He took my hand and told me he was getting married.
The other party was the legitimate daughter of the minister of the Ministry of Personnel. She was dignified and prudent, with a pure heart. She was well-matched with Lu Mingyan.
I looked at the clouds floating in the sky and was stunned for a few seconds.
“Ah Yun,” he said softly, calling my name. “She’s been weak and sickly since she was a child. She won’t live long. As soon as she dies, I’ll carry you to the Lu Mansion in an eight-lift sedan chair. How about that?”
Listening to these words, I just feel funny.
So I bowed and told him, word for word, “May you and your new wife have a long life together.”
These words are totally from my heart, because only if their husband and wife love each other enough, Lu Mingyan will not have time to pester me. The light in
his eyes darkened for a moment, and he changed his usual tenderness. He asked me, “Shu Yun, am I not good enough for you?”
“Why do you have to push me?”
“I’m not forcing you.” I looked at him indifferently. “I can only say that we are destined to be together.” I don’t want what
he gave me, and he can’t give me what I want.
This remark was obviously beyond his expectation, and many emotions flashed through his unusually handsome face.
“Do you really think so?”
“Yes.”
I responded to him slowly and almost cruelly.
I have given him a chance, he has his choice, I have my insistence, since they can not give in, then do not force.
I give up.
He stood up and left here. They broke up on bad terms
again. On the day of
Lu Mingyan’s marriage, it caused a sensation throughout the capital.
Firecrackers, ten miles of red makeup.
I sat in the attic and looked down at him on his white horse, dressed as a bridegroom.
It’s really natural and unrestrained.
With such a lively scene, it is hard to avoid being talked about in the attic.
“Can you guess if the young lady of the Lu family can accommodate the one outside?”
This world is really ironic, I am such a clean person, because of Lu Mingyan’s repeated visits, bad reputation. Holding the hairpin on my temples,
I stood up. After Pingping had swept the faces of strangers, Youyou said, “You don’t have to worry about me. I’m not in the Lu Mansion. She can’t tolerate me. What does that have to do with me?”
As if the speaker had heard a big joke, he made no effort to hide his sarcasm and said, “Miss Shu, I’m not talking about you. Don’t always think about climbing the tree.”
“You may be beautiful, but after all, you come from a poor family. Without Master Lu, no one can protect your splendor and wealth.”
In other words, Lu Mingyan can not get people, no one dare to want.
Obviously, in their eyes, as a concubine of the Lu family, is the best home.
I smiled and said nothing more.
I never like to argue with fools. When I
got home, I told my aunt about getting married.
My aunt’s embroidered hand shook and raised her head and asked me who I wanted to marry.
“I’ll marry whoever comes to ask for marriage,” I told her, fiddling with the crape myrtle flowers by the wall and bending my eyebrows. “I’ll marry anyone who is willing to marry me.”
Wedding candles, the matchmaker is married, this is the most beautiful scene I can think of, how can I have the heart to settle for second best?
My aunt knew my character, and she said no more.
The next day, my aunt began to arrange my marriage.
If in the past, only by my reputation as the first beauty in Beijing, I don’t need to speak in person at all.
But now, Lu Mingyan has stepped in. My relationship
with him, which I can’t explain clearly, is really daunting.
Just as the last stitch of my wedding dress was about to fall, my aunt pushed open my door.
“Still no one wants to ask for marriage?” I had expected this result, so I didn’t have much reaction.
“No, someone is coming today.” “But he’s a butcher, two years older than you.”
“Doesn’t that suit me?” I laughed jokingly and put aside my needle and thread. “Please come in.”
I put on my best clothes and got up to see him. At the first sight of
me, he was obviously shocked and hesitated for a long time without saying a word. Smiling,
I offered him tea and broke the awkward atmosphere by saying, “I heard that you kill pigs?”
He gave a loud answer.
He said his name was Song Ru. His family had no father or mother. He made a living by killing pigs. He had earned some money for so many years. He had a small courtyard in the suburbs. Every time
he said a word, he peeked at me.
I looked at him in a daze and couldn’t help asking, “Why are you peeking at me?”
His face turned red with a “brush.” Obviously, he had a ferocious face, but when he smiled, he became more lovely, just like a little tiger in a daze.
Shu Yun.. “Girl,” he stammered out my name. “Aren’t you cold in these?”
Yes, compared with him, my pink gauze dress is really a little thin.
He handed me the tea in his hand, as if he had summoned up great courage. “You take it and warm yourself.”
Looking at the smoke from the teacup, I always feel inexplicable peace of mind.
So I smiled at him and asked, “Will you marry me?”
Song Ru was stunned and then nodded forcefully.
His eyes were as clear as the stars and the moon, and every word was so careful.
He said, “Yes.” There was a lot of joy in
my heart.
He was so good that if he had married such a man, he would not have had any regrets in his life. The seventh day of
October is the day we get married.
He carried me into his own yard in style, fulfilling the biggest obsession of my life.
The Ming media is getting married.
He treats me very well and always depends on me. Although the courtyard with
one entry and one exit is small, it is safe to live in. The
low stone walls were covered with moss, and a locust tree was planted in the middle of the yard.
I always like to sit under the locust tree and wait for Song Ru. Every time
he came back from the market, he would bring me something new.
What rattle? Ice-sugar gourds.. It’s
mostly kids’ stuff.
And I always smiled and told him that I was not a child.
“I’m afraid you’ll change your mind when you spoil me like this.”
It was a joke, but he remembered it for a long time.
He took my hand and told me word by word, “Shu Yun, no …” No, since I have married you, I will be good to you all my life.
I don’t know where he learned to use these words to please people. I blushed so much that I quickly changed my tune: “Other people’s husbands and wives all call each other their wives. Why do you still have a soothing rhyme?”
“Besides, according to current rules, you should call me Sung Shu.”
He looked at me and spoke very seriously.
“When a girl gets married, she doesn’t even have a name. How can there be such a rule in the world?”.
“Besides, Niang Zi and Shu Yun are not the same.”
“Shu Yun is my own Shu Yun.”
I burst out laughing. “Then the wife is not your own wife?”
He didn’t turn the corner.
I always like to tease him like this.
Somehow, I suddenly thought of fifty or sixty years later, two white-haired old people snuggled together, sitting under the locust tree, enjoying the cool and the moon. At
the beginning of the evening breeze, the pagodatree flowers are in full bloom.
From time to time, the phrase “Shu Yun” would pop up.
I seem to be the happiest person in the world.
Near the end of the year, the pork business is very good. There was a rare heavy snow
this year.
Before I left, I put on a newly sewn winter coat for him and told him again and again to go home early so as not to catch cold.
If you meet some beggars living on the street, don’t forget to give them a little.
I know he is a kind man, and even if I don’t say it, he will do it.
But when a woman gets married, she can’t avoid being wordy.
He nodded and told me that there was a new pastry shop in the east of the city. Awang from the stall next door said it was delicious and he bought some today. My heart suddenly missed a beat when it was obvious that it was
very common. Somehow
, I always feel depressed in my chest.
It’s like an induction. When
Song Ru returned home, as expected, something happened.
He was wounded all over.
Perhaps he was afraid that I would worry, but he still had a silly smile on his face. “It’s bad luck to say that a pack of wild dogs suddenly went mad and tore down my pork stall.”
“But it’s all right,”
he says, pulling out an oiled paper bag from his chest and deftly peeling it off layer by layer. “By the time it’s done, the bakery hasn’t closed yet.”
Looking at all kinds of cakes of different colors, I was silent for a moment, and then I chose the smallest one and put it in my mouth.
Very sweet.
“Is it good?” He blinked at me like a child taking credit.
“Delicious.”
I deliberately avoided his eyes.
“Let’s eat first.” I ate dumplings
tonight, and he specifically told me in the morning.
“Ah Wang told me a few days ago that his neighbor’s family had several kittens, and he raised one. When I saw him today, he had such a long scar on his face.”
As he spoke, he gestured and laughed.
I knew he was making me happy, but I was so sad that I added more soup for him silently. When
he saw that the situation was not right, he told other interesting stories.
Seeing that I still didn’t speak, he bowed his head in shame. “Did I do something wrong to make you angry?”
My eyes fell on the wound on his wrist, which was a very sharp stick wound, which must have been thrown down by someone else with full strength.
My heart is a little sour.
“Is it Lu Ming-yen who is making trouble today?”
He knew he couldn’t hide it from me, so he finally nodded.
“Blame me.”
I subconsciously red eyes, obviously their own people provoked, but now let others suffer.
He got up slowly and wiped the tears from my face.
“I don’t blame Yun’er.” The dim candle reflected on his dark eyes. “I married the best woman in the world. He was jealous of me.”
I don’t know who learned this garrulous words from.
I stopped my tears and asked him, “My affair with Lu Ming-yen caused a storm in the city. Why didn’t you mind at the beginning?”? Why did you come to my house to propose marriage? It’s better to talk about
some things.
Every time I say one more word, my heart hurts.
He scratched his head sheepishly. “Although I’m not a wise man, I know that people like him have evil minds. He wants to make a fuss about this just to dirty your reputation.”
“Even so, you still don’t want to marry him, which is enough to show that you have a clear conscience.”
“Why can’t I propose marriage to such a good woman as you?”
I never thought someone would say that, those days of unwillingness and grievance, also turned into a drop of tears down.
He was in a hurry and hit his head hard.
“Look at me. I’m so stupid. I’ve made you angry again.”
I smiled and dropped a kiss on his face.
“Thank you.” After
waiting for him to sleep, I went to Lu Fu.
Lu Mingyan seemed to know that I was coming. He specially arranged a table full of dishes and dismissed all the servants in the front hall.
The moonlight is faint, shining all around like a cage of gauze.
He poured me a glass of wine himself.
I didn’t answer it, and I just looked at him coldly.
I remember the first time I saw him, half a foot away, his eyes were smiling, even his tone was gentle and gentle, and he looked like a young man. How did it become like this
now?
“Can you get used to living in poverty?” He deliberately provoked me and could not hide his sarcasm in his eyes.
I took something out of my sleeve pocket and pushed it in front of him with two fingers.
“Give you back.”
This is the luminous pearl he gave me at that time in order to please me. Since it broke up, it will be broken clean.
And that he may not once more defile my name on account of it.
Lu Ming-yen’s hand stopped in midair, and his voice was tinged with anger. “Are you really so cruel?”.
Unfeeling?
I couldn’t help laughing and said sarcastically, “You’ve hurt my lover. Do you expect me to break up with you?”
“Lu Ming-yen,” I said coldly. “Now that I’ve married him, I want to think about him with all my heart.”
“I can let bygones be bygones for what happened before today. If you still try to hurt him in the future, don’t blame me for breaking the net with you.” I
have no father, no mother, and I am alone. Naturally, he could tell
which was more important.
In the past, I was always soft and weak in front of him, but now I spit out such words, which naturally surprised him.
I don’t know what he thought when he heard these words?
It’s probably like hearing the phrase “I’m not a concubine” in the past. It took a long time for
Lu Ming-yen to come to his senses. He clapped his hands and looked appreciative. “You really have a backbone.”
I didn’t care about his praise, so I got up smartly and left him a figure.
“Shu Yun,” he was calling me, “you will surely regret it later.”
Let’s talk about it later. When I
stepped out of Lu Fu, I heard someone calling me behind me.
It’s Lu Mingyan’s new wife.
She was dressed in blue clothes, and the moonlight was low on her shining eyes, which made her look elegant and vulgar.
As the rumor goes, she was so thin and weak that she seemed to have a serious illness.
I don’t like the Lu family, so I don’t have much affection for her.
“Sister,” she took a step forward and tried to hold my hand, but I dodged lightly.
“What’s the matter?”
I opened my mouth with a frown.
She understood what I meant, so she just stood there and saluted me shallowly.
She said she was ashamed of me.
Her marriage to the Lu family was just forced by the situation, and she didn’t want to ruin her marriage.
I am not an unreasonable person, I told her, she is not wrong, wrong is Lu Mingyan, dirty my reputation is him, hurt my lover is him.
“These things have nothing to do with you.” Mrs.
Lu looked at me with a little shock in her eyes. She pulled out a gold hairpin and handed it to me.
“Take it, it will make me feel better.” I
can see that she really wants to make up for me.
So I took the gold hairpin and whispered thanks. When she
left, she told me, “As long as I live, I can protect you.”
“Don’t worry.” I smiled as I
looked at her word for word. The women
Lu Mingyan provoked were all unworthy of him.
05
After all, it was the young lady raised by Shangshu Mansion who kept her promise.
Lu Mingyan really didn’t come to disgust me again. There is even better news
at this time, I am pregnant.
Song Ru was very happy. He hugged me around several times and kept asking me what I wanted to eat.
I deliberately embarrassed him, saying that I wanted to eat the tenderloin on Huahua’s body and asked him if he would like to?
Huahua is his favorite pig.
He didn’t even think about it and nodded briskly.
I burst out laughing and scolded him, “Love is more important than friends.”
Fortunately, I never like to take people’s love.
It seems that he is too happy, even being scolded can not stop his silly joy.
Song Ru took good care of me, stewing chicken soup, burning the stove, sewing children’s clothes, and he did what he should or should not do. I
don’t know if it’s because I’m a new mother, but I have a bad reaction to morning sickness.
Sometimes I only sleep for a while, and then I feel sick.
Looking at the dirt on the ground, I laughed at myself: “The child in my belly has a bad temper and won’t settle down for a while. If he were really born, wouldn’t he be a little devil?”.
Song Ru was naturally full of heartache. He gently held me in the rocking chair and stroked my lower abdomen again and again.
His palms were warm, and I began to feel better.
“Don’t torment your mother.” He put his ear to my stomach and muttered to himself, “Come and torment your father.”
“Your father has rough skin and thick flesh, and he’s not afraid of trouble.”
I laughed. How could there be such a silly person in the world? What can a child who has
not yet formed understand?
But the child seems to really understand.
I actually fell into a deep sleep. Not long after
this stable day, there was a change. Mrs.
Lu passed away.
No one knows how she died.
Or died, or died of illness, or a conscientious design, in short, so inexplicably died in a rainy night. The person who
told me the news was her personal maid, Gui Nan.
The little girl, dressed in filial piety, handed me a box with red eyes.
She was so sad that she cried every time she said a word.
“Girl.” She knelt down with a splash. “My girl told you to leave Beijing quickly. She..” She can’t protect you.
“These things are the dowry of the Shangshu Mansion, and have nothing to do with the Lu family. Before she died, she specifically told me to be sure to give them to you.”
“Let you take it as money and run.”
Looking at the box full of gold and silver jewelry, I couldn’t say anything. I just helped her up and asked, “How did your girl die?”
Such a good girl shouldn’t be gone for no reason.
Her face flashed with deep uneasiness and fear. After a long time, she wiped away her tears and said slowly, “Miss Lu has been given the title of queen.”
Some things don’t need to be too clear.
For a moment, it was as if the sky had fallen, and I could hardly stand.
Fortunately, Song Ru, who was on one side, was able to support me in time. He gritted his teeth and said in a low voice, “The Lu family really has eyes in the sky.”
Yeah, hands and eyes, I can’t fight.
I straightened out my wrinkled clothes, and my eyes fell on the small courtyard. The rain splashed on the tiles and hit the ground along the eaves.
The old locust tree still stands there, like a lonely old man, silently guarding the grass and trees here.
Even though I was reluctant to give up, I finally opened my mouth.
“It’s time to go.”
I turned my back.
Because of the pregnant body, I am inconvenient to manage, and the clothes and jewelry I bring are all busy with Song Ru.
He changed all the valuables in the house into money and arranged everything by himself.
“We left the city through the south gate and headed straight for the outskirts of Beijing.” Not knowing when he would be able to return, he put away all his dusty belongings. “We’ll go to Yangzhou first, and then we’ll make plans for the rest.”
Looking at his back, I always feel guilty.
“If you hadn’t married me, you wouldn’t have to.” I said so, obviously in the heart is the pain of tearing heart crack lung, but still can not help laughing out.
Seemingly afraid that I would blame myself, Song Ruyi was stunned, and then came towards me, carefully embracing my back waist.
“Shu Yun.” I couldn’t see his expression, but I could clearly feel his gentle breath: “The greatest blessing in my life is to marry you.”
“Husband and wife are supposed to stand together through thick and thin.”
I just felt a warm feeling spread from my heart. I leaned against his chest and answered with a faint “Good.”
“Stand together through thick and thin.”
“When I get to Yangzhou, I’ll set up some shops and then go on with my business of slaughtering pigs.”
His voice had the roughness and huskiness of a northern man, which made me feel inexplicably reassured.
I teased him, “So you’re going to be a pig butcher for the rest of your life, and I’m going to be a pig butcher for the rest of my life?”
“If you don’t like it, you can do something else for a living.”
He told me so.
I like.
As long as he is here, I like it.
Looking at the bulge in my belly, I had an inexplicable thought in my heart: “When the baby grows up, let’s go somewhere else and have a look.” The mountains
of Penglai, the snow of Gusu, the fairyland on earth that has appeared or not appeared in rumors, should be visited in person.
“Good.”
He promised me without hesitation.
It is a pity that the weather is not what people want, and those beautiful things are the most easily broken. There was a slight sound of footsteps
outside, and through the narrow crack of the door, there was a bright light of fire.
Lu Mingyan is here.
The gate was kicked open, and he brought a large number of soldiers to surround the whole yard. With
Song Ru blocking me behind him, he gritted his teeth and asked him word by word, “We don’t break the law, and we don’t do evil. Why do you do this?”
“Why?” He smiled and looked at me with increasingly vicious eyes. “My last name is Lu.” The Lu family in
the capital, a century-old clan, has the royal family’s favor and countless eyes and ears.
In other words, if he can’t get it, no one else can. The
wind carried the rain more fiercely, straight to the body, Song Ru’s clothes have been wet for the most part, but he refused to give in. I don’t know when there were a few more figures
behind us, which surrounded us.
Now, you can’t retreat or escape.
Song Rulan, my strength is greater.
This scene obviously stimulated Lu Mingyan, who frowned with a deep threat in his tone.
“Yuner, come here.”
Seeing that I was not moved, he was even more angry.
“Or I’ll let you die together.”
I breathed a sigh of relief, knowing that there was no other way, so I walked slowly towards him.
Just when he was proud, I pulled out the gold hairpin on his head and stopped at the moment when the tip was about to cross his collar.
“Let us go.”
I spoke indifferently.
It all happened so fast. It took
Lu Mingyan a long time to recover.
“Yes!” He looked at me with a look that almost made him want to eat me alive. “Shu Yun, I looked down on you.”
My strength was heavier, and the gold hairpin was clinging to his neck. I only needed to press it lightly, and he would die here.
So I repeated what I just said again.
“Let us go.”
I’m not negotiating with him. I’m threatening his life.
He was not afraid at all.
Just listen to a command, the light flashes, three sharp arrows across the sky, straight toward me.
I know. There’s no escape.
I slowly closed my eyes.
Unexpectedly, Song Ru rushed over, he blocked me under his body, blood gushed out from his shoulder blade, and in an instant, blood filled the air. Another
arrow, straight through his chest.
“Song Ru!”
I screamed and couldn’t care less.
I knelt down in front of him and shouted his name again and again. It shouldn
‘t be like this. It shouldn’t be like this.
He is such a good man, how can he die?
Damn it, it’s me!
Yes! Blame me!
My tears fell down, shaking my head in disbelief and desperately.
“If I hadn’t provoked Lu Ming-yen, there wouldn’t have been such a thing. Blame me for being so arrogant that I had to fight for a matchmaker!”.
I had lost my reason and repeated like a demon.
“If I had been sensible enough to be a concubine, you wouldn’t have died!”
“I don’t deserve such a good man as you. I hurt you!”
Song Ru exhausted his last strength and held my hand gently.
“You deserve it.”
Marry you.. I I got my wish.
He finally closed his eyes.
No matter how loud I cry, he will never wake up. The
rain was so heavy that it washed his bloodstained face clean. For the first time,
I found that his eyebrows and eyes were so beautiful. No one will ever call me “Shuyun”
again and ask me if I am cold.
In this world, the only person who loved me left like this. The memory of the
past gradually became blurred, and a great sense of pain came. I can’t see
anything.
07
When I woke up, I was in Lufu. Everything
around is very exquisite, red Luan gauze curtain, dragon and phoenix new candles.
These are what I once mentioned to Lu Mingyan, and what I dreamed of when I was young.
But now, I just want Song Ru.
I subconsciously put my hand on my lower abdomen, but fortunately, the baby was still there.
A girl dressed as a servant girl came over. I was very familiar with her figure. It was Gui Nan.
I managed to prop myself up and asked, “Song Ru …” Are you still alive?
No matter what the result is, I always have a hope in my heart.
The little girl was so frightened that she turned pale and could not say a word.
I thought it was Lu Mingyan who gave the order, so I didn’t intend to embarrass her any more, but I saw her open her mouth and show half of her tongue.
I was surprised that I already knew everything. It
must be because she tipped me off and annoyed Lu Mingyan that she was so punished.
Lu Mingyan, you are really doing all the bad things.
I walked up to her with my stomach and knelt down to her.
“I am sorry for you.”
I hurt too many people.
Gui Nan hurriedly helped me up. She peeped around quietly and then gestured with her hand to me, “Girl, you have to live well. Kill him and avenge my girl.”
Yeah, she’s right. I have to live well to get justice for the people I love.
She opened the aloes cabinet beside her and motioned me to choose.
I know what she wants me to do. Most of the clothes
here are brightly colored, and my hands are slowly brushing on all kinds of silk, watching their light colors drifting in my hands, my heart can not help but be moved.
Finally, I chose a pink gauze dress.
Not for anything else, just because Song Ru likes this color.
Now, I’m going to wear this dress to please the man I hate so much.
It’s ironic.
Because my face was so pale, I didn’t put on too much makeup.
Just lightly in the face of a few Rouge, it has appeared to look at the colorful overflowing.
Looking at myself in the mirror, I actually moved the girl’s mind, stood on tiptoe, gently turned, the waist gauze skirt rose and fell, surrounded by my face, like a fairy in the moon palace, shining.
If Song Ru is here, he must worry about me.
“Be careful. Don’t hurt yourself.”
He might say so. They
may also follow me carefully and praise me happily.
Song Ru, Song Ru. How can I take care of myself
without you
? At
night, Lu Mingyan came.
He had never seen me so dressed up and stared at me in a trance.
I poured him a glass of wine myself.
“Yun’er,” he knew that I had hatred in my heart, so he deliberately softened his tone. “You … Do not hate me, for I have done all this for you.
He is always like this, no matter when he can pick himself clean, obviously doing the greatest evil in the world, but still a look of helplessness.
Do you know why I don’t want to be a concubine?
I didn’t look at him. I just told my own story.
“Because of my mother.”
My mother is the most beautiful flower queen in the south of the Yangtze River, and those aristocratic children have spent thousands of yuan to make my mother laugh.
Later, my mother met my father.
My father is an extremely shrewd swindler. He only used a few words to cheat my mother out of all her belongings. He also cheated my mother into giving birth to me.
My mother hates me. Because of me, she can’t accept any more guests.
She should be able to talk and laugh with the well-dressed dignitaries, but now she has to put down her posture to serve the people she once disdained in order to support me.
She said, my father is dirty, and the blood on my body is naturally dirty.
I was born low and don’t deserve to be loved.
I should hide in a dark rat hole and be kept by the rich children as a cheap concubine. People like
me are shameful.
Slowly, my mother got mad.
She set fire to our house, and I drifted from the south of the Yangtze River to Shangjing.
My mother’s words, like a knife, deeply pierced my heart, lingering.
So I always feel that I don’t deserve those good things.
But I have a pretension to be aloof, and I want to fight for one to see.
Lu Mingyan looked at me with pity in his eyes. He gently smoothed my long hair. “I promise you that after you give birth to this child, I will let you go through the door.”
I laughed.
He didn’t understand what I was saying at all.
I looked at him calmly.
Lu Mingyan, I want to tell you that you have destroyed what I wanted.
Song Ru is a beam of light from my dark life. Without you, we will grow old together and have a family reunion. At the age of fifty or sixty, they
will hold each other’s hands tightly and go to see a snow in the south of the Yangtze River. The most beautiful scenes
I could think of were all destroyed by you.
So now I’m going to destroy you, too.
Without giving him a chance to react, I pulled out the dagger from my waist and thrust it into his chest.
I started very quickly, in an instant, blood spattered, while he gritted his teeth in pain, I almost cruelly laughed out, looked up, and a knife fell.
He shouted, and the servants outside the door burst in and grabbed the dagger from my hand.
Laughter, laughter that pierces the sky.
“Lu Ming-yen,” I shouted hysterically at him. “You deserve it!”
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Lu Mingyan is not dead. The
second lady of the Lu family personally asked the imperial physician to treat him, saying that she had only hurt his vitality, and that it was not a big problem. The old lady of the
Lu family locked me in the woodshed and waited for my fate. It’s just a
big deal to die.
It’s just a pity that my child.
My hand fell on my bulging belly.
He was so young that he didn’t even have time to come into the world. I haven’t
even met his father and mother. With a
bang, the door of the woodshed was opened, and two stout maids came in, one on the left and one on the right, holding me up.
They forced my mouth open and drank a bowl of soup medicine.
It hurts.
Heart-rending pain.
A feeling of vertigo came over me, and I heard someone call out “Shu Yun.”.
Not far away, Song Ru stood under the locust tree and waved to me.
His whole body was covered with dazzling light, and I couldn’t open my eyes.
Before and after the flowers bloom a delicate color, lining in the warm sun, pleasing to the eye, fragrant fragrance. Looking around
, I saw a little girl.
Her little body was hidden behind a tree, with a rattle in her hand. With a
gentle movement, the butterfly is graceful and beautiful.
She turned her head sideways and sweetly called me “Mother.”.
Her voice is so beautiful, just like a leprechaun wandering in the world.
I wanted to hug her, but I had no strength in my whole body. Dizzy again
, I noticed that there was black smoke coming around, the sea of flowers disappeared, and everything around me became blurred.
I looked around in a hurry and kept walking forward, but I didn’t know where I was going. A stone appeared at my feet. I didn’t stand firm and fell heavily on the ground.
A wave of pain came over me.
Dazed, I felt that everything in the world was false. Suddenly, the darkness in front of me dispersed, and I finally woke up.
The pain was gone, like a dream. The
baby is gone.
I had expected this situation, so I didn’t have much reaction.
A pair of hands reached out, and I dodged subconsciously.
It’s Lu Mingyan.
Because of several knives in his body, his whole body was extremely weak, and his face became extremely pale.
“You hurt my life. I killed your child. We’re even.”
He said so.
Seeing that I still ignored him, he took the soup bowl from the servant girl’s hand, blew it gently, and then handed it to my mouth. What is
this? Are you trying to please?
I slowly turned my back and heard him say, “The matchmaker is getting married. I can give it to you.”
“Don’t be angry any more.”
His tone was so aggrieved that he almost begged
me to suppress my smile and look at him coldly.
“And now you still want to marry me.”
He was silent for a long time before he answered “Yes.”. It’s
really ironic.
I gazed at the glowing candle and said indifferently, “You only need to do three things for me, and then I will marry you.” There was a gleam in
his eyes.
“Speak.”
“First, we buried Song Ru in style and splendor, and inscribed on his tombstone the name of his late wife, Shu.”
“Second, erect a monument for my child.” All my life,
I am ashamed of them.
Hearing this, he laughed. For him, these two things were easy.
So he couldn’t help asking, “What about the third one?”
“There’s a new pastry shop in the east of the city. I want to try it.”
My eyes fell on the sparrows on the branches outside the window, flapping their wings lazily and chirping.
Lu Mingyan’s surprise was overflowing, and he hurriedly called the servant girl and ordered the three things down one by one. The
cakes were quickly bought back, and the Lu family spent a lot of money, one for each style. I drove them all out
on the grounds of dressing. After
the miscarriage, my body was very weak, and I sat up with my body.
Looking at the dazzling array of cakes, I think of Song Ru.
At that time, he looked at me proudly with injuries all over his body. The
long candle fell on his face, and everything looked so bright and beautiful.
I chose one of them and held it in my mouth.
I ate such a delicious cake before, but now it’s hard to swallow.
Song Ru, I didn’t save your child after all.
My mother is right. The blood on my body is dirty. This child doesn’t deserve to live.
I think of a lot of people.
I thought of Mrs. Lu who said she would protect me.
I thought of Gui Nan who tipped me off.
They’re all dead because of me. All my life,
I have been bringing misfortune to those who love me.
If I had known this was the end, I would not have wanted those self-righteous words and those who fought for the marriage of the Ming media. Big
tears fell down.
My vision is already blurred.
I took out a hairpin from the dressing box, and every step I took was painful.
This hairpin is very beautiful. If it were Song Ru, she would praise me for my good taste.
I was really loved by someone once.
So what am I complaining about?
I pointed the hairpin at my slender neck and stabbed it hard.
Blood spread in an instant. In
a trance, I seem to see Song Ru.
He held out his hand to me.
I laughed, and the strength in my hand was a little heavier. He can
‘t wait too long.
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