1.
On the day of Meng Qiwu’s funeral, Meng Weiwei, who came back from England, slapped
me in the face of the mourning hall.
“Is this how you take care of my father?” Meng Weiwei’s voice was as sharp as a dagger. “
Did you figure out how to kill him when you were in a hurry to be my stepmother?” The
makeup on that face is delicate but aggressive.
“I didn’t.” My eyes were moist and I pretended to be weak.
She wanted to rush over and kill me, but she was held back and couldn’t move. She looked at me as if
I had been poisoned. “Restless and kind-hearted bitch, don’t try to get a penny out of my house!” Ignoring her,
I managed to hold out until the end of the ceremony, forcing a smile to see off one guest after
another. I haven’t fully adapted to
Meng Qiwu’s death.
He’s finally dead.
He’s dead.. Mixed
emotions suddenly turned into a storm at this moment, which swept me away. I broke down and cried, muttering to myself and repeating “Daddy.”. A week after the
funeral, Meng Qiwu’s lawyer and friend came to visit me.
Meng Qiwu left all his property to me.
“When Chi-wu was alive, he was always worried about what you would do without him.” He looked around the room. There was almost no trace of Meng Chi-wu’s life in the room. He sighed deeply: “He asked me to tell you that you have suffered in the past few years with him.” Then
he stood up and nodded politely to say goodbye, and said that he could contact him at any time if necessary. After
sending him away, I looked through the will again and again to confirm the truth of the matter.
I didn’t come to my senses for a long time-if
Meng Weiwei knew, he would probably kill me. Meng Weiwei came to the door before seven o’clock
the next morning. As soon as he entered the door, he gave me a slap in the face. Then he pounced on me like a runaway wild dog. He grabbed my hair and dragged me against the wall. He said hysterically, “Fox spirit, was my father’s death an accident or not?”? Are
you already up to no good? Otherwise, why didn’t he leave me any money?
My scalp was tingling, screaming and struggling to resist, and finally grabbed her neck as she approached, and then pushed her to the ground. When she got up and tried to attack me, she was hugged by her husband. “Weiwei, calm down!”
You shut up! What’s the matter? You don’t want to give up your old lover? Ah? Does it hurt? Meng Weiwei has completely lost his mind, like a mad dog to catch who bites who.
“Meng Weiwei, can you accumulate some virtue in your mouth?” The man who was questioned was so angry that he blushed and did not let go.
What’s the matter? Anxious Meng Weiwei laughed back angrily, then turned to look at me and asked, “Su Lili, didn’t I just take away your man?”? You’re in a ***ing hurry to be my stepmother, and you’ve taken everything from me. Are you guilty?
This scene made me feel happy for the first time after Meng Qiwu’s death. I looked at her and said, word by word, “offense, offense, offense.”
Yes, I am Meng Weiwei’s stepmother, and Meng Weiwei’s husband is my first love.
2.
The story of Lu Su and me originated from a “hero saving the United States.”. When
I first arrived at Future World, the largest bar in H City, to sell wine, I was groped one night, and Lu Su helped me.
He grabbed the man’s restless hand and said sternly, “Is it shameless for a man of several decades to bully a girl?” Then he quickly pulled me out of the crowd and blocked me behind him. Who the *** are you? Don’t mind your own business with dogs and mice. The man pointed to his nose and gnashed
his teeth. “Now that she’s in the business, she has to know the rules.”. Do you really think
I spent thousands of yuan just to buy her wine?
He’s right. It’s typical in our line of work to trade bodies for money.
I am very grateful to Lu Su for coming to the rescue, but I am also afraid that if things go on, he will
be coquettish. So I pulled the corner of his coat and told him to leave me alone. Instead,
he grabbed my wrist tightly and grabbed a
bottle and smashed it on the head when the other side tried to approach. The
verbal tit-for-tat completely fermented into a fight.
Lu’s roommates joined in, and more than a dozen people scuffled
in the bar’s cramped booths. The music in the background of the
bar was so loud that people’s ears hurt, and broken wine bottles splashed everywhere.
Eventually, the group fight was forcibly ended by the bar staff. More than a dozen people were black
and blue, and some even saw blood. The losses
caused by the original compensation, after the liquidation, the group of outsiders were thrown out of the bar; Lu
Su because of their good attitude, the boss did not do much to pursue.
And I was severely warned by my boss, “Next time, get the *** out of here!”
3.
To show my gratitude, I invited them to have a midnight snack near the bar. The free midnight snack lifted the spirits of the group instantly.
Although the compensation almost covered their living expenses for a month, they all clapped
their chests and said that the money was nothing, so I didn’t have to worry about them. During the
conversation, I learned that they were freshmen of Chengdong University. He said that Lu Su had saved his pocket money for a long time in order to
come to our bar, especially to find me.
I was shocked. Embarrassed,
Lu Su scratched his head, blushed and hesitated to ask me for contact information.
“I’ve actually liked you for a long time.”
“I got drunk on National Day last year, and you took care of me.”
He said he vomited in the toilet of a bar outside the school. I helped him out
and gave him a cup of honey water. “You patted me on the back at that time and gently coaxed
me to drink water as if I was glowing. It was very beautiful.” When
the others heard it, they all heckled and said that it was so sour that Lu Su didn’t dare to look at me.
I didn’t expect that such a trivial thing would be remembered by him for so long. I told him
that he was just an ordinary drunken guest that night. It would be
the same for anyone else.
He was eager to explain, “I knew I was just an ordinary guest that day.”. But it is
you who have such impartial patience with everyone. I just, I just feel that you are so
gentle. Then he blushed again, different
from the young man who had just smashed the bottle.
Perhaps moved by his concern and gratitude for his help, I gave him contact information in a crowd of voices.
Don’t call me sister. I’m only 19 years old. My name is Su Lili.
4.
Lu Su pursued simplicity, directness and sincerity, and I surrendered in less than three months. After the
relationship was confirmed, like all couples in love, we always tried our best to stick together. He sent me to and from work, and I accompanied him to class and dinner.
But we will also have contradictions. He was very picky about my working environment and dress, and hoped that I could change my job, work and live in a simple environment, and be a really pure person.
My heart is somewhat concerned, but in order to calm his mood, I basically accompany him to class and eat at school every day.
That afternoon, I accompanied Lu Su to take a public elective course. He threw the textbook to me and played the whole class game. I listen to that whole lecture attentively, taking careful note in his book.
I cherish every opportunity to learn. I was forced to drop out of school at the age of 16 to earn money to support my family, and it was a luxury for me to continue my studies. But I never gave up this hope. The content of the lecture
that day was “the historical background of the emergence of modern and contemporary Chinese literature, and its connections and differences with ancient Chinese literature and foreign literature.” The teacher was a man in his late fifties who spoke slowly and neatly, with his hair combed back. He spoke with fervor and assurance, and from his narration, I saw the romance and beauty of knowledge. Throughout
the class, my eyes followed his every move and devoted myself to the world of knowledge
.
I never thought my life would take a crazy turn because of this class.
Because the person standing on the platform is Meng Qiwu, a professor at the Provincial College of Literature.
5.
Lu Su is tall and handsome, sunny and cheerful, and his grades are not bad. In addition, he is often active in campus
activities, so his ability to attract bees and butterflies should not be underestimated.
His roommate often tells me who wants Lu Su’s contact information today and who confesses tomorrow
. It
‘s so popular that I can’t help joking, “When the time comes, don’t let a rival
come to me and demonstrate against me.” Less than a week after I said
this, someone really came to demonstrate to me, or came directly to the bar
to make things difficult for me.
That man is Meng Weiwei.
Her makeup was delicate and domineering that day, wearing a dress that I hardly knew but looked
very expensive, and my cheap tight sequined skirt and rough makeup that my mother did not know
, one in the sky and the other on the ground.
She sat in the booth, crossed her legs, and said defiantly, “I’ll buy out your sales tonight if you
blow on the spot.” She looked
like a rich and willful young lady, and the little sisters she brought with her looked at me contemptuously.
I had no idea where I had gotten myself into trouble with such an elite, or even condescended to trouble me in such a polluted place. One
more thing is better than one less thing. I ignored her self-righteous provocation and said I was sorry to turn around and leave. But the little sister she brought pulled her hair back.
“What are you pretending to be, bitch?” People
like Meng Weiwei, who are born to look down on anyone, are the best at cynicism. When I was dragged down on the sofa in a mess, she was looking at me coldly and smiling proudly.
“Su Lili, right?” Meng Weiwei looked me up and down as if she were looking at a commodity, and finally shook her head unsatisfactorily. “What are Lu Su’s eyes?”? So much for that. As soon as
the words came out, I understood everything.
She came here because of Lu Su. I don’t give a damn about
this kind of bullying, and I will fight back immediately. So I looked up at her and said, “If you don’t like me, Lu Su is still my boyfriend.” Then, word by word, he said sarcastically, “You’re coming to me now because you can’t get anything from him, okay?”
This remark so enraged her that she immediately slapped me in the face and gnashed her teeth. “Do you think you are worthy of him?”? I’m just here to make you feel better. At that time,
I really believed that Lu Su was dead set on loving me, so even if I was bullied like this, I was neither humble nor arrogant. Then I broke away from them and slapped Meng Weiwei back. Un
willing to be humiliated, she screamed and swept the wine off the table, shouting that I had hit someone. The earth-shaking background music of the bar could not cover the sound she made, and almost all the people near the booth stopped their activities and began to gather to watch the fun.
The farce ended with me drinking 10 bottles of beer in one breath and apologizing. When I was about to vomit, Meng Weiwei directly let her little sisters imprison me and force me down.
That night, I drank directly to acute gastroenteritis and was sent to the emergency room for intravenous drip. Meng Weiwei and
I also have a grudge against each other because of this. In fact, she is not used to seeing me unilaterally and wants me to die.
6.
My boss scolded me again, but he still gave me three days of sick leave and let me go to the hospital every day to have an intravenous drip.
I didn’t tell Lu Su about it. I lied that I had something to go back to my hometown. He didn’t have much doubt, and he answered disappointedly. Oh, he didn’t bother much.
I bought a few interesting books from the second-hand bookstore, and I survived three days alone. On the first day of
resuming work, Meng Qiwu found me.
At that time, the bar had not been officially opened, so I took the opportunity to fish at the bar and turned over The Myth of Sisyphus with relish. “Lily, I seem to be looking for you.” The well-connected little sister brought a man
over, and the suit and tie were incompatible with the whole bar.
He looked at me and smiled, glancing at the book in my hand with a look of approval.
“You like Camus?” He sat next to me and asked me. I don’t like it
either. Take a look. You can’t go wrong with reading more.
“That’s true.” He smiled and introduced himself to me, “Hello.”. My dear Meng
Chi-wu.
Hello. Have we met before? I closed the book and placed it carefully. He
reacted coldly for fear of getting into trouble again.
No. I have come to make amends to you today.
“Make amends?”
“It’s about my daughter coming here three days ago to make things difficult.”
Three days ago?
I followed the train of thought he provided-who else could have made things difficult for me three days ago?
“Meng Weiwei?”
I looked at him carefully again, his hair was combed back meticulously, every detail of his well-cut
suit was extraordinary, and his behavior was similar to that of a gangster who often went to
bars.
I can’t help wondering: How did he give birth to such a domineering daughter as Meng Weiwei?
“Weiwei, she is usually spoiled by me. I’m sorry to make such a fact.” He rubbed the edge of his glass with his fingers and explained to me slowly, “Things are really bad, so I thought I must apologize to Miss Su in person, but you haven’t been here for a few days.”
Although his serious speech made me feel uncomfortable, it did not affect his being a good father.
Originally relieved, I was suddenly surrounded by jealousy at this moment. Jealous that Meng Weiwei has a good family background to squander, but also jealous that she has a father who thinks about everything for her.
Unlike me..
But on second thought, I was jealous of Meng Weiwei, and she was jealous that Lu Su was my boyfriend. I feel much better in an instant.
I waved my hand and said, “It’s all right. It happens all the time in my line of work. I’m used to it.” My original intention is that things are over, and don’t care too much and involve unnecessary trouble.
Often.. Did it happen? I don’t know if it’s my illusion, but there seems to be a feeling of pity in his eyes.
I avoided his eyes directly, “also …” Not very often. After a pause, I mean, there’s no need to make amends. She also bought out my wine that night. It’s even.
He kept looking at me for a long time, and my scalp tingled with his eyes. After a long time, he sighed deeply. “Miss Su, you shouldn’t be here.”
Meng Qiwu gave me a phone number when he left.
“If Miss Su needs my help in the future, I will certainly do my best.” He told
me that he was an elder after all, and it was easy to take care of me.
“Can you help me get the complete works of Camus, for example?” That doesn’t make any sense. It
‘s just my mouth.
“Yes.” His eyes were almost out of laughter.
I couldn’t think of anything else for the time being, so I took his kindness and accepted
it with a smile.
7.
Almost a week after the Meng Weiwei incident, Lu Sucai contacted me on his own initiative, saying that he had been helping a
school girl review before the exam and was too busy to take care of me.
I don’t doubt him, but I still have a little knot in my heart. Women’s intuition tells me that this
school girl will be a turning point in my relationship with Lu Su.
In addition, he has recently become more critical of my work environment, and every day before work, he always
uses more harsh words to criticize my dress and behavior at work than before.
“Lily, are you really going to keep falling like this?” He looked bitter
and angry.
This makes me very puzzled. He was the one who said it was great that I could survive in the mud, and now he’s the one who said I was willing to fall.
In less than a year, all the previous strengths have turned into shameful weaknesses.
The last acute gastritis left me the root of the disease. I have a stomachache every day recently, and I need a lot of rest after work to recover. Physical discomfort and bad mood, I no longer go to school with him every day as before.
He seemed to be busy with the qualification examination, and did not come to me specially, and even did not contact me on a daily basis. The sudden cooling of the
intimate relationship has made me feel restless recently.
This is not a good sign.
8.
This “cold war” lasted for nearly a month, and finally I took the initiative to give in. And decided to secretly go to school to give him a surprise on the day of thinking, thinking of apologizing and acting like a spoiled child, so that the contradiction could pass quickly.
But the fact tells me not to make surprises blindly. Because most surprises are only “surprises,” never “joys.”.
For example, at this moment, when I saw Lu Su standing alone at the school gate and looking around, I called him with joy and asked him, but I saw him hesitantly pick up the phone and lie to me, “I …” I’ve just finished class, and I’m going to have dinner with the third brother.
Then Meng Weiwei came out and patted him on the shoulder, and he hung up the phone in a hurry. The two of them talked happily and walked away. They were so sad that they knocked me down like a big stone in the air. I was in a mess.
Just less than a month, Lu Su, Meng Weiwei, they have been so close? How come
I never knew. I
didn’t rush forward to confront him, but just as I was losing my mind, I heard a hesitant voice: “Miss Su?”
I turned around and looked at Meng Qiwu, who was carrying a briefcase, standing half a meter away and smiling at me, just like when I first saw him. I accepted Meng Qiwu’s invitation to have dinner together
because of his hospitality.
I couldn’t take my eyes off the western restaurant opposite the school gate. My ears were filled with buzzing sounds, and my brain was like a fog, which was not clear. After a while, I heard my own voice saying, “I want to eat western food.”
I could have just walked away. But at this moment, I suddenly want to see the ugliness of everything on the surface.
My answer made Meng Qiwu hesitate a little, but eventually he answered humorously and went in with me. The
interior of the restaurant is simple and has a wide view. As soon as
we walked in, we saw Lu Su and Meng Weiwei. They sat by the window not far from the entrance, not knowing what they were talking about and laughing happily. Meng Qiwu stopped his steps and gave a slight cry as usual.
“Dad?”
“Lily?”
Two voices overlapping, two equally surprised faces.
Then Lu Su shyly called Professor Meng to Meng Qiwu.
Is Meng Qiwu a professor at the provincial university? Suddenly a vague fragment flashed through my mind: Meng Qiwu
was talking on the platform, Lu Su was playing games beside me, and I was taking notes..
I stared at him in a daze, my mouth seemed to be glued and I couldn’t make a sound. At one point,
the scene seemed to pause, and everyone was looking at each other thoughtfully. It was Meng Weiwei who
broke the silence. She glared at me and then asked Meng Chi-wu,
“Dad, why are you together?”
“I just saw Miss Su alone at the school gate.” He paused
as if on purpose, glanced at Lu Su, then looked at Meng Weiwei with a smile and said, “They didn’t pursue
what happened to you before. What’s wrong with me inviting her to dinner?”
“Pursue what?” Lu Su asked.
“Nothing.” Meng Weiwei eagerly interrupted the conversation and looked at
me unkindly. “Who knows what kind of peace of mind she has?”
“Weiwei, that’s not how I teach you to treat people.” Meng Qiwu’s voice was steady, but he was not angry.
Meng Weiwei did not expect his father to scold him like this in front of outsiders. He called his father irritably and sat down without answering again.
Lu Su came over and took me by the hand and said, “Lily, when did you come here? Why didn’t you tell me?”
I looked up at him and found that the boy was really good-looking, even at this moment, looking at this face, I could not bear to blame him.
“I just called.”
Lu Su opened and closed his lips awkwardly. “Lily, it’s not what you think.” He took my hand in his hands and said with the same deep feeling as in the past, “I helped her study for the exam before, and now she has passed the exam and specially invited guests to thank me.” Meng,
sitting at the table, gave me a slightly contemptuous glance and snorted disdainfully. Only when he saw Meng Qiwu’s reproachful eyes did he restrain a little.
I still choose to believe in Lu Su.
But maybe he didn’t even realize that he had already called the girl “Weiwei.”.
At the time of the meal, there were more and more people coming in and out of the restaurant, and we were somewhat in the way at the door.
“If that’s the case,” says Meng Chi-wu, taking the initiative to adjust the atmosphere, “it just so happens that everyone is here to show their gratitude. I’ll treat you to this meal today.” Then he turned to ask me, I looked at the perturbed Lu Su, and then looked at Meng Weiwei, who had no intention of talking to anyone, and finally nodded. When Lu Su saw that I no longer cared, he eagerly took my hand and walked over together.
Four people sit opposite each other.
Meng Qiwu generously arranged for everyone to order. Meng Weiwei looked at me sitting with Lu Su and gnashed his teeth, but he was afraid that Meng Qiwu would not attack me again. Lu Su had been telling jokes to coax me, and he was relieved until I laughed.
After dinner, Meng Chi-wu took Meng Wei-wei home. Before he left, he suddenly said to me, “Miss Su, I’ve already found the Complete Works of Albert Camus, but there are some works that haven’t been translated in Taiwan yet.” I didn’t react
for a moment, so I replied in a wooden way, “That …” What to do?
“If you don’t mind, I can translate for you.” Before
I could figure out the specific meaning, Meng Qiwu and I were pulled away by Lu Sumeng Weiwei.
Everything seemed calm, as if nothing had happened.
9.
Since then, the relationship between Lu Su and me seems to be as close as before, but some things have changed quietly. This kind of deterioration can not be saved, like incurable terminal cancer.
Instead, it was Meng Qiwu, who came to the bar every day after that day, rain or shine.
Every night he sat at the bar and ordered a Remy Martin and left at 12 o’clock on time.
He didn’t seem to be looking for me specifically, but every night he was there, I felt a pair of eyes following closely, Meng Qiwu never shy away from his naked eyes when he looked at me.
If for the first time it was a stream of pity, now it has all turned into an undercurrent of desire.
Meng Qiwu has a bad idea about me, which makes me feel proud and elated, but also vaguely perturbed. I was like the prey of a fierce beast, who lay dormant in the dark, waiting for an opportunity to move.
Meng Weiwei also did not stop, she always has tens of millions of ways to appear innocently between me and Lu Su, Bai Lian Xiu is perfect.
I looked down on her childish behavior, because Meng Qiwu always felt that I had the upper hand.
I was disappointed with Lu Su’s inaction, but Meng Qiwu’s eagerness made me feel a kind of secret excitement, and I even felt that I was not afraid of losing Lu Su. All of
the above seeped together and stirred in my dark life, and finally brewed into a storm.
One day after work, I received a strange text message with only one picture: Meng Weiwei took a selfie with only half of her face showing, and behind her was Lu Su, who was already sleeping soundly. His naked upper body, I know this is very dog blood, but I have to admit this fact: Meng Weiwei is so crisp to snatch Lu Su away from me.
I didn’t even have a chance to fight back. The cold air in the
early morning seemed to rush into my heart, which was frozen into ice and broke into pieces at any touch. Although I am not afraid of losing, the taste of being betrayed and cheated still makes me uncomfortable when things really come to an end. Like a walking corpse,
I took a taxi to the provincial university. At the provincial gate until dawn, Lu Su’s cell phone has been turned off. It was noon when
Lu Su and Meng Weiwei appeared in front of me hand in hand. This image tore away my last hope. The moment he
saw me, Lu Su shook off Meng Weiwei’s hand with a guilty conscience and looked at me with an uneasy face. Even though he was thrown away, Meng Weiwei still looked at me with a successful smile.
“Lily, let me explain.” The man is really a boring animal, every time the opening line of the bag has not changed.
Lu Su rushed forward to hold my hands tightly, looking anxious, handsome facial features are wrinkled, really not good-looking.
Explain what? Did Meng Weiwei ask you to go to the hotel to help her review her lessons? For the first time, I found that I had the gift of being aggressive. “I know all about it.”
Lu Su let go of me in a trance, his hands hanging feebly, like a drowning dog drooping his head. “Lily, it’s not like that.” His voice was very low. “It’s just going to bed, Lily.”. I have no feelings for her. Meng Weiwei on
one side did not even defend himself and looked at our meaningless argument like a joke.
“Lu Su, how dare you..” I bit my lip and tried to hold back my tears, but it was still like a tap that could not be turned off.
He had been inexplicably critical and disgusted before, and even lost his temper with me, all of which found the reason.
“Lily, you believe me.” He came forward and took my hand again. “We drank too much last night..”
I reached out and tore off his tightly wrapped collar and asked, “Trust you?”? How can I trust you, Lu Su?
The school gate was a crowded place, and this farce had already caused a crowd of onlookers to come and go, and everyone was talking about it. “Isn’t this Meng Weiwei and Lu Su?”? What kind of situation is this, that a mistress has come to you?
Nonsense! That’s Lu Su’s real girlfriend. I used to go to big classes with him.
…… The sound of
discussion poured in and turned into a weapon I could not resist, and I was routed. “I don’t believe you anymore, Lu Su.” I left him alone and walked to the subway entrance.
He tried to follow him but was pulled by Meng Weiwei.
“Lu Su, that was my first time.” Meng Weiwei, who had just laughed proudly, had a cry in
his voice.
In this case, Meng Weiwei can still say such a thing.
I don’t even know whether to call her shameless or praise her sacrifice for love.
The confrontation of cheating and catching adultery was over in less than five minutes, and I ended badly.
10.
Lu Su didn’t catch up after all. I walked to an empty street corner in a daze and sat down
to digest the mutation.
The weather is fine, the sun is very strong, but I feel cold for no reason. It’s cold to hold your
arms tightly.
“Miss Su.”
A Land Rover pulled up in front of me. Meng Qiwu rolled down the window and asked me, “Is there anything I can
do for you?”
I looked up at him, and I couldn’t see
his face because of the intense sunlight. When I
got on the bus, I was still shaking. Meng Qiwu turned on the heating carefully.
“Is Miss Su coming to school to see her boyfriend again?” He looked straight ahead, not at me.
“No.” I responded with a faint, gossamer air, “He cheated on me.” I have a deliberate element in the latter sentence.
He tilted his head slightly and glanced at me in surprise. In less than a second he looked straight ahead as if nothing had happened. He changed the subject and said, “Has Miss Su eaten yet?”? I just finished class and was going to eat. If you don’t mind, let’s have dinner together.
“Do you know who he cheated on?” I’m not going to let go of this topic.
This has nothing to do with me, Miss Su. If you need to speak, I can be the listener. I looked up at the man, who was driving intently, with the corners of his mouth turned up. He is used to being gentle and gentle, and he always smiles at everyone, and he is the same to me.
“You always knew, didn’t you?”
“I never interfere in Weiwei’s private affairs.” Meng Qiwu did not conceal anything, or disdained to conceal it.
“So you let her steal someone else’s boyfriend?!” I had a sudden outburst and shouted at him. “Stop the car!” I feel sick. I am disgusted that Meng Weiwei is shameless and unscrupulous, and I am even more disgusted that he turns a blind eye and does nothing.
Meng Chi-wu, of course, didn’t stop. He drove as if nothing had happened. “Miss Su, calm down.”. This kind of thing takes two to tango. Do you think I could have avoided it by stepping in?
He did not defend Meng Weiwei’s fault, but also pointed out that Lu Su was not a thing. “Quibble.” I was suddenly exhausted and turned to look out of the window, not to speak.
“Lily,” he suddenly called my name. “Put it down or fight back.”
I suddenly heard the implication of his words, and the rudiments of a revenge plan slowly emerged.
I looked at Meng Qiwu, who smiled gently as usual.
“Isn’t Meng Weiwei your daughter?”
“People have to suffer a little when they live in the world.” Why did
I think he was a gentleman before?
Meng Qiwu took me to a high-end western restaurant by the river. In the glass reflection,
I saw myself with messy hair and incomplete makeup, like a clown.
“I think you like western food.” He was familiar with table manners and did
his preparations methodically, while I didn’t even know what to do with the cup in front of me.
Lily, don’t be formal. I am here. He sat opposite and looked at
me with a smile. He seemed to be addicted to calling me “Lily”, which made him happy from the bottom of his heart.
My mind calmed down a little, but I didn’t want to talk much. The strange environment of the Western restaurant also made me
at a loss.
Meng Qiwu is considerate enough. He will do every step slowly for my reference.
When cutting steak, he will explain it in detail according to the logic of what, why and how to do. Professional
habits are brought to the table.
I looked at Meng Qiwu, who was cutting steak, and suddenly thought of my biological father. He was fond of drinking and gambling, and was good at beating women. In the winter when I was ten years old, he was drunk and drowned in the river.
“You’re a good father.” For no reason, I thought of Meng Weiwei again. She was so proud and arrogant that she easily took away my boyfriend.
He suddenly stopped cutting the steak, and his expression suddenly froze. Then he burst into a smile and answered gently, “Lily, I don’t think that’s a pleasant compliment.”
I was shivered by his laughter, got goose bumps all over my body, and dared not say a word more.
“I mean, I’m not a good father.” He then focused on the steak being cut and said, “Weiwei has been complaining about me.”
I snorted coldly, feeling that he was talking about dogs, and he said it in a high-sounding way. When the
steak was finally cut, he forked a piece into his mouth and chewed it slowly and evenly.
As for what Meng Weiwei complained about, he did not say any more. I didn’t take the initiative to bring up the topic again, and the meal ended with the touch of tableware.
After dinner, Meng Qiwu insisted on sending me back. Determined to retaliate, I didn’t refuse much and got into his car directly. When I arrived at my dormitory at about 2:30 in the afternoon, I thanked him and got off the bus directly.
As soon as the door was closed, there was a cry of “Lili.”
11.
I turned around and saw Lu Su sitting by the flower bed in front of the building. He looked incredulous and deeply betrayed.
“Lily, where have you been?” Instead of answering him,
I walked straight in front of him and went into the building. He grabbed me quickly. “Lily, don’t do this. I can explain.”
I turned and looked at him in disgust. Explain what? Explain why you and Meng Weiwei slept together?! I had no scruples about Meng Qiwu in the car, and I couldn’t tell whether it was emotional or intentional.
Lu Su was speechless by me, silent confrontation, I looked at his gray expression instantly had the pleasure of revenge.
It was not until a “bang” broke the silence that Meng Chi-wu got out of the car and came over.
Meng. Professor Meng? Lu Su seemed to have suffered a bolt from the blue, and his face was pale.
“Is it true?” Meng Qiwu is still smiling, kind and gentle, and is simply a model of being a teacher.
Lu Su lowered his head again, not daring to speak.
Meng Qiwu stared at Lu Su as if waiting for an answer, but silence took up the rest of the time. Finally, he slowly pulled my hand out of Lu Su’s hand and said, “Little Lu, you go back to school with me first, and let Lily go up to rest.”
I took the opportunity to retreat nearly a meter, and Lu Su seemed to be shocked by Meng Chi-wu’s change of address to me. Looking at me, he wanted to say something more, but Meng Chi-wu interrupted him. “It’s not a gentleman’s
style to cling to me.” Then he leisurely got into the car, calmly opened the passenger door and said to him, “Besides, I think you need to talk to me about Weiwei.”
Lu Su looked at me unwillingly for a long time, and finally accepted his fate and got on the bus.
12.
After that, Lu Su didn’t come to me again, and I stopped going to school.
Meng Weiwei sent me intimate photos of her and Lu Su from time to time. I turned a blind eye to Meng Weiwei’s provocation and felt that she did not have to be looked down upon by such childish behavior.
Meng Weiwei may not know that Lu Su is still pestering me endlessly, but he really thought that he had subdued this man.
Meng Qiwu still comes to the bar every day, sits at the bar and drinks a cup of Remy Martin, and leaves at 12 o’clock on time. He is like a conscientious father who is afraid that his child will go astray.
I am used to waiting for Meng Qiwu to appear in the bar every night. I’m relieved to have him here. Although I understand that he is not a completely good person.
Time passed in a flash. One night half a year later, instead of waiting for Meng Qiwu, I waited for Meng Weiwei, her little sister and Lu Su.
Meng Weiwei is certainly not merciful to take care of my business, in line with the idea that one more thing is better than one less thing, I deliberately avoided them to sell wine on other tables.
But when he went to the toilet halfway, he was dragged into a cubicle with his mouth covered. I was pushed down rudely on the narrow ground, and two or three people came up to me, grabbed me and began to touch me.
My skirt was lifted and my private parts were touched. When I tried to fight back, they kicked and punched me without mercy.
My struggle was to no avail. The bar is noisy, and there are few sober people in and out of the bathroom late at night, even if they see it, they think they are looking for excitement. For the first time,
I felt hopeless.
Help.. Help.. When he
was about to lose hope, the door of the compartment was violently broken open.
It was a sister who had a good relationship with me with several staff members.
I staggered to my feet and she held me up. The staff dragged the bully out and beat him up. I told them to find out who ordered it.
The result is no accident, Meng Weiwei. I didn’t think she was so crazy.
I couldn’t hold my breath any longer and went up to them, picked up a glass of wine and threw it in her face. When she wants to fight back, break the bottle directly and point the sharp end of the broken bottle at her. “If you want to die, jump on her.”
Lu Su saw that he just wanted to be a peacemaker, but I pushed him to the ground. “Do you know what kind of woman you are?”? Lu Su, I find that not only are you not responsible, but you also have no ***ing brains.
Meng Weiwei and her little sisters were more or less frightened by me, and everyone sat down resentfully.
“Meng Weiwei, I could have called the police.” I grabbed her by the collar and gnashed my teeth.
But I didn’t want to pursue it immediately, so I called Meng Qiwu and hoped he could pick me up. At one o’clock
in the morning, the streets were not cold, and outside the bars there were many drunkards who had drunk too much and collapsed on the ground. Meng Qiwu’s car was parked in a temporary parking space outside the bar.
When he saw me coming out, he greeted me and put me in the car. As soon as he got in the car, he noticed my scratched hand and took out the medical kit to clean my wound.
He took my hand and prepared to disinfect my wound. But when the blood came out, he suddenly stopped moving. I looked up and saw the excitement in Meng Qiwu’s eyes. Then he took my hand to his mouth and kissed my wound for a long time. The touch
of dampness and heat spreads from the pores to the whole body. Something was wrong. I was shaking and my whole body was numb.
“Lily, you are so beautiful.” There was a faint light in
those eyes that was about to succeed. I was so frightened that I pulled back my hand and said thank you.
But as if nothing had happened, he resumed his gentle manner and said, “I’m sorry, I lost my temper.”
I sat straight and didn’t speak again. “Lily, remember to tell me when you are bullied. I will always help you.” He spoke earnestly
like a father who was worried about his children being bullied.
I thought of my father who died early. He never told me to protect me
. He was always the abuser.
“What do you want, uncle?”
Meng Chi-wu looked at me impassively. “You know what I want.” Meng Qiwu, who
said this, reminds me of the wolf waiting for hunting. He is cautious enough not
to expose me easily, but keen enough to catch me in my weakness and hunt me. The street lamp was a little dazzling
that day, and I couldn’t see anything clearly.
At that moment, I thought of the arrogant Meng Weiwei, thought of the cowardly Lu Su, this only
embryonic plan instantly clear up.
“I’ll give you.” Meng Weiwei, since you pester me endlessly and leave no way out, then I
am not polite. After
hearing my promise, Meng Chi-wu held the steering wheel and looked at me calmly for a long time. Then he smiled
, “It’s too late.”. I’ll take you back.
13.
Meng Qiwu has completely burdened my life, and I take it for granted.
I quit my job and moved from the four-person dormitory provided by the bar to Meng Qiwu’s single apartment in the city center
. Knowing my desire for reading, Meng Qiwu brought me a lot of books to put in the apartment.
He doesn’t come every day. He comes on Thursday and Friday nights every week. Occasionally, he takes me out for dinner
. Occasionally, he cooks noodles for me in the apartment on a whim.
After dinner, he basically accompanied me to read and answered my questions.
“Is that what you did to Meng Weiwei?”
“What?” Buy
her what she wants, read with her, and teach her what she doesn’t understand. Do your duty
and be a good father.
Meng Chi-wu sat up straight and said, “Lily, I can be your father, but not only
that.”
He never touched me, never spent the night, and I was kept out of his life, living alone in
his captivity.
But I was not dissatisfied, and I even felt that this was another kind of stability
that I wanted.
This state lasted for almost half a year, and Meng Weiwei, who had not seen him for a long time, came to the door.
“I really underestimated you before.” She restrained her arrogance this time and snorted coldly.
She walked into the room in a familiar way, looking around, occasionally picking up something
and putting it down. “Lu Su and I are going to England soon.” “Is that why you came to me?” I’m not going to give her a good attitude, even if
I’m just a bad lover now.
Flipping through the book she had just picked up, she ignored me and said
to herself, “We’re going to study in England together, and we’re going to settle down there.”
“Why are you telling me this?” I stood still in the doorway.
Nothing, show off. By the way, don’t think you are too
much. I don’t know how many shameless women
like you have lived in this apartment.
I looked at her domineering face and folded my arms noncommittally. Have you finished
? Walk slowly without seeing you off.
She ate again and walked away without looking back with a snort. I didn’t close the door
until the sound of the heels faded away and disappeared completely.
She Meng Weiwei thought I was a fool, but she didn’t think that her father was calculating her.
14、 Meng Qiwu and I got married
the next autumn. Meng’s hysterical questioning came from Britain, eight time zones away
, but to no avail.
It happened to be the sixteenth day of the lunar calendar, and the silvery light of the full moon was cast into the room, which was covered with
bright white. Meng Qiwu hugged me and lay on my side, holding my face and rubbing my thumb gently. Perhaps the atmosphere
is very good, I suddenly some moved, sentimentally attached to the palm of his hand. When I kissed his
palm, he seemed to be burned by something and withdrew his hand in a panic.
After a while, he stroked my face again, with a pious face, as if he were stroking
some treasure carefully.
My body was closer to him, and the warmth of his body made me sigh.
“Lily, have you made up your mind?” He stroked my ragged forelock and kissed my
forehead, his eyes as soft as water.
I nodded shyly, but his expression was different from that of the past. He said
to me sadly, “Lily, do you know how much patience
wolves need in order to catch their prey?” A sudden chill ran down
my spine. Meng Qiwu almost beat me to death
that night.
I can’t remember how he started to do it. I was caught off guard. When I realized it, I was
already scarred.
He said that when he saw me, it was like the desert was finally waiting for a rain. The rain is sweet and pure,
dripping for a while, and waiting for a hundred years.
“Lily, stay with me.” My forehead has been knocked out of the wound and began to
ooze blood. He kissed me with pity. “Stay with me, will you?” But in the next second, he seemed to change another face, hit me ferociously and violently, and became intimate with me in an extremely cruel way.
When I cried out in pain, he was more excited.
“Lili, you will belong to me completely after that.” His voice trembled with delight. “Do you know how hard I worked and how long I waited?” His voice became shrill and high-pitched unconsciously.
I begged him to let me go, but he told me, “Let you go, what can I do, Lily?”
I cried and looked back at him with difficulty. It was like a swamp full of stinky water. It could not grow anything. It was dead and lifeless forever.
“Why..” Why is there no response..
Why? Lily, why is it still like this? He suddenly began to cry, holding me and shaking. I’m in such
pain that I can hardly bear it.
Meng Chi-wu was so angry that he grabbed my hair and turned my head to his face. “Lily, what did you find?”
My heart is desolate and ironic. It turns out that a person can pretend to be like this. I thought I counted everyone
, but I didn’t think I was the one who was counted from beginning to end.
Say it! What have you found?
“You are not a man.” Meng Qiwu can’t have a normal husband and wife life at all.
Then he hit me in the face, saw me bleeding from the corners of my mouth, kissed me, and called my
name softly, “I love you, Lily.”. You don’t know how much I love you..
I have lost my strength and become a lamb to be slaughtered.
That night, Meng Qiwu, who was crazy enough, looked at me half dead and cried. When I
was sober, he went to get hot water to help me wipe my body clean.
He kept saying he was sorry, as if he wasn’t the one who had just done this to me.
I was lying in bed, looking at the ceiling, and I didn’t hear anything. When it was
almost dawn, Meng Qiwu went to bed and hooped me tightly, saying that
he loved me. I think I’m listening to a joke.
16.
I thought marrying Meng Qiwu was the end of my revenge against Meng Weiwei and Lu Su, but I didn’t think it was
the beginning of my real nightmare.
Meng Qiwu began to torture me in different ways, and he couldn’t help it when he was excited. He
likes blood. Every time I bleed, but every time he will wipe it up for me personally.
One night I had a slight fever because of the inflammation of the wound. When he touched my face, I cried and called him Dad in a daze. He was so excited that his whole body trembled. No matter how tight my wound was, his voice was trembling. He said again and again, “Lily, you keep shouting, just call me like this, Lily …”
I struggled to call my father in his tight arms, and he hugged me more and more tightly, with no gap in my skin. You want to rub me into the bone and blood.
“Suffering..” I was almost out of breath when he let me go. Thinking that I didn’t have dinner, he went to the kitchen and gave me a bowl of noodles and fed me one mouthful at a time.
“Meng Chi-wu, when will you let me go out for a walk?” I ate a few mouthfuls and looked at him in a good mood and asked.
His expression changed, his breath steadied, and he asked me, “Lili, is it not good at home?”
I turned my head away from him. Seeing that I was not going to talk to him any more, he took the bowls and chopsticks away in silence, went to the kitchen to clean them, and then went to bed and hugged me.
“Meng Chi-wu, you were going to help me get into college.” Before I got married, he watched me get into books every day and asked me with a smile if I wanted to go to college. He could help me. At that time, I really saw hope in him. He said that he liked the vivid and vital appearance of my thirst for knowledge when I read and study carefully.
But now, he held me in silence and called my name again and again. I knew he wasn’t going to leave me alone. After
getting married, Meng Qiwu locked me up at home as a possession. He’s violent and self-abased. He had to beat me to prove his strength and regain his self-esteem, and he was afraid that I would not come back if I left home, so he never let me go out. There is no end in sight for
such a day. I have tried to resist and beg for mercy. Hard and soft, I was still imprisoned in a room of less than two hundred square meters.
I even tried to kill myself, but after one failure, I made him grow a mind. There was nothing sharp or even deadly in the house, and medicine could not be found. Meng Qiwu even hired a nanny to watch me 24 hours a day.
I can’t run away. I don’t know why it happened like this.
17.
After I called him “Dad” that night, he seemed to enjoy it. I never called him husband in private. I always called him Dad. In the fourth year of
my marriage with Meng Qiwu, he applied for early retirement, accompanied me every day and took care of me in every detail, whether in life or in study. He really takes care of me like a father. On
our wedding anniversary, I put on a special makeup and cleaned up briefly. He cooked a table and opened a bottle of good Cabernet Sauvignon Red Wine during the meal. The atmosphere was very good that
night, and we seemed to be a normal loving couple. Perhaps the atmosphere infected, Meng Qiwu also relaxed his vigilance and drank without restraint. As a result, he drank half a bottle and began to talk nonsense, “Lily, I love you …” Violent people always repeat this sentence when they are vulnerable. I took the opportunity to pour him a few more cups, and he was completely drunk. Dragging him drunk into the room to
make sure he wouldn’t wake up easily, I picked up the key and prepared to escape.
I haven’t seen the outside world for a long time, and I feel that the air I breathe is sweet.
I walked along the street outside the hut, towards the crowded place. I seem to have found my missing four years of life in people’s comings
and goings. I
went out in a hurry. I didn’t take anything except the key.
I sat on an outdoor bench in the business district, watching people jostling one another, and led screens in the
square rotating one advertisement after another. But
I feel lost. The
number of people in the street slowly decreased, the night became deeper and deeper, and finally there was no one, and occasionally one or two
drunken madmen passed by.
I suddenly panicked about the outside world and unconsciously thought of the hot noodles that Meng Qiwu often made for me
. I suddenly want to eat. The bruise on
my leg from the last kick has not disappeared, and I still remember Meng Qiwu’s ferocious
appearance when he hit me. But in a flash, he spoke softly for me to analyze knowledge
points over and over again and take me to read.
……
My head was so full of memory fragments that it gave me a headache.
The horizon slowly turned white, and a glimmer of light fell on the tall buildings. It’s dawn.
I stood up and walked back with resignation.
18.
I walked home in a trance. As soon as I got to the door, I couldn’t help shivering and expiratory dyspnoea
. I was afraid that Meng Qiwu would sober up and be dragged in and beaten by him as soon as he opened the door.
But from the moment I put the key in the keyhole, wiggled to open the door, closed it, and walked into
the living room, there was only a clear and empty echo in the room, and no other sound.
It seems that Meng Qiwu is not awake yet.
I’m going to go to the bathroom to clean up my mess. When he reached the door, he saw Meng Qiwu lying on the ground
. His face was pale, and he turned in his grave, contorted
in a deformed posture. At this moment, he is really like a shriveled frog dying in the sun. My
mind went blank, I broke out in a cold sweat, and I trembled and covered my mouth. With goose bumps
of excitement, tears streamed down my face unconsciously.
Meng Qiwu is dead. He slipped in the bathroom when
he went to the toilet and had a sudden cerebral hemorrhage. I found it in rigor mortis.
19.
Meng Weiwei came to me to fight for the inheritance before the first seven days after Meng Qiwu’s death.
After a lot of kicking and tearing, I finally called my lawyer and asked him to come and deal with it. He couldn’t help frowning at our unkempt appearance. After finding out the cause and effect, he said with an expressionless face, “Chi Wu really didn’t leave anything to you. I told you yesterday.”
You lied to me! He’s my father. How could he do that!? Meng Weiwei still did not believe the result, shouting that I must be playing tricks.
“Actually, Chi-wu is not your father.” As a friend who knows the root of the matter for many years, the lawyer also told the truth. He also produced the paternity test report and the original will made by Meng Qiwu before his death.
“Chiwu couldn’t bear a child. He divorced your mother because she was pregnant with you.” It was a bolt from the blue for Meng Weiwei. I’m the same. Meng Qiwu never told me that he couldn’t have children in his life.
“Impossible, you lied to me!” Meng Weiwei was already somewhat unstable, and thanks to Lu Su’s support, he was able to stand. At the moment, she is like a funny joke, and her existence is an inappropriate embarrassment.
I suddenly figured out why Meng Qiwu chose to give up Meng Weiwei for me at first, and even used Meng Weiwei. As a sensitive and self-respecting person like him, Meng Weiwei is always reminding him of the betrayal and humiliation he has suffered.
Not giving Meng Weiwei anything is a straightforward expression of his calculation.
I sat on the sofa with arms folded and looked at Meng Weiwei with a pale face. I knew that no matter how painful I had been, I had won at the moment. My “father” gave me everything he had.
20.
When I was cleaning up Meng Qiwu’s study, I found the letter he wrote to me.
Qing Qing Rumei:
I’ve been haunted by you since I first saw you. You don’t remember most of them. You accompanied your boyfriend to class
that day, listening attentively and taking notes without omission. Especially those eyes, like the lake in autumn
, with a quiet, every time I look up, it makes me palpitate. Throughout
the class, your eyes have been following me, like I can take you to every distance
you want to go. The sun was shining right on the side of your face
that day. If
you are in the light, you are the moon of the day.
Approaching you was deliberate and planned for more than half a year, until Weiwei told me that she fell in love with
your boyfriend. I think this is an opportunity, I encourage this silly girl to pursue love bravely, and even
give her advice to create opportunities.
Weiwei comes to trouble you, Weiwei opens a room with him. Even when the matter was exposed,
he was coerced and lured to be with Weiwei and go abroad together.
Although it is not my full responsibility, it is all because of my selfishness, and many of them have fanned the flames and helped the tyrant to
do evil.
I know you despise me, especially after knowing my physical defects.
But Lily, even though I am so incompetent, I still want to keep you. You clearly yearn for the distance, but I will imprison you by my side.
You are a bird in the sky, and I know I can’t keep you. I thought maybe if you were free, you wouldn’t hate me so much.
Lily, my moon, my daughter, I set you free. It
was dated the night before our fourth wedding anniversary.
