First love, old love, new love
Zhou Tingnan announced at his 25th birthday party that he was with me.
But not because you like me.
But because Shen Songxi came to his birthday party with his new girlfriend in his arms.
He led me to the stage and announced it to everyone. The people in the
audience expressed their surprise one after another, and then they heckled to kiss one.
I heard it and looked sideways at Chou Ting-nan; he heard it too, but only stared at Shen Sung-hsi in the distance.
Seeing that the other side was also in the applause line, he held my hand and tightened it unconsciously, which made me feel painful.
I struggled. “You’re not really going to kiss me, are you?”
“You wish!”
Because of the crowd, I did not shake off Zhou Tingnan’s hand on the spot, but my heart could not suppress some sadness.
From childhood to adulthood, it seemed that he shook off my hand. When I was
seven, I fell down and tried to hold his hand, but he dodged: “I’m in a hurry to play football with Shen Sung-hsi. You go by yourself.” When I was
12 years old, I ate his snacks, but he wouldn’t let me touch him: “Your hands are full of oil. Don’t touch me, and Shen Sung-hsi will hate you again.” When he was
15, he already turned up his nose at me: “Look at you! Your hair is in a mess, your clothes are wrinkled, and you don’t look like a girl at all. Shen Sung-hsi is more exquisite than you!”
…… I can’t argue with that, but I can only try to get rid of these informal habits, and for a while I even slept in socks.
But what’s the use? Once
I caught Zhou Tingnan hugging Shen Songxi, who had just finished playing football and his hair was wet with sweat, I understood. It’s not that
he doesn’t like sloppy. He doesn’t like me.
But it’s not that I can’t understand that Shen Songxi is really great.
Just like now, we were like two wooden stakes in his stand, and he performed one for us with great understanding. When
Shen Songxi turned to kiss his girlfriend, Zhou Tingnan quickly let go of my hand and strode off the stage. His
friends swarmed him, one after another, and he accepted all comers.
Shen Sung-hsi came over and patted me on the head. “Congratulations, Koike, you got what you wanted.”
Even he knew that I liked Zhou Tingnan, but unfortunately I didn’t really get my wish.
I smiled at him, and the next second Chou Ting-nan was standing behind me: “Why are you touching her?”
“I can’t move?”
Of course not, you have a girlfriend. Are you going to be a scum?
Where and where are these? Not knowing whether to laugh or cry,
Shen Songxi was suddenly caught by Zhou Tingnan and dragged out, knocking over two wine tables along the road.
I was about to catch up with him when Chou Ting-nan’s mother stopped me. “Are you and Ting-nan real?”
Without waiting for me to answer, he said coldly, “Break up at once!”! Nanchi, don’t forget who you are. When
Zhou Tingnan came back, his collar was a little messy and his tie was crooked.
I didn’t dare to think much about it. I just lowered my eyes.
He looked around. “Why are you cleaning up?”
“It’s my job. If I don’t do it, who will?”
My mother was the nanny of the Zhou family. After my father died when I was five years old, she brought me to live in the Zhou family.
Zhou Tingnan was one year younger than me. When we first met, he fell down in front of me. My mother was afraid that he would lose face, so she pushed me from behind.
In this way, Chou Ting-nan and I both knelt down and “worshipped each other.”.
He stared at me with round eyes and suddenly giggled.
Mother said that he liked me, so I became his exclusive playmate and saw a lot of new and good things.
Zhou Tingnan is not stingy, but tired and lazy. Most of the time, he directs me to play for him.
I was self-taught, and even took the initiative to share part of his snacks.
My mother was so frightened by my mistake that she carried me back to my room to teach me a lesson. In less than three minutes, she could hear him looking for me outside. After
a few times, the mother understood what he meant, and even the kitchen began to cook for two.
In a word, thanks to him, my childhood was ignorant but comfortable.
It’s just that people have to grow up, and the world will begin to become different.
On Chou Tingnan’s thirteenth birthday, the Chou family prepared the first grand birthday party for him, and the people who came to support him were either rich or noble.
I followed Zhou Tingnan’s side, and was swept back and forth by those seemingly probing eyes, and my cramped toes picked the ground.
After he was called away, only Shen Songxi took me with him. People kept asking me about my identity, and he answered truthfully. The eyes of those
people became obviously contemptuous and began to order me to do this and that. Dissatisfied,
Shen Songxi stood in front of me in a standoff with those people, which attracted the attention of all the people in the hall for a while.
Mother hurriedly came over, apologized to the distinguished guest in a panic, and pulled me everywhere to serve tea and wine. Between
laughing and drinking, my back became more and more bent, and finally my mother gave me a heavy blow.
The young master doesn’t say, but you can’t count it in your heart. Koike, we are just the servants of this family. Just!
I nodded and tears fell on the new shoes, which Zhou Tingnan gave me a few days ago, saying that all the girls in their class were wearing them. Only
now did I realize that even if I wore these shoes, I could not really be like his female classmates.
This is the irresistible and insurmountable identity gap. After
realizing this, I quickly adjusted my mind and expression and went out with other people with snacks and fruit plates.
Chou Ting-nan had been released by his father and was standing in the hall looking around when he saw me waving: “Come here.”
I obediently walked over and stood beside Shen Songxi.
He stretched out his hand to pull me, and I stood still, watching him go from inexplicable to grievance, and finally leave in anger.
At this point, a line has been drawn and something has changed.
Like right now.
Chou Ting-nan conveniently helped me pack up my things, hesitating: “Well, what I just said on the stage..” Remembering Mother Chou,
I interrupted him: “Just kidding, I know..” I won’t take it seriously.
He stood there with his mouth half open, looked at me for a few seconds, and turned away with a cold face.
…… I will never reach out to pull me again as I did in the past. It was two o’clock in the middle of the night when I
received a call from Zhou Tingnan. The bartender asked me to pick him up. When did
he run out?
Before Mingming went to bed, I sent him a cup of honey water, and he lay in bed with his back to me without making a sound.
Oh, that’s unusual enough.
When Zhou Tingnan is drunk, he has the problem of drunken madness. He especially likes to move around and talk nonsense. He is completely different from when he is sober.
Probably because he was too reserved and self-restrained on weekdays, he would vent through the release of alcohol.
So for his drunken gaffes, I have never been bored, but distressed, every time drunk, I take care of him. When
necessary, some special measures will be used to deal with him.
For example, wrap him in a quilt and don’t move, or gag him with sugar.
Zhou Tingnan is a sweet person. When he was
eleven, he lost his favorite Labrador and cried for a long time in the kennel.
I took out a lot of things to coax him, but he only took a white rabbit toffee from my hand.
In midsummer, the toffee melted and softened, and his sticky fingers touched the back of my hand and ate it.
In the end, he squandered my “candy coffer.”.
That night, he began to have a toothache and rolled in bed crying. Only then did I know that he suffered from severe discordant teeth and was ordered not to eat sugar.
It was the first time I learned that pampering and indulgence can hurt.
Later, no matter how he begged me again, I never gave him another piece of candy until he grew up. After getting out
of the taxi, I went to the convenience store to buy a lollipop and put it in my pocket before walking quickly into the bar.
Zhou Tingnan was lying on the bar, next to a beautiful woman who looked familiar and was trying to help him up.
When I walked over, he looked up at me as if he felt something. After a while, he held out his hand to me.
The waiter called me “Lady No.1” and handed me Zhou Tingnan’s mobile phone.
I tried to dial it, and the cell phone in my pocket rang quickly.
So I’m number one.
I don’t know what it means, but it doesn’t stop me from being happy, so I decided to reward him with a lollipop. But
he frowned and said, “I don’t want to eat …” I feel sick in my stomach and want to vomit.
ah.. Then let’s hurry back!
I put the lollipop into my mouth and helped him out of the bar. When the evening breeze blew, I found that I forgot to put on my coat in a hurry.
He unceremoniously drilled into his windbreaker and barely stood with his shoulder against his chest.
He grinned his chin on the top of my head. “What is it?” Bikachu?
Bikachu is the dog he raised when he was a child. He was once bitten off half of his ear by a crazy stray dog in order to protect me.
He seldom had a clear preference for anything, and the only thing he could not forget was the dog, which was sent by Shen Songxi.
“What happened to you two at the party?”
「…… Had a fight.
“Huh?”? You fought with Shen Songxi. Hum..
Chou Ting-nan’s lips, which smelled of alcohol, suddenly kissed down, and his tongue poked into my mouth:.. The orange flavor is so sweet!
The world seems to have only his temperature and breath, like a net tied me in place, unable to move.
It was not until the white light flashed twice in the distance that I woke up and pushed him away, only to see an enchanting figure walking away quickly.
I haven’t entered Zhou Tingnan’s room in his presence for a long time.
He didn’t allow it, since I accidentally bumped into him watching movies in the summer vacation when I was sixteen.
He also snatched the dirty sheets from my hands and threw them into the trash can, and warned me with a red face not to clean up his room in the future. The sensitivity and shyness of
adolescent boys in front of the opposite sex is the beginning of real growth.
I didn’t feel offended because I understood the feeling before he did.
The previous summer vacation, Zhou Tingnan and his friends came back from playing basketball and hurt their elbows.
I told him not to take a bath first, and I went to find medicine to treat his wound.
But he obviously won’t listen to me. Holding iodophor and cotton swabs,
I stood in front of the half-open bathroom door and was overturned by the steaming water vapor.
That night, the thin and tough back covered with drops of water appeared in my dream, soaking the shy love into an unspeakable desire. After
that day, I began to avoid him. Even at Shen Songxi’s graduation ceremony, I didn’t stand next to him for a group photo.
Chou Ting-nan stretched out his hand to hold me down and said in a cold voice, “It doesn’t matter to other people, but you stay away from Shen Sung-hsi.”
A few words, like a bucket of ice water, poured me through the cold heart and shattered my secret dream.
Later, I was forbidden to enter his room, so I had to sneak in when he was not there to collect his breath.
I thought I was hiding well until he blocked me at the door of my room.
“Nanchi, the position of the remote control is your habit. You prefer your left hand to your right hand.”
Because my mother hates my left hand, so I try to switch to right hand, almost no one can see the difference, he actually knows! There was a sudden surge of pain in my
nose, and I quickly lowered my head and noticed his hot palm falling on my head.
Nanchi, I thought you knew me as well as I know you, but you don’t. For example, I know you won’t be obedient, but you don’t know that I’m just saying that.
I sniffed and tried to hold his hand, but only clenched my fingertips. The premise of understanding
each other is to be equal to each other. It’s not that I don’t know each other well enough. I just don’t dare to offend as much as I did when I was a child.
Reality has set a lot of rules and regulations for me, separating me from him, and he is so high that he never sees them.
At this moment, in this room full of familiar atmosphere, Zhou Tingnan fell softly on my shoulder. After
years of depression, he broke through his reason and showed some crazy courage.
Have But not much.
After throwing him on the bed and kissing him several times, I quickly wiped his mouth. Well, it’s all red.
It’s like a seal, a seal that belongs exclusively to Nanchi. With my stolen sweetness,
I undressed him and wiped his face and feet with a hot towel.
When he turned over, he took a picture of his naked back with his mobile phone, cut off the part above his neck and set it as the wallpaper of his mobile phone.
Zhou Tingnan has a thumb-sized birthmark on his back, which is a little darker than his skin color and magnified like a cloud.
My heart was itching to see it. I tried to touch his face and was caught by him. In a hurry, I slapped him in the face.
Chou Ting-nan sobered up and said, “Nanchi, are you a murderer?”
I laughed and said, “Oh..” “Oh, there are mosquitoes.”
“Bullshit, I think you’re retaliating!”
「…… No, you haven’t done anything that requires me to retaliate.
Zhou Tingnan was stunned, I do not know what to think of, eyes swept from my lips, burning to avoid the general.
My heart missed a beat. It’s over. Did he find out that I kissed him secretly?
“Well, just now you seemed to have a dream about delicious food. Your tongue kept licking your lips. Oh, it’s all swollen.”
Chou Ting-nan smiled and said, “I seem to have taken a bite of roast suckling pig in my dream.” It’s still orange.
Is it.. That’s great. I want to eat too.
Because of this perfunctory remark, I ate five flavors of roast suckling pig in a week. Uncle Wang,
the chef, came to me crying, saying that Zhou Tingnan told him to do whatever he wanted, but he was at the end of his wits and faced the risk of losing his job.
The old tears, I was very sad to see, so I ate two mouthfuls of durian flavor roast suckling pig to give him half.
Uncle Wang cried even more.
Zhou Tingnan heard it upstairs and paced down slowly, looking at me with his hands in his pockets.
I thought for a long time and then decided to say, “I’m sorry, but I don’t want to eat roast suckling pig.”
“What do you want to eat?”
Under Uncle Wang’s eager and pleading eyes, I said tentatively, “..” Noodles with bean paste?
Zhou Tingnan Mian nodded for its difficulty, and Uncle Wang immediately ran to the kitchen in high spirits.
As a traditional cook in old Beijing, he is best at noodles with soy sauce, and it was because of this skill that he was invited to the Zhou family.
But in fact, I am the one who likes to eat noodles with bean paste.
A bowl of hand-rolled noodles, sticky sauce, strong meat grains, and refreshing cucumber shreds.. It is the deepest memory my father left me.
After gradually forgetting my father’s appearance, I can only recall the happy years when I was held in the palm of my hand by eating noodles with soy sauce. When we were
in high school, we often had extra meals in the middle of the night. It was not good to trouble Uncle Wang, so I did it. The craftsmanship was almost the same, but he never disliked it.
Speaking of which, he seems to prefer noodles in clear soup.
I followed Uncle Wang into the kitchen, where he was pulling noodles with great momentum, while I silently cooked a bowl of clear soup.
Add a poached egg, a few slices of ham, shrimps and scallions without coriander, which is totally a child’s preference. I
couldn’t help laughing when I heard Chou Ting-nan calling me from outside: “Nan Chi, there’s something new on your cell phone.”
The next second: “This..” What the hell is your wallpaper! Nanchi, do you know how to be reserved?
I ran over and grabbed my cell phone: “This is the idol I’ve been chasing recently, his new magazine blockbuster..”
“What’s your name?”
I made up a nonsense about a popular star, and he actually took out his cell phone to search: “Cut, so thin, muscles are not good, what is there to show…”
Although he complained, he didn’t let me change it.
When the noodle soup is ready, he takes a bite and asks, “Who do you think looks better, him or Shen Sung-hsi?”
These two.. It’s just not relevant!
But in order to worry about his mood, I pretended to think: “Brother Sung-hsi looks better.”
I thought he would be happy to hear that I was sure of his sweetheart, but he threw his chopsticks directly: “How about comparing with me?”
I raised my thumb and said, “You are good-looking, and you are the most good-looking when the Heavenly King Lao Tzu comes!”! The waist is thin and the legs are long, the plate is straight and smooth, the sword eyebrow star eye, the Nuwa Bi set up, one eye ten thousand years.. “Oh!”
Chou Ting-nan pulled out a tissue and put it on my mouth. “Forget it,” he said. “Even objective facts coming out of your black mouth are very unreliable.”
“Then I’ll wipe it up and say it again.”
Zhou Tingnan smiled, wiped my mouth, threw the paper towel into the trash can, and rubbed his fingers unconsciously.
「…… So you think that Shen Sung-hsi and I..
The mobile phone rang suddenly. It was his mother. He got up and went up to the second floor to answer it.
I was relieved that if he did ask me questions about their relationship, I wouldn’t be able to answer them objectively and calmly.
For so many years, he has been following Shen Songxi.
Unconscious mimicry, casual comparison, conversational intimacy, and the occasional display of possessiveness. I
saw it in my eyes, but Shen Songxi didn’t mean it.
He only likes beautiful women and is interested in all kinds of types. He has made many girlfriends, but he doesn’t care much about them.
Only the current one is different, and she once called me to ask me what gifts girls like that are not luxurious but meaningful.
I couldn’t figure it out, so he called me a little waste and threw me the famous brand bracelet that he had declined.
I went to the counter the next day and bought a tie clip for Zhou Tingnan with that money. Rounding up is that Shen Songxi spent money for him.
Zhou Tingnan seemed to like it very much. During that time, he asked me to tie his tie every day, and then he put on his tie clip and took care of himself.
Later, when he went to pick up the drunken Shen Songxi, he lost it and never found it again.
He apologized to me and was afraid to speak loudly in front of me for a long time. I can’t help laughing and sweet when I
think of the way he ate it-I’ve seen all the unknown Zhou Tingnan.
Like the birthmark on his back, it’s a secret that belongs to both of us.
No one knows, but it’s enough for me to look back on my life.
Zhou Tingnan had a quarrel with his mother because of his marriage. As soon as
he graduated from college, his parents almost never stopped arranging for him.
Huan Fei Yan Shou are different, but without exception, they are all helpful to his family’s career.
The most outrageous thing is that there is a rich daughter who has a child out of wedlock, and she is going to ask him to take over. After a big fight with his parents,
Zhou Tingnan learned that the Zhou family’s career had begun to decline two years ago.
He was grateful for the support he had received, but he did not want to be the victim of a commercial marriage.
He had to give up his beloved photography and turned to Zhou’s group. In the
past few years, with his delicate mind and cold wrist, he has stabilized the declining trend of Zhou’s decline and turned over step by step.
Even Shen Songxi sighed at his talent, but I knew that he was never happy again.
His parents never gave up the idea of marriage, and he refused to compromise, and the parent-child relationship was once very tense.
But this time the object is a little different.
When Chou’s mother took Wen Miao home, Chou Ting-nan was watching a TV series starring my “bare-back idol,” and curled his lips to find fault.
See Wen Miao, stupefied for a moment, eyes subconsciously swept me, and then slightly frowned at Zhou Mu.
Wen Miao, on the other hand, is generous: “We meet again, Ting Nan.” As
he spoke, he nodded to me with a half-smile, which made my heart inexplicably tight.
Chou’s mother eagerly dragged her over to Chou Ting-nan and sat down beside him. “Go and make a pot of tea,” she said.
I turned around, trying to ignore the strange feeling in my heart. As soon as I made tea, I heard the kitchen door behind me open and close.
It was Wen Miao who came in. She didn’t speak. She just turned on her cell phone and showed me a picture of Zhou Tingnan kissing me that night when he was drunk. The person who
took the photo turned out to be her. She was the woman who tried to pick up Zhou Tingnan in the bar at that time!
No wonder she looks familiar. I saw her picture once.
She was Zhou Tingnan’s childhood playmate and went abroad with her parents before I came to Zhou’s home. When I was in
high school, I asked someone to reconnect with Zhou Tingnan, occasionally chatting, sending emails and photos.
Seventeen years old, she is beautiful and lovely, and now she is more mature and delicate, and her gestures are full of amorous feelings. Compared
with her, I am like a piece of inferior and mediocre wood.
Wen Miao lowered her voice: “If Aunt Chou sees this picture, do you think she’ll kick you out of the Chou family?” “What do you want me to do?”
I pouted.
“It’s simple. No matter what I say later, you just say it.”
Seeing me nod, she picked up the tea and turned to go out, and immediately came the voice of Zhou Mu’s surprise, mixed with a reprimand to me.
Zhou Tingnan motioned me to leave first, but was stopped by Wen Miao.
“Actually, Nanchi and I have known each other for a long time.” She smiled at Chou Ting-nan: “The night you got drunk at the’Indulge ‘bar, my friends were there to welcome me, and I brought you back to Nanchi.”
Chou’s mother immediately became interested, and she pulled Wen Miao to ask, while Chou Ting-nan’s face darkened: “Really? I don’t remember.”
Wen Miao pretended to be surprised and hurt and looked at me: “Nan Chi..” Didn’t you tell Tingnan? Did you forget?
Mother Chou pounded the table and said, “I forgot what happened. I think she’s just trying to take credit for Tingnan. She doesn’t have the right idea.” The low rebuke of
disgust was like a slap in my face, and my back was cold and my whole body was stiff.
Chou Ting-nan’s voice tightened. “Tell me yourself, Nan Chi.”
I didn’t dare to look at him. I just wrung my fingers. “I’m sorry, that’s true …” I forgot to tell you.
Seeing Zhou Tingnan’s black face, Zhou’s mother simply pointed out her intention directly-hoping that Zhou Tingnan and Wen Miao would get married as the premise of their relationship.
Zhou Tingnan was silent all the way, just staring at me, his eyes changed a few times, but finally he did not refuse directly.
Mother Chou left contentedly, and my whole heart went up. When he got up and went upstairs, I couldn’t help asking, “Are you really going to go with Miss Wen?”
“Why not..” Chou Ting-nan didn’t look back. “You also think she’s perfect for me, don’t you? That’s why..”
The second half of the sentence was drowned in his lonely figure, and something flashed through my mind, too fast to catch.
Shen Songxi’s lovelorn was caught off guard. When
Zhou Tingnan carried him back drunk, he was still pulling his neck and wailing.
Seeing me, he stretched out his hand with tears in his eyes and said, “Little Chi Chi, my half-sister, come and comfort my brother.”
I went up to take him, but Zhou Tingnan stretched out his arm to block him.
He didn’t look at me. He just grinned at Shen Sung-hsi and said, “I came to comfort you. I’ll take care of you tonight!”.
I felt that Shen Songxi was in some danger, so I quietly reached out and grabbed the corner of his clothes, and Zhou Tingnan gave him a hard look.
“Why don’t you come along?”
“Oh, no, no, no..” I quickly waved my hand, and the picture of the threesome was really illegal, and I couldn’t imagine it.
Zhou Tingnan snorted and dragged Shen Songxi to his room. I was going to the kitchen to cook a bowl of sobering soup. “Why are you in my room?” I
heard Chou Ting-nan’s voice suddenly rising. Wearing
only silk pajamas, Wen Miao said, “I’m sorry, Ting Nan. I just wanted to come here to look for a book to read, but I accidentally fell asleep.” A few days after the
last meeting, she moved into Zhou’s house under the arrangement of Zhou’s mother.
She is smart and confident, and she is good at winning people’s hearts, but she is still a layman at heart. She
thought I was her rival in love and was very wary of me.
He especially likes to order me around. I
knew what she was thinking, and I became more and more respectful to her, reminding her of her identity as a guest.
Zhou Tingnan is even more so, polite and caring to her, but also did not further express.
So she could not help but engage in these small actions, but I do not know inadvertently touched Zhou Tingnan’s inverse scale.
Once, because the girl Shen Songxi liked deliberately threw herself at him, the two almost broke up.
Sure enough, Chou Ting-nan’s voice was clearly cold: “I don’t really like people coming into my room. I hope you’ll try to avoid it in the future, okay?”
Wen Miao’s face turned pale and he forced a smile. Seeing Shen Songxi staggering, he wanted to reach out to help and was dodged by the drunkard. Who are
you? Don’t touch me! I don’t want you to help me. I want Chi to help me. She has the softest hands. I even kissed her when I was a kid.
I rushed up with a vigorous step, covering his mouth with one hand and my face with the other. Why can’t
drunk people become dumb!
Zhou Tingnan’s face darkened with the naked eye, and he stared at me as if he were going to eat people. Well
, I admit that I wanted to marry Shen Songxi when I was young and ignorant, because he was the first boy to braid my hair.
And Zhou Tingnan would just pull my hair and laugh like a fool.
Unfortunately, I fell in love with a fool in the end.
Wen Miao pointed to Shen Sung-hsi and pointed to me: “So you’re a couple. Nanchi is quite resourceful.” No, it’s the eye..
Chou Ting-nan didn’t answer. With a cold face, he helped Shen Sung-hsi in and threw him on the bed. “Why don’t you come and help me?” He called.
I passed by Wen Miao, gave a short laugh, and saw her gloomy eyes for a moment.
At that time, I just felt happy, but I never expected to wait for her vicious revenge.
Shen Songxi invited me to go to sea to play, but I refused.
But he said he wanted to heal, which I also need. When he
went to ask Zhou Tingnan for leave, he made things difficult for him for a long time with a calm face, but he refused to agree.
Shen Songxi observed his words and expressions and took the initiative to invite him to go with him. Then he hooked his lips and asked me to pack up my things together with him.
I asked loudly on purpose, “Do you want to bring your swimming trunks?” Which ones do you bring? Sure enough
, Chou Ting-nan jumped to his feet and said, “Forget it. I’ll do it myself.”
Shen Sung-hsi covered his mouth with a smile, and when he saw Wen Miao approaching, he made a warm invitation: “Why don’t you go with Miss Wen? There will be a lot of people.”
He doesn’t like Wen Miao, and he has never talked to Wen Miao since he was drunk last time. If
something goes wrong, there must be a demon, and I feel a little uneasy in my heart.
On Friday evening, the four of us boarded the boat together, only to learn that Shen Songxi had made an appointment with someone else.
Most of them are mutual friends of him and Zhou Tingnan, and Wen Miao is also familiar with them.
Those people should also have heard the rumor that the Zhou and Wen families intended to marry, and when they looked at me again, they were more contemptuous.
I tried to pretend to be indifferent, picked up a glass of wine, took a sip and coughed repeatedly.
Shen Sung-hsi burst out laughing, and Chou Ting-nan, who had seen him from a distance, shouted at the top of his voice, “Nan Chi, you’re not allowed to give me a drink!” My pride, which had been shaky since I
boarded the ship, suddenly gave birth to some rebellion. He picked up his glass, looked him in the eye, and drank it down.
When Zhou Tingnan was about to come over, he was entangled by his friends. I quickly hid behind Shen Songxi.
It happened that someone suggested playing Truth or Dare, which was old, but it didn’t stop people from being enthusiastic. When I
was asked when I first fell in love, Shen Sung-hsi answered, “When I was nine, Nanchi said he would marry me when he grew up.”
Everyone laughed and talked about their first love.
Crazy, funny, dead.. In a word, it is a little fatalistic and unforgettable. “Is the first person you fell in love with really that memorable?” As
KS Chou Ting-nan in a low voice amid a chorus of lamentations.
No one answered him, and no one noticed his lonely face for a moment.
When he was asked about his first kiss, he suddenly looked up at me and chose to drink three glasses of wine.
I looked at his rolling Adam’s apple and couldn’t help thinking of his soft and cool lips when he kissed me last time.
“Ding..” The mobile phone on the table lit up, Wen Miao just sat on my right side, pushed the mobile phone over, and got up to leave.
It was a message from Shen Songxi. It had no beginning or end. He only said that he would let me cooperate with him later.
Before I could ask, I was drawn again, asked the same question about the first kiss, and chose to drink.
Zhou Tingnan stood up to stop him, but Wen Miao beat him to the punch. She
came over and handed me a glass of wine. “It’s a little stronger,” she said. “Just drink a glass.” Although
I was surprised that she helped me out, I saw that everyone had no intention of being embarrassed, so I drank it wisely. In the
next round, Shen Sung-hsi was drawn. When asked if he still loved his ex, he smiled frivolously: “I have a lot of exes. Which one do you think?”.
Hanging his head, the corners of his lips climbed up, and his fingers trembled slightly.
This man, who has always given me a lot of care like my brother, is as fragile as a child at this moment.
I sighed and put my hand over his fist. Suddenly he held it in his backhand and held it up for everyone to see.
“Those are all floating clouds. I’ve decided to give little Nanchi, who wants to marry me, a chance.” Then he squeezed my hand and said, “OK?”
I shivered in my heart, but I could only nod in a daze, and I didn’t even dare to look at Zhou Tingnan’s face. Sure enough,
he left in a huff and kicked over a chair. Shen Songxi whistled and turned to play cards.
Really a pair of enemies, only I am a big grudge!
I left the crowd and went to the deck. The wet and salty sea breeze was cool, but there was a burning feeling rising from my abdomen. My legs began to be weak.
Such a strange and weird feeling makes me feel uneasy.
Just want to call Shen Songxi to ask me which room to rest, he rushed to come.
“What’s the matter with you, Koike? Wen Miao says you’re not feeling well.”
I didn’t think much about it, but I reached out and grabbed him, and when I touched him, I couldn’t help approaching his arms.
I seem to have a fever.. It’s hot all over, and it’s boring..
After learning that I had only touched the glass of wine given by Wen Miao in one night, Shen Songxi cursed in a low voice, picked me up and walked towards the cabin. When I
passed the corner, I heard Zhou Tingnan’s voice in a trance, and a flash of eagerness suddenly stopped.
My brain was so confused that I couldn’t think much about it until Shen Songxi put me into a bathtub filled with cold water.
He wanted to call Zhou Tingnan, but I stopped him-I didn’t want Zhou Tingnan to see me like this.
Eventually, he had to go out and lock me in the bathroom.
I gasped alone, tearing my clothes, and the naked back came back to my mind.
No matter how I called, I never turned around.
The night was longer than ever before. I don’t know when I fell asleep, and when I woke up, it was dawn.
Shen Sung-hsi was pouring water for me: “After soaking in cold water in the middle of the night, I really have a fever.”
I took a sip and asked in a dumb voice, “Are we there yet?”
“Just arrived. Go down. I’ll take you to the doctor.” It was very quiet in the
corridor, and most people were still awake. I followed behind Shen Songxi and suddenly heard a loud slam on the door.
Zhou Tingnan came out of the room not far away and strode away, followed by a graceful figure, it was Wen Miao.
I thought I was going to question her about tampering with the drink, but when I opened my mouth, I trembled: “You..”
“As you can see, I’m with Tinnan.”
“I don’t believe it!”
“He has a small birthmark on his back, like a cloud..”
Wen Miao’s voice in my ear was almost inaudible, but it was like a heavy hammer hitting my head.
…… It turned out that when I was suffering alone, the person I loved was having a spring breeze with the person who hurt me. The fragrant and gorgeous picture that
kept emerging was like a dagger Ling Chi’s heart, and my stomach began to twitch violently.
I turned around and spat it out with a “wow.” Gasping, I grabbed Shen Sung-hsi by the cuff and said, “Go.. Take me away. I
went to the hospital to have a blood test first, and the test sheet was collected by Shen Songxi, who told me that I just caught a cold and took the medicine and sent me back.
I, on the other hand, have decided to leave the Zhou family.
Mother resigned last year and returned to her hometown. I couldn’t bear to part with Zhou Tingnan, so I found a home animation illustrator to work and continue to stay. He
seldom socializes and has no hobbies. He is the only one in my world.
Now only sad, but also let me unexpectedly have the courage to say goodbye.
Before, Shen Songxi’s company wanted to recruit several creative planners, and now there is another position, I want to try. After I
went back, I quickly packed my luggage, and when I went downstairs, I happened to meet Zhou Tingnan who had returned.
His face was very bad, and when he saw the suitcase I was dragging, his eyes were red again.
“Are you so impatient to go to Shen Sung-hsi?”
It seemed that he had heard that I was going to look for a job: “Yes, his place is more suitable for me.”
“Oh..” I’m really sorry that you have been wronged by me for twenty years.
But I’ve never really seen you for so many years.
I silently replied, “Wen Miao may not be your childhood playmate long ago. People can change..” Inter
rupted by his cold voice: “Then you don’t have to worry about it. Why don’t you care more about Shen Sung-hsi?”
The words have come to this point, no more can be said.
I walked quickly out of the door, and when I brushed his shoulder, I saw his hand hanging at his side tremble violently and quickly insert it into his pocket.
Perhaps he is reluctant to part with me, but after all, he is no match for his self-esteem.
I took a taxi to the nearest express hotel, prepared my resume all night, then washed, made up, ate breakfast and went out. The
interview went well, and HR asked me to join the company the next day. Excited and nervous, I went to the mall to buy two business suits.
Accidentally met Wen Miao and a strange man, two people are intimate, look flustered into the next hotel.
My intuition was wrong, so I took a picture and sent it to Shen Songxi, asking him to remind Zhou Tingnan.
So as not to seem too concerned, I never asked about it again.
Until I saw the man in the company.
His name is Chi Mo, is the representative of the Zhou Group, the position is not low, it is said that he spent a lot of money to dig from abroad.
Shen Songxi’s face was as usual, and he spoke with fervor and assurance all the way, but I knew that he had almost a photographic memory, and it was impossible not to recognize this person.
After the meeting, I asked him if he had told Chou Ting-nan. He looked impatient and retorted: “You’ve forgotten how he treated you!”
“I..” I was silent after only one word, and found that I was not qualified to resent Zhou Tingnan.
He never liked me. There was no betrayal or injury. After
discovering this, the breath I held in my chest was released in an instant, and I felt childish and ridiculous.
Shen Songxi made a slip of the tongue and insisted on taking me to get drunk to relieve a thousand worries.
As a result, after ordering a row of fancy cocktails for me, I jumped on the dance floor by myself.
I stayed alone in the booth and drank a few cups before I sent a text message to Zhou Tingnan. He
quickly called, and when he heard the voice on my end, he immediately shouted, “What time is it? You’re still hanging around outside. Is that how Shen Sung-hsi takes care of you?” “I’m talking to you about Wen Miao. What are you talking about Brother Sung-hsi doing?”
I wondered. Why didn’t
I find you so protective of him before? Yes, you’ve liked him since you were a child, because he protected you that time.
Chou Ting-nan suddenly lowered his voice: “That was the only time I wasn’t with you..” At
this point, I felt even more that something was wrong with him. I got up and walked to a quiet place: “Chou Ting-nan..” Have you been drinking too much?
“I’m fine. Mind your own business!” As soon as
the voice fell, a familiar piano music sounded at the other end.
He is in the “old abyss.”.
It is a Chinese restaurant with exquisite dishes and quiet environment, but it is located in a remote area, and the round-trip journey is somewhat troublesome and extremely difficult to make an appointment.
Every year on my birthday, Zhou Tingnan would take me there for dinner. Twice, he was trapped on the road because of heavy rain, but he insisted unexpectedly. Every night when
the shop closes, it plays a very old-fashioned piano music, which is said to be the owner’s favorite.
And the name of the shop is because the proprietress has the word “pond” in her name, which comes from the poem “Fish in the pond think of the deep past.”.
All in all, a very romantic couple.
Chou Ting-nan was silent for a long time. “Happy birthday, Nanchi.”
By the time I arrived at the “Old Deep,” Chou Ting-nan was sitting on the stone wall outside the courtyard, looking at the stars.
Two feet hanging, shaking back and forth, like an ignorant child, but hands tightly in the pocket, seems to be afraid of the cold.
I walked over and said, “Why don’t you go wait in the car?”
He turned to look at me, squinting and smiling. “You told me to stay still. What if I’m not obedient and you don’t come?”
“Are you afraid I won’t come?”
I’m not really afraid. At the worst, I’ll look for Shen Sung-hsi. Forget it, I don’t want to see him!
I couldn’t help laughing and helped him into a taxi to the nearest hotel. On the
way last week, Tingnan began to have a stomachache. He groaned and leaned into my arms, and cold sweat broke out on his forehead.
I gave him some warm water, but it didn’t work. He was still curled up and his whole face was buried in the pillow.
After a while, there was a suppressed sob.
Zhou Tingnan is crying!
I squatted down beside the bed and tried to turn him over, but he grabbed his wrist and pulled him into his arms.
It turned out to be asleep.
But Zhou Tingnan is such a favored son of heaven, how can there be pain in his dream that makes him cry?
After thinking about it, Shen Songxi was probably the only one.
I once heard him express his love to Shen Songxi, who was sleeping, jumping and careful, as if he was afraid of waking up a hopeless old dream. When
you wake up, you can’t escape the pain of wishful thinking and the bondage of secular responsibility.
Some love can only be buried by hand.
Perhaps Wen Miao is his tool, I stubbornly think so, the heart can feel better.
I raised my fingers and stroked his eyebrows and eyes. “Chou Ting-nan, Chou Ting-nan, if only you liked me..”
He frowned slightly, opened his eyes slowly, looked at me misty for a long time, bowed his head and kissed me.
I rolled over to avoid him and fell from his arms to the floor, tears trickling down.
In the past, he liked an impossible person, and I could fight for him without any trace. Now that he has Wen Miao, I can no longer accept his intimacy.
I must admit that I still love him, but I am not cheap, and my love is even less.
So lying on the floor for a long time, I heard Zhou Tingnan’s eager groping voice gradually become smaller, and began to murmur intermittently.
Although the speech is not clear, but said very smoothly, seems to have said many times in general, I also feel some familiar.
Isn’t this what I heard before about his confession to Shen Songxi!
I got up from the ground and listened to his face, leaving only a long silence, followed by a clear voice: “Nan Chi..” Why did
Zhou Tingnan call my name?
Dreamed of me, or found me eavesdropping outside the door, or. Was it to me?
My heart was beating wildly with this wild speculation. I swallowed my saliva and said, “Chou Ting-nan, who did you dream about?”
He turned his head slightly toward me, closed his eyes, and answered vaguely, “Nan Chi.”
“Did you say that to her?”
「…… But she didn’t listen to me. She went with someone else and didn’t look back.
Zhou Tingnan finally put on a crying voice, clenched the sheets with his fingers, and shook his head in pain.
I pressed his hand and whispered, “I’m not leaving. I’m here.” Sure enough,
he calmed down and soon began to complain of stomachache.
This is not the way.
I withdrew my hand and was pulled by him. Where are you going again?
“I’ll go and buy you some stomach medicine. I’ll be back soon.”
Turning around, I saw a message coming in from his cell phone. It was Wen Miao.
“Ting Nan, I’m pregnant.”
Just six words were like a bucket of ice water poured on my head, and the heat in my chest dissipated in an instant.
Do not want to go deep into the meaning of Zhou Tingnan, just want to escape from everything related to him.
I did not go to buy medicine, nor did I go back, but sat in the lobby of the hotel in the middle of the night.
After daybreak, I hid in the convenience store next to me, sat by the window eating a bowl of instant noodles, and inadvertently saw an unexpected person.
Chi Mo. Dressed in casual clothes,
he went into the convenience store to buy bread and water, paid the bill and answered the phone.
“When I got there, I found a place, and when they came out, I took pictures.”
“I understand what you mean. I just want Chou Ting-nan’s mother to put pressure on him and then help you solve that problem.” Did
you give the message to Shen Sung-hsi? He hasn’t come yet, so we’ll see some excitement later.
Chi Mo laughed in a low voice and walked quickly back to a black car not far away, the co-driver’s seat facing the hotel door.
I instantly understood that the person opposite him was Wen Miao, and what he wanted to take was the picture of me and Zhou Tingnan coming out of the hotel together.
Wen Miao is pregnant, but Chou Ting-nan and I are “not clear.” Mother Zhou will make up for her and take me under the knife when she knows it. I
don’t know why she’s targeting me, but I can’t let her frame me again and again.
I took out my cell phone and called Shen Songxi and asked him to make a detour to pick me up across the road. After the
meeting, I told him the general situation. He gritted his teeth and said, “Wen Miao really doesn’t know whether she’s alive or dead. I haven’t settled the account with her yet!”.
I know his concerns, after all, his family and Zhou Tingnan’s family are family friends, the face of the elders of the Zhou family can not be ignored.
But he can still give Chi Mo some trouble.
Zhou’s proposed cooperation plan was overturned by him five times, Zhou’s father since the call to inquire, he hinted a few words, late ink was replaced.
Then, Zhou Tingnan led the team.
It was the first time I saw Zhou Tingnan at the negotiating table. His eyes were sharp and aggressive, and Shen Songxi was not far behind. The atmosphere in the
meeting room was so tense that the people present dared not even breathe loudly.
Finally, it was Shen Sung-hsi who called me, “Nanchi, go and make a cup of coffee for General Manager Chou.”
I breathed a sigh of relief and quickly fled the battlefield. After soaking, I asked my colleagues to send me in, but Zhou Tingnan didn’t drink a mouthful. As he
left, he passed my work station and paused. “Did you leave me to come here to work making coffee?”
“Didn’t I make coffee for you at home?”
“Do you think this can be the same?”
「…… Nope Is it different.. It’s all for you
anyway. Before I could say
the second half of the sentence, he strode away, as if he didn’t want to look at me again.
I ran after him and wanted to tell him that Wen Miao might be following him, but he interrupted me as soon as I opened my mouth. Don’t
you just want to say she’s lying to me? What about you? That night you said you would be back soon, but you didn’t.
You lied to me, didn’t you? You don’t care how much I hurt and how long I’ve been waiting for you.
Chou Ting-nan narrowed his eyes. “So Nan-chi, you’re no different from her. Don’t judge her anymore.”
I stepped back stiffly and was beaten black and blue by a series of cold accusations from him. “I don’t deserve that. I’m not as beautiful and smart as Miss Wen, and I’m not as useful as her money!”
At that moment, I forgot my environment and my identity, only full of grievance and resentment.
Maybe I am not qualified, but I have been in love for many years, and I need to argue at least once.
So you slept with her, got her pregnant, trampled me under her feet, and I should suffer in silence? Zhou Tingnan, I am not the former Nanchi. I am equal to you now. I can scold you, or I can choose to have sex with you again. When he
said the last four words, Chou Ting-nan suddenly opened his eyes wide: “How do you know..?” I
‘ve always been a fool and a blind man!
I looked up and held back my tears. I didn’t want to say a word more. The next second, Shen Songxi had kicked him in the chest.
The two men had another fight and were in a mess in full view of the public.
It soon spread throughout the business world and became a joke in the mouth of others.
For those who point out, I am too lazy to care, just work harder and prove myself with strength.
A month later, on the day I was finally promoted to team leader, I heard the news that Zhou Tingnan and Wen Miao were about to get engaged.
Chi Mo told me.
He has been riding high recently.
Because Shen Songxi replaced him, Zhou’s father felt sorry for him and intentionally promoted him to vice president. I don’t know what attitude
Zhou Tingnan has towards this. After
that day, we never contacted each other again, as I said, no longer related.
Shen Songxi never mentioned him to me again, including the engagement.
Chi Mo used this as an excuse to provoke the relationship between Shen Songxi and me without any trace, and urged me to go to the engagement banquet.
Presumably, he didn’t want Wen Miao to get engaged to Zhou Tingnan, but he was afraid that Wen Miao would hate him, so he wanted to use me as a hatchet man.
I turned my head sideways, hooked my lips where he couldn’t see, raised my eyes but shed two lines of tears, and said nothing.
To entice a person into a trap, it is necessary to make him feel that he has an opportunity.
Sure enough, from that day on, I began to meet Chi Mo frequently, and naturally became familiar with him, and occasionally made an appointment to have dinner together. Once I
met Shen Songxi, who had seen a ghost, and I gave him a hard look before he left.
Chi Mo looked at us quietly, and I just shook my head and sighed: “Reality always makes people powerless, but they have to compromise. Many times things change in a twinkling of an eye.”
He chuckled, as if satisfied with my estrangement from Shen Songxi, and seemed to be touched, holding the coffee in his hand for a long time.
I probably guessed what he was thinking, so I pretended to casually talk about Wen Miao’s pregnancy.
His hand shook fiercely, most of the cup of coffee spilled on his trousers, and suddenly his face turned white, but his eyes were as black as ink.
Obviously did not know this matter, it seems that Wen Miao used him thoroughly and ruthlessly.
This is gonna be fun.
I took a few days off and started following Chi Mo. As expected,
he made an appointment with Wen Miao and tried to see that Wen Miao really intended to hide it, so he peeked at her cell phone when she went to the bathroom.
The next day, she went to the hospital where Wen Miao had a physical examination to collect her examination data, and angrily asked Wen Miao to meet her. Wearing a cap and a mask,
I hid in the booth behind them and heard a huge conspiracy.
It turned out that Wen Miao and Chi Mo were lovers when they were abroad, but because of the mediocre family background of Chi Mo, they were opposed by Wen’s parents.
When Wen encountered a financial crisis and planned to marry Wen Miao in exchange for investment, Chi Mo came forward to stop and promised to save Wen.
Eventually, they put their idea on Zhou Shi, who had been in the wind and water for nearly two years.
Wen Miao relies on his childhood friendship to gain the trust of Zhou’s mother and Zhou Tingnan, while Chi Mo uses a headhunting company to enter the Zhou family and cooperate with her inside and outside, secretly taking Zhou’s funds to turn around for Wen.
In order to obtain more benefits, Wen Miao proposed to marry into the Zhou family, but Chi Mo was afraid that she would pretend to be a real person, so he helped her openly and secretly.
When she shyly said that the child was actually Chi Mo’s, and that she and Zhou Tingnan had never had anything, I was as stunned as Chi Mo.
He is happy, I am surprised. The recording pen, which she
had been holding in her hand, hit the back of the chair with a “click.” Wen Miao looked sideways, and I got up and walked away quickly. I heard her cry in panic: “Chi Mo, catch her!”
I rushed out of the coffee shop and tried to hail a taxi as I ran. I turned a corner and Chi Mo had already driven after me. The roar of the
engine showed the despair of his plan being exposed and the hatred of being designed by me, as well as the madness of the dead fish. A cold sweat broke out on
my back, and my legs gradually became weak, so I could only watch him drive towards me. At the
critical moment, a black car jumped out from the opposite side of the road in front of the late ink car, was heavily overturned, rolled twice and hit the green belt before stopping.
Crash, brake, scream.. It’s a mess all around. I was so
frightened that I collapsed on the ground and saw the deformed and familiar license plate through the black smoke. I couldn’t recall the situation for a long time
after that.
Damaged vehicles, broken glass, gushing blood.. And Zhou Tingnan with his eyes closed.
For a moment, I felt as if I had stopped breathing, my heart was cold, and my eyes were black.
It was not until Shen Songxi grabbed my shoulder and shook it hard that I suddenly came to my senses and found that I had pinched Zhou Tingnan’s hand bloodless.
“Koike, be good, let go. The doctor is here. Tingnan will be all right.”
I let go, followed the ambulance to the hospital, and watched Zhou Tingnan enter the operating room. Everything is mechanical and numb. Like an old movie, the
brain plays the old days, and finally stops at the picture when I say to him, “It doesn’t matter anymore.”. The sadness in
his eyes was so obvious. I love him so much, but I hurt him so much.
Shen Songxi said that Zhou Tingnan had doubts about Wen Miao since he saw her go to his room. The
investigation learned about her relationship with Chi Mo, also guessed her purpose, let Shen Songxi invite her to go to sea together is a test.
At that time, they all thought that Wen Miao would attack Zhou Tingnan, and they were prepared in advance, but it was me who really fell into the trap.
Zhou Tingnan was afraid that Wen Miao would hurt me again, so he was close to her as she wished, and decided not to show mercy to her any more.
Pretend to turn against me and Shen Songxi, acquiesce in Chi Mo’s high position, and promise to marry Wen Miao.
Chou Ting-nan “led the emperor into the urn” step by step, and finally had enough evidence to make it public on the day of the engagement.
Now, the evidence has been sent to the police station by Shen Sung-hsi with the addition of a “crime of intentional injury.”.
…… After
Zhou’s father and mother learned everything, they were angry and regretful, and when they saw me, they gnashed their teeth.
I bear their anger in silence, no matter how angry and humiliated I am. With excessive
blood loss and head injuries, Zhou Tingnan has been in a coma.
During this period, his secretary came by, and what he brought was the salary form of the staff of the “old deep” restaurant. He asked me to sign it and pay the salary at the end of the month.
He said that Zhou Tingnan had told me to come and sign when necessary, and showed me the business license. My name was clearly written in the column of investor and legal person. My hand trembled as I
held the pen, remembering the rumored landlady with the word “Chi” in her name, the confession that Zhou Tingnan recited in his sleep, and the orange-flavored kiss.
It turns out he loves me.
It turns out that we love each other. There is nothing in the
world that makes me happier and more painful than this.
Zhou Tingnan woke up at dusk three days later. The evening clouds outside the window were burning like fire, and his pale face was reddish. Or
because I kissed him, tears wet his dry lips, he instinctively licked, and my heart trembled.
“It’s a little salty, but I still like the orange flavor..” Chou Ting-nan’s voice was dull, and his bloodshot eyes were full of tenderness: “But let’s kiss again.”
I kissed him again, cried out of breath, and bit his lip. “Why don’t you say you like me?”
I thought you liked Shen Sung-hsi.. What about you?
「…… So am I.
Chou Ting-nan thought for two seconds before he realized, “Nan Chi, you must have a hole in your brain!”
I told him about the eavesdropping incident and asked him to confess to me again, but he refused mercilessly.
He also expressed strong dissatisfaction with my misunderstanding of him and Wen Miao and scolded me for not believing him at all.
When I talked about the small birthmark behind him, Wen Miao probably saw my mobile phone screen and guessed it, so he deliberately misled me.
Zhou Tingnan’s eyebrows jumped, the tips of his ears quickly burned red, and his anger was defined as I was just greedy for his body.
Most of the time, he always keeps such simplicity and narrowness, only in front of me.
And the secrets and the thoughtfulness that are hidden alone.
For example, knowing that his parents will not easily accept me, he secretly runs a restaurant in order to leave home and be independent; or he specially lets me be the boss and he works for me, hoping to give me a sense of security.
Love itself is always equal. Zhou Tingnan and
I are both beginners. We are equally cautious and worried about gains and losses. We are also paranoid. We have never left a way out for ourselves.
Fortunately, we still have a long, long time to go together.
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Record No.: YXX16yABr5ZFEpPO3MUrpn
K Miaomiao Chenglan
First love, old love, new love
Yuecheng, etc
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