20. Wen Xia

Wen Xia

‘s first love, old love, new love

, good sister and her boyfriend broke up, took me to the bar to play all night, but she was not drunk, I was drunk.

The next day, she and her boyfriend, who were not drunk, made up again, and I, half awake, looked at the young boy lying in the same bed with me and began to doubt life.

(1)

I gritted my teeth and touched it under the quilt. Even my voice trembled a little. I asked the person on the other end of the phone in disbelief and gnashing my teeth, “You..” Are you sure I said that?

“That’s right!” Yun-tang’s voice on the phone was full of schadenfreude and teasing. “You said it yourself. You said you wanted to kill her. The little boy thought about it for ten minutes before he reluctantly agreed. Everyone nearby heard it.”

I held my forehead in despair. “Then why didn’t you stop me?”

“Damn it, Wen Xia,” Yuntang said anxiously. “Can you have a little conscience? I have to be able to stop you! You see people like blind cats bumping into dead mice, and four horses can’t pull them back.. Her voice was still chattering on the

phone, and my ears were buzzing, and the memory of dissipation was slowly coming back. I really drank a little too much

yesterday.

But it wasn’t me, was it? The man who was carrying a bottle of wine to lift someone’s clothes, the man who stepped forward and shouted, “Brother, look at your abdominal muscles,” the man who made a little boy blush in public and deliberately spilled wine all over him because he refused to take off his clothes?

No, no, no?

Unable Huh?

I always control my drinking capacity very well, and I never let myself get completely drunk in public. Yesterday, maybe I had a lot of troubles, and I didn’t know that the wine had a great staying power. But not so much. How about that?

Not really, not really?

My head was still dizzy, but my back suddenly felt something slowly approaching, followed by a slightly dumb and deliberately elongated hum, which was obviously not yet awake, “Sister..”

I was so excited that I hung up the phone and threw it out.

Even because he did not control the strength of his hand, the poor mobile phone fell to the ground, slipped half a meter, and hit a dress lying there for unknown reasons. Holding on to my calmness,

I moved forward quietly, not realizing that the words I said were trembling. You get up.. Let’s have a good talk.

He is very good, also very discerning, but reluctantly rubbed on my shoulder before sitting up, as if acting like a spoiled child. I can’t help but think of the golden retriever in the short video. Whenever its owner shouts “go out to play”, he will wag his tail and rub it in front of him.

I took a deep breath and secretly shouted in the bottom of my heart, “Do evil.”.

I trembled my fingers to hook the clothes nearest to me. Before my fingers trembled, the boy had come around to me and handed the clothes to me. I was stunned and instinctively looked up at him.

This is the first time I’ve looked him in the eye.

To tell you the truth, this person really looks good, white and clean, how to look at how long in my aesthetic point, lips lightly pursed, nose high, eye side with a small mole, pupil is beautiful amber, long eyelashes, looking at my eyes are good and pure.

And the muscular lines on the waist and abdomen, and the straight and slender legs, whether it is this face or this figure, in my countless experiences, it is also the best.

No wonder I picked him out of the crowd last night.

No wonder he still has my lipstick on his neck.

Of course, it would be better if he could take care of his clothes first and then pass them to me. Instead of looking away,

I tried to ignore something I wasn’t supposed to see. I pretended to be calm and took the clothes from him, not forgetting to add, “Thank you.”

He put on his clothes faster than I did, but it was obvious that he had a good accomplishment. He stood with his back to me and did not look back. I just took this opportunity to look at his whole body while putting on his clothes.

Look at this dress, home conditions should also be good, although it is a very common sweater with sports pants, the brand is also a niche brand, but as a fashion designer, I can still see some doorways-he is not cheap. The tip of the

ear is still a little red, it seems that the experience is not much, should not be the kind of sea king. How can

such a person be reduced to such a state?

Maybe you want to play with me?

I put on my clothes slowly, and before I could figure out how to treat him, I had to weigh my words for a long time before I blushed and said, “How much money did I promise you yesterday?”

He was stunned for a moment and turned around. His beautiful eyes blinked, as if he had been thinking for a while. Then he answered me innocently, “Sister, two thousand yuan a month is enough for me.”

This time I couldn’t hold back my gaze and looked at him again from top to bottom. Even after trying to calm down, I couldn’t suppress the trembling in my voice. “Two thousand?!”

“Sister, I’m easy to raise. If I really can’t, I can live for a thousand.” I, on the other

hand, faced with his self-promotion, had a completely different question in mind.

Am I that stingy? I

, Wen Xia, just won the most valuable fashion design award in China year before last. I am a top designer with an annual income of nearly eight figures. In a bar with a high level of per capita consumption, I threatened to pay two thousand yuan a month for such a person?

“Well, why not five hundred? Five hundred is OK.” He was still trying to defend himself, constantly reducing his price. “Sister, I can cook, do housework, and warm the bed. I can do whatever my sister wants me to do, and I’m very healthy.”

I raised a hand and stopped his “self-introduction.”.

Brother, stop talking quickly. If I go on, my sister is really going to be moved.

You are.. From which company? I rubbed my temple and probably guessed the purpose of his visit.

In fact, I have never met such a situation before. After winning the prize, my design was hard to get, and there were many people who wanted to please me. But I always kept myself clean, and this was the first time I fell into the trap of beauty. Anyway

, look at his figure, his appearance, and my vague memories of last night. It’s not a loss. If

he wants something, or if the person who sent him to me wants something, he should do it.

Thinking of this, the guilty feeling in my heart was gradually dissipating, but the person in front of me looked at me blankly and asked, “What company?”

(2)

Half an hour later, I finally recognized such a reality: I, Wen Xia, took a fancy to a strange man who had never heard of me and I had never seen him in a bar, and made an appeal to him for keeping, which was accepted by the other party.

Looking at the “love breakfast” he prepared meticulously on the dining table, I wish I could go back to yesterday and beat myself to death with a brick. What’s

your name? How old are you? Are you of age? I took a sip of juice to calm down before I organized my own language and asked him questions.

“Su Rong, 21 this year, is a junior.” He paused, glanced carefully at me, and then hesitantly added, “Sister, I’m studying in Tiyin now.”

“Imperial Conservatory of Music?” As I ate, I said, “Then your family should be in good condition.”

“Last year the family had an accident and went bankrupt.”

I am stupefied, “that your this dress…”

“I bought the clothes before.”

“Then yesterday..”

“Yesterday, my friend took me out to play. I don’t usually go to bars, sister.” He looked at me with his eyes shining brightly, but felt a little aggrieved. “My family is in debt, and I can’t pay my tuition. My friend said that this way I can get money quickly, so I can only..”

“Can you only sell yourself?” I put down my chopsticks in silence. “Can you tell me what kind of debt your family owes and how can you pay it back?”

“Sister, two thousand yuan is for living expenses. I have to pay my debts myself. How can I let my sister pay for me?” He was even more aggrieved. “Sister, I’m going to graduate in a year. I won’t drag my sister down.”

Pretty.

My father was bankrupt, my family was in debt, I had never been to a bar, the first time I went there, I met me who was drunk for a hundred years, and the price was pitifully low.

Clearly is a perfect reason, but I always feel that there is something wrong.

It seems a little.. What a coincidence.

But I got into trouble with him first.

“How much do you owe?” I had a headache, so I simply didn’t want to think too much. With the attitude of making a quick decision, I said directly, “I drank too much yesterday, but I won’t take advantage of you. You can say the number yourself, as long as it’s not too outrageous.”. When we go out of this house, we pretend that neither of us knows the other.

For a long time, Su Rong’s voice sounded with careful grievance.

「…… But sister, “the light in his eyes dimmed a lot, and he looked at me as if I were a heartless scumbag.” You said yesterday that you would provide food and accommodation.. ”

I took another deep breath and felt guilty as my eyes swept over the red mark on his neck. Finally, I picked up my cell phone and lit it on the broken screen with difficulty. I’m going to look for a house for you.

(3)

Su Rong said that he didn’t want to live in the dormitory. I didn’t want to ask the specific reason. I just wanted to solve all these bad things as soon as possible.

Diyin is a famous conservatory of music. Although the tuition is expensive, it has trained a lot of talents. The selection of admission is harsh, and my father is one of the professors in that school.

But this kind of thing should not be necessary to say to the younger brother who met by chance, and I dare not disturb my father because of this kind of thing, otherwise he will get to the bottom of it, and when he knows that I have done this kind of thing to destroy the flowers of the motherland, he will have to pick up my ears and scold me. It was not difficult to

find a house for Su Jung to live in for a period of time. The message sent out in the morning was answered in the afternoon. I called the driver and mercilessly “drove” him out of my home. As

Su Jung stood in the doorway wringing her fingers, she seemed to have doubts about my attitude. Will my sister come to see me? I was

playing a mobile game, and I said, “No.” Afraid that he would still want to pester him, he quickly added, “I’m very busy, so you should go quickly.”

The young man hesitated to speak and looked at the screen of my mobile phone. The picture of the game on it was very clear. I didn’t even lift my head. My fingers were really busy. “Help me close the door.” The door closed with a

bang.

The voice was still a little loud, enough to show how dissatisfied the other person was. I sighed with a sense of loss and said to myself, “Male sex is harmful to people.” If

he stays a few more seconds, I’m afraid I really can’t help throwing myself on him again.

Forget it. Anyway, it’s just a chance encounter, and both sides are voluntary. Anyway, I shouldn’t owe him.

(4)

I thought I would forget it quickly.

After all, when I work on weekdays, I always have to get in touch with those male models who have a good figure. According to Yuntang’s words, I have seen more handsome men than she has eaten salt, and I haven’t seen much dry mouth and shining eyes. But these days, I always seem to think of Su Rong. At the time of

drawing, the male body structured in my mind somehow turned into Su Rong’s appearance. Even the lines in my pen were no longer as astringent as a few days ago, but very smooth. Those rigid lines became vivid and vivid. I even began to imagine the appearance of this dress on Su Rong’s body. In the dead of

night, the part that occupied the biggest part of my mind also turned into the appearance of Su Rong in that night, with a thin sweat on the tip of his hair, clenching his teeth gently, and a crimson appearance from his ears to his neck.

“So you’ve failed?” Yun Tang and I lay on the adjacent bed in the beauty salon, with a sense of gossip excitement in our tone.

“I don’t want to admit it,” I shrugged. “But for now, yes.”

“Ha ha, I’m laughing to death.” Yuntang laughed so loudly that even the facial mask on her face was about to fall off. I could even feel the shaking of the bed next door. She was laughing at me with joy. “You, a strong woman who has lost her love and can become a monk by losing her hair, will also have such a day? Ha-ha ha-ha ha

I am angry, but of course I am angry that I am not promising. I am the one who drives people away, and I am still the one who can’t forget it now. It is a shame to say it.

“Stop laughing.” I kicked him and gnashed my teeth and said, “Come to the bar with me tonight.”

“What for?” Yun-tang is still laughing. “You’re not really unwilling to go over there and meet someone, are you?”

I lifted the mask on my face coldly, and my face was expressionless. “Drink to drown my sorrows.”

(5)

“Eh, actually you’re just a little cold all of a sudden, and you can’t hold back.” Yuntang took the wine glass and gently bumped me on the shoulder. “Anyway, aren’t you also taking part in that men’s wear design competition? It’s not bad to communicate with others. Why do you drive people away? It’s not a loss.

I shook the liquid in my glass and gulped it down. “Forget it.” Without even thinking about it, I said, “Not interested.” The

spicy liquid burned all the way down the esophagus, burning the small flames in the heart, beating and beating, and hearing Yuntang’s careful questioning.

Xia Xia, you shouldn’t.. Are you still thinking about Xu Yan?

I raised my glass for a moment, but quickly adjusted. “What does it have to do with him?” I retorted, “I just think the word” keeping “is a little ugly.”. Su Jung is a very nice young man, but with such an ugly word as a label, how can he get a foothold in the future?

“That’s what I said.” Yuntang nodded, and after a while, she added in a low voice, “But with his condition, if he really goes this way, I’m afraid there will be a lot of women who want to support him.”. You let him get away..

“No,” I immediately denied, not knowing what I was in a hurry. “He doesn’t look like that kind of person, and there’s no need to do it in this way..”

“But after all, it’s a child from a rich family. With such a big change in the family, how can it be possible to be frugal?”. Yun-tang is still analyzing rationally. “If I could get that much money by sleeping with a woman, it’s hard to say that I wouldn’t go to a second donor. People’s inertia and dependence are too difficult to control.” When

she said this, I was stunned for a long time, and it took me a while to hear myself stutter and argue, “It should be..” No way. I feel that Su Rong is not either.

Yun-tang laughed again. “How come you’ve only known him for a day and a night, and you get to know him so well?”

I was speechless and could only drink another glass of wine.

To be fair, she’s right. At our level, we can see a lot of things clearly. Those who look good may play better than anyone else-not to mention that when I met him, it was in a bar where sea kings are everywhere.

Thinking of this, I was even more depressed, just as Yuntang’s boyfriend called again, she had to find a quiet place to answer the phone, and I sat there in a daze, only drinking one glass at a time.

Su Rong. It would be a pity if a man like him were really like what Yuntang said.

I couldn’t help drinking too much again, and just as I was getting dizzy, someone suddenly leaned over and stood at my side in a gentle and refined manner. The famous watch on my wrist was reflecting a dim light in the dim light. Would you like to have a drink together?

(6)

Chatting up.

This kind of thing is not uncommon in bars, but it is rare in Seven Bar, where the per capita consumption is very high.

Especially, hitting on me. The people who

come here are either rich or noble. They are all people with heads and faces. They should not pay attention to public influence, but to maintain their personal image. How can they be as casual as ordinary bars.

What’s more, the matter between me and Xu Yan is making a lot of noise, how can anyone take the initiative to chat with me so ignorant?

I looked at him coldly and looked him up and down. My eyes were cold. “Sorry, I don’t like to drink with people I don’t know.”

The man seemed to smile and did not leave because of my attitude. He just sat next to me. “Then we can get to know each other.”. “Hello,” he held out a hand to me. “My name is …” Before

he could even say his name, he disappeared into my field of vision, replaced by a sports sweater with the fragrance of honey locust. My mind reacted slowly for a few seconds before I looked up dully.

Su Rong unceremoniously stood between me and the man, looking at me with an innocent and aggrieved face, her beautiful thin lips pursed into a straight line, and the small moles in the corners of her eyes looked pitiful.

“Sister.” He called me coquettishly. I’m

afraid I drank too much again.

I secretly thought, and quickly poured a cup into my mouth, don’t open your face, looking at Yuntang’s empty seat in a trance.

I must have been drunk again to see someone who shouldn’t be here at all. I

drank so much that my dizzy head became more dizzy. I wanted to lie on the table and squint for a while to ease the drunkenness in my mind, but I couldn’t think about it. After that, I forgot it again.

(7)

Another bright morning.

It was the dull me and the gloating Yuntang on the other end of the phone.

It was Su Rong lying beside me, still sleeping soundly.

At that moment, I was brainwashed by TV dramas and thought I had entered a cycle until I saw the time on my mobile phone, which clearly showed me that it was a new day.

According to Yuntang, as soon as she came back from answering the phone, she came to a place ten paces away from me and saw a hungry tiger attacking me, holding a man’s neck and refusing to let go.

Oh, that man is naturally Su Rong who is lying next to me now. Because until now, he still has a shallow wound on his lower lip.

He seemed to be so tired that he didn’t wake up until now. He lay beside me and fell asleep quietly, breathing evenly and long, with one hand on my waist.

The boy’s fresh and clean soap horn fragrance occupied every inch of breath. I moved a little inappropriately, but the soreness of my body made me stop all my movements. I took a deep breath and held back the sight that I wanted to stick to Su Rong, but I couldn’t hold back to think about last night. I curled up on my toes, and some fragments flashed fiercely in my mind.

Su Rong, he.

All kinds of words turned around in my mind, but in the end I could only express my lack of words, young man.. Physical strength is really good.

About seven or eight minutes later, the person next to me woke up faintly, and I was still immersed in the regret of “what stupid thing did I do last night” until the people around me came to rub against me in a daze.

I thought of the kind of golden retriever that wags its tail and clings to people. As soon as the

boy got up, his dumb voice sounded in my ears, with a misty mutter, “My sister smells so good..”

I blushed a little, but I didn’t push him away. I just pretended to be indifferent and asked, “Why were you there yesterday?” Only then did

he open his eyes, as if he had sobered up a little, and respond wearily, “I miss my sister, and I want to try my luck there.” Who would have thought that as soon as I got there, I would see my sister chatting happily with an uncle.

Su Rong quietly put me in his arms tightly, I took a deep breath, trying to make my voice calm and calm, Yuntang yesterday’s words turned and turned in my mind, I struggled several times, but in the end or yield to the heart.

Once may be an accident, but twice is no accident.

I took a deep breath and devilishly asked him, “Do you still want to follow me?”

He seemed to be stunned for a moment, but soon his eyes sparkled, and his tail was wagging fast behind him, nodding his head repeatedly.

Let me say first, this is not called keeping. Do you understand that this is a relationship of equal consideration, each taking what he needs? I looked him in the eye and stressed, “If one day you want to end this relationship, just let me know.”

Su Rong was still nodding his head excitedly, and the smile on his lips never faded. I stared at the shallow wound on his lips for a long time, then suddenly stretched out my arm and pulled down his neck, and kissed him.

(8)

This time, it was nearly noon. The

first time I came into contact with him when I was absolutely sober, even the satisfaction was doubled. I lay in bed tiredly, listening to his busy voice in the kitchen, and suddenly thought that it would be good to find such a person to marry.

It’s just that maybe it’s not fair to him. When

I sat up on my back and walked to the bedroom, I couldn’t help smiling when I saw his infectious smile.

“Don’t you have classes?” I leaned against the kitchen door and watched him cook skillfully, feeling more and more that I had found the best.

“There’s a festival in the afternoon,” he replied. “I have to go after dinner, sister.” With a hum,

I took advantage of his back to me and began to stare at the smooth curve of his body.

“Sister,” Su Jung suddenly turned his head and caught me staring at someone else. Seeing that my eyes were focused, he raised his lips happily. “Sister, can I move in here?” Guilty,

I turned around and mumbled back, “Whatever.”

(9)

That afternoon, before it was dark, Su Rong knocked on the door of my house with his bags of things. I was carrying an “apple pencil” in my

hand, and my hair was casually coiled behind my head. I couldn’t help but have a headache when I saw his two large suitcases.

To be honest, I haven’t figured out where he’ll live yet.

Because of the particularity of the profession, every room in the house has a special purpose, such as the study, the clothing room and the bedroom. When decorating, I never thought of reserving a guest room at all. Even if my parents came to see me occasionally, they never lived here. Suddenly, there was one more person. For a while, I really didn’t know where to arrange him. When

Su Jung saw me frowning, the smile on her face immediately faded, and she asked me cautiously, “Sister, do I have too many things?”

“No.” I shook my head. “Come in.” I

can’t ask him to sleep on the floor. I can only let him sleep in the same room with me. When I learned that he could be with me every day, Su Rong seemed so happy that his mouth blossomed.

And of course I don’t have much time to spend on him. Three months later is the “XG Fashion Design Competition.” Only by winning this award can I step onto the international stage.

It is reasonable to say that the first draft should have been finalized by now. It takes more time to process and customize clothes, but maybe it is too demanding for me. I have changed four or five versions, but I am still not satisfied.

Now my works are not as spiritual as when I first stepped into this circle. At that time, all my designs were based on Xu Yan, so the longer we broke up, the more blurred the position of those lines in my mind. It’s not that

I haven’t thought about finding someone to replace him, but it’s too difficult. I have seen all the famous male models in the circle, but none of them can replace the muse in my mind.

Inspiration itself is very mysterious, no one can control it, can only be attributed to luck, although unwilling to admit, but after breaking up with Xu Yan, I am not a lucky person.

(10)

When Su Rong stepped into the study with a plate of fruit, I was holding my hair and staring at a dress that had been painted on the tablet.

It’s so weird. I can not say that kind of feeling, I only know that this is not the effect I want, obviously the lines of the clothes are very smooth and natural, but I do not know why, I just feel that there is something wrong.

And this is the sixth overturning and redrawing.

I’m not afraid of trouble, but I’m afraid it’s too late.

Su Rong took a plate of cherries and carefully placed them in the blank space on the table.

I looked up and stared at the screen for a long time, which made my eyes a little blurred. I rubbed my eyes, and the strange feeling when I saw Su Rong was even worse.

“Come here!” I called to Su Jung, who was about to leave quietly. I covered my eyes and sighed. “Come and take a look for me.”

So he came over obediently, and I pushed the tablet in front of him. The line on it was a little messy, and I didn’t expect him to see anything.

“Do you think there’s something wrong?” I have asked Yuntang

this question more than a hundred times, but she is not a person in the industry after all. Every time, she only says that she is very beautiful. I know she has tried her best, but it is not what I want.

Su Rong frowned and stared at the things on my tablet for a long time, so long that I couldn’t help holding up my body and began to hope that he could answer something.

「…… “It’s nice to look good,” he said in a muffled voice. “But..”

“But what?” My eyes lit up and my ears stood up in an instant.

“But there seems to be something wrong.” Su Jung stretched out her hand and made a few gestures. “Sister, do you have any feelings? It seems a little..” Not a good match? He scratched his head. “I don’t know what’s wrong with it, but it just feels a little wrong.”

Not a good match.

I suddenly understood something.

It’s just not a good match. The style and overall structure of the dress were painted before I met Su Rong, and the complicated embellishments, the detailed patterns and all the modifications were painted after I met him.

This dress was originally based on Xu Yan, but after that, the person wearing this dress in my mind became Su Rong, and the two of them naturally did not match.

Finally, I bounced out of my chair and simply dragged the painted thing into the recycle bin, creating a new blank page.

“You go out first,” I said without raising my head. “If you’re sleepy, go to bed first. Don’t wait for me.”

(11)

It was two o’clock in the morning when I stopped writing, but it was not that I didn’t want to draw, but that my memory was a little vague.

In the final analysis, Su Rong and I have known each other for too short a time, and many details are not perfect. I didn’t want to lose the inspiration that

finally appeared. After thinking about it, I tiptoed into the bedroom with my tablet, mobile phone and a pen.

Su Rong had gone to bed first, leaving me a bedside lamp. The dim light was just right for me to observe without waking him up. I climbed into bed like a thief. The first thing I did after putting down the things in my hands was to pull his clothes.

He was sleeping on his back, and it was convenient for me to do bad things. I carefully unbuttoned his pajamas and measured his waist with my hand, measuring the distance from his shoulder to his hip bone. Su Rong suddenly snorted when he

was writing and drawing on the tablet to record the rough data and regretted not bringing in a tape measure.

I was startled, and I didn’t understand why I felt guilty, so I put out the tablet and didn’t dare to move. I even held my breath and lay there like a thief.

“Sister..” Su Rong’s voice was extremely aggrieved, with a thick nasal voice when he just woke up. He complained to me in an aggrieved manner, “You’re crushing me..”

I was stupefied, and then I realized what I had just had under my elbow. My face turned red, and I stammered, “Are you, are you all right?”? I don’t mean it

“It’s all right,” says Su Jung, still in that demagogic tone of grievance, as if she were acting like a spoiled child. “Sister, rub it for me and it won’t hurt.”

I just stood there, my hands frozen in midair, not rubbing, not rubbing, until Su Jung chuckled, grabbed my wrist and began to pull it down. “Sister has been measuring for so long, why don’t you also measure here?”.

Su Rong dragged me and refused to let go. I tried to resist. As a result, I gave in to the temptation of hormones. I didn’t even have time to ask when he found me measuring on him.

(12)

When I woke up one morning, I forgot all the data I wanted to remember last night. I had been busy for so long, but I couldn’t measure anything. But this night, Su Rong told me that I could measure without a ruler.

Male sex is harmful to people.

Su Rong left a note for me, saying that he had an early class today, and the breakfast he had made was still on the table, so he went to heat it up when it was cold.

He is so considerate that I feel very embarrassed-it is not easy for a future husband to be half as good as him, even if he is an equal consideration relationship.

Su Rong is not, I tried to the tablet for a long time, but also failed to draw the appropriate lines, simply no longer do useless work, simply throw the tablet, intend to wait for him to come back to plan.

Just did not wait until Su Rong came back, but first waited for an unexpected phone call.

Xia Xia, I’m Xu Yan. Let’s meet.

(13)

In fact, Xu Yan and I have never officially broken up.

But suddenly one day, he deleted all my contact information and disappeared from my world without warning.

Xu Yan and I are college classmates, after graduation, he became a model, and relying on my hands, won a place in the domestic fashion circle, and he, also relying on the T stage, that I stayed up for hundreds of days and nights, painstakingly designed the style and is well known to the world.

But he just dropped out of my life, suddenly, quietly, without leaving a reason, without leaving a goodbye. It was only later that

I heard from others that he gave up everything he had made in the fashion circle, fame, glory, including me, and a famous movie star.

Never come back.

I know that Xu Yan is never willing to be just a model, compared to the fashion circle, he is more eager to develop in the entertainment industry, and in this respect, I really can not help him. I knew all that, but I didn’t think he would be so cruel.

At that time, I refused to believe that Xu Yan would be a person who gave up his relationship for the sake of his future. I looked for him everywhere and tried to get in touch with him like a licking dog. But the answer I got was a cold “no time” from his assistant.

Of course, months later, when I saw the familiar figure on the screen, I knew why he was “out of time.”.

For his sake, I got drunk in a bar for several months, complaining about Xu Yan’s silent departure and his deception, until one day I woke up and let him go.

I never waste time on unworthy people, even after a few years, he has become a hot line in the country, and I have never contacted him again.

But when he called, I realized that I was not as tough as I had imagined.

(14)

Xu Yan’s invitation made me restless in the next few days, and I lost my enthusiasm for drawing.

Perhaps to see me unhappy, Su Rong wanted to amuse me, accompany me to go shopping and cook some delicious food for me. But none of these can resist the vague uneasiness in my heart. One afternoon when

Su Rong came home from class, he ran excitedly over to me, hugged me from behind, kissed my neck, and asked me, “Sister, do you want to go to the ball game?”

I didn’t want to go, but I couldn’t stand his endless grinding. I thought that I couldn’t grind out a good draft at home, and it was not impossible to go out for a walk, so I answered him with a hot head. The sports

of Didu Conservatory of Music are not very strong, but there are young people with vigorous physique and beautiful faces.

This kind of place, it can be imagined that handsome men and beautiful women are like clouds.

Watching a group of good-looking boys play ball games is really pleasing to the eye, but when I sit there, I miss my college days more. What’s

the saying? You won’t always be young, but someone will always be young. The people

next to me were cheering, and I looked at the most dazzling teenager on the court, watching the sun leave mottles on his side face, watching him jump to put the ball into the basket, and watching him smile at me with shining eyes.

The boy’s warm eyes went straight to me through the crowd, and his sweat-wet forehead was scattered. At the moment when he raised his lips, I suddenly thought that it was a good choice to live with him for a lifetime.

(15)

At halftime, the cheerleaders were performing in the middle of the court, and Su Rong pushed aside the girls who were crowded around him and came to sit down next to me. He didn’t even hide his voice. “Sister, was I fierce just now?”.

I was so frightened by him that I covered his mouth. I was embarrassed by the strange eyes of the young girls around me. I quickly lowered the cap on my head and called him in a low voice, “Keep your voice down.”

Su Rong gave a cry, and then lowered her voice with some grievance. “Sister, wasn’t I strong just now?”? Scored several goals.

Before I could answer, I saw a group of young men walking in the direction of Su Rong, talking and laughing, carrying water. When they saw me, their voices were twice as loud as Su Rong’s. A group of young men greeted me in unison, “Hello, sister!”.

I waved my hand awkwardly to show politeness, kept a standard smile, and sat in my seat professionally and silently.

The little boys were very familiar with each other. After teasing Su Rong a few times, they sat around me in a circle. The seats around them were so crowded that there was no gap. The male hormones coming from the pavement almost overturned me. Su Rong sat next to me, holding my hand and refused to let go.

They were talking about the ball game just now. I had a smattering of knowledge of the professional language. Sitting there was also boring. I simply committed an occupational disease and secretly looked at the clothes and figures of these people. When I

saw one of them, Su Rong suddenly covered my eyes, and the boys laughed loudly. Accompanied by “How jealous”, “Oh, it’s beginning to sour”, and the sound of hiss, I blushed a little, gently pulled down Su Rong’s wrist, and only two words were suppressed, “Don’t make trouble.” The tallest of the

boys smiled and asked, “Tell me, sister, which one of us has the best figure?”

I glanced at Su Rong’s sour and angry look, which was also very funny, and then replied, “Of course it’s Su Rong.” The

boys laughed, and Su Jung’s ears turned red, and she didn’t even dare to look at me. But the man who had asked at the beginning went on to ask, “What about him?” He grinned. “What do you think of me, sister?” As soon as

he said this, I was keenly aware of something. I had to say that the child’s acting was still poor. I saw it thoroughly at a glance. I’ve seen a lot of people rushing up

like this to eat soft rice. I gently scratched Su Rong’s palm and pretended not to see his tense legs. With a natural look, I replied, “He’s in good shape, but it’s a pity. It looks like his stomach and intestines are not very good.”

The child became interested. “What do you say?” If you have a bad

stomach, you can only eat soft rice. Such people are tough on the outside and soft on the inside, eager to succeed. How can they come here to play?

As a result, the man looked a little unhappy, perhaps because he couldn’t keep his face down. Even his voice sank a little. “So Su Jung’s stomach and intestines are all right?”.

I smiled and raised my eyebrows slightly. “Who told you that Su Jung was a soft eater?”

(16)

I have always done a good job in protecting calves.

Fortunately, there weren’t many people in that group of kids who didn’t have the right ideas. As soon as I got to the point, a discerning boy took the conversation away. Only Su Rong, unable to suppress her little joy, made a sour gesture and whispered to me, “Sister, was that how you used to deal with other people?”? Very experienced. Smiling,

I poked him somewhere in the back of his waist, provoking him to bite his lip, and his body was a little stiff. I quietly swept my eyes somewhere. “So you’re not nervous?”? Be careful that one day I take someone home. Angrily,

Su Jung came close to my ear before going on stage. “Don’t worry, sister, I’m sure I’ll be very nervous.”

Su Rong did not break his promise. At the end of the day, I was so nervous that I was sleepy. I also heard him whisper in my ear, with a feeling of contentment and joy, “My sister is so kind to me.”

I was too tired to open my eyelids. I sat idly in his arms, unable to tell when and what had been good to him. I just muttered, “How dare I treat you badly?”

Su Rong hugged me and smiled softly. When he had laughed enough, he called out to me in a low voice, “Sister, I like you so much.”

I gave a confused hum.

“Sister, I wrote you a song.” Su Jung pressed me to his ear and held me tightly in his arms. “Do you want to listen?”

I gave another hum in a daze.

Then I heard the boy’s slightly magnetic voice sounded low in a quiet night, with full tenderness in the gentle and clean melody, seven points of love, three points of joy, shallow, shallow floating in the dark room, with the cool and warm summer wind, and the shallow fragrance of soap horn on the teenager’s body, at that moment. Even the heartbeat has become a beat.

(17)

I thought about it for a long time, but I went to Xu Yan’s appointment, a month after he called me.

I wore the best makeup I could, and I dressed the best I could, but instead of getting back together with him, I wanted to tell him how good I was. Between me and him, we need such a complete dialogue. It was afternoon when I

went out, and Su Rong was humming a song to prepare dinner. He seemed to be very happy today. When he saw that I was going out, he wagged his tail and ran over happily, “Where is my sister going?”.

After the ball game that day, he clung to me more and more. When he had something to do, he would talk about the word “like”. I was almost used to this kind of life by his coaxing, but I was also happy. I couldn’t help bending my lips as I

looked at the batter on his hand, but I hesitated for a long time, but I still didn’t tell him the truth. “I’m just going to a meeting.”

Su Jung looked at me critically from top to bottom and curled her lips bitterly. “My sister is lying. She wouldn’t dress so beautifully for a meeting.” “Are you going to the bar again?” He asked me, biting his lip as if facing a formidable enemy.

I couldn’t help but be amused. Even he knew he was in charge of me, so I had no choice but to deal with it. “It’s not going to the bar.” Seeing that he wouldn’t believe me, I added, “Don’t worry, I really won’t go.”. I lied to you. I’m a puppy. Only then did

Su Jung change from cloudy to sunny, and her eyes rolled around me again. “All right, then remember to come back for dinner.”

“Good.” I promised, looked at the time and then stopped pestering, put on my shoes and went out.

Xu Yanding’s place is in a coffee shop with excellent privacy, a separate small private room, isolated from all human voices and possible cameras. I haven’t seen him for

a few years, but he is still the same as before, but his eyebrows are more mature and more charming. When

I arrived, he was already there, and when he saw me, he smiled bitterly. “I’m sorry, but I’m in a special position to let you make a trip.” With an air of ease,

I pulled out a chair and sat down opposite him. I chuckled, “a big star? It should be special.”

(18)

“Xia Xia, I’m engaged to her.”

This is Xu Yan, when I interrupted his memory of the past for the third time, he said a word belatedly.

I lowered my eyes. I don’t know why I was upset, but I didn’t show it on my face. I just lightly scratched the white foam floating on the coffee with a small spoon? Congratulations?

We’ve been talking about him for almost two hours. Most of the time he’s talking and I’m listening, but I don’t want to waste any more time with him. There are people waiting for me

at home.

“Xia Xia, I –” he held his head as if in great pain, and his eyes were red when he looked at me. “You know, I — I didn’t want to at all, and it was the same back then — in fact, I never, never –”

“Never liked her? It was never your intention? Always wanted to be with me? I sneered, “Mr. Hsu, are you trying to cheat on me, or are you trying to take me for three?”

“No, no..” He seemed more miserable. I had never seen him like this before, but I had never forgotten it. Things had changed. He was now a big star with superb acting skills.

“Xia Xia, I never wanted to leave you.” “I know you won’t forgive me, but I’m really not that kind of person. I’ve never used you as a springboard, and I’ve never wanted to eat soft rice. You know me. I’ve always been a principled person, and I’m sincere to you..”

I was a little impatient, and I couldn’t stand his chattering, and I was even more afraid that if I listened any more, it would really shake the softest tendon in my heart. I picked up my bag, stood up and planned to leave directly.

“Summer!” He jerked to his feet and grabbed me by the wrist. “I was the one who killed her brother when I was driving drunk.”

I walked out and stopped there uncontrollably.

I know I’m wrong, but I’m too scared, Xia Xia. I can’t go to jail. My life would be over. My dreams, my career, my everything-I can’t just go to jail. I was blinded by alcohol, but Xia Xia, the only condition she agreed to settle privately was to let me follow her. I didn’t know until a long time later that her brother was her father’s illegitimate son. She wished her brother would disappear as soon as possible, but by then it was too late. She had something on me. I couldn’t help it, Xia Xia.

“Xia Xia, I have never liked her, I have always loved you, she does not allow me to contact you, I really have no way..”

(19)

a few hours later, I was sitting in the bar, thinking a little dully, thinking about such a question.

If I were Xu Yan, drunk driving by mistake, and killed people, and at this moment, on the scale in front of me, one side is the disaster of imprisonment and dream shattered, the other side is my body and bright future, how would I choose?

The most important thing is that even if I give my body, I will give it to someone who has a good body and looks, and can help me push me in the way I want.

Such a thought, Xu Yan’s choice is also understandable.

I won’t make the same choice as him, but I can understand his choice.

Even if he had not already had a new lover, if Su Rong had not penetrated into my life ahead of time, he would not necessarily refuse to find my forgiveness and be with me again for such a reason.

After all, I really loved him for three or five years, and his silent departure has always been the biggest knot in my heart.

I don’t know what kind of mood I should be in now, but I know I need some alcohol to numb myself and my overloaded nerves. Inevitably, I recalled too much, recalled the scenes of Xu Yan and me, and also recalled the days when we were together in the fashion circle. For me,

Xu Yan is not my youth.

I drank a lot. There are always too many things to worry about

these days. I haven’t been drunk for a long time, but in recent days, I have a hangover in the bar again and again.

Drunk, they want to vent. After three rounds of vomiting, my mind was not very clear. I grabbed a man in the north, south, east and west. Looking at his face, I wanted to jump on him, but somehow I was pulled again.

A man who looked very much like Xu Yan appeared in front of me, half dragging and half hugging to coax me, while I was playing, crying and laughing, and then I let go of all the shackles that bound me in my heart, and forgot everything.

(20)

The matter of drinking fragments is really annoying. When I woke up with

a hangover, I had a splitting headache and a hoarse voice, but the room was quiet and silent. It took

me five minutes to realize that this was my own home. I lay on my bed, dressed in neat home clothes, sheets and covers are new, clean soap horn smell, very good smell.

I was in a daze, looking at the men’s supplies on the bedside table over there, and it took me a long time to remember that there was a Su Rong at home.

Just thinking about it, the door was gently pushed open, I looked at a circle of black and blue Su Rong froze, and he quietly came over and poured me a glass of water.

He seemed to have not slept all night, even his face was haggard, the red blood in his eyes made his eyes not as clear as they used to be, and even there was some short beard on his chin. The

atmosphere was so eerily quiet that I felt guilty when I recalled what I had promised him before I went out yesterday.

“That..” I didn’t dare to look at him. I just stared at the water and explained carefully, “Yesterday I..” I didn’t want to go to the bar.

Su Rong said nothing. He did not even look at me, but lowered his eyebrows and eyes, looking lonely and lonely.

I’m not a talkative person, and I never need to stir up a conversation to warm up the atmosphere in my life. When I get along with Yuntang, she is talking, I am listening, and Su Rong has always been the same.

So at this moment, I racked my brains, but I couldn’t figure out what to say, so I could only quietly look at the water in the cup.

“Sister, do you know?” Su Rong said suddenly after a long silence.

His voice is too light, light like a misty cloud, I suddenly have a feeling of powerlessness, but can only listen to him quietly. When

I was seven years old, my father and mother divorced. They don’t want me because I’m a liability to either of them. So on my birthday that year, my mother asked me what I wanted, and I said, “I want Mom and Dad to never be separated.”

Because they don’t separate, I can still have a family, but my mother told me that as long as I am good enough, they will not divorce. So I tried my best to be good.

“I learned to sweep the floor, I learned to wash dishes and cook, and I did my best to get the best grades I could. I made myself very good, very good, but they still divorced.”

I am very sad. I asked my uncle, why? My uncle told me that it was because my mother and father had no heart. Because if you have a heart, you will never go back on your word. I have remembered

that sentence for a long time, and it is precisely because of that sentence that I have not become a person who is naturally suspicious and no one is willing to believe. But sister, you have broken your promise.

I pursed my lips with some embarrassment.

I never thought it would hit him so hard-I remember getting a phone call from him before I drank, but because I was too upset, I turned the phone off again. I didn’t want to admit it, but I did think at that time that I just didn’t go back for dinner, which was nothing.

“I’m sorry, I-”

“Sister, hear me out.” Su Rong interrupted me rudely.

“I made a cake yesterday because it was my birthday.” “I didn’t tell my sister because I didn’t want her to prepare a present for me. I’m no longer a child who has to ask for a present from someone else on her birthday, but I didn’t expect that the present my sister prepared for me would be to bring a man home.”

I was speechless. Xu Yan will know where my home is not surprising, he did not know Su Rong, but also know Yuntang, but I did not expect him to send me home, but also did not expect things to have such a dramatic side.

“My sister threw up all over herself yesterday, and I wouldn’t let him in. But my sister was so drunk yesterday because of him.”

“My uncle says that people who have a heart won’t go back on their word. I don’t think my sister has no heart. It’s just that her heart is in him.” Su Rong raised her head to look at me. Her beautiful eyes were full of mixed emotions. “Since my sister likes him so much, why is she still willing to keep me?”? My sister really only regards me as a bed partner, or. Friends with benefits?

As if it was hard to say, the words that came out of Su Rong’s mouth were full of fatigue and heaviness.

I felt a little nervous for no reason, and his problem made me have to face up to myself again. Is there really any difference between the “equal consideration relationship” I mentioned

at that time and the so-called long-term bed partner relationship?

But I have never seen Su Rong as a bedmate, even more appropriate than word bedmate, but in less than a month, he has quietly integrated into my life and become a habit, but I did not want to really become a partner with him. It

‘s not the irresponsible Neptune mentality, but the subconscious feeling that we don’t match.

Just like the design draft that I eliminated at the beginning, when the whole dress does not belong to the same tone from material to structure to style, it will never be presented as the final draft.

Now, in the face of the boy’s serious questions, I can no longer ignore those questions that I have deliberately ignored.

Do I like Xu Yan? I

liked it. Even if we are separated, it is not because we don’t like it. I spent so long to let go of a person, I choose to forget Xu Yan this person brought me all the joy and sorrow, but when he came back, those I forgot will also be enthusiastic in my mind.

But it’s definitely not the kind of emotion called like.

Perhaps I have never really forgotten Xu Yan. It’s like the vague body in my mind when I was drawing, and it’s like my youth when I saw Su Rong’s ball game.

Xu Yan left too many marks in his life, so even if I erase those marks, they still have marks, but I also know that the marks are not the same as like.

It’s like the candied haws on a stick I liked to eat when I was a child, but when I grow up, I can’t eat the taste of the past.

There is a vague unwilling, there is a sigh, there is regret, perhaps there is a little mind, but there will be no echo, there will be no half silk heart.

But Su Rong has.

Gentle, clean, not as dazzling as the sun, not as cold as the moonlight, he stood there, it will always be the heart itself.

There is no girl who doesn’t like such a boy.

(21)

I went to the bar again. The bartender grinned when he

saw me, thinking that I had made a lot of contributions to their “KPI” this month, and Yuntang sat next to me, sighing and emphasizing a fact.

Heartbeat is not the norm. When you first got together with Hsu Yan, wasn’t it because of heartbeat? But as time goes on, even the strongest throb will gradually be smoothed out. You can’t promise to keep this throb in your heart for the rest of your life.

Yun Tang is indeed an old hand in love, and he always sees more thoroughly than I do.

“So you’re trying to persuade me to agree with Xu Yan?” I took a cool sip of my wine. But he’s engaged. His engagement party with Pai Mu has been a hot topic for three days, and I’m pretty sure I won’t eat it, and I don’t want to eat it.

Yun Tang seemed to breathe sigh of relief, but then he was puzzled. “Then what else do you have to struggle with?”? There are two options, AB. If you go to A, isn’t there only B left? Are you struggling to find a C?

“No,” I shook my head gently. “I felt that Xu Yan’s words made me pick up some of the things I had put completely. It is disrespectful to start the next relationship without completely letting go of the previous one. Perhaps Su Jung and I really need to calm down for a while.

Yun-tang squinted and thought for a long time, then hissed, “Are you cursing me for being seamless?”

“No,” I said helplessly. “It’s just my own emotional outlook. There is no right or wrong in the concept. I’m not as handsome as you. It always takes a little time.”

Yun-tang reminded me, “Then try not to take too long. A person like Su Jung is like a kite with many lines. Once you let go, others can immediately stretch out their hooks.”

I was silent for a long time, and thought of that day’s game, the group of young and beautiful cheerleading girls in Diyin came.

(22)

Su Rong’s things are still in my house, but others refuse to stay with me.

He took some necessities and went back to the house he had rented in the beginning, which was called “quiet with each other”.

And I also returned to the work of drawing day and night, the new first draft has been basically determined, the people in the studio looked around, said I was a reappearance of the muse, I just smiled, vaguely felt that there was something missing.

Xu Yan did not look for me again, I think he did not have time to come to me again, but when he was free, he sent me a message, and I was mercilessly blacklisted.

Almost there. I want.

Wait until I will not have nothing to think of this person, I can go to find Su Rong.

(23)

a month later, after the 37th revision, the first draft was finally finalized, and the studio began to work overtime to make clothes. My work was half done, and then I just had to stare at the processing of clothes and find a model who could wear them. Just wait for the judges to score. After finishing the

work, I relaxed a lot, and the first thing I thought of was to find Su Rong. The conflict between

us was not small. The things he put in my house were taken by him again and again. I laughed at him. If he wanted to come to me, he would say it directly, but he was so angry that he never came again.

I should apologize to him. Not only for the broken promise on my birthday, but also for all these days.

After thinking about it, I asked the driver to make a detour to the cake shop, picked up a light green cake, and carried it to the Imperial Conservatory of Music.

Fresh, clean, like mint, just like Su Rong.

I know which major and which class Su Rong is in, and I also have his current schedule, but I didn’t expect that I knew the teacher of that class.

Because of my father, I know a few teachers of Diyin more or less, but my memory is limited, I really can’t remember all kinds of messy professional courses in their Conservatory of Music. Even my father, I only know that he teaches the theory of arranging music, but I don’t know the full name of his course.

So when I sneaked my head out the back door between classes, I was caught by the old professor who often came to my house to have tea with my father.

“Summer.” In front of the whole class, the old professor smiled and shouted to me who was about to slip away.

I stopped stiffly, took several deep breaths, and then managed my facial expressions. My smile was uglier than tears, and I slowly held out my hand in front of this group of future music stars. “Hi ~”

The old professor was very enthusiastic, and I was very clear about this. I still remember when I was in college. The old professor hinted to me many times that he would go home with him to be his daughter-in-law. If my father hadn’t stopped him, I wouldn’t have met Xu Yan.

And at this moment, I am facing a room full of people’s strange eyes, calm and calm to find Su Rong’s position, and politely ask the boy who is in a daze next to him, “Hello, can you kebabs?”

The boy’s eyes never left me, and his face was still shocked beyond measure. He rolled and crawled to three positions inside, and I calmly pushed Su Rong to the position where the boy had just sat, and sat on Su Rong’s position. The

room was silent.

The old professor looked at me with a smile and looked at Su Rong next to me again. After a few rounds of sighing, I thought you were looking for your father, but you were looking for a little boyfriend. Your father, that old devil, didn’t even tell me..

Finally, the old professor said in a loud voice, “Jie is Professor Wen’s daughter. You have to call out Elder Martial Sister.” I couldn’t

stand the scene of a death like a torture, so I kept a standard and polite smile on my face and said, “Uncle Li, it’s all right for you to give a lecture. I’m just sitting down.”

(24)

Su Rong’s ears turned red. He listened to the class very carefully. His eyes dared not look at me. As for my little hand, which was dangling in front of him because of boredom, he held it tightly and did not give me any chance to be naughty.

Until the end of the class, the red on his ears was still there, not to mention that when the old professor left, he said hello to him specially.

Su Jung’s ears were still red. I reached out my hand and pinched it. It felt so good that I couldn’t help pinching it again. Su Jung wanted to cry and pulled down my hand without tears. “Sister..”

I stopped teasing him and stood up to smooth the hair on his head. “Come on, boyfriend.” This time

, not only the ears, but also the neck is red.

“Go.” I called him.

Seeing that he was not moving, I couldn’t help but be stupefied for a moment. Suddenly I thought of another question. I sat down seriously and asked him in a low voice, “I’m serious. I’m not forcing you.”. You have the right to choose. If you have a girl you like, just pretend I haven’t been here, and everything in the past will be as if it never happened.

Su Jung was so angry that her face turned even redder. “It didn’t happen?”? Whose sister I like can’t see it? My sister and I have said so many times that we like each other, and each time we are serious, but my sister has just been serious.

“Like me?” I smiled softly, and seeing that the people around me had already dispersed, I simply began to play hooligans. “I don’t believe you. Give me a kiss.”

Su Rong’s eyes fluttered around the people turned again and again, so anxious that he even stamped his feet shallowly, and then he was so angry that he kissed me on the face. He

moved so fast that I couldn’t even smell the fragrance of honey locust that I liked.

The child was shy, and I stopped pushing him. The person I coaxed made me feel even more relieved, and even felt better. “I prepared a cake for you, which was an apology for that day.”

But Su Rong still did not move the place.

I was so surprised that I simply let go of his hand and waited for him to speak. Su Rong gasped for a long time before he said, “Sister, I still have classes later.”

Ohh.

I looked at the schedule, and it seemed that there was a class, but I forgot it.

But when I was in college, it was a habit to skip classes. When I came, I naturally ignored his later arrangements, but it didn’t matter. Just accompany him to school.

However, when he learned that I still wanted to follow him, he panicked even more. Just as I was beginning to wonder if there was a little girl he didn’t like in that class, Su Rong was aggrieved and called me like begging for mercy, “Sister, it’s Professor Wen’s class..”

Boy, it’s my dad.

“Why are you panicking?” I laughed. “I’m not panicking.”

Since it was a serious love affair, my parents would know sooner or later-besides, from the moment I saw the old professor, I knew that I could not escape my father’s eyes. Instead of waiting for him to know from other people’s mouths, I might as well take the initiative to confess to him, Su Rong’s condition is good and his study is good, there is nothing to panic about.

“That’s different..” Su Jung took me by the hand and looked pitiful. “Sister, just wait a little while. I’ll go and ask the professor for leave for ten minutes. No, just five minutes!” Naturally,

I could not force him to skip classes and accompany me as an idler. I could only tell him to listen carefully. I went to the coffee shop near the school and waited. I was bored and looked at the fresh cake in front of me. The more I looked at it, the more happy I was.

Maybe love does make people feel better. The

university course takes two hours, plus my father’s unstoppable style of lecturing, Su Rong is probably better for a while, while I am bored to watch the recent movie, thinking about whether to abduct people to the cinema later, someone suddenly sat opposite me.

Even though he was wearing a mask, sunglasses and hat and covering himself tightly, I recognized him at a glance-a person I least wanted to see. It’s Xu Yan

again.

My first reaction was to look at the time, estimating that Su Rong would not come out at the moment, and hurried to look around for fear that there would be a camera, distorting the facts.

After making sure it was a place to talk, I froze. “What are you doing here?”? Why are you here?

Xu Yan slowly took off his mask.

His eyes seemed to be full of an emotion called sadness, so thick that it was like a mist that could not be melted. With a wry smile, he called me, “Xia Xia.”

I don’t want to take any notice of him.

“Xia Xia, when did we become enemies?” His voice was low, even his fingers were slightly bent, and he looked sad.

But since I choose to put it down completely, I won’t make trouble for myself again. “Not an enemy, but a stranger,” I said coldly.

Xu Yan opened his lips and stared at me for a long time, but he couldn’t say anything.

I didn’t want to stay with him for too long, and I was even more afraid that Su Rong would see this by mistake, and that the relationship that had been eased with great difficulty would be deadlocked again, so I simply wanted to make it clear once.

“Hsu Yen, in my dictionary, the end is the end. There is no change of heart, no resurgence, and no reunion.” “Now that you are engaged, you should go and live your own life, instead of thinking about picking up the things you have broken on the ground.”

Xu Yan was silent for a long time. He turned the engagement ring on his ring finger stiffly, and even his fingertips trembled slightly. You’re already with him, aren’t you? Xia Xia, I thought he was driven out by you, I thought you were not together, so I came to you. Hsia, do you really like him?

“Who I am with, who I like and who I don’t, has nothing to do with you, Xu Yan.” I looked at my watch with some uneasiness, and as the time approached the time when Su Rong finished class, I became more and more nervous.

And Xu Yan seemed to be possessed, or the cruel reality made his spirit somewhat confused, he gawked at the fresh cake on the table, suddenly opened his mouth, “You were..” He once made a cake for me himself. He smiled, then lowered his eyes. “The cream wasn’t even applied, and the core inside was still burnt. Even the words” Happy Birthday “were written crookedly. But I’ve never had a cake like that again.

“Xia Xia, I really regret it.”

This is the last sentence that Xu Yan left for me before he left.

I didn’t even understand why he showed up, asking a lot of meaningless things and pretending to recall the past, but no matter what his purpose was, I would not let him disturb my life any more.

Perhaps her expression was a little ugly, but when Su Jung ran to me excitedly, the first thing she said was, “Sister, what’s wrong with you?”

I touched the corner of my mouth, which was a little stiff, and took his hand with a soft smile. “Nothing.” “Do you want to eat here or go home?” I answered easily.

(25)

Su Rong complained about the color of the cake, saying that green was unlucky. How could I not know the awkward mood in his heart, but it was only a matter of a few words.

I smiled and kissed the corners of his mouth, and everything was coaxed. After

eating the cake, Su Rong pulled me to stroll around the campus. He was like showing off the good things in his hands to his parents. He pointed to the buildings and introduced them to me. Little did he know that when I was very young, I followed my father around here. The campus

of Diyin is very beautiful, and the clusters of Platycodon grandiflorum flowers on the roadside are competing to open, like scattered stars, making everything poetic. Su Rong picked up a flower of Platycodon grandiflorum that had been blown off by the wind and pinned it behind my ear with a red face. The clean and fresh smell of Platycodon grandiflorum came from my ears, as if Su Rong was kissing my ears.

He pulled me all the way to a quiet place, calm and calm on his face, but how could I not see through that juvenile mind, just let him, and his ears were still red.

By the time the voices were gone, there was only lush green and white around us. Su Rong slowly turned around and hugged me. As soon as her head fell a little, I stood on tiptoe and catered to it. We couldn’t wait to kiss each other, and soon became inseparable.

It was an intimate and long kiss. The sound of my heart beating made my breathing confused. Su Rong held my waist and the back of my head. Her face was pious as if she were kissing her most precious thing. In a trance, I seemed to see Xu Yan’s bloodless face, but the next second, I was robbed of my thoughts by the warmth in front of me, leaving only the ups and downs of Su Rong in my mind. At the end of the

kiss, Su Rong held me in his arms for a long time to relax. He chuckled and leaned close to my ear, “Does my sister like it?”. After a pause, he added carefully, “I like it.” Me? Smiling,

I stood on tiptoe and kissed him on the cheek. I looked into his eyes, and into the reflection of me in his eyes. I slowly took his hand and placed it on my heart, which was still beating violently. I answered softly, “Yes.”

(26)

At the end of the day, Su Rong took me to the piano room of their school. Because it was late, there was no one in the piano room. He took me to sit on the chair together, facing the black and white keys. I was in a trance for a moment.

Because of my father, I learned a lot of musical instruments when I was young, although most of them were forced, but what I remember most is this piano.

Taking advantage of my career, my father always brought me here. At that time, I was still young, so that my memory was a little vague, but I can still clearly remember the way my father’s students competed to take me to practice the piano.

Although I learned the piano in a mess until the end, this piano is full of memories.

“What is my sister thinking?” Su Rong asked me carefully, with a pair of shining eyes, as if he had any expectations for me.

“Nothing,” I mumbled. “Why did you bring me here?” The light in

Su Jung’s eyes faded a little, and she looked very sorry. Seeing my inexplicable line of sight, she asked dejectedly, “Does my sister not like music?”

I froze for a moment. “It’s not that I don’t like it, it’s just that I don’t have any talent, and I can’t hear anything.” At this point, I probably follow my mother, otherwise I wouldn’t have been so easily abducted by my father’s ditty.

“No, sister.” Su Rong looked at me seriously. “You can hear it. I’ll play it for you.”

(27)

The sky was already dark, the stars were sparsely dotted in the night sky, but the moonlight passed through the clouds and splashed gently on the floor like water. Su Rong and

I coincidentally did not turn on the light, Su Rong sat in the moonlight, facing such an ancient piano, fingers gently jumping, those crisp notes jumped out from the fingertips, I sat on the floor, listening quietly.

I really can’t hear anything, but I know this song is very nice, I seem to be able to see the girl who is smiling behind this song, and I can also see the emotion called heartbeat, with the right moonlight, with the right person, as if everything is very gentle.

Such a melody he once sang to me, also in such a mild summer night, he said that this song was written for me, but I am far less beautiful than this song.

I have to say, boys who can play the piano are really attractive.

I sat there quietly, my eyes focused uncontrollably on Su Rong, I heard my clear heartbeat, and it was not until that moment that I realized a serious problem-I seemed to really, really like a person.

It is not the unthinking love in the face of juvenile questions, nor the strong need for hormones because of long-term solitude, but the real heart, an emotion that rarely exists in my 26 years of life, an emotion that is beyond my control.

That’s all right. I smiled and thought quietly.

(28)

I never thought of hiding my love with Su Rong, so that even the people in the studio knew clearly that I was nourished by love.

But the strange thing is that my father has not called me so far, and my mother has never said that she would come to my house to see me. Although I was confused, I thought they might be busy, so I didn’t ask any more questions-after all, I was not idle.

Seeing that the competition is imminent, I always have to pay more attention to the problem of clothes processing, so I run to the studio every other day, sometimes I need to be busy until late at night, and when I get home, Su Rong has already slept.

But this will not be the norm, when the game is over, I will naturally idle a lot, I think when the time comes, Su Rong should also have a summer vacation, we have plenty of time to get along.

I thought so, also did not feel anything wrong, but Su Rong often carried all kinds of fruit dessert milk tea and other things to my studio, very thoughtful, so that Yuntang laughed at me, even by a brother to eat dead.

However, I am not so lucky after all, even the happiness that God sent to my hands can be taken away silently.

It was a very ordinary night. I was as busy as usual until midnight. I thought Su Rong had gone to bed, but when I pushed the room open, I saw beer bottles all over the floor and Su Rong shrinking in the corner. I didn’t

even turn on the lights. I

don’t know why I was a little flustered, frowning and turning on the light, but when I looked at Su Rong again, I saw his red eyes.

He is very haggard. I

don’t know why I can turn myself into this without seeing him for a day. The red blood in his eyes is even a little scary. He stares at me without blinking. At hand is a half-drunk bottle.

I suppressed the uneasiness in my heart, frowned and stepped forward. “What’s wrong?” I crouched down and tried to take away the wine he had. “Why did you drink so much?”

Su Rong did not say anything, but with me changed his bottle, but people are still staring at me, watching all my movements.

“Sister.” He suddenly called out. “Do you really like me?” I paused

. I didn’t understand what was going on, but I was absolutely sure. “I like it.”

But he just smiled, as if helpless and self-deprecating. “Sister, do you like me better, or do you like Xu Yan better?”

My tidying up slowly stopped.

“Did he say anything to you?” I asked, frowning.

He wouldn’t have mentioned this man for no reason. Although he knew about me and Xu Yan, he was never a vexatious person. Must be Xu Yan, what did he do?

“No.” Su Rong shook his head, but the next question surprised me and I couldn’t speak. He stared at me, and the grievance in his voice was almost overflowing. “Sister, are you with me just to help him?”

“But he’s already engaged, so why should his sister help him?”

My sister says she likes me. Is that how she likes me? It’s just that I don’t know why my sister’s love is so cheap.

I have never seen Su Rong so helpless. Every word, like the awl heart weeping blood, every word is scraped carefully in my heart, scraping out one trace after another.

But I’m just as helpless. This flying horizontal pot made me very confused. I shook my head in a daze. “I didn’t..” What happened?

Su Rong no longer spoke, he just looked at me two eyes, grabbed the side of the mobile phone randomly scratched, threw in front of me.

I picked up his mobile phone in a hurry, which showed the hot search interface, and I was caught off guard, I saw a few words on it that I had never thought of.

…

Xu Yan derailed.

My hands trembled slightly, and the uneasiness in my heart was even worse. I clicked on the first item of the hot search, and what I saw was a very blurred picture. In the photo, is my back and Xu Yan face shallow smile, and in the middle of us, there is a beautiful light green cake, Xu Yan’s hand holding my hand, is saying something.

No, that’s not true.

I was shocked that he grabbed my hand in a hurry when he was recalling the past and was thrown away by me, but even that second, could it be photographed?

I tried to explain, but even the explanation was weak. I looked at Su Rong and argued palely, “I’ve seen him once, but this is just an exaggeration by the media.”. Su Rong, you..

“Sister.” Su Rong interrupted me. He quietly looked into my eyes and gently pointed to the cell phone in my hand. “Look at the second one.”

Xu Yan released a new album.

I do not understand the point to go in, only to know why netizens can be so sure to say that Xu Yan is derailed. The name of

Xu Yan’s new album is Nian Xia.

“Sister, have you heard that song?” Su Jung hung his head. He had never been so decadent for a moment. He laughed at himself. “I’m sure my sister won’t have time to listen.”. But I listened.

He leaned over and took the phone from my hand, stroking his fingers neatly, and then a familiar melody slowly came out of the phone.

It’s the song that Su Rong once played for me. The song that hasn’t been released

yet.

The song was clearly written by Su Rong carefully, but it was stolen by thieves and released in advance. And the name of this song is Nian Xia.

I guess at that moment, my expression must be very embarrassed.

“Sister.” Su Rong slowly closed his eyes. The familiar melody echoed in the silent room. He covered his eyes with his palms in great pain. Even his voice was stained with tears. The extremely depressed mood almost burst out, but he held back because the person he was facing was me. He called me dumb, as if in despair.

Sister, it took me more than ten years to write this song. Every note, every melody, is written with you in mind. But sister, how can you be so cruel?

I leaned forward helplessly and tried to hold his hand, shaking my head desperately. “It’s not me, Su Rong.”. It’s really not me..

Sister, the whole world knows that Hsu Yen was a model and never studied music. He can’t remember the music he’s heard once, and he can’t compose it. He paused and just laughed. “But sister, you have learned.”. Sister, how can I trust you?

I could not speak, my ears were buzzing, I suddenly had a sense of fear that I had never had before, accompanied by the gradual expansion of anger in my heart, my tears of anger were rolling in my eyes-how could I not understand Su Rong’s grievance.

We are all creators, we are all on the side of the art chain as producers, our works are about honor and fame, but more about the heart.

It was the most secret thing hidden in the bottom of my heart. It was a song he was only willing to sing to me. But all the things he had carefully created became the results of others in one day. How could he accept it.

He followed us, he followed us all the time, maybe he recorded it! Yes, he must have recorded it, “I explained incoherently.” I’m going to call him. You wait for me, Su Rong. You believe me.. ”

Su Rong did not speak, but leaned against the wall and closed his eyes. After a long time, he said softly, “Sister, let me be quiet.”

(29)

I have never been so flustered as I am now, not when Xu Yan left, nor when Su Rong and I lost their temper last time, but now I press the dial keyboard, but my fingers can not stop trembling.

Not fear, but anger. I was so angry that I trembled, so angry that tears rolled in my eyes, so angry that even my heart was beating angrily. I loved Su Rong dearly, and I loved the song that had been ruined for no reason.

The phone is connected.

“Xu Yan!” I shouted angrily, “*** you.”

“Miss Wen.” On the other end of the

phone, a gentle female voice stopped all the words I wanted to scold.

“Miss Wen, I’ve heard so much about you. I’ve been waiting for your call.” The man on the other end of the phone smiled, “I’m Pai Mu.”

I had a sudden reaction.

Xu Yan is not so tasteless, at least not in the past, but now the person on the other end of the phone is not necessarily.

I clenched my teeth. “Miss Bai, I have no enmity with you.”

“Indeed.” She was still laughing. “But now, I’m afraid you hate me.”. But of course I don’t care. Xu Yan and I won’t be separated because of this little thing.

“Little things?” I sneered. I raised my voice, almost hoarse. “This is theft, this is plagiarism.”. Bai Mu, I can sue you.

“What are you talking about?” Pai Mu was very happy, and his undisguised smile came out of the microphone. “That song was written by my fiance Hsu Yan for a long time, but Miss Wen, you have shamelessly seduced him many times and cheated him into getting the music score to blackmail us.”. I’m a generous man, and you’re lucky I didn’t sue you, but if Miss Wen makes a counter-charge, don’t blame me for being rude.

I clenched my cell phone, my fingers were blue and white, and the surging emotions were rolling crazily in my mind, but no matter how angry I was, I was still helpless in the end.

It is said that your circle is in chaos, but now it seems that it is. It turns out that there really are people who smear their husbands’ infidelity to make money. Miss Bai, aren’t you afraid that it will affect your own reputation? I gnashed my teeth and said, “You should know better than anyone that I had nothing to do with Xu Yan long ago.”

“I repeat, Wen Xia.” Bai Mu’s tone was much tougher, but his attitude was not the slightest hesitation. It was you who shamelessly seduced a married man. Xu Yan was the passive party, and you used it to stir up the heat. You used the flow to help your little boyfriend become famous, and also used the flow to help you in the competition a few weeks later. Xu Yan was just a victim. As for the title of the album.. I was thinking about the summer when Xu Yan and I met. What does it have to do with your warm summer? She said softly, “Miss Wen is still too young.”

I clenched my fists. I didn’t know when tears had blurred my vision. I was so angry that my body was cold. I had never felt so sick for a moment. Those curse words rolled on my lips for a long time, and only one sentence became, “No one will believe it.”

“Is it?” Bai Mu sniffed, “but as far as I know.” My fiance will soon issue a statement that he will prosecute you for the rumor and pursue your legal responsibility. Although this matter can also be private, but I look at Miss Wen’s attitude, I’m afraid it’s better to be public. Don’t you think so?

With that, a string of beeps came from the phone, and there was no news.

I did not give up trying to continue to call the past, but it became no answer, and when I dialed again, it became turned off.

I slumped helplessly on the sofa and covered my eyes with my hands.

Why. Why is it like this? In the

entertainment circle, white is said to be black, black is said to be white, which has long been a consistent means, and no matter what, it seems that as long as the legal responsibility of the other party is pursued, he will not have any fault.

It’s just that I never thought that one day I could be one of the protagonists.

Su Rong is still in the room without a voice, but I know that the environment of Diyin is clean, I have not seen the danger of society, and no one has told them to remember to keep a backup signature when writing songs. Those young children do not have any copyright awareness, just look at Su Rong’s painful appearance, they know that he has no evidence.

But I won’t let him suffer such a grievance in vain because of me.

Absolutely not.

(30)

Half an hour later, as expected, Xu Yan issued a statement. A simple message on Weibo, “We are fine, and we will not cheat,” was followed by a statement of prosecution.

I saw my name on it, and ten minutes later, my name rushed to the hot search list, followed by two ugly words: mistress.

Soon my identity information was stripped out, and I looked helplessly at the abuse of all my works because of me, the co-models who were denounced for wearing the clothes I designed, and the reputation of my father who was humiliated because of it, and I felt in a trance.

My cell phone tinkled, and I didn’t want to pay any attention to the rest of the news except that I answered my parents’ phone and simply said that it wasn’t me and I was all right. What

should I do? What

can I do?

I turned off my cell phone, turned out another cell phone that I hadn’t used for many years, found Yuntang’s number and dialed it. It’s not convenient for me to go out

at this time, so I have to ask Yuntang to help me do these things.

After a brief explanation, I asked her to help me find the surveillance in the coffee shop that day and the surveillance in the piano room in the campus of Diyin.

That’s the only thing that can prove me and Su Rong.

It’s just that Bai Mu has been in the entertainment circle for so many years. How could he ignore these? Although I was psychologically prepared, when Yuntang told me that the surveillance files had disappeared for various reasons, I still leaned back on the sofa in despair and looked at the ceiling at a loss.

This is a premeditated frame-up, but I have no evidence.

I didn’t dare to look at my cell phone any more, and my mind was even more confused. It was already late at night, and I just looked at the ceiling and didn’t sleep all night.

(31)

When it was almost dawn, the door creaked open.

I rubbed my stiff neck and slowly straightened up, making movement for the first time in a few hours.

Su Jung stood in the doorway, his voice a little dry. “Sister.”

I gave him a light-hearted smile. “What’s the matter?” I turned my back to the kitchen, not daring to look him in the eye? I’ll get something to eat.

Just out of a few steps, Su Rong strode forward and hugged me from behind. The fragrance of the clean honey locust on the

boy’s body came into my breath, and I suddenly wanted to cry again.

He hugged me tightly, put his arms around my waist, and put his chin on my shoulder. “Sister, I was wrong.” He apologized in a whisper. “I shouldn’t have doubted my sister. She’s not like that.”

I gently touched the back of his hand. The young man’s warm body pressed against his back, and it seemed that even his heart warmed up. I suppressed my choking voice and said, “I’m sorry.”

“It’s not my sister’s fault.” Su Rong still hugged me, but this time he turned my body around and buried my head in his arms. “My sister and I are innocent.”

I finally can not suppress those grievances, but I also know that Su Rong’s grievances are not less than me, I buried in his shoulder, sniffed at the same time, tears can not help but fall down.

It was because of me that Su Rong’s songs were stolen. Had it not been for me, Xu Yan would not have known Su Rong at all, and Bai Mu would not have followed the trail to find him.

My tears made Su Rong’s shoulders wet, but he didn’t move. He just touched my head gently and hugged me more tightly.

“Sister, actually I lied to you.” Su Rong hugged me and suddenly came out with such a sentence without thinking.

I slowly stopped my tears, but because of such a sudden pause, I burped very, very lightly.

“The first time I saw my sister was not in a bar, but in the piano room.”

I was stunned for a moment and wanted to see his eyes, but he stopped me by pressing his head, so I could only continue to lie in his arms and listen to him.

My sister was 16 and I was 11. My father is always busy and doesn’t care about me at all. I can only follow my uncle, who is a student of Professor Wen. It was also because of my uncle that I fell in love with music and saw my sister. My sister was playing in the piano room at that time, and she might not remember me at all, but from then on, I always thought of my sister. It was only

later that I learned that that kind of emotion was called liking. So I always pester my uncle to go to the piano room. He teaches you to play the piano, and I watch it secretly. Later I passed the imperial exam, but my sister never showed up again. Those two times in the

bar were no accident. You know, the seven bar is full of dignitaries and celebrities, and my uncle was there that day, and when he saw you, he called me. Sister, my family is not bankrupt, and I am not in debt. I saved all the money you gave me, and I must collect it from my sister. I told my sister this because I wanted her not to blame herself. Stunned,

I digested the sudden information, and I was still a little confused, and with his words, I inevitably thought of another person.

“Su Yi..”

“That’s my uncle.”

I Leng Leng lying in the arms of Su Rong, how can not expect such a result.

Su Yi is now one of the most influential figures in the music world. My father’s favorite student is the one who can’t get around Yuntang. He is also the one who once taught me the piano the most times. Even now we are still friends, and occasionally send some greetings on holidays.

I didn’t expect it to be Su Rong’s uncle. I

was stupid, never linked them together, even that day Su Rong so deliberately took me to the piano room, I have not been able to remember these.

“Sister,” Su Jung called me with a light smile, “there’s no love at first sight. It’s all premeditated.”

(32)

a week later, Su Rong used his personal social media account to finally fight back against the public opinion that had fermented into abuse.

That song took him ten years. No matter how much

Bai Mu exaggerated Xu Yan’s mental journey in creating this song, he dared not say the long period of ten years. After all, in her mouth, the song called “Nian Xia” was written by Xu Yan to commemorate their love, but how long have they known each other.

Su Rong has no direct evidence, but all the traces he left unintentionally, from countless scattered music scores to the recordings he hummed in his mobile phone, are the best proof of his creative copyright.

If he did not sign his name, there would be no legal basis for it, but for public opinion, it would be enough.

If all the music within five years, still can be white Mu reversed right and wrong, said I stole from Xu Yan, but I and Xu Yan know, also just five years.

Those scattered pieces of evidence were collected by Su Rong and posted on the Internet, and I also used all I could to push this micro-blog to a hot topic. In just one day, the topic of “Xu Yan’s plagiarism” was put on a hot topic again.

Xu Yan’s phone has long been an empty number, but I know he will call me sooner or later-because Bai Mu, will also call me sooner or later, but the proud woman can not say humble words, she will only let Xu Yan, use me and he once had so little memory, this matter into a small matter.

But it’s impossible.

Even if I am reviled and abused by thousands of people, I will never give in on this matter. Perhaps Su Rong will not ignore my reputation, but if I do not care about myself, no one can knock us down again.

Su Rong is more important than myself.

Xu Yan’s voice was very hoarse, and after I answered the phone, he could not speak any more except to shout Xia Xia.

I heard Bai Mu’s deliberately low and anxious urging voice on the other side of the microphone, but Xu Yan still did not speak.

Su Rong sat next to me, staring at me like a formidable enemy, which made me laugh.

Perhaps it was because of this laughter that Xu Yan finally found the opportunity to open his mouth. He called me in a low voice, “Xia Xia.” I’m sorry.

I did not speak, because Su Rong had kissed over, I tried to push away, but he refused, but bit my lips hard. Xu Yan’s voice on the

phone continued, hesitating to say that he did not understand.

Xia Xia, actually I.. I don’t want that. I

I pushed Su Rong away with difficulty, calmed my breath, and then spoke coldly to the phone. “Xu Yan, I didn’t answer this phone to hear you say sorry to me.”

Xu Yan’s voice was even hoarse, “Xia Xia..”

“Don’t call me that, Xu Yan.” I chuckled. “Haven’t I suffered enough from you?”? What do you want to do this time when you pester me and say that I seduce you? If I’m not mistaken, it’s Bai Mu who wants you to ask me out, and then find someone to film this scene and continue to fabricate it out of thin air.

「…… Xia Xia, I..

“Xu Yan, when you left, I didn’t hate you at all.” I said simply, repeatedly stopping Su Rong from moving her hands and feet. “I’m still making excuses for you, saying that it’s your dream, and I have no reason to stop it.”. Even when you come back, I don’t hate you, but I feel it’s a pity and I don’t think it’s worth it. But now, I really hate you.

“Ever since you moved that song, the only thing left between you and me is the possibility of an enemy.”

Xu Yan seemed to be worried, and he began to explain to the phone in a hurry, “Xia Xia, it’s not me.” The voice on the other end of the phone became a little confused. I heard Xu Yan’s voice trembling. “I won’t do that. It’s Bai Mu who said someone wrote a song for me.” I didn’t give up that day and followed you all the time, but I left when I saw you hugging. I didn’t hear the song. I thought.. I thought it was just a song that was sold to me..

“Xia Xia,” Xu Yan still said, “do you know? When I sing this song, my mind is full of your appearance, that’s why I have such a name. I want to call you after the release and say that I sang this song for you. I really didn’t think..

He seemed to be very sincere, and from the microphone, I also keenly caught the noisy voice, I heard Bai Mu screaming at the top of his voice, also heard the sound of the door being beaten crazily, and Xu Yan almost collapsed in such an environment, repeating over and over again, “Xia Xia, don’t hate me..” I beg you, don’t hate me..

I took a deep breath and took the microphone of my mobile phone away. My eyes only looked at Su Rong, the boy whose eyes were full of me, the jealousy in his eyes and the love that could not be hidden. I answered Xu Yan very seriously.

“Do you know why this song reminds you of me?” I put my hand in the palm of Su Jung’s hand and smiled softly, “Because the person who wrote the song also had my image in his mind.”

(XXXIII)

that affair came to an unexpected end. The ready-made clothes were ready

that day, and although my reputation was not restored after the storm, Su Rong’s copyright was recognized. I didn’t want to waste time on those things any more, and I didn’t care about other people’s eyes and opinions on me. I just regarded them as the price paid for my blindness and devoted myself to the competition again.

That day I was choosing the last model to walk on the stage, but after seeing more than 20 people, none of them could wear the dress as I wanted. I was upset and received a call from Yuntang.

Holy shit! Wen Xiaoxia, look at the micro-blog quickly! Xu Yan awakened! Shit, Shit! I told you that God was on your side, but you didn’t believe me!

In her series of urging, I inexplicably click on the phone, and this time, I and Xu Yan’s name, followed by an explosive word, and the most unexpected thing for me is another name that suddenly appeared there: Su Rong.

…

I opened a hot search in Mengmeng, and it was Xu Yan’s that was pushed to the top by the heat.

“Something I want to say.”

Eighteen pictures of memos, all the words were crowded together, and I took a cursory look at them, and he confessed everything.

From our meeting and falling in love, to his drunk driving and meeting Bai Mu, to the song called “Nian Xia”, to how Bai Mu posted false news on his social account.

In addition to confessing and apologizing, in the picture of the last memo, he wrote concisely that he would turn himself in, that he did not want to deceive the masses any more, and that he did not want a man named Wen Xia to be wronged for no reason.

She’s never been a mistress, and she won’t be. In our story, which is worth remembering for the rest of my life, I have always been sorry for her. I ask for nothing but peace and joy in her life.

I breathed a sigh of relief, but I couldn’t tell what mood I was in.

That day on the phone, he broke down and said, “Don’t hate me.” I thought that was the limit of what he could do, but I didn’t expect that Xu Yan would be even more ruthless.

All the public opinions turned to attack, and all this happened to be on the day when Su Rong’s song was released-he perfected the melody he hummed to me, re-composed the music according to his own ideas, and released his first song in his life, named after me.

Xu Yan used his last bit of value to return it to me and Su Rong in the form of flow, pushing the song to its highest point.

And at the end of that song, after Su Rong’s clean voice, in that clean and gentle melody, there is a silent line in the lyrics:

“To those gentle summers, and to you.”

(34)

After that, I picked a day to take Su Rong to see my parents, but his familiar appearance made me question.

I thought it would be a scene of a shy little boy saying hello, but Su Rong turned to my father and shouted loudly and clearly, “Dad!”

I was confused, and I didn’t realize whose father it was for a while.

However, my father laughed and asked Su Rong something I hadn’t expected. “Have you finally caught up with me?”

Su Rong nodded happily, “Mmm!”! Thanks, Dad!

I slowly turned my head, looked at Su Rong, then looked at my father, the next second, I did not hesitate to pull up Su Rong’s ear, dragged all the way into my room.

He cried as if begging for mercy, “Sister, sister, don’t hurt, sister, be gentle, I was wrong!”

My father also ran after him in a hurry. “Oh, don’t break my son-in-law’s ears!”! You smelly girl!

I turned a deaf ear until I closed the door. Then I mercifully let go and pushed him against the wall with one hand. “Explain?” Rubbing her ears pitifully,

Su Jung said, “Sister, why didn’t I make a mistake?”

Seeing that I still wanted to do something, he laughed and told the truth. “My uncle and Professor Wen mentioned that I liked you, and I came to see our father a long time ago. Otherwise, sister, how could I even cook so much to your liking?”

He whispered in my ear, “Sister, our father is in a hurry to marry you to me!” Only then did

I realize that no wonder he refused to let me accompany him to my father’s class that day. It turned out that these two people had already colluded.

Sister, in fact, Sister Yuntang is also with me. Otherwise, how could Sister Yun-tang let you go home with a boy so easily?

「……」

I looked at him, speechless for a long time. After a long

silence, I laughed and scolded him, “Idiot.” Then

I kissed him gently on the lips.

He likes me because he has planned for a long time and everyone knows it, but I am the only one who is kept in the dark and thinks everything is accidental.

(35)

The day of the competition is getting closer and closer, and I am getting more and more nervous, and I still let Su Rong finish the final work of walking on the stage.

He had not touched these, and naturally everything was very green and astringent, but that dress, what he wanted was that rare green and astringent feeling.

And the prototype is him, so only he can wear what I want.

But there’s something missing.

It wasn’t until the day of the competition, when we were backstage, that he was practicing nervously in that dress, and I looked at his sweaty broken hair and the silhouette of the sun on his face, that I suddenly realized what was missing. I ran out of the show

as fast as I could, ran to the flower shop and bought a bunch of white Platycodon flowers. One second before

Su Rong came on stage, I broke off the cleanest one in the bouquet, panted, and gently put it into the chest pocket of the dress.

Clean, mild and fresh.

And eternal love.

This is what I want.

(36)

When I stood on the podium with the trophy, I was asked by the judges about the design inspiration and theme. I was silent for a long time and did not know where to start.

Under the stage, Su Rong looked at me with bright eyes and a smile on his face. The Platycodon grandiflorum on his chest trembled slightly with his heartbeat. The white petals were clean without any impurities.

I looked into his eyes and thought of the song called “Warm Summer” and a sentence in his lyrics.

“Allow one person to be partial and be generous in this life.” I hung my head and smiled softly, and in my field of vision I could still see the blooming flower of Platycodon grandiflorum. “This is inspiration.” The

first time I saw her in

Su Rong’s eyes was in the piano room. The

gentle summer wind blew her hair, she sat in front of the piano, her fingers were like jumping spirits, and a Croatia rhapsody came coldly from her fingertips to my ears. It didn’t match

her clean white dress, but at that age, I suddenly understood the meaning of the word “warm”. At the end of the

song, I was stunned. I huddled by the door and didn’t dare to enter. I just watched everything carefully from the corner. It was another person in the piano room who saw me and shouted with a smile, “Rong Rong is coming. Come quickly. Come to Uncle.”

I walked over timidly, perhaps because of hormones, but when I passed by her, I deliberately increased my pace, but she didn’t even look at me. Her eyes swept over me coldly, and fell on my uncle without any waves. “I’ve played three times, can I go home?”.

“Well, go back. I’ll tell Professor Wen that you have practiced well.” The uncle smiled and waved to her. “Be careful on the way.”

She gave a hum and disappeared into my field of vision.

I craned my head to catch it, but all I could see was a flash of the white skirt. “She’s..”

The uncle just smiled, “Wen Xia, the daughter of a very famous professor of Diyin.”. I used to think that people who are forced to learn the piano by their parents can’t learn it well, but she is a special case.

I looked in the direction of her departure. After a long silence, I nodded my head in an affectedly mature way. “Her name is really nice.” I looked up at my uncle and said earnestly, “It looks like her.”

“Son of a bitch, how old are you? What can you see?”

I didn’t argue again, but what flashed through my mind was the amazing scene when I first saw it.

Wen Xia, the name really looks like her. Summer should be warm and unrestrained, but she is gentle, no edges and corners of the appearance, is a warm heart, just like the Croatia rhapsody, intense notes beating, but faintly kneading with tenderness.

In fact, if it is said to like, only that side is far from enough, but it is undeniable that the scene is too amazing, so that I can not forget for a long time, since then, I always like to go to Diyin to find uncle, but perhaps there is no fate, every time I only ran into the back of her departure, not even a chance to introduce myself. After so many

times, even my uncle could see that something was wrong. He smiled and pinched my nose. “Are you looking for me or for someone else?”

What is like? At that time, I actually did not understand, but the rapid heartbeat can not deceive people, in the mention of the word like, the first time in my mind, or her appearance.

I could hide it from myself, but I couldn’t hide it from my uncle. He promised me that as long as I was good enough, he could push me on such a difficult road. I am also a demanding perfectionist, and the moment I appear in front of her, I must be the best.

Just this drag, then dragged to Xu Yan appeared.

The man was caught off guard in Wenxia’s life, and I had to admit that he was attractive, but I also had to face my almost crazy jealousy. That kind of emotion rarely appears in me, but every moment they are together, every minute, every second, I am jealous to the point of madness.

They were together for two years, I was decadent for two years, but I was lucky, Xu Yan’s departure made me cheer up again, and it was not until that moment that I realized that my mind for her had been so deep-rooted.

My uncle fulfilled his promise, and he gave me a push, that is, he found the closest people around Wenxia for me to know: her father, and her friends. I have known Professor

Wen for a long time, and I also know that he is my sister’s father. He usually speaks actively and listens carefully in class, which makes him have a good impression on me. When the old professor, who is over 60 years old, learns that I like my sister, he smiles and bends his eyes. Then he treats me as a prospective son-in-law and tells me about my sister’s habits and preferences from childhood to adulthood. Obviously, I am more than that Xu Yan, the old man’s mind.

Sister Yuntang’s participation made me more prepared, but when she said that Wenxia’s biggest hobby on weekdays was to see handsome men with good figures, I frowned.

Sour, not confident. Maybe it should be to her taste, right?

It is said that opportunities are reserved for those who are prepared. I have prepared for so long, just to make her feel that I am different at the first sight of me. Although it is not the degree of love at first sight, if she can be fascinated by sex, it may be a good start.

Yuntang sister pinched an excuse to break up with her boyfriend and took her sister to the bar. The wine was free to drink, but Yuntang sister was an old hand in the end. She could escape seven cups of ten cups quietly. Finally, the person who drank too much became a sister. As

she went to the toilet, I asked Yun Tang, “Is it not good to take advantage of the situation?”

Sister Yun-tang, with a profound look on her face, patted me on the shoulder and said, “There is a void to enter. If you don’t, who will?”

That makes sense.

So I entered, but the effect seemed to be too good, I never thought that my sister actually wanted to pick me in public, but also kept saying that she wanted to wrap me, I was worn down by her, under the instigation of Yuntang, I nodded uncontrollably, but, isn’t this a little fast?

Although in so many nights, there is her figure in my dream, but when everything is real, I still panic. The

first experience was not so good, she had no experience, I had no experience, but when I saw her touching my abdominal muscles, I felt as if I had succeeded.

I didn’t dare to enjoy myself, for fear that she would feel uncomfortable, but obviously she didn’t care, and fell asleep. I went to pick up her things, and fed her sobering medicine and some water, before I had time to call Yuntang’s sister.

I was really afraid that my sister would turn against me tomorrow, and Yun-tang grinned and said, “Then why don’t you just rely on her and let her have to take responsibility?”

“How, how, how?” I stammered, “always, always, always can’t cry, make trouble, and hang myself.”

Yun-tang’s sister seemed to be still in the bar, and she casually gave me three reasons: “Her family is bankrupt, she has huge debts, and for the first time, how dare she not be responsible?”

Yuntang sister is indeed a veteran of love, see things very thoroughly, but I said according to this speech, sister still does not seem to want me.

I can not find any other reason, can only casually pull a reason not to want to live in the dormitory, hoping that she can not find a house to settle me, and then can only call me to stay, but Wenxia is worthy of Wenxia, when I was driven out of the door, it was called a merciless.

It doesn’t matter. I comforted myself. It’s not too late anyway.

However, a few days later, when I arrived at the bar under the phone of Yuntang’s sister, I saw a middle-aged uncle chatting up her.

That’s not cool.

I could not help but stop in front of my sister, but also did not forget to give the uncle a few supercilious looks, but also do not know what is going on, I just said a few words to her, she did not hesitate to jump up, I did not even have time to react, the lips were bitten, and then, accidentally rolled into bed.

This is really a novel and addictive experience.

Afterwards, I held her waist, listening to her breathing and heartbeat, only to feel that life was so beautiful, and this time, whether she was eating marrow or being fascinated by sex, I finally succeeded in staying with her.

I moved to her room, and I could smell her every day, and she was very special to me. She gave me the line draft without reservation, and went to the basketball match to support me. Everything was getting better slowly. I finally had the chance to sing the song hidden in my heart to her. Everything was moving slowly towards what I expected most.

But at this time, Xu Yan appeared again.

He’s such a jerk. I don’t know what he said to my sister, but he showed up on my birthday. When I opened the door

for him, I even held a cake specially made for my sister in my hand, which was painted with pink cream and full of love. Xu Yan looked at me, looked at the cake in my hand, and looked at the warm summer in his arms, and the corners of his mouth were full of mockery.

On that day, I never dared to ask what was the relationship between me and her, but I spat out a difficult decision that took a lot of effort to make, “Let’s all be quiet.” I was the one who

made the decision, but I was also the one who was more reluctant to give up. In the past few days, I searched all kinds of reasons to show up in front of her, but she refused to look at me more. I know she is busy, but I still want to be the most special existence, want her to put down her pen to see me, want me to be the first in her life.

That period of time was probably the most difficult time.

Just when I was about to give up, she finally appeared. I watched her walk up to me and sit down, so naturally, her breath, her smell, her everything, reappeared within my reach.

Luckily, I was right again. Walking on the path in the middle of the campus, the gentle summer wind blew gently, I suddenly wanted to kiss her, and I did so, those charming and ambiguous thoughts, all melted in the wind.

In fact, even if you don’t tell her all this, it’s fine.

But I couldn’t help but take her back to the piano room. She seemed to forget that she had met a shy boy here many years ago. But even if she didn’t remember, it didn’t matter. Now each other is the best. When

Xu Yan stepped in again, I was humming a tune to prepare dinner for her. Suddenly, the message on my mobile phone covered the menu, and on it, the four words of Xu Yan’s derailment occupied all my perception.

I have always believed in Wenxia unconditionally, but when I clicked on the song, I still heard the sound of something breaking.

It was my first song, and it was also a song that carried all my youth. It was not only a memorial, but also a longing for all the beautiful future of me and her. But such a future was also broken quietly in Xu Yan’s song.

I had harsh words with her. This is the first time we’ve known each other for so long. I was too afraid. I was afraid that she would leave me. I was afraid that she would tell me as a matter of course, “It doesn’t matter, write another one.” I was even more afraid that she would choose to let me swallow such a grievance for Xu Yan. But I thought for so long in the dark room, but I still couldn’t bear to give her up.

But she didn’t.

I heard the quarrel and abuse outside the house, and saw her name on the social platform, so all the fear turned into heartache. When I walked out of the door, the first thing she even said was to ask me if I was hungry.

I smiled and hugged her again. Like her confession of the past, those silent emotions slowly condensed in the embrace, leaving only the same love.

That’s her. It occurred to me.

In this life, no one will love her more than me.

(End)

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