First love, old love, new love
when my parents were divorced and homeless, I really missed Jiang for a day, so I stood for 30 hours to see him.
I thought that this clingy spirit would hug me very hard as usual, and then kiss me with heartache, telling me that he would never leave me.
It turned out that I knew Jiang Yitian very well, but the person he hugged and kissed was not me. When I
learned the news of my parents’ divorce, I was fixed in place with my suitcase. Looking around at the parents who came to pick up their children, I suddenly found that I was completely homeless.
My childhood was spent in shouting and scolding, my life was constantly abandoned, my grandparents disliked me as a girl, my father played mahjong and had no time to take care of me, and my mother cursed me for ruining her life.
Only Jiang Yitian will never abandon me. As long as he hugs me, he can get by.
Returning the train ticket home, I bought the nearest green train. There was no seat. I stood for nearly 30 hours. When I left the station, my legs seemed to be filled with lead. But as long as I saw Jiang for a day, I was asked for it. The
mobile phone was completely black at the moment of paying the fare, but it doesn’t matter, I know everything about Jiang’s day. He had no classes
this afternoon. He would study in the library until six o’clock. I dragged my swollen legs towards the library, like a drowning man, and Jiang Yitian was my driftwood. The moment I
went up the steps, the rain fell down, just as the clock on the top of the library pointed to six o’clock, but my tears of grievance were almost unbearable, there were still ten steps left, three, the last one.
Jiang is a loner all day and likes to be quiet. He usually comes out at the end, just like when he was in high school.
When I saw the same blue love short sleeve, my tears had fallen down. The grievance along the way was completely unbearable. I really needed him to hug me. I ran towards him, but the next second I was stunned. Hand in hand
with Jiang Yitian, there is also a girl, he hugged her waist, like an ordinary couple so inseparable, from time to time to kiss.
Maybe my tears blurred my vision, I tried to wipe my tears, but the couple’s blue love short sleeves were on him, and I knew him for seven years, how could I admit my mistake?! The
rain was getting heavier and heavier. He carried the girl on his back carefully, with her bag hanging around his neck. They shared an umbrella and clung to each other tightly. The girl fed the milk tea tube to his mouth, and he took a sip without hesitation.
At that moment, my world collapsed, and he was a neat freak! He never drinks my water, even if I feed it to his mouth countless times, he will only turn his head. The
rain was getting heavier and heavier. His trouser legs were soon half wet and his hair was wet by the rain. He told me that what he hated most was the rainy day. He hated the rain soaking his clothes and the feeling of the rain falling on his body. But now he was desperate for the girl on his back.
They walked very fast in the rain. A penguin pendant fell from Jiang Yitian’s schoolbag and fell to the ground. Jiang Yitian stepped on his feet. The white penguin suddenly became muddy. I saw him put down his girlfriend with great quality, squatted down and picked up the penguin, and then threw it into the trash can.
That penguin was sewn by me for a long time, and my hands were full of needle marks. When he
gave it to him, he regarded it as a treasure. When he took the college entrance examination, he had to put it in his pencil bag. That penguin, when someone touched him, he would fall out, but now it’s lying in the trash can.
I looked up and watched as my driftwood dragged the man farther and farther away. With all my strength, I called out to him, “Jiang Yitian!”
I don’t know how I got to him. I looked at him and I said, “Who is she?”
Mingming had tried to control his emotions, but before he could say it, his eyes began to sour.
Perhaps I was too excited to frighten the girl on his back, and he stepped back and looked at me warily, protecting the man on his back.
Ye Duo, is it interesting for you to entangle like this? I have a girlfriend.
I felt like a thunderbolt, and my tears came out at once. Even my voice began to tremble uncontrollably. “Is she your girlfriend?”? What about me? It was you who went out of your way to beg me to be your girlfriend.
“It was you who wrote notes for me, brought me breakfast, and said you would always love me and accompany me..” The double betrayal of family love made me come forward and grab him. He was pulled loose by me and threw the girl on his back.
“Yiyi!” He went to help her in a panic and checked her injuries. After seeing that she was all right, he stared at me.
I had never seen such a cold look in his eyes. At that moment, I really didn’t know him.
“Have you had enough?!”
I didn’t! It’s obvious that you’re stepping on two boats and trampling on my feelings at will. One day, have you had enough? Are you still shameless? With a
snap, it was particularly clear. Jiang did not hide for a day. He said in a cold voice, “Ye Duo, you are selfish and timid. You live like a resentful woman. You want me to revolve around you all the time and take your words as an imperial edict. You really treat yourself as a princess!”! It’s because I’m young and warm-blooded, and I can’t bear to see people being so pitiful, that I take care of you everywhere. But every moment I’m with you, I regret it! It is tantamount to public execution to publicize the advantages of the
past as shortcomings of the lover. Trembling,
I said, “But that’s the way I am. You said you would spoil me to death.”
Jiang Yitian suddenly sneered, “I’m blind!”
You and me! I warn you to stay away from me and my girlfriend. If you dare to harass her..
He said, shaking his fist at me with a fierce expression.
The man who didn’t dare to speak to me loudly and hugged me carefully actually wanted to hit me?
Jiang Yitian! You have no conscience! You lied to me! I was so angry that I fought with a man who didn’t love me. As soon as my schoolbag hit him, Jiang grabbed my shoulder and pushed me. When I
fell to the ground, the bones of my whole body were aching, and the blood of my viscera was surging up. There are more and more
students around me, and I want to get away from here.
But I can’t move.
Jiang spent ten percent of his strength one day. I was pushed far away and my body rubbed far on the ground. He knew clearly that I wanted to save face most. To do so was tantamount to killing me. The
rain is getting denser and denser, hitting the lotus leaves of the East Lake. Just like the other day. In the summer of
my freshman year, I came to see him. As soon as I got off the train, there was a heavy rainstorm. A row of sandbags were placed in the middle of the road. The road was flooded. Several passers-by were trapped in the deep water area. Many cars went out in the middle of the road. Firefighters kept persuading the vehicles to retreat. Excavators carried passengers to the distance for more than ten minutes. The hem of my skirt has been soaked.
I looked at the basic strange city more and more black, the mobile phone is also out of power, Jiang did not come one day, my heart inexplicably flustered.
Just as I was thinking about whether to ask the police for help, I suddenly saw a running figure coming towards me. It was Jiang Yitian. He was covered with water and ran out of breath. The moment he saw me, he was red-eyed. For the first time, I saw him choking and unable to speak. “They said here..” The water was very deep, and two people were..
I hugged him quickly. “It’s not me. It’s not me. I wanted to follow you, but I’m afraid you can’t find me.”
Later, I knew why he was so afraid. I was the hardest hit area. The roads were closed. Buses and taxis could not get through. When I could not be contacted, he was scared half to death. When he crossed the bottom of the bridge, the water came up. He was dripping waist-high water. His hands were clinging to the fence in the middle of the road. If he was not careful, he would be involved in the bottom of the bridge. He was completely desperate. Neither fireman stopped him.
I criticized him severely for this dangerous practice. He lay on my lap and hugged my waist. His voice was muffled. He said that he could not live without me.
You see, he really loved me at the beginning, and he couldn’t leave me for a moment.
Every time he saw me leaving, he, a man over 1.8 meters tall, cried until his eyes were red. He didn’t want to hug me and said to me, “I always feel like I left you here alone.”
As soon as I got on the train, I started the video. If the signal was not good, I would send a message. In those years, I didn’t reply for more than ten minutes. Maybe he was already on his way to the train station.
Such a person who can’t leave me all the time, now he hates me so much?
Family is like a swamp, I am trapped in it, Jiang pulled me one day, I always thought my youth would end with marrying him, but now. The East Lake in front
of me is as far as the eye can see. I heard that there is a river outside the school. Maybe I won’t be found after I die. I step on the stone steps..
Tut, it’s 2022, how can someone still die for love? If I had known you were so stupid and airtight, I shouldn’t have pulled you. I opened my eyes and looked at the strange boy in front of me. The
young man’s wanton brows and eyes are something I don’t have. “Tell me about you. You’re not ugly either. Is this the brain that ran away from home?”.
“Hum, jump into the lake. The deep water of East Lake is unfathomable. That year a few water snakes came up. If you jump into it, the water snakes and leeches below are really blessed. The leeches suck blood, and the water snakes eat meat. It’s quite fair.” What
I feared most in my life was a snake. When I heard that there was a snake inside, I dragged my injured leg down the steps subconsciously. Why don’t
you jump? If you jump into the lake alone, the whole school will have a holiday! By the way, if your unconscionable ex-boyfriend finds out, he’ll probably be so happy that he’ll set off a firecracker.
I stared at him feebly, but I never thought I would have a deep relationship with the boy in front of me.
He has paid for so many years. Have you paid less? Obviously, he failed you. Don’t you want to get revenge? Are you willing to have a new love and trample your old love to death? By the way, I want to tell you that one day Chiang may be able to get a postgraduate recommendation, and his future is limitless. Are you willing to let future generations enjoy the cool of the trees you planted with your seven years of youth?
My face was expressionless, but my heart was awakened by the stranger’s scolding. For a long time, I said, “No.”
I will cut down the tree.
I didn’t expect that Jiang Yitian would take the initiative to find me in the coffee shop under the sycamore tree. When I went in, he was bowing his head and playing with his mobile phone with a smile on his face. But when he saw me, he immediately turned cold.
“Did you do this?” The post on the wall of the
confession shows that the senior of the law school stepped on two boats in one day. The photo below is provided by me, and the post is also contributed by me.
I looked at him. “You did something wrong.”
Jiang Yitian turned his head and sneered, “The description is not clear, and the time process is not clear. Ye Duo, I taught you to do math problems, but I didn’t omit them like that.”
I used to listen to you, but what did I get in return? Betrayal and humiliation!
Jiang Yitian pinched his eyebrows and said, “Ye Duo, I want to say several times that I don’t love you, so there is no betrayal at all.”
Then why did you stay up late last week to help me grab the class? Why did you go so far to listen to Professor Wang’s lecture? That’s the tutor I want to test, not yours.
“Because of sympathy.”
He answered without thinking, tearing my heart apart, and the pain was so painful that I couldn’t breathe.
In the past, when my eyes were red, Jiang felt so distressed that he wanted to kneel down to me all day. But now he just looks at me coldly, and his voice is extremely impatient. “Ye Duo, I say it again, I don’t like you for a long time, but you are pitiful. I will help you in the college entrance examination, and I will also help you in the postgraduate examination. You don’t have to depend on your parents in the future.” You can stand on your own feet, and I’ve paid you back for so many years. When I was a
sophomore in high school, my parents quarreled so much at home that my father pointed at me and said, “You just gave birth to a broken girl!”! Giving birth to such a money-loser.. My mother handed the knife directly to my father and shouted, “Then you kill her!”! Kill! I’m free, too! When I
ran out of the house, the rain was so heavy that I had nowhere to go. I was so crazy that I ran to the park to look at the river. With the pressure of study and such parents, I really didn’t want to live.
But just before my life went completely awry, he covered my eyes.
“They don’t want me, they treat me badly..” I roared out a grievance full of overflow.
He said to me very seriously, “Be good, don’t cry. I will be good to you all my life. I swear.”
“If I treat you badly, I will die a terrible death.”
I still remember his embrace, which was so warm that it warmed me for many years.
Once the warmth has turned into a knife in my heart, tears like a valve that can not be stopped, how can not help, but he looked at me coldly and cried, so cold that my heart was cold. When I
returned to school, I was seriously ill and had a fever of only half my life. In a trance, I felt that someone was feeding me sugar water. Only Jiang Yitian knew that I would recover if I drank sugar water when I had a fever. I struggled to open my eyes, but I still couldn’t see clearly. I shouted, “Jiang Yitian?”
Someone kissed my cheek, and something cold dripped on my face.
“Jiang Yitian, I miss you so much!”
I cried so hard that I grabbed his clothes. “Why are you here? We’re all..”
“Idiot, we’re just fighting. It’s not like we don’t love you anymore.”
The voice was as gentle as ever. When I
woke up, I asked the nurse many times, but I saw the answer in her eyes. Everything was just an illusion.
But when I touched my face, it was clearly wet. The first thing I did when I
got back to school was to tear up the knowledge points on the wall, as well as the schedule he made for my postgraduate entrance examination. The task was accurate to every hour. I tore up all the thick postgraduate entrance examination materials. When I packed up my things, I collapsed again. Why did he send so many things!
Couple’s clothes, the same cup, the little lion at the head of the bed, the bracelet for the third anniversary, the ring for the fifth anniversary, and two thirds of my lipstick, the photo beside the computer.. The
heavy box was about to crush me. I hesitated for a long time beside the trash can and finally donated the clothes. The rest were given to my roommate who was selling them at the flea market. When only the photo album was left, my roommate took my box.
I’ll keep it for you. When you’re relieved, I’ll express it to you. After all, it’s not just Jiang’s day, it’s your youth.
I turned around, tears streaming down my face.
In a short month, I suddenly lost 20 pounds, xs clothes are loose, a lot of hair is lost, from time to time I will retch, but I can only be indifferent, because there is no one who will care about me. One day,
Jiang gave me the materials for the postgraduate entrance examination, which were still delivered on time. I guess he was in love with his new girlfriend and completely forgot about it. On the day of
graduation, I signed with a company far, far away, so far that it took me a whole day to fly. Unexpectedly, on my first day in the
company, I met my “savior,” Song Yi-hsing. The first thing he said when he
saw me was, “Sorry, there are no leftovers.”
I rolled my eyes and watched him continue. Although
Song Yixing’s mouth is venomous, his business ability is really strong. Just look at what his dog eats. The rations are worth my salary for a month. After
I arrived in Beicheng, Song Yixing helped me rent a house at the cost of shoveling shit for his master when he was on a business trip.
My first list was taken down by him after he drank and went to the hospital for gastric lavage. As a result, before he got out of the hospital bed, he said he wanted to give me four or six points. He was six and I was four.
Heh! When I
first entered the company, Song Yixing took me all over the city. As soon as I got off work, he threw an Erha to me.
Looking at the sponges flying all over the sofa and the dog-style bite marks on the legs of the dining table, I wish I could make Song Yixing into jerky!
But one day when I came back from work, I suddenly saw two big bags of dog food at the door. I was secretly pleased. Song Yixing finally became a person. He knew I was short of money recently, but this brand is not the kind his dog eats! Forget it. Don’t pick, don’t pick.
Thanks to Song Yixing, I think about making money every day when I go to work. When I come back from work, I have to serve my dog master to eat and drink. After dinner, I have to take a walk for an hour. With Song Yixing’s Satsuma, nearly 40 pounds of Satsuma, I often walk home and fall asleep.
Later, I realized that I hadn’t thought of that person for a long time. It was only after receiving the flowers for the third day in
a row that I realized something was wrong. As I looked at the daisies on my workstation, I turned to look at my colleague, who smiled unfathomably. I was just about to pick up the card, but I didn’t expect someone to hurry me up and say, “Hello, Ye Duo.”
Song Yixing rolled his eyes as he read.
“It’s so rustic!”
He pretended to be an old God. “Ye Duo, I gave you a divination by the way on this business trip. The master said that you are the fate of a lonely old man, with evil spirits on your body. Most people can’t stand you to overcome him. Be obedient. My Buddha is merciful. We can’t agree.”
I clenched my back teeth and looked at Song Yixing.
Duo! Believe in the police, believe in the party, and believe that love will not come to a good end. If you are obedient, we will be single. For the sake of others, you have to be single, too.
Song Yi-hsing, as far as I know, you haven’t finished your job yet! Don’t you want the bonus?
Song Yi-hsing looks incredulous. “You’re a little white-eyed wolf. I saw them in the group every day trying to persuade you to fall in love. I was afraid that you would fall into the tiger’s mouth. For you, I bought business class out of my own pocket and rushed back. You still don’t know what’s good for you. It’s good that I didn’t ask you to reimburse me for the ticket.”
“Cut!”
I had planned to refuse euphemistically. Someone had treated me a thousand times better than him, but he said he didn’t want me.
I picked up the flowers, and Sung Yi-hsing quickly snatched them from my hand? If you still want to put up a bunch of chrysanthemums, you won’t feel bad luck.
He holds the bouquet of flowers in disgust. “Putting it in the toilet to smoke the smell is the best use of everything.”
The colleague couldn’t bear to look at it any more. “That’s a Daisy,” he said. “You have no sense.”
Song Yi-hsing immediately turned against him, saying, “Even a young boy can’t do it!” When
he reached the door, he suddenly turned around and called my name, “Ye Duo.”
“What for?!” It was the first time
I saw Sung Yi-hsing put away his indiscretion and look at me with his eyes darkened. “In the future, you will not be allowed to accept flowers from others.”
Neuropathy!
“You promise I’ll walk your dog for a month.”
I blurted out, “Good!” On the second day after
Song Yixing made his promise, I asked for leave. My college roommate got married. As a former best friend, I naturally couldn’t be absent. Song Yixing took my dog with a helpless face and gave me a piece of paper.
“This is the list of local specialties I asked for.”
“Hey, I tell you, Chou Pi-pi will probably have to shout” Grandfather “when he sees you.”
Song Yixing gave me a white look. “A good friend of mine is in the area. Inside is his picture. He will pick you up when you get off the plane.”
“No need.”
Sung Yi-hsing’s eyes looked right through me. “Oh, high-speed rail people who can sit in the wrong seat. I’m afraid you’ll go straight to India and become a concubine.”
“Besides, your roommate is very busy getting married. If you know something and let my buddy pick you up, I’ll be relieved.”
I coughed twice. “Although you are so concerned about me, you still have to give me the money for the specialty.”
Song Yi-hsing grinds his back teeth and says, “Hurry up and get down to tell Daddy that he’s safe.”
Gan! Take advantage of me again! Everything about the
wedding was perfect, exactly as we had planned, and what impressed me was that the master of ceremonies asked a question at the wedding.
If you could go back to the past, what would you like to do most? I didn’t plan to go back to Lincheng after the
wedding, but it was too close, and Grandma’s birthday was coming. I gritted my teeth and bought a ticket back to Lincheng, but I never thought I would meet Jiang Yitian. It just rained
yesterday, and the cemetery was surrounded by weeds. The last time I came here, I was with Jiang Yitian. I haven’t been here for three years. I tidied up the surroundings and put on my grandmother’s favorite white sugar cakes and red bean cakes, as well as the ice dumplings I bought with great difficulty, and finally my roommate’s wedding candies.
“Happy birthday, Grandma..”
As soon as I opened my mouth, I couldn’t stop my tears. “Grandma, I have a good job, and my colleagues all like me very much. The weather there is not so bad. You can rest assured that I have a good meal. Look, I also brought you a wedding candy, and I tore you a plum flavor that you love..”
The plum candy was so sour that it made me cry. “Grandma, I’m sorry. I’m too timid. I haven’t come back to see you for so many years. It’s my fault. Grandma, I really miss you!”! I want to eat the sugar cake you made, and I want you to hug me. After saying goodbye
to my grandmother, I cried so much that my head was dizzy. So many years of grievances were finally vented. When I got on the bus, I was still wiping my tears. I habitually sat in the back row by the window. As soon as I sat down, I saw Jiang Yitian trotting on the bus.
It was only ten seconds, but I didn’t see him for more than half a year. I almost didn’t recognize him. He was so thin that he almost lost his appearance. His wide down jacket was particularly inappropriate. He always didn’t like to wear a hat, but he also wore a black woolen hat.
I looked at his eyes from panic to hatred for only a second, but his eyes hid too many things I could not see through.
He was still sitting near the back door, as if the next second he would ask me for my homework with a look on his face, and by the way he would hand me the soybean milk he kept warm in his bosom. Along with my favorite Steamed Small Meat Dumpling in Basket, I was a little bad at riding in public transport, and I often sat backwards. Every day he would whisper in my ear more than ten times, “Wait for the bus in the east, don’t sit backwards.” Wait for the bus on the east side, don’t sit on the wrong side. As soon as the winter was over, he bought a bicycle to pick me up more punctually than in class, and the back seat became my special seat.
I have sat on the bike and looked at his back countless times, none of which was more uncomfortable than today. I felt so uncomfortable that I was about to suffocate. I stood up to get off, but the car had already started.
I decided to get out of the car at the next intersection. I tried to take a deep breath and put on a cold posture. I was a treacherous ex-boyfriend! I look like air, if he dares to look at me, I will give him a hard slap!
But God knows, when the bus stopped at the next stop, I had to rely on Xu Li to stand up, but as soon as I stood up, he also stood up, “Master, how can I transfer to Nanshan Road?”
“Get off two stops ahead and take the No.18.”
He repeated aloud, “Bus 18, east.” Then he thanked him gently and got out of the car quickly.
I don’t know why he asked Nanshan Road. That’s my house. The
new arrivals were a group of students, who seemed to have come to the cemetery of martyrs in a group. As soon as they came up, the whole carriage was crowded with them. Everyone was a young man in warm blood, holding ice cream and sundaes with frozen teeth in their hands.
I was still sitting in the corner when suddenly a little girl sat beside me and handed me an ice cream. I raised my red and swollen eyes to look at her.
“Sister, put it on your eyes and it won’t hurt.”
She took my favorite brand, or my favorite mango flavor. I looked out of the window subconsciously and saw him under the stop sign, dressed in black, with snow falling on his shoulders. The moment his lips moved, I opened the window, and when I was about to smash the ice cream, the car started.
The ice cream was so cold that I couldn’t stop crying. The little girl next to me was so frightened that she quickly handed me a tissue. “Sister, is the ice cream too cold?”? Then don’t apply it.
I stubbornly held the ice cream and refused to throw it away.
In fact, I’ve heard the best answer I’ve ever heard to a question at a wedding. That year on Chinese Valentine’s Day, I saw Guo Jiang’s answer on the advertising wall of an amusement park. He wrote, “I’ll buy her an ice cream when her grandmother only buys ice cream for her cousin.”
It wasn’t the most romantic answer in the room, but it was the best answer I’ve ever heard in my life.
My uncle’s family gave birth to a boy, who was five months younger than me. My family loved him so much that I could only watch him. In fact, I just casually mentioned the injustice of my childhood. He was distressed for a long time. In summer, the first thing he saw me was to take me to buy ice cream. If he didn’t see me, he would send me red envelopes on time and on time. His family gave me less love. He’s doubling my supplies.
Hot tears were about to melt the ice cream. The students got off at the stop sign of No.1 Middle School. The snow was getting heavier and heavier. Some boys took off their school uniforms to block the snow for the girls. I turned back subconsciously, but there was no one who was afraid that my feet would freeze and carry me upstairs and downstairs. As
the car continued to move, I stared at the empty seat, and it took me a long time to realize that it was the last time I would see him in my life. When I hung up my father’s phone
again, he threatened to sue me in court if he didn’t give him money. Ten minutes ago, I was blacklisted by my mother because I wanted to mail her a box of cantaloupes and asked her address. She thought I was going to harm her again and blacklisted me without waiting for me to explain. After
washing my face, I returned to my work station. The time showed 11:20 p.m. I picked up the U-shaped pillow and pulled open the folding bed. As soon as I lay down with my clothes on, I heard someone shouting, “Where are you?”? Ye Duo! Your dog is howling so much that Labor and Management have high blood pressure. Hurry up and go home with Labor and Management to kill the dog! When I was bundled into the car by
Song Yi-hsing, he even threatened me, “From now on, you have to be home by ten o’clock every day, or you can try!” When the red light was counting down, he suddenly pointed to the number 25 on the monitor and said, “Yes, happy birthday!”
At that moment, I wanted to cry. My parents didn’t miss me, but there were still people who missed me. When
I got home, there were two bags of dog food at the door, and two bags, one containing a signature book by a favorite author, and the other containing a small cake, mango mousse, my favorite, the same as last year.
I took out my cell phone and sent a thank you to Song Yixing, and he replied to me as a neuropathy. In August of the
next year, Song Yixing was promoted to supervisor. He invited all the people in the department to dinner. I didn’t want to go, but I thought he would drink for me until I went to the hospital for gastric lavage. I still gritted my teeth and bought an expensive cufflink.
When I handed him the gift, he grinned and said, “I’ll give you a gift later.”
Cut, bad water again.
Throughout the evening, my attention was on the food. I didn’t expect the food here to be so delicious. My colleagues next to me immediately popularized this expensive and deadly restaurant. Looking at the side dishes on the plate, I did not hesitate to pick them up and eat them.
Because he was too focused on eating, he did not notice that Song Yixing was wearing a very formal suit today, nor did he notice the whispers of his colleagues.
When I went to the terrace to deliver bags to my colleagues, I saw purple balloons and countless champagne roses in front of me. When Song Yixing came out with flowers in his arms, I realized it.
Always glib, he actually stammered at the moment, “Well, I..” Ye Duo, I admit that I took a fancy to your beauty at first, but later I found out that you are both talented and beautiful, and it’s just right to spend the rest of your life with me.
Song Yixing took out a key from his pocket. “My home is not here, but if you say you like it here and want to stay here for the rest of your life, then I’ll give you a home.”
“Alas, who gave me a hard life!”! I can’t help it. It’s a match made in heaven.
I gawked at everything in front of me, my favorite champagne roses, purple balloons, countless star lights, nervous male protagonists, the agreement for the rest of my life, exactly the same as my fantasy proposal scene, everything was right, but everything was wrong.
Seeing that I didn’t speak, he went on to say, “OK, I’ll take care of everything when I walk the dog and shovel the shit.”
Sung Yi-hsing was in a hurry. “Ye Duo, give me a definite answer whether it’s done or not!”! If you dare to refuse, you will pay at your own expense. I just saw you eat a lot of steak.
Faced with the threat of Song Yixing, the fog in my eyes slowly condensed, “Song Yixing, I’m really sorry, I..”
He interrupted me. “Are you not satisfied with the setting?”
“No, just like in the dream.”
Sung yi-hsing smiles bitterly. “That’s the wrong person.”
He stood up slowly, patted me on the shoulder, and then turned to everyone and said, “Ye Duo said she would treat us today, and we would eat to our hearts’ content.”
Song Yixing turned to me and said, “Ye Duo, you always said I was your savior. It’s a good thing you didn’t say yes today, otherwise you would be biting the hand that feeds you.”
He tried hard to adjust the atmosphere, and his tone was the same as usual after work. “All right, let’s go.”
Looking at the back of Song Yixing’s lonely departure, I thought I would be soft-hearted, but I didn’t.
I can’t fool myself. When Song Yixing said he would give me a home, I had another person in my mind.
Song Yixing applied to go to the branch office. I didn’t know what was wrong. I didn’t want to go home and wanted to work for him in the company for a hundred years. But I didn’t expect that the leader would pack me and send me to the airport the next day. I was afraid that my sudden death from working overtime every day would ruin the geomantic omen and the humanitarian archway he had just erected.
Duoduo! On this business trip, you should think about relaxing. Anyway, it’s very close to your home. After you finish your work, you can go home and stay for a few days, and then come back after you have a good rest. After
listening to the voice, I did not know whether to laugh or cry. I was lucky to meet such a good leader. Knowing that I was not in good condition, I was allowed to go out to relax, while my biological parents regarded me as a cash cow and a scourge. The
work was unusually relaxed and ended in three days, but suddenly I received a call from the cemetery, and I hurried back. The people in the
garden explained to me that it should have leaked in the heavy rain a few days ago. I communicated with them how to repair it. Because I was too focused, I didn’t pay attention to my feet. I didn’t know what I stepped on. My feet slipped and I fell back. I subconsciously grabbed the things at hand.
Holding the tombstone in my arms, I breathed a sigh of relief. “Thank you, thank you..” I looked down at the kind man and saw the picture on the tombstone. My
hands suddenly lost their strength, and I fell down in front of the tombstone. The people in the cemetery rushed to pull me, but I dodged his hands and climbed to the tombstone regardless of everything, staring at the photos in front of me.
Teenagers, full of youthful spirit, laugh insolently and wantonly.
I touched the photo on the stone tablet and saw it clearly inch by inch. There was no doubt that it was Jiang Yitian.
“Girl, do you know this man?”
“I saw this young man in the winter. He came to choose a cemetery for himself. I thought he was joking, but I didn’t expect that in a few days..”
My whole world collapsed, and there was only one sentence in my head. In winter, he came to choose a cemetery for himself.
I knelt on the ground, looking at Jiang Yitian’s bright smile, and I had a terrible thought in my heart. After standing several times in a
row, I couldn’t stand up. I tried to hold back my tears. “Please give me a hand. I’m really..” I can’t stand up.
Girl, where are you going? Not going to see your grandmother?
I took two deep breaths and turned to look at the old man. “Please, I’ll be back in a moment.” After
two steps, I really had no strength. Holding the little cypress tree next to me, I broke down in tears. “I know him, the other half of the picture.” It’s me.
Jiang Yitian’s home is in the family courtyard behind No.1 Middle School. He always goes out half an hour earlier because he wants to pick me up five minutes away from school. The walls of the
family courtyard are old and the corridors are much narrower. I have been here many times, but I was kidnapped by Jiang Yitian. He helped me with physics, his father taught me math, and his mother always made my favorite fish soup when I came.
Up to the third floor, the little Teddy of Grandpa’s house still shouted warmly. On the vermilion door, there was still a sticker that Jiang had put up one day. He knocked on the door several times, accompanied by a heavy footsteps, and the door opened.
In front of me, Uncle Chiang seemed to have aged more than ten years in an instant. His hair was gray and his movements were slow. When he saw me, he reacted for a long time, “It’s Duoduo coming!”. Holding back my emotions,
I nodded. Just as I was about to open my mouth, suddenly a man rushed out of the door. His hair was messy and not as delicate as it used to be. He held my hand tightly. “It’s Duoduo!”! Come in quickly, aunt’s fish has been stewed, it’s cold outside! One day this brat still won’t get up. Duoduo, go and wake him up. He’ll listen to you. The sun
outside clearly makes people dizzy, and Jiang Yitian clearly. Uncle
Jiang looked at me and shook his head.
“Duoduo, go and call for a day, and I’ll go and see if the fish are ready.” Auntie basically pushed me into Jiang Yitian’s room, and the tone of her coquetry outside the door was exactly the same as in those days: “Come to the kitchen and help me!”
“Okay, okay.” I
felt as if I were standing in a strange room, and the walls covered with our pictures were now replaced by pictures of him and his girlfriend, from midsummer to winter, with the time and place marked on them. There were two pink big-mouthed monkey dolls beside the
pillow, and the half-man-tall emperor I had given him had disappeared. The
desk is still full of Optimus Prime Bumblebee, which is his treasure, the clay doll we painted together in the park, the pen holder I sent, the Platycodon grandiflorum flowers we planted together, the sugar jar filled with my favorite chocolate.. It’s all gone. The photo of
me and him is also gone. The photo of our first date watching the sunrise in Longhu Lake was taken by him as a treasure, developed, enlarged and made a huge frame, which was guarded by his favorite babies. The basketball in the
corner was dusty, and the Jersey behind the door was not the red I was familiar with, but pink. The
red Jersey was my first gift to him. It was No.13, my lucky number, and the initials of our names on the back. He had to bathe and burn incense before wearing it every time. He was not angry when he was playing basketball, but who wanted to touch his Jersey with dirty hands? He can fall out right away, whether he’s playing or not.
He tidied up very clean, completely erased my traces, anyone can see that the house is full of sweet memories of him and his girlfriend.
I stood in the middle of the room, unable to get down, when suddenly the sound of opening the door behind me woke me up. The man in the
picture appeared in front of me.
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“Here you are, sit down!”
She sat on the bed and I sat on the chair. She told me everything before
I even opened my mouth. I
haven’t introduced myself yet. I’m Chiang Yi. After graduation, I came to look for him for a day. We ran a flower shop together. I was willing to marry him, who was poor and blank, but he didn’t want to wronged me. He worked hard to make money. When we had some savings, he couldn’t wait to take me home to meet my parents. We had planned to get engaged in the winter. We even took a good look at the wedding room, but I never thought of him. He will have an accident..
She cried with forbearance and restraint, and the big tears could not stop flowing. She went to turn over the bag, but I took the paper out of the drawer and handed it to her before she did.
She was stunned for a second and said thank you.
“One day after she left, my aunt began to fall ill. She was sober for a while and confused for a while. During that time, I also thought about dying with him, but I couldn’t. He couldn’t take care of my uncle and aunt, so I had to take his place.” The
tissue was quickly used, and I pulled out another one and handed it to her. I couldn’t say a word of condolence and comfort. I just felt that I was disgusted that an insignificant person had come to make people sad.
“One day I left so suddenly that I didn’t say a word, but we both owe you an apology.”
I waved my hand. “It’s all over, isn’t it?”
They are already people who don’t matter. Why do you say sorry. When I
walked out of the door, my aunt was still holding the white porcelain basin. When she saw me, she quickly called me, “Come and drink the fish soup.” I looked at the cold water in the white porcelain basin, and my nose was sour. I haven’t taken my medicine for
a day. Where is it? Where is the medicine? Give me the medicine quickly. I can’t go a day without it!
Auntie suddenly became agitated, and Chiang Yi quickly soothed her. “Auntie, the medicine is in the bedroom. I’ll go with you to get it.” She took her aunt into the bedroom, I got up to leave, Uncle Jiang sent me out, he hesitated to speak at the door.
“Duoduo, it’s just one day that this son of a bitch is sorry for you. Don’t be too sad. Forget about him and live a good life.”
Throat squeaks out. “Good.”
“Uncle Chiang, take good care of yourself.” After saying this, I turned around and went downstairs quickly. The bright noon
sun stung my eyes. I turned around and looked at the third floor. All of them were telling me that Jiang Yitian didn’t love me for a long time. I gave a wry smile.
“Jiang Yitian, all your wisdom in this life is on me.” I didn’t look at him again
until the day I left. After I
went back, I went to work normally and lived normally. The dog food at the door also appeared normally. On my birthday, the mango mousse cake also appeared normally, but Song Yixing had not been contacted for a long time. I drank a lot of wine on
my birthday. The mousse cake was so bitter that I cried. I had no choice but to go home early. Not long after I separated from my colleagues, I was drunk and dizzy. I couldn’t walk any more. I sat on the roadside and watched the high school students who had just finished their self-study. The bicycle with wind passed me quickly and went straight to the ice cream shop next to me.
I saw a boy hand an ice cream to a girl like a treasure. The girl got on the back seat of the boy’s bicycle and grabbed the boy’s school uniform shyly. They talked on the bicycle. This familiar scene hurt me thoroughly. The grievance that had been
suppressed for a long time suddenly collapsed like a mountain torrent, and I cried hysterically, “I don’t have ice cream, they all have it, I don’t!” I kicked off my high heels and said, “Why haven’t you come to pick me up? I’ve been waiting for you too long. If you don’t come, I really can’t go back!” As soon as I woke up
the next day, I flew back to my hometown, and I couldn’t wait a second. Wearing a fiery red Jersey and carrying a huge shoulder bag,
I took a detour to No.1 Middle School to buy stinky tofu. It happened to be September 1. There was a sea of people. I was almost squashed on the bus, but I was the only one at the terminal.
I said hello to the old man at the door, went straight to the hillside, saw the familiar face and sat on the ground, and put the stinky tofu there.
“Eat, eat, you stink!”
I pinched my waist. “One day, Jiang, do you think you can fool me by taking away my photos and dolls and putting them on something with Jiang Yiyi?” I snorted, “Harsh!”
I laid out all the things in my backpack, which were well-preserved photos, purple clay dolls, pen holders, glass sugar jars.. Finally, there was a huge photo, in which he was exactly the same as he was in front of him, except that there was an extra me beside him, as well as the package that my roommate had just sent back, and I put it all in front of him. He took a piece of chocolate
from the sugar jar and accused him vaguely, “Don’t think I can’t find it if you hide it on the top floor, and don’t think it’s hard to catch me with a combination lock. You should at least change the password!”! Always use my birthday!
Get engaged, open a flower shop, fool around! You’re allergic to pollen, but you’re not allergic to Platycodon grandiflorum. You really think I’m stupid!
I poked Jiang Yitian in the face, “Humph!”! You don’t have to lie to me. I’ve already been to the top floor to see it. The flower of the Platycodon grandiflorum I gave you has already grown all over the top floor. If you want me to say it, just say it. Does it hurt when you’re
sick? Come on, don’t tell me. You deserve the pain. Who told you not to tell me? I guessed that
Jiang was sick one day. When I heard my aunt talking about medicine, I felt it was wrong. My uncle and aunt’s salary was not low, but there was no TV set at home. The sofa was too old. The clothes my uncle and aunt wore were not as good as a few years ago. According to my aunt’s exquisite life, it was absolutely impossible to happen. The only possibility was that the family had suffered a change. And when I met him in winter, he was abnormally thin and wore a woolen hat. I guess he was bald at that time.
I stroked Jiang Yitian’s face, “You are a big fool, a big fool. You know I miss my grandmother the most, so you buried yourself at my grandmother’s feet and guarded her for me. You also thought that when I came to see my grandmother, you could see me secretly, right?”? Jiang Yitian, you really are the stupidest fool in the world!
The sun made my eyes sour. I sat next to him and took out the flaming red Jersey from my schoolbag. “Over the years, I’ve met many, many people, but I only remember the Jersey you wore on the day we first met.” Teenagers
, neat buzz cuts, red jerseys, windy bicycles..
I thought I could live up to what you wanted, so that I could live up to what you had set up, but when I was proposed, I actually thought, how nice it would be if that person was you! Even if there is no purple balloon, no star lamp, no champagne rose, as long as it is you, you don’t have to open your mouth, I will nod.
I leaned on the cold photo, trying to find that warm arm. “You know my roommate Meimei. She got married and had a baby this year. She’s very, very cute. She’s your favorite daughter.” I
turned my head and took a deep breath. “What a pity! We almost ended up like this.” The sugar in the
jar disappeared at a speed visible to the naked eye. I leaned on Jiang Yitian and told him about the past few years. When the last sugar was eaten, I stood up and patted him on the face.
“Jiang Yitian, please think about how to coax me, or..” I clenched my fists. “Don’t blame me for being ruthless!” “See you later.”
As the cold water rose over my head and I began to have difficulty breathing, I could almost see 18-year-old Jiang running toward me one day. I sat on the back of his bicycle, holding on to his school uniform, and asked, “Do you want to do physics or chemistry first?”.
“Buy ice cream first.”
“But there’s a lot of physics homework.”
“Then buy a ball.”
All right! Slow down, slow down!
“Hold me tight. Our mother cooked the braised pork in brown sauce that you love. You have to eat it while it’s hot.”
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Author: hot and sour rice noodle
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