Yufeng Early Spring: Palace Counterattack Notes
Fanghua Complaint: Fireworks are easy to be cold. For whom do I bow down
? I climbed and rolled in the prime minister’s mansion, relying on the face similar to that of the empress, until I entered the palace. Deep in the darkness, I pulled countless people into it with indifference.
That year I pretended to be simple and smiled under the magnolia tree.
“Do you know the language of the magnolia flower?”
“It is the purest and most sincere love.”
The emperor regarded me as a substitute and fell in love with me step by step.
Later, he asked me if I would be his only wife?
I kissed him coldly and told him the secret that no one knew.
“It was my concubine who killed the woman Your Majesty loved most.”
He just quietly stroked the tears from my eyes.
“I know.”
I can’t forget the feeling of my heart beating violently again, and his appearance is engraved in my heart.
“Ah Mui, you are very much like my late wife.”
“Ah Mui, are you afraid of me?”
“Ah Mui, you are not dirty at all. I have defiled you.”
“Ah Mui, please try to love me.”
……
I have done evil all my life, and I only deserve to be bound in this palace. I was fourteen years old when I
entered the palace.
I am the personal servant girl of the empress, and the empress is the legitimate daughter of the prime minister’s mansion. And I’m from the prime minister’s mansion. An illegitimate daughter. When
the empress was the daughter of the boudoir, she was famous all over the capital. She was a famous talented woman, gentle and gentle. But every time in the house, she will be full of resentment on me, my face is always dirty, the body is full of pinched purple marks.
She called me a motherless bastard.
I played dumb with her and coaxed her to praise her as a unique good lady in my heart every day.
Until she fell in love with the present prince at first sight.
The old emperor died soon after. When
the prince ascended the throne, he was only more than twenty years old, and he was a young man.
He sealed the queen of the young lady, I as her personal servant girl, must be followed into the palace.
She doesn’t trust people. She thinks I’m a silly girl and not a threat.
But we look alike. My mother is from the brothel.
I have inherited the charm of my mother, and my eyebrows and eyes are more open, but I don’t have the light makeup of the empress. My plain face is really gloomy.
Every time the emperor came up, she pushed me away and pushed me to the small kitchen to do menial work.
The reason must be that the food I cooked is still good.
She just thought I was a silly girl, but she never thought she would get into trouble because of me. As
I listened to her play with the emperor at night, I quietly tugged at the corner of the dowry girl next to me and said in a lonely tone, “Sister, I’m afraid.” Huihui patted me on the shoulder to comfort me.
She was a few years older than me and watched me grow up. She has a soft character and always protects me when I am bullied. She is the only bosom friend around me, and I silently maintain the image of a bullied rabbit in front of her.
The breakfast was made by myself, and the empress didn’t trust others.
“Making goose stew early in the morning, I’m really afraid I won’t grow fat!”
The empress sneered, but she also picked one chopstick after another to eat.
I smiled faintly and began to peel the eggs.
“Empress, that’s what Aunt Ho of the Imperial Kitchen told me.”
“Goose meat replenishes yin and qi, warms the stomach and stimulates the production of body fluid.”
The empress raised her eyes and smiled at me. “You are sensible!”
I laughed foolishly and fed the peeled eggs.
I noticed that Huihui looked at this scene coldly, and I couldn’t help feeling relaxed. It seemed that my sister had chosen to stand beside me.
After entering the palace for two years, I asked for a lot of recipes to make food for the empress with fruit, but no one knew that these were all harmful to the vitality.
Later, when the empress was pregnant, she became even more suspicious.
Her body is not as good as before, but her feelings with the emperor are still the same. I have a lot of credit for
this.
Every time they quarreled, I would send a message through my sister Huihui to teach the empress the skills of coaxing the emperor. I’m sure I won’t take the credit. My character setting is a brainless silly girl.
The empress is gentle, virtuous and considerate.
I want the emperor to spoil her and love her.
Let the empress become unique in his heart and become the white moonlight in his heart.
On the day of the leak, I was accompanying the empress to drink tea in the Imperial Garden and eat the cold watermelon I had prepared in the small kitchen. Before
that, we had just finished lunch-stewed mutton.
She passed out without warning. I was so
frightened that I put my arms around the empress and shouted for help.
In a hurry, no one saw me secretly raising the corners of my mouth.
I saw the back of the emperor coming in a hurry not far from the bedroom hall, and I couldn’t help laughing. It was almost here. Time is up.
“Ah Mui, enough is enough for children’s games.”
Huihui’s eyes are deep and deep, and her tone is indifferent.
I was stunned and turned to look at her. I pursed my lips, looked at her with wet eyes, and spoke slowly with a trembling voice: “Sister, I want to be loved, too.”. I don’t want to be called a cheap bastard. She hesitated for a long time, but sighed lightly and left.
The empress was badly weakened, and the doctor found out that it was because of eating.
At that time, the emperor was not in the bedroom.
When Huihui heard this, she said indifferently, “Empress, you’ve been dizzy these past few days. Imperial Kitchen Aunt Ho has come to visit you.” The
beginning of the conversation was picked up intentionally or unintentionally, and my desire to laugh was even greater.
The empress sneered. Everyone
in the room seemed to know that Aunt Ho had done it, but I wanted to be ignorant.
But with a worried look on my face, I stretched out my hand and wrung the flesh on my body. I silently shed tears and said in a sad tone, “Empress, Aunt Ho gave me money in the morning and asked me to take good care of you.”. It seems that Aunt Ho is really worried about you.
The empress gave me a cold look and scolded me angrily: “Fools!”
“She’s guilty of being a thief. Are you my servant girl?”
“Your recipe was given by that cheap maidservant. It seems that you have long wanted to set up this palace.”
“That’s a good trick!”
It’s really a good means.
But it’s also cheap. Aunt Ho became the mastermind of my masterpiece.
“You little bitch, do you believe what people say?”
Listening to her cursing, I knelt on the ground and began to cry.
The empress looked weak and cursed, coughing up blood with anger.
Huihui stood aside and lowered her eyes. “Lady,” she said in a faint voice, “don’t let anyone else make you angry.” Aunt He was disposed of for no reason and thrown into the animal’s nest as feed. The body of
the empress is not as good as before, and I take care of her more carefully. After
the little master goes to bed, Huihui will take away the soup. I would always follow her with my head down and try to reduce my sense of existence. They always said that there was a silly girl beside the empress who always liked to make fun of me.
Those little ladies of the court would always inadvertently reveal some of the private affairs of the little masters, and I would tell the empress that I wanted to laugh out loud whenever I saw her so angry that her whole face was white.
The silver needle can’t detect the poison on the egg, so that’s a good time for me to make a move. I put a layer on the surface of my nails and a thick layer on the palm of my hand. The last time I went out of the palace to buy this
arsenic, I specially asked someone for it. The concentration is very high and it is specially refined.
It was in the cold winter, when the empress had lunch, I only put arsenic on the surface of my nails and under my nails on the eggs. After
waiting for her to take a nap, I stood outside the door and became absent-minded. There were not many people waiting on
the empress in the hall, and she was even more afraid that others would see her wayward appearance, so she had to leave a few of our close people waiting on her in the hall.
I beckoned the little maid who had just cooked with me to come over and show her my new hand cream.
Look! The Empress has given me a new reward. Are my hands tender?
I turned to Huihui again and said with a smile, “Come on, sister!”
With silence, I squeezed the hand cream in the small jar on her hand. Then he squeezed a layer for himself and mixed it with the thick arsenic on his palm.
“I’m overcrowded. Do you want it?”
I looked at the little maid of honor, and Yancui was attracted by the fragrance of the hand cream and nodded heavily. Smiling, I rubbed the hand cream from my own hand against hers, and then with a proud look on my face, I said, “Then Yancui, you can stand here for me for a while, and be my hand cream!”
I said and ran away, washed my hands clean and covered them with a layer of hand cream.
Only half an hour later, the empress had more than abdominal pain. I
was sent to ask for the imperial physician, and I walked slowly to delay time. When
the doctor arrived, the empress was already sweating all over her face, and her pale face revealed weakness. After an afternoon
of tossing and turning, it was already midnight. The broken body of the empress could not stand the tossing and turning. Arsenic only quickened the time of her early death. I was somewhat awed that she could hold out until now.
The emperor was also busy tossing and turning for a long time, and I looked at him in the dark with a decadent look on his face and just chuckled.
The imperial physician found out what the empress had eaten. The emperor was furious and locked up the maids in the palace for interrogation. The
hall was so dark that I couldn’t see the emperor’s face, and he couldn’t see us.
It’s a pity. It seems that we have to meet by chance another time. Probably only Huihui was as calm
as I was. She didn’t understand what I was planning, but she still held my hand quietly, although the feeling was still cold and still not warm to my heart. Mammy found out that Yancui had hidden arsenic in the room where we slept. I suppressed a laugh. It was planted when I was cleaning the arsenic.
Yan Cui was so frightened that she suddenly knelt on the ground.
The maidservant is wronged! Your Majesty’s maidservant doesn’t dare!
“The last time the emperor came up, you were thinking of ways to seduce him. Aren’t you already jealous?”
I lowered my head in the crowd, and no one recognized my voice.
Huihui was stupefied and looked at me sideways.
That’s right. The last time the emperor came to visit the empress, Yancui appeared in front of the emperor with all her strength. The empress didn’t show her face at that time. After the emperor left, he rewarded her with a board, which made her “in the limelight” in the palace.
What a good candidate. There was an uproar in the
hall.
“Who is the maid in charge of the palace?” Mammy spoke.
Huihui stood out and knelt on the ground to salute.
Mammy kicked Yancui and sneered, “You are your empress’s intimate friend. What do you think?” Huihui got up and said quietly, “Yan-tsui did wait on her at lunch. May Mammy take some time to examine her hands.”
Mammy didn’t say anything.
Just one side of the bodyguard pulled up Yancui’s hand spread out on the ground, ordered the doctor to come forward. Yan Cui’s hands were covered with a layer of sweat, and the moment the silver needle was covered with it was somewhat black. There was silence in the
hall, and it seemed that there was a cold wind blowing through my heart.
Inadvertently, I looked at the crazy Yancui, and she opened her eyes wide and giggled.
Hand cream.. It’s hand cream..
She laughed frighteningly, her whole face was ferocious, her hands were trampled under her feet, and her clothes were messy. She flung herself free, muttered, and dashed her head against the post.
How can it be hand cream? My sister and I are all right.
I gently hooked the corners of my mouth and looked at Huihui jokingly. She was no longer the gentle elder sister of that year.
My sister understands. Do you
see my plan?
But my stratagem is far from that.
Yancui seemed to be dead, and her body was dragged away by her hair.
I can not help but sigh, so easy to die, but also a clever man.
Sitting in front of the hall, the emperor still did not move, but looked anxiously into the bedroom from time to time.
But no matter how affectionate, is not still indulged in the capital of all the beauty?
The empress has survived.
Only the child was not saved, and the body was no longer useful.
The emperor cherished her, and although the empress coughed every night and could not go to bed, she still stayed in the palace to accompany him.
I haven’t been in front of the empress for a long time, after all, the empress is still a little taboo about my face.
Why has the emperor never heard of me? I will laugh at you. How can
the emperor have time to take care of me, a cheap slave?
When I went to the palace of the concubines, none of the women who had no courage and insight dared to do harm to the empress. They were the daughters of the prime minister’s mansion, the famous talented women in the capital, and the favorite of the emperor. At the
end of dinner, I rushed in with a basin of hot water.
Is probably these days of love, the empress did not scold me, just ask me what is the matter?
“Empress, this is the medicine bag that the maidservant specially went to the Imperial Pharmacy to ask for!”
The empress was surprised. Instead of explaining,
I just threw the medicine bag into the hot water, and then carefully pulled down the feet of the empress and soaked them in.
The empress was stupefied, and then her eyebrows, which had been frowning for a few days because of her illness, opened comfortably.
For a long time, I knelt on the ground, lifted her feet and put them on my legs to wipe them slowly, but I hesitated to look up at the empress from time to time, and she seemed to be aware of it. She looked at me not very quickly and motioned me to say quickly. With
a wry look on my face, I said, “An envoy from the Western Regions sent a dancer, and the emperor took her into his harem.”. When the emperor left the court, he began to mingle with the young master.
The empress was silent for a long time, just sneering.
She kicked me down, and the basin of hot water sprayed out with her movements and pasted my face.
She was so angry that her whole face was blue and purple. I hurried to comfort her.
“Empress, pay attention to the body of the phoenix.”
She slapped me in the face very loudly.
“You little bitch deserve to tell me to calm down?”
I fell to the ground with a pair of red eyes and dared not move. When I came in, I saw that I wanted to cry but did not cry. I was covered with water stains and was bullied miserably.
My eyelashes quivered and I cried.
“Empress, this is a busy time in the temple, and there are plenty of people outside.”
Huihui opened her mouth, and she wanted to tell the empress to be careful to hear and make an issue of it.
The empress impatiently told me to stand up, and I hurriedly straightened up and stood on one side. I saw that she seemed to be so angry that she never stopped coughing. Her weak appearance is also charming, who did not cherish two points.
Huihui turned to close the door and reported in a faint voice.
“Empress, the emperor turned over the sign of Luo Guiren tonight.”
The empress frowned. “A new woman from the Western Regions?”
Her whole face was pale, resentful and old.
“Empress, would you like me to ask around?” I offered to suggest.
The empress thought for a moment and then nodded, and I saluted and left voluntarily. What is
there to ask about?
Since ancient times, the beauty of the Western Regions is good at singing and dancing, graceful posture, delicate and forthright.
I just look at her and the emperor gentle ambiguous scene, and then learn to show the empress.
For this kind of woman who is jealous and in poor health, it is just suffering. I was
wet, my eyes were gloomy, and finally I just put up with it and changed my clothes. When I
arrived at the Jinfang Palace, I had already heard that the emperor was drunk and fell asleep at the table.
After all, the queen was useless, and the emperor worked hard for a few nights.
I deliberately poked my head and looked inside. There was no one in front of the hall. I carefully went up to pick up the snacks on the table and stuffed them into my mouth. “Who’s there?” When
the female voice came, I knelt on the ground with a guilty conscience and did not dare to run.
I saw that Luo Guiren was dressed in blue clothes, and his waist was naked and empty. Unlike the women in the capital, she was wrapped all over her body, and her slender waist was even more attractive.
I withdrew my eyes and, as always, said, “I heard that the noble came from the Western Regions, and the maidservant..” I want to taste the food of the nobles. There was no servant girl beside Luo Guiren. She laughed out loud. She said that I was really a silly girl. She had a small box in her hand, and she handed it to me.
“Here you are. Come with me to sit in front of the lake.”
I nodded in surprise and followed her. She didn’t say anything when she
learned that I was close to the queen.
I threatened her: “Noble, you have been sealed up today, but you have not gone to pay your respects at Niangniang’s palace. I am afraid you will be bullied tomorrow.”
She raised an eyebrow. “I’ve heard that she’s been ill for a long time. Can she still bully me?” I covered her mouth and looked around to see no one before slowly releasing.
Noble, there are some things you can’t say. Just think about it. After all, it’s the emperor’s wife. If there’s a conflict, I’m afraid no one can help you.
Luo Guiren’s little girl was in high spirits, so she retorted, “Let’s see. Tomorrow it won’t be possible for anyone to bully anyone.” I smiled and went on to say, “Be careful. Our empress doesn’t care about anything.”. The emperor is probably the only one who cares. The
clever little girl should also understand.
The empress cares about the emperor.
The only thing that can arouse her desire is probably love.
The surface of the lake was calm, dimly obscuring the moon and pressing down darkly. I felt the beating of my heart for no reason. I haven’t been sitting and chatting with people like this for a
long time, but the content is no longer the laughter and laughter of the cardamom age, but every sentence is not separated from the interests and scheming. The shadowy trees in the
forest are very quiet in the moonlight. Where are the birds singing? Loneliness comes to my mind. I am waiting. 4
Hello! How about giving you a chance to follow a noble man? I was stupefied when I
heard this, but I saw that she had already left without waiting for my answer.
On the second day, Luo Guiren was accompanied by the emperor and went to the palace of the empress to pay his respects.
Huihui has a tacit understanding with me.
She approached the empress and whispered something, and the empress changed her face slightly, rubbing her temples and coughing from time to time. The empress seemed not afraid of me and waved me into the room to rub her head.
The queen ignored the emperor’s greetings to her.
She looks spoiled, and I just feel like a fool. Silently,
I leaned close to her ear and whispered, “Empress, don’t let the noble Luo share the favor.”
She frowned and gave tea to Luo Guiren with a weak look.
I raised my eyes and noticed that the emperor’s face softened a little.
I noticed the hot line of sight and looked at Luo Guiren. With a half-smile,
she shook her teacup and nodded to me.
I paused and returned a gentle smile. Is this
thanking me for the tea given by the empress?
Luo Guiren slightly sipped the teacup, and put the teacup on the emperor’s mouth, not afraid at all.
“Your Majesty, the tea given by the empress is really sweet!”
The emperor withdrew his gaze from the empress’s body, returned to his senses in silence, and took a sip of tea along with her. His tone was indifferent: “You are really spoiled and have no rules.”
The empress held the handkerchief tightly in her hand, and her fingertips were pinched white by herself.
Her tears in the eyes, to fall, my heart inexplicably happy.
The emperor looked indifferent, afraid that he was only afraid of the conflict of interests between the two countries.
The empress was so foolish that she could not see the emperor’s devotion to her. The emperor turned over the sign of the empress
that night.
I stood outside and secretly left a gap, listening to their private conversation.
“Of course I’m only attracted to you.”
“We only took over the Luo people because we lost our territory in the frontier.”
“If the court is like this, it will be time for war.”
“Meimei, will you wait for me?”
Then came the gentle words of the empress and the emperor.
I withdrew my thoughts, fearing that I would have to call the Imperial Physician again tomorrow.
Under the coaxing of Huihui and me, the empress and the emperor said that they were in good health, afraid that they could not serve him, and finally they divorced.
But it’s ridiculous to want to have children with this broken body.
……
In less than half a year, Ming Qi and the soldiers sent from the Western Regions levied the lost territory together.
In order to be of the same mind, the emperor stayed in the palace of Luo Guiren every night. It was well known that
the empress was worried, but no one dared to go to the emperor to tell her. As an empress, she would be criticized for not having the name of virtue.
I looked at her face, which was getting thinner and yellow, and I felt that I had waited. In
the harem, she didn’t learn any scheming. Apart from sulking secretly, she was full of nonsense. It was me and Huihui who gave her advice in charge of the harem.
I have never seen such a brainless woman, except for the way a lady recites poems and composes Fu, which is the way a concubine coaxes a man. A moment of love but no hope of a lifetime of love.
A woman who has lost her face and is jealous and foolish can’t keep a man’s heart.
Today, as usual, I complained about the love between the emperor and Luo Guiren in her ears, intentionally or unintentionally, and looked at her as if she was Yi, but she insisted on letting me speak.
She suddenly coughed up blood, and I wiped it clean for her.
Before I could coax her, she gave me what I wanted: “This time I coughed up less blood than last time.”
I opened my mouth with a little pity: “Empress..” It’s good to look on the bright side.
A few days later, the emperor prepared for a personal expedition, and after preparing his things, he came to the palace of the empress.
I specially called the new little maid of honor. She had a good family. I lied to her that the empress was sleeping and sent her to decline the emperor. She looked eager to try and her eyes flashed.
I see in the eyes, really good family background, high heart, but also a heart higher than sky girl.
I watched the emperor leave lonely.
I asked the little maid how she answered, her eyes dodged, only said that the empress was not feeling well in recent days and had rested early.
My eyes flashed a cruel color, deep voice let people tie up the little girl in the woodshed life a few Office of Respected Administrative Affairs sent down the fearless aunt cut out her tongue.
When I entered the hall, the empress was weak and reading with her head propped up.
When I knelt down to salute, she glanced at me and asked me what I was doing.
“Empress, the emperor has just arrived.”
The empress was stupefied, suddenly closed the book, and the corners of her mouth, which had not yet been raised, were frozen by my next sentence.
There was a new maid of honor who took the initiative to go forward. The empress had already rested. The emperor Already gone.
She threw the teacup on the table at my head, and I didn’t have time to dodge, but I felt dizzy. Bitch! What did you do? “Bring her in!” My
forehead was bleeding. “Empress,” I continued, trying to endure the pain, “that maid of honor has taken the liberty to punish me.”
“I told you to drag her in. Are you deaf?!”
I stopped talking and asked someone to pull the girl in.
Her hands and feet were tied and her mouth was gagged.
This is the request of the empress, every time to punish people to hit the board, afraid of the slave voice is too loud, destroy their own gentle and virtuous name, specially let Hui Hui Zhi move.
I wiped the oozing blood from my head. I shook my head hard to stay awake. I took the initiative to go up and pull out the rag from the mouth of the little maid of honor. The rag was soaked with blood. The empress was so frightened that she was weak. I went up and supported her. I didn’t fasten the rope on the body of the
little maid of honor. She looked at me with fierce hatred in her eyes. She suddenly broke free of the rope and stumbled towards us.
The empress shouted and ordered people to pull her away. She came forward and tried to pinch my neck, but was thrown to the side of the pillar by others. I looked coldly at the way the empress was scared out of her wits.
I cut out the maid’s tongue specially.
Specially loosened the maid of honor rope.
Stand in front of the empress.
Everyone was still in a hurry, and no one noticed that I approached the empress quietly.
I leaned close to her ear, passed my cold air over to her, and said sarcastically, “Empress, does her mouth full of blood look familiar?”
The empress was stupefied in the same place, opening her mouth and trembling.
She was about to turn to look at me when she fainted without warning.
When Huihui returned to the palace, Jingxi Palace was quiet.
I sat in the hall and carefully wiped the cold sweat from the forehead of the sleeping empress.
Huihui came in and closed the door for me. She frowned and asked, “Aren’t you afraid of being exposed?”
“I have sent for the Imperial Physician.”
“The Imperial Physician said that the empress was too worried and was suffering from an old illness, so she could only hang on to ginseng soup to renew her life.” After a pause,
I added, “I also sent for the queen mother.”
“It’s just that the Empress Dowager has been at odds with the emperor for many years. How can she care about his sweetheart?” I smiled at
the corners of my mouth, but there was no light in the room and no one could see it clearly.
Sister, no one will doubt me. I cut out the maid’s tongue. If she frightens the empress, she will not live through the night.
She was silent for a long time, but gave in and said, “The matter has come to this point. How can I stop you?” As usual,
she stood outside the door and watched.
……
I look at the empress quietly, her eyes are hot or cold. It was midnight when
she woke up from her dream.
I gently leaned against the head of the bed and fanned the wind for her.
“Good sister, I haven’t called you that in years.” As soon as
I changed my usual cleverness, my voice was infected with the charm of a girl’s family.
It’s just that it’s particularly seeping in this scene.
The empress had a high fever and her face was white. Suddenly she had no strength to straighten up. She opened her mouth but could not speak.
I gently picked her up on my shoulder and began to recall the past.
Sister, you and my father have never acknowledged my existence. I’ve liked to follow you since I was a child, and I want you to help my mother. Then I smiled, wiped her dry lips with a handkerchief soaked in water, and looked at her frightened appearance, only to feel excited.
But my father doesn’t care about Ah Niang, and you only like to see me sad. You lock Ah Niang in the cellar, cut out her tongue, and use it to make soup for me. You drank it for me, remember? You asked me, “Is it good?” I smiled at you and said, “I love what my sister feeds me.” I thought you really regarded me as a sister and took me to experience warmth. Until my sister dragged me to the cellar. Let me see Ah Niang kneeling on the ground like a dog. She was smelly and dirty, and her face was covered with blood. You call us all cheap, and it’s disgusting. You told me I was eating Ah Niang’s tongue, and you asked me if I was happy? As I spoke, I could not help but shed my eyes.
Niang, what is the purpose of a person’s life?
In order to experience the warmth and coldness, love and hatred, are you still trapped in the palace?
I once felt inferior to my father’s cold eyes, longed for my sister’s love, and hoped for a real home of my own, but now I just want my mother. When
I had a high fever, she used her body to dispel the cold for me. A Niang who weaves cotton-padded clothes for me day and night
in winter.
Always willing to trust me and affirm my mother.
I hugged the empress even more gently, ignoring the tears on my face and gently approaching her ear. “Sister, do you still remember my mother?” I asked. The sticky smell of
her body came to my face, and I turned my head sideways in disgust.
I have deceived myself to live a lifetime, but when I close my eyes, it is the figure of Ah Niang, and my heart is like a knife.
Watching this so-called sister trample me on the soles of my feet and live a rich life, I felt unwilling for the first time.
I pretended to be stupid and continued to accompany her, coaxing her character to be fearless, waiting for her to have an accident, and then I stepped in. It wasn’t until she met the present saint that I changed my mind. The young girl under the magnolia tree is green and warm.
They fell in love with each other secretly, and they were so compatible with each other.
……
I suddenly pulled her hair and smashed her head against the wooden board at the head of the bed through the veil. I heard her groaning in pain and begging me for mercy in a hoarse voice. She was crying for help. I laugh softly. I’m used to being beaten. I know what’s important.
With this strength, it will hurt for a while and a half at most, and even the bruises won’t be left. It’s really the eldest lady of the prime minister’s house, the queen of Ming Qi, who is spoiled by the emperor at home and can’t stand a little bit of tiredness.
I took my time and grabbed her pillow, not in a hurry.
I put the pillow over her face and watched her fight to the death, as if a besieged beast were dying.
I am a servant girl who does rough work, and she is a frail young lady who is no match for me.
I pushed her down until she died.
I loosened the pillow, looked at the tears left in her eyes, and wiped them away for her. For the
last time.
Sister, I wipe my tears for you for the last time. The vague complex emotions in
my heart disappeared at this moment.
…… In
the harem, the empress favored her, and many concubines had already made her an enemy.
As the empress’s side, she is not, who can protect me? You can’t get out of
this palace.
In addition to being buried with him, he died for the pleasure of others.
I’ve known for a long time, and I haven’t avenged myself yet.
Against the season, the prime minister mansion to use more power.
I’ve already thought of a way out.
The empress is dead. When
the news came out, it was the queen mother who came out to preside over the overall situation.
And the ladies of Jingxi Palace walked and died. On the same day,
I took Huihui and threw myself into the arms of Luo Guiren.
Luo Guiren was sitting on a soft couch and playing with his new dagger.
She looked up at me, who was kneeling on the ground, and said jokingly,
“Suddenly I think you look like that dead woman.” After
a pause, he continued, “But you are much more agreeable than she looks.”
Hearing this, Huihui took my hand and held it tightly.
Luo Guiren handed me the dagger and asked me if I was beautiful?
I revealed my true nature and went forward to savor it without fear.
The silver-white blade is extremely sharp in the light, and the dagger is short and easy to hide without losing its edge. The handle of the knife is inlaid with a small drill, which is particularly eye-catching. I was stupefied and stroked it gently.
Luo Guiren saw my action in her eyes. She smiled boldly and gave me the dagger. I became her personal maid.
That night, Luo Guiren asked me how old I was this year.
I answered obediently, “Sixteen.”
She seemed a little melancholy and looked at me standing in front of the bed.
I knew that standing in front of the moonlight, the light falling on me, would make my shrewd eyes look softer and more harmless.
Finally, she really looked at me and laughed, saying that I was really cute.
“But when I was 16, I was still drinking and eating in restaurants.”
Her tone was sullen.
I responded with a smile, “I’ve never seen the world in my life. I think it’s good to be alive in the palace.”
I have done evil all my life, and I only deserve to be bound in this palace.
“Little girl, you are the best kind of person to accompany the emperor.”
At night, when I was sleepy, Luo Guiren suddenly said.
I was stunned and couldn’t understand what she meant.
But soon, she gave me a chance. When
the emperor got the news that the empress had died, he rushed back overnight, regardless of the difficulties of the journey and the wind and rain.
I accompanied Luo Guiren and was busy for a long time.
That night I was sent back to Jingxi Palace by Luo Guiren to get something, and I happened to meet the emperor who was sleeping on the couch.
The young man had a straight nose and thin lips, his skin was very white, his eyes were very black and blue, his eyelashes trembled slightly, and he slept very restlessly.
I frowned at the smell of wine all around me.
In the end, instead of stepping forward, I turned away.
I suddenly realized that this was a deliberate act by Luo Guiren. What did he want to take? It’s just an opportunity to create a chance encounter.
Luo Guiren sat in front of the pavilion drinking, and when she saw me coming back, she was stunned. “Are you coming back?”
She said with a loud smile.
I’m sure.
I stepped forward with a smile and avoided the courtesy in the middle.
“It seems that nobles often forget things. There is nothing you want in Jingxi Palace.”
She smiled and poured me a glass of wine without answering.
“The maidservant will take what she wants, but the time has not yet come.”
The emperor has just lost his beloved, how can he go to linger immediately?
Only the surprise of looking back suddenly after losing is the fate in the dark.
Luo Guiren asked me curiously what I meant?
I smiled and did not answer. You took advantage of us the
first time we met. Why don’t you bring it in quickly, you little girl?
Luo Guiren teased me with his hands on his head.
I have no choice but to advise her to drink less and go back to the palace early, so that people who have the intention to seize the handle. She was drunk
that night and I carried her back.
She leaned against my ear and said in a vague voice, “In this harem, you are the only one who is true and false.”. Like the emperor, you never dare to be yourself. Only you are the best match..
I don’t know much about her.
She saw through it, but I didn’t see through it.
Maybe I forgot what I was.
……
The second year, early spring.
I’ve been with Luo Guiren for a year.
The emperor seldom came to the harem, but occasionally he was no longer happy in order to stabilize his heart. There are no children in
the harem.
I suddenly feel that this is also a dedicated person. On the anniversary of his sister’s death
that day, the emperor did not even go to court early.
Coincidentally, the snow kept falling.
He shut himself up in the Jingxi Palace to drink.
Some concubines went there without authorization, which made him very angry.
I listened to Huihui telling me this, and just smiled faintly. After
the empress left, the emperor planted magnolia trees in the Imperial Garden.
The emperor always goes there, and today is no exception.
In the evening, I came to the magnolia tree and hung down to pick up the petals. When
I noticed the figure behind me, I pretended not to see it.
I inadvertently moved the direction of my body and showed my side face. The man
behind him was stunned.
His voice was deep and full of surprise: “Mei Mei..”
Hearing this, I gently turned my head sideways and looked at him.
Young wanton, dressed in white long-sleeved petals fell on his black hair, inexplicably fascinated the eyes. With a young girl’s green ignorance on my face, I smiled at him in a nifty tone: “Where did you get the little bodyguard?”? Have you also come to pick up the petals?
I and he on the line of sight, young heroic posture, chiseled face, elegant appearance.
We looked at each other, and I smiled a little closer to him and blew the petals in my hands into his face. Magnolia flowers are rich and sweet. He froze and his eyelashes quivered. His reddish eyes were seen by me, and I dared to reach out and rub them, with a bit of panic in my tone.
“Why are you crying, little guard?”
The boy stood under the tree and raised his hand to sweep the petals from my hair.
Suddenly his eyes seemed to be filled with light. He smiled softly and said, “It’s snowing. Remember to put on more clothes tomorrow.”
I looked at him, bent my eyebrows and pointed to the petals in his hand.
“Little bodyguard, do you know the language of magnolia flowers?”
The emperor has some juvenile foolishness. He was stupefied and asked me what I was?
I thought deeply for a moment and then answered, “The language of magnolia flowers is pure and sincere love.” The
snow was cold that day, but it was very hot.
I was held in his arms, and I was taken to the Jingxi Palace.
We leaned in each other’s arms and did nothing.
Just sleeping around each other and keeping each other warm. When I was in
a daze, I heard his words with a slight sense of disappointment: “You are very similar to my late wife.” I was sleepy, but I managed to smile.
My heart is clear, and I thank him.
Thank him for calming my heart which was disturbed by the moment.
It made me realize that I was a double again.
But when I look into his clear and beautiful eyes.
I suddenly don’t know whether to rejoice or be lonely.
……
I’m spoiled.
The emperor made me an imperial concubine despite the opposition of important officials.
He always takes me to sit under the magnolia tree. As the
sun sets, I can’t tell whether it’s the sunset or the face of a teenager?
Apart from dealing with a large number of concubines who came to see me in the name of visiting, I was happy these days in the harem. When
I asked for Huihui from the palace of Luo Guiren, Luo Guiren was not surprised at all. He smiled even more than usual: “It’s really a step to the sky.”
I just lowered my eyes and smiled faintly. There were only two of us on the
dark palace road.
“Sister, are you afraid?”
Huihui was stupefied and finally came forward and took my hand.
I know. She’s been quiet since she was young.
I know we may be the only family we have. It’s my fault for dragging her in
for the sake of hatred.
Those who died in vain were also due to my indifference and inducement.
Huihui became my personal maid of honor, but in private we were still sisters.
That night, when we slept in the same bed, Huihui asked me if the emperor and I had.
Looking at her hesitating to speak, I have guessed seven or eight points.
I shook my head obediently, and she suddenly put her hand around me, and my skirt was wet with her tears. I said in a formulaic way, “It’s only a matter of time before the concubines go to bed.”
“I failed to protect you.”
She didn’t seem to control her emotions for the first time.
I’ve never seen her cry.
I approached her and tried to comfort her. We breathed on each other. She said she loved me very much.
I smiled and said “hmm”.
The elder sister must love her sister.
The next day, the emperor left the morning court and came to have dinner with me.
He gently took my hand and stroked the cocoon on my hand and the tiny scar on my arm. “I won’t let you suffer any more,” he said, with a pained look and a somewhat awkward voice. I felt the coldness of his fingertips across my scars left by Ji Mei.
He didn’t ask me how the wound came about?
He didn’t ask me if it hurt?
He never wondered where I came from?
Didn’t you ask who bullied me?
He doesn’t care about me. He just sees me as a stand-in for Ji Mei.
He knew I was wounded by someone he loved.
It’s just that he doesn’t care.
I withdrew my thoughts and looked at him, showing the clarity in my eyes, looking like a young girl with vigor.
He was stunned and asked me what my name was?
I slipped into his arms and muttered, “I don’t have a name. Everyone calls me Ah Mui.”
His body stiffened, and his arms around me tightened a little.
Meimei or Meimei, what’s the difference?
It’s just convenient for him to place his feelings on me.
He carefully picked out the thorns in the fish soup for me and fed me spoonful by spoonful.
I looked at his moist eyes and pretended not to understand and reached out to rub it for him. It’s hard to
be an emperor, isn’t it? I won’t let you suffer alone in the future.
He looked up at me with the unique clear eyes of a teenager.
I know that I have smoothed the pain of his years without Ji Mei.
Again and again, the soft light covered his heart and lingered.
I took him to the Imperial Garden to sweep the snow together.
His strange look made me laugh out loud.
“Your Majesty, is the white snow beautiful?”
He looked at me and gave me a chuckle. His voice was low. “There is a beautiful woman in the world of mortals,” he said.
I smiled shyly and lowered my eyes.
“How old is Ah Mui?”
“I am seventeen years old this year.”
He was silent for a moment and seemed to be lost in memory.
Yes, the first time you met Ji Mei was when she was seventeen years old.
……
He gave me a name, Rumei, and named me Wen Guifei.
It’s corny, but he looks happy.
I always accompany him to deal with business, and I stand aside to grind ink for him.
It was after midnight again, and he let me sleep in his bedroom.
He always likes to rub my earlobe, which makes me grumble.
My first time was here when I was eighteen years old.
He called my name in a soft, sensual voice.
Mui.. Ah Mui..
I endured the pain and did not forget to laugh. Did he really call me by my name?
Later, when he was reviewing his official duties and frowning slightly, I would sneak out to cook soup for him. Looking at his face with surprise, I will only be very calm.
I watched him eat the soup, and I went around behind him to rub his head.
“Your Majesty, I will accompany you when you are tired.”
The scene is warm, harmonious and warm. My thoughts drifted away in my
mind, and his feelings for Ji Mei would surely make him feel guilty for the Ji family for a lifetime. Since I can get close to him, the next step is to let him have feelings for me.
Dependence, trust, influence.
Everything is indispensable.
7
“Ah Mui, will I take you out of the palace for the Lantern Festival tomorrow?”
The emperor raised my head and gently stroked my eyes in a gentle voice.
He likes my eyebrows and eyes very much, although they are not similar to Ji Mei.
I was stunned, never thought it would be so easy.
I told him many times about my life outside the palace when I was a child.
I want to explore his tolerance for me tentatively. If
the emperor’s trip out of the palace is used by interested people, it is bound to be a threat.
“Just hold a banquet in the palace. There’s no need to go to all this trouble.”
I act like a spoiled child and close to him a few minutes, as far as possible to make their own body of Magnolia fragrance exudes. When the light went out in the
hall, I snuggled in his arms and let him play with my hair. I thought for a moment, then asked aloud, “Your Majesty, why do you suddenly want to leave the palace?”
“I always feel that you are too far away from me, and I want to get closer to you.” There was a flash of panic in
my heart, and then I calmed down.
The prime minister’s mansion hid me very well, and no one knew that the old prime minister had brought a prostitute into the mansion and made a child.
I’m just a servant girl who has been bought into the house since I was a child.
I chuckled and comforted him, “Don’t talk nonsense. I will always be with you.”
The next day, I watched the emperor practicing calligraphy in the Imperial Study.
I pointed to the blank paper and smiled shyly.
“Your Majesty, will you teach me to write, too?” “I thought you understood,”
he said, pausing with his pen.
I shook my head, still smiling without the color of inferiority.
“I don’t know, but I want to learn.”
“I also want to talk about poetry and painting with the emperor.”
He opened his mouth, but said nothing.
The emperor just gently took me into his arms, took my hand and taught me one stroke at a time. It is impossible for a
man to be with a woman forever.
Losing beauty and having no talent and charm, leaving only sallow skin and deep and shallow wrinkles after the passage of time. Ignorance does not make a
woman contemptible. If you are willing to learn, you will always be appreciated.
Li Lanjing moved gently and taught me softly.
He told me that I could come at any time Imperial Study, and that I could read the poems and books he put on the shelf at any time. “Your Majesty, can you write poetry?” I looked up at him with a smile.
He pretended to think and made me laugh: “The moon shines in front of the bed.”
After a pause, he said, “Bow your head and think of the girl.”
I laughed and tapped him on the chest.
At this time, the maid who delivered the medicine came in.
My hands and feet are always cold in winter. The emperor has found many famous medicines and prescriptions for me. He always feeds me with his own hands and wipes the remnants of my mouth.
I took the medicine with a mournful face, and then solemnly leaned close to his ear and said,
“Your Majesty, I have also learned a sentence.”. To see the sky at dawn and the clouds at dusk, to walk and think of you, to sit and think of you. The language is closed, see the emperor did not react to come over, I turned around and ran.
Can affect his mood, can let him remember my good in the memory, which I also taught the empress.
…… On the day of
the Lantern Festival, it was held in the palace.
Everyone said that I was foxy and confused the Lord, but no one came forward to question me.
The emperor and the queen mother are both protecting me.
Heard of the queen mother’s maintenance, I also had a trace of waves in my heart.
The emperor took my hand and sat down.
I sat beside him, which was not polite, but no one could twist him. The concubines in the
audience kept looking at me with their eyes, laughing at me as a stand-in.
I am indifferent and do not care about these, whether or not as a substitute, it is only a matter of time for me.
The audience sings and dances, and at the climax, the whip plays music. At the
end of the banquet, the emperor pulled me out of the banquet.
We went to the Imperial Garden alone with a lantern. The
Imperial Garden is also full of colorful lights, beautiful eyes and beautiful.
When I was walking around slowly, we got separated.
I was stupefied and had to go back to look for it.
However, I met Ke Pin, who had just danced in the audience.
She was wearing a colorful dress and carrying a lantern, like a butterfly falling into the earth.
I know her, and she is also a woman with empty skin like the empress.
I looked at her with a half-smile and said in a gentle tone, “Do the concubines understand palace etiquette?”
She was so spoiled that she only laughed when she heard it.
“I don’t know if Concubine Wen’s status is worthy of my little master paying his respects.”
I laughed out loud, really is to reveal the identity of the double.
I was well protected by the emperor, and no one dared to mention the queen in front of me.
It seems that this is the first person.
But it’s all right, so I don’t have to wrong people. Does the
younger sister know that the queen is not vacant now? Do you know why the emperor suddenly made you, a humble slave, an imperial concubine on an equal footing with us?
I looked at her quietly and motioned her to continue.
She looked at me for a moment and then sneered, “I heard that the imperial concubine and the emperor met under the magnolia tree.”. Does the imperial concubine know? Did the empress *** to the emperor under the tree?
My cooperation revealed a trace of loneliness, and she was even more convinced that her tone was even more arrogant: “Look at your face. It’s really similar to the empress.”. But how can not change the poor sour, cheap is cheap. The emperor is only looking at you with pity.
I frowned imperceptibly. There will be many beauties like you in the palace in the
future. Don’t put yourself on too high a pedestal, Imperial Concubine.
I suddenly realized that I would feel uncomfortable because of her words. Am
I spoiled by the emperor and not listening to gossip, or do I have feelings for him?
My thoughts are a little confused, but these are not good omens.
I pinched the flesh of my body to force myself to calm down.
We have been separated for a long time, and the emperor must find me soon.
I adjusted my mood and chuckled at Ke Pin.
“It seems that my sister still doesn’t understand the etiquette of the palace.”
“I wonder if my sister is like this because she has no family to take care of her?”
She glared at me angrily and came forward to argue with me.
However, as soon as she stepped forward, I took the initiative to fall to the ground. She looked at me in a daze, and her tone was incredible: “I really didn’t expect that the imperial concubine would still use such a dirty trick.”
I tugged at her dress and cried out and wouldn’t let her go.
I squeezed my tears and brewed my speech.
Sister, are you serious? Am I really that similar to the empress?
I kept murmuring these two words, and tears kept falling down.
Pulling my dress and hair accessories were pulled by her messy, I stumbled to stand up, I hung my head a look of absence, gently crying.
“Ah Mui?”
Li Lanjing’s voice came not far away, and Ke Pin was stunned and somewhat at a loss. I still pulled the corner of her clothes and cried softly, murmuring the two sentences again.
I felt that I must be dirty at the moment, the lantern was thrown on the ground by me, the skirt was stained with slightly wet mud, the clothes and hair accessories were scattered, and the tears on my face were wiped at random. When
the emperor approached, he looked at the scene of me and Ke Pin, and was slightly stunned.
He took me in his arms and wiped the tears from my face.
Although he moved gently, I felt that he seemed angry.
I don’t understand, because I don’t cry like the empress?
I have imitated my expression in front of the bronze mirror countless times, and these expressions have become my habit. “Bullied?”
He lifted my chin and made me meet his eyes.
I forced a smile at the corners of his mouth and shook my head slowly.
Just now my sister told me something about the empress. My concubine. I think the emperor and the empress are so right, but things are not going well. I said, inadvertently taking a step back.
He noticed my movements and was stunned.
I looked up at him timidly, and his eyes reflected my shadow in the darkness.
But I know that at this moment he once again remembered the time with Ji Mei.
He spoke with some difficulty, but his voice was still soft. “You never paid attention to these manners with me before.”
I know what he means.
I have never called myself a concubine in front of him.
I was never afraid of him.
These are all in my expectation.
“But your Majesty, you still pay attention to these things in front of your ministers and concubines.” As
I spoke, the tears in my eyes fell down again.
The emperor hesitated to speak, and finally just pulled my hand tightly and pulled me behind him. He looked at Ke Pin, who was already kneeling beside him. Li Lanjing lowered her gaze and said in an indifferent voice, “I don’t know that this harem is already in the hands of Ke Pin.”. Since gossip comes out of your mouth, it is over.
I was stunned for the first time to see the scene of his disposal of people.
End it? That is poison dumb.
I looked at Ke Pin holding back tears and collapsed on the ground, not daring to say a word, and almost laughed out loud.
It is true that the present emperor has no mercy in dealing with people. When I came to my senses
, I was picked up by him and rushed to the sedan chair outside the Imperial Garden.
The emperor put his cloak on me and gently smoothed my messy hair. I turned my head sideways with some resistance. He just stiffened and withdrew his hand.
He tried to take me back to his bedroom, but I stopped him.
“I want to..”
“If the emperor only favors his ministers and concubines, he will certainly make the sisters in the palace unhappy.”
“Your Majesty, go and see the other sisters in the palace these days.”
My lonely look was seen in his eyes, I timidly to see his face, but my eyes wet some blurred, can not see his expression.
He seemed to want to say something but could not explain it. The encounter under
the magnolia tree or the similar face.
Mui or Mei? What
is there to defend?
……
That night Huihui carried the lamp for me, and we came back to Jingxi Palace alone.
I sat at the table in the bedroom and looked out of the window at the moon.
Unique, bright and clear.
Just like my sister in the heart of the emperor.
No hurry, nothing is in a hurry. I did what
other women would have done. I did what
no other woman would do.
No one can fill the void of his feelings for the queen like me.
No one can rely on him as much as I can, let him rely on me more.
No one can give him pure and sincere love like me.
That night the emperor did not turn over other people’s signs, but went back to his bedroom.
I just played chess with Huihui all night.
I looked at White, who was once again surrounded by me on the chessboard, and laughed out loud.
Sister, you must learn not to be impatient in everything you do. Impetuosity is a big no-no.
Huihui rubbed her head in frustration and said helplessly, “You know I’m not good at this.”
I pushed the tea I had just made towards her and retorted, “The same is true of everything.” How
I want to teach Huihui.
Teach her to be calm and think more about herself. Early
the next morning, the emperor came to the court.
I asked them to take the breakfast down and wanted to rest for a while. When
the emperor came, he was turned away by me. He just sent away the ladies around him and knocked on the door again, calling me in a gentle voice.
I had to get up with a pair of red and swollen eyes to open the door.
He was dressed as usual in civilian clothes.
I didn’t dress up and looked a little lighter than usual. I fought back tears to salute the emperor, but he took the initiative to help me up.
“I’m really not feeling well. I’m afraid I won’t be able to serve the emperor.” I spoke in silence.
He froze and froze in place again.
“minister and concubine” and “serve.”. I never mentioned these words in front of him.
We were silent for a long time, but I broke the silence again. “I heard that the name of the empress, Ji Mei, is so right with the emperor.”
He interrupted me with a frown. “Why are you so aggressive?” Frustrated,
I took a step back and knelt on the ground.
“It was my concubine who was impolite and forgot the rules of the palace.”
He forcefully lifted me up and pulled me into his arms.
I was held tightly in his arms and I couldn’t breathe, and my tears soaked his skirt.
“Your Majesty, last night in Imperial Garden, I soiled my shoes and socks and messed up my clothes. I fell on the ground and it really hurt.”
But Your Majesty, you don’t care about me at all. Your Majesty, is it really only because of my face that you show mercy?
Li Lanjing pulled my hand more tightly, but he did not speak.
Your Majesty, I lost my mother when I was young. The first time I saw your majesty, I was moved, and I thought I had found someone who really loved me. It never occurred to me that it was the good fortune of the empress.
The emperor’s eyes flashed with impatience. He stroked my eyebrows and eyes, which were not similar to those of the empress. “You and Meier are my beloved women,” he said in a hoarse voice.
“I don’t know that one person’s heart can hold two people?”
I smiled bitterly.
He was not angry, but coaxed me patiently.
It’s just that I didn’t appreciate his kindness and asked him to leave.
I looked at the back of the emperor far away, heavy eyes, called to serve in front of the emperor’s father-in-law de. There was no mockery or sympathy on Grandfather
De’s face. His face was expressionless, not flattering but respectful.
I smiled faintly, and the imperial concubine’s shelf was lifted up by me. The weather has been cold
recently. Remember to add clothes for Your Majesty. Take care of your Majesty. Grandfather
De saluted and turned away.
I know that the emperor is his master.
My exact words, he will learn to the emperor word for word.
A slap in the face and a sweet date is a common way for everyone, just to see if we can grasp the sense of propriety. (Recommended truncation position)
Ke Pin was dumped in the cold palace by Poison Dumb. There are always people who want to enter the threshold of our palace after the
matter has been widely spread. In the
next few days, I told the outside world that I was ill, and no one came to me to gossip. When the emperor came to see me, I was strongly rejected.
He seemed to see my indifference and was encouraged by others to think that I should calm down.
All of a sudden, I fell out of favor. Unexpectedly, the emperor did not show much interest in favoring the other concubines, and went to their palace to sit and enjoy tea and poems. And I pretended to be weak, and I was badly bullied by those domineering people.
“Ah Mui, you are so..”
Huihui tied her hair for me and hesitated to open her mouth.
I interrupted her in a gentle voice: Ah Niang died in the Chi family, not just at the hands of Chi Mei. Now that Ji Mei is dead, the emperor will only be ashamed of the prime minister’s mansion. It is time for them to wake up from their dreams of success. With a wry smile
, Huihui said helplessly, “I didn’t know you had grown up, and I had to rely on your protection.” These days, I always go to the Luoguiren Palace for tea.
She was interested in my experience of these days.
“I’ve got some bolts of this new material to make my clothes.” When she was silent
, she left her maid and pulled me to run to the wardrobe.
She did not know how to compete for favor, nor did she disdain to serve a husband with others. A
few years ago, it was just to annoy the empress. I
just want to see the tricks of my dispute with the empress.
“So you plan to stay in this palace for the rest of your life?” I asked her.
She curled her lips and didn’t care much. If
I am bullied, I, Ama, will not let those people go. Who wouldn’t think highly of me here?
I lowered my eyes and smiled faintly. It was so beautiful a while
ago, but now you want to come to me for refuge. What is the imperial concubine planning?
She was very clever and asked me on her own initiative.
I just laughed softly and answered her vaguely, “After a great prosperity, there must be a great decline. It is easy to attract people’s attention and make people jealous.”. The poor and pathetic substitute is the most lovable.
That night I lay alone on the couch, cold all over.
I grew up like this until I met Li Lanjing.
“Ah Mui, sometimes when you learn to let go, you grow up.”
Huihui stood at the head of the bed with a gentle voice.
I braced myself and said in my usual voice, “Sister, I have no way out.” If I don’t enter the palace, I will be dismissed by the prime minister’s office. Die in a deserted street.
No one will know my name, and no one will remember me forever.
Now that I have entered the palace, I have to serve the murderer of Ah Niang all my life.
The prime minister’s mansion looked at me coldly, ridiculed me and humiliated me.
Every time when I close my eyes, it will appear in front of me.
Every time I wipe away the tears for Ji Mei, it will appear in front of me. At the moment of
Ji Mei’s death, I don’t know if the feeling of heart like a knife is love.
Heartache and relief mixed together, I can not tell.
But what I know is that she never treated me as a family member, and my kindness and awe were all trampled on the soles of her feet.
Niang, you left before you taught me love.
Summer.
I’ve been out of favor for months.
The emperor has a few more new people around him, which is really similar to the empress’s appearance.
He doesn’t come to see me anymore. I’m having a hard time these days.
I am different from other concubines. They have the protection of their families.
I can only curl up together and keep warm alone.
On that day, I sat alone by the lake in the Imperial Garden, looking at the fish that were not enough to swim. I had nothing to do and sat all afternoon. When I stood up and turned to leave, I saw the emperor sitting in the pavilion, beside whom a beautiful woman was drinking with him. The
beauty blushed and leaned gently on his shoulder, feeding the emperor wine delicately.
He frowned away from the beauty’s touch.
The beauty was somewhat aggrieved to play a little temper towards him, but did not see his increasingly cold eyes. I looked at the emperor lightly, and for months I had been able to control my emotions in front of him.
The emperor seemed to have just seen me, and his eyes flashed through him at a loss.
Such a good opportunity to perform.
I calmly stepped forward to take the initiative to salute and saw the beauty’s appearance.
Beauty is like a sister, and also like me, but it’s all the same to me.
The emperor was surrounded by the strong smell of wine, and his eyes never moved away from me.
He’s testing me.
He looked into my eyes, trying to see something.
I just smiled at him to hide my indifference. “Since Your Majesty has a headache,” he said, “drink less so that you won’t have another headache later.”
He was stupefied for a moment. His clear eyes seemed to be somewhat wet, and the words hanging to his lips hesitated to speak, forming a sentence. His voice was as gentle and low as in previous years, but with caution: “Then ask Ah Mui to rub my head later, OK?”.
I graciously gave up the opportunity.
“The emperor’s younger sister may be more willing to serve his majesty on behalf of his ministers and concubines.”
He frowned, and I saw the inquiry, the caution, the subtle desire in his eyes.
Later, he left his beautiful sister in the Imperial Garden and pulled me away forcefully.
Today the weather is very good, back to the palace I ran a little tired, so that my cheeks are slightly red. Seeing this,
the emperor ordered someone to cook ginger honey water for me.
Li Lanjing pressed me step by step, with an injured look in her wet eyes.
He sprinkled his warm breath on my neck. He kissed me softly and kept leaving words in my ear: Ah Mui, why don’t you come and beg me? I’m waiting for you. Why didn’t you say something when you were bullied?
Paused.
“I’m waiting for you to come to me..”
He bit my collarbone heavily. His eyes were already blurred. Maybe he didn’t know what he was talking about. I forced him to stop. We looked at each other.
My eyes are clear and still calm.
“Your Majesty, there are not only courtiers and concubines in the harem.”
I felt his trembling. His voice was hoarse. Ah Mui, do you have to be so far away from me? Do you have to push me to someone else?
I was stupefied and asked him in a gentle voice, “I wonder if Your Majesty was thinking of Rumei when he read the names of his concubines?”? Also do not know your majesty looks at the face of my concubine, whether to take this to miss others? Your Majesty, the Empress will be sad.
He’s struggling.
I continued to stimulate him.
Your Majesty, I have been with you for almost two years. I thought I had a place in your Majesty’s heart. It must be my concubine who flatters herself. Your Majesty, when I cook for you, rub your forehead which is frequently painful because of official business, and give you advice. Did Your Majesty think of my concubine for a second?
I saw him almost stunned in frustration, and his breath was a little weak.
The empress never did this for him.
Only me.
Only I can give him the love that he longs for in his heart and cannot pry.
I looked at his erratic expression, and I lifted my feet and hugged him.
He did not cry, but was quietly hugged by me. One of
his hearts was torn by me, but he was helpless.
I whispered, “Li Lanjing, I love you.”
We don’t talk anymore, we don’t question each other.
He loves the empress, so I can only get close to her because of her similar face.
But the empress would not understand his distress in the court dispute. Will
not understand his struggle trapped in this palace.
But I will.
I’ll let him learn how to be himself.
I will tell him that not only he is trying, but also I am.
“Li Lan-jing.”
“What I said, I won’t let you suffer alone anymore.”
9
“Your Majesty, I want to raise a rabbit.”
I smiled at the man who was learning to cook for me.
He raised his eyebrows and asked me, “When was Ah Mui’s birthday?”
My complexion did not change without any waves, and I still smiled.
“I don’t have a birthday.”
He was stunned and stopped cutting vegetables in his hands.
He looked down at me, his eyes paused, still so gentle.
I smiled and comforted him, “I don’t have to celebrate my birthday.”
“It is enough for me to accompany Your Majesty every day.”
He smiled softly and touched my face as if he felt pity and comfort.
“Ah Mui, you don’t have to pay attention to these titles in front of me.”
I dared to approach him, stood on tiptoe and put my breath on his face and my arms around his neck.
“Then may I call Your Majesty Ah Ching?” The smile in
his eyes did not diminish at all, and he gave a gentle “hum.”.
He hooked me into his arms with his hands, and he liked to cling to me and kiss my eyes, although my eyebrows and eyes were not similar to those of Ji Mei.
The next day, when he was looking for me in the morning, he took a small white rabbit with him.
I caught the rabbit carefully in surprise and stroked the hair of the rabbit lovingly.
I took the little white rabbit to wander around the palace every day, and finally made the emperor have some taste.
“Ah Mui just let a rabbit share her love for me.”
His tone was a little bitter.
I would spread out my arms and be hugged by him.
“My Ah Mui is really soft to hold.”
……
Later, a plague spread among the people, and I don’t know when it was introduced into the palace.
The capital was sealed off, not to let in, not to let out.
The population is in a state of panic, and families are forced to lock themselves in their homes quarantine staying in their homes, while food is distributed by the dispatchers. Countless people died at home, and those who were found in a high fever and in a daze were also executed.
The emperor these days also no longer often come to the harem, always after the court, called the minister in the Imperial Study in the door is a day, or inspection of the hospital to see them study the prescription, together with the ancient book. He finally got tired and fell ill. When I
got the news, I didn’t take it to heart. I let people inquire about it before they knew that he had accidentally come into contact with a little eunuch suffering from the epidemic.
I always went to be with him, even though he was so sleepy that he didn’t notice me.
As the highest concubine in the palace, I could only close the harem with a shelf, and the bedding and tableware were all replaced. There
were also concubines who disdained to listen to me, but they could only find my theory in the palace with lip service. One came and the other came. The harem was a mess, and Huihui seemed a little impetuous.
I just sat quietly in front of the hall, practicing calligraphy and tasting tea.
Empress, when the emperor wakes up and finds that the harem of the former court is in such a mess, it must be bad. The ministers in the court had a lot of opinions about the empress. The water in
my teacup was spilled and I frowned.
I have ordered you to inform your sisters that they will be in my house at noon. I warned my sister not to be impetuous when things happen.
Hui Hui was stupefied and reluctantly pulled the corners of her mouth and said, “Um.”. When the concubines in the
palace gathered together, there was a lot of noise.
I sat right in front of them without saying a word and watched them quarrel quietly.
I’m just a maid of honor who relies on her face.
And they are ladies of noble families.
Who will care about me? I
slowly dropped the teacup I had been rubbing on the ground.
The teacup cracked and splashed water.
The scene was suddenly somewhat deadlocked, and the concubines who were still chattering shut up.
“My palace thinks that this harem should be headed by my palace.”
“It must be the imperial concubines.”
Luo Guiren was the first to speak.
I stood up and looked around, and finally walked toward the concubine below me.
Making an example is the easiest way.
Women in the harem and the empress of that year were divided into two factions.
It’s just that I induced her to form a clique against the queen’s chess pieces.
I don’t know where the courage comes from to oppose me?
“You’re a concubine, and you’re in a mess with your sisters who don’t know any better.”
My eyes were mocking and my voice was louder.
“I don’t know, sister, what crime should I commit?” The concubines who
thought I was weak and incompetent had long been silent.
Li Fei flustered a few minutes but also sat up straight, I dare not expect to provoke her.
“My concubine’s father was the prime minister, so what about the imperial concubines?”
I sneered and raised my hand with a snap.
Li Fei was stunned in place, her face was red and swollen in an instant, and her palm prints were looming on her face. Her eyes were red when she reacted, and she suddenly stood up and pointed at me.
“How dare you hit me?!”
“How dare you disrespect the imperial concubine!”
Luo Guiren snapped at him.
“It was the daughter of the prime minister who was beaten in this palace.”
I raised my eyebrows and continued, “Since my sister doesn’t understand the rules of the palace, the palace will teach you.” With a wave of my hand, several old nuns came in from outside the door.
They pulled Li Fei out of the hall and gagged her and let her struggle.
Since Li Fei is the daughter of the prime minister, she should set an example for everyone. Play twenty big strokes and send them back to the palace. The people
present were silent, and no one dared to heckle again.
“My palace is tired. I wonder if you have any questions?”
“If it’s gone, then please go back to the palace and settle down.”
Fall out of favor that period of time, just for the emperor love oneself and deliberately weak, that period of time to my disrespectful people, I will settle old accounts one by one.
…… After
dealing with the harem, I packed the chicken soup I had just cooked, took the veil and sat in the sedan chair and went to the emperor’s bedroom.
The Imperial Physician had already resigned.
I looked at the little maid who was wiping her sweat carefully for the emperor and was not afraid of being infected at all. Her face was comely and lovely, and her simple appearance revealed a trace of nervousness.
I raised my eyes and said in a cold voice, “It’s prudent to do things. How about following this palace?”
I looked at the little maid of honor in a daze. She hesitated and knelt on the ground, not knowing how to answer. She understood what I meant and scolded her, “Be a little more thoughtful. The imperial concubine is here. What else do you want?”? Why don’t you go out?
The little maid of honor saluted with a red face and ran away in a hurry.
I have never seen it before in the presence of the emperor. Go and find out who sent it.
Huihui looked at Li Lanjing, whose eyes fell on the couch. After a moment’s silence, she said, “Um,” and then turned to leave. The doors and windows of the
temple were closed and there was no lamp.
I bent down and put my hand on his forehead, but the fever subsided. On the
couch, the boy’s long black hair was loose, his cheeks were slightly red, his lips were dry and pale, his thick eyebrows were slightly wrinkled, his long and slightly curled eyelashes trembled gently, and he slept very restlessly.
I gently reached out to smooth his furrowed brow.
The next second I was pulled into his arms and brought to the couch.
His heavy breathing was somewhat confused, his eyes were slightly open, dark but shining, and his eyes were blurred with turbulent and indescribable complex emotions.
Li Lanjing opened her mouth and said hoarsely, “Aren’t you afraid?”
My veil was not removed, and the outline of my face was visible under the white silk. I looked into his eyes and asked him calmly, “Who am I?”
He laughed hoarsely and pulled me closer to him.
“Ah Mui, my Ah Mui..”
I quietly hooked my lips to him and then kissed him through the veil. The
burning love never stops, so I can’t help but shed tears, which is a silent temptation.
Li Lanjing’s laughter echoed in my ears, and he approached me to kiss me.
“Ah Mui is so sweet.”
My breathing was a little confused, and I closed my eyes gently.
I’m a little scared for no reason.
Afraid to see his eyes mixed with love.
I’m a little confused for no reason. The end of the
confusion is the surging red tide, sinking more and more. When I woke up
again, the emperor was already sitting at the table and began to deal with the folding, with my soup in his hand.
I sat up lazily, put on my clothes, and walked over to him.
“Ah Ching, cold soup is not good for your health.”
He smiled at me so gently that I couldn’t help shaking my mind.
“What Ah Mui has done for me cannot be wasted.”
I withdrew my eyes from him and sat quietly, dealing with my emotions.
After a while, I said again, “Since you are sick, you should take good care of yourself first.”
He held me in one hand, and it was warm.
“Now is not the time.”
I Jiao Jiao glared at him, pulled out his hand and put his forehead on him. I looked at him for a moment and his reddish ears. I held back a smile and left with a serious face.
“It looks like it’s really not burning.”
He reacted and laughed out loud, which made me a little annoyed.
“It must be my Ah Mui who is well nourished.”
I followed his wishes and fell into his arms, but my eyes were clear.
I warned myself in my heart.
Our feelings are not pure. You can
‘t yearn for a pair of people all your life.
“Next time I’m sick, stay away.”
He gently stroked my head.
I shook my head and mumbled.
“How can a husband fall ill and his wife run away?”
His eyes seemed to sink, and he stopped talking and just looked at me quietly.
I continued to retort with a straight face.
“My concubine will always be with the emperor.”
…… The new maid in the
emperor’s palace was sent down by the Empress Dowager. It seems to be done on purpose.
Huihui took off her hair accessories for me and whispered.
This kind of girl is just a spy. She can’t be a hit. Find someone to tell Grandfather De to be more careful.
I rubbed my aching forehead and felt a little tired.
Into the early summer, the weather is more and more sultry.
I half knelt down in front of the bookcase and peeled the lychees for the emperor.
“Now that the weather is sweltering, how about I take Ah Mui to live in Chuang Tzu to escape the heat?”
I raised my eyes and smiled.
It’s a good thing! The sisters in the palace are always annoyed by the weather.
But a few days later, we drove a carriage to Chuang Tzu.
The emperor took me to the horse farm.
I changed my clothes and carefully fed the pony. Suddenly there was a light step
behind me, and I turned around.
The sun shines brightly on Li Lanjing.
He was riding a horse with a rare lazy smile on his face.
His eyes seemed to be full of light, and his eyes were very soft when he looked at me.
Perhaps I am in darkness, but I also yearn for light.
……
We rode on the same horse, and he held me carefully in his arms for fear that something would happen to me.
His long hair was tied up more sunny than ever.
My eyes burned and made his cheeks flush.
“Has Ah Ching ever taught anyone to ride like this?”
I asked, knowing that I always followed Ji Mei, naturally knowing that she did not like to play with guns and swords or ride horses. What she liked was just the vanity of being praised and satisfied by the world.
“Of course not. Ah Mui was the first.”
His tone was not pleasant in the past.
But unfortunately, the horse seemed to be frightened, and suddenly it was startled by the wind, and suddenly ran forward with a cry, and no one could stop it. I was clasped in the arms of the emperor, who held my head with his arm and pulled the reins with his other hand.
His hands were cold until we fell off the horse.
I was caught off guard to pull him away, in front of the emperor, my head fell hard on the ground and knocked out a piece of red blood, the emperor’s head was protected by me, but there were a few more flesh wounds on his body. One second before I fainted, I pulled the corners of my mouth and smiled reluctantly.
“Ah Ching..” When he woke up
again, the emperor was sitting in front of the bed.
He looked at my eyes with a slight anger, and then helplessly gently covered my head, his eyes full of heartache.
“Don’t be afraid, I’m here.”
Li Lanjing gently lifted me up and coaxed me to drink porridge for me.
I saw that he was a little tired, so I had to say to him in a hoarse voice, “Since you’re tired, I’ll be fine by myself, not to mention that I have someone to wait on me.”
I glanced at Huihui next to her. Her face was not clear. I couldn’t understand her. Despite my persuasion,
the emperor continued to accompany me.
“Remember how you were with me when I got sick.”
His voice was deep and inexplicably depressed.
After a pause, he said,
“Ah Mui, do you love me?”
I looked at him in a daze, the smile on the young man’s face was very shallow, it seemed that there was no cover of loneliness, his eyes were filled with emotions that I could not understand, I suppressed the uneasiness in my heart, and nodded cleverly. I
said I would always be with Ah Ching. I won’t let you suffer alone anymore.
Maybe I once said “love” to him, but now I seem to have no courage.
He smiled bitterly.
He turned and brushed away, and his voice still echoed in my ears.
“I’ve already dealt with the groom at that time, and Ah Mu-mo is going to worry about it.” The
horse was frightened by me deliberately.
This is the memory that we belong to each other, not mixed with anyone. I held a thin needle
in my hand and stuck it into the horse’s leg when no one was looking. I picked a place that was not suitable to be found. I poked the needle into the depth little by little until we got on the horse together and wandered on the horse farm. I delayed time and waited for the horse to go mad.
Huihui picked up the wet handkerchief and gently wiped it for me.
“Ah Mui is in love with the emperor?”
Hearing this, my eyelashes trembled and I felt a little sober.
“When two scheming people are close to each other, what is love?”
He approaches me just to miss Ji Mei, and I approach him just to get rid of Ji’s family.
“But it seems that the emperor really cares about Ah Mui.”
I laughed at myself.
“What if he knows I killed the woman he loved?”
Huihui looked into my eyes quietly. It took her a long time to answer me. Her tone was very firm. No
, it won’t. The emperor will not abandon Ah Mui.
I didn’t know why, and she stopped accepting it and just shook her head.
I noticed something and continued to ask her.
“What happened after I fainted?”
Huihui did not answer me, but coaxed me to change the subject as she did when she was a child.
……
I slept very lightly, and the emperor was afraid of disturbing me, so he slept in the study.
I teased Li Lanjing that he might as well sleep in another sister’s room, so he reached out and rubbed my head and said angrily that I didn’t know shame. Huihui and I were lying on the couch that night, and she played with my fingers.
I was getting so sleepy that I had to call her unconsciously.
“Sister..”
Her cold hand covered my cheek, and I suddenly woke up a little, but still closed my eyes.
I heard the faint sound of her crying. She said that the emperor had found out that I had done it to the horse, but he still dealt with the groom as I wished. She said that after I fainted, Li Lanjing called me “Ji Mei.”.
She said that she clearly heard that it was really “Ji Mei.”.
She said that the old prime minister Ji also appeared at the racecourse and saw us.
Ji Mei.
Ben would have been exposed. It was long overdue. I
should have been in a panic, but I slept very well that night. Early
the next morning, I was silent for a long time when I looked at Huihui with red and swollen eyes.
“Go and have a rest. I have enough dew and rain around me.”
Lu Yu is only the same age as me.
I saved her in the palace. I saw her kill a bodyguard who humiliated her. I handed her the knife myself. It was Luo Guiren who gave me the dagger, which was particularly bright with blood.
I will never forget the despair and murderous intent in Lu Yu’s eyes.
It was she who aroused what little kindness I had left.
Huihui was stupefied, and her eyes were dim.
I look up through that bronze mirror to see her reaction.
“I heard it last night.”
“I don’t know when even my sister hid something from me.”
Her smile was more rigid, and she seemed to be holding back her emotions.
“The emperor said he was afraid that you would worry, and I was afraid that you would think too much.”
I understood what she meant, but I was still unmoved.
Sister, impetuosity is a big taboo. Don’t do things that don’t please both sides. Tears from
her eyes fell on the back of my hand, and she finally turned away.
It seems that my sister never understood that I was saving her.
Dew and rain approached and began to change my clothes.
She was very quiet. She didn’t ask or say anything.
“Ask less and think more, and you’ll always save your own life.”
I opened my mouth lightly, and I felt a pause as she gathered my clothes for me.
I chuckled and asked her, “Do you know why I treat her so coldly?”
The dew rain moved slowly and her voice was calm.
“The maidservant thinks that sister Huihui is too emotional.”
I looked up at her and motioned to continue.
Sister Huihui is too soft-hearted, and she always loses her sense of propriety when it comes to big things. She is too easy to be seen through, and she is the easiest to be calculated. I laughed wildly.
I like your cleverness. In the future, if something happens to this palace, remember to protect her for me. Dew and rain are clear.
……
I stayed in the room until noon when a little maid of honor came in to pay her respects.
“The emperor is waiting for the imperial concubine in the backyard of Bilan Court.”
She knelt on the ground with her head down.
I gave a faint “hmm” and quietly looked at the notebook in my hand.
Out of the corner of my eye, I looked up at the back of the little maid of honor. There was a faint smile on
my lips.
I specially took Lu Yu alone to the appointment.
I have already found out the people around Li Lanjing, and the people around him have been with him for some years. He never used new people, and even the little maid who took care of him when he was ill was stuffed in by the queen mother when he was unconscious. If not the emperor, it must be the Ji family. The drama of the reunion of
flesh and blood is something I never thought of.
I walked on the flagstone road, and the dazzling sunshine made my eyes hurt.
I saw the old man not far away, and the indifference and hatred in his eyes finally turned into insipidity.
But I can’t calm down.
I can’t forget the way I knelt before him and begged him to give me a way out. I was like a dog.
I can’t forget that he scolded me like Ah Niang, a cheap embryo who was played by men.
I can’t forget that he ordered the body of Ah Niang in the cellar to be discarded at will.
The Ji family made me understand what human nature is.
When Ah Niang and I were bullied, no one was willing to stand up, and their indifference pushed me into darkness again and again.
No one sacrifices himself for the sake of the irrelevant.
So those who are willing to give up their lives are called heroes, rare and rare.
“I don’t know why Prime Minister Ji tricked us into coming here.”
His face was as cold as it had been in the past, but his tone was somewhat melancholy.
“It’s just that the father hasn’t seen his daughter for years, and he misses her a lot.”
I smiled mockingly. “Can you see the dead empress through my face?” There was a flash of anger in his
eyes, but he finally held it in.
His smile, with the treachery of officialdom, could not deceive me at all.
I wonder what Ah Mui relied on to become the present imperial concubine? Don’t you look down on me, the prime minister’s own father, when you ascend to a high position? “Lord Chi is joking. How can high position and power of Lord Chi be climbed up by this palace?”? This palace is nothing but a humble slave who serves the nobles in the palace. “Ah Mui, you have to be careful what you say.”
He lowered his voice as if to hide his impatience.
“I just don’t know. Does the emperor know that you took care of the empress?”
“Do you know, Your Majesty, that you were born of such an inferior person as a brothel girl?”
I was stupefied, and my hand, which had clenched the dagger in its wide sleeve, trembled slightly.
Brothel girl? A dirty man?
I was still pretending to be calm. I stepped forward and said softly, “Lord Ji must be confused. These things are not good for you and me.”
He just wants me to admit that he is my father.
They want to fight for power and profit through me.
I approached him minute by minute, and the smile on my face could no longer be concealed.
Lu Yu seemed to be aware of what I was going to do. She pulled my dress and tried to calm me down. But I couldn’t do it. I couldn’t watch this person who ignored, insulted and used me live like this. Why should he?
I suddenly grabbed the dagger and stabbed it in the chest. He reacted and dodged me. Finally, the tip of the knife fell on his shoulder. I shook my hand and pushed hard.
He pulled my hair in pain, but I suddenly had the idea of dying with him.
I want to let the Ji family decline, I want to let him die, let him never deserve to live in the world.
He pulled my hair and threw me out, and I was caught in a hurry.
Not the small and soft embrace of dew and rain, his shoulders are very hard to hold me tightly, but let me inexplicably comfortable.
His breathing was a little confused, as if he had just run too fast.
But I didn’t dare to see him. I knew it was Li Lanjing.
Li Lanjing lowered his eyes and looked at me in his arms. My face was already full of tears. He sighed gently. He just reached out to smooth my messy hair and handed up the blue jade hairpin in his hand.
“I’ll buy it for you if it looks good.”
I was stupefied, and my eyes were moist. When
he said this, he stopped looking at me and just glanced at Prime Minister Ji, whose shoulder was oozing blood.
The emperor’s voice was particularly cold.
“Prime Minister Ji was stabbed by an assassin today, and the imperial concubine nearly died when she happened to meet him.” There were a lot of palace maids and guards
behind us, and no one dared to look at us. They just catered to us softly.
“If today’s story gets out and it’s not this version, whoever it is, everyone will be buried with him.”
I leaned on Li Lanjing’s arms and was carried by him and turned to walk to the carriage.
“Ji Mei!”
Behind him came the shouts of Prime Minister Ji.
My back can not help a stiff, but did not look back.
How many years? It’s been years since someone called me that again. Li Lanjing held my hand in the
carriage, which was particularly warm.
I held back my tears, but I was in a mess, and my explanation was pale and weak.
“It’s probably because I’m so much like the empress that even Lord Chi has made a mistake.”
……
“I’ll accompany Ah Mui.” The voice
of Huihui came, and I paused as I twirled the beads. Seeing that I didn’t object,
Lu Yu went out alone and closed the door.
Huihui brought the dinner to the table and picked me up kneeling on the ground.
“The emperor is having a discussion with the former minister in his study. I’ll accompany Ah Mui for dinner.” With a faint “hum,”
I tested the poison one by one with a silver needle, and then fed the vegetables to the rabbits one by one.
“Every time you think of the past, you kneel here all day.”
I raised my head and smiled at Huihui.
“It’s already a habit, so I’ll change it so that no one will get hold of it.”
She put a piece of fish in my bowl, but she didn’t move her chopsticks much, as if she was not interested.
“Ah Mui, if you’re not here, my life will be meaningless.” I was a little surprised when
she suddenly said such a sentence.
“Sister, why did you suddenly say that?”
I frowned and immediately retorted in a gentle voice: “Always save yourself first, and then think of others.”
She shook her head. “Ah Mui, you’re different.”
We have long regarded ourselves as each other’s family, and naturally we are different.
If something happens to me, the last thing I want is to involve her.
I told her to be cold and not to be impetuous countless times, and I thought she didn’t understand. It began to drizzle that
night, and the rain rustled on the trees, which made me have a headache, toss and turn, and still have no sleepiness.
Li Lanjing did not know when to come to my house.
I leaned into his arms, and he reached out to cover my ears gently, and the sounds around me seemed to disappear, only the sound of our breathing.
“Ah Mui, I don’t want to read Prime Minister Ji’s memorial today.”
My eyelashes are trembling. What can I hide now that things have come to this point?
“Ah Mui, you will tell me, right?”
Li Lanjing is like a child, pleading, eager and even cautious in her eyes.
He gently kissed my eyebrows and eyes, trying to find the light to illuminate him.
“If you want to hear it.” I spoke in a hoarse voice.
I looked into his eyes. I have never seen Li Lanjing cry since the day I
met him.
Despite his disagreements with the empress, he never bowed his head.
But why does he always cry in front of me? Does he look like that when he’s alone
with the queen?
Ah Ching. I am the daughter of a whore.
I closed my eyes with a wry smile, and hot tears fell slowly down the outline of my cheeks.
My father said I was an inferior person who allowed others to have fun. I’m too dirty..
He kissed me and hurriedly stopped what I had not finished saying.
“Ah Mui, you are not dirty at all. It is I who have defiled you, who are so pure and white..” I cried, and for the first time I didn’t feel cold. The rain
outside the window is getting louder and louder, but I don’t feel headache at all.
I was in a daze, leaving only the last sentence.
I am.. The illegitimate daughter of the Chi family who cannot be brought to the table.
……
The next day, Li Lanjing specifically told people not to wake me up, and I slept until noon.
Hui Hui went to inquire about the situation of the emperor for me, and Lu Yu stayed by my side to wait on me to wash.
“Imperial Concubine, I’ve heard that Chi Cheng has been arrested for colluding with the old general of the Cheng family.”
I stopped playing with the blue jade hairpin in my hand for a moment, and my mind was blank.
The incident was only half of what I expected. The collusion between the
Ji family and the Zheng family was a matter of two or three years, and I did not disclose it.
I have already arranged for people to search for good evidence in Ji Fu, but the time is not yet ripe, if I do not speak, none of them dare to start.
Ji’s family has always been cautious in doing things, but also pretended not to deal with the Zheng family in officialdom.
Who’s getting ahead of me?
I went to the Imperial Study with the newly made snow cake.
Li Lanjing stopped reading and looked up at me and smiled.
But he didn’t say anything. He just asked me if my head still hurt? What’s for lunch..
I looked at his dark eyes and felt calm.
Yes, he is the emperor.
Love is only a matter of time, and this world is what he wants.
I suddenly figured it out.
I no longer hesitate, just accompany him to read quietly as usual. After I finished
that day, I was summoned by the queen mother to Imperial Garden to enjoy the flowers. I was supported by Huihui, and I was a little flustered for no reason.
“Let Dew follow me.”
Huihui shook her head helplessly and patted my hand to comfort me.
“Ah Mui doesn’t trust me anymore?”
I had to give up.
As soon as I entered the Imperial Garden, the maid arranged by the emperor beside me was stopped. Mammy only said that the queen mother liked to be quiet and did not like too many people to disturb her. Looking at the anxious face of Aloe in the crowd, I hesitated for a long time or relaxed. “This is the maid who is waiting on me,”
I said in an impatient voice. “Is Mammy going to stop her too?” Mammy
Rong smiled and let her in.
The queen mother looked at me and the queen that similar face also surprised for a moment.
I helped the queen mother walk all the way. She pulled me and said that the lotus flowers by the lake were in full bloom and insisted that I go and have a look.
I looked at her face kind but no doubt words suddenly woke up, my words of resistance is useless, the palace eunuchs followed the queen mother hugged me to the lake, she pulled me to see the lotus.
But at the moment when I was thrown into the lake by a passing wild cat, I saw the queen mother’s exaggerated look of panic and felt very false. I
was not as flustered as I had imagined, but very calm.
I know. I know the queen mother dare not really let me die.
Perhaps human nature is like this, not human nature is good at the beginning.
I couldn’t catch the branches falling around me, so I choked in the lake. I knew how to swim. I was often kicked down by Ji Mei in the small lake in the courtyard of Ji Fu. I learned it naturally, but Huihui seemed to forget it.
She broke free of them and dived into the water to save me.
She’s a fool. How can she swim?
I managed to recover and swim forward, but I heard a “splash” behind me, and the spray seemed to explode in my heart. The man
behind me pushed me forward and carried me up for fear that something would happen to me.
But her strength was so weak that I could even feel her trembling.
At last I took her hand and tried desperately to go ashore with her, but her legs were entangled in something in the water. I tried to get into the lake to untie the thing that bound her, but she shook her head with a smile and her face was pale and weak.
I watched the person behind the queen mother stretched out a thick and long stick to me, I suddenly lost, Huihui pulled my hand to hold the stick, she opened her mouth, said something with her mouth, I did not understand.
I’m alive, on the edge of death.
I was soaked to the skin, my hair was wet and stuck to my body, and everyone looked at Huihui, who was flopping in the water with only strength. I had no strength to shout, and I spent all my strength to slap the maid who was holding me in the face.
“If something happens to her, I will bury all of you with her!”
The queen mother was stupefied, just advised me not to worry, not anxious not slow life people jumped into the water to catch up.
Her pale face had already fainted, and the coldness of my heart only felt stronger and stronger.
I can’t tell.
Can’t tell whether your face is cold lake water or tears? I can’t
tell whether I should hate the prime minister’s family or the ugly world?
Only Huihui thought that the queen mother would kill me, and only she had a true heart in the crowd. I don’t know where
this wild cat came from? Hurry up and bring it to the Ai family, so that the Ai family can have a better temper.
I shook my head.
“I’ve heard for a long time that Concubine Wen has someone close to her. It’s a pity.”
I turned my head and looked at the Empress Dowager coldly.
“The Empress Dowager is just a servant girl. Why should she be put to death?”
The Empress Dowager smiled softly and kindly, as if everything that had just happened no longer existed.
“The Ai family thought that Concubine Wen had a soft temper, but she was also spoiled by the emperor.”
“Empress Dowager, the wild cat’s temper is also her own habit.” When
I stood up, my eyes returned to their former calmness, obviously wet all over, but I did not feel a trace of embarrassment.
The Empress Dowager smiled at me, as if spoiling a disobedient child.
I can not ignore her eyes falling on the body of Hui Hui, it seems to see something funny,
I returned to the palace, what happened Imperial Garden has been covered up by the queen mother.
My clothes were also changed in advance.
I have sent someone to send Huihui out of the palace in the middle of the night.
She had a fever and her thoughts were not clear. She knelt on the ground and pulled my skirt. Her eyes were red with crying, but I was still unmoved. Her voice reverberated in the palace where there was no light to devour people’s hearts.
“Sooner or later, you and I will be harmed by your impetuous temper.”
My voice is very cold, looking at her being tied up, to the back of the carriage, finally can not help but feel a little uncomfortable.
Her back is the same as before, but it is getting farther and farther away. The girl who
secretly stuffed steamed bun for me, sang children’s songs to coax me to sleep, and led me to say that we would be together for a lifetime.
“Empress, it’s getting cold. It’s time to go back.”
Dew and rain interrupted my memory, and I gave a faint “hmm”.
Turn around and leave, never look back.
Today she will dive for me, and then she will be desperate to suffer for me. If
she is found to be my weakness by the queen mother, the future will not be easy.
I want her to be as far away from me as possible, so far away that we will never see each other again. She is a good girl and should not be entangled with me for a lifetime. It’s just a pity.
There was no chance to tell her that everything was her own priority. Farewell,
sister!
The queen mother would never take care of the emperor’s harem, and even turned a blind eye to Ji Mei’s exclusive favor.
Her relationship with the former Dynasty is not a day or two, I am a cheap slave from the palace maid to the position of the imperial concubine, this is a good thing for her, why do this to me?
The former prime minister Ji Lao was arrested, and then I was calculated.
It seemed that everything was doomed, and their interests were all tied together.
I looked down upon Prime Minister Ji.
I ordered someone to ask for the maid who was sent by the queen mother to the emperor.
I looked at the girl kneeling on the ground and not daring to look at me with a half-smile.
I ordered someone to lift her chin, and I looked at her beautiful little face, which could not hide her panic under her calm face.
I chuckled and didn’t embarrass her.
I brought you here just to see how smart you are. My palace has seen that your clothes are all old, and Shang Yijian has sent you a few bolts of material. You go and pick two.
I looked at her, and her voice was still gentle.
Chin thanked her blankly and reacted with a flash of surprise in her eyes.
Li Lanjing’s side is missing a person who does not look familiar, and no one has found it at all.
I asked Chin to wait on me with Dew and Rain, and her clothes and headdress were better than those of ordinary palace maids.
I always ask Lu Yu to boast quietly that she is really lucky and looks so delicate. With these jewelry, like the empress in the palace, she seems to be praised a little complacent, and always asks me for more when she has made a small contribution.
That day the emperor accompanied me to play chess, Chin took the liberty to bring tea and came in beautifully. I looked at her slender waist and twisted it just right. I smiled with my lips.
When she touched the emperor’s hand, she did not shy away at all. He just frowned for my sake.
“Why haven’t you seen this little girl before?”
Her eyes flashed slyly, but she pretended to look at me hurriedly.
I only told her lightly to step down, and only after watching her figure leave did I speak wittily: “This little girl was given to me by the Empress Dowager, and she is very clever.”
Li Lanjing was stupefied. “Don’t trust others,” she said casually. “It’s just a little servant girl.”. I remember you had a man named Huihui who served you well. I
was stupefied when I heard this. Naturally served well, we grew up together, we are familiar with each other’s favorite food, favorite clothes, understand the emotions in each other’s eyes.
No one will ever be like us again.
“Hui Hui and I grew up together, and we were half sisters.”
“But something happened a while ago, which made the Empress Dowager angry, and she was punished.”
With these words, my eyes showed loneliness.
What is it? Why don’t I know?
He was stunned for a moment, as if to react, and immediately laughed angrily.
“I didn’t know that there was already a queen mother in the palace, and even I hid it from her.”
He took my hand in a concerned tone.
“Are you hurt?”
I pretended to be guilty and shook my head, smiling reluctantly.
The emperor’s eyes were heavy, but I lowered my eyes and stopped talking.
……
“Where is Chin?”
Dew took off his robe for me, and his tone was pleasant.
“Lady, the fish is about to bite.”
I caught a glimpse of the smile in her eyes, not a word, but a reminder.
“Don’t show what’s in your heart on your face.”
The dew and rain were clear and nodded gently.
“If you are quick to take the bait, then put more bait.” I fed the rabbit the snack I
had just brought up, and I couldn’t help but feel happy when I saw it eating happily.
Chin’s name has been spread by me for a long time, and I am dedicated to protecting the Lord and respecting me.
The queen mother’s attitude is just two.
On the one hand, I suspected Chin’s loyalty, and on the other hand, I let her use me to ascend the throne.
“What happened to the person I asked you to check?”
“The maidservant spent some time, thanks to the secret help of Luo Guiren.”
“Mother Jung lost her family long ago outside the palace.”
“Mammy Jung died a complete death at home before she followed the Empress Dowager into the palace, but the maidservant found her only niece, who had been living outside for many years.”
I lowered my eyes and said in a heavy tone, “If Mammy Rong has something to do, it means that the Empress Dowager has something to do. Tell this girl the news.”
Lu Yu is stupefied, not quite understanding: “What kind of storm can a girl set off?”
“If we make a lot of noise, it’s hard to avoid spooking the enemy. Who will take care of a folk maid?”.
I touched the rabbit, and the strength of my hands was slightly greater. Why do you think
the emperor and the Empress Dowager have been at odds for so many years? But because of her association with the former court. When I was in dispute
with the Empress Dowager, I was found out by someone who had a good intention. The women in the harem were just the daughters of the people in the former court. They avoided me with the Empress Dowager, and they also chose to stand in line with me. There were always people who came to ask for tea in the future, talked about the trivial and interesting things in the harem, and then revealed some things about the former court to me.
This is probably one of the reasons why Li Lanjing trusted me.
If I don’t have a prominent family affair, he will not have concubines to have much contact with me.
I will not interfere in the affairs of his former Dynasty, nor will I form a clique to harm his country.
At night, Feng Pin came to my bedroom.
Her appearance is not beautiful, but she is really dignified.
“I’ve heard for a long time that the Empress likes to read history books, so I specially asked for a few.” With a faint smile,
I picked up a book and flipped through it.
I looked at the contents of the book in a daze, killing the mother and leaving the son.
Feng Pin looked at my reaction and explained.
“This is my favorite article to read. People really can do anything for power and position.”
I suddenly reacted, and finally just ordered people to send Feng Pin away. Early
the next morning, I sent someone to invite Mammy Wei, who had raised the emperor since childhood. What
the late emperor once valued most was the present emperor, and one of the empress Dowager’s sons and daughters died in battle, and the other was sent to other countries for marriage. Li Lanjing’s mother passed away early, and he was recorded in the name of the queen mother, but the queen mother had little discipline for him, and Mammy Wei had always taken care of him.
Wei Mammy followed Li Lanjing’s mother into the palace. As soon as Mam
my Wei arrived, I helped her into her seat and served her tea with my own hands. Mam
my Wei was old and somewhat flattered.
I spoke on my own initiative, looking worried: “The emperor hasn’t been sleeping well these days. He’s always thinking of his mother in his sleep.”
Wei Mammy was stupefied and did not follow my wishes.
“It must be that the emperor has been so tired these days that he has bothered the empress.”
I hid the loneliness in my eyes and smiled bitterly.
“Mammy doesn’t know, and my mother left early. Seeing Your Majesty like this, I really don’t know what to do.”
“Does the emperor know that you have come to see me?”
I shook my head. “I’m afraid he’s worried.”
“Mammy was close to the emperor’s mother. I want to ask Mammy if the emperor has any taboos.”
“I’m afraid the old slave can’t live up to the expectations of the imperial concubine.”
Mammy.. The emperor respects you, and I fear you.
“If the emperor’s mother were still alive, it would be painful to see the emperor like this.”
“If my young lady were here, she..”
Wei Mammy was indignant, but hesitated to speak.
“I wonder if Mammy heard the rumor?” As I
spoke, I pushed the book on the table closer, and the contents of the book were revealed in the eyes of Mammy Wei. There was a flicker of panic in her
eyes, and her tone was cold. “What does the empress know?”
My tone was calm and still respectful.
Mammy, the emperor treats you like a family member, and so do I. The emperor is very kind to Mammy. Don’t you really feel sorry for him when you see him worrying every night?
Wei Mammy shook her mind, but was silent.
“Mammy, the emperor is one of the few people in this palace who is sincere to you.”
Finally, Mammy Wei told me a lot.
She followed her daughter from an early age until she entered the palace. The
girl in her family is not in a high position, and she is very popular with Your Majesty today. The late emperor loved this son. He loved literature and martial arts, but he had a birth mother who did not like to compete for favor and had no prominent family background.
The present queen mother was still the queen at that time, and she was depressed after losing her son, and she always asked her girl to accompany her. The day
her girl died was a very ordinary day. She accompanied the emperor to study together and tied his hair. When she wanted to sleep at night, she told Mammy Wei that she missed her family. Mam
my Wei smiled and said it was a matter of time.
She smiled wearily at the bronze mirror. “That’s good. May they all be safe.”
Only the next day to meet again, is a white silk hanging in the hall of a cold body.
Mammy said that the blood on the white silk was very bright, and later her funeral was so hasty that no one mentioned it again. Wei Mammy still remembered that she was almost put to death by the queen because of her dowry, and it was Li Lanjing who saved her.
Wei Mammy could not forget the melancholy of her young lady every time she came out of the queen’s palace. She could not forget the cold eyes of the queen when she saw her young lady’s body. She knew that the late emperor knew about it. Otherwise, Li Lanjing would not have been recorded in the name of the queen on the day of the funeral. Finally, with red eyes, Mam
my Wei murmured, “I’m sorry, Miss..”
On that day, several concubines gathered in my palace to amuse my little rabbit.
“Two days ago I sent a letter to my family saying that Mammy Du-jung had come out of the palace to offer incense to her relatives at the Cobalt Temple, but she was caught in the restaurant with a Wang family father beside her, who seemed to be talking about the affairs of the former Dynasty.” The elder brother of
Rui Guiren’s mother’s family was being put in an important position by the emperor. He was young and talented, and his official career was going well.
Someone accosted him in a strange way, saying, “You’re all old people in the palace, but you don’t care about everything.”
I just smiled faintly.
“But the story didn’t get around, as if someone had deliberately covered it up.” Everyone knows the meaning of the
words, and such a great power must be a member of the royal family.
“My palace is tired, so I won’t see you sisters off.”
I saw the guests off quietly and did not talk to them about it.
I went to the small kitchen, prepared the sweet soup, packed the food box and went to the Imperial Study.
Li Lanjing was sitting in front of the bookcase, frowning, and when he saw me come in, he smiled.
I sat beside him, covered his eyes, and laughed at him.
“Always frowning and becoming ugly. I don’t want you anymore.”
He had no choice but to take my hand and said softly, “It seems that I have to take good care of myself, lest some people dislike me.”
I picked up the sweet soup to feed him and asked him with a smile if it was delicious?
“It must be delicious. Why did you think of making sweet soup today?”
“Mammy Wei told me that she always liked sweets when she was old, so I thought I’d make some for Mammy myself.”
“When did you see Mammy Wei?” Smiling,
I leaned on his shoulder and replied, “Mammy says I’m good-looking and happy, so she always wants to see me more.”. I won’t be with Ah Ching for a while. I’m going to Mammy’s house to keep her company. I
suddenly remembered something, and I turned around and said, “These days the noble always comes to see me, and I see her with a sad face.”
“Your Majesty will also send me some sweet soup to the noble, so that you can persuade her.”
Li Lanjing smiled and had to answer.
Rui Gui is not stupid. She knows what to say. After
I left, I went to Mammy Wei’s house. She was surprised for a moment when she saw me.
“Mammy, if you had the chance, would you tell the emperor?”
She was stunned and understood what I meant.
“It’s all in the past, so what’s there to pursue?”
I smiled at Mammy.
Mammy went to the palace with the emperor’s mother and went through all kinds of things. Don’t you miss her like the emperor when you sleep?
“Mammy, now that the emperor is protecting you, no one dares to bully you anymore.”
Wei Mammy Leng Leng, her eyes deep, seems to fall into the memories of that year.
“Not only because you grew up with the emperor, but also because of your friendship with her.”
I saw Mammy Wei wipe the tears from her face and finally just called me into the house with her.
She taught me embroidery all afternoon. She said it was rare for a spoiled girl like me not to embroidery. She looked down at my hands, which were scarred and calloused.
“It seems that the empress has suffered a lot to get to where she is now.”
Bitter? Nature is not bitter. I chose
this road.
…… I left
in the evening, and I let the people who followed me go back to the palace first. When the
cool breeze blew, I walked aimlessly, and finally came to the magnolia tree.
Dew and rain stood beside me, with an incredible tone.
“Magnolia trees will be in bloom at the end of August.”
The petals are falling down, drifting farther and farther away with the breeze.
I can’t help but recall the first encounter between Li Lanjing and Ji Mei.
I have long forgotten, that is Ji Mei or my figure?
The breeze and the fragrance of flowers are all around me.
“Mui!”
The boy’s deep, smiling voice came from behind.
I was stunned and turned around.
Li Lanjing, dressed in white, does not touch the world.
He smiled brightly, and the orange sun shone on him in the evening, which made me shake my mind again.
He approached me, leaned over and smiled at me.
“This is the first time I’ve seen magnolia flowers in August.”
“It’s really a beautiful woman with beautiful scenery. It’s really gorgeous.”
My thoughts are very confused and inexplicably brought back to the past, I have been unable to calm down about the past.
Curse! Rebuke! The endless darkness keeps coming back in my mind.
My cold tears suddenly flowed down, Li Lanjing Leng Leng, just quietly looking at me.
“Li Lan-ching, I hate the Chi family.”
I confided in him once again.
I was silent for a long time, Li Lanjing just pulled me into his arms, very tight and hot.
“Good.”
Li Lanjing accompanied me back, but he didn’t ask me anything. When I woke up
the next day, Li Lanjing was sitting at his desk writing something.
“When the Chi family was involved in conspiracy, they were all beheaded the next day.”
My steps toward Li Lanjing suddenly stopped. The calm determination in
his eyes was seen by me. “I want to see him,”
I said quietly.
Li Lanjing smiled at me. “I’ll go with you later.”
I shook my head, and he did not reluctantly answer.
The inner prison was gloomy and dark. There was a continuous sound of drops of water in
my ears, and the wet ground was a little slippery. Screams were heard in the
messy cell, which was full of wolves, and a smell came to my face.
Ji old prime minister’s cell is different from other people gathered in a pile, he is the only one in this cell.
I asked Lu Yu to send the jailer away and ordered her to wait for me outside.
I looked at the man who was leaning against the wall and staring at me in the dark cell. Prime Minister Ji was already old. Under his disheveled gray hair was a pair of deep-set eyes. His eyes were flat but revealed a trace of imperceptible light. He was indifferent but not afraid. It
looks like what I looked like when I killed Ji Mei.
I stepped forward and put my hand on the rusty fence.
“I never thought that the Chi family would be defeated by you.”
I smiled at him and asked, “Does Prime Minister Ji regret that he didn’t kill me?”
“Very regretful.” His tone was flat and did not stir up any waves.
“Prime Minister Ji, were you sad when Ji Mei died?”
His face did not change at all, and he still looked at me with an expressionless face.
“I’ve been thinking too much. How could such a ruthless man as Prime Minister Ji cry bitterly for the sake of love?”
I was a little frustrated, and I thought he would be upset.
“Father, your daughter has come to see you for the last time. Don’t you have anything to say to stay?”
I saw a slight frown between his eyebrows, and finally he showed his emotions.
“You’re my daughter. What do you think is going to happen to you?”
I laughed and said, “I am not only your daughter, but the son of man under your mouth.”
Do you think you can work in this palace? Heaven is merciless. You just became an imperial concubine by virtue of your similar appearance to Ji Mei. Your identity, your love, it’s all stolen. Ji Mei, you will die in this palace sooner or later.
I never thought I would be rewarded. Death is a gift to me.
I climbed up on the bones of countless people and looked at the only light left to illuminate me.
But it still went out.
I raised my eyes, looked at him coldly, and finally turned away.
His cries kept coming. He called my name and cursed me for a terrible death.
My heart seems to be flat again.
Dad, you finally admit that I am your daughter.
“Empress, the ginger soup is ready.”
Chin brought the ginger soup in, and I looked at it lightly and told her to go out.
I looked at the dew and rain, and she came forward and poured the powder in her hands into the hot ginger soup. Since Chin followed me, I asked her to cook ginger soup for me every night. After she left, she let the dew and rain go in again. A small amount of medicine harmful to my body lasted for half a month. Have you taken all the
medicine? Be careful tonight, so as not to frighten the enemy. After a pause, the
dew and rain still reminded him, “Empress, this medicine..”
I interrupted, “It doesn’t matter.”
At night, I had a high fever, and in a daze, I saw the figure of Li Lanjing.
I propped myself up, but there was a fishy sweetness in my throat. At the end of my
memory, Li Lanjing was kneeling at the head of my bed, with decadent and moist eyes. I looked at him, and suddenly it was dark in front of me.
……
It’s outside the palace. In the evening, the streets of
Beijing are bustling and bustling.
I stood in the middle of the heavy traffic, but I saw Huihui, who waved to me with a smile.
“Mui!”
I was stupefied, but I saw Ji Mei standing beside her. The girl’s face was full of charm. She was dressed in beautiful clothes, holding a round fan in her hand and gently covering half of her little face.
Without waiting for my reaction, I had been pushed away by the surging crowd, surrounded by strange faces. Only Li Lanjing, dressed in white, was riding past me. His eyes fell on my body, with a frivolous smile. I wanted to run to him, but my legs could not move as if they were filled with lead. His back did not stay because of my desire.
I was at a loss for no reason, so I had to look up at the moon.
I suddenly felt hot and humid cheeks, tears across my cheeks, fell into my mouth, so salty and bitter. No one
in this world is willing to stay for me, and I will not try my best but expect. When I opened my eyes
again, several days had passed, and the faces of the people who appeared in the dream were engraved in my heart.
My throat is dry, and the tea is less hoarse.
“Empress, it’s still dark. Take a rest.”
I raised my eyes and kept silent.
I got up and put on my coat and opened the window. The slight coolness of the air and the strong fragrance of the flowers made me particularly sober.
“Empress, Chin is dead.”
“How is the queen mother?”
Your Majesty.. She said that the queen mother’s health was not as good as before, so she had to rest in Palace of Compassion and Tranquility and not be disturbed.
“Get someone to tell Mammy Wei that the time has come.” After a pause,
I continued, “Don’t forget to ask the maid outside the palace to add some fire. The more chaotic it is, the better.”
Lu Yu is gone.
I sat on the chair and suddenly saw through Li Lanjing.
The queen mother was his mother, who colluded with the former Dynasty to persecute the people around him, causing public indignation at most. If he was disposed of, the world would only say that he was cold-blooded and heartless.
But he and the queen mother already have a grudge, come and go, but it is only a matter of time to die.
I just added fuel to the flames and helped Li Lanjing.
I helped him make a choice and help him defend the country.
I helped him get the love he wanted.
Li Lanjing, I don’t owe you.
I sat all night, Li Lanjing came with a tired face, and when he saw me sitting, he showed a smile.
I knew he had seen Mammy Wei and had a shortcut to get rid of the queen mother.
He was familiar with the road and wanted to pull me into his arms, but I dodged without any trace.
“Why didn’t the emperor go to the morning court?”
He lowered his eyes and pulled me up.
“I’m too tired. I want to have a rest.” As
he spoke, he leaned close to me and kissed me gently between the eyebrows.
His voice was also a little haggard.
“Ah Mui, will you be my only wife?”
I was stupefied, and when I approached him with scheming in my mind, his face of nostalgia for me and his careful tenderness for me seemed to be out of reach but within reach.
“You bear a resemblance to my late wife.”
He sees me as a stand-in. I come to him for hate.
Our feelings are extremely impure, we are close to each other and use each other, separated by the bones of countless people.
Withdrawing thoughts, I stood on tiptoe, conforming to his movements, I kissed his lips, very cold. I
opened my eyes and watched him sink into it. When the ambiguous movements between my lips stopped, I said in a faint voice, “It was my concubine who killed the woman your majesty loves most.”
His eyelashes trembled, and finally he just quietly raised his hand to wipe away the tears from my eyes.
Inexplicably, I didn’t know I was crying.
His voice was deep, as soft as ever: “I know.”
I can’t forget the feeling of my heart beating violently again. At this moment, Li Lanjing’s appearance is engraved in my heart.
“Ah Mui, try to love me.”
In silence, we all stopped talking.
……
Later, the queen mother was given poisonous wine, and the silence in the harem was silent and turbulent.
I invited myself to the cold palace, and the emperor lowered his eyes to cover the emotions in his eyes.
He still did not refute me, nor did he ask why? Still did what I wanted.
The cold palace seemed to have been cleaned up deliberately, but it was still empty.
Broken flowers are ruined, and the family is in deep cold. In the
damp and dark hall, although it is summer, there is still a cold wind.
Lu Yu told me that Li Lanjing always came to see me in the middle of the night when I was asleep.
It’s just that dew and rain don’t know that I haven’t slept for countless nights.
That night.
I sat in a rocking chair in the yard and looked at the moon until I saw the figure.
Li Lanjing sat on the steps, quietly accompanying me.
“Your Majesty, people are always greedy in this life.”
My voice is very soft. Who does
Li Lanjing love?
He loves the world.
He was willing to plunge into darkness for the sake of the world. He dealt with the harem of the former court, but disdained to put his heart into it with these people.
He is lonely, but aloof.
He loved Ji Mei and the encounter with the girl under the magnolia tree.
But Tianjia is merciless, Ji Mei only learned how to pay her heart from me, but never really understood Li Lanjing.
Li Lanjing did not move the Ji family from beginning to end, but it did not mean that he did not know what the Ji family had done, which was one of his few shames.
He loves me and knows the threat of the Ji family to his position, so he is willing to comply with my wishes, just to get rid of the disaster.
I know what it’s like to struggle alone in the dark.
So I would say to him, “I’m not going to let you suffer alone anymore.”
He has power and influence, but not pure love.
I have no power, and he spoils me and makes enemies for me, so he must not be afraid that I will seize the country. But he also lusted for the unique love I gave him, which was the only one he could get close to in the palace.
Li Lan-ching looked sideways at me and asked, “Was it you or Chi Mei that we met for the first time under the magnolia tree?”
I understood that he had wanted to ask me for a long time. My voice was flat: “It doesn’t matter.”
Li Lanjing looked at me deeply and finally got up and brushed it. Under the
bright moon, the moonlight sprinkled his red dress. He seemed to be shuttling between black and white, and I couldn’t tell whether he was pure and clean or reckless and paranoid? The beauty of
youth and the darkness of the palace form a strong contrast, and time is suddenly fixed.
Is definitely, is never dim.
Still later, the emperor made other people empresses, and they respected each other.
Li Lanjing no longer came to see me, I am hot in summer and cold in winter, no longer accompanied.
Luo Guiren once said that we are a good match, because we are both false and true. I must tell her if I
have a chance.
We are transparent and confused, only we are the most incompatible.
“Ah Mui, are you afraid of me?”
“Ah Mui, you are not dirty at all. I have defiled you.”
“Ah Mui, try to love me.”
His voice.
His smile.
His back.
Forever branded in my heart.
Unfortunately, I never heard him say, “I love you.”
I laughed out loud, I looked at the high palace wall, as far as the eye could see.
I will never have a chance to see magnolia flowers together again.
“Li Lan-ching, remember to be a wise king.”
This is what you ask for, and I hope you get what you want. The fallen leaves on
the withered trees drifted aimlessly with the wind, but they could not escape.
……
I have done evil all my life, and I only deserve to be bound in this palace.
In this world, no one knows me anymore.
Record No.: YX01VmYJ9oaMgq9rR
Released on 2022-07-04 11:05 · Forbidden to Reprint
Fanghua Complaint: Fireworks are easy to be cold, for whom to bend
the waist, Fat Duffy, etc.
