How disgusting can
some boys be? One of
my best friends married a rich man, and we all thought that there would be a rich and powerful family, but after three years of marriage, the couple loved each other and lived a happy life, which made us envious.
But that day, she suddenly divorced, caught off guard, the couple were still discussing how to spend the Mid-Autumn Festival, her husband suddenly mentioned divorce.
The reason is that the ex came back and held their children in his hands. As a man, he must be responsible to the end. What does
this “after all” mean? It means that I want my best friend, without any fault, to immediately pack up her things and make room for the old man.
I thought that after three years of marriage, she must be more uncomfortable than collapse of the sky, but she did something that made me sit up and take notice. At the time of the
divorce, Anqin got drunk and said to her friends, “I don’t want to see Song Yi anymore.”.
Unfortunately, less than ten days later, she met her ex-husband at a friend’s private party.
No way, the circle is so big, she was not drunk at that time, so they smiled and nodded appropriately-very decent, anyone who saw it would praise it, the two divorced very gracefully.
They divorced peacefully. How peaceful is it? Ten minutes
before Sung Yi opened her mouth to talk about the divorce, An Qin was still talking to him about the Mid-Autumn Festival. She prepared moon cakes and gifts, divided them according to different people’s preferences, and told Sung Yi about her own arrangements: Your mother called yesterday to say that there would be a small family gathering on the night of the Mid-Autumn Festival, and that there would be many rules, and you would not be able to get away. We went to my mother’s house in the morning, went home after lunch, and stayed at the ancestral home in the evening. After
getting married, she quickly found her own place in the huge family and interpersonal relationships of the Sung family. Everyone praised her for her delicacy, and even his mother, who was extremely picky and harsh, was satisfied with this daughter-in-law who had been chosen by thousands of people. This is the advantage of being well-matched. They are both children who grew up in a big family. They have their own means of personnel relations, which saves effort and trouble.
But he had a rare absence, and Anqin soon noticed that he was absent-minded, so he stopped talking in time, took a sip of the cup on the tea table, and then asked thoughtfully, “Did something happen to you?”?
“He pondered for a moment, and then with a calm attitude negotiated with Anqin:” Let’s divorce.
Anqin looked up at him, as calm as if her eyes were out of focus very quickly. It was the confusion caused by too much impact, but it was not obvious on her face. She quickly reacted and did not even ask him if he was joking. Her eyes wandered inch by inch in his face, as if to confirm that his words at this time had been carefully considered.
She quickly got her own judgment, so she was silent for a moment and asked him, “What’s the reason?”?
Song Yi felt that the following words were a bit difficult to say. He seldom felt guilty about a person like this, but he had to say: I’m sorry, I had one before. There is a person I like very much, but the family does not agree. I met her the other day.. In a few words, Anqin understood the cause and effect of the matter. Holding the cup, her phalanges turned slightly white. She looked at him and asked very quickly, “Did you have an affair in marriage?”?
Sung Yi froze for a moment and then said, No.. No, I just met her two days ago.
He spoke with difficulty. Anqin’s tight shoulders relaxed slightly, and Song Yi continued to explain, But Anqin, I don’t know, six years ago.. When she left me six years ago, she was pregnant. The cup in
his hand fell to the ground. The house was covered with a thick blanket, which Anqin had picked out herself after she got married. When the cup fell, there was no sound. The water soaked into the carpet, but the color was darker. It was only in a trance that
she heard Sung Yi say, “That child..” The child is 5 years old this year. It
took Anqin a long time to find her own voice, probably because she was thirsty, so her voice was dry and hoarse. She began to arrange for the divorce: “This is because of you, on your mother’s side.” She paused and adjusted her words. “On your mother’s side, you go to explain. My parents may also embarrass you, but I can’t stop you. You have to be prepared in advance.
We don’t have much common property. There are two common properties under our names. This one belongs to me, and the one in a city, which is closer to your company, belongs to you.
I will pack your luggage in this house and give it to your assistant by tonight.
Song Yi, who had been listening in silence, interrupted her and said, I’m sorry. The house in a city also belongs to you. In addition, we have some bond funds in our hands. These are all for you.
An Qin nodded in silence. Their common property was not much, but they were not people who cared about these things. Song Yi only alleviated her guilt in this way. An Qin did not speak. After a long time, she said: You can handle the divorce by yourself, and you can explain it to the elders.
She rubbed her temples wearily and then said, “The elders have convinced me. You sign the divorce agreement and send it to me. I’ll sign it and send it to you. After you get the divorce certificate, you can ask your assistant to put it in the living room of the house in a city. I’ll get it when I have time.”.
Things were so clear that they were simpler than any time Song Yi had ever had in his mind. He even thought about how he could convince Anqin, but she didn’t give him a chance. The
above thoughts seemed to have exhausted her energy, so she smiled slightly, alienated and strange: “Mr. Song, it’s getting late. If you have something to do, you can go to work first. By the way, don’t forget to leave the key to the house.”.
Song Yi stood up. As soon as he
turned around and took two steps, he heard Anqin behind him calling him, “Mr. Soong, don’t forget to take away the moon cakes and gifts in the living room.”.
“She smiled.” I won’t go to the Mid-Autumn Festival. When she
went out, Song Yi looked back at the living room. Anqin lay back on the sofa, covering her face with her hands. She looked very thin. When Song Yi walked out of the door, she even wondered if Anqin was crying, because her body was trembling slightly.
But his footsteps stagnated for a moment, and he did not look back.
Perhaps it was a mistake, he thought, after all, she was so calm and calm, but it was also true that they did not marry because they loved each other. Song Yi’s mother flew into a rage after
the divorce broke her bones. Her mutual friend in the circle gossiped with Anqin. Song Yi had a bright slap print on her face during that time. In fact, the old man called Anqin once and said in a tone of hatred: “If he wants to divorce, he will divorce. Won’t you come up with some means?”?
“” Children?
The child belongs to the Song family. Is she Zhao Jing? When the
child enters the Song family, I recognize her. Does she deserve it?
“Finally, she softened her voice and said,” Qinqin, mother knows that you have been wronged. Mother will make decisions for you. You — “Anqin interrupted her and said,” Auntie. “There was a very obvious choking on the opposite side. Anqin continued,” Auntie, I have agreed to divorce.
This sentence hurt the old man’s heart. In fact, she liked Anqin very much, and she was also good to her. It can be said that she loved her own daughter. So after a long pause, she hung up the phone with a deep sigh.
Things are so big, probably not a month later, the Song family in the end is softened, Song Yi’s mother again angry, but also can not help such a small child standing in front of a timid call grandma.
The divorce agreement was sent to Anjia by Song Yi himself. Anqin’s parents were both decent people. They were professors at famous universities. They couldn’t do anything to abuse and fight. They were so angry that they could only speak loudly. Song Yi knelt down in front of the two old people for a day before Anqin’s mother called her back.
Song Yi is the favored son of heaven, Anqin came back to see him standing under the ginkgo tree in his yard, the twists and turns of this period of time probably made him exhausted, but soon, he kept the clouds open to see the moon.
Ginkgo leaves rustled on the branches, and the golden layers spread over them. Anqin stood behind him and called him. He turned around. Anqin even smiled and said, “Didn’t you say just send it to me?”?
Sung Yi was silent: After all, I have come to apologize to the two old people. Then
he looked at Anqin, his dark eyes deep, and said, I’m sorry, too.
An Qin turned his head very quickly, blinked his eyes hard, then held out his hand and said, All right, give me the agreement.
An Qin signed it and sent it to Song Yi’s assistant. Not long after that, she received a text message from Song Yi, saying that the divorce certificate had been placed on the entrance of the house in a city, so that she could get it at any time if she needed it.
She replied politely, “I know, thank you.”.
Their social circles overlap too much, and even if they deliberately avoid it, sometimes they can’t avoid it. When they met at that private banquet, they nodded and smiled, and everyone’s eyes were more or less fixed on them. Song Yi also asked politely, “How are you recently?”? Very well,
thank you, and you?
Me too.
It was as if they had not shared a bed for more than three years — three years, five months, and six days.
Of course, the traces of more than three years are not traceless. During the period of their divorce, Anqin felt uncomfortable. After the divorce, she experienced insomnia, loss of appetite and vomiting for a long time. She thought it was gastrointestinal discomfort caused by fatigue and insomnia. After the symptoms lasted for more than half a month, she went to the hospital. After
holding the test sheet, she sat on a bench in the garden downstairs of the hospital for a whole afternoon. The late summer sun was still very hot. She was completely exposed to the sun, but she still felt cold. Her arms were tightly around her. It was really bloody. She laughed in her heart, but she could not help showing a desolate smile on her face.
Anqin saw Song Yi when she was taking takeout. After the divorce, she lived in the apartment she bought. Song Yi came once. He probably searched all the places he knew. When Anqin went back with his slippers and seafood rice, he saw Song Yi’s car downstairs. He was leaning on the door, smoking a cigarette, with three or four cigarette butts at his feet.
An Qin suddenly, she went to the hospital is the Song family investment, the major shareholder, after she got married in this hospital has a regular physical examination, when she went to the hospital she did not think of this stubble, so Song Yi so quickly know the news is normal.
Song Yi is actually the most restrained and tolerant person Anqin has ever seen, which probably has something to do with his growth. His controlling mother caused his character to be suppressed by forbearance. He is very self-controlled and seldom smokes. Now, after smoking so many cigarettes in such a short time, Anqin can almost feel his anxiety. Fan at her in the form of an emotional entity.
So she stopped unconsciously, Song Yi looked up at her, then quickly put out the cigarette butt, raised his hand and waved the smell of smoke in the air, and then looked at Anqin, the two men confronted in silence.
After a long time, Anqin heard him ask in a difficult tone, “What are you going to do with this child?”?
They have been married for more than three years, and they spend less time together and more time apart. Sung Yi is a very responsible person in her bones. If he hadn’t asked for a divorce this time, she would never have known that he had someone in his heart.
He has been fulfilling the responsibilities of a husband, tolerant, considerate, steady, remember every anniversary and her birthday, remember her preferences and tastes, in addition to not loving her, this person is simply a model husband of filial piety.
Now he stood in front of her and asked with difficulty, word by word, “You don’t want to keep this child, do you?”?
An Qin didn’t know what kind of emotion and expression she was going to use to face Song Yi, who asked this question, so she tried to ask calmly, Are we divorced?
This is my business, Mr. Song.
Song Yi looked down at her. He was very tall, and he looked down at people like this. But the light from the roadside broke into his eyes, and there seemed to be something surging in his eyes. Unfortunately, it was suppressed by him.
Later, in retrospect, the only thing that made Anqin feel better was his hoarse and deep voice, as if he was sorry for his decision, or sad for the child who had no chance to be born. He said, “You know Anqin, this child..” If our families knew of the existence of this child.. He hesitated to speak, and Anqin instantly understood that if the two families knew the existence of the child, she and Song Yi would be escorted by the two families to the Civil Affairs Bureau to remarry, especially his first love who had gone away sadly, and with that child, he would never have a chance to step into the door of the Song family in his life. The chips at both ends of the
scale were clear, and the choice was so easy that Song Yi did not need to think too much, so when he heard the news, he immediately drove over. Anqin, who did not say a word of nonsense at the time of
divorce, Anqin, who was laughed at by people in the circle, and Anqin, who saw that Song Yi could still maintain dignity and harmony, finally raised his hand, and the heavy slap finally slapped Song Yi’s face after several months.
He accepted in silence.
She went to C city alone to have an operation. Song An’s two families have a wide range of connections. Any hospital in a city will have such an operation spread to the ears of the two old people, so they can only go out. When she was lying on the hospital bed
with anesthetic, she saw the ginkgo tree outside the window. The wind was very strong that day, and the ginkgo leaves were falling down when they were whistling. She remembered that day when she was holding the medical certificate, she didn’t know what to do. After
covering her lower abdomen and thinking without thinking for a long time, she ordered the only normal meal after the divorce. At that time, she thought that if the child was born malnourished, it would be bad. She dared not tell any of her close relatives and friends about the
abortion. She came out of the hospital bed with her lower abdomen covered, and a tall figure bent down against the wall.
Song Yi knew that the time and place of her operation was also very normal, obviously the person who performed the operation was her, but he seemed to be in great pain, one hand with a fist against the forehead, eyes closed.
An Qin had just finished the operation and was trembling all over, so everything was trembling. When Song Yi came trembling to help her, she pushed her away.
She did not use any strength, no strength, but Song Yi a stagger, against the wall to stabilize the body, pale face and she said sorry.
She was numb with pain and passed him without squinting.
Song Yi finally got his wish, and it was already a year later.
At that time, she was on vacation in Australia, and the people around her protected Anqin very well. She saw a photo shared by their mutual friends in the circle of friends. It was an invitation card, with a bouquet of flowers in the background and a white tablecloth. It was probably the wedding scene. It was out of focus. You could see two names written by hand side by side: Song Yi and Zhao Jing.
She was stupefied for a moment, and when she refreshed it again, she saw a familiar friend commenting under the comment: “Why do you send it to the circle of friends?”?
Probably because she was afraid to see it, the post was quickly deleted in the circle of friends-I don’t know if she blocked it and sent it again. When someone called her in the
evening, she was lying on the balcony, with the blue sky hanging low, and her friend hesitating for a long time. Finally, even Anqin couldn’t listen any more, so she asked bluntly, “Did Song Yi and his first love come to fruition?”?
Her tone was really too calm, not indignant, not sad, so the friend breathed a sigh of relief, probably because she felt that Song Yi divorced her for a grass-roots first love, just hurt her face, two people who married because of their matching life experience, what feelings do they have?
So when the friend was surprised, he began to gossip with her with great interest. His tone was disdainful: “It’s not like you don’t know the old lady of the Sung family who is not on the stage.”? In
such a big family, the daughter-in-law of the eldest son and grandson only set up five tables for the banquet.
When she married Sung Yi, the wedding banquet of the Shan Sung and An families lasted for eight days, and her good friend defended Anqin against injustice, so her tone was obviously gloating: It is said that it was the original words of the old lady of the Sung family, a woman of unknown origin, who did not close the door and quietly took in the Sung family, even if she gave Sung Yi face. How do you want to make a big show?
This was to give Anjia face. Anqin kept silent, and finally hung up the phone dispiritedly. His mind was blank, as if he had thought a lot of things, and as if he had not.
At last she lay down on the couch and fell asleep, as if she had had a dream. In the
dream, when she first married Song Yi, they went to Delphi for their honeymoon. Delphi was her choice, not the best choice for honeymoon, but she liked it very much, because in Greek legend, one day, Zeus wanted to find out where the center of the world was, so he released a dove in the opposite direction. The two doves finally met at Delphi, and both of them stayed on an ovoid boulder, so Zeus decided that Delphi was the center of the world.
It’s a very romantic city.
But the honeymoon of two people without emotional foundation is really not related to romance. From their departure to the time they put down their luggage in the hotel, Song Yi never stopped dealing with official business. As soon as
she and Sung Yi first came into contact with marriage, it was only that the elders of both sides thought it was appropriate, and neither side mentioned their feelings. An Qin was good at hiding her feelings, but no matter how decent and generous she was, she was just a 23-year-old girl who had just got married. When Sung Yi was dealing with official business without raising her head, she said in a fit of pique, “You’re busy, and I’ll go out myself.”.
She lost her way at the foot of the hill in the small town of Kalambaka. The ruins here are ancient and complete, standing solemnly and solemnly. During the day, they are magnificent scenery. At night, the tall and ancient stone carvings reflect the elongated reflection in the sunset light. The open place seems empty. Anqin was afraid at that time. When
she called Song Yi, she almost cried out, but Song Yi’s voice had a strange calming power through the voice of the telephone. He asked calmly, “Where are you?”? What are the landmarks
around you?
At last he said, “Stay where you are. I’ll be there soon.”. After
a pause, he added, “Don’t be afraid.”.
He did come very quickly. His tall figure shuttled back and forth from the tall and simple stone carvings against the light. He kept looking around. There was a clear anxious look on his face. In fact, Anqin didn’t know what she was thinking at that moment. It was a bang in her brain. She subconsciously reached out her hand and waved to Song Yi. Shouting loudly, “Sung Yi–” Sung Yi raised his eyes and looked at her. He breathed a sigh of relief and relaxed. It was inexplicably exciting, as if she knew that he was worried about her. At that moment, Anqin sighed quietly in the bottom of her heart. Suddenly, she thought inappropriately that this was really a romantic city.
She and Song Yi, they are like pigeons from the two ends of the world, flying around different trajectories, but it doesn’t matter, anyway, they will finally meet in Delphi, from here on.
Is it possible that this could be the beginning of a beautiful story? Although
their marriage is short, we have to admit that they have had many good memories.
Song Yi is a person with a strong sense of responsibility, mature and steady, in addition to a little busy, no other shortcomings, after marriage for convenience, they do not rest in the ancestral home of the Song family, two people live in the flat floor of a city, but Anqin and he are relatively strong in the private sphere, do not like strangers to disturb their space, so they did not find part-time workers or nannies. Everything in the
house was tidied up by Anqin. When she first got married and lived together, she had no memory after tidying up. One morning Song Yi went to work. The night before yesterday, both of them slept very late. In the morning, Song Yi probably overslept. There was another important morning meeting. Anqin slept in a daze, only to hear him come over and shake her, buzzing in her ear and asking, “Anqin?” Where did you put my black suit?
And what about the dark blue tie?
She was so sleepy that she couldn’t even open her eyelids. She waved his hand away in vain, curled herself into bed, and tried to curl her head into bed. Sung Yi seemed to smile, laughing and anxious, coaxing her in her ear: “Hurry up, Anqin, I’m really too late.” He pressed against her ear, and the breath brushed her ear, itching. Anqin’s ear was the most sensitive. Waking up with a smile, Sung Yi added, “I’m really going to be late. The board is waiting. I’ll sleep later. Be good.”.
Anqin struggled to get up and went to the cloakroom in a daze to find clothes for him. He found them and handed them to Song Yi to change. When Song Yi finished changing, Anqin leaned back on the cabinet behind him in her pajamas. Little by little, she had fallen asleep again.
So he carried her to the bed in the bedroom and let her go back to sleep.
In fact, there is no magnificent plot, it is this kind of homely atmosphere, but a long time will give birth to warmth and attachment to home.
She is not the kind of young lady in the regular big family who does not touch the spring water. She is independent in thought and graduated from a famous school. What is rare is that she has a high EQ and IQ. She has a good relationship with others. She takes good care of herself when she is studying abroad. What is more rare is that she can cook. Song Yi was shocked when she cooked for the first time after
getting married. After tasting the first bite, she joked, “As a qualified husband, I thought I would bite the bullet and finish these dishes and praise you, but I didn’t expect it to be so amazing.”.
She laughed so hard that her eyes curved deeply.
Song Yi is actually very good at cooking, sometimes she works overtime, if Song Yi comes back first, when she comes back, he has cooked a meal waiting for her, occasionally rare two people rest at home, will also cook a big meal together, only one thing-two people do not like to wash dishes. When they
first got married, both of them carried it. If the meal was cooked by this person, then the dishes must be washed by that person. It was polite to reciprocate. After they were very familiar with each other, they acted shamelessly in a childish way.
At first, it was rock-paper-scissors. Once the atmosphere was really good. The rainstorm outside, separated by a layer of glass, made the room more quiet and comfortable. After two people had eaten and drunk enough, rock-paper-scissors, Anqin lost, fell on the sofa and acted shamelessly, holding the pillow and not getting up. Song Yi pulled her in the past. She laughed and dodged left and right. I don’t know why. He blurted out, “I don’t wash. Other people’s husbands all give in to their wives. At least you are a respectable general manager of a city, Song. How can you haggle over these trifles with your wife?”. As soon as
such intimate words were spoken, both of them were stunned. The blush and heat quickly spread from their cheeks to their bodies. Anqin quickly turned over and said, I’m going to wash the dishes.
Sung Yi held her down with a half-smile and sighed with a deep smile. I didn’t know whether I was hurting her or what I was doing. Anyway, it was a very pleasant tone: “Forget it. I’m a respectable general manager of a city, Song. How could I calculate these trifles with my wife? I’ll wash it. I’ll wash it.”.
It was the first time Sung Yi had opened her mouth to call her wife. It was a bit of a joke, but she blushed, like the little bit of red on the tips of the first ripe peaches in the early spring of March. It was the sweetest mouthful. It was probably because she discovered the secret of Song Yi that she
really began to have no estrangement.
In fact, it was not intentional. She and Song Yi had their own houses before marriage. Song’s mother gave her an address and asked her to get something. When she opened the door and went in, Song Yi was also there. They looked at each other. She was so shocked that she could hardly manage her expression, while Song Yi was embarrassed.
A large apartment on the first floor is all open, without any furniture, only a layer of display cabinets, half of which are full of hands, half of which are full of Lego models. Song Yi, on the
other hand, sat in the empty space in the middle, with his shirt rolled up at the cuffs and his hair, which had always been neatly combed, hanging loosely between his eyebrows and eyes. He was as white and tender as a few years old, like a college student who had just taken off his childishness. He was surrounded by Lego parts, and a third of a model airplane was built in his hand.
An Qin did not react and asked subconsciously, “Aren’t you in a meeting today?”? General Manager Song of Tangtang a City, who
has always been steady, mature, and reliable, seemed to become a little angry from embarrassment. He blushed suspiciously and said, “I’ve finished driving. I came by on my way to have a look..” An Qin laughed uncontrollably until his eyes were filled with tears. Then he came over and grabbed him and whispered, “Come on, I’ll show you something.”.
Anqin took him to his pre-wedding apartment. It was not as exaggerated as Song Yi’s, but there was also a small half room full of Lego. Song Yi’s eyes were almost bright. He pointed to the whole set of pirate ship models of Pirates of the Caribbean on the table. He was a little excited: I also have a whole set.
“Anqin was also very excited and said,” I saw it. The
two men looked at each other and saw in each other’s eyes the sympathy of a bosom friend.
Later, they decided who would wash the dishes, that is, they set an alarm clock, and they prepared the same mini Lego to see who would finish it first, and then the one who finished it would wash the dishes.
Song Yi’s youth was not very good, his father died early, Song’s mother took care of him to the point of perversion, Anqin only saw from the occasional daily conversation, he did not have time to play these things before, in addition to normal schoolwork, he also had a full schedule of business, stocks, funds and other courses, such as Lego, in the eyes of Song’s mother. It’s about something that makes people lose their ambition.
So it’s just a secret between the two of them.
This unspoken little secret seems to make the two of them more intimate.
Their marriage is so good that it is more harmonious than anyone who has been in love for several years and has entered the marriage hall. They are also husband, wife, and friends. They have the same interests and hobbies, and their family and vision are in the same latitude. The friends around them can’t help but sigh with emotion: Why are you so well matched?
Such a match, like the soul of the other half, becomes one when they are together, and is finally complete.
How did it come to this in the end? It was a surprise to
meet the three of them.
At the transfer airport, the VIP lounge was so big that she was reading a book casually, and then heard the laughter of the children, she looked up subconsciously and was stunned.
Fate is so cruel that they can’t avoid meeting in this space.
Song Yi held a child in one hand and a toy in the other hand, followed by a woman, who should be called Zhao Jing. She only saw the wedding invitation once and remembered the name.
Zhao Jing snuggled up to Song Yi, laughing and reaching out to tease the child. A
standard happy family of three.
Her mind went blank, and when Sung Yi looked over, she was obviously stunned. The woman beside him seemed to be very sensitive, and looked suspiciously between them. But fortunately, both of them were decent people who were good at hiding their emotions. An Qin reacted first, pulling the corners of her lips and saying, “So coincidentally, is Sung’s family going out to travel?”?
Sung Yi nodded his head and put down the child in his hand. I can’t say what kind of mood it was. He was in a panic?
Guilt?
Embarrassed?
She was tired and didn’t want to analyze it, only to hear him reply in a low voice, “Yes.”. The
two of them were like strangers who only had a nodding acquaintance, and then they stopped talking. She lowered her head and pretended to read a book, but soon put it down, because her hands were shaking out of shape, and she was afraid of being laughed at.
It’s all right, Anchin. It’s all right.
She closed her eyes and comforted herself. It’s okay. It’s just a meeting. You can do it. Calm down.
Zhao Jing does not think so, or just a simple greeting, perhaps not, who cares?
She tentatively asked Anqin, “Do you know Ah Yi?”? What’s
your name?
Then he smiled and said, What a coincidence.
Such a temptation was so foolish that Anqin actually wanted to embarrass her. She wanted to reply to her with a smile and malice: My name is Anqin.
She believed that even if this Zhao Jing did not know her appearance, her name must be well-known.
But the good upbringing stopped her, and the woman did not actually destroy her marriage. In fact, Zhao Jing and Song Yi met earlier than she and Song Yi.
She moved her lips, and with that little bit of good cultivation, she replied gently, “I just know you.”.
Then she stood up politely and said goodbye to them. I’m going to the bathroom. Have a good time.
She didn’t squint and didn’t look at Sung Yi the whole time.
Maintain your last decency and dignity and leave with your back straight.
It was not until the moment the plane took off that the blindfold covered her eyes tightly that she began to tremble. At a glance in the VIP room, the child actually looked like Song Yi, with eyes and nose alike.
She had actually thought that if she and Song Yi had a child, would it be a boy or a girl?
Does it look like her or him? What kind of father will
Song Yi be?
She used to think that she and Song Yi would be able to give their children the best education and love, because although she did not know whether Song Yi liked her or not, he would be a good father in terms of his sense of responsibility.
She never thought that one day when she was pregnant, he would ask her to abort the child.
If, if that child had been born, and now it is one year old, would it be a boy or a girl? Who does the
president look like? What is the
character?
If, if.. She actually understood Song Yi. She knew him too well. He lost his father when he was young. He knew the importance of a father in the process of a child’s growth. In addition, he was a person with a strong sense of responsibility. He would not abandon the mother and son.
Sometimes, she couldn’t help thinking viciously, if she had given birth to that child at that time, who would Song Yi choose? How can
he balance it? If she is a little more selfish.
But she thought, wouldn’t it be too sad if her own children were to compete with other children for that little fatherly love? How could
she get herself into such a resentful situation.
Fortunately, the marriage with Song Yi is only three years, she sometimes regrets why this marriage is so short, if a little longer, Song Yi fell in love with her, then in the choice, will it be a little more difficult?
But sometimes she was glad that it was so short that she had not had time to get too deep, and that she still had the possibility of getting out.
She has a good appearance, a good knowledge, a good character, a good pursuit of people, and the most important thing is that someone will love her wholeheartedly.
She will eventually find someone who will love her with all her heart.
She leaned her head against the window. In fact, she could have held back. There was nothing she couldn’t hold back. When she was a child, the family education she received was to hold back, to think, to behave, and to speak. Only when she held back, could she be reserved and polite, but how could she not hate it?
Torrential tears raged under the blindfold, and she cried out silently. In this corner where no one could see, no one knew her embarrassment, and no one saw her sadness.
Delphi is not the center of the world. The two pigeons circled most of the earth and continued to move forward at the moment of meeting. That is not the beginning of a beautiful story.
It was just an ordinary, ordinary, insignificant episode that no one cared about, and even regret was as light as a sigh.
Life needs not only love, but also decency and self-esteem.
— — Anqin Fanwai — — Zhao Jing When I married Song Yi, everyone was laughing at me.
However, I clenched my teeth and endured it.
I know, this is what I should bear, Song Yi, because I divorced his ex-wife, such an exquisite person, everyone in the Song family likes her, so I am more and more displeasing to the eye, cold and harsh, I can endure. I don’t know how many slaps I’ve had in my life over the
years. If I had to explain every slap to someone, I wouldn’t know how many times I’ve starved to death with Xiaoxiao over the years.
Later, a lot of people were saying that I had bad intentions. I deliberately gave birth to a child in those years, and when he grew up, I found Song Yi to force him to divorce his original wife. Everyone greeted me with a polite smile, turned their backs and scolded me with disdain: Bah.
Bah! To be honest, I look down on myself.
But I can swear that meeting Song Yi again was an accident without any design.
I don’t know how you would react if you met your first love again, whom you hadn’t seen for six years, but Song Yi and I were very calm. For me, it was just a very ordinary working day at the end of the day. I hadn’t seen him for six years, and when we looked at each other, we were only slightly bleary-eyed for a moment. Then he asked slightly surprised, “Is that you?”?
I greeted him with a smile typical of the service industry: Hello, Mr. Song, what can I do for you?
It’s been so long that love and hate have long faded in the grind of life. We’re just strangers who remember each other’s faces and names. He was also very generous
when he finished, telling me that he wanted to customize a ring for his wife, and that it was their wedding anniversary in seven months, and he wanted to book a gift in advance. He ordered it seven months in
advance, probably because he was afraid that the final product would not meet the expected results, and if it did not look good, he still had time to prepare other gifts. He always liked to be foolproof in doing things, but after so many years, it had not changed. At that time,
I smiled and said, “You are so thoughtful. Your wife will be very happy when she receives the gift.”.
Diamonds are really the best thing to preserve the value of love. Gold may depreciate, but it will not. It will always shine and shine. A star once said that diamonds below one carat are collectively called broken diamonds, which are worthless. It can be seen that love below one carat is also worthless, but I know Song Yi is very rich. So all the diamonds I recommend to him are more than five carats.
It definitely shows true love.
He lowered his head and chose carefully, frowning slightly between his eyebrows. He was very attentive. I have been working at this counter for more than two years, and I have met many people of all kinds. There are couples who are shy to choose wedding rings, and there are rich people who come to choose rings with beautiful and tender lovers. They spend thousands of yuan and only pick up the most expensive ones.
But he was the only one who was very attentive and carefully selected one by one. Finally, he chose a pink diamond. He looked up and smiled at me. He did not shy away from it. There was really no need to shy away from it between us. He said, “This is it. She has white skin. It will look good on her.”. After the
selection, he chose the cutting pattern, decided on the style, and paid the deposit. When he was ready to leave, Sister Wang, who was on the same shift with me, pulled Xiaoxiao into the shop. She happened to meet Song Yi head-on. As she walked, she said to me, Zhao Jing, I picked you up on the way. Don’t go again later.
Finished, I lamented in my heart.
I couldn’t see Song Yi’s expression, only his back. He froze for a long time, then turned to look at me. The bright and gorgeous crystal light in the shop projected straight down, making his face pale. He moved his lips and did not speak, but I understood what he meant. He wanted to talk to me.
Because Xiao Xiao and he look too similar.
Sister Wang helped me with Xiao Xiao. Song Yi and I were sitting in the coffee shop downstairs of the mall. After a long silence, he asked me bluntly, “Is it mine?”? There was no point in hiding it at
this time, so I looked straight into his eyes, nodded and said to him, “Yes, it’s yours.”. Little by little,
his face grew ugly, and finally he turned pale. He just asked, “At that time, at that time..” When he stopped, I looked at him with a smile and did not speak.
To be honest, seeing him like this, my heart is actually very carefree. I have suffered for him for so many years. Sometimes when I can’t hold my teeth, I think, why, why I have suffered so much but I don’t know anything, why?
But I fought for a breath, and no matter how hard it was, I never went to him. Seeing him out of his mind
now, I finally felt happy. If it hadn’t been for the wrong occasion, I would have laughed and asked him, “Sung Yi, do you also have today?”?
He followed me back to the store to pick up Xiaoxiao. Xiaoxiao was very good and did not ask the pale-faced uncle why he had been following us.
Xiaoxiao told me that the school was going to reserve school uniforms for the fall, and everyone had to pay 370 yuan to the school. Then he asked worriedly, “I asked the teacher, and the teacher said that school uniforms must be bought. Mom, do we still have money?”? Growing up, what
he said the most was, “Mom, do we still have money?”?
“I took his little arm and said,” We have money.
I don’t know how Song Yi feels when he hears these words behind me. He can buy a diamond ring of hundreds of thousands of yuan a minute without blinking, but his son has to worry about a school uniform of 370 yuan at such a young age.
I don’t know what he thought, because he didn’t know when he left quietly.
Later, when Song Yi divorced his wife and was going to marry me to take care of me and Xiao Xiao, everyone said that I didn’t know what means I had used to seduce Song Yi, but I thought it was ridiculous.
Because I have no means, Song Yi is not obsessed, if you really want to find a reason, that is guilt.
Because he felt so guilty about me. People around
Song Yi, whether his family, friends or partners, probably have similar comments on Song Yi, who is stable, considerate, gentle, reliable, mature and caring.
But I was miserable. Maybe I was a little unlucky. I didn’t meet Song Yi, who was steady, considerate, gentle, reliable, mature and caring. The Song Yi I met was irascible, depressed, rebellious, arrogant, hypocritical and good at hiding. The most important thing was that he was a liar. It was too hard to cheat me.
Too bitter, too bitter.
My life can be divided into before and after meeting Song Yi. Before meeting Song Yi, I was a miserable person who constantly strives for self-improvement. After meeting Song Yi, I became a simple miserable person, a walking jinx. I
was with Song Yi when I was a junior. Falling in love is not in my plan, because falling in love is a luxury thing that I can’t afford to amuse myself. If
you were me, you would understand how difficult it is for me to be left at the gate of an orphanage when I was a child, to strive for self-improvement all the way from nine years of compulsory education to university, and not to become a girl who has lost her footing.
I am very full every day, and must be full. I get up at half past five in the morning and queue up at the school gate to help my classmates buy breakfast. A breakfast can earn 2 yuan for running errands. There are about 32 students in this class and other classes who come to me to book breakfast. In this way, I can earn 64 yuan in the morning. I will help my classmates in the female dormitory to take express delivery when I have a rest at noon. Deliver goods to my door. My senior sister who graduated before left me a bicycle and an express delivery fee of 1 yuan for running errands. I can earn more than 100 yuan at noon. On the evening of one, three and five days, I will be a tutor for a junior high school student. On the evening of two, four and six days, I will go to the restaurant to serve dishes. From 5:30 in the morning to 10:00 in the evening, I will use every minute except studying and sleeping to make money.
I know I may be quite unfortunate in the eyes of others, but a person who has been unfortunate since childhood can’t feel it. I have books to read, food to eat, money to earn, and self-improvement. I think I live well.
I don’t know, sometimes one person’s misfortune can be used as a bargaining chip by another person.
My misfortune made Song Yi choose me. When I was serving dishes
in a restaurant, there was a time when the big screen in the restaurant had been showing a variety show called Qihua Shuo. Once I glanced at it during the interval of serving food, and I heard a contestant say, “People who have a lot of bitterness in their hearts, how much sugar do they need to be sweet?”. The host of the
program immediately retorted, saying, You are wrong. People who have a lot of bitterness in their hearts can be sweet with a little sugar.
Song Yi is my candy. The first time
we met was at 5:30 in the morning. I was carrying a full breakfast. My classmates actually took good care of me. They seldom ordered some breakfast such as soup and soybean milk, because they knew I was not easy to take it. The owner of the breakfast shop did an activity to send a cup of hand-ground soybean milk free of charge for each breakfast. As a person,
I have received too many favors and care from others, and I have nothing to return, because I really have no money, so these free soybean milk, although insignificant, is one of the few things I can give back to them for their kindness. I gritted my teeth and prepared to take them to the classroom.
Just in case, I made two trips. Even so, when I got to the school’s Crescent Lake, the bag of soybean milk was broken. More than a dozen cups of soybean milk fell to the ground. The milky white soybean milk was steaming along the crevices of the stone slab. In fact, I was used to it, but sometimes I would lament my powerlessness to fate.
It was a feeling of disappointment and despair, which came up together in an instant, as if my life could only be like this, fate dressed up in front of me, fanning my face left and right, but I could not do anything, I could only stand like this, helpless to beat and kick.
Do you think this is the worst kind of bad luck?
No, fate looks at you with a smile and says, “Hey, look down on me, don’t you?”?
You could be worse.
Then I met Song Yi. At that time,
he had just come back from playing games all night. He met me squatting beside a pile of soybean milk stains and crying silently. He asked me, “Classmate, what can I do for you?”?
I fall into the trap of tenderness.
It must have been the most violent time for him and his mother.
Song Yi’s father died early, his mother was very strict with him, from small to large, he never had his own time, his life, in addition to sleep, every minute was strictly planned to do.
I heard him mention that when he was in high school, he skipped his evening foundation class to watch a World Cup game with the boys in his class. When he returned the next day, his mother took him to the cemetery and made him kneel in front of his father’s grave all day until he said I was wrong.
He knelt until he was dehydrated and fainted, and he didn’t say that I was wrong.
However, this is just a normal daily life in his life. The accumulated pressure in
life made people break out. When he went to college, he fell out with his mother. At that time, he smoked, drank, skipped classes and stayed out at night. Once when I went to see him, he was sitting in the Internet bar. Everyone was wearing headphones and swearing and playing games. He didn’t even turn on the computer. He just sat there with a cigarette in his mouth and drooping eyelashes.
So, so lonely.
He’s not corrupt, he just needs a corrupt environment to declare war on his mother.
I really loved him.
That day he helped me clean up the mess and accompanied me to get breakfast outside the school. He said to me with a smile, “I’ve heard of you.”. Like a hedgehog covered with thorns,
I asked him, What have you heard about me?
A pitiful man who has been mistreated by fate?
“No,” he said, looking straight at me with the feeling that the dust had settled. In the end, he didn’t say what kind of person I was in “Heard.”.
So I ignored him.
Later, I don’t know where I aroused his interest in me. He accompanied me to pick up breakfast every morning, then delivered it from classroom to classroom, accompanied me to pick up the express at noon, sent me to the home of my tutor in the evening, or sent me to the restaurant.
I have never talked to him. I am very busy and have no time for romance.
But one night, when I came out of the restaurant in a heavy downpour, he was standing outside the door, holding a big black umbrella in his hand. The rain crackled on his umbrella, then fell down the edge of the umbrella and gathered in the puddles on the ground. The light of the restaurant was broken in it, and his eyebrows and eyes were raised under the black umbrella. Incredibly handsome, he smiled and said, “I knew you didn’t bring an umbrella. I came to pick you up.”.
Please forgive me. It was the first time in my life that someone waited for me, someone picked me up, and someone said, “I knew you didn’t have an umbrella.”. When I was a child, what I envied
most was a rainy day. When it rained, all the parents outside the school gate would come to pick up their children without umbrellas. I was the only one, and no one would ever pick me up. I would run all the way back in the rain, and then listen to the director of the orphanage complain about why I didn’t bring an umbrella again, because I had to wash my clothes when I got wet, and I had to spend money to buy medicine when I caught a cold.
I’m a problem.
So when I looked at Song Yi that day, my eyes blinked and tears flowed down. In fact,
I seldom cry, really, because when I was very young, I knew that tears were useless and could not solve anything, but I really couldn’t help it, I don’t know why, tears flowed down my cheeks uncontrollably. This is how
we are together.
He was actually very rich, and I could see that he had a good family background, but he would never stop me from going to work, and he would always send me to pick me up. I was very grateful to him before, because he maintained what little dignity I had left until he was about to graduate from his senior year. He and I had to plan our future and wanted to marry me. He wanted to take me back to see his mother.
This is the beginning of my miserable life.
In order to meet his mother and make a good impression on her, I began to be nervous three months in advance.
I even spent a huge sum of 46.87 yuan to buy a copy of 100 Things You Must Pay Attention to When You Go to Your Boyfriend’s House for the First Time. I didn’t remember anything after reading it. I only remembered that the book was too expensive. When I complained to Song Yi, he laughed, put his hand on my nose and said to me, “You, change your name to Grandet.”.
I laughed stupidly.
Later, in the resplendent living room of his house, I had the impression that I only said two sentences, one was “Hello, Auntie,” which I was anxious and secretly looking forward to, and the other was “Goodbye, Auntie,” which I was out of my mind and absent-minded.
His mother sat on the leather sofa and only looked me up and down as she entered the door. Then she didn’t look at me the whole time. Song Yi held my hand all the time and introduced me to his mother. The conversation was roughly as follows: What do her parents do?
She is an orphan.
Then why did you bring her to me?
I’m going to marry her.
」「…… Are you kidding me? It
was very, very brief, probably less than ten minutes. I felt like I was being stripped naked and thrown into the street, but I tried to hold it back because I didn’t want to lose my temper in front of his mother.
When I left his house, I asked him in a hurry, “Song Yi, what should I do? Does your mother not like me?”.
Now that I think about it, I am really stupid. His mother’s attitude towards me, I can still ask this sentence, it is simply stupid.
But Song Yi was very happy. He took my hand and raised the corners of his mouth. He said, “It’s all right. I like you.”.
Later, on a sunny day, I went to his rented house to look for him. I heard him on the phone. He said to his friend, She’s mad. When I took Zhao Jing back, I knew she would be mad. Sure enough. The pleasure in the
words was so obvious that I couldn’t hide it. Before that, every time I thought about his mother’s attitude towards me, I couldn’t sleep.
It turned out to be such a pleasant thing for him. When I
first met him, he told me with a smile that he had heard of me, but he didn’t say what kind of person I was. I didn’t understand
until now.
I am his smoking, I am his drinking, I am his skipping classes, I am his staying out at night-I am his depravity.
I’m the charge for him and his mother to declare war. All
my misfortunes, all my scars, were torn open by his blood and exposed to the sun, which was his bargaining chip.
I knew that I had suffered for twenty years. How could fate be so kind to me.
This is the normal state of my life. I went back step by step and told myself how I could cry. It was not the first time that it had treated me so badly.
And I have to take a bus for two hours to teach others. How can I cry?
Do you have time to cry?
Later, when I was about to graduate, Song Yi was still unrepentant to marry me, and his mother came to the restaurant where I worked.
She didn’t order anything. She was so picky that she pointed at the menu for a long time, which was probably not to her liking. Finally, she only asked for a cup of boiled water and spent 30,000 yuan in the restaurant for an hour to talk to me.
I sat opposite her and didn’t give her a chance to speak. I said, “Yes, I’m an orphan, an orphan that no one wants. I’m very glad that the country’s nine-year compulsory education allowed me to be sent to high school with excellent grades in junior high school.”.
I support myself with the money from the poorest students in the country. Now that I am an adult, I can earn my own money to support myself.
I bring breakfast to people in the morning, take express delivery to people at noon, tutor or serve dishes to people in the evening, and study hard in the interval of life, because I still need scholarships.
Yes, aunt, you see, your son likes such a person. In fact
, I was adopted when I was in junior high school, but the man often touched me. Later, I couldn’t stand it. A vase smashed on his head and opened a gourd ladle for him. Later, the woman sent me to the police station, saying that I seduced her husband. If
you check my file now, maybe you can find out my criminal record.
Look at the people your son likes. They are poor, rude, violent, vulgar, cheap, petty, and greedy. Are you very angry now?
Finally, I laughed slowly. I wiped my hands and stood up to look at the pale Song Yi. I smiled silently and forcefully. I asked him silently with my mouth: Are you happy? Are you
happy?
I will tear my abject misery and despair in front of your mother, and complete the last step of your revenge and resistance.
Are you happy?
Should be happy, after all, you to me those gentle, those accommodation, those warm waiting and waiting, is not for this moment?
I gave you what you wanted.
Song Yi frantically came to me and apologized to me. The last time we met was in the dark night and the storm. He was shut out of the door by me. He put his feet against the door and asked me with a pale face: I’m sorry, I’m sorry, Zhao Jing. How can you forgive me?
I laughed and smashed his head with a bowl. Then I held out my hand to him and said, “Give me 46.87 yuan and I will forgive you.”.
He was obviously stupefied. Blood ran down his forehead and into his eyes. It was scarlet. He looked at me stupidly and asked subconsciously, “What..” What? 46.87
yuan, “100 things you must pay attention to when you go to your boyfriend’s house for the first time”, give me the money for this book, we are clear, you go.
I don’t think I understood why I stuck to the 46.87 yuan when he left with blood on his forehead and lost in the rain, because every night when I couldn’t sleep, I was touching my heart and telling myself. This book
must be too expensive, so I will tear my heart and lungs, 46.87 yuan, is really a huge sum of money.
Such a huge sum of money, if I don’t come back, how long will it take for my heartache to recover? There’s really nothing to say about what happened
later. I heard a long time later that because of my incident, Song Yi’s mother had made a retrogression, and their relationship had been deadlocked for a year. How kindly
fate treats others is how harsh it treats me.
Because at that time, I had already given birth to Xiaoxiao. I found out that I was pregnant shortly after I separated
from Song Yi. Of course, I would not give birth to this child. After I knew I was pregnant, I bought abortion pills.
The hospital is really too expensive, I can’t afford to go. The abortion pills in the clinic only cost 3.51 yuan per pill. I bought two pills. The unscrupulous medicine manufacturer of
the unscrupulous clinic, I don’t know if the medicine expired, I fell red for three days, Xiaoxiao persevered in my womb, the last day I lay in bed and shed tears for a day, and finally in the middle of the night, I decided to give birth to him.
Six years later, Zhao Jing will be severely scolded to death for making this decision, because this decision will make her life worse than death in the next six years.
But I forgive her, forgive Zhao Jing, who was isolated, helpless, panic and miserable. She loved Song Yi. Although this man brought her great harm, the good of acting really existed, the heart really existed, and the warmth really existed. In an instant,
she was blinded by the love from above. In an instant, she wanted to have a home of her own, something of her own, and a family that could accompany her all the time. I understood her and forgave her.
I really, really don’t want to be alone anymore. I finished my graduation defense when I
was pregnant, and I went back to the orphanage when I was about to give birth.
The dean looked at me with a big belly and was not surprised. His gray hair trembled in the wind, and finally he sighed.
In junior high school, after I broke the head of the man who adopted me and wanted to rape me, the dean went to the police station to redeem me. At that time, I was beaten all over by the man’s wife. I stood in the light of the police station with my clothes disheveled. Especially, the woman pulled my hair and accused me of deliberately seducing her husband. I just felt ashamed. However, he still held his breath and said nothing. It was not
until the dean came that I began to cry. She protected me behind her and apologized to the woman submissively.
Finally, when I was ready to leave, the woman pointed at me and scolded me, “a leprechaun who doesn’t learn well will definitely get pregnant out of wedlock in the future. Let a man play enough and then abandon him. A fox spirit who doesn’t respect himself and doesn’t love himself.”. What
I thought at that time was: I won’t. I must study hard, go to the best school, have the best job, and earn the most money.
Seven years later, I graduated from college, returned to the orphanage with a big belly, and looked at the dean.
I just think it’s a prophecy.
This is my life.
I took Xiaoxiao to suffer a lot. At
the most difficult time, I lost only 78 catties. I was 1.67 meters tall. Xiao Xiao, who was three years old at that time, brought the meat from his bowl to my mouth and said, “Mom, I’m not hungry.”.
Occasionally, when I woke up in the middle of the night, I could see him holding my bony arm and crying. He asked me, “Mom, why don’t you eat more? Your bones hurt me so much.”.
I could only hold him and cry.
So when Song Yi stood in front of me and asked me how I could atone for my sins, I almost said to him with a malicious smile, “I want you to divorce and give Xiaoxiao a home. Can you do that?”?
In fact, it was just a negative remark. I just thought of him at that moment when he was choosing a wedding anniversary gift for his wife under the crystal lamp. His eyes were focused and his eyebrows were gentle. I asked myself.
Why can he be so happy?
I worked hard for such a long time in my life, but he turned the world upside down, and then he left in a natural and unrestrained way without touching water. Why?
Of course, Xiaoxiao was not born by him, but by my own choice. People should be responsible for every decision they make. This can’t be blamed on him. I’m just not reconciled. I’m an excellent student who graduated from a famous university. I used to be so close to my dream life.
Just a little, just a little.
Sometimes I think: If only I had never met him, if only I hadn’t taken so much soybean milk that day.
It’s only a little bit. I still know him so well
after being away for such a long time. I know too much about his death. Growing up in a single-parent family, the lack of father’s love and the compulsory mother make him have a natural sense of responsibility for his family. He will not want his children to be like him, although this is not the child he expects.
Later, when he stood in front of me and told me that he was going to divorce and give me and Xiaoxiao a home, I was surprised that he really had the perseverance to do so.
But after a moment of silence, I did not refuse him. Please forgive me.
I have experienced a lot of things in my life, and I have never been sorry for anyone, but I know that I am sorry for Song Yi, the wife I have never met.
She should have had a very happy marriage.
But I can’t refuse. No matter how difficult it was when I gave birth to Xiaoxiao, I never went to Song Yi. If Song Yi hadn’t happened to meet him, I would never have brought my child to him in my life. This is my last dignity in front of Song Yi and his mother.
But when Song Yi found us, the next day he came to take Xiaoxiao to the amusement park to play. They took the roller coaster and the merry-go-round. Song Yi put Xiaoxiao on his shoulder and took him to blow bubbles. I saw Xiaoxiao laugh so happily for the first time. I had a dream a long time ago. It was the same scene in the dream. Song Yi took me and Xiaoxiao to play in the amusement park. When I woke up from the cold, the smile on my lips had not yet been restrained. The dream was very warm. Outside the dream was a cold basement. There was no heating. Xiaoxiao unconsciously tried to get into my arms in his sleep, but he would not say cold, because he knew it would embarrass me. There was nothing
I could do but hold him tight.
Later, when I had a little more money, I went to buy a small sun, which could only be opened for an hour every night, because the electricity bill was very expensive, I had every penny arranged, and I couldn’t afford to pay for another second.
But if one day, the dream can coincide with reality, the playground in the dream reappears perfectly in reality, I have the opportunity to have a complete home, so that Xiaoxiao can live a better life, so that he has a father, then I.. How can you refuse.
Six years of life to endure all my temper and arrogance, I did not forgive Song Yi, I just with him. Settled. In
the past, Zhao Jing, even though she was so eager for a home, could still smash a vase without changing color when the adopter touched her thigh and kissed her. In the
past, even though Zhao Jing was so eager for the warmth of love, when Song Yi apologized to her with a pale face and said that she would make up for her all her life, she could still throw a bowl down and return her grievance.
But six years later, she was a mother.
I am an orphan, and I want my children to grow up in a healthy and loving family.
Suffering from life, I can’t refuse this temptation.
If I can, I just want to say sorry to Song Yi’s wife who was hurt because of me.
It doesn’t matter whether she will forgive me or not. You see, I have been hurt by life so many times. Have I said I will forgive it? After
Song Yi’s divorce, he was deadlocked for a year, and his mother, who was high above the masses in those days, could only accept her fate.
When I married Song Yi, the life of the Song family was not easy. I was not used to this kind of life, the cynicism in the open and in the dark, the transparency of the big family, and the tacit disdain and contempt of Song Yi’s friends when they saw me.
I pretended not to see them all.
Such eyes, such treatment, I have long been accustomed to, I thank the fate, it will be hard in my chest that the heart made of soft flesh and blood mud into a worthless diamond, I will never be injured, this is probably its incidental gift to me.
My marriage with Song Yi is neither salty nor light. He is a good father. Life goes on day by day. We have never talked about his ex-wife.
Until one day, I knew that Anqin remarried. Someone in
the Song family deliberately mentioned it in front of me, seemingly unintentionally showing a wedding photo in front of me. A
very beautiful woman, gentle and generous, eyes like water, bright amazing, in fact, the expression of the wedding photos are not too much difference, the smile at the corners of the mouth is the same, but she smiled very happily, the men around her are also smiling, very handsome and implicit.
Probably happy, I can finally breathe sigh of relief.
Later, on the way back, I suddenly remembered that I had seen this woman before. We bumped into each other at an airport where we were going out to play. She and Song Yi were both pale and exchanged greetings. I tested her name openly, but she just answered me with a smile: “I know her.”.
A very cultured woman.
If her hand holding the book had not been shaking, I would not have found the clue, after all, so generous.
At that time, I didn’t mean anything else. I just wanted to apologize to her. Now, she is very happy, and I don’t have to think about it. When I
went back, Song Yi was in the study. I gently pushed the door open, but he didn’t find me. In the dark room, there was a faint smell of smoke. In fact, he had quit smoking for a long time, because there were children at home. He had a cigarette in his mouth and closed his eyes. I saw two tears on his face. Close the door
gently, Xiaoxiao is coming back from school, I want to think about what to eat tonight, to start cooking.
However, my thoughts were out of control. I was stunned to think of the rare heart-to-heart talk between Song Yi and me when we got married. We asked each other a question that had been hidden in our hearts for a long time. I asked him, “Do you regret your divorce?”?
He looked at me frankly and said, I regret it, but this is what I should do. I want to atone for my sins. Zhao Jing, I am sorry for you, and I am also sorry for Xiaoxiao.
Then he asked me, “If you knew later that you had had such a hard time, would you regret giving birth to Song Xiao?”?
I looked at him for a long, long time, and finally I said, I regret it.
He smiled with relief. I didn’t speak.
Because one of the two of us lied.
I do not regret, even if very bitter, the existence of Xiao Xiao also accompanied me through those days, I loved him, I never regret.
But he should regret, he and his ex-wife, so compatible, spiritual soul, appearance, family background, interests and hobbies are all compatible, if he did not provoke me, did not provoke an innocent person, then he would have a very happy family now.
He could have been happy, but he missed it.
Like the pink diamond he put on his bedside table that he could never send out, like the two rows of miniature Lego in his study that no one would play with him anymore, like the wedding photo of him and his ex-wife that he kept closest to his wallet and could no longer show in front of people.. This is his karma.
I kept silent, but fate was fair once, and the injury I had received many years ago, in the form of a boomerang, plunged into his own heart many years later.
I?
I will never love him again.
I always thought you were the only candy in my life, but later I found out that you were arsenic wrapped in candy wrappers.
— — “Anti-routine Romance” Zhao Jingwan. Focus on not getting lost ~
