Which moment ended your secret love?
I had a crush on a man for ten years. When he had a video chat with me, he took a fancy to my roommate and asked me to help chase her. On the
phone, his voice was as deep and pleasant as ever. “I’ve never liked a person so much, Xiaojing, please.”.
But I didn’t hear a hint of pleading. It seemed that he had already decided that I would not refuse. He’s always a shoo-in
for me.
Song Qianyu and my roommate are kissing.
They are inseparable and love each other.
I gawked at the scene, as if my heart had been torn open. The moment he
promised to help him chase his roommate, he had expected this to happen, but when it happened, he was still surprised and sad. The
two men kissed so intently that they did not notice that there was another person behind them. Go to my place
tonight?
Sung Chien-yu’s voice was horribly dumb in the quiet of the night. Because of his words,
my heart fell into the ice hole in an instant and was completely frozen into ice.
It turns out that they have developed to this point?
My roommate seemed to hammer him, with a smile in his voice. “What are you thinking about? I promised Xiaojing to help her read the paper tonight!” Two people seem to be against the forehead, and talked for a while, separated by a distance, can still see very intimate tenderness. After
watching her go upstairs, Song Qianyu turned around and finally saw me.
He Jing?
He put away the smile on his face.
I turned my face stiffly, dared not look at him, tried to restrain my emotions, and lifted my feet to the dormitory. The impact of the scene
just now was so great that countless sour feelings and unwillingness flooded my heart, which made me breathless.
I have stayed with Song Qianyu as a good friend for ten years. I have never seen him say goodbye to any girl. He has always been cold and rational to me. I was so
sober that I even suspected that in his eyes, I might be a playmate whose gender was ambiguous.
Just now was the first time I saw his emotional appearance.
Mingming, they have only known each other for ten days.
Ten days.
But I have a crush on Song Qianyu for ten years, covering almost the whole youth.
When I failed in the college entrance examination, I couldn’t go to the same university with him.
Later, I went back to school for a year, and finally passed the exam, but I was forced to go to another city because I made a mistake in filling in my application. During
the whole university, we hardly had any contact.
Now his work is just on the right track, I am busy with my graduation thesis, and our contact is even less.
Every time I wanted to go to him, he always refused without hesitation, “He Jing, I’m very busy.”.
Sometimes, I can’t help but make a video call to him, often without saying a few words, he will be busy again.
I know I have no right to blame him.
In his heart, I am just a friend who has known each other for a long time.
Until ten days ago, my roommate borrowed my mobile phone to take pictures and accidentally turned to Song Qianyu’s photos in the album.
Her fingers paused slightly and she smiled. “This man looks good. He Jing, do you know him?”?
I saw clearly the interest in her eyes.
I didn’t answer, and reluctantly found an excuse to leave.
Even though I knew they wouldn’t cross paths, I still couldn’t sleep that night. A
strong sense of crisis flooded me like a flood.
Roommate is recognized as the goddess of the college, that face is bright and moving, pure and desire, caused a sensation as soon as he entered the school.
But she is always a casual look, close to people, hot and cold, four years of college, no one can enter her eyes.
I didn’t expect that she would be interested in Song Qianyu because of a photo.
More unexpectedly, when my brain was hot and I finally had the courage to express my love to Song Qianyu, Song Qianyu, who had always been fickle and indifferent, fell in love with my roommate at first sight across the screen of his mobile phone when he was having a video with me.
I remember that his eyes were bright and his eyebrows were curved, as if he had hidden his sharp outline, leaving only one person in his eyes. I know
that look all too well.
It’s love at first sight. The next day after the
video, Song Qianyu took the initiative to call me and asked me to help chase my roommate. On the
phone, his voice was as deep and pleasant as ever. “I’ve never liked a person so much, Xiaojing, please.”.
It was the first time he begged me, and the first time he called me Xiaojing.
But I did not hear a hint of entreaty, as if he had already decided that I would not refuse. He’s always a shoo-in
for me.
Realizing this, sour and dull come up and spread to every corner of the body.
But what can I do?
I can’t stop him from liking someone else, just like I can’t stop myself from liking him all the time. Obsessed
, I agreed.
Agreed to set him up with my roommate, agreed to be this ridiculous matchmaker.
The next thing is logical, because of me, they added WeChat to each other and talked until midnight every day. Song Qianyu, who told me
every time that he was very busy, took three days off to see my roommate. Today is their first formal meeting.
But look at the situation just now, these two people are already like glue.
Sure enough, the moment I pushed open the dormitory door, my roommate’s voice came over, “Xiaojing, I’m with him.”.
“2” Oh, that’s good.
I replied softly, pretended that nothing had happened, went back to the bed and sat down. I turned on the computer to correct the paper, and entered it several times in succession before I could enter the word “I” correctly.
The roommate’s tone was smiling. “Thanks to you, the big matchmaker.”.
My typing hand suddenly tightened, my heart throbbed, and my fingertips trembled.
Yeah, I set them up.
I told Song Qianyu all his roommate’s preferences and suggested what topics he should choose when chatting. It was
also I who told my roommate Song Qianyu that she had never had any other woman around her, and that she was deeply in love with her.
These ten days, I watched Song Qianyu ask for warmth to his roommate, watching his roommate talk about Song Qianyu, smiling involuntarily on his face, watching them fall in love a little bit.
Several times in the middle of the night, I buried my head deep in the quilt, but I still heard his voice on my roommate’s cell phone, “Be good, don’t stay up late, good night.”. The
breath is vague and smiling, and the coda is deep and sexy.
It’s the spoiling and ambiguity I never had.
At that moment, I clearly realized that I regretted it.
I even thought that if I had lied to Song Qianyu at that time, saying that my roommate already had other people he liked in his heart, he would have given up with his proud temperament.
Then maybe I still have a chance.. “To thank you,” my roommate came up behind me at some point, put his arm around my shoulder, and pulled me back from my thoughts.
Tomorrow Chien-yu and I have decided to invite you to dinner. Xiaojing, you won’t refuse, will you? As soon as my
heart stagnated, I subconsciously wanted to open my mouth and refuse.
My roommate, however, didn’t give me a chance to refuse. Chien-yu will go back to the company the day after tomorrow. When I get my diploma next month, I will move directly to him. If there
is no accident, after this meal, the three of us should have little chance to see each other. As
she spoke, my roommate buried her head in my neck and rubbed it coquettishly. Some hot breath sprayed on her neck. Her tone was very soft and light. Xiaojing, that’s what he meant.
」…… If last night was still a little lucky, then now, I think I understand what Song Qianyu means. In the hotpot restaurant near the
school, the bottom of the pot opened up, steaming hot.
Song Qianyu is peeling shrimps for my roommate.
He lowered his head slightly, his long fingers neatly removed the head and tail of the shrimp, and his gestures were serious.
I suddenly remembered that Song Qianyu was a neat freak, especially the sticky and smooth feeling when peeling shrimp, which would make him feel sick. On
his birthday last year, I drove four hours to find him, bought a cake, clumsily and carefully cooked a table full of dishes, and burned my hand.
When Sung Chien-yu saw the back of my hand, which was red and swollen, his eyes were very complicated. “He Jing, if you can’t cook, you don’t have to.”.
But without waiting for me to speak, he took my hand, rubbed the ointment on it, and applied medicine to my burns little by little.
Song Qianyu was rarely so gentle to me. I was in a trance for a while, and I was at a loss.
Looking at the plate of boiled prawns on the table, I asked devilishly, “My hands are not convenient. Can you peel the shrimp for me later?”?
Sung Chien-yu frowned and refused without hesitation. There was even a trace of reproach in her eyes. He Jing, you know I’m a neat freak.
In a word, it changed the atmosphere.
In the past, I wouldn’t care.
But I don’t know what happened to me that day. I just felt full of grievances and tears fell down completely uncontrollably.
Finally, regardless of my injured hand, I endured the burning pain and peeled off all the boiled prawns.
Song Qianyu looked at me in silence and tried to open his mouth several times, but said nothing.
I pulled my thoughts back from my memory and saw Song Qianyu put the peeled shrimp within reach of his roommate, wiped his hands with wet paper towels, and then slowly looked at me. The moment I
met his sight, I finally understood.
He did it on purpose to show me. The place where I was scalded
last year left a small scar, which also left a gap between me and him.
Now Song Qianyu personally tore open the scar and sprinkled salt on the bloody wound in order to make me give up completely.
He already knew my feelings for him and knew that I didn’t just treat him as a friend.
He invited me to dinner and peeled shrimps for his roommate in front of me.
He was telling me in this way not to be wishful thinking and not to disturb his life any more. With a throbbing pain somewhere in
my heart, I lowered my head to avoid meeting his line of sight, and my hand trembling slightly with chopsticks.
The meal was very long, and no matter how they showed their love, I buried my head and did not speak much until there was a sudden noise overhead.
I looked up and saw a boy with a red face apologizing to Song Qianyu.
Basically, they’re playing dare at their table, and if they lose, they’re going to add the WeChat of the most beautiful girl present, who doesn’t know that my roommate has a boyfriend.
Song Qianyu’s face was very ugly, but it was not good to have an attack in public. Knowing that he was in the wrong,
the boy said a few words of apology and left resentfully.
I turned to look at my roommate.
Roommates always love to eat hot pot, but unfortunately not very spicy, at this time beautiful face slightly red, smooth forehead oozing fine beads of sweat, delicate lips to drop.
Around a lot of people’s line of sight as if there is no place to stay on her body, there are several boys in the eyes are still ready to move. Out of the corner of my eye, I caught
a tall and straight figure coming slowly towards this side. The corners of
my lips are bent. The depression
in my heart seems to have broken up a lot.
To be young is to have courage. Obviously, I have learned a lesson from the past, but I still want to try my luck again.
The heart moves, go to see Song Qianyu again, as expected his face is gloomy again come down.
I suddenly became interested and simply put down my chopsticks and raised my arms in a completely theatrical manner.
Then I saw the boy, who was only one meter away from my roommate, walk around her with his long legs and walk straight in front of me.
I was startled.
The boy looked straight at me. His eyes were bright and his face was a little cramped, but his smile was clean. “Senior sister, can I chase you?”?
I froze for a moment and subconsciously went to see Sung Chien-yu.
I don’t know if it was my illusion, but his face seemed colder than before.
For a moment, many thoughts and pictures flashed through my mind.
During this ten-year one-way rush, I have not wavered.
I have seen with my own eyes how Song Qianyu refused the girls who confessed to him in a crisp and neat way, almost without a trace of mercy.
So I carefully cherished his love, forbearance, and was willing to be his gentle and considerate friend.
But a cavity of enthusiasm can not get the slightest response, in exchange for his indifference and restraint forever.
Over time, the pain and tiredness of not being able to get what I wanted almost overwhelmed me.
At that time, I learned that I had not been admitted to the same university with him, and the long-term backlog of emotions reached its peak at that moment, and for the first time I had the idea of giving up. On the day of the
farewell dinner, he didn’t come. At the
end, a male classmate expressed his love to me. After I refused, the male classmate was very disappointed, but he still offered to send me home.
I thought about it, back to my home is bound to pass through Song Qianyu home, somehow, I agreed. The moonlight was very beautiful
that night, and my male classmates walked side by side with me, trying to find a topic. I would respond to every word
he said until the familiar door crashed into my line of sight.
I could not help but stop, look up, and see Song Qianyu standing on the balcony staring at us coldly. When I
got home, when I took a bath and lay in bed playing with my mobile phone, I found that someone had recorded a video of a male classmate confessing to me and sent it to the class group. In the
video, it was too noisy to hear clearly, and at the end of the picture, I left the box with him. The students who
didn’t go were heckling in the group. Just then
, I received a message from Sung Chien-yu: Do you want to go back to school?
I immediately realized the other meaning of his words. He wanted to go to the same university as me.
Even if he didn’t say anything, in my eyes, that was the signal he was trying to send me.
My heart suddenly felt like a sweet rain after a long drought, and at the same time I felt a dull pain.
He always seems to give me hope after a little bit of disappointment.
So at this point, after he has a girlfriend and is determined to get rid of me with this meal, what does the signal in his eyes represent?
Thinking of this, I breathed slightly, and then wanted to see more carefully in his eyes, my roommate suddenly turned sideways to block part of my vision, and then took his hand and interlocked his fingers.
Song Qianyu seemed to be stunned, then looked down at her, the tips of his eyebrows and the corners of his eyes softened.
At that moment, I suddenly found that the last little hope in my heart was completely destroyed.
Strangely, the heart has never been calm.
I lowered my eyes, withdrew my sight, and my eyes fell on the opposite boy.
The boy was caught off guard and looked at me. He was even more nervous. He even repeated what he had just said, “Senior sister, can you chase me?”?
Hearing this, the onlookers began to laugh.
He doesn’t seem to understand. A man who
knew him reminded him with a smile, “Ho Chou, it was you who confessed your love to someone. How could you still let someone chase you?”?
He stared blankly at me, as if he had finally realized something, and his face turned red to the tip of his ears. “I, I..” Yes.
I interrupted him.
This time, I did not go to see what Song Qianyu looked like now.
In the midst of the noise, I watched He Zhou quietly and saw his Adam’s apple rolling, and the red of his ears gradually spread to his ears and neck.
I smiled and couldn’t help repeating, “Yes.”.
」…… I found that He Zhou is really the person I have ever seen who likes to blush most. After
I said “yes,” Ho Chou, with a face red enough to bleed, pulled me away and took me to the nearest dessert shop, where he ordered several desserts in front of me.
Under my surprised eyes, he lowered his eyes and held the spoon tightly in his hand.
After a while, he finally raised his eyes, curled his lips and said with a smile, “I saw you didn’t eat much at the hotpot restaurant just now. They said that eating dessert would make people feel better.”.
I looked at him. I
suddenly realized that there was such a person who had been watching me silently not far away at the dinner party that I didn’t want to stay for a second.
He saw my unspeakable embarrassment and embarrassment, saw my loneliness and desolation that I tried to hide, so he took me away.
I felt as if my heart had been touched.
Eating dessert really makes people feel better, and I was in a good mood all day.
In the evening, He Zhou and I walked on the playground together. The wind blew the clothes, and the sunset put the red clouds together. He Zhou took my hand carefully.
When I tilted my head to look at him, I could only see the white side of his face and the tips of his ears dyed red by the sunset.
This good mood lasted until Song Qianyu sent me a WeChat and asked me where I was now.
I didn’t reply.
He didn’t ask again.
I let out a deep breath, as if I wanted to exhale all the depression I had had over the years. He Zhou and
I did not return to the dormitory until very late. After washing, I began to revise the paper. It was not until the paper was completely revised and the format was adjusted and sent to the tutor from the mailbox that I turned on my mobile phone.
He Zhou sent me a WeChat at 11 o’clock in the middle of the night to ask if I was free tomorrow. After a moment’s
hesitation, I replied, “I’m free tomorrow.”.
“He quickly replied,” Well, good night.
I froze and looked at the time. It was three o’clock in the morning.
I stared at the WeChat for a moment, then suddenly thought of something and smiled.
After drinking a glass of milk, I decided to go to bed, only to find that my roommate’s bed was empty and the quilt was neatly folded.
Tonight, my roommate didn’t come back.
The next day, I slept until ten o’clock in the morning. After I got up and washed, I began to make up in front of the mirror. When I finally applied lipstick, I suddenly heard the sound of the key opening the door.
It’s the roommate back.
I looked at myself in the mirror, my eyes were calm, and there was no fluctuation in my eyes. The last
time Mingming ran into them kissing, my heart was so painful that I could hardly breathe. It felt like my whole body had been torn apart and reorganized, and my bones had been crushed and put together again.
But last night, knowing that they were together and might be doing something more intimate, my heart was a little sore, and the pain in my imagination did not come. I didn’t even fall asleep for a while, and I had no dreams all night.
I don’t know if this means that I finally put down Song Qianyu and let myself go, but I know it’s a good start.
I pursed my lips and smoothed the lipstick a little bit. My roommate’s slightly tired voice came to my ear: “He’s back to the company.”.
I turned my head and noticed that my roommate looked pale and haggard.
I looked at her in surprise and held out my hand to see if her forehead was burning, but my roommate kept his face away from my touch.
I frowned.
My roommate stared at me and said with some difficulty, “I slept with him.”.
I looked at her and said no more.
After a long time, the roommate’s face suddenly showed a very complicated emotion. “Xiaojing, is it possible for you and Ho Chou?”?
I was silent, but I was seriously thinking about the possibility. After a while, I looked up at her and smiled.
The roommate was stunned, and the gloom in his eyes faded, replaced by a sense of relief. When I
went downstairs, I found He Zhou waiting for me at the door of the dormitory. Carrying soybean milk and steamed stuffed buns in his left hand and porridge in his right hand,
he stood there with broad shoulders and long legs like a human standing card, which really attracted the attention of many girls.
I walked over. “When did you get here?”? When
Ho Chou saw me, his long eyelashes drooped and he blushed and said, I didn’t wait long.
Then he immediately said, “I bought two kinds of breakfast. You choose first, and I’ll eat the other one.”.
“I said with a casual glance,” I want porridge.
Then I was stunned.
He Zhou is also stupefied, the hot line of sight falls on my face, the Adam’s apple rolls lightly, the face is more red.
…… I didn’t expect that the place where He Zhou took me was the aquarium. Inside the
aquarium, the lights are dim, there are simulated seaweed and coral on both sides of the walkway, and there are many fish wandering around the tunnel, seemingly curious about the appearance of human beings.
I touched the glass of the water tank, and a small transparent jellyfish suddenly escaped, and I could not help bending my lips.
Turning to talk to He Zhou, I found him taking pictures of me with his mobile phone.
I raised my eyebrows and leaned over. “Let me see.”.
The photo is a bust. The girl is wearing a white dress. Her collarbone and shoulders are exposed. Her skin is white and bright. It is set off by the blue sea water. A few strands of hair are slightly raised. There is a kind of natural messy beauty.
It can be seen that the person who took the snapshot was very good at shooting, the light was handled very well, and the angle was chosen very well. I
turned my head and said with a smile, “So you’re so good at taking pictures.” The words stopped abruptly.
He Zhou’s eyes were very deep, and he looked at me from a very close distance.
Close enough, I could feel his tense body, his hot breath, and the good smell of his body.
Suddenly, I felt a fever on my face and my breathing suddenly became rapid.
At about 6:30, He Zhou and I chose to go back to school by bus.
The window was open and the wind was whistling in my ears. From time to time in my
mind, I think of the scene just now when He Zhou’s lips were about to brush over, but he was restrained to deviate.
He was breathing slightly and told me seriously that he could wait.
I couldn’t help turning my head and found He Zhou straightening his back, sitting upright and looking ahead. Look like
a gentleman.
I remembered that after returning to the dormitory last night, I went to the school post bar to check his name, find out many girls’confessions, and someone wrote his information in detail, including what competitions he had participated in before and what awards he had won. After
looking at him for a while, I suddenly said, “Why do you like me?”?
He Chou didn’t seem to expect me to ask this, and he couldn’t help but be stunned.
I stared into his eyes and bit my lip. “You are excellent. Why do you like me?”?
He Zhou’s good-looking brows were tightly wrinkled together, and his face was as serious as I had ever seen before. Senior sister, why do you think that?
I looked at him and said nothing. The corners of
Ho Chou’s lips tightened slightly. After a while, he sighed. The first time I saw you was not at a hotpot restaurant, but at an aquarium.
“I was stunned.” Aquarium?
He Chou gave a “hum” and said in a low voice, “You had two strings of ice-sugar gourds in your hand that day, as if you were waiting for someone.
I watched your expression change from expectation to disappointment, and the corners of my eyes were red, but I tried to endure it.
Until a little girl bumped into you by accident. The little girl covered her nose and cried with pain. You squatted down and took a tissue to wipe her tears in a hurry. As you wiped them, your tears could not stop falling. In
this way, you and the little girl cried and took tissues to wipe each other’s tears. After crying until you had no strength, each of you shared a bunch of ice-sugar gourds.
“The feeling you gave people at that time –” He Zhou paused for a moment, thinking of something, and blushed again. “It’s pitiful and lovely.
I lowered my eyes, and my face burned for no reason.
I remember that Song Qianyu happened to be here on a business trip at that time. On the day he finished his work and went back, he promised to spare some time to accompany me to the aquarium.
I waited for him happily for a long time, but what I got was a message from him on Wechat: Sorry, I got up late. I’m afraid I can’t catch the high-speed rail, so I’ll leave first.
Song Qianyu would never disrupt his plans for me.
I raised my face and looked at He Zhou, but I didn’t think he knew me from that time.
He Chou frankly looked at me with soft eyes. Later, when the college held a special lecture, I saw you speaking on the stage, and I realized that you were one year older than me, senior sister He Jing of the Department of Finance.
」…… Back to the dormitory is more than nine o’clock in the evening, the dormitory did not turn on the lights, all around dark, roommates seem to sleep very early today.
I did not turn on the light, closed my eyes, buried my face in the pillow, and the emotions in my heart were almost uncontrollable.
Today, I realized that I had always felt inferior when I was chasing Song Qianyu all these years.
Even though I have done a good job, his indifference and neglect, and his whim of teasing, all make me mentally and physically exhausted, and even constantly doubt and deny myself, just like a worm in a cocoon, closing myself tightly, shrinking, and not seeing a ray of light.
I never thought that a man named He Zhou would appear and tell me slowly and solemnly, “You are very good, why can’t I like you?”? Somewhere
in my heart, I felt as if I had been burned, and then slowly, a little bit of heat filled the air.
I took a deep breath, sat up, opened the WeChat and posted a message in my circle of friends. The text was “you are also very good,” and the picture was the photo he Zhou took today.
A few seconds later, I received a WeChat from Song Qianyu: “Did you take him to that aquarium?”?
Followed by the second one: “Are you with him?”? The questioning in
these two sentences is too obvious, and there is even a subtle hint of jealousy.
My heart jumped.
The next second, Song Qianyu called directly.
Looking at the number on the screen of the mobile phone, which has been familiar to the bone marrow and engraved in the heart, I frowned. I
used to be happy for a long time when he gave me a very perfunctory WeChat, but now he calls on his own initiative, and I have a strange resistance in my heart.
I seem to have lost interest in talking to him.
I stared at the number for a few seconds, closed my eyes in silence, and pressed hang up. Then the
phone rang several times, and I hung up without hesitation. Repeated
several times, I am a little impatient, typing said: “I am now in the dormitory, your girlfriend is sleeping.”.
This sentence was like some kind of switch, and Sung Chien-yu finally stopped. In the
following time, I got closer and closer to He Zhou.
We ate together every day, went to the library to read books, went to the playground to walk, and went to see the new movie.
Gradually, I became more and more familiar with him, and now I don’t feel embarrassed even if I don’t talk, but I have a lot to say when I chat.
And our relationship is the kind that a layer of window paper has not been broken.
On the contrary, there seems to be something wrong between Song Qianyu and his roommates. I seldom see them on the phone now. The sticky strength of the past has disappeared like the ebb tide. On the surface,
my roommate talked and laughed as if nothing had happened, but I heard her choking voice several times in the middle of the night.
I can probably guess. Maybe it’s because of me. After
much hesitation, I released Song Qianyu from the blacklist and called him. The
phone was quickly connected, and when he heard his hoarse voice, the prepared speech was suddenly blocked in his throat.
He said, Xiaojing, you are finally willing to answer my phone.
I was in a trance for a moment. I used to say
this to him.
But my tone at that time was more cautious and helpless, like gouging out pride and self-esteem from my bones, crushing them inch by inch, and then humbling them into the dust.
Fortunately, a man appeared in time and pulled me out. He Zhou’s gentle face flashed through my
mind, and I bent my lips unconsciously.
「…… Xiaojing, are you listening?
Song Chien-yu’s voice became even hoarse.
I came to my senses. What did you just say?
The other end was silent.
I thought about it and said calmly, “Song Chien-yu, I’ve liked you for ten years.”. There was a sound of heavy breathing at
the other end, and after a moment, Sung Chien-yu said, I know.
Although I had guessed it in my heart, when I heard him admit it, I felt a sharp pain in my heart, as if I had been punctured by some blunt instrument.
Not because of him, but because of my obscure, joke-like ten-year secret love.
I took a deep breath and said firmly, “But after that meal, I found that I didn’t like you anymore.”.
I have only blessings for you now, and there are people around me who I want to hold on to.
I sighed slightly and continued, Song Qianyu, we should all cherish the person around us. Song Chien-yu was silent even longer
this time. It was only when
I thought he wouldn’t make a sound again that he asked me slowly in a tone of certainty and relief, “He Jing, are you with him to get back at me?”?
」…… I was a little blocked by Song Qianyu’s words.
It’s not a guilty conscience, nor is it the embarrassment of being seen through. It’s really the depression in my heart.
I wonder how humble and undignified I have been in the past ten years, so that Song Qianyu takes it for granted that I will sacrifice my feelings to retaliate against him?
Although I blacklisted him again after he said that, I was still very depressed.
That day, He Zhou and I came back after watching the movie. When we were approaching the door of the dormitory, the words flew through our minds again. As soon as
I shook my mind, I tripped over a stone at my feet and almost fell down with a bent knee. Fortunately, a pair of hands beside me held me firmly.
Meeting He Zhou’s worried eyes, I curved my lips and smiled at him.
At this time, there was a sudden throbbing pain in my ankle, and I gasped subconsciously.
Sprain your ankle?
He Chou frowned.
I nodded my head.
He Zhou helped me sit down on the bench next to me and picked up my foot to check the injury. It
‘s a good thing it’s not dislocated. Senior sister, I’ll rub it for you. Before
I could react, the next moment there was a cool touch on my ankle.
He gently grasped my ankle, kneading it gently and rhythmically with his fingers. There was a slight tingling sensation, and I gave a short “ah”.
He Zhou suddenly paused, and from my point of view, I could see his Adam’s apple rolling slightly.
I can’t help burning my face.
Finally, the pain in my ankle slowly dissipated, and I heard Ho Chou ask in a low voice, “Senior sister, does it still hurt?”?
“No, it doesn’t hurt..” I found my voice was a little hoarse when I opened my mouth.
He Zhou seemed to smile, put my feet down gently, and looked up at me. In
the moonlight, his eyes were deep, his nose was straight, his lips were red, and his eyes were calm and focused.
I looked at him and a thought suddenly came to my mind. It’s
over.
I don’t know who took the initiative first, and I don’t know who responded. In a twinkling of an eye, I had put my arms around his neck, and his hand was on my waist.
This is the first kiss between us.
…… I don’t know how long it took him to step back a little, gasping heavily, and the sight on my face was so hot that it almost melted me.
“Quiet..” Somewhere in his mind, the nerve, with his very light murmur, snapped and broke completely. I
opened my lips and tried to say something, but suddenly my arm was grabbed by a big hand and I was pulled down from the bench.
I groaned in pain.
Turn your head, just in time for a pair of familiar, red eyes.
To tell you the truth, I was really surprised to see Song Qianyu.
Especially now that he was livid and his eyes were full of shock and anger, as if I had done something wrong to him.
I just think it’s ridiculous.
He is used to my ten years of giving, used to my unrequited good, when I am no longer humble and compromise, when my eyes no longer look at him, he feels uncomfortable. What
is more ridiculous is that he can alienate and ignore me and draw a clear line, but he does not allow me to take the initiative to let go and get away from the hopeless addiction. It’s like
he can’t see me living a good life. Being held by
Song Qianyu’s arm, I felt uncomfortable. I glanced at it, and it turned red.
I moved my arm, but he held it tighter and gave me no chance to break free.
He looked at me for a moment, then turned his eyes and stared at He Zhou viciously, with strong emotions rolling in his eyes, as if he was going to eat him.
I frowned and leaned slightly in front of He Zhou.
Sung Chien-yu was stupefied for a moment, and his eyes turned even redder. After looking at me for a long time, he said hoarsely, “He Jing, we’ve known each other for ten years. How long have you known him?”?
Just protect him like that?
I looked at him and said in a faint voice, He Zhou is my boyfriend.
Sung Chien-yu suddenly froze in place.
I looked at his pale lips and warned, “You’re pinching my hand.”.
Song Chien-yu reacted and slowly released my arm. The moment
he let go, my feet suddenly became unstable, and I stumbled and fell into the arms of He Zhou, who just reached out on the right. The
pain came from the ankle bone. I looked at the high and swollen ankle, only to find that Song Qianyu had just pulled it from the bench, as if it was really dislocated.
I suddenly wanted to laugh, and then I really laughed.
Song Qianyu looked at my ankle, obviously aware of something, eyes flashed a trace of helplessness.
For a long time, he moved his lips. Sorry.
I didn’t want to talk to him any more, so I tugged at Ho Chou’s sleeve and said, Take me to the hospital.
He Chou immediately nodded and squatted down in front of me. I’ll carry you.
I was about to climb up when a hand suddenly reached out, but suddenly stopped, the fingertips trembled, and stopped a few millimeters from my wrist.
I looked up at Song Qianyu’s line of sight.
The cold eyes were silly and confused at this time.
After a while, he withdrew his hand and said in a hoarse voice, “Xiaojing, I’ll drive you to the hospital.”.
“I quickly refused,” Don’t bother, thank you. With
that, I leaned on Ho Chau’s shoulder, put my hands around his neck, and let him carry me on his back. When I
reached the corner, I glanced at Song Qianyu behind me. Dressed in a white shirt and black trousers,
he stood there staring at us motionless, tall and slender, but with a thick sense of desolation.
Took a taxi to the nearby hospital, the doctor helped me to correct the bone position, prescribed some medicine to promote blood circulation and dissipate blood stasis, and then looked indifferently at me and He Zhou’s face, telling me that I must pay attention to rest for half a month, not to do a lot of exercise. My face was red
until I got out of the taxi.
I pressed my face gently against Ho Chou’s back, feeling his body temperature, and heard him say, “Senior sister, during this time, let’s move to the house I rented first.”. The words of the doctor just now floated through
my mind for a moment, and my heart pounded? Live
with you?
He Chou paused and smiled. I mean, your dormitory is on the fourth floor, and now you have a foot injury, so it’s not convenient to climb the stairs. The house
I rent has an elevator, and the environment is OK. If you move to my place, I can take care of you during the day, and at night, “Ho Chou smiled.” I’ll move back to the dormitory.
My face turned red for a moment, and I gave a gentle hum. Back to the door of the dormitory
again, it was already around 11:30, but Song Qianyu hadn’t left yet. When
he saw me, he opened his mouth to say something. I frowned and turned my head away.
Passing by him, Ho Chou suddenly said, “Jingjing, you can simply pack up a few clothes in the evening. I have everything else at home. I’ll pick you up tomorrow morning.”.
I turned my face slightly sideways and saw Song Chien-yu’s body suddenly tremble.
Good.
I said.
My roommate was not very surprised to hear that I was going to move to the house rented by He Zhou. She just smiled and said, “He Zhou is a very good person.”.
“I looked at her face, which was gradually recovering, and asked,” Did you break up with.
She seemed to know what I was going to ask. Her face was calm and her eyes did not change at all. I decided I didn’t like him since he called you 13 times that night. I broke up with him
the next day.
“I was confused for a moment.” How do you know.. ” I didn’t get through.
The roommate pursed his lips and said, “I found out by accident that you had set a separate lovestory ringtone for him.”.
I was silent and did not speak.
She smiled. “Then the bell never rang again. You should have changed it or blacklisted him.”.
I nodded. Not only did I blacklist him that night, but the ringtone was changed to goaway.
My roommate’s eyes lingered on my face for a long time, and finally sighed slightly, “Xiaojing, he doesn’t deserve my love, nor does he deserve your love.”.
」…… I have to say, He Zhou is really good at taking care of people, at least he is good at taking care of me.
Living in his home for more than half a month, in addition to preparing for graduation defense, I was playing games and eating meals cooked by He Zhou, and I was raised a few pounds.
I put down the mirror bitterly and looked up at He Zhou, who was peeling oranges for me.
He runs back and forth in the dormitory these days, his face is much thinner, his outline is smooth, and he is indescribably good-looking. With a wink,
I threw myself at him and buried my face in his arms, muttering, “When my feet are completely healed, I must lose weight!” He Zhou smiled noncommittally and fed a piece of orange into my mouth. There was a sudden rainstorm in the
evening. At the moment when I went out with an umbrella in Ho Chou, I closed my eyes and whispered, “Tonight..” Don’t go back.
He Zhou stared at me for a moment. Seeing that I didn’t add any words of regret, he tightened his hand holding the handle of the umbrella and replied in a hoarse voice, Good. In the middle of the night
, I was awakened by a dull thunder and turned my head. He Zhou, who was next to me, was still sleeping deeply.
I bent my lips, intending to go back to sleep, but when I looked up, I found that the window was not closed tightly, and the drizzle outside drifted in through the window.
Last time He Zhou was afraid that I would bump into him, so he bought me plaster shoes from the Internet.
But my foot injury is not particularly serious, this half month has been almost good, so now I can walk several steps without wearing plaster shoes.
I put on my nightdress and was about to close the window when I glanced downstairs and saw a familiar figure.
My fingers paused.
The night was deep and dark, and by the light of the street lamp, I saw his pale face and the fireworks on his fingertips, and he was smoking.
I have liked Song Qianyu for ten years, and I know that he usually doesn’t smoke. He only smokes like that when he is irritable and most irritable.
This period of time, I can see his figure every weekend in my neighborhood, he is idle, let me have a kind of illusion that he is unemployed.
I know Song Qianyu also saw me.
But I didn’t want to look at him again. I closed the window. After closing the curtains, I walked slowly to the living room and poured myself a glass of water.
Then I heard my cell phone ring on the living room table last night.
It’s a strange number.
I was silent for a moment, sighed, and took it. The voice on the
phone was deep and hoarse, and there was a trace of confusion in his forbearance. He didn’t say anything, but repeatedly called my name: “Xiaojing, Xiaojing..” I suddenly felt a little sad.
This kind of sadness is not heartache, nor pain or hatred, but a moment of dryness in the heart, as if only two words can be described as sad.
I suddenly remembered the lyrics from the love story: “Causewe were born young when I first saw you”, because when I first saw you, we were still very young. When I
first met him, I was attracted by the cold and silent teenager. I would pretend to pass by his class door inadvertently. I would recite words all day and all night and study hard just to get into his class.
At that time, I didn’t care whether there was a result or not, as long as I could see it from a distance, I would be happy.
Later, I was cautious, worried about gains and losses, and looked up to him like looking up to God.
And he doesn’t refuse, he doesn’t approach.
Slowly, I found that the harm he brought to me was almost equal to the surprise and strength he brought to me at the beginning.
Now all my feelings for him, in this moment, when he called my name, magically, all disappeared.
Finally, I heard my own voice: “Song Chien-yu, I used to, really, really like you.”.
But now, I really, really don’t love you anymore.
」…… After hanging up the phone, I went back to bed and lay down again. Suddenly, an arm wrapped around my waist and took me over, resting my head on his chest. There’s a new chain of fishmeal shops
downstairs. I heard it’s ten years old. It tastes delicious and has a lot of repeat customers.
Why don’t we try this for breakfast tomorrow?
He Zhou’s tone was very calm, but I still heard a trace of gnashing of teeth.
I raised an eyebrow and said hurriedly, “No, no, no!” He Zhou paused, rubbed my hair and said, “Why, you don’t like fish meal?”?
I raised my face and put my hand around his neck. I suppressed a smile and said, “Yes, I don’t like it. I like porridge!” . Focus on not getting lost ~
