After
graduation, I moved in with my college boyfriend, and when we were about to get married, we broke up.
After cohabitation, many problems will be exposed. I live in a shared house
with my boyfriend. I have to be intimate secretly. I never dare to cry out. I often have to find other roommates when they are not at home. I dare to be a little presumptuous.
When it came time to talk about marriage, we decided to buy a house, but we quarreled bitterly about money. Just then
, a Beijing native appeared beside me.
His name is Li Cheng. When
Li Cheng made overtures to me, I didn’t hide, nor was I obsessed. I was just calculating whether I could bear the cost of “crossing the line” with Li Cheng.
In good conscience, his appearance can only be considered medium, and his height is only 172. Compared
with my boyfriend Feng Guochao, his appearance is much worse.
However, if his identity as a “Beijing native” is added, the new house with an area of 100 square meters and 400000 decorations in the North Fifth Ring Road.. And his work in a public institution. And the “charm of relaxation” brought to him by all these external blessings. Feng Guochao, who
made him look nervous forever, was far behind.
Wild sparks are flying everywhere.
He’s good at it. It’s hard for me not to be emotional.
To be honest, with Feng Guochao, that thing is like routine.
I haven’t felt passion in a long time.
I know very well what will happen tonight if I don’t stop it.
At this time, Feng Guochao’s face flashed eerily in my mind.
The heart is like being poured a bucket of cold water, and the enthusiasm quickly recedes.
The wild sparks crackled and all misfired.
I stopped Li Cheng. “I have to go home.”. I
could see that he was very surprised.
I didn’t hide from his eyes and tried to look honest.
I told you, I have a boyfriend.
I can’t be sorry for him.
Li Cheng should be very disappointed.
But his upbringing did not allow him to impose.
He still let go of me.
I quickly packed my clothes and fled Li Cheng’s house.
Li Cheng put me in a taxi.
Before getting on the bus, he said to me, “Lily, when you only think about whether you are worthy of him, you don’t love him anymore.”.
Maybe he’s right.
I don’t love Feng Guochao anymore.
After all, love is too extravagant for Beijing drifters like us.
As early as we fight for survival again and again, the love between us has been exhausted.
But when Feng Guochao’s face flashed through my mind, I was overwhelmed by guilt.
We’ve been together for ten years.
Without love, there should still be “loyalty.”.
Think of it as loyalty.
I think Feng Guochao should be given another chance.
In the car, I can’t help thinking of the dribs and drabs with Feng Guochao.
We are fellow-townsmen, and we all come from the small town of Tai’an.
He is from Feicheng, and I am from Dongping.
In today’s words, we both belong to the category of “problem makers.”.
From the college entrance examination all the way to fight, into Beijing’s 985, God knows how difficult it is.
But compared with Feng Guochao, I am more difficult.
Because he is the younger brother in the family, and I am the elder sister in the family. Although
Feng Guochao’s family is not rich, as an only child, all the resources in his family are his.
At least, he was never at risk of dropping out of school.
And me?
Growing up, I don’t know how many times I heard, “What’s the use of reading so many books for girls?” And “It’s better to go out to work early to earn money than anything else.”. I am
always on the verge of dropping out of school, and I have to get the first place in the exam again and again, so that my family can continue to support me to go to school.
I went to college on student loans, too. I spend almost all my time
outside class working. Feng Guochao and
I got to know each other when I worked part-time in the school library.
Feng Guochao is very good-looking, with sword eyebrows and star eyes.
But I’m just too shy. He was always borrowing books
at that time. I run into him
almost every time I’m on duty. All
ghosts know that he is a drunkard whose intention is not to drink.
But he didn’t dare to talk to me.
Finally, I asked him first, “Classmate, do you want to know me?”?
“He stammered,” How do you know?
I pointed to one of the books he had borrowed and said, “You’ve borrowed Quantum Mechanics three times this semester!” Until now, I still remember his red face and shining eyes at that time.
At that time, there was no doubt that the emotion between us was love.
Later, we were naturally together.
I look good, and I ask myself if I can get eight or nine points after makeup. Among the people
chasing me, there are many rich people.
I chose the poor Feng Guochao because he was willing to give me the best of everything at that time. The first Christmas after
we were together, he bought me an iPhone 4 with his scholarship and said to me, “I won’t let you suffer with me.”. What did
I tell him?
Yes, I forced him to return the iPhone 4.
I also said to him, “Are you stupid? A mobile phone is more than 4000, which is enough for us to rent a house for half a year after graduation next year.”.
Feng Guochao refused, saying that he felt indebted to me and that I had nothing to follow him.
I interrupted him: “I have Feng Guochao, do they have?”?
At that time, I really felt full of love and water. I
have Feng Guochao, and I will have a future. Since when has
everything changed?
My family has always disagreed with us.
My mother wants me to fly to the branches and become a phoenix, so that she can help my brother in the future.
I chose Feng Kuo-chao, and for her, it was the equivalent of years of “investment.”. One
year during the Spring Festival, my mother and I quarreled bitterly about Feng Guochao.
My mother gnashed her teeth and asked me, “What do you want from this boy who has no house, no car, and no background?”?
“I was justified.” I just wanted him to be nice to me.
As a result, my mother sneered, “If he has no money, he will be good to you!”! There will be a time when you cry.
At that time, I was so valiant that I fought with my mother. Why should I cry! When we rise in the world, we’ll be sure to beat the drums and gongs and laugh for you! But ten years have passed, and there is no sign that we have “risen in the world.”.
We still live in a cramped rental house, crowded with the smelly subway in the morning and evening rush hours, go out early and come back late, dare not stop for a day, and are squeezed by the company.
But wage increases can never catch up with housing prices and prices. We share a refrigerator, a kitchen, and a toilet with others. We have to cook every minute, take a shower every minute, and even “that” has to be furtive.
A little louder, it’s an action movie for the next door. How can such a life give birth to love?
Besides, my mother’s words are a prophecy. Feng Guochao, who
had no money, soon became bad to me. The first time
we broke up was because I bought myself a COACH bag of more than 2000 yuan for my birthday.
Feng Guochao thinks I have been brainwashed by consumerism and become vain.
I defend myself: I have a small salary of ten thousand a month, but I can’t buy myself a bag of 2000?
Besides, my colleague is carrying more than ten thousand bags. What kind of vanity am I?
But before I finished speaking, I was interrupted by Feng Guochao.
Hsu Li-li, how can you compare with your colleagues?
Your colleague, a native of Beijing, has three suites at home. What do
you have? I have to pay the
rent for you! We are both from a small place. My family’s help is limited. If your family doesn’t hold you back, you will already burn incense. If
we want to get a foothold in Beijing, the most urgent thing is to save money to buy a house! Those designer bags are not what we can afford.
Feng Guochao has a point.
But I broke up with him anyway.
It was the first time I realized that the future with Feng Guochao was not what I wanted. My good friend Luo Xiaoyue agreed with
my decision to break up.
She said that she was not optimistic about Feng Guochao and me for a long time, and even educated me: “Beijing’s latest plan says, ‘By 2020, the permanent population will be controlled within 23 million.’ What does this mean?”? People who are not
capable enough may not be able to stay. Women like
us, who have no strength and whose parents are not powerful, can only rely on marriage if we want to stay.
I asked her, why didn’t you say these things earlier?
She herself married a local man early.
Xiaoyue rolled her eyes. “If I had said so, you would have listened!”! You are obsessed with Feng Guochao all day long.
Now that I think about it, if we had broken up decisively at that time, it would have been a good thing for Feng Guochao and me.
However, less than a month after the COACH package incident, Feng Guochao came to me to get back together and apologized to me.
He said that he didn’t really think I was vain, but because he didn’t have the ability to make me live a good life, he said those words.
Luo Xiaoyue said that Feng Guochao must have turned around in the marriage market and found that I was the most cost-effective, so he came to eat my back grass and asked me to ignore him.
But I relented and finally agreed to get back together.
From then on, Luo Xiaoyue felt that I could not support the wall and was unwilling to intervene in the matter between me and Feng Guochao.
But as a friend, she still advised me, “Don’t be too love-minded. You have to keep an eye on yourself. At least save some money!”! Nothing is reliable except money these days.
I know that Xiaoyue is really good for me.
So, when Feng Guochao put forward later: Save our money together and use it to buy a house in the future.. I refused at once.
This also makes Feng Guochao not very happy.
He felt that I didn’t treat him as one of my own.
But what happened last year when he bought a house proved that he didn’t treat me as one of his own.
Feng Guochao’s family was demolished and divided into 700,000 yuan.
He saved 300000 yuan himself and finally collected enough money for the down payment of the house.
At that time, I had almost 300,000 yuan in my hand.
I want to take it out and make up the down payment.
In this way, we can buy a house in a slightly better location, or buy a slightly larger house.
Of course, correspondingly, the house book also has to write our names.
Unexpectedly, Feng Guochao refused.
His reason is high-sounding: “My money is used to buy a house, and your money is just used for decoration.”.
My money is used for decoration. Will my name be added to the house?
I asked him.
He was silent, saying that the down payment was paid by his family, and he had to discuss it with his family. The result of the
discussion was that his sister said to me, “In order to collect the down payment for Kuo-chao, my parents took out the coffin book. Do you think it’s appropriate to add your name?”?
So I also pay part of the down payment.
I said.
His sister laughed. If
my family pays 1 million yuan and you pay 300,000 yuan, your name will be written on the house? There is no such reason for
anyone to say.
Unless, let’s do a notarization, notarize the proportion of property rights in the house.. During his sister’s negotiation with me, Feng Guochao kept silent.
I asked him, “Do you think so?”?
“He said,” Lily, this money is not my own.
I looked at Feng Guochao and felt that I had just met him.
I suffered with him for ten years, and in the end, he was so defensive against me.
I was disheartened and said to him, “Let’s calculate like this, or we’ll just break up.”. In
this way, his family finally agreed to add my name to the house book.
I don’t know how much of Feng Guochao’s compromise is for love, and how much is for fear of breaking up with me, and it’s hard to find a more suitable wife.
I think it’s boring. At
the critical moment, Luo Xiaoyue lent me 300000 yuan to make up the down payment for a single apartment outside the Sixth Ring Road. Without hesitation,
I bought my own house.
Feng Guochao was very dissatisfied with my choice.
He said I turned my elbow out and couldn’t tell the difference between inside and outside.
Originally, we were running out of money to pay the mortgage. If you buy another house now, what will we eat and drink in the future? When he
didn’t agree to add my name, he said that his family got more down payment.
When I bought my own house, he wanted me to help him pay the mortgage after marriage.
He kept saying that he loved me, but from the beginning to the end, he had only himself in his heart.
But Luo Xiaoyue lent me money, entirely for my sake, just to make me feel more secure in this city.
At least if you quarrel with Feng Kuo-chao, you have a place to go.
You see, love is not even as reliable as friendship.
Anyway, Feng Guochao and I stumbled and finally got married.
This time, it was the bride price that caused us to almost go our separate ways.
Originally, we planned to go back to our hometown for the Spring Festival this year and settle the marriage.
In order to comply with the latest epidemic prevention regulations, we asked for annual leave with the company in advance. It was at this time that
my mother called and said something about the bride price.
She first said in a roundabout way that her neighbor had received 150,000 betrothal gifts for her daughter’s marriage, which was “a riot of color and green,” and a good luck.
Finally, she discussed with my father: considering that Feng Guochao’s family had just bought a house, they just charged 100,000 yuan.
Boy, a hundred grand, or just for a moment.
I refused without hesitation.
I said that Feng Guochao and I had gone bankrupt in order to buy a house, and certainly could not afford the money.
My mother is very unhappy. Your father and
I raised you so much, and we supported you to go to college, and we haven’t seen much of you all these years.
Now the relatives say openly and secretly that we have raised a money-losing goods! If you get married without a betrothal gift, where will your father and my old face go?
My mother’s words made my lungs explode: “It’s true that you raised me so much, but I don’t give you 1000 yuan a month now?”? How much money does
your good son give you a month? How can
I lose money? Everything is expensive
now. What is 1000 yuan a month enough for?
Don’t love your man all day long, and you also love your mother. I’m in
my fifties, and I still have to go to the village to dig tree holes for people, just to earn sixty or seventy yuan a day. I was angry and laughed at my mother’s words.
My father retired from a state-owned enterprise with a monthly pension of nearly 4000 yuan.
I give them an extra 1000 yuan a month.
Two people 5000 yuan, in our small county on the 18th line, not to mention eating and drinking hot, but also enough to crush most people. That
‘s it. My mother is going to dig a tree hole. Is it for me? Not
for her baby boy! My parents pay back my brother’s mortgage and car loan.
My brother’s wife and children are raised by my parents.
5000 yuan is not enough to feed a large family! I said to my mother, “You didn’t dig the tree hole for me!”! When did you and my dad ever think about me?
I have a salary of more than 10,000 yuan a month, and I give you 1,000 yuan a month. If you still think it is too little, then I really have no way.
As for the betrothal gift, don’t say we don’t have it. Even if we can take it out, I won’t let Feng Guochao give it.
We will have more places to spend money in the future.
If you don’t think about me, I can’t think about myself.
My mother was crying on the other end of the phone.
But I hung up and wiped my eyes.
My hands are full of tears.
This is my original family.
Always try to grab from me, but will not offer me anything.
I, Xu Lili, have no way out.
Although I said cruel words to my mother, I still sent her a WeChat that evening: “100,000 yuan betrothal gift is not available.”.
But I checked on the Internet that the betrothal gifts in Tai’an are generally 30,000 yuan. I will transfer 30,000 yuan to you
in a few days. It was
a long time before I received a reply from my mother: I know. There are
only three words, just like our shallow mother-daughter relationship.
Originally, I didn’t intend to let Feng Guochao know about it.
Thirty thousand yuan, I can take it out of my year-end bonus.
But that night, Feng Guochao happened to attend a colleague’s wedding and came back to tell me that his colleague had married a native woman, and her family had sent her a car of 500,000 yuan.
He spoke so exultantly that he could not hide his admiration.
Finally, he asked me, “Did your mother-in-law tell you?”? How much is your family going to send a car when
we get married? We don’t
want 500000. I think 100000 is OK! Wait for us to shake the number.. My family asked me for 100,000 betrothal gifts.
My husband’s family asked me for 100,000 dowry.
My life, it’s bullshit.
At that moment, I suddenly had an idea-it doesn’t matter whether I get married or not.
I interrupted Feng Guochao’s beautiful imagination: “Your mother-in-law has no dowry.”.
But she’s going to ask you for 100,000 yuan as a betrothal gift.
As I expected, Feng Guochao jumped up and said, The betrothal gift?
What bride price?
You ask around us, which of our classmates who got married in Beijing asked for a betrothal gift?
Which is not two old to supplement a small! Even if your family doesn’t say it’s a subsidy for you, how can you ask for betrothal gifts? A betrothal gift of
10,000 yuan.
When Zhang Qiang got married, the man’s family also gave it.
I said.
Feng Guochao sneered.
Ji Jingjing’s family also has a suite. What does your family have to accompany?
You say you are an independent woman all the time! Why are you not independent at this time?
I sneer, too.
I earn my own money and spend it myself, and I bought myself a house. Why am I not independent? Isn’t
my small house in the suburbs of Beijing a dowry? Why don’t
you count in? When
Feng Guochao was asked by me, he snorted for a long time and said, “You know my family’s situation, and now I can’t take out a penny!”! If there is no betrothal gift, will the marriage be terminated?
“” Yes, if you don’t, you won’t get married.
Then came the long Cold War.
Luo Xiaoyue asked me what I was going to do.
If you really feel that you can’t go on with Feng Kuo-chao, then it’s better to have a short-term pain than a long-term pain, and break up cleanly, so that you don’t have to regret getting married! Divorce is not so easy after the new rules come out.
She said it easily.
But ten years of love does not mean that you can give it up.
Besides, I also have doubts in my heart. Although Feng Guochao is selfish, I am not perfect. At least
we both know each other.
If I really break up with him, I may not be able to find a more suitable family than him.
Li Cheng appeared at this time.
We’ve actually known each other for a few years. The institution where
he works is an important customer of our company.
He happens to be my contact person. When I
first met him, he tried to chase me, but I politely refused.
Since then, we have been working together as partners.
Because of the cold war with Feng Guochao, I was restless and made a mistake in the closing data submitted to Li Cheng’s unit.
I thought I was done.
This mistake is enough to get me fired.
Who knows, the pot was carried down by Li Cheng.
He told their leader that he made a mistake when he changed the report. That
‘s what saved me.
I didn’t know how to thank him, but he said, “Hey, what a big deal!”! At most, I was scolded by the leader, but he couldn’t fire me.
But you are a little girl, how ugly you are scolded. In his eyes, the major mistake that
made me tremble with fear was just a trivial matter.
This is the difference between having no confidence and having confidence.
Li Cheng’s confidence comes from his identity as a native of Beijing and his work within the system.
He lives in an extremely safe world.
This makes me very envious.
I insisted on inviting him to dinner and thanking him.
He joked that he was tired of eating outside, and if I insisted on thanking him, I might as well go home and cook a meal for him.
I knew it was his temptation, but I didn’t refuse.
So I came to his new house located in the North Fifth Ring Road, which was 100 square meters and even spent 400000 yuan on decoration.
What I envy most is that I saw a bathtub in the bathroom.
Imagine what a wonderful life it is to have a nice bubble bath, preferably with a glass of red wine, after a tiring day. It doesn’t
sound like a far-fetched wish.
But in the previous ten years, I had not achieved it once.
Once upon a time, I also wanted to satisfy myself.
I bought an inflatable bathtub on Taobao and even asked for a half-day leave from the company in order to monopolize the toilet of the shared house and take a good bath.
But when I finally filled the water and had no time to soak, my roommate knocked on the door and said he had to go to the toilet.
That day, the roommate just didn’t go to work.
My roommate squatted in the pit for a long time. When I
came out, I heard the old exhaust fan in the toilet clicking all the time.
I went back to my room and cried and never used the inflatable tub again. At one point,
I thought I had accepted my fate.
But now, a whole new world of bubble baths beckons.
I worked very hard to cook four dishes, showing my virtue in all aspects.
I know that as a female Beijing drifter from other places, my greatest attraction to Li Cheng lies in her beauty and gentleness.
My efforts were not in vain. After
that meal, Li Cheng became more enthusiastic to me.
Originally, everything came to fruition that day. But Feng Guochao, who suddenly appeared in his mind, still disturbed all this.
Sitting in the taxi, I was very confused. The future of Feng Guochao and
me is like the thick night outside the window, which is too dark to melt.
Back home, Feng Guochao has gone to bed.
I took a bath in silence and went to bed in silence.
Just as I was about to fall asleep, Feng Guochao suddenly turned around and hugged me from behind. “Lily, let’s be good. Don’t quarrel, OK?”? In the
dark night, his voice was weeping.
My nose is also sour. I’ve thought about the
bride price.
I’m going to find some friends to get together, and I will make your family satisfied in any case.
Feng Guochao continued. Don’t
you think I don’t deserve the bride price?
I was wrong. I shouldn’t have said that.
You are the most important thing to me. Why would I stay in Beijing
without you?
I really can’t think about it.
It was his words that made me softhearted.
Yeah, in this big city, we’re in the same boat.
We should be the closest people to each other.
I turned around and threw myself into his arms.
At that moment, there was no one else in my mind, and there was no “bubble bath world.”.
Feng Guochao began to kiss me.
We are like the rain after a long drought, enjoying the moment and longing for each other.
But when I was about to take the final step, I instinctively reminded him to put on his “raincoat.”.
He got up and rummaged in the bedside table for a while, but he couldn’t find it. Then
he kissed me and wanted to continue, “We are both going to get married, and when we are really pregnant, we will be born.”.
“Born?”?
Give birth to what? Give birth to a child
in Beijing, at least 100 thousand deposits should be prepared! But I’m afraid the money in our pockets at the moment is not more than ten thousand yuan.
Besides, if I get pregnant, will I have a problem at work?
With Feng Guochao alone, bear the mortgage of two houses, plus the expenses of a family of three?
My passion completely receded, and I firmly pushed Feng Guochao away. I analyzed all these things in my mind for him to listen to, and finally came to the conclusion: Neither of us can have children for at least three years.
Feng Guochao looked at me dejectedly and turned over in a fit of pique.
After all, don’t you think I’m poor? Don’t
poor people deserve to have children?
He muttered.
Yes.
At least in this city, I don’t deserve Feng Guochao.
Then we turned our backs, swiped our phones for a while, and went to sleep.
Adults are not qualified to be sad and quarrel in the middle of the night. I have to take the subway to work
tomorrow.
The next morning, neither of us said anything about last night, neither of us said anything to apologize.
It’s not that we tacitly accept that nothing happened last night, but.. Every weekday morning, the same rhythm of fighting forced us to rush to two different subway stations.
We don’t have time to talk to each other or even look at each other.
On the subway, I was squeezed into a human sardine, and I was splashed with soybean milk by a passenger who secretly brought soybean milk on the train. The one who spilled soybean
milk carelessly was a young man who had just stepped into the society.
He apologized to me nervously and naively and insisted on paying for the dry cleaning.
Clear eyes, very much like Feng Guochao ten years ago.
I didn’t ask for his money, and I didn’t say much to him.
Because I’m going to be late for work.
I hurried to sit down at my work station. Just as I was about to remember how miserable I had been these past two days, the little girl at the next station handed me three cherries and said, “Sister, it’s so sweet!” As I ate the sweet cherries, I suddenly understood the people who yearned for “freedom of cherries.”.
Cherries represent a sweet and decent life.
The taste is very healing.
Three of them are sweet between the lips. The little girl
next door secretly stuffed cherries into her mouth while working, which made me greedy.
I decided to buy a catty after work.
Although I can’t make cherries free, I should be able to eat once in a while. During the
day, I was thinking about buying cherries after work.
I don’t know if anyone else has ever felt like this-suddenly want to eat something, just want to eat it right away.
As soon as I got off work, I rushed into the fruit supermarket.
I had planned to buy only half a catty and taste it fresh.
But when I arrived at the supermarket, I found that the cherries, which were originally nearly 90 yuan a kilo, were now sold for only 30 yuan.
I didn’t expect that we paupers could realize the freedom of cherries?
I bought a catty and a half happily, and it cost less than 50 yuan.
Unexpectedly, because of such a little cherry, I completely broke up with Feng Guochao. I had just washed the cherries and put them on the plate
that day when he came back.
He glanced at the cherries and his face drooped at once.
With the experience of living with him for ten years, I know exactly what he means.
He just thinks I spend too much money. The good mood
I wanted to enjoy was gone.
But after eating one, I decided not to haggle with Feng Guochao.
I pushed the plate in his direction. “Taste it, it’s sweet.”.
Unexpectedly, he didn’t understand my exhaustion and compromise at all. Instead, he argued with me: “I don’t deserve to eat such a precious thing!” I know he’s looking for trouble.
But it’s too tiring for me to destroy the existing calm and rebuild it.
I really don’t want to argue with him. If
he doesn’t eat it, I’ll eat it myself.
I ate the cherries in silence and went to the kitchen with a plate.
Feng Guochao chased me into the kitchen.
Hsu Li-li, if you buy cherries today, I won’t say anything.
Don’t buy it again.
“” Why? I asked
as I washed the dishes, my anger already kindled.
Why?
！ We just bought a house, and we’re going to go home for the New Year, and we’re going to have a wedding after the New Year. Don’t all of these cost money?
You buy eighty or ninety yuan a kilo of cherries now. Does it fit? Just
buy one and taste it, but you still buy so much! That dish of yours was at least two catties! He seems to think he has a point.
His words completely irritated me.
I don’t even want to talk to him about the real price of cherries-even if I buy 90 yuan a kilo of cherries, don’t I deserve to eat them? Don’t I even have the right to eat in
order to marry you?
I turned around.
I want to take a good look at the man I’m going to marry. Rights, rights
again! Xu Lili, I think you are really brainwashed by those messy rural women’s rights on the Internet, talking to me about rights all day! Marriage requires a house and betrothal gifts.
These are your rights. It’s your right to eat cherries
now! I’m going bankrupt to satisfy your rights, and I’m too tired! Why can’t you think about me?
！」 I stared at Feng Guochao and felt tired.
It turned out that in his mind, even eating a cherry had become a sin of not thinking about him.
“To put it bluntly, at this stage, we don’t deserve to eat such expensive food!” Feng Guochao thought I was convinced and reached for the plate in my hand.
I don’t deserve it?
I don’t know whether I should laugh or cry.
Crying that I’m going to marry a.. The man who says I don’t deserve cherries?
Laugh at me to marry a man who says I don’t deserve to eat cherries! I am completely desperate for the future with Feng Guochao.
Marriage is not only a woman’s second birth.
It’s the same for everyone. What kind of person you
marry or marry means what kind of person you are.
I, on the other hand, don’t want to be a person who is deemed “unworthy to eat cherries.”.
It turns out that when a person’s heart really dies, he will not cry bitterly, nor will he necessarily experience something big. The moment I
decided to leave Feng Guochao was the moment I put the plate in the cupboard.
Now that the decision has been made, there is no point in quarreling. Under Feng Guochao’s astonished gaze,
I packed my luggage and said to him softly, “Let’s break up.”.
Feng Guochao didn’t stop me.
When I was about to go out, he said to me, “You are almost thirty years old, and you are still so capricious.”.
It’s my fault that I was too tolerant to you before.
You can go, and we will break up if you leave.
Then he said something, and I stopped listening.
I don’t care anymore.
Sitting at Luo Xiaoyue’s home of 150 square meters, it was already more than nine o’clock in the evening.
I told her briefly why I moved out.
Luo Hsiao-yueh put a cup of hot tea in my hand and comforted me, “It’s all right to divide it.”.
You are good-looking and young. As long as you think clearly about what you want, you can always find a good condition. Ten thousand steps
back, even if you can’t find it, you still have a small house. It’s better to live
alone than to stay with Feng Guochao! Even eating a cherry depends on his face. What’s the meaning of this day?
I laughed.
Luo Xiaoyue always hits the nail on the head.
She went on to say, “If you are looking for a partner, you should first think about the possibilities of the people around you.”.
I stroked the hot teacup, and somehow I thought of Li Cheng. The cooperation between
our company and his unit is temporarily over.
I haven’t been in touch with him for a month or two since the last thing.
How to reconnect with him has become a question I think about every day.
Last time I explicitly refused him, and if I contact him now, I will look like a bitch. I can
‘t take the initiative. I can only wait for the opportunity.
One weekend evening, Li Cheng sent a message saying that he was watching Guoan’s match at the Workers’ Stadium.
I remember he told me that after watching the game, he would have a midnight snack with his fans and friends nearby.
I rushed to the coffee shop near the Workers’ Stadium and sent a circle of friends with a location.
In less than five minutes, Li Cheng contacted me.
He asked me at the WeChat, “I just finished watching the game, and I saw that you were also nearby. Do you have time to meet?”? After
stretching for five minutes, I typed, “OK.”. My best friend
and I will finish the meeting right away, and I will find you after the meeting.
Without waiting for me to send it out, Li Cheng sent another message: If you can, I’ll come to you.
Li Cheng is very clever, and he is very skillful in asking this question.
If I refuse, I don’t like him at all, or I’m with my boyfriend.
If I reply “yes,” I’m breaking up with my boyfriend.
Because last time I made it clear that I had a boyfriend and didn’t want to betray him.
Thinking about it, I replied with a “yes.”.
Li Cheng soon appeared.
He came running and stood in front of me, his chest still heaving slightly.
I’m a little touched.
He said with a smile that he had not seen me for more than a month, and he really missed me a little.
He was so smart that he knew from my attitude that I was single again.
I lowered my head and smiled, accepting his confession.
He pulled me to attend the night party of their Guoan fans, saying that everyone heard that Brother Cheng had a girl he liked and was clamoring to see me.
I half pushed and half went.
Because I also want to know more about Li Cheng’s life-and my future life. All the men who ate midnight snack
that day were Beijing aborigines.
They have been watching football with Li Cheng for ten years. One of
them, Tai Lung, is Li Cheng’s high school classmate.
His wife is also a foreigner and has been married to him for two years.
It was in them that I saw the future of Li Cheng and me.
Tai Lung and his wife have been complaining to their friends, saying that Tai Lung’s mother always asks them when they will have children, but they both feel that they haven’t grown up and played enough, so how can they have children?
Someone laughed and said, “If you have children, bring them with you to watch the ball game!”! What can’t I want! You have to have a baby! Others said, “Yes!”! We used to watch and play football together when we were young, and when our kids grow up, we’ll play together too! Tai Lung’s wife put her arm around Tai Lung and said, “In two years, I’ll give birth to you!”! Talk to your mother these two years, and don’t torture me.
Tai Lung said, “Don’t worry, my wife. I’ll tell my mother tomorrow.”.
Then someone said, “You have to give birth to a boy. Only when you give birth to a boy can you play football and watch football together.”.
Li Cheng retorted with a smile: “Girls can do it too!” Everyone laughed and blamed the man who offered to have a boy.
My eyes suddenly moistened.
I left the table on the pretext of going to the toilet.
I love kids.
But the topic of having children has hardly appeared in my previous life with Feng Guochao.
For a pair of Beijing drifters without registered permanent residence, it is not difficult to have children, but it is extremely difficult for them to receive education in Beijing.
However, this is not a problem for the indigenous people at all. If
they want to have children, they will have them. If they don’t want to have them, they will not have them. They can be loyal to their hearts. When I came back
from the bathroom, I listened to them quietly and talked about a lot of troubles.
But the “worries” in their mouths, in my opinion, are all stable and advanced worries, and they are not the same concept as the survival problems that our Beijing drifters are worried about.
At this time, I received a WeChat from Feng Guochao, who had not contacted me for half a month. As if nothing had happened,
he asked me, “Pick you up after work tomorrow?”?
This is so funny.
There’s nothing to hesitate about. I just closed Feng Guochao’s dialog box.
Now, I am eager to get the stable and advanced worries of Li Cheng and his friends. It was almost twelve o’clock when I came out
of the shop.
Li Cheng drank a little wine and his face was flushed.
He took a special car and said he would see me off.
In the car, he gently took my hand, and gently said in my ear: “With him?”? All
his friends like me.
He thinks we can have a good life together.
I said, I want to think about it.
The answer seemed to be in his expectation. Smiling,
he touched my hand and said, “Think about it. Don’t think about it for eight or ten years.”.
I smiled and said I wouldn’t let him wait that long.
I thought to myself, I can’t wait that long.
Within a week, I gave him a clear reply and agreed to try with him first.
Li Cheng was very happy and went to Wangfujing that day to buy a solid bracelet of ancient gold. He said that when he saw his colleagues wearing it, he wanted to buy one for me as a token of love.
He also said that he was not a fashionable person, did not know what girls like, and felt that gold bracelets would never depreciate, much better than giving a mobile phone or a bag.
I put it on happily and told him that I agreed with the idea and thanked him.
He held me in his arms.
Thank you for what, silly girl! Isn’t it right to buy gold jewelry for your daughter-in-law? That night, I stayed at his house. When it
was over, he hugged me and said, “a moment of spring night is worth a thousand pieces of gold. I understand now, but I really didn’t understand before.”.
I know. He’s still thinking about it.
He was satisfied with me just now.
This satisfaction makes me sad.
To tell you the truth, that night at Li Cheng’s house was the most unbridled night I had in ten years, and also the saddest night.
In the past, when I shared a house with Feng Guochao, I never dared to cry out when I did this kind of thing. I often had to find other roommates who were not at home before I dared to be a little presumptuous.
But despite this, it is possible to be disturbed.
Even on one occasion, in the middle of the night, someone knocked on the door and asked if the network cable had been unplugged and why he could not get on the Internet.
So we don’t do this kind of thing very often.
In Li Cheng’s home, I don’t know why, I think of the dribs and drabs with Feng Guochao countless times.
In order not to think of those sad and lost, I can only be more devoted. After
that day, Li Cheng was obviously better to me.
I can see the love and heartache in his eyes that I have never seen before.
He said with a smile that he would stay in Beijing for the Spring Festival instead of venturing home during the epidemic.
Seeing him like this, I feel at ease.
I gradually don’t think much of Feng Guochao.
Just when I thought I was going to forget him, he showed up again. Li Cheng came to pick me up from work as usual
that day and bought me a bunch of flowers.
Who knows, Feng Guochao also came.
He saw me get into Li Cheng’s car and pulled Li Cheng out of the car.
Feng Guochao is ten centimeters taller than Li Cheng.
If there is a fight, Li Cheng is definitely not Feng Guochao’s opponent.
At the moment when Feng Guochao’s fist was about to hit Li Cheng’s chest, I threw myself on Li Cheng and helped him block it.
Feng Guochao’s punch almost broke my back.
Li Cheng and Feng Guochao did not ask me whether it hurt or not, but asked me who the other party was at the same time, and threatened to abolish the other party.
I told Li Cheng that Feng Guochao was my ex-boyfriend who broke up with me.
Feng Guochao insisted that we did not break up, and Li Cheng was shameless to be a male mistress. Compared with the
two people, Li Cheng’s mood is more stable.
So I asked Li Cheng to go home first, and I will solve this matter.
Li Cheng refused to leave, saying that he was afraid that I would suffer losses.
I said, “I’m sure I can fix this. If not, I’ll call the police.”.
But I also said that I hope I can handle this matter by myself, and I hope Li Cheng will believe me. Seeing my insistence,
Li Cheng said he would wait for me in the cafe beside him. If Feng Guochao dared to touch me, he would call the police.
I agreed. When I met Feng Guochao face to face
again, I found that I really didn’t like him at all.
I told Feng Guochao that Li Cheng was my current boyfriend and my prospective fiance. I was going to get married after the New Year. Please don’t bother me.
Feng Guochao’s eyes were all red: “Hsu Li-li, you broke up with me because of that plate of cherries, didn’t you?”?
“” Sort of.
I sighed. It’s been
ten years, we’ve been together for ten years! Because of a plate of cherries, as for?
！」 A catty of cherries doesn’t match-by the way, I forgot to tell you that cherries are not so expensive now! A catty is only 30 yuan, and I only bought one and a half catties.
Then I went home and heard you teach me that we didn’t deserve to eat cherries? How can
I live with you?
I was already not wronged, but as I spoke, I wanted to cry again.
Feng Guochao was stunned for a few seconds, and then pulled up again.
Even if I was wrong about Cheli, I apologize to you.
But you feel the conscience to think, besides this matter, what else I am sorry for you?
We’ve been together for ten years, and I asked you to pay a penny for the rent?
I Do you think I’m taking advantage of you when you pay the rent?
“I interrupted him.” Go back and forth, go back and forth! I didn’t want to argue with you before, but now that we’re breaking up, it’s better to figure it out thoroughly.
Yes, you have paid the rent all these years, but when we are together, is it all my money to eat and drink?
Have you ever bought vegetables?
Do you know how much a pound of green onions is now?
Feng Guochao was stunned.
I sneered, “Let’s go back to cherries.”. Why don’t
you know the price of cherries has been reduced?
Just because you live with me, you don’t have to care about that! Feng Kuo-chao, neither of us owes anything to the other. Let’s just break it up! I just feel exhausted after saying so much in one breath.
I just want to get out of here.
But Feng Guochao still refused to let me go. He looked at Li Cheng sitting in the coffee shop not far away.
All right, then I ask you, where is he better than me?
Feng Guochao squeezed out such a sentence from his mouth. Li Cheng was also staring at him in the seat behind the
French window.
I bit my lip and didn’t want to say.
First, I don’t want to hurt Feng Guochao’s self-esteem.
Two, I don’t want to admit my thoughts naked.
Tell me! Is he the short one?
Where is better than me?
！ Don’t let anyone play with you for nothing! Feng Guochao roared and his words became vicious.
My heart was stung, and I could no longer care about his self-esteem.
He is better than you everywhere! He is from Beijing and has a career establishment! There are three bedrooms in the North Fifth Ring Road! Marry him, I don’t have to pay the mortgage, the child is born with a registered permanent residence, and his parents have a school district! Marry him! How much I don’t have to worry! I said it almost word by word, and every word hit him in the face.
Feng Kuo-chao became so angry that he shouted, “Hsu Li-li, you’re selling yourself!” Yes, I am selling myself! Even if I sell it, you can’t afford it! He has a bathtub at home, and I can have a good bath after that! By the way, we don’t have to be afraid of someone knocking at the door when we do that! Are you satisfied?
！」 Feng Guochao roared “***” and left.
Standing where I was, the cold wind blew into my collar, and I woke up a little. Speaking of
this, the last dignity of Feng Guochao and me is gone.
Speak to the root of the year.
Our company has issued a notice asking us to spend the Spring Festival in situ as far as possible. After
receiving this notice, I was somehow relieved.
First, I don’t have to go home to face my mother and others.
Second, I feel that I may have a chance to go to Li Cheng’s home for the Spring Festival.
With my efforts, Li Cheng took the initiative to invite me several times before I agreed to go to his parents’ home for Lunar New Year’s Eve. After I
decided to go to Li Cheng’s home for the Spring Festival, my mother and I watched a video.
After carefully questioning Li Cheng’s family situation, my mother agreed that I would go to the man’s home for the Spring Festival. In the
video, my mother laughed happily: “You must behave well when you go to other people’s homes for the Spring Festival!”! Mother is very satisfied with such a good son-in-law.
My mother had never seen Li Cheng at all, and after hearing the conditions, she described him as “such a good” son-in-law, which really left me speechless.
I told my mother that Li Cheng was only a boyfriend, not her son-in-law, and asked her not to talk nonsense.
So let you behave well and turn your boyfriend into a son-in-law! After you go there, you must be diligent, talk less and work more! You have to remember that when an old man chooses a daughter-in-law, the main thing is to see if he can manage the household and take good care of his son.
If there is a chance, test the attitude of his parents.
You are not young, and it is best to get married after the New Year.
My mother got serious and wanted me to get my license in situ.
“Well, I’ll watch and see.”.
I brushed her off.
You’re too old to be young, and you’ve been pulling and pulling with that Feng for so many years. Now there is such a good man to follow you, it is the blessing of our ancestors! Please don’t screw this up for me. If you
marry a Beijinger, you will become a Beijinger! In the future, our relatives will go to Beijing to handle affairs and find jobs, which will be much more convenient! In the future, your nephew will still count on you. My mother still only has my brother and her grandson in her heart.
I didn’t want to say more to her, so I made an excuse and hung up the video. Falling
heavily on the bed, I felt a feeling of suffocation in my heart.
Without waiting for me to catch my breath, my mother called the video again.
Mom has thought about it. Now that you’re going to Beijing, we’re going to get married, and we don’t want the betrothal gift.
As for the dowry, the dowry in our family is only 30,000 yuan.
I can give you 30 thousand at most, and you can make up the rest by yourself.
She said a lot in a rapid-fire manner. People
in Beijing don’t pay attention to betrothal gifts, so you don’t have to prepare a dowry for me.
I don’t know where my mother gets so much energy every day.
I don’t have the strength to just listen to her.
Then I won’t prepare anything.
My mother was relaxed and happy and hung up the video. On the afternoon of
New Year’s Eve, Li Cheng took me to his parents’ home.
His parents live in an old house in Haidian District.
This district is zoned to correspond to a famous primary school, so the house price is in the top ten in Haidian all the year round.
Li Cheng-ma took the sea cucumbers and Mao-tai that I had brought with her. She was polite and polite, with a hint of imperceptible vigilance: You’ve spent a lot of money on such expensive things.
In fact, what I originally prepared was only one catty of exquisite sea cucumbers.
But when Li Cheng picked me up, he said that he had a client who gave him two bottles of Maotai, and he just brought them with him, saying that I gave them to his father.
I understand that Li Cheng wants his parents to like me, or. He is afraid that his parents don’t like me. I am very grateful for
Li Cheng’s kindness. After
washing my hands and talking to his parents for less than five minutes, I put on my apron and went into the kitchen.
His mother was very sorry and kept saying that she would not let me cook, saying that she should do it. Smiling,
I pushed her out of the kitchen and said, “Auntie, fate wants us to celebrate the New Year together, and I’m a junior, so I’ll let you taste our Shandong cuisine!”! I’m sure you’ll have a different New Year’s Eve dinner.
Actually, I don’t know what Shandong cuisine has.
But I know I have to cook this meal. When I came out
of the kitchen again, it was more than two hours later.
Looking at the four cold dishes and four hot dishes on the table, Li Chengma was obviously more enthusiastic about me.
Li Cheng and his father were also very supportive and praised me for my delicious cooking.
Li Cheng’s father also said that he hoped that next New Year’s Day, I would make this burnt meatball again.
Li Cheng-ma nodded in agreement: “This meatball is crispy on the outside and tender on the inside. It’s really delicious!”! I declare that this dish will be included in the New Year’s Eve dinner menu of our family.
Li Cheng squeezed my hand under the table.
Jiaoliu meatballs were included in New Year’s Eve dinner recipes, which meant that I was also included in the door of his Li family. After
eating, the Spring Festival gala began.
Li Cheng’s mother was busy making dumplings, saying that she would never let me interfere. “You’ve just cooked so many dishes, and you’re exhausted. Go and watch the Spring Festival Gala with Li Cheng!”. I can’t just sit on the couch watching TV and eating red melon seeds and slip downstairs on the pretext of “taking out the garbage first.”. After
throwing the garbage, I saw that the shop at the entrance of the community was still open. I don’t know why, I suddenly wanted to smoke a cigarette. I
lit a cigarette and took a puff. It was really much more comfortable.
I instantly understood the mood of those men who stood on the street smoking in winter.
But then I saw Li Cheng coming from not far away.
He looked around and saw that he was looking for me.
I quickly put out my cigarette and threw a whole box of cigarettes and lighters into the trash can, then exhaled a few breaths and ran to him.
I took Li Cheng’s arm. But
Li Cheng frowned: “On you..” Why does it smell like smoke?
“I prevaricated:” Just now an old man passed by me and sprayed a mouthful. I guess it all sprayed on me.
“Li Cheng squeezed my hand and said,” Then let’s hurry back and change these clothes.
That old man is really not fastidious! I raised my face, echoed with a smile, and grasped Li Cheng’s hand.
This year has finally passed.
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