I made the man useless.
It’s true.
This is an indescribable novel, and I was quite nervous when I came in, because my name is exactly the same as that of the heroine, called Yunchang. Will there be such a mistake as
wearing a book with the same name?
I’m hopeful. Un
expectedly, a few days after I came in, when I didn’t understand the environment of the novice village, my helpful father brought back a little boy with big eyes, white skin and small red lips, as cute as a puppy. What kind of bad idea can
a puppy have?
Right.
Unless his name is Lin.
Come on, this is Uncle Lin’s son. His name is Lin Kui. He has to live in our house for a year. He’s a few months younger than you. Don’t bully him.
Lin! Lin! Lin! Lin! The name rings in my ears like a bell.
Yunchang’s hands and feet were handcuffed to the bed, and there was a bell hanging from the rope. When she moved, the little bell tinkled. Usually when she was alone, the sound was evidence that she was alive, but now Lin was lying on top of her, and the sound became noisy.
Lin Kui’s eyes were red and his eyebrows were wrinkled, but he wasn’t worried, he was satisfied. He gasped in Yunchang’s ear and called her sister. I stared at Lin’s eyes, and suddenly this fragment flashed through my mind, and I played with it. Little dog, my ass! This is obviously a little pervert who hasn’t grown up! The little pervert is eight years old, and I am also eight years old, and there are still twelve years before he becomes a pervert.
“Dad, I have a headache..” I put my chin on the rim of the milk cup and acted like a spoiled child to my father.
According to the plot, today is the first day I go to school with the little pervert. We will become deskmates, and then study all the way, all the way to the same table. The deskmate will be entangled for ten years, and the last step will be wrong, and he will become his “pet.”. I won’t do
this plot! Dad gave Lin a slice of ham and said to me without looking up, “Even if you have a stomachache, you can’t do it!”! Hurry up and go to school.
Lin’s eyes were watery, and he did not speak. He looked back and forth between my father and me. What are you
looking at! I wanted to stare at him, but I was afraid that the little pervert would hold a grudge since he was a child, so I had to stare at the fried eggs on my plate, rotten eggs! As much as you can! Full of yellow! Also do not know this woman how to mix, the pet daughter father is not in line with the human design, his small motorcycle carrying a small pervert in the front, carrying his own daughter in the back, the speed of 30 miles, softly told the small pervert to be obedient at school, what is missing to let the teacher call him, there are children bullying him to find his sister, let her bully back.
What the hell?
Your own daughter ends up with a bodyguard?
I was so angry that I became a puffer fish until my father stuffed ten yuan into my pocket.
He patted my pocket with a big hand and kindly told me that it was finally my turn to keep my pocket money and spend it with my brother.
For the sake of money, I pulled the little pervert’s sleeve into the classroom. I didn’t dare to bully him in private. I was very depressed. But the pervert correction plan was already on the agenda. I leaned close to him and whispered: When the teacher comes, you tell the teacher that you can’t see the blackboard clearly and you want to sit in the front, do you know? Where is
my sister sitting?
The little pervert tilted his head and looked at me with an innocent and cute expression.
Oh, this little doll. Stop, stop, almost confused by the human cub, I despise myself in my heart, this is the little Huang Wen man! Cute shit, think of his evil deeds! I avoided his sight and spoke with a lot of confidence.
I.. I’ll sit on my head. The teacher will arrange it. Don’t worry! I don’t know if you have ever met a particularly warm-hearted teacher, the kind who is good for you but not as good as you want.
I met him. I was sitting in the first row with Lin.
The teacher touched Lin’s little head, full of maternal love. “If Lin doesn’t understand anything, ask Yunchang. Yunchang is our monitor.”.
Lin nodded cleverly, and I, I seemed to have a real headache.
The little pervert is twelve years old, and I am twelve years old, and there are still eight years before he becomes a pervert.
I did a lot of tricks, but the direction of the plot remained the same. Uncle Lin, whom I had never met, was transferred from western Xinjiang to southern Xinjiang. It was not convenient for Lin to take anything with him, so he stayed at my house for four years, dividing up my father’s few fatherly love. Seeing that we were both going to puberty, I changed my strategy.
I have thought about it carefully. There is something wrong with the setting of this novel. Neither Lin Kui nor I have a mother, so Lin Kui’s understanding of women can only come from me and my school teachers. On the way of growing up, it was probably a wrong step taken by the original heroine, which made Lin Kui’s possessive desire for her directly transformed into the desire of men and women. I am different with clear
thinking and clear purpose. If I want to be a mother, I will be a mother to the end.
Lin Kui, have you copied your English well?
I’ve done my math, and I’ll just put it here for you?
As I said, I have made a lot of efforts, such as asking Lin to copy homework, test papers, play games, and watch TV, so the results of the little pervert are always hovering in the middle and lower reaches, which runs counter to the original book. Wearing dull black-rimmed glasses,
he turned to look at me and pressed the action of the game machine without stopping. He said the sentence I expected, “I’m too lazy to write, so you can copy it for me.”.
“Hee hee,” Good! ” Holding back a smile, I caged his homework in the corner of the book into my arms and continued to play. Little thing, this girl is going to study hard and soar into the sky.
How to raise a perverted man? Start
by destroying his public persona.
Elite character setting?
Have you ever seen the elite who got 40 points in the primary school English exam?
Perfect character setting? How else can you be perfect with
ugly glasses?
If Lin Kui’s father doesn’t come back, my plan of destruction should be able to be carried out to the end, but the bad thing is that my uncle Lin, who only heard his name but didn’t see him, came back and picked up Lin Kui, who was squatting on the corner of the street playing video games, and beat him up. This is good. The degenerate plan was wiped out. Lin Kui relied on the fortune of the man in two months. Directly after graduating from primary school, I was pulled down as the first in ten thousand years.
Mom can’t go down. I want to beat him with a sack! The little pervert is fifteen years old, and I am also fifteen years old, and there are still five years before he becomes a pervert. Before the
senior high school entrance examination, I was so anxious that I had several pimples on my face, which were red and scary. My father boiled herbal tea for me for half a month, which directly made my period disappear.
The girl has grown up, and she can’t tell her father everything, not to mention my halfway daughter. I secretly carried my medical record card and went to the hospital to register with the gynecology department. How counterproductive
is it?
Even if you go to see a gynecologist, you can meet a perverted man, Lin Kui. After Uncle
Lin came back, he lived in our community, not far from the front and back buildings. When he opened the window of my house facing north, he could see the clothes drying on his balcony.
He didn’t blame my father for almost making his son a little waste. He was very kind to my family. So I knew for a long time that he had a blind date recently. He was a doctor.
It’s just that I didn’t expect to be a gynecologist, and I didn’t expect that the relationship between Lin and his future stepmother had been so good that he and a half-grown boy would come to the gynecological office to deliver cakes.
Yunchang, are you sick? Standing at the door of the office,
Lin Kui, a tall man, bent a little in order to bend over me. In recent years, his aesthetic has risen. His ugly glasses have been abandoned and replaced by a thin frame. His gentle and scum temperament has begun to appear faintly.
He was so close to me that I was surrounded by the smell of laundry detergent.
The older I was, the more I was afraid of him. I was even afraid that my hormone levels were out of order. I wanted to run away. Lin Kui was in hot pursuit. When I was excited, I felt a stream of heat pouring out from below.
All right, the doctor doesn’t need to see it. The period that has been delayed for more than 20 days has been frightened by Lin Kui. We didn’t say a word on the way
home, and the bus wobbled through the streets covered with ginkgo leaves.
Lin sat in the front row of me, I looked at the top of his head two spin, some confused, in fact, the little pervert is quite normal at present.
I seem to have changed nothing, but I seem to have changed everything. In
the original text, Uncle Lin died in the year when he graduated from primary school. He didn’t come back to work at all. So that year, he was formally adopted by my father. He changed from a temporary dependant to a permanent dependant. As the
days went by, Lin Kui was eager to really become a part of the family, and in order to appease him, his father told him that we would always be a family, and that he and Yunchang would never leave Lin Kui.
In addition, the neighbors love to tease since childhood, he is the child son-in-law of the cloud family, so Lin has always felt that cloud clothes should love him, marry him, cloud clothes do not depend on, after the resistance aroused his possessive desire and dark side. What are you thinking about when you arrive at the station?
My head was pushed, and I looked in the direction of the force. Lin was wearing a T-shirt and jeans, and his good appearance added a layer of filter to him. Mom can’t go down. It’s so annoying! What are you so angry about?
Lin Kui caught up with me as I ran out of the car, and when he saw that my footsteps were not stopping, he broke my shoulder.
As soon as I broke off, I got goose bumps all over my body. After seven years of self-hypnosis, I felt that Lin Kui was still the abnormal little devil who had not grown up.
“Don’t touch me!” Lin Kui was startled by me. He stopped smiling and looked at me with a calm face and black eyes.
Yunchang broke one of her legs, and she was even more powerless to resist. She could not resist the invasion of Lin Kui. Listening to the disorderly sound of the bells, darkness rose before her eyes.
Yunchang felt that she was ill, and when she was locked in her room alone, she hoped that Lin Kui would come back earlier so that she could drive away the group of loneliness. But when Lin Kui came back, she was afraid. She was afraid of his body, his voice, and his eyes. The fragments of the original novel began to float in my mind again. The Lin Kui in front of me coincided with the Lin Kui who was afraid of the original cloud clothes. I apologized to him in a trembling voice, “Yes..” I’m sorry.. Unexpectedly, Lin Kui waved his hand directly and interrupted me nonchalantly, “Forget it, I know girls have a bad temper during their period, so I don’t care about you!” I want to shed tears, he is a good young man, I must demonize him, it is shameful.
Small change.. No, Lin is eighteen years old, and I am also eighteen years old. We took the college entrance examination this year.
I don’t know if I ruined the man, but the 18-year-old Lin is not the same as the one in the book. Uncle
Lin remarried with the doctor aunt.
The doctor’s aunt is very nice. She really loves Lin Kui as her own son. She even took me to feel the maternal love for several years.
Lin and I were admitted to the same high school, but not in the same class, he made a lot of friends, the world is no longer only cloud clothes.
You and Lin were childhood sweethearts, and nothing happened?
My deskmate caught me gossiping.
Yes, Lin Kui became a very popular boy in the school by virtue of his good appearance and good brain. My childhood naturally received more attention. Some girls were embarrassed to send him things directly and asked me to pass them on, while my deskmate wanted to be close to the water tower and said these vague words again and again.
I ignored her and nibbled at the apple I had snatched from Lin in the morning. What happened?
I put myself into the victim status for many years, and my mind was full of keeping a distance. I want my mother in the end. What can happen to me?
Lin was sweating on the court, and I could see it very clearly from this position. I scored a three-point hollow ball and earned a lot of applause.
Tut, this apple is very sour. It tastes terrible.
I’m not going out of the province. I don’t want to go home at the end of the term and grab a Spring Festival ticket. When I
finished the exam and discussed my volunteer, I held the Muppet Bear in my arms and talked to three smiling parents. Lin Kui and
I both did well in the exam. Well, it can be said that we did very well. The admission teachers of several schools have contacted my father and Uncle Lin. I
have no ambition, but I have already decided that I want to go to Nantah.
Lin is leaning on my sofa. He is close to the air conditioner. He is playing with the remote control in his hands. His legs are not honest. He is dangling on his toes with flip-flops. He is a boy, but he is dazzling white.
Nantah is in Nancheng, which is nearly 1,600 kilometers away from our city. It takes nearly 12 hours by high-speed rail and four hours by plane.
My hand pinched the Muppet Bear’s hand and slowly tightened, tightened. Why did
you go so far? We don’t see each other a few times
a year, but it’s still the same as Yunchang. It’s better to study in the province, and our Ming University ranks several places higher than Nantah! The doctor’s aunt pushed the presbyopic glasses on the bridge of her nose and said happily. Uncle
Lin, without his usual sternness, nodded and agreed, “That’s it, that’s it.” My father’s own daughter is not happy enough, completely no mind to take care of other people’s children, holding a stack of enrollment brochures, read over and over again.
Lin was talking to his parents about how good Nantah was and how high-end his favorite aerospace major was, but before he finished speaking, he was interrupted by Uncle Lin, who said.. They were very lively and laughing, and I sat alone by the window where the sun would shine.
Midsummer, it seems not hot, and even a little cold from the fingertips spread up, I looked at the air conditioning blowing at me.
Oh, it’s because of you.
Lin Kui was twenty years old, and I was also twenty years old. He went to Nancheng to study as he wished, but something happened to my family, and I did not stay in the province, but went to the neighboring province.
I am 300 kilometers away from home, and he is 1300 kilometers away from me. Our lives have nothing to do with the original works. I even feel that Lin has forgotten me. In the past two years of freshman and
sophomore year, he only contacted me 37 times on his own initiative. Many times, he sent messages and voted for help on festivals. Only four times, he came to me on his own initiative and had content. He wished me a happy birthday twice and a happy New Year twice.
I put his dialog box at the top and read the words he sent me over and over. When I was a
freshman, I suffered some setbacks in the new environment. I often talked to him about the disappointments of life. At first, although he replied to me with a few words, I could feel his concern.
Later, I could only get a picture of an expression in a large green square, or a sentence with a perfunctory taste.
He’s busy, I think.
This winter vacation, we all went home, I was in the Lin family to eat New Year’s Eve dinner, the doctor aunt according to the custom of packing Glutinous Rice Balls to eat at the vigil.
Lin Kui did not like to eat these glutinous things, eight Glutinous Rice Balls scooped five into my bowl, I looked at the white dumplings piled up in the clean bowl, white and fat, lovely love, casually punctured one, the stuffing dripped out, the others were dyed black.
Lin Kui winked at me and said silently, “Sister, do me a favor.”. Trembling
from the back of my head to my toes, I had to clench my knuckles white so that I wouldn’t be seen to be abnormal.
I used to write down the fragments of the original works that I still remember in my mind on paper word by word, and the strokes were all gorgeous scenes. I used to see moral decay and the ups and downs of the sea of desire, but now I seem to see a strong sense of uneasiness.
Lin Kui and Yun Chang grew up intimately. When they were young, they only had each other. When they grew up, Yun Chang was like a warrior fighting everywhere, constantly expanding her world territory, leaving Lin Kui in their small world, humble and afraid to wait for her to turn back.
Unfortunately, waiting for a long time, just waiting for her to go forward.
In that case, then break her sword, pull her back from the vast world, shut her eyes, only see his darkroom, let her only love him again, so that he will not have to endure one day, will sit on the cloud clothes family seat, see her future completely separated from him.
Lin Kui was afraid that Yunchang would never want him again, just as I am now afraid that Lin Kui would never want me again. After
Lin and his classmates finished their New Year’s greetings, they came to me and said, “the Spring Festival, Yunchang, happy!” Outside the window there was the sound of firecrackers, and inside the room there was an evening chorus. I replied to him, “Happy the Spring Festival.” But Lin Kui, I am not happy, you do not wish me happy.
Lin Kui was twenty-one years old, and I was twenty-one years old. I gave him a bell, golden, big fingernails, ringing.
The doctor’s aunt added for me, “This is a peace bell. I got it by burning the first stick of incense. Keep it well and don’t lose it.”.
Lin hung it on the key chain and flashed it before my eyes. “Thank you!” The distance we had been apart for two years seemed to disappear in this moment, and he became the Lin with clouds in his eyes. There are few relatives left in
the Lin family, but there are many doctors and aunts. Uncle Lin and doctors and aunts are busy from the third to the sixth day of junior high school.
Fortunately, Lin Kui is a stepson, so he doesn’t have to go from door to door, so he stays at home alone.
But he disliked his family’s bad network and stayed at my house to play games for days. How long will
you stay at my house?
I walked out of the bathroom, wiping my hair, and looked at Lin, who was lying on his back in the sofa. I
‘m not leaving. Your geomantic omen is good. I want to take root and sprout here. I could
see that he had just won a game, and the corners of his mouth were turned up.
I did not continue to talk, after blowing my hair and changing my clothes, I went out by myself.
At this time, the busy Lin was finally willing to give me a line of sight from his screen. “What are you going to do, Yunchang?”?
Go and buy something.
“” What to buy?
Fruit, do you want to come together?
I zipped up my boots and invited him. Then I looked at the man on the sofa and nodded. I stood up and stretched. My sweater shrank, revealing a clear waist. He was at an age when the boundaries between boys and men were blurred, and his gestures were full of scenery.
At the door, I looked down at the pattern on the floor as if my eyes had been burned. There were so many fragments about the waist that I couldn’t control myself. The first month of
every year is the most obvious day of spring warmth. When we walked to the entrance of the alley, we met our neighbor’s sister and her child, who were a few years older than us. The child looked two or three years old, and they were reading picture books in the sun.
The warrior Cobb made a promise to the king that he would defeat the dragon and rescue the princess three times after sunset.
He crossed the desert and the forest and climbed the mountain where the dragon was under the guidance of the elves. There was a sunken hole in the
mountain, which seemed to be bottomless, but with a little golden light. Cobb lay down at the entrance of the hole and looked at it. Guess what
Cobb saw?
The little baby answered in a milky voice, “I saw the thick (dragon)..” Yes, I saw the red dragon lying on the pile of gold coins, sleeping! There were so many gold coins that the poor princess rubbed them on the edge of the pile, crying as she rubbed them, because the dragon said she couldn’t sleep until she finished! “Poof..” Lin Kui burst out laughing.
I don’t understand: “What are you laughing at?”? It
‘s nothing. The dragon likes to be clean.
He held the key and the fruit in his hand, and the bell tinkled with his movements. The clean-loving
dragon has gold coins and the princess sleeps soundly, but the warrior Cobb draws his sword in the spy.
Lin Kui is twenty-one years old, and I am twenty-one years old. I hope time will stand still in this year.
Lin Kui really took root in my house. He not only stayed on my sofa during the day, but also slept soundly on my father’s bed at night.
Probably because of the boy’s good sleep, I knocked on the door for a long time, but did not listen to any response inside, so I simply opened the door and went in.
The curtain was not closed tightly, and by the light outside the window, I could see the bulging figure on the bed. I went over in the dark and turned on the small lamp at the head of the bed.
This finally woke up Lin Kui, who looked at me with a blindfolded face.
Clouds.. Cloud clothes? When
he first woke up, his voice was hoarse. What are you doing at night?
I squatted on the edge of the bed, much shorter than he was leaning against the head of the bed. I asked him, “Do you want to go back to your house?”?
“” Huh?
Or will you sleep in my room?
Lin Kui was completely awake. He propped himself up on the bed and sat up, frowning, looking at me like a monster. The coolness of the
floor rose up along the soles of my bare feet, and not only did my joints ache with cold, but my head seemed to crack.
My patience was running out, but I still didn’t want to frighten him, so I had to pull an ugly smile and explain to him slowly, “I, I want to sleep here, I miss my father..” The incredible look on Lin’s face faded in an instant, replaced by pity and heartache. Since my father had an accident three years ago, he often looked at me with this expression.
He rolled out of bed, pushed me into bed with his body temperature, and stuck his warm palm on my forehead.
Cloud clothes, cloud clothes?
You seem to be ill. Do you want to go to the hospital?
Lin Kui helped me tuck in the corner of the quilt, but he didn’t leave. He looked at me worriedly.
This night I didn’t seem to be me. I was a soul drifting in the air, with some reason left. I looked coldly at my black eyes on the bed and held on to Lin’s sleeve. “I’m not going. I’m just afraid. I’m afraid of Lin.” Lin Kui was lying beside me, and I could see that the embarrassment was going to be too big to worry about.
You don’t like me, do you?
I lay on my side and looked at him, the corners of my eyes hot and humid against the pillow.
I didn’t.
Lin Kui quickly denied it, but after looking at me, he quickly turned his head.
In my line of sight, the young man was stunning, cinnabar red spread from the tip of his ears, Adam’s apple rolled frequently, and I was pleased by this scene, feeling that the blood eroded by the cold gradually warmed up, and sleepiness came up layer by layer.
I heard my own voice, “That’s good..” Then.. OK When I woke up the next morning, I was still holding Lin’s sleeve. His pajamas were still in my hands, but he was nowhere to be seen. Half of the bed was full of coolness.
I leaned against the head of the bed and looked at the dense words in the memo, lost in thought. What did the
warrior Cobb come to the dragon for?
Take gold coins?
Or looking for a princess?
Or, replace the dragon?
Lin Kui is twenty-one years old, and I am twenty-one years old. A girl who slays dragons will eventually become a dragon. When I
walked out of the room, I saw Lin Kui coming back with breakfast. His hair was pointed and twisted, and his eyes were black. Why are
you still here?
I have a sore throat and have trouble speaking. As soon as
the voice fell, he saw Lin Kui frowning. He put his breakfast aside and came over with a pair of slippers from the shoe rack.
His voice was also hoarse, but he said a lot of words: “Why do you like barefoot so much? There is no floor heating in your house. Isn’t it uncomfortable to step on people like this?”?
The cold comes from the feet! Probably the doctor’s aunt talked about it all the year round, and he learned a lot. The
shoes were thrown at my feet, and I took two steps back, not looking at him, but at the slippers.
I felt a dull pain in my head again. My forehead was connected to my teeth, and there was nothing comfortable about it. My mood was extremely bad. I spoke to him in a questioning tone: “Why don’t you go?”? What
are you doing back?
Ah?
His ankles were held in the warm palms of his hands. Lin Kui put his slippers at my feet, but I didn’t move. He looked up, his face was expressionless, and his voice was cold and commanding.
I was still stubborn, but I didn’t live up to expectations. Tears trickled down onto my skirt, printing a dark color. Why
are you crying? Lin Kui, who had
forcibly put his shoes on me, stood up, and now he was in a commanding position. Why did you come back when
you knew what I meant last night? What do
you mean last night?
“I..” How could I have thought that such a scoundrel as this man would pretend to be stupid, so angry and speechless that he would push him like a child quarreling, and then turn around and run away.
It was a pity that Lin had long legs and big steps, and he stopped me in front of me in two or three steps. He was still pretending. “Go on.”. I
didn’t want to argue with him any more. I almost shouted out, “I like you!” I like you, so much that I have planned how to get you, so much that I have prepared how to imprison you, so much that I have become Lin in the book, and I want to get my sweetheart in the way of broken wings.
Just, I still have a trace of reluctance, so please, my teenager, go quickly. Did I say no?
Lin is twenty-one years old, and I am twenty-one. We are both adults, and we know what we are doing.
Lin Kui hugged me, and the heartbeat was in my ear, steady and strong.
I don’t know if I like you, but Yunchang, when you say you like me, I am very happy. This is the happiness I have never felt when someone confesses.
I didn’t sleep last night, and I kept thinking, am I pitying you? When
I heard this, my back obviously stiffened a little. In exchange for his soothing pat, he paused and continued, But the answer is no. If Uncle Yun were still here and you came to me when you were afraid, I would be happier. Are
you not mistaken?
You may just feel happy to be in need of a good friend.
I have calmed down, and my reason has returned, so even if my heart is full of spring flowers, I will not delay him. Instead of answering,
Lin held up my face and looked at me, smiling like a big golden retriever raised by an old woman in the neighborhood. After my face was covered with heat, he teased me, “What about you?”? Are
you not mistaken?
You may just be a little possessive of your brother next door, and your emotional perception is wrong.
“You don’t know shit!” Angrily, I pushed him away. Then I turned around and pulled him by the collar to make him bow his head. I corrected him and said, “Besides, I’m older than you.”.
“” Well, sister.
He recognized me so readily that he leaned close to my ear and called me. His voice was continuous, and there was no deliberate seduction in it.
But for me, it was really terrible. I hid in the bathroom for a long time and didn’t go out. Then I heard him ask me outside, “Sister, breakfast is cold. Buy it again or I’ll cook it for you.”.
Boil a ghost, I have been fed by hormones. When
we are faced with separation, everything will go against our wishes. The day of Uncle
Yun’s accident was the penultimate day of our college entrance examination application.
I remember clearly that day when the sky was bright, Yunchang came to my father, shaking like a sieve, and retold the phone call made by the police.
Act bravely for a just cause, and the rescue is ineffective. How beautiful the
former word is, how desperate the latter word is.
Later, we went to the hospital and saw the person who had committed suicide. She was a girl of the same age as us. She was kneeling in front of Yunchang by her parents.
Yunchang cried hoarse, so when he tried his best to speak, it seemed that every word was bloody. “Tell me, why did you jump?”?
Why?
Why did you kill my father?
！」 The question was sharp and unreasonable. The girl was crying, and her parents were in front of her, holding the cloud clothes like a desperate soldier, holding a broken halberd, without a shield, with naked wounds.
I never knew that the word “pity” could be so concrete, like Yunchang at this time, no matter what you say to her, it is wrong, it is not the words of other people’s pain.
Yunchang, we.. Let’s go to accompany Uncle Yun. I’ll go with you.. I don’t want Yunchang to face such a scene again, holding her shoulder, half dragging and half supporting her away. It was
also at this moment that I realized that she was much younger and weaker than me when we grew up together.
It is a pity that such a weak girl has lost the person who will stand in front of her forever.
I told my father that I wanted to change my volunteer, and I wanted to accompany Yunchang to the provincial university.
My father didn’t speak, and my aunt asked hesitantly, “You..” Auntie, there is no other meaning, that is, Auntie, are you in love with Yunchang?
I paused. Are you in love?
Of course not.
I don’t even know whether I like Yunchang or not. I only know that I want to protect her now, so that when she is sad, there is someone in front of her.
I did not recognize it, so my father and aunt did not agree with me to change the volunteer, but the volunteer application is online, I can not discuss with them.
I logged on to Yunchang’s account. From the first choice to the fifth choice, there was no difference between me and her.
That night, I sat alone in the park where I played games when I was a child until very late. I felt that I was a warrior who gave up everything to accompany Yunchang into an unknown future.
But at that time, I didn’t know that what I had struggled for a long time to send to her was what she didn’t want.
If I am smart and vigilant enough, I should confirm the information before the end of the voluntary application, after all, I know the password of Yunchang, and she naturally knows mine.
Unfortunately, at that time, I was so full of self-sacrifice and self-touching that I was so nervous that I didn’t even dare to see Yunchang.
Until 17:30 on June 27, the voluntary application was over and the dust settled.
I went to Yunchang’s house to look for her. The door was not closed, the light was not turned on, and there was still lingering charm at dusk. Yunchang sat smoking under the window on the east side. When I heard the sound, the smoke lingered all over my body, like the rebirth of an evil ghost.
Have you ever been afraid?
Be afraid of the people you are close to.
I have, I am sorry Yunchang, I just want to turn around and run away at that moment, I think she is like a swamp that will make people have no top, close to it will be beyond redemption.
Lin Kui, I’m not going to the provincial university.
I hesitated to step back at the door and was stopped by her words. What do
you mean?
Yunchang’s elbows were against her knees, her face was in the palm of her hand, and the red cigarette butts were in the corners of her eyes. If she was not careful, she would hurt herself.
She repeated softly, “I’m not going to the university.”.
You can go to Nancheng at ease.
She took a puff on her cigarette and said.
Nancheng, my ass! I give up everything to accompany you! Is that what you’re doing to me?
A word of reassurance?
I went over and pulled up the cloud clothes, and I threw the smoke on the ground and stepped on it.
I was so angry that I didn’t know where to start complaining. At this time, Yunchang said, “I changed your wish for you.” She said in an educational tone, “Don’t do this again. The future is your own. There’s no need to lose everything on impulse. You can’t afford
it, and I don’t want to. Her words made
my heart sour. I struggled, I was reluctant to give up, and I was duty-bound to go back. When I arrived at Yunchang, I was immature, irrational, and impulsive. Is it from the heart that
people do things on impulse?
I don’t know. I kissed her, or did I bite her? When I
parted, Yunchang’s lips were cut, and my tongue was still fishy and sweet.
She looked at me, her face full of fear, just like the kind she occasionally showed when she was a child, like the fear engraved in her soul.
I ran away.
That summer, we walked on different roads, and could not see the hope of coincidence.
Yun Chang went to a second college, and she went to a second college with a top score.
No matter the school teacher or my father and aunt, or me, no one knows what Yunchang is going to do?
She didn’t give us a chance to ask. She disappeared. After dealing with Uncle Yun’s funeral, she disappeared. They couldn’t contact her, and I never contacted her. I didn’t dare.
If I say from Yunchang’s mouth that I will never see you again, I think I will go crazy, so crazy. I want her to never say that again. At the age of
eighteen, I thought that we would be silent all the time, silent until the distance would fade away my dark thoughts, silent until the time would make me accept our complete separation.
But this cognition only lasted until the second before Yunchang came to me on his own initiative. In late
August, when the summer had come to an end, she came back, wearing a beautiful skirt, standing under the street lamp at the entrance of the alley, smiling and teasing the dog with her toes.
“Lin Kui!” She ran towards me, and when she looked up at me, her face was as usual, and her eyes were so open that I dared not look directly at her.
you’re back.
We walked along the alley, past the door, past the small park, back to the entrance of the alley, and then to the downstairs of the unit.
We said a lot of words, but not a word about volunteering, nor a word about that evening.
“Cloud Clothes” “Huh?
A few words rolled on the tip of my tongue for a long time, but still did not reach her ears.
It’s all right, go to bed early.
All right, good night.
This was the last time we met at the age of 18. We were familiar and strange, familiar and distant.
I know the reason why Yunchang changed his volunteer is that it was two months after we separated.
At that time, the autumn in Nancheng was not obvious, but the night in S city was not hot and dry.
I traveled more than a thousand kilometers to find Yunchang, rehearsing many times in my mind, but the first thing I saw her asking was, “What on earth are you doing, Yunchang?”?
Yunchang’s expression changed from joy at first sight to consternation, and there was a trace of embarrassment and embarrassment. We knew each other so well that she immediately knew what I was angry about. At the age of
eighteen, I was impulsive and self-righteous. I didn’t pay attention to the joy of that moment. I only cared about the embarrassment and even felt the betrayal.
How ridiculous ah, we have such a relationship, I actually through the students, only to know the true situation of her in the university.
Cloud clothes lie to me, in her mouth, in the new environment is not smooth is never delicious canteen and never occupy the library, but the reality? He
robbed someone’s boyfriend and forced his ex-girlfriend to jump off a building.
After I knew this, I felt so uncomfortable that I had a dull pain in my back teeth. I wished I could put her into a small ball and put her into my body to empathize with me. How could
she do that? How good is
that man? She
deserves the blame even if she gets it.
Yunchang looked at me for a moment, then lowered her eyelashes and laughed. “That’s Xu Yayan’s boyfriend,” she said lightly. Then
he stopped looking at me and looked at the sky where the sun had disappeared.
I don’t know whether it was dark or my illusion, but at that moment I felt that the light in her eyes went out, like the sinking sun, and the dark night came up endlessly.
Xu Yayan is the girl that Uncle Yun saved in June.
Yunchang’s eyelashes trembled slowly. I held my breath for a few hours. Suddenly, the tip of the black crow’s eyelashes pricked a small hole and leaked cleanly.
If a few years later, I should hug her, as I really want to do in my heart, and tell her that no matter what, there is still me, so don’t use yourself to punish others for their mistakes, it’s not worth it.
But now I’m trying to suppress that little bit of inexplicable happiness, and my mouth is occupying the moral high ground, saying what I think, “Even if it’s her boyfriend, is it right for you to do so?”? Can
you be normal and rational.. “No!” Probably stimulated by my words, Yunchang’s eyes were red and her fingers were cold but strong. She broke my fingers holding her wrist one by one, and her voice was a little crazy. “I’m not normal?”?
Linton, what qualifications do you have to think I’m abnormal?
！」 “I’m not..” I regret it.
“It was my father who died!” Didn’t she feel desperate because she couldn’t go to college together?
What about breaking up? Doesn’t she deserve to die after
breaking up? If she can’t die
once, she should die again! In the end, the words have become a curse. I had a lump in my
throat and felt powerless all over my body. I woke up and wanted to embrace her, but I lost my qualifications and position.
“But..” “Lin Kui, I must kill her!” Cloud clothes do not give me a chance to speak, turn into the night, the back is determined.
I have no words to persuade, in this farce, Xu Yayan is indeed the culprit. The reason why
she wanted to die at that time seemed incredible to others-she could not get into the university where her boyfriend was, so she wanted to threaten her parents with death.
It was just bad luck that the appearance was made into reality, but it hurt Uncle Yun.
She destroyed a girl who could have stood on the clouds and reached for the stars.
Cloud clothes change volunteer is to want oneself to punish Xu Yayan. As soon as
the cause and effect were connected, I felt more and more ridiculous. In this wrong thing, everyone was right, but the advice of others was unreasonable. Now, I was the unreasonable person. I not only wanted to persuade Yunchang, but also scolded her.
The night dew was getting thicker, and there were a few muffled sobs in the wind, and I listened to them like hallucinations.
Yunchang walked fast and arrived at the downstairs of her dormitory in a few minutes. I stopped her before she entered the gate.
“Cloud Clothes” “I’m sorry.
She paused, did not look back, and said softly, “Lin Kui, go back. Go back today. I’ll pretend you haven’t been here.”.
I didn’t listen to her. I didn’t leave. I stayed in S city for two days, wearing a mask and a hat, and secretly followed Yunchang for two days.
She really thought I had never been there, and the next day she sent me a message telling me that the chef in the six canteens was probably from the south of the Yangtze River, and the fried potato shreds were sweet. She sent me
this two-line green square while eating a sandwich by the river. She said the applied technology teacher had an accent and was hard to listen to in class. She sent it to me after a day in the library.
My fingers stayed on the keyboard for a long time, but I didn’t press a word. I didn’t know what she meant by deceiving herself and others. I didn’t want to let her go, but I didn’t know how to help her. Finally, I replied. I’m glad
you’re okay.
She is whitewashing peace, and I am perfunctory about her acting.
It’s just that on the last weekend of every month, I have a regular schedule to go to S city to be a stalker and secretly watch the actor with poor acting skills weave bad lies.
Lin Fanwai Sanyunchang did not continue to entangle with the man after all, because Xu Yayan did not need the punishment of Yunchang. Her parents’ business was reported and thoroughly investigated. She did not know whether she could not accept the changes in her family or what. She jumped into the river in the middle of the night. This time, she was lucky and no one saved her. As she wished, she was fished out three or four days later.
The news took up a lot of space on the local news. After I read it carefully, I closed it. After a while, I remembered the day and sent a message to Yunchang to wish you a happy Tanabata Festival.
She took a long time to reply to me, very cold words, you are also happy.
Well, I’m happy when you’re happy. As
time goes by, we go from children who write everything on their faces to adults who are full of double ten. A small town has the saying of a small town. After the age of twenty, they are no longer called children, because at this time they begin to really bear their own lives. Before the winter vacation of my
sophomore year, Yunchang, who had not come back for the New Year the year before, received a message from my aunt. After all, she had been loved for several years, and she could not refuse the entreaties of her elders.
I looked at the screenshot my aunt sent me and breathed a long sigh of relief. It was so good that we were finally going back.
I thought that the temptation of cloud clothes should not be difficult, after all, I still have some confidence in myself, but I did not expect that things would go this way. The book
in my hand is very thick, not used very much, only a few lines are written every few pages, the font is beautiful, the content.. Uh It’s quite wonderful. What
are you doing? The house, which had not been cleaned for more than
a year, was covered with dust. Yunchang had cleaned it for most of the day, and there was a fine layer of sweat on his forehead. Perhaps he was dissatisfied with my laziness and looked at me with a wring of his brows.
I quietly put the book in my hand back, pointed to the two boxes of sundries by the door, and answered her, “Here, it’s all ready. You can call someone to take it away later.”. Her
attention was diverted, and she went to put together the things that had not been disposed of and were to be discarded, and she was busy, like dust in the air, without stopping for a moment.
Sister.
I gave an inquisitive cry, and then I saw that Yunchang’s expression had become very lovely, the kind of person who tried to escape and tried to hold back, but also pretended to have nothing to do.
I sniggered in my heart, saying that she was an actor with poor acting skills. She clearly did not even touch the threshold of an actor. At the age
of twenty-one, we have to start planning for our lives.
I believe that Yunchang’s first column of incense is really sincere to me, because everything is going well.
The ceiling was divided into several pieces by the light outside, bright and dark. In the first month of the lunar year
, I felt like I was in a stove. She pulled my sleeve to sleep, probably because she was tired of crying before going to bed. Her breathing was a little heavy, but it was true.
Her presence, her needs, are really within my reach.
I had a sleepless night, the cub was in the cage, and the hunter had all the patience.
. Focus on not getting lost ~
