Two generations of ups
and downs in the world of mortals do not let me down: crazy criticism of beauty’s love and redemption
I died in the first year of marrying Lin Zesen.
In the fire, I sent him a message: “Zesen, the house is on fire.”
He replied coldly, “You put out the fire first. I’m in a meeting.”
I looked at the picture a woman had just sent me and gave a wry smile.
I died in the fire disheartened, but God let me go back to ten years ago.
When the newly transferred Lin Zesen was assigned to my side by the teacher, I raised my hand and said, “Teacher, I want to sit at the same table with a girl.”
“Teacher, I want to sit at the same table with a girl.”
When the head teacher arranged Lin Zesen’s position beside me, I raised my hand. In exchange for
this action, the students whispered to each other.
The head teacher patted the platform and motioned for the students to be quiet before asking me, “Why?”
Because in the first year after Lin Zesen married me, he let me die in the fire in order to be with another woman.
Yes.
I was born again.
Reborn on the day of knowing Lin Zesen.
Ten years ago, when Lin Zesen became my deskmate, I was like all the girls in my class.
From then on, I started my long pursuit of my husband, wishing I could pick all the stars in the sky for him.
In the end, he ended up with such a tragic death. In another
life, I must stay away from him.
“Because I want to study hard, and he’s so good-looking, I’m not able to concentrate, and I’m afraid I’ll be distracted.” I said such a sentence with justice.
The teacher probably didn’t expect me to speak so bluntly and was stunned for a moment.
Finally, he changed a deskmate for me.
“You did a good job of playing hard to get.” Gu Shennan, my new deskmate, threw his schoolbag at the table next to me and raised his eyebrows at me.
I tried to recall the information about him.
I vaguely remember that he was a sports student and seldom came to class.
“What’s playing hard to get?”
Ku Shen-nan sat down next to me and tilted his head to look at Lin Tse-sen, who was surrounded by the girls. “You like that boy.”
I was stunned.
And look with his eyes.
Lin Zesen sat in his seat, his back straight in his white shirt.
It’s still the way I liked it.
“I don’t like it.” I quickly withdrew my eyes and began to clean up the books on my desk.
Gu Shennan suddenly turned around and leaned close to me.
He stared at me for a long time, and when I frowned, he said, “You’re lying.”
“You can’t lie if you like a person’s eyes.”
Gu Shennan is right.
I still like Lin Zesen, and I knew it at the first sight when I saw him standing on the platform.
But that’s just a little bit of inertia left over from ten years of love.
I love myself more.
Gu Shennan is really a sports student, almost only two classes a day, many times I have no one around me.
This really fulfilled what I said on the first day of school, began to study seriously, and really faded my love and attention to Lin Zesen. After
a semester, my grades actually climbed to the second place.
Follow closely behind Lin Zesen.
For a time, I became the best match for Lin Zesen in the mouth of my classmates. What
are you afraid of? She doesn’t like Lin Tse-sen at all, and everyone in her class says that the two of them are incompatible. This is what I heard in the toilet between classes. A thin sob came from
next door. “Don’t worry,” continued
the speaker. “You’re so good-looking. Lin Zesen will like you sooner or later.” It
‘s really gentle and sweet.
“Besides, I’ve heard that Song Jie likes Ku Shen-nan.” The
crying suddenly stopped, and a female voice asked softly, “Really?”
“Really, you don’t believe it either, do you? Even people like Ku Shen-nan are liked.”
？？？ At the end of my patience,
I pulled up my pants and stood up.
“I really don’t like Lin Tse-sen.” I kicked open the door of the next room and said to the two frightened people inside, “But I don’t like Ku Shen-nan either.”
Two people were too scared to speak by me. As
I turned to leave, I stopped again. “Besides, Ku Shen-nan isn’t like that. He’s ten thousand times better than Lin Tse-sen.” After
saying this, I left the toilet without looking back.
As soon as I returned to the classroom, I saw that Gu Shennan, who had not been in the last class, was already sitting in his seat.
He twirled the pen in his hand and raised his eyebrows at me. “Oh, who’s bothering you?”
I shook my head.
At least, he should not be indifferent to watching me die in the fire. Lin Zesen and
I were elected as school representatives because of our excellent grades and good looks, and went to the city to participate in the speech contest on behalf of the school.
Along the way, I avoided being alone with him everywhere.
It wasn’t until he stood behind me backstage at the speech contest and asked me in a low voice, “I never understood why you hated me so much.”
I didn’t expect him to speak to me voluntarily.
“Song Jie.” Seeing that I didn’t speak, he called out my name.
This is the first time I’ve heard him call my name since I was born again.
It’s really nice.
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath before turning to look at him.
“I hate people who are good-looking and have good grades.”
He froze for a moment and burst out laughing.
“This is not a valid reason.” He looked at me with a smile. “You are such a person yourself. No one will hate you.”
In my last life, he never looked at me and smiled like that, even at a wedding.
And he was wrong.
Some people will hate themselves.
“Next, let’s welcome Song Jie from No.2 Middle School to give a speech.” Without waiting for me to say anything more, the host in front of me gave my name.
I straightened my back, took the microphone and walked up to the podium.
But fortunately, I like myself very much now. I’ve been chasing after Lin Zesen
before, and I’ve never been on such a big stage.
I found that besides Lin Zesen, there are many things I should pursue.
“Oh, isn’t this your deskmate?” As soon as I got out of the lecture venue, I met Gu Shennan.
He glanced at Lin Zesen behind me and looked at me meaningfully.
“What are you doing here?” I was afraid that he would talk nonsense, so I hurried forward and pulled him away. As
he let me pull him along, he looked back at Lin Tse-sen, who was holding out his hand, and asked me, “Are you so guilty?”
I gave him a white look.
Guilty, you big head.
“You’re just in time. I don’t want to go back with Lin Tse-sen.”
Gu Shennan is a member of the swimming team.
I sat in the huge stadium and watched him play for the first time.
He stood on the platform in his swimming trunks and looked at me from afar.
I seemed to see his ruffian expression, and with a shot, he plunged into the water.
At this moment, I realized that he seemed to be better looking than Lin Zesen.
The main thing is that he also has chest muscles and abdominal muscles that Lin Zesen does not have.
Only seventeen years old.
It’s so solid to practice. I was thinking about a mess of things in my
mind, and when I came to my senses, Gu Shennan was already the first to swim to the finish line.
He waved to me in a ruffian way.
Uh.
Sure enough, it was ten thousand times better than Lin Zesen. After I finished my
speech, I left Lin Zesen and ran to watch Gu Shennan’s competition. The story of going back to school with Gu Shennan soon spread all over the world.
Lin Zesen’s fans are becoming less and less hostile to me.
But I forgot, Gu Shennan is not a good stubble.
“Are you Song Jie?” I was blocked on my way home from school.
In front of a group of people dressed, a look is a hoodlum.
I opened my eyes and lied, “I’m not.”
The leading girl asked the girl next to her, “What’s wrong?”
While they were still discussing, Lin Tse-sen, who was not far away, called out to me, “Song Jie.”
……
He’s sick.
He’s really sick! It’s not enough to kill me in
the last life, but this life will come again! The
leading girl gave a sneer.
“How dare you lie to me?” She took two steps towards me.
I took two steps back.
Lin Zesen also noticed something was wrong and came over to me.
“What are you doing?” He gave a light rebuke.
Eldest brother! Isn’t that more annoying to them! The
leading girl looked back at him and raised her eyebrows. “Are there any escorts?”
***ing escort.
Soon, Lin Zesen and I were backed into a corner together.
“What do you want?” Just when I thought we were going to get a beating, a ruffian voice came from above my head. As soon as
I looked up, I saw Gu Shennan jump down from the top of the wall.
“Shen Nan.” The leading girl is a little embarrassed.
Ku Shen-nan glanced at her and said, “You know, I don’t hit girls.”
This is the reason why many girls in the school don’t like Gu Shennan.
He is a gangster who can fight.
This is not a glorious thing in a key high school.
“Next time you do this to my deskmate,” says Ku Shen-nan, throwing his backpack over his shoulder and walking toward me. “Then there’s no guarantee.”
A group of people listened, a word did not dare to say all dispersed.
Have a look.
Look at him.
Now that’s an escort!
“At least I saved your life. Don’t you thank me?”
Gu Shennan walked slowly behind me with a bag on one shoulder, and his tone was not good.
His unkindness is not to me.
As soon as I looked back, I saw him and Lin Zesen stop at the same time behind me.
Lin Zesen’s slightly frowning brows also showed his discomfort.
I know him, and he has always disliked little ruffians like Gu Shennan.
But it has nothing to do with me.
“Ku Shen-nan, thank you for today.” I took up Ku Shen-nan’s words to Lin Tse-sen, “I want to go home early, so I’ll go first.” The two men who were
still at daggers drawn turned to look at me when they heard my words.
“I’ll take you.”
They spoke almost in unison.
“Song Jie, this is the award certificate for the speech contest.” After frowning slightly and glancing at Ku Shen-nan, Lin Tse-sen handed me the certificate in his hand. “I’m afraid someone will bother you later. I’ll take you back.”
I took the certificate, and before I could say the word “no,” I heard Ku Shen-nan sneer.
He walked a few steps to my side and put his arm around my shoulder.
“You’d better protect yourself first.”
Then he raised his eyebrows at me in a ruffian manner and said, “Go, my uncle will protect you.” I was
a little irritable and he made me laugh at once.
I put my elbow on his stomach, broke away from him and walked home, waving to him with my back to him.
“No, I’m not a delicate queen. I have the means and the strength.”
Behind him came the laughter of Gu Shennan. I
don’t know if I was infected by his laughter, but I unconsciously raised the corners of my mouth. The disgust and irritability that
had just been brought about by Lin Zesen’s approach also disappeared. There’s nothing wrong with
a little ruffian. I
used to be led astray by Lin Zesen. When I
woke up, there was a big fire in my house.
I was so frightened that I got out of bed and tried to run, only to find that even the door was blocked by fire.
Finally, he had to hide on the balcony with a wet towel.
To my surprise, I received a message as soon as I hung up the 119 phone.
It’s a picture of Lin Zesen with a disheveled woman.
I looked at the photos in my mobile phone, the blood of my whole body seemed to be frozen, and the fear seemed to be splashed away by a basin of ice water for a moment.
“Ze Sen, the house is on fire.” I sent a message to Lin Zesen who was not supposed to go to work today. I never called him
because he said he didn’t like me to call him when he was working.
Even now, I still send a message habitually.
After a while, I received a reply: “You put out the fire first, I’m in a meeting.”
Hold a meeting?
I looked at the picture in my phone and laughed angrily. The big
fire rushed towards me, and I faintly heard the sound of the fire engine’s whistle.
Suddenly someone opened the door from the outside.
A strong beam of light came in.
“Sung Chieh, if you don’t get up, you’ll be late!”
As soon as I opened my eyes, I saw my mother standing beside the bed, looking helpless to me. Before the emotion in the
dream had dissipated, I sat up and hugged her tightly.
“Mom, I had a nightmare.” It was a terrible, terrible dream.
My mother patted me on the back and said, “If you sleep late, you will have nightmares. Who told you to sleep late?”
……
“Mom, I’m not a child anymore.”
“Oh, it’s not easy to cheat.”
I burst out laughing.
Fortunately, the scene was just a dream.
Being disturbed by my mother, I felt much better. I got up, washed, ate and went out to school. I
just didn’t expect to see Gu Shennan as soon as I left the gate of the community.
“Ku Shen-nan?”
Ku Shen-nan spat out the bubble gum in his mouth and waved his hand at me: “What a coincidence?”? You live in this neighborhood?
I nodded and walked on. “Do you live in this neighborhood, too?”
He shook his head and followed me slowly.
“I live in the front, and I want to pass through here.”
Lin Zesen is sick. I’m not kidding.
“Song Jie, do you know how to solve this problem?” During a break, Lin Zesen suddenly came to my seat. It
scared me.
Last night’s dream was still clear in my mind, and I didn’t want to see him again. I didn’t stop
working on the problem for a moment. “No,” I said in a faint voice.
“How do you know you won’t?” He’s really never been like this
before.
I stopped writing and took a helpless look at the title in his hand.
Oh.
It’s the problem I just finished.
“No.” I turned a page of the exercise book with this problem in my hand very calmly. After
Lin Zesen left, I saw Gu Shennan lying on the table with his eyes open. The sunshine
outside the window fell down and just fell on his smiling eyebrows and eyes.
He and Lin Zesen are not only two completely different personalities, but also two completely different good-looking.
Vibrant.
“What are you laughing at?” I asked him.
He winked. “I just think you’re playing hard to get.”
“It hasn’t even been a year, and he’s running right up to you.”
I grabbed the exercise book in my hand and hit him on the head.
“If you say anything again, I’ll tear your mouth off.” I raised my fist viciously and shook it at him.
In return, he laughed unscrupulously.
His laughter was so loud that the whole class looked at us. In a hurry,
I rushed to cover his mouth.
When he stopped laughing, I realized it was wrong and let him go.
He suddenly leaned over and stared into my eyes.
Just as I was about to punch him in the face, he laughed and fell back on the table.
“Well, I didn’t lie this time.”
“I really don’t seem to like him anymore.” I
don’t like it anymore.
Ten years of love in the moment of rebirth is only the heart of inertia.
And that little heart has long disappeared in one nightmare after another.
Now I just want to stay away from him, and stay away from him. It’s
better to wait for the college entrance examination and never meet again.
“You want to go to S City?” Ku Shen-nan walked beside me, somewhat surprised by my answer: “Why?”
Because I like it. In my
last life, in order to follow Lin Zesen to B city, I didn’t fill in a volunteer of S city.
“Because I like it.” I looked down at the shadows under the street lamp. “I heard there was freedom.”
Gu Shennan is very tall, but the street lamp shrinks his shadow into a ball.
It’s a little funny.
“Well, S city is good.” He kicked the stone beside his feet, and there seemed to be something happy in his voice that I couldn’t hear.
When I got to the gate of my neighborhood, I said goodbye to him and asked him, “Do you really live in the front?”
He was slightly stunned. “Yes,” he
said, “would you like to go and have fun?”
“Don’t.” I grabbed my schoolbag and hurried inside.
Later, I thought carefully that the reason why I didn’t meet him on the road in my last life was probably because I was running with Lin Zesen at that time.
I don’t care about others.
Not to mention Gu Shennan, who was most disliked by Lin Zesen. Not long after the days of going to and from school
with Gu Shennan, the semester was over. In the new semester of
senior three, it’s time to change seats again.
“Change places with Lin Tse-sen and Ku Shen-nan.” The teacher stood on the platform and said this lightly. I was stunned when I was
still doing exercises.
Ku Shen-nan immediately raised his hand and said, “I won’t change.”
He was used to fooling around and was often out of class, so the teachers didn’t like him very much.
The teacher frowned and asked with displeasure, “Why not?”
“I like to bask in the sun.” Gu Shennan said and opened the window. The sunshine
outside is just right. It
fell on him and made his whole body look particularly eye-catching. Lin Zesen, who was
sitting on the other side, also looked at me from afar, as if he was bound to win the position of Gu Shennan.
I also raised my hand and said, “Teacher, the monitor has good grades, and there are many students who ask him questions during the break. I’m afraid that when the time comes, it will affect other students’ questions, and also affect my study with the monitor.”
The implication is that Lin Zesen is sitting alone now, and beauty alone is the best choice.
The teacher thought about it and thought I had a point.
But in the end, he changed a seat between Gu Shennan and the girl in his back seat.
Gu Shennan was very satisfied with the result. He put his desk on his head and winked at me.
“As long as you don’t sit with Lin Tse-sen, it doesn’t matter who you sit with.” The study of
senior three is very intense.
Even if it’s my second experience, I still feel overwhelmed occasionally.
Gu Shennan’s training is getting more and more intensive, and he has less and less time to go to the classroom.
But there is more and more discussion about him. The girls who
originally looked down on Gu Shennan began to defect one after another because he won the championship round after round.
“Apart from his poor study and bad temper, he has no shortcomings.” This is the conclusion given by my new deskmate Bai Keer when he discussed his gossip with me.
I didn’t stop working on the problem, but I added, “He has a good temper.”
Bai Keer didn’t expect me to respond to the gossip, so she stopped for a moment and came over.
“I also heard that you liked him. Is that true?” How long ago was
this rumor. The pen in
my hand stopped and looked at her with some helplessness: “Fake, how can I like him? Don’t listen to their nonsense.” As soon as
the voice fell, a bottle of water was placed on the corner of my desk.
I looked back and saw Gu Shennan with a little sweat on his forehead.
A little awkward.
“That..” After we looked at each other for a few seconds, I looked down at the water at the corner of the table. “How much is the water?”? I’ll give it to you.
Gu Shennan seems to be angry.
He didn’t charge me for the water, and he didn’t talk to me.
After he slept on his desk for a class, Lin Zesen came.
Lin Zesen put a form on my desk and said to me softly, “The teacher wants you to take part in this competition and get a place for you to be recommended.” It is not true that you are not excited
when you hear the word “recommended”.
I took the form without asking anything, but I didn’t expect to participate in the competition with Lin Zesen.
“Don’t you come when you know I’m coming?” In the training class, Lin Zesen sat beside me and asked me.
I glanced up at him.
Now I can look at him calmly.
“How so?” I moved out politely. “The walk is still very important.” More important
than you.
I don’t know whether my action is too obvious or this sentence is too cold. The smile at the corners of
Lin Zesen’s mouth stiffened for a moment.
I ignored him and began to prepare for the class.
When I finished the class, I looked up and saw Gu Shennan standing outside the classroom.
He was not what he used to be, and many girls accosted him.
“Do you like that kind of person?” Seeing me looking at Gu Shennan outside the classroom, Lin Zesen, who was sitting next to me, also looked over.
The voice is faint.
I looked back at him and answered firmly, “I just don’t like people like you.”
“What are you doing here?” I asked Gu Shennan who was walking beside me.
“You’re not passing by again.”
He raised his hand and patted me on the head. “Next door is the gym, don’t you know?”
I looked back subconsciously, and sure enough, it was a gym.
“Do you train every day at this time?” I came to the training class after school, and it was very late.
“Do you think the championship is so easy to win?”
He winked at me ruffianly.
Such a fool said this sentence, but let people feel that he took it very easily.
I smiled and nodded, “Well, I don’t know if I have the honor to invite the champion to finish eating the wonton.”
Forgive me the sins of the day.
“Wonton?”
I raised my chin to a roadside stall.
Ku Shen-nan also glanced at the wonton stall and curled his eyebrows. “That’s the chance for you to win.”
But before the wonton was served, a woman came.
The woman put on delicate makeup, wore a long red dress, and stood opposite Gu Shennan in high heels.
“Shen Nan?” Her voice was soft and soft.
Gu Shennan looked up at her, and the smile at the corners of his mouth disappeared at once.
The woman looked familiar, but I couldn’t remember who she was for a long time.
I looked at the bowl of wonton in front of me, which was originally Gu Shennan, and sighed.
“It seems I’m still guilty. I can’t even get a bowl of wonton out.” I haven’t seen him for several days
since Gu Shennan left with that woman that night.
The next time I saw him was at the gate of my neighborhood.
He stood there alone, in sharp contrast to his usual vigour.
“Ku Shen-nan?” I called him.
He looked up at me, and some light came out of his indifferent eyes.
“I thought you had been abducted and sold. I haven’t seen anyone for so long.” I tried to ease his melancholy with jokes.
Looks like it worked.
He curled the corners of his mouth slightly and came up and patted me on the head.
“Can you be nice to me?”
Gu Shennan is injured.
I pointed to a small piece of gauze sticking out of his leg. “What’s going on here?”
He looked down at his leg, too, and pulled at his trouser leg. He gasped,
probably because he had pulled on the wound, but he still insisted, “It’s all right.”
“I haven’t seen you for a few days. How come it’s like this?” I lifted his trouser leg and frowned at the gauze wrapped around his leg.
He grabbed my hand and chuckled.
I looked up at him doubtfully, but I didn’t expect him to lower his head.
His face was very close to mine.
Very close.
Close enough for his breath to make my whole face burn.
“So concerned about me?” He raised his ruffian eyebrows, and there was a loud smile on the corners of his mouth. “You don’t like me, do you?”
I was startled.
“Me, me, me!” I broke away from his hand and quickly got up from the chair. “What are you talking about?”
“Song Jie.” He looked up at me, and his eyes did not look as if he had just waited for me at the gate of the community, as if he had put all the stars in the sky, shining.
“I told you, eyes don’t lie.”
I couldn’t care much for a moment, so I turned my back subconsciously.
“Ku Shen-nan, if you dare to talk nonsense, I’ll tear your mouth off!” I put down this sentence ferociously and ran home without daring to look back.
Gu Shennan opened his mouth without scruple. I’m used to
talking nonsense. I
should have gotten used to it. I shouldn’t have reacted as much as I did today.
Thinking of this, I turned over in bed and decided not to think about it any more.
Yes.
I can’t sleep.
It’s all Gu Shennan’s fault. He talks nonsense all day long.
I looked at Gu Shennan waiting at the gate of the community with a pair of black eyes.
He seemed to be in a good mood and waved to me.
“Good morning.”
What a fart.
I ignored him and walked on.
Because his leg was injured, he could not go to training for the next period of time, so he stayed in the classroom.
Now the girls in the class are divided into two teams.
One team is on Lin Zesen’s side, and the other team is on Gu Shennan’s side. Just as
I raised my hand to rub my temples, I heard Ku Shen-nan’s impatient voice: “I’m going to sleep. Don’t make any noise.”
But the way to deal with it is better than Lin Zesen.
I pursed my lips.
A little happy. The result of the
competition came down quickly. As always,
Lin Zesen got the first place in the exam and I got the second place.
The teacher was very happy and said he wanted to invite us to dinner.
I wanted to say no, but I pinched the trophy in my hand and agreed.
“Song Jie.” As soon as I walked into the restaurant, Lin Zesen waved to me.
I sighed and walked slowly inside.
“Hasn’t the teacher come yet?” I sat down on the opposite side of Linzesen.
He kindly poured me a glass of water. “Maybe I was delayed.”
I nodded my head.
Then I slowly poured the water he poured into my cup into the bowl, rinsed the bowl, and rinsed the chopsticks.
Can you pour it out for me? Thank you. I politely stopped the waiter and handed over the bowl of water.
Lin Zesen poured me water, and I was afraid of bad luck. He didn’t get angry when he
saw me doing this, and he washed the bowls and chopsticks with a calm face.
You deserve to be the first. Don’t embarrass yourself
at any time.
“If we are successful this time, we will be able to continue in the same school in the future.” Lin Zesen looked up at me as he rinsed the bowl.
I was stunned.
In my last life, I would have been so happy that I woke up laughing in my dreams.
Unfortunately, in the end, I could only go to a school not too far away from him.
“Can I only be recommended to one university?” I smiled at him and said, “Then I want to take the college entrance examination.”
The words might have been enough to kill him, and his face froze.
I pretended not to understand the embarrassment on his face and looked down at the time on my watch.
“It’s been so long. If the teacher doesn’t come, I’ll leave first.”
Then I picked up my schoolbag and left. A few steps
out of the hotel, Lin Zesen grabbed me.
“I don’t understand.” He was annoyed. “What do you hate about me?”
I looked back at him. He didn’t seem to be so high under the
street lamp, pulling me like I had pulled him countless times.
“Lin Tse-sen.” I broke his hand and asked him, “You don’t like me, do you?”
I said Lin Zesen was sick.
In my last life, I followed him every day, wishing I could pick the stars in the sky for him, but he didn’t want to look at me twice.
Now I don’t even want to look at him, and he actually likes me.
“It’s really sick.” Gu Shennan, the wounded, was sitting beside me in the physical education class. I turned my
head to look at him, and he pointed to Lin Tse-sen, who was running on the playground, and said, “Look at him. He’s weak. He must have a weak kidney.”
“Poof!” All the water I just drank spurted out.
“Why do you hate him so much?” I screwed on the bottle cap and asked Gu Shennan.
It seems that from the beginning, he was very hostile to Lin Zesen.
I remember that the two of them didn’t have much in common in the last life.
Ku Shen-nan took one look at me and stood up from the steps. He patted the dust on his hands and walked in the other direction: “Because he deserves to be hated.”
Saying it is the same as not saying. Before the
PE class was over, Bai Keer ran to me and sat down.
Do you know? Something big has happened. As soon as she sat down, she started gossiping with me.
Since she sat next to me, I know all about the gossip in the class.
“What big deal?”
“Chu Tien-huai’s mother went to the principal’s office.”
I frowned. “Who is Chu Tianhuai?”
Sounds familiar. Don’t
you remember? It was the senior who was two grades ahead of us. He was very rich, very rich, and he was picked up by a limousine every day.
I seem to have an impression. In
my memory, there seems to be such a person in high school, and I only saw him once in the first year of high school.
“Isn’t it more than a year after graduation? What the hell is he doing at school?”
Bai Keer looked around and leaned close to my ear and said, “I was just passing by the principal’s office when I heard them saying that Ku Shen-nan is the illegitimate son of Chu Tien-huai’s father, and that Chu Tien-huai’s mother is now making trouble with the principal, asking the principal to expel Ku Shen-nan.”
How did this happen! My eyes widened
and I looked at Bai Keer. “Did you mishear me?”
“It’s absolutely true.”
I suddenly thought of the coquettish woman with Gu Shennan that day.
Thinking of Gu Shennan’s good swimming talent, I never heard anyone say that he had won any prize in the swimming competition. What happened behind Gu Shennan in
the last life? The fact that
Gu Shennan was an illegitimate child soon spread. When I
heard the discussion in the class, I looked at Bai Keer for the first time.
She shook her head. “I only talked to you.”
I looked at Gu Shennan’s position with some concern.
Empty.
He should have heard these ugly rumors.
“Song Jie, go and help me with my things.” Just as I was about to look for Gu Shennan, the chemistry teacher at the door stopped me.
The chemistry lab was in another building, and I walked in just in time to ring the bell. I
thought that I could only find Gu Shennan after this class, while looking for the teaching utensils that the chemistry teacher wanted.
Then there was a sudden “snap” behind him.
When I turned around, I found a small flame coming out not far away.
Since the fire, I can no longer face the fire, even the gas stove at home, I will be far away.
Now, when I saw the flames burning more and more, my legs were weak and I collapsed on the ground.
“Come, come!”
“Help!”
I was shaking and crying for help.
Watching the fire burning bigger and bigger, just when I thought I would die in the fire again, suddenly a man rushed in.
“Song Jie.”
It’s Gu Shennan.
Save.. Help me.. I cried out of breath.
Gu Shennan ran to me, put his wet coat on me, and covered my eyes tightly with one hand. The fire
all over the sky was replaced by endless darkness in an instant.
“It’s all right, it’s all right.” Ku Shen-nan’s voice was low and hoarse, as if he were very frightened. “I’m here, I’m here, I’ll take you out.”
It’s like grasping at straws in the dark.
I held him tight. There
seemed to be a lot of people coming, and it was very noisy around.
I was hugged by Ku Shen-nan all the way out. I don’t know how long it took me to hear Lin Tse-sen ask breathlessly, “Song Jie, how are you?” When I heard
his voice, I felt like I was still in the fire.
A wave of dizziness came over me. Before
I fainted, I heard Gu Shennan’s cold voice.
“You stay away from her.”
It is said that being burned alive by fire is the most painful.
I squatted in the corner of the balcony, looking at the flames coming towards me, with endless fear in my heart.
Help me.. Help me..
After I don’t know how many times I shouted, suddenly a man rushed in from the fire.
Seventeen-year-old Gu Shennan.
He wrapped his soaked coat tightly around me.
“Don’t be afraid, Song Jie.” He hugged me and coaxed me softly, “I’m here, I’m here.”
The fire all over the sky seemed to recede slowly.
I shivered from the cold of my coat.
“Dr. Yeh, is she all right?” In a daze, I heard Gu Shennan’s voice.
“It’s no big deal. It’s just a shock. It’s all right when you wake up.” The doctor’s voice was a little distant. “You’d better worry about yourself first. The headmaster is under pressure now.” I didn’t open my eyes
until the doctor was far away.
Gu Shennan was standing in front of my bed, his clothes had been burned, and his face was white and black.
“Are you awake?” When he saw me open my eyes, his twisted eyebrows opened.
I nodded, glanced at the door, and asked him, “Is the headmaster going to expel you?”
He froze for a moment and lowered his eyes slightly.
“You heard about that?” He pulled the corners of his mouth, and there was some self-mockery in his tone.
“Was that your mother the other day?”
“Mmm.”
That’s exactly what I guessed.
It’s just that that woman always looks familiar to me, as if I’ve seen her somewhere before.
“Song Jie.” He looked up at me suddenly.
“Hmm?”
“I am a bastard.”
I was stunned. I didn’t expect him to be so straightforward.
“So what?” I looked at him and said, “It’s not your fault. Whether it’s your mother’s fault or your father’s fault, it’s not your fault.”
“Let grown-ups solve grown-ups’ problems, so you can grow up well and work hard to become a grown-ups who can’t make mistakes.”
I don’t know if the lights in the infirmary are too bright, but Gu Shennan’s eyes are also bright.
He raised his hand and rubbed my head.
“Good.” The fire in the
laboratory, together with Gu Shennan’s life experience, became a hot spot in the school.
What pushed this hot spot to a climax was that Gu Shennan’s coquettish mother came to school.
Not knowing what she said to the headmaster, the headmaster led her into the office and sent her out with a smile. She did not leave the school after she came out
of the principal’s office, but stood outside our classroom for a long time.
I looked at the empty position behind me and sighed.
She probably can’t wait for Gu Shennan today.
What I didn’t expect was that she would stop me on the way to school.
“Song Jie.” She waved to me with a smile.
I was stunned for a moment and walked towards her.
“Auntie.”
She curled her eyes at me.
At this point, Gu Shennan is very similar to her.
“All grown up.” I didn’t expect
this beginning.
“You were only a little older then.” She made a gesture with her hand in the air. “It’s like I’m only six years old, and suddenly I’m a big girl.”
She said a lot to herself.
I tried to recall my six years old according to her words.
It seemed to be a distant memory, and I caught a clue in my mind.
“Aunt Gu?” I gave a tentative cry.
She smiled and patted me on the head and acquiesced. When I was
six years old, a mother and son moved in next door for less than half a year. I
have long been forgotten in the long river of memory.
Unexpectedly, this mother and son turned out to be Gu Shennan and his mother.
“You tell Shen Nan that he doesn’t have to worry about the school. I’ve already solved it.” That’s probably what she came to me for.
I nodded. “Why didn’t Auntie tell him herself?”
She was stunned.
“Didn’t Shen Nan tell you?” She touched her stomach. “I’m married, and Shen Nan hasn’t wanted to talk to me for years.” The identity of
a bastard.
A remarried pregnant mother. Why can
Gu Shennan still be so vigorous and look like he is growing well on the surface?
“Ku Shen-nan.” I found Gu Shennan whom I hadn’t seen for a few days
in the park not far from my home.
He crouched alone in the bridge hole with an unburned cigarette in his hand. The
dim street lamp fell on him, making him look very painful at this time.
Maybe this is what he looks like.
He looked up at me and unconsciously threw aside the cigarette in his hand.
I looked at the cigarette that had fallen to the ground for a while before it went out. I went over and slapped him on the head. “Have you been smoking?”
He shook his head.
Then he spit out the bubble gum in his mouth and showed it to me.
“What are you doing here?” He moved aside to make room for me.
I crouched down beside him and said, “Is this the only place for you to come?”
He laughed.
His smile is really beautiful, like a meteor in the night sky.
“Ku Shen-nan, why don’t you come to school?”
He picked up a stone and threw it into the river. “There are only a few days left anyway.”
“Your mother came to school today.”
His stone-throwing hand froze in the air.
“She went to the principal and won’t expel you.”
This time the stone thrown into the river made a big splash.
Ku Shen-nan stood up from the ground and said, “We don’t need her to pretend.”
“She got married and had someone else’s child.” He looked down at me, his eyes darkened. “She is free from that shameful identity. That child is born fair and square. He will be loved and blessed by all.”
“Song Jie, what about me?”
His voice was low and hoarse, like a needle in my heart.
I stood up and met his gaze. “You have me.”
“In my place, you are also fair and worthy of all people’s love and blessings.”
“Ku Shen-nan, come back to school with me.” It should have been at this time in
his last life that Gu Shennan left school.
And then I never heard from him again.
But this time, Gu Shennan came back. No one in the
school was interested in discussing Gu Shennan’s life experience, and everyone was in the most tense state of study.
A few months passed in a flash. On the day of the end of the
college entrance examination, the students who had been stretched into a thread were like wild horses in the school carnival.
I stood quietly in the corridor, more relaxed than ever.
Then Lin Zesen came to me.
He had already been recommended, but he still took the college entrance examination.
“Song Jie.” He came to me and looked at the clouds with me. “Where do you want to go to college?” I once asked him
this question.
I looked at him sideways.
Since I didn’t like him, I found that he was just so so.
Love is really a ridiculous filter.
“I’ll go to college in the city I like.” I smiled and replied, “But it’s definitely not a university in B city.”
He was stunned.
“Song Jie.” He looked down at me and said, “I gave up the walk, too.” I really didn’t think of
that.
In this life, he seems to be a completely different person.
“If you want to go to S City, I will go to S City with you.” When he said this, he was very serious. “I like you. Be my girlfriend.”
I frowned and felt a little sick.
The tables are turned, but I didn’t expect it to turn to him now.
I’m not so happy.
At this time, Gu Shennan, who was standing downstairs, waved to me.
I opened my brows and waved to him with a smile.
When I was about to turn around and go downstairs, I said to Lin Tse-sen, “With your grades, you can go to B city even if you give up the walk.”
“Lin Zesen, I don’t like you.” I said to him seriously, word by word, “I didn’t like it before, I don’t like it now, and I won’t like it in the future.”. I will never like you. I
don’t like the one who gave up himself for you.
“What’s good about Ku Shen-nan?” He followed closely behind me, not giving up. “He smoked, drank, fought, and his grades were a mess.”
“And a shady bastard.” As soon as
his voice fell, I turned around and gave him a slap.
Originally, I thought his derailment was his fault ten years later, and I shouldn’t blame him now, so I always wanted to stay away from him.
What I didn’t expect was that he was such a person.
I may never have known him.
“He is better than you everywhere.” I laughed at his anger. “Lin Zesen, what do you really like about me?”
“If I remember correctly, I didn’t mess with you from the very beginning when you transferred to another school.”
“Look behind you.” I looked at the group of girls behind him. “There are so many girls around you. If you don’t like them, you have to like me.”
“Are you a bitch?”
“Still, you are used to being superior, and you like to conquer women like me who are not moved by you.” I looked at him coldly, “If I were like the girl behind you, would you still like me?”
Unable.
He probably never thought a girl would say such a thing to him. He was
frozen in place and did not move.
At this time, a girl could not bear to stand out from behind him. Without waiting for the girl to say anything, Gu Shennan grabbed my hand from behind me and ran downstairs. Gu Shennan pulled me to run for a long time
that day. The
wind blew in front of me and raised my hair.
Ku Shen-nan laughed: “Look, the wind is saying, you’re free.”
I’m free. On the day of the
graduation party, Lin Zesen didn’t come. The girls who
like Lin Zesen look at me and want to eat me.
But Gu Shennan sat beside me, and none of them dared to come up. As I
ate the fruit bowl in the KTV, I looked at Shen Nan with a smile: “You look like my bodyguard now.”
“I’d love to.” He raised his eyebrows and laughed ruffianly. Everyone drank wine
on this day.
Many students were drunk for the first time and passed out. After
I sent the last female classmate who swore at me home, I turned to look at Gu Shennan behind me.
His ears are a little pink, too. I
drank a lot.
We walked back together, side by side, and this time the street lamp stretched our figures very long.
Obviously we are still separated by a punch, but the shadow seems to be holding together.
“Song Jie.” Gu Shennan suddenly stopped.
I looked at the shadow and stopped.
“I like you.” He turned and looked at me.
His eyes seemed to be always like this, shining, trying to suck people in.
I lowered my head slightly, raised my hand and pinned my hair behind my ear. “I know.” I’ve known for
a long time.
When he dragged me to watch him play one game after another.
When he jumped down from the top of the wall to stop the gang.
“My background is not honorable. I don’t study well, and I can fight.” He repeated one by one what Lin Zesen had said that day, “But I don’t smoke.”
I raised my hand and covered his mouth.
His lips were cold and moved in my palm. It
chy.
The palms itch.
My heart itches.
“Your background is not your fault.” I patiently answered one by one, “Not everyone has to study very well. You swim very well and get the first place every time.”. You can fight, but you’ve never hit anyone, and you can protect me.
“How nice you are.”
I blinked and tilted my head to look at him. “I like you too.”
He was stunned.
His eyes lit up again, as if he had scattered all the stars in the sky.
“Really?”
“Really.”
And then we didn’t speak again. He walked
all the way back to the gate of the community with a red face. At the gate of the
neighborhood, when I was about to say goodbye, Ku Shen-nan suddenly asked me, “Do you want to taste bubble gum?”
I was stunned for a moment.
“Very sweet.” He made a promise.
I nodded and held out my hand.
He threw a bubble gum into his mouth and blew out a bubble.
When I didn’t know what he was going to do, he bent slightly and touched the bubble on my lips.
My mind went blank, and my tongue licked my lips subconsciously.
With a bang, the bubble burst, and I came to my senses.
“Is it sweet?” Gu Shennan asked me with a smile.
At that moment, the blood rushed directly to the forehead, and the whole face burned up.
I stamped my foot and turned to run.
“Not sweet at all!”
I lied. Gu Shennan and
I both went to S city.
He was exceptionally admitted to our school because of his excellent swimming performance.
In the city of S, the rumors of the past are gone.
Gu Shennan was hung on the wall of confession as soon as he entered school.
“Oh, isn’t that Ku Ta-chiao?” I sat in the coffee shop and looked at the man who had just come to date me after training.
Gu Shennan sat next to me with a smile.
“Oh, what is this? There’s only Miss Sung’s boyfriend here.”
I laughed and thumped his chest muscle and touched it.
It’s really getting stronger and stronger.
Every time at this time, I will feel that all this seems to be a dream.
This is obviously my second time to go to college, but it seems that this is what college should be like.
Endless competitions, endless prizes, and a boyfriend who is very good to me. Instead of waiting downstairs in the boys’ dormitory
every day.
Time goes by so beautifully and warmly.
A blink of an eye.
Ten years have passed. It’s September 8th of the twenty-seven-year-old year
again.
I looked at the calendar on the wall for a long time.
“It’s been ten years.”
Ku Shen-nan hugged me from behind and looked at the calendar on the wall. “Yes, ten years ago I became your deskmate.”
Yes. Smiling,
I turned around and hugged him. “Get ready to go out. It’s too late.”
Today is his last game before he retires.
It’s important.
Originally, he didn’t want to attend and wanted to stay at home with me.
I insisted on his participation, and I didn’t want him to have any regrets in this matter.
I watched him go out and then sat on the sofa again.
Do not know how long, the high school group suddenly chatted, saying that Lin Zesen is going to get married.
Then someone sent a picture.
It’s a picture of Lin Zesen and a woman.
Unlike the photo I received ten years ago, the woman was well-dressed and had five points of resemblance between her eyebrows and eyes.
Bai Keer said to me privately, “Lin Tse-sen really has deep feelings for you.”
“No, I can’t afford it.” I laughed back. The
high school group was still in full swing, and I only had pictures of Lin Zesen and the woman on my screen.
Everything is different.
And it seems to be slowly overlapping. I fell asleep again in
a blur. The nightmare that I haven’t had for
a long time strikes again.
I still shrank helplessly on the balcony, but this time I clicked on Gu Shennan’s dialog box. I
just wanted to type and suddenly stopped.
I quit the chat interface and dialed Gu Shennan’s phone. Ku Shen-nan, who
was originally taking part in the competition, answered the phone. He was anxious and gentle on the other end of the phone: “Don’t be afraid, I’m here.”
All the fear dissipated in an instant.
I woke up in a burst of mobile phone ringing.
Then I heard Ku Shen-nan’s voice: “Whatever. I’m going to retire anyway. Just say I don’t have the spirit of sportsmanship.”
I struggled to wake up and saw Gu Shennan standing in front of the French window.
An unprecedented sense of security came to my mind.
My nose was sour and tears fell down.
“Why are you back?” I asked Gu Shennan in a hoarse voice.
He took the phone and looked back at me. I couldn’t see the expression on his face against the light.
Only that he is as warm as the sun.
He asked me with a smile.
“The pot was still stewing, and I fell asleep. What would you do without me?” When I
saw the news of the fire, I had just finished the meeting.
“General Manager Gu, you have a meeting this afternoon..” I loosened my tie and ran outside, with my assistant chasing after me.
“Cancel, cancel all!” I don’t know how many red lights I ran
all the way to my destination.
Downstairs has been surrounded by people, but not Lin Zesen. There was a fire in
his house. And
he didn’t come back.
“Over there!” Someone pointed to a balcony in a tall building and said, “It’s the hostess of that house!”
Song Jie.
I rushed in despite the obstruction of the police. The elevator is out of service
because of the fire.
I climbed up from floor to floor, but my heart became cold little by little.
The fire is really big.
Finally, I fell outside the door.
If I do it again, I will never shrink back and give her to someone else.
I don’t know if God has relented. I woke up
again and went back to ten years ago.
“Then Ku Shen-nan should change his seat and sit next to Sung Chieh.” I don’t know how happy I was when the teacher said this.
I began to approach Song Jie on purpose. I spread the rumor that
she liked me. It doesn’t matter
if she was trying to use me to play hard to get with Lin Zesen in the first place.
As long as she stays with me, I can always protect her.
I stopped following her quietly.
I get up very early every morning, go around her neighborhood and wait for her, go to school with her, and then leave school together.
Every time Linzesen wanted to get close to him, I would show up on time.
I would specifically pass by wherever she appeared. What
if she says she doesn’t like me? Sooner or later, she’ll like me.
Everything is developing in a good place.
Until that day, my mother, whom I hadn’t seen for many years, appeared.
I suddenly remembered the terrible past.
I suddenly realized that I could not communicate with outsiders.
No matter how I change, the things that should come will come.
The man named Chu Tianhuai still found me, and the goons he invited were not something I could deal with.
“You’re just a bastard.” He looked up at me and said, “Keep your mother away from my house. You’ll never get into my house.” I can’t refute a word
he said. I can’t breathe under the weight of
this identity.
And Song Jie is even more dazzling than her last life, so dazzling that I often ask myself if I deserve it?
“Do you think you deserve her?” After the college entrance examination, Lin Zesen found me and said the same thing to me.
He knows I like Song Jie.
From a long time ago, he knew.
This time I asked him, “Do you think you deserve it?” Is it
worthy of the fervent love of Song Jie in the last life? When I
left, I looked back at him, and he was holding the coffee cup very hard.
“You had a chance to have her.” “But you don’t cherish it,” I said in a faint voice. If
you don’t cherish it, don’t blame me for robbing it.
Because of Song Jie, I changed my way in this life. I
did not enter the Chu family because I had no way out, and I climbed into the national team step by step.
Soon came the day of my retirement.
The entertainment industry has thrown an olive branch to me, and when I retire, I will be signed into the entertainment company.
As long as I can bring Song Jie a good life, I will do anything.
It’s just that she insisted that I go to the competition on September 8th.
“I like the way you look on the field.” I will never refuse
her request.
“Then you go to my game.”
“Come on, I’ve got work to do.” I don’t trust
her staying at home. I called her twice before the
game, but no one answered.
Infinite fear came to me, and I changed my clothes and went home in spite of the obstruction. When I
opened the door, I saw her sleeping soundly on the sofa and cooking my favorite soup in the kitchen. The bubbling sound of
“gurgling” filled the room.
I went into the kitchen and turned off the fire.
As the sound of bubbling disappeared, my heart calmed down.
I squatted beside the sofa and looked at Song Jie’s quiet face. I had never felt so lucky at this moment.
It was just a phone call that woke her up.
The mobile phone should be muted.
“It’s all right. It’s good to have a bit of scandal now. I’ve got traffic before I get into the entertainment industry.” Smiling, I hugged her tightly in my arms and kissed her on her frowning brows. “I’m rushing back to drink your soup, aren’t I?”
She is easy to coax. It will be all right
after coaxing for a while. There is still a lively chat in the
high school group.
Suddenly, someone sent a blurred picture.
Song Jie enlarged the photo again and again. She pointed to the person behind her in the photo and asked me, “Hey, is this you?”
It seems to be an activity in the first year of high school.
“Yes.” I held her tight.
“I was always behind you, but you never looked back, so I had to run to your side.”
She suddenly looked up and asked me, “Tell me the truth, when did you begin to like me?”
Uh.
Long, long ago.
I can’t remember. When I was
six years old, she took me by the hand at the door and said, “It’s the adults’ business to quarrel with each other. We’re children. Children just have to grow up well and work hard to be adults who don’t make mistakes.”
Maybe a seed was planted at that time. The
seeds germinated slowly.
And grow up slowly.
You can blossom.
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Red Dust Does Not Lose Me: Crazy Criticizing Beauty’s Love and Redemption
A Xiaomao
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